#truly the only thing that is keeping me going at the moment is ig stories like these

[caramellashton]

Silly man 🤍

[childrenofcain-if]

Hi! I want to start by warning that this will probably be a long rant about how much i love your IFs. But first, I hope you feel better soon!

The first IF of yours i played was the pjo one, which sent me down a rabbit hole of going through the rest of them (still haven't played tcs but i will soon 🤞🏻). It was just BAFFLING how people could be so purposefully ignorant about the concept of fanfiction and accused you over and over of plagiarism like, please go outside and touch grass, clearly the internet has stopped your brain from developing critical thinking.

Anyways, the adaptation was so well done and faithful while also exuding a newness to it that i am very excited to see unravel. I understand at the moment it has been paused (and I don't know if you've addressed why it's no longer up) and i hope with time you can feel comfortable with it again. None of the shit you've gotten was deserved or even understandable but alas, it still happened. As a content creator myself, i truly truly sympathize with you. I hope these words offer some comfort, however small.

Same goes for WLB, but the awe at how descriptive and raw your writing is really peaked through in something of your own creation. I find myself revisiting it and experiencing the exhilaration from my first reading all over again. I can't wait to watch everyone around my mc descend into eldritch madness as they become more and more unhinged. Consequences of my own actions? Never heard of them, i want my mc to go apeshit!

Now, gods where do i start... TBOTYG is *chef's kiss* flawless, i never thought i could become so obsessed with anything with only one part. I awaited the demo with baited breath, already anticipating all the ways you would surprise and impress (and you did). Every choice, every scenario, the way you build your plot and characters, your descriptions (I don't know if you can tell that I'm a little too hung up on the writing aspect of it) of characters and actions and feelings. The amount of work and effort you put into characterization is so very clear and it feels very freeing to have that amount of control over a character that we're supposed to "relate" to (in the context of the narrative, almost as if living vicariously through them). i think that no matter how much time passes, your IFs will remain a staple in the community and every player who finds your gems will feel blessed and changed after playing.

It's gotten to the point I've created a whole google doc of my MC, and made fake ig accounts with interactions (just for myself, to cope with the anticipation) and this is a level of commitment I've only felt with my own OCs and works. In such a short time, your IFs have carved a deep space for themselves in my life. I find myself replaying and going through their official pages religiously even though I've read every post already.

a question! will every LI's gender be chosen individually? I'm wondering because C and D are suitmates, but is it doable if they're different genders? same for mc and V. I'm thinking yes but also wanted to be sure

Honestly very very sorry for the long rant, I'm sure you have better things to do 😭😭 but i had the uncontrollable urge to express my feelings on your art and it took me an entire day of trying to talk myself out of it (i failed).

(also, here's my mc's profile and dm box. her royal highness maxine's ig profile is private btw. going for c route first. Mitică is the romanian diminutive for the name Dimitru, and opsis is an ancient greek concept i thought would fit V)

i’m speechless (sentimentally), dear reader 😭 i still can’t believe some people would take the time out of their day to think about my silly little worlds and the characters in it, less of all like how i’ve written my works. every single time i hit a writer’s block or have the whole doxxing trauma flare up again, i think of quitting but it’s the urge to write stories and the joy of sharing it with everyone that is still keeping me going.

i can’t explain how much your words mean to me because this is what i write for. to have people relate to or identify with or adore the world and characters i’ve built is such a dream within itself. from the bottom of my heart, i am thankful for every single reader who has always been nothing but supportive from day one. if elias has his apple, i have y’all. and no, it doesn’t mean y’all can have my meagre inheritance but it’s the sentiment that counts.

to answer your question, every single LIs gender will be selectable! blackthorne hall has individual bedrooms per suite so y’all will only be sharing the common areas and kitchenette with V while having your own personal space. it’s more like an apartment than a usual college dorm tbh.

oh and please, rant away! i’d love nothing more than to hear about your MCs and the various headcanons, questions, or theories you might have!

(also please knock C down a few pegs, they desperately need it 😔)

[choburka]

hiii, ig I'll post some of my headcanons on rddk till I finish my current art ( ◜◡')

I can't tell who would've confessed their feeling first because in my imagination, it's something what happened "accidently":

February 13th, Rody invited Deku in Otheon for his birthday, and now they're about to meet in the airport. Back then, when the ginger asked him if he could come, Izuku said he could've invited some of his classmates as well, so the celebration would've been more exciting and interesting, for Rody as well, but he refused saying he's not much of a party-fan. I think he wouldn't really mind the others to come along, but Deku was the person he truly wanted to see. They're having video-calls once a two weeks. They even fell asleep like this once, but that's different from seeing each other like this.

Izuku missed Rody as well. The time they spent together during the mission was something that helped him to keep on going. Rody was a good listener, even though if he wasn't a really good memory keeper. Deku recounted the complete contents of his notes about heroes and, of course, especially about the All Might, while Rody was sharing stories about his former crime job and some annoying clients from his new job as a waiter. Rody could only wonder how Midoriya never gets tired of listening to him.

(if there are some mistakes in the text, the fly in my room is the one to blame)

Izuku didn't wait for a long time. As he left the plain, he saw the red head waving at him with a familiar smirk and Pino on his shoulder, jumping for joy. She was almost never there during their calls. There was only the sounds of her being rather sad or happy, which appeared very rarely. No wonder Rody didn't let her show up: he couldn't let his dearest friend realize what kind of feelings he had for him.

On their road to Soul's home, it seemed like there was no way for them to stop talking. It started with an awkward silence at first, but whenever Deku starts the conversation, you know it won't be boring. Rody complained about not getting his guft "right now and right here" as a joke, and the green-head promised to hand it the second they'll arrive.

A deep, sensitive, and greating speech — something you probably should expect from Izuku. Rody remained still when listening, while Pino was almost tearing, hiding in his hair.

— ...and I'm glad you keep getting better. I couldn't really think of what you would like to get as a gift, but... here, I hope you will like it!

Midoriya got so nervous that he didn't even notice how he gave Rody a small kiss in a cheek while passing him the gift package. They stared at each other, remaining silent for about a minute, which felt like an eternity. Deku was the first one to realize what had just happened, so he started to apologize as much as he could.

— Woah, Hero, no need to worry. Was that your gift? Or have you just fallen in love with such a perfect dude like me? He-he

Was there any doubt that Rody would say something like this in such a moment? Pino sank even deeper into his hair while pulling it a bit. Such a good thing that it was cold outside, so she had to hide there because of this. Otherwise, the situation would've been even more weird. Suddenly, Deku got this serious expression on his face.

— Well, to be honest, the way I feel about you is kinda... different from the others. It's like more warm and... emotional to me, I guess.

But then Midoriya realized what he just said, so he turned a tiny, shy guy apologizing with bo abilityof stopping again:

— No-no-no, I wasn't supposed to say that! You are still my friend, and it's your birthday, and I didn't mean to, I'm really sorry, I-

You could barely see a slight blush on red heads face

— Wait a moment, so you mean you... like me?

— Oh, maybe, but I just... I hope we can stay friends, you don't have to worry about my feelings, it's nothing that important, really!!

— You know, that little kiss you gave me actually seems like the best gift I could get.

Izuku couldn't really understand if he was being sarcastic or not.

— I-I'm sorry, what do you mean by that? Is it like a joke, or do you mean you liked it?

It was unbelievable how Deku could shift from a deep shame to such straightforward questions. He just stared at Rody with no hesitations, waiting for his answer.

— Gosh, I can't say it like this... Just... Don't look at me like if it's a regular talk or something! — a crumb of annoyance in his tone, seems like his unemotional mask is now off.

— My apologies! But... so you mean you feel somehow alike towards me? — his tone got a bit of shaky while asking this.

— Congrats, you got it, hero, — he mumbled, covering his mouth with a hand.

[plusultraetc]

hii three questions in one ask for fun. who r ur favorite charas, what r ur fav arcs and what r ur fav subplots in mha :}} big fan of the todofam sideplot and the endeavor agency arc… bkdk third wheeling family drama. hilarious… 😁😁

genuinely HOW could you do this to me, I am so indecisive and I have so many favorite things </3 Also get ready for the sheer volume of words I am about to throw at you :D

SO, favorite characters. Obv there are So Many Characters in this show, but I still feel like I can count the ones I don't like on one hand and have fingers left over. I definitely have some obvious favorites (Aizawa, Mic, Shinsou) and some only-slightly-less obvious ones (Shigaraki, All Might, Hawks), but there are also some faves I don't yap about as much like Kirishima, Jirou, Miruko, and VLAD KING the LOVE of my LIFE. I queued a post recently about Inasa being an underrated fave, which is still true, but Vlad King is truly the king (haHA) of underrated faves. I love that man a ridiculous amount. THE TL;DR HERE IS THAT I LOVE 98% OF THE CHARACTERS IN THIS SHOW SM IT'S UNREAL.

Arcs & subplots under the keep reading bc my main personality trait (never shutting up) struck again ! The short answer is Sports Festival & Todorokis, Shinsou, Rooftop gang for anyone who doesn't want to stare at that wall of text 😭

Favorite arcs: I have almost as many favorite arcs as I do favorite characters LMAO. You are SO RIGHT about the Endeavor Agency arc; usually people are forced to witness Midoriya & Bakugou's drama but oh, how the tables have turned. I also love Fuyumi and Natsuo and am always delighted to see them, even if they <3 punching me directly in the feelings :(

The USJ arc is, imo, a perfectly executed plot point, so from a writing perspective I really love USJ. It's got action, it's got character spotlights, but most importantly, it ties together the plot/character/worldbuilding threads of the first season so perfectly. Like. It's seamless. It was a writing school level moment. No notes.

The Hideout Raid arc (specifically All Might vs AFO) and Paranormal Liberation War gave me grays at 25. Joint Training is always a delight. But if I had to pick One Arc to Rule Them All it might honestly be Sports Festival?? It features all of my top three favorite characters for more than one (1) scene each and it is just. Such a wild time.

There is so much to unpack about this arc but it has a very special place in my heart bc the first time I ever watched it (so, like, 5+ years ago) my sister and I for some reason decided to treat it like people who care about the Super Bowl treat the Super Bowl. It was our Olympics except the team we were rooting for changed depending on the episode. To this day I remember my sister turning on a DIME from hating Bakugou since Season 1 Episode 1 to CHAMPIONING him with her whole chest bc Monoma pissed her off so much when he stole Bakugou's headbands. And now he's like her second favorite character in the entire series so?? Origin story moment ig.

Last but not least, favorite subplots!!

TODOROKIS. YEAH. Their entire plotline was one of the major factors that motivated me to catch up on the show. I was like what do you mean they're trying to give superhero Fire Lord Ozai a redemption arc? What do you mean that other fire guy was actually a Todoroki? Like... you have to remember that where I left off w this show, Endeavor seemed to exist solely to give Shouto a backstory, and honestly I remembered like nothing about Dabi. If getting back into MHA was a pit of quicksand the Todorokis truly walked me right up to the edge of it. It was like that part of TAZ where Taako is like 'okay that's weird enough that I'm gonna go in there.'

I've said it before and I'll say it again: Shinsou's off-screen character arc is EVERYTHING to me. I could write a thesis on this side character who appears like. Three times in the entire show. Shinsou really said 'I will be a mirror character AND undo the First Great Contradiction of this series AND have tangible, believable character growth, all while being given less screen time than Mineta' and I love that for him.

The rooftop gang... I'm not going to say much on this one for manga reasons but it's definitely a subplot I find very compelling. I'm still ruminating on its execution so far but I Did Cry over the Reveal in season 5. It re-contextualized so much, not just about Aizawa and Mic, but about UA and the lives of hero students. Ack.

TYSM FOR THIS ASK, this week has been three weeks long but I had so much fun writing this exhausted ramble <3

[sukirichi]

iris’ mum defs has something to do with her marriage to kiyoomi and why eyeball is so set on protecting her marriage…. maybe her mums dead? iris is shady asf and i would nawt be surprised if she had some criminal shit going on, so maybe it’s an eye for an eye scenario. rintarou spilling a royal family secret, iris using that secret to gain immunity — in this case marriage, only condition is stay the fuck out of trouble. now iris is in a LOT of trouble and is trying to make amends so as to not cause more issues for herself more so than for others.

i’m just thinking about all the info that was given to kuroo and i just feel like the people on that list HAVE to be of some major importance… actually, maybe irish’s mother isn’t dead — but i still feel like SOMETHING happened for them to pack their bags and denounce itachiyama in favour of inarizaki, it all just seems so calculated. idk if there’s enough info yet to fully crack what’s happening and what has led to this pathway for i(diot)ris , but i reallyyyy don’t think her defensiveness of her reputation is JUST an ego thing.

her reputation is like her parole, fuck that up and she’s locked up for life me thinks.

^ that could also explain the queens anger, cuz realistically i think even if the public was a little mad at rin cheating, they’d eventually just get over it cuz “like father like son” the queens reaction was CRAZZYYY for something she witnessed her own husband do like ten times.

ultimately if iris’ mother is alive, im thinking she’s the puppeteer and the royal family are her puppets.

- shhh anon

(also p.s) my uni classes are starting back up so i won’t be able to send my theories as frequently anymore, and by the time i have my next uni break - the story would be over. so i’ll send in my silly theories when i have free time !! thank you for giving me something to do while on break 😋

EYEBALL 👁 EYE FOR AN EYE SCENARIO 👁

while i cannot say what it is yet, you’re actually right again ⚡there’s definitely something that she is hiding, and she’s using her marriage as her protection - that’s why she’s holding onto kiyoomi desperately. ‘iris is making amends and not cause more issues for herself.’ correct again, ding ding ding 🔔 i think its easy to think at first that she was trying to get on YN’s good side as some sort of mockery or for revenge, or make reader let her guard down, but her intention for making amends is purely selfish. all she wants is to be on everyone’s good side at this moment because that security she’s holding onto is slipping from her fingers (AKA omi being attached to reader, so that makes iris extra anxious.)

also yes !! i deliberately kept the info minimal because i wanted to keep the story more romance-centred than thriller or mystery . . . so when the iris lore finally drops, ig it’d be more like a subplot than anything. and yes yes !! it’s more than just a reputation thing to her 👀

oooh you noticed that one huh 👁👁 you are one smart, observant cookie. but yes it makes you think doesn’t it? people would’ve brushed off sunarin for cheating because his father had done it so many times before. you’d also think the queen would be used to it but why in particular to rin and iris being in the public’s harsh eye made her react like that hMMM. also aww good luck with uni !! i’m gonna admit i’ll miss our interactions shhh anon, you’ve been so amazing and sweet 😭💓 and no worries at all, i’ll also be busier soon and ig we’ll just see the end of dtd together 🫶🏻 take your time with everything and good luck !! 💫🌷 (and thank YOU for all the theories + the naoya art !! i still giggle so hard whenever i see it, you truly are the best xoxo)

[forever-fixating]

WIP Wednesday

OMG hey! It's been a while, I know. IRL can be a real energy suck, but I have recharged my batteries and have some goodies to share. Thanks to @onthewaytosomewhere for the tag! I'm doing this under a cut because I'm sharing bits from living in a new normal and Tournament for His Heart! Enjoy!

living in a new normal

“Hey, talk to me.”

Swallowing, Henry said, “It’s risky. I don’t know that I trust myself not to be able to hide how happy you make me.”

“Good thing we’ll be so busy with the kids,” Alex laughed. He moved closer and put an arm around Henry’s waist. “Baby, you’re gonna be overseas with me soon for three months. I know you’re worried about people talking, but let them talk. That doesn’t have to affect us.”

Henry turned his face toward Alex and accepted his gentle kiss, murmuring against his lips, “You’re right.”

“I know I am,” Alex said with a grin. “Besides, you think you’re the only one here finding it hard to hide how happy you are?”

“Have you been hiding?” Henry asked. “I’ve seen your Lives and Instagram stories. Nothing but sappy love songs, darling.”

“You fucking love it, don’t lie!”

Henry did. Alex’s knowledge of music and its history was impressive, to say the least. One minute, he would be talking about the history of Motown and Berry Gordy’s manipulative and predatory contracts, and the next, he would be ranting that The Chicks did nothing wrong when Natalie said what she said about Bush and he would kill to collaborate with them on a song. He promised to show Henry his vast collection of eight-tracks, vinyls, cassette tapes, and CDs. Music made him come alive. This wasn’t someone who was a casual fan of music. Alex was in a life-long love affair with it.

So, when it came to his IG Lives and Stories, Henry didn’t know what to expect. It could be a song from Taylor Swift, Billie Holiday, or Wham. When he sang a country version of the duo’s song Freedom, Henry could only respond via text with a string of lovey-dovey emojis. It was ridiculous, and Henry couldn’t get enough.

A Tournament for His Heart

“Love, remember the shadows,” Alex read aloud. “Talk to Pip.”

At the trio of confused expressions, Alex explained Henry’s final message and his belief that some kind of danger scared Henry into cutting off their correspondence. Zahra turned to Ellen again and said, “Your Majesty, I believe it would be a grave mistake to send your children to Lerasea. You must decline.”

“I will go,” Alex snapped. At Zahra’s thunderous expression, he said, “Keep June here if you must to ensure the line of succession, but Henry is in danger. I will not leave him to whatever fate Mary has in store for him.”

Ellen reached out to take his hand and squeeze it. Her voice was soft when she asked, “You still love him…don’t you?”

Alex nodded, his throat suddenly too tight to speak. Zahra, ever the pragmatist, said, “Your Highness, while you may still harbor some tenderness toward the prince, I beg you to think about this rationally.”

He glanced at the advisor and the paper in her hand. “This is the list of your fellow suitors. Twelve of them are using proxies, some of the most skilled knights across creation. Even with our very best, there is no guarantee you will be successful. Why open yourself up to the possibility of that heartbreak?”

“I will not use a proxy,” Alex stated. “I will compete myself.”

His mother’s grip on his hand tightened while Zahra snapped, “Alexander, this is not a game! Are you truly so arrogant to believe yourself capable of defeating anyone they put before you?”

“I would break every fucking bone in my body if that’s what it took to be with Henry again!” Alex shouted. His words echoed in the chambers. His body was flooded with adrenaline, but he forced himself to take a moment to calm down. Looking at his mother, with whom his fate and future happiness rested, he said, “I apologize for my tone and language. I don’t believe this will be easy. In fact, I relish the challenge. It is not arrogance that fuels me but love. I love him, Your Majesty. Then and now, that feeling has not changed or wavered. It has remained as constant as the suns, the moons, and the stars. Please let me do this.”

Author's Note: No matter the universe, Alex has zero chill when it comes to his Henry. I'm working on these stories, hopefully I'll have something for yall soon. I have a giant summer with plenty of downtime ahead of me. Later, taters!

[futuristicanoe]

just reread your fic tonight (and yesterday actually) and i wanted to say how much i love it, it’s so beautiful, so moody, perfect (sigh 😔) i’d love to see what else you’re thinking of when it comes to al

- 🐺 (goblin, can’t send asks from the side blog so ig i’m going anon, tho it’s pretty pointless but yeah)

This is the first ask I've ever gotten on here, woohoo!

Thank you so much, I really appreciate it. :)))

Alex is someone I've been insane over for many years. Strangely, this is the first time I have tried to write about him properly. And I really loved it. All of the stage personas and even the "stories"/"characters" that his music paints in my mind — I always felt like the only way I could truly appreciate or understand them would be to... write. Because that's what he does, and that's where it all starts, and I think exploring the fuzzy, messy moments between those characters and chaos is equally as interesting as the rest of it. Nothing is more insane to imagine than Alex Turner doing normal, everyday things... I just want to show the more raw, unfiltered side of him.

You are a big motivation, inspiration, all of it. Every single time I read something by you, I just get it, and it feels special. I love it.

Any themes, any details, anything you'd want to see me write about, I'm more than ready to listen!!! I do have some ideas ruthlessly pinballing around in my mind... but I really can't understand where I'm gonna end up with them for now, so! I will do my best to keep everyone updated, hah. <33333 thank you, again!!!

[waterlilylullabies]

𝓑𝓲𝓷𝓭𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓢𝓸𝓷𝓰𝓼 𝓒𝓱𝓪𝓹𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝓣𝓱𝓻𝓮𝓮

Welcome to The Dreaming

Warnings: Mentions of violence against women

Years ago, Belle lived through a night which she thought would never end. She was sleeping beneath a bridge in Rome and she knew what she was doing was stupid and dangerous but she had nowhere else to go. She wouldn’t allow herself real sleep, starting awake every twenty minutes or so to see that she was still alone. Every time her eyes would snap open, her heart would sink to see that she was still there, in that dark, cold, damp place hours away from dawn.

Belle remembers that night now as she pinches her arm, slaps her face, whispers “Wake up, wake up, wake up” all to no avail.

The stranger is watching her. His face is impassive. At his feet, is a raven.

They are in a vast, stone chamber. Stained glass windows throw chinks of coloured light across the floor.

Belle tries to keep her breathing steady. Maybe she’s been spiked.

The raven clears his throat awkwardly. Oh yes, she has most certainly been spiked.

But the stranger steps towards her, makes her a neat bow. “I am Lord Morpheus, Dream of the Endless. Welcome to The Dreaming, Lady Lorelei, I apologise for arriving so late.” He looks at her expectantly. Does he want her to curtsy?

“My name’s not Lorelei.” Is all Belle can manage before the world pitches and reels and fades to black.

~

“I tried to tell him!” Matthew protests, “I said he should explain things first…” Matthew is perched atop a stack on books on Lucienne’s desk.

The siren, whatever her name is, has been put in a small room off the throne room and Matthew, having witness the entire kidnap-cum-rescue and it’s attendant fallout has made his way to the library to give a full report, only slightly embellished.

“I doubt it would have made much difference Matthew,” Lucienne counters “It is very rare that a creature enters the dreaming in their physical form, the experience can be overwhelming. The poor thing is clearly terrified.”

-

At that precise moment, the poor thing in question having woken in a windowless room is plotting her escape. She tries the heavy stone door and finding it unlocked, pushes it open and peers out.

Here was the same room from before, empty now. At one end there was a flight of steps leading to a throne, at the other, miles away it seemed, was a vast stone door.

Belle breaks into a sprint.

“You seem recovered” came a velvety drawl, from behind, no in front of her. The voice was everywhere and it distracts her for long enough that she has no time to step around her captor, who chose to materialise from thin air at that moment so that Belle charges headlong into him.

Flat on her ass, which smarts where it had struck the cold stone floor, she glares up at him. He held out a hand. She resisted the urge to spit at him, to knock it away. She lets him pull her to her feet. “You have questions, no doubt.” He said softly.

“Bring me back to the bar. Please. I won’t go to the police, I promise.” The man frowns “You would not thank me for that, I can assure you.”

She can feel the tears pricking her eyes, she can feel the panic rising in her throat, she takes a step back from him, then another and another.

“What are you going to do to me?” She keeps pepper spray in her purse, but her purse is in the bathroom of The Venus Lounge.

The man looks affronted “You need not fear me.”

Belle laughs mirthlessly

His eyes are the blue of ancient ice. “Were you truly told nothing? Did your mother not explain?”

“I don’t remember my mother” Belle lies.

But she does remember. She remembers too late the warnings about songs and their power.

She remembers other warnings too, stories of what men would do if they could. Stories about one man, who was not a man at all, a King, an oath breaker.

Authors Note: Feedback welcome, thank you for reading! I’m actually writing this now ig!

[afreakingdork]

I noticed in another as you replied with 'Arc 4', and (since many things fly over my head) I was wondering if you could explain the arcs that Weak Spot already went through?

(You don't have to answer the following if it spoils, if you're uncomfortable doing so, or if you just dont want to)

Is there a set ending for Weak Spot? [I know there's a happy ending tag, but is there a definite ending that you're working up to?]

How many arcs do you have planned, and does that number change, or is it a set number? Or chapters ig?

Im also assuming that the Bastard Three are gonna show up again, but is that true?

Weak Spot is one of my favorite fics, and I absolutely love reading what you reply to when asked about it.

I also dont usually subscribe to fics/authors to get emails about updates, but i had to with Weak Spot. Happy stim whenever I see that email!!!

Aw you are so sweet; I'm delighted to answer all your questions. Let's see...

So the fic is unofficially separated into 4 arcs. These are done on my end and help me mark certain milestones. They go as follows:

Arc 1: Chapters 1-9 Arc 2: Chapters 10-19 Arc 3: Chapters 20-28 Arc 4 "Antics" Chapter 29-onward

Only Arc 4 has a name and will go straight until the final arc of the story which probably will be Arc 5.

There is in fact a set ending and has been from the start!

The arcs were never set in stone since they were more for my reference then for anyone to actually categorize the fic. When writing Weak Spot I always had specific moments I was getting to and outside of that I leave the inbetweens loose so I can add chapters if need/want be.

The Bastard's Three! They sure are a loose end in terms of the fic as a whole, aren't they? 👀👀👀

Thank you oh so much for your kind words!! It's truly an honor that you follow me and I hope I keep up that interesting content for ya! 💖

If I didn't answer something or you have more questions, feel free~

[electrosair]

hi! I saw your post requesting requests and figured I'd bite.

In terms of free time and hobbies, I enjoy collecting things. Whether it be mushrooms and flowers from the forest behind my house, trinkets found in antique stores, an ore or mineral to add to my rock collection, diagrams of steam and diesel locomotives, or bones of small critters, I probably have a small amount handy somewhere. I actually do enjoy gifting random stuff I find as I am collecting shiny objects. So definitely not a hoarder situation, mind you.

As a person I've been described as "a gremlin with crow like tendencies" by close friends, which, fair, I guess. I like giving more than being given gifts because we got that childhood trauma and religious/debt guilt up in this bitch. (I'm bitches and God bless America ig.)

To those who don't know me well, I come off as intimidating because I always scowl and rarely speak. Which is not true, my face is just Like That. It's hard to express emotions man, thems shits confuddling. Don't even get me started on the difficulty of speaking vocally, you cannot autocorrect sounds and it's hard to describe things in the moment!

But alas, the Autism decided I shall take the L and stutter when confronted into a social situation.

I'm partial to Liyue due to my ancestry, and appreciation of culture present in its lands. The story of the Adepti fascinates me, and I can see that a lot of Chinese mythos and auspicious symbolism is placed into this love letter to Chinese history. And the music! I can listen to Azhdaha's boss theme and never tire of it. I can relisten to the tale of streetward rambler and Guizhong and fail not to cry doing so. It's so rich in history that I cannot help but feel in awe of it all.

And my favorite element? Geo. Because I vibe with it deeply. It's the element of foundation, stability in life's tumultuous waves of chaos. It's sturdy and tenacious, which I relate to as the eldest sibling growing up protecting my younger sibling. If I were a Geo Vision wielder, I'd probably be a shield/tank character, because I'd be able to protect those I hold dear from danger.

Yours truly,

🪨 Anon

omg do i have my first anon right here??? if yes i'd love to make a list of anons 💔 i loved writing this so much, so please gimme more, i'm begging

Zhongli!

He probably finds it fascinating that you collect so many little things, especially the rocks and minerals. He would love to go on long nature walks with you, I feel you would both learn new things with each other's company and knowledge.

When he saw/heard you say that giving gifts you like more than receiving them his heart melted, you definitely have his interest won. Little by little he would try to convince you to accept small gifts that he can give you, like taking you to antique stores, to restaurants or bringing you new ores that you are missing in your collection.

The first time he saw you and got to talk to you maybe you found it awkward or something like that, but it was certainly impressive for him to try to get to know you and your interests more closely.

And the fact that you are related to Liyue thanks to your origins only makes it more interesting. It makes me think that maybe you met him by doing more research on the topics you like.

In short, he would love to hear you talk and then give his own opinions or read you some of the old stories that only he knows so well, adding facts to make sure it is something more detailed to what you might have heard, he may want to surprise you to keep you closer to him.

[lucysablefan]

lucysablefan 2023 review

also i didn't get to talk abt my top however many things that i've watched in 2023 and i'm probably going to have to make this into a thread but firdt of all revenant and celebrity are definitely Up There for me from the cast to the story and everything else i was completely into those shows and that's a lot for me bc getting bored halfway into a show is my number one (reluctant) hobby.

i definitely think revenant escaped that partly bc there was no obvious romance plot for me to get bored after they get tgt but even without it being obvious kim taeri and hong kyung tgt in that show was one of the best decision ever made in cinema. kim taeri stuns us once again with her amazing acting + shim dalgi moment s, that was great i'm still not done watching more of her stuff but i really do love seeing her in stuff i'm watching it's always a delightful surprise and she slayed that role like it was written for her so that was great. oh jungse was there too (ig 🙄) and it was nice he did his job and i was sold + yang hyeji moment ! always a blast seeing her in anything (will make another appearance when i talk abt sweet home 2 in this post eventually)

now celebrity,,, amazing drama, i'll be honest at first i wasn't too sold on the influencer plotline but it's a park gyuyoung drama and as a humble lesbian i just had to tune in + lee chungha slay once again, i've loved her ever since vampire detective and this character was amazing for her

anyways i loved the plot, loved the execution, one grievance i have is definitely the fact that seo ari ends up with that loser classist guy intead of yoon sihyeon which was??? like if not for homophobia ik they would have ended up tgt bc seo ari has too much respect to stay with hjk for sure

also one thing i absolutely Have to comment on is that one scene where seo ari ruins her dress and then she goes "i can just pay for it" or smth along those lines and when she realizes what she said she gets a little taken aback? ye that scene birthed me actually bc??? what amazing writing truly just art

also literally the whole cast in that show was just like oh ye i'm an amazing performer and here's proof so that was definitely a treat for the audience (me)

now smth that Didn't come out during that year but i finally watched bc of park sewan (i still haven't finished doona but when i found out she played in it i was like!!!! school 2017 actress moment, idk why i have this weird cast of school 2017 thing but i do and it simply can't be helped) anwz it's!!!! ultimate weapon alice or wth title that you know it by. now i'll be honest the ending? i wasn't thrilled but i also didn't care much for it bc this drama just felt like one where the ending really isn't that important like ye i used to study lit so having an "oh this is a tragedy (shakespeare war flashbacks)" moment is always nice but that's not what this is abt, the sound design (? eng isn't my first language so don't be mean to me) alone makes this show better than average, the writing? impeccable, those imaginary somewhat comedic scenes? right up my alley, every episode was just a treat after another i had a Great time watching it, the characters and their dynamics were truly amazing and the acting was just constantly delivering once again i just love park sewan and i will finish watching doona for her (mostly, i love suzy too ofc <3)

now smty else i watched that i lived this year : enigma. what a show, short but a masterpiece nonetheless and i can't wait for s2 although obv as i was forced to learn through being a cw nancy drew fan, i should always keep my expectations low when the first season is a little too good. also prim won't be there which booooo,, but i'll get over it and i can't wait to see the new charas.

one thing to know abt me : i love visually pleasing stuff and if you play around with format a little bit and add some great mixed media to your show not only am i sold but i'm also telling whoever is willing to listen to go and watch your show i'm easy and i'm not ashamed.

anwz brain no worky anymore so i'll add onto this eventually but don't hold me to that (just rmbrd i have to talk abt sweet home 2 so i Will be back for that hehe)

[berlinini]

2022 louie wrap

favorite Walls song: Defenseless, always and forever <3

favorite fitf song: All This Time, Holding Onto Heartache, Saturdays, High in California

favorite fitf single: Silver Tongues (imo it should have been the main single, for radio push and live performances)

favorite fitf mv: Silver Tongues for the story and the overanalyzing it gave us, but BTM was great - simple, cinematographic, gave us Louis wearing Blundstones and a beautiful burn orange jacket so....

most played song on Spotify by Louis: I don't have Spotify but my go-to song from FITF has become Lucky Again so I'm sure it's the most played now

favorite louis lyrics: There's endless versions of the thing / That keeps me driftin' back to darkness

louis life lesson: That you can live your life according to your principles and values but also it is hard to figure out who you are and to stay true to yourself. That life isn't easy but it's worth living. To be brave <3

favorite louis outfit: Without hesitation the Amsterdam yellow mesh polo. I loved all the patterned polos he started wearing when FITF era started. Loved him in Burberry as always, especially the knit shirt from AUS; in London Palace; in Pain is Pleasures. Loved all his 28OP tour outfits, I hope he launches the brand in 2023!

favorite live performance: from LTWT 2022, the shows that I was lucky enough to attend, especially Portland n2! Hearing the Fearless guitar solo, 7 and Beautiful War live was truly amazing. From FITF LIC, I'd say everytime he performed Saturdays because the emotion gave me chills EVERYTIME. I did NOT enjoy AFHF 2022 and all the stress that I endured only for Louis to cover another freaking 1D song... ugh

favorite tour show: Portland n2, because it was crazy and I was there (?!?!?), but also my show in Vancouver for all the good memories (and a seated venue!) and queuing and having a good spot for Oakland, which meant I saw Louis wearing his 28OP black turtleneck up close.... From the IG livestreams, Dallas (remember the collective sigh we let out once the first show was finished), Austin (slut!louis rise), Philly (remember that IG user with their cane? incredible moment). Taormina was also really special with the venue and the fact we thought he would sing BTL live and he trolled us about it.

thanks to @elceeu2morrow and @throughmycigarette for tagging me! this was fun! tagging @bbrox @louis-in-red @milf-louis @random-hot-mess and @captainlouisuniverse and everyone who feels like doing this! thank you to @goodmorningtoyouuniverse for starting this game!

[miaslame]

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There's something so profound about the connection between two people. In my life there have been a total of 2 people who I can't seem to shake.

one being my first love. although he did cheat on me and lie to girls and tell them he was single. there was a moment before all of that when i truly "believed" he loved me. or atleast i thought. and even 'till this day i think about the profound impact he had on me and how i view love.

the second being a guy i've never met. who lives across the world. whom i met during the pandemic when chatting online. we shared stories and endless memories and interests. i thought he was the coolest person on the planet. then, something shifted. things lead astray and now we don't talk.

but, recently i woke up to a notification that this estranged man wanted to add me on IG. I was scared and happy at the same time. i was so glad to see a glimpse of him. only for him for retract his follow mere moments after i tried adding him back. i messaged him and he said it was an accident. i told him i understood and then we were right back to strangers again.

i messaged him today (after much courage and thought)

"I keep thinking about you. Not in a bad way. I'm not sure why. I won't message you again after this but it was so random and out of the blue and I was worried that you might have needed someone to talk to. But, you assured me it wasn't the case. I'm sorry for any and everything. Be well."

i got so scared i deleted IG because i can't bear to read what he would say back or if he doesn't respond at all (i think that would be best) but its just so crazy to me that ive had so many thoughts regarding him over the course of 5 years and i can't let go. althought we dont talk i still feel like im tethered to him.

did i love him?

or am i trauma bonded to him?

are we just bad people?

why does he remember me?

why does time heal all wounds but this one?

[boobyisme]

I can’t sleep because I keep thinking of D. I had a dream about him the other night — we were in some sort of retreat together. When we finally got the chance to interact, I asked him if I actually did piss him off and he said yes. Then, I gave him my rationale that it was inevitable that I did that. He wasn’t mad mad but I felt like he got so turned off by it so I understand. Then when I think he finally came to terms with it, he started saying how he can’t believe we’re together again (not together together, but like, in the same room together). I was actually a little spooked because I thought he was already seeing someone else but he seemed so happy to be with me again so whatever.

I’m so pissed at the fact that I had to wake up before anything happened. I can’t believe this is happening. I’d like to think that I haven’t truly felt this way ever, not even with the people I actually dated. I’m so mad that I know a lot about him that, if I were sick enough, I could actually hunt him down. Of course, I won’t do that. I know my dream did not mean anything other than the fact that I saw one of his friends’ story with him in it. I haven’t thought of him in a long time because I’ve been trying not to proactively. Sometimes though, I do still wonder if I could ever talk to him again. I wonder what I’d say. I could tell him I have never felt what I felt that night for any other person. I could tell him it felt pointless to seek or even think of finding a partner when the one I actually wanted in my life has passed me by. I could tell him that I’ve only been to his place one time but the C-5/Pasig area crushes my soul every time I pass through there because it was one of the most serene moments of my life and I’m not even sure if I could ever feel that way again. I mean all of that, which is why I feel so helpless because it’s not like I could just reach out to him again. He’s been seeing this girl and I know because I saw that his music ig followed her. Right then and there, I kind of already knew. When I went to check on the girl, I found that she has twitter and linked to it was her tumblr. On her tumblr, she would post a lot about him. I hate this even more because she looks so pretty and nice and in love. And, I could never wish for her relationship’s downfall just because I have a crush on her man.

I just hope that I finally find a reason to stop thinking of him and wishing for him. Sometimes I pray for him to just get married already so that I could finally end my delusion. It hurts that this is how things are and even more so because I can’t even do anything about it.

Anyway, here’s ceilings.

“But it's over

Then you're drivin' me home

And it kinda comes out as I get up to go

You kiss me in your car

And it feels like the start of a movie I’ve seen before…”

[cassandralexxx]

...

You know the drill when I have nothing and a cut its going to be my should be diary level rambles that I should probably go to therapy to examine instead of publishing to the internet (ie meant to be ignored)

I don’t know why it is so hard for me to confront the fact that I will never be married in the eyes of my God. like I keep trying to find excuses or work arounds or reasons that that wouldn’t be so. but I am a Lesbian. I can no more be attracted to a man than I can do any number of impossible things. Idk. I was thinking about this because many things but today I was thinking about how I probably should go to confession again soon. Because its been several months and the last priest had mentioned that I should go to confession monthly (still something that is sticking to me). But like in a Catholic confession if you don’t confess to all your sins then your confession is invalid because if you aren’t truly sorry and aren’t truly trying to repair your relationship with God than why are you even doing all of this yknow? So I was thinking about what I would need to include and idk if it would be right for me to mention *drum roll please* that one church group that i haven’t gone to this semester. because I lied about how busy I am to get out of attending. and lying is a sin. but ofc when i go to confession i don’t usually detail scenarios but it wouldn’t be a full confession if i didn’t confess to the gravity of that. but also i think i’m quitting the group in total. so like... even though i am sorry am i truly that sorry if i would do it again for fall? but also! i am genuinely going to be busy this fall. so much to do with extracurriculars, classes, and such. anyways this is so off topic but yeah idk i just thinking about that reminded me to the first time I had come out to someone,, summer after my sophomore year of highschool and it was at confession at a well known catholic summer camp. I say this every time the priest was very kind and whatever but he also told me that I should pray the rosary every day until I stopped being confused. and idk how to take that. idk how to internalize that and accept it. i’ve also mentioned that another priest absolved me of the daily rosary thing but like it is still so ... I often wonder how this one friend of mine would react if i ever talked about my struggle with faith and sexuality. like idk if I mentioned that last spring I signed a lil contract stating that i would not engage in relationships counter to the church in order to be in attendance of a book club for other queer catholics it feels so insane to say to think. and like if we ever think about doing so or do do so tell the leadership of the org. like ikd it distresses me I know her reaction would be akin to wtf yknow. like there is no chance it goes over well. because of that i don’t know why i am so fixated on that then. I have mentioned my lack of joy over my sexulity to my other friends before but not very frequently because it feels so embarassing. like i think last january at my friends bday me mentioning i was gay was brought up because one of my friends would always forget and be like “oooh“ when i was around a guy. but anyways in that moment i said something along the lines of yeah no unfortunately i’m not straight. another time fall 2021 ig was talking to my then roommate and I verbatim said “If I could choose I would be straight“, like that is such cringe loser behavior fr like i only remembered about it because girly pop posted about it on her sc story at the time saying that quote her roommate said what i said which like ugh bad. and like its just so bad memories that i said that out loud. and also just me last year telling a girly ik that i’m not really comfortable with my sexuality and would prefer if she didn’t like broadcast it like it is just idk. its so lame that i can’t get over this. because i never know which side i’m falling to when i say get over this. like some times when i want to get over it i want to turn to God and have Him take away this struggle and then others I’m like my God will love me anyways and even so I don’t want to deny myself forever. i’m a mess. I am constanlty flip flopping between wanting to be true to myself and wanting to push it way down. it was 2021 when i realized that being gay meant that i wouldn’t be married in the eyes of my God. I cried to myself as I lay in bed at night when I realized that. I had known I was gay for like 2 years and it was only then that it truly hit what that meant for my future. I was never the kind of girl who pictured my wedding but now i wonder what it would be like if it ever happened. it would’t be in a church and i’m not out to my dad right now so I wonder if he would walk me down the aisle. i think one good thing is that at least my father has already seen me in a “wedding dress“. (for context my senior year of high school i was a debutante for my city and debutantes wear white dresses and mine was an alterred wedding dress,, like it was gorgeous). anyways the concept of not being married is so sucky, like not being able to be i mean like in the eyes of my God i mean. like i comprehend the vast socioeconomic and legal protections and benefits normal marriage has but like i’m speaking religosity here. and it sucks because i think its right. like i would be kinda like idk if thats right if they did start having gay marriage in the church and isn’t that shitty. like damn. I turned to that one church group and church as strong as i did this past spring because i was hurting. i was hurting so much and i thought only in the prescence of God could I be helped. but now i’m sad for different reasons and idk. every one of these just has me thinking i don;t know i don’t know i don’t know. I used to think about the song “i can only imagine“ rather frequently. like the whole “will i stand in your presence or to my knees will i fall will i sing hallelujah will i be able to speak at all.“ and its like rgis much doubt makes me feel so doubly worried of being worthy to exist in His prescence. anyways this is all so dumb and just rambles from someone who doesn’t know what to do with her life. I make plans and form ideas that are contradictory in the hopes that the right one will rise to the top but that is never what really happens. circling back to marriage though i’m thinking about that one quote from the book from Jae like the i think second book after backwards to oregon and how Luke tells their daughter what it means to be married and what it is to be married even without the legality of it bc lilke the whole she’s a lesbian thing. idk that quote hit. i’ll have to look through the book for it later and post it on my blof lmao. anyways signing off this was a bit incoherent and yet id still say rather telling.

[astrolutelynot]

Okay so this is not against anything said by this person, they’re correct in their points imo. I just had additional thoughts in my brain and being ruled by mercury, I had to put them somewhere.

Something I’ve noticed is that its harder for trans mascs to pass than it is for trans femmes to pass - and it has nothing to do with their individual physicality. (Now I know because of the wide spectrum of being trans, generalized statements like these are ineffective but bear with me)

Okay so media is an effective tool to normalize or propagate different ideas; and I think body positivity for the femmes has been a message that keeps getting pushed out - rightfully so - but we don’t see alot of the same for the men. I know some transmascs who truly do pass perfectly well but because they’re not as tall and their voice isn’t 6 ft under just yet, they get misgendered alot. Because the standard of masculinity hasn’t seen a lot of change in our society.

You might think, what about this soft boi skinny trend that’s been going on? It’s still often only restricted to tall men and tbh I think that is largely in the perception of women which. uh. we know the male standard has never reeeaallly been based on the opinions of women 💀

I also think that trans mascs and femmes experience different kinds of acceptance in society - both equally fucked btw and almost inverse of what I’ve said so far.

Imo (just my opinion pls) while most trans mascs do find it easier to find acceptance in different social circles, it’s actually very dismissive and disrespectful of their masculinity. Really, its like a really warped kind of acceptance where they don’t accept them for them, often they’re seen as just a variant of the gender they’re trying to distance themselves from.

On the other hand trans women do have to fight a lot harder to be accepted in society because of the existing perverse context propagated through media about them. As a particularly stocky trans woman, I often find that I’m seen as either a fetish or a pet or a story - never a real person. But I technically pass.

And idk sometimes - its rare and in moments of particular distress and delusion - I get jealous of transmasc individuals that get that kind of treatment from people but its so fucked up and warped because they’re actively getting invalidated through that treatment??? Because in my brain its like at least they see you as a person. But its not who you want to be seen as or what you identify with. But this feeling comes up because I’m just so fucking tired of not being seen.

Ig my point is. The whole thing is fucked. All of it. And I hate that so much of it creates so much disparity within the trans community because if we don’t have each other, what do we have at this point 🥲

So, I need to talk about something I've seen from the "trans men aren't REALLY oppressed/are exaggerating their oppression" crowd. And that's the claim that you must believe these things about trans men and transmascs, because you heard them from trans women, and it's important to listen to trans women!

Because yes, it is absolutely important to listen to minorities when we talk about our own oppression. And that includes listening to trans women when they talk about theirs. But the thing is? When you internalize claims that trans men are actually super privileged, and are just trying to claim that we suffer gender-based oppression for brownie points, you aren't listening to trans women about their own oppression. You're listening to people who aren't transmasc - some of whom might, in fact, be trans women - talk over transmascs about our oppression.

Now you might be wondering, what's the difference? After all, a lot of minority groups have rightfully pointed out when certain demographics enjoy particular privileges they don't, so it might sound pretty sketchy to say that trans women who seem to be doing just that are really just talking over us about our oppression. And there's a definite validity to that... up to the point that the claims being made rely on actively ignoring the oppression we do face, or on anecdotal evidence to prove a supposed sweeping problem.

So, here's an example of a claim that I would consider reasonable:

"Trans men, in many situations, may benefit from male privilege. This is especially true if they are stealth, read as heterosexual to those around them, and are of a privileged race for the area they live in. A trans woman in a similar position would enjoy certain privileges from those other factors, but would still have to deal with misogyny."

This is a straightforward statement regarding a material difference between trans men and trans women. Here's another reasonable statement:

"Trans men are capable of perpetuating misogyny, including transmisogyny."

Again: completely true. We are neither cis nor trans women, and are fully capable of both holding shitty ideas about women, and acting on those ideas to the detriment of said women.

Now let's take a look at some unreasonable examples.

"Ter/ves don't actually hate trans men. All their hatred is directed toward trans women, and trans men are just collateral damage due to being trans. Anyone who says otherwise is transmisogynist."

Well, OK. Ter/ves definitely do display a disproportionate amount of hatred toward trans women, but we've also seen them say some incredibly hateful things about trans men, so this claim is blatantly false. Furthermore, it seems to be based on a very simplistic understanding of how a te/rf feels about gender. Let's break it down:

Men are bad.

Women are good.

Trans women are "really" men (bad people) who are trying to escape accountability by becoming women (good and therefore supposedly immune to accountability).

Trans men are "really" women (good people) who want to become men (bad people) and this is... fine, somehow?

Yeah, in actuality we're seen as traitors to the female gender at best. And that's ignoring all the times we've been accused of being sexual predators who are trying to groom innocent lesbians and children into joining our ranks.

Here's another one:

"Transmascs have both AFAB and male privilege. Transfems cannot benefit from either male privilege (because they are not men) or AFAB privilege (because they were not assigned female at birth)."

So here's where I developed one of my favorite bullshit tests for this kind of rhetoric: if a claim being made about transmascs' supposed privilege could also be applied to a cis women and called "female privilege", it's bullshit.

For example, it's been claimed that all AFAB trans people are privileged because if we don't want to be seen as predators, we can simply detransition and be seen as cis women, allowing us to be perceived as innocent and incapable of harming others as above.

I think - or at least, I certainly hope - that if you said this about a cis woman, most reasonable people would call it out for the bullshit it is. First of all, this is an incredibly hetero- and white-centric statement - I can assure you that queer and nonwhite women are not traditionally assumed to be pure and innocent (modern bullshit about "pure Asian women" notwithstanding). Secondly, while a straight white woman being perceived as innocent can be a privilege in certain situations - she is certainly capable of weaponizing this perception in order to harm other marginalized people - at the end of the day, it is still a product of misogyny and misogynist beliefs, and will also hurt her in many aspects of her life.

So yeah. So-called "AFAB privilege" is just "female privilege" that's been shoehorned into a pseudo-progressive narrative. Don't fall for it. Also, don't fall for narratives that say any trans person can "simply detransition" and be awarded gendered privilege. Being misgendered is not a privilege, end of discussion.

So by now, I hope I've given a good demonstration of the kinds of arguments I'm talking about. And now, I'd like to circle back to the main reason people give for perpetuating these claims, and what makes this justification so damn disingenuous.

"It's important to listen to trans women!"

Yes. Yes it is. But "listen to trans women" doesn't mean "assume that everything every trans woman ever says is gospel". There are trans women who believe in TE/RF ideology. Trans women who supported Donald Trump. Trans women who outright believe that transmascs and nonbinary people aren't even really trans.

These are, of course, rather few and far between - but that's just another reason to stop describing this bigotry as "listening to trans women". You are painting trans women as inherently bigoted toward transmascs, and none of us are benefiting from that.

At the end of the day, doing right by a minority group doesn't mean throwing away your ability to think critically about what its members are saying. If you do that, you're going to end up hurting the very people you claim you're trying to help, while being taken advantage of by those who are acting in bad faith.