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aaureos · 7 months ago

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Checkmate - The grave of kindness

A Divergent rewrite

Summary: As a new dawn lights the city of Chicago, Marian Eaton is tasked to make the most important decision of her life, in what faction will she choose to belong? Can a broken and scared girl survive in a world where kindness is weakness and nobody is truly you friend? Marian is not sure, but staying in Abnegation is not an option.

Chapter 2 - Choice

Since my birth, everything around me has been grey: houses, clothing, furniture and, after a while, even people.

Life in Abnegation has always been this way, simple and repetitive, and that’s how it’s supposed to be, it’s the Abnegation way.

Ironically, my father, one of Abnegation’s leaders, never cared to follow the rules. He always makes sure to put on a good show in front of others but I know how he really is.

Me and my brother are the only ones to, but it doesn’t matter because in the end, he escaped, leaving me alone with him.

I’ll never forgive him for that.

I wake up before my alarm has time to go off and, still dazed and half asleep, I push away the grey sheets and stand up tentatively.

The sleepiness doesn’t seem to go away, it makes sense, as I spent most of the night turning and tossing in my bed, thinking about today's choosing ceremony.

Getting out of my room and into the hallway, I’m careful not to make any noise, as to not wake Marcus up.

I tiptoe down the stairs to the living room and go straight to the kitchen to make breakfast for the both of us.

Nothing fancy, the usual, just two bowls of plain milk and cereal and a mug of coffee for my father.

I don’t drink coffee, I find the taste revolting but my brother always loved it, he used to drink it all the time even if we weren’t allowed to because my father saw it as a form of self indulgence.

As I move around the kitchen, heavy steps inform me my father woke up from his slumber and I already know he’s in a bad mood.

When he reaches the table, pulling out a chair from underneath it, I flinch, almost spilling boiling coffee all over myself.

“Mornin’” he grunts, not even raising his head to look at me, and I’m quick to go back to making him his coffee “Good morning” I repeat, setting the table for breakfast.

I serve him quickly, worried he might get angry if I take too long, then put down my food and sit awkwardly across the table from him, mixing my cereals in silence.

In Abnegation, us children aren’t allowed to speak during meals unless directly questioned or spoken to.

I pray to myself this will be one of those days where he ignores me and we spend the whole meal staring at our food in silence.

Of course,it never is.

“You need to get ready for the choosing ceremony,” he mutters, staring at me through his mug, the coffee’s steam makes him look like his head is fuming, I nod “I won’t ask what faction you’re going to chose” his eyes pierce right through my soul “You’re staying here, with me” the mug collides harshly with the table and I jump so hard on my chair I almost fall backwards on the floor “Is that clear?”, his voice sounds like a bark, mine’s barely a whisper “Of course”.

The truth is, I’d love to stay in Abnegation but I just can’t, even if the test says I should. I just can’t, being here is slowly killing me and I don’t know how much longer I’ll last

Marcus nods, seemingly satisfied with my answer and in response, I shrink further in my seat.

My brother left Abnegation three years ago today, our father never told which faction he chose, maybe out of fear that I’d choose to follow him, but the beating I got that day sent me into Erudite’s care for a while and it’s something neither my mind or my body will ever forget.

To this day I’ve never seen him that angry.

I’ve never seen my brother since either.

After breakfast I go get dressed, I find my clothes neatly folded in my dresser, I don’t own that many so almost half of it is empty while the other is occupied by small grey piles of similar articles of clothing.

I stare at it for a second before grabbing the usual: Grey long skirt, grey midi skirt, grey sweater, grey jumpers, grey shirts and jackets…

Everything looks either the same or similar so it’s never hard to choose what to wear.

After washing myself and getting dressed, I find trying to tie up my hair today is more annoying than usual.

My hair’s way too long for abnegation’s standards, reaching almost my mid back but I don’t have anyone to cut it for me.

Mrs. Prior used to do that for me but since her daughter left, I’ve avoided doing such things as to not remind her of Beatrice’s absence.

I get out of the house earlier than I should, I don’t want to go to the ceremony with my father, so I take the bus right before his.

The Hub is further in the city centre than my school is and today, being a city event, the bus is particularly packed.

While the bus goes from stop to stop, from Candor to Erudite, I stand in a small crowd, barely keeping my balance and almost tipping over an Erudite woman a few times.

“You should be more attentive” she hisses, pushing up her glasses while the bus brakes hard and I’m once again shoved into her.

I apologise profusely while the doors open and I try to make my way out the bus “I am so sorry miss” I blurt out, stepping into the pavement, hurrying to not get crammed in the crowd waiting at the stop.

The Hub is a monumental building, standing at a hundred stories, it almost looks like a deity, judging us from above, ready to come down and destroy us at any minute.

Trying to zig zag through colourful dressed groups of people, I make my way towards The Hub’s square which somehow is even more crowded than the inside of the building.

Sometimes I forget how many people live in this city, every year we reunite for the choosing ceremony and each time, I’m shocked by the numbers of people that show up.

Each member of each faction is invited to assist the ceremony but not all choose to participate, some for choice, others for work reasons.

Most Abnegants prefer not to indulge in this, choosing instead to keep working or staying home to take care of their houses and their children.

The Erudites say it’s because our numbers are dropping each year and we’re ashamed to show ourselves to the other factions, but it’s not true.

My hands tremble as I walk through the big glass entrance,I look around, “I wonder why all these people are here” I say to myself “How many of them are like me? Are these their families or just people that are here for tradition?”.

The way to The Choosing hall is quite intricate, a labyrinth of halls and rooms leading to the stands.

Every faction has their own, most people haven’t sat down yet but it’s clear that the smaller one is reserved for Abnegation, while the bigger is Amity’s.

The “Choosers’” stands are mixed and we’re made to sit in alphabetical order, creating a weird mismatched rainbow of colours.

This year's Ceremony is hosted by Amity, it’s clear by the colourful decorations of the hall.

Drapes of flowers and green branches animate the room, new rugs have been put in place since last year, a golden hue accompanying each of my steps, the podium where the faction’s leader makes their speech is decorated with Orange tree branches, fruits hang from one of them while others are ornate by small white flowers.

When I reach the choosers stands an Amity man touches my shoulder lightly “Hello,What’s your name, sister?” I instinctively retract from his touch “Eaton, Marian Eaton” I answer, and he points me to my seat, which is higher than I expected.

From up here I can see most of the stands well, the room is almost full now, each faction has taken their place and Johanna, Amity’s leader is taking her place on the podium.

While I dry my sweaty hands on my skirt, a small figure makes her way towards me, eventually plopping down on the empty seat on my left, she looks calm, peaceful, sitting criss-crossed on the seat and humming something under her breath.

I look at her with the corner of my eye, careful not to seem intruding, she’s pretty, even for Abnegation’s standards, her long blonde locks almost reach her lap and her brown eyes seem to glow under the warm lights of the room.

On my right there’s an Abnegation boy, he sat down right before me and now he’s staring at his shoes.

I know him, Isaac Elliott, he lives a few houses down the street from mine, I never really talked to him but he still greeted me when I sat down.

The room is very noisy, but as Johanna raises her hand to call everyone’s attention to herself, trying to start her speech, everyone quiets down,-

When she starts reading the manifesto of the factions everyone listens attentively, looking at her.

Everyone but one, I feel a gaze burning through my skin and I turn to Abnegation’s stands, to find his eyes.

Marcus watches me intently, stoic for a second, then he smiles, I shrink back from his gaze, cringing, his smile is empty, void of any emotion or good intent.

For other people, a smile is a sign of joy, maybe kindness but for him, it’s a warning, one he only gives when we’re in public, it means “Don’t try me”.

It’s right when Johanna finishes her speech and starts calling out the names of the choosers that I make my choice, I’m not going back to Abnegation, I can’t, I won’t, it doesn’t matter what faction I’ll end up in, it just can’t be Abnegation.

I’ve dedicated all my life to that faction and I love everything it stands for but I can’t live like this forever, I can’t go on knowing about the willing ignorance of the members, the insincerity of the Council…

After a while, the Amity girl beside me is called to choose, her name is Daisy Drayton.

I watch her as she makes her way down the stairs with confidence, stopping only once he reaches the bowls.

They all have their own table and each contains the element of a faction.

Johanna hands her a knife, similar to the one in the simulation test, and she cuts her palm with it.

A small red line forms on her small hand and, expression unbudging, she goes over to the furthest bowl,putting her hand over it and watching the blood drip.

I watch the small frizzle of blood come out of the bowl. She chose Dauntless.

Suddenly a roar of claps and shouts fills the room, Dauntless members are cheering her on, inviting her to sit amongst them.

She smiles, heading to her new faction without even looking back towards her old one. I admire her decision, it must have been hard if she’s so sure about it.

After watching her sit down and being congratulated by the other members, I’m convinced I know what I should choose.

I just hope it’s the right thing to do.

After a bit, Johanna calls my name and I stand up, trying to seem as confident as the girl before me as I make my way down the stairs.

I don’t dare to look at my father, I know that if I did I’d falter so I look ahead, towards my future.

When I near the bowls, Johanna greets me with a smile, handing me the knife.

When I reach to take it from her, she hesitates, leaning towards me “This is your time,” she whispers “Make your choice”.

I nod, then look straight at the bowls, they’re all perfectly lined up in front of me, from the left are soil, water, glass, stones and hot coals.

Amity, Erudite, Candor, Abnegation and Dauntless.

Everyone is looking at me now, I feel their eyes on my back, I stare at the bowls, then the knife, then the bowls again.

I can feel my heart thumping, my chest feels like it’s going to explode, I want to scream, run away and not choose but I still go on.

My hands tremble as I slice my palm open, the blood feels almost too hot now.

I straighten my arm over my faction’s bowl, waiting for the blood to drip, an abnegation staying in their faction, nothing new.

My gaze fixates on the bowl, I can hear its call, the grey rocks are the lure, trying to convince me to stay.

The rocks, they’re simple, small, modest and… Insignificant.

Do I really want to be this for the rest of my life? A grey spot in a world of colour, living like an ant, always forgetting myself for the greater good?

My arm jerks over the bowl on my right just before my blood spills on the rocks.

I hear the sizzling of the hot coals before I realize what I’ve done, an eerie smell fills my head and suddenly, it feels like I’m deaf.

The whole Dauntless stand is shouting and clapping for me, they’re cheering me on, calling for me to join them.

I’m paralyzed, my legs feel like wood and I just stare blankly at them for a few moments.

Dazed, my thoughts run to my brother, his choice and how I’ll never see him again.

When I finally walk towards the transfers’s stands I’m met by big pearly smiles and handshakes. I try not to falter, being as polite as I can.

When I sit, taking a breath of relief, a small voice surprises me “I’m Daisy Drayton” I turn to meet the warm eyes of the Amity girl from before, her hand extending to take mine.

I oblige and she leans over to place a kiss on my cheek, I instantly blush and she laughs.

It's Amity's form of greeting, I think to myself, I always forget about it even though I’ve been to Amity many times before.

Her handshake is firm, mine is quite the opposite “I’m Marian” I answer, trying to put on a smile, us Abnegants don’t do it often.

After that, we stay put, patiently waiting for the ceremony to end, watching as the remaining choosers make the decision that will shape them forever.

Some of them choose Dauntless, but most, opt for either Erudite or Amity.

When the last girl is called I realize that only two Abnegants transferred to this faction, as almost all of them stayed with their families, it’s me and another boy.

The last girl chooses Amity and, after cleaning the knife, Johanna starts her closing monologue.

I barely pay attention to it, instead I look around the room for a bit, then I focus my gaze on the Priors.

I don’t know why they’re here, both their children abandoned them just last year, It doesn’t make any sense…

Then Mrs Prior smiles at me, hers is a sincere smile, warm, exactly what I imagine a mother’s smile would be.

Her smile doesn't hide any second meaning, it’s simply reassuring.

When Johanna finally finishes her speech, the factions members start to disperse and the Hub slowly empties.

Not knowing what to do, I stand when the other Dauntless do and follow them out the room.

They’re running, I’m not sure why, but I follow them down the stairs and out the building.

My clothes make it difficult for me to keep the pace, but the other transfers also seem to be having a hard time so I don’t beat myself up too much for it.

I feel free, running carelessly, with no apparent destination, alongside my fellow transfers and the dauntless.

We’re like a flock of birds, flying together in the sky. I don’t know anybody here, but I don’t feel alone, for once.

It’s as if we’re one big entity, each of us is a bone in the skeleton of a much bigger creature.

For the first time in forever, I feel alive.

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n3v3r3v3rrr · 1 month ago

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11:48pm a venit ploaia si m-a apucats crisul..cred ca os as e inchdia site ca e plind e psuti care se jaoca luxuy cu pzoele altcuiva.. !!!!! asa afce retaba care oa re .. epste fraie..ca ciene rpoostul !!!!! asi da ele raua ennate pt ca ele ptueau vea totu bun si fumos … si afceua haosu si circu pe ine .. lee mrega lo cu regula arnajat pt ele !!!! .. deci eue ra zodia rac sie a mannca asta .. si ea era fecioara (e vrigian in alte limbi .. si ea era curva, eue ra virgina care nu ptue avea asa expinte de "Fete" ) .. cchestiiela stea care apr pe miene asa toxica mancarea ??DAr voic e drc amncati …. ca sa zic …. si er aos trie daca maananci animale care agndesc altfel..deci asta e afza cu ajpoenzii… n-a viata ca-i a lor profita de mine la amximc hair asa atre !!!diferenta ca ea re.. tp ca ea priestesi tareiste ianutnu ..euc e piesmc ?? eu cand mucnescs utn rpoasta cae riemste bataie !!!! cine nu ucneste are dreptul al "Scuze" sa priemasca !!!!! cand avema envoie de ceva eram clovnul int reaba ltora !!!!! cemai omti ??c am omis astea cu zombie, horor. si faptu ca ea era fecioaa cuva !!!!!! existaua ltii ianiten de mien si eicahri sutn ejgosi vuali de kkt !!!!!!! s asta e zieria lro nu-i eprmti prorpia viat si igiena .. asacum el apcle s-o fure ei !!!!!! ca sfeii inre gual ca ei trbeuei s-o aiba !!!!!!!

aa si faptu ca e cutmeur ing recia ca na-m maiavtu chefs a ept ca situ ca m zis asta .. da ii afecati buelitn si dientiatte nur amnea asa pe aici si tocmia in abuz si tocmia dientiatte altcuvia ????? ca merge ce pt cine .. c ala zfa sta eus utn edpepsiat pe toivul condamnata sia cuzata ca eu as fi .. !!!!!! aa eu nu am gasit lcod e avion am cautats ie ra steia aia cu rais .... i !!!!!! s ttoue ra sa ca o reflectie !!!!! cand eue ra scunsa si peiream in mzieriile astea !!!! asta nu pto sa scriu ca am enevz .. deci da sutn cosnteitna ca cineav ma-r fic onatc sa am scoata de aici .. dar .. nue ram cosnteitna ??? erma un clvonc are ceera jutor unor profitori care s ebcuurau !!!!!! deci kosrov asta in rusia eu nu supot..si maam lu ..cum o cehma.. soraya dar are alt nuem de familei ???? deci faah e azer. sic red ca era tot asa uan rticol care zicea ca ea era cu rusia .d.ar avd ca era acel nader ??? deci pobabil da am avzut demutl si am agdnit eu cea si nu-i amitnesc acum ..... aa sui eu nu suptoma atile astea europene .. rusia frnata uk nimic !!!! libile si cutluiel lor .. nu el supot ... dar cum ams cimbat eu . atitudinea cu tipul.. inca re a rams circula sta .. pe viat ema..ca la afza sta .. ei zic kkt de mien si am au la kkt .. sa zica sa afcc at vor asa .. !!!!!!! https://www.google.com/maps/@59.9107808,30.3075332,3a,75y,294.66h,89.33t/data=!3m7!1e1!3m5!1sI9v_OVYONS-T449_04yEXA!2e0!6shttps:%2F%2Fstreetviewpixels-pa.googleapis.com%2Fv1%2Fthumbnail%3Fcb_client%3Dmaps_sv.tactile%26w%3D900%26h%3D600%26pitch%3D0.6675147514940107%26panoid%3DI9v_OVYONS-T449_04yEXA%26yaw%3D294.65758816586896!7i13312!8i6656?entry=ttu&g_ep=EgoyMDI1MDUyMS4wIKXMDSoASAFQAw%3D%3D !!!!!! in akzakhstan nu-ia sa ruats i deja e 12 am https://www.google.com/maps/@59.9006789,30.3120291,3a,75y,236.68h,92.2t/data=!3m7!1e1!3m5!1sKy4NQ1TKH_JnJlY5kFvB6A!2e0!6shttps:%2F%2Fstreetviewpixels-pa.googleapis.com%2Fv1%2Fthumbnail%3Fcb_client%3Dmaps_sv.tactile%26w%3D900%26h%3D600%26pitch%3D-2.2028786447718858%26panoid%3DKy4NQ1TKH_JnJlY5kFvB6A%26yaw%3D236.67558816751605!7i16384!8i8192?entry=ttu&g_ep=EgoyMDI1MDUyMS4wIKXMDSoASAFQAw%3D%3D !!!!!!!! ce entlaitte au femeila lea sta ept in lux .la stai sutn drepturi pt fufe !!!!!! https://www.google.com/maps/@59.9167864,30.2984208,3a,75y,63.26h,91.33t/data=!3m7!1e1!3m5!1sWov9hQ7OuL_rZwHtzUj2aA!2e0!6shttps:%2F%2Fstreetviewpixels-pa.googleapis.com%2Fv1%2Fthumbnail%3Fcb_client%3Dmaps_sv.tactile%26w%3D900%26h%3D600%26pitch%3D-1.3277903409555307%26panoid%3DWov9hQ7OuL_rZwHtzUj2aA%26yaw%3D63.262397803444564!7i16384!8i8192?entry=ttu&g_ep=EgoyMDI1MDUyMS4wIKXMDSoASAFQAw%3D%3D !!!!!!! n-au copiica el trbeuei barabti staini ca ele sutn pet de lux !!!!!!!

deci estia lu kosrov https://www.google.com/maps/@59.9370711,30.3122589,3a,75y,75.72h,89.61t/data=!3m7!1e1!3m5!1sxNtpwYxDLnnFrj_71SQn5w!2e0!6shttps:%2F%2Fstreetviewpixels-pa.googleapis.com%2Fv1%2Fthumbnail%3Fcb_client%3Dmaps_sv.tactile%26w%3D900%26h%3D600%26pitch%3D0.39191948945403965%26panoid%3DxNtpwYxDLnnFrj_71SQn5w%26yaw%3D75.72041652762894!7i16384!8i8192?entry=ttu&g_ep=EgoyMDI1MDUyMS4wIKXMDSoASAFQAw%3D%3D !!!!! cu ochisoii aia !!!!! https://www.google.com/maps/@59.940236,30.3095288,3a,75y,301.67h,83.38t/data=!3m7!1e1!3m5!1sTtASwgO459Z3e1ntGUCl2A!2e0!6shttps:%2F%2Fstreetviewpixels-pa.googleapis.com%2Fv1%2Fthumbnail%3Fcb_client%3Dmaps_sv.tactile%26w%3D900%26h%3D600%26pitch%3D6.622600808073955%26panoid%3DTtASwgO459Z3e1ntGUCl2A%26yaw%3D301.67462790144634!7i16384!8i8192?entry=ttu&g_ep=EgoyMDI1MDUyMS4wIKXMDSoASAFQAw%3D%3D !!!!!!! nader era in rusia ca era rau ???? puteai vorbi cu mine chestuiil astea dar e vian al tienresele si modu meud e agndire ?? sia sta sie protugheza pe aici .. nu inteleg limab aia f seios.. sutn bnlocata in romana cahir asa nu inteleg nici o alta liba..paca ami itnelegam la o varsta !!!!! decie dicna zua al exprientele trecute.. a tecut rpea ult timp inca re am stata sa pe aici !!!!! atat d izolaat si loimitat din vietuie !!!!!! chetsie aveam spobiliattea s ainvata lte libmi sa vd alte cultui aici ??sau cu le cosnteintizezi ivneti ?? la afza sta obisnuia sa ma mir ca bulagria e asa evcina proape..dar e o atar "alien"pt mine !!!! tara staa rams in ruam ca oamenii sunt .. fufe prin altele in luxula ltor natiuni !!!!!!

ma utima pe aicic and cautam udend acu e maihela https://www.google.com/maps/@42.0595658,48.2885633,3a,75y,97.8h,89.55t/data=!3m7!1e1!3m5!1sgJQ_5P7jzBW_6iK1TyXa8g!2e0!6shttps:%2F%2Fstreetviewpixels-pa.googleapis.com%2Fv1%2Fthumbnail%3Fcb_client%3Dmaps_sv.tactile%26w%3D900%26h%3D600%26pitch%3D0.4516643257724837%26panoid%3DgJQ_5P7jzBW_6iK1TyXa8g%26yaw%3D97.8048314526463!7i13312!8i6656?entry=ttu&g_ep=EgoyMDI1MDUyMS4wIKXMDSoASAFQAw%3D%3Dcahir am trait ca un clovn in diatami cicu aici !!!!!! serios ca a sitm ca o ruina .. de nu mai smci nu ami pto deloc !!!! nua m uden sa ma mai uti pe ahrtile ale anu mai suport nimic ... sic e dracu tot oti ..ca au schimbat zpoeel de cuer a ici eps trada ..asiniel albeen cae aperau la arzvan sie rua nu trecut la celalalt vecin ena nicu .. acu nu mai apr amsiniel alea.apr nsite copii care se ajoca ca rmin !!!! pe al virgil la pooarat si m-am agdnit la fza sta ..aeva ivrgil un copil mic ..cand eiseam..si -am agdnit a ab eu rma icnshai ici si toti se vobeua prostiiole cu emild espre mine !!!!!!! eu nu aveam reusre umaniatre..cac iens a mi el dea cand ei fac sa ??f serios cu asta !!!! acum chair poti sa-sic rii sa-miz ici daca sa fac sa fiu cuvna.. dar pteuati sa va ocaupti de mien cand erma copil ?? isna trbeuai sa fiu ina sa cic !!!!! de ratata !!!!!! ratarea e a ema cas clovnul .. in ktkuri care nu imni aplc nu le veua.d.ar asta e disatctie tp altii si bcuruie cae ei trbeui s-o aiba !!!!!!!! cum sa am sit??de ce merue chetsii fienriaoe pt mine d ce tbrueis a a bata sa fie armat de sex pe capu eu ??da atatia ania fosta rmatd e sex pe capu meu .. atat de mutli ani am stat aici ca intr-un cimitir faa viat psoibila !!!!!!!! ca nunu am lcurui nu am dinc e sa atersic.. ca profitati de persoan ema ca totu e numai tp voi e locu si viat voastra ici .. sunt o amaarat obloigata ina ltii bagata !!!!

3:39pm nu am drpturi tp ca nu sunt poasta..rpsotii si proastele au dreptul sa isi aa crima azboil sa castieg adevaat viata sa o fure ei !!! emil nu-mie ste apritne ci un partenr de ktk de care nu ptoi sdcapa. la za sta el daca e rpsot sau destept .. ae rolu de tata sa isi aleaga cum reva sa ma atretze.. eu nu pto avea viat sepaat ca pto avea numai abietii de ktk sa fie ei rpsotii sa nu ma alse sa atroisc.. si nu pto avea susreel sa otbin clurrui princiapale in viaat .c.a aau rpostiid reptul sa ama aiba pt a otien lcuruile optionale !!!!!! da bagi tu curva ins eam sa-id ai pols a-iu dai abni ..ca ea deja e o casa si abie !!!!! de la ltii !!!!!!!! inca zu meu a abagti ins eama ca sa scoatetui ifnromateid e la mien ca sa-mni dati odien ca sa -mi spuenti ce sa fac … si nu pto sa te bag eu pe tien la spcuarie..ca drepturile sunt pt tine acvre nu te alfii ians a situatie de fiica .. nu sutn fiica.. sutn exploatat . dar aici sutn drepturile lor .. asurpa eprsoanei mele.. drepturile mele nu exista pt ca nu pto sa oblig pe nimeni sa-ide a casa baie bani de ahine !!!!!!!! ssi cand mucensc .. e o mcuan sociala de roasta ca cien e rpostul..sunteti toti prostii .. dar ma aveti utiolizata uin meseriile voasrtre..ca voia veti acteole si viata aia !!!!!!!! si salriu nue xista t mine c.a cine e rpostul… ce pto afec cu tienlgeinat ema.. nu pot s-ami fiu proropriul dzeu care sa-mi dea abni mie !! ca al fza sat e dreptul tau .. te-au lsataf apritniis a emrgi la scoala ?? a fostd perpetu staus a facis ex cu abieti preferati .a. fostd reptu tau sa o obligi mama sa-ti afac amncare sa-ti faca baie sa-tui dea ahien .. !!!!!!!! e nu avema .. nnici cand ema minoa nua veam.. avema ohoti sa stea ep viat ema dsiocutand kkt ..tp ca voi sunteiti psotii .. si tp ca m-atr jefuti umilti si omoat ina semena hal emeu !!!!! al zfasta ed reptu vostrud e rposti sas jefuioti sa oorati !!!!!!!! pt cujne e elbeiuateta,… pt cine usi apote cumpaar prorpia casa … si mai tinai trbeuei sa obligi pe altiis a rvea sa-ti dea tie banii !!!!!! dar te lasa sa tareisti in lcou tproivit sa otbiia ctele tproivite ..ca tue sti pzida ..!!!!!!!! le apcle al barabtic a-i minoa suerioaar ..ca re aprinti sa se giniejasca de igiena si frumsuetea aei !!!!!! si nu pto sa ma ocupd e rporpia iogiena inc odntiilea stea..ca sutneit atea de rposti cud reptur numai tp vois a am veti in spcuarei de sclava obligata !!!!!!!!! eu nua md reptu al refuz .c.a vois utenti armat de sexz si atad e rposti care trbeuie enpaarts a am aiab pe mione !!!!!!!!!!! emila steptat sa se asigue ca am ciclu ca-nie r au ca nua md etsul ceia.c.a sa orpeasca apa !!!!!!!! asafec emreua..sa e el atent are gija e destept .. ca un dsuman cud rpeturi epste envoiel emle..ca nici nu a uden dracus a fug sa scap de el.. ca num,ai el apote avea casa bani viata barabti numai tp el.. ca el e taraf cud repturi .. inca zu eu el e taraf care trbeuei sa am aiba de sclav !!!!!!!!

4:17p poveste dina sta cu sfanat captuata si toturata chair asa ... de toat viata !!! cum va pcle sa fiti sa aveti totul !!!!! eu nu am voei sa atreisc ca dreturile sunt numai pt voi eu tbeuisa am otftic sa fiu os luag ofticata !!!!!! sunt o sclaav totuata sta erma ici..oa bzuata !!! da cien sa dienfiice sa schibme situatia ??? drepturiel sutn nuymai tp fetelc are facs ex eu tbrueis a a fotic.ca a dacu apote avea sex viata dzue lege poltiie totu numai pt ea.. inca zu menu.. eu sunt femela care nu paote avea ca trebuei sa fius clavuls a am fotic !!!!! sa-id reosc sa a pula sa fiu abiatul ??? baiatul apote avea abni si l;beiartte ..eu n u .. dreptur t fetelc are facs ex !!!!!! pe in tbeuei enpaats a an foticatic a voia vetis exul bloeiratea abni. pt ine xista numai rpsoti copii si curve ..sa el fius clava !!!!!!!! ca sta sutn aici ..captiva sclava buzata !! scspeciasl pt voi ..cum va pcel sa vetis fitnii la pciiaore chinuita si matrata .. pt tara de posti ca iia juat dzue ei emrita !!ca ei sutn rpasotii si aud reptuls a amd elcare retardata sa ,mama omaoe ca vor ei !!!!!!!! avetid reptul al vrturi ... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aa de atyatia ani n-am rvtu sa avd ce sex maia fcea si ala prin ata de curve .. ca tara rpoduce rpoisttiuate de lxus ecial tp poula lui !!!!!! sutn femela in tarasta ... in atar rposttiuatelor .. ca sa fiue u dsuamnnul scalav afa dientiatte .. !!! intr-o atard e rposttiuate care emrita sex bani lbeiatte ..eu nu !!!! cum av pcel sa fiti armata de sex !!!!!!!!! ALA TE PALETA AF SA TIPI LA MIEN CA TU ESTI BAINCA ?????? SI EU NU STAINC E BAINCA !! CAUM A PCLE SA VA JHUCATID E A MITNAL CARE NU STIE CINE DRACUS UTNETII SIO CE SEX AFCE VOI !!!!!!! PE VOI AV CESTE PRITNU CU PUAL SI LUXU MANCAREA UNA .. CA EU TBEUI SA FIUS CLAVA JEGOASA IN CASA UNUIA SA HAL DE CUPLU !!!! LA SMTIO CA LE EMRGE MSITOUL CU FICIA PE MINE !!!!!!!!! CA SA AM FOTIC.C.A VOIA VETI ABRABTISA VA RCEASCA CU PUALS I EU SUNT AHNDICAPAT CARE NSU-I EPRMNTEI NICI VIATA NICI EPNSIE DE AHNDICAPAT DEVAATA !!!!!!!! CA SA NUZ ICVI CE BIENE PT EA CAND O FUTE CA SA NU ZICIC E BINE II AFCE CA O FUTE CA SA NU ZICI !!!!! DA PTEUAI STA F LSINTITIT ITNE RPOSTITUATE .D.E CE TE JOCID E A VIOLU ??? IN RROMANIA ... !!!!!! VA BATETI JCOD E IEN CUC ICUL ALA .. EU NU PTO AVEA VIAT REALA.. AV PRIVESC ONLINE VIETIEL DE SEX !!!!!

10:15pm parca am o obliagtei sa continuisa av srevsc cicul..ca vois utnetii untii ina mrele etatru si va emrge mreu cu teatrul !! erma tisna de rpefacuti.. va merge castiagti realiteta merue voi !!! te jcoi etatru cumca ltcineva este "Eu"si asta poduce ilzuie diversiune .sutn cosndeiiata "distruagtorukl" nu sutn denficata ..dican uza al etatrulc ar-el jucati este mine !!!! seiros ca toate sutn curvele sie xista numai pl pt ele .. nu sutn ncii fata nici baait .. cume ra chetsia ai..cum av pcle circuol "gloumelor" numai "glume" .. maiti luat viat in cum va pcle cu "glumele" !!!!!!!! https://www.bing.com/search?q=un+barbat+adevarat&PC=U316&FORM=CHROMN cum av cple ..retgula lui ce e si ce nu !!!!!!! sutnetia rmat de sex.. si nus utne u cuva .. sunt virgian sclava in tar de rpostituate !!! .. eram osfanat in deintioateta de "Cancer" sie a eras o curva in dentiattea de vrigina !!!! cums utntii ivnatatis a va copotatisa agnditi .. cand lcuruile nu sunt asa..dar av pcle cu circul si va emrge cu elaiteta !!!!!!!! si fata de la evcinu tipa "nesittiule mia- fost mial de tine " !!!!!!! tot a vobveste asa ??Va e a mila de romanai caa e o atar de sex !!!!!!! face fetiet tp sex … !!!!!!! decie a ca mama nu am ajuta cu nimic .. iid a nuai nimimul de a fie vie si xista la minim nivel sub toata luema.. rpofita de mien ala mxim am re obliagat al rolud efiica int rebruile sale rosnale..de eleg se ocuap barabtul "abuziov" ..ea ca femeie rpfoita.. eu ca persoana sutn abuzata la amxim si .. nua susre... e oc ehsteid e susre !!!! surse !!!!! euis e ajcoa cde a drpturiel cuc urvele.. se itneleg cu potlia sa puan abiatu la sucarie ... ea are voei bleiratet bani viatd e toate .e.xclsu cormtpaomentu ei .. inca zu meu ei joaacetatru .. ma aczua de kkt ... ai sunt obligaat la "conatct" !!!! da cu in lco sa am elaizata viata casa ema.. eu nu tpeuam eva viat de om viat reala.. pt ca nu e in tepreua mea ee sub etatrul jcuatd e altii..in etatrul lro eu am rpoobleme !!!!!!

v https://www.google.com/maps/@35.6913131,139.6879595,3a,90y,246.39h,92.3t/data=!3m7!1e1!3m5!1sNAnHAc-cV3L7sUjBI-Fwzg!2e0!6shttps:%2F%2Fstreetviewpixels-pa.googleapis.com%2Fv1%2Fthumbnail%3Fcb_client%3Dmaps_sv.tactile%26w%3D900%26h%3D600%26pitch%3D-2.2950315052136716%26panoid%3DNAnHAc-cV3L7sUjBI-Fwzg%26yaw%3D246.3865339915153!7i16384!8i8192?entry=ttu&g_ep=EgoyMDI1MDUyMS4wIKXMDSoASAFQAw%3D%3D 11 pm https://www.google.com/maps/@35.6953383,139.6881534,3a,75y,293.84h,88.93t/data=!3m7!1e1!3m5!1sZhMLfnX3wc-9_iuc-eqO3w!2e0!6shttps:%2F%2Fstreetviewpixels-pa.googleapis.com%2Fv1%2Fthumbnail%3Fcb_client%3Dmaps_sv.tactile%26w%3D900%26h%3D600%26pitch%3D1.0719861625349125%26panoid%3DZhMLfnX3wc-9_iuc-eqO3w%26yaw%3D293.83888295525173!7i16384!8i8192?entry=ttu&g_ep=EgoyMDI1MDUyMS4wIKXMDSoASAFQAw%3D%3D !!!!!

26mai luni 12 am

de ce itrna psiica inc asa in naopte ploioasa ..de ce afdce drumul ??? al cui ste copiluca nd potlicienii staini isi bat joc asa ??? daca si reza pahlvi isi abte joc ciend c e apritnele cand ala re oa rmatd curve sa-si bata joc de mine ??? preuspun ca amicamea vea nsit diplome .. cand voui pteuti sta in parlamente fara .. mia-ti controlarts ituati ca sa le aiab ltii .. nu ni-ati dat voie sa le obtin tp mine isnami !!!!!!!!!! deci 1986… la peiman, daius faroug .. susana, inna .. sia ndre tate .. mi-ama minti ce s-a itnmaplt pe tpua celais cic ..ma inconujrua .d.ece?? va paletste fgguevrnua ericna sa atrtii circu asta ??Va da comutere si bticoini ??? ca afcetia sa circ !!!!!!! da am rugam al dzeu sa am jtue .. pe mien.cand eu ermna inre guald e sclava in folsou altora la schibm de dienficiare !!! am rugam ald zeu .. si nu m-a ajutat nicidoat mia- dat numai ghinion si ifnweriori sa profite de mine !!! de ce regual ca tbrueis a rpofitati voi si eu nu pto sa atersic drac varsta si nivleu meu spoihic ??? itnelgienta explaoatt pt itenlgeinta ici..c a voui and eclarti mintala si retardata .. proasta sis tati f bine ca prostii ertadarati ca voi va ajuat evreiis a veti acet sa fiti voi serfii vietii .. av ajuta veveii ..ca ei cotnoelaza sistemele de comuncaitie nua evau voeis a existe ca trebeuis a fuie vreiia cceoptatisa fie cotnrolu loro.. nus tiu neu rua sisteme de comunciatie cand am fost adusa ici aapre ca sa inegistreze pezenta ea ici si nu ma pteuai scoate si mtua ca era o viata schimabat asa?????? 2025 .. 2012… 1999 , 1986 !!!!! 12:55am

asta da e un abzu adevarat .da.r a esuti sa atie depturile ele sa-i cotnroelze chai as alocu dienficarea reusrele de vietuire !!!!!! da e un abuz adevaat .dar prefacutii aobtintu teatrul de trait peste mione !!! v-a ems sa erptindetica se tinampla ltceva .. va-a emrs cuetarul.. nus e tinapla viata ema..c a va erge voua cu circul peste !!!!!

2:39am daa ploua inca sa si e f grav..si numai rpobleme dina stea totue gunoi epriculos sia sa fost emreu .. situati era Raranjata iansa fel icnat sa paar ca ltcienva era victiam in ceva care eu tbeuia sa paletsc sa rpooduc .. abuzau de mien, juecau etatru si ele mrega cu situatai epste viata mea … ca nici nu mai pteuam eva loc si identitate … … deci era usa blocata nu pteuam sa itnru in camera..s ia sta e a3a sau a4a mai mult.. oara cand imi vine sa vomti duapc e ama mcnat spaghete !!!!! emil e chai asa ins ituati ca la spucarei nut rbeuei sa mcuenasca el al coeris !!! la adapsot .. familai l-a lasat stapan in prorpiul grajd ..e asa ruian epirculaosa aici..si el e asa staopan epiculos.cine ia- dus fetiat de uden a laut-o o ??? el aprea victima..dar eu trbuia enpaats a imi eptec viata in a lui ???de ce viat ema in a lui ???? pt ca nu e in a lui..e corpu meu limitat la cume viata inca sa si luema lui !!! e diatami situati .anstera lu fisia pe care sutn obliagat s-or eprezitn s-o paletsc eu ca persoaan !!!!!!!

2:15pm

aa deci drpeturiel sunt numai t pefacuti ca ei au luema pegatiat sa le foere rolulo !!!!! patick nue clovn !!!! si eil mi-a stricatc eaiul. eiri a alut capacu de la oala de ceai sa-l puna epo altceva .. era goala oala .. l-a murdarit..azi mi-a rpisn ceaiul !!!! facetientuionat emrue isi afce rpostiile pe viat ema si eu nu pto avea viats epoarat …ca rtebuei enapart sa-si afac el postiile pe mine !!! si maia era ceva dar m-a enervat cuc eiaula cum !!!!! ca nu mai merge coptueru icna 3 zile … si chetsai ca oganizatiiel de drpeturi siocpu lroe s a atce in mien..dar jaoac etatru cu altii !!!!!

abzua d ine in etatrulca -el jaoca... au eir oluf seros sas e ocuepd e mien cu abuz sietatru !!! ca ciene psotul si cine face totul !!!!!! ca cien iie dve .c.a eu rma dzeul sclav care ii evdea si le afcea totu cum el aplcea !!! si am refer la rpofesoaa de matematcia ca i-a emrs f bine servicuuol ... si ivnatatoea !!! el-a mers f bine cus erviciul ep viat ema pe situtaai ea sacolara .pe eeducatia mea.am invatt ca-sa o ghinionsitaraetardata ... se jcuau cu mine !!!!!!! dar eu epird viata devaat in jocurile lor de pefacute !!!!!!!

a venti sa bata in geam ca fiebrea apa de ceai ..sia cum ea sa ma baat me ma amenitna cu aaatai si scou pe strada !!!!!!!!!! NU8 PTOS A SUAN LA PIOTISIUE AJUTO SUNT ABZUATA ARA DIENTIATTE SI BATJCOOIA DE UN MICNINOS ????????

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