#trauma is not a checkmate for this btw

[daisy-mooon]

some of you aren't cool gay rights activists. some of you just needed a reason to justify your unreasonable hatred of religion so you don't look like a bad person so you picked "defending gay rights". it's gotten to the point where if a religious person supports gay rights, you will rip them to shreds. supporting gay rights means supporting the rights of gay religious people too, but some of you can't accept that because it means that your excuse for mindless hatred is suddenly worthless.

[whoa-where-did-the-pancakes-go]

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OH MY GOODNESS

[dangermousie]

Duy Beni ep 17

For those who don’t know what Duy Beni is about, it’s about four kids from a poor neighborhood who get to go to the fanciest private school in Istanbul, though they’d be better off going to the roughest school in the worst slums with all the murder, abuse, sexual assault and god knows what else is going on.

The two main characters are Ekim, a strong-willed poor girl who only enters the school to find out who is responsible for the hit and run that severely injured her BFF Leyla and Kanat, the seeminglygolden boy of the school who has to deal with a horrifying household run by a monster of a father that treats Kanat as a golden child and by that I mean constantly makes him pick whether daddy gets to abuse Kanat’s mom or Kanat’s brother Aziz. Kanat and Ekim are two very pretty people, but I confess my shipper heart belongs to Aziz x Leyla. Though honestly, both ladies must be really fond of hard work - Kanat is as unhinged as he’s gorgeous, and he’s vvvv gorgeous, and Aziz is literally mentally ill, all thanks to daddy.

The story is crazy soap of course, but I do love that (a) for once love isn’t enough, people with trauma and issues will actually plan to go to therapy! and (b) not one but TWO crazy secondary girls - Leyla AND Melissa - decide that actually no, Kanat will never love them so why not move on with a guy who will?

Anyway, moving on to ep 17. I kinda love that Aziz kidnaps 6 people at gunpoint to basically tell them Leyla is his soulmate. Kid is crazier than a bag of weasels and I adore him so much!

Side note - love Melissa’s boys moving in unison to shield her. God, I know it’s Turkey but gal should resolve that love triangle via a threesome.

Also, I love that their big love is geeking out over obscure books!

Awwww, get someone who loves you for your kinda psycho, seriously damaged, smart and awkward self!

Show summed up in one sentence.

Anyway, there is not enough therapy in the world for poor Aziz. I admire Leyla’s dedication to getting a fixer upper. Joking aside tho, I do love that this drama’s new writers’ tack is not extreme constant abuse turns you into hopeless psycho who must be put down the end (which I swear OG writer was going for and was really sticking in my craw) but that extreme constant abuse will give you serious mental issues and damage but you can be fixed, you can be worthy of love etc!

Like!!!! The guy is genuinely mentally ill. The amount of damage he’s had is in general horrific because this is a guy who knows his abuser monster father has kidnapped the girl he loves and literally is having difficulties unfreezing and rescuing her or even telling someone about it so they’d rescue her.

Jesus H. Christ on a pogo stick.

I love the two Azizes - the better and more damaged one - debating rescuing Leyla from his monster father.

The fact that any part of him thinks that constant beatings is proof of love? Yikes. YIKES.

That is something I caught way earlier btw. I found it pretty telling that even tho he treated Kanat as the golden child and Aziz as the scapegoat, in the past generation he himself was Aziz and his brother was Kanat in terms of grandfather’s treatment. And I started wondering how much was Kanat being made into a golden child and how much loathing of his past self he was taking out on Aziz and how much actually horrifying grooming of Aziz into Riza Mark 2.

And then his good self says “checkmate!” and eeeeeee!!!!

[kinderorchestra]

kak dan, minta rekomendasi manhwa dong (yg minim porn dan lebih ke plot)

saat ini yang belum ada pornnya aku kepikiran 2, salah satunya udah aku review di twitter sih:

lost in the clouds

ceritanya anak sma (skylar/haneul) yang suka ngambil foto crushnya (chanil), tapi ketahuan sama temen si crush (cirrus/hyunwoon) yang narsis dan ngerasa lebih ganteng. kemudian cirrus malah ngeblackmail dia dan kinda ngebully, semacam dijadiin budak gitu, tapi gak too much. (meskipun tetep nyebelin)

alurnya cukup kompleks dan awalnya aku pikir gak masuk akal… kenapa gara2 ngambil foto2 inosen aja ampe skylar mau dibully, ternyata back storynya ngena banget sumpah. trus sifat kekanak2an si cirrus juga surprisingly justifiable. aku suka karakter narsisnya digambarkan dengan baik.

mungkin karena tokoh utamanya masih pada bocil sekula, jadi belum ada porn, atau mungkin gak bakalan ada, idk (tapi artistnya punya histori bikin bokep gak masuk akal btw, jadi wajar kalo antisipasi porn juga). so far dari season 1 yang udah kelar gak ada hint menuju ke sana sih. season 2 lagi ongoing dan mereka masih sekolah btw.

pizza delivery man

ini tentang cowo yang kerja serabutan buat bayar utang bapaknya. dia jadi pizza delivery man dan nganterin pizza di apartemen mewah, trus ketemu sama pengangguran tajir. somehow dia malah jadi orang yang nemenin si pengangguran tajir ini buat terapi psikologis (dia nganggur karena ada trauma).

yang ini aku baru selesai baca. season 1 gak ada bokep sama sekali. jujur ini surprising banget, soalnya dari umur karakter2nya dan plotnya, sungguh bisa aja diselipin bokep sana sini, tapi authornya sabar banget. aowkaowoakwoak

story wise, ini vanilla banget. gak ada yang problematik, gak ada yang red flag. kalau suka cerita vanilla, mungkin bisa baca ini. bahkan lost in the clouds yang tokohnya bocil2 aja lebih vulgar karena banyak adegan berantem/darah.

honorary mention yang kayaknya bakal bikin orang bosen karena aku ngomongin ini terus:

checkmate

mcnya (soohyun) dulu punya orang yang dia benci waktu sma karena orang itu udah ganteng, bisa semua hal, dan selalu ranking 1 di sekolah, bikin soohyun jadi siswa nomer 2 sampai lulus. dia benci orang ini (eunsung) sampe 10 tahun berlalu, tapi kemudian dia nemu berita bahwa eunsung ini kesandung skandal karena ngerusak lukisan yang dipamerin di art exhibition pelukis terkenal. soohyun ini orangnya obsesif dan creepy banget sebenernya, dia resign kerja dan jadi jurnalis buat ngeliput eunsung dan bikin eunsung tunduk ke dia supaya bikin soohyun ngembaliin citranya jadi baik di mata publik.

aku suka cerita ini karena dua karakternya dominan dan unhinged. dua2nya red flag. ada rape tapi cara soohyun coping up aneh dan unik. i think this is my most fav bl manhwa. ceritanya menurutku unik dan artistnya berani ngambil tema yang gak umum. dan tropemya enemies to lovers, tapi in between alurnya macam kebalik gitu, idk how to explain it. 😭 amount bokepnya decent. dan bokep2 setelah ngewe pertama mereka (aku gak fancy yajg pertama) itu semua bokep seleraku. 😔👍

[reginamillls]

for the prompts: nile & nicky playing chess, nile is obviously winning and joe finds it hilarious

asdgdsadsga I literally know nothing about chess btw

...

Joe watches from the other mood, amused, as he takes in the sight of his husband biting his lower lip in concentration. There’s a furrow in his brow that shadows his bright eyes slightly and a slight downturn to his lips. He’s not angry or frustrated, Joe would know those emotions better than anyone else, but he was very determined to win his game of chess against the newest addition to their family. 

Too bad he was clearly losing. 

Nile moves her knight, trapping Nicky’s king and essentially winning the game. She smiles up brightly at him, a little smug, but very relaxed compared to how she used to be with them their first few months together. Nile is finding her place in their family and the realization that she’s opening up to them so easily makes Joe smile warmly. He loved his new sister with his whole being, a feeling he knows Nicky shares equally.

Nicky moves one of his few pieces, being too stubborn to admit defeat early, and only snorts out a laugh at Nile’s proudly exclaimed “checkmate.” 

Joe catches Nicky’s eye as Nile talks about the food Nicky will have to make her as the result of him losing yet another bet, and winks at his husband knowingly. Nicky narrows his eyes in return, a mock scowl graces his features and Joe laughs loudly from where he’s standing in the doorway. 

“I should be fortunate that you didn’t bet away all our money again,” Joe says as he crosses the room, putting a hand on Nicky’s shoulder as he inspects the finished game board. “You keep him humble Nile, thank you.” 

“If it means I get to pick out dinner I will gladly beat Nicky at any game.” Nile’s smile is radiating, bright in a way that makes everyone want to smile as well. Nicky and Joe share in her contagious happiness, feeling a little bit lighter in her presence, feeling a little bit more hopeful. 

Andy is still mortal, Booker is still gone, and the memories of Merrick's lab still haunts their dreams. Their trauma isn’t going to go away soon, and their problems are still very much real, but they have each other. 

They can take moments like these and remember to breathe, to be human, to be a family. 

Nile helps them remember why they do what they do and Joe and the rest of his family will never stop being grateful that the universe gifted them with such a sister as loving and good as Nile.

“I will make your dinner as agreed, but I refuse to call it pizza.” Nicky exclaims over his shoulder as he makes his way to the kitchen, pausing to give Joe a quick kiss to the corner of his mouth. 

That night Joe hides his laughter behind his glass as Nicky and Nile argue over the merits of a Chicago Deep-dish Pizza, and already has requests for different toppings for the inevitable time Nicky will have to make it again. 

[lucky-jiku]

OKAY I’M NOT OKAY.

RoosterTeeth why...

Why did you do this to me?

Spoilers below the cut.

The start of this episode was very expected. I realized that it would have to pick up right where it left off from E13. 

I can’t be the only one who expected Cinder betraying Neo and her lying to Salem, right? Because I already knew that this was going to happen the moment Neo decided to trust her. It’ll be interesting to see what happens to RWBY + Jaune and Neo in the next season.

Also can someone please explain where NORA is? Because the only thing we can assume is that she went through the portal to Vacuo, but I didn’t see her there with Ren, Oscar, and Emerald. Maybe she did and is just somewhere else? idfk I just hope she’s okay.

EDIT: Because I’m stupid... I just re-watched it with my roommates and saw Nora banging on the portal. So she’s good, but definitely might think that Jaune and the others are dead because they didn’t make it through.

BUT ON THE NOTE OF BEING OKAY...

I am horribly wounded at what happened with Penny. I had the feeling she would die because of the death flags that were placed upon her (after her getting her real body and shit like that). 

But having Jaune help her most definitely did not help Jaune. Gods I can only imagine what it’ll be like to tell Ruby that Penny is gone.... I will cry even more. I did actually cry during this episode... something that happens a lot with RWBY so it seems.

Also speaking of deaths, my gods... Vine sacrificing himself tore me apart... and seeing how it tore Harriet apart made it worse. I’m happy that Marrow, Harriet, and Elm survived. But, Vine deserved to live just as much as everyone else... poor man. His sacrifice will not be forgotten.

Also can we assume that Watts is dead too? Based on what happened at the end with him being trapped and not being able to break the glass, he’ll eventually burn to death or suffocate. And even if he is able to find a way out, there’s no telling how long he’d last since Atlas fell. With that being said, can we also assume Ironwood is dead? We didn’t see him escape the falling city and, with the water flooding in, I doubt he had time to get out. He’d likely drown trying.

CRWBY literally was like “you want trauma, we’ll give you trauma” and decided to kill like... 5 characters (Hazel, Penny, Watts, Vine, and Ironwood... am I missing an--- WAIT I forgot Jacques.... oh that’s right nobody cares and everyone is happy he died, right? lolololol)

That sudden realization that we have no clue what happened to Pietro and Maria. Granted, I think most of us assumed the worst and assumed they both perished when Amity fell. But, who knows...? They could have both survived. At least that’s the hope. 

Also, Cinder said something along the lines of “And that’s... checkmate” before she left with Salem. Very much a reference to the opening sequence with Ironwood being on a chess board.

Speaking of the opening, I was wrong in my predictions that the order for the fall would match. It was only slightly off (with Ruby falling before Weiss). But, the post-credits scene with Crescent Rose stuck in the sand(?) is very much a mirror of what we saw in the opening with it stuck in the ground. I wonder what that place is btw. It looks interesting and kinda funky.... I like it but I’m also concerned about it.

Alright.... now that we’ve got my episode thoughts and raging out of the way, lemme get to the shit that made me fucking cry:

- Penny’s death... Obviously I have an attachment to our sweet angel and seeing her suffer like she did this episode made me want to scream. I had my hands over my mouth the entire time because I was so worried and I didn’t want to scream. When she interacted with Winter to give the Maiden powers to her, I burst into tears. Especially with the line that Penny stated: “I’ll be part of you”. That’s a direct reference to what Winter told Penny when she received the powers initially from Fria (if not being a direct re-quote... I can’t remember if it is or isn’t right now).

- Jaune’s reaction to what happened with Penny... Obviously our boy Jaune has been through a shit ton of trauma in the past five volumes. He loved Pyrrha dearly and lost her to Cinder. Now he had to help someone die.... and he saw Penny as a very close friend. Obviously the trauma from having no other choice but to “kill” her is going to weigh heavy on his mind. In fact, he might be the one who has to tell Ruby and that’s going to be even more heartbreaking. Jaune has had some serious character development and I cannot wait to see what is in store for him in V9.

- Winter’s reaction to Weiss falling + how she reacted around her family... Winter has really been a stoic character since we first met her. I was happy to see her finally gain a more “human” side (citing that she said she was the machine/robot this episode) and let her emotions out. Seeing her break after her sister fell caused me to break as well. She and Blake both turned that sadness into rage and determination, but Winter had a better handle on it because she realized what she had to do was important. She probably also thinks that Weiss is dead (since she has no idea what exists down there or if anything at all does exist down there). Adding on to that, when she saw her family (Willow and Whitley + Klein) was heartbreaking. She will have to tell them eventually and when she does, I’m sure Willow will be broken even more.

- Qrow’s reaction... You couldn’t hear what he was saying when he heard something in his earpiece, but you could tell what he was told by his reaction. And just by reading his lips, you could tell he was calling out for Ruby and possibly Yang (it was hard to tell, but I would assume he was saying Yang’s name as the second thing he said). He’s already distraught by Clover’s death last volume. Now he’s saddened by Vine’s sacrifice. And now he’s thinking that both of his nieces have died. The poor man has suffered enough. Please just let him heal, CRWBY. We need him to be happy. :(  

Edit because I forgot this part for a second. Fuck my mind lmao:

- Harriet’s agony and Elm’s pleading when Vine made up his mind.... between Harriet’s agonized screaming and Elm’s basically begging her friend not to sacrifice his life, I had so many emotions. I wanted to cry and I did. I felt so bad for those two. They had to deal with the loss of Clover and now they’ve got to deal with the loss of Vine. It’s heartbreaking.

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Welp... hiatus time and then onward to V9. Any predictions y’all? I know it’s early, but I feel like now’s a great time to start theorizing and formulating what could possibly be thrown our way... But, as we learned with this volume, CRWBY is willing to throw anything at us... and I mean anything.

[thecloserkin]

fic rec: if wishes were horses, we would rule the world by epicureanEmpath

fandom: Marvel

pairing: Pietro Maximoff/Wanda Maximoff

word count: 35k

Is it canon: Yes

Is it explicit: No

Is it endgame: Yes

Is it shippable: Yes

This fic was written in 2013 (Avengers: Age of Ultron saw theatrical release in 2015) and thus is not MCU canon-compliant. Pietro and Wanda Maximoff are mutants. “They have superpowers” is the one detail that all the comics and movies agree on, and usually those innate talents are enhanced by torture/experimentation. The premise of this story is that they were not born mutants—or rather, that Wanda was born with the power to alter reality through “wishes” and in a moment of weakness she grants Pietro’s entreaty to “make me faster than anyone else.” I wish he was like me, she thinks, and to her sorrow she dooms them both to the inevitable fate of mutants in this fallen world. Unleashing a wish, you see, is kind of like firing a revolver. The recoil from her wish lands Pietro in the hospital and the twins, eventually, in Herr Doktor’s laboratory as experimental subjects/victims.

What this fic does superbly is depict powerlessness as the defining quality of childhood:

In that moment Wanda saw that nothing she could say would convince Mother of the truth.

And make no mistake, they are children, they spend 5x more time thinking about ice cream than sex, and the cruelest thing Herr Doktor does is take away five years of their childhood. FIVE YEARS. That’s like, a third of their lives. It’s cruel that at first their parents disbelieve their claims re: superpowers; then when the twins are fucking kidnapped by Nazis and locked up as human lab rats, their parents don’t even coming looking for them—Mother and Father have swallowed the lie that Pietro and Wanda ran off. Adopted children do, sometimes. Man do you guys remember what it’s like to be a kid? Like a really small kid and you’re playing with a toy and someone comes along and makes you stop doing what you were doing and force you to, idk, eat broccoli instead? There is a convincing case to be made that this is why so many children are “picky eaters,” btw—because food is the one arena where they can exert some modicum of control over their lives. Sorry my point was that children are generally in a pretty powerless position, and that’s why Wanda’s newfound abilities are so gamechanging when they first manifest. Later, Wanda blames those same abilities for her captivity:

She hated her power most of all. Without it they would have gone on being Wanda and Pietro. Cookie dough ice cream whenever they could pinch it. Summers spent languid by the pool or buried hip deep in literature (for Pietro) and poetry (for Wanda)….Now Wanda barely remembered what a book smelled like. She couldn't recall the feel of the breeze, or a shirt's cotton caress on her skin. Only those few brief visits with Pietro had kept her anchored to herself. When she lost all hope and sought death in her soul, she could remember the brush of his hand in her hair and keep going, just for another minute, another hour, another day.

90% of the soul-crushing toll of her captivity lies in her separation from Pietro. At one point Herr Doctor promises her an hour alone with Pietro if she passes a test. A whole hour, she thinks—unheard of. But it’s all part of the test:

Herr Doktor had given no guidelines, laid down no rules. He never did. Wanda might perform perfectly throughout the meeting and still be denied that hour. All depended on the whim of Herr Doktor.

This is actually a tried-and-true strategy employed by those in authority against subjugated populations everywhere: keep ‘em guessing; set no firm rules that might be challenged or appealed; make them hang on your every whim, make them study your moods and concentrate all their energies on anticipating your displeasure.

“How did you say you keep control again? Suppressants?” “I have her brother too,” Herr Doktor said. He tipped Wanda's chin up with almost paternal care. “They are so fond of one another.”

The slimiest word in that sentence is paternal tbh. He feels paternal towards the twins, he’s just a benevolent parental figure hahaha NO. Ok so one day Pietro kisses Wanda during one of their brief visitations:

“Tomorrow,” Herr Doktor said, struggling to maintain calm, “he will be castrated. We cannot have you breeding little monsters, can we?” “If you touch him,” Wanda said, “I will wish you dead on the spot. How is the old heart doing, hm?” “My men have orders to shoot him if anything happens to me.” “If they shoot him, I will wish myself dead and be rid of this place – and you – either way.” His Adam's apple bobbed. She had him, for now.

Checkmate. You cannot win a game of chicken against someone who has nothing to lose, and Wanda’s only hostage to fortune is Pietro. If anything ever happens to Pietro all bets are off and Wanda becomes a loose canon.

They effect their escape!!! But the trauma of five years’ captivity is not so easily sloughed off. For one thing, they’re still minors but they can’t go back to their parents. They have no money, no job, nobody to turn to:

she almost wanted the sea to swallow her just so they could stop running. Herr Doktor would never find them at the bottom of the ocean.

Wanda missed colour … Wanda still dreamed in colour. And the colour was red.

This hurts so much. It’s a hard fic to read, not because there’s any graphic depictions of violence, but because the most effective form of torture is mental, and the whole story is limited-POV Wanda and we are really deep in her head and she is fucking petrified even after they break out of Herr Doktor’s lab. Here they are on the run and Wanda’s rediscovering something banal after being treated as subhuman for so long:

In the bottom drawer she found a compartment full of small, round black bundles. She tipped her head to one side and looked at them for a long time, unable to think what they were for. Finally she picked one up and pulled it apart. All at once the word came back to her. She had utterly forgotten about socks.

SOCKS she forgot about socks ohmygod it’s not like a lab rat would get to wear socks. The biggest casualty of their captivity is that Wanda store of trust in humanity is depleted. She feels like the society that allows somebody like Herr Doctor to exist is complicit in her and Pietro’s torture, and she ain’t wrong:

And yet the man below them was innocent. The man with the pickles, the police officers, the father, all of them were innocent in their ignorance. Herr Doktor had deceived them as thoroughly as he had deceived Wanda. How many times had Herr Doktor gone out to the store in those five years? How could the cashier have known, just by looking at those patronly eyes, that here was a madman who kept children bound like slaves in his laboratory?

She trusts Pietro and that’s it. Everybody else can go to hell. Pietro buys her a necklace!!! Well he steals her a necklace (they sneak into Wal-marts right before closing and sleep there at night), a delicate gold chain with a garnet bc Wanda’s all about repping the color RED in this story and I am here for it. There is something about brothers giving their sisters jewelry that hits all my buttons. I think because there is a social norm about men buying jewelry for the important women in their lives, including not just romantic partners but mothers and daughters too, so buying jewelry for your sister is technically unremarkable but it’s all about the context. One of my favorite scenes in Tabitha Suzuma’s Forbidden was when he scraped together the money from tutoring to buy her a surprise Christmas present and it was an engraved bracelet. Giving a woman in your life a really nice piece of jewelry is A Statement, but is it a statement of “I love you platonically” or “I love you and you’re my soulmate”? Am I the only one who is soft for this ambiguity?

ANYWAY Charles and Erik stumble on the twins so they are going to be taken into the bosom of the mutant community and they are going to be just fine.

[realignbyredvox]

okay so we're back to the "homoSEXUAL see it shows who you want to SEX checkmate!" argument.

homophobic idiots (and you, apparently) misinterpreting the meaning of the - sexual suffix isn't my or any other exclusionists problem. We've been over this a thousand times but I guess we gotta say it again. The terms homosexual/bisexual etc were coined before the concept of sex vs gender had entered mainstream dialogue. The - sexual suffix refers to what gender you are attracted to, NOT who you want to have sex with as the SAM would have you believe. It says nothing about sex, libido, sexual attraction, what have you. Just what gender you are interested in.

I've never seen anyone say asexuality is about choosing whether or not to fuck. I've seen arguments against asexuality being a spectrum and people pointing out asexuals don't have to come out as asexual the way LGBT people do. Most exclusionists do not believe asexuality isn't real (and please let us know who does this so we can no-platform them). Asexuality is real; debating whether it's a spectrum/pointing out many people identify as asexual bc of trauma/mental illness/internalized homo/transphobia/misogyny isn't saying asexuality isn't real. It's suggesting there are problems with the label and inviting some critical thinking. Which is not a bad thing.

Love the bullshit at the end btw. Minors are too stupid to think critically and have opinions, terfs started the cishet exclusionist discourse, and now it's right wing rhetoric lmao. Someone show inclusionists the paradox of tolerance Wikipedia page

The whole “Asexuality is just about choosing who to fuck or choosing not to fuck” shit is hilarious because this bullshit little ism can literally be applied to the entirety of the LGBTQ community -except- for Trans people.

“Stop shoving homosexuality down my throat bc who you choose to fuck isnt my business” “Homosexuality is a choice”. <—-ALL THE EXACT SAME FUCKING ENERGY.

“Nobody cares about who you choose to fuck” or “Just because you wont fuck X doesnt make you special” isnt new, it has been used against the lgbq community since for fucking ever. And lets not even get into how many of yall say asexuality/etc isnt real and is just trauma or mental illness and shit like that. You think that shit is new? You think “Who hurt you?” and “You need therapy” is unique and groundbreaking?

Really goes to show how far too many of you are heavily impressionable minors and havent been around the block enough times to know bullshit when you see it.

For instance, an entire vapid, irrational backlash started by TERFs that keeps mutating like a virus. But I’m sleep tho….

Fucking THINK, damn. You’re literally just repackaging flimsy right wing rhetoric and weaponizing it against whatever flavor of the week has your panties in a bunch