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AN: Remus is trans and Rosie is his deadname before transitioning.

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Rosie looked at her reflection in the mirror and felt stupid. She had never felt comfortable in her own skin. Worse with lose hair and the girly clothes her dad had bought for her.

That pink shirt with hearts disgusted her. It read: "Pretty girl". The skirt was awfully uncomfortable. And she looked like a clown with the little color her mum had put on her face.

Rosie had been following the advice of Sirius’s cousins. They were older prettier teenage girls. Rosie had met them recently since they were staying at the manor for Sirius’s eleventh birthday. Apparently it was important since he was going to a boarding secondary school in Scotland next year. Rosie didn't want him to go.

"Don't you want to give Sirius his first kiss?" Bellatrix had asked after her and her sisters teased Rosie repeatedly about her being Sirius’s little girlfriend.

It hadn't helped that Rosie had blushed repeatedly at their comments.

"He is not going to fancy you if you dress like a boy" Bellatrix had added in a mocking tone.

"Bella! Don't bother the poor girl" Andromeda added with a motherly voice "Plus, Sirius is too young to kiss girls"

"I think it is about time" Bella tutted "He is eleven! He is becoming a little man"

"Maybe if Sirius has a girlfriend he would be less annoying" Narcissa commented with a little soft laughter.

The girls discussed as if Rosie wasn't there. But she surely fancied Sirius. The idea of giving him his first kiss was appealing. In a few years, that was. Rosie wasn't sure if she was ready for that kind of stuff.

Although Sirius’s cousins were right. He was growing up and each day he was more and more handsome. Rosie liked his mischievous eyes full of life and his pretty smile. He was surely the most beautiful boy she had ever met. At least prettier than the boys at her school.

The Black Sisters told Rosie everything she needed to know to get a boy's attention. "Get pretty" they said. It was all about clothing, makeup, bating one's eyelashes, and being vulnerable around them. It was about femininity and sensibility. Nothing about being genuine. Nothing about how Rosie actually was. But she had to believe them. These girls had had boyfriends and kissed boys. So they must have known what it needed to be done.

Rosie’s parents prepared a little chocolate cake for Sirius. Just like they always did for her. They hadn't been invited to dinner at the Manor. But still Rosie wanted to celebrate with her friend.

The minute Sirius crossed the Pool House door that evening and Rosie said: "Hello", he frowned as if something was wrong.

"Moony... What are you wearing?" Sirius laughed.

And just with those words, Rosie felt stupid. Of course Sirius looked good with everything he wore. And he was elegant today, for his birthday.

"Don't you like it?" Rosie asked with a knot on her throat.

"You look ridiculous" Sirius nodded realizing something "Annoyingly girly like my cousins..."

"Don't you mean she looks beautiful?"

Sirius was embarrassed by Hope Lupin's presence. He blushed in a cute way. Then probably noticed the tears in Rosie’s eyes.

"Aah..." he blinked nervously "Yes, Mrs. Lupin. Rosie looks beautiful"

Rosie blushed and looked away. Hope seemed content with Sirius’s answer. She smiled.

"Happy Birthday, Sirius" and she had no problem with giving him a hug and a kiss on the cheek.

Sirius went even more red if possible. Rosie wished she could make him blush one day.

They sang Happy birthday and ate chocolate cake. As the evening went on, Rosie felt more like herself. She forgot about the kiss and didn't pay attention to what she was wearing. She got more comfortable around Sirius. They were best friends after all.

With Rosie’s parents they watched their favorite movie: Labyrinth. It was a tradition for Rosie’s birthday. So they decided to do it for Sirius’s as well.

All was well until Rosie’s parents had to go back to the Manor for work. Why did The Black's decide to call them the night of their son's birthday, Rosie would never understand. But Hope kissed Sirius’s head, wishing him happy birthday and Lyall rubbed his head saying "You're almost a man, mate. Congrats". And they left the two kids alone.

Though Lyall's words reminded Rosie of what Sirius’s cousins had said about him. How he was becoming a man.

When the Masquerade ball scene came up with that romantic song that Hope loved, Rosie felt nervous again. And when the Goblin King danced with Sara, Rosie wished to dance with Sirius this song one day.

Rosie gave a side glance to the boy next to her. Sirius was eleven. He was leaving for Scotland in August. He would grow up there and probably date prettier girls. And he was going to forget about Rosie eventually. But not if she gave him his first kiss.

"Sirius..."

"Mmm..."

He was too pendant of the movie and Rosie knew he liked it. He usually got bored with movies.

"What do you think about.... Kissing?"

Sirius raised an eyebrow though his eyes were still on the screen.

He shrugged "I've seen Cissy kissing Lucius and it looks disgusting... Heard Bella saying that you have to put your tongue on the other person's mouth..."

"Eugh!" Rosie exclaimed "It is disgusting"

She hadn't been told she had to do that.

"I know" Sirius nodded "Never want to do that in my life"

"Not even as an adult?"

Sirius shook his head.

"Mum says is nice" Rosie tried "That when you are an adult and you fancy someone that's all you want to do... Kiss them"

Sirius made a face of disgust. Then his intense gray eyes focused on Rosie. He looked at her as if she had gone mental.

"Do you want to do that, Moony?"

Rosie blushed. She shrugged "We all do it eventually..."

"Well, not me!" Sirius exclaimed leaning back "I am gonna be the first boy not to kiss. Never marry. I am going to go on adventures... And you are coming with me, obviously, Moony"

Rosie was rather sad and disappointed. Although when she thought about the tongue she was relieved.

"Don't you want to try it?" she asked playing with the cushion on her lap "How do you know you won't like it if you don't try?"

"What are you saying, Moony?" Sirius snapped "Why are you acting so weird? It is my birthday! I was bored at dinner with everyone saying I am becoming an adult and I should behave like one. And then I come here, because I wanted to have fun with you, Moony... And you make me watch a stupid movie and talk about kissing as an adult!! I don't want to be an adult!! I don't want to become a man. I don't want you to become a woman. I want us to be kids forever!! And have fun!! And now you're acting like my cousins... Saying I should kiss girls... I don't want to! And I want you to stop being weird and annoying like them!!"

Rosie was speechless. She felt stupid again. Sirius’s cousins had been filling up her head about kissing Sirius. When she wasn't ready for that. Rosie liked him. Maybe as an adult or a teenager she should think about that. Kissing and dating. But not now. Rosie wanted to be a kid as well.

"Sorry, Rosie.... But if you are going to be like this, I rather play the boring games Regulus makes me play"

Sirius raised to his feet ready to leave but Rosie stopped him.

"Sirius... Wait!"

Sirius turned with hope.

"I'm sorry..."

Rosie got to her feet as well.

"I am gonna change and then we can do something fun" she smiled.

Sirius smiled back "Play pirates?"

Rosie grinned "We could and oh! How could I miss it! It is not a birthday without Moon Wishes..."

The smile Sirius gave her was magnificent.

"And a prank on your annoying cousins"

Sirius nodded enthusiastically.

"That's my Moony! She's back!"

Rosie loved to be his Moony.

Sirius was probably leaving in August but it was months until then. Rosie wanted to take the most advantage spending time with her best friend.

She leaned in with a smile on her face. Sirius froze. Rosie could tell he was red as a tomato. But all that happened was a kiss on the cheek. That for now...

And Rosie laughed at Sirius’s panicked expression. He was blinking hard.

"Happy Birthday, Sirius"

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Remus could spend days kissing Sirius nonstop. It was amazing how his lips made him feel. It was not fair that they needed air to breathe and they had to stop.

Remus liked everything about it. The way Sirius used his tongue, giving Remus shots of pleasure. The way his lips were soft and so tasteful. The way he ran his fingers through Remus's hair. The way he smiled in between kisses. The way his eyes traveled through Remus's face as if he was one of the most beautiful person in the world.

"Okay, I think I need some air" Remus chuckled as he unglued his face from Sirius’s after what felt like forever.

He liked caressing Sirius’s jaw and chin delicately.

Sirius smiled in response.

"Weak"

Remus rolled his eyes with a smile.

"We've been snogging for ten minutes" Remus protested "And in the compacted space of the janitors closet"

Sirius giggled "I like kissing your lips too much"

But Sirius backed away and leaned on the wall next to Remus.

After a brief moment of silent from both of them trying to catch their breath, Remus started laughing. It was the irony of be kissing his lifetime crush in secret that for Remus was funny.

"What?" Sirius asked with curiosity.

"Do you remember when we were kids and you swore you would never kiss anyone?"

It was dark in there but Remus knew Sirius blushed.

"I was ten!"

"Eleven actually..."

"Oh shut up!"

Remus laughed once more and Sirius accompanied him with a gorgeous smile.

"To be fair, I didn't know how good it felt to snog someone" Sirius shrugged "Especially someone that kisses as well as you"

Now it was Remus's turn to blush. He wasn’t sure what exactly Sirius felt for him. He was afraid to ask. Although he suspected it was not the profound feeling Remus had for him. But Remus accepted it all. He would take anything from his Sirius. The gorgeous boy that had always owned his heart. Even more gorgeous now at seventeen.

"Thanks for that"

"You are a good kisser, Moony. I don't complain"

And neither did Remus. He couldn't. He couldn't force Sirius to give him what he wanted. Sirius needed time to figure out his feelings, who he was.

There was a another moment of silence. They were smiling though. Sirius with his eyes closed. Remus wanted to believe he was enjoying the moment. As much as Remus was.

"Oh! I am never going to kiss anyone, Moony!" Remus started imitating Sirius’s voice, exaggerating it as a kid's one. Sirius smiled and opened his eyes.

"I am gonna be a lips virgin forever and probably a virgin forever as well... And we are going to only have adventures! Because that's the only thing that is worth!"

Sirius laughed openly and loudly, dropping his head back. It gave Remus pleasure to provoke that.

"Such a cute little boy you were, Padfoot..."

"Oh shut up, Remus Lupin! You wanted to take my lips virginity so badly! You, pervert!"

Remus chuckled. It was true.

"I even put the Labyrinth song that I liked"

"Such a romantic"

That made Remus laugh. And Sirius was looking intensely at him. He had that kind of look that left people speechless, out of breath. Remus loved that he was using those eyes on him. He liked to believe he was the only one. That no girl had ever had that privilege.

"Enough break we've had, don't you think?" Sirius asked as he bit his lip in a really sexy way.

Remus genuinely smiled because he was happy. And as Sirius pulled him for another kiss, Remus gave into it willingly. How crazy was life.

Sirius hadn't been his first kiss. But he was the only one that mattered.

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