#toxic relatiionship

[jiminrings]

how are 478jk and miso?? are they still in a toxic relatiionship 😑😑

yes here's a moodboard of their relationship

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requested by mayonnaise-connoisseur

[pommedeterre889-blog]

Did you go potty for me?

So I have been staying with my mom and her boyfriend. This has been extremely difficult on its own. Not to mention I I lost my sweet angel baby xmas eve. I forget if I had brought that up. I’ll start crying everytime I think of her or hear her name, but the support I’ve gotten from old (and new) friends has been great. 

I had an appointment with the liver and kidney doctors practitioner, she was very   nice and knowledgeable. I had some labwork  done and everything is looking good. Good news first: My bilirubin is way way down - that's what makes your skin look yellow with jaundice. I never really had it that bad except for a couple of days. ***queue to me looking for taco sauce and asking the lady stalking the isle where it was.... “ARE YOU SICK? DO YOU HAVE JAUNNDACE” me = triggered.... “and who are you?? who just asks someone that, i’m sick and just got out of the hospital. I don’t want your PRAYERS. Lady wont stop talking or apologize, my mom comes to my defense and the woman walks away with her tail between her legs.

As I was saying.... bilirubin is down but my kidney function went down also. (not a good thing in this case. The doctor suggested drinking a lot of water, keeping a low sodium diet ( less than 2000 MG a day..... psh easy. Keep in mind my pouch was restricted again when my scope was done. In an effort to not make this extremely wordy as I am oh so good at doing here are so gripes I have about dealing with my mother.

1. Can you go potty for me, please? you haven't peed since I got home - DON’T TALK TO ME LIKE I’M  ONE OF YOUR DOGS. I WILL GO WHEN I HAVE TO. JUST BECAUSE YOU HAVENT WATCHED ME WALK TO THE BATHROOM DOESNT MEAN I HAVENT GONE

2. *me goes into the bathroom* less than 2 minuets later.... *knock knock* did you go pottty? I AM NOT ONE OF YOUR DOGS - I CANNOT LIVE UNDER YOUR MICROSOPE.

3.drink this, you’re supposed to have some protein before bed she said.- ok just pour a little into a glass and I will drink it, hands me a small glass, perfect amount.... (have you had ensure before? its THICK, DENSE AND HEAVY) **mom comes back into room after 2 minuets and two sips. “YOU NEED TO DRINK THAT!!!!” DUDEEEEEE I WILL DRINK IT, BUT I CANT CHUG IT” - “DRINK IT, ITS NOT ENOUGH ANYWAY” ------------I CANNOT CHUG IT!!!!!!!”

4. 5 mins earlier: We need to come up with a way that we can communicate and I don't feel like you are being too in control or putting me under a microscope. This is personal stuff ---mom, walks out of room and says I need to stop “pounding on me (she yells this by the way because her bf is in earshot and she wants to make me look bad.

5. I  set one major boundary over here and that is my door with be shut and locked. after getting sick the 2nd time I agreed to keep my door unlocked as long as she KNOCKS first and I give her the ok like “come in” with in less than an hour that was broken, first by no knocking at all, 2nd by knocking and opening at the same time. I NEED PRIVACY

6. idk if anyone elsees mother is like this, but I doubt im not alone here.... *mom walks into room* things are where you put them, in a place where I can easily find them and then she comes in and moves shit around. the way my pillows are on my bed, where I put my shorts to wear under my nightgown to wear when i’m not sleeping.

7 im sure there are several more but I don't have the energy to put into this right now.  ………...oh wait did you know my mother is a a libra? we were going to go run errands and she wouldn't let me wear my hair up, so I took it down.... she walks over to me with a brush and is just like “no” and styles my hair the way that she wants it to be done.

Im sure I could make another list of things her bf or her and her bf do that's extremely toxic but I think I've said enough tonight.  I need to cleanse and get this negative energy out of my space. its a two way street though and I can’t do it alone, and only one of us is willing to try to change or work on the relationship. 

I just have one last question.... will you go potty for me? 

OK I have to put a quick #8 in because it just happened. she just came into my room to say goodnight and took my empty glass of ensure.guess who walks back in with MORE ensure because she thinks I need to drink all of it. and gets defensive when I get angry. she has also been bringing me unpeeled clementines which I love but #1 I am FULL and #2 they are very acidic I had two earlier and my stomach started to hurt. all she wants to do is bring me food and I DONT/CANT HAVE ANY OF IT. BRB proving a point and dumping out the ensure. Thanks for reading xoxox

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[lxly-etcetera]

Don’t Leave.

I am not good enough for my love and no these lonely nights riddle of tales of who’m my friends are or aren't though really its only you without realisation I dedicate every shard of life to you and know as bad as you can be it would be hell without you. My tears don't scream enough in times of need every desperate word twisted into insult of failure maybe its worse when its good as there’s only the itching conclusion of tainted love around the corner. I am trapped in my own confine of love, un wanting to escape for the tragedy that Is my immortal and ridiculous love and adoration to you and that even on our darkest nights I will turn to you and clocks in my mind turning back to how you used to love me, praying to God your disgust and anger will dilute into nothing but care and love and understanding. For I had big plans that fizzled and dreams and a lifestyle before you, but my willing sacrifice to God is to keep you, as the nightmares of you leaving are far worse than my smallest pleases in reality.

[averefelicita]

♡ {{if only you are still accepting}}

Pre-established relatiionship meme // @ehrendame

PRE - ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIP MEME .

send a ♡ and i’ll fill this out for our muses !  i’ll bold what i want for their relationship, italic what i could see and strike out what i don’t .

FRIENDS.   childhood friends  /  work friends  /  family friends  /  recently friends  /  turning antagonistic  /  turning into something romantic  /  stable  /  falling apart  /  friendship of need  /  friendship of circumstance /  pen - pals or internet friends  /  coworkers  /  partners  /  other .

ROMANCE.   childhood sweethearts  /  newly entered  /  soulmates  /  skinny love  /  unrequited from my muses side  /  unrequited from your muses side  /  friends with benefits  /  awkward  /  fading  /  turning  toxic  /  toxic  and  destructive  /  other . (It’s possible but will have to discuss if an interest occurs. Also that Feli is open with the ladies so I'll just bold this lol)

FAMILIAL BOND.   sibling bond  /  older sibling figure to your muse  /  younger sibling figure to your muse  /  parental figure to your muse  /  parental figure to your muse  /  guardian figure  /  legal  guardian  /  other .

ENEMIES.   dangerous to themselves  /  dangerous to others  /  unpredictable  /  passionate  /  rivals  /  petty  /  developing into a sexual tension  /  developing into a romantic tension  /  based off family matters  /  based of circumstance  /  based of professional matters  /  based of misunderstandings or lies  /  other .

[kyoupann]

so, finally addressing one of my saddest love stories. and probably my biggest regret romantically speaking

when i lived in canada there was this boy, who we shall call Blueberry, and we were super friends, if not best friend yk. anyways, we were always together and some friends caught on my sparkling eyes whenever i looked at him (gross) and they asked me “you two are thing right??” and my sad heart said “pffftt noooo” because at the time i was helping him get closer to another girl.

anyways, fast-foward a rejection and a month later this boy gets himself a girlfriend while i was away for One (1) Weekend. But because we were super close, he really wanted me know about her and tell him what i thought of it. I thought it was fucking stupid and that the relatiionship wasnt going to work, did i say that? no, because i loved my blueberry and din’t want to hurt his already hurt feelings.

So. m.e being fucking dumb I ask him to tell me how they became a couple. and he fucking tells me that at first this girl said no because she thought he and I (blueberry and i) were dating, she got this idea from always seeing us together. and hwile that made kinda happy it also made hella sad because, in the eyes of everyone else we were a couple but because of my coward ass and his coward ass as well nothing had happened.

and you may think, that is a NICE moment to confess your feeelings. he brought it up so might as well take the risk of opening the conversation.

you know what my fucking coward ass said? WOW THAT’S FUNNY. THIS OTHER GIRL TOLD ME THE SAME HAHA HOW CRAZY. anyways i’m happy for you my dude.

later on he stopped spending so much time with me because his girlfriend got jealous and shit and then it like 2 weekesit became a toxic relationship and he was basically running away from her to me

and that’s it

i went to see him off at the airport (i skipped classes for this, mind you) and you know what did he do? at the fucking airport. he gave me a pen. a canda pen. but it had so many colours and he said it was because it reminded him of me because rainbows yk

he was supposed to come to mexico this year but family issues happened and plans got delayed.

so, i never told him that so i definitely  don’t know how he feels about me and here we are unable to move on.

i still have the pen and cherish it with all my heart

[averefelicita]

♡ - For Sam, Boisterousfifty

Pre-established relatiionship meme // @boisterousfifty

FRIENDS.   childhood friends  /  work friends  /  family friends  /  recently friends  /  turning antagonistic  /  turning into something romantic  /  stable  /  falling apart  /  friendship of need  /  friendship of circumstance / pen - pals or internet friends  /  coworkers  /  partners  /  other .

ROMANCE.   childhood sweethearts  /  newly entered  /  soulmates  /  skinny love  /  unrequited from my muses side  /  unrequited from your muses side  /  friends with benefits  /  awkward  /  fading  /  turning  toxic  /  toxic  and  destructive  /  other  (basically what we talked about lol).

FAMILIAL BOND.   sibling bond  /  older sibling figure to your muse  /  younger sibling figure to your muse  /  parental figure to your muse  /  parental figure to your muse  /  guardian figure  /  legal  guardian  /  other .

ENEMIES.   dangerous to themselves  /  dangerous to others  /  unpredictable  /  passionate  /  rivals  /  petty  /  developing into a sexual tension  /  developing into a romantic tension  /  based off family matters  /  based of circumstance  /  based of professional matters  /  based of misunderstandings or lies  /  other .

[averefelicita]

♡ ( if you don't mind! )

Pre-established relatiionship meme // @sokrovennyi

FRIENDS.   childhood friends  /  work friends  /  family friends  /  recently friends  /  turning antagonistic  /  turning into something romantic  /  stable  /  falling apart  /  friendship of need  /  friendship of circumstance /  pen - pals or internet friends  /  coworkers  /  partners  / other .

ROMANCE.   childhood sweethearts  /  newly entered  /  soulmates  /  skinny love  /  unrequited from my muses side  /  unrequited from your muses side  /  friends with benefits  /  awkward  /  fading  /  turning  toxic  /  toxic  and  destructive  /  other . I think it would be difficult for them and neither have an interest in the other.

FAMILIAL BOND.   sibling bond  /  older sibling figure to your muse  /  younger sibling figure to your muse  /  parental figure to your muse  /  parental figure to your muse  /  guardian figure  /  legal  guardian  /  other .

ENEMIES.   dangerous to themselves  /  dangerous to others  /  unpredictable  /  passionate  /  rivals  /  petty  /  developing into a sexual tension  /  developing into a romantic tension  /  based off family matters  /  based of circumstance  /  based of professional matters  /  based of misunderstandings or lies  /  other . // think it’d be pretty neutral right here?? Italy wouldn’t wanna have bad blood with Russia so lool He’d rather stay away.

[averefelicita]

♡

Pre-established relatiionship meme // @teableeds

PRE - ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIP MEME .

send a ♡ and i’ll fill this out for our muses !  i’ll bold what i want for their relationship, italic what i could see and strike out what i don’t .

FRIENDS.   childhood friends  /  work friends  /  family friends  /  recently friends  /  turning antagonistic  /  turning into something romantic  /  stable  /  falling apart  /  friendship of need  /  friendship of circumstance  pen - pals or internet friends  /  coworkers  /  partners  /  other

ROMANCE.   childhood sweethearts  /  newly entered  /  soulmates  /  skinny love  /  unrequited from my muses side  /  unrequited from your muses side  /  friends with benefits  /  awkward (bc im not sure if they can count as cousins or nah LOL, countries are so harddd to ship sometimes but honestly everyone’s a cousin at this point help)  /  fading  /  turning  toxic  /  toxic  and  destructive  /  other .

FAMILIAL BOND.   sibling bond  /  older sibling figure to your muse  /  younger sibling figure to your muse  /  parental figure to your muse  /  parental figure to your muse  /  guardian figure  /  legal  guardian  /  other .

ENEMIES.   dangerous to themselves /  dangerous to others  /  unpredictable  /  passionate  /  rivals  /  petty  /  developing into a sexual tension  /  developing into a romantic tension  /  based off family matters  /  based of circumstance  /  based of professional matters  / based of misunderstandings or lies  /  other ? .

[averefelicita]

♡

Pre-established relatiionship meme // @bellasognatrice

PRE - ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIP MEME .

send a ♡ and i’ll fill this out for our muses !  i’ll bold what i want for their relationship, italic what i could see and strike out what i don’t .

FRIENDS.   childhood friends  /  work friends  /  family friends  /  recently friends  /  turning antagonistic  /  turning into something romantic  /  stable  /  falling apart  /  friendship of need  /  friendship of circumstance  pen - pals or internet friends  /  coworkers  /  partners  /  other 

ROMANCE.   childhood sweethearts  /  newly entered  /  soulmates  /  skinny love  /  unrequited from my muses side  /  unrequited from your muses side  /  friends with benefits  /  awkward  /  fading  /  turning  toxic  /  toxic  and  destructive  /  other .Chiara is gorgeous but this would be wroooong

FAMILIAL BOND.   sibling bond  /  older sibling figure to your muse  /  younger sibling figure to your muse  /  parental figure to your muse  /  parental figure to your muse  /  guardian figure  /  legal  guardian  /  other .

ENEMIES.   dangerous to themselves  /  dangerous to others  /  unpredictable  /  passionate  /  rivals  /  petty  /  developing into a sexual tension  /  developing into a romantic tension  /  based off family matters  /  based of circumstance  /  based of professional matters  /  based of misunderstandings or lies  /  other .

[averefelicita]

♡ {vergangenheit-nostalgisch.}

Pre-established relatiionship meme // @vergangenheit-nostalgisch

PRE - ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIP MEME .

send a ♡ and i’ll fill this out for our muses !  i’ll bold what i want for their relationship, italic what i could see and strike out what i don’t .

FRIENDS.   childhood friends /  work friends / family friends  /  recently friends  /  turning antagonistic  /  turning into something romantic  /  stable  /  falling apart /  friendship of need  /  friendship of circumstance  pen - pals or internet friends  /  coworkers  /  partners  /  other .

ROMANCE.   childhood sweethearts  /  newly entered  /  soulmates  /  skinny love  / unrequited from my muses side  /  unrequited from your muses side  /  friends with benefits  / awkward  /  fading  /  turning  toxic  /  toxic  and  destructive  /  other .

FAMILIAL BOND.   sibling bond  /  older sibling figure to your muse  /  younger sibling figure to your muse  /  parental figure to your muse  /  parental figure to your muse  /  guardian figure  /  legal  guardian  /  other .

ENEMIES.   dangerous to themselves  /  dangerous to others  /  unpredictable  /  passionate  /  rivals  /  petty /  developing into a sexual tension  /  developing into a romantic tension  /  based off family matters  /  based of circumstance  /  based of professional matters  /  based of misunderstandings or lies  /  other ? (more like their friends not wanting them to hang out or some stuff, bc 2p, 1p) . 

[averefelicita]

💙

Pre-established relatiionship meme // @paperworkanddogs

PRE - ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIP MEME .

send a ♡ and i’ll fill this out for our muses !  i’ll bold what i want for their relationship, italic what i could see and strike out what i don’t .

FRIENDS.   childhood friends  /  work friends  /  family friends  /  recently friends  /  turning antagonistic  /  turning into something romantic  /  stable  /  falling apart  /  friendship of need  /  friendship of circumstance  pen - pals or internet friends  /  coworkers  /  partners  /  other .

ROMANCE.   childhood sweethearts  /  newly entered  /  soulmates  /  skinny love  /  unrequited from my muses side  /  unrequited from your muses side  /  friends with benefits  /  awkward ayy  /  fading  /  turning  toxic  /  toxic  and  destructive  /  other .

FAMILIAL BOND.   sibling bond  /  older sibling figure to your muse  /  younger sibling figure to your muse  /  parental figure to your muse  /  parental figure to your muse  /  guardian figure  /  legal  guardian  /  other .

ENEMIES.   dangerous to themselves  /  dangerous to others  /  unpredictable  /  passionate  /  rivals  /  petty /  developing into a sexual tension  /  developing into a romantic tension  /  based off family matters  /  based of circumstance  /  based of professional matters  /  based of misunderstandings or lies  /  other .