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@kevin-ibwâs moon is basically a contortionist with the silly ways he can bend their body
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#xandraws#fnaf#fnaf sb#fnaf security breach#security breach#fnaf dca#dca fnaf#daycare attendant fnaf#fnaf daycare attendant#fnaf moon#moon fnaf#dca moon#moon dca#idk the tag he uses for his au ill find it later đ#not my au#this took me (checks watch) 4 hours#i think. i took like an hour break between the sketch and lineart because i had to do MATH hw#i was still motivated to finish it tho so dhwidhsidj#@ anon that cursed me with 2 am motivation before it hit just a bit earlier than u thought it would ty#might add morr tags later its 7 am i got 3 hours of sleep im tired
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El Grillo (The Cricket) â Josquin Des Prez
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#shui draws#its always sunny in philadelphia#always sunny#iasip#iasip fanart#its always sunny fanart#rickety cricket#matthew mara#david hornsby#more tags than i normally put because i want people to see this .. i worked super hard on it đ#i finished this all in one day because it was david hornsbys birthday yesterday :P#took me like . 4+ hours i think đ#anyways i love cricket hes like the only reason why i watch sunny#reblogs r greatly appreciated btw !
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#delete later#another journal entry đ for the void#i have not been sleeping well for the past 2 wks đ”âđ« i always wake up like clockwork after 5-6 hrs which feels like not nearly enough#i feel like i've done everything there is to do (consistent exercise + consistent sleep times + earplugs + weighted blanket + no caffeine)#last night i took melatonin too but no... same problem staying asleep đ#ahh whatever. i'm just frustrated that it has to be this way :(#anyways in an act of spite i reread like the 4 wips that have been sitting in my drafts from the past few weeks#i think something that will never cease to surprise me about writing is that more effort/time doesn't necessarily translate to better#results; i suppose that's the case with all kinds of art but#it does feel somewhat unintuitive. one of my fav professors in uni said to not dismiss those 'lightning in a bottle' moments (in art) as#blind luck... but to instead analyze the circumstances and iterate on recreating them. and i think one of my artist friends who i deeply#respect said something similar (wrt artistic rituals/setup). i have too many thoughts on writing and on my own creative processes and#weaknesses to fit into any number of tags here. :') that said...#*shakes ch2 draft* after everything i did and all the hours i spent WHY are you still so bad?!!! D: i am baffled and frustrated.#and why do i prefer this other [redacted] draft which i hammered out with utterly no regard towards the quality??#anyways. back to the drawing board i guess T.T
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WOWOWHIOO 2 more batches to go and I'm done with all the young local agents
#what a good day ro remember i cant draw mechs or snipers#butttt whateverrr#it took loke 2 hours to figure out the sketch on the second one#i didmt know what pose to draw roza in and struggled drawing mikađđđđ#also still debating if i should keep Khai's eyes like thay hrmmm whay do yaals think#ejen ali#my art#ejen khai#ejen bulat#ejen roza#ejen mika#i might have oversimplified Mika's mech a bit too much i still hope it looks alright#ok its time for me to go to bed chop chop gn to my 4 followers
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raised my tolerence to vyvanse too close to the sun
#every i took it my tolerence increased by like 5mg ish#i went from 30mg to 50mg and now 50mg does barely anything like im yawnjng 4 hours in đ#on the upside !!!#the hell horrible no good terrible side effects r all gone !!!#i think vyvanse helps my adhd by also forcing me to have my life more together in order to take vyvanse#e.g waking up earlier (long half life) eating vitamins (otherwise brainfog) going to the gym (otherwise feel physically horrible)#learning to be mindful/meditate (bc stimulants raise ur heartrate too much sometimes) no more alcohol (vyvanse kinda gets rid of ur ability#to feel drunk so it is pointless and also dangerous to drink) no more caffeine dependence (stimulant + stimulant = super high heartrate)#HOWEVER ..sometimes i cant sleep until 7 AM âĄ
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I'm properly drunk, how was your fourth?
lmao i hope you had a good night!!! i didn't do anything special, i walked around the woods for like 4 hours and i was hoping i could see someone else's fireworks but they were too far away :( normally i go to this annual beach party but i uninvited myself this year because like half the people there are homophobic ultra christian republicans and also i'm trying not to drink so much. this sounds sad but it's not sad, it was incredibly freeing to just stay home fjksjds
#''i walked around the woods for 4 hours'' <- asa's spirit inhabiting my body#literally i saw a deer last night and she came really close to me#she probably would've let me pet her but i didn't want to teach her to trust humans đ so i had to walk away#but i felt very much like asa took over my vessel#trust that i am always thinking about my characters even when i'm not posting lmao#asks#anonymous#nonsims#brandi answers
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Despite all odds, I have arrived home safelyđ
Turns out that the earlier goop was the better goop. The adderall goop. The adderall has worn off now though. So I am. Very incredibly out of it.
But I am home. And I will take my quick shower. And then I will climb into bed.
I do need to eat. But... later...
#speculation nation#im the special kind of tired where im more tired than hungry#which is to say my every cell is yelling at me to get some fucking sleep.#and i dont think id be much more successful at eating rn than i was this morning.#i ate. half a can of chef boyardee. which was half bc i was so focused on typing and half bc i could barely stomach it.#so i at least ate Something. but not as much as normal.#i did have an ensure in the middle of the day. so theres some nutrients too at least.#i'll eat after i get a few hours of sleep. when the edge is no longer so desperate.#and hopefully i'll be able to stomach things better then.#honestly have all nighters always been this hard or am i just getting older? i havent actually pulled an all nighter since uhhh#well there was kind of one on dead dad day. but that day sucked just in general.#last time i think was april '23 when i read t.rimax volume 9-14 within a 24 hour period while also finishing a final presentation.#even then tho i got like 2 hours of sleep. it was still pretty rough though.#like ok i guess those times were pretty awful and also i did get at least some sleep. which is more than today.#so it makes sense for me to be in worse shape rn. i also didnt get as much sleep the night before last as i wanted to#i got... ...maybe 4 hours sleep??? ummm. which isnt a good thing actuslly. no wonder im so fucking exhausted.#i can barely type right now i will be honest. it was so hard to bike home. it took all my focus to not drive off a bridge#or get pushed into traffic by wind. oh boy the wind sure did try.#then i almost tripped down the stairs at my apartment after grabbing the mail bc i Briefly was focused on my mail đ#barely present. total mess. but at least im home. and i already did all the thinking i need to do today.#i was brave. i perservered. i was tempted to give up around 6 am ish but i was like No. this is getting done TODAY.#so i did it. i turned it in. and i so bravely did my in class work for my 2nd class. even though i was so mentally not present the whole way#i did my thinking... i am home... rest soon.#actually its kind of funny im lying on my couch rn and i think if most other ppl were in my current state theyd fall asleep right here.#but the power of my insomnia is so. powerful. i am not at risk of falling asleep without meaning to.#only time thats ever actually happened are like. a handful of times i was like. the most tired ive ever been in my life. etc etc.#in fact idk how well i'll be able to fall asleep for my nap. i certainly couldnt last night despite how hard i tried.#hopefully this time... i am truly tired enough....pls i need to rest i am so tired đđđđđđđđđ
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âConstantia et fortitudineâ - Emperor Sebastian I âder Sieghafteâ
#i dont ever want to look at his face(blatant lie)#i love him and i love staring at pics of him but jfc trying to draw them. absolute murder to ME#well anyways. happy with this. took too many late like 4 hour sessions tho LMFAO#watched uhhhh animal documentaries and casino royale again :)#OKAY ANYWAYS ITS NOW YOUR FAVORITE! CONTEXT! INFO! LORE!#so ive mentioned before seb is charles vi. obviously. but i love to steal stuff from Joseph I as well đ„°#seb is a mix of both bcs he obv doesn't have an older brother in this au so yeah!#'Constantia et fortitudine'(by persistence and courage) was Charles motto!#i think that fits seb so well no? đ„čđ„č#'der Sieghafte'(the Victorious) comes from Joseph I! bcs he was so successful in battle đ„°#again! so seb right???#i think so fucking often about him and nando's nicknames in this au#'the spirited' for nando's perseverance....'the victorious' for seb's well. victories haha#i think they fit them incredibly well both in this au and real life!!#even if this fucking murdered me to paint i like it a lot :) i thinm the hair was a lot of fun#actually im not even mad w this one! it was pretty fun once i got past a certain point honestly!#but the secondary expression whoch will be in a different post....jfc i wanted to throw my ipad away đ#it doesnt help that it was 4-5 am when i was working on jt LMAO#but i believe in courage and perseverance! i will paint constantia et fortitudine đ„č#anwyaysyyyyys!!! hope you like!!!! i think i got him pretty accurate???? im pretty happy w the fsce tbh#wish i could draw his crown but i dont think ill ever subject myself to painting thay monstrosity#also dont really undertsand how they wore crowns back then alongside their giant periwigs?? dont crush the curls :<#sebastian vettel#f1#formula 1#boy king au
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i cannot take photos of myself bc when i finally get one that i think looks okay, i notice my eyes and i feel like i look like that blue-eyed dachshund. dis one đ
ALSO I DONT REMEMBER if i ever explained it. but the reason i bring Lil Guz everywhere interesting and take photos of him is partially because I likeys him soooo much, but the original idea of like. having a plushie that i take photos of. is because i have a really hard time with taking photos of myself (various reasons for that) so I decided one time on an outing a few years ago to bring a little plushie friend to take photos of to replace taking selfies. so then I can see that i have been somewhere without the photos having to include me necessarily !! highly recommend it honestly even if u do enjoy taking selfies, just bring a lil guy to take photos of too :3
#my eyes used to be more grey idk what happened#maybe i've just started noticing them more bc of all the blue eyes memes fdsjkl that is entirely possible#yall i wish i could just post photos of myself but i am so paranoid(? maybe justified) about internet safety LOL#BUT LIKE. ngl the two polaroid artworks featuring me are ... honestly pretty much exactly what i look like irl dsjkl its a little freaky#i still do not know what sort of ... insert drug here. that i was on to paint those so fast HFDSSJKL#i think it took me 4-8 hours total for each one. i think the very first one (where he's covering his face) took 2-4 hours#im just ???? now it takes me 16+ hours to make one đđđHOW DID I DO THAT BEFORE AUGHHH#i need to focus less on tiny details probably fdsjkl just get the gist of it and nobody will notice if tiny details are missing or wrong#dandy.cmd
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Soooo finishing and editing this chapter is like walking into an electric fence BUT I am animating a clip from it also. Instead of finishing writing and using many many hours i could be working on the damn source material. Because I am insane.
#rangnar rambles#and also the more i work on the animation (which i started halfway through the writing) the less fic accurate it becomes#bc details i hadnt figured out yet have since been revealed to me (in a dream) but i aint redrawing shit that took me 4 hours </3#combined with the nature of animating (even for fun) (even badly) is that now (80% done) i think it is stupid and i hate it#alas we persevere đ#i need to exorcise this whole thing from my brain so i can think about anything else đ (lovingly)#but hey. you get to read jodie psychologically torture tam for like 700 words! its her favourite thing to do <3
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Hi!!!! I donât know if you take request.. but I canât stop thinking about vi coming home from the gym, or reader going to meet vi at her gym? But her sweaty abs? Those back muscles? Those arms? đ© and vi just being so smug about it because she knows the effect she has on reader đ
yesss i like this! note: i don't really workout at the gym (embarrassing i know...), so if this is super unrealistic just... gawk over her body! be horny!
also you should totally read this by my fav writer ever if you haven't already, you'll be OBSESSED. kisses n hugs @vampiefemme đ
1, 2, 3, 4,... were you counting your own reps or vi's? your mouth was practically on the floor, eyes ogling at her back from afar. there's quite the distance between you and where she is working out at, but that doesn't stop you from dislocating your neck to watch her do pull-downs.
there is just something about the way she's built, tattoo climbing down her neck as well as the usually headache inducing overhead lights making the sweat on her traps shine, and her big, to drool over, triceps. and fuck were they moving with every pull too, actively flexing underneath her drenched tank top. absolutely soaked, (you or her?) vi takes her tank top off, you almost slam the weights. feeling the blood rush through your body from the embarrassment of just almost pissing people off (and the fact that you've been staring for full 5 minutes), your mind carries you away, to your bed, underneath vi, who's doing pushups over you and then smiles at you, how dreamy.
and then she smiles at you. wait, what? a small but very potent 'fuck' escapes your mouth. she's done with her sets and quickly redirects her focus to cleaning the machine.
vi is grinning like an idiot, it's hard to stay oblivious when she literally felt something (your pretty eyes) burning into her back. and besides, it was super hot watching you too. she overthrew her whole workout routine just because of 8 little words:
'heyyy i heard you go to the gym?âșïž'
it took her an hour to reply, Yeahhh I do, erase, We should go together, erase, I think you're really cute, erase, I'm going this Friday you wanna join me cutie? send. vi wasn't stupid, it takes two to play a game. and you were going to lose.
"you looked distracted," vi chuckles, sweat dripping down her forehead.
slam. "oh god, that startled me, haha." you look around, 'i'm sorry' plastering your whole face. you feel the heat rush up into your head and accumulating there. what the hell.
"is it fun watching me?" she continues. she's facing you, arm stretched out and resting on the leather of your seat. you're fucked.
"i was just trying to see when you're doneâ" you pause to look at her, but vi's eyes are elsewhere, further down, was she checking you out?
"ânot sure if i'm doing this right," you say as your eyes wander to her stretched out arm, suddenly you feel warmth spreading from in between your thighs...
she hums in response, scoff-laugh following. vi gathered that you weren't going to lose easily.
"can i?" she asks and you nod, hot palms adjusting your foot placement on the board. you like how her hands feel, they were rough and calloused but still so, so warm.
you press against the board, small grunts and groans escaping your lips. fuck, you sound a little too good, vi totally did not just imagine all possible (well, rather a small selection) of scenarios where you'd make exactly those noises.
she tries to distract herself from her thoughts where you are moaning her name, so she strokes your left hamstring to make sure you're... to make sure what exactly? you immediately look up, but the way vi is looking at you... you can't help but get lost in her eyes, you wanted her to get lost in you. and she couldn't ignore the throbbing that was practically begging to be taken care of from just looking at you and touching your skin.
one thing leads to another and her fingers are filling you up and pumping into you as slick gushes out from the sides of her fingers. iiiiin the bathroom of the women's locker room. gross, absolutely, but you're too busy trying to swallow your moans.
"not sure if i'm doing this right." vi whispers into your ear. you roll your eyes, she's obviously mocking your awful attempt at covering up the fact that you were staring.
"'doing, mhmmmh, just fine," you slur.
fuck, you were driving vi insane. she throws her head back, hard nipples graze against the fabric of your workout top as she thrusts her body against yours, pressing your back against the stall wall. and she's still inside you, vi is still curling her fingers against the walls of your gaping cunt. you dig your nails into vi's back, "more," you whisper.
"fuck, iâ" vi slowly slides out her fingers, you successfully flustered her, she's completely worked up, cute. and then, seemingly out of nowhere, she brushes a lose strand behind your ear, it feels like you're dripping onto the gym floor. kinda gross, but whatever, because vi's hand is right there where you want it, cupping your face.
"let me take you to my place," she then says, voice low. she watches a small smile appear on your face. "sure, show me your home workouts," you wink, causing vi to turn the same color as her hair.
got you.
#vi arcane#arcane vi#vi from arcane#vi x reader#vi x you#vi x y/n#vi x reader smut#vi smut#vi arcane smut#arcane smut#smut#vi fanfic#vi fic#wlw smut#lesbian#wlw
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Idea! Neglected bar singer darling.
The joint they sing in is on the very outskirts of Gotham. The bars in the basement of a restaurant.
Its pretty clear darling is saving up money to slowly inch away from Gotham and from there neglectful and sometimes (often) cold family.
So they dress as a Him/femme/them fatale and saunter up to the stage and sing there lil heart out and get both the thrill of all the attention in a room being on them and the money in there tip jar to boot.
Imagine what happens when a clip of darling singing goes fucking viral. (I'd like to think it's would be "be your baby tonight" give it a listen if you want. I like norah jones' cover)
What I'm saying is there is no way any of the batfam would approve of darlings career choice.
I love this kind of asks!~ Requests are now open again but we warned, I'm a snail paced writer T__T This took a while because I have this habit where I write it down first on paper before typing it. Like I make a draft first and reread before typing it to see if I should add more or remove some. First fic about singer reader: here and part 2 here. đ
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Okay okay, here me out. I know you said secret bar under a restaurant but my brain read the word âbarâ and ran away with it đ.Â
You know what this smells like? Scandal and maybe even a disaster waiting to happen too. You know what's a famous bar in Gotham? The Iceberg lounge that is run by Mr. Cobblepot (Penguin) and is frequented by rogues such as Riddler.Â
Life in the Iceberg Lounge isn't that bad, maybe intimidating at first but it became a small comfort. Mr. Cobblepot lets you keep the tips, the lounge beauties (Raven, Lark, and Jay) are great companies, and workplace harassment? You don't really have to worry about that. If you ever get flirted on or harassed by small fries and drunkards and then rest assured a bigger, scarier person at the back of the crowd will beat the harasser and throw them out. They might be villains but they have standards and harassing the loungeâs songbird is a big no no!Â
The clip of the singer reader went viral for a ton of different reasons: (1) The singing and the amount of simps you raked 24 hours after the clip has been posted. I have a headcanon that Mr. Cobblepot will nickname you as either Nightingale or Songbird to fit the crew because the lounge beauties are nicknamed after birds.(2) People can see villains just chilling at the background of the video. Riddler's nursing a whiskey at the counter, Two face is playing chess with Penguin who is multitasking in helping mix some drinks. Hell, even Harley and Ivy are in the background having a moment with the strippers.
(3) Why is Bruce Wayneâs kid at the Iceberg lounge? I have a teeny tiny headcanon that even though the reader was neglected they are still forced to attend galas once or twice because Bruce won't and then it will be like a big media scandal. Also reader's public appearances with Bruce or with the other Wayne children might be low but they still have hundreds of followers. The Wayne name alone is basically a celebrity name because of Bruce being heavily revered by the public. Think of it like nepobaby shit. (4) That stage presence and sheer seductiveness. Being a Wayne, I'm sure the reader was taught etiquette by Alfred and was taught how to dress properly. They are also taught how to behave. However on that vid, you look like you were dressed by the Gotham sirens (Ivy, Harley, and Selena) themselves. All those good boy, good girl, good child stuff are out of the window. If the reader was just blending in the background before and the video is the opposite. It's almost commanding every viewer to look at them, pay attention to them, worship the very ground they walk on, and love them! At this point just expect simps.Â
The family loves the video but at the same time they also hate it. They had their copies downloaded and saved and then they'll immediately task Barbara into scrubbing the video off of the internet but it's too late. The video has been re-uploaded to hundreds of different accounts and some news outlets had already published articles about it. The articles ranged from sweet ones like praising the reader for their awesome stage performance and singing to downright insane clickbaits like âBruce Wayne secretly allied with Gotham rogues?âÂ
The whole thing is very stressful and I pray to the DC gods that Bruce Wayne is very healthy because this guy's blood pressure might as well go high up. Imagine trying so hard to keep up with the ditzy playboy public persona to hide your vigilante secret identity only for your kid to be filmed singing and being cozy at the Iceberg lounge. Not only that! You also placed yourself in danger too! It's not a secret that a lot of rouges knew Batman's real identity (Joker knows it, he just doesn't care. He's so cool for that). Sure they don't attack Batman when he's Bruce and sure they are a sweet pseudo-family to you right now but who's to say that they won't use you when push comes to shove?Â
While Bruce deals with the media, Barbara and Tim work on the damage control and tracking every video, expect heavy guilt tripping and interference from Damian, Dick, and even Alfred (in his defense, he wants you safe and will only ask for you to get a better job or at least work in a place not frequented by villains). Dick will be actively poisoning the well. He'll make you sit down and read the crime archives with him (starting from the heaviest crime down to the pettiest crime) and will tell you stories about their encounters with each of them. Damian will try to keep you from getting to work and will try to keep you in your room if you haven't moved out of the estate. He'll ask you to go around with him, feed his pets with him and even asked you to watch him train (he doesn't know how bonding works, please be understanding). If you had left the estate and then expect him to show up and walk in your place like he owns it. He's one of those cats that you feed once and then suddenly shows up and won't leave you alone anymore.Â
Oh, you still won't come home? You still wanna continue that dangerous job of yours? Pick your poison then. Do you want them to call Jason to get to the bar and take you home, knowing him some heads will sure go flying. Or do you want the family to stage a stakeout, infiltrate the bar, and capture and lock up all the villains forever. Go on, go choose.Â
#platonic yandere batfam#yandere batfamily#yandere dc#yandere jason todd#platonic yandere#yandere#batfam x you#batfam x male reader#batfam x batbro#batfam x batsis#batfam x reader#batfam x gender neutral reader#male reader#female reader#gender neutral reader#gotham villains#batfamily#platonic batman x reader#platonic batfamily#platonic batfam#platonic batman#yandere bruce wayne#yandere damian wayne#yandere dick grayson#yandere red hood#yandere tim drake#red robin#red hood#yandere batfam x neglected reader#neglected reader
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SIN FOR ME â J.JK
Pairing : jeon jungkook + f!reader
Genre : smut
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: request, npr , cnc , older!jk , boyfriendsdad!jk , cheating, pwp , named!bf , misunderstandings , slight manipulation, unprotected sex at the beginning, protected sex later on , bigdick!jk , coming on body , cum eating , dirty talk , name calling/nicknames, slight angst â lmk if i missed any!
W/C: 2,919
A/N: thank you to pookie for requesting this!! I had a hard time with the plot đâ but i had fun! Thank you sm for requesting! And also sorry 4 going m.i.a i have js been so off đđđ€§đ€§đ„șđ„ș anyways enjoy!!
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This is strictly fiction. Any scenario or situation should not be taken seriously. Please refrain from reading if the topics make you uncomfortable. ââïœĄđŠč°â§â
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Another day came to an end. A bad end. You were cuddled up with your boyfriend, watching whatever popped up first on your recommended shows. You were hoping to get some action tonight, as itâs been a while since you guys had sex. 2 months, to be exact. You were frustrated, of course. He hasnât touched you or done anything to you for two months. That's the longest you have gone without sex. You tried so hard to push away the negative thoughts. Convincing yourself that he was just busy and tired and definitely not fucking some other bitch.Â
 His parents wouldnât be coming back home for a couple of hours since his dad is always busy and barely comes home, and his mom is most probably out with another broad. So You tried getting him in the mood. Wearing just a tee and some ck thongs. Rubbing against him. Kissing his neck. But nothing seemed to work. He kept pushing you away. âNot now.â âIm not in the moodâ âim too tired, not today.â were just coming out of his mouth like a broken record. But you still didnât give up! You were determined, but before that- âim gonna go sleep.â You looked up at him, confused. âWhat?â âIm tired, alright? Im gonna go to bed; you can continue watching your stupid show by yourself.â There was venom laced in his words. It hurt you. Your heart sank. He pushed you away before walking up the stairs. You were trying to hold back your tears. How could he do this to you? You scoff. âSeriously? Youâre really not even going to ask me to join you?â Your boyfriend turned around and stared at you blankly. âNo. I want some peace and space. Do whatever the hell you want.â And with that, he walked away. You could hear his loud footsteps descend before a loud slam took over.Â
You huff and try not to cry. It was too overwhelming for you, and you couldnât help but think about the possibility that he was probably seeing someone else, or else why would he act like this? The waterworks started pouring slowly as you thought about the memories you made with him. Your soft sobs echoed throughout the empty, dark, and cold living space.Â
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He was mad. So mad. Finding out that his company just fell into a major controversy after all he worked for was not the cherry on top. Jungkook hastily unlocked his houseâs door. It was unusually dark. The only light illuminating the space was the soft kitchen light, which his dumbass son forgot to turn off. He dropped his case and trenchcoat by the door before kicking off his shoes and walked further into his home. He noticed a small figure face-down on the couch, sleeping.Â
You were sleeping on your stomach, your head tucked in your forearm, and your hair covered your face. Your shirt was slightly rolled up, and your ass was on full display. Jungkook walked over and took a good look at your body. He needed something to pour his anger into, and so, assuming that it was his wife, he loosened his tie and sat where your foot rested. His hand went up your thighs before resting on your plump ass, cold fingers fondling with the soft flesh. He grabbed a handful before giving your ass a soft slap. He shuffled to hover over you. His hand cupped your pussy. Palm pushing into the wet hole, dampening your underwear. ââŠGonna fuck you, okay, pretty? Just stay still fâ me..â His voice was low and deep. He was still under the impression that it was his wife. Jungkookâs fingers hooked around your underwear before pulling it to the side, exposing your bare cunt. He couldnât see much, but he noticed how his âwifeâsâ pussy was glistening in the dark. He circled your entrance with slow movements. Your cunny was getting wet at a quick rate. He swallowed thickly at the soft, warm feeling. Without wasting much time, he unbuckled his belt and pulled down his pants along with his boxers.
Jungkook was rock hard. His tip glowed a deep red, and pre-cum was already dripping down his slit. Using his strong hands, he gently shifted your position so your ass was up in the air. He placed a couch pillow under your abdomen so you could lay comfortably. He hunched over your small frame, his hand gliding his aching tip over your glossy slit. He breathed heavily. It felt too good. Jungkook slowly started pushing himself in. He was struggling. It was easy to slip inside his wife, but this time? It seemed different. But familiar. Still, he continued moving forward. Maybe some miracle had happened to his wife. Who knows. His eyebrows furrowed as he watched your puffy lips swallow his hard length. You were still in deep sleep. The long crying session took a toll on your energy, so you were not really aware of what was happening to your body. Jungkook's breath gets caught in his throat as he finally stuffs you full. Your pussy clenching around his length unknowingly.Â
Jungkook started moving. Rolling his hips gently. He threw his head back at how your sweet cunny felt around his length. Â It was hard to believe that it was his wife. You felt warmer. Softer. And, of course, much tighter. Nothing compared to his wife. His eyes were squeezed shut, and short, heavy breaths left his lips as you continued taking him in. His hands grasped your plush hips, gripping the flesh tightly.
âMmf-â you let out a soft whine. Jungkook's tight grasp was enough to give you a bit of consciousness. Soft gasps escaped your lips at every thrust. Your stomach felt weird, and your body was getting hot. You were starting to sweat. âJunwoo⊠feels goodâŠâ you mumbled in your sleep. You felt something penetrating your sopping walls and immediately thought that it was your boyfriend. Maybe he felt bad and decided to finally give in.
Jungkook's heart dropped. No way. There's no way. His eyes went wide when you mumbled his sonâs name. With shaky hands, Jungkook leaned forward and pushed the hair off of your face. Shock and terror spread all over his body. He stared down at you. His hand is still resting on your cheek. You were mumbling incoherently. You nudged your face into his palm. âKeep..going.. please.â You murmured. Jungkook gulped. He didnât know what to do. He was fucking his sonâs girlfriend! His thumb brushed the side of your cheek. He felt bad for you. He knew about the fact that his idiot son had been cheating on you for the past 3 months. How could he cheat on such a precious piece? He had to treat you right, even if it was wrong.
You were writhing and squirming under his huge build. Consciousness was starting to hit you. Your body felt hot and uneasy. The feeling was something you had never felt before. It was so much better than what junwoo was giving you. It was suspicious. You slowly lifted your head up, wanting to turn around and see âyour boyfriendâ. Jungkook immediately stopped and pulled out. He was still rock hard, and his dick hit his abdomen with a loud -thump-. He gulped heavily. You tuck your hair behind your ears and glance at the man who was fucking into you senseless.Â
âWhat the fuck!!!!!â You immediately pushed yourself away from him. Cramming yourself in the corner of his Fendi Casa sofa, your thighs shut together. Your eyes first landed on his twitching cock. Oh, it was big. Bigger than his sonâs. It was leaking too, and you couldnât help but feel yourself getting wetter. It was so wrong. So, so wrong. You immediately come out of a trance and look at the man in front of you. His shirt was open, revealing his built body. âI c-can explain-âJungkook stuttered. âWhat the fuck mr.jeon???????? How could you just do that to me???â Jungkook's hands were up in defense. âItâs not what you think, y/n. I was mistaken too.â âMistaken???? You just raw-dogged me???. You are fucking your sonâs girlfriend!!!â Jungkook swallowed hard before looking at you with his dark eyes. âLike itâs not the first time i touched you. Be for real right now, y/nâ he rolled his eyes at your reaction. âYeah! Touched. You have only TOUCHED, me. Its a big difference mr.jeon!â It was true that you both fooled around here and there but that was before you started dating junwoo. And everything ended after you confirmed your relationship with his son who was once your bestfriend.
He was hard af and you felt too good to stop. So there had to be some way to get you convinced. It was about time he told you about his sonâs double life. âLook. Thereâs something you should know. Your boyfriend or my son has been cheating on you.â He did not want to beat around the bush and just dropped the bomb. Your heart shattered, and you felt lightheaded. Your eyes went wide at Jungkookâs claims. You were too stunned to speak and just stared at him. It seemed like it had worked, which prompted him to slowly hover over you, pushing you down softly. âAnd I know about the fact that my whore of a wife has been cheating on me every day." He looked down and watched as his calloused fingers ran up the soft rolls of your abdomen before making eye contact with you again. âYou need this, y/n.. we both need thisâŠâ the last 4 words came out in a hush. His words were so sinister, and he had a shit-eating grin on his face as he watched you process the information. You trembled under his frame. Oh, you definitely needed it. You shook your head before grabbing Jungkook's loose collar and pulling him into a heated kiss. If your now ex boyfriend cheated on you? Might as well start fucking his dad again for revenge.
Jungkook giggled into the kiss and kissed you back. His hand found the back of your head before tightly gripping your soft hair. You whined into his mouth as it started to hurt. Jungkook kissed you further. His tongue tasting the insides of your mouth. He ripped your underwear, making you gasp and whine. âI will get you new ones, pretty, dwâ he mumbled into the kiss with a smirk. His dick was rubbing against your bare pussy, making you leak. His hips moved incoherently. He loved the feeling of your wet pussy lipâs coating his length. Jungkook started aligning himself with your entrance, but before he could shove it in, you stopped him. You broke off the intense kiss. A string of saliva connected your lips to his. Jung Kook looked at you in concern. âWhatâs wrong, sweetheart?â You gulped before speaking up. âProtection⊠mr.Jeon.â You avoided eye contact with him as he narrowed his eyes at you. He let out a soft chortle before reaching down and taking his wallet from his discarded pants.
He pulled out a condom from one of the sleeves before chucking the wallet away. He was sitting on his heels and looked at you with a smirk. âPut it on for me, darling..â You nodded shyly as you sat up a bit and took the condom from his hands. You slowly ripped the blue plastic wrapping and pulled it out, all while innocently staring up at him. Your shaky hands gripped the base of his cock, giving it a slight squeeze before focusing on pushing the rubber down his huge dick. Jung Kook watched you with pure lust in his eyes. His hand went to the back of your head before forcefully making you look at him, causing you to whimper at the sudden action. âI didnât know you were such a good girl, y/n..â He gave you a reassuring smile before pulling you to him. Your legs rested on his thighs, and his cock rested on your stomach. The length sat comfortably on your plush tummy. âGonna take me all, baby? Can you do that for me?â You nodded vigorously before slowly moving your hips on his cock for some stimulation. He chuckled at your reaction and hissed as he entered you slowly. now savoring each and every inch of your sweet pussy. You whimpered as you finally felt how big he was. It still hurt, even though he had already dicked you down.Â
You stared at Jungkook's face, your eyebrows knit together and eyes swelling up with tears, your lips bitten down hard as you watched Jungkook's face contort in pleasure. Sweat dripped down his body, and soft grunts left his mouth as he inched inside you more. His eyes quickly glanced at yours, and he internally fumbled at your expression. Knowing that he was fucking you was making this experience even better.Â
With a quick thrust, he was fully into you. His tip kissing your spongy spot. Your breath was unsteady and faltering as he had you filled to the brim. His fingers were hooked under your chin and you lifted your face slightly so you could meet his gaze. âCan i?â He asked you gently with a reassuring smile. You nodded at his words before grabbing onto his shoulders for stability. Jungkook's hands held onto your waist, keeping you in place. His hips started moving. Each thrust made him grunt loudly. His pace increased as it got easier to move inside you. Your gummy walls were spasming around his length, and he could feel your warmth. Your both eyes were fixated on the way his dick went in and out of you. His cock would form a small bulge in your lower abdomen every time he pushed into you. âYou see that baby? Youâre taking me in so well⊠fuck-â he was cut off as your pussy clenched. You let out a whine at his words âs-sir.. faster p-please..âÂ
That was all Jungkook needed to hear for him to go absolutely feral on you. The way you begged with that voice sent blood rushing straight to his cock. âYeah? My little slut wants me to go faster? I will give anything you ask, baby..â His thrusts got harder and faster. You gripped his shoulders tight, and your eyes rolled back as Jungkook hit your sweet spot perfectly. Sounds of wet skin slapping against each other were echoing throughout the whole area. Your moans are starting to get increasingly louder. Jungkooks quickly covered your mouth before leaning down and whispering into your ears. "don't want your boyfriend to hear how much I'm making you feel good, wouldnât ya?â Tears streamed down your face as his dick abused your hole. Jungkook left wet kisses and purple hickeys on the sides of your neck, going lower and lower. You wrapped your hands around his neck and your legs around his waist, pulling him closer to your body as you writhed and twitched in pleasure. Jungkook's cock was ruining your pussy
âFuck-â Jungkook's voice got caught in his throat as you clenched around him again. He savoured the warm feeling of your cunt wrapped around his cock. âTaking me so well little girlâŠâ he breathed into your ear in a whisper. Whines after whines left your mouth. His girthy cock, grazing your gummy, warm walls. The grip on your hips got tighter, enough to form visible bruises.
His thrusts were quick and sharp, and it has you seeing stars. You could feel the knot in your stomach reach its peak. He grunted into your neck and lifted his head up to look at you. âGonna cum pretty? Gonna make a little mess for me?â You nodded and whined as his hand left your mouth and reached down to play with your puffy clit. You choked as he started flicking your sensitive nub. âMake a huge mess for me.. I will make sure my idiot son cleans it up..â he gave you a wink before focusing on helping you reach your orgasm. He was almost close too. His grip on your waist tightened, and he continued pounding into you.Â
âfuckkk!!!!â Your vision went blurry as you came all over his lower body. Streams of clear liquid coated the couch and his abdomen. Jungkook gawked at the sight, and he was so close to cumming. He quickly pulled out of you before removing the condom. His hand wrapped around his throbbing length, and he started jerking himself off. His head thrown back and mouth agape. âL-look at me baby..â he whispered, and you obeyed. Looking up at him through your dazed state. Eyes glossy, and your face was covered in a thin layer of sheen as you slowly came down from your high. Jungkook opened his eyes, looked at you once, and busted all over your body. Some of his cum even reached your face. A load of his creamy white cum never seemed to stop pouring out of his dick. Your stomach and shirt were stained with the thick liquid. You quickly wiped it off your face, licking it off your fingers as you stared into his eyes with a smirk. Jungkook let out a soft chuckle before reaching down to grab your face so he could kiss you. His lips met yours again, but this time it was more gentle. More passionate. He could taste himself on your lips. âDirty little girl.â
A/N: thank you for reading!!! I was not rlly sure abt the topic because its the first time i actually wrote a cnc fic w plot đđ§ââïžbut i hope it was upto par!! Also if it seems like the plot gets lost somewhere please ignore đâđš
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we used to have more pt. 4 | oscar piastri, pato oâward
part 1 part 2 part 3
pairing: oscar piastri x reader, pato oâward x reader
summary: where a talk in a hotel room and a work trip to mexico make things clear for you
fc: different girls from pinterest
warnings: mentions of toxic relationships
a/n: ahhh sorry it took me a while to post this! but finally here it is the last part of this mini series that i loved creating <3 thank you so so much for supporting it the way you did, all the comments, reblogs and likes meant the world to me while writing itđ
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Remember Your Place
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Pairing | Raymond Leon x reader
Summary | Raymond finally gives you attention, but not the kind youâve been craving.
Warnings | Smut, boot licking, discipline, punishment, grinding, humiliation, degradation, facials, orgasm denial.
Words | 1k
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Kinktober | day 4: boot licking + discipline/punishment
âIâm busy.â He gritted, quickly losing patience.Â
âBut itâs been hours.â You whined obnoxiously. Raymond promised heâd give you some attention hours ago, but he hasnât moved from his desk.Â
âCome here.â You immediately stiffened when you heard that toneâ the one that always ends with you being punished. Â
âN-no.. I can wait.â You said weakly, taking a step back.Â
âCome here.âÂ
You bit your lip and pouted a little, trying not to audibly whine. When he raised his brows impatiently, you tentatively walked further into the room, stopping a safe distance away from him.Â
âGet under the desk.â He commanded, moving his chair back just enough for you to slip under. At least he wasnât going to take you over his lap, but you were still nervous about what he had planned. Once you were in position, he extended his leg, his boot going between your thighs. âIâm going to finish my work and youâre going to grind on my boot. If you make a single sound or stop before I tell you to, you wonât get any orgasms for a week. Do you understand?âÂ
âYes, sir.â You said quietly, pouting when you realized he actually wasnât going to finally give you attention. He rolled the chair closer to the desk to continue working, effectively trapping you under it. You mounted his boot with a blush and started slowly rocking your hips, trying not to whine or moan.Â
He had you doing this for what felt like hours. Your legs were quivering, your knees were hurting from the wood floor, your clit was starting to burn from all the friction, and your pussy was aching, desperately needing to be filled. You wanted to ask how much longer or tell him that you needed a break, but Raymond never bluffed when it came to punishments.Â
You mostly kept your arms wrapped around his leg and your chin or cheek on his thigh. Usually he wouldâve pet your hair in this position, but it was like you werenât even there.Â
Finally, once your movements started to falter because your legs were giving out, he rolled the chair back again.Â
âLess than two hours and youâre already giving up?â He asked mockingly, making you frown. Your brows scrunched together and you shook your head in response, not sure if you were allowed to talk yet. He grabbed your cheeks in one hand and pulled you up until your face was level with his stomach, lifting you off his boot as well.Â
âI think we need another lesson in respect and obedience. When I tell you Iâm busy working, what do you do?âÂ
âI wait until youâre done, sir.â You said obediently.Â
âThatâs right.â He stared down at you, his cold gaze making you shiver. âWho do you belong to?âÂ
âYou, sir.â You whispered and his hand suddenly released your face to strike your cheek, a loud, resounding slap filling the room.Â
âSpeak up.â He growled, roughly fisting your hair to turn you back toward him.Â
âYou! I belong to you, sir.â You sobbed, feeling so overwhelmed with pain and the burning need for release. When he leaned down over you and spat on your face, you closed your eyes with a whimper, prompting him to slap you again.Â
âTake off your panties.â He demanded, making you falter. You averted your gaze as a dark blush painted your cheeks. He pulled his leg away from you and looked down at his boot, scoffing at the glistening leather. With his grip on your hair, he forcefully pushed your head down until your face was hovering over his shoe. âClean up your mess, whore.âÂ
You let out a choked sob and he released you to lean back in the chair. Knowing he would only get more impatient, you reluctantly stuck your tongue out and began licking his boot. The leather mixed with your arousal was a terrible combination, but you forced yourself to keep going.Â
When you heard a zipper and then some movement, you tried to look up to see what he was doing, but you couldnât see anything at this angle. You could, however, hear him spit on his hand and start slowly stroking his cock. You mewled quietly, but that went ignored by him⊠as did your squirming.Â
âClean the other one while youâre at it.â He ordered. You whined loudly in displeasure, not wanting this humiliation to get even worse. But you knew you had to obey if you wanted to save yourself from further punishment.Â
Once you started licking his other boot, the previous one lifted and settled on the back of your head, pushing your face into the smooth leather that was already slick with your spit. You let out a strangled whimper, but he just pushed down harder.Â
âMaybe this will help you remember your place.â He commented offhandedly.Â
He didnât move his boot from the back of your head for a while, but finally, he was pulling you back up, keeping his hand in your hair as he rapidly fisted his cock in front of your face. When you moaned and tried to surge forward, he tightened his grip and yanked you back almost painfully. âDisobedient sluts donât get the privilege of sucking my cock.â He spat, making you whine quietly. His pace got impossibly faster while more and more sounds started slipping out and you had to squeeze your thighs together to try and alleviate the ache between them.Â
When the first rope of come shot out and landed on your face, you were startled, but you quickly recovered and opened your mouth, hoping to catch some on your tongue. He grunted quietly as he painted your face with his seed, making you moan wantonly. Once his orgasm finally finished, he let out a satisfied breath and panted for a moment, releasing his cock and loosening his grip on your hair.Â
âGo clean yourself up.â He ordered gruffly, voice still thick with arousal.
âButâŠâ Your cunt was still achingâ Was he really just going to leave you like this? âSir..â You whimpered pitifully.Â
âYouâre already not coming today. Keep it up and Iâll make it tomorrow too.â You frowned in response, but lifted yourself onto shaky legs to go do what he said, not wanting to risk prolonging your much needed relief any further.Â
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Missing Loustat scene discovered in Anne Rice's diaries
I HAVE SOMETHING AMAZING TO SHARE WITH YOU!!
As I was reading Anne Rice's diaries in the special collection library at Tulane University while I was in New Orleans for the Vampire Ball, I discovered this intensely sexy scene she wrote between Louis and Lestat that never made it into her books. This is Anne Rice's original writing, never before shared anywhere online.
Anne Rice wrote this scene by hand in her diary dated November 6, 2015 (which she mentions is the day before Stan's birthday. He would have been 73đ). I have deduced that it is her very first (and very rough) draft of the scene that eventually became chapter 4 in Prince Lestat and the Realms of Atlantis, aka the scene where Louis agrees to move into the chateau and be Lestat's partner/companion again. The final version of the scene in the book reads like wedding vows, serving as the beginning of their marriage in the modern era. As you'll see, the first draft was rather different.Â
In Prince Lestat, Louis and Lestat's interactions are extremely brief, and they aren't able to talk beyond one stolen moment to reassure each other of their love. It would seem that in the six months between the end of Prince Lestat (when Louis thinks to himself that he will be with Lestat very soon), and the beginning of Atlantis (when that finally ends up happening), Louis and Lestat do not have any intimate conversation. They may have talked somewhat, but only briefly about superficial matters, or they may have not even spoken to each other once over those six months until Lestat asks Louis to meet him in New Orleans for chapter 4.
In an earlier diary entry, I found a note where Anne said she wanted their first reunion conversation to begin by finally addressing Louis dumping Lestat's body in the swamp after Claudia tried to kill himâsomething they have never once discussed. So when I came across this scene in a later diary, I could tell it was a direct follow-through on that idea.Â
The scene begins with Lestat speaking to Louis, and it seems they are outside on the streets of New Orleans, but someplace private where they aren't being observed by mortals. This is different from the final book version with them sitting at a sticky table at the CafĂ© Du Monde (though it is similar to how Lestat tells us they walked around the city streets together for hours after the reunion scene was over).Â
Anne headed this part of the diary entry with: Early on: L+L quarrelâ
âI can forgive her for what she did. She was never a human being. She went from being an infant to a monster. But youâyou stood there and watched. You carried my body into the swamps and dumped me there as if I were trashâyou were the one I hated! How could you do that to me? Decades weâd been together!â
He stared at me for the longest timeânot defensive, not angry.
âI could do it because I was afraid,â he said. âI didnât know how I was going to live without you.â
âI donât believe you. You were fine without me. You were preparing to sail to Europe. You were making plans.â
A torrent of words.
âStop!â he said. âIâm here now. I love you! I thought you wanted me here! I thought youâd forgiven me. I thought we had a second chance, now, you and I. And miles to travel together!â
I nodded.
âA second chance!â
I nodded.
Then I took hold of him as if I was going to kill him. I threw him up against the wall and bit into his neck for the first time in two hundred yearsâthe first time since the first timeâand when the blood gushed into my mouth, I saw againâfor the first time in two hundred yearsâhis soul, his heart.
I was lost in his mind, his thoughts, his dreams, flashesâŠ
I drew backâIâd drunk too much. He was being held there by me, his head bowed. I slapped him hard and when he opened his eyes, I pushed his open mouth against my neck. I forced his fangs into me.
And we were together, wrapped in one anotherâs armsâŠ
Finally I pushed him back.
He was sitting on the paving stones, hair in his face, back to the wall. I took his hand and helped him up.
âKiss me,â I said. âNo, really kiss me.â
Finally I let him go.
âI canât live without you! â he said. âI swear, you wander off on me again, IâŠâ
âI wonât. I wonât ever.â
We walked along in silence.
âHe loves you too,â he said.
âWho?â
âThe silent one, the one whoâs never spoken to me, the one inside you.â
It was time. I could have lingered a half hour more in the old times, but the time was now.
The EndÂ
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Above is the clean version, which I have corrected for missing punctuation, missing letters/words, and necessary dialogue tags.
Below is the original rough version as I have transcribed exactly from Anne Rice's handwritten diary.
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âI can forgive her for what she did. She was never a human being. She went from being an infant to a monster. But youâyou stood there & watched. You carried my body in the swamps & dumped me there as if I were trashâyou were the one I hated! How could you do that to me? Decades weâd been together!
He stared at me for the longest timeânot defensive, not angry.
I could do it because I was afraid, he said. âI didnât know how I was going to live without you.â
âI donât believe. You were fine without me. You were preparing to sail to Europe. You were making plans.â
âA torrent of words.
âStop! Iâm here now. I love you! I thought you âd wanted me here! I thought youâd forgive me. I thought we had a second chance, now, you & I. And miles to travel together!â
I noddedâ
âA second chance!â
I noddedâ
Then I took hold of him as if I was going to kill him. I threw him up against the wall & bit into his neck for the first time in 200 yearsâthe first time since the first timeâand when the blood gushed into my mouth I saw againâfor the first time in 200 yearsâhis soul, his heartâ
I was lost in his mind, his thoughts, his dreams, flashes â (more)
I drew backâIâd drunk too much He was being held there by me, his head bowed. I slapped him hard & when he opened his eyes I pushed his open mouth against my neck. I forced his fangs into me.
And we were together, wrapped in one another arms â (more)
Finally I pushed him back.
He was sitting on the paving stones, hair in his face, back to the wall. I took his hand & helped him up.
Kiss me. No really kiss me.
Finally I let him go.
I canât live without you! I swear, you wander off on me again, I âŠÂ I â
âI wonât. I wonât ever.â
We walked along in silence â
He loves you too
Who
The silent one, the one whoâs never spoken to me, the one inside you.
It was time. I could have linger a half hour more in the old times, but was now â
The EndÂ
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The spots where she wrote (more) are clearly areas where she intended to expound upon all Lestat was seeing and feeling in Louis's mind, soul, and blood, and then what he felt and saw as Louis was drinking from him. How I wish we could know what she would have written there! Also the lines that start or end with a â make me wonder if she intended to add more to those bits as well. Would she have actually written out Lestat's torrent of words?
Lestat's line "Kiss me. No really kiss me." isn't in quotation marks in Anne's diary. I chose to add them, because there were many other obviously spoken-aloud dialogue lines also without quotes. But it is possible that Lestat only thinks these words as he and Louis are kissing each other. It reminds me of in Queen of the Damned, when Daniel thinks, "I like kissing. And suggling with dead things, yes, hold me." The narration doesn't tell us Armand actually starts holding him, but Anne's style of using internal monologue makes it clear that's what happens in the action. So the "Kiss me." could be similar in this instance as well. And in that case it might mean Louis is the one who initiates the kiss, and this is Lestatâs internal âyes, yes!!â reaction to it. But I do suspect he is actually meant to be saying it aloud.
With the em dash at the end of it, the very last line could have been meant to continue: "but was now ______" was now...something. But considering she wrote "The End" after it, it seems like it was meant to be a final statement, so that is why I added the missing words I chose in my edited clean version.
Although this conversation is very different from the one we get in the final version of Atlantis, I do still see elements of it in the book's scene:
Louis's line "I canât live without you! I swear, you wander off on me again, I âŠ" became "so I'll come. And when you tire of me and want me gone, I'll hate you of course."
They still kiss, really kiss. In the book, it is moved to before their conversation, when Lestat first sees Louis in their Rue Royal flat, wearing the new clothes he ordered for him and Louis says, "This is what you wanted, isn't it?" and Lestat is so shocked, he's unable to respond.
They do still discuss Amel in the book version, in much more depth than he is mentioned here. Louis having never heard Amel's voice in his own head remains consistent.Â
They do still go walking around the streets of the Garden District, though it happens after the conversation, not during it. Lestat does say they talked for hours during that walk, but about Amel and what's been happening to Lestat as Prince. Not about themselves or their past.Â
MY THOUGHTS!
The confirmation here that Lestat never tasted Louis's blood before their new marriage begins in Atlantis is one of the most amazing parts to me, when combined with the offhand way that Lestat mentions what Louis's vampire blood tastes like in Blood Communion. Even though the final version of Atlantis never shows us Lestat drinking Louis's blood (either forcefully like this scene, or consensually in other ways), the mention in Blood Communion does confirm that it DOES happen off the page at some point during the years between Atlantis chapter 4 and the beginning of Blood Communion.Â
We know that Louis drank much of Lestat's blood at the end of Merrick, and this was his first time doing it because we were told in previous books how much he resisted his powers being increased by drinking ANY other vampire's blood. It is nice to have it confirmed that Lestat never bit Louis or drank any of his blood in return either before or after Merrick. But now, after Lestat becomes Prince, this is now a new element to their relationship. It makes me consider more strongly that Anne perhaps meant to imply that they then for the first time began to engage in blood sharing the same romantic way Lestat did with Akasha in Queen of the Damned, and then in the even more explicit way she shows us with Rhoshamandes and Benedict in Prince Lestat.Â
I don't take all Anne wrote in her diaries as canon. It is clear that much of what she wrote there were spitball ideas that she later chose to absolutely reject (as opposed to deciding they were true but she just didn't mention them in the books). But I do not see anything in this scene that the final versions of the books contradict. So even though this scene didn't actually happen in canon, we can believe that the feelings and emotions that drive this scene are still canon. And I love that for us đ„°
I have cross-posted this on ao3 to give us a good place to talk back and forth to each other about it in the comments section there. Reblog and reply to this post as much as you like, but if you want to have some conversations and share your own thoughts on what she wrote, ao3 will give us a much more organized place to do it, where other people will be able to easily find and read your meta as well.
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