#too tired to care

[actual-changeling]

I am going to say this once and for all because I am not about to simply shut up and sit back. I am chronically suicidal, I have tried to kill myself, I am still affected by ALL of that and struggle with it on the daily.

If you use suicidal ideation and suicide itself as a plot device just to hurt a character/characters and don't even understand the basic psychological foundation and thought patterns that lead to that kind of disordered thinking you are a vile, ableist human being and I hope you stay far away from me.

Whump and angst writing is one thing, using suicide attempts in your stories like they are somehow a fun new addition to your plot roster is nothing short of disgustingly offensive. You can write about suicidality in a respectful, educated manner even if you do not struggle with it yourself, but that requires research and the ability to LISTEN when people tell you you are fucking up. If you cannot do that, shut the fuck up.

I am tired of being nice, I am tired of seeing my disorders fetishized and turned into entertainment, I am tired of seeing something as serious as suicide treated like it's nothing but a fanfiction trope, I am tired of no one else speaking up and simply letting it happen. I am tired of people not caring that writing can and will hurt people, and with this topic in particular it is outright dangerous to write it in an irresponsible manner.

I did not want to get involved in drama, I did not want to name drop, I was not a part of it and simply made a vague post about it because Ellis is my friend, but I'm tired. This is personal for me and this is the last fucking line someone can cross.

If you still follow penandinkprincess and intend to continue to support her after this I want you to unfollow and block me.

The miscarriage fic was one thing, inaccurately writing about trauma and PTSD another, stealing my fic concept a whole different discussion no one probably cares about anyway but this? Using SUICIDE of all things as a funny whump device? No. This is disgusting, irresponsible, ableist, and dangerous. I would *never* write about suicidality in this manner and the fact that she does so after repeatedly not listening to people telling her the way she handles mental disorders is damaging is intentional bigotry and I want nothing to do with that.

If you come onto my blog to start drama over this I will block you. This is not tumblr discourse and this is not about headcanons and I have said so before. Look at my other post if you want more explanations, I will not spell all of it out again.

Bottom line, if you support that kind of ableist, offensive behavior I do not want you anywhere near my writing or my blog, this is supposed to be as safe of a space as possible for everyone. I am so fucking sorry for everyone who comes across her post without warning, if you need to talk my inbox and my dms are open, take care of yourself people.

[ekowolf]

Story—The Only Difference Between Medicine and Poison is the Dose

She rubbed her thumb gently under the sad blue eyes, catching the tears before they traveled too far down Kara’s soft cheeks.

“D-don’t cr-…cry”, Lena whispered as her lips stuck together with the drying stickiness of blood.

Her eyes fluttered, her body finally giving in, the darkness being just another thing to claim her tonight.

a snippet from one of the stories i’m working on

[wanderingline]

Another WIP

[inkyucu]

I'm starting to uh...

To use spiders for pose references.

Why?

Because...

Uh....

I'm tired.

[caspiantherat]

Still can’t sleep !! 😁

It’s 6:30 am !! 🫶🫶🫶

Insomnia is great !! 😋🙌

[spotlightstory]

Dick Gregory: There's 24 hours to a day. They tell you supposed to sleep what? Interviewer: 8 hours DG: So now you got how many left? Interviewer: 16 DG: You are supposed to work what? Interviewer: 8 hours DG: And now you got what left? Interviewer: 8 hours DG: You haven't cooked. You haven't got dressed. You haven't said "Hello" to the children. Sleep deprivation - that's how they get you.

SLEEP DEPRIVATION

Financial Stress + Sleep Deprivation = Pliable Workers

There's good reason why sleep deprivation is classified as torture. Severe fatigue impacts our critical thinking. Cult leaders have used sleep deprivation to indoctrinate and control members.

Tired people are less likely to protest. Tired people are more likely to accept what they are told without question. They have less free energy and time for self reflection, self development or fact checking.

Lack of sleep can cause several emotional and cognitive effects, including:

Difficulty making decisions

Increased anxiety

Increased risk-taking behavior

Irritability

Mood swings

Poor problem-solving skills

Sleep helps maintain cognitive skills, such as attention, learning, and memory. Poor sleep also affects physical health and is linked to diabetes, heart disease, high blood pressure and obesity.

[i-want-to-be-spaghettified]

I have completely given up on looking presentable and now regularly go out with unbrushed hair wearing pjs and slides

[drag0nfir3]

Art dump cause I'm tired but wanna post art

Comment which u want to know more about

[ssenza]

It is calming to see something familiar in another

inspo x x

[actual-changeling]

Thank you for speaking out against THAT tlou fic writer. In the last few weeks I’ve been feeling more and more uncomfortable by the work she puts out. Her characterizations are always so off and she writes Ellie like she is eight years old instead of a teenager with agency. I think that’s also why I was so bothered by her “Ellie as a mom” fics because even though she aged Ellie up in them she still wrote her like she was a child.

TLOU obviously deals with dark themes so yeah the fanfics about it probably will too, but there is a way to appropriately and respectfully do so without essentially fetishizing and dehumanizing real human experiences. It’s just frustrating that this author refuses to reflect on their writing and instead uses the “don’t like don’t read” excuse to defend their choices. Also, when I looked through their blog a while back I saw that they were writing tlou fanfic without even watching the show or game, which is just odd but ok.

Anyway, I’m sorry if her latest posts have been triggering for you and that you had to make a post about it, but thank you for being so open about how her writing and tropes do have real consequences. I hope you are doing okay and know that there are people who support you and agree with you.

I also want to say that I really appreciate and enjoy your work. I’m always looking forward to the next silhouette updates and have resonated with your writing style and in-depth character analyses.

(Sorry for the rant)

No need to apologize anon, I'm happy to hear from you (and everyone else)!

I'm doing alright, some aggressive cleaning later and I'm as good as new, and I have people to support me. I saw the post by proxy and it caught me incredibly off-guard since I do have her blocked.

You summarized everything incredibly well so all I can really say is thank you <3 I want my corner of the fandom to be safe and fun for everyone.

[draculings]

an incredibly sensitive instrument.

[moth-wxffle]

my dumbass just ate 5 chicken sandwiches

[headlesshorsemanxiii]

Guess I'm growing old then. . .

“It is not true that people stop pursuing dreams when they grow old. They grow old when they stop pursuing dreams.”

— Gabriel García Márquez

[adaki]

Wanted to try drawing something a little ornate, I think they’d make each other worse

[sheepgirlmaidtummy]

man. this whole thing pisses me off because like. even when people talk about staff having a history of hating trans women, that this isnt the first time, without fail black trans women are forgotten to be included again and again. im not surprised this caused such an uproar when the popular white woman gets deleted. nobody should be, its been that way like forever. some cunt in my inbox got annoyed i called rita a sex worker (lol? okay)

but i mentioned that in my post because so many black trans women have gotten removed from this site for their sex work alone, regardless of if it "broke community guidelines" or not, especially when tumblr live and the ads on this website are so fucking horny. idek what to say rn because like. this wont get as many notes as the posts talking about her will. the exploding car thing is gonna get more attention than the trans women on this site you dont actually care about listening to. ive been talking about how unfair it is to be a black tgirl on this site for years and nobody cares.

i love rita, we talked abit the other day and she's doing fine, dont get it twisted and think i hate her or some bs, she's a big fucking reason im not fucking homeless.

but part of why her deletion got to #1 trending on tumblr for multiple days in a row is that she's white

[j3ssicat-gr4nde]

Though all my dreams are nightmares, why are they so much more comforting than real life?