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i just want to matter as much as other people matter to me.

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you never wanted me to be your friend - you only stayed around so that you would feel less bad about yourself.

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Stop Throwing It In My Face

I'm not mad because I'm bipolar.

I'm mad because you did something wrong and pushed my buttons until I had a reaction.

You'd think someone your age would hold themselves accountable in some form.

You're not perfect because you're older, a parent, and seen me at my worst.

I take medication regularly and see a doctor AND therapist regularly too.

Saying I'm sorry you're mad is NOT an apology.

I don't have to be respectful of your authority after you insult me and do not respect my boundaries.

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Do not censor yourself/selves for others, and do not play into their expectations of who you should be. Do not exclude others simply so you are not excluded, yourself. Do not downplay your disorder, sexuality, gender or identity to make it easier for others to digest. Do not lie simply in order to fit in, unless it is for your own safety. Do not let others hatred of you rule over your own life, and do not let it influence you into hating others within similar communities or even your own.

Know that whatever or whoever you are is still important, even if you have to hide for now to stay safe. Your experiences, your identity, and you yourself are important and deserving of spaces safe to express yourself/selves.

I am so very tired of seeing people hate on those with stigma surrounding their identities. Otherkin, queers, psychotics, systems, trans and gender diverse people, and anyone society does not understand. You do not help your own group by harming another. You are only helping those against us all.

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"You're always so chipper and excited even though you're in pain, I could never."

Bethany, if I wasn't chipper and excited about the most mundane things like bees and dice, then I would literally be bedrotting all day every day, sobbing because my entire life is falling apart because I have no answers or relief to pain that doctors think is fake. So I will take joy in my trinkets and rollerskating while my body allows because one day I won't be able to.

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IME Loved ones can keep you going for awhile. They can be your reason for holding on. And then the pain continues to overwhelm you until that comfort and connection isn't enough.

It's selfish of them to imagine that their connection to you will always be enough and it's really selfish of them to add guilt. It's like they're dismissing your pain but how dare you do something about it that would cause them pain?

I've lost a loved one to suicide. I never felt like they owed it to me to abandon the one option they had left just because it would hurt me. I know they wanted to spare me that pain.

Sometimes you have nothing but bad options. Some people hurt so much that their compassion for their loved ones doesn't outweigh the pain they feel and that's not bad or wrong. Sometimes life does give you more than you can handle. Sometimes problems aren't temporary.

Just because they care and support you that doesn't give them the right to judge.

One thing I hate about being in constantly agony is the weird presence that my pain won't end until I die, and then when I express wanting to kill myself because some days breathing, talking or just lying in bed is too painful, people around me call me selfish because they care about me.

I appreciate being loved and cared about beyond words, but my issue lies with quality of life over quantity of life. The past week has been day after day of hospital levels of pain and no proper way to sleep it off or medicate myself so it's slightly bearable and my only thoughts can go to are fantasizing about not being alive or the throbbing, heavy, sharp pain I'm in across my body.

There's times where I wish getting put down like an old dog or a lame duck to help me through my misery is an option.

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REAL!! rare footage of someone with DID!! unaware they’re being filmed while switching!!!

footage: a totally normal looking person pouring milk into cereal. pauses while pouring, looks confused for 0.5 seconds, sees bowl, and seeming to understand the situation, continues to pour the milk and proceeds to eat the cereal.

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meihua/plum blossoms in chinese gardens

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Fish from World of Warcraft

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tried get one those self care apps to try feel better about self but of course 90% of the stupid goals are excerise

mecant. me cantdothat me cant go on walks cant go outside cant get out of bed cant do stretches cant do anything

itnot fair it notfair everything assume am ablebodied. literally put me had disability but still it somehow wantme go on walks. me cant. am not ableto. nothing accessible

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SANTA CLARITA DIET - The Chicken and the Pear (3.06)

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