#too sad to be awake

[amphibianaday]

day 1651

[courfee]

“Regulus would be proud of us,” James whispered quietly to no one in particular, still gripping onto the painting like a life raft. 

— Tender Curiosities, Baby!  @otrtbs

[napping-sapphic]

actually the amount i yearn is directly proportional to how much i sleep and considering i only got to sleep for an hour and a half last night i would say that we are in the TRENCHES today my loves

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Hi!! Same anon from the comfort question! That's so sweet and cute thank for that!! (⁠ﾉ⁠◕⁠ヮ⁠◕⁠)⁠ﾉ⁠*⁠.⁠✧

now Im imagining Eddie "the southern gentleman" Dear having a mini telenovela moment while the horrors happened, he's all like "oh, I am too late, I slept too long; he is with another and have too let him go" even sad music in the background

Meanwhile Frank is cuddling Wally AND Eddie after beating the shit out o f the horror, the man need a break and also be like "this is the 3 one this week I miss my garden"

I holding onto 'frank would hold on to you like a barnacle' to Eddie after so long talking to a fake one

that is pretty much Exactly how it goes in my head lmfao - and like, the thing is that Frank & Eddie weren't really together when Shit Went Down? they were in that "we're mutually courting & neither of us has said anything outright yet but we both Know and are waiting for the right moment" stage yk yk?

so when he wakes up Frank isn't immediately all over him, cause he's kinda like "oh shit where do we stand? im not used to this, i haven't talked to Eddie in so so long! how do relationships work?!" so that + his easy & affectionate behavior with Wally creates a Perceived Emotional Distance & Romantic Disinterest from Eddie's pov. like no, hon, Frank's just rusty <3 and also unsure if he Should pursue their relationship because he's slowly fucking dying & does he want to hurt Eddie like that???

[manitapaleta]

post-mission-break-room-nap nark ❤️

[fate-defiant]

I think fakiru would still be best friends after divorce

[elliesbelle]

alright. y’all just might get chapter 12 of ncty tomorrow.

[idontwannabeherealone]

How disappointing, I wake up to see the light of another day.

When will it all be over?

[roboobin]

i love being aromantic because it lets me love everyone with my whole heart instead of reserving space for a partner

[ilostyou]

taylor x 5sos parallels - part 9/?

[alwaysanovice]

Once again thinking about the implications of the line "It was your choice. Remember that."

@theviolettulip

[epitaffia]

i'm starting to feel a bit better regarding writing on here now, so if anyone would like a lil starter please give that heart a poke! you'll get a random pink, unless u comment which you'd like! (｡•́︿•̀｡) ✿.

[manasurge]

Ogod, my schedule for the next two weeks are such ASS. wtf… I’m going to be SO FREAKING TIRED and so freaking depressed. I hate it I hate it I hate it.

[its-not-rainingg]

I'm not scared of not being loved I'm just tired of it. I'm so tired of it I could throw up again and again and again. I need to say it to someone but all I can do apart from fall asleep at school is lie in bed and cry and sleep and sleep and stave and cut and cry and just lie there being sad and alone and smoke and jerk off and think about taking all the paracetamol in the house and letting my liver fail. Like ouch. I only go out outside of school and compulsory things for drugs and cigarettes. I think I might die. My bed's not even nice it's like a pile of so many things and I need to shower and eat food without making myself puke it and get clean and talk to people but I just can't and it's driving me insane. I feel like shit. No one's even doing anything about it. Why can't anyone see I need to be saved? I can't save myself this time. I've been trying to pull myself out. I can't. I can't be happy sober. The wrong people say they love me and no one who I need to say it says it. Not even my parents I know they couldn't care less if I died. I just don't know how to be a person. And I need someone to do something I need someone to tell me it'll be ok I need someone to hold my whole body and tell me they love me and mean it without wanting to have sex with me.

[tacit-semantics]

Trying to fall asleep at 11:45 in the morning deeply confused as to why it’s not working

[hacksawboy]

after 27 hours of Not sleeping i have slept for 5 hours. its like the workd is taunting me man