#too much rose in da brain

[hereconduct]

hello! consider this blog on slow activity, as all of my time is being spent on @allthatwas

[scintie]

a spark of black

Pairing: Gambit/Remy LeBeau x female reader. Summary: Ever since you appeared at the resistance hideout along with Wade and Logan, tension between you and a certain Cajun card slinger has been steadily growing. One fateful night you finally get the chance to relieve some of it. Tags: smut (male receiving), blowjob, mild dominant undertones. Notes: be gentle, this is the first piece of writing that I've uploaded in yeeeeears. :')

You watched Remy’s mouth move, his lips forming words that you just couldn’t decipher. He was obviously speaking to you, it was just the two of you sat in the main room of the hideout.

Earlier in the evening everyone had been gathered, sharing stories and drinks. The others had all turned in for the night an hour or so ago, leaving you and the Cajun to continue on without them. Wade had made his exit by saying something predictably crude about not being too loud while fucking each others brains out. Remy had waved him off while you did nothing but blush.

The past hour had been torture. Listening to Remy's smooth, deep voice talk about their recent escapades in the Void had driven you crazy with desire. You'd developed a stupid crush on him as soon as you'd arrived. Who wouldn't though right? With his tall, broad stature and handsome face, he'd be hard for anyone to resist. But as the days had passed things went from bad to worse and your stupid crush deepened into a genuine desire.

That's why the blood was thumping so loud in your ears that you couldn’t understand him.

“Wh-what? Sorry, I er, I didn’t quite catch that.” You stammered, feeling your cheeks grow hotter by the second. You dreaded to think how flustered you looked to him right now. Like a deer in the headlights of a truck. A big, sexy truck wearing a brown leather coat.

“Oh, tu es mignon,” Remy chuckled under his breath. He rose from his chair and stepped a little closer, as if the distance between the two of you was the issue. “Remy see da way you been lookin’ at him cher, when ya' think he no be noticin’, ah?”

You were speechless. You didn't know how to react to his bluntness. How were you supposed to react to that?

Remy smirked and closed the gap between you completely and leaned over you, placing his hands on the back of your chair, one either side of your head. He was so close, you could barely breathe.

"You wan' me? All a pretty lil' thing like you would hav' to do is ask, ma douce." He kept his voice low, not wanting to alert the others.

Your mind raced, thoughts bouncing around for what felt like an eternity before at last, you nodded your head. You didn't even realise you were doing it but you weren't about to argue against it either.

"Atta girl, une si bonne fille." Remy praised, standing up straight. His hands went to the fastenings of his pants, all the while maintaining eye contact with you. "Ya trust Remy, don'cha cher?" He asked, slowly pushing his pants and underwear down off of his hips.

Your gaze left his then, moving down his otherwise fully clothed body until you were greeted with the sight of his half hard cock slipping from it's confines. Your eyes went wide. He was certainly much bigger than anyone you'd ever been with before.

You realised Remy was still watching you, slowly stroking himself now, waiting for an answer. You didn't know where to look, it was hard to tear your eyes away from the sight of his cock swelling to it's full, impressive size.

Finally, you found your words, "Y-yeah, I trust you."

"Perfect." Remy smirked and took up his position right in front of you, his hands on the back of the chair again. You gulped, head swimming with anticipation. "Then open up dat pretty mouth for me."

You drew in a long breath before slowly parting your lips, wider and wider until he nodded his approval. Remy seemed to realise that he had forgotten something, taking your hands from your lap and guiding them to his bare thighs. "Da's for yer own peace of mind, don' wan' you thinkin' you gon' fall."

You braced your hands on his muscular legs and soon realised why as he pulled on the back of your chair, slowly tilting you forward. The movement causing your mouth to lower onto his cock. It was definitely a different experience to anything you were used to, he had almost complete control over your movement.

Remy moaned quietly, taking in the tantalisingly debauched sight of your luscious lips wrapped around him. He took in every detail and sensation, observing you as if you were creating a beautiful piece of artwork right in front of him.

You looked up at him with hooded eyes, slowly working your tongue around him with what little space you had left to use.

Remy moaned again, deeper this time before just as slowly tipping the chair back down, his cock sliding almost all of the way out of your mouth.

"Y'okay, cher?" He asked, his chest rising and falling quickly. You could tell he was holding himself back a little, but he needed to make sure you were still on board with this.

You nodded slowly, running your hands slowly up and down his thighs, squeezing the muscles lying taught beneath his smooth skin.

Remy nodded back and steadied his stance. He moved the chair forward and backward again in quicker succession this time, watching your face for any sign of discomfort. He relaxed when all he saw was lust and wanton desire on your features.

You kept your hands braced on his legs, giving yourself a firm and steady anchor point to rely on. You moaned around his dick as he moved you again, a little deeper this time but still manageable.

He gradually built up a good rhythm. Not fast enough to be overwhelming for you but definitely enough to have him moaning freely, loving the soft warmth of your mouth as he moved you back and forth.

"Dat hot lil' mouth feelin' so good on me, cher." He whispered huskily, just loud enough for you to hear. You still had to be quiet, you couldn't imagine how mortifying it would be if one of the others walked in on you two right now.

Remy's words of encouragement shot a tingle through your body that ended up right between your legs. You pressed your thighs together hard and whimpered, tears prickling your eyes as your arousal started to get the better of you.

Remy noticed the change in your demeanour and slowly lowered the chair completely back down to the floor, his cock slipping free from your mouth for the first time since he'd started. A mixture of saliva and precum followed after him, coating your lips and chin.

You loved how completely blissed out you were feeling, high on the endorphins and serotonin surging through your body. Without really thinking about it you slid from the chair and onto your knees between Remy's feet. You were going on instinct, being driven by the almighty lust that you felt for this man.

"Y'kay down dere, angel?" Remy enquired, cocking an eyebrow and sliding a reassuring hand onto your shoulder as he watched you with intrigue.

You nodded slowly, grazing your teeth over your bottom lip. "Uhuh, just wanna make you come that's all..." Your words came out so soft and breathy that it was his turn to barely hear you, but he soon got the idea when you reached up and started to stroke him back to full hardness.

He moaned just a little louder than he'd liked to, caught a little off guard by the sudden sensation of your soft hands. "Well cher, Remy ain't gon' be arguin' widdat." He chuckled when he'd regained composure, jutting his hips forward for you. As soon as he was rigid again you wasted no time in taking his cock back into your mouth. You set a relatively fast pace, bobbing your head quickly, taking as much as would while working him with your tongue. Your hands went to his hips, pulling him forward and back gently in time with your bobbing. "Merde..." He hissed, looking down at you as he snaked his hand into the hair at the back of your head. "Jus' like dat, belle. Remy be comin' in no time if you be doin' dat..."

Spurred on by his words you forced yourself to take him just a little deeper, feeling him throb against your tongue in response, followed by the salty taste of precum.

You moaned softly as Remy's fingers tightened in your hair, gripping the strands at the very root. His hips stuttered a little, a tell tale sign that he getting close.

One of your hands left his hip and made it's way between his legs to massage his balls, lifting them with your palm and rolling them in their sack slowly.

The sound that came out of the Cajun's mouth was like music to your ears. Along guttural moan peppered with some indistinguishable French curse words. Apparently he didn't seem to care if anyone heard anymore.

A couple more minutes went by of you greedily sucking him and playing with his balls before Remy suddenly pulled back, his cock popping from your mouth wetly.

He wrapped his hand around his dick as he quickly guided you to sit back in the discarded chair from earlier. You complied, scrabbling up onto the wooden seat.

Remy stood over you, straddling your legs a she began jerking himself off quickly. "M' gonna come all over dat pretty face, cher... ya' ready?"

You nodded, heat rushing to your cheeks in anticipation. His hand made it's way to the back of your head again, holding you in place as he chased his orgasm.

The visual of such a devastatingly gorgeous man masturbating over you was intoxicating, it made your head spin just watching him. An odd swell of pride hit you as you noticed your saliva still coating his cock as he stroked himself, sliding his length between the makeshift sheath of his palm and thick fingers.

"Beg me, cher. Beg Remy for his cum." He panted.

You could tell he was right there, right on the precipice, he just needed to hear you.

"Please Remy, fuck... please cum all over me..." You whined, your breathing almost as shallow as his by now.

That did the trick. Almost as soon as the last words left passed your lips Remy let out a long, loud moan as his cock started to twitch. He pulled you closer just as thick, white ropes of cum started to shoot from his slit.

You opened your mouth just in time as you felt some of the hot, salty fluid paint your tongue. The rest splashed across your face in haphazard directions, marking you as his. Remy's fist slowed and his breathing steadied as the pleasure subsided. It was at that moment that you locked eyes with him. It was then that he fully saw the mess he'd made of you. The sight of you covered in his seed seemed to stun him for a small moment before his trademark cockiness returned.

"Lookin' good dere, beautiful. Dat look really suit you, ah?" He quipped, winking as he turned to find a washcloth.

You took it from him with a shy smile, your hormone fuelled confidence ebbing away slightly in the aftermath. But you smiled to yourself as you wiped your face clean because you had a feeling that he was right. It did suit you.

[illarian-rambling]

Thanks for the tags @theink-stainedfolk and @leahnardo-da-veggie!

OC Headcanon Tag

Rules: Use this headcanon generator to generate some random headcanons for your character and rate them

Without further adeiu, here's the cast of Mortal God!

Astra DuClaire

Astra listens to 80s music.

This feels right. She's blasting disco at ear-shattering volumes while tinkering. Mashal hates it.

Astra is in your house.

Factual. She's judging your electrical wiring.

Astra cries while watching disney movies.

Only Treasue Planet specifically.

Mashal Darezsho

Mashal is an extrovert.

In no way, shape, or form lol

Mashal voted Reigen in the tumblr sexyman poll.

You know what, sure. He'd like Mob Psycho 100 if that existed in his universe.

Mashal fucked your mom.

Not in a malicious way - he's just so kind and helpful around the house and whoops now you have a new stepdad.

Ivander Montane

Ivander knocks people over by hugging them.

You could probably knock him over by hugging him. Or by, like, coughing on him too hard.

If Ivander was presented with an intergalactic portal, they would enter it without question.

Hell no, bro has questions.

Ivander is a theatre kid.

He never got the chance to act as a kid because his dad's a dick, but at heart, he very much is.

Elsind Cavernsight

Elsind knows the lyrics to All Star by heart.

Sure, I'll incorporate that into their canon.

Elsind's favorite color is pink.

A rose pink, specifically.

Elsind can't spell resturaunt.

No, they could not. They get it from me lol.

Avymere Spearsong

Avymere reads ao3.

I feel like they didn't used to, but Elsind got them into it, and now they have a mild addiction. It's their little brain break.

Avymere can't handle criticism.

Nah, they can take it. They've got a thick skin.

Avymere sucks at saying tongue twisters.

Not with all that elocution training they don't.

I'll tag @somethingclevermahogony @world-of-iridensia @rivenantiqnerd @nondelphic @finickyfelix @talesofsorrowandofruin and anyone else who wants to play :)

[spyridonya]

Attache

Fandom: Wrath of the Righteous/BG3

Major Characters: Knight Commander Kadira, Anevia, Daeran, Raphael

Pairings: Knight Commander/Daeran (if you squint), Knight Commander/Raphael (a tease)

Summary: Kadira doesn't have to deal with a certian diplomat, she has to deal with someone else all the more dangerous. AKA Spyri figured out how to get her favorite BG3 boy into WotR

This is the most self indulgent thing I've written in a while. No one can tell me Raphael wouldn't think Kadira is the best thing since sliced bread. No beta. Maybe during for AO3.

Word Count: 804

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"It's far too early for this, Anevia."

"And yet, there you were, Commander, up at the crack of dawn and going over battle statistics and inventory requests." The shorter woman said cheerfully, though Kadira knew the scout had an excellent poker face as they walked swiftly through the halls of Drezen’s citadel, "Visiting dignitaries from Nerosyan should be like swatting a fly."

"More like the giant variety- wait, there's more than one?" 

"Could be, you never know." The brunette chuckled as they brushed past soldiers and servants in the crowded hallway who were all a part of the continuing effort in cleaning the horrors of the catacombs the demons left below. "Though I can tell you that you were this close-" Anevia held up her fingers to barely a quarter inch, "This close to getting Lady Konomi."

"I'm too much of a Kenabras city girl and spent too much time in Absalom to know that name," Kadira said apologetically. Her lie of where she learned magic was easy to say now, as both she and Anevia trotted up the stairs to the command room. "Who is Lady Konomi?"

"The envoy being sent to Kenabras to try and charm the Prelate into playing nice. Aw, don't look so worried, Kadira. I heard about her, and Konomi probably deserves it. Just be your sweet, quiet self with this guy and use that wizard brain of yours. Also, try not to listen to the Count too much? You got this.” Anevia assured her as they reached the door, the brunette pulling it open for the tiefling. 

The room still smelled deeply of fragrant roses, the mid morning light catching the flowers closest to the balcony in a brilliant red while the ones lingering in the shadows were deeper maroon color than Kadira’s own skin. Her gaze crossed the conference table and her lips quirked at the three of her companions sitting there with an unfamiliar man. 

Sosiel was sitting politely next to Lann though his gaze was settled upon the stranger in a way that Kadira could not understand. Lann was being less polite than his seat neighbor, and leaned back on the chair while his dexterous fingers fletched a new arrow, likely tipped with cold steel. Count Arendae sat across from them animatedly talking to the stranger on his right, his green gaze rapt at the gentleman who was in the middle of the story. 

"And not only did our dear Lady Lalka send Madame Calleino packing by stealing her role," The dignitary spoke brightly, his voice deep and gave Kadira the sensation of brass and mahogany while she watched his long, elegant hands frame the air, "She somehow managed to upset a chorus girl had been warming up dear Maestro Kamiński's bed."

"You don't say," Daeran breathed, hand on his chin as he listened to the other man, his lips curved in an amused feline expression, "And with one false move, of the most beautiful women in Mendev has single handedly destroyed what meager season opera we have planned this winter in Nerosyan, all because she couldn't stand her rival? Well, I thought I dodged a bullet last fall, but I’m aghast to find out I could have been a part of such a remarkable scandal."

"If the demons don't ransack the Royal Mendevian Theater, surely Laka will!" The laughter that escaped the stranger was deep, mirthful, and he turned his head to see Kadira and smiled while he rose from his seat. He was an older human man, with a patrician handsomeness that paired well with his coppery warm skin. His eyes were large and dark, yet deep set, with sharp brows and even sharper cheekbones. His chestnut hair was brushed back and sleek from forehead over his skull, but she could see the curls at the nape of his neck. 

"And what do we have here? An angel draped in the gown of the Diaboli and yet she has the eyes the color of Heaven." The human offered his hand, "The Knight Commander of the Fifth Crusade stands before me, most certainly."

"Good morning," Kadira said quietly and briefly glanced at Daeran for advice, expecting the scowl that was blooming to settle on her. Rather, the aasimar’s displeasure was settled on the dignitary.  "After all that flattery, you have me unawares, sir-?"

"I am Lord Diotallevi, Official Attache to Her Majesty, Queen Galfrey." The stranger's warm hand took her o(wn, "My credentials are being  given the most critical eye by the Paralictor and Commander Tirabade. However," His hand lifted his hers and he bowed his head, the kiss across her knuckles surprised her as the flutter beneath her chest, "Your reputation precedes you, Kadira Storadottir. You must call me Raphael. I insist."

And when he smiled up to her, Kadira found herself smiling back. 

[kaylinalexanderbooks]

Find the word

Thanks to @leahnardo-da-veggie here, @awritingcaitlin here, and @diabolical-blue here!

My words: burn, irate, pliers, grit, camp, circle, huge, kill, house, element, voice, rage, smoke

Your words: abuse, question, spare, bring

Tagging @badluck990 @writernopal @little-peril-stories @orphanheirs @writingsfromspace

+ ANYONE ELSE

TSP intro

TSP tag list (ask to be +/-): @thepeculiarbird @illarian-rambling @televisionjester @finchwrites

@nebula--nix @literarynecromancy @honeybewrites

These things are piling up so time to do three per post yayyy. Excerpts are shorter now.

Keep reading for:

Gwen's thing for Akash

Never used irate?

Never used pliers?

Gabriel and Parker have uh...tension (not the fun kind)

Warriors Cats fanfic jumpscare

Kelsey wakes up

Alii height range

Robbie just punched Jason

Carmen grumpy

George making "harder than diamond" suggestions

Carla and George out of bed

Maddie mad (MADdie)

Akash describes Kelsey's powers

Burn - from The Secret Portal Part One (Gwen POV)

“C’mon,” said Akash, smiling. “You’re gonna leave right when we’ve been acquainted?” “I mean…” I shrugged, feeling my ears burn. “I dunno. I’ll think about it.”

Irate - N/A

Grit(ted)- from The Secret Portal Part One (Gwen POV)

Pliers - N/A

“I don’t need one of those,” Parker bragged. “Air’s kinda everywhere.” “Lucky you.” Gabriel said through gritted teeth. “More ways for you to be a hazard to society.” “You’ve been spending too much time in the dirt. It’s making you so stony. Pun intended. Pretty sure all the dust is infiltrating your brain and making you such a dud to be around.”

Camp - Warriors: Night and Day: The New Clans

Daisypaw ran up to him. “Talonpaw! Have you seen Violetpaw? I can’t find her anywhere!” Talonpaw shook his head. “No, but based on the scent she left in her nest, she left recently.” Daisypaw sniffed the air. “I think she left the camp.”

Circle - from The Secret Portal Part One (Kelsey POV)

The next time I woke up, we were no longer strapped down but inside a small circle of purple light, similar to the earlier restraints on the table-bed-thing. This room was small and had dark walls and amber lights, giving the room an eerie feeling.

Huge - from The Secret Portal Part One (Ash POV)

I looked at the man Young Carla identified as her father. He was likely in his thirties, though his head was shaved, giving him an older appearance. He was huge—he had to be nearly seven feet tall, and was broad-shouldered. He was talking to a rather short man—dwarfed by comparison; his head barely reach the other man’s pecs—whose back was turned to me. I remembered how George explained the wide range of heights for Alii.

Kill - from The Secret Portal Part One (Robbie POV)

Jason stood up straighter, rubbing his jaw, his steely blue eyes locked on me with a look that could kill. Still, I didn’t regret the action. Yeah, I shouldn’t have done it, but who gave a shit? I may not have been a hero, but justice was justice.

House - from The Secret Portal Part One (Robbie POV)

“So, Carmen, you know about the portal?” Carmen scoffed. “Of course, I mentioned it.” “Right, but, like, what is it?” “A portal.” “But connecting, like, what, exactly?” Carmen sighed. “Is it alright if you wait until we’re at the house?”

Element(s) - from The Secret Portal Part One (Akash POV)

“There’s a whole multiverse out there, though,” said George, taking a bite out of whatever granola bar he was eating. “Besides, an extremely powerful shapeshifter could theoretically shift their skin into a substance harder than diamond. However, that is unheard of. Also, if Sam gets so good at Diamond Mode Arm Wrestling, I suggest you change to weight-lifting and see if she can throw you when you’re dense or otherwise heavy elements.”

Voice - from The Secret Portal Part One (Carla POV)

“Carla! George!” a voice snapped. I looked up to see Miss Donner, our teacher. She glared down at us. “What are you doing out of bed?”

Rage - from The Secret Portal Part One (Rose POV)

Maddie’s eyes were blazing, almost to the point where I swore they were glowing amber with rage. “Remember what I said earlier? You underreact to everything!”

Smoke - from The Secret Portal Part One (Rose POV)

“One of them has a weird power,” Akash explained. “It’s not like anything I’ve heard. Weird black smoke exploded outta her, and must’ve done something to the oxygen levels.”

[corpsentry]

recent stories i have read or watched or vored sexily

1. so yesterday i was on page 139 of gideon the ninth and today i finished it. i did nothing until i finished it. i physically could not stop. i mean i should have known it from the moment it had the most epic characters page of all the houses and each house had cool as balls names like Hope Of The Emperor and Wisdom Of The Emperor and Rose Unblossomed or however that one goes but holy mother of god…………. they did not lie this book went hard as fuck. i was reminded of something and i’m going to reblog it shortly so you can read it but i saw a tumblr post that was talking about dungeon meshi’s character designs versus genshin impact’s and another where an author was like ok but where’s the gross part?? where’s the pathetic in the characters??? and gideon the ninth does this so well. god, gideon and harrow are trying to beat each other into the ground for the better part of the book but then you get this insane 180 flip and they’re in a POOL and mein gotte when harrow said i am undone without you my eyes cried Just A Little. i forget, i think, sometimes, that people are most beautiful when they are wretched and clumsy and honest. i think this particularly because i’ve been on a hetero chinese language dramas and movies binge lately and i turned off the part of my brain that revels in messy honest art and let the part that wants to stare at bailu for 30 hours stare at bailu for 30 hours. but maybe it is time to stop watching things only to look at beautiful women (who are, admittedly, very fucking beautiful). maybe it is time to GO TO THE FUCKASS FARAWAY LIBRARY TOMORROW TO BORROW HARROW THE NINTH. what da hell. the world building in this novel is motherfucking exquisite. you have to work so goddamn hard to make a line like Emperor the Necromancer Divine God Salvation The Resurrection with a bunch of little semicolons in between work but it works, it works because it’s cool, it’s cool because it’s grimey and gross and funny, i would do astounding things for all of these people (except silas, who can get fucked). and gideon is such a spectacular narrator, to be introduced to this world through her eyes is an honor and a gift, and harrow….. HARROWWWWWWW AOUUUUUUUU YAUUUUUUUUUUUU i’m obsessed. it’s over. i am officially down horrendous

2. now i’m gonna talk to you guys about amidst a snowstorm of love 在暴雪时分. my mom keeps being like so are you done with the helsinki drama yet and i have to keep being like no because There Is No Drama but anyway ok i started it because wulei…….. and now i am Bereft and Despaired fr that they put wulei in this when man has so much more to him. listen up my guys. i have never seen or read or heard or played a story that has so little….. story. it is remarkably, devastatingly substanceless. it is like watching a 3 hour chill lofi playlist. every once in a while the dog in the animated background runs around the armchair. the fire crackles through the same 5 frames. otherwise— nothing. i’m honestly amazed that they managed to do this, this, this is Not what slice of life is. this is also not what straight romance is??? i am a longtime purveyor of the hetero romance arts and this is hetero romance sans all of the misunderstandings and miscommunications that generate teary breakdowns and mismanaged fights. there is literally no conflict which can be fine except there isn’t even, like, admiration for the small things in life or familial love or friendship which Does Not A Story Make. now i don’t say this lightly as i am a strong believer that if the plot only advances because the cast is too fucking stupid to talk to each other then it’s a shit plot but for the first time in my life i wish there Would be a petty misunderstanding so we could at least see a fraction of the characters’ personalities. now see the Premise is that the protagonist goes to finland to participate in a 9-ball competition and pulls the brooding grad student she meets there back into the world of billiards or whatever but the 9-ball is just a vehicle in the purest sense for the romance. she will be like i practice now and then go practice and then wulei shows up with coffee and that’s it, the 9-ball table was there so wulei could lean on it and look hot in 4 shots. i’m genuinely astounded. nothing fucking HAPPENS in this drama. literally i will sit through an entire episode and it’s just like, zhao lusi wants coffee…., there is coffee…., romantic moments (6-7) insert song (2-3) close up slow mo gazing (399999). seriously i would commit unspeakable crimes for wulei but even i cannot watch this drama straight without falling asleep. it is the emptiest thing i have ever seen and it is so spectacularly committed to this absolutely void of writing. also wulei’s character is dirt poor but he spends all his money on taking zhao jinmai to expensive ass fuck restaurants and then gets sick from overwork and no one TALKS about it. it’s not even a decent straight romance because there is no communication or anything remotely interesting happening in the relationship. it’s not a drama, mein gott, it’s a medley of cute heartwarming moments between two very beautiful and very talented actors who have been kidnapped and locked in a snowy nightmare where all they can do is smile at each other shyly and sometimes hold hands. crazy…………….. wasted potential for my babygirls………. (bereft)

3. watched episode 2 of oh no here comes trouble不良执念清除师 i cannot get over the fact that pu yiyong draws digital art. it’s just so lovely a detail. the first time they showed his drawing tablet and the tablet pen i was like WOAA…. HES JUST LIKE ME FR i mean he’s just like me fr he has a goofy little mullet and he talks back like it’s his 9-5 it’s brilliant. this is excellent representation for brooding angsty teens who also like to draw with clip studio paint. Possibly watching this at 2 am was a mistake as i am prone to nightmares about godless things but it’s such a fun drama and it handles tonal shifts with a clarity that i rarely see in tv….. also pu yiyong’s actor is just great. i mean god, he has eyebrows and they’re mad at you. good for him. slay

4. we’re on episode, i dunno, 23 of the double墨雨云间 now i think and it’s great but it’s true, especially after binging 80% of gideon the ninth in one day that much like how genshin impact’s character designs are designed to be attractive to as many people as possible, the double’s characters are meant to be perfect and attentive to the maximum number of people. the catharsis of seeing the protagonist triumph over the evil conspiring antagonist is only cathartic so many times, and i think im running up against the ceiling of that catharsis. we know fangfei’s brilliant and we know xiaoheng won’t let anything happen to her so it just becomes 5d chess between the morally black and white chess players, it becomes watching schemes unfold and collapse like origami boats, over and over again. they don’t sink because there isn’t any water. they’re beautiful but they can’t bear weight. and after spending too much time in these homes, in the chinese dramas hole or the kpop gorilla groups hole or the mainstream shounen hole i have to punch myself in the dick and be like ok now you are re entering the world as a person amongst other people, because it gives you tunnel vision! they’re all conventionally attractive queens with snatched waists and perfectly managed profiles, variety show personalities but you see i remembered that I Want Harrowhark Nonagesimus. i want the grit and the dirt and the morning sunlight all at once. what i mean is i will be borrowing harrow the ninth from the public library tomorrow if it means i have to take a train 2 hours out to fuckass nowhere to get it. what i mean is i am going back into the game and i am going 2 Win

[moonrver]

Ok I'm finally getting round to doing this!! Thanks for tagging me @tomsturbotwinks !!

1. Do you make your bed?

most days unless I'm in a huge rush

2. Favourite number?

Always had an affinity to the number 4 for some reason

3. What's your job?

My main job is kinda hard to explain but I work for like? A social housing company/community organisation? And do research into their historic buildings? And also do some marketing for them?

But I work from home and I hateeee working from home so I also work Sundays at my old job in a shoe shop which I actually really love bc I've got so many friends there and also something about it scratches an autism itch in my brain. I love using the till...

4. If you could go back to school, would you?

My dream life involves being able to travel round the world and attend classes in different universities on different aspects of the Humanities but without having to do any exams or work to deadlines. So yes I'd love to but I don't wanna do a PhD.....too much independent research, not enough funding.

5. Can you parallel park?

Not if I can help it

6. Do you think aliens are real?

Probably? It's not something I have strong opinions on but i think the universe is infinitely vast so there are probably others out there somewhere....

7. Can you drive a manual car?

That's what I learnt and did my test in but I haven't driven in 5 years and want an automatic when I do buy a car....too much leg cramps using the clutch

8. Guilty pleasure?

Well I was raised catholic and have had anxiety for as long as I can remember so I very rarely feel pleasure without some level of guilt.

But maybe trashy reality TV like love island, maybe a bit of eurotrash music, maybe the lengths I would go to for a dairy milk daim

9. Tattoos?

None! Don't really want them

10. Favourite colour?

Maybe sage green, maybe powder blue, maybe pale pink...

11. Favourite type of music?

Lmao I'm such a stereotype of myself, it's not dad rock it's more like... Ye Da's favourite bands from the 80s and 90s. British indie, new wave, Britpop. Stone Roses, Lightning Seeds, Pulp, Kate Bush, Alison Moyet, that sort of thing.

12. do you like puzzles?

I love quizzes and crosswords and stuff if that counts? And I love Only Connect which is a sort of puzzle?

13. Favourite childhood sport?

Omg when I tell you I prided myself on being the fastest runner in my year as a kid. And I always chose who to have a crush on based on who was the fastest boy. The Merseyside primary schools' athletics championship was my favourite day of the year

14. Do you talk to yourself?

Under my breath a lot yeah

15. Tea or coffee?

I probably prefer coffee but in the house I drink like, 10 cups of tea a day

16. First thing you wanted to be when you were growing up?

Lmao a ballerina? Which is so funny given I am so uncoordinated and ungraceful? After than an author bc I was a nerd

17. what movies do you adore?

PADDINGTON also Pride, Bridget Jones' Diary, Rocketman, About Time, recently Challengers, and bizarrely Us (the horror with Lupita Nyongo, strangely a comfort film that also still scares me to death)

I'm tagging @babynflames @sallycinnamons @pickleballhater @karlmarxverstappen @kellehim @thelatenightvibes @oceanmonsters @follivora (if you want to) and anyone else who I've probably forgotten who wants to!!

[the-90s-music-colosseum]

The 90s Song Ever - Round 1 Results

Hello y'all it's me again!! We have collectively suffered through the first month of this tournament, slicing the 256-song bracket clean in half and experiencing tremendous pain. Unfortunately it is late now and I'm sleepy, so the anticipated start of Round 2 is postponed til tomorrow - keep your eyes peeled for polls! Until then... good night.

Expand to see the results of Round 1! Songs in green will be moving onto the next stage, songs in red have been banished to the shadow realm.

Side A1

Midlife Crisis vs When You Sleep Emotions vs Barbie Girl Sugar Kane vs Firestarter More Than Words vs Born Slippy Sabotage vs Wonderwall November Rain vs I Want It That Way Losing My Religion vs Kiss Of Life Stratford-On-Guy vs Grace, Too Shitlist vs Freak On A Leash Blue (Da Ba Dee) vs Doll Parts Peaches vs Bulls On Parade All Star vs Flagpole Sitta Push It vs The Distance I Could Fall In Love vs Blue Monday Two Princes vs Bitch End of the Road vs The Private Psychedelic Reel Sour Times vs Sober 1979 vs Constant Craving Now That We Found Love vs Sunburn Loverman vs Wakko's America Around The World vs Lightning Crashes Believe vs Nothing Compares 2 U Pepper vs Windowlicker Fly vs Law & Order Theme Black Hole Sun vs Sex and Candy Animal Nitrate vs Unfinished Sympathy No Rain vs The Rain Free Your Mind vs My Heart Will Go On Du Hast vs The X-Files Theme C'est la Vie vs Fear Of The Dark Supersonic vs Deceptacon Running in the 90s vs The Tourist

Side A2

Beetlebum vs Are You That Somebody Sway vs River Of Deceit Hunger Strike vs Who Will Save Your Soul? Generator vs Bills, Bills, Bills Doo Wop (That Thing) vs Finally Tearin' Up My Heart vs Silence Kid Enter Sandman vs Everybody (Backstreet's Back) Boombastic vs I'll Be There For You Yakko's World vs To Be With You Cotton Eye Joe vs Amish Paradise Nuthin' But A "G" Thang vs Basket Case Dagger vs Seven Rebel Girl vs Groove is in the Heart Baby Got Back vs Hallelujah Only Happy When It Rains vs Say You'll Be There U Can't Touch This vs How Bizarre Nancy Boy vs Cornflake Girl Affirmation vs Don't Walk Away The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air vs The Boy Is Mine Scatman (Ski-Ba-Bop-Ba-Dop-Dop) vs Juicy Buddy Holly vs Closing Time Pony vs Wynona's Big Brown Beaver Pretend We're Dead vs All I Wanna Do Santeria vs Send Me On My Way Birdhouse In Your Soul vs That Don't Impress Me Much Vogue vs Brain Stew/Jaded Kiss Me vs These Are Days MMMBop vs Black Genie In A Bottle vs Bullet With Butterfly Wings Tank! (Cowboy Bebop opening theme) vs Smells Like Nirvana Mind Playing Tricks On Me vs (Everything I Do) I Do It For You Friday I'm In Love vs Would?

Side B1

Everlong vs Only Wanna Be With You California Love vs Fall At Your Feet Glory Box vs Man In The Box Livin' la Vida Loca vs Are You Gonna Go My Way What's Up vs If Only Personal Jesus vs Everybody Hurts The World I Know vs Glycerine Semi-Charmed Life vs You Get What You Give I'm Too Sexy vs Amor Prohibido Rhythm Of The Night vs Heaven or Las Vegas Heart Shaped Box vs In the Aeroplane over the Sea Everything Must Go vs Insane in the Brain Tornado of Souls vs Rabbit in Your Headlights My Own Summer (Shove It) vs Ice Ice Baby Californication vs Crush On You Clown vs No Scrubs Bitter Sweet Symphony vs Say My Name Waterfalls vs Cowboys from Hell Army of Me vs Tomorrow Adam's Song vs Self Esteem Under The Bridge vs None Of Your Business No More Tears vs Roll The Bones Black Or White vs Pure Morning Stay (I Missed You) vs Lump Girls and Boys vs De Música Ligera Waking Up vs Be Aggressive Can I Kick It? vs You Oughta Know Canned Heat vs Your Woman Cannonball vs Always Be My Baby Painkiller vs Even Flow Goldeneye vs Tubthumping Steal My Sunshine vs I'd Do Anything For Love (But I Won't Do That)

Side B2

Closer vs Sorted For E's and Wizz Bring It All Back vs Loser Wannabe vs Jesus Christ Pose Kiss From A Rose vs Nothing Else Matters Killing in the Name vs That's The Way Love Goes Pokemon Theme (Gotta Catch 'Em All) vs Ordinary World Song of Storms vs Estoy Aquí The World Is Not Enough vs I Wanna Be Your Joey Ramone Criminal vs Real Love Enjoy the Silence vs Plush This Is Halloween vs Spooky Scary Skeletons Fade Into You vs I Will Always Love You Istanbul (Not Constantinople) vs Iris Been Caught Stealing vs Virtual Insanity I Wish vs No Diggity Torn vs Common People Gangsta's Paradise vs Detachable Penis What Is Love vs The Sign Linger vs Ironic Venus as a Boy vs Lover, You Should've Come Over 100% Pure Love vs Macarena (Bayside Boys remix) Violet vs Sugar Spongebob Squarepants Theme vs ...Baby One More Time Loaded vs Creep The Kids Aren't Alright vs One In A Million Right Here, Right Now vs Bruise Violet Killing Me Softly With His Song vs Lovefool Jump Around vs Jump Don't Speak vs Spit It Out Intergalactic vs Dreams Say It Ain't So vs Smells Like Teen Spirit Poison vs Rid of Me

[theworldisabrokenbonebutitishome]

My fill for my @guardianbingo prompt of 'spaceship'.

Look, give me a show with aliens and special powers and time travel and heartbreak and watch me make it relevant to Doctor Who. If there's one thing I can do, it's make everything about Who. I've thought way too much about this so I'm gonna make it everyone's problem. (behind a read more though because wow I ramble)

I hear spaceship and I think TARDIS, because it's been almost twenty years and I am not getting over DW ever at this point. So my brain decided hey what if Zhao Yunlan got thrown back in time in a more comfortable and stylish way? And thus this image came to mind.

But my mind is not one for shutting up, so while this came to be I had a lot of thoughts about if anyone in the show would pull off being the Doctor particularly well.

The obvious choice is of course Zhao Yunlan; canonically time travels, regeneration could be a sci-fi equivalent to reincarnation, general chaos gremlin vibes, likes sticking things in his mouth yes I'm imagining 13 eating soil rn, quick thinking and loves a puzzle. Kunlun could be his version of 'Doctor' and Zhao Yunlan his version of 'John Smith' when he tries to go undercover.

However, I then got to thinking about Shen Wei. His wardrobe is definitely a much better match for the Doctor but he's not so obviously chaotic. But he is an alien, he's at least 10000 years old, his Dixing power is learning which is perfect, he's literally a professor (like the Doctor) and enjoys teaching (twelve comes to mind), he's into science and has accumulated random detailed knowledge about other things (eg. Bears) whilst remaining somewhat awkward socially, doesn't necessarily entirely vibe with others of his kind, has lots of secrets and is not always very good at lying. Likes to suffer in silence and not fcking tell anyone. He may not be full of chaos like thirteen but he has the vibes of nine or twelve where there's something not entirely human about him.

Another thing I found very interesting though is the potential for Ye Zun to be the Master to Shen Wei's Doctor. Because I like pain. The relationship between them two in DW canon is fascinating, just imagine if they were actually siblings.* The intense 'I want to kill you' vs 'I want to be you' vs 'I want you to like me' desire that's constantly warring away inside the Master. The Master loves the Doctor but feels like they've been abandoned by them, is that not Ye Zun? The desire for power and mayhem but also maybe just wanting attention from a certain person.

Also, if Shen Wei is the Doctor then Zhao Yunlan gets to be the companion and depending which level of angst I can cope with on the day, I've decided on two options.

Novel vibes: Zhao Yunlan as Donna Noble, something happens during their travels together that results in Shen Wei having to remove all of Zhao Yunlan's memories of him and their adventures together and Shen Wei has to stay away and never return or run the risk of Zhao Yunlan's brain permanently breaking. An even more extreme version of Shen Wei having to stay away from Kunlun's reincarnations because there's no chance of Zhao Yunlan coming back in this world. I'm not being entirely evil though because the 60th anniversary clips we've seen imply there is hopefully a way to fix this problem so there could still be a happy ending!

Show vibes: instead of sacrificing his soul to a lantern how about Zhao Yunlan does a Rose and stares into the TARDIS and only almost dies. If there's a way to somehow combine this with Rose using the power to bring Jack back to life and accidentally making him immortal then ta da! a never dying Zhao Yunlan to go with Shen Wei the time lord! Winners all around!

Final point i promise:

The TARDIS is called the ghost monument at one point, is that not a fitting name for a ghost king's spaceship?

[barbex]

Fic writers' end-of-year roundup: 2022 edition!

It’s that time of year, writer friends — time to take stock of what we’ve been up to this year! @pikapeppa tagged me, thank you!

And I'm tagging... everyone. @storybookhawke​, @bexifer, @ocean-in-my-rebel-soul​, @rpgwrites​, @fandomn00blr​, @asaara-writes, @dafan7711, @kemvee, @kunstpause, @blarrghe, @a-tear-in-the-veil, @in-arlathan, @elveny, @hawkeish, @starsandskies, @dismalzelenka, @charlatron, @enigmalea, @tessa1972, @wickedwitchofthewilds, @noire-pandora, @queen-kass-the-writer, @lavellanvibes​, @vonuberwald, @evilsapphyre, @pinkfadespirit, @musetta3, @lesetoilesfous, @faux-fires, @midnightprelude​, @ellie-effie, @andrastesknickerweasel, @mordinette, @kagetsukai, @zet-sway​, @roguelioness, @potatowitch, @for-the-ninth, @anneapocalypse, @rakshadow, @contreparry, @realace, @chaosride, @emotionalmorphine, @anderstrevelyan, @thedastrash, @only-slightly-terrified

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Words written (published or not, WIPs included!): 188,336 words according to my trusty spreadsheet, in 45 fics on AO3 and a few secret things.

Smut scenes: How do I even count that? I wrote 11 explicit fics in 2022. Some had several scenes.

New things I tried: I tried writing more short things for DA Drunk Writing Circle on Friday nights. It went well, I think, but sometimes it feels like I'm wasting a big idea on a small thing and then I can't use it again, which is STUPID, I know, but it's still a thing going on in this old head.

Fic I spent the most time on:  I have such a bad memory. I don't remember such things, time us just so... timey.

Looking at my trusty spreadsheet, I spent three months in the beginning of the year to finish Destiny's Bite and then Mystery of the Rose appeared. Currently, I'm spending the most time on Twilight and Soup. Like an unhealthy amount of time. You don't even know how much this fic occupies my brain space.

Fic I spent the least time on: I think I wrote the first chapter of Mystery of the Rose in one night.

Favourite thing I wrote: I think it's Outshine the Stars, but I love all my ongoing fics too.

Favourite thing I read:  The Right Pressure by DemonicPersephone, the pining, the careful feelings developing...

Writing goals for next year:  More words. Finish a few longifcs. Write the original novels. Just... use time more efficiently. Oh and if possible, maybe play a game again? But mostly, more writing.

[apoptoses]

Thoughtful ask incoming!!! It's me DA, shaking and crying and throwing up in anticipation for your big WIP. I don't think my brain can even fully grasp the 40k words thing, it's like trying to measure the universe yk. But I *am* ready to embark in what is probably bound to be one of the all time great VC fanfiction expeditions (and when I say fanfiction I mean, I'll immediately process every word as canon, such is your understanding and dissection of the characters). And YES please drop the excerpts, we're so hungry 🥺

Dungeon anon! I love that I sent up the bat signal in my tags and here you are ♥

Oh man, it was hard to pick what to share because this thing is 40% angst, 40% smut, and 20% loving moments to rot your teeth out with. We're taking that reunion in Prince Lestat and expanding it out so that Armand and Daniel can finally put all of their cards on the table and figure out how they work together in the modern day. And it all happens in the form of a road trip of all things.

But lately my favorite topic is Armand's past as Amadeo and what experiences he had that were left out of TVA (for being too racy or too dear to his heart? who can say! I think about both a lot).

(also this is the biggest section I can give you without giving anything away about what is going on between the two of them, so)

Here is a secret little story he tells Daniel:

Armand glanced at himself in the rearview mirror. A blank shell of a thing stared back, waiting to be cracked open to see what new image of himself would come through.

He drifted through his past. Inside he was like a book that had survived the flood, the ink of his memories blurred and runny with time but still legible if he squinted hard enough. Back and back and back Armand went, to old Venice with its sun warmed plaster and the tang of the sea in the air. That very first chapter in the memories of his life.

“Daniel. Would you like to hear a story?” Armand asked.

Daniel’s phone let out a click as he pressed the button on its side. The screen went black. “Sure.”

Armand took a deep breath. Set the cruise control so he would no longer have to think about the gas pedal and let himself become once more a young and mortal boy.

Amadeo and Riccardo, awash in the carnation pink blaze of the late afternoon sun. The rough hewn edge of the dock dug into the back of Amadeo’s thigh through his thin woolen hose. From his fingers a half drunk bottle of wine dangled, heavy and precarious above the lapping waters of the canal. At home they’d been reading the Romance of the Rose. An old French poem of courtly love. Lips buzzing with wine and boyish melancholy, Amadeo confessed he’d never experienced such a thing himself. Probably he never would.

What sort of thing, Riccardo asked him.

The pleasures of a first kiss. He’d been kissed before, of course. Rough and unwanted things stolen from his lips. And Master kissed him, yes. But that was a rich and heedy experience, charged with all the fear and arousal that came with doing such a thing with someone much older and more experienced than him. Amadeo had never known the innocence of a kiss with one his own age, one he’d chosen all by himself. He had no such sweet and romantic memories to carry through his life.

The tide was coming in as the sun set. The water rose toward their feet. If Riccardo stretched out his toes he could have dipped his expensive leather slippers straight into the sea.

You could kiss me if you like, Riccardo said. I’m not so much older than you. A year, perhaps. 

Amadeo looked at him. At his dark hair curling around his ears, his cheeks flushed ruddy and red from the wine and the heat of the day. Sometimes when Master painted the god Mars he came out looking rather like Riccardo, with his proud nose and shell pink lips.

Are you certain you’d want to kiss a boy like me, Amadeo asked and brought the bottle of wine to his mouth. Cheap stuff, the kind that burned the throat as it went down and left his chest on fire. Are you really sure, Riccardo?

Riccardo laughed. Of course. Amadeo was the handsomest boy in all of Venice, everyone knew that. Anyone would be lucky to kiss him.

Alright then.

Amadeo screwed up his courage. Never before had he been nervous to kiss anyone but there he was, heart fluttering in his chest. He licked his lips. Angled his head carefully and leaned in, waiting for Riccardo to meet him halfway.

Their mouths met. The bottle of wine slipped from his fingers and sank to the bottom of the sea.

The feeling of it was so sweet Amadeo forgot to breathe. It was a perfectly chaste thing. Riccardo didn’t even part his lips. Didn’t demand anything more than what Amadeo had to give and that was perhaps the most thrilling thing about it. That the warm press of someone’s mouth against his could be enough to steal his breath away and set his heart beating as rapid and desperate as the hummingbird’s wings. 

The water lapped at the pillars supporting the docks. Somewhere a gondolier called out for passengers. Amadeo broke away and then, changing his mind, darted back in for another quick taste of the wine on his best friend’s lips.

Riccardo laughed and stood. Sucked his lower lip in between his teeth, as if to savor the taste of Amadeo on his skin, and held out a hand. Come. Master will be home soon and we should not be late.

The road before Armand was black and slick as the Venetian canals at night. Daniel was silent at his side.

[declanowo]

Random Weekly (horror) Films - Week Five - Silent Hill

8/12/23

Silent Hill

In my early teenage years, when I was first getting into the idea of writing full novels, I fell in love with the concept of Dante’s Inferno. Simply put, it is the first part of the Italian writer's epic poem, Divine Comedy. The Inferno depicts Dante’s journey through hell, a nine circled creature. Despite never having read the poem, I became obsessed with the circles, referencing them constantly in my own work, reading about what you must endure within each circle, their relation to sin. All of it was astonishingly interesting to me. While researching for Silent Hill, I came across a few mentions of The Inferno, which brought me back to those moments where I would sit reading about it when I was younger, this in turn even reminded me of my time in sixth form, where the poem would occasionally be mentioned, and I would become infatuated once more. Still to this day, I haven’t read the poem, which illustrates the grasp it has on me. Silent Hill’s exploration into another world, one between life and death, a purgatory of sorts, alongside its heavy religious themes makes it so interesting to me, and is where much of The Inferno influence shines through. While the film starts hopefully bleak, it devolves with time, hope dwindles, and the true, grey light leads us to the realisation that there is no sanctuary lurking inside of the titular town, but only destruction, and treachery. 

I was incredibly excited when I spun Silent Hill on my wheel! Based on the popular game series, the film had always intrigued me; a few months ago, I watched around three hours of the first game, and found myself curious about the story nestled beneath the gameplay which was simply uninteresting to me. However, the games still stood out, given their thick and distinctive style, an aesthetic that is carried across to the film in several ways. 

To discuss my thoughts on the film, I’ve divided aspects of it into sections to discuss, however in short, I enjoyed this film. I wanted to like it more - the first act was my favourite, followed by the third, however, I found myself somewhat bored during the second, which feels too long to me, although it is more complex than this, as I will later discuss. 

One of the key pieces of most narratives are characters. Silent Hill is no exception, the film grows from a small cast, creating an isolated and terrifying feeling with it, before showing that sometimes, being alone can be better, as we meet the cult. However, I feel rather mixed on most of these characters - in my mind, I am in a limbo as to whether or not I enjoy them, or instead find them bland. While watching, I definitely leaned into the latter, especially during the second act, however, upon reflection, this feels unfair, yet I can’t ignore that my brain is certainly blocking out many of the more dull moments of the movie. 

Starting with our protagonist, Rose Da Silva (played by Radha Mitchell) who enters Silent Hill after her sleepwalking adoptive daughter continues whispering of the ghost town. However, after arriving, and passing out (the result of a car crash), she finds her daughter missing. Rose replaces the first game's protagonist, Harry Mason, however I believe the two are fairly similar. In fact, the reason she was written over him was because he was described as not being a very masculine character. Firstly, this is pretty disappointing to find out, writer Christophe Gans, explained that he felt the characters actions of fainting, being dizzy and talking to himself, were too feminine, so instead of altering the character, he changed the protagonist into a woman - I felt the decision could have been more so focused on the relationship between Rose and her husband, who is so against taking their daughter to Silent Hill, it feels like the gender roles here could have been an interesting topic, however, I guess instead this change was made for a pretty silly reason. I will try not to lament on this any further, but I do find it curious that these, very human and regular person traits are connected to femininity here, it feels overtly sexist in the view of femininity correlating to fragility. 

Rose is a difficult character, on one hand she has a single goal, which is helping/ finding her daughter - we don’t get much shading to her character in the first act beyond this, and that worked perfectly for me, however, over time I found this to be a larger problem. Although she does talk to herself, it is often to uncover the mysteries nestled within the town rather than to develop her character, which stays fairly one note throughout - maybe this is a result of the character being based on Harry Mason, an everyman, however, when the film changes from a single person wandering, enamoured with fear and desperation, to a group searching, I feel like it lends itself to a change in dialogue and direction for the character, unveiling more about them rather than just their goals, because all I know about Rose, is that she wants to find her daughter. Once again, I stopped minding as much towards the third act, yet the second act feels so long as a result of this issue I have!

Next is Cybil Bennet, a character ripped straight from the first game. Played by Laurie Holden, the character is a police officer, who chases after Rose suspiciously, before joining her cause as the two fall victim to Silent Hill’s warped world. She acts as a foil to Rose, being far more grounded in reality. I went back and forth on whether or not I liked her, she is so abrasive and initially refuses to listen, and while somewhat annoying to watch when we know Rose isn’t lying, it does make sense, and builds up an interesting character, who grew on me across the duration of the film! Once again, the second act is an issue for her character, although less so than with Rose, however, she was great! She became an enjoyable second voice to Rose!

Finally, I shall discuss Sharon, the missing child. Her story is so interesting, the reveal in the third act brought my attention and enjoyment back to the film, and I found her to be the most interesting puzzle of the film. Her constant appearances around the town as we wander are creepy! I really enjoyed this character! 

Moving onto what might be one of my favourite elements of the movie - its themes. Whenever I write these after watching a film, I am incredibly excited to delve into the themes and meaning behind it - whenever my lust isn’t sated, it can make a somewhat less than stellar review.

Religion is most evident in this film as a result of the church, alongside the cult led by Christabella. This cult is fearful, relying on the ideology of good vs evil. Their fear is the catalyst for the film, with them burning ‘witches’ to prevent any wrong coming to them; the ideal of good and evil is presented as grey when we arrive at the concept of killing (as opposed to murder), is it morally good to kill someone who is evil? Ridding the world of evil is inherently good, but by doing so, they expose themselves to evil. In the end, Alessa, the so-called witch they burnt, is neither entirely bad, nor good, there are pieces to her, good and bad, and they are what persists on. Although her evil shines through, she is still grey, rather than any absence of colour, the concept of good and evil will always overlap, and trying to fit in with a theoretical, omnipotent perception of this is inherently impossible. In the end, the evil burns within those who cannot discern that they harbour both, which is at the heart of Silent Hill - it is two sides of the same coin, neither is all that appealing. 

We can see Silent Hill itself as an allusion to purgatory and hell - here we can see the inspiration from Inferno. The regular world is bleak, a constant search for Rose’s husband that he will never be able to complete, because that which he seeks is elsewhere. Yet, he never is willing enough to take a leap anywhere to escape the purgatory - for him, there is no heaven, nor hell. In contrast, Rose assimilates into hell, as she spirals to the bottom of the Silent Hill dimension, where she can live, frozen in the ice. 

Next, I want to talk about the creatures that reside in Silent Hill. There is an abundance of them, so I will touch on only the most interesting few, however, before that, I want to discuss the effect the gluttony has on this film. While the game similarly uses a large array of creatures, it isn’t entirely comparable to the film, which is far shorter, and doesn’t need such a wide variety of creatures for the protagonist to fight. Regardless, I found many of them to be enjoyable, especially when they were played by professional dancers, in contrast to the CGI creatures that stick out in a way that feels perfectly 2000s. What I find so interesting about the creatures in the game, is they all appear to have purpose and meaning seeped into why they are there - they are born from established fears, Alessa’s memories and foreshadowing. In part this is still retained, which I do appreciate - however I have a specific exception. I also enjoy the fleshy and bug theme that is strung throughout these creatures! 

To start on a positive, the dark nurses are very cool! Their scene is anxiety evoking, as we fear when they will move again - their movements are aided so well by the professional dancers playing them! They are a manifestation of the way Alessa viewed her nurses, which I think works well, as they are adapted from the Bubble Head Nurses from Silent Hill 2, who were not based on this. Although, it does raise the question of why the characters are designed to be so overtly sexual, while it makes sense in the games for the characters they are manifested from, here it does feel like they have simply taken the iconic character and placed them in with some altering, while still neglecting certain aspects that don’t entirely make sense. However, this isn’t too big of a problem for me, given how cool the scene is and how little they appear. 

In contrast, Pyramid Head felt so out of place to me. Despite being a pseudo mascot for the franchise, the characters first appearance was in the second game (which Gan’s initially wanted to adapt, viewing the story as similar to Orpheus and Eurydice, however, the presence of the titular town is what drew him away from working on it, as there it is used as a mere backdrop) and here his working in feels rather flimsy. Although a cool design and garnering one of the most fun kills of the film, he serves no purpose being in the film, and doesn’t do much! It was pretty disappointing to me, given that the character is what I have been seeing so much of in regards to the series. Apparently in the sequel this is wrapped up better, however here his placement feels egregious! 

Moving on to a problem I had with this film, being its length. Although I much prefer a ninety minute film, I won’t refuse to watch, nor find a longer movie to be unenjoyable. However the film must stay engaging for that whole period, which some do struggle to do! The greed of having such a long film is understandable to me, why cut so much that you have written and filmed? Yet, the film feels too long without much payoff for a large portion of it! Mainly, this comes down to the second act I have mentioned a few times - there is a transition from a solo wander through the town, to a group search; the two juxtapose one another, from trying to find clues, to searching downright, from focusing on atmosphere, to focusing on building mystery. This is fine, but not enough happens in the second act, I feel, to warrant it being so long! 

Usually, I find anger towards the use of a grey movie - it’s so bland, and is usually a result of the focus not being on the look of the film! However, much like in Hush, it works so excellently for me here! Mostly because the dark lighting and greys come as a contrast to the natural lighting of the regular world, it makes us feel uncomfortable to be in, and it highlights the dreary tone and foggy atmosphere. Here, there is excellence in the colour grey, which I find pretty rare! The film uses it both for its atmosphere, and its bleak tone!

Maybe the most hypnotising thing about the film is its score. I doubt this is heresy to say, given that it is borrowed from the first four games. However, it fits so perfectly - composer Akira Yamaoka creates such an amazing score that is eerie, catchy and matches exactly the tone of the series. My favourite is Laura Plays the Piano, which has been stuck in my head ever since! While writing, I have been listening to the soundtrack, and I doubt it will ever leave my mind - even in my brief times with the first game, the title music is what stuck with me most. 

I will touch on the film's violence briefly, through its series of kills! A few of them really made an impact - Anna especially, as we see her skin and muscles torn off by Pyramid Head, which is excellently dark and creates a terrifying point of no return! What makes it stand out so much is that we finally have someone who can freely be killed to set the stakes, without having to forfeit our protagonists so early! At this point, we grow fearful, feeling like anyone can die, which isn’t incorrect, and in such a bloody and violent way only adds to this. The other kills I enjoy all entail the barbed wire, a motif in the film! It’s such a visceral image, and it links to the crucifixion we watch begin, as Jesus wore a thorny crown, alluding to a mocking claim of authority. It also matches the gritty, survivalist feel that is laced throughout the film!

Finally, we reach the atmosphere the film builds. It would be fraud, if not to discuss that this film builds up such a dark, gritty and unfamiliar place. Fog rolls across the town, obscuring our view, as well as our protagonists, and it blends nicely with Alessa appearing sometimes! Whenever you see fog in a horror movie, we are conditioned to assume something may be lurking, and here it is no different! 

Particularly, I enjoy the way the film emulates the fixed camera angles of the first game, which creates such a rigid and particular style, it is inescapable, and forces us to try to see more despite knowing we cannot! Touches like this show just how much the film meant to Gan’s, who spent five years simply trying to get the rights. 

To wrap up my thoughts on this film, I enjoyed it a lot! The treachery of the setting itself is so much of what makes this film so fun, and while I found it to be held back by certain aspects, such as some of the character work, and a few somewhat incoherent plot points, I still mostly had fun with it, and it has made me consider engaging with the games! There feels like so much more built into this series than what is shown in the film, which is no criticism of the movie, however I do want to see what that is! 

7/10

[despairforme]

any quincy, shinigami, or vizard you’d fuck ?

❝ Well SHIT, how am I supposed 'ta remember 'da names 'a all'a these people I've met? ❞ That was a REALLY tall order. It was true that whenever Nnoitra met someone, his brain automatically ranked them on how fuckable they were. That always happened even before he assessed how strong they were, and how much effort it would require to kill them. After that, he would subconsiously decide if he'd rather fuck them or kill them. ❝ I think I've only met three Quincy. Of course 'da first one I remember 's that blondie guy. Ya seen him, yeah? He looks real good, who wouldn't fuck him? Then there 's that bomb-chick. Her tits are kinda small, but I'd still do her. Then I met Quilge, and I'mma pass. ❞ For obvious reasons. Those were the three quincy he had met. There might be others, but if there were, the exchange had been so brief that he didn't remember.

❝ I've met a ton 'a Shinigami. ❞ He tried to think of the best looking ones. ❝ That lieutenant chick with 'da huge tits. I'd fuck her any day. ❞ She was in the 10th division, or something like that, if he remembered correctly. She was hot. Who else... He'd definitely fuck Aizen, Tousen and Ichimaru, but not because they were hot, but because he'd love to put someone who thought themselves as his ' superior ' in their place. Fuck those guys. Literally. There was Kira and Hinamori, but Nnoitra found both to be annoying as fuck, so unless he was really horny, he'd prefer to just kill them without putting his dick in them first. Maybe. ❝ It would be fun 'ta try one 'a 'da 69 guys. Yanno, 'da ones with 'da funny tattoos? ❞ One was black haired and one was white haired ( though Nnoitra had only met the former ). Honestly, there were so many Shinigami he could list. He didn't think there was anyone who he wouldn't fuck. He was not picky, and most Shinigami had good looks. Sure, some dudes were a little on the feminine side (not Nnoitra's favorite trope), and some chicks had too small boobs (again, not his favorite), but sex would still feel good.

As for Vizards? ❝ I think I only met three? 'Da lil chick who looks like a guy. I guess I'd fuck her, if I couldn't make up my mind whether I wanna fuck a dude or a chick. 'N then there 's that blondie guy with 'da teeth who looks like me. Of course I'd fuck him. ❞ That could be fun. ❝ 'N another blondie guy... Rose. ❞ He had an easy name that Nnoitra actually remembered. ❝ Sure, why not? ❞

[kaylinalexanderbooks]

OC interaction

Thanks @willtheweaver here, @talesofsorrowandofruin here, @illarian-rambling here and here, @leahnardo-da-veggie here, and @urnumber1star here!

Fuck I need to stop letting these things build up (not all of it is my fault though lol) Under the cut this will be LONG

Will's OC

Cya is a child prodigy. Hers is a family of swans that have dedicated themselves to the arts. Having chosen to focus on dance and music, she quickly rose to become a master performer. Those who first meet Cya will say that she has a haughty and self-assured attitude that borders on arrogance. In reality, it is all just an act, as she suffers from anxiety and imposter syndrome. The pressure to uphold the family legacy and meet everyone’s expectations is immense, and she does her best to hide her insecurities. Suffice to say, this has not proven successful, and with no one to confide in, she can fall into days long states of depression.

Nerissa's OC

Konstantine is an amateur detective on a one-man quest to bring down the local mob boss. He gets dragged into his family's schemes, has his powers stolen, and finds himself forced to rely on the mob boss for survival.

Katie's OC 1

Sepo Kaiacynthus is an aroace siren man in his late twenties/early thirties with a tall stature, gaunt face, dark eyes, and long hair he usually keeps braided. He is mute and has been ever since the Silver Sovereign, divine empress of the sirens, cut out his tongue as punishment for murdering her daughter, which he did by way of setting the royal palace on fire as retribution for his brother's unjust execution. Occasionally, he walks with a cane due to dizziness from a lingering brain injury he gets at the end of the first book. He is a remarkably cunning, paranoid man, with a brutally pragmatic streak. He also tends to be very grumpy, though he does have good manners and a sense of propriety instilled from being raised in a temple. He enjoys complaining about every little thing, though he'll deny it if you ask. He tends to get very worked up over issues, which, combined with his hair-trigger temper, can result in some stunning acts of violence. This violence is never directed at his friends though. Sepo loves just as deeply as he hates, and if someone manages to worm their way into his heart, he'll protect them to his last breath. Other than that, as a siren, he has Opinions on music, and also enjoys learning about surface magic too. His own vocal magic was rendered unusable when his tongue was cut out, and his relationship with the god that grants that magic is also quite touchy. He's not a big fan of religion in general.

Katie's OC 2

Mashal Darezsho is a towering robot man with bronze plating, a human looking face, and baggy clothes. He is incredibly strong and fights with a sword. As a person, he's kind and honorable, even knightly, and enjoys nothing more than helping people in need. He loves listening to folk talk and takes pleasure in the simple beauty of the world, translating this to sketch art. He is quite orderly. His main issue is that he has a strong sense of right and wrong, but he also extends his morality to others, making choices for them whether they asked for it or not. In addition, he tends to be rather naive due to his inclination towards seeing the best in people. Sometimes, this works out and he helps people to become a better version of themselves. Other times, not so much. However, beneath all this is a hidden violent streak. Mashal doesn't remember his past. He doesn't remember how he came to be broken on the side of the road. All he knows is that there is someone out there he must kill, and that anything magic-adjacent causes something deep within him to freeze with horror and rage. He tries not to give in to this dark current, to remain honorable and helpful, but every so often, he slips up.

Leah's OC

My OC

Katherine looks like a fifteen year old girl, acts like a cryptid and is probably closer to the latter than the former. She's quiet, secretive, and rather creepy, at least to the casual observer. To someone who knows her (that is, her best friend/apprentice Dane and her elder brother L), she is a pathological snarker, has the worst authority issues known to any immortal entity, and likes chocolate gelato more than life. She'd gleefully pick a fight with anything from vampire teachers to the goddess of dreams for no bigger reason than because she could. That said, she does have a good heart.

Star's [idk what to call you sorry] OC

He’s [Michael] sixteen years old but sometimes acts too old for his age. He’s a superhero by night so he tries to be as responsible as he can but is also chronically sleep deprived. He is very wary of anyone he doesn't know and will sometimes spend days trying to figure out their intentions. If he thinks that they are a threat he will do one of two things. Either try to talk to them if he thinks they can be swayed, or attack and try to take them down. If he thinks they;re intentions are good, then he’ll try to be friends with them. He’s overall a really good guy but is often very gullible at times. He will also talk your ear off if you let him. He just wants to help people. 

Gwen is a twelve-year-old girl with invisibility powers. She's extremely kind, compassionate, and empathetic, though has a bit of fire inside her. She's soft-spoken, loves reading, and appreciates nature, due to going on hikes with her family and takes morning runs to wake herself up. She has an intuitive sense to how others are feeling, to the point where she's often cited as the one member of her friend group who understands others and their emotions, despite there being a telepathic empath in the group. Gwen loves her friends deeply, even though she doesn't have anyone she'd consider a "best friend." She plays percussion in both her band class and an after school band and adores music. Gwen is very passionate about others, to the point where she can get stuck in others' problems. She gets increasingly more pessimistic about the future throughout the series, but that doesn't stop her from doing her absolute best work to change that. She's relatively impatient unless she can feel herself making a difference. Despite being shy, she lights up when comfortable around others, and can show a ferocious passion if necessary. She loves learning more, especially about other people.

Gwen and Cya

I think Gwen would be thrown-off but intrigued by a sentient swan. She'd be interested in Cya's life and culture and may get a little too excited learning more. I think she'd be able to see through Cya's act with relative ease, and she'd be honored if Cya chose to confide in her. Gwen would be an incredible confidant if chosen, and she could even try to motivate Cya more.

Gwen and Konstantine

Don't know much about his personality here, so I'm not sure how they'd interact. However, Part 3-4 Gwen would probably want to help take down a mob boss, so I'd like a team up to see more with them.

Gwen and Sepo

Gwen would love to know more about Sepo and his culture, even if they have to work around a communication barrier. Gwen would have a lot of empathy and understanding for Sepo, and would express as much. Gwen would appreciate his manners despite his grumpy demeanor, and would be okay with listening to complaining. One thing they do have in common is love and hate both going deep, especially if we take Gwen from Part Three onward. But something they have in common from the start is Opinions About Music. Don't know how much Sepo would like Gwen's band's music, but it would be interesting to see a debate or agreement about music regardless. Gwen may be a little hurt if Sepo tears apart her music, but I don't think she'd hold a grudge over it. She would also love to know more about Sepo's magic in general.

Gwen and Mashal

These two would instantly connect on their compassion and love for people, and I think Gwen would find learning how to use a sword fun, even if she won't take it up as a hobby (though the image of Gwen with a sword is awesome). They'd definitely bond over love of talk and beauty of the world. They both see the best in people but have violent streaks. Gwen would empathize with Mashal's past and be kind and understanding about it. She may try to get him to talk, hoping he'd remember, but that most likely won't work, and she'd catch on quickly. She'd be curious about his past, and would probably help in the best way she'd can. I think they'd be a fun pairing. No idea how Mashal is with kids though, so that will be fun.

Gwen and Katherine

I think Katherine will be intriguing to Gwen. I think she'd like to know more about her. Maybe she won't know her immediately, but Gwen is more than a casual observer. Gwen also isn't obsessed with authority, so she'd be more curious as to why Katherine defies it. Gwen doesn't usually start fights, but again, she'd want to know why. I think she would notice Katherine's good heart, and Gwen can match someone's snark if she wants to. It would be fun if their relationship started with Katherine wanting to pick a fight.

Gwen and Michael

While Gwen will find Michael intriguing and even figure him to be a good true hero from the start, it would be hilarious to see him ultra suspicious of a middle schooler, even if he is sixteen. But once he found out she was cool, I'd love for them to be friends. She'd be fine getting her ear talked off (the people she hangs out with the most are the chattiest bunch known to man), and she's a good listener. I feel like Michael will appreciate this

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[thedeadthree]

🖊🖊🖊 for each of your da ocs please im begging

HIIII AJ DEAR AND OF COURSE <3 and not emotional at all bc of u wishing to know more about my da babies AHH..! since i finished absolution they've been on the brain again.....! <3

SEND A 🖊 + I WILL GUSH ABOUT MY OCS <3

🖊 - the small folk of ferelden named her the ashen queen! for her ashen hair but as she saved the temple of sacred ashes, and she was reborn in the fires of Highever from lady to warden to queen to hero of all Ferelden from the blight. <3

🖊 - in highever, like the dear girl she was "the teyrnir's delight" she had more than a few paramours and requests for her hand (there was even talk of a tourney for her hand jahsbnjh) but her heart was on her sworn knight, sir roderick gilmore, before the tragedy of highever that resulted in his passing. alistair reminded her a lot of him when they first met in ways of their personalities. and he helped her heal from that and she's grateful to ali for that to this day <3 speaking of ali though <3 he still gifts her roses to this day every year on the day of their anniversary (bc of course he does <3) and had a garden commissioned in the palace for her! was it costly? yes! was it needed? not really! but he loves her and she loved him for it so!

🖊 - this hit me like an epiphany last month? i think? but i thought of having an old amell oc be her lady-in-waiting and childhood bestie! her name was rhiannon but i think i like alicent better? following her successful harrowing (with flying colors mind thee <3) she returned to highever to be the court sorceress of teyrn bryce cousland! alphonsa played wingman to her when ali showed interest in nathaniel howe <3 to be honest i adore natie too much and was going to set him up with alfie in an au but as i was thinking of fun facts it HIT ME and so! wingman alfie to her bestie was born! <3

🖊 - originally his name was faron! but i wasn't into the name and how it flowed together and in browsing the silm/t*olkien tag the plural for the f*eanor came up and i liked how it sounded as a name <3 and so his name was changed to feanorian!!!! his vallaslin and his patron was falon'din for a time as the mother of him and his sister lhysa was at one point a patron of the elven god of shadow <3

🖊 - for his relationship history if i remember reading right, he has been happily married to dorian for about a decade now at the start of da:d and (maybe) absolution <3 he had a short lived relationship with merril back in the day as a companion of hawke. he’s also had more than a few other lords and ladies as partners in the past before he met dorian <3 get ur rich man feanorian!!!!!!

🖊 - other than solas, he is the foremost scholar of elvhen lore and ancient sorcery <3 rivals that of the tevinter archon in terms of power and knowledge of the arcane <3 LOOOATHES using staffs and prefers the tried and true hands to dish out an arcane hind end whooping hehe! the chantry threw a FIT when he refused a staff they offered him but he “assured” them he hasn’t become an abomination.. yet <3 he was also invited to attend the temple of sacred ashes as a dignitary! his extensive knowledge totally doesn’t stem from the fact his biological father was an ancient elf himself and now the left hand to the dread wolf <3

🖊 - NOW FOR MY BABY <3 she has another verse she’s in!!!!! her other verse is the witcher where’s shes lhysa aep lonán, an aen seidhe of nilfgaard <3 also an assassin, she was the premier kingslayer and left hand of both emperor emhyr, his son maxen (an oc of minee <3) and jan c*alveit!!!!! in her da verse she was once an assassin for her mothers order based in nevarra the nahkriin, but went her separate way from it and became freelance!

🖊 - she never meant to be the inquisitor, and for sure never meant to touch the orb it sort of…… happened. her motivations for her presence there was actually that she was on a contract. and who was the contract for you say? it was the divine justinia herself in fact! <3 she hoped to kill her and draw attention to a few important things and people. you know, the chantry because of it was more than obvious that the only way to draw attention was to force their hand when it came to matters pertaining to them, and of course, a particular rebel leader of an unknown but known to someone……. VERY dear to her:

🖊 - WHICH LEADS TO MY LAST ONE!!!!! she and felassan were an item in this verse! i need to read the book he’s in bc she’s also in it for more lore but! he and her! his ideals and charisma captivated her. which was WEIRD for her bc well, in her line of work u know it is neeever a good idea to become close or attached to anyone u know? and uhhhh well……. he dies in the fade right.. bc well bestie rebel leader totally not an elven god right. SO HE WAKES UP AND HE WAKES UP TRANQUIL RIGHT SO HE WAS ZEROED IN THE FADE RIGHT! *cue the tiktok “she knows” song* AND ALSO *cue bloodlines will burn from the hotd soundtrack jsjshx* bc she SWORE to kill the one who killed him u know? it’s only right! an eye for an eye a soul for a soul u know? which makes it MORE inch resting that the whole time it was solas right? and even worse is he fell in love with her and she fell in love with him.. ✨😵‍💫🤍😳

[sleephearts-archived]

pink magnolia and rose quartz for your ask game <3 i hope you’re doing well today !

kurisu !!! i AM quite well ,,, legs r sore from climbing up n down a mountain 4 several hours but the view was v v worth (⁠.⁠ ⁠❛⁠ ⁠ᴗ⁠ ⁠❛⁠.⁠) i hope that u r taking care n having a lovely day too !!

pink magnolia— would you say that you develop crushes quickly?

yes! i think that i feel attraction v v quickly -- like da funny feeling in ur heart when u see sum1 cute yk? maybe a little heat in ur face? n obviously it grows the more time i spend around them...but lately they dont last long bc i WILL get some kind of ick. i have yet 2 meet a man i rly want 2 date on campus plaksdlfjg

(storytime : my last crush was abt a month ago on dis cute boy from my asian american psyc class bc we had sooo much in common but it all vanished two weeks l8er when he asked me if i knew what Twitch was 😭😭 like it's not even anything against him it just gave me da ICKY ick. so rip 2 that </3)

rose quartz— what’s your love language (romantic or platonic)?

i dunno how 2 rly describe it but if u tell me a story or talk abt things u like..i WILL remember it. store it in my brain like an elephant n bring it back out when we have a convo. this applies 2 bits abt life, fav foods, colors, songs, etc etc! ig it's my way of saying "i care u!" but a little less obvious hehe..hopefully it shows that this person is important 2 me + i cherish the relationship a lot ^w^

(more storytime : i had a tutor 4 SAT prep pre-covid that has dupuytren's contracture (tightening of hand tissue that eventually requires surgery) + when i met him a good bit of time l8er, over zoom, i asked him how his hand was n if his surgery went well/was still scheduled 2 happen. n this dude said, "...you know, you're the only one of my students that has asked abt my hand since we went online 4 covid. i think that rly speaks a lot 2 ur character." AND I ALMOST CRIED LMFAO BUT YEAH...IM GOOD @ THAT!!!!)

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ pink themed asks