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lady-harrowhark · 2 years ago

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hello, can you explain to me in more clarity your “waxen” theory regarding Ianthe? I’m not picking up on what this implies but it’s making my brain itch.

Sort of! Totally fair question, I just don't have a lot of clarity myself in that I don't have a fully formed theory lol. There's definitely some links and parallels in verbiage that are pinging on my radar, so I do think something's funky, but I wouldn't say I'm fully on board with this yet. I'm just playing in the sandbox Tamsyn has provided us, tossing out ideas and thinking out loud. But I can go into some more detail, and add some more thoughts that have occurred to me since I posted that last night.

(Here's a link to the post in question, for context)

Anyway! So let's first lay out all the times we get someone described as some type of wax. At various points in HtN, we get the descriptions "a shoddy wax cast of some more beautiful sculpture," a "wax figure in a pink dolly dress," a "wax figure in pale purple chiffon," and "waxen face" for Ianthe. We also see that descriptor used a few other times for other people throughout the series. In GtN, Harrow's parents' bodies are called "waxy" and the first introduction of Protesilaus (as the beguiling corpse) says he was "waxen looking in the sunlight." In NtN, Kiriona's skin is said to have a "weird, waxy quality," then Naberius's skin is called "waxen" when they first meet up with Ianthe, and again a few pages later it again references the "waxen, handsome face". What I'm getting at here is that every time this sort of description is deployed, it's in reference to a dead body that's been preserved, manipulated, and is essentially masquerading as a living person... except for Ianthe.

We also know there are a multitude of times that she's described as looking like a poor copy of Coronabeth. There's that "shoddy wax cast of some more beautiful sculpture" line, her first introduction calls her a "starved shadow" of her sister ("or the first an illuminated reflection [of Ianthe]," and actually, off the top of my head I don't know that we ever see their descriptions framed that way again... I'd have to investigate this more later, but this might be the only time that Corona is described as a "better" version of Ianthe, rather than Ianthe being a "worse" version of Corona, which is interesting), there's a point where it says "The second twin was as though the first had been taken to pieces and put back together without any genius. She wore a robe of the same cloth and colour, but on her it was a beautiful shroud on a mummy," etc etc etc. I know there's more, but I'm too lazy to go pull the rest of the quotes and you get the picture by this point I'm sure. So nearly all of these situate her, at least visually, as a copy or approximation of Coronabeth, and one that doesn't quite live up to original at that.

So now let's pick apart this snippet of conversation we overhear between Silas and Ianthe at Magnus and Abigail's dinner party a bit. Ianthe says she was born via "surgical means," which I'm assuming is referring to a C-section delivery (or whatever the necromantic equivalent is) and notes that Corona is a few minutes older. Silas seems surprised (or perhaps concerned?) that they "risked intervention" and Ianthe says Corona had "removed [her] source of oxygen". At this point Silas says, "A wasted opportunity, I'd think." I had always taken this for him just being a dick and implying he wished she'd died in the womb, but coming back to it with this new angle... well. She says "Corona's birth put my survivability somewhere around definite nil." And I'm wondering if that doesn't tie to Harrow's comment about infant deaths generating "enough thanergy to take out the entire planet." Basically, could Silas have been implying that the Tridentarii's parents wasted an opportunity to use the thanergy from baby Ianthe's death to power up Corona?

Harrow says that twins are an ill omen, but the text hasn't come back to that as of yet. Given the difficulty necromancers experience with pregnancy, I'd imagine twins would could be especially dangerous and that in and of itself could be considered an ill omen. Ianthe's comments certainly suggest that their mother carried the pregnancy, although I don't think we know for certain whether she was a necromancer. I am so intensely curious about the Tridentarii's childhood and their parents; we get so many gestures towards some really twisted family dynamics, but very little in the way of concrete explanations. Particularly relevant here, I'd love to know more about their father wanting a "matched set" and how that came about. Did they intentionally plan for twins from the start? Was it only once they knew they were having twins that that became a factor? What's the significance there?

Outside of those "waxy" descriptors, Ianthe tends to be described as much more sickly looking than even other necromancers. We know that necromancers on the whole tend towards a phenotype of physical weakness, but even still, there's an emphasis on this with Ianthe beyond that. This might be due in part to narrator bias (coughGideoncough) or the direct juxtaposition between her and Coronabeth's vivaciousness, but what really jumps out at me as contributing to this effect is how frequently she's described as being colorless, pale, washed out, bloodless, pallid, anemic, etc etc etc. It very much makes me think of the way the color drains away from Colum (and even the rest of the room and the others in it) when Silas is siphoning. Silas himself is also often described as colorless ("mayonnaise uncle," "milk man") but not so much in a way that implies frailty as much as I read it as implying a stark coldness, in line with the very black-and-white moral authority he presumes to wield, a purported "purity", much different than Ianthe's colorlessness. With Ianthe, you get a sense that her palette ought to have been or perhaps was closer to Corona's, but the color's been drained away; where Corona's hair is described as golden, Ianthe's is "canned butter", for example. Almost like the life's been siphoned out, one might say.

So to kind of circle back around, do I actually think Ianthe is dead or a corpse like the other "wax" figures we've seen? Nah. Between Harrow and Palamedes, and especially Palamedes's medical necromancy, I think we would have heard about it by now if that were the case. But I do think it's entirely plausible that she's had a bit of a brush with death and that perhaps she's never quite fully come back from, and I do think she's being intentionally positioned as somewhat adjacent to death. If their parents were wanting twins from the outset, perhaps they used necromantic means to encourage the conception. Or if the pregnancy was as high-risk as I suspect it was, perhaps she'd died or nearly died at birth and been resuscitated. Their parents may have gone to extremes to keep her alive, to maintain their matched set. Given the themes of this series, I do feel it's necessary to draw a distinction between "resuscitation" and "resurrection" although they are curiously adjacent to one another. For all the text has grappled with dying and staying dead, dying and coming back, dying and choosing whether or not to return... we haven't touched on what something like a "near death experience" would look like. I'd imagine having that sort of experience, even at an incredibly young age, might lead one to be fascinated with, to use Ianthe's own words, "the place between death and life... the place between release and disappearance."

#it was making my brain itch also!#thank you for indulging my meandering rambles lol #I’ve got another ask sitting in my inbox that I’m working on too… I promise I’m not ignoring it!#tlt #tlt meta #ianthe tridentarius #nona the ninth spoilers #ask #mcdreary #two halves dead

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sonicjustbecause · 8 days ago

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A small pet peeve on current Shadow

(Nothing serious, but it disappoints me a bit).

I often stress about Shadow being left handed. It was very clear in Sjhadow 205 and sonic 2006. You could read it in his profile back then.

Attentive left handed Sonic fans also noticed how Shadow literally moves like a leftie even without having anything in his hands. Not just wielding weapons or the shepter to seal Mephiles with his left hand. Even his body language and his postures - the way he crosses his arms - were typical of left handed people

Clear also from ShTH artworks (no mistake, cosnsistently left handed).

And this ended up in the game too.

Then this came:

And that was, metaphorically, the chain that tied Shadow's (and several other characters) left hand behind his back.

Because people though righties can't adapt, then, rather than let you choose, just 'fixed' characters such as Shadow or Link.

The Wiimote is gone now, so, why not going back to the origins?

Unfortunately evidently, somebody though that because 'Shadow was not cool enough' (Trying to mimic Iizuka's style)

'As the ultimate lifefeorm, Shadow is not tied to things such as right handedness or left handedness. It depends by the situation.

- Before misunderstanding, since people often don't pay attention to what they read I underline is just my assumtion and Iizuka never said anything! -

The italic quoote was said by VEI-6 Vesuvius attempting to imitate Iizuka!

In Dark Beginnings and in Shadow Generation, Shadow is ambidextrous.

right...

In the third episode of Dark Beginnings he only uses his left.

Left

Left handed body language - he looks at his left first, the right later.

right...

And so on...

I saw the same issue on Sonic.

Personally I think making a character ambidextrous is lazy, most of the time. Simply because most people just not care to those details, so they slap body language and tools where is convenient for the scene. To me, it removes character relatability/life (And I'm saying this as somebody who can use both hands for most things, including the usage of scissors). I can give only two example of ambidextrous character done right:

Your avatar from Skyrim. when you equip the weapons, you can choose wich hand he or she will use to wield the sword and which one will use for the shield at your please, without any setting. To make things even cooler, you use the right side of your controller for the right hand and the left side of your controller for the left, with your actual right and your actual left. Customization in real time. Is great.

This character from Soul Calibur, Siegfried. He switch from right to left handed stance with a spontaneity that feels just right. Is beautiful.

For those two there is a purpose. most is lack of care for the details.

Why I like Shadow being a lefty?

Left handedness is peculiar and if some character is meant to be cool, that's a nice and harmless detail (the character will not turn into a Mary Sue). Is not to common and if not overdone (and isn't) it adds a layer of realism and relatability.

Is also all in Shadow's name. Among all meanings there is 'reflection of'. Since most people are right handed, of course a reflection is most of the time left handed.

#shadow the hedgehog #sonic the hedgehog #sonic #shadow

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koreanbibliophilegirl · 4 days ago

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CHARACTER BLURBS FOR MY DSMP SUPERPOWER AU

As promised to @aimlovesmusic :D 💗

Requested characters were Eternal Duo(Eret and Foolish), Quackity, and Ranboo!

Eret👑

Hero!

Hero Name: Monarch

Unofficial spokesperson for the Hero HQ, bc she's beloved by the masses and can stay calm & collected in the spotlight. In other words, he's the best cannon fodder for them 'cause she's got both high popularity ranking and PR skills.

Power is physical control(? idk what to call it), anyone who sees their glowing white eyes has to move in any way she commands. For example, he could tell someone to drop the gun, and that person would have to drop it. She can't control minds though, so everyone is fully conscious during the control & he can't tell people to think a certain way. + the control stops when Eret can't see you anymore/covers their eyes, with sunglasses, etc.

Hero HQ set his image up to be some sort of lethargic royal, never moving more than they need to- but Eret can run in heels & throw things with scary precision actually. She carries knives around just in case, and later they acquire mini grenades! :D

Likes maracons(INHALES them whenever they're stressed)

Foolish🦈

Also a hero!

Tentatively labeled the Golden Shark

He can call up storms and/or rain/thunder/lightning separately- indoors or outdoors, it doesn't matter.

Also, given enough material, he can build things in seconds! He essentially draws out a blueprint in his mind and moves his hands accordingly, and the materials just assemble themselves. This is usually v exhausting though, it's total knockdown for him if the build is big enough.

Adopted by former hero Puffy(Hero Name: Captain Puffy) as a teen

Is friends with fellow hero Tina Kitten(Hero Name: Carrot Cat... Probably. I'm still working on it)! Tina's powers(basically Cat™️) overlap with other, more popular heroes though, so Foolish got way more support from the Hero System than her. Foolish feels bad about this and tries to help her get more recognition, but there really isn't much he can do.

Hero System favors popular heroes and gives them waaaaaay too many patrols, so he's always exhausted now that he's in the top 10

Meat lover

Eternal Duo👑❤️🦈

Often paired on patrols together

Dating <3

One of the most popular RPF ships on in-universe ao3

They've got a Golden Deities brand, since Foolish's hero persona is Playful but Powerful God of Storms & Eret's the Languid, Relaxed Royalty, and both their costumes have golden bits on them.

Foolish gets shanked on patrol and Eret goes INSANE with their throwing knives

Poor villain Redrum didn't know what hit him lol

After the Golden Shark is announced to be in recovery, the videos of Monarch chasing down Redrum in heels becomes a sort of internet meme

Even more so bc Eret was the only hero who ever came close to actually catching Redrum

Eret expertly wielding knives in public leads to a rebranding, since the powerful-lazy-monarch persona was more or less shattered. Foolish wholeheartedly supports & enthusiastically endorses this change👍

Quackity🎰

Mafia kingpin

Code Name: Rey Club

There's an explanation about the Las Nevadas codename system in the "Lilly's dsmp superpower au" tag. ...Somewhere. I don't have the link rn. I'll add it later😅👍

[Edit: here! Also I realized I changed some minor details from when I posted that. Las Nevadas is not a family business!]

Took over LN when he was younger. Vibes are <The Court Jester> by thquib. I love that song.

Paranoid about his position as a result

SKILLED bartender

Since he hides his face as Rey Club, he secretly works in the LN casino palace's bar as Quackity the bartender. He hears a lot of gossip that way, and it's sorta relaxing too.

Sometimes he orders hits on Karens

Fave cocktail is Clover Club, but he pretends to like Casinos better when he's Rey Club

Ranboo🖤💜🤍

Triple Powered, which is super rare

All of benchtrio has 2+ powers so they all pretend to be single-powered(choosing their weaker powers to show) so that their vigilante identities stay hidden

Ranboo can teleport, compress(Silk Touch?), and BITE. They can bite through near anything. Chomp chomp

Works at the local library under Technoblade

And therefore first of the Bench Trio vigilante team to discover wildly popular vigilante duo Emerald Duo's civilian identities

Likes figs- wait why do I keep talking about favorite foods. Eh whatever. He also likes cake & other sweet baked goods.

Vigilante name is Endgame apparently. I'm ngl I completely forgot what I named them & had to check my notes OTL

(Tubbo and Ranboo's vigilante names went through a lot of changes so I lost track of them skajskdaskjdka)

Doesn't talk as Endgame bc they're afraid they'll stutter and sound awkward + doesn't trust himself to not give away his speech mannerisms. Tommy and Tubbo don't care but Ranboo is Anxious™️

This impacts Endgame's popularity as a vigilante a bit

Aaaaaand that's all four!!!! 🥳💕

It's been a hot minute since I worked on DSMP Superpower AU, so it's really nice returning to it :3 Hopefully I can work on it more after my exams😊😅

#this was fun #Lilly's dsmp superpower au #eternal duo #eternalduo #eret #foolish gamers #quackity #ranboo #Lilly writes stuff #Spotify

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kessilover · 3 months ago

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I have an idea for a Mergana fic

I have this Mergana Fic idea that I probably would never write because I am lazy, but I want to share it in case someone might want to write it.

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It takes place during Servant of Two Masters (S4xE06), just before Morgana inserts the Fomorroh into Merlin's neck.

A young man (maybe 17 or 18) barges inside. He looks like a young version of Merlin except he has green eyes. Before anyone says anything, this man collapses instantly.

There is an awkward silence between Merlin and Morgana for a few moments before she is like, "is he your brother?" and Merlin is like, "I don't see any resemblance" but inside he is screaming, did my father have another son?

Then, she tries to wake the young man and soon came to the realization that he is drained magically, and they need to wait for him to regain consciousness on his own before asking any questions.

"Maybe he is a distant relative?" Merlin mumbles to no one, and Morgana, whose plan is momentarily put on hold, tells Merlin that she knows a way that can help unravel the mystery.

Despite Merlin's objection, Morgana performs the spell (requires a drop of blood from each man) and the result is "Parent". (There is a whole color palette that can help identify the link between two people.) But the spell doesn't specify who is the parent and who is the offspring.

Since it was not possible, Morgana decides to do the spell using her own blood, and she gets the same result as Merlin: "Parent".

"Maybe I did something wrong." She says, and they leave it at that.

Hours later, the mysterious man wakes up and he takes one look at the chained Merlin, "Is it a sexual thing?" he says, startling both Merlin and Morgana.

Morgana quickly unchains him and Merlin supplies without really thinking, "We're making sure the chains are robust."

The young man's name is William, and he was attacked and used magic to escape. He came across the hovel and was looking for a place to hide.

He claims that he has never seen Merlin before, and the latter is dying to ask if he knows Balinor.

William tells them his life story, that his parents died and that he was raised by his uncle.

Another person bursts in shortly after. The boy's uncle.

Here is the twist.

The uncle is actually Mordred, who kidnapped William (named after his father's childhood best friend) when he was an infant and killed his mother. He was raised not knowing who his real parents were and to hate Camelot and its king and his advisor Merlin because they were the reason behind William's parents' deaths.)

Chaos erupts when it turns out the danger William was trying to evade was Mordred, and his plan was to go back in time to save his mother after learning the actual truth. But the spell was too powerful and it left him weak.

William is like, "You killed my parents." and Mordred shouts back, "Your parents are dead because of you."

Here is another twist.

William recently killed Merlin (Furture version), thinking he was avenging his parents. But in reality, the boy's mother died trying to save her son from being kidnapped, and his father, on the other hand, died at the hands of the son that he spent years searching for.

Surprise!!

The kid is acually the son of Merlin and Morgana!!

"You killed your father?" Morgana asks William, who is too crestfallen to meet her gaze.

"Like mother like son." Mordred says with a snide.

More chaos.

"You lied to us?" Merlin accuses, while Morgana is too stunned to speak.

Once again, Mordred smirks and adds "Just like his father, isn't that right, Emrys?"

Even more chaos.

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Please if you like the concept, write it, I really really want to read it.

#mergana #merlin #bbc merlin #i know how it ends but i am too lazy to finish writing the last part #bbc emrys #lazy writer #this one kept me up so many nights #i had to get it out of my system

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seirindono · 8 months ago

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How do you happen to do your shading id you don't mind sharing? Its so subtle and soft that you can't tell its there but it really helps highlight the characters

Phew, finally got some time on my hand to answer this one! It's a fairly simple/fast process so I figured I'd make a tuto once I'd get started on the shading for the next part, and here we are!

Alright so, we've got the panel (lazy screenshots cuz I'll never finish this if I have to export everytime ahah)

The advantage of digital art is that I don't have to think about color harmonies right from the start, I can always add filters and fiddle with the hues at any stage, so I just apply base colors at first and draw the background (it will help me build up a palette for the shadows later).

Okay, now the fun really begins. First I need to know which direction my shadows are likely to go and what atmosphere I want for the panel (which element I want to highlight? palette idea? etc). A sketch is enough to establish your intentions. Sometimes I'll mess up the lighting but it's okay to cheat if it looks coherent enough xD

(Patreons exclusive, shhh)

Now to create palette and apply the said shadows. I have a hand made one for TMS, but I had to make a special one for Ebott since there's a lot bg and kinda heavier atmosphere (I'll prbly have to make one for each part frow now on too hm). It's mostly made up of blues and greens (no black or greys here, but it can be fun to use in other styles! Purple too, so have fun!)

(My configuration - Produit=multiply?)

There, cast shadows (clothes, faces, folds, etc.) are roughly in place and looking sharp! Maybe a little bit too sharp actually... Let's smooth all that up

I use an airbrush eraser to soften a few shadows. Not necessarily all of them or the whole shape, you have to find the right balance of soft/sharp.

Now to spice things up a bit-

On a layer linked to the shadow layer, I add a lighter color that matches my light source or the environnement. Here it's a light blue, but in part VII I used a lot of orange (sun)! It makes the shadow much richer and the whole palette more vibrant!

(Again, you don't have to do it on all of them)

(not sure if you can see it lol but there's orange!)

And last but not least: Global shadow and filters (? never had to name or translate it bwahaha)

It's a lot of fiddling to achieve a result where the character looks more or less rooted in the background (=blue layers and filters to harmonize colors) and where I draw the last shadows. They're often the biggest ones (=on Axe's body+ leaf/tree shadows etc.).

You can use the techniques I've described above, or just go for it, it's completely freewheeling from here, ahem. Just make sure to step back regularly to see where you're at and stop.

(You can also add lights layers and spots if it's too dark but in this example, I use the base color as a light layer + their skulls are such a bright white already xD )

A bit of blur and ta-da~

Pretty easy, right?

#ask #undertale #The missing scarf #txt #seirin talks #tuto #spoil #I hid the dialogues but let's be careful xD #it's an efficient technique for comics !

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muzzlemouths · 1 year ago

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I know the meaning of the words ever after

This was a small oneshot I wrote up for the DCAH server's writing contest, which I've since tidied up some to post here! It takes place somewhere between 1940-1950 — which isn't super relevant to the story, but it's important to me that you know. lol.

There is a song mentioned in the fic that I feel really adds to the atmosphere when listened to while reading. I am so insistent on you listening to this song that I've linked it in the fic's wording below. please do this one thing for me I promise it's worth it

Sun&Moon centric // wordcount: 1109

This house is full of ghosts.

Nothing ghoulish, mind you. The floors have been swept of evil fiends long before now. Rather, these old, yellow walls are haunted by the ghosts of memory. Like dust embraces the morning as it pours through open blinds, here before your eyes and gone by the afternoon, so, too, do the inhabitants of this old home move within it.

Even now, your hands buried in the kitchen sink and worrying over a piece of china, can you see them dawdling your peripheral vision. The sunflowers on your table dance on invisible strings and arrange themselves with endless repetition.

You hum, “Leave them be,” your words undeniably hidden behind the fondness of laughter. The arrangement stills, its orchestrator caught red handed. You settle the rinsed teacup on a cloth to your left and return to the sink for the two that remain. “They’re already perfect, Sun,” your insistence brings with it a smile, “stop fussing and help me set the table, won’t you? I’m almost done with this.”

Though normally eager to lend you a hand, today it seems they are all too happy to ignore your request. The gentle ting of a bell precedes their arrival at your back, instead, where they waste no time in stealing the cup right out from under your fingers.

“Hey,” you make a lazy grab for it only to see the cup raised just out of reach, a lighthearted taunt that doesn’t go unheard, “that’s not what I asked you to do, mister,” you tut. There’s no real anger behind your words. You know this, and they certainly know it, too, because the cup remains where it’s at. “Fine, fine, be that way. You can finish washing up, then.”

You expect to be thwarted for a second time, teased a while longer. They answer with the song of more bells, instead, the noise like a windchime carried through an open window, and — to your pleasant surprise — it’s followed by the unmistakable sound of your china dipping beneath the faucet.

Offering them a satisfied thrum, you begin to collect the readied teacups from where they rest, dry and ready to find their way to the table. One by one you arrange them until each cup is in its place. Sun offers you the final cup a moment later, patted dry by hand, and you hesitate in setting this one down. Its starry pattern catches your eye and for a moment, only a moment, you’re brought back to a time when these cups held more than memories.

Sun grounds you with a sympathetic touch to your shoulder. It’s impossible to miss the expression you know is there. To worry is their second nature.

You wave them off with a dull smile, “just getting sentimental,” you promise, and the cup is settled into place a minute after. With this, the table is finally set just how you like it. The centerpiece breathes life into the picturesque assembly of it all. Life that is welcomed as much as it is necessary, for the bread bin is only stale crumbs and the door creaks with the weight of a decade. Your pantry has gone stale over the years.

The frames that hold up this home of yours have forgotten what it feels like to keep a gift which is new — alive, but you remember, and you aren’t going to let yourself forget any time soon.

Having already noticed your dwelling again, you find Sun’s hand has slipped its way into your own and, just like that, the thoughts pass quickly as they came before they’re given the chance to become anything worse. All too soon are they leading you out of the kitchen, an insistence in each step that has you tripping over your own feet with anticipation and laughter.

The fireplace roars to life following your arrival to the livingroom. Though the wood in its castiron mouth has long since been devoured, your chime-tongued companions somehow find a way to recreate the wonderful flame time and time again.

Across the room, your zenith radio clicks and coughs through a thick layer of dust, untouched by any hand. It chugs along, filtering through countless voices before landing on something specific; Frank Sinatra's Polka Dots and Moonbeams.

“I love this song,” you croon. But they already know. They know you like no one else. “We used to dance to this song, do you remember?” Your chest warms as nostalgia plays the memories for you like an old record. The many times you’ve spun circles over this same carpet, ragged now beneath weightless feet, and the first time you heard its wonderful tune. That day they helped you fold new wallpaper into place, the way in which it peels away after all this time now something like small petals along the wall.

“Do you remember?” You repeat yourself with more insistence this time, a breathless whisper. Tears begin to stray from the corner of your eyes — not anguished, but grateful. You can’t imagine anyone else you would rather spend the rest of your days left, regardless of if those days are few or forever.

You’re answered with a hollower bell’s ting and the wonderful scent of lavender. The tattered blinds fold together on their own, enveloping the room in a darkness only broken by the fireplace at your back. Cool, lithe hands sneak beneath your palms, fingers curling between your own.

You’re lead a step backwards, then forwards once more, a graceful motion that is all too familiar.

“You do remember,” said in such a whisper, tucked behind a smile, you aren’t sure they even hear you. It doesn’t matter, anyway. Moon guides you across the room in small, rhythmic circles, your footsteps leaving no trace in their wake. The voice in your radio sings of lilacs and laughter. When your dance slows and your cheek rests pleasantly against their chest, you come to decide the only thing that matters is already right here in front of you.

One day, inevitably, this house will no longer have the strength to stand. It will crumble and it will fall, and it will take with it your teacups, and your music, and your fancy vase with its old, dried flowers, but it will never steal away this moment. All too soon the day will come when someone stumbles upon the ruins of this home, when the tap has run dry and the frame is brittle as an elder tree, and beneath the garden, between the roots, they might just find each of you forever in each other’s reach. After all…

this house is full of ghosts.

#drabbles #sun x reader #moon x reader #fnaf moon #fnaf sun #sundrop #moondrop #DCA Fandom #it's been so long i've forgotten what to tag these with lmao #hope you guys enjoy this one!#it's short n sweet <3

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rbvcdeluxe · 7 months ago

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Cinderella's Castle Masterpost

So, I thought I could make a CC masterpost for all the Starkid fans excited for the show. This post will be edited as we get new content by Starkid either it’s a livestream, a photo, YT video or anything else. If you see something missing, a wrong link or something you would like to see that isn't here, feel free to tell me so it can be added or fixed.

And again, this post will have a lot of constant edits for reasons like: New content, things added, fixes, and other stuff.

ALL UNDER THE CUT

First posts / announcing posts for CC's KICKSTARTER campaign on April 6th

March 23 — Instagram, Tumblr, Facebook

March 25 — Instagram, Tumblr, Facebook

March 27 — Instagram, Tumblr, Facebook

March 29 — Instagram, Tumblr, Facebook

March 30 — Tumblr, Youtube

April 2 — Facebook

April 4 — Instagram, Tumblr, Facebook

April 6 — Instagram, Tumblr, Facebook, Youtube (And another Tumblr one)

Cast reveal photos and videos

Bryce Charles as Ella Ashmore / $25K unlocked - Instagram, Tumblr, Youtube

Angela Giarratana as The Stepmother / $50K unlocked - Instagram, Tumblr, Youtube

James Tolbert as The Prince / $74K unlocked - Instagram, Tumblr, Youtube

Curt Mega as Tadius / $100K unlocked - Instagram, Tumblr, Youtube

Kim Whalen as The Fairy Queen of Sweet Dreams / $125K unlocked - Instagram, Tumblr, Youtube

Lauren Lopez as Rancilda / $150K unlocked - Instagram, Tumblr, Youtube

Mariah Rose Faith Casillas as Putrice / $175K unlocked - Instagram, Tumblr, Youtube

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April 6th. Other links about the livestream: A B C D

April 13th. Other links: A A2 B

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Cinderella's Castle Demo Songs (from April 13th - Exploring The Lands That Are Livestream)

Timestamps:

Castle On A Hill: 10:43

Cursed Crazy: 33:46

Step On Your Grave: 1:19:54

Facade: 1:34:36

Last For Ever: 1:53:23

Neon: 2:22:17

Ever After: 2:34:56

Trappings of Starlight: 2:54:34

Ash To Ash: 2:59:41

4K demos: Castle On A Hill - Cursed Crazy

Too lazy to keep updating this. will do later lmao

#also. you guys can totally tell me if you want me to add something else #cinderella’s castle #masterpost #team starkid #starkid

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sophiethewitch1 · 16 days ago

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hey sophie! ive been listening to the www playlist a lot lately and was wondering if you could bust out ur playlist thesis? however much ur cool with sharing!! would love to hear your thoughts hehe. also, are there any bonus tracks we can listen to from the big og playlist?

i want you to know that for this entire post I was doing this

absolutely constantly. raving maniac mode. under the cut so i don't make everyone hate me for all the bullshit im about to spout and like some cough cough future hints. No actual spoilers but like... vibes and things that are obvious. Me telling you there will be yandere things in the yandere story, shock horror. These songs are the trailers/animatics in my head so uh. It's kind of hard to explain them without that (which is why I literally CAN NOT) for a couple of them lol. Oh!!!! And I've also got some other songs that really should've made the playlist but I just didn't add for some reason. Laziness or whatever. One's literally called birthday party. I uh. Don't think I need to explain that one.

But also I just like, whatever who cares if some of the songs on there aren't ones I 100% associate w what we want so here's the full playlist live your dreams. Most of them I associate at least a moderate bit. BUt under here is the fucking essay I've somehow written lmao I lost my mind somewhere along the way.

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WHAT YOU GONNA DO??? By Bastille and Graham Coxon is first on the playlist for a reason. It's sort of like, similar to the rocking feeling of what being cramped on the subway was like to me? And it's a song that's pretty obvious with the lyric comparisons. The 'you' in the title IS you! What are you gonna do? You have us (Gotham, the world, the batfam) listening, so what are you gonna do with it? And it matches readers future response quite well I think. And it feels like something that a superhero would have in the background, which certainly helps.

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Keep You Mine by NOTD and Shy Martin was actually just one of those songs you were listening to on loop at the time you were doing a thing, and then became intrinsically linked to that thing, but it still represent WWW quite well! It matches more so the later acts of the story, where you and the boys will have some issues staying together with eachother. But it's still poppy and romantic in tone!! Because you guys and your relationship, despite everything that'll happen, you want to keep each other y'know? And reader's like possessive and jealous in a cutesy way to offset how absolutely psycho bonkers the guys will end up being... But I also feel this too matches the superhero vibes? Somehow? The fight on of it... You must keep fighting, for each other!

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Tinfoil Hat by Dolo Tonight is like,,, about the frustration of being a Gotham resident I suppose (or anyone living in late stage capitalism with a mental illness) but especially you! Since you totally fucking got ripped from one universe to another and um, i don't know if you've noticed this yet but... there seems to be some issues with readers idols??? Seeing as you love the waynes but hate the bats. Please duck under the comically large chekov's gun and come this way. Also because reader for a little bit does geniunely think she's crazy and need to go to the psychiatrist but obviously thinks that is the worst idea ever because the gotham mental health system is really just prison. and it's a prison with her nemesis. not the place to be.

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Live, Learn, Die by Lavin is pretty obvious too, but in a much sadder tone. Reader as a character has at this point come to a conclusion that I'm sure many of us do in their lifetime (I know I have at least) which is that... things suck, and then you die. She doesn't want to die, but she doesn't really particularly actually want to live, she's just so damn focused on survival she's never actually even had the time to realise that. This other version of her who didn't have 24/7 adrenaline running in her body was obviously significantly worse off and seemed... off. If everyone you love is dead, is surviving for them even worth it anymore? She's still learning, so maybe she'll learn something different this time...?

Next song is a spoiler so skipping it <3! Lmfao interpret this however you'd like

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Thelma + Louise By Bastille is a song about a scene that I am so damn eager to get to which unfortunately is in act fucking 3 which is my favourite but like. Suffering I am suffering :) Anyways I can't tell you too much about it because of but I will say that it's a road trip between you, Dick and Jason! It's very fun and absolutely no complex feelings are involved whatsoever. You meet Lucy the giant elephant (actual roadside attraction in new jersey lmfao). This song is Dick Grayson coded in like... mostly sunny vibes. Like the warmth the song gives, that's how you make him feel.

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Temper Temper by LimeCordiale is a song that is about... you and Jason... and his poor poor habit of enabling you. 'Me and my girlfriend that I let do whatever she wants to me because shes hot' core. Bruce sees the two of you in the landing and gets immediate d10 psychic damage it's impressive. Anyways if anyone ever angers you (which I'm sure they never ever ever will :)) he's probably going to be there to back you up, because 'you know that that's what I like'. That video of you punching George is private time material frankly.

Next song is ALSO a spoiler which um. cough. 😳 let's not look too deep at this one actually folks

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Werewolf By Quinn XCII. Ah yes, the yan in the yandere story. This one is ALSO about Jason but this is the most Jason coded song. I will say that this also features in the story at some point (you, Molly, Dick, Jason and some very poor suffering grunts). It's the lyrics. I've always said Jason is a loyal dog and I stand by it till the day I die. He also feels like a feral animal that constantly kind of wants to swallow you whole which is romantic I think <3 <4 But geniunely put that thing on a leash for the betterment of mankind. I mean you make them all feel like starving monsters Jason's the only one who has any self awareness unfortunately, which is why this is HIS song. Also because he'd be a werewolf, case close your honour. Dick'd be a vampire it's LITERALLY canon. WHat was I talking about

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Ghosts by The 1975 got on here because I heard the first line and went 'hA!' because it really do just be 'You... You always seem to get what you want.' and also the "You seem to get better" is fuckin. IT'S SO GOOD MAN! That's EXACTLY what the guys are thinking when the next few chapters start coming around which. Really were supposed to be out by now whoopsie but yknow like. Anyways you ARE gonna start working on things!!! You're gonna talk to Molly!! You're gonna get more flowers!!!!! God damn it, you're gonna get what you want!!!!!!!!!!!!! (at least this first bit oop)

Next two are spoilers again, but this time you absolutely won't be able to guess because they're both animatic inside my own brain so take that! And I mean you REALLY won't be able to guess they're great scenes can't wait for you to see em. I can't wait either tbh why am I writing these stupid filler scenes lmao. why can't i skip to the end of my 200k enemies to lovers slowburn just to write the final chapter (did this to herself)

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Together We're Screwed By Robotaki and Nevve is a song I've loved for ageeessssss bro because there is (to me at least) nothing more romantic than being a terrible horrible unredeemable person with the one you love. Hand in unlovable hand baby! That's like... the fic I guess, together the five of you are screwed. And it just matches that same earlier mentioned vibe of like... poppy kinda techno-y kinda superhero-y kinda loser-y. Listen to me, listen to me... This fic is about many things and I'll say it again and again and everytime it's true in a different way and this time it's true in this way. This fic is about being about being a loser and bad at everything and still managing to get what you want. Actually that might be what this fic is actually actually centrally about. 'We're both a mess, we just can't get it right. Together we're screwed. I'm looking at you, I'm looking at you~' like, be a mess!

And now we're at the exciting new

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Birthday Party by AJR is like the equivalent of what would be a canon event for this au. Your birthday HAS to happen and it HAS to suck ass and all your family HAS to die on this day for some reason or another.. Some people told me when they had their birthday they thought of my fic and I was like damn bro who hurt you? /jk but really reader's birthday is kind of a reflection of... you know, everyone has at least one of those sucky as birthdays. And you've gotta paste on a brave face and pretend you don't want to cry and that it's all not too much and that for some reason you're disappointed and that the trudging march of time scares the shit out of you and that you haven't achieved anything this year and- You know? 'And that's just how it is.'

Okay I've run out of videos I can add but there are only two songs left so!! Ima finish this anyways.

Inertia by AJR is a song where again the lyrics speak for itself. Before you woke up in a slightly different world where everything was just slightly different, your life was stagnant. You were stuck, absolutely. Despite trying to break out of poverty, out of your circumstances, fortune simply wouldn't smile on you. And again, that other you seemed to reflect that stagnancy. She wasn't going anywhere either. In my head I see the two of you dancing like marionettes alone on your stages alone, unable to fight against the strings pulling at you. It's only till you start dancing with eachother, till the strings start tangling that you start getting any freedom. That you're able to start getting anywhere. Maybe being set off course was the best thing that could happen to both of you?

Something Just Like This by The Chainsmokers and Coldplay is a song that both me and my mum love, and also one very fitting to the superhero theme! And it's how ALL the guys feel about you!! You're really just a civilian, you're not that important in the grand scheme of things... But why do you like them? It's for such stupid reasons. It's because of the way Damian reads romance novels and Jason never properly tapes his nuckles and Dick has a stupid bleeding heart so he keeps taking too many hours at the Bludhaven pet rescue and Tim always fucking sends you the new york wordle, connections, crossword and spelling bee first thing in the morning and then asks if you want any help when he knows you want to do it on your own and- Every single moment of you is done with such love and sincerity and heart and they can't help but fall in love again and again and again. 'I want something just like this' is a phrase they'll say to you and you'll say to them too.

#sophie speaks #series:www #soltoniasyrup #anyways I lost my fucking mind but hip hip hooray #blacked out and did this #could i have been writing next chapter yes? did i? no #but i think its also good to have moments like this to remind yourself why you like to do this so damn much #my little dudes #yes you are one of my little dudes #im picking you up like youre a doll. the pov is like from toy story

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rigelmejo · 4 months ago

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'lazy' study activities

Yes, this is an extension of the big monster 'study plan' post I am working on. The big study plan post will link more tools and articles to use, this is more like a short suggestion of study activities you could try.

(Scroll to the bottom to see the SUMMARY)

If you already watch cdramas, continue to do so. Download Google Translate app on your phone (and Pleco, and any other translation app you like). Watch cdramas that have hard chinese subtitles on the videos - many youtube cdramas already are like this (you see chinese hanzi subs on the videos). Keep watching with english subtitles on too. Every 3-5 minutes, look up a word or phrase you're curious about. Google Translate allows you to type in words or phrases with pinyin, so if you see 小心 or 你放心 or 他死了 in the cdrama, you can type what you hear 'xiaoxin' or 'nifangxin' or 'tasile' to get the translation. If you don't hear the pronunciation clearly, or don't know pinyin letters-pronunciation well, then you can also do writing input and write in the hanzi you see on the hard chinese subtitles. I'm left handed and didn't know the stroke order as a beginner, my handwriting is usually incomprehensible to writing recognition software, and google translate still usually figured out which hanzi I was writing. So yeah, just watch what you'd normally watch and look up a word/phrase every 3-5 minutes as curious. This activity will ADD up. In a few months you might know a lot of words. If you are a beginner, maybe start with this activity and just keep doing it for a while. Eventually you'll start to pick up dozens of words, maybe even a few hundred. You'll probably eventually get curious about what grammar you're looking at, how to parse the sentences, how to remember hanzi better, and you can use that curiosity as motivation to push you to do some of the more 'intensive' study activities like learning about hanzi and grammar.

Not the laziest activity, because it does require reading an education material: but all you have to do is read it. You don't need to memorize, or study intensely, just read leisurely through it once. Read this dong-chinese pinyin guide, when you have decided you're a bit annoyed you can't figure out the pinyin to type the words you're trying to look up in cdramas. Or read it when you're eager to try typing with a chinese phone keyboard so you can type in hanzi instead of using writing-input, since typing the correct hanzi will make looking up new words easier. (To type hanzi you just type the pinyin, then pick from the hanzi suggested). Reading through this will take as little as 15 minutes, to as long as several days if you're just reading 1 section of it a day in 3-5 minutes. If you enjoy re-reading and reviewing, you might spend a few hours total on this pinyin guide. But if you're lazy? Just read through once, and know you can always come reference it again later if you're confused and want to clarify something. If you plan to learn zhuyin, you can check out the zhuyin guide at the top-right tab of the linked page.

Also not the laziest activity on here, as it will require reading educational material for 20 minutes to 2 hours depending on your reading speed and if you split it into different days and if you personally enjoy reviewing or not. Again, just read through these once when you have a few free minutes to spare. If you're a beginner, you'll appreciate the basic information about hanzi and how they work.

Part 1: Chinese characters in a nutshell

Part 2: Basic characters and character components

Part 3: Compound characters

Part 4: Learning and remembering compound characters

Part 5: Making sense of Chinese words

Part 6: Learning and remembering compound words

If you are a beginner and don't know much about tones, you may also want to spend 20 minutes to 2 hours on some days/weeks you have free on these informational things on tones:

Four Tones Explanation (great explanation video)

Tone Combination Practice (with some useful notes in it)

When Do Chinese Tones Change (good explanation, helpful 3rd tone explanation)

Accent Lab Mandarin Tone Pairs (I recommend this tool for listening practice, and later in your study to check on increasing your listening skills)

And finally, 2 textbook explanations of tones that I've found useful here and here.

Learning new words: if you find the pace of learning slow from just shows, are getting eager to learn more words FASTER so you can understand more? There's a few options.

There's SRS apps like Anki (or Pleco app's flashcard area), and if you enjoy flashcards or can focus on flashcards better than me, then if you do SRS apps 15-30 minutes a day the studying WILL add up. I cannot focus on such apps though, and once my focus burns out it takes me 1 hour to study 5 words... when for most people, they take 5 minutes to study 20 words or more in these apps.

If you're like me and can't focus long term on doing something like flashcards. Option 1: you can still use an SRS app like anki. Just cram 'new words/sentences' ONLY for a few days or weeks (so when you can get through as many words as other people you try to get through as many words as you can in 30 minutes to 2 hours), and when you start to feel the focus fade then switch to only review cards (and only New review cards until you've reviewed everything once). Quit reviewing when the focus is totally gone. You may finish reviewing everything, or you may not. Doesn't really matter. The initial 'new words/sentence' cards were to get an initial exposure of this means X, just like watching shows gives you that initial exposure the first time you look up an unknown word. You will 'review' these words more by seeing them in cdramas and other things, especially when you're still a beginner who needs to learn a few thousand common words. Option 2: same activity, but use a word list (or word list with sentence examples) online or printed on paper. Read through the list once over a matter of days until focus fades, then try to read through the list a second time (review) until focus is lost.

Option 3: Audio flashcards my beloved. If you REALLY do not want to look at flashcards for 15-30 minutes a day, or like me you REALLY can't focus at all on flashcards sometimes (because if 5 minutes take an hour to study like for me it's not very time effective ToT), audio lessons and audio flashcards will be your friend as a beginner. If efficiency is not your highest priority, I suggest you go to the Hoopla or Libby library apps, and looking up 'chinese lessons' or 'learn chinese' and try out some of the audiobooks and audio courses. Also go on Spotify and look up 'learn chinese' and try out some of the podcasts (I used to listen to Coffee Break Chinese), look up lessons on youtube (and things like "chinese sentences english translation"). ANY lesson that speaks chinese sentences, then speaks the english translation? Perfect, you can use it. Anything that tells you the chinese, then the english translation, is making sure you understand the chinese being used enough to start learning it. If you want to be particularly efficient with your time, you'll want to prioritize listening to audio that has MANY new chinese words per lesson. I listened to the chinese spoonfed anki audio files, chinese/english sentence audio, with new words or grammar in every sentence, but also a lot of words re-used in new sentences so i'd get some 'review' of words I'd heard before even if I only listened to new audio files until I finished. Those audio files have ~7000 sentences and probably a bit less words but still thousands. Immersive Languages (library audio lessons you can use) and Chinesepod101 would probably also have fairly information dense lessons.

Why are audio lessons and audio flashcards lazy? Well, particularly when it's just english/chinese sentence audio, you can listen to it while doing your regular daily schedule. Fit 30 minutes or even hours of listening a day, into when you're driving, commuting, walking, cleaning, cooking, grinding in video games, exercising, doing busy work you can listen to something in the background during. I tested this by doing it myself, and even if you are not paying full attention and just in-out of listening in the background, you will learn new words. So listening in the background while you play video games you would anyway? Easier, versus trying to focus on flashcards (very hard for me lol)? As far as 'intentional study' of educational materials, listening to audio lessons and audio flashcards is the easiest to do while continuing your regular daily schedule (aka not needing to carve out extra study time). The main drawback is it is very listening focused, so if you aren't working on reading skills with cdrama subtitles, graded readers, or webnovels eventually, then your reading skills will fall behind.

As an extension to the 'listening is easy to add to a daily schedule' idea: if you are an upper beginner, you can listen to learner podcasts entirely in chinese or graded reader audiobooks. If you're an intermediate learner, you can listen to audiobooks of webnovels you've read, or listen to audio dramas of stuff you've read subtitles for before, or if it's comprehensible enough for you then just listen to new audiobooks and audio dramas. You can listen to cdramas you've watched before playing in the background, or condensed audio (audio of shows with the silence cut out). Not only that, but when it comes to stuff like this, where you know SOME words but not all words? Or where you can read the words, but can't understand them when listening? Re-listen to the audio a LOT. I'm talking 10-20 times, or at least 5 times. Play chapter 1 of an audiobook on loop in the background while you clean your room, or while you level grind in a video game, or while you mull through doing a spreadsheet or lifting boxes at work (if you can work fine while listening to audio), or while you commute. You will, genuinely, notice your comprehension improving the more you re-listen even if you only paid half attention and didn't follow the plot the first few times. It is one of the easiest study activities to do, once you're at the point you can listen to audio materials. Just keep re-listening until you're bored and want to pick another, or until you feel you've understood as much as you can in that audio file (although I bet you if you've listened 5 times and think 'that's all I'll understand,' if you let yourself listen 10 times you'll be surprised how much MORE you end up understanding by then).

If you're getting ansty (as a beginner) about not understanding the grammar of the sentences you see in cdrama. Use that as motivation to spend 5 minutes to 30 minutes a day (or if you enjoy reading just read for 4 hours one day and be done) to read through some chinese grammar guides. You can either look up "basic chinese grammar" and read a few articles, or find a chinese grammar guide and just work your way through reading it. I personally suggest that, if you're bored by it or unable to focus: either JUST read the grammar point TITLES and then read more into the topics you've been seeing in cdramas that you want to learn more about. Or you just read HSK 1-4 grammar points, since they're the basics. Or you skip to the 'grammar point example' and read the examples to get a visual of what's going on. Or only look up specific grammar points as you watch cdramas, if something seems confusing.

I personally felt... it was easier in the long run, for me, to just read a whole grammar guide as a beginner. Did I understand everything? NOPE. I didn't understand like 2/3 at all. But skimming through an entire grammar guide made me aware of all the ways to expect past tense: 去过过了了以前 etc, ways to expect the future and ability and desire 会要, how to ask yes/no questions 吗 and suggestions 吧, 有没有 i have/dont have and how have can be used to express past tense things, 不 don't/not, how 的地 can make descriptive phrases (地 is like english -ly) (and how in chinese a sentence clause-的 usually goes in FRONT instead of in the middle like in english), how 得 is both 'must' and also has several grammatical functions to look out for (that I didn't get used to until I read a lot to be honest), and 着 has grammatical uses too (the first of which was it seemed similar to the english verb ending -ing to me). These were basic things, and a lot of their more particular aspects went over my head.

But knowing roughly how to pick out 'that's a verb' and 'that's probably a descriptive' and 'that's a clause' and 'that's negative' and 'that's past tense' or 'that's present or future tense' helped me start guessing the overall main idea of sentences and paragraphs WAY sooner than it otherwise would have took me. If I'd only looked up 1 grammar point occassionally... it could've taken years to recognize these basics. Instead it took a month of reading a grammar guide, then several months of seeing that grammar in cdramas and webnovels just to fully recognize what I saw. I did still look up a particular grammar point when confused, but usually I already was vaguely familiar with the grammar point to look it up (like seeing 把 in the sentence and knowing THAT is what i should look up because it's confusing me). So yeah: feel free to do it the way you prefer, as we all will have different preferences and things that work better for us. But for me, it was worth just reading 4 hours of a grammar guide in 15ish minute chunks over the course of a month.

Unfortunately the grammar guide summary i read (chinese-grammar.org) no longer exists. So I will link some options I've found, but if you find more concise and simpler grammar guides please share them! Introduction to Basic Chinese Grammar. AllSetLearning Chinese Grammar Wiki (way too long to read easily in my opinion but I used this to look up specific grammar points later in learning a Lot), Basic Patterns of Chinese Grammar: A Student's Guide to Correct Structures and Common Errors (this one is a print book but the only modern book I bought for grammar), and Wikipedia's Chinese Grammar Page (which is the grammar guide I'm currently reading through to consider as a resource - i think as far as summarized it may be one of the shorter options).

Whenever you feel ready to learn hanzi? Honestly the sky is the limit on options. If you like SRS apps like anki, Skritter is an app I've seen recommended for hanzi, I used some "chinese hanzi with mnemonics" anki decks (while I could focus lol). I personally found the easiest way for me to start was to just read through this book (which is for free as an ebook in many libraries/library apps, and can be found in free download book sites):Learning Chinese Characters: (HSK Levels 1-3) A Revolutionary New Way to Learn the 800 Most Basic Chinese Characters; Includes All Characters for the AP & HSK 1-3 Exams. I liked this book because it made up a story to help me remember meaning, pronunciation, and tone. Along with providing example words. It's only 800 hanzi, and all I did to study it was read a few pages every couple days until I finished it - it took me around 3 months to finish the book. I didn't review (though you can re-read and review if you enjoy that).

But the mnemonics really helped form that 'initial recognition' memory and so when I started reading graded readers (once I'd studied 300 hanzi in the book), the graded readers helped 'review' those new hanzi and I learned them fast. For the 1000 hanzi I learned on my own after this book, I utilized the mnemonic story strategy that this book taught, and it was fairly doable to just keep picking up hanzi by looking them up when reading, coming up with a mnemonic story in my head, then moving on. As I kept seeing hanzi again, I'd eventually remember them. (And they say it takes 12-20 times of seeing a word to remember it, so at worst that's how much I was looking up new words... sometimes only 1-2 times though).

I would suggest that if you don't use SRS apps like anki or Skritter for hanzi, use some tool with mnemonics like a hanzi book with mnemonic stories (like the one I linked or a few others that exist). And when you look up new words in cdramas, and later graded readers and webnovels, please listen to the word's pronunciation a few times. So you're getting a bit of initial recognition of the hanzi's components/visual AND the word's pronunciation. If it takes 20 times or less to learn new words, then you'll want to get that much reading AND listening exposure.

When you have some basic grammar knowledge (or if you're really tolerant of ambiguity), keep watching cdramas as you have been. But try to pause the show every 3-5 minutes and read a chinese subtitle sentence. You can use the english subtitles to try and parse the chinese word meanings, or look up keywords using your translation app, whatever you want. Since a LOT of cdramas have chinese subs, and you watch with english subs, you can utilize these dual subtitles to start practicing reading skills and practicing guessing new words from context (in this case the context is the scene, the chinese words you already know, and the english translation). Later in your studies, when you stop using english subtitles sometimes, this will have been good practice of getting used to trying to read chinese. This pausing every 3-5 minutes to try and understand a chinese sentence should not take much time, maybe adding 5-10 minutes of watch time to a cdrama episode (depending on how long you pause). So it should be fairly easy to work into your schedule.

So yeah. The big summary of all this is:

If you want to make progress at a pace most people are going to find not too slow, I suggest 1-2 hours on average of doing stuff with chinese a day. (Or more hours a day on average if you want to get through the beginner phase faster). It'll take thousands of hours to learn chinese. Your pace will be extremely slow if you do less than 1 hour with chinese a day on average.

If you already watch cdramas, then keep doing that and just start looking up words (and eventually trying to figure out some sentences) once every 3-5 minutes as curious.

Spend 5 minutes a day reading articles on chinese writing system, and pinyin, and basic grammar, for a few months. You don't need to memorize or review, just get a basic initial exposure.

Approach other educational materials that way: if and when you start more 'intensively' studying, you can just get an initial exposure to the ideas (like a hanzi book, a grammar guide, reading word or sentence lists if you like to do that). You don't need to memorize or review, you don't need to understand everything. Just get an initial impression. (If you enjoy memorizing or studying though, go wild lol)

Audio lessons and audio flashcard study materials will require no time to fit into your schedule, you can do those while you do daily activities that you can listen to audio while doing. As an intermediate learner, these can also be used the way extensive reading is used - to pick up more vocabulary, improve grammar understanding, improve comprehension speed.

New words take (lets rough estimate) 20 times of seeing to remember. So you'll be looking up new words up to that many times when watching cdramas, or later when reading, and that's okay. It'll take a while to fully solidify this new information and you can just keep watching cdramas and doing things in chinese, and the information will eventually be learned. Especially as a beginner: you'll run into the few thousand most common words CONSTANTLY, you will eventually learn them as you keep looking words up and doing stuff in chinese. You do not need to do any special scheduled review (like SRS anki cards, skritter, pleco flashcards) unless you personally enjoy doing it, or want to speed up your progress and are okay with carving 15-30 minutes of time specifically for doing that.

The process of transitioning to graded readers, cdramas with no english subs, and webnovels is it's own beast - which I can cover if you want (and will in the bigger post's step 3). But the short of it is: if you keep doing activities until you've learned around 1000 words, you should be able to start reading easy graded readers and gradually increasing their unique word count until you're reading graded readers with 1000+ unique words. (And you can start graded readers knowing only 200 words if you want! Mandarin Companion has books for beginners if like me you'd like to practice reading ASAP). At that point, you should be able to transition to easy webnovels (using Pleco Reader/Clipobard Reader, Mandarinspot.com annotation, Readibu app, or highlighting and right clicking and using google translate in a webpage) and to watching cdramas you've seen before or with simple plots in chinese only. How many words you look up, or if you look up zero, is all fine: as long as you grasp the main idea of the plot. If you look words up, and can grasp at least the main idea? Then you can watch/read as long as you look words up (and you'll learn the other detail words from context) If you can grasp the main idea without looking any words up? Then you can watch/read without looking words up (and learn new words from context). The first few months (or even year) of transitioning to webnovels and cdramas with no english subs will feel hard, even if you know all/most of the words. It's just part of adjusting to actually comprehending all the things you've studied. I suggest following Heavenly Path's Reading Guide as soon as you're ready to start trying to read - first graded reading material, then webnovels once you've learned around 1000 words.

#rant #study plan #chinese study plan #study activities #langblr #studyblr #firstly please just SKIP to the Summary at the bottom first #you know i ramble ToT #second - these activities can be applied to any language you're studying #my study plan at the moment is super similar for japanese #i listen to japanese audio flashcards while i work or drive. and then look up a word im curious about here and there while watching jdramas #or while playing japanese video games like Yakuza. that's all i really do for study of japanese rn.#sometimes i pause yakuza (or think really fast lol) and try to work out #a sentence or phrase meaning based on the japanese i know and english subtitles #but it still adds up! my little time tracker says ive been spending like 1.5 hours on japanese a day #my chinese study plan rn if youre curious: listen to audiobook or audio drama for 1-3 hours. and read for 15 minutes if i feel like it #thats it. ALL audio study is done when im working (and it plays in background) or walking or driving

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zanefan123 · 5 months ago

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I came up with an AU idea but the NU (Nicktoons Unite) discord server is probably still asleep so I'm gonna post it here first this time. I'll probably post it a bit later on the NU server (and send a link to this post for the additional info bc I'm way too lazy to write it twice and I find it hard to copypaste from Tumblr).

⚠!SPOILER WARNING FOR THE SANDY

CHEEKS MOVIE UNDER THE CUT!⚠

BB= Bikini Bottom

Probably will be seen with more quality in the NU server.

Also scene where SB dies:

The (almost) same picture with no text If you can't read my handwriting + additional info :

GHOSTBOB

○ Died during the cloning in Saving BB

○ Only ghosts and his clones can see him

○ Doesn't automatically phase through walls

CLONEBOB

○ Came to life after the mini clones mushed together

○ Doesn't have the memories of OG!Bob

Additional info (didn't fit on the list) :

• Clonebob still goes by Spongebob

• Ghostbob is called Ghost by most people that know about him (not a lot of people)

• Ghostbob can fly

• Nicktoons Unite is canon for this AU

• The Spongebob musical is (kinda) canon for this AU

• The previous 3 movies are canon to this AU

• Spongehenge is not canon for this AU

• Danny can only see Ghostbob in Ghost mode, due to this fact the nicktoons gang find out about Ghostbob (eventually)

• Ghostbob and Clonebob are friends

• Ghostbob helps Clonebob with stuff he can't do yet (including cooking)

• Clonebob has all the personality of OG!Bob but not his memories

• Ghostbob is OG!Bob but dead (That one's kinda obvious)

• Ghostbob was a bit su¡cidal when he was alive (didn't commit because he had some genuine friends)

• Due to having no previous memories, Clonebob is more childish and also has less skill than OG!Bob for some things (Cooking) but more for others (Cheeks family whistle or whatever you call it)

• Ghostbob teaches cooking lessons to Clonebob to help him get better at it

• Ghostbob also tells stories to Clonebob about personal experiences to help him keep up the lie that OG!Bob isn't dead

• Ghostbob still has social anxiety from when he was alive

• Ghostbob always tries to reassure Clonebob when he's anxious about something

• Clonebob is kinda insecure about being only a replica

• Clonebob has also gained a lot of social anxiety from how most of the bikini bottomites treat him

• Due to the social anxiety Clonebob is just as bad as OG!Bob at driving

• Clonebob tries to act the opposite of what most people in BB describe him as (annoying) and is mostly really quiet, unless Ghostbob talks him into making small talk

• Everyone in BB started liking Clonebob much more than OG!Bob and they canceled National no Spongebob day (Ghostbob kinda broke down in private after that)

• Ghostbob is mostly overprotective of Clonebob

• Ghostbob can appear on cameras so any species with a PAK or a similar technology attached to their seeing holes can also see him

I'll add more later if I think of something additional for the AU.

• PlankBob (Plankton x SpongeBob) is canon in this au

• But the Bobs are still ace (asexual) like in the show canon

•The Bobs are not aro (aromantic) tho

The au name is "The Clone Chronicles".

#sbsp spoilers #sbsp fanart #sbsp au #sbsp #nicktoons unite #nicktoons #(mostly sbsp)#my au #spongebob squarepants au #spongebob squarepants #spongebob

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fatherrussia-69 · 9 months ago

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toonylooons · 3 months ago

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saviour carl stuff :33

INFO DUMP WARNINNNG

i have more than this buttt im too lazy to get my sketchbook to get morr photos.

Anyways im about to infodump about this So fair warning something something

Okay so HERES a fanfiction i started and didnt finish cuz i cant write dialogue LOL AND HERE IS A WORK IN PROGRESS PLAYLIST....

anyways, the rest of this is gonna be so unorganised because i cant think like a normal person

I SEE NEGAN AND CARLS RELATIONSHIP IN THIS UNIVERSE TO BE SUPER FATHER-SON-Y of course its not gonna be perfect and its probably unhealthy to a ton of degrees but it is negan so u cant rlly expect all that much...

I think carl ends up clinging to negan after negan finds him because he is a scared 14 year old boy who basically just got out of a terrible situation emm :P yeah

also basically if u dont wanna read the fanfiction i linked umm the alternate universe starts at the destruction of the prison and carl gets split up from his family and stuff, and everyone and everything LOL and then he ends up with the claimers which obviously sucks ass he is with them for a few months (and it progressively gets worse as opposed to it immediately being awful and abusive or whatever) and then negan finds him blah blaj blah

ALSO HE LOST HIS EYES WHILE WITH THE CLAIMERS

I see carl in this universe being more like edgy and teenage angsty, he is almost """"sheltered"""" by the sanctuary and its very obvious negans personality has effected his own

ummm another thing is that carl is at all the pickups with the saviours aswell as the lineups because negan uses him as like a "wow even our weak members(children) are screwed the flip up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (because of his eye LOL)

Thanks random person on fanfciton.net for giving me this idea btw

IGNORE HOW IN SOME OF THE DRAWINGS HE STILL HAS HIS EYE i was being lazy about the eyepathc LOL

CARL also gets really desensitized to death and stuff, and he ends up doing some awful shit aswell

Carl is gay in this universe but he doesnt know this he thinks he likes girls LOL

when carl is at the alexandria pickup, he recognises his dad and daryl but neither of them recognise him because of how different he looks since having been 13 (the eyepatch and longer hair, also just doesnt have the same sort of aura about him if that makes sense)

he doesnt wear ricks hat at the lineups or the pickups, usually its in his backpack. HE ACTUALLY THINKS RICK AND EVERYONE IS DEAD and negan would def put it into carls head if he found out (about rick being carls dad) that rick abandoned him or soemthing

Yeah okay thanks for listening there is definitely more i am gonna add onto this later emmm thanks thaks thanks

#information dump

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rurustarhall · 9 days ago

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Hey! :D I will be researching my thoughts about Shidou and information I have deducted from his videos. At the end if you are lazy to look through my comments is a walk through of what I think happened that has labelled where the information is coming from with numbers!! The parts of his music videos etc where I look into that are bolded if you are looking for a specific part.

If you want the link of the google doc instead, message me!

Let’s begin!

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I believe what Shidou did was more morally wrong than anything. And this is me beating those allegations that he stole the organs even though it’s really useless for me to do so since it’s basically already confirmed he didn’t but those people made me a little angry.

Voice drama trial one : “Molech”-

— (1) To start off, the name of the voice drama “Molech” means “a Canaanite (characteristics, practices etc in the Bible)deity associated in the Bible that deals with child sacrifice.

In the beginning it’s clear that he’s very fatherly to Es and cares a lot about them, mentioning several times how his heart goes out to such a young worker like him, telling him to do his best and that it must take a big emotional toll on him. He is also very smart with medical stuff, saying that he knows Milgram isn’t a dream because he can tell his heartbeat is normal and later on when Es kicks him in the shin , he gives a detailed explanation about feeling pain. He’s also really patient with Es’s childishness which to me makes an amazing father. I LOVE YOU SHIDOUUUUUU

(this is probably really useless information but I think it adds to his character a lot. It’s clear he loves kids in a good way. When he corrects Es for his mistake after kicking him he says that it was so radiant of him and a good reminder that Es is truly a child that makes mistakes that it makes him want to just turn away and it makes him very happy. In fact in his birthday lines he says that he believes it’s good to have a good connection with the future aka the younger generations even if they aren’t your kids. He says you can leave something behind for them as you live , so they can feel there is a significance of being born and it’s called hope. And he laughs when Kazui says he will do something for the bad kids here (i am assuming Kotoko and Fuuta etc or all of them) and Shidou laughs, saying to please protect them.)

He’s a very calm person too , unlike the others who were blabbering about random things and giving Es a headache, Shidou patiently waited for questions. It’s only when he says he doesn’t see the bad of Milgram is when he starts explaining and things go downhill.

The reason he thinks Milgram is good is because it’s the best way to atone for this murder and wants the death penalty. (2) He says he has killed people, lots, and for selfish reasons too. (3) “I am a fine specimen of what a genuine murder ought to be.” what he quotes. Is he saying that because he has killed through surgery and his transplants or he had actually murdered through ways other than that? I am leaning towards the surgery.

(4) This is definitely probably just me , but I like how he is so persistent in telling Es to not forgive him. Unlike the other interrogations which have more information perhaps, he hasn’t mentioned his family once yet. He goes bluntly into saying he’s a murder that has killed many to convince Es better, not trying to get his sympathy.

Anddddd if i haven't forgotten anything else, I will be moving to his music video.

Trial 1 Throwdown :

-part one: the idea of “Throw Down” (all of this is (5))

I think the reason the music video is called throw down is because it’s supposed to throw you off and not focus on anything other than his crime. Like when he says “throw down” and right after are sentences like “connecting you with me” or “someone’s value can’t be the same as another”

The words he says after throwdown are his own personal thoughts in a way. He doesn’t want you to care about his own thoughts about him saving his family, he wants you to only focus on the fact he was a murder.

To me, the word ‘throwdown’ sounds like he’s telling you to “throwdown” and not pay attention to what comes after ,

like: “throw down ____(something to do with his thoughts)______”.

The words "Throw Down" are there to throw you off in a way and stop listening to his own opinions and reason for his “murder” to throw you off and be like “oh , he killed someone, guilty! Easy as that!” Like he said in his voice drama, he just wants the death penalty and that’s it.

.”Throw down” throw down what? Your own thoughts and I think the entire reason for the music video throwdown itself is for you to focus on his murder part , convincing you to vote him guilty because he wants to be guilty.

In (3) I believe this was just a bad translation or he was actually convinced he is a murder for what he has done. This can also point to this.

Throw Down tells you about his murder, that’s it, nothing about his family, any of that extra information, only the failed surgery to keep it simple for you to vote him guilty.

All of this can go back to number four (4) at the end of my explanation of his first voice drama

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– part two: yup! We are not done. Now, we will go more in depth of the video.

So , at the beginning he is seen talking to patients which are clearly upset at him. A lot of people think he did illegal surgery or something to get the organs for the transplants. I think that would be impossible and beats the entire purpose of these scenes with him and these angry/sad people. In fact, it’s actually confirmed in Trial 2 that he begged people hesitant to do so , asking them if he could use their family’s organs since they were brain dead.

What I think happened is that Shidou approached these people and convinced them to give up on their brain dead family. Because, if a brain dead person is declared as brain dead a doctor, if given permission by the person’s kin/family can go ahead and use their organs for donation. Which obviously could have made them sad/angry but they agreed.

So, all he did was legal, he didn’t steal organs.

This is me going a little forward but in his second voice drama he said that he uses the same words Es said like “it’s better to save one then none’ in Throw down there are many lines similar like this. Like in 1:31 he says “hey do you remember what it feels like? The feeling to take away to give”

In Throwdown, as a metaphor of him being a surgeon; he is seen as a florist cutting flowers aka “organs” and him placing them in this skeleton thing as a reference of surgery.

(6)Next part at 1:47, it’s where he eats a pomegranate with a fork (I don’t know how I can defend you about this one Shidou)

“Here and here is such a waste” talking about brain dead people? And then it’s added on with “there is no meaning to it , yes and no, it doesn’t matter. It’s all how you say it” I think the last line where it says “it’s how you say it” reflects on how it’s the patient’s kin’s choice. Even if they should be “put to use” it’s based on the family’s decision if they want to make that choice.

If you make a connection maybe, a pomegranate kinda looks like a heart but anyways:

Now the pomegranate. Pomegranates symbolise fertility and life. Hope and everlasting life. In the video the fruit looks grey and rotten already. He eats it as if saying “yeah this is useless” Other than that I can’t get myself to deduce more. But, I don’t think that a pomegranate represents an organ but something else. There is also a glass of wine too?

(7)Nextttttttt, the cards and papers!!!!! The cards are quite important, they obviously show the “acceptance” for the organs right? Later on you see when he turns into florist Shidou the cards flying in the air become scan tags for the flowers aka organs. And the part where papers are on the floor, they also look like signed papers and stuff for the surgery to happen etc and it’s mixed along with the flower scan tags.

What I like about throwdown is that it all seems to be in order. Him talking to the family for permission and then the part where he is cutting flowers (the surgery) then him sitting with all of the papers of approval which is a little foreshadowing. (8) Why? We will get back to that.

Last!!!! He is seen with the skeleton flower person he was operating on the entire time. It’s obvious it failed with how it fell. You see him take the card and tear it seeing how it is useless.. (He looked so sad to see it fail and so shakened, It made me wanna cry.)

Back to (8), I think that part is where after all of the surgery , the path of paper, cards and scissors leading him to the area he was sitting shows all of the things he did but it all came to no avail which leads us to the lyrics “now slowly close your eye and put your regret on display”

Back to (1), some people say that the reason why it’s called child sacrifice is because the brain patients he got permission from the guardians/family were also kids? I don’t know if that would work on his grown wife but that is where more theories come from I don’t wanna explain.

That’s it for Throw down!

Voice drama trail 2 “Aesculapius”: (his voice is so asmr here)

(9) Again, I am going to start off with the name of the voice drama “Aesculapius”. What does this mean? Well the correct question should be: who is that? Aesculapius is the name of a Greek god. He is the god of medicine and doctors. (all of this is 9) we will get back to this so expect to see another (9) in Triage.

He starts off by bluntly stating all of the injuries that Kotoko has caused to Mahiru and Fuuta, also about their mental health. He really does care about them and the rest that got impacted from the trial and votes.

This opinion on Milgram has changed. He wants to put a stop to Milgram but not because he doesn’t want the death penalty anymore. He still wants to die for his sins , but he wants to put the end of Milgram to stop others from becoming hurt further, or even cause more deaths as if he hasn’t seen enough. And he isn’t only talking about the prisoners, he wants the best for Es too. At 1:14 he quotes “I think we should put an end to Milgram as a whole. Both for our sake and for yours.”. He’s saddened when Es says he can’t stop it either, and even more sad that Es is basically in the same situation as them, trapped.

Es tells Shidou that he has gained some light and has become softer from the last trial. I think it’s because he’s questioning his will to live. He’s starting to see more of a purpose, to save the others, but he is still being dragged down at the same time because he believes he is truly guilty.(10) Which, him seeing a will to live is good but what I think is bad is the fact he must believe the only good reason he is to live is to save others and no more.

I think it’s also obvious that he didn’t do the surgery illegally for The part around 5 minutes in while they were talking. It was also part of his line of work etc. Es agrees that his decision should be correct and quotes ,(11) “In exchange for the life of someone who’s only remaining choice is to await death, you can still save someone who still has the chance to live. In that case, you shouldn’t even have to think twice.”

But, Shidou replies with “I thought so too… arrogant as I was.”

“Are you saying you don’t agree with that anymore?” - Es

“Yes, that’s right…” - Shidou

What does this mean? I believe that at the beginning he didn’t have that much of a care about the other person’s family. He also agreed that it was the obvious best decision. But, when his family ended up dying with the transplant he understood how it felt to lose family, where his quilt began to root. (12) Where he understood that the family could not forgive him for that because not only was the surgery a failure, his words about saving more with the cost of one were wrong. He states that he desperately tried to get the family of the brain dead person (another reason why I doubt he stole organs or something), he also gave the same reasons Es just stated with again quote, “In order to save someone you don’t know, please let me kill your family member”. (13) Another thing that can add onto (12) is right after he said “It doesn’t take much thinking to realise how cruel that is, but… I didn’t realise that until the end.” This can also point back to (2) where he said he killed for selfish reasons too. The selfish reasons being to save his own family.

Next, we will talk about 6:20, family. I wanna begin with saying, Shidou has helped change my perspective on family a lot. Es replies to Shidou after that, “isn’t that just a placebo? I would think family ties would play no role in that context.” He is saying that because he believes that even if they are family, it doesn’t matter. The same effect still applies and the scenario even if they are family or not.

“Would you feel the same if that was your family?”

“…” (I had the same reaction, Es.)

With this information, it makes it even more clear how much he cares about his family, other families and after his family died he cared and understood how important family really is. This can explain why he acts so fatherly and caring towards Es and the young folks in the prison.

After Es says he doesn’t know about his family, Shidou apologises for how Es must feel but Es says he doesn’t care. He says he doesn’t see his judgement changing even if it was his own family. (I am pretty happy about this since Es reflects us in a way and I think that’s a way of Milgram saying they know we will still forgive him.)

He also goes along saying , “even if my family was in Milgram, I will continue my judgement”

Shidou replies with “there is no way.”

Even with such a small phrase I can deduce a lot with that. That can go back to what Shidou said at (12) and (13) , he felt the same way before he killed people through transplant and not saving his family, but after he felt that guilt. He understands Es can say that easily but if that did happen he would take that back.

To add more on why he thinks family is so special he says that there is even a law that you can’t hide criminals or their evidence but if it is your family member then it’s not illegal. He then says, “no matter if it’s according to the law or any context, it’s only normal to help each other in a family.” This can strengthen what I said previously in (10) and add onto many more things I have said.

Later on he says at 8:43 “Unlike you, I can no longer claim I am doing my work for a good reason, I have lost the right to.” What does this mean? Well, first, what does he mean that he isn’t doing it for a good reason? Let’s head back to (11) (12) and (13), remember how his guilt came after doing those surgeries? I think he means that before he was just doing his work normally to save people but after his family got into whatever situation he no longer cared about anything else and focused on only saving his family but they died anyways so basically he wasn’t doing very well with that so he believes he has loss the right as a doctor. If you can get a grasp of what I am trying to say. After saying that he says “you will probably find out about that after you have watched the extracted footage.” And what was in the footage? His family. Which can support what he previously said and my analysis on it.

“I have killed for scientific reasons as well.” 9:14, I am a bit lost at this part. Butttt I have an idea. Remember the pomegranate scene I talked about in (6)? Also when he is eating with a fork for some reason and drinking wine? I think this can go back to that but I doubt he ate an organ or something.

Now his little rant at 9:31 (I always cry when watching his part) (I am listening to after pain at 3 am while writing this, my face is wet with tears)

“The feeling of “I don’t want to be forgiven” , inside me remains the same as before”.

“I don’t believe Milgram is in the right but!.... There is no better place to atone for my crimes!”

“But as long as Milgram continues in this direction… we won’t be able to save those who get injured if I am not forgiven!” sigh. AHHHHHHHHHHH

“I need to be punished…but I also need to stay alive, or young lives will be lost. I don’t know what to wish for anymore.”

“I am starting to think I want to live. That I want to be forgiven. Despite being so riddled with sins.”

OKAY. Wow, that is a lot of words there Shidou! What are they talking about? Let’s go back more. (10) Remember where we said that he feels like he can only continue living as a doctor and help others? He doesn’t want to see more die either, especially since he clearly worries for all of these young adults and Amane. But as much as he wants to help and be there to heal, he wants to die. He doesn’t think Milgram is right because of the others but if he was put in the scenario where he was the only one he would agree with it because he wants to die. All of these intertwining wishes that are exact opposites are making him all confused and stressed on what to do. Should he think about what he has done in the past or focus on the present and save more to stop even more guilt?

After that Es says a really good meaningful paragraph to him but it’s not something I would add here but will definitely use for another analysis!

But I will include the last part at 12;06, Es is saying that if he really believes he is guilty and using his life as compensation then there is so reason to stay alive that would hold up. And what if his current reason to be alive? Saving the current people in his life, the prisoners. He is saying that if he really wants to discard himself, his reasons to live are practically useless. But then later on he says “don’t face them with a life you are so willing to throw away.” Is he referring to the prisoners or the family of the patients? I am leaning towards prisoners with the context I have but at the same time it’s 5:33 am and I am on an empty stomach and dehydrated.

This isn’t that important because I have brought it up like 1000 times but it’s because I love the fact he loves and cares for the younger generation that he talks about liking kids (platonically) a bunch of times in his voice drama. But I love the part where he says he has found himself hated by the kids left and right even though he really wants to interact and do like them (platonically).

And at the end where Es says “thank you for saving Mahiru and Fuuta” and that they are glad he is in Milgram and made Shidou cry it makes me cry too. Because if you think about it, Shidou knows Es hates him and is okay with that but finally hearing nice words from the kid he worries about probably made all of his stress go and form into tears. Also, with being told Es’s small paragraph and rant at the end probably made him see something. I think with the help of that in Trial three he might want to live more. And “thank you for saving Fuuta and Mahiru” he probably felt really shocked but happy.

Sigh, TRIAGE TIMEEEEEEEE

Trial 2 - Triage :

Again, we are gonna start with the meaning of Triage because the milgram writers are amazing at choosing words and I wish to meet them in real life. Triage is a medical term where it’s some sort of urgency where they are mainly focused on having as many survivors as possible which could explain his past motive where he was only focused on saving his family. Unlike Throw Down where it talks about and is more focused on his victims, in Triage it talks more about what he lost. Triage is him trying to come to terms about his own choices, his guilt and everything. It’s him thinking, what should I do now? With mention of most things said in his second voice drama.

Doors / Gates - I am going to focus more on the two doors you see at 0:22. Throughout Triage you can notice you see the doors a lot. The design of the gate in the kitchen, when he is sitting down on the floor for that one scene you see the shadow of it, you just see it the entire time.

In the beginning you see two sides of the door , one where it looks like the past and the one facing us looks more “up to date!”. You also hear a voice mail, well it sounds more like a voicemail then a call since it says “This is Mr Kirisaki, I am busy” something along those lines. There is another scene where the family is in the kitchen and you can see the pattern of the gates there. When he is on the floor and the ghost of his family is walking around you also see the shadow of the gate there.

(14)I think these gates show one side which is his mindset and the other side is his past , him looking back before all of this chaos. -MEANING OF TRIAGE? - Hence why I say Triage shows more what he lost and isn’t trying to convince you that he is guilty because it’s his own reflection and Throw down shows the lives of what others lost and his murder to convince you to vote him guilty and that is why Throw Down is first before Triage. But, Triage shows you what HE lost. But now Shidou is seeing a new light, he still wants to convince you to vote him guilty but is refraining for the prisoner’s sake so that is why Triage sets a very different mood.

You can see the “mindset” of Shidou aka like current Shidou looking afar at his family’s memories , with the gates blocking him.

Right after he is seen walking past a bunch of flowers on these little, well I say are graves of the people he has “killed” and as he walks past the flowers on them wither. And if we remember the flowers in Throw Down represent the organs of others.

But why are they the walls of his house? I think it’s because those organs are the only thing helping save the family together, therefore being the walls of the house, without them they would have died faster. (15) Well I heard a theory that the kids died faster then the mom but we will get into that later.

Why does he say he is indispensable? For this, we are going to look back at the voice dramas. Him saying he is indispensable means that he is important, not in a narcissistic way. He really is important in this prison.

In (9) we see that the meaning of his voice drama’s name is the name of the god of medicine. In a way, to the prisoners he is like a god. The voice drama talks about him being the only one that can save situations he is in, not only in the prison but when he was out of the prison too. When his family was in need of medical attention, it was his duty to save them. Now that the prisoners need medical attention, again he is the only one. Hence why at this point he’s like a god. But what saddens me more is that he is in the same situation as before in a sense, before the time he tried to save people he ended up feeling guilty and now that he is doing it again he must be terrified to not save them or else he will feel that same guilt.

He is seen giving one of his ADORABLE sons a card. I think it was supposed to be a promise like, “don’t worry, dad will make sure you are okay”

He also says those cards were payback for his unpleasant taking, aka the organs. That his family dying was payback for how he took organs without thinking about the family’s feelings much.

Right after he says “In that case , allow me to make amends.” I think this is him saying, okay yeah what I did was morally really bad but I am going to try and now that I have learned from my mistake, think in a better way I am going to try and redeem myself and take care of these prisoners.” “To extract that fang��--Kotoko’s actions. But even despite saying this, why at this scene is he seen holding onto a hospital bed? Still distressed? (16) Staring with wide eyes forward. I think it’s because while making this choice he is also leaving behind his family now in a way. He wishes for punishment not only for the family of those he killed to be brought into justice but he probably knows his family wouldn’t like the idea of begging these families. Him finally dying doesn’t only bring the families to justice but in a way to say sorry to his family for what he did morally wrong. But now he is against the idea of dying right now.

1:15. Sigh. This is the scene where there are two Shidous, the one we see throughout this music video and a new one! You can’t see much from a back view but you can deduce a bit that it looks like hospital scrubs and a doctor coat. If we go back to (16) we can use that same thing to apply to here. Throughout the music video before this point he seemed okay with living for now and making this new choice, but this is where it changes and he is like “what am I thinking about? This is a wrong decision." This is like the changing point of the music video where the music gets louder like his thoughts on dying again.

This can represent how he is always going back and forth with his choices right now.

But at the end he decides he will live to protect the current people in his life. But while he is saying this, well singing you see a flashback to the beginning of the beginning of the song with his family waving to him, pointing back to (16) and some references to Throwdown like the dying plant. This is him still thinking back to his original idea of staying alive before he had the change of wanting to die again halfway through the video and reflecting on Throw down. At 2:27, you can see the doors are now closed. Emphasising my idea in (14).

Last thingggg back to (15) people say this because even if his entire family was in some urgent need of medical attention, in both ThrowDown and triage there was only one bed. People say that the kids died faster since kids are weaker and to distract himself with the depression of losing his kids he focused only on trying to save the wife, in hopes to at least save one. Which is really sad.

Other theories and things I wanna address :

There is a theory that it’s only his kids that died and his wife left him and broke ties on a good level because of their mental health of their kids dying. This is referencing his interrogation card 9 trial 1 because it asked “What do you wish from your lover?” and he replied with “I wish they can remain healthy.”

This could reference that Hanae, Shidou’s wife, is actually alive. But, I think it’s just a mistranslation or by him replying with that it means “I would want my lover to be healthy.” And if his wife is still alive, I say they would reference it a bit more? Also in Triage it shows that Hanae also disappears into a ghost so I have doubts about this theory.

Other Things: not that important but it adds character a lot

His cards

I feel like his cards really show how much of an amazing person he really is despite his actions of convincing family of brain dead people. He’s not a heartless person and he himself knew how bad that was. Like in t1 question 1 where he said the reason he became a doctor is to contribute to society. And T1 Q4 he says he cherishes family the most. It can add onto the fact that he does love taking care of kids very much. He also said that his family was truly the happiest family alive. He also mentioned multiple times he is worried about Amane a lot.

One of his cards about smoking says that the reason he smokes is because he doesn’t wanna be healthy. It saddens me. He’s like a passive suicidal , he wouldn’t take his life but smoke, see his life only worthy to help others and wouldn’t complain if he knew he was gonna die hypothetically.

In his cards you can see he also has strong Japanese morals and is very nice and formal. I like his cards where he draws silly images.

Also, in his T2 Q5 he says the languages he can speak other than Japanese are English and casual conversation German. At first I thought this was just because of his studies as a doctor and something really cool , so cool in fact it made me wanna learn German to match my idol Shidou but that’s besides the point. I was scrolling in my favourite app Tumbler and it was a really good analysis about this.

While watching triage I noticed that Hanae and the kids, also Shidou himself! They don’t really wear like Japanese clothes but I brushed it aside. Especially since he was wearing shorts and in Japan, for a man to wear shorts is childish because only kids wear them. But this post said that the entire family were wearing Birks (a type of shoe) so it’s either the wife or Shidou that is German in some way. I think it’s a really cool detail.

This is the end!!!! This took me 1 sleepless night (2-8 am) and many hours. I think in total 12-13 hours to write and 20 minutes to revise.

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