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Just added vanilla extract (been a couple years) into my homemade cookie recipe, and... man.
Nearly teared up it was that good.
#life#vanilla extract#makes sense why it was trending so much earlier this or last year#don't get me wrong: if I purchase something at the store with vanilla extract in I'll always eat it#but haven't had it in a homemade recipe in... eons#scratch that: made some barely recognizable homemade chocolate the other day with it in it. Stinkin' good then too.#today was another level though
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ough.. These were going to be warmup doodles like the last one but i got carried away :') Hope you guys don't mind.
@yasminewestbank @coyote-catcher @cmentary-drive
#coyote gets two today because the last one was SO low resolution#sorry if these don't look right i was having fun messing with brushes :'))#sso oc#my art#also very sorry if you're seeing this and your oc isn't up here. i am but one man and i have unpredictable energy levels :'')#might come back and doodle other folks' characters another time though! this was fun :D
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You're my baby, say it to me...
#gundam witch from mercury#gwitch#wfm#sulemio#suletta mercury#miorine rembran#i bet on losing dogs as per gwitch current story progression aka ep17 do you see my vision...#i have particular mixed feelings on ep 17 most of which i feel that the story is done a bit sloppy i think it started around ep 16 or 15#i really need to get this out so i could study damn it !!#first of all with miorine with the one who's losing a lot by being complicit with prospera's quiet zero significantly trapping herself furt#er in the cycle of revenge and also losing the friends she has come to cherish and also... at the same time knowing hal truths of what real#ly happened prospera true plan. vanadis. aerial and suletta true nature. earth as a spacian battleground. and the whole lot#i feel like she's rushing thru her birthday to eject sul asap from prosperas plan and now whats done is done i feel like she underestimate#what conviction on how suletta values what family means to her. prospera lines where she wonders whether sul will give aerial up#easily is giving vibes that its possible for suletta to take drastic measures to get her family back. miorine grows up on a world that#is defined by strict rules but suletta does not... that is after she's starting to get over her heartbreak i think...#whats interesting about gwitch is that although it considered utena as one of its base material it mixes said materials with how gundam sto#ryline works while simultaneously keeping up with today's themes. so honestly... when this happened today im a bit pissed#another thing that even though on a surface level suletta plays the role of utena with miorine as anthy they are also anthy and utena#respectively. suletta and utena with their kind hearted and naive self with a sense of justice left behind the insidious plot of the school#anthy and miorine titled the bride who adored their respective partner up to the point of deception and betrayal for their own good#SULETTA AND ANTHY GOD THE WITCh. red motifs. i find it funny they both have siblings okay this is messed up. the character shrouded in myst#ery. SCREAMS AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS THE CHICK WHO IS YET TO HATCHH !!!! RAHHH#insert utena student council theme somewhere around here#and lastly utena and miorine. the “princess”that is ready to take on a world that is threatening her loved one. both are only child god no.#this is my personal feelings but i will find it heartbreaking that despite everthing suletta will runs to miorine no matter how much she#push her away... but i also want and find it interesting where despite loving and believing in her suletta will slowly will ALSO despise#her for letting them drift apart kind of like anthy and utena on the akio apocalypse arc....... do i want this to happen...? do i....? >yes#regardless augh what a heartwrenching lovely episode despite me knowing it will happen at some point during the show#im like the surprised pikachu meme with tears in my eyes
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I was pouring a promised libation out to Hermes, Apollo, Aphrodite, and Dionysus this afternoon (I'd asked them for help with a personal matter involving a sibling) and as I was looking up at the sky talking about the situation I saw three hawks start to circle something a little ways in the distance. Hawks aren't exactly uncommon here but it had been a while since I'd seen any, let alone three at once, so it caught my attention.
And while I was trying to figure out what type of bird they were (not an eagle, too short a neck to be a vulture, etc) one of them swooped down into a neighbor's backyard and back up along the tree in my backyard, close enough that, if a branch weren't in the way, I would have been able to see its feather markings. While hawks were somewhat usual, experiencing that certainly was not. So, of course, when I got inside I looked up if any Greek gods are associated with hawks.
And, of course, Apollo is.
I've been thinking a lot about the difference between "this is just a Thing That Happens" and a sign so it was nice to see a direct example of how something differs when it's coming from a god.
#to be clear: i confirmed both today's instance and the last one (the sun coming out from behind a cloud directly after pouring a libation)#via divination. im checking my work#i said i needed direct & outside (aka not from within my own head) communication and apollo went 'on it'#i appreciate it. he's been the most communicative so far but hermes has too#got another whopper of a tarot pull during today's check-in after asking hermes for help w/ communicating like i did last time#they've been pretty intertwined so far. ive been focusing a lot on getting my etsy up & running though so it makes sense as an intersection#of their domains#aphrodite and hestia have been a bit more subtle so far but still there#also: im not trying to do augury here. not touching that w/ a ten foot pole it's scary & im still trying to wrap my head around when to use#the alphabet oracle im not ready for that level of complicated. i just took the type of bird & the fact that it's behavior i havent#seen before. and when i say it swooped over my backyard i mean it was *directly* over my head. it was wild#i wouldnt have gone to 'hm this may be an acknowledgement/sign' if it were just the hawks circling over head#i also appreciate that hermes hasnt tried to fuck with me yet. trying to parse that while im still getting my pagan sea legs would be#a nightmare and may have just put me off paganism entirely. i was drawn to hellenic paganism *because* there wasnt a constant warning about#potential tricksters looming overhead#coriander says#hellenic pagan#helpol#hellenic polytheism#apollo#hellenic community#theoi#pagans of tumblr#paganism#hellenic gods#ill remember all the associated symbols/animals/plants eventually#lowkey thinking of making flashcards lol. could be fun
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... why he sit like this
#in this position his face is extremely 'cartoon cat' shaped.. like the perfectly round cheeks and little#rounded bump of a snout.. big round eyes. etc. stretched over the arm of a chair like a weirdo#cats#It's still Hot Evil Summer time and I have so much to do so am just aimlessly hopping between various projects but not actually#getting anything done. as usual. Also so so so so tired. I almost fell asleep in the middle of the floor like 3 times today lol#Trying to finish some costume photos and also another poll adventure thing. plus I do really want to do a sculpture sometime#I haven't finished one in a while. Hopefully my tiredness is nothing bad.#Maybe I'm anemic again so that's making me tired. Or maybe it's just a Listless phase. not that I'm ever really THAT productive considering#all of the health problems and etc. always holding me back. but still. I'm not usually 'sleep or just stare at a wall literally all day' ty#e unproductive.. at least not for multiple days in a row so. hmm... Sometimes especially in the summer though I will have periods of time#that are listless like that. I am under low level phyiscal stress for months at a time due to summer heat so I guess it makes sense#that would eventually take a toll. I just have SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO!!!!! AAUUGhhh#I also came up with a new idea for a game that is so so cool and I wish I could make it but I have to finish the other one first lol#which I will NEVER do. if I spend all day just sleepy unfocused barely able to do anything#I also really need to sell some clothes and sculptures because I'll probably have to buy a new computer soon so I need money. (plus still#recovering the costs of having to euthanize my other cat.. wehh) There's nothing clearly wrong with it right now but it's getting gradually#slower and there's more weird glitches happening randomly and idk.. just weird things that make me think 'hmm... bad.. possibly.'#ANYWAY... I just have so much to do that I both REALLY want or need to do - so it's perpetually frustrating that I just can't for whatever#reason like. Time is always mving forward. every day I waste is a wasted day. The year is already almost half over. I havent finished#any of the projects I wanted to .. and there's only more and more things to do each day. It's overwhelming and stinky#and thats not even considering having to do all of my tasks also with the background noise of economic inequality. everything increasingly#going into an even scarier political direction. active climate change crisis. pandemic that still exists and is insane to act otherwise. et#etc. HOW am I supposed to solo make two whole games . write 3 book series. finish sculptures. do costumes. make outfits. game videos. make#stable network of social connections. do my little side crafts. take care of myself and cats. pay rent. manage health issues. keep a routin#.try to make some sort of money. go to doctors appointments. handle regular maintenance like cleaning and cooking and self care#and buying new plates when old ones break or etc. make sure to do other things like backup my computer data regularly. do shopping lists.#take care of plants. pursue like 6 different academic interests. do the other side side projects I have for fun (like music or carving avoc#ado pits). eat in a healthy way thats okay for my Special Health Issue diet. exercise so i don't die early. etc. etc. etc. AND all while it#82F in my apartment all the time and I have tiny income and also need to move to another country/climate somehow??? lol......#ANYWAY.. ..very frustrated today over my chronic Tired Sleepy.. time for Cat Photos - which cure all of life's ailments lol
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outside enjoying nature off the internet but i’m just thinking about marble hornets the entire time
#it feels very nice out though#i got a hammock#didn’t fall out of it today#marble hornets#brain rot#level 10000#mh#Like lord have mercy … save me ..#old fandom#genuinely im like ok relaxation outside pretty out#but my brain is another entity#LOL#not that o mind
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not fl related but lol + also lmao. Almost forgot I have an appointment w the audiologist again tomorrow after work
#she recommended hearing aids at the last appointment but I'm still on the fence#my hearing sensitivity is technically within normal levels on the metrics (but low tones on the left side are on the border)#but my auditory processing is hot garbage apparently lol#the cutoff for ''normal'' on the initial screening was a 2. I scored an 8 (that's a lot apparently)#so we're doing another test today and then like will talk abt options. it just feels kinda weird ig#like idk. there's some part of me that feels like it's overkill and potentially taking resources from people who ACTUALLY need them#I don't wanna be dramatic and like my family (though mostly my mom) are really against the idea#it'd be situational use (primarily work/social outings where I expect things to be more hectic and noisy)#which is part of what kinda like. idk. makes it feel weird?#like I NEED my glasses. I legally can't drive without them. I can't really FUNCTION without them#that feels like a legitimate claim and need as an aid#but smth I can just choose not to ever use and still get by feels like. different I guess#idk. hurgh. sorry for tag rambles.
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I've read a few papers regarding this art of Achilles and Ajax playing a board game during the Trojan war, and though there aren't any existing texts from back in the day describing this particular myth, here is my favorite interpretation of this popular motif.
Achilles and Ajax sit with their shields behind them and a board game between them (in this version, they are calling out numbers and Achilles is winning). Achilles' helm sitting on top of his head suggests he is slightly readier to return to the fight if needed. In other versions, Athena stands behind Achilles and is urging him (possibly even scolding him) to get back to the war. There are references to the two of them being so caught up in this game, they are taken unaware by Trojan troops. Being Ajax and Achilles, however, they manage to survive.
My favorite interpretation is that this event is a non-Homeric myth of Achilles refusing to fight-- this time with Ajax joining him in that refusal-- over the death of Palamedes, who argued they should all go home from this pointless war, and whom Odysseus and Diomedes subsequently murdered, framing it to look like an accident. Achilles, who is generally depicted as very morally uptight regarding things like murder, opposed this action, and in this story was incensed enough to quit the fight over it. It is possible he was also influence by Palamedes being a close friend.
What is known from extant myths is that 1. Palamedes invented a board game while at Troy and 2. The soldiers became obsessed with this game to the point that 3. Odysseus was very ticked off at how much everyone was playing it rather than killing Trojans.
Thus, Ajax and Achilles sitting not only with their helmets off and shields on the ground, but specifically playing Palamedes' board game while Athena scolds them to get back to the war could be a nod to more quarreling amongst the Achaean leaders after the murder of Palamedes.
Soldiers quitting a fight over a moral disagreement (and eventually coming back to it) was a popular trope in stories of this time, and Achilles became the sort of catchall stand-in for this kind of myth. I think it's fun that in this version, he gives the other leaders a sort of "fuck you" by playing a friendly game with his good bro Ajax.
#ajax#achilles#also palamedes was like an annoying numbers guy#and I do think Achilles would vibe on his level#there is another interpretation of this art i like less#though it doesn't change the origin of the myth I suppose#but that exekias depicted achilles and ajax together multiple times#as propaganda that salamis should be part of Athens#look ajax and achilles are friends our people were meant to be one people under the rule of athens obviously#though there is a theory that he was from salamis and that's why he made so much art of ajax#ANYWAY i just really like this motif okay#sorry saw art of this today and didn't want to derail that person's post#back to writing morning essays I guess#why is tumblr putting a tip button on this
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sorry why did i say some of that stuff to him in that letter. i mean i know why i was practicing this thing called vulnerability. but oh my god i really said that out loud (wrote it down)
#i BELIEVE it like. i believe i am lucky to know him on many levels#and he laughed at my little thing abt him being allowed to get an ego about it which was its purpose#but like. still . haunted by that#literally any time i open up on that level to anyone i'm just hitting myself on the head going ur okay ur okay ur okay#this was sparked by seeing a mediocre actor on dw and thinking he could do that better (insane thought. probably true in this case but low#- bar) and then remembering what i said to him abt how talented he was#which is OKAY. you should tell your friends when you think they're incredible. i am not as good at practicing this as i should be which is#- why it's scary#my other friend sent me a text that said he finally read my letter & it made him cry. and i sent back an 'i meant it i love you man' and he#- just never followed up which has also been freaking me out i worry he doesn't like me as much as i like him. but whatever! whatever#i think i did make 4 out of 4 people i wrote letters to cry though :) so. mission accomplished#it was so nice getting to see one of them on the production meeting today too ugh i miss them sm#okay this has spiraled into another i miss my friends post. go figure#ted talks#🗡���
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havent really been in a sims mood but looking at everyone’s pictures with the pack im foaming at the mouth a little
#i need to learn how to 🏴☠️#the only time ea will get my money is for new dragon age and mass effect bc i dont want bioware to get shut down#customers at work have been on another level this week i just want to chill and not update all my mods and figure out how all That works#shucked corn for 5 hours today so i didnt have to deal with customers though hehe (i work on a farm)#not an animal farm just fruits and veggies#time to explore skyrim with my husband teldryn bye#court rambles
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#diana's music diary#good night I didn't post this earlier#my head has been rather fuzzy blurry and hurting so yknow#today we had lancer though! I felt bad before but through the session I started feeling better both cause of my meds and just having fun :3#it was really good! just combat but it was FUN combat... Ophelia's new mech was fun to play she's really filling out her role in the group#pegasus is such a cool mech... my one has eyes as its theme...#we actually levelled up Again after this mission so she gets another NHP too :o#I wonder how Ophelia will interact with it...#I really want her to interface with them and get SO fucked up from it oh my god#anyway...... other than lancer it has just been chilling with some comfy people........ very happy rn Un_nU#tired though so I had to get in bed....#let's make tonight good? let's dream well tonight? this is the latest I've posted one of these idk what to say at the end here n.n;;
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#i cannot believe a job I applied to exactly a month ago now wants to interview me last minute#the PAY and benefits are AMAZING and some travels involve#now i'm kicking myself but sadly nobody can predict these things...#once again that brand new gaming rig level pay though *CRIES*#I was insecure for a while because there were many rejections#but then when offers came there were like 4 and now another interview#I turned down 3 offers with 90%-almost complete remote job that pays 5% more for this one (two with dream organizations)#because the job itself is what I wanna do and I'll learn a lot#but man the pay and benefits and job security of the one that calls today though I wanna cry#I know interviewing doesn't guarantee a job but I have a 95% chance of success if I make it to the interview phase given my track records#personal#colin cries#update: I accepted the interview for tmr#because I can't say no to this it's a RARE chance#i took a 3-hr assessment including math to apply for this job I will see it through#i didn't solve (x7y2 + 6xy)(x3y3 - 2x7y4) for over half an hour to not go to the interview
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I was like “Never gonna get moonlight in time. I’ll have to buy all her soul stones from the shop, what a pain.” ??? I got her from a normal ten pull? Then got Milky Way right after?? tf?
#traveler from another world ✨#only time I’ve ever had luck this good was when I got two black pearls in one pull#that wasn’t on the first though but sill I’ve had weirdly phenomenal luck with legendaries lately#hopefully I’ve not used up all my gacha luck ‘cause I haven’t pulled for Xiao yet#only have enough for 40 pulls I’m very scared#maybe I’ll pull for him today idk#anyway crk kinda lost me there for a while#couldn’t make it to the end of episode 14 despite having all the cookies and the resources to level them to 70#and I’ve stopped trying to complete the clotted cream storyline event thing#just feels like grinding at this point idk I’ve just mostly lost interest#not sure that throwing a dozen different things into the game at once is helping that much though#I just feel overwhelmed now#even the costumes are being crammed into the game at alarming rates#like why are there so many? and we’re gonna get three more for sherbet sea fairy and black pearl soon since they won that poll#crk#cookie run kingdom#cookie run#moonlight cookie#milky way cookie
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retreat day 2 done. feeling good but weird
#purrs#for one thing i just ate three (3) (!!!!) bags of pretzels which are the first pretzels ive had in like almost a decade maybe. but for anoth#another…. idk. im not learning abt myself or having insights like i thought i would. im just kind of executing a thing. and also im having s#surface level interactions for the most part… but maybe that’s fine. it’s just i don’t feel like i fit with the staff but also im not a#student anymore and it literally does not matter at all but im in my head about it. except i don’t feel that very much or much of anything a#at all. today has mostly just been surviving and taking notes abt ppl in my pod (the pod is doing good btw they are still not going deep but#they are connecting and working surprisingly well together which is good) and not really using other parts of my brain and im not used to th#that. tomorrow is gonna be so hard though im scared lol. and im scared i’ll oversleep#idk why im not having thoughts. i wish i was. i kinda feel like im knocked out of orbit except i don’t actually feel anything at all#also covid has hit hard in surprising ways. literally no one is hanging out in the community room after hours. like wtf! that’s unheard of!!#retreat tag
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Can't wait to make flatbreads after this
#ace tries cooking#personal#i have another job interview today and although i slept better this time i can already tell my anxiety is gonna be at peak annoying levels#what better way to deal with post anxiety attack adrenaline thab kneading dough? that and i want flatbreads and to have fajitas#so two birds one stone typa thing though im aware its the wrap bread Lidl never has tortillas anyway#lil annoyed honestly i spent months applying for jobs and suddenly im getting all the responses now bit late mate
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usually whenever I stop taking my medication it's because I'm miserable and/or suicidal but this time it's the opposite because I was both of those and it was the medication's fault. like the side effects became so bad that I'd rather risk what happens when I'm unmedicated than continue dealing with them
#unfortunately despite the fact that I did not take them today I still had possibly the worst level of side effects I've had so far#like. I think that I've technically not eaten in over twenty-four hours even though I have because I threw it all up#and that's not even the signature side effect. I mean that could actually be a migraine I'm so bad at spotting those#I need a drink. I've busted out the ice tray and I'm even going to spruce it up with some fresh mint#is drinking the exact opposite what I should be doing? yeah. but I can still drink. eating's a non-starter but drinking's fine#the thing is I'd need to ration that medication anyway because I don't think I'm going to have my scripts filled for at least another week#my m*ther has her meds so we don't need to go to the chemist! even though. I kinda need all of my meds refilled. except the one that#I lie about taking because I'm scared of that medication even when I don't actively believe it's being used against me#anyway I hate this stupid fucking condition I'm trying to be brave about it using something I can't explain without giving away#what said condition is and I'm not comfy detailing it on the internet. but it Sucks. and I hope that it's just the medication too#because there's a lingering thought that it's Not and that I'm dying which I've got mixed feelings about#I won't know I'm dying until I start finding blood where I shouldn't and even then I won't convince anyone enough I need help#possibly should go to the hospital at this point but. as I mentioned before I can still drink so obviously I'm still good
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