#to those who cares

[cellophaine]

Hello. I wanted to come on here to rant (airing my grievance, if you will) and give you an update on my projects (if you're here for the update, scroll way down until you see a partition).

I'm still alive, unfortunately, but I haven't been online much since I've been co-existing with my deteriorating mental health. I have come to the acceptance that the prolonged sadness I get year-round is not just sadness anymore. Besides, work has been more demanding, I've been working more days with longer hours last week, and I couldn't find time to write and edit LA's new chapter. Which brings me to this point: I haven't been too thrilled about updating LA because of my expectations.

It always goes like this: I'm excited to see the engagement on the update, but the chapter gets none, and I get disappointed, then I get no motivation to continue the story, but I still keep it going out of sheer stubbornness to see my story till the end, and at the end, I'm unhappy about everything. The last chapter is sitting at 58 notes with no comment, which is better than 51 notes prior to the delete and changes.

I get why Lingered Affection doesn't get much attention anymore. I don't update it often enough, the storyline is not compelling enough. I have no one to blame but myself. At this point, I'm just wasting my own time investing in a story that no one cares but me. But who knows? Maybe the next chapter will get more than 58 notes because it has smut in it.

That brings me to my next point: to this day, I still get likes on one particular smut piece that I wrote 10 months ago. I literally get almost one like every day ever since I posted that. Like, not note, because I can count the amount of reblog on one finger ever since I noticed the "trend" in my notification a month ago. This makes me really question if it's worth it to branch out, to continue other stories when it's obvious that no one cares about those.

All I get in my ask box are requests, even though I said I'm not accepting requests. While I'm flattered that you like my writing enough to send in something, I'm also tired and burned out from just writing requests. I got no appreciation, not even a thank you, even though I wrote your ideas for you for free. All I get is notes upon notes saying someone liked your post enough to maybe save it but not enough to say something about it.

There is one good thing that came out of this situation. I'm desensitized to the fact that no one cares anymore unless I work on their requests, whether I'm alive or dead, whether the fic I write is interesting or good unless it has smut in it. I'm not online much, I don't get validation and that's okay. I'm just going to write whatever I want, for whoever I want.

Onto the update:

I have an IRL project that will take up a lot of my time during August and the beginning of September. I'm also going back to my home country for the first time in nearly 5 years for over two weeks, at the end of September to the middle of October! I'm super excited to see my family and friends, and eat a shit ton of traditional food that I've missed so much! Overall, I might not have much time to So, here are my plans:

Chapter 15 of Lingered Affection will be up sometime in August, after that, I'm aiming for a monthly update.

I'm debuting a new series this fall with a new character: Mo from The Flatshare! It will be grumpy x sunshine, a slow romance with angst and feels and fluff! I have a really solid foundation for the story and I can't wait to share it with you!

Matt Notting Hill AU will be out sometime later this year!

If you're still reading, thank you for reading my rant and even if you didn't read it, I hope the update was sufficient and gave you an idea of what to expect from my shit hole of a blog 🫡

On the bright side: I'M SEEING CHARLIE THIS MONTH WOOP WOOP CAN'T WAIT TO MEET HIM IN PERSON!!

[malinaa]

if i think about the hunger games in peeta's perspective i WILL start sobbing

[ro-bee]

More doodles of this show because is so cute 😭😭😭 it fills me with joy

[tam--lin]

In light of increasing anti-trans and anti-abortion laws in the United States, I am once again humbly requesting you inform yourself about jury nullification, your ability as a juror to vote against convicting people being prosecuted under unjust laws. Nullification was instrumental in legalizing abortion in Canada - it informed jurors can use it to help protect healthcare workers and protesters in the US, too.

[radiance1]

Danny has been reincarnated.

Which was an odd thing to realize, it wasn't even a slow one he just... snapped into it one day. One moment he was staring at a wall out of boredom the next, well, he was staring for an entirely different reason.

It was a task for his now young -he thinks around three years old?- mind to work its way through the memories, but it wasn't like he had much else to do honestly. So, what does he know?

His name is Danny, like, his actual name and not just a moniker. He was once a halfa and he already knows he's going to be missing invisibility and intangibility. He, well, died. For like, a second time which actually makes sense because reincarnation-

Anyways.

He was a clone of two people from this thing called the Justice League which, weird name but probably some government or activist group. Wonder Woman and Superman. Which were pretty weird names to name your kids but eh.

He doesn't really remember much besides that from this life, or the one from before but he's an adult! He'll figure things out once he gets out of this containment tube thing.

Did he mention he was in a test tube? He's a tube baby now. He thinks? Or maybe it's more like he's being contained.

Whatever.

So he breaks out. Thank you apparent superstrength that he has no idea why he has but he's not going to complain! He then wandered around all of the other test tubes, able to remember just enough of English to see that yea, they're dead.

He probably was too, before he had memories zapped into him. Or a vegetable.

He then finds this really big container, checks it out, then opens it because the clone inside isn't dead!

'Project Match' it said. He'll just call him Match.

Was he thanked for helping him? Nope. You would think that he would be thanked or at least somewhat respected for saving this guy but nope!

He was, quite literally, held up by his leg and dangled in the air. Who dangles a three-year-old?! Well, he was technically and adult but still! The next few things were a blur but after pulling off the old Fenton charm he found him and Match outside as he tried to stop him from attacking random people.

Luckily the charms and privilege of the youngest (he's assuming he's the youngest, because he's physically three) was more than enough to get through to him. Sure, the guy couldn't form words, really aggressive for literally no reason, really weird but also absolutely cool looking eyes. But he worked around the first issue by developing their own personal language from like grunts and stuff, the second he once again used his youngest privilege to boss him around and the third a pair of sunglasses easily fixed.

He just had to steer Match clear of those random S crest mark thingies. Which was a weird thing to hate but hey, he's not there to judge.

[z13lovebot]

A bunch of Sebastians since my last post. For you 🤲

[rendevok]

“Take my hand” pages 16-18

1 -> 3 - day 4 - swap

[umayashla]

posting my fave two kon drawings in this blog too

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

I'm not going back to Gusu with you.

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[greelin]

equipping these not for strategic reasons. but gay ones

[0m3n-0f-d3ath]

Sock eye salmon

𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟

[halorvic]

Wear a fucking mask!

[maybeblakes]

I am fire

[futuristichedge]

The most well adjusted apocalypse survivor

[solarmorrigan]

Any time Eddie reaches for Steve's hair, Steve stops him. Whether it's when they're kissing and Eddie wants to bury his hands in it, or something more casual, like when Steve is sitting in front of Eddie while they watch a movie and Eddie idly tries to play with it

The moment Eddie's hands start to stray backwards from Steve's face, or upwards from his shoulders, Steve stops him. He's actually grabbed Eddie's hand midair once

Everyone assumes it's because Steve's hair is Off Limits

It's actually because Eddie keeps forgetting he's wearing his dumbass chunky rings and they once got so tangled in Steve's hair that Eddie had had to slip his fingers out of them before he could actually work them free, and now Eddie isn't allowed to touch Steve's head unless he takes the rings off first

[sharkylad]

Thinking about the fact that Mabel and Dipper didn't know they had two great uncles.

Yeah they are 12 and at 12 I had a shotty understanding of my family tree- But really? Nobody brought up their great uncle? Stanley? Especially since they'll be staying with his twin brother, Stanford?

Shermie never went to Stan's fake funeral, which to me means the twos relationship was strained on some level. If Shermie is older that means his view of Stan was poisoned in some way, that even as kids they weren't close. If the Shermie is younger then he never even got to meet Stan and all he knew about him was how he failed his family. Hell, people probably barely mentioned Stanley TO Shermie.

The fact that Stan had become a black stain upon the Pines family name makes me so vividly upset. Stanley faked his death and the family just- seemingly decided to strike him from the record. To pretend he didn't existed to spare themselves the sadness and shame.

Stanford and Shermie Pines. The only children worth mentioning of Filbrick and Caryn Pines.

It was never Stanford that was lost to the world. It was Stanley, ever since he had to leave New Jersy- it was always him that had to be struck from the record. Change his name, change his state, change his affiliations, destroy the remains of ghost that was Stanley Pines. Kill him so the family doesn't bring him up, doesn't ask questions, stops asking "Stanford" about his twin.

I just keep thinking about the fact that since the day he made one single mistake all the way up until Ford walks out of that machine- Stanley Pines was killed and did not exist. And Stan himself had no one to blame, he had to play the part in his own demise- He is the only one who ever knew Stanley was alive and has been for decades.

He lives in the multitudes of every personality he's ever taken, all in the hope that he himself can stop being Stanley Pines.