#to mikasa protection is keeping eren and her friends safe

[pussyeater8000]

Eren Yeager has a chronic illness called resting bitch face

[sabokunsmalia]

𝐒𝐖𝐄𝐄𝐓 𝐃𝐄𝐃𝐈𝐂𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍, m. list

featuring: levi ackerman x fem!reader plot: she has been a part of levi's squad for more than six years. most likely the most trusted person for the captain, and a best friend. in his mind, she's more but he would not dare himself to show that behind the stoic behavior and the emotionless face, were hidden feelings for a survey corps member. or maybe would he? content warning: nsfw! (mdni!) + fluff + pet names + depression + soulmates & second chance kind of trope, all warnings will be added before each part. hi it's malia: i just started attack on titan, like almost finished the first season and this is a little part that came to my mind while they escaped the titan forest. so. pretty much, enjoy it's going to be multi multi-chapter.

𝐒𝐍𝐈𝐏𝐏𝐄𝐓:

"We can't fight them," Erwin shouted towards the Captain, keeping his stern gaze forward while leading the surviving soldiers back to the capital. Levi grunted beside him, clenching his fingers tightly around the leather reins. With a broken left leg, he could still endure a fight but it would not be possible to stand long enough to avoid a longer-lasting conflict.

"They're catching up, we can't lose another group," She argued from Levi's left side, squinting her eyes at the commander and captain. The talented, young woman was the last one standing from the squad that once surrounded Levi. Following the Captain with pride and blindly into any kind of battle. Until their inevitable death at the hands of the Female Titan. "Levi!" She shouted, fingernails digging into the leather material of her reins.

Instead of agreeing with her, the black-haired, stoic man simply glared at her, and shook his head. The only answer she received, was spoken without using words. She snorted, glancing over her shoulder when she witnessed how Mikasa Ackerman jumped off her horse and saved a trapped man. "I'm helping them," She stated, letting herself fall back in line to ensure the safe return of more Survey Corps members.

Levi's attentive glare followed her disappearance, scoffing and cursing to himself. The words lost in the wind, they rode against, forcing his head to stare ahead. There wasn't a chance in the world, he would give the Titans to inflict deadly wounds on the talented woman. For over six years, she followed him into each battle, fought side by side with the Squad Captain. A sweet creature, no one believed in. But Levi did, and in the chaos of war, she became his most entrusted person. A thing close to a best friend, but with further interest, he would never allow his emotionless face to show.

"Levi," Commander Erwin stated, sternly staring ahead. "It's been six years, you better get her under your control." Using the leather reins to force his horse to run faster, Erwin did not look back while a small fight happened just behind their backs. The Squad Captain mirrored the resting face of his superior, knowing that he was certainly right about the reckless behavior. But Levi also knew, how courageous she was in battle, how protective of the subordinates and newbies, and how she wanted to place a protective coat over humanity while destroying titan after titan.

𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓: ↷ part one, responsibility for eren yeager.

[crisalidaseason]

sooo, is it too unusual to ask something w dark armin? like his SO got hurt and he is livid and gets revenge, also everyone is a bit scared of his behavior

i'm so starved for dark protective armin fics

Sorry it took me ages to answer this!!!! Also, Interesting ask...I think I have an idea. Hope you enjoy it!

CW and tags: Slight out of character Armin, protecive Armin, a bit dark Armin, gender neutral reader, "who did this to you" trope, blank period between S3 and S4, canonverse, relationship status not clear, mentions of blood, violence.

A little rat.

Something people often called Armin due to his tendencies of sneaking around, creepily watching and listening, acting below the radar. The blond boy was never one to enjoy theatrics, attention, thus the nickname made sense. Armin enjoyed it even, being discreet within his action, he benefited from it.

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The bruise on your left cheek was impossible to conceal and you accepted the countless questions your friends would ask. You were building a lie while your steps guided you to the mess hall - despite your disinterest for dinner. As your fingers brushed on the tender skin, images of the other soldier's bloody nose and mouth were enough to satisfy yourself.

You could defend yourself. Armin knew that.

But as soon as his beautiful blue eyes landed on the dark blemish his gaze went from tired to unreadable. He did not say anything - unlike the others, who kept asking 'what happened' 'who did this!' - he remained silent during dinner. You told your lie - physical combat training - but Armin did not react nor did he say a word, only his hardened eyes occasionally looking at the bruise.

His knuckles were white while gripping his cutlery.

You knew he would ask as soon as nobody was on sight. His steps were silent, but you could feel him behind you. Cold fingers touched your elbow softly, guiding you to a quiet corridor, under a staircase.

"Armin-"

"Who"

Armin made it impossible to lie. There was something about his blue eyes, soft and yet handsome features, that made your stomach revolt with the mere thought of lying to him.

"It doesn't matter-"

"It does" his jaw became even more defined as it clenched.

The blue eyes were still hard to read, but there was a stormy sea in them. You knew this look - a mind working full speed on hypothesis.

"Who did this?" his voice was soft and calm, monotonous. A happy and excited Armin almost sang when he spoke.

"He is way worse, Armin" you tried "I gave him what he deserved-"

"I. Want. A. Name." the sea was simmering, the point of boiling coming soon.

You gave him the name. You told him everything. Because there was nothing you could ever hide from Armin.

___

"You're quiet" Mikasa spoke "you usually don't shut up when you're researching"

The brunette girl was sitting on the chair next to his - running away from her brother's apathetic behavior. Hange's office was usually free for Armin to use, for him to read and debate strategies with the current commander.

"There is nothing to speak about" he said.

He saw Mikasa's head tilt to the side, she knew him too much.

"You're angry" she concluded "Eren said something to you again?"

Armin sighed in frustration. Denying with a mere head movement.

"You're not going to tell me, are you?" she said.

He wouldn't. She would stop him and do it herself. He could not loose the opportunity.

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You were just released from the meeting with your squad when a desperate Sasha collided with you in the middle of the hall.

"I'm sorry, so sorry!" she was frantic.

You were beyond confused.

"What happened?" you asked her.

"Armin was arrested!"

You felt your blood pool around your feet, leaving nothing but cold limbs. Barely able to ask her to elaborate.

"I heard Hange had to give him a corrective punishment for assaulting a cadet"

You wanted to feel surprised, but you couldn't. Armin was capable of horrible things if it meant keeping his loved ones safe. Violence was never his first choice, but it was there...always.

___

Armin was a patient man. If he could avoid acting on emotion, he would. Waiting for the anger to stop bubbling left him rational enough to plan carefully.

The cadet in question was an ex-MP. Typical.

Taller than Armin, stronger built. Forgetful face and name, just another soldier amongst hundreds that enlisted after Wall Maria's expedition.

Armin watched him for days, weeks. His routine, his tasks, when he was alone or surrounded. He observed, always keeping his anger at bay. A thursday afternoon, nearing the end of the fifth hour, was the perfect time frame for Armin to act.

Armin was proud of his rational thinking, but all good plans had a hint of recklessness.

"You have one minute to explain why you hurt them"

Alone in the stables, the cadet turned to see no other than the bearer of the Colossal titan.

"Who the fuck you're talking about?"

"Forty seconds" Armin replied, stance completely relaxed.

The cadet chuckled.

"come on" the soldier said "they can throw a punch, I respect that, but you? I-"

"I asked why and you are going to answer why. Thirty seconds"

The soldier - not knowing Armin at all - should have noticed the way his limbs contracted and his eyes focused into him.

"They hit me first" the cadet complained "I was just joking, said some shit and they didn't like it apparently"

"And what did you say?"

___

"Was it because of me?" he pleaded, hands afraid of touching the bruised skin "please, tell me"

"It's not worth repeating what he said"

"I want to know!"

There were tears trying to escape his eyes, his fingers trembling with anger.

"They don't do this to Mikasa or Eren, but I know they say things to you"

"Armin..."

"Please"

___

The colossal was in all shapes and forms a demon in his body. A demon he hated more than anything.

But there were undeniable benefits of hosting such demon.

A cracking sound of another bone breaking. The cadet fell on the gate of a horse stall, struggling to breathe.

"Tell me" Armin's voice was on the verge of breaking into screaming, but he knew better.

"Repeat to me exactly what you told them and I'll consider letting you walk out of here alive"

The soldier coughed and groaned, trying to get up. Armin was faster, stomping his foot on the man's chest, right below his rib-cage, where he knew it would render the cadet breathless.

"Come on, tell me" Armin warned again

___

Your voice trembled as you repeated the words to an anxious and angry Armin.

"He called you a rat and..."

___

"...and they were the scum" the cadet struggled to repeat.

"And what else?"

The man took too long to answer, Armin's patience running thin.

"That...I could" the man coughed blood "could not wait for you to die"

___

"And then I hit him" you concluded "I shouldn't, but I was so furious that I could not let him walk out intact"

___

Armin kicked the man one more time below the ribs, for sure breaking another floating one.

"Next time you have a problem with my existence, talk to me" Armin said quietly "You can call me names, even hit me, but if you ever do anything remotely threatening towards them again...I will kill you"

He left the man on the stables, walking steadily to Hange's office. Consequences must be paid.

___

Besides you, Mikasa was the only one not panicking. The two of you were not close - she was extremely reserved - but there was mutual respect. She was the only one who did not bombard you with questions, already aware of what could have happened.

"Is he in the dungeons?" you asked her.

Mikasa nodded. Hange's office was full of the veterans of the 104th squad, yet you felt alone in that moment. Armin was being punished and it was your fault.

"Nothing is going to happen" Hange said, entering the office "he is far too important for an actual imprisonment, but I had to keep appearances"

"Did he say something?" Jean inquired "we all know Armin's not a saint, but sudden violence is very uncommon for him"

The commander's eyes asked the same question as they landed on you. They were trying to understand. You and Armin interacted discreetly in public, like acquaintances. Hange was trying to understand why someone like you would trigger such a violent unusual behavior from Armin Arlert.

"I was hoping you could explain" They said to you "your captain told me you had corrective punishment from assaulting the same guy about two weeks ago"

The others were silent, looking at you. Waiting for an answer while trying to connect the dots. The only one who did not wonder was her. Mikasa knew of Armin's affection towards you, that it was beyond a building frienship or quick burning passion.

___

Armin heard you first. Steps descending the long stairs of the dungeons. As your familiar frame appeared, he stood up and leaned on the bars of the cell. You did not look him in the eyes, staring at a point in front of you.

You were angry. He had no regrets.

"Was it necessary?" you whispered.

"Yes" he replied without hesitation "would do it again"

You looked at his profile, an elegant man even behind bars. His white shirt was stained and tucked out of his pants, yet he left you breathless. You could defend yourself, but there was something warming about him going to extremes for you. It might have suprised the the others, but not you.

You would hurt and kill for him either.

[drunkoffsmoke]

Hey do you have any platonic Headcanons for Reiner,Mikasa,and Armin?

a/n: RAGHHH IM SO SORRY I DIDNT SEE THE REQUEST EARLIER!!!! I DIDNT GET A NOTIF— anyways brother elliot shall provide once more >:) (this is like season 1-2 so no spoilers).

pairing: Reiner x gn!reader ; Mikasa x gn!reader ; Armin x gn!reader.

fandom: AOT (Attack on Titan).

genre: Fluff, headcanons.

! WARNING ! : N/A. (it's sfw pookies)

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Reiner Braun.

Man is FLEXING his ass off when you're around.

Anything he thinks you might like? He's showing it off. Whether it be leadership skills (which he barely has) or muscles (okay he does have those), HE'S SHOWING OFF.

He likes to get your attention through random stuff such as constant poking or annoying you.

Since you're close to Reiner, he talks a lot about you to his friends Annie and Bertholdt.

Bertie likes you, although Annie keeps her distance. It's not that she doesn't like you, it's just that she's a loner and wants to keep it that way.

He probably follows you around during missions to make sure you're safe.

He's like a golden retriever off the field, but on the field, he's the most protective mf you can ever meet.

The second a titan reaches out to grab you, boom, he's slicing the titan's hand off.

If the mission proves to be easy with few dangers nearby, you and him have little contest like 'who kills more titans' and such.

He doesn't want to admit it, but he lets you win almost every time, blaming it on his gear for being this rusty.

You usually stay up past your curfew and watch the stars.

During this time you don't talk a lot, merely enjoying eachothers presence.

He's usually acting like an older brother, but sometimes you have to be the mature one and step in between fights he's about to start (somebody looked at you wrong).

Super supportive, literally the main cheerleader as you kick somebody's ass during training.

You and him have sparring sessions and he teaches you useful information about hand-to-hand combat!

He'd be a good teacher if he wouldn't be teasing you so much.

"Look at you, you're so fragile, you could never take me down!" were his last words before you kicked his ass.

He was shocked, he didn't expect you to ACTUALLY win the fight.

Nevertheless he's proud of you >:)

Mikasa Ackerman.

She firstly heard about you through Armin, telling her and Eren about how he made a new friend.

She was skeptical at first, thinking you were actually someone mean who just tried to get advantage of her blond friend.

But upon meeting you, she quickly changed her mind.

Mikasa is usually quiet and is always following Eren around, so the two of you don't really get some time alone.

But Armin told you she considers you a good friend of hers!

You're a feisty fellow, so she has to make sure you don't get in trouble aswell (as if she needed another Eren to take care of).

Being the mother friend of the group, she has to make sure nobody gets hurt, so she keeps you, Armin and Eren close when in missions.

Always on alert, she's ready to lash out at anyone who does you wrong.

One time a rookie spoke lowly of you behind your back. Mikasa found out, said she was going to take care of it, and you never saw that rookie again.

It's scary what she's willing to do to protect her loved ones, but it only makes you realize she is a good person deep down.

Honestly you're closer to Armin than her, but she doesn't mind that, since it gives her and Eren some alone time (nothing happens in this time, but she likes it when it's just her and Eren hanging around).

Not really good with praises, but will congratulate you after missions, saying you did a good job before walking away.

Armin Arlert.

If you're close to him, you're ultimately close to Eren and Mikasa too.

He likes to talk to you about facts he's learned from books and he's genuinely happy you listen to him (unlike a certain SOMEONE who has brown hair and teal eyes glares at Eren).

You had to rescue him a couple times from bullies. Because of that, you tried to teach him how to defend himself, although he believed this wasn't the right way.

He probably shows off every new item he found. It's mainly cool rocks or shards of glass bottles, but the way he's presenting them makes the trinkets look like some ancient relics.

He is a great listener and offers good advice where he can.

Most of the time he's shy so you have to speak up for him, he's really thankful you do that for him.

Armin's parents like you a lot, especially since you help out Armin so much. They tell you stuff about Armin which makes him embarrassed and blush.

You know the song 'To the Bone' about Undertale?

Well there's this one part saying "I am the Mastermind, he's my accomplice!"

Yeah that's Armin, and you're "You're still alive because I made a promise."

You guys are a great duo, fighting off titans together (although you end up eliminating most of them since Armin is a bit rusty on his skills, he's learning tho!) during missions and such.

He probably tells you all about the wonders of the ocean he's learned from his little book, it gets you as excited as him and it makes him feel as if he doesn't just let the information fall on deaf ears.

He thinks you're a strong, independent person and admires you for that.

He's the orange cat friend and you're the doberman friend. You can't convince me otherwise.

[harley-rose25]

Mikasa does have a personality, actually

Kind of annoyed that people say Mikasa has no personality other then obsessing over Eren. Like, yes she does; just cause she not very expressive doesn't mean she has no personality.

She's maternal; a little bossy; caring and protective, of all her friends, not just Eren. She's realistic, she'll tell you the situation even if it'll hurt you; she's pragmatic, cares more about keeping the people she loves safe rather than helping them achieve their goals; She has a sense of humor (see her and Sasha).

In the end credit scene for that new AOT movie people are commenting that Mikasa finally has a personality; because she, what, yells and emotes like she auditioning for theater club? Honestly, It just felt unrealistic to me, but that's probably because I never emote that much, in such a short time frame, unless I'm having a mental crisis.

Side note: I'm starting to wonder if the reason I cant seem to keep a guy interesting in me for longer then a couple weeks is cause I also have a more subdued and quiet, dry personality; Do they think there's nothing there cause I'm not all bubbly and energetic or something

[hangeslefteye]

Aot but survey corps is a mafia family (Marley included)

My shitpost time has arrived :D Feel free to disagree.

Boss:Erwin,he is the the highest ranked person of the family known as the father.He values his family more than anything and wants their peace and freedom.Loyalty is everything to him.

Acting Boss:Zeke,his entire point is to look like the boss to public eye to guarentee Erwin's safety.He would have been assassinated already by now if not for his capo brother Eren's attention.

Counselor:Levi,he only and directly works for Erwin usually spies the underboss and capos in secret.Also he's the icon of the family and very greatly known although only by name.He often visits his old ghetto to make sure his friends Farlan and Isabel are alright.

Underboss:Hange,she rules the capos and takes orders only and directly from Erwin.She's known by her 'experimental' torture methods among the soldiers.Also she has an secret involvement with counselor Levi that can get her killed if noticed.Zeke seems a little too interested in that affair of hers.

Hitman:Reiner,he usually only works for Hange but Erwin can reach out to him aswell.His duty is to kill strayed capos and soldiers.On this matter he killed many of his friends and often wishes to be killed than to kill.Despite his terrible mental health he recently adopted 2 streets kids named Gabi and Falco yet they are unaware of Reiner's real job.

Capo1:Jean,rumors say he has the brightest future among all the capos because of his great leading abilities and understanding of the family.Also very close friends with Reiner but hides it from Hange.He's somehow popular among city's women aswell.

Capo2:Armin,many says he's the smartest capo of them all and Hange will leave his seat to him.On this matter everybody thinks he is rivals with Jean but in reality they are best friends since soldier days and they move up together.

Capo3:Floch,even though his leading abilities are well respected and he is loved among the soldiers he's known to cause unnecessary chaos in the city.He's a big trouble for Hange so he might end up as being Reiner's new target.

Ex-Capo:Eren,once a skilled capo,he betrayed the family and almost got killed.Some say Erwin forgave him while others say Reiner showed mercy but reality is unknown.His whereabouts are also unknown.

Soldier1:Mikasa,known for her incredible fighting skills she's actually quite famous in the city very much like Levi.Only reason she's not a capo already is because she's very individualistic.Also acklowledged by Levi,she was quite involved with Eren but she proved her loyalty by staying with the family.

Soldier2:Connie,he's rather known by his loyalty and selflessnes towards family than skills.He is heavily relied on by Armin and Jean,gets sent off to most trust required jobs.

Soldier3:Sasha,she is greatly noticed for her sharp shooting skills.Hange wants her to be an Hitman but everybody knows her sweet spot for her friends so she's likely to stay as a soldier to protect the family.

Political representor:Historia,she's a young business woman comes from a rich family.Recently she made it into city council and makes sure to bend council decisions for the family's benefit.

Guardog:Ymir,an ex soldier she is,makes sure Historia is safe and keeps the communication between Historia and the family.When needed she handles Historia's dirty work for her and only actually loyal to her, even though she knows she's closely watched by Reiner.

Associate1:Annie,she's an police officer with an everyday life but occasionally she destroys crime evidences for the family.She taught Reiner how to shoot and Eren to fight when they were all streetkids.Known by very little,she got involved with the family in the first place to make sure her favorite capo is out of police's eye.

Associate2:Pieck,she's a popular courtesan that usually seen with the upper society of the city.For enough money she can do whatever to whoever,including 'accidental' coke overdose.

Associate3:Bertholdt,sells hunting equipments in his everyday life but secretly he traffics guns and whatsoever for the family.

Associate4:Porco,he wanted to be a soldier but due to his brother's sabotage he missed the chance of being one.Nowadays he gathers 'taxes' from clubs and casinos for the family.He secretly steals large amounts of that 'tax' and causes discomfort to the owners.

Associate5:Marcel,he is a journalist that works for the city newspaper and he is responsible from family's reputation and public representation.Even though back then he was very protective of his brother nowadays they are known to be in bad terms.Rumors say they both crush over the city's most popular escort.

[azurlily]

U already know what i want

Tis true! HIIII BUDDYYYYY!

General Mikasa Ackerman Dating Headcannons SFW ONLY

You have a queen and a monster on your side I hope you know. She's protective and you know it. She's felt like she needed to protect Eren for years, and now? Now she has you.

You two most likely met when you were in training. You both joined the Survery Corps and seeing her determination to save her family. You fell in love.

She didn't notice you for while. No matter what you tried, she payed you little to no attention. Finally one day, one day she noticed you.

Maybe because you saved Eren or a close friend, maybe because helped her over the years Eren was gone. No matter the case, she has her eyes on you.

Mikasas in love, she doesn't realize it, but when a life or death situation happens and she cant bear to see you hurt. It hits her, she's in love.

She cant keep her eyes off you. She watches you, she needs to protect you. If she can't keep Eren safe she might as well keep you safe.

She stays her distance at first. She's afraid you'll treat her like Eren, that you'll push her away and treat her affections like a chore.

When she finally confesses(because lord knows you'd do it) she's tear filled and she explains hoe she was too scared.

Honestly not even a week after she's making obvious you two are dating. At first she's shy and afraid, she doesn't know how Eren would feel.

Mikasa takes a good month to finally get into the whole dating part. She takes you out whenever you two aren't on missions.

She's so sweet to you, she loves giving you gentle kisses on the forehead and nose.

She loves holding you and doing slow dances with you. She thinks it's intimate and loves holding you in her arms.

She loves to sway back and forth and give you tiny kisses on your cheek and neck. She loves seeing your face go red and you look away.

Mikasa is (surprisingly) a big flirt. She only does it in private. She loves saying things that make you go pink, make you look away in embarrassment.

Mikasa coddles you. She does it out of habit from years with Eren. Wether your an accident prone idiot or not, doesn't matter. She's going to coddle you, and you're going to take it.

In the heat of the battle you're the one she's paying most attention to. She makes sure no one gets too close. Even if you don't notice what she's doing, she's keep you safe.

Mikasa will keep you safe at any costs. She'll kill to protect you. She's lost too many to lose you too. She's watching you and needs to know you're safe.

It's hard to make her jealous, she feels jealousy, and when she does it's bad. It takes a bit and trust me she's hard to crack, but once she figures it out. Whoever it is, is dead. Or as good as dead.

She'll get mad if you make her jealous on purpose or if you knew they were flirting with you, but didn't do anything.

If you're naturally hard headed or the person who was flirting was being subtle. She wont be mad at you, no, you wont even know that the person is suddenly avoiding you at all costs.

Her love languages are acts of service, affection, and gift giving. She'll give you cute little gifts/things she's found that she knows you'll like.

Mikasa will do things for you, she likes to make you feel pampered and loved. It's her way of saying "I love you" without actually saying it.

Lastly she hugs you, gives you small kisses and bites. Not necessarily in a sexual way, she just wants to make you feel loved and happy.

When you two cuddle she likes holding your head in her lap. She kisses your forehead and smiles affectionately. Her eyes soften when it's just you two.

Mikasa doesn't feel the need to keep her facade up, she feels safe with you. She can show how vulnerable she truly is.

Mikasa likes to write letters to you. She'll put them in places only you would find. You know they're from her, she denies ever giving them, though.

She wears things to make you flushed. Most if not all things she does that are considered affectionate she does in private.

She will wear shorter dresses or maybe a suit or two. Suspenders, and skirts, sleeveless shirts, and tight pants. She does this because she knows you like seeing her. So why wouldn't you like seeing her body?

Even if you don't like seeing her in sexually stimulating things. You can(hopefully) appreciate seeing her in cute clothes.

She just loves you and want to show that in every way. She likes showing her love in all the ways she can.

Will you let her love you?

Sorry I didn't add the color. Considering who I wrote this for they wont mind.(yes this is a jab at you <3 love you buddy)

[anime-fan-05]

Attack on Titan ~Characters with a black reader like Neo-Queen Serenity~

Manga/anime: Attack on Titan

Warnings: spoilers of all the death

Requested by: @happybunny999

Some information about the reader:

- Reader can magically heal the sick and injured and bring the dead or an entire world and its population back to life with the Silver Crystal.

Probably, Eren is intrigued by you and your powers and he finds they're complementary to his: he destroys and kills, you create, heal and give life. He has a sincere feeling of affection for you; he also wants to protect you, especially during expeditions. Before he dies, he'll want to see you to tell you he loves you and to ask you not to bring him back to life after his death.

Armin is completely fascinated by you: he's interested in your appearance, your powers and your character. He's the one of the trio who wants to spend more time with you to know more about you; unlike Eren, he would rather be close to you than protect you from afar. In fact, he uses any excuse to be with you.

Mikasa can't stand you: she's wary of you because she thinks you're a spy who'll deceive and betray them. Whatever you do, she always criticizes you; she does everything to keep Eren and Armin away from you and to face you in fights, which you always win, increasing her hatred for you. After Eren's death, she'll never want to see you again: she won't forgive you for not saving Eren.

Jean has appreciated you since you brought Marco back to life. Both quickly became your closest friends along with Armin, and you and Jean often spend time together. He's your protector and your shoulder to cry on and he does everything to make you happy. The more time passes, the more he'll become a big brother figure to you.

Sasha and Connie quickly became fond of you. They like to play with your Silver Crystal, but they're often scolded by you or their superiors either because they lose it, or because they risk breaking it. After Sasha dies and you bring her back to life, both will run up to you and hug you tightly, thanking you. At the end of the final battle against Eren, they'll ask you to live with them.

Ymir and Historia were very wary of you, especially the first, who kept the second away from you for fear you would harm her. However, it was Ymir who first opened up to you after you gave a beautiful speech about life to her beloved, who had asked you not to bring her back to life if she died. After you bring Ymir back to life, they'll often invite you to have tea with them.

Annie thought you were dangerous, especially for her and her companions, because she feared you could take away their powers or nullify all their actions. Like Mikasa, she also wants to train with you, especially because she realizes she's improving a lot since fighting you. Eventually, after you beat Eren, she'll start to like you more than before, even if you two will never be best friends.

The more time passed, the more Reiner and Bertholdt became fond of you. They feel lighter in your company, as if they were normal boys; furthermore, they appreciate you're saving everyone, both allies and enemies. When you bring Bertholdt back to life, both will want to take you to Marley, but they'll accept your refusal and beg you to be safe.

Levi was weirded out by you: he didn't understand how you could be so kind and how you could bring everyone back to life, including enemies. However, he soon began to appreciate you and realized no one is totally wrong or right in their world. He'll be very happy after you heal all his wounds, and he'll thank you so much.

Hange and Erwin love talking to you and discovering your powers more and more, even if in a different way: the first analyzes you (not like their titans, though) and studies your Silver Crystal, the second often chats with you. In the end, before dying, both will ask you not to bring them back to life, saying their death would have been necessary for their companions' growth.

Ymir Fritz didn't understand you: she has always been trained to defeat and kill enemies, but you save everyone without distinction. Now, she understands you slightly more, although not completely. She's very interested in your powers, since you're both special; whenever she can, she spends time with you, chatting and hanging out with you.

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Endure XV: Mikasa

Series Synopsis: You and Eren Jaeger have been best friends since the age of two, but the two of you are destined for an inevitable tragedy. The world you have been born into is cruel; it is one where friends are traitors and enemies are allies, one where you find yourself doubting everything you've ever known. In this life, mistakes are fatal, and you must be careful, lest you make one too many.

Chapter Synopsis: A look into Mikasa Ackerman’s thoughts and feelings, as well as the assault on Stohess.

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Pairing: Eren Jaeger x Female Reader, Armin Arlert x Female Reader

Chapter Word Count: 5.1k

Content Warnings: swearing, canon-typical violence, sexual abuse (non-explicit), major character death, angst, original characters included

Mikasa Ackerman’s favorite color was not, contrary to popular belief, red.

Sure, she liked red. Red was a great color. Red like her scarf, red like blood, red like that strange surge of energy that filled her whenever her friends were endangered.

Red reminded her of Eren. The boy was all rage and fire. It hurt her head, but she loved it, loved him anyways.

Though it was not a romantic sort of love, and neither was it a familial bond. It was something else entirely, something she had only ever felt for one other person: Y/N L/N.

Mikasa wasn’t sure what it was about the two of them. Red and blue, fire and rain, sun and moon. Was it because they had saved her when she was a child? Did she feel like she owed them her dedication and protection for what they had done?

If that was really the case, then when would her debt be paid off? Would it ever be enough? Mikasa didn’t know. She didn’t even think that was why she did what she did.

The two best friends were celestial bodies of some sort. It was obvious with Eren, for he was so brilliant and intense, blinding those around him with his passion and determination. It was less so with Y/N. She had a subtler manner about her, a soft benevolence in the way she would smile or laugh.

Mikasa was neither of these things. She was an earthly being at her core. What she did not know was that she was not of the earth; rather, she was the earth, as steady and dependable and strong as the ground beneath her feet. True, she was ruled by the fickle whims of the beings in the sky, but they relied on her as much as she did on them; for it did not matter how beautiful the moon was nor how bright the sun was if there was nobody to see it.

When she had first met Y/N and Eren, she had mistaken her feelings for the both of them as attraction. It had been confusing for her, as she did not know what to do or who to love. It was not until much later that she realized it wasn’t attraction. Attraction was what she felt towards the cheerful auburn haired girl or the cold blonde one that she had trained alongside as a cadet.

No, the best way she could describe it was devotion. She was devoted to the two. It was not obsession, it was not unhealthy: it was simply a fact of life. She would do anything for them, but it was not one-sided. She knew they would do anything for her, too.

Or at least she thought that was the case. Yet all she had wanted was for them to be safe and alive, and neither of them could even grant her that. Eren was a titan shifter slated for execution, and Y/N was dead. Both of them had never been further out of her reach, and she resented them for it. How could they have not kept up their end of the deal? It had been simple and yet they had failed.

Still, Mikasa continued to protect them faithfully. What else could she do? It was what she had always done, what she would always do, and that was just how it was. Even if Y/N was dead now, she would protect her memory, guarding it zealously, keeping it close to her heart. And as for Eren, well, she would not let him slip from her grasp, either.

At the present moment, Mikasa, Captain Levi, Eren, Armin, Commander Erwin, and Tullia were sitting around a table. Discontent filled the room as Armin described his suspicions and the evidence behind them.

Mikasa didn’t want to believe him, and by the looks on their faces, Eren and Tullia didn’t, either. After all, if Armin was right, then Annie had been the one to lead to the death of all of those innocent Scouts, including Eren’s squad and Tullia’s older sister.

Annie. The girl they had trained alongside for years. They had slept and ate in the same building, showered at the same time, sparred with each other. How could she be a traitor?

Before, Eren might’ve been enraged, might’ve slammed his fists on the table in rage or thrown a chair in protest. Now, though, all he did was bury his face in his hands and sigh.

“It can’t be Annie,” he groaned.

“I don’t want it to be her either,” Armin said with a frown, “But it lines up too perfectly. You know it, deep down, don’t you?”

Eren’s face went white, very very white, at some memory or something. “Of course...fuck. Why?”

“She killed my sister,” Tullia said dully, pulling Jean’s jacket tighter around her shoulders, “She was my friend, and she killed my sister.”

“She was never your friend. Any relationship you thought you had with her was a lie,” Captain Levi said, his voice icy.

Mikasa was silent. She had never had any sort of relationship with Annie, besides perhaps a mutual respect and a slight attraction, grown stronger through their fierce rivalry. The blond girl was the only one that could hold a candle to Mikasa, and she wasn’t sure why she found that so intriguing, but she did. Still, there was no relationship, and she had no reservations about killing the girl that had caused so much pain, so much suffering, to so many people.

She could see it in the way Tullia cried herself to sleep every night, wearing Jean’s jacket everywhere she went like it was a security blanket. She could see it in the way Eren always mysteriously vanished as soon as the sun set, returning with red rimmed eyes and leaves in his hair.

Mikasa had followed him once, wondering where he went when he was supposed to be detained. Captain Levi turned a blind eye to his charge’s nighttime activities, which only made her curious.

The boy had gathered a pillow and blanket, tucking them under his arm and then creeping to the small garden that had begun to go quite wild in the absence of its tenders. Picking a pink camellia and a bright yellow sunflower, he had crept into the stables and saddled his horse before getting on and galloping off. Mikasa had waited a moment before doing the same, ensuring that enough of a distance had been left that she would not be noticed but not so much that she would lose sight of him.

He had continued down a dirt road for some time before turning abruptly; if Mikasa's eyesight had been any less sharp, she would’ve missed it entirely. She tied her horse at the fork in the road and followed the rest of the way on foot, not wanting to get caught.

Eren stopped his horse at a cemetery, and a horrible feeling filled the pit of Mikasa’s stomach as she realized who owned this cemetery: the Rals.

The first thing he did was walk over to the newest grave. It was empty, just like the other one he was sure to visit, but the thought, at least, was there, memorializing Petra Ral for years to come. Bending down, he placed the sunflower next to several others of its kind. Mikasa wondered how long he had been coming here.

After standing in front of Petra’s grave for a moment, eyes closed and head bowed, he headed over to another one. If Mikasa had thought Petra’s had a lot of flowers, well, this grave was practically drowning in blooms. There were several sunflowers, true, but there were a multitude of pink camellias, too. As she watched, he placed the one he had brought with him down with the others before kneeling and beginning to speak.

“Hey, sorry I was a little late tonight. It’s been a rough week. The whole thing with the expedition happened, of course; I’m sure Petra’s telling you all about it. Anyways, they finally decided what they’re going to do with me: execution. The Commander’s already coming up with some plan to stop it, but I don't know. Maybe I deserve death. At any rate, at least I’d get to see you again,” he said, placing the pillow next to the headstone and lying down, resting his head on it and spreading the blanket out to cover his body.

So this was what he did. He came to sleep next to a dead girl. Because of all that had happened, Mikasa almost forgot that it had only been a couple of weeks since they had found out she had died. She knew, or hoped at least, that eventually he would move on. But to ask him to do such a thing so soon was unfair and unrealistic.

“I really miss you,” he whispered before closing his eyes. Mikasa turned away, trudging back to where her horse waited for her. She would not intrude any more than she already had on that sacred place of flowers and buried corpses, where one lone half-living boy made his home amongst graves, as if he were already dead himself.

Though Tullia and Eren were the worst off, everyone from her cadet days had been impacted by the battle for Trost and the 57th Expedition, including her. Unlike the rest of them, though, she pushed her emotions aside to be strong. She would defeat Annie, she would get justice for what had happened, she swore on her life that she would.

It was because of this solemn oath that she was currently walking down the streets of Stohess to meet with Annie Leonhardt and convince her to join them. Armin had been insistent that she be the one to do it, though she could hardly figure out why.

“Mikasa Ackerman. I’ll admit, I’m surprised you wanted to meet with me. Thought you were dating Sasha,” Annie said.

“I am. That’s not what I’m here to talk to you about,” Mikasa said, a light pink blush covering her cheeks at the mention of her girlfriend.

“What a shame,” Annie said dryly in a tone that suggested it was not at all shameful. Mikasa scowled, feeling altogether out of her element. Words were not her thing; they were Armin’s. He should be here instead of her, but he wasn’t, so she had to do her best. After all, Eren’s life depended on her success in this.

“Look, Annie, I’m sure you’ve heard what’s happening with Eren. I’m here to ask for your help. He’s passing through Stohess tomorrow, and since you’re an MP, you’d be able to sneak us out of the district without anyone questioning you,” Mikasa said. Annie raised an eyebrow at her.

“Is that so? I have no love for Eren, and I could lose my job if I get caught. Why should I do it?” she said.

“Because Eren doesn’t deserve to die! They’re going to execute him like a dog!” Mikasa hissed, appealing not to Annie’s humanity but rather her tactical side. After all, the Female Titan had tried to kidnap Eren, not eat him. It was obvious she wanted him alive, for whatever reason, so him dying was not something she’d be in support of.

Mikasa’s bet paid off, as a frown crossed Annie’s face. “I suppose that’s true.”

“You’re our only hope, Annie. Please, I’m begging you. Do you want me to get on my knees or something?” Mikasa said. Annie snorted.

“We can save that for later. Fine, I’ll do it. You and whoever else is going to be coming can meet me here tomorrow at noon. Don’t be late, or I’ll leave and you’ll be on your own,” the blonde warned her.

“Thanks, Annie. That means a lot,” Mikasa said. Annie scowled.

“I’m not doing it for you or Eren or any of your other stupid friends,” she snapped. Mikasa shrugged, turning to leave her behind.

“To be honest, I don’t care why you’re doing it. I’m just glad that you are.”

That was how she found herself wearing a green cloak to cover her face and walking with Eren and Armin to where Annie was waiting. As they made their way to meet the MP, Tullia and Jean rode in the carriage in place of Eren, with Tullia serving as a sort of bodyguard for her boyfriend.

The trio kept as silent as possible, not wanting to draw attention to themselves and the way they were completely out of place in the interior. Stohess was a beautiful district, albeit in a different way from Shiganshina and Trost. It was polished and sleek, with men in suits and women in dresses milling about, speaking in hushed whispers. The streets were wide and clean, with carriages rolling down the stones as the noblemen and merchants went about their days.

There were no playful children or flowers in windowsills. Mikasa did not see a single cat sleeping in the sun or any stray dogs begging for scraps. She furrowed her brow at this, wondering how such a place could be so devoid of life, the only sounds heard being the clip-clop of hooves on cobblestone and the tolling of the church bells.

Annie was waiting for them right where she said she would be, her arms folded across her chest as she leaned against the wall. Noticing Mikasa, she nodded curtly.

“Good, you made it on time. I was just about to leave. Well, let’s get on with it, then. What’s your grand plan?” she said, joining them as they continued walking to the now-deserted area of Stohess where they could hopefully contain Annie before she transformed.

“We’ll sneak Eren out through one of these old passages that was supposed to lead to the Undercity, back before they abandoned it. Captain Levi found it while doing reconnaissance. It should connect back to Trost at some point; from there, we can get him to safety,” Armin said as they reached the tunnel. Annie looked down at it before giving them all a startled look.

“You want me to go in there? I don’t think so,” she said as the three of them descended the stairs into the tunnel. They paused, turning to give her confused looks. The sun shone from behind her, shadowing her face, making it seem like her ice-blue eyes were nearly glowing as she stared at them.

“Don’t tell me you’re afraid of the dark or something,” Eren said, despair creeping into his tone.

“That’s exactly it,” Annie said dully, “I’m weak and pathetic, and I’m scared of the dark.”

“But Annie, you’ve always been so strong! Come on, just come down here,” he said weakly.

“No. I just can’t,” she said.

“Cut the crap. We all know the truth,” Mikasa said, drawing her blades, having had just about enough of Annie’s games. Annie’s eyes widened before she began to laugh. She laughed and she laughed, her cheeks turning pink.

“Mikasa, don’t tell me you figured it out,” she giggled.

“I did,” Armin said, a dark, horrified expression on his kind face. Eren sucked in a sharp breath.

“You’re just joking, right Annie? This is all a joke,” he said. Annie gave him a surprised look before laughing harder, though there was a more deranged, broken cast to her amusement now.

“Amazing! Nearly word for word. It was never a joke. I wish it was,” she said, abruptly stopping laughing, her face growing serious.

“Word for word? What do you mean?” Mikasa said. Annie grew sorrowful, her mood switching so fast it nearly gave Mikasa whiplash.

“It doesn’t matter. None of this does. I noticed you made this area completely deserted, didn’t you? Very clever. I’d wager that there’s a bunch of people ready to restrain me as soon as I begin to show signs of resistance,” she said. The trio from Shiganshina was silent, though for different reasons. Eren was clearly struggling to come to terms with the fact that the girl who had taught him hand to hand combat had killed his entire squad. Mikasa was preparing to strike, an ambush predator like her beloved stuffed animal. Armin was waiting and watching, trying to anticipate the enemy’s next moves.

“Well, mind if I join in on the gambling? Here’s my bet,” Annie said with a feral grin, raising her hand to her mouth. In a split second, Armin shot off the flare gun, and Annie froze as she was tackled by a group of soldiers.

“It can’t be…” Eren muttered, still in shock.

“At least we finally got her,” Armin said grimly. Mikasa watched as the blonde girl raised her hand, and she gasped, recognizing the ring on her finger. She had found it once and returned it to her; she remembered this distinctly because she had thought it odd that the ring had a spike on it.

Grabbing Armin and Eren by the cloaks, she yanked them into the tunnel behind them. They did not struggle, but Eren yelped in confusion, and she knew Armin was similarly unsure of her actions; that is, until Annie shifted into her titan form with an explosion of steam and lightning and heat, blowing back and immediately killing the people restraining her.

“Did you see that, Eren? It was her. There should be no doubt in your mind that it was her. She killed all of the members of your old squad. Annie is the Female Titan!” Mikasa said as they ducked into the tunnels. Eren scowled and bit down on his hand, but nothing happened. Furrowing his brow, he did it again, and again, but it didn’t work. He didn’t transform into a titan, and Mikasa growled, taking him by the shoulders and shaking him in frustration.

“Mikasa!” Armin protested.

“Transform! Why aren’t you transforming? Is it because you still don’t believe Annie did it? Is it because...you have feelings for Annie?” she snapped.

“No! No, I never liked Annie!” Eren said.

“Seems like you did, because you’re sure as hell not very willing to fight her. Think, Eren. She’s allied with the Armored and Colossal Titans. You know what that means? She helped cause the breaches in Shiganshina and Trost. She’s the reason your mother is dead. She’s the reason Y/N is dead,” Mikasa said.

“I can’t,” Eren said as he bit and bit, tears rolling down his cheeks, “I’m trying, Mikasa, I just can’t.”

“Fine. We’ll split up to distract her from getting to her true target: you. If we have our hoods up, she won’t be able to tell who is who. You get out of here and run. Are you alright with that plan?” she said.

“No! You guys could die!” he said.

“If you can’t transform, like you’re saying you can’t, then it’s our only choice. Sorry, Eren. Sacrifices have to be made sometimes. This is war, you know. You can’t save everyone. In fact, judging by your track record, you can’t save anyone,” she said, pulling her hood up and nodding at Armin, who hesitantly did the same, giving the stricken Eren a worried look before the two left their friend behind.

Mikasa felt bad for her harsh words, but they had been necessary. Eren would not be motivated to fight Annie unless he got some sort of encouragement, and not encouragement of the gentle kind, either. He needed a good kick in the pants to get moving, and Mikasa was more than willing to provide.

Because this was the truth about her devotion: it was not blind affection. Mikasa simply took on whatever form of a friend that was needed at the current moment. With Y/N, more often than not, it had been a caregiver, a protector, a confidante — and Mikasa wanted nothing more than to play this role for her. With Eren, it was usually some sort of support system, though it was also, many times, the giver of tough love. She did not coddle him. He didn’t need nor want coddling, though he’d certainly argue otherwise at times like this.

As Annie’s foot came stomping through the tunnels, Mikasa checked over her ODM gear before preparing to launch out and attack. With Eren unable to transform and Captain Levi out of commission, she was humanity’s best chance against the Female Titan, and she knew it well. Rolling her shoulders, she took a deep breath before springing into the air, latching onto Annie and attempting to slice at her legs as she ran.

Annie paused, somehow feeling Mikasa’s hooks digging into her skin. In one swift movement, she turned and then kicked Mikasa off, sending her crashing into the ground in a tangle of wires. Mikasa hissed in pain, feeling the stones scratch at her skin as she fell in a heap. Annie gave her collapsed form a final look before continuing to run forwards. Mikasa almost felt insulted.

“Mikasa!” Sasha shouted, swooping down to help her stand and fix her ODM gear.

“Hey, Sash. How’s it looking?” Mikasa said.

“They just got her in Section Commander Hange’s trap,” Sasha said.

“Really? That was quick,” Mikasa said with a frown, not having expected that of all things.

“I know. To be honest, if this is really Annie, then I doubt it’ll be permanent, as much as I’d like it to be. Annie’s too good to let a trap like that get her down,” Sasha said.

“It really is Annie,” Mikasa said with a sigh, “And I agree. There’s no way this is lasting.”

“Where are Eren and Armin?” Sasha said as the two girls took to the sky.

“Eren can’t transform, for some reason. I’m assuming Armin’s trying to snap him out of it. If anyone can do it, it’s Min-Min, so I’m putting my faith in them, but still,” Mikasa said.

“Do you know why he can’t transform?” Sasha said. Mikasa shook her head, landing on a rooftop and surveying Annie, who was trapped by layers upon layers of netting.

“No clue. Personally, I think he still is unsure about Annie’s guilt, even though she transformed in front of us. Regardless, the reasons don’t matter as much as the fact that he can’t, and that’s a problem,” she said.

As they watched, Annie broke free and began sprinting through Stohess again, crushing buildings wherever she went without seemingly any care for the lives she was destroying. Mikasa was repulsed at the display but resigned herself to chasing after the titan.

She hated this. Hated every piece of this. For once, she was done fighting. She just wanted to go home. She wanted to go back to how things used to be, back when titans were just scary bedtime stories, not monsters that she flew after in the streets.

There was another crack of lightning, and a savage roar pierced Mikasa’s eardrums. Her lips curled into a smile as the entire district began to shake, glass windows shattering as Eren’s titan stomped towards where Annie stood in waiting.

He crushed an entire cathedral without thought, and Mikasa frowned only slightly. He wasn’t as in control as he should be for a fight of this magnitude. He was vicious and unreserved, but maybe this bloodlust was for the better. Maybe it would strengthen him enough to be able to do what he had to.

Annie raised her fists to face off against Eren, who snarled at her. There was anger and a thirst for revenge in his every movement, and Mikasa wondered what had changed. Armin landed lightly beside her, and she gave him a curious look.

“What’d you say to him?” she said, motioning towards how Eren and Annie were destroying the city in their rampage.

“It’s not important,” Armin said as sadness filled his face, “All of Stohess will be gone by the time this is over. I can’t help but wonder if Commander Erwin made the right choice.”

“I know what you mean,” Sasha said, shaking her head as Annie hardened her shin, kicking the entire lower half of one of Eren’s legs off even as he punched her in the face, knocking her back. Still, Eren fell too, and Mikasa chewed on her lip in worry, not wanting to get in between the two brawling titans but not wanting Eren to get hurt, either.

Despite his missing leg, Eren stood again and lunged at Annie. This time, though, she was prepared for it, catching him by the arm and throwing him into a nearby building. He crumpled, stones raining down around him. Annie hardened her fists and began repeatedly punching Eren in the face. He was powerless to fight back and lay there, motionless. Annie gave him a final look as if to reassure herself of his defeat before running off.

Yet Eren was not one to lose so quickly. Staggering to his feet, ignoring the way he was missing a leg, he ran after her, grabbing her neck in a firm chokehold and then tackling her to the ground. Annie’s eyes bulged, both from Eren squeezing it and the fact that her enemy had not been as easily put down as she was expecting.

“We should help him,” Mikasa said worriedly.

“We’ll just get in the way. It’s too dangerous. Have faith in him,” Armin said, placing a soothing hand on her shoulder. Mikasa frowned, looking at Sasha for confirmation, but the brunette girl nodded.

“He’s right, Mikasa. You’ll get hurt if you get in between them. You might need to help him soon, but for now, let him be. Just wait and watch,” she said.

Eren placed his hands on Annie’s face in a gesture that would be so comically loving if it was gentler, in any other context but this. At the moment, though, there was no love in Eren’s heart as he began to squeeze, crushing her head between his fingers. A person with a weaker stomach than Mikasa would have vomited at the way Annie’s eyes popped out of her skull, but Mikasa just watched impassively as the Female Titan screamed and clawed at Eren frantically. She was finally able to shove him into the ground and break free. Racing towards the wall, she hardened her fingers and began to climb up it.

Eren shrieked in fury, following after her and hanging onto her leg. Annie let out an indignant cry and kicked him off. Mikasa gasped before turning to glance at Armin. His face was serious, and when he caught her eye, he nodded.

“It’s now or never, Mikasa,” he said. Without a second thought, she shot into the air towards where Annie was scaling the wall. Faster than she even thought possible, she sliced through the fingers of the titan’s right hand before spinning and glaring at her fiercely as she passed by, cutting off the other hand in one swipe of her blades. Then, to add insult to injury, Mikasa landed on her face, giving her a calm look as Annie stared at her in terror.

“Sorry to have to do this to you, but you hurt me and my friends first. Fall, Annie,” she said, pushing off and hanging suspended in the air for a moment as Annie did as she had told her to, falling right where Eren was waiting.

Eren let out a victorious, rumbling purr as his prey was delivered neatly to him. He punched her, again and again and again, savagely beating her face as Mikasa and the rest of the Survey Corps watched. Blood and tissue flew everywhere, turning the streets of Stohess into some sort of macabre painting.

Eventually, he whittled away until there was nothing left protecting her human form from his hungry jaws. He leaned forwards, and Mikasa realized he was going to eat her. She wasn’t sure how she felt about that, until she noticed Annie crying. It seemed Eren had seen it, too, though they had opposite reactions. Eren hesitated, while Mikasa was filled with an irrational rage at the sight. How dare she cry? As if she deserved anything less than what was happening to her?

Several things happened all at once. A blinding blue light burst outwards from Annie’s prone body, making Mikasa’s eyes hurt and Eren’s titan stumble back. A green blur shot by, slashing through Eren’s nape and ripping him out in a swift movement. Captain Levi had arrived on the scene, and he did not seem very happy with the turn of events.

Mikasa, Armin, and Sasha joined Captain Levi, Eren, and Jean on the ground. Eren was knocked out completely, strange red marks painting his sleeping face. Jean was furiously striking at a large crystal with his blades as Marco tried to calm him down, though it was mostly in vain. Captain Levi looked overall very unimpressed, scoffing at Eren.

“We needed her alive. Oi, Kirstein! Quit it. It’s a waste of your blades,” he said. As he spoke, Tullia joined them, walking over to place a hand on Jean’s shoulder and murmur something to him softly. He broke down crying (and who ever thought the smug, arrogant Jean Kirstein could cry?) but allowed her to lead him away from where Annie was frozen.

Mikasa hated cowards. Mikasa hated traitors. Annie Leonhardt had proven to be both of those things, and so Mikasa hated Annie Leonhardt. At least, that was what she told herself.

Traitors. Yes, traitors were the worst, because they betrayed one’s trust, and trust was the most important thing in the world to Mikasa. Trust was earned, not freely given, and so for someone to take such a thing and stomp on it, lie about it, was like a personal insult, an attack on everything the girl believed in.

And that was why it hurt even more that Reiner and Bertholdt were traitors, too.

It was one thing with Annie. She had been more aloof, never doing anything to break trust, but never doing anything to earn it, either. Reiner and Bertholdt were different. They were like everyone’s older brothers.

Mikasa remembered Y/N having a crush on Reiner. She almost found it humorous, and she was, in a way, glad that the girl was dead. It was a horrible thing to think, true, but how could she not? At least she had never had to find out that the boy she so admired was the reason her family was dead.

At least she had never had to see the boy she had crushed on carrying away the boy she had loved.

Yes, Y/N L/N was probably better off dead. Mikasa almost wished she was, too, so that she could escape this hellish reality. She was so tired of red, of blood and violence and hatred.

She wanted blue back.

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The Devil's Bride

Aurora Jaeger, Eren's long-lost childhood friend, was taken from him when they were children. After years of suffering under Marleyan control, Aurora is reunited with Eren while he’s undercover in Marley, igniting a bond neither of them expected. Despite her gentle nature, Aurora breaks her vow of pacifism to save Eren’s life, solidifying their deep connection. Secretly married before the Raid on Liberio, Aurora is swept into Eren's world of chaos and destruction. As the Scouts learn of her existence, tensions rise on the airship home. Mikasa’s heart shatters, and Levi demands answers. And Eren will stop at nothing to protect the only light left in his dark world—his bride, Aurora.

In this journey of love, loyalty, and war, Aurora must reconcile her innocent heart with the brutal reality of the man she loves, while Eren faces the truth of what he’s become. (Eren x OC)

Chapter Seventeen

The meeting room was dimly lit, the atmosphere thick with tension. Levi sat at the head of the long table, arms crossed, his expression as cold and unreadable as ever. The rest of the Scouts—Mikasa, Armin, Jean, Connie, Sasha, Floch, and Hange—sat around him, along with Commander Pyxis and Commander Nile. The Premier sat across from Levi, his eyes sharp as he surveyed the gathered group.

Levi’s distrust hung in the air, palpable and weighty. He had always been someone who trusted few, but since their return from Marley, his suspicions had deepened. Too many things didn’t add up. And right now, at the center of his distrust, were three people: Historia, Aurora, and Floch.

“This situation with Eren is getting out of hand,” Levi began, his voice calm but laced with tension. “But it’s not just Eren. Something else is going on, and it involves more than just him.”

The others exchanged glances, sensing where this was heading. Mikasa, seated stiffly beside Armin, clenched her fists in her lap, clearly uncomfortable.

“Go on,” Pyxis said, leaning forward with interest. “You’ve been keeping something to yourself, Captain Levi. What is it you suspect?”

Levi’s gaze hardened as he glanced at each of them in turn. “Historia.”

At the mention of the queen’s name, several heads turned in surprise. Hange raised an eyebrow, clearly intrigued, while Jean’s expression shifted to one of uncertainty.

“What about her?” Armin asked, trying to keep his voice steady.

Levi leaned forward slightly, his eyes narrowing. “She’s hiding something. I’ve known Historia for years, and her behavior lately doesn’t sit right with me. Ever since she and Eren grew close after the Reiss chapel incident, something changed between them. She’s more involved in his plans than she’s letting on.”

Mikasa’s brow furrowed as she glanced up, looking conflicted. “Historia is our queen. Eren trusts her.”

“Exactly,” Levi snapped, his tone sharp. “And that’s the problem. Eren trusts her more than he trusts anyone else here—besides maybe Floch.”

All eyes turned to Floch, who stiffened in his seat but did his best to keep his composure. His hands were folded neatly on the table, his face a mask of forced calm.

“Why would Eren ask you to watch over his wife?” Levi continued, turning his piercing gaze to Floch. “Out of all the people in this room, why you? When did you and Eren even get that close?”

Floch shifted uncomfortably, his eyes darting around the room. He had expected questions, but Levi’s directness was unnerving. “Eren trusts me,” Floch replied, trying to sound casual. “He knows I’ll follow through with what needs to be done.”

Levi’s eyes narrowed even further. “Follow through with what exactly?”

Floch held up his hands defensively. “Look, Eren told me to make sure Aurora was safe. That’s all. He knows what’s coming and didn’t want her caught in the crossfire.”

Hange leaned forward, her eyes gleaming with interest. “Caught in the crossfire of what, Floch? Eren clearly has bigger plans than just protecting his wife, doesn’t he?”

Floch hesitated, his jaw clenching as he tried to figure out the best way to deflect. “I’m not involved in Eren’s personal plans,” he lied smoothly. “I’m just following orders. Eren knew we’d be going through some chaotic times, and he didn’t want Aurora hurt.”

Levi didn’t buy it for a second. His cold eyes remained fixed on Floch. “You’re hiding something, just like Historia. You and her, you’re both in cahoots with Eren. And whatever Eren’s planning, it involves more than just protecting some runaway slave from Marley.”

Mikasa’s gaze flickered between Levi and Floch, her heart pounding. She didn’t trust Floch either, but Eren’s secrecy was killing her. Why was he keeping so much from them? From her?

“I don’t understand what you’re implying, Captain,” Floch said, his voice tightening. “Eren is doing what he thinks is best for Paradis. He’s trying to protect us.”

“Protect us from what?” Jean interjected, leaning forward, his eyes narrowing in suspicion. “From Marley? From the world? Eren didn’t tell any of us about his plans before we went to Liberio. He dragged us along, forced us to fight, and now we’re all stuck cleaning up his mess.”

“Eren has his reasons,” Floch replied defensively. “He’s doing what has to be done.”

Levi’s gaze remained fixed on Floch, unwavering. “And Historia? What’s her role in all of this?”

Floch’s lips tightened. “She’s the queen. Eren trusts her to keep the people in line. That’s it.”

“That’s not it,” Levi retorted, his voice low and dangerous. “I’ve seen the way Historia’s been acting. She’s too calm. Too composed. She knows more than she’s letting on. And if she’s in on whatever Eren’s planning, then we’re in for something much bigger than any of us realize.”

Pyxis, who had been quietly observing the exchange, spoke up at last. “Levi’s right. Queen Historia has been acting... unusually reserved, given the situation. Normally, I’d expect more out of her, especially given the precarious nature of Paradis right now.”

“And what about Aurora?” Commander Nile asked, his eyes narrowing thoughtfully. “She’s clearly involved as well, but she hasn’t told us much. She’s just as suspicious.”

Levi nodded grimly. “Aurora’s hiding something, too. She claims she doesn’t know about Eren’s plans, but her loyalty to him is too strong. She’s hiding information. Between her, Historia, and Floch, I wouldn’t be surprised if they’ve all been working with Eren for longer than we think.”

Floch’s jaw clenched, his fingers tightening around the edge of the table. “That’s a baseless accusation.”

“It’s not,” Levi countered, his voice cold. “I don’t trust any of you. Not right now.”

Mikasa, who had been quiet throughout most of the exchange, suddenly spoke up, her voice strained. “Eren’s always had his own way of doing things, but he’s never gone this far before. Whatever he’s planning... it’s not just about Marley, is it?”

Levi’s eyes flickered to Mikasa, his expression softening for a brief moment. “No,” he said quietly. “It’s not just about Marley. It’s bigger than that.”

The room remained tense as the conversation shifted. Levi’s suspicions about Historia, Aurora, and Floch had set an uneasy tone, but now the conversation veered into even darker territory. Premier Zachary sat at the head of the table, his fingers steepled as he looked over the group with a calculating expression. Commander Pyxis and Commander Nile exchanged wary glances, both of them clearly deep in thought.

“We have bigger concerns now than just Eren’s loyalty,” Premier Zachary began, his voice low and measured. “His actions in Liberio have set a dangerous precedent. The world knows now that we are a threat, and Marley will not let this go unanswered. They will retaliate, and soon.”

Hange, who had been silently absorbing everything, leaned forward with a troubled look. “It’s not just Marley. The entire world saw Eren attack Liberio, kill civilians, and consume the War Hammer Titan. The world will come for us, and we need to be prepared for that.”

Jean crossed his arms, his brow furrowed. “Prepared how? We don’t have the numbers or the technology to stand against the entire world. Marley alone is a nightmare, but if the other nations unite against us...”

Sasha shifted uncomfortably in her seat. “They’re going to come after us with everything they have. Eren didn’t just provoke Marley—he provoked the entire world.”

Connie sighed, rubbing the back of his neck. “I hate to say it, but they’re right. The world isn’t going to forgive us for what Eren did.”

Levi remained silent, his sharp eyes flickering between the faces of the others. He agreed with their concerns, but his mind was still focused on Historia and Aurora. The fact that Eren had refused to answer any questions during his interrogation, yet had given specific instructions to Historia to take Aurora under her care, left Levi uneasy. There was more going on beneath the surface, and Eren was orchestrating something they didn’t fully understand.

“Then there’s Aurora,” Nile said, breaking the silence. His voice was cautious, but there was a note of suspicion in it. “We still don’t know her full role in all of this. Eren’s secrecy regarding her is unsettling. If she’s important enough to Eren that he sent her to Historia, there’s a chance she’s more involved than we think.”

Hange nodded in agreement. “And she’s not just some random woman from Marley. She was with Eren for seven months, and from what we’ve gathered, she was actively helping him. Eren’s transformations during the raid on Liberio were unnaturally frequent, and Aurora admitted to making elixirs that boosted his stamina.”

Jean raised an eyebrow. “Elixirs? Do we even know how reliable they are? She claims they helped him, but for all we know, she could be lying. Maybe it wasn’t her potions at all.”

Levi crossed his arms, his voice hard and cold. “It doesn’t matter whether her elixirs worked or not. The fact that Eren trusts her enough to involve her in his plans is what concerns me. He’s gone rogue, and she’s playing a part in whatever game he’s running.”

“Her Majesty’s involvement is just as concerning,” Commander Pyxis added, his tone thoughtful. “Eren’s relationship with Queen Historia has always been... unusual. The Queen has a lot of influence, and if she’s compromised, we could be dealing with more than just Eren’s rogue actions.”

Levi nodded grimly. “She’s compromised. There’s no doubt about it. Eren has Historia’s loyalty, and now he has Aurora in her care. We’re losing control of the situation.”

Mikasa, who had been listening in silence, suddenly spoke up, her voice shaking slightly. “Eren isn’t our enemy. He’s doing what he thinks is best for Paradis. He’s always fought for our freedom.”

Levi’s gaze snapped toward her, his eyes narrowing. “He’s gone rogue, Mikasa. He dragged us into a war without consulting anyone, and now we’re all paying the price.”

Mikasa clenched her fists, her eyes blazing with defiance. “He did what he had to. If we don’t fight back, Marley and the rest of the world will destroy us. Eren isn’t the problem—the world is.”

“Be that as it may,” Premier Zachary interjected, his voice cold and detached, “we cannot ignore the fact that Eren’s actions have endangered us all. We need to consider the possibility of removing him from power.”

A stunned silence filled the room.

“Remove him?” Armin echoed, his face paling. “What do you mean?”

Premier Zachary’s gaze turned steely. “We’ve been discussing options, and it’s clear that Eren’s intentions are no longer aligned with our own. He’s become a liability. We can’t risk leaving the Founding Titan’s power in the hands of someone who refuses to cooperate with the military.”

Levi remained silent, but his eyes darkened as he listened.

Commander Nile leaned forward, his expression serious. “There is another option. We could feed Eren to someone else—someone we trust. Someone who would follow orders and use the power of the Founding Titan responsibly.”

The suggestion hung heavy in the air, the weight of it crushing. Mikasa’s eyes widened in horror, and she shot to her feet, her hands slamming against the table.

“No!” she shouted, her voice shaking with emotion. “You can’t do that! Eren... Eren is trying to protect us! You can’t just... just kill him!”

“Mikasa...” Armin began softly, his face full of concern.

Mikasa’s eyes were wild, her breath coming in quick, uneven bursts. “He’s our friend! He’s saved us so many times! How can you even suggest something like that?”

Premier Zachary’s expression remained impassive. “This isn’t about friendship, Mikasa. It’s about the survival of Paradis. Eren’s reckless actions have put us all at risk, and if we don’t take control of the situation, we could lose everything.”

Hange spoke up, her voice more cautious. “I don’t think any of us want to see Eren harmed. But we need to consider the possibility that Eren’s path is leading us to destruction. We have to weigh all our options.”

Mikasa’s fists trembled as she stood there, her eyes blazing with emotion. “I won’t let you kill him,” she said, her voice low but full of determination. “I don’t care what it takes—I’ll protect him.”

Levi sighed, rubbing his temples. “Mikasa, no one wants to kill him. But if Eren keeps this up, he’ll end up getting himself killed, and all of us along with him.”

Mikasa’s gaze softened slightly, but her resolve remained firm. “There has to be another way. We can talk to him. Make him understand.”

Levi’s eyes narrowed. “He refused to talk during his interrogation. The only person he’s willing to communicate with is Historia. That should tell you everything you need to know.”

Jean spoke up, his voice strained. “Eren isn’t the same person he used to be. He’s different now. We all see it.”

Connie nodded in agreement. “He’s... distant. Cold. I don’t even recognize him anymore.”

Sasha glanced at Mikasa, her face full of sympathy. “But he’s still our friend, right? We owe it to him to at least try to talk to him before we make any decisions.”

Levi remained silent for a long moment before finally speaking. “We’ll try. But if Eren’s too far gone, we need to be prepared for the worst.”

The room fell into a tense silence once again. Mikasa slowly sank back into her chair, her face pale and full of despair. Armin placed a comforting hand on her shoulder, his expression grim.

Premier Zachary broke the silence, his voice cold and firm. “For now, we monitor Eren closely. No decisions will be made until we have more information. But if Eren continues down this path, we will have to take action—whether you like it or not.”

The meeting ended on that heavy note, each member of the group leaving the room with the weight of uncertainty on their shoulders. Eren was still in his cell, Floch, Historia and Aurora remained enshrouded in suspicion, and the looming threat of Marley’s retaliation hung over them like a storm cloud.

…

The cold stone corridors of the prison were eerily silent as Mikasa made her way to Eren's cell. The dim light from the torches flickered against the walls, casting long shadows that seemed to stretch endlessly. Her heart pounded in her chest, each step heavier than the last. She knew she wasn’t supposed to be here—especially not alone—but she had to talk to him. She had to warn him.

Eren had always been someone she thought she understood, but lately, it was like staring at a stranger. The man who sat behind the bars now, stoic and unreachable, wasn’t the boy she had fought beside for years. But despite everything—the pain, the confusion, the heartbreak—she needed to see him. She needed to tell him about what the military was planning. If anyone had a chance of getting through to him, it had to be her. Or so she thought.

As she reached Eren’s cell, her breath hitched. There he sat, on the simple wooden bench, his gaze fixed ahead, completely unfazed by the world around him. His long hair hung messily over his face, and the shadows of the bars cut across his features. He didn’t move, didn’t acknowledge her presence as she approached.

“Eren,” Mikasa whispered, gripping the cold metal bars. “I need to talk to you.”

Still, he said nothing. His eyes remained distant, staring at something only he could see.

Mikasa clenched her fists. She knew he had changed, but this silence—it was infuriating. “Eren, you have to listen to me. The military is planning something. They’re talking about replacing you… passing your titan powers to someone else.”

Eren’s eyes flickered briefly, but he remained silent, his expression unreadable.

“Eren!” Mikasa’s voice was harsher now, a mix of desperation and frustration. “Do you even care? Do you understand what they’re saying? They want to kill you and pass your powers to someone else!”

Still, no response. His face remained calm, stoic, as if the weight of her words meant nothing to him.

Mikasa’s heart twisted in her chest. This wasn’t the Eren she knew—the boy who fought with everything he had, who raged against the world, who wanted to save everyone. This man before her seemed… resigned, unmoved by the threat looming over him. But she couldn’t give up. She wouldn’t give up.

“I’ve always been by your side,” Mikasa continued, her voice breaking slightly. “I’ve fought for you, protected you, and now you’re just… sitting there like nothing matters. Don’t you understand? They’re going to make a decision soon, and if you don’t do something, they’ll—”

Eren finally moved, his eyes shifting to meet hers. But instead of the anger or determination she expected, there was only calm detachment. His lips parted, and he spoke, his voice low and indifferent.

“I don’t care what they’re planning.”

Mikasa’s breath caught in her throat. “What…?”

“I already have a plan in motion,” Eren continued, his tone unwavering. “Let them plot all they want. It doesn’t matter. As long as Aurora is safe with Historia, everything is going according to plan.”

Mikasa’s heart sank at the mention of Aurora’s name, her stomach twisting painfully. Of course, it was about Aurora. Everything was about her now. Mikasa’s chest tightened with a mix of jealousy, anger, and heartbreak. She had always thought—no, she had always believed—that she and Eren shared something special, something deeper than friendship. She had devoted herself to him, protected him, loved him. But in the end, none of it mattered, did it? Because Eren had chosen someone else.

“You…” Her voice trembled, barely keeping the tears at bay. “You don’t care about me at all, do you?”

Eren’s expression didn’t change. “Mikasa, this isn’t about you. It’s about the future of Paradis. I’m doing what needs to be done.”

“What needs to be done?” Mikasa’s frustration bubbled over, and before she could stop herself, she was lashing out. “You ran off in Marley! You left us—left me—without saying anything! You didn’t care about how any of us felt! And then you come back, dragging us into your plan, and now we find out that you’ve married some woman we don’t even know?!”

Eren’s eyes remained on her, unblinking. “Mikasa…”

“No!” Mikasa’s voice cracked, the pain in her heart spilling out as she pressed her forehead against the cold bars, her hands gripping them tightly. “You don’t understand, do you? I’ve always thought… I’ve always hoped that one day it would be us. That we’d fight side by side, survive together… and maybe—maybe we’d finally be together. But now—now you’ve married her.”

Mikasa could barely breathe, her emotions overwhelming her. She felt exposed, vulnerable, something she had never allowed herself to be. She had held back her feelings for so long, always hoping that someday Eren would see her the way she saw him. But now, all those hopes were shattered.

Eren’s expression softened slightly, but his voice remained distant. “Mikasa… you’ve always been important to me. But I’m doing this for Paradis. For the future.”

“For Paradis?” Mikasa whispered, her voice trembling. “Or for her?”

Silence stretched between them, heavy and unbearable. Mikasa could see the truth in his eyes—Eren wasn’t the boy she had grown up with, the boy who once cared for her as deeply as she cared for him. He was focused on something far beyond their relationship, far beyond anything she could understand.

“Mikasa,” Eren said softly, his voice almost gentle. “I love Aurora.”

The words hit her like a physical blow, knocking the breath from her lungs. She had already known, but hearing him say it out loud made it real in a way she wasn’t prepared for.

Eren continued, “This isn’t about choosing between you or her. It’s about the path I’ve chosen. I’m going to end this war, no matter the cost. I can’t afford to be distracted.”

Mikasa’s shoulders slumped, her heart shattering into a million pieces. She had fought for so long, for so many reasons. But the one thing she had never been able to fight for—Eren’s love—was lost to her forever.

“I just want you to be safe,” Eren added, his voice distant again. “But I can’t be the person you want me to be.”

Tears welled in her eyes, but Mikasa blinked them back, refusing to let him see her break down. “I don’t care about your plans anymore, Eren,” she whispered, her voice barely audible. “I just… I just wanted you to care.”

Without another word, Mikasa turned and walked away, leaving Eren behind, locked in his cell—locked in a future she could no longer reach.

As she made her way out of the prison, her heart ached with the weight of unspoken words, unfulfilled hopes, and the realization that the Eren she had loved was gone, replaced by someone she barely recognized. Someone who had chosen a different path, a different life—one that didn’t include her.

…

 Eren watched Mikasa's retreating figure disappear down the dim hallway, a knot tightened in his chest. He hadn’t meant to hurt her, not like this. The weight of her words lingered, hanging in the silence of his cell. Mikasa had always been by his side, loyal to a fault, but the reality was, he couldn’t give her what she wanted. His path had been decided long before, and Aurora… Aurora had come into his life like a sudden, unstoppable force.

He leaned back against the cold stone wall of the cell, staring up at the ceiling. How had things come to this? He never intended for it to go this far, for any of this to happen. The world had grown darker and more complicated, and so had he. His journey had stripped him of the boy he used to be, replacing him with a hardened man willing to burn the world for his people’s freedom. But then Aurora had reappeared, and for the first time in a long while, he had felt… something. Hope, maybe. Warmth. A sense of belonging that had eluded him for so long.

Meeting her again had not been part of his plan. Neither was falling in love with her. Eren closed his eyes, the memories of their time together in the cabin flooding his mind—the late nights, the quiet mornings, her laughter, her smile. He hadn’t expected any of it, but it had happened, and now that he had her, he could never regret it.

The time spent in that cabin had saved him. It had kept him grounded, kept him from plunging completely into the abyss of anger and despair that had consumed so much of his soul. Aurora had given him a reason to hold on to some part of himself, to remember that he wasn’t just a weapon, a tool of destruction. She had reminded him that there was still something worth living for, even amidst the chaos of his plans for the rumbling.

Eren thought back to the days they spent in the cabin, hidden away from the world, where he could forget for a while that he was the devil of Paradis, that he was the key to unleashing unimaginable destruction. In those moments, when he held Aurora close, when they talked about everything and nothing, he was just… Eren. And that was enough.

He hadn’t planned on marrying her. But the thought had come so naturally after everything they had been through together. Their love had been forged in secrecy, in quiet defiance of the world that had tried to break them both. Aurora had seen the darkest parts of him, witnessed his ruthlessness, and yet she had stayed. She had chosen him, despite it all, and in return, he had vowed to love and protect her with everything he had.

Now, as he sat in the cold silence of the cell, Eren felt the weight of the world pressing down on him again. The rumbling was coming. The world would burn. He had made his choice, and there was no going back. But even as he prepared for the unimaginable destruction that was to come, his thoughts kept circling back to Aurora.

She was his anchor, the one person who kept him tethered to whatever humanity he had left. And despite the guilt gnawing at him for what he had done to Mikasa, he couldn’t regret his decision. He was in love with Aurora, and that love was the only thing that kept the darkness from consuming him completely.

Eren opened his eyes, staring at the iron bars of his cell. He had made his choices. He would unleash the rumbling, he would protect Paradis, and he would do everything in his power to keep Aurora safe. That was the one thing he could still hold on to. In a world filled with uncertainty and chaos, his love for her remained unshakable. She was his future, his reason to fight, and the one thing he refused to lose, no matter what the cost.

With a deep breath, Eren leaned his head back against the wall, his mind already shifting to the plans ahead. The time for reflection was over. Soon, the real battle would begin, and when it did, he would make sure that Aurora—his wife, his love—would have the future she deserved. A future free from fear. A future he would carve out for her with his own hands.

He knew Mikasa would never understand that, not fully. But this wasn’t about what she wanted or expected from him. This was about what he had to do. And he would do it—for Aurora, for Paradis, and for the freedom they both deserved.

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Thank you for taking the time to read through this!! It means a lot!

I think mannerisms is a great call too! I imagined that maybe as Armin and Annie spend time together, training, on missions etc, maybe at some point they get put in danger. Let's say they do the snow/mountain mission together (the one Historia and Ymir were doing) and Armin shouts "Annie, to your left!!" In a particular way to warn her of danger. That same line could come back from the Female Titan as the very first thing it says, without thinking (and to save Annie from danger again). This is all just random midnight ideas so please bare with me🙏 I'm sleepy!

In terms of body language maybe Annie notices that over time Armin becomes more comfortable around her, and he's even softer and more feminine than he came across initialy. Maybe she picks up on a few things he says that also don't make sense, like information that he knows because he's from Marley. As an example maybe Armin tells Annie about spiders and how they are very smart arachnids, but then Annie realizes that she's never head of that term before, and neither have several people including someone like Hange. In Paradis spiders are just insects.

For the syren voice, it wouldn't affect humans, only titans can be controlled with it. But the echo of it through the forest is certainly very eerie and also seems to come from multiple directions. It's also eerie when Armin decides to start talking, and the Female Titan voice is loud, but still quite peaceful all things considered. I think Hange would literally conbust knowing that Armin'a titan can TALK.

For RBA, it can go 2 ways. Reiner is super protective of Armin to the point where he is often pushed to the side to "keep his mind and voice safe"

Or Reiner and Bertholdt are not very happy to have him on the mission, since he's not the best female titan holder ever and was unable to save Marcel, almost getting eaten himself.

Either way, Armin is a bit of a third wheel on the warrior wagon, being the weakest of them. But in my vision Armin's motivation to join the warrior program is his curiosity for Paradis and his desire to know the truth behind the so called "devils". So he was never doing it for glory, money or anything else. Just because he dreamed of a world with no Eldian prosecution. He's tagging along, knowing that eventually he may betray them.

From the Scouts POV, I would say Reiner and Bertholdt would be the main duo like in the regular timeline, and then maybe Armin would interact with them, but they might be a bit harsh with him. Especially if Armin struggles with the ODM gear and passing all the psysical test to graduate being a cadet.

Maybe this is where Annie comes in and offers to help him out with his training.

In this timeline Annie replaces Armin in EMA, so she is childhood friends with Mikasa and Eren. They often stood up for her on the days where Mr Leonhart was abusive towards her, so seeing Armin being "bullied" by Reiner and Bertholdt (and other cadets) just doesn't sit right with her.

Over time Armin grows closer to Annie and then through her he also befriends Eren and Mikasa.

Sorry for this long mess I hope you like it!

My design for Female Titan Armin! Based on a lot of reblogs and replies under this post! Dedicated to @aruanimess @blueguydraws and @pitruli who motivated me to work on this sketch further and actually finish the concept!!

In my vision, Armin's female titan is unique through its strenght to lure and command other titans and it's ability to speak! This version of the female titan has an almost siren like voice, rather than a Zeke-like scream.

His strategic mind also helps him come up with very creative solutions to problems such as getting cornered, chased, etc. Very much an imprevisible titan. You can never read his mind.

I also think it would be neat if Armin gave himself away by using certain words or phrases that Annie recognizes as his. This would be in a similar fashion to how we figured out Annie was the female titan through its signature fighting stance!

Maybe he does not speak at all until he is put in a situation where Annie is in danger from another titan, or himself, and he shouts something that clicks inside Annie's mind.

Much like Armin, she takes a long time to admit this to the rest since by this point she had developed feelings for him and had gotten close, seeing him as a pillar of hope in her life. So you can imagine all her hope just shatters the moment she connects the dots😭.

Armin's titan, although tall, is actually not very physically strong and that's why it's almost always followed or surrounded by an army of titans which protect its legs and lower body. However, he can control his hardening very well, which saves him a lot of times. It's all about strategic placement!

In terms of the design, I took a lot of inspiration from Annie's Female Titan, Armin's Colossal Titan and a few other background Female Titans from the last arc.

Funny enough, I went for something more feminine and gentle. Armin feels a lot of comfort in this bodily appearance, and I wanted to reflect that. Especially since him getting the Female Titan might have triggered all sorts of issues both internal and external for him in Marley. This could also be reflected in the way Reiner and Bertholdt treat him or perceive him as the weakest of the group. And also with the scouts due to his weaker body.

Let me know what you think! And I'd love to discuss more ideas with you!

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Anonymous asked:

Mikasa x fem reader who is very protective and always has been of Mikasa. When Mikasa gets Eren back, the reader starts to distance herself from Mikasa because Mikasa is very loving towards Eren and the reader feels forgotten 🥺 but Mikasa doesn’t like Eren that way and hates how the reader has almost vanished from her life. They get together in the end. I keep asking writers for this and no one responds. headcanons or a Drabble would be fab!

Canon Verse Mikasa Ackerman x Fem!Reader

A/N: This is such a cute idea. When you said "gets Eren back" I'm assuming you mean when Reiner and Bert snatched him that one time lol so that's what I based it on. I <3 Mikasa sm. She deserves the world tbh anyways here it is!

Summary: After Eren's rescue, all of Mikasa's attention is placed upon Eren. Y/N feels forgotten and starts to distance herself from Mikasa. She thinks her absence goes unnoticed. It doesn't.

CW: light swearing, season 2 spoilers (okay if you haven't seen at least s2 cmon), jealous! reader, slight aggression towards each other **Might be a little longer than a drabble tbh

WC: 1.6k (not proofread yet :p )

Listened to F Song by Strawberry Guy while writing this <3

Ever since you saw Mikasa with Eren the first day of cadet training, you knew she was someone you wanted to get to know. She was effortlessly gorgeous in the way she walked or glided through the air in her ODM gear. When you finally introduced yourself after a few weeks of heavily debating if you should even approach her, she seemed distant at first. But you were persistent and eventually broke down the wall she had put up for everyone else. Eren, Armin, and now, you are the only ones to see the softer side of Mikasa Ackerman.

As time went on you became secretly very protective over Mikasa. The way she would throw herself into dangerous situations in the name of saving Eren had you scrambling after her, running head on into whatever situation was thrown at you. You didn't mind it though. Mikasa was always there to protect her friends. It was only right that someone look out for her too. Not that she really needed it.

Mikasa noticed that wherever she went, you were following close behind. Even in the heat of battle. She deeply appreciated your loyalty. Everytime she got a glance of you covering her in battle or standing up to back her in an argument, she remembered the day you two met in training. You awkwardly smile as you introduced yourself, extending your hand. She remembered taking your hand and feeling how soft and gentle your grip was. You were always someone she could rely on no matter what.

In time the two of you became each other's rock. You did everything together. You were the first person Mikasa actually opened up to. She allowed you to comfort her, though it was rare, but she felt safe being vulnerable with you when she needed it. Sometimes, after a particularly hard day, Eren and Armin would find you and Mikasa fast asleep in one of your beds. Your limbs were tangled with each others and your face was usually buried in her chest with her hand on top of your head.

It was clear there was chemistry between you two, but neither one of you ever talked about it. There was never a definitive label with you and her.

The past few days have been a whirlwind of emotions for everyone in the scouts. Reiner and Bertholdt revealed their true identity as the Armored and Colossal Titan and managed to capture Eren in the process, attempting to bring him back to where they came from. After a brutal fight and losing many comrades, the scouts managed to get Eren and Historia back. Things finally seemed like they were calming down. At last you could take a breath.

After cleaning up, you got dressed and headed back to the bunks. On the way back you ran into Mikasa.

"Hey, how's Eren holding up?" You ask her. You could see her forehead scrunch with worry.

"He's still unconscious. They're hoping he wakes up soon so they can ask him about anything Reiner and Bertholdt may have said while he was with them." She explains.

"I see." You sighed. You were worried about Eren too. Being so close with Mikasa meant you were also close with Eren. You were slightly at ease again knowing he was back under surveillance of the scouts. "Well if you want we can go up to my room and talk?" You asked hopefully. You knew she would probably want to talk about the events that unfolded over the past few days. Hell, you really needed to talk. To be honest, that was the most terrified you'd been in a long time. Going against the Armored Titan, Bertholdt, and Ymir was terrifying within itself, on top of attempting to get Eren and Historia back to safety and not dying, on top of also worrying about Mikasa.

"Thanks, Y/N, but I think I need to stay with Eren for a while. I'm hopeful he will wake up soon and I want to be there when he does." She said, looking back at Eren in the infirmary bed. "I'll stop by later tonight though."

"Alright, I'll see you then." You say, feeling a bit dejected. You went back to your room and sat down on your bed with a long sigh. You tried to pass the time by reading a book that Armin let you borrow.

You got lost in the book and decided you were getting tired. You yawned and set it on your nightstand. You took a glance out the window and noticed that it was now dark. The moon and the clusters of stars littered the sky. it must have been hours since your conversation with Mikasa. You waited up a little longer for her, but no luck. You sighed again and settled on calling it a night.

****

About a week later, and still, you haven't heard anything from Mikasa. You were beginning to worry. Had you done something wrong? You still saw her everywhere. At meals, in squad meetings, and even more training. Just because you saw her didn't mean that you two spoke at all. It was so weird and sudden. You didn't understand what happened. As of recently, she spent all her time with Eren, attached at the hip. You absolutely hated it. Yes of course it was horrifying that Eren got taken so suddenly in what seemed like the biggest betrayal you have ever faced, but he's back now. It was like you didn't exist to her. It was only Eren.

You were growing increasingly jealous as the weeks went on. After a while, it was like you completely erased yourself from her life. The only person that decision seemed to effect was you, seeing as she never reached out to ask what happened over the past month. You began to think your absence went unnoticed.

It did not.

As you were walking through the courtyard, heading into headquarters, you felt a familiar grip on your wrist. You were suddenly pulled back into a grassy corner of the courtyard right next to a few pillars. You whipped your head around to see familiar black locks. You clenched your jaw as you looked into her dark eyes.

"Why does it feel like you just up and walked out of my life?" She asked, aggression lining her voice.

"I could ask you the same thing." You fire back. "Where's Eren? I'm surprised he's not attached to your hip."

She rolls her eyes and gives you a sharp glare, inching closer to you. You could tell she was trying to intimidate you into owning up to why you did what you did, but you weren't budging. "What is your problem, Y/N?" She was really trying to contain her anger with you, but her question came out almost as a growl.

"Nothing. I don't have a problem." You say, tone laced with venom. "I'm perfectly fine with you giving Eren all of you attention. He clearly needs it more than I do. If you don't need me anymore, I don't need you. It's that simple."

You didn't actually mean a single word you just said, but you were so hurt. It felt like she completely forgot about you. What hurt the most is after all that time apart you realized that you had feelings for her, and if she felt that same, she wouldn't be doing this.

Mikasa's eyes widen slightly as you brush past her shoulder walking past her. She quickly turns and grabs your shoulders, spinning you around until your back meets the cold stone of the pillar. Your eyes shut from the harsh impact. As you open them again you see her face is extremely close to yours, breathing heavily. Her hands were shaking as she kept her tight grip on your shoulders.

"You-" she said shakily. "You don't mean that... do you?" Her pleading gaze burning deep into your eyes.

Your face flushed deep red while realizing how close you two were. Her face was inches from yours, her body almost pressing into you. You were speechless; heart thumping loudly as all your previous feelings for her bubbled up. You opened your mouth to object but you closed it again upon seeing her move impossibly close to you.

Her lips ghosted against yours as she towered over you and looked at you with narrowed eyes. "Do you?" Her voice was wavering.

Your eyes fell wide feeling her soft lips barely touching yours as she spoke. This time you moved closer, fully connecting your lips to hers. Your hands moved to drape over her shoulders, deepening the kiss. Her arms on either side of you are still caging you against the pillar. She kissed you shyly at first but slowly eased into it. Your movements were longing and she mimicked the same desperation as she kissed you. It was like you were both making up for lost time.

When you finally pulled apart you rested your forehead against hers, hands tightly gripping her shirt. "No, I didn't mean it." You said breathlessly.

"Good." She said serious as ever. "I need you, Y/N." Though she was looking you in the eyes and putting on a strong face, you could see the slight waver in her stoic expression. It almost made you smile how shy she was in admitting her feelings.

"I need you too, Mikasa. I'm sorry. I just saw how much you were doting on Eren and I got upset. I starting thinking you never felt the same way as I did." You sighed.

Hearing you say that you needed her too sparked something inside her chest that she's never felt before. Without another thought she leaned in for another sweet kiss. This time it didn't start out shy. She knew what she wanted now and it was you. She wanted to show you how much she felt the same way.

"You're the only person I can fully trust no matter what. I love you. My attention is all yours." Her words were confident and reassuring.

You smiled. "I love you too, Mika."

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「Things aot characters do when they have a crush」

⤷ Levi

he starts to take care of you and protect you in little ways; he offers to walk you home and only leaves when he's sure you're safe. he puts his hand on your back when you walk or protects you with his body in crowded places. he always has your favorite tea and makes it often for you, even without you asking. when you're feeling cold, if only a little, he instantly drapes his jacket over your shoulders in a protective way. he puts his hand over your face to protect your eyes from the sun on a very sunny day. in a room full of people, he always wonders where you are. he always has an eye on you to make sure you are well and comfortable and to admire your beauty that he is so enchanted.

⤷ Eren

he tries to be your best friend; he's slow to notice his feelings, but he doesn't bother hiding them after he does. he doesn't want to scare you, of course, so he tries to get even closer to you so that you can create an even deeper and more special bond. and in the meantime, he makes sure everyone knows you two are close. actually plays it cool, but secretly thinks of you 24/7. sometimes his eyes unconsciously drop to your lips as he speaks to you. always asks you out with his friends and ends up ignoring or forgetting everyone else and just talks to you like you're the only person in the world. so many little touches, like light brushing with your fingertips, a light rubbing of the shoulders or knees touching under the table. is tenderly protective of you and very supportive.

⤷ Mikasa

she leaves little hints that she only has eyes for you; when others are talking superficially about people they think are hot, she never joins the conversation, and if you're there, she looks at you very often before looking away at the floor. if someone asks her to describe her ideal type, her mind immediately goes to you as she describes your qualities. she also likes to hear you talk, she loves to ask about your day and it's not just 'how was your day', she says 'tell me about your day' because she really wants to know and because she loves being so close to you.

⤷ Jean

he becomes softer and more indulgent; he will gladly put up with your teasing and impudence without retaliating too much, he rolls his eyes as if he's bored, but if you pay just a little attention, you'll see the small smile lingering on his face with your witty comments. other people find it equally frustrating and nauseatingly cute how blatantly biased he is towards you; like one day, everyone is trying to convince him to go out to a new bar, and he angrily keeps saying no, but the moment the others mention you'll be there, he immediately says "ok, what time?"

⤷ Armin

your words matter a lot for him; one day, you casually greeted him saying he looks good in green and you were pleasantly surprised to see that he wore different shades of green all week. and you're also the first person he thinks of and wants to go to if he needs or wants something. it's usually small things that he considers important, like asking you to pick a color for a new shirt he's buying or borrowing your pen when he forgets to bring it - even if other people offer him the same pen, he politely refuses because it's yours he wants.

⤷ Connie

he always wants to make you smile or laugh; whenever he tells a joke, you are the first person he looks at, because he wants to see your reaction. the heat and a tinge of redness spreads across his cheeks when you meet his gaze in the middle of your laugh. he also tends to casually whisper little inside jokes in your ear or comment on something he saw when you guys are in public. and smile fondly when you make a funny expression. “I love your laugh. I love it so much”, he lets you know randomly one day.

⤷ Porco

he looks at you like you should be protected at all costs, like you're the most precious thing in the world. and honestly he doesn't care if you catch him staring at you, he won't stop. he likes to notice your little quirks and habits and he finds them so goddamn cute. he wants your opinion on things because he cares about what you think. he wants to be up to date on your life and keeps you up to date on his. soft looks, but deep and intense. becoming goofy and energetic around you because he loves to make you smile.

🏷 tags! @1nterbad, @togasbloodbag, @anarchythedork, @kitkozume, @mikaelatp,@deadmansdoctor, @dukina, @team-heichou, @escapenightmare, @shiggyscumrag

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songs that I associate the aot characters with

This is the first thing I’ve properly wrote on here. Hoping this goes well 🤞🏼 anyway It’s literally 3am rn so here are some songs that I associate with the aot characters. I tried to keep this as gender neutral as I possibly could. Lemme know if you guys like it and feel free to send me any headcanon ideas since I have alot. Enjoy?<3

Warnings: some mentions NSFW and obvious spoilers

Characters included: Eren, Armin, Mikasa, Sasha, Connie, Jean, Reiner, Levi, Hanji, Erwin

Eren:

Brazil by Declan McKenna

every time I listen to this song I just remember Eren. Especially a modern au version of him or junior high eren. I see the more playful and adorable side of eren and feel it in this song. I literally cannot unsee it

I can’t handle change by Roar

Maybe it’s the aries in him I don’t know but I just see him being in an angsty little mood and listening to this song. Eren relates to this song on an EMBARRASSING level. I feel like maybe he tried to deny it at first “no wtf I’m not that dramatic” as if he didn’t commit genocide to protect his friends but eventually I think he could even cry to this song at 3am. Aries pride tbh.

White Ferrari by Frank Ocean

Eren fucking cries to Frank ocean. Eren feels himself when he’s listening to Frank Ocean. If Frank Ocean asked Eren for a BJ eren would kneel down and put his whole erenussy into worshipping and pleasing his lord and savior Frank Ocean. I imagine being in the car alone with Eren in the middle of the night and White Ferrari comes on and you two sit in absolute silence enjoying the music (especially the outro). Heaven on Earth. Stolen glances between red lights and stop signs. Summer night, breeze gliding softly through your hair from the rolled down windows.

In My Room by Frank ocean

Eren smokes to this song. Eren does thirsts to this song. Eren fucks to this song. He’d fuck hard to this song. And if he couldn’t he’d a rub one to this song. Safe to say it’s on his sex playlist. Trust me. He told me to play it before we fucked in his room.

Daddy Issues by The Neighbourhood

I’m just gonna leave this here and not elaborate 😭😭😭😭😭😭 NO EREN SLANDER HERE HE CAN LISTEN TO WHATEVER HE LIKES HOMEBOY ATE HIS DADDY OK.

Halley’s Comet by Billie Eilish

This one is completely personal and mainly about season 4 Eren it was after he sacrificed himself and I had woken up in the morning and when this song came on I started crying when I thought of him. Especially the part, “what a drag to love you like I do” and ever since then I could never get Eren unassociated with this song. Moreover I’m convinced he loves this song he’s a Billie boy deep down, it may not seem like it but he’d definitely listen to her music when he’s particularly down. Favorites of his; ‘I love you’, ‘listen before I go’, ‘therefore I am’ , ‘male fantasy’.

little person by Matt Maltease

He’d play this in the car and tap the steering wheel while humming softly. This is one of those chill sad songs Eren would drift toward during times where his energy is just drained and he just can’t act happy and energetic anymore. If he listens to this song with you, he really loves you and is comfortable with you. Eren is the type of guy who would only play songs that mean a lot to him around people he truly cares about and this is one of them. Eren is such a sweetheart and is genuinely such a good friend. He has literally killed for kids friends and would do it again if it meant he could keep the people he loves safe and happy.

Armin:

These foolish things by Nat King Cole

Armin is a jazz boy through and through. Nat King Cole litters this man’s playlist. This song just reminds me of him so much, everytime it plays it’s literally just Armin ringing in my head. Just being in his little blue mini cooper that’s his car fight me idc sipping ice teas driving around, or coming home from the beach and this song is playing on the car speakers; ranting about the most random things, from space to mythology. Anyway yeah jazz boy Armin all the way.

Good Looking by Suki Waterhouse

My good looking boy. He blames himself for absolutely everything and is constantly trying to figure everything out. “The skyline falls as I try to make sense of it all, I thought I’d uncovered your secrets but turns out there’s more”. He’s just a little sweetheart that deserves the biggest cuddle and kiss on the forehead. Precious ocean boy.

Pretty boy by The Neighbourhood

soft soft soft soft. Warm milk and honey. The smell of fresh linen sheets. The color blue. Armin. I have literally never heard a song that radiated armin energy more than this song. SOMEONE MAKE AN EDIT ALREADY. Armin would listen to this and would cry if anyone ever told him the song reminded them of him tears of joy tears of joy. But yeah this song is on his playlist. I see him painting or studying or even reading with this song in the background. Gift him this song and he’ll cherish you (and the song) forever.

Regent’s Park by Bruno Major

I’m convinced he’s the one who wrote this song, conspiracy theory🤔🤔. I genuinely believe Armin would resonate so deeply with this song especially the part; “No one wants to hear a song about the bitch that broke my heart”, get off my back he’d say this. Armin is an absolute sweetheart but fuck with him and you’ll lose him forever Scorpio pride. Also the instrumental, Mr ocean eyes would sway his hips to this shit no doubt abt it. He’d hum it. He’d whistle it. He’d tap the chorus on the steering wheel. He is an R&B king. Favorite genre of music for sure.

Astronomy by Conan Gray

I ASSOCIATE HIM WITH ASTRONOMY. i just KNOW he loves stars and stargazing. He’d have a list of his favorite constellations and if you ever asked him to talk about Astronomy or anything related HE WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER. New friendship achievement unlocked type shit.

Out like a light by The Honeysticks

Something about this song just reminds me of Armin and I stand by it. It’s such a good song and definitely an underrated Ricky Montgomery track tbh. Armin would love it too. I see this being one of the sadder songs on his playlist.I think Armin struggles with feeling used a lot or neglected, and this song helps him feel that. It’s validating and comforting to feel like there’s someone out there who feels the same way he does. Especially in the form of something as beautiful as this song.

Watercolor Eyes by Lana Del Rey

He’d cry the first time he hears the song, and after that experience, he forms an emotional attachment to the song and listens to it during quiet, chill moments similar to the scenario earlier where he’d play it in the car during golden hour coming back from the beach. Windows rolled down and a cool evening breeze gently seeping into the car which just makes everything feel so surreal. When you want an ethereal out of body experience Armin’s ur guy.

Good days by SZA

Might be a bit cliché but it’s just so golden and perfect for my golden boy. He’s just a comforting person his energy is so pure so I immediately think of him especially during the outro ( *instrumental* “always on my mind always on my mind mind”).

Also literally anything by Cody Fry, Armin would love.

Mikasa:

Ok honestly absolutely anything by mitski will remind me of Mika on some level. My emo girl is a mitski stan and you couldn’t change my mind abt it. Mitski all over her playlists. You ask her who her favorite artist is u bet it’s miss mitski. But more specifically;

Two slow dancers by Mitski

I CANNOT EXPLAIN THIS I JUST FEEL IT IN MY CORE. Mika may not be the most emotionally expressive person (istj) but she will sob to this song. Give my bbg a tissue, here honey lemme lend u my sleeve. Also if u ship eremika then this just supports it. “We’re just two slow dancers last ones out” ur fucking kidding.

Pink in the night by Mitski

I’m honestly not even going to explain this, just look “I hear my heart breaking tonight, Do you hear it too?” - “I could stare at your back all day, And I know I've kissed you before, but I didn't do it right, Can I try again, try again, try again” enough said.

Sad girl by Lana Del Rey

She’s a Lana stan for sure. The questionable taste in men 🤨 this song just gives mika vibes but honestly the album in general, if she were an album she’d be ultraviolence. Honestly icon. Pretty girls who have incredible taste in fashion yet lack therefore when it comes to men.

I want you by Mitski

Im sorry for including YET another mitski song but this IS Mika, and Mika baby I feel you sweet girl. The ultimate sad girl anthem honestly Eren I’m looking at u. Living in her Tim burton era and this song is her soundtrack.

Mirror Ball by Taylor swift

THIS IS HER. “I’m still trying everything to keep you looking at me”. She would sacrifice her entire soul to show the person she loves what she sees. To show them how loved they are to protect them to keep them happy. She would lose herself in loving someone else Eren. She’d destroy herself in the process of protecting the one she loves.

Connie:

Rhinestone eyes by Gorillaz

absolutely any song by the Gorillaz would give me Connie vibes. Driving with Connie in the middle of the night belting out the lyrics to whatever Gorillaz song just came on.

Maniac by Conan Gray

Connie would scream the lyrics to this song and would turn to you “IF ANYONE DECIDES TO FUCK WITH YOU ILL SHOW UP AT THEIR HOUSE WITH A SHOVEL AND A ROSE” thank you Connie. Connie = 4lyfer.

Verbatim by Mother Mother

He’s a mother mother bitch. Yup yup. He’d rock his little bald head so enthusiastically the minute this song comes on. DOESNT EVEN KNOW THE LYRICS EITHER. “NANANANAN VERBATIM NANA LISTLESS VEGETATION” “..Connie it’s invitations” he looks up so innocently, confused “what?” “nothing nothing” “ok”. You wouldn’t have the heart to ruin the moment for him. He Carries on singing all the wrong lyrics. Smile and nod just smile and nod.

Remember When by Wallows

Wallows’ music always cheers me up and their music just has the same effect as Connie, and I see him absolutely adoring this song and it’s just such an adorable fact to me.

C U girl by Steve Lacy

HED BELT IT. He’d sing this song to his girlfriend or girl best friend, as I said before Connie = 4lyfer. GOOD VIBES.

Sasha :

Dancing with your ghost by Sasha Sloan

I listen to this when I miss her. Maybe it’s cause the artists name is Sasha aswell and that made me think of her. But yeah. Sasha.

Just a waste by pinkpantheress

Dancing to this song with Sasha and it being your song with her. As soon as this song plays you’d whip ur head in each other’s direction and bolt to each other and twist ur hip at the opening beat drop “OW” just start dancing ur heart out together.

Mr Loverman by Ricky Montgomery

Honorable mention; Someone once told me this song always reminded them of Nicolo and Sasha. And I never forgot that

Comfort crowd by Conan Gray

I SEE HER FACE EVERY TIME THIS SONG PLAYS. She’s so sweet and pure and PRECIOUS. I just want to hug her and dance to this song while putting ice cream into bowls getting ready to watch princess diaries together or a cheesy rom com to cry over while holding blankets in the dark.

Every Summertime by NIKI

enfp enfp enfp anthem. JUNIOR HIGH SASHA imagine doing that thing where u grab hands and twirl together really fast; Imagine doing that with this song. Yep. Sasha would play this song as much as she can and she’d get back into it EVERY summer(time) . All in all Sasha has the cutest most positive taste in music and everytime I hear a wholesome lively song chances are it reminded me of Sasha.

So Anxious by Ginuwine

Another song Sasha would love and it just gives me such good vibes that match Sasha’s if that makes sense?? Like it’s the same energy between the two of them. The same fun giddy feeling.

(She’d also love the entire album ‘SOUR’ by Olivia)

Jean:

Loverboy by A- Wall

HE IS THE PHYSICAL EMBODIMENT OF THIS SONG. Imagine him and his beautiful deep voice singing this song, he has a gorgeous singing voice I know it. This song just radiates his energy somehow and it’s just so wholesome and adorable.

Deja vu by Olivia Rodrigo

He will deny how much he loves this song he will deny it with his whole heart. But as soon as this song comes on in the car on shuffle. Give him a couple seconds he’ll be straining his vocal cords, belting the chorus alongside Eren who also denied how much he loved this song. “It’s cliché I would never listen to something so mainstream 🙄” not even a minute later, “SO WHEN YOU GONNA TELL HER THAT WE DID THAT TOO”. Gets so emotionally invested during this part: “PLAY HER PIANO BUT SHE DOESN’T KNOW THAT I WAS THE ONE WHO TAUGHT YOU BILLIE JOEL” aggressively pokes his chest to the point it’s red and he’s rubbing it after the song ends. who u singing abt jean🤔🤔🤔

Or Nah by SoMo

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 IM SORRY JEAN IM SORRY. This is an absolute callout. Jean would listen to this song and just sit and mull over sex fantasies and get horny in the process LMAO Jean would most likely only play this song during sex if he’s REALLY COMFORTABLE with his partner but it’s definitely on his bucket list, to fuck to this song. He listens to SoMo’s version cause it’s the superior one.

Checkmate by Conan Gray

He’d adore this song and it’s so fucking cute watching him slightly dance when it comes on. He’s a Conan boy I think, not a die hard fan but he listens every song that he releases and has a couple of his favorites in his playlist.

Lookalike by Conan Gray

This is his go to break up song, he relates to this song SO MUCH. He’d be the type of guy who would try and find someone to fill his partner’s place if they ever broke up but he’d never go through with anything more than a one night stand or rebound, cause he just wouldn’t be able to they don’t compare. He’d cry every night to this song for months after the breakup.

Dark Red by Steve Lacy

He thinks listening to Steve Lacy makes him a superior person with superior taste in music. He thinks dark red is so deep pretentious fuck. It’s definitely one of his favorite songs. Honestly jokes aside it does fit his vibe and he’s not too in your face abt it especially if u aren’t close with him. He won’t act all arrogant and cocky if he isn’t close with the person he’s with. He really does mean it halfheartedly and as a joke (kind of). oh he’d also rly like N side by Steve lacy so do with that what you will

Reiner:

I bet on losing dogs by Mitski

😐. *sobs uncontrollably* TRAUMA TRAUMA TRAUMA. Poor man just needs a big old bear hug. SOMEONE LET HIM REST. I just want to comfort him and this song just perfectly translates that??? (“ my baby my baby you’re my baby”). If anyone said that to him he’d burst into ugly ass tears and start wailing. Furthermore, he’d be the type to bet on a losing dog just so nobody has to feel alone, he tries to be there for people in ways nobody was, for him. Example of this is when he helped Armin during training, when Armin fell behind cause back when he was training nobody helped him when he fell behind, and he doesn’t want anybody to feel the way he did. Not if he can do anything about it. Brb gotta give Reiner a hug 🏃🏽‍♀️🏃🏽‍♀️

Cant pretend by Tom Odell

Uf. Fucking heartbreak. Pure heartbreak. Just go listen to the song and you’ll understand what I mean. Gotta go give my man another hug 🏃🏽‍♀️🏃🏽‍♀️🏃🏽‍♀️

Until I found you by Stephen Sanchez

He’d ADORE this song. Listens to it non stop. He wants to play this for the person of his dreams and just dance to it with them. Big softie. He’d sing this song with his whole chest just completely in love with it and entranced.

Levi:

ok I have a lot to say *cracks knuckles*

Evermore by Dan Stevens

This song is literally Levi. It’s him singing. He told me. It’s how Levi experiences love this is how he feels when he’s in love scorpio moon asf. If anything were to happen if he lost the love of his life it would destroy him. He’d see them everywhere. He’d look for them in every crowd. They’d live in his head and haunt him for evermore. He could never get over a great love. He doesn’t fall in love easy because when he does, he never falls out of it no matter what. “Now I know she’ll never leave me, even as she runs away, she will still torment me, calm me, hurt me, move me, come what may” “Wasting in my lonely tower, Waiting by an open door, I'll fool myself, she'll walk right in, And as the long, long nights begin, I'll think of all that might have been, Waiting here for evermore”

August by Taylor Swift

He’d cherish all the memories he’s shared with the person he loves. He’d cherish all the time spent together. Levi lives in his head, he’s constantly thinking. So he’s the type of person who would find himself cursing the time for passing but eventually he’d except the fact that he can only cherish the memories and joy he felt in those moments, because time is never guaranteed. “It wasn’t mine to lose” “you weren’t mine to lose”. Furthermore, he would drop EVERYTHING for the person he loved “cancel all my plans just in case you called and said meet me behind the mall”.

505 by Arctic Monkeys

I have denied this for so long until eventually I couldn’t lie to myself anymore. This is his favorite song. It is. He could listen to 505 anytime of the day and not be bored. He absolutely loves this song. The build up and beat drop, the chorus absolutely everything about this song he loves

Lvr boy by awfultune

This is completely personal. But all in all if you ever sang this song to Levi he’d just immediately fall in love. He’d tear up but bury it with a sniffle. Ugh my love.

Compass by The Neighbourhood

“I’m lucky you’ve been keeping me around. You’re the star I look for every night, when it’s dark you stick right by my side” he wouldn’t ever believe that anybody could truly love him. That anybody would look at him with nothing other than love. And when he finds it, he will do everything in his power to satisfy his partner and give them what they deserve and love them right.

Folklore by Taylor Swift

I’m well aware this isn’t a song. But the entire album just screams Levi to me. He’d LOVE this album. I’m gonna tell you a secret. Levi Ackerman is a swiftie BUT HE WILL TAKE THAT INFORMATION WITH HIM TO THE GRAVE. he fucking loves her music but mostly it’s this album he’d cry to illicit affairs cause he knows he could very easily be caught in a situation like that. I’ll talk more in depth abt illicit affairs in a bit.

1 step forward 3 steps back

Mainly he just really likes the build of the song and the instrumental, piano whore. But he wouldn’t listen to the song often because this song absolutely terrifies him. Because he’s fucking terrified that if he was ever in a relationship his partner would see him this way because he would do anything to please his partner. He’d go above and beyond to make sure they’re happy, safe and that they feel loved. He cares about how the people he loves perceive him, so it worries him that the people he loves think he’d be like this in a relationship.

Nervous by The Neighbourhood

Making out with Levi to this song plays in my head like a tape every single time this song comes on. Sitting in his lap, hands in your hair, they slowly drift down to your hips and grip tighter when you bite his lower lip. I need to go drink some water 🤧

Nothing by Bruno Major

Levi is the type of man who would want his partner all to himself and want to spend pure uninterrupted quality time with them. “There’s nothing like doing nothing with you”. Watch a stupid rom com while holding them in his arms. Turn off their phones and toss them somewhere secluded in the house while he pulls them on top of him on the couch to forget about the movie and just make out until the credits roll. He’d prefer to stay in instead of go out. He’d rather see his partner in their loungewear it’s easier to take off (he’d also really love easily by Bruno Major aswell)

All mine by PLAZA

Levi would fuck to this song. He would fuck and fuck HARD to this song. If he had a sex playlist this song would be on it. He may not show it but Levi is possessive, he’s jealous (not in an obsessive or toxic way) but he just relishes in the fact that his partner WANTS to be his. He’s just so fucking proud to have his partner as HIS and his alone. And he wants to make this crystal clear to his partner. He wants his partner to know that he never wants to touch another person ever again that he never wants anyone to even think about touching what’s his. He wants to show them that they’re all his. And his alone. (Fucking fuck me already)

Apocalypse by Cigarettes after sex

Levi’s love is endgame. I’ve said this before but when Levi loves, it’s truly truly committed and loyal. Once he falls in love he’ll never fall out of it. The person he’s with is the person he’ll love forever. “Your lips my lips, Apocalypse” his love is all consuming, it consumes him. If anything were to happen to the love of his life. He’d never recover from it it’d be over for him after that. He’ll never love another person the same way ever again. His love is truly till death do us part. He would watch the world burn if it meant the love of his life was safe. His partner is his top priority. And always will be.

Illicit affairs by Taylor Swift

Levi hates the fact that he could easily be put in this situation, which is partially why he is terrified to be in a relationship. Because for the millionth time he would destroy himself entirely for his partner; “And you know damn well, For you I would ruin myself, A million little times” ur gonna tell me this isn’t something Levi would say to the love of his life in the dark while he holds their face between his hands, as his gun metal eyes brush over their features maybe even glaze over in a sheen of tears that the darkness would hide. Another thing is, as I said if his partner were to ever leave him, he’d be completely fucked cause; “You showed me colors, You know I can't see with anyone else” and “You taught me a secret language, I can't speak with anyone else”. He’d deny his feelings for someone at first. He’d deny deny deny. He doesn’t want to be completely overtaken by love he hates it because he knows that he’d be wrapped around his partner’s finger, completely. He’d be at his partner’s mercy, completely. He’d be completely vulnerable and bare infront of them and he’s terrified he’ll just get hurt again, this time in an even crueler way; “Don’t call me “baby” Look at this godforsaken mess that you made me” and “Don't call me "baby", Look at this idiotic fool that you made me”. He hates the effect his person has on him and he hates even more that he absolutely loves it and wouldn’t trade it for anything else in the world. Because for the first time, he feels there’s something to wake up for, there’s something that lights up his life. He’s so in love hurt him and I’ll cut you

Tchaikovsky (but more specifically Swan Lake Soundtrack)

Lastly Levi would LOVE Tchaikovsky and his works. Levi is a man with taste and he loves how he can feel the emotion in Tchaikovsky’s music without him having to speak a word. Tell me right now he wouldn’t absolutely adore swan lake. Idc how biased this may be I believe with my entire soul that Levi absolutely adores swan lake. The story. The aesthetic. But most importantly THE MUSIC.

Hanji:

I don’t have many for Hanji but the ones I do have are songs I genuinely can’t hear without thinking of her

Heat Waves by Glass Animals

I honestly can’t fully explain why I associate her with this song, but I do. It’s just so perfect? I just can’t unsee it.

To the wonder by Aqualung

I could never listen to this song without seeing hanji and crying. There’s an edit I saw of her to this song too. And it explains what I feel perfectly. I just can’t help but sob to this song honestly it breaks my heart every time I listen to it, and for me to associate the song with this edit just makes it worse.

This is the edit (contains manga spoilers) :

God, it kills me every time. sry :)

Erwin :

First and foremost let’s get this out of the way. Erwin, is a Beyoncé stan YES YES HE IS SHUT UP. dare I say it, he may even be a barb. I said what I fucking said. Erwin is a man of taste and he loves queen B. As he fucking should. King.

What about us by P!nk

I really really really don’t have to explain this but I will 😪 let’s look at the lyrics shall we; “what about us?” - “What about all the times you said you had the answers?” - “What about all the broken happy ever afters?” - “What about all the plans that ended in disaster?” - “What about love? What about trust? What about us?” This is literally all that Erwin has been fighting for. He heard his fallen comrades voices in his head. He wants to know the truth, Erwin believes he is the reason his father died, he longs to avenge his father and prove that what he was saying about the walls was the truth; “But man, you fooled us, enough is enough”. I have another point aswell: “Sticks and stones, they may break these bones, But then I'll be ready” HE LITERALLY LOST HIS ARM IT WAS CHOMPED OFF BY A TITAN and Erwin Smith LITERALLY went on to lead his soldier while STILL in the jaws of a titan. He saved Eren and sliced him out of Berthold’s arms with one arm. He stared the armored titan in the eye as he never wavered and stood tall and proud next to him, just glaring into his eyes with no fear.

I really hope you enjoyed this. It were really fun to write and again this is the first time for me ACTUALLY writing something on here so show some love if you liked it don’t be afraid to tell me I’d really appreciate the feedback and support <33

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Midnight couldn’t believe that she was even still alive at this point, considering that Reiner had decided to move hands to bolt away– She was above Bertholdt a little bit, frantically pulling on the hooks of her ODM gear to gently latch into the sinuses of skin. From there, She marveled at how Reiner didn’t even attempt to throw her to the other titans, and protected them all from the beasts still– it could just be the prerogative to protect Eren, but she was just as much of a threat.

She looked down to Bertholdt, trying her best to drown out the loud roars of Ymir and Reiner, Looking below to see all the Titans slaughtering the scouts, and soon getting trampled over themselves.

Her gaze turned back up to Bertholdt, the crystal glowing faintly as she pondered his fate. He can’t die yet, Ares told her. He must live.

…She can’t believe she was doing this.

Midnight let the ODM’s wires slowly fall, lowering her more to Bert’s level. “You know, you’re still that nervous wreck you always were! You can’t die yet, But you can’t take Eren with you! I hate you, with every bone in my body–But i can’t let the both of you die!” Midnight was quick to take a blade and jut it outwards, letting the locking mechanism free to pierce one of the titans below. A nasty growl came from her, akin to a wolf’s sneer. Then, a thought hatched into her head.

“Where’s Annie?”

     Reiners eyes glanced down towards Midnight, Bertholdt and Eren assuring that they were safe before shoving more of the titans away. Bertholdt gasps as he quickly turned to face Midnight as she spoke, drawing his blades to attempt to defend himself if he needed to....was she just going to verbally assault him cause she couldn’t kill him? 

     “ Midnight-” Bertholdt stopped as he caught sight of Mikasa rushing towards him with her blades, shit Reiner wouldn’t be able to protect him from her and the titans. But before her blades could make contact with his body the taller boy managed to dodge out of the way allowing the titan below to grab a hold of Mikasa squeezing her body enough to crack some of her ribs, luckily for her Jean managed to stab the titan in the eyes before it could make a meal of her. Two scouts then attempted to get close to Bertholdt but their wires were quickly ripped off by Reiner sending the two to their deaths below. 

     The Armored titans large hand slowly moved up towards Bertholdt to keep him shielded but didn’t cover him, Bertholdts eyes shifting nervously towards Midnight, titans and the Scouts fighting around them “ We’ve come this far already, we’re taking Eren home with us. We’re going back to our hometown..” Bertholdt muttered determined. Armin who had been carefully navigating around the titans below managed to latch his wire to the Armored head, his eyes quickly glanced around spotting Midnight alive and well, he let out a relieved sigh before looking to Bertholdt wondering what he could say to the other.

     It was then that an idea popped into the blondes head, an almost eerie smile forming on his face before he spoke “...So you’re okay with this? Leaving your friend behind? I guess Annie was weighing you down, do you know where she is?” Armin asked, Berhtoldt and Reiner had fallen silent as Armin continued talking “ Way up north in the utopia district being tortured....the silent treatment only goes so far, the body may heal but her screams are an object lesson on the limits of endurance...oh don’t worry they’re taking special care she doesn’t die, or get a moments rest...so many methods so little time, mustn’t waste a prize specimen like Annie. She’s to precious-” 

     “ Shut your mouth hell spawn! I’ll kill you! ” Bertholdt shouted before Armin could go on any further, but before Bertholdt could even move to attack the blonde, Erwin had managed to get close enough to slice at Bertholdts chest, slicing the straps that were holding Eren to his back and freeing him before falling back down towards his horse that awaited him below. Mikasa wasted no time grabbing Eren and calling back, while Reiner managed to save Berhtoldt from falling to his death by grabbing the wire connected to his gear. Below Erwin gave the command to retreat now that they had Eren.

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“Yes, Him! Too bad you can’t even be a man enough to look– when I came back from here, I was injured horribly, and now you get to see the nastiest side of it! You may be titan shifters, but you’ll never understand how it feels to be a hostage day in and day out! You don’t know what it’s like to be stalked by your own GODS!” Midnight was easily cut off from her rant, her crystal burning brightly. She seethed, the blue light managing to seem a little into the finger’s cracks. She managed to clutch her chest, quelling the light, but the pain was still there. Before she could even leap off, she felt a bash before a flurry of wind blew in her direction.

Luckily, she was quick enough to claw onto the seemingly bone like materiel the Armored titan had, her nails scrapping the tissue as she held on tightly. She wasn’t going to let them escape easily! She hanged onto that wrist for dear life, and it paid off! She slowly crawled towards the center of the two hands, being positioned right under the chin…She let out a sigh– a very panicked, yet annoyed sigh. Titans surrounded her everywhere, and safe to say she was already having a hitlist of her own for the men she was surrounded by.

“Don’t think…I’m gonna let myself just leave this chance…!” To the titans that hand gotten close to her, she slashed at them with her sword, letting out an inhuman cry–akin to a bark. The frantic swinging did seem to do the trick, and despite her anger…she hoped Reiner had a plan.

     “ Guys! Midnight is still on Reiner!” Armin would shout alerting the others who cursed under their breath “ Shit....there are to many titans surrounding them we won’t be able to get close enough to help her...ugh, I hope she can hold out for awhile...” Jean cursed biting down on his lower lip as they were forced to focus on taking care of any titans that went for them. While Reiner was struggling to stand and get the titans off of him, in his frustration he’d let out a roar as he attempted to shake the titans off.

     Ymir, who was still on his back, did what she could to clear the titans off of Reiner, mindful not to accidentally claw or bite Midnight who was still on the Armored titan. Erwin wasted no time using this moment to charge forward, ordering all his scouts to charge ahead and retrieve Eren from the traitors, once they’d succeeded in retrieving Eren then they could retreat. But as Erwin lead the charge to retrieve Eren a large titan managed to bite down on Erwins arm carrying him away to what the Scouts believed to be his death, however this didn’t seem to concern Erwin as his only orders for his men were to continue forward. 

     I can’t move...and unless I tear these titans off me it’ll only get worse. In that case...brace yourself Berthold!

     Reiner thought to himself as he slowly lowered his hands from around his neck to shove the titans off of him but also being mindful to keep Bertholdt safe, if a titan got him, well not only would he lose a friend but Marley would lose the Colossal titan. And despite Midnight being mad at him Reiner still managed to punch a titan that attempted to turn her into a meal. Below them the Scouts were attempting their suicide rescue mission, many were dying but still they pushed on. 

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Can I get some angst request between Eren and the reader? Before they were close to their training years, Eren would put her in a heartbeat. They always got each other’s back, Eren and (y/n) like each other but are afraid to ruin their friendship.

The last new episode, where they went undercover in Marley. (Y/n) is the one who confessed to Eren that she likes him at the beginning. Eren kissed her and he did the thing that made him guilty.

He selflessly erased the kissing and confession memory from (y/n)’s mind. Because he knew, that he needs to continue the rumbling so that he can keep his people safe.

After he erased the memory, (y/n) was confused that she want to tell him something but can’t figure what it was and just went back to the others. Eren on the other hand feels bad about it.

Anon you genius. I am in love with this idea. Thanks for the request! Had so much fun writing it. That said, I hope I did it justice and it meets your expectations :)

Eren x Female Reader

Summary: in the ask

Warnings: spoilers for season 4. It’s AOT so some violence

WC: 1.5k

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Part 2

Eren bore holes into you. All the chatter around him was blocked out by his fixation on your happy face.

You were a distraction...

You were strong. You were more than capable of protecting yourself. That was proven true from the countless times you saved Eren from the jaws of a titan. 

“Thanks Y/N,” 

You nodded at Eren with a smile as you jumped off the titan’s falling body. Your momentary distraction was sufficient enough for a titan to lunge for you. Eren sprang forward from his horse to push the titan’s face away from you, sacrificing his left arm in the process. From behind you, your horse ran and caught you on its back. The titan clamped down Eren’s arm. Your eyes widened in shock, then grabbed Eren’s outstretched right arm and hoisted him onto your horse. Once his right arm was secure around your waist, you spurred your horse to run to join everyone else.

“You idiot!”

“Only for you,”

“Eren! You could’ve been eaten!”

“But I wasn’t,”

“You shouldn’t be so reckless with your life,” you reprimanded.

“You’re safe though. That’s what’s important,”

“You have your priorities mixed up. Your life is more important than mine. I can be easily replaced. There’s always Levi and Mikasa if I die,”

At your words, Eren scrunched his face in dismay. Couldn’t you see that he didn’t want Mikasa? All he wanted was you. Sure Mikasa was as strong as you, likely even stronger, but she wasn’t you.

“Whatever. We’re both alive aren’t we?”

“I suppose, but don’t do that again,”

You felt Eren’s head move behind you, hoping that he was agreeing with you. 

“And thank you for saving my life,”

“No problem, what are friends for?”

“Right, friends,”

The ride back to the walls was a silent one after that. Neither of you acknowledged the sullen mood that was brought on after the affirmation of you being friends. Once you were inside the walls, Eren was reprimanded by Levi, the special operations squad, Mikasa and Armin. Despite the numerous scoldings he received, Eren smiled at the thought of everyone being worried for him.

“Eren?”

“Huh?”

Eren is snapped from his daydream. His eyes focus on your face. You’re too close. With a pinch of his arm, Eren shakes his head, he hadn’t realised that you moved closer to him while he was lost in your actions that never failed to captivate him, no matter how simple the action. 

“You looked a bit lost in your head. Anything troubling you?”

“I was simply thinking of the times when we were younger,”

“Dwelling on the past doesn’t seem like you. You’re more of a future thinker,”

“I was remembering the time I lost my left arm for you,”

“That was entirely your fault for being a reckless idiot,”

“True, but I wasn’t the one who fell on top of Jean and lost my first kiss to him. By accident,”

“Shut up!” You hid your reddening face from his view.

Even after all that has happened and what is to come, you still manage to make Eren chuckle and his heart race from your adorable actions.

“Eren. Not so loud, we don’t want to attract any unwanted attention,” Armin warned from in front of you.

You nod then get up to get off the boat with Eren. He quiets after what Armin said, and his previous stony look adorns his face. You pout at his expression, but continue to hold onto his left arm as you walk.

“If I remember correctly, you’re the one who punched Jean and yelled that he was a pervert, even though I fell on him by accident,”

Unable to reply, Eren shifts and coughs to avoid your teasing stare.

“I was a passionate kid and you were important to me,”

“Am I not important to you now?”

You stop walking, which forces Eren to look into your eyes as you stare at him. Everything around you blurs, and background noises are muted. It’s only the two of you.

“Y/N! Try this! It’s called ‘ice cream’! It’s super cold but so delicious,”

Sasha shoves some foreign food into your face, causing you to break eye contact with Eren. You smile at her and give a tentative lick, arm still clasping Eren’s.

“You’re right. It’s really sweet and cool on the tongue,”

“You can buy some over there!”

Sasha’s eyes light up and she points towards the general direction of where she bought the ‘ice cream’ from. The others similarly were fascinated and awed by the treat. During your moment of bliss, Eren slips his arm out of your grasp.

Later that evening Eren is nowhere to be found. Fortunately, Mikasa tracks him down to the young thief’s home, who you now know is named Ramzi. Mikasa walks towards you with a defeated look.

“Please talk to him Y/N,”

“But you’re both so close. I won’t be able to do anything,”

“He’s refusing to open up to me, so I figured that you could do something,”

“What? If even you can’t talk to him, what makes you think I can,”

“Because you have a bond with Eren. A special one. One that I can never have,”

“Mikasa what are you-”

“Quit being in denial and go talk to him!”

With that, Mikasa walks off to rejoin the rest of the group. Puzzled, but in fear of what Mikasa would do if you didn’t, you walk to meet Eren, who’s gazing at the land alone. The blank look is still on his face, but you can see despair plaguing him through his troubled eyes.

“Hey,”

“Hi,” he whispers back.

“What’s up?”

“Did Mikasa send you?”

“Yeah,”

“Sorry about her,”

“It’s fine,”

You smile hoping to ease him a little bit, before you stand next to him to gaze at the landscape.

“What am I to you Y/N?”

“Easy. My best friend,”

“Is that all I am to you? Am I nothing more?”

“I’m. I'm not sure what you mean,”

“Forget it,”

The small glimmer of something positive shining in Eren’s eyes disappears as quickly as it came. Silence chokes the air around you.

“You make my heart race with every little thing you do,” Eren starts.

“What?”

“You’re strong, you’re kind. You’re beautiful,”

“Eren,”

“And I love you. More than just a best friend. Do you love me too?”

“I’m not sure.” You stop looking into Eren’s eyes and focus your gaze on something - anything - else. “I’m honestly just confused because every time I see you smile with Mikasa, my heart clenches and I feel like I’m choking, but I’ve never been envious of her. If anything I have a deep respect for her,”

“I think you do love me too. That’s a relief,”

“I think. I think I love you too,”

You finally muster up the courage to meet Eren’s eyes again. He looks at you with a fond smile, and his eyes soften. Eren slowly moves his face towards you, and you move closer to him as well. Your eyes shut and you feel Eren’s lips meet yours in a kiss. You both break away after a few seconds with red faces. Neither of you make eye contact with the other. You blush and feel a tender warmth inside your body. Never had you imagined that you would kiss Eren, the boy you deeply loved.

Despite the joy that Eren felt from your shared kiss, the feelings of guilt overpowered his senses. His face hardened. You were a distraction. Left with no other choice, Eren erases the entire conversation. As much as he loves you, he can’t love you when the whole world is against Eldia. He has to continue his plan. For you. So you can have a long happy life with no fear of the outside, even if it means he won’t be there to enjoy your happiness.

“Hey,”

“Hi,” he replies back with a dry tone.

“What’s up?”

“Did Mikasa send you?”

“Yeah,”

“Sorry about her,”

“It’s fine,”

You smile hoping to ease him a little bit, before you stand next to him to gaze at the landscape.

“Strange. I feel like I was going to say something to you, but I can’t remember it at all,”

“You should go back. It’s pointless to talk to me. I want to be alone,”

“Alright. I’ll give you some space, and I’ll let the others know to leave you alone for a bit, but we do need to talk at some point. When you’re ready of course,”

Eren nodded absentmindedly so you wave goodbye and make your way back to the others.

“Any luck?” Mikasa asks anxiously.

“No, sorry. He just wants to be left alone right now,”

“It’s fine. At least you tried,”

Eren refuses to look at you as you walk back to the others. He knows that the sight of you will have him regretting what he did and he would end up restoring your memory just to be happy with you again. A lone tear slides down Eren’s face. He scoffs at the irony of it. A single tear making a quick descent. Just like him.