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the way the regular non-extended LOTR essentially cuts out all the Eowyn/Faramir romance scenes is a crime really
#like i totally get why it was done i dont think its a bad shout overall#but to me its such a core part of this energy of hope coming out of the darkness...#for all they've both suffered! to find each other and to find healing and a home#for eowyn to hang up her sword.... augh. AUGHHUGUGH.#the idea of fighting like that and being so damaged by it and still having enough green new springtime things in you to step away#to go home and live another life#man i dunno i just love them i really do
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āIf you dont like it, moveā how fuckin dare you tell me to abandon my home because fascists. I love my home and I will make it better. I do not want to leave my home. I will not abandon it until it is very blatantly apparent to me that my options are to leave or to be killed and even then Iāll probably stay and do my damn best to fight back anyways. I donāt want to leave my home, this is a place I love full of people I love. Do not ever tell me to āsimplyā leave it.
#chaoticbuggybitchboy#rant#us politics#ant activated#setting aside that itās generally unrealistic for most people (myself included) to just move to another country or state bc of politics#I donāt think you should ever tell anyone they should leave their home#genuinely I love my hometown I love my home state etc etc#I love living here and I love all the other people who live here#I love the desert I love the culture and I love literally so much about my HOME#I LIVE HERE !!!! I have done so!! my whole life!!!#how dare you tell me to throw all of it away and go somewhere cold with a fuck ton of strangers !!!#even if I had the money!!! I wouldnāt!!!!! because I like it here!!!!!
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#š„ oz talks#its very important to me that she gets to wear a litte dress and twirl around and live life with joy and whimsy#another wip to my wip pile when i go home
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Something interesting I've noticed about conversion stories is many people seem to have both a rebellious streak and a deep-seated, insatiable desire to learn everything.
One of my shul's well-respected members (who runs the hebrew/judaism class that will start soon) talked about how, when he lived in my town, he would sneak out of the house just to go to shul. That's what I'm doing now, and it's funny (I'm not sneaking out per se, but I am also not telling anybody I'm going to shul). There's an aspect of free-spiritedness that I notice in many converts, and it's fascinating to hear each of their stories. And you know the funniest part? They sound like my story.
#jumblr#jew by choice#jewish conversion#personal thoughts tag#sorry i'm posting so much š#but i have been noticing this A Lot#and i don't think its essential to be converting/converted but i think there's a reason that converts tend to have similar feelings/thought#i think the unifying trait is the desire to leave one thing and come home to another#i think for that to happen you tend to have a lot of free spirits and a lot of faith and trust#for me it's hard but i also have that in-born need to fly away - to go home and never look back#i don't say rebellious to mean bad but more like... you aren't 'adhering' to the life you were brought up in#i had rebelled against xtianity before finally accepting that i will never and cen never force myself to believe in it#and i think that's where some peoples' rebellious streak starts#again sorry i'm posting every tiny miniscule thought but B''H for guiding the story of our lives#it was SO cool and welcoming to hear that [member] grew up in my town and we go to the same shul
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Not dissing on anyone in particular but it's interesting to see people trying to retroactively justify or otherwise "call out" on the fact that Melinoe has no connection to her birth family. It's the Point I'd say. And thematically, she's likely never coming "home" for real. Cause it was never home. Can no longer be home and all.
#Melinoe#hades 2#hades II#hades II spoilers#d musings#like what about Melinoe screams āliving in an enclosed space inside of another enclosed space is greatā? that is the House of Hades#and with people she barely knows to boot#She won't be coming home and if the game in 1.0 tries to Force that in any way I'd say it's bad writing actually#like a thematic mismatch#feels unearned on everyone's part#in what way is Zagreus a more important person in Melinoe's life that say Nemesis? Or Hecate? Heck Eris even#clarifying when I mean the game forcing Melinoe to come home#I don't mean Hecate or Zag even trying to convince her to āgo/come homeā to the House#but like the narrative trying to justify it as the endgame#and more importantly something that Mel might actually want which aint the case#as far as I see it
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AYO GUESS WHOS GOIN TO A BILLY JOEL CONCERT????? MEEEEEEEE

IM SO EXCITED!!!! IM GOIN WITH MINE FATHER
I CANNOT EXPRESS HOW EXCITED I AM RN
#billy joel#billy joel concert#billy joel piano man#rod stewart#I GET TO SEE MY BABY IN ACTION!!!!!!š¼š¼š¼#im so excited#im so happy#im gonna throw up#oh my fucking god#i just#i cant#im so normal about him#my pookie#hes so#i love him sm#LITERALLY GOT ME THROUGH THE WORST TIME OF MY LIFE UGHHHH#september#wake me up when september ends#NO. wake me up when its september 20th#3:00 PM#guys i live in tennessee so i have to go four hours and then fucking stay at a 2 hour concert and then go home after another four hours#thats so much fun#šššš
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E has dubbed this spring the "season of pain" and she's. not wrong.
#ctxt#shit chat#less than a month after gibby died one of our other rats (sable)#has started showing symptoms of the exact same rapid neurological decline (probably a brain tumor)#we have a quality of life evaluation appointment for her this afternoon that. she will not be coming home from most likely#if not today then she's gonna pass soon and neither of us want to wait until she gets as bad as gibby was by the end#it's too soon. it's not fair. i'm not ready. i don't want winky (our last rat) to be alone.#we adopted sable & winky together from the humane society last january and both were unsocialized & poorly treated in their last home#they've come a long way but they still don't rly trust ppl & don't like to be touched. and they're soooo closely bonded#poor winky is not going to handle it well i think cuz neither E nor i can handle getting another rat to keep her company#they're such wonderful animals and they break my goddamn heart with how brief their lives are. every time. can't keep doing this#so winks is gonna be alone and she's gonna have to learn to take mammalian comfort from humans#THIS FUCKING SUCKS.#also within the last month:#bones almost dying of lily ingestion (2 days in hospital but he's fine now) and the resulting bill decimating my finances#my dad got unceremoniously laid off at the university where he's taught for the last 36 years#my mom's disabilities are worsening to the point where her doctors are stumped on how to help her#(but at least she's housed now)#and E has had bad news about loved ones this month too but it's not my place to share#like can the universe please stop killing my pets and fucking over my family for FIVE MINUTES????????#i'm so sick of grieving like my poor nervous system truly cannot handle any more of this shit i'm gonna snap
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#im currently at my sister's place. she wanted me to take care of our dog while she and my mom goes home to sort through their stuff#i have a very unpleasant headache after waking up early after no sleep. walking to the psychiatric for an appt. then having minor issues to#get here bc the train tracks were... smth?? and the train was late and idk. it ended up being painless to get here#then i went to buy groceries and then took the bus here. since i've been here once it is easier for me to navigate skskks#now im here and im happy to be with my dog :3 i havent seen him for an entire month :(((((#but it feels weird to be all alone.... i dont like it actually :// i mean if i didnt have my dog here it would be AWFUL#i dreaded a bit to take my dog outside bc she lives on the third floor and he cant walk down the narrow stairs. so i have touse the elevator#but that went fine!! its still not as easy as just opening the door and then go straight outside tho T-T!!!!#idk. i realize that im just.. a person who dont like change. i have lived in the same place my ENTIRE life. i havent moved once.#and even if it isnt as nice anymore bc um literally thousands of ppl have moved in the past couple of years... it isnt as calm at all anymor#BUT. i fkn love the environment and scenery. there are so many beautiful and pleasant places to walk. and sit. i just love and need to walk#i know every road and walkaway there.. i know which trails are calmer and nicer etc. we have parks and forests and all that#here is like just housing areas. like apartments and houses and stores and schools. and roads. roads everywhere... cant find a path without#a road next to it ://// it isnt calm at all bc there are always cars :( and um idk how im supposed to go for walks when there arent anywhere#to go. so yeah what im saying is that even if the place i live has gotten worse.. i still feel. like thats my home.#idk how to live anywhere else. and to think this might be the year i HAVE to move. i .. dont know how to adapt and settle into another place#i LOVE where i live. i love how its built and the neighborhoods and everything. i feel so so attached to that place. i know this is life etc#but since i have lived there my entire life and just now being away from it in a place that has 10% of what my home has im like.#idk it feels really bad and im just not into life at all rn. i wanna live in a place i like and just rot into it. never leave.#i dont like change... im realllyyyy homesick rn T-T esp being alone without my family sucksssss i hate it
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Gotta check your blog daily but Iām also at work so I gotta check it carefully⦠never stop
'gotta check it carefully' sorry for the flashbangs of old man yaoi on your feed it will continue to happen š
#snap chats#i PROMISE ill never stop o7 for at LEAST another year or two who knows maybe longer o7#wait im throwing up im not gonna be in college by next year thats so vile#what will life be like for me when i obsess over comic books and have a big boy job .... crazy to think about...#i tell you what ill be able to spend money on all the statues i feasibly can JERLKJALK#i only really want those two statues if im so tbh ....... i can live otherwise ........ but anyways moving on...#i have two more classes today but one of thems online but the other one i have to go in for. wtf.#also its snowing so thats cute and sexy if it keeps snowing into the night i might drive home tomorrow instead
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I donāt get why ppl keep saying bkdk is dead or Horikoshi broke off bkdk. If that were true, this extra would look very different as you pointed out multiple times. The extra was still heavily focused on them and I hate how ppl are letting one no dictate the entire relationship. Izuku asks him to be a special lecturer too. I think the no just needs more clarification but other than that it is mostly fine. If a ship were to be shut down by the creator, it would look very different. Same logic for if a ship were to be canon, it would look different than what we got in the end for izu///ocha. This extra was bad in different ways from ships. It was just a whole lot of nothing that doesnāt meaningfully add anything to the story but I guess we shouldnāt be surprised since it is an extra. It is still an ambiguous ending that can be pretty fixable by one shots by Horikoshi in the future or even better by fanfiction lol. Except for the Toga part. That is just inexcusable
himiko-chan :(
and yeah! like even tho 431 is terrible not only for pairs but also for the whole story, it only confirmed Katsuki feels something really strong for deku and he doesnt notice bc he doesnt consider himself to be that great; they keep talking, and they keep being in each other's lives with no problem -they also imply they will work on communicating their feelings, as the special lecture is about this topic and deku also thinks katsuki doesnt see himself in a high regard. This is actually something that could be used in the future, as their relationship and arc isnt completely finished -in the way that they arent at a point of no miscommunication, no yearning, etc. They still need something to work with in regards to themselves and each other in the process. When it comes to midoriya and uraraka, idk what exactly could develop from what 431 tell us -seems to be mostly about paying attention to the ppl in your life instead of just letting life happen I guess? But idk what conversation or arc they could have together that wasn't resolved already, it was a really weird choice to focus on them as if there needs to be more explored -which is why choosing to not make them talk to each other nor think of the other in these years is potentially interesting, like the only way they could actually need to talk things up or have a separated special moment is if they just stop being friends and want to talk more from now on. Like, if they kept their friendship these years and were part of the other's life, there wouldnt be a moment like this at all.
I think it hurt mostly ochako -and deku if we interpret it as "deku just wants to be teacher, he is super happy about it, and loveeees so much his ex bestie after 8 years of no contact and never thinking about her"-, more than the bkdk relationship.
It would be interesting to see those one shots, if he does them -I know he said he wanted to do more things and little drawings and content for it, but idk if he will do something elaborate or just one page of something silly. I think he still has to opportunity of working with the material and make something at least not this bad -or completely ignore 431 and just continue with their adventures like 430 implies lol If he wants to double down with the "romance" I have no idea how he could do it with what he has tbh, unless he just ignores the plot and their personalities.
#grrr talking#thanks bc I was getting a little crazy like wowowowow am I just making things up in my head???#I think bkdk keep having romantic connotation even if deku is so clueless#and while is sad to see them be insecure about themselves I think they do have reasons to do this more than ochako#she did learn her lesson with 429 and talked things with deku already -which is why you had to make them go no contact for them to even#have a āmomentā -there was no need for them to develop anything with their friendship. and it still ended in a friendly note#while katsuki and deku never got to actually talk about their feelings alone#nor discussed all the trauma related to each other -the quirklessness the war shigaraki killing him the guilt over so many things#deku on another hand doesnt really have much to tell uraraka that would fit them as there wasn't a moment the war actually involved them tr#truly besides the himiko moment -which would lead to himiko's love for ochako and while this could be used to make her confess#its really... bad honestly considering thats the only thing that relates them -another girl who loves both#there wasn't a moment of him paying special attention to her in a romantic coded way and everything was just... pretty friendly honestly#while the war directly involved katsuki being targeted for being the closest to deku of them all#I makes sense for them to need to talk about this in comparison#what deku as a character needs is to consider why he doesnt see himself as important and why isnt he allowed to accept more for him than#what he got#and I just dont see how this could work with her considering they dont have a real friendship anymore#I cant see neither trying to push the other into being honest about hidden feelings for the other bc... why would they have that?#and why wouldnt they just talk about it before? as I said their arc was really done before the extra#which is why you had to make them lose their friendship and want to talk more from now on -bc if they keep being friends there wouldnt be#any moment that could be ambiguous enough#but with katsuki there are things left unsaid even when keeping in contact that involve each other and their self esteem#meaning they need to work in their communication#with 431 deku āgoing forā uraraka doesnt come off as āhim choosing himselfā and āliving his lifeā#bc it was a decision that didnt involve any internal discussion about why he is the way he is#its not framed as him finally choosing for himself or being selfish -he just found her in his way home and wanted to talk more after no con#contact#he is still insecure about his needs and doesnt understand what katsuki means when he talks in such abstract ways#its not like he understood āoh I have to choose someoneā or āI have to find my special personā bc he wasn't embarrassed about wanting to t#talk to her -he loves everyone yeah but he wants to talk to her more (they haven't talked to each other in so many years!)
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Snoopy #33
3/11/2024
#peanuts#snoopy#art#33#music#PLEASE LISTEN TO THIS SONG THE CHORUS IS SOOO GOOD!!!!#the visual composition of this piece is kinda ass ngl. like it's just random stuff all over the place but oh well!#wired headphones because i'm a HATER of the wireless headphones revolution that has been going on for the last like 6-8 years or so#anyway i'm obsessed with this song#and it's maybeeee lowkey relevant to my life rn š#guy offering me a ride home despite me living out of his way = one of many dominoes in a chain of events that will probably lead to a crush#eventually... if not right now#idk i'm insane and a loser so i could slow burn for years but i am trying not to waste other people's time with my shenanigans anymore#so into another outlet these feelings must go!#how did CRJ manage to capture so perfectly how i felt in the car in 4 simple little lines... megabrained genius behaviour i have to say!#also that car ride home was a few months ago and i didn't discover this song until afterwards (despite this album being 9 years old lol)#so how i felt in the car was Not at all influenced by any pre-existing knowledge of this song#or any desire to shape the events of my life to fit the emotions of the song for the Plot or the Aesthetic or the Narrative or whatever#it just came into my life like a perfectly tailored jacket from a thrift store
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#feel like my relationship with my younger brother is changed completely forever not to be dramatic lol but i am sad#we used to b very close but he has kind of. found his faith again and gone full missionary christian which like. i knew meant the dynamic#was doomed lmao but actually acknowledging it makes me sad i feel like i'm grieving for the friendship we used to have even though#it is literally a me problem i think from his perspective he doesn't think anything has changed. but i feel weird about everything#also his new gf is nineteen and he is. almost 25 and i am the only one who feels weird about it like i know she's over 18 but! idk i can't#tell if i'm being overly cautious or if my gut instinct is right. my sister & her husband have a similar age gap but they met when they wer#both over 30 so like. it didn't feel weird. and i didn't feel comfortable actually seriously talking to him about it apart from the first#time he mentioned her over facetime (he went to another country to do mission stuff & met her there) so like an idiot i've just been#making jokes about the age gap becausee like. thats always been our thing lightly bullying each other lol but he blew up at me and said#i've had nothing positive to say about her since he's been back home and that he thinks i hate her and i'm out of line for constantly#implying he's creepy for dating someone younger. idk i felt like such a freak idiot horrible person about it. it completely blindsided me#bc yes the jokes were coming from a place of idk how i feel about this situation so i'm going to rely on the humour-based communication#we have always fallen back on as a safety thing but i guess i was wrong or the dynamic shifted or something anyway it's all fucked#& everyone is just telling me i feel weird out of some?? misplaced kind of jealousy thing?? because i'm 'losing' my brother to his gf lol#which does not feel right at all he has dated so many other girls and i have never had a problem it is literally the age gap like i haven't#even met this girl i'm sure she's very nice! i just worry about her being nineteen!! jesus. and yes maybe i do feel some resentment around#a brother younger than me who seems to be able to live his life with zero difficulty whilst i'm stuck being this unemployed loser who ruins#literally ever friendship & relationship ive ever had but i think thats ok right like i can't help feeling that. i don't fucking knowwww#am i just projecting all these sad feelings about our friendship dying onto his new relationship or like. am i right to be genuinely#concerned she's six years younger than him and still a fucking teenager!!!!!! i don't know
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there is NO person on earth who is gonna be able to tolerate me long enough to date me and those who are either disappear on me or do that. and theyre always boys šš
#at this point i should just give up thr ghost and go back into the closet#i can see myself tolerating a man#live an unfulfilling life with a man i dont truly love and have a mediocre home and maybe a child#and i die unhappy and alone after a divorce that leaves me without my child and an ex-husband who moved on to another woman#all i can see in my future is suffering and misery i dont think ill ever feel joy again
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1984:
2025:
#russ ballard#1984#2025#i wanted these in a set#because of the#THE LITTLE SMILE AFTER HE TALKS ABOUT#THE AUDIENCES#this is like#he's close to 40 in the first ones#like 38-39 probably#and then he's nearly 80 in the last one#about 4 decades apart#and he's still#so cute about#everything#he's so cute#he is so cute#and the first ones were just before he did start touring again#because he stopped for a long time to stay home with his kids#and then#i don't know how much he toured through the 90's if he did but then into the 2000's and beyond he's been performing like alllllll the time#as much as he can#which i also love because of the way he said when he was younger 'you can't really tour once you're 40' or whatever#and then that's exactly around the time that he DID start touring again#literally around his 40's and he's been going and going and going#he said he wants to live to 110 or 120 if he can so let's have another 4 decades of him still loving his life as much if not more than ever#if anyone could do it i feel like he could#powered by nothing but love and passion
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been reaaaaaally struggling with the whole disabled thing as of late
#i just got back from my trip and my god i just. the reason i like going home or going on these trips or whatever is because i have help.#i donāt have help whenever iām at home and itās fucking exhausting. i live by myself and while i love that autonomy itās not feasible#i definitely need help on the living day to day end of things and for the majority of my life i just thought of it as#i like people doing stuff for me so i have no responsibilities which like. fair. living is hard. but likeā¦no itās not just that#thereās this whole other disability layer and itās so clear when i live with someone else for even just a few days#i currently live by myself because i really do hate roommates and iām not a good one but like. goddamn. maybe itās time?#maybe i go back to having a roommate idk. i just. now that im understanding that iām actually disabled itās hard to#come back from a trip and not notice the difference you know?#also on another note very tough to see everyone like. already finished with sunrise on the reaping and i know itās gonna take my ass a month#minimum to finish that book. easily. and like. idk that just sucks! cause i wanna talk i wanna engage but usually no one waits#idk i just. it really fucking sucks. people have always been āsmarterā than me because hey howdy hey i have a learning disability but i#didnāt know thatās actually what it was for years so i just kinda. didnāt speak up? and then now when i finally have an idea#iām second guessing myself because no what if i got it wrong what if i read it wrong#like. itās just not great and itās really hitting me today just how fucking disabled i am and how thatās impacted my life drastically#anyway. itās been rough mentally so iām gonna do some laundry which is surprisingly a simple thing for me usually#and then relax by playing zelda or writing idk which. maybe both???#ask to tag idk if yāall want something extra on this.#i'm rambling again aren't i
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Trying to reset my sleep schedule by staying up for 24 hours and we've passed eepy into 'I'm perfectly fine unless I have to move my body in any way or have any active thoughts' so yeah I fucking wish I could work night shifts again bc my circadian rhythm is just NOT built for early to bed early to rise!!!
#i also bailed going out with the bestie bc that would involve leaving the apartment and being social#I haven't spoked to another human since Christmas and that was just her and her mom#I don't particularly miss it though- I have gone to the library a few times and got Wendy's so there has been human interaction#but I! Hate! Talking to people! it's genuinely so exhausting to have to be 'on' constantly!!#let me just live my life in my home and go amongst the people occasionally without having to do the whole song and dance!#personal
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