#thx it's the anxiety

[corazondebeskar]

sometimes you can make a major, life-changing, world-upheaving decision on a random monday night

as a treat

[thunder-wolf64]

Sad boi hours. Need more fluffy rivs in this world.

Going to bed now.

[toraoistired]

Happiest of birthdays to the gloomiest little autistic princess in all the land

[insideoutfannn]

GEE thanks for all the unexpected activity guys

sorry idk how to respond to all the reblogs but thank u all!! Much much love

[popcorn-plots]

Benedict Cumberbatch Movies

based on this post by @elennemigo

The Electrical Life of Louis Wain (2021, Romance/Comedy, PG-13 – Prime Video)

The Courier (2020, Thriller/Action, PG-13 – Amazon Prime, YouTube, Apple TV)

Doctor Strange (2016, Action/Fantasy, PG-13 – Disney+, Hulu, Apple TV, Amazon Prime, YouTube)

The Child in Time (2007, Drama/Romance, unrated – YouTube, Apple TV)

The Whistleblower (2010, Thriller/Crime, R for violence – Hulu, Apple TV, YouTube, Sling TV, Amazon Prime)

Sherlock (2010, Mystery, 4 seasons, PG-13 – Hulu, Amazon Prime, BritBox, Roku, Apple TV)

1917 (2019, War/Action, R for violence, language, disturbing images – YouTube, Amazon Prime, Apple TV)

Broken News (2005, News, 1 season)

The Imitation Game (2014, Thriller/War, PG-13 – Tubi, Netflix, Apple TV, YouTube)

The Power of the Dog (2021, Western film/Romance, R for brief sexual content/full nudity, violence – Netflix)

[sagasfolktale]

Hi I don't feel like naming this character, so I ask the chaotic people of Tumblr to help! Bee puns. LOTS OF THEM! I need a name that's a bee pun or bee related pun like honey or ms comb for her. Just turn names into god awful puns.

[aptericia]

maybe this a strange thing to get hung up on but like. I can’t be the only one who subconsciously texts my friends a bit more professionally after writing a long email to my professor. Or whose internal monologue temporarily changes to sound like that YouTuber I just binged for 3 hours. Or who acts a little more excited and dramatic after watching an action movie. It’s normal to pick up patterns from other people and situations, right?? Why do my friends act so surpised when I start acting more like them, or tell me I “shouldn’t change who I am”? Like buddy. In NO social interaction am I presenting the Real Me. And besides that, you’re an important part of my life—why would it be so weird to be influenced by you? I don’t like being thought of as Weird or Not Genuine just because I do something differently from your previous expectations of me.

[5yin]

my heart feels like a clenched fist

[i-ate-your-dog-srry]

Hello!

If you're one of my mutuals, I would like to say I'm sorry :3

I have really bad anxiety and usually wait for you to reach out first, and I feel bad about it. Hehe, it has been eating at my little peanut brain, and I was afraid some of you all think I'm trying to ignore you! jsjsiw i might just be overthinking, though :]

[excedrinpm]

I just feel… wrong

Something… wrong

[bendrownedbodypillow]

Bit a sore into my cheek, killing myself NOW

[olkarrion]

its batshit insane to me that i didnt consider tourettes a physical disability until like a year ago. tourettes. tourettes = not physical. gaslighting is real guys.

[chaoswillcalmusdown]

ngl i'm obviously grateful for the fact that medication exists that can make me function as a human without the extreme period cramps once a month and without the vomiting due to pain.

but the fact that the medication instantly and very obviously also made me. like. fully numb to life. is really not fun and i really don't think it's fair that those are the two like........... options... that exist

[mars-ipan]

Ya got any rants stored up? Long-burning hatred?

i FINALLY found one i’ve been holding onto this ask waiting for the opportunity.

i HATE how people treat people with anxiety disorders. it’s endless pity mixed with complete incompassion

like ok. obligatory i have generalized anxiety disorder here. a lot of things make me stressed and when i’m having bad anxiety attacks (which can last days and sometimes put me into month-long spells of misery) i get physically sick, to the point of throwing up and fever. i also tend to go nonverbal/low-verbal during these periods of time (usually bc i’m nauseous.) i’m also very prone to migraines and have a tic and wear a night guard due to jaw clenching etc etc you get the point it affects me.

when i share these symptoms with people (assuming they don’t have similar symptoms) i get a lot of frowny faces. “owh i’m sorry :( that must be awful how horrible“ and the like. and it’s never said in a way that’s actually kind. it’s said in the way people talk about those aspca commercials. and it’s never actually come from a place of genuine concern- it’s superficial pity apparently meant to placate me. i hate it

and that’s assuming i even get that reaction at all! usually when i try to explain to someone that i’m experiencing symptoms of some sort like “hey i’m sorry i can’t really be productive right now, i’ve got a lot of brain fog” i am ALWAYS dismissed. EVERY time. maybe it’s because i’m quite skilled at coping and masking. maybe it’s because my panic attacks don’t (always) look like wailing and thrashing and choking on air. but for some reason people don’t seem to understand that yes my anxiety disorder is actually disabling for me sometimes. i will ask for an accommodation i need, be compared to someone else with different needs from me, and then be told i need to just suck it up and deal with it. and i am SO! TIRED! OF! IT!!!! the amount of times i’ve told people “hey please don’t say that to me i’m prone to paranoia about xyz” and then been yelled at because “it’s not that serious take a joke” is ABSURD. hey maybe stop telling me my cough is covid bc now i have to spend the next 3 hours reminding myself that i don’t have any other symptoms asshole!!! jesus

and THEN when i actually DO find a way to cope or utilize the way my brain works or god forbid crack a fucking joke about it people get mad at me. “see i knew it wasn’t a big deal” or “so you’re actually fine” or “that’s not funny” i am. so tired of it

and then i go online and see people saying that disorders like anxiety and depression have been destigmatized and we’re treated basically the same in neurotypical society. motherfucker i did not go undiagnosed for 17 years with several doctors telling me it “wasn’t anything to worry about” despite my family history and clear signs from a young age just to be told my disorder is respected. if i say my anxiety is a disability i get called dramatic and am told to stop taking attention away from people who need it- or not to call it a disability because “it’s not that bad” and i’m fine because clearly having a disability makes every second of your life miserable of course of course. hell anxiety is demonized too! not as badly as many other illnesses but it’s still demonized!!! if i tell people “hey i have anxiety so please be careful with xyz” they act like i just asked them to let me do anything i want without consequence. there’s literally a whole fucking stereotype of people using “anxiety” as an excuse to be lazy or an asshole or entitled. as someone whose anxiety manifests in depressive spirals (freeze response) and rejection sensitivity (doom spiraling) this is Not Great!!!!! like i am hypervigilant about enough things i do not need to add “will these people get mad if i explain how my brain works” to the list

and about the rejection sensitivity. i HATEEEEE when people judge me for crying because they’re upset at something i’ve done wrong. “mars if you’re in the wrong then you’re not the victim” who the fuck said i think i’m the victim???? i cry because my brain takes “can you pls stop doing this it genuinely bugs me” and turns it into “you’re a horrible person how could you do this to someone they hate you.” but just because that happens doesn’t mean i’m not capable of rational thought!!! i KNOW realistically that my friends are good communicators and share that stuff because they like my company. i just need to cry about it as well. that doesn’t negate my logic or say i won’t actually try to improve myself. i’m just upset that i made the mistake. obviously i’m gonna fix it. that one REALLY pisses me off esp when i warn someone in advance that i do that. like calm the fuck down i’m not even pointing out that i’m crying rn this isn’t about me stop making it about me.

ANYWAYS. it’s really frustrating to deal with this shit from nts and then go to an online nd space for community and hear people talk about anxiety disorders like we don’t face ableism. just because it’s quieter doesn’t mean it isn’t there. that AND the “it’s barely an issue” girlie i was told i wasn’t disabled enough by doctors my whole damn life i am NOT about to start hearing it from you too. you can drown in the ocean or a swimming pool or a puddle. doesn’t fucking matter. the hypocrisy irritates me so bad

[kellterntempest]

Bro you CANNOT ominously text me "can you come to my office please"

Instant heart attack

[passionpluto]

the pipeline from "i'm gonna write a neurodivergent main cast" to asking yourself "why is it so easy for me to get into this character's head" to realizing you have at least two of the things you were gonna write about to finally getting an official diagnosis and meds for both