#this hellsite continues to make no sense

[the-curators-bullshit]

hmmm thats a good point and im so tempted and im feeling messy

so, what happened between you and the other hellsite person?

stuff, but billie eilish has that one song about not talking shit on the internet. and I wanna be cool like that

[embers-of-the-oldest-lore]

@photomatt So I've noticed that you and the tumblr moderation team at large seem to view trans women as inherently sexual and in violation of the sites community guidelines by virtue of existing and before you start crawling through my side blogs and find That I do in fact have some content that is not tagged as well as it should be to remain in line with the strictest interpretation of the community guidelines on my sideblog, please know that I understand this and have come to terms with the fact that making this post will result in you taking advantage of this and removing my side blog and likely my primary blog as well.

However before you do this, I want to make sure that you have a full understanding of what you will be removing and in a grander sense what you have destroyed either through negligence or intentional malice by unfairly moderating Trans women on this website and allowing their harassers to thrive.

The girl in this picture was young and scared and trying so hard to be the man that she was supposed to be even though It meant pushing down a part of herself that was more real than anything she had ever actually lived before.

But then she found tumblr and was exposed to experiences like hers and people like her and was able to slowly become herself for the first time in her life. She had a joy and peace on this website that she would never be able to find in her real life.

It took time but eventually that joy and peace and freedom and exposure to so many other scared girls like her gave her the ability to finally admit she didn't have to or want to be the man that her family expected her to be. This is the last picture of her before she finally stopped giving up.

And it didn't happen all at once

There were problems, and stumbling blocks

But she had this site to come back to and find community and joy and she finally had herself

And now she's free and happy and full of so much joy.

She is so full of Love, and happiness, joy, and compassion for herself and the people around her

She lived and thrived and still finds so much joy in this community that saved her life.

I have found love, and kindness, and partners and friends on this hellsite. Most importantly I found a community. One that you would see destroyed. I know you don't actually care about any of this. You don't care about the unfair moderation on this site. You don't care about the trans women that are desperate for community. I don't think this is going to change your mind either. If I exist to you at all, it's only as a nuisance. You're just going to find some excuse to wipe my entire existence on this site that I have called home for twelve years away.

But i'm not really doing this for you.

I'm doing this because I hope that before you have the chance to wipe every trace of my exsistence from this website that some other girl that is just as scared as I was when I joined this community is able to see that there is hope, that things do in fact get better and that we can thrive and find family and a community. Part of me hopes desperately that Tumblr can continue to be a place for scared girls like I was and an even smaller part of me believes that this might find some place in your heart and take hold. But even if it doesn't, we will always find community. We will always find a place where we can become ourselves and find love and happiness and safety with people like us.

And to that scared girl

It gets better

I promise

: Your sister

[psychedelic-ink]

ㅤㅤㅤ✦ 𝐀𝐌𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐀𝐌𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐀𝐌𝐎𝐔𝐑

ㅤㅤjavi gutierrez x f!reader x dieter bravo

genre: smut, minors dni, romance

word count: 0.7k

summary: javi and dieter spoil you with everything they have.

warnings: established relationship, threesome, poly relationship, nipple play, vaginal fingering, oral (reader receiving)

a/n: HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVE @pedrorascal!!!! I know you're probably sleeping right now (damn you timezones)but hopefully this will be a lovely morning surprise! I'm so happy that I've met you through this hellsite---everything you create is art and you bring so much joy to this fandom. You're one of a kind and I just adore and love you so so much 💗💗💗💗

It’s still hard to believe it sometimes— The two men that spontaneously came into your life, the way they made you feel that you belonged in a chaotic, dark world. First came Javi, then came Dieter. Two loveable idiots, and you, the biggest idiot in love. 

Looking down, your heart swells, and your pussy throbs. It’s a sight to behold. Both of their mouths latched on to each hardened nipple, sucking with earnest while you sit on the bed, your back pressed again the bedpost. Their eyes are closed, lashes fanning their cheeks. You slightly shift, your arousal getting the better of you as you search for any kind of friction. 

“Don’t be impatient,” Dieter murmurs with his mouth full. “Let us make you feel good. It’s been a while.” 

A shiver runs through your body at his words, memories of the last time the three of you were together flooding your mind. It had been pure bliss, the way their bodies moved against yours, the way their lips and hands explored every inch of you. And now, as they continue to suck and nibble on your nipples, it feels like coming home. 

Javi moves his mouth to your neck, leaving open-mouthed kisses and love bites along your skin. Dieter's hands move down to your thighs, spreading them wider as he dips his fingers between your legs. Your breath hitches as they both apply their attention to different parts of your body, driving you closer and closer to the edge. 

Their touch is familiar yet electric, and you can't help but moan when Dieter's fingers slip inside of you, finding your sweet spot and rubbing it with just the right amount of pressure. Javi moves his mouth down to your stomach, kissing and licking his way toward your core as Dieter starts to thrust two thick fingers in and out.

Your body is on fire as they continue to devour you, your senses heightened and your mind consumed with pure pleasure. You arch your back, pushing your breasts closer to Dieter’s eager mouth, encouraging them to take more of you in. Dieter's fingers continue to move inside of you, hitting all the right spots as he curls them and adds in a second and then a third. The sensation is overwhelming, and you can feel your muscles clenching and your release approaching. 

Javi's hot breath fans against your core as he blows on your heated skin before finally attaching his lips to your clit. You throw your head back, letting out a long moan as his expert tongue works its magic, swirling and flicking at just the right pace. Your body is trembling now, the sensations too much to handle as you feel yourself getting closer and closer to the edge. 

Your eyes drop to where Javi crowns between your legs, his mouth briefly pulling back as Dieter stuffs his fingers between the other man’s lips. He sucks on them, loudly moaning while Dieter shallowly thrusts them in and out. 

“Good boy,” he raps, pulling them out and sliding them into you once more. “Now make out pretty girl come with those full lips of yours.” 

You can hear Javi and Dieter's moans mixing with yours, their own arousal evident. You feel them move closer to you, their bodies pressing against yours as they continue to suck, lick, and stroke you into oblivion. Your body is on the verge of ecstasy, and you know that you're only a few seconds away from losing yourself completely. 

And then it happens, the pleasure overtakes you, and you're screaming their names as you come undone in their arms. Javi and Dieter both hold you close, their touches still gentle as you ride out your orgasm. Their kisses now sweet and tender instead of passionate and relentless. 

“That’s it,” Dieter whispers. “That’s our girl.” 

Javi blinks up at you, his eyes dazed and lips slick, “That was amazing, mi amor. Want you to make a mess again, want to taste it on my tongue until the day I die.” 

“What about you guys?” 

Dieter chuckles, breath fanning your neck, “Don’t worry, I already have plans of fucking that dork over there until he faints as you watch.” 

“Good,” you say with a wide grin. “I can’t wait to see it.” 

As your breathing returns to normal, you find yourself sandwiched between them, their arms wrapped around you in a protective embrace. You feel so loved, so cherished in this moment, and you know that with them by your side, anything is possible. Your heart is full, and you know that you belong with these two loveable idiots, who have captured your heart and your body with their undeniable charm and affection.

[rubyroboticalt]

Minecrafters grab your pickaxes, and catch up on the QBLR QUARTERLY!

what's up guys, you just found the internet's first hellsite smp! what's qblr you ask? well, you see, the explanation is perfectly simple and scientific: my brother you are on qblr. this is the qsmp fan tumblr. some of us made a server. and now, let me learn you a thing about all the events and mishaps that happened on the server this week!

the server opened with players and creatures running around the world trying to survive the first nights on a modded world, to varying degrees of success

as days pass, residents begin to encounter monsters tough enough to warrant better lodging and armor. with these reinforced shelters and better gear, the residents begin to form friendships!

the friends share food, homes, and gear. sounds like communism. are they communist or something? actually, that makes perfect sense what with the minecraft and all.

residents sort themselves into groups mostly by timezone and playstyle. being a server inspired by the qsmp, timezones mean that groups speaking different languages stick together and build together.

the french build a stone circle, form a traveling band, and create an inn providing basic necessities like food and beds.

others make their own homes, and an axolotl pond pops up!

the hispanic folk also have a lovely start, with cozy furnishings and no other reports from this side of the server.

and now, a reading from r/EnglishLivingSpaces. white jacaranda walls. plain spruce floor. circular room, with a 1-wide 2-tall window for each 5-wide edge wall of the circle, two windows total. green bed under the window, facing a log pillar in the center of the room. two stacks of loose papers on the right side of the room. a sign reading "r/malelivingspaces" placed next to the bed. this has been a reading of r/EnglishLivingSpaces.

the server celebrated 4/13 by having a fruity rumpus cult party. festivities included drugs and alcohol introduced by some of the mods installed on the server.

and now, the gubby.

bad boy hooters opened to celebrate all the big booby badboys out there in the wild. i always do appreciate a good use of the expression hooters. and as a safe house from the nightmare stalkers that seem to be thriving on the fear and pain they cause, it gets many a visit.

residents continue to build and decorate, with fun and games in between.

folks play for reasonable amounts of time, with two days played in 5 days of server uptime by one ambitious player.

finally, everyone is building interiors to their houses now, with the dining room being a popular place to take photos.

some late bloomers also complete the exteriors of their -- that's not a house, thats a taqueria.

and the first week on the server closes with absolutely nothing ominous happening.

[ethrixthesynth]

You know, I was thinking about how the hell to continue this silly little in-character blog for a while, perhaps mentioning the sense of safety I once felt as a transfem on this site, seeing others like me. But, clearly, my scawy transfem kind is not welcome here. Fuck this, fuck this hellsite, fuck you @photomatt,

You poked the hive, and we're gonna sting.

https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fo/pyh4ca4v4mc0ggrklgd0i/h?rlkey=2se1p4911irku3mw42sp8htrz&e=1&dl=0

I am but one of many. Share the file, save the file, dont let him off the hook, immortalize what has happened here.

May you unwittingly skedaddle towards a large pitfall, remain suspended in the air for three seconds before scratching your head and looking down, and then proceed to make Matt-shaped hole in the earth below.

Boo Womp.

[ariadne-mouse]

I really appreciate what tumblr is trying to do with Communities but truly the way they roll out most new features is SO clunky and hostile (in a user acceptance sense). Like the Communities option has been in the sidebar menu for ages but still only has "create new" as an option so you can't browse from there, but you also can't move or hide it if you're not in any communities. It's in the very space-limited menu on mobile too, but same issue - it's not a hub, it's a place where communities that you make or join will be listed, and therefore useless and frustrating if you don't have any. Search function for communities is improving but there is still no place to actually browse, it's just hit or miss searching for things you might be interested in. And now there is the "Suggested Communities" block in the drop down of the search bar on desktop, which also cannot be changed (either to hide or an "I'm not interested" feature) pushing the followed tags which I actually use further down the menu. Look tumblr I know I have "mouse" in my user handle but I do not actually want to join a community just because it has "mouse" in the header name, and there is no way for me to get this out of my suggested communities, and so I just slowly, incrementally resent the feature as it continues to minutely clog up useful functions without providing benefit or a meaningful entry point. I love this hellsite (affectionate) but sometimes it can be very hellsite (derogatory).

[hellsite-detective]

I knew this was going to be my hardest job yet. Slowly I approach the figure behind the desk.

“I hear you’re the Hellsite Detective,” I told them. “I’ve got a message for you. I got pointed your way by a couple people you helped. They want you to know not to work too hard and burn yourself out. A job’s a job, and a calling is a calling, but none of the cases can get solved if you’ve worked yourself into an early grave. Take care of your clients, but take care of yourself too, or someone’s gonna take care of you permanently.”

Message delivered, I turned and walked out.

(You’re really cool and very helpful. Please don’t work yourself to burnout; take a break if you need to. We’ll be here when you get back.)

aawww thank you so much!

i absolutely know i can TECHNICALLY take a break, and that maybe i should (ive considered it), but i would feel really bad about leaving now. i provide a valuable service to this site (or so i’ve been told oops) and i would feel bad if i wasn’t here to continue to provide it!

it brings me a sense of purpose to know that i’m good at this one thing, and if i give that up, i may lose that purpose? i feel a lot better than i did earlier (thank you manga!) but still it can get to me. i know i keep up the whole hard-boiled detective “this life chose me…” persona, but irl i’m definitely much more sensitive than that haha

i’m still working on myself, but i’ll definitely remember to take care of myself first! my needs are important and i’m deserving of happiness. so i’ll make sure to put my own health first, thank you!

this detective isn’t gettin’ iced yet…

[chaotic-archaeologist]

Hi! I'm currently doing my MA in archaeology (European Prehistory specialization) and I love it. I always thought I'd get my Masters and dip, but lately I've been seriously contemplating getting a PhD. I love learning and studying my topic and I'm having so much fun at my uni and suddenly starting my working career at 22 doesn't sound very appealing anymore. However, the idea of applying to a PhD program is very overwhelming (luckily where I want to apply has a pretty cohesive sign up step by step), still the idea of funding (especially) and having to write a proposal and possibly getting rejected from the place I've spend the last three and half years walking around is very overwhelming. How can I have that be not so overwhelming to the point of giving up bc if sounds like too much? Do I need to worry about funding that much? Is it expensive?

(I tried to find your advice masterpost before sending this ask to check if you'd already talked abt it, but I couldn't find a working link, sorry)

Thanks in advance :D

Hi dirtling,

First, here's a link to my advice master list—sorry that wasn't working for you. Our blue hellsite is fickle like that.

From what you say, it sounds like you have a great attitude for starting the journey to a PhD. Ultimately, the love of learning and a dedication to the field are the most important parts. The application and the proposal and the funding are daunting for everyone, but they are doable. I find that breaking things down into bite sized pieces and establishing your sense of self worth outside of academia are critical.

Now I feel the need to point out that my experience and advice come from a uniquely American viewpoint, and may not be applicable to European schools at all. Europeans please feel free to chime in with your own advice!

The very first thing you should do is talk to your advisor. Please send them an email right now if you have not already done so! Your (potential) advisor is going to be your champion in any sort of application process going forward. If you want to continue at the same university you're already at, your advisor is the single best person to help walk you through that process. Even if you wind up going somewhere else, you're going to need to make inroads with another advisor at a new program.

Finally: grad school is expensive (at least in the United Stated). However, many programs will have tuition waivers and assistantships that they offer their grad students because if everybody had to pay for it, nobody except the very rich would be able to afford to go to grad school. Exactly how affordable it is depends on the cost of living in your area and how much the school pays you (and whether you're able to work outside to supplement that income if need be).

Honestly, I think you've already done the hard part by getting into (and nearly completing) a Master's program. That's a great step towards proving to PhD programs that you have what it takes, and it should give you a decent idea about finances. What are yours like right now? How about your peers? I would imagine there isn't going to be a vast amount of difference from a MA to a PhD, and in the US a PhD is sometimes cheaper because they're funded while MAs often are not.

There will be differences from a MA to a PhD. Doctoral students are going to be expected to take on larger magnitudes of their own research and function more independently, but a good advisor and program should help you through that process. Again, the key is to take things piece by piece. Start with talking to your advisor and maybe the graduate program director. Take a look at that step by step guide with them and break it into separate tasks you need to do.

Don't psych yourself out about this too much. One thing at a time.

-Reid

[enoughslices]

Hey so I read your post about Mulder respecting Scully saying they can never be together and you totally cracked my brain open?? When people say that, they might just mean it in the moment but not forever... and they don't clarify this if they change their mind?? I'm rethinking so many things right now lol

Obviously I know each person is different but it was never phrased this way to me and now I'm just sitting here with galaxy brain

This is something I have come up against the hard way in my real life, where all through my childhood and adolescence people continually told me I was, "taking things too literally," and I was like, "... ... ... How else am I supposed to take them?? Should I not take you at your word?" I had a number of situations (like in relationships or friendships) where someone would declare something and I would just accept it and never revisit it, and then later find they were frustrated with me for assuming a statement they'd made two years ago was still true since they had not modified it. I used to do performance-related work and my one colleague who really got me (we love a work wife) would have to explain to directors that if I was told to do something a certain way I would just keep doing it that way and not try anything new until they revised their instruction. I was baffled to learn that the expectation in rehearsals was that I keep trying new things even when I had been explicitly told to do it one way. Or, worse, intuit when they wanted me to keep trying new things in the face of the instruction and when they didn't. It stressed me out so much. I always felt a little betrayed when someone said one thing very emphatically and firmly ("We can't ever get back together," or "I'm never going to do that again.") and then did indeed do or want to do the thing again days or weeks or months or years later (especially without clarifying or explaining). I've had to work really hard on finding respectful ways to not make assumptions even when I feel like something has been communicated clearly to me and get in the habit of raising things periodically from a place of open curiosity to see if people are still in the same place, because not everyone is as precise or literal when they're speaking about things, especially if they're coming from a place of emotion in the moment. I don't know for sure that I'm autistic, but I do know that I'm neurodivergent. I have cPTSD and was also late-diagnosed with ADHD at 36 and have MCAS, which also can impact how your brain works, so diagnosis is a little complicated. I suspect that I'm AuDHD (autistic and ADHD) and I have an evaluation scheduled for this year. Seeing and hearing about people's neurodivergent experiences on TikTok and other corners of the internet has helped me recontextualize a lot of parts of my experience and has illuminated corners I had not even realized were dark. It's made so many things fall into place that have made me go, "Oh. Wait. Fuck! Really??" But also there's a certain relief in having things make sense that never did before, even though it's been absolutely wild to identify my (many, many 😅) blind spots. In conclusion: Me 🤝 Mulder in this headcanon lol I'm sorry to crack your brain open and I hope the light flooding in is not too overwhelming!! Being a person is a trip sometimes! Feel free to DM me if you want to spiral about this together! PS: Obligatory disclaimer that people have a wide variety of different experiences and feeling this way or relating to this is not necessarily an indicator of autism, which I don't even know for sure that I have! I am just over here projecting onto my blorbos on the hellsite, as glob intended 😂😂

[kurtmustdie]

i have a lot of unorganized miguel headcanons that float around my brain at times but since i usually think of them at night and forget about them the next morning im just going to continuously update this post probably? anyway here are the ones that i do remember

i will either leave this in my drafts and update it when i want to or ill just edit/reblog with new stuff idk

edit after i stopped typing:

ok its time

fuck you

posts

identity headcanons first, because idk getting those out of the way feel free to get pissed off about these ill just block you 💖

trans man. he/him pronouns. probbably doesnt care if you use gender neutral terms for him because like... why would he, he has a multiverse to stare at

asexual, can't really figure out of i see him as being aromantic as well, i personally just think he's too busy to think about it atm but i dont think hes incapable of it. maybe arospec, like demiro or greyro or smth idk, i just know this mf is asexual.

he is autistic (and probably undiagnosed?) i will die on this hill as if i was a warrior cat defending the sunningrocks i will commit an oakheart fight me on this and i will throw rocks at you and then promptly get crushed by rocks as well (is that warrior cats spoilers um oops sorry)

now to the rest- that i remember- i have not read the comics yet so if some of these are like.. actually canon lmk because that would be really funny

this one might be a hot take but he does not hate miles. he wants to look out for him and definitely either currently regrets or is going to regret what happened in that chase scene. i genuinely doubt he hates any of the spider-gang hes just very, very worried about the multiverse. in his head thats the only way. (i am hoping and pleading that miguel and miles make up somehow, maybe miles doesnt forgive miguel and that totally understandable and would make sense but pLEASE writers i would die if you kept them as being rivals i genuinely would)

he hates Audrey Hepburn, fangoria, harry houdini, AND croquet. he CAN swim, he CAN dance, and he DOES know Karate. he still wont make it though. sorry man.

since hes from the future i dont think he'd be terribly confused by current slang/terms, hed more look at it like we see terms from like... the 80-90s or anything before that as "oh wow people used to say that? huh. interesting."

im going back on a headcanon ive had since i saw the movie im SoRRYYY but he cant curse. from what ive seen from the comics he uses replacements like "shock" and "bithead", thats it. maybe he says fuck on accident or in spanish (he technically kind of does depending on how you see "Ay Coño" being said but thats beside the point).

probably a blue eyes hater idk he just gives me the vibe of saying "jesus christ your eyes are way too blue, get contacts please im begging you stop looking at me" which is probably why him and gwen have so much beef.

i dont give a shit about what the movie says his fangs are not retractable fuck you. (he still has crooked teeth though i will never forget about those <3 )

autism be damned my guy can work a grill 🔥🔥🔥🔥

a lot of people cant really tell if hes pissed or not by his tone sometimes. is this projection? yeah, next question.

he hardly ever sleeps but when he does its like hes dead (at least when its dead quiet, which again, isnt often so he hardly ever gets a good nights sleep). you'd have to use a fucking blowtorch to the face to wake him up.

i also see him as not only having hypersensitive vision but also having elevated senses period. hearing, smell, touch, etc. probably the main reason he sits in the dark with no other noise.

branching off of that he frequently gets migraines of things get to stressful or too loud or if anything is very off about his schedule.

arachnophobe. ha.

cat person.

cat person as in he likes cats not like hes a catboy.. i shouldnt specify that actually that just makes it worse but i will anyway because tumblr hellsite will be tumblr hellsite

he partially likes lego peter because his daughter really liked lego.

ok but like think about it he'd probably be really good at taking legos apart with those claws. like imagine. it'd be nothing for him.

hasnt spoken to gabriel in years. he cant bring himself to reach out and when gabriel does he just doesnt have the energy to try and respond. he has no idea how to, especially now.

this is very specific but he stims a lot with his claws. like extend and retract over and over absentmindedly (mainly because thats what i'd do if i had claws imagine how fun that would be)

he usually bottles up all the emotions that he has, including anger. kind of explains why he lost it in the chase scene in my head because he reached a boiling point. he hates talking to people about his problems.

empanadas are his safe food, also theyre just easy to eat when your mouth is a little funky (i would know i have some fucked up braces theyre great for that 10/10), its mostly just easier on his fangs.

definitely horrible at the whole self are thing. he just forgets, all the time. would forget to breathe if it wasnt involuntary

if you say anything he doesnt particularly like (eg "hey bro are you okay do you wanna talk") he'll just stare at you with his rat eyes like 👁️👁️ until you stopped idk what im saying.

he is a bit touch starved, depending on his mood he'll let people touch him in a friendly (emphasis on friendly. friendly friendly friendly dont take it any other way :/) way.

OH I almost forgot about this one: he hisses. some spiders hiss. so does he. vampire furry energy

he also gets pissed when people call him a vampire so uh... im counting my days oops.

will go out and sit in the rain. (wait would it still rain in the future? is the climate still fucked in his timeline or nah)

like "ah, its water time" and goes out to sit like this:

Man if only there was a rain filter

that is all i have for now maybe if something else comes up ill reblog with new stuff >:)

[roxannepolice]

3, 12, and 16 for the choose violence ask game?

3. screenshot or description of the worst take you've seen on tumblr Going to assume this is about fandom experience, not Hellsite Academy geography and colour theory classes 😅. In the case of DW, and this really seems to be a Tumblr specialty, I'd say the war of the three showrunners. By which I don't mean liking one showrunner more than another, or even actively disliking one, perfectly regular things, only thinking they are actively trying to undermine each other. As in, Moffat wrote Girl in a fireplace to undermine Tenrose 😔 Ten's reluctance to regenerate was meant to make people dislike Eleven 😠 Moffat destroyed RTD's vision by bringing back Gallifrey and ignored Simm!Master's development 😡 Chibnall destroyed Moffat's vision by re-destroying Gallifrey and ignored Missy's development 😭 RTD brought back Tennant to overshadow Chibnall's last episode 🥺 and the circle of life continues. Again, all of the above are decisions everyone's welcome to like or dislike, in fact I will be bringing up one below and in the next ask! I just mean the specific vision of three grown ass men engaging in an 18 year long passive aggressive pissing contest on public TV 🤷

12. the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them First, I agree with you about Craig Owens, he's a fun filler episodes fun character and whining about not being more sounds ridiculous. And I'm not sure if unpopular is the best word, but I really think Mickey is underappreciated? Maybe not so much character himself but the journey he goes through should get more recognition? Yes it's a bit schematic, but for a supporting character he really is more than a cuckolded boyfriend and butt of jokes that he's made out to be

16. you can't understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc) Crucify me but the vault. Leaving aside the fact that I don't think "ultimately redeeming" the Master is a good idea until the seventh seal is broken and the wolf dwells with the lamb (as in, the actual last episide of DW airs, not in the sense of an Apocalypse themed episode which would be a terrific idea the Doctor might regenerate into David Tennant for the third time only this time he would be ginger!), and not denying that Missy had an arc (bc yes there is a hot take that she didn't), and absolutely praising Michelle Gomez's performance... I wish there was a bit more recognition of how messed up 70 years of solitary confinement as a resocialisation method is or that Missy worrying about the Doctor in Empress of Mars is nowhere near as absolutely unexpected of the Master as Twelve's reaction would suggest of course in a few episodes' time he's going to act like Saxon didn't save his ass from Rassilon so idk maybe the audience is supposed to figure out Twelve has amnesia from all these subtle clues. Longer rant for another day but I sometimes get the impression part of the audience really thinks Missy is the first Master to care for the Doctor or exhibit moral sense, all thanks to Twelve's magnanimous self reflection method.

[murkyhazed-is-archiving]

GET TO KNOW THE MUN.

what made you pick up the muse you have? you mean muses lmao. honestly i pick ones that i personally enjoy or resonate with in some way. for the most part i have to actually like them in order to write them, so any character i have on my muse list i like at the very least.

is there anything you don’t like to write? not particularly? i find it difficult sometimes to do action based replies, but it doesn't mean i don't like to write it. just is a little more difficult.

is there anything you really enjoy writing? threads that are fluffy with a hint of angst are a fave.

how do you come up with your headcanons? i just do i guess? i don't really have a process, it usually comes up either while writing or when watching something i'm like "actually my muse would feel like this instead" kind of thing if that makes sense?

do you write in silence or do you play music? i have to write in silence, music is so distracting to me when writing.

do you plan your replies or wing them? i don't really plan all that much? usually just go with the flow, whatever comes naturally to the muse in question.

do you enjoy shipping? i absolutely fuckin love it, ship with me you cowards.

what’s your alias/name? stephanie! but i also go by steph or stephy. my nieces and nephews call me stephy, that all started when my first niece couldn't pronounce my name properly and called me "snephy" and then i wanted to replicate that when my second niece came along, but she was able to pronounce the "t" so stephy became a staple in my life.

age? 26, i can't believe how old i am.

birthday? october 7th!

favorite color? i really do love yellow, like bright neon yellow. highlighter yellow.

favorite song? lately i've really loved listening to confetti by charlotte cardin.

last movie you watched? alvin and the chipmunks lmao.

last show you watched? it was riverdale season 1. its so hard for me to want to continue even though i love the characters. its kind of like glee, where i could never get past the 2nd season.

last song you listened to? i can't actually remember, it was on the radio in the car. i think it was you spin me round by dead or alive?

favorite food? chicken. just anything chicken i am so game.

favorite season? i like spring, the spring where the bugs haven't come out yet and the weather is getting warmer.

do you have a tumblr best friend? obviously i have a few! naturally @unheald is, i forced her onto this hellsite years ago. also @strnza and @crownslip and just so many others i can't @ everyone sadly

tagged by : i stole it from @sheldoney

tagging : anyone who wants to talk about themselves

[blackberries45]

I've been here for a long long time, however I was really active right before during and after covid on this hellsite.

Part of the reason the last year I was iffy here was because of the change that has gone on. Change happens, change isn't always bad but it completely sucks that the sense of community here is gone.

During covid people made friends here. Mutuals interacted. Writers were celebrated but if you didn't write you mattered too. People seemed to care about others and not just how many likes they could get then burn themselves out on making the same content over and over.

Things change but what a bummer this place continues to be now.

[sebsxphia]

i had a mild extensional crisis last night and i hope this makes any sense at all. i had the crisis because i was thinking about when i will eventually go back to work in the new year. when that will be i’m not sure, but it will happen eventually.

i feel so lucky and incredibly grateful that i have the time i do at the moment to interact with you all and try my very best to give each and every one of you some form of reply, but the reality is when i go back to work my interaction on this hellsite (affectionate) will most likely drop and that made me feel terrible.

even recently i have been feeling rather exhausted from everything that’s suddenly been going on in my life and changing, and sometimes it can feel overwhelming to catch up with things. i also have ocd which means i have to check over and over again that the form of reply i’m giving is good enough.

but please let me tell you, it is has been and will continue to be my absolute joy and pleasure doing all of this for so long, and i can’t even begin to say how much i love doing this and how much i love each and every one of you so very much 🥺

this is essentially a very long way round of saying, if i miss replies, or i’m slow to reply or my interactions are short, please don’t think that it’s you, it’s me 🥺

i hope this makes some form of sense and i’m sending each of you individual bouquets of flowers and forehead smooches!! i hope you’re all having wonderful days/afternoons/evenings as well!! 💐💖🫶🏼

[thechaseofspades]

✍️🐇💘

✍️ What’s your ideal writing setup?

(Got this question on another post but I'll answer differently on both because why not)

I always write on my chromebook. Tab 1 is the document with the story on it. Tab 2 is the document with my ideas and notes. Tab 3 is youtube playing the designated playlist or song for the fic/chapter. Tab 4 is typically on the Ducktales wiki. Tab 5 is a fresh tab for me to type words into the search bar to spell check them but not actually hit enter because I don't want my search history to just be a list of words I was not confident in my spelling of so I just have to trust that the autofill had my back on that one.

As for the music, I make playlists for my multi-chapter fics. And then obviously the OMAM one(s) I end up listening to the album(s) while writing. As for Dream(s), I think I literally did just listen to Dreams by Fleetwood Mac because I really like that song. I used to go to sleep to it.

🐇 Do you write for yourself, for others, or both?

I've never really thought about it as one or the other. I guess it's more writing for myself than not. I'm of the mindset that I'll just write what I want to write and if people like it and read it or maybe even don't then that's cool. Not that I'm immune to the almighty numbers of course, but I don't think I'll ever write a story without wanting to do it if that makes sense. Like I'm not writing Beneath the Skin just because My Head is an Animal was well-received. It's because I personally wanted to continue the story, and also it helps that it got good feedback.

And also it's probably a psychological fact or whatever that when people get good feedback, it makes them feel better about the work they did. And getting that validation is pretty neat. But that's what posting on tumblr is for. I like to think I hold the actual writing I do to a higher standard than my silly hellsite posts.

💘 Is it easier to write angst or fluff?

I have a love/hate relationship with angst. Or should I call it a hurt/comfort relationship? Idk, words are weird.

I'm a huge hypocrite when it comes to this kind of stuff. I'll look at an angsty story or post and think "gosh that's awfully angsty for a disney kids show about the funny ducks" and decide that's not what I'm into because I like seeing my favorite characters be happy all the time forever like they deserve.

But then when I go to write my own stuff, it does get pretty angsty. I don't even realize it when I write it, because that's just where it ends up naturally. So in that regard it really is easier to do angst just in the sense that the conflict/plot/themes/reasons-for-the-story-to-exist are easier to come by.

On the other hand I've struggled lately writing because I don't want to get too angsty. I've already written some pretty tough stuff in my opinion, but I just don't want it to get too wrapped up in that to where I miss the point of writing the funny ducks. It's weird, and I'm working through it so hopefully it won't be a huge issue.

Basically, an ideal world would let me write the fluffiest fluff ever. But my insistence on there being a compelling narrative and character exploration makes angst so much more natural to write in service of that. I think that was my point? Idk

Thanks for the ask!!

[hellsite-detective]

You are put in a room with the Yuri Pokemon, and it constantly repeats the word “Yuri”.

What happens next?

i awaken to the low hum of fluorescent lights above me and the feel of cold tile against my hands. as i struggle to make sense of my surroundings, i try to stand. however, this effort is fruitless as i notice a chain tied around my ankle. i rub my eyes and see that i'm trapped within a grimy bathroom. an old CRTV hanging on the wall sparks to life and the image of a strange lookin' puppet appears. it speaks...

[hello, Hellsite Detective. i'd like to play a game. you may be wondering why you're here. well, it all started back when you poured a mug of water out of your office window. the water landed on an innocent bystander's head, inconveniencing him instantly. for your punishment, i have placed you in this room. in front of you, you may see a cage covered by a tarp. beneath it is your punishment.]

the tarp was pulled upwards by a pulley system, revealin' an interestin' lookin' creature. it seemed asleep, but the lights must've woken it up. it began it's strange call.

YURI! YURI! YURI!

[this creature will continue to say "yuri" until you can manage to find your way out of the room. you will have 10 minutes to achieve this. if you fail to do so before the timer reaches zero, the cage will be opened, at which point the creature will approach you and continue to say "yuri," but it will be a lot closer and as such it will be more annoying. you will be inconvenienced, just as you inconvenienced that innocent bystander. the clock is ticking...]

the CRTV went to static and a digital timer on the wall began counting down from 10 minutes. i spent at least 5 of those minutes wonderin' what the hell was goin' on before i realized that the chain around my ankle wasn't attacked via a shackle. instead it was tied around my ankle like a rope. i untied it, grabbed the cage with the small creature inside, and left the room baffled. i let it go into a forest on the outskirts of the city. as i watched it wander back into nature, i thought to myself...

huh, i guess this is what happens when i mention i like yuri...