#this would sting less if it did not happen constantly.
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here's the situation: me, 26, babyfaced, no gray hair, dresses like a teenager. fifth grade teacher. fourth year teaching in general, first year in elementary.
teach at a school where some high schoolers are classroom helpers. teach at a school where 3-4-5 teachers have departmentalized so we're not in our classrooms all the time.
fourth grade teacher who teaches writing has a sub. i go to my job of teaching spelling to other fourth graders before her sub comes in. come back into the room at prep.
she's here.
"oh, do you help in this classroom???"
"no. this is. my classroom."
dead silence for a minute.
"OH, you're miss [LAST NAME!!] i thought you were a HIGH SCHOOL STUDENT!!"
#just ramblings of aurora#this would sting less if it did not happen constantly.#my guy i cant be on my parents health insurance anymore#my guy i have been moved out for four and a half years.#this is just like when i was eleven and people thought i was a boy but i kind of liked that this is just pain#and none of the other elementary teachers can appreciate my pain because they all think it's good for people to think you're sixteen#my guy when i was sixteen thrift shop was like The Song
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Birthday Cake
Summary: After your fingers slip and you drop Grace Cake, your boyfriend yells at you and takes his anger out on you. After you had scraped up the cake, you were on your way out to your car. But someone was already waiting for you with a new cake in their hand.
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âYou donât need to apologize for his behaviorâ
Tentatively, you looked around for your boyfriend to see if he had seen it. But before you could even turn your head in his direction, you felt his hand on your cheek. You recoiled and sat on the floor in front of him. No one had noticed, everyone was watching Grace trying to smash the piĂąata. You now felt like the piĂąata too, only less colorful. However, you were very glad that the attention of the others wasn't on you at the moment.
âHow can you be so useless?â he asked you as he took a few steps towards you. The loud children's music drowned out his shouting in the crowd. With every step he took towards you, you slipped back a little, until at some point you felt the wall behind you. That he reacted like this was nothing new to you. You knew he had an anger problem, but you always tried to look on the bright side. He just didn't want you to fail. Several nights went by as he knelt at your feet and cried. He said he'd never do it again and you couldn't help but look into his tear-filled eyes and believe him.
âGet another one! Everyone will hate you. How can you be so stupid and clumsy?â he yells at you. Before you even realized it, tears were streaming down your cheek. "The whole evening is ruined because of you!", he yells. Your heart was arching, like someone took it out, squeezed it and rammed it in again.
The sting of his words cut deeper than you could have ever imagined. You had felt small before, but now you felt insignificant, like a shadow of yourself, barely holding onto the edges of who you used to be. The tears kept coming, unbidden, each one a silent cry for help that you knew would go unanswered. You had seen this side of him before, the anger, the cruelty, but each time it reared its head, it still managed to catch you off guard, leaving you defenseless and hollowed out.
You wanted to say something, anything, to defend yourself, to make him see that it was just an accident, that you hadnât meant to mess things up. But the words were trapped in your throat, choked off by the fear and the heartbreak. The only thing that came out was a small "I am sorry". âGet up!â, he hissed, his voice low and venomous. âGet up and go get another one. Fix this!â. Your legs felt like they were made of lead, too heavy to move, but you forced yourself to stand, your body shaking as you did. You wanted to disappear, to melt into the wall and never have to face him again, but you knew that wasnât an option. Not now, not ever. You had learned long ago that running from his anger only made it worse.
As you stumbled toward your car, your keys jingling in your trembling hand, you felt the weight of everything crashing down on you. The second your hand touched the handle, you collapsed, all the fear, frustration, and oppression pouring out of you. You were no stranger to this feeling, after bottling it all up, it always found a way to break free. But this had never happened in public before. Usually, it was in the privacy of your bed, next to him, the very source of your pain.
Your sobs were quiet but intense, shaking your entire body. "Everything alright?" A soft voice suddenly pulled you out of your thoughts, startling you. You looked up, wiping at your tear-streaked face in a futile attempt to hide the evidence of your breakdown.
âFive?â Your voice was barely more than a whisper, cracked and raw. âI⌠Iâm fine. I just...â You tried to smile, but it wavered, crumbling under the weight of everything you were trying to hold back. Your fingers are still clutching the keys in your hand to stop them from rattling constantly, but your mounting trembling made that an unfinishable task. âI saw it,â he says without batting an eyelid.
Fiveâs eyes were steady and serious as he looked at you, not buying your attempt to downplay what had happened. His voice was soft but firm, cutting through the pretense you had tried to maintain. âI saw it,â he repeated without batting an eyelid, his gaze piercing through the façade youâd constructed. You looked away, feeling a rush of shame and helplessness. The truth was too raw, too vulnerable to confront head on. âIâm sorry,â you murmured, the words feeling inadequate and hollow. âI didnât mean for any of this to happen.â
Five stepped closer, his presence a steadying force amidst your chaos. He walks closer to you, his expression a mix of concern and resolve. âYou donât need to apologize for his behavior,â he said, his voice gentle but unwavering. âYouâre not at fault here. You deserve to be treated with respect, not anger and blame.â You could hardly process his words through the fog of your distress, but something about his unflinching support made you feel seen in a way you hadnât been in a long time. For the first time, someone was standing up for you, not just against your boyfriend, but for your own sense of self-worth.
As Five reached out, his hand brushed away the tears on your cheek with a tenderness that contrasted sharply with the cruelty youâd just experienced. His touch was gentle, almost reverent, and it brought a fresh wave of tears to your eyes, not just from sadness, but from a kind of relief you hadnât allowed yourself to feel. Your breath hitched as you looked up at him, your eyes meeting his with a mixture of hope and fear. The vulnerability you felt was overwhelming, but Fiveâs gaze was soft, reassuring, and unwavering. âYouâre not alone,â he said softly. âIâm here. And I care.â
Fiveâs words wrapped around you like a warm blanket in the midst of a storm. The compassion in his eyes, so genuine and unwavering, offered a refuge from the harshness you had just endured. The tears you had been holding back continued to fall, but now they were mingled with the relief of someone truly understanding your pain.
He gently cupped your face in his hands, his touch surprisingly soothing. You leaned into his palms, finding comfort in his proximity. His thumb brushed away the remnants of your tears, and his gaze never wavered from yours. The intensity of his eyes made it clear that he wasnât just offering sympathy, he was offering support, something you desperately needed.
âThank you,â you whispered, your voice quivering. The gratitude in your heart was immense, but words seemed inadequate. Five simply nodded, his expression softening even more. Without another word, he leaned in, his lips meeting yours in a kiss that was both tender and reassuring. The kiss was gentle at first, a sweet promise of understanding and care. But as you both sank into the moment, the kiss deepened, fueled by the raw emotions that had been building up inside you. His lips moved against yours with a gentle urgency, as if trying to convey all the feelings that words couldnât express. The world outside seemed to fade away, leaving only the two of you and the warmth of his embrace.
You responded with equal fervor, your hands finding their way to his shoulders, pulling him closer. The kiss became more fervent, an exploration of comfort and connection that transcended the pain you had just experienced. It was a moment of shared solace, a physical manifestation of the support he had offered with his words. Eventually, the kiss softened, but neither of you wanted to let go. Fiveâs arms wrapped around you, holding you securely as you rested your forehead against his.
But both of you, so tangled in the moment, didn't see the two eyes, sharply watching you two.
Thanks for reading love :)
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Breathe
Part 7
Pairing: Will 'Ironhead' Miller x female reader
Words: 6.9k
Warnings: Rated E, 18+. Swearing. Trauma/PTSD/nightmares/insomnia. Unprotected intercourse.
Summary: Unanswered questions amp up every emotion that time does nothing to lessen, and so much uncertainty raises the concern if everything will turn out okay or if moving on is the only answer.
A/N: Less hurt than the last chapter, I promise! Thank you to everyone who was so enthusiastic and responsive to it and made all that angst worth writing!
Photo by @avatarskingdom and edited by me. Please do not use without permission or credit. Headers by the wonderful @spaghettificationandpretzels!
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You felt numb as much as you felt angry, scared and heartbroken.
It was all still so surreal, having to remind yourself constantly that Will broke up with you and was gone, the persistent sick feeling in your stomach growing with every thought of his life being at risk and that even though he was no longer yours, you might never see him again.
You did everything you could to understand his side of things, but with that your frustration increased wildly, the fact that he hadn't even given you the chance to be there for him stinging almost as much as him abandoning what you knew, or thought, you had.
Did he really believe you wouldnât support him, that you didnât care enough about him to give him space and time while he dealt with all the things he needed to, that your love for him simply wasnât enough for him to want to hold onto while he was deployed, that everything you thought you had been building was broken and false?
The toaster popped, shooting your slice of bread out, making you jump after forgetting you were even waiting for it.
You ate because you had to, but food tasted bleak and flavourless, and everything that landed in your stomach felt like it sat there and made your nausea even worse.
You had made a whole lasagna earlier just because, giving you something to do for the better part of an hour, but the thought of eating it was so unappealing and you had the idea that maybe you would drop it off for Benny. Taking a bite out of the plain piece of toast, you thought how awful it might feel to go over to the Millerâs house right now, and decided against it, opting to freeze the lasagna for another time instead.
Another bite and the toast was in the trash, and you stood in the middle of your kitchen unmoving, not sure what to do with yourself next.
You hadnât slept, and whether it was fatigue or just your grief pummeling you, you broke down and sobbed, your body shaking as the memory of Will holding you in his arms in this very spot flooded you, dancing one night while in the middle of cleaning up dinner, pausing almost anything in favour of stealing a piece of each other.
Work was a welcomed distraction, forcing you to go through the motions and function like everything was normal, able to allow you to bury your emotions for the course of a shift and nearly forget about what had happened, only to have it all come back the moment you got in your car and started your drive home, knowing you had nothing to look forward to.
You hadnât been back to the gym since the day you saw both brothers there all beat up from their brawl with each other, your body too exhausted and weak to even consider working out, but as you sat at your kitchen table with nothing else to do, you went and changed into your gym clothes and drove over.
It was busy enough, observing the evening crowd enough to keep you entertained as you walked on the Stair Master, each step automatic and absent-minded.
Through a few people and machines you spotted Benny, resting on a bench between sets of chest presses, his smile and slightly awkward wave making you feel equally so, and as he stood and started weaving his way over to you, you felt bad that he probably felt obligated to talk to you.
You stopped the machine and stepped down, grabbing your things in the assumption you would probably feel like leaving after this conversation, your water bottle shaking in your hand that trembled with nerves and adrenaline.
âHey,â Benny said, somewhat hesitantly.
âHey, Benny,â you answered, smoothing your hand over your sweaty hair.
âHowâre you doing?â
You sighed, looking down at the floor as you shook your head. âDo you want the fake answer or the honest one?â
Benny huffed a laugh in understanding. âYou look like shit.â
You laughed out of disbelief, bringing yourself to look at him as he scratched his head and tried to recover.
âI mean- fuck.â
âNo, I look like shit. Feel like it too,â you confirmed, reassuring his observations.
âAre you looking after yourself?â he asked, his face full of concern.
You shrugged, âAs much as I can, I guess.â
He nodded, sympathetic to your feelings. âAre you eating? Sleeping?â
âHere and there. Not much of both if Iâm honest.â
âYeah, I get it. Just do your best even though itâs hard.â
You hummed. âDoes it get any easier?â
He tilted his head a bit. âDoes what get easier?â
âThe worry, the waitingâŚâ
âOh, uhâŚâ he pulled his ball cap up off his head, smoothed his hair back and placed it back on again, this time backwards. âYeah, I guess we all just get used to it in a way. But Iâd be lying if I said that everyday youâre half expecting to get that phone callâŚâ
He saw the tears in your eyes well to the surface, and unlike most times, Benny felt a bit speechless.
âI canât stop thinking about him,â you admitted, your words not even directed at Benny, but rather said aloud simply because you couldnât keep them in.
âUgh, Iâm sorry,â you went on, wiping your eyes and shaking your head like it would suddenly shake away your feelings. âIâm gonna get going, see you later.â
âYeah, of course,â Benny responded, his voice soft. âHey,â he called after you, making you pause and turn half-way to face him.
âJust donât give up on him yet.â
You gave a weak smile. âI couldnât if I wanted to.â
You made it to your car before you really fell apart, the tears coming down your face so hot and fast you could barely see to unlock the door, and when you flopped down into the seat, you rested your head against the steering wheel and wept.
The most overwhelming sense of panic came over you, taking control over everything and trapping you in it, your mind racing with every horrible thought imaginable, and before you could realize, your breathing had turned short and gasping, your mouth desperately trying to suck in air between sobs.
Your hands wrapped around yourself, squeezing you tighter than the grip of the anxiety attack was, feeling your whole body shaking and trembling and all you wanted to do was scream.
That was when Willâs soothing voice popped in your head, urging you to focus on your breaths and count each one, the sound of the numbers in his even tone allowing you to stop the panic, and you began counting out loud until your breathing eventually leveled out.
How could the same person who was the reason you were feeling this way manage to help calm you, you thought, exhaling slowly as everything around you started to come into focus again.
You ran your hands over your face, your body still shaking with each inhalation though they had become more regular, knowing that as much as you were hurt and betrayed, you still loved Will more than you could imagine loving anything.
Bennyâs phone rang not thirty seconds after heâd just hung up, Willâs number lighting up his screen suspiciously close to him ending his conversation with Tom.
He pressed the green button to answer it, and before he could even get out a âheyâ, Willâs voice stopped him.
âAre you checking up on me?â
âUhh-â
âI heard Redfly talking to you, idiot.â
Benny scratched his head, trying to gauge which way this was about to go.
âIf youâre wondering how I am, just ask me, Ben.â
âYeah, well, sometimes thatâs easier said than done,â he quipped, recalling how many forced conversations theyâd had lately where Will gave short, vague answers to everything.
âWhat the fuck does that mean?â
Benny sighed, lifting his arm up in exasperation before letting it fall and hit his side, âI dunno, man, I just thought Iâd get a truthful answer out of Redfly over you. Heâs with you every day and can tell how you are.â
He heard Will sigh, and Benny took the pause as a chance to give his brother the opportunity to tell him for himself.
âSo, how are you, then?â
Will sighed heavily again. âI donât fucking know anymore. Okay, I guess?â he said, his uncertainty clear.
âTom said things are going well with the op, and despite it all you seem like youâve got your head in the game.â
âYeah, thatâs all fine,â Will explained, like his role as a Captain on this tour was the least of his worries. âItâs everything elseâŚâ
âYeahâŚâ Benny agreed, holding space for Will to continue.
âHowâs she doing? Have you seen her?â
âSaw her at the gym yesterday,â Benny said carefully, trying to decide if it would be better or worse to tell him she wasnât doing well, but ultimately knowing if he wanted Will to be honest, he would have to be too. âSheâs not doing good, man.â
Will was silent, making Benny pull the phone away from his ear to check if the call had dropped or not.
âI canât believe I did this to her,â he said quietly.
âYeah, well,â Benny said flatly, âWhatâs done is done, now you just have to focus on finishing this job and getting back home so you can fix it.â
âDo you think there will be anything left to fix?â
Benny blew the air out of his mouth slowly. âThatâs up to you two. If you both want it to work outâŚâ
âThatâs what Iâm worried about. By the time I get back sheâll have moved on and learned to hate me.â
âYou donât know that,â Benny countered. Able to tell the expression that would be on Willâs face right now, he continued. âShe still loves you man.â
âI wish she didnât. She deserves better, not this shitâŚâ
Bennyâs heart ached for his brother, hating that he was going through this on top of being back in action, praying his stress didnât get the better of him or be the cause of any fatal mistakes.
âListen, man, I gotta go,â Will spoke, his voice weak and quiet.
âYeah, okay. Be careful out there.â
âAlways.â
The beep of the call ending sounded in Bennyâs ear before there was even the chance to consider saying anything else, and he hoped Will would hang onto the thought that maybe it wasnât all lost yet.
Days turned into weeks, but the amount of time that was passing didnât help to make things feel any better, making you wonder every day if it would ever stop hurting.
Anger grew as you wracked your brain combing through every detail of every conversation and act that could've led to this, wondering where it was that you went wrong, but you still couldnât pinpoint the moment Will gave up on loving you or what it was that made him peel away. It almost hurt just as much as him being gone did, unable to know what the cause was so you could try to rectify it and simply get closure as to why it ended, your heart like an open wound that would never heal.
You looked at yourself in the mirror one last time before exiting your room, on your way to meet two of your girlfriends for a quiet drink, your attempts to refuse unaccepted.
You couldnât deny that it would possibly help get your mind off of Will, but you knew it was futile as everything you did and everywhere you went, he was there.
âThat guy canât stop looking over here at you,â Grace said through a grin as she nudged you with her elbow, and you twisted in your chair slightly to follow her gaze.
You took a sip of your wine as you assessed the man with dark brown hair and brown eyes staring directly at you, his smile bright and clean, his lips plump and inviting.
You said nothing as you turned back to your friends, raising your eyebrows as if that was a response that would appease anyone.
âCome on, heâs gorgeous!â Nicole urged, tilting her head indignantly.
âI never said he wasnât!â you defended, but in your head all you could think was how he wasnât Will.
âYou need a rebound fuck,â Grace suggested, and the thought made your stomach flip.
âIâm not ready for any of that yet,â you admitted, hoping they would understand how raw everything still felt.
âWe know,â Nicole sympathized, giving your hand a squeeze as she placed hers overtop, and you knew they would support you in anything whether it was continuing to miss Will with every part of your being or hooking up with the next man who walked by.
âOh shit, heâs coming over,â Grace blurted, adjusting in her seat as a wide smile appeared on her face.
Your heart plummeted in your gut, and you sighed, praying this wouldnât be as horribly awkward as you were expecting it to be, trying to find the energy to be kind and cordial despite not wanting to.
âI hope Iâm not interrupting,â a deep, smooth voice purred behind you, and you felt the demand of his presence as he stood beside your chair.
His eyes were even more alluring up close, and his crooked smirk was equally charming as it was sexy, the dark scruff around his mouth complimenting his olive complexion.
You swallowed, feeling unable to find words, and with a low chuckle, it prompted him to continue.
âI couldnât help but want to come over to say hi and introduce myself.â He spoke with such confidence, his voice so seductive. âIâm Cam.â
He held out his hand for you to shake, and you did, feeling your hand tremble slightly before he took it in a firm grip and moved it up and down once on your behalf.
You introduced yourself as well as Nicole and Grace who you wanted to kick under the table for how they were gawking at him, but not as much as you wanted to crawl under it to hide away as he pulled out a chair from the empty table beside yours and took a seat.
âCan I get you ladies another round?â
âOh, yes please!â the girls chimed, seeming completely enthusiastic about him joining you.
You assessed his hand for any ring as he waved the waitress over, requesting for the same drinks to be brought to the table, feeling relieved there was no band wrapped around his ring finger, but something about him still felt off to you.
Heâs not Will, your mind reminded you, and you took a long drink of your wine to try to swallow the sour feeling stirring in your gut.
It was comfortable enough talking to him, even catching yourself laughing at some of the things he said and genuinely having a good time, but every time you felt yourself liking something about him, there was one thing you found you didnât.
Heâs not Will.
You found yourself lost in his chocolate eyes as he spoke to you, imagining instead they were clear blue and held a brightness that reflected the love you had learned to see shine through them, only to be reminded that that wasnât something that existed for you anymore, and you blinked back to the reality you faced.
âWould it be too forward of me if I asked for your number?â Cam asked, his eyebrows raising on his forehead in a hopeful, but confident expression.
âHm, yeah, sure,â you replied, picking his phone up from the table that he slid over to you and typed your number into a text message along with your name, sending it to yourself.
âIâll call you,â he said, standing from his seat where he continued to smile at you.
Your eyes followed him as he walked over to the bar to pay his tab, feeling something stir in you as he looked back over his shoulder at you one last time before he sauntered out of the bar, everything about him charming and gorgeous.
But he wasnât Will.
âAre you going to go out with him?â Nicole asked excitedly, the looks on both your friendâs faces confusing you like you missed something they hadnât.
âUmm,â you pondered, trying to wrap your head around the situation, the three glasses of wine making your head feel fuzzy. âI- I donât know.â
You felt like crying, feeling a sense of guilt and anxiety bubble up in you, like you were betraying Will and being unfaithful despite the reminder that he wasnât yours slapping you in the face and twisting your heart in your chest.
A few days had passed since your night out with the girls, and as expected, a text from Cam had come through asking to take you for dinner, the invitation sitting ignored and unresponded to in your messages.
Every time you opened your phone to reply, you would see Willâs name a few spots down from Camâs, the contrast between them and what was past and what was present making you wish more than ever that you could go back in time and try to mend whatever it was that took Will away from you.
You didn't recall ever being so irritable, your temper short and your patience gone, a toss up whether you would scream or cry at the drop of a hat becoming the daily gamble.
The gym didnât even seem to allay these frustrations, and as you tried to adjust the height of the rack bracket and it got stuck, you felt that blanket of red creeping up through you.
Cursing under your breath, you wiggled the pin again and again, tugging and jostling it to try to get it to move, the clanking of the metal against metal drawing attention over to you by prying, judging eyes.
âNeed help?â
You sighed with relief, hearing the familiar voice that belonged to Benny, closing your eyes and counting your breaths as he stepped in and adjusted it for you.
âThank you,â you muttered, avoiding meeting his eyes as shame washed over you.
âYou alright?â
You forced the air out of your lungs again, still not meeting his piercing gaze.
âI'm just so angry and there's nothing I can do about it,â you admitted, your tone defeated.
âI understand that,â Benny drawled, leaning against the squat rack.
You felt him studying you, almost as if he was debating saying something.
âHe asks about you every time I talk to himâŚâ
It felt like the wind was knocked right out of you, and somehow you managed to speak.
âHe does?â
Your bewilderment seemed to confuse Benny, his face screwed up as he looked at you like it was the most obvious and normal thing.
âYeah?â
You covered your face with your hands, letting out a growl that did nothing to signify your frustration at the situation.
âI still donât know what I did wrong. He stopped staying the night and became more and more distant each time I saw himâŚâ You paused briefly, trying to put your thoughts in order. âThen he just stopped altogether and the next time we spoke he ended it, and now youâre saying he asks about me?â
âHe didnât tell you about his nightmare?â Benny asked, his shock blatant.
You shook your head, your brows knitted tightly together. âNo?â
Benny sighed and rolled his eyes, shifting on his feet as he crossed his arms over his chest. âJesus ChristâŚokay,â he groaned, exasperated by his brotherâs ability to consistently make things worse.
You stood there unmoving as Benny explained what had happened, going over all the details Will had told him of his nightmare and his reactions to it, and you felt cold despite having worked up a sweat from what you had done in your routine already.
âI told him he wouldn't actually hurt you but he was so messed up from it. I think it was days before he managed to sleep after that,â Benny said, his tone sad. âI've only seen him that distraught after a nightmare a couple times before.â
âWhy wouldnât he have said anything to me?â you asked, your voice a whisper.
Benny shrugged, âI think he was scared. And then knowing he was leaving on top of itâŚit was just too much for him.â
You nodded, rubbing your hands on your arms for some sort of comfort, feeling like your heart was breaking all over again, but this time for Will rather than because of him.
âIâm not making excuses for him,â Benny went on, leaning with his arms up on the barbell that hung across the rack. âI donât agree with what he did, I just know how messy things can get in that head of his, and as his brother I kinda always have to have his back, but it doesn't mean Iâm on his side.â
You nodded, at a loss for words as your mind tried to process everything.
It was a helpless feeling, having some sort of understanding now but unable to do anything about it, wondering if you should send Will a message or have Benny pass one along, but all you wanted to tell him was you loved him and that was probably something he didnât need right now.
âThanks for telling me,â you said softly, all of your anger replaced with sadness and worry, your heart aching in your chest.
Time continued to pass but did nothing to heal, each day marking another one gone without a word between you and Will, leaving you more unclear than ever at what to do, feeling that if he wanted anything to do with you, he wouldâve reached out by now.
Not wanting to put Benny in the middle of it, you never once asked him to interfere or treated him as a messenger, only asking how his brother was doing when he hadnât told you on his own and thankful that he usually would provide an update anyway knowing you were wondering.
The last time you saw the younger Miller you had dropped off a weekâs worth of food, having prepped a variety of high fat and carb meals, helping to get him ready for his upcoming fights in a new weight class.
Cooking for Benny was just the type of distraction you needed, feeling useful and productive and able to put this latent energy into something good for someone else, offering to make his meals for him each week so he didnât have to worry about his nutrition while focusing on his training.
He had told you as he helped unload all the food from your car that Will was due to return home soon, a matter of days or weeks but there was no exact date yet, and every time you went to the gym or to the grocery store, you braced yourself for a run-in with the man you couldnât stop thinking about.
You finished washing your face and brushing your teeth, checking your phone one last time before leaving it on your dresser for the night, never getting used to the disappointment you felt at not seeing a sweet message from Will like you used to whenever he wasnât with you, and still holding hope that whenever it did buzz with a text, it would be Benny saying Will was back.
Your anxiousness was getting the better of you, feeling like it was worsening each day to the point you were struggling to sleep even more than what had now become your normal, never resting for more than a couple of hours at a time if you were lucky.
So many things passed through your mind in those hours spent awake, some of which consisted of that outstanding offer for a date with Cam, not declining it yet despite knowing it was something you didnât want anything to do with. Nicole and Grace would still bring it up whenever you talked but didnât put any pressure on you, both of them knowing deep down you were happiest with Will, and you werenât about to jeopardize any remaining chance with him until you knew for sure that there was an absolute finality to your relationship.
Not feeling tired but knowing you needed to try to sleep, you crawled into bed, nestling yourself under the covers on the side that Will used to occupy, closing your eyes in hopes your mind would drum up the memory of his arms wrapped around you.
You knew you shouldn't do it, knowing it wasn't helping you move on and that some might deem it unhealthy, but every time you laid in bed you imagined him with you and it was becoming the only thing that would get you to sleep.
It had been your haven; the warmth of his body and your limbs tired and wonderfully achy from sex providing all the comfort you needed to drift off, both of you usually able to sleep soundly with the exception of Will having the occasional nightmare until his mind plagued him with the one that he couldnât get past.
How could it be so wrong to go back to a time when a version of you didn't haunt his dreams, when you had brought each other nothing but love and understanding and a sense of safety and security? You kept replaying what Benny had told you about his nightmare over and over, the sense of guilt you had over it working to torture you just as much as the dream tormented Will.
You sighed, squeezing your eyelids tight, doing everything in your power to recall the feel of his lips on your neck, his breath ghosting over your skin as he wished you goodnight, his beard scratching against you in the most addicting way as he tucked his face as close to yours as he could.
Tears started to spring from your eyes the harder you shut them, thinking how you would give it all up in a heartbeat so Will could be happy and live a life with all of his worries put at ease even if it meant you couldnât be a part of it.
Will picked at the frayed laces on his boot as he listened to the dial tone, one leg bent to rest on his knee while waiting for Benny to pick up, excited to share the news that he was flying home tomorrow and to get an update on Bennyâs training, knowing he had been working hard to put on the last few pounds needed to put him in the Light Heavyweight class.
âSup, bro?â he finally answered, out of breath.
âHey, Ben. You running?â
âJust in the middle of some light spars. Got my first fight tomorrow.â
âTomorrow?â
âYeah, buddy!â he hollered, his excitement palpable through the phone.
âThatâs awesome, Benny,â Will praised, proud of his brother for reaching his goal.
âHowâre you doing?â Benny panted.
âIâm okay,â he paused, planting his foot down so both were on the ground and scratching his head. âComing in tomorrow.â
âFuck, seriously?â
âYeahâŚâ
âShit. The fight is in Fort Myers, I canât pick you up, man.â
Will tried his best to disguise his disappointment, his leg bouncing as he tried to level his voice.
âItâs fine, Iâll take a cab or get Redfly to drop me off,â he suggested, knowing he wouldnât even ask his friend since Tom would be so eager to be reunited with his girls.
Benny sighed, âYou sure?â
âYeah, itâs not a big deal. Iâm just sorry Iâll miss that fight.â
âThere will be more, donât worry,â he assured. âSafe flight home, eh?â
âThanks Benny. Good luck tomorrow. Knock âem dead.â
Benny chuckled, âYeah, I will. See you soon, bro.â
Will ended the call and sat for a minute, the bit of excitement he felt about coming home diminished, feeling a sense of dejection that he officially had no one there for him.
He considered all of his options, the thought of reaching out to you even crossing his mind, but knew that he couldnât and he would just have to settle for whatever warm welcome the cab driver wouldnât provide him.
He blew air out of his mouth slowly, starting to feel like he couldn't capture a proper breath, closing his eyes as the sense of self-inflicted and well-deserved dread he was now accustomed to consumed him.
One, two, threeâŚhe counted, the numbers switching from the sound of his own voice to yours, repeating them with each breath in and out until he secured a consistent pattern.
Tomorrow.
You knew what it meant without any other context, the single word appearing on your screen from Benny making your heart jump into your throat, and you grabbed the edge of the countertop behind you with shaky hands as you leaned against it.
He had promised to tell you when he knew for sure and here it was, the day you had hoped for for so long, but one you were also terrified for.
Will was coming home.
As a slew of emotions ran through you, it dawned on you that his arrival happened to be on the same day as Bennyâs fight, and you wondered if that meant anyone would be there to welcome him home.
You picked up your phone to reply to Benny, thinking of asking him who was planning to pick Will up from base, but as soon as you started typing the message, you hit the arrow to delete it, putting your phone back down on the counter.
It wasnât your business, you told yourself, fighting every urge to make it yours, the thought of Wil returning home from the hells he faced with no one there for him breaking your heart.
You figured you were the last person he would want to see anyway, and knowing you had the potential to send him even more over the edge made you feel sick, thinking of how much had changed from when you were the one who used to bring him peace.
The flight was long, and it felt like every muscle in Willâs body ached as he walked off the plane and waited to board the bus that would bring them to the base station, feeling so close but still so far from being home.
There was continuous chatter around him, the excitement of all the soldiers about reuniting with their loved ones making Will feel happy and sad at the same time, and he did his best to seem enthused when asked if he was looking forward to going home.
He checked his phone more times than he needed to, having sent Benny a text that he had landed to which he responded with a thumbs up emoji, part of him hoping that there would be something from you, only to remember he didnât deserve any grace for his actions.
He was getting everything he deserved, he thought as he pressed his head back against the headrest after sitting down, sighing out slowly while closing his eyes, finding it amusing that being alone was something he was both looking forward to and completely dreading.
It wasnât long before the bus arrived at base, and Will remained in his seat until everyone else had gotten off, not wanting his fellow troops who were so eager to hold their loved ones to be held up by him who was only going to wait for a fucking cab.
He slung his bag over his shoulder and made his way through people hugging, a weak smile forming on his lips in seeing one of his friends holding his newborn baby, and not far off did he watch Tom embrace both of his daughterâs in his arms, picking them up and swinging them around until they were screaming with delight.
After making his way to the doors, he pulled out his phone and looked up the number for a taxi, rubbing his other hand over his tired eyes roughly, praying it wouldnât take long for one to show up.
The area he stood in was quiet with everyone else still lingering behind, but he glanced up when he noticed a couple walking past hand-in-hand, pausing to steal a kiss.
Will was about to hit the number to dial for Taxi Tampa when he looked up again, his eyes landing on a familiar face and one he couldnât forget even if he tried.
You had just walked in and were stopped in your tracks as you noticed him at the same time, your face a mix of so many emotions that Will could hardly pick one out.
You gave a small shrug and shook your head, silently explaining that you didnât really know what you were doing there, and Will all but choked as he tried to take a breath, his shock in seeing you completely overwhelming.
He dropped his bag and let his phone fall on top of it, stepping toward you in purposeful strides, his eyes welling up just the same as yours were.
âI wasnât sure if I should even come butâŚI had to show up for you,â you shook out, Willâs hands reaching to cup your face, his thumbs smoothing your cheeks as tears started to fall down them.
He nodded in response, unable to say anything, his own tears breaking their threshold as you grabbed onto his forearms, rubbing them through his shirt as he continued to hold onto you.
He pulled you into a hug, relieved when you embraced him just as hard, feeling himself relax into you, his face nuzzling your head.
âIâm sorry,â he cried, alternating his remorse with âthank youâ between pressing kisses onto your forehead and hair, your sobs making your body lurch against his.
Your hands pawed at his back, clawing at his fatigues like you were trying to hold onto him for good, and Will prayed with everything he had that you never would let go.
He wasnât sure how long you stayed like that for, but he eventually felt himself calm down, relishing in holding you and being in your presence again, knowing he would do everything in his power to make every bit of hurt up to you.
Will inhaled deeply, letting it go slowly out of his mouth, feeling like he could finally breathe properly again after all this time.
It was surreal to be in his arms, his warm embrace something you missed more than you imagined you could have, the feel of his body on yours and his scent surrounding you so familiar.
His heartbeat thrummed in your ear as you continued to rest your face on his chest, hearing his breathing having evened out and realizing yours had done the same.
You reluctantly pulled away to look at him, still keeping your arms locked around his middle. âShould we get you home?â
Willâs mouth turned up on one side, his crooked smirk making you melt.
âYeah,â he nodded, his hand falling to land on your lower back as you both turned to where his bag was left on the floor.
You expected a moment like this to feel awkward, but it was anything but, like you were learning each other all over again, standing in Willâs room with your arms around each otherâs waist, your faces so close and your lips inches from touching.
Finally, Will leaned into you, softly pressing his lips on yours, making you hold your breath as you let your eyes close and kissed him back, a broken moan transferring into his mouth as you forced yourself to try to take in air again.
His hand ran across your back, pulling you close to him as he took a step into you, your shirt slipping up so his palm splayed out on your skin, that sensation alone making you shiver in addition to how good it felt to have his lips on yours again.
Kisses grew more intense as each second ticked by, only pausing when he lifted your shirt over your head, and despite feeling so desperate, you both continued to keep every touch slow and careful.
His fingers pinched the clasp of your bra together to release it, moving the straps down your shoulders until it fell from your body, returning his hands to your arms where he trailed his fingertips up them to your neck and then down to your bare chest.
You found the buttons on his shirt, blindly unfastening each one until you were able to peel it open, feeling his smooth chest and the defined muscles of his torso, his warmth radiating out onto you.
Will reached up to take hold of your face, angling your head to press his tongue deeper in your mouth, stealing every bit of air from you in the process.
Breathe, your mind begged, but kissing him was better than breathing.
The rough material of his fatigues brushed against your nipples, making your breath hitch in your throat even more, your body moving to rub against him again to replicate the feeling.
You were rid of your pants and underwear next, leaving you naked while Will remained in his uniform, but the intoxicating feel of your skin on his bare chest let him know that he needed to have as much skin-on-skin contact as possible, and he tore the garment off his upper body quickly before moving to his pants.
Once you were bared to each other, you returned to your slow caresses, touching and exploring with light fingers and hands, your pleasure brought on purely by love.
You stopped kissing him for a moment, teasing your lips on his until you managed to whisper, your voice thick with lust.
âI need you, Will. I need you inside me.â
His nose nudged your cheek as he agreed with the nod of his head, his hands clasping your face again like he feared if he went too long without kissing you, you would vanish.
He took your hand and led you to the bed, sitting down on it and shifted back slightly where you followed, straddling his lap and wrapping your arms around his neck, looking into his vibrantly blue eyes as he gazed at you lovingly.
His hands slid all along your back, bringing you closer to his body before they landed on your legs, guiding you to put them straight so they were behind him and you were seated flush against his lap.
You breathed out slowly as your forehead rested against his, feeling his cock settle at your folds, and when you moved your hips ever so slightly, you gasped at the sensation.
Will kissed along your jawline, his hands massaging your hips, ready to assist as you lifted yourself enough to reach between your bodies and take hold of his cock, guiding him to your entrance where you slowly sank onto his length.
Short, shuddered breaths were exchanged between you before you found each otherâs lips again, and you gradually began to move together, finding a tempo that sang to you and helped display the love that had been missing.
Will held onto every part of you that he could, grasping at you as you rocked and rode him, his hips jutting up into yours in slow, meticulous thrusts to give you everything you needed, feeling your desperation grow while his did too.
Your clit rubbed against the coarse hairs above his cock, grinding until you were at the edge, the way your wet walls clenched around and encased him driving him to the brink what felt like faster than ever.
Even though you were both quick to arrive at your climaxes, nothing about it was rushed, savouring each movement to get there and not taking a single second for granted, every emotion felt transferred through your bodies.
Will kissed you hard, groaning into your mouth as he came undone, coating your walls and filling you completely with his hot cum that started to leak out of you as you continued to move on his shaft, your orgasm lagging just seconds behind.
Your fingers clawed at the back of his neck, scratching and digging into his flesh as your body took every bit of pleasure from him, the seal of your mouths breaking as you both panted for air, his head falling into the hollow of your neck while yours rested on the side of his, his hair soft on your cheek.
His mouth smeared wet across your collarbone as he moved his face, pressing sloppy, lazy kisses onto your skin as he continued to hold you close, feeling his chest and back expand and contract with each heavy breath while you kept your arms secured around him.
Will brought you with him as he laid down on his sheets, your bodies still connected, his fingertips tracing your hairline before he leaned toward you and kissed your lips again.
After a few more minutes of kissing, you tucked your face into his neck, your legs entwining with his, Will rolling over onto his back where he held your hand and brought it to rest on his chest.
A silent agreement seemed to settle between you to leave the talking until tomorrow, right now needing to simply be with each other, and like nothing had ever gone wrong, Will closed his eyes and fell asleep, his mind and body finding a peace he didnât think he would ever have again.
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Part 8
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Words On a Screen II
kazuha left you both at the table, your hands warming on a cup of coffee as scaramouche sat in front of you. he looks strangely uneasy, constantly adjusting his many rings on his fingers as he looked at the table, not at you.
âso? what could you possibly have to say to me scaramouche?â he visibly flinched at the lack of your usual endearing names as you spoke to him bluntly. after his many attempts to try and talk to you over the phone he seemed almost afraid to say something to you now that you were both sitting in front of each other.
his mouth opened and closed, no sound coming out. his thoughts were jumbled up and unable to form a sentence, an excuse for what heâs done to you.
â(y/n), i.. i never meant for you to find out that way.â
you scoff, your grip tightening on your mug as you look at his face.
âoh really? is that so? so when was i to be notified that my so called lover has been cheating on me? tell me, when?â
scaramoucheâs eyes widened as he looks you in the eyes, the hurt and anger swirling in yours almost want to make him look away.
âiâm sorry, (y/n). please just, lookâ you know me, okay? you know the real me, unlike anyone else has. you know this hurts me as much as it hurts you. everything i said to herâ i didnât mean it. honest. all i see is you (y/n).â
he reaches across the table, grabbing your hand before you promptly snatch it out of his grip. glaring daggers at the boy you once swore youâd always forgive. scaramoucheâs head hung low, his hands on his lap as his hair covered his eyes.
âplease.. letâs just go home. i promise iâll make this up to you. we still have so much planned, remember? our anniversary is coming up a-and we havenât gotten married yet, in sumeru like we said we would. donât let that go to wasteââ
âoh really scara? donât let it go to waste? youâre the one who did that. you did that when you got in bed with that woman, professed the same words we said to each other to her! this is not my fault.â
you laughed dryly, standing up from the kitchen table as you walked over to kazuhaâs door. scaramouche looked up from his lap, looking the most vulnerable youâd ever seen him as he looked to your angry form opening the door.
âplease get the fuck out of kazuhaâs house and never talk to me or show yourself around me again.â
scara slowly stood up from the table, walking out of the house as you slammed the door behind him.
it was really over, like he said it would be.
but why did it hurt so much? didnât he say he hated you? hated your âsuffocatingâ presence in his life?
why did it feel so.. empty now?
the drive back to your once shared home was quiet. the anxiety in his stomach bubbling over as he stumbled his way into the kitchen, digging in the liquor cabinet you both would only indulge in on special occasions.
grabbing the biggest bottle he could find, he uncapped the liquid and took a big gulp. the stinging in his throat didnât seem as much of a comparison with the burn in his heart.
you were really gone. heâd never wake up to your cuddles, meals, kisses and affection, or even see you again.
he fucked up. big time.
he sat on the kitchen floor, laughing quietly to himself as the bottle sat next to him, uncapped.
he couldnât even think of haypasia now, not with you gone. wasnât she the whole reason why this happened? his affair with a woman he couldnât care less about now?
it was ironic really, the way he saw the both of you now that heâd lost you. youâd far outweigh the scale of what heâd wished and yearned for since his abandonment as a child.
and what, now you were going to stay with kazuha? the man he introduced you to? it all tasted bitter as he took another swig of the bottle.
time seemed to pass slowly after the breakup. scaramouche stopped streaming and disappeared online, the same being for haypasia. he no longer talked to her after that day, staying cooped up in his now empty home, hugging a sweater you had forgotten to bring along.
when he heard you and kazuha had gotten together he drunk himself into a heavy hangover. he didnât consider himself a drinker, not until that day. those big shiny bottles being his only comfort as you had taken the small cat that you both had adored.
this was the life he had declared he had wanted for the past two years to a woman he no longer cared to speak to.
but it was just words on a screen, right?
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canât keep doing this ~ machine gun kelly
word count: 1668
request?: yes!
âHi! I love your writing and you just seem like such a sweet, genuine person. âşď¸ Can I request Colson x reader and theyâve broken up but they keep meeting up and hooking up with some smut and maybe some fluff at the end?â
description: in which they broke up a while ago but kept hooking up afterwards, and now sheâs ready to end things for good
pairing: machine gun kelly x female!reader
warnings: swearing, two paragraphs of smut, angst, fluff ending
masterlist (one, two, three)
You and Colson had broken up almost a year ago. It wasnât a bad breakup. You both had different ideas of what you wanted from your futures and realized it was best if you ended your relationship and perused the futures you wanted.
The thing is, you broke up, but you were still hooking up.
It started as a drunken mistake. You were both out at the same club and ran into each other after a couple of drinks. Next thing you knew, he had you against the wall outside of the club with one hand up your shirt while yours was cupping the front of his pants. The next morning, you were surprised to find yourself waking up in his bed. You both agreed it was the last time it would happen.
And you were both horribly wrong.
It became a regular thing for one of you to text the other looking for a quick fuck, but thatâs all it would be. There was no staying the night, no cuddling, nothing romantic. You had to constantly remind one another that you werenât getting back together before, during, and after.
You had no issue with it at first. You viewed it as just a way to get over the breakup without hooking up with randos you met at clubs. You didnât expect it to last as long as it did. But once the months came and went, and you realized that this was starting to become less of a hook up thing for you, you realized it had to come to an end. It would be better for the both of you to finally move on.
That was the plan when you texted Colson, asking him if you could come over. You were just going to put an end to everything. Tell him you had to stop and finally go your separate ways.
But then he opened the door, just in a pair of grey sweatpants and looking at you as if he were a dehydrated man and you were the first water he had seen in a long time. And you were such a sucker for both of those things.
Thatâs how you found yourself face first into Colsonâs bedsheets; face down, ass up, with Colsonâs dick abusing your g-spot with every rough thrust. Your moans were muffled by the sheets between your teeth. His fingers were digging into your hips, guiding you back to meet his thrusts. You yelped at the sudden sting of the palm of his hand meeting your ass cheek. You could already picture the perfect handprint youâd see there later.
You cried out as Colsonâs fingers met your clit, rubbing quick circles in the bundles of nerves. His thrusts were becoming sloppy, telling you he was trying to coax one last orgasm from you before he reached his own. It didnât take him long to get it. It came rushing from you before you could realize, a scream ripping from your throat as your whole body went warm and your walls contracted around him. His dick twitched inside you before he reached his own high, spilling inside of you.
Your body, sore and used, slowly fell to the bed. Colson slipped from you as you fell, hissing at the over sensitivity. You took a while to regain yourself. As you did, Colson got up from the bed and returned with cloths to clean the two of you up. You rolled onto your back and took the cloth from him. You wiped yourself and sat up. You discarded the cloth onto the floor with Colsonâs other dirty laundry and started reaching for your clothes.
âWhat are you doing?â Colson asked.
âLeaving?â you responded, confused by his question.
âYou donât have to,â he said.
âThatâs usually how this works, Colson.â
âWell, yeah, but thatâs not how it always has to be. We can change, you know. You could...hang out for a while or something, I donât know.â
âWe canât keep doing this,â you cut him off. âThis is the last time. Thatâs why I asked to come see you.â
You couldâve swore you saw a look of hurt in his eyes, but you were sure you had imagined it.
âWhy?â he asked. âWe have a good thing going on.â
âHad,â you corrected. âWe had a good thing, Colson, but then we broke up. We said we were going our separate ways because we wanted different things. Thatâs how it shouldâve ended. These last few months never shouldâve happened.â
âThen why are you saying this now? Why didnât you say anything months ago when we started fucking?â
âBecause Iâm seeing someone now!â
That rendered Colson speechless. He just looked at you as you continued to put on your clothes. You couldnât meet his eye now.
âThatâs why I came over,â you continued. âOne last go, then weâre done. We have to move on, Colson. I told you, I want to settle down, to find someone who wants marriage and kids. You donât want that. So, thatâs it. We move on. We stop playing with each otherâs emotions like this.â
You grabbed your purse that had been discarded to the floor the minute you stepped in the room. You started for the door, but paused. You looked back at Colson one last time. He was still looking ahead, face blank.
âWho is it?â he asked.
âSome guy from a dating app,â you responded.
âAnd thatâs what you want? Some guy from a dating app?â
Instead of answering, you said, âGoodbye Colsonâ, and finally walked out of his life, for good this time.
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That night, you were watching TV at home with delivery pizza and a bottle of wine. For the most part, you had managed to forget everything with Colson. You had blocked his number and all his social media when you got home, which was the last bits to fully remove him from your life. Then you cracked open a bottle of wine, ordered some pizza, and turned on mind numbing reality TV to cleanse your brain.
You were two glasses deep when someone rang your doorbell. You werenât expecting anyone, and the pizza had already come. A series of knocks shortly after the doorbell rang spurred you to get up and see who was at your door.
To your surprise, you swung the door open and there was Colson.
Before you could ask him what he was doing, he brushed past you to walk into your house.
âI didnât invite you in,â you pointed out.
âI donât accept what you said today,â he said, ignoring your comment. âI donât want to end things between us.â
âColson,â you tried again.
âI donât just mean the sex stuff,â he continued. âListen, I was a goddamn idiot to let you get away. I didnât think I was ready to settle down. My job, it made settling down seem impossible. I travel all the time, Iâm rarely ever home. Thatâs not the ideal married life, and I know that.â
âColson - â
âBut I realized that I canât imagine my life without you. After that first hookup, I did mean it when I said it wouldnât happen again. I was ready to let it all go, to let you go. But then I was home alone and I realized how empty my house feels without you. And I started thinking about how I canât see my future without you being in it. Iâm an idiot for not bringing it up, but I thought the hooking up was the only thing that would keep you around, and I was willing to do it until you wanted to stop. I know Iâm too late and you have someone else, but I canât - â
âJesus Christ, Colson, there isnât anyone else!â
That was enough to finally shut him up. He stopped pacing, which he had started doing the second he had opened his mouth, and turned to face you. You crossed your arms, waiting for him to say something.
âWhat?â he finally asked.
You sighed. âI only said that so that youâd let me go. But I havenât been seeing anyone. Iâm not even on any dating apps. I just needed to end everything between us because I was gaining feelings again and I couldn't bare to continue our arrangement of meaningless hookups when I was still so in love with you.â
There was a moment of silence, and then a smile spread across Colsonâs face. You couldnât help but smile back, and then the two of you were laughing. The whole situation was so absurd. If one of you had just communicated what you wanted instead of just continuing to hook up, then you couldâve been back together long ago. But you know what they say about hindsight.
âI really want to kiss you right now,â Colson said.
âThen do it.â
In two long strides, he closed the distance between you two and cupped your face in his hand. He pulled you to him and kissed you as if it was the first time he had ever done so. You leaned into him, holding on to his shirt for dear life. You werenât sure youâd ever let him go honestly. You just wanted to stay there, holding each other, kissing each other.
âIf I had a ring, Iâd propose to you right now,â he murmured against your lips.
âIf you did, Iâd say yes,â you whispered back.
âIâll take that as a pre-engagement agreement,â he said. âBut I promise, I will get you a ring. Iâll do something so special to propose. Iâll give you dozens of babies if thatâs what you want.â
âOh God, thatâs the last thing I want,â you laughed. âGive me one baby at least, and then weâll go from there.â
âMaybe we could start practicing on that now.â
You leaned close to his ear and whispered, âThen take me to the bed.â
You shrieked as Colson lifted you in his arms and gleefully raced towards your bedroom.
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Mafia husband! x (GN) reader Part 2
It has been about 3 days since you've moved into the mansion, your 'fiancĂŠ' is constantly busy with work so to your delight you hardly see him. You still couldn't believe it just a few days ago you were a normal high schooler, average grades but now your staying in a house you couldn't afford in your lifetime to be married off to a member of the mafia.
You sat up in bed, you spend most of your days in your room, sleeping the day a away, hoping that this is all just a bad dream; only to find yourself disappointed every time you wake up.
just before you were about to go back to sleep, there was a soft knock at the door. "excuse me mr capone has requested you come down for breakfast at once." the voice on the other side said. you made an audible groan and you make your way out of bed, the last thing you wanted was food much less breakfast with Mr. capone. You knew denying would be a- foolish decision, he could kill you in a heart beat. You open the closet and are stunned by the amount of expensive clothing, not a single one of them looked worn, could it be? he bought them for you? You felt your heart warm ever so slightly at the thought, you shook your head. You pick out something that you liked and changed into it, not bothering to fix your hair, maybe if he finds you unappealing to the eyes he'll let you go? its a small chance but it gave you hope. now here you were, seated at a large table full of various foods you've never tried before and across from you was the man who brought you to this hell, Mr capone. Maybe this is a good time to question him when the time was right? you picked up your glass of wine, you didn't take a sip just stare at it then back at him. You gather the courage to finally ask him "so why me." you asked, your cold gaze fixed on him. your question seemed to catch him off guard for a moment, he tilted his head in confusion with a sly grin. "i have no idea what you mean dearest." he replied, downing a glass of wine, his voice had a hint of playfulness, he was totally taunting you.
now he was playing dumb? who does he think he is. You clench your fist into a ball before slamming it down on the table "dont act dumb! why did you chose me! why did you bring me here instead of just killing me! why do you want to marry me?!" through all your questioning and ranting he just stared at you silently, tapping his fingers on the table. He was going annoyed, maybe going on a rampage was not a good idea. once your anger died down you were filled with deep regret- ohh why did you do something so stupid, you sat back down. You grabbed the bottle of wine and drank it, if your going to die, might as well die intoxicated. Mr capone got up from his seat across the table and made his way over to you.
your cheek was met with a harsh slap that would have your face stinging for a while, he grabbed you by the hair and yanked your head back forcing your eyes to meet. Oh he was pissed.
"let us get one thing straight you little bitch. Firstly i didn't 'chose you' your father just didn't have the ability to have more attractive offspring, second if i wanted to kill you i would have."
his grip on your hair tightened. He then slammed your head onto the table, you could feel blood drip down your nose from the impact, you struggle to get away but this only made him do it again but harder.
" Finally, marriage is the ultimate way to have claim over you. this isn't some dumb little fairy tale where i 'fall in love with the innocent damsel.' your my slave, im the master. If you EVER, have that attitude with me again, i will send you home to your old man in a fucking body bag you worthless whore."
His words and the buzzing pain in your head made it hard to do anything but nod, he threw you to the floor and gave you a beating that you would never forget. you dont remember what happened next or how you got to bed. When you woke up, you found that your wounds were treated and a bouquet of expensive looking flowers on your bed accompanied by a note. you did not have to open it to know who it was from, i guess this was Mr capone's twisted way of apologizing after injuring you to the point of you having to passing out.
inside the note was the basic im sorry, please forgive me, i do it cause i love you and how he promises to never lay a hand on your ever again, you scoff at the thought, that was a obvious lie, did he think you were that stupid?
you crumpled the note and toss it across the room not caring where it landed, your head still hurt from how hard he grabbed your hair. If he was willing to beat you that badly for just questioning him, you fear what he will do if you try to escape. you lay back down in bed, silently cursing your dad and his stupid gambling addiction, if it wasn't for him you would be in school right now, even the worst of your bullies were better than being stuck with him. you turned and faced the wall, holding your now bruise ridden body. Pulling the covers over your eyes you drift off to sleep, dreaming of being back home with your parents, even your dad. ignoring the fact that you were to be wed, in just 5 days.
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Hello! Iâm usually a silent reader but OMG the zombie au đđ this series hits me right in the heart, but honestly everything you post is amazing!! Youâre such a talented writer that your words create feelings, not just images, and theyâre the most comforting, relatable, and heart wrenching all at once. No pressure, but I would love to see more of râs recovery from her cuts! Maybe something happens when the survivors are moving that causes Steve to be extra worried? Thanks SO much either way!!
thank you so much đ I hope this is okay!! sry it took me ages. steve zombie au âsteve looks after you again !!
You haven't been able to tell Steve why you're covered practically head to toe in little cuts beyond what you remember. Days now since the attack on The College, you vaguely remember an impact, which might explain your poor memory. Someone or something had hit you down, and when you woke it was in a pool of crushed glass, darkness like velvet enveloping the sky.Â
"I don't know how you did it," he says, sitting between your legs, unperturbed by your state of undress.Â
You're wearing a pair of mens boxers as shorts to grant him access to your sliced thighs without feeling naked. The worst stretches across your left thigh, stitched closed and weeping miserably. It's a horror âthe cut isn't bad but the infection is, and if it doesn't get better, there's going to be a problem.Â
"Desperate to get back to you," you say. You're not lying, but you say it like a joke.Â
Steve laughs and rubs your one unscathed knee gently.Â
"My poor love," he says under his breath, focusing on your stitches. He cleans around them with a damp strip of cloth poorly shorn.Â
He moves up with a new strip to clean the top ones. You could do it yourself, but his fussing is nice. Relaxed against a pile of bed rolls, your arms crossed to avoid touching your stomach, which is also blanketed in cuts, you wince as Steve grows closer.Â
"Can we take a break?" you ask.Â
"Yeah." He puts down the bowl of linen strips and screws the lid back on the isopropyl. "Sorry, honey. I know it sucks. You've dealt with it all so wellâ"Â
"Steve, you say this to me with a sprained knee."Â
"It's not less true," he says, easing down with a boyish groan beside you.Â
He turns to you as you turn to him, actual dirt on his cheek, stubbly and waxy in the dusk. You rub at the spot of dirt unhappily. He lets you touch him without complaint.Â
"Sorry I'm a mess."Â
"As long as you come back to me," he says. "I don't really care how much of a mess you are."Â
"Don't, baby." You rub your face into his shoulder, feeling the muscle of his bicep under your palm. You don't want him to be nice to you like that, not while your skin is stinging like this and you're still feeling hopelessly terrified of the uncertain future again.Â
"I gotta. I'm playing the romantic, doting love interest in our book."Â
"What book?"Â
"One I'm gonna write. Me and you and Robin at the end of the world," Steve says, dropping his head on yours.Â
"Who's gonna read the book?" you ask quietly.Â
"Everyone. When the world gets back on its feet again and the next generation wants to know what it was like, they'll have a great answer. Boy falls in love with girl destined to be constantly injured and reluctantly taken care of."Â
"Ah, but I'm not reluctant," you say.Â
"I can do your other leg?"Â
"No," you whine.Â
"That's reluctance."Â
You sit together for a while.Â
"You have to let me finish," he says firmly.
"I know⌠just. I love you," you say quietly. It's hard to explain it, but sitting with him as you are in the corner of a crowded room, it doesn't matter where you are, because you're with him. All these cuts and bruises don't mean a thing.Â
"I love you, too." He wraps his arm around your shoulders. You wish you could see his face, but this is nice.Â
"Do you ever worry we say it too much?"Â
"No." He turns his face into the top of your head. "This is the right amount. But you can definitely tell me again, if you're worried."Â
You thumb along a scabbed cut. "I love you. Thanks for taking care of me."Â
"You're welcome. And you can make it up to me. I want a neck massage, you know, where you dig into my literal bones andâ" he imitates a cracking sound.Â
"I don't know why you like it so much."Â
"Cos it's you doing it. Deal?"Â
You sigh. Somehow, you feel as though you might have taken the short end of the stick. "Deal."Â
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Hi!!!!
I was wondering for Trope Tuesday if you could write a brothers best friend with James Potter (If possible could she be best friend with Lily and the girls but donât worry if not)
Love you and your writing xxx
thanks so so much!! for requesting and for being so sweet 𼲠i hope you like it!!
for my 250 Followers Writing Event!
Tropey Tuesday đ trope: brother's best friend
pairing: James Potter x readerÂ
tags: angst, fluff, Lupin!reader, fem!reader, sibling fluff
word count: 3k (not me with the first thing I write after saying I might keep things a bit shorter)
âHey, little Lupin,â Sirius says, grinning, as he plops down beside you on the common room couch. âYou know weâre twins, right?â you respond, not even looking up from your book. âYeah⌠but youâre shorter.â He seems overly satisfied with his justification, and you canât help but giggle at his antics.Â
âSo. What are you reading?â he asks.Â
This confuses you; you didnât think Sirius was much of a reader. You look up at him, your eyebrows furrowed suspiciously, âYou care?â âNo, not really.â You roll your eyes at him though youâre not actually upset. âSo why are you here, then, Black?âÂ
âI come at the behest of my darling best mate.â âAnd what does my darling brother want now?âÂ
âNo, not Moony, Prongs.â Your stomach tenses at this. This just went from slightly irksome to anxiety-inducing interesting.Â
âWell, âbehestâ isnât the right word exactly. He doesnât know about this. But I know him, and heâs never going to make a move himself, so I see it as my best-mate-duty to give a helping hand.â Your mind is racing. âMake a moveâ?? Is there really a possibility of your crush liking you back? Is that what Sirius is telling you? That James likes you too??
Youâre probably blushing and definitely confused, so you sit there awkwardly, hoping heâll go on without your having to say anything yet. To your relief, he does. âI have it on insider information that our dear James Potter has himself a crush.â Godric, you never thought this would actually happen. After years of pining, of getting to know him⌠of thinking he only saw you as Remusâs sister.
âYouâre best friends with Lily, right?â Relief turns to terror. Oh no, oh no, oh no, please no.Â
âUm⌠yeah?â âYou donât sound too sure, sweets,â he laughs. âYeah, I am.â You know, but pretend - especially to yourself - that you donât, âWhy does that matter?âÂ
âI want to get her and Prongs together of course! Heâs been off lately, and he wonât tell me why. He always tells me everything. So, I reckon it has to be about a girl. And Iâve caught him looking over at you lot constantly recently. I saw him and Evans chatting yesterday, and there was definitely something there.âÂ
Youâre on the verge of tears at this point.
âYou alright, Y/N? You look like youâre going to be sick.â Sirius sounds genuinely concerned, and you donât know how to escape with a convincing excuse given thereâs no way in hell youâre going to tell him the truth, especially now heâs said what he has.Â
âUm, no, not really. Sorry, I, uh, I think something I ate wasnât quite right,â you stutter lamely, clumsily collecting your things, and running up the stairs to your dorm. After the nightâs cruelty, it provides you a bit of sympathy: the room is empty. You curl up on your bed, clutching your pillow, and let the tears fall.
Why did it have to be Lily?? I mean, why did it have to be anyone at all if it couldnât be you, but your best friend? You know how brilliant she is, how could you not, and you know how brilliant he is, and well, maybe they would be a good fit. If they make each other happy, that should make you happy; you want the best for Lily, truly.Â
No amount of trying to convince yourself makes the thought of them together sting any less, though, and you succumb to wallowing in your disappointment and sadness.Â
Youâre still crying when you here a knock at the door.
âY/N?? You in there? Open up, please. Sirius said you were ill?â If it were anyone else, youâd pretend not be there. But itâs Remus. Youâve never hidden from each other your whole lives; besides, you need him now even if you canât tell him why. You wipe your face as best you can as you go to the door and open it. His eyes look frantically worried, and your heart melts a little bit. You might not have the romantic love you want so desperately, but at least you have this. Not many people know what itâs like to be as loved as you are. You try to cling to that feeling as you cling to Remus, crying into his jumper, but at the moment, itâs not enough consolation to assuage your aching heart.
âWhatâs wrong, Y/N/N? Did something happen? Youâre really worrying me,â he says stroking your back. You shake your head. âHey, can you talk to me? Please?â
You recover yourself a bit and go sit on your bed. Remus follows.Â
âItâs nothing,â you say pathetically, wiping your eyes. âUh huh,â he replies, unconvinced. âReally, Rem. Thanks, but itâs not a big deal. Iâll sort it, really.âÂ
âCanât you just tell me what it is?â âIâd rather not.â âThatâs new.â He sounds genuinely surprised. âI donât like it,â he chuckles. âWe couldnât tell each other everything forever, could we?â you smile sadly at him.Â
âAnd why not?â You laugh together, and you feel a tiny bit better.
The thing is, you want to tell him. And you would if it werenât his bloody best friend. You know that no matter what he said, it would make things weird for him. You keep your secret more for him than for yourself really.Â
âIf I tell you part of it, do you promise to let me leave it at that?âÂ
âThatâs going to be hard.â âReeemm,â you whine at him. âAlright, alright.â âWell, itâs⌠itâs about a boy.â He grimaces, and you canât help but giggle at it. Immediately, âWho?â
âThatâs the part you donât get to know.â âOh, come on, Y/N, thatâs just not fair.â âPlease, Remus. Itâs just going to make things harder, and weirder, and I want a chance to just move on on my own. Trust me, yeah?â âFine,â he answers begrudgingly. âBut that still doesnât explain why youâre so upset. If the lads and I have to plan a cruel prank on some undeserving wanker, then I have to know who it is.âÂ
Youâre particularly amused at the idea of James being both pranker and prankee.Â
âItâs nothing like that. Heâs nice. Thatâs why I like him so much.â âYuck.â You roll your eyes at this, and continue.Â
âI just found out he likes someone else.âÂ
Remusâs expression is all understanding, perhaps too much so as the pitying look he gives you makes you feel worse instead of better. âItâs fine, really. Thatâs life; it happens; what can you do?â âAre we listing trite maxims then?â You roll your eyes again. âJust because 'thatâs life' and 'it happens' and 'thereâs not much you can do,'â he says with a mocky voice around your phrases, âdoesnât mean you wonât be upset. Or that that isnât absolute shit.â He smiles sympathetically at you and wraps an arm around you.Â
âYeah,â you sniffle.
âYeah,â he echoes. âThanks, Rem. I kind of love you, you know?â You bump into him playfully. âI know. Iâm great.âÂ
âHar har. Wanker.âÂ
âHey!â he laughs. âItâs impressive, really, how quickly you can shift from adorable to an arsehole.âÂ
âOh, whatever,â you push him off.Â
Heâs still chuckling when he asks you to come down to dinner with him. You take some convincing, but eventually, after your face looks a bit less cry-y, you walk down to the Great Hall.Â
âHello, lovely!â Lily calls from a few seats ahead. Remus gives you a little hug, squeezing a bit more than he normally would, and sits with his mates, between Sirius and James - annoying, gorgeous, stupid, magnetic James. Youâre glad their backs are to you so they donât notice youâve been crying, and you hurry down to sit with Lily.Â
She notices immediately.Â
âWhatâs wrong, love? You alright?â She puts a consoling hand on your shoulder. âIâm fine, really. Just got a bit caught up in my feelings,â you say trying to end it there, laughing it off.Â
âWhat feelings? You do know that as my best friend, you are contractually obligated to tell me all of these âfeelingsâ?â She says âfeelingsâ funny, and youâre glad to be sitting here laughing with her. Until you remember the cause of said feelings.Â
âWe can talk later,â you lie. Youâll figure out what to say later; youâre too exhausted now. âI just want to comfort eat now, if you donât mind.â She still seems a bit worried but gives your shoulder a loving squeeze as she says, ââCourse,â and smiles sweetly.Â
Youâre finishing your dinner when you feel a tap on your shoulder. Your stomach sinks as you turn. Thereâs Remus⌠and Sirius⌠and the source of the tapping: James.Â
âHey, Lupin,â James says. âEvans,â he adds, nodding at Lily, and your stomach churns.
âHi,â she says. You donât say anything. Youâre too busy picking at your fingernails, gaze down, trying to keep it together. You go to turn back around toward the table, but Jamesâs hand on your shoulder stops you. âHey, whatâs up with you?â he asks jokingly, though it seems more than tinged in concern.Â
âNothing,â and a weak smile. âAre you feeling better?â
You feel your cheeks catch on fire. Remus wouldnât tell his friends what you told him, right? You hadnât told him not to, but you thought that was a given. âYeah, little Lupin, you had me real worried there,â Sirius chimes in. Oh, right. Thank Godric. âOh, yeah, Iâm fine. Sorry for the scare.â You think thatâs that, and go to turn again, but again, James gently stops you.Â
âThatâs good,â he says softly. You have to fight to not roll your eyes - why does he have to be so kind? and thoughtful⌠and caring⌠and pretty when heâs worriedâŚ
âAre you girls done? Want to walk back up together?â he asks.Â
âSure!â Lily answers enthusiastically before you have a chance to lie and say you arenât finished. For a moment, it crosses your mind that maybe she does because she likes him too, and your misery returns in full force.Â
You say nothing on the walk back up to the tower, and you want to go straight to your room when you get there, but Lily links arms with you and drags you to the sofa before you manage it. Sheâs sitting on the edge, leaning over chatting to Mary and Marlene on the next sofa, you in the middle, sulking. Remus is reading on the single chair, occasionally glancing up at you, the constant, loving worrier he is. Sirius and James are playing exploding snap just in front of you. You notice Remusâs glances, but you donât notice Jamesâs.Â
As the game ends, Sirius claiming loudly he got cheated, James just laughs, shoves him, and comes to sit next to you.Â
âWhat do you think, Lupin? Best exploding snap player youâve ever seen, eh?â he jokes, his eyebrow rising. Ugh, heâs funny, too.Â
âYou could go pro if you wanted,â you play along, exaggeratedly impressed.Â
âOh, Iâve considered it, yeah. You know, if quidditch doesnât work out.â âYou have a better chance at exploding snap,â you tease. âOuch!â he laughs. âYou say nothing all night, and when you do, I get this cruel treatment?âÂ
Youâre surprised he noticed and donât know what to say. âSeriously, though,â heâs speaking much more softly now. âYou okay?â He pauses, biting his bottom lip as if considering something, before continuing, âYou seem sad. I know you told Sirius you were sick, but I donât think thatâs true.âÂ
You panic at the tenderness, at his observant attentiveness, and opt for comedic relief. âYou calling me a liar, Potter?âÂ
He chuckles, rolling his eyes at you, but keeps on. âNo, of course not. Iâm just saying that, well, you can talk to me. If you ever need to⌠or just want to, I guess⌠I mean, just because Iâm your brotherâs best mate doesnât mean we canât be friends, right?âÂ
Friends. Ouch. You want to cry all over again, the proximity and kindness conflicting too much with the idea that he just wants to be friends, or worse, be friendlier with you just to spend more time with Lily too.Â
âWe are friends,â you reply. âYeah? Great,â he smiles. Your heart aches.
âYeah,â you whisper.
âSo youâre okay?â he whispers too. âIâm okay,â you lie.Â
âCâmon, Prongs! I need my rematch!â Sirius pulls him off the couch, demanding another game.Â
The next few days go by gloomily but normally, and before you know it, itâs the weekend. And not just any weekend, a Hogsmeade one. You, your brother, and all your friends are strolling down the lovely, snow-covered lanes. Usually, youâd be especially happy now. You loved Hogsmeade, especially in the cold snowy months, but you still hadnât been completely yourself since your emotional let down.Â
Youâre walking next to Remus, James animatedly talking to him on his other side. You feel invisible. Despite Jamesâs kind words the other night, you canât help but feel like your brother might as well be an invisibility cloak when you stand next to him. Itâs like James just sees Remus; his sister is an afterthought.
You love Hogsmeade trips with your friends, but in your current emotional state, youâd rather be alone, so you subtly break off from the group and go into the nearest shop. Itâs filled with magical toys and trinkets, and looking around helps cheer you up a bit. Youâre browsing when you see a quidditch-themed exploding snap deck. You roll your eyes at the sky, giving the universe snark for not giving you a moment of peace of mind. Then you grab the deck and head over to the counter.
Youâre walking slowly down the street, peering through shop windows, enjoying the cool breeze, when you hear your name called out. You turn to see James jogging toward you. âWhereâd you go?â he asks friendly, falling into step with you, his shoulder bumping yours.
âOh, just wandered off.â âYeah, I noticed,â he laughs. âI didnât realize my story was so boring.âÂ
âOh, I, no, it wasnât, I was just, you know,â you mutter, mortified. âIâm kidding, Lupin, relax,â he smiles.Â
You smile back though youâre sure youâre blushing. You can blame the cold.Â
âThat freaks me out a bit,â he says. âWhat does?â âYou and Remus have the exact same smile.â Youâve heard this before. âSo it freaks me out that I think yours is so beautiful.â Youâve not heard this before.
You laugh lamely and offer up a weak but heartfelt âthanks.â He just nods.Â
Your hands are cold, so you bury them in your pockets, and youâre met with your recent purchase. âOh,â you start. âI have something for you.âÂ
âYou do?â he sounds unreasonably surprised. âYeah, just a little thing. Donât get too excited,â you deflate. You pull the deck out and hand it to him. âThis way you still get to think about quidditch while practicing for a more promising career path,â you joke. He doesnât laugh, though. He looks awed. You donât know what else to say and are starting to worry you did something awkward.Â
Heâs looking at the deck in his hand rather than at you when he says, âI really like you.â
You pause. You try to read his expression but struggle with his gaze down like this. âI really like you too,â you respond lightly. He looks up. Standing still, looking at you, he asks, âAs your brotherâs best friend? Like another brother?â he looks hurt at the word âbrother.â
âNo.â Honest, without revealing too much. âNo?â He steps closer to you. âSo if I were to tell you that I really want to kiss you right nowâŚâ His empty hand comes up to your cheek, caressing you softly. You smile brighter than you have in several days, much longer probably. He beams back at you in response and closes the gap between you.Â
You pull back, and his eyes widen, but when you complain, âYou lot already went to the Three Broomsticks? Donât deny it - you taste like butter beer! We always do that last - I canât believe you didnât wait for me!â he laughs a deep laugh, wraps his arm around you, and pulls you close, kissing you harder this time.Â
âIâll buy you two to make up for it,â he says between kisses. He deepens the kiss, gently pushing his tongue against yours. You like the taste of butter beer; you love the taste of James Potter.Â
âBloody hell!â you hear from nearby. Sirius looks like his face canât make up its mind between surprise, excitement, and confusion. âIt was Lupin?! I thought it was Evans!â âYou thought what was Evans?â James asks, looking perplexed, his arms still around you. âI thought you fancied Evans!âÂ
âWhy?â The complete confusion and utter sincerity lift a huge weight from you, and you giggle.Â
âDunno, actually. Because Iâm a bit of an idiot sometimes, it seems,â Sirius shrugs, seemingly already moving on from the situation. Which is more than could be said of Remus, who is standing stiff with his face blank staring at you.Â
âIt was James?â he asks, looking slightly disgusted.Â
âYou didnât think it was Evans, too, did you?â You joke.Â
Lily chimes in from beside Remus, âWe would make a really good couple, Y/N.â
âOi, Evans!â James scolds. âIâm not going to say you wouldnât because you obviously would, but Iâm trying my chances here, thank you very much.â Everyone but Remus bursts into laughter.Â
âYou might want to look away, Rem,â you say. âI donât want to upset you, but Iâm about to kiss your best friend again.âÂ
Remus groans and walks away, but youâre already too busy to notice.
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Miguel OâHara bondage headcanons because Iâm a degenerate | Miguel OâHara x GN!Reader
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Preface: Trying to get Miguel to relax and allow someone else to take control of the reigns is no easy feat. What happens when he finally does after a while of suspicion and hesitation?
Iâve never watched Across the Spiderverse :)
This will definitely be NSFW (18+) so minors DNI (do not interact). Unless you do, which in that case I refuse to be held responsible for the content you consume.
Warning(s): NSFW
Bondage with Miguel being the rigger is one thing, but bondage with Miguel being the rope bunny is an entirely different experience
It takes a long time to get Miguel to even think about it
Itâs not so much a kink/fetish thing as it is a trust thing
Being tied up/restrained is not an easy thing to let someone do to you
Miguel is so used to being in control of quite literally everything that the thought of someone else trying to take over makes him extremely uncomfortable and uneasy
No one will do it better than him and/or do it correctly like he would
Miguel has no issue being the rigger because he knows what to do and heâs used to being the one in control
You need to start slow. That is imperative
Handcuffs might not work because he could just snap them
Silk rope. And lots of it.
If youâre going to bind him, you have to bind all of him
Just doing his arms will make him feel uneasy and unsecureÂ
Tell him exactly what youâre doing when youâre doing it and before you do it
If youâre going to wrap the rope around his shoulders, tell him
If youâre going to wrap it around his torso or his wrists, tell him
Never stop communicating
Assure him constantly
I donât mean baby talk or praises
Tell him heâs safe
Tell him itâs okay to be and feel vulnerable, and that itâs okay to let someone else take control temporarily
You need to know what youâre doing
If youâre a baby rigger whoâs never tied a knot before or are looking at google instructions whilst doing it, forget it
He needs to know youâre competent. He needs that assurance
When youâre done with the binds, just sit there with him. Show him nothing bad will happen if he relaxes for a little
Heâll pull at the binds and start getting frustrated at the lack of movement
Gently touch him or talk to him to get him distracted
Heâll be tense and semi-stressed
Gently run your hands over the parts of him he likes best
Get him to stare into your eyes
He will be vulnerable and he knows it--show him you are a safespace
Eventually when he does relax and calm down, untie him
Tell him it was a good first session
When he inevitably goes, â. . . first session?â say itâd be overwhelming to do anything on his first try
He might still be hesitant, but considerably less than before
The second session heâd be a bit more relaxed and you wonât have to assure him as much. He might even smile
Repeat what you did the first time: Just sit there and be his safespace
Eventually his body will slack against the ropes, and thatâs when you can slowly transition to sexual activities
When you tell him you want to try âxâ with him whilst heâs tied up, he wonât outright shirk away, but he wonât be over the moon either
Start slow, again
Touch him gently and softly--always let him know where it is youâre going to touch, either verbally or by obvious gestures
He wonât make much noise at first
His muscles will pull and tense at the binds, but he wonât protest the sting and constriction
In a way, the binds force him to relax
When you reach a point where you both can comfortably engage in sexual acts when heâs bound, itâs like a religious experience (the good kind)
Always warm him up with either head or a handjob. Donât make him cum though
Get him to a point of desperation and need--be gentle about it though
Always assume being gentle unless he specifies otherwise
He might accidentally snap a rope or two
Itâs fine heâll pay for more
You might have to get tied up and fucked in return tbh, depends on your dynamic
#miguel x you#miguel x reader#miguel o'hara#miguel spiderverse#spider-man: across the spider-verse#marvel#Marvel Movies#MARVEL FANDOM#gender neutral reader#fem reader#male reader#oscar isaac#oscar isaac characters#miles morales#gwen stacy#miguel o'hara x you#miguel o'hara x gender neutral reader#miguel o'hara x reader#smut#hcs#relationship#atsv#itsv#peter b parker#peter benjamin parker#peter parker#spider noir#atsv hobie#hobie brown
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Do I love Reiju a whole lot? Yes. Do I also love to gave Sanji even more trauma? YES!
So here am I, with a new universe: Evil!Reiju au!
Reiju is still born with emotions, but there two things: 1) she has so little emotions that they're almost nonexistent 2) the little feelings and personality she has are from Judge.
So yeah, instaed of a caring and kind old sister Reiju who feels so much, we have a Reiju who is cruel and manipulative and pretends to care about Sanji. She treats Sanji like he is nothing more than a toy who she can simply play with it's feelings, and not like it's her damn little brother.
But she puts on an act. Reiju uses (fake) sweet words and (fake) gentle touches to make the blonde trust her. Subtly hurting him when she's bored.
Then the dunsheon, where her mask finally falls. Of course, completely breaking what was left of Sanji's heart. During the next two years, even if she doesn't beat him, her cruel words hurt just as much.
After Sanji runs away, he doesn't trust no one. It's just on the rock, 2 years after, that he starts to trust this man who was unrealistic kind. They're rescued from the rock and Zeff starts to treat him like an actual father would treat a son. This always makes Sanji's heart warm and give him the need to cry a little because for the first time since his mother died someone truly loves him.
Sanji is still gentle with women, but not much like canon. He would fight one if needed and, actually, he's kinda afraid of them deep down and a little uncomfortable, too. Zeff don't know the whole thing but he knows his eggplant have been through a traumatic thing and he can't and wouldn't never blame him, he would be a shame of a father and an idiot if he did.
Then Sanji joins the StrawHats because, curiously, something inside his stitched heart tells him he should. And Sanji follows his heart.
Things go pretty much like canon. With some differences, like: East Blue Polycule happens, Sanji is always suspicious of everyone (all the crew notices this, so at least one of them always is with him when the ship stops at some island and less gentle over women.
Then the TimeSkip, where WCI happens. Reiju still puts the fake cuffs but this time with the intentions of messing with her brother's mind. She makes little threats about exploding his hands and/or poisoning, and it's until they're almost leaving Whole Cake and she tells the cuffs are fake.
Also I need 0 & 3ji to have a argument who is like "You're too emotional, Sanji" "Maybe I am, but you never about me at all, Reiju" "Why would I care about a worthless failure?" "... I thought you cared about me, you always acted like you did before the thing" at the end of the arc. With the Sanji rescue team watching and looking at Reiju with anger.
They go at Wano and everything happens. Then after the fight Luffy, Brook, Chopper and Nami ask about the argument and Sanji tells to the whole crew, because the other also want to know. He tells them about his childhood, how Reiju pretended to care for him. The dunsheon and how cruel she actually was.
All the StrawHats think that Reiju is nothing more than a cruel people.
Okay, I love this, but I think it would forever fuck with Sanji and women moreso than you think? And like his whole relationship with Nami is probably so fucking skewed? Jesus. She's needlessly cruel and just manipulates the shit out of Sanji constantly. He would be bending over backwards to get any smidge of affection from her until his escape but is so terrified of just disappointing her that it is just negatively impacts his expression towards women so much that Sanji inevitably just is so scared of them and so his immediate reaction is to fawn.
Reiju notices it's more fun to her to toy with Sanji like a doll when she's young and Judge encourages it since it's just to the failure. It's not like anything wrong will happen. She's subtle about the way she hurts, sharp words and back handed compliments to that ache and sting the blond's heart when he's just a child, turning to outright malicious intent when she finds Sanji in the dungeon because he's supposed to be dead and the words. Sanji tries to be good so she can get him out but she just tells him this is where failures belong if not in the ground. She doesn't understand how their mother loved such a failure because it's impossible. Still, when she visits, he tries. He tries until he manages to escape and run away, helmet weighing heavily on him. But he's freed from Germa and the helmet and he starts working and keeps to himself. He doesn't trust anyone and doesn't believe himself worthy of Zeff's sacrifice. He doesn't understand why someone would sacrifice so much for a failure like him.
When it comes to fighting women Sanji would really prefer not to. They talk sweet and it sends him spiraling more of than not. Zeff is actually concerned about how Sanji's reaction to women slapping him. Sanji will fight back after a few hits but his preference for not fighting women is huge and he's more trying to calm them down and please them than argue or fight back. He looks afraid more often than not and when women do compliment him he doesn't believe them, not that he believes a lot of people at first but with the men he believes eventually, but he never believes the women who compliment his food. It's like he's afraid of women. He fawns for over them but flinches away from them, no matter what the crew does to make him more confident with women there's just something lying underneath the surface and they don't know what.
When Sanji joins the Strawhat crew and after Arlong Park, Nami notices he's wary around her and starts taking it personally until she notices it's just every woman he's like that with. Vivi, the vendors, every woman. Her and the other boys are already dating at this point and they're debating on the best way to approach the subject. Sanji doesn't seem like he'll be that receptive to a conversation about it, he noticeably tenses when Vivi calls out to them before relaxing and then flinches when Robin makes her presence known. But she acts differently towards Sanji, she offers small smiles and plain words, not praise though nor does she demand anything from him. Robin eases Sanji's tension with women, it looks so easy for them to be around each other but she moves slow and announces her presence in a quiet tone. When they ask Robin about it she only smiles in answer and walks away. Sanji starts dating the rest of the East Blue crew after Ennies Lobby, he's calmer and the crew protective, at least one person is always with him it seems. He tries not to flinch when Nami moves to fast towards him and apologizes when he does. But he does that for everyone, but his partners especially. There's just something they can't quite place what happened.
Until after the timeskip and WCI happens. When the rescue team meets Reiju and Yonji they wish them luck in saving the failure, Reiju has a sickly sweet smile that's all saccharine and she and Yonji laugh about how it's unlikely Sanji will be alive as they leave and the crew is confused and scared. Like it's some sort of joke, Sanji's life is a joke. Of course Reiju is also watching her brothers beat the failure up and not helping, she jokes about poisoning him and threatens to take him away so the cuffs will explode his hands, says she'll say she found him running. Sanji can just feel everything like he's a child all over again, the pain, the words, the hurt of his family not loving him over and over again almost as bad as it was. Then he hears Pudding and Reiju talk about killing him and they're laughing at him and Sanji gives up, goes to find his captain who he beat the shit out of and is just....crying and sobbing. Nami and Luffy are concerned about what's going on but they'll deal with everything after they save Sanji, when they reunite with the other two. Sanji still insists on saving them and Luffy and Nami don't like it but do as he wishes. During the escape Sanji is worried about his hands when Reiju points out he was a fun toy but the cuffs are fake, they won't take his hands. It was just more fun to make him think they would.
"Maybe if you weren't so emotional it wouldn't be so fun." Reiju smiles at him.
"So what if I am? You all never cared about me at all!" Sanji yells back with a broken voice.
"I don't know why anyone would, you're just a failure. Loving you seems exceptionally difficult, but what would I know?" Reiju laughs.
"You did when we were kids. Until-"
"No, I didn't." Reiju cuts him off. "You're a toy, Sanji. Nothing more, but all the less." Reiju waves off as she leaves and everyone is appalled at what was said. Nami and Luffy are holding Sanji is trying to be brave for them. When they make it to Wano Luffy runs and finds their partners and starts telling them about Reiju and Judge and how awful they were to Sanji and Usopp points out that it explains a lot about Sanji. Zoro is seething and says he should have been there, because he and Usopp are hearing only what Luffy and Nami heard not anything from Sanji. Sanji seems to be trying to avoid the topic of conversation for the most part and they can't exactly stick together in Wano so that makes it ten times worse for Zoro who can't exactly get information from the cook until after he wakes up from the raid. The cook is buried in a cuddle puddle and Usopp is telling his wild stories to try to ease the tension as he combs through Sanji's hair and Zoro is growling about going to kill his birth family.
#black leg sanji#monkey d. luffy#roronoa zoro#cat burglar nami#vinsmoke sanji#one piece nami#god usopp#usopp#zoro roronoa#straw hat luffy#east blue polycule#evil!reiju#answers#vinsmoke reiju
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people give the 90s anime starlights a lot of shit and frankly it's not my favorite incarnation of the trio either despite everything i'm about to say. BUT imagine everyone on your entire planet was killed (+your job is to keep them alive, so you're a complete failure) and your princess (your job is especially to keep her alive) ran away and you have to chase her to some random other planet where you think she maybe is and in order to get her attention you become a â¨Pop Sensation⨠(it's a suboptimal plan yes. let's not even start) but while you're doing this the minions of the woman who razed your whole planet show up here too and you end up having to still be a senshi on the side. so like when do you even sleep between adapting to an alien world and saving the solar system senshi and giving concerts and going to highschool and dealing with fans and appearing on seemingly every single televised event in tokyo? (you know, in case kakyuu genuinely missed nagareboshi e constantly playing on every single radio station all this time but she'll be attending that random ass game competition happening in episode 191)
you're exhausted. you're doing this for months feeling like you're getting nowhere. but one day it finally turns out your princess is alive! she decides to show herself not because of you three but because sailor moon is in danger. i know sailor moon is the most important princess ever so kakyuu did need to save her but god that's gotta sting And she literally even says 'Yeah i was watching you all along but i didn't say anything lol sorry'. ????? i don't care about her 'i had a Mission + i was hiding from galaxia' excuse because if anything the starlights with their highly distinctive appearance constantly screaming !!!HEY SPACE PRINCESS! COME HERE!!! onstage would attract galaxia's attention the most. just leave a note in their room in kinmokuese that says "hey i'm alive but choosing to hide so please stop shouting about me at maximum volume in front of millions"... regardless then she fuckin dies like two days later (to protect YOU) so she was actually completely right not to trust you with her safety
oh also 66% chance you're annoyed because your leader will not stop flirting with sailor moon no matter how much you remind her you guys have things to do + her actions are pushing the outer senshi to be even more antagonizing towards your group
and 33% chance you're annoyed because your two teammates don't want you to interact with sailor moon even though she's one of very few sources of positive feelings/comfort you have amidst all this and you're very concerned for her well being. either way you have some tension even within your group of 3
I just think if I were in such a situation I would be somewhat out of character myself. and yeah probably more withdrawn and asshole-y than usual... perhaps i would even make less logical decisions than usual - and certainly once my princess died in front of me after 2 episodes of existing, in one of which she confirmed that she had continually chosen not to give me any sign of life at all, i would also not care about the solar system senshi and immediately run into galaxia's living room to get murdered (WHICH THEY ALSO COULDN'T EVEN DO RIGHT AND THEN THEY HAVE TO SPEND THE LAST 5 EPISODES GETTING THE SHIT BEAT OUT OF THEM WHILE ONCE AGAIN WATCHING EVERYONE DIE AROUND THEM)
look at her??????!?!?!?! :(????
#sailor moon#sailor moon 90s anime#sailor starlights#sailor moon stars#sailor star maker#sailor star healer#sailor star fighter#i know most of this still applies in other incarnations where they're not assholes but#my point is it is kind of understandable for them to be assholes all things considered#also that they went through so much trauma and i feel really bad for them#yaten they could never make me hate you even though you did bully a toddler that one time. please do stop doing that though
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Broken Part 2
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Warnings: Brief description of a physical assault // this story is about an abusive relationship // hurt/comfort
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You curse under your breath as your heel catches on a crack in the pavement.
These damn shoes! Why the fuck did you wear them?
Well... you wouldn't have counted on having to walk through town on your own in the dead of night, half-cut and frozen.
The night had been going so well. You'd been at a party, a friend of James's, and for the first time in for as long as you could remember you'd actually been enjoying yourself on a night out. James was even in a good mood once he'd got over the fact that you weren't going to go and change into something 'less slutty'.
You'd decided that things were going to change and you were determined. No more letting him rule your life, no more jealous comments and angry rages. You were strong. Youâd just stand up to him.
Of course what you really should have done is break up with him, not give him another chance. The thing with second chances is they quickly become third chances, then fourth chances, then before you know it you're just forgiving someone constantly, and losing yourself in the process.
You'd noticed James's demeanour start to change after his fourth beer, first came the sullen looks, then there were the little digs. Putting you down in front of his friends, making you feel small. You'd tried to laugh the comments off although they stung. You were good at that. Putting on a brave face. You should have just left the party then, but you hadn't.
You stumble again, a loud sob rising which you try to swallow down. You're trying so hard not to cry, but the more you think about the hopelessness of your situation, the more the tears sting your eyes.
"Oi oi, need a lift sweetheart?" A loud cry goes up as a souped up boy-racer car pulls up next to you at the traffic lights, and a young lad wearing a cap sticks his head out of the passenger window. You carry on walking with your head down, giving the car a wide berth. There's cat-calling and lewd comments but thankfully the traffic lights change and the car screeches off.
You suddenly realise how risky this is, walking alone as drunk as you are, an emotional wreck. It's 1am for gods sake. You hate bothering people but you know Lizzie will be up. It's Larry's birthday and they're having a party at their house. You reluctantly pull your phone out of your bag and perch on the low stone wall of the house that you're outside.
The phone rings and rings, and you're just about to give up when you hear the call connect.
"Y/N! How are you? Wish you were here!" Lizzie's voice comes loud and excited down the line, she's practically shouting over the booming music and background chatter.
You nearly make out that you dialled by mistake and hang up, fretting that you're only going to go and ruin your best friend's evening, but you stop yourself, knowing that she would be mad at you for even thinking like that. You go to speak, but a sob bubbles up from your throat rather than actual words.
"What's up? Are you crying?" Lizzie's voice is even louder now. "Hold on, let me get somewhere a bit quieter... right I'm outside now. What's up? What's happened?"
âI don't know what to do. It's James... we had a row... at the party. It was horrible. He... he..."
You trail off, your throat closing off. You can't quite summon up the courage to say the words because you know that once they're out there it will change everything. You won't be able to lie and hide and cover for him anymore.
"That bastard! What's he done this time?" Lizzie fumes down the line. "I'll kill him. I'll fucking kill him! Where are you?"
You look around, suddenly realising that you'd been walking with no destination in mind, the desire just to get away so strong that you'd acted on impulse. You should be going home, but you're not really familiar with this part of town.
"I don't know where I am... I just walked out of the party..."
You stop when you hear Lizzie's voice again, but she's not speaking to you. She's talking to someone else. Her voice is muted like she's holding her hand over the phone.
"Y/N? Y/N? Where are you? We'll come and get you!"
Oh crap, Larry's involved now. You can tell by his slurred voice that he's wasted and there's no way he should be driving. You cringe inside, feeling guilty for ruining your friend's celebrations.
"Itâs okay, I'll get a taxi. You just carry on with your night and I'll ring Lizzie tomorrow."
"But she says you're really upset!" Larry's tone tells you that he's not going to back down. "Now tell me where you are."
You look around again, grudgingly telling Larry what you can see and he seems to know your location straight away. "You sound pissed Larry! You can't drive like that," you splutter, but he cuts you off.
"Iâm not driving, Van's coming to get you. He's not been drinking, he's got an interview with some local radio show early tomorrow. Stay where you are... alright?"
You mumble a yes, and then Lizzie comes back on the line, still raging on about James but you can't concentrate on her words now. You feel a churn of nerves in your gut when you think about seeing Van. To be honest you've been avoiding him since he walked you home from Lizzie's two weeks ago and he questioned you about your relationship with James. You know he means well but you've no idea how he's going to react when he sees you.
You reach up a hand and gingerly touch the corner of your right eye, wincing slightly. This time it wasn't just harsh words that James fired at you. You'd shouted back at him angrily and he'd lashed out, the resulting blow knocking you backwards with enough force that you'd stumbled in your heels and landed in an ungracious heap on the floor. Immediately he'd acted horrified by his actions, pulling you on to your feet and apologising whilst you just stood there in shock. It hadn't taken him long to back-track though, justifying his outburst by the drinks he'd had and your apparent inability to see things from his perspective. But that was James for you. Nothing was ever his fault.
Your thoughts are interrupted by the sound of a car approaching, and you look up to see Van's car pulling up at the kerbside. You stand up tentatively, letting your head hang down so your hair flops down over your injured eye.
"Thanks for coming Van," you mumble as you hear his car door open. "I'm really sorry to drag you out of Larry's party though. I told Lizzie I'd get a taxi home..."
But Van's not listening, as soon as he's out of the car he's rushing around to you, holding out his hands which come to rest on your shoulders firmly, turning you fully to face him. You keep your head down, hiding from the streetlight's illumination.
"What's happened? What did that prick do to you?"
His tone is unmistakable anger and his grip tightens on your shoulders. You freeze automatically, anxiety prickling your nerves. Your chest feels tight.
"Nothing... nothing... I'm okay!"
"I'd say you were very fucking far from okay!" Van fumes. "Just look at you."
He tries to manoeuvre you backwards then so he can take a good look at you but you just hang your head even lower to avoid his scrutiny, thankful for the shadows.
"Leave it Van... it's nothing."
"Doesn't look like nothing to me. You're out here on your own in the middle of the night! Jesus Y/N... what happened that's so bad that you had to just run off like that? And why did he let you go off on your own, huh?"
The tears that were already brimming in your eyes are starting to sting now and no amount of blinking them back is going to stop them from falling. You feel a huge sob rising in your throat and you shoot up a hand to cover your mouth like that will somehow stop it but it bursts free anyway.
"Just take me home... please!" You whine.
You're expecting further probing from Van but it's quiet for a moment, your pathetic sniffling the only sound to penetrate the night. His grip softens but only for a moment, then before you realise what's happening his arms start to wrap around your back, pulling you tightly into his body. You're stunned but you just let yourself be enveloped, still holding yourself stiffly. When he talks this time his voice is soft and tentative, but his body still feels tense as you press your face into the material of his shirt.
"I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to shout. I just... I was so worried when Larry told me, I thought something really bad had happened. I about crashed the car getting here I was driving so fast."
Now you're not under pressure to look Van in the eye you can feel yourself start to relax. Maybe you can just gloss this over, act like it was nothing, persuade him to take you home and then you can go and burrow under your bedcovers and shut out the rest of the world. It's your preferred method of dealing with things after all. You know you're going to have to face it at some point but not now. Now you're just too tired, exhausted in fact, the weight of your situation pressing down heavily on you.
"No, it's fine, it was a row, that's all. I'm just overreacting as per usual."
"I'm sure that's not true," he says, and you feel his fingers move gently over your back, soothing caresses smoothing down over your shoulder blades. "You know I don't want to lecture you, but you can't keep going on like this. You shouldn't have to."
I know, you think, but you don't say it. You just nuzzle further into the warmth of his chest, feeling yourself relaxing even more. You've just realised how secure you feel, completely safe and protected. It's a stark contrast to how James makes you feel. It should give you relief but it doesn't, it just makes your situation seem all the more hopeless. You can feel a fresh round of tears welling up again, the sobs wracking your body.
"Oh god I'm so sorry," you mumble into his chest, bringing up a hand so you can dab at your eyes with the sleeve of your top. "Here I go again. I'm a fucking mess."
You huff out a shaky laugh, trying to lighten the heavy atmosphere, your attempts to stem the sobs only making your chest even tighter. Little stifled gasps burst from you every now and again as your nose starts to run and you surreptitiously try to wipe that on your sleeve too.
"Shhh... shhh," Van whispers, his head dipping down so that he can speak soothingly into your ear. "Don't apologise love. None of this is your fault. I've got you."
"But I'm making a mess all over your shirt," you say, turning your head to the side. "My nose is running and everything."
Van lets outs a soft chuckle. "I don't mind if you get snot on me... that's what friends are for, isn't it?"
You can't help the laugh that bursts forth and the smile feels good on your lips as you press even further into Van, your fingers flexing on his waist. You both stand there quiet for a moment, you sniffling intermittently as your sobs start to die away, Van stroking your back, his face pressed into your hair now. You feel so comforted that you don't want it to end, you just want to stay cocooned in his arms forever where you don't have to face reality or admit the truth that your relationship's deteriorated past the point of no return. The fact that you're scared of your boyfriend and he actually hit you this time and you have absolutely no idea what he's capable of.
All of a sudden you're one of those girls. The ones you hear about who are trapped in abusive relationships, the ones who lie to protect their partner and cover up their bruises with make-up and convoluted stories about walking into a door. The ones who you shake your head at and pity, and say "I'd never let that happen to me."
Yet here you are.
You feel Van start to pull away and you don't want him to, tightening your grip momentarily before you realise that you need to let him go. His hands move again to your shoulders but he's much more gentle this time. "Hey, hey... we ought to get you home before you freeze your arse off out here."
It's only then that you realise how cold you are, shivers coursing through you from the chilly wintry air. You'd left in such a hurry that you'd not even picked up your coat.
Van quickly shrugs out of his jacket and drapes it over your shoulders and you mumble a thank you, still not looking up, afraid to meet his eyes.
"Come on love," he urges, his arm around your shoulder, guiding you to the car where he opens the passenger door and waits for you to slide in before he closes it.
So far so good. It'll be dark in the car and Van won't notice your bruised eye and then you'll be home. It's late enough that your mum will be fast asleep which will allow you to slip in unnoticed. It'll buy you some time to drum up enough bravery to come clean about what's happening or concoct a believable cover story. You've not decided which route you're going to take yet even though a niggling voice in your head is chastising you for already favouring the latter.
You feel warm in Van's jacket, and as you reach up to grasp the seatbelt you nuzzle into the collar, inhaling the faint scent of his cologne, marvelling at how just that small sense of familiarity is such a comfort to you whilst you're feeling so hopeless.
Van opens up the driver's side door just as you're clicking the seatbelt into place.
"FUCKIN' 'ELL!"
The shock in his voice and the sheer volume of it is enough to make you temporarily forget your efforts to hide your injury, and in any case as soon as you whip your head up in surprise you realise it's already too late.
As soon as he'd opened the car door the overhead light had automatically blinked on, illuminating you perfectly in all your bruised, sorrowful glory. Your head drops down once again, an automatic reaction, but Van shoots his hands forwards, one cupping your cheek and the other under your chin, tilting your face upwards. You try to resist but realise it's helpless, giving in and letting him see, your throat choking up with even more tears.
His face is pure shock shot through with disbelieving horror, and the sight renders him temporarily speechless.
"It's not as bad as it looks, honestly, it's just... it's..."
You trail off, watching Van scan your face, looking for further signs of damage before his eyes come to rest on yours. "Fuck Y/N... why didn't you say something? He did that didn't he? He hit you. He fucking hit you didn't he?"
You don't answer Van, but you don't need to. He can see it in your eyes. All the horror and the pain and the fear that still lingers there, a culmination of your desperation to leave the situation you've found yourself in but you just don't know how.
"But it was... it wasn't... it was just..."
Stuttered words fall from you, broken syllables before you trail off, realising that you're automatically going to defend James even now. Even after all of this. The thought makes you instantly nauseous and you pull away from Van quickly, hanging your head in shame and defeat.
"That bastard! That fucking bastard! I'll kill him. Where is he? Where's this party you've been at? Tell me where it is!"
Van moves erratically in his seat, his body tensing and his arms flailing, slapping down on the steering wheel with force, making you flinch. You can feel the anger radiating off him and even though it's not directed at you it still scares you. You sink down into your seat, making yourself small, an automatic reaction that's become involuntary when you witness rage. You can't help it.
"No! Please no! Please don't..."
You words fall into a strangled cry which is punctuated by yet another sob, your hands shooting up to wrap around yourself, your eyes screwing shut tight, trying to block out all the horror of the night. All you can hear is Van's muttered curses spat out in fury, his control temporarily lost as the horrific notion of his friend being hurt sinks in. He's livid. But you can't let him go and confront James. You can't bear the thought of more confrontation, more anger, more threats and more violence. You just want it to all be over.
"Please stop it!" You cry, and those three words pierce the tense air, bringing Van to an immediate halt.
Silence falls on the car and your eyes flick open. Van's still, frozen with the look of shock and horror still on his face, but something's changed. The anger's still there but he's holding it in, swallowing it down, biting it back, the realisation that it's distressing you flooding him at once.
"Shit... I'm sorry... I'm so sorry... I didn't think. I didn't mean to scare you. I just... I..." He pauses, shaking his head, at a loss for words.
"It's okay..." you croak, still hugging yourself tightly, pressed into the seat.
"No it's not." He shifts in his own seat, leaning in to you slightly but making sure he gives you space. "The last thing you need is me screaming and shouting and losing my temper. I just lost it for a minute." Another pause. You watch as he closes his eyes, a pained look creasing his face. "What are you gonna do? You can't let him get away with this. Shall I call your mum? The police?"
"NO!" The word flies out with force, panic rising in you like icy flood waters, gripping your heart. "No police, I can't face that... please..."
You're expecting him to protest, maybe just call them anyway, thoughts of being examined and questioned, reliving the moment over and having to press charges chilling you through. But he doesn't. Instead he reaches for your hand which has fallen into your lap, cupping it softly rather than grasping it like he's afraid of expecting too much from you.
"Okay, okay... don't worry. But how about your mum? I could ring her? Or I could just take you there... home I mean. That's probably the best..."
"No..." You surprise yourself, speaking without thinking, the thought coming to you suddenly, an impulse taking over as you turn your hand over and close it over his, squeezing it tight. "I don't wanna go home, not yet. Can we... can we just... go back to yours? Just for a little while."
You can't face your mum, not yet. Not whilst everything is so raw. She'll be upset, absolutely horrified, and you don't feel strong enough. You've not even come to terms with it yourself yet, let alone dealing with the implications and the 'what now's and the future. You just want to feel calm, looked after, safe, and you know that Van will come through for you.
After all, he's just like the big brother you never had. Almost.
Iâve had Part 3 in my drafts for ages so Iâll try and get it finished xxx
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â ď¸merji/cultivator Wei WuXian
"Come on, Wei-Xiong, the old man will end up hitting us again!"
Wei WuXian chuckled as he jumped onto the boat, "So what? I'm always the one getting beat up, so don't worry."
"Last time we got it too. Let's take what we can and leave."
Wei WuXian broke the leaves and threw the seeds into his mouth, carefree, "Don't be like that, Shidi. Come here, I'll give you some of mine."
The Jiang Clan's young cultivators sat on the boat, eventually relaxing because of Wei WuXian. Still others were picking lotus and cooling off in the water, struggling to survive that hot day.
They laughed and shared seeds, saving some for later, until one of the youngest disciples jumped into the boat as if fleeing death.
"The old man is here!"
With those words, the others started jumping into the boat like hungry ghouls or being pulled along by their mates. From afar, the old man approached already cursing the future generation of each one of them.
"Let's run, let's run!"
The old man traveled with speed counting the pods that were left. He held a bamboo stick, which was better than the paddle, even though it made every crack against the flesh.
Underneath the old owner's boat, a shadow accompanied him and that was probably why he was fast and stable, more than the juniors' boat from YunmengJiang.
That was the ghoul he fed to catch them and who wouldn't let any cultivator touch him or get a lash.
Wei WuXian shuddered at the memory.
They started to make their way back, paddling hurriedly to run away from him, when a loud thud on the boat Wei WuXian was on happened and caught the attention of the old man passing by, less swift.
"What are you all doing?!"
The juniors didn't even bother to look back, paddling as if their lives depended on it. But the boat with the old man got faster and caught up with them quickly.
Wei WuXian thought indignantly, 'That ghoul ratted us out! What a brat!'
The owner's boat approached Wei WuXian's side, and when he saw the bamboo coming towards his back out of the corner of his eyes, he closed his eyes waiting for the sting of the bamboo against his flesh.
Did not happen. Instead, his boat surged forward even faster than the old man's boat and threw everyone back, even those who were rowing.
The other boats stayed behind, only theirs managed to escape the wrath of that man and his ghoul.
Arriving at Pier Lotus, they looked at each other in confusion.
"What happened?"
"Something took our boat back!"
"And the others?"
Jiang Cheng, "Who cares? We are here and escaped."
Wei WuXian, "We'd better go back to help."
Jiang Cheng, "Do you want to get hit more? And what do you did to get us out of there?"
Wei WuXian, "Anything."
"Wei-Xiong! Look, there's something at the bottom!"
All of the juniors approached the edge, especially Wei WuXian, who could see a long silvery white tail at the bottom, snaking its way out into the darkness.
"What was this?"
"Could it be that it was some spirit that had compassion on us"
"He only acted when Wei-Xiong was get a whipping from the old man.", one of them laughed out loud.
Wei WuXian felt smug, "It must have been the spirit of a beautiful maiden who fell in love with me."
Jiang Cheng, "You don't get tired of talking nonsense, do you?"
Wei WuXian, "Hahahahaha..."
Nearby, Lan WangJi could hear the laugh that had made his heart flutter nervously ever since he first heard it.
He couldn't help but mutter a 'ridiculous' at hearing about being a maiden. That human was ridiculous and undisciplined, yet he was handsome and Intelligent. Not to mention that he always helped those in need around town.
Not that Lan WangJi chased after him, he didn't need that to hear about Wei WuXian.
Another thing about that human was that he had many scars and was constantly beaten by others and by the others without anyone thanking him or caring.
Lan WangJi would later punish himself for interfering with a deserved punishment, but he would not regret it.
Deep down, he wanted to protect that laugh.
Ears red with embarrassment, Lan WangJi sank down and returned to the place he was now.
He promised himself that he would only return to GusuLan when Wei WuXian agreed to go with him.
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What if after prison dream feelt like he was done with life or something and decided to go and kill himself so he goes to a high cliff but techno just happens too be there so just when dream was about to fall techno catches him by grabing him by the waist and holds trying too calm him down
woof! very dark prompt, but i like where you're going with this anon!
The storm was howling late into the night. The wind screamed in his ears, swirling in an ungodly hurricane of incomprehensible magnitude by the cliffside. Lightning cracked almost constantly in the starless sky. The trees swayed every which way the strong wind would bend it to its will. Rain fell and soaked through his cloak, yet he did nothing but stand at the very edge of the mountain.
Dream stood motionless, and the ground lay muddy and wet beneath his feet as if the earth itself felt his anguish.
For a moment, it occurred to him that what he's doing is dangerous and beyond careless, but then a part of him seemed to relish at the reminder. Good, it whispered. This is exactly what you need.
It would be quick.
A straight drop from the top of the world.
What would Sapnap think?
He only hesitates for a moment, lets himself indulge at the image of Sapnap's grief stricken face before he finally lets go, letting gravity do its thing as he slowly felt the invisible pull.
"Dream!"
The sudden scream had gone straight through his chest like a knife, drowning out the storm as he felt strong arms pulling him to the safety of the ground.
Then everything went quiet. Dream didn't need to turn around to know what was happening; to see who was there.
Techno had sent the both of them sprawling toward the forest, straight into a puddle of dirt and rainwater. They had landed with a loud thud, but Dream hadn't even felt the sting of sharp rocks grazing his skin. What he had felt was the displaced air, the vacuum that sucked at his cloak as he was physically pulled from imminent death and into the warmth of Techno's solid chest.
"What the hell were you thinking?"
He wanted it all to end.
"I don't know." He lies.
Dream felt Techno's arms tightening around him and if he felt them shake, he doesn't say anything.
"You're an awful liar." He hears Techno whisper next to his ears.
He isn't. Not really. Not when he's practically fooled every single person who used to care about him into thinking he was a monster.
"Never again." Techno tells him. "I don't know why you decided to do what you were about to do, but I'm telling you now I never want this to happen a second time."
Dream wants to laugh at him, at his command, as if he had any say in the matter. But he sort of wants to cry in his arms as well, soaking up all of Techno's warmth.
"Why did you stop me?" He asks him instead, refusing to meet his gaze.
"It could've been over," He was sobbing now. "I could finally put a stop to all of this."
"I don't care about how you feel," Techno nearly shouts, wiping at his tears with gentle hands despite the anger in his voice. "I care even less about who put that thought in your head. I will never never let you fall, Dream. Do you understand me? Never. You cannot die, not by your own hands and certainly not by mine."
#dreamnoblade#c!dreamnoblade#dreblr#bit angsty but i like it#trying to get back to answering all the requests that piled up in my inbox#had to add sapnap here bc i'm nothing if not a sucker for dreamnap angst#ry.quests#dnb â¤ď¸đ
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absolutely unrelated to the dreadful little polycule BUT. hey mark was there at deadwood right. like in canon. what do u think post-muse ashe and mark even Look like. i feel like. there's no way they could be normal after that. not that they can in canon but even Less after what ashe knows mark's seen him do. also GOD how does. tidalwave mark coming over to deadwood mark dragging tide with him happen..... one second im still thinking about the dreadful little polycule u know ill always talk ur ear off Abt them!!!
this ask has been cooking in my inbox for WEEKS because thinking about post-muse mark and ashe makes me so fucking sick dude. god. okay. fucking huge ramble about them under the cut
not going to answer the tidalwave thing yet because we NEED 2 discuss what happens to tide instead of depowering him bc that would fucking kill him and we CANNOT kill our dad. i know we mentioned him taking an armsmaster style retirement/thinly veiled house arrest but. thats a conversation for later hehe
ANYWAY. FUCK . POST-MUSE ASHE MY POOR LITTLE BOY. god. this is all going to be hypotheticals and questions honestly. but like. god. thinking abt the scene like. IMMEDIATELY after the trickster lets him go. the trickster lets go of him and ashe just fucking slumps to the ground like a (pun very much intended) puppet with his strings cut. hes not unconscious, hes awake, but the last time he was free and aware he had to watch himself rip william in half! lol! i think that all hits him at once and he just like. falls to his fucking knees!!! and like. mark pov. thats his son his son is free hes had to watch all of this in shock and horror but now ashe is free after so fucking long and all he wants to do is rush forward and hug him (pick him up, bundle him in his arms like he did when ashe first triggered, carry him in the car as they speed out of the quarantine zone hoping nobody is following them-) and i think he gets as far as. falling to his knees next to ashe, but as soon as his hand makes contact i think ashe flinches so hard its almost like the touch hurt him. hes just. staring at his dad with these huge eyes and shallow breaths and hes shaking and crying and its a fucking MESS and mark doesnt know what to DO and the wards are standing in a loose semicircle behind him and ashe does NOT like all of these eyes on him. he knows these are people who love him but he doesnt know ... what the fuck theyre going to think of him. after. all of that.
i think it would be fun (/evil) if for..... a little while after he's free ashe is just CONSTANTLY waiting for the other shoe to drop. he knows trickster has mal now, he believes that was real, and mal can make illusions. so . whats to say this isnt just all. fake. one of these days hes going to wake up covered in blood and gore and new piercings stinging and aching and . ashe winters will just be the empty aftermath of muse again. i cannot IMAGINE a world in which mark would let him out of his sight again... maybe not in the same completely suffocating way he did when ashe was a kid but like. he definitely insists on ashe living with him again. just. theres a sort of nervous hesitance that wasnt there before. mark is so much more Present now that he doesnt have to work for overlord anymore. he's at home. he makes breakfast and dinner and his footsteps are still loud and heavy but theyre cautious and the way he knocks on ashes door is a lot more gentle than it used to be . i just think theyre both like... scared of each other. ashe scared to relax because he thinks that everything could be fake and he doesnt know what anyone really thinks of him anymore (he is so full of shame and guilt over what he did as muse- i dont think anyone would directly Tell Him but i think . he would probably look up the news, just to *know*). and mark is scared because he doesnt know what to do. he doesnt want to make anything worse. he lets the wards and tide visit whenever they want (because he trusts them) because familiar faces and voices might help ashe feel normal again, but hes still. just. so full of paranoia that something else could go wrong.. and all he wants to do is just. put ashe in a vault or something that could keep him safe from anything that could ever hurt him again. but also he knows thats exactly what the trickster was doing to him (and what mark did to him his entire childhood) so he doesnt.
this is . entirely self indulgent and maybe ooc a little bit but i really really REALLY want the first step of them like... healing. is for mark to be doing something maybe in the kitchen or the living room and ashe slowly trudges into the room feet dragging, hair tangled and hanging in his face OBVIOUSLY not touched at all, nervous energy twitchy at everything like he has been for weeks, but instead of sitting himself in the corner or with his back against a wall he just... comes up next to mark and bumps his forehead into his back/arm/whatever. and he doesnt say anything and mark freezes up bc he doesnt want to make any sudden moves and scare him but then after like. a couple long seconds of stillness and silence ashe hugs him. mark asks (voice really quiet) if hes okay, and ashes shakes his head (which is more just like. sideways rocking his forehead without breaking contact) and mark asks if he can hug him back (nod this time) and they just kind of. sink to the floor and theyre crying and hugging and they dont talk about it later but i think thats when it clicks in ashes brain like. huh okay maybe this is real.
#sorry im a fuckignggngnnn sucker for a good dad hug. mark winters hug your son challenge.#i could say. so much more abt them probably but i feel like i kind of lost the plot a little bit and forgot where i was going with this#auauguhghghghhghhg#asks#friends!!!#intertexts#new haven wards
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more than anything, itâs truly a pity. you thought you could handle it. every single person on a planet had said to you that you probably shouldnât, and now youâre here thinking that maybe, just maybe, they were right. you feel like the most terrible liar on the planet, and some might say itâs not that far from truth.
no one would blame dabi for that. he told you heâs a handful right from the get-go. it wasnât like he was trying to put on some sort of a facade. quite the opposite, he was always brutally honest about how he is. he said it loud and clear that he wasnât cut out for relationship, but heâll still try. oh, you truly wish he was lying. it could be so much better if he was able to pretend. not always, but sometimes it could be nice. it could be really nice not to hear a single word from him every once in a while.Â
âheyâ he says, looking up to you, while putting a spoon right on a table. âyouâre awfully quiet today. something happened?â
ânoâ you force yourself to answer. âyou like the dinner?â
âyesâ heâs first to try to smile. you canât keep up, so his smile disappears just as quickly. you feel painful sting in your heart - that, that definitely was your fault. he was never for smiles and laughs, his life was an horrible long path of unfortunate events, full of pain and suffering. at the beginning of your relationship he couldnât tell whatâs the difference between smiling and crying. it was all always the same to him.
the first time youâve heard him laughing - with his whole chest, ugly snorts and coughing from the lack of oxygen, you thought of two things. first, youâve never thought he was able to be this happy, letting himself go for just few seconds of pure joy. second, that he looked absolutely beautiful like this. quite corny, doesnât make it any less true. you thought: hey, it was you who made him laugh like that. who heâs constantly looking at with such fond and gentle eyes. theyâre never so fond when he talks to himiko-chan or shigaraki-kun. he loves you so much. you thought you love him to. at some point, you probably really did.
why donât you feel like that anymore?
âdonât you want to say something to me?â
ânot really, no.â
well, you donât know what to say to him in the first place. youâve never thought thereâs a possibility to just fall out of love. youâve always thought there must be a reason, someoneâs cheating or something like that. but reality hits you like a truck: life is much more boring. and what you once found fascinating - like dabi being so affectionate, so touchy with you and no one else - now is just a annoying.Â
how can you even say something like that to another person? isnât it cruel? sometimes you think about cheating on him and making him found out - thatâs cowardly, but at least you wouldnât need to say âi donât love you anymore. youâre just a nuisance.â
stop touching me. stop looking at me. i donât want to be any near you anymore. leave me alone.
you would never do any of that.Â
that would probably break his heart for real. however you feel towards him now, you donât want him to be hurt. lord knows, heâs been through so much already. he doesnât need to suffer any more. which raises another question: does this mean, itâs you whoâll suffer then? when will this end?
âiâll be on a mission from tomorrow. dunno, when iâll come backâ
never, i hope.
âis that so? boss havenât said anything about that.â
âyeah. kinda figured that out on the go. wanna go with me?â
no.
âyes. but letâs talk about it tomorrow, all right?â
heâs beaming at you, his smile so pure and so horrid to you. you need to remind yourself why youâre doing that. because you do this for touya, not dabi. you do this for him, for all the attention he wasnât given, for all the love he never felt in his life. maybe, once youâre done, heâll be able to love someone else. because god, you truly, wholeheartedly wish you could keep pretending. but you donât know how much thereâs left in you.Â
âyou love me, right?â he asks, sounding almost like a child, wanting an acknowledgement. because heâs still a child in his heart, and itâs so easy to lie to him, you almost wonder if he knows your true feeling already.
âof courseâ you say without missing a blink âof course, my loveâ.
(based very loosely on these hc)
#bnha#boku no hero academia#mha#my hero academia#bnha x reader#mha x reader#dabi#todoroki touya#dabi x reader#dabi x you#todoroki touya x reader#dabi angst#bnha oneshots
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