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it's kind of a fun move to make my very very personal blog also the one I post my drawings on
ive purposefully done it to not create that kind of environment where it's just an account posting art, a one-dimensional abstract thing that's so detached that if I were to post something like 'teehee I tried to off myself so I'm opening comms to pay the bills' it'd be met with utmost surprise bc it'd break the illusion yknow?
but sometimes I do want some drawings to not have context. to be as impersonal as a vintage figure whose sculptor has never been fully known or a golden locket with the picture of someone who you don't know anything about
I want both, to be honest. it's always been a struggle of the need of external validation but also to not want to taint everything with myself
I want to draw a pet portrait for someone and not have it be judged with all the ramblings and half-jokes about how everything sucks every now and then.
I want to draw a guy being mechanically separated for no reason and not have it show up besides someone's pet portrait and having to explain to the average person I don't even know why I like gore so much besides rendering it is fun
it's all like a cycle of making it clear who is behind the art for context but also sometimes wanting everything to speak for itself and wanting a sort of pure reaction to it
and it culminates into that overly familiar feeling.. of wanting to be consistent. to have a feel, a look that you can maybe hope someone will identify as yours.. and the question is always the same - for what? why? why does it matter?
if anything the first thing I'd ever say to someone who remotely showed interest in art and wanted to know my side of it is that nothing matters and everything is subjective and that there will always be people who see too much meaning where there isn't and people who miss the point entirely. and that diversity is just as good as quality and not a binary switch that you have to pick for the rest of your life. and that often by trying to achieve perfection you just end up dumping what gave your art a personal touch because it wasn't absolutely on par with the version of you that you so desperately want people to identify you with or the vibe you want to give off or whatever else
it's kind of a problem that also has different connotations depending on the way wherever you post works, too
on devart and I think insta too favorites and likes are the easiest way to show a kind of support that happens to streamline everything into images on a page instead of actually taking in most detail, the title or description or lack thereof, maybe even a message or line or music lyric intended to aid in the perception.. that ends up getting completely ignored because it takes extra effort to do. and it gets exponentially worse the more people you follow
then, well.. tumblr. because of the way the posts are organized and at least show captions it has a bit of a leg up, but then the sideblog stuff comes up. posts 95% of the time only give traction to the account that posted it, so a sideblog where you reblog your art is pretty much just a gallery for the convenience of whoever follows them. if you post on that sideblog however, then that facilitates no one visiting your main and just looking at the drawings, leading to the art-artist detachment as it is also plenty of extra steps and effort
then, independently, the path you choose is hard to undo. choose to be unknown and be bound to the façade you have to keep and not break your persona, or put all bits of yourself out to the public and there will forever be an image/ background version of you that will contextualize everything you do
try to turn around and choose to hide and it will put people off and affect how some will look at your new stuff now that you're less of a social butterfly because of the instinct of curiosity and wanting to know what happened , choose to show yourself and now you're too real and people don't want to associate with you because of the things you express or how it hits different knowing x and y or just not caring about you enough to be bothered to keep up with your life with sporadic drawings inbetween
it's all ironically about your own self-image and knowing others who know you
oh and it just hit me the financial side of things too. but that's too much for me rn and it's sort of a bonus to my point anyways
idk man. I feel like I'm having a stroke while an influencer tries to explain branding to me
#the public vs hidden thing is also like trying to balance the evils#do you want to enable being made fun of by quirky neurotypicals and edgelords bc of ur 'archetype'#or do you want to enable everyone to put any meaning to your art including dogshit ones and treat it like a commodity#public enough to have your name or style used pejoratively to describe other people#or hidden enough to blend in and represent nothing and say nothing. just like a blank piece of paper#these two sort of types are everywhere and there just doesnt seem to be a grey area. its just.... awkward.#ah yes look at my painting and tell me what you think of it! dont take me into consideration at all though. pretend this came out of thin>#>air bc thats how i want it to be perceived. bc of course we all know thats a thing that can be controlled by sheer will right? lol#i want to draw whatever. i want to stop giving a shit. not care of what people think its all about. but i want to be seen as well. ..#and its frustrating bc i find it immeasurably valuable to find meaning in the mundane#to find the whimsy and care on someone's 'bad' stickman cat doodle even tough sketches dont mean barely anything to the artist#and then i get sad when someone below my skill level finds My sketches good despite me posting them as a 'look at how bad this looks lol'#just. being desperate for wanting everything to go your way#like a filmmaker who swears the theater is an integral part of their movie when in reality a guy watching at home cherishes it just as much#i think id turn inside out of disgust if i ever truly legitimally considered all the 'wrong' ways people can experience my art#compressed to hell or they just didnt bother to zoom in and didnt notice the brushstrokes and effects#which is totally normal and common and i myself do it! but my ego says nuh uh. go feel bad bc other ppl have agency lol#i can definitely pretend i dont care anymore and even try to believe it so much i unconsciously start assimilating it#but the Moment someone comments something that contradicts what i thought and wished was happening i just. break .#im truly trying to stave off negative thoughts and teaching myself that what others think of me doesnt define me#and one day im overhearing something i wasnt meant to know and its that someone thinks im a child#and ends up treating me like one. like im too stupid to do anything#and then i look back at my eyestrain/cartoonish stuff thats in fact considered childish by people who try to use age as>#a token of 'i dont enjoy X because X is for kids because/therefore im an AdulT! respect me!'#and i just have to face the reality that thats the image of me my art gives off by itself and what society chose it to symbolize as well#which it all leads to wanting so deeply a way to control how others view you because of how age gate-keeping for example is so stupid#and it bleeds into every other feeling and paranoia and self doubt#either you act cool and lie about who you are or let others label you what they see fit especially what they consider to be deserving of>#>ridicule#dextxt
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TECH!LEO VALDEZ X THEATER KID!READER
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Summary: You land the role of Veronica Sawyer in a musical your high school is putting on, and your tech boyfriend tries to be supportive and reassure you when you need it.
Warnings: Highschool!au, Mortal!au,already dating fic, Beware spelling errors, im lowkey dyslexic. I DONT KNOW HOW TO END FICS….
Authors Notes: HIII GUYS IM ACTUALLY REALLY EXCITED TO WRITE THIS I LOVE LEO SO MUCH. ALSO THIS IS PARTLY FOR SOME DISCORD FRIENDS !! Possibly not canon written Leo 😭🙏
You were in the drama/theater club at your high school, often appearing as the leading or supporting roles in musicals your school would put on in the auditorium. It was amazing, both fun and something you were good at! But what made it even better was one of the tech kids, Leo Valdez—Who was your boyfriend!
A few weeks ago, you scored one of the lead roles—Veronica Sawyer—in a musical your school was putting on called ‘Heathers’. But, there was a rather… intimate scene with another character, Veronica’s love interest, in the show during the song ‘Dead Girl Walking’, and Leo tried to tolerate it and support you the best he could, but it was getting a little unbearable for him.
“Baby…” Leo whined as you ranted to him about your role in the musical, even though you should have been practicing your lines. “Shouldn’t you be, uh, practicing or something?” He didn't want to send you away like that, but he could go on hearing you talk about that scene.
“Sorry, sorry, you’re right. I’ll go practice my lines. Thanks for the reminder. Love you, bye!” You say apologetically, kissing his cheek quickly (If any teacher or adult at the school saw you do that you’d probably get detention.) and running out from backstage where you were talking to Leo as he worked on… Whatever he does.
It was a few hours from the first showing of the show as your high school was doing a morning and afternoon show. You were backstage getting ready, changing into costume, and makeup, making sure you had your lines completely memorized and you could hit each note in the songs—Which you could. Expect you couldn’t help but be a bit worried about this. Sure, you had played so many roles before throughout the years you’ve been in high school, but you were worried about little things, a lot of little things which slowly added up to become one big thing for you to worry about—Making sure you’d sing the school appropriate version of the lyrics, making sure you wouldn’t blank on stage (How embarrassing would that be?!), making sure you were perfect.
Then you got an idea.
There was one person that you knew for sure thought you were perfect. Your boyfriend, Leo! Of course, you’d be able to get reassurance from him! So naturally you ran—Not too fast though, you couldn’t ruin your costume—off from where you were sat to find him.
It didn’t take you long to find Leo, he was exactly where you had expected him to be after all. “Leo!” You called out as you walked up to him, placing one of your hands on his arm so he would turn around to face you. And he in fact did turn around and face you like you had suspected he would.
“What is it?” He asked, sounding confused. He thought you would be getting ready for the musical, not running up to him for a chat. “Did ya miss me that bad you had to stop getting ready to come find me?” He added with a short chuckle, gaining a smile.
“Nono,—Well yes, but that’s not why I came to find you.” You replied, worry practically seeping through your words the more you spoke. Leo noticed almost immediately.
Your hand was still on his arm, Leo put his hand on top of yours. “Wow, I’m hurt.” He teased. “Well then, what is it? Whatcha need?” That was one of the things you loved about Leo; he always seemed to know when you were worried or upset about something, even if he didn’t know how to comfort you.
“I dunno, I guess I’m just nervous about this. I’m scared of messing up on stage.” You admit to him, and Leo seems to immediately understand what you mean. “Oh, don’t worry about it. You’ll do great, trust me.”
Then, when you were finally getting that reassurance from your boyfriend, it was about roughly 15-to-20 minutes until curtain—Until you would be on stage. Oh, brother.
You were feeling a little more better as you rushed back to the backstage area of the auditorium, Leo’s words ringing in your ears. The backstage was suddenly not as easy to navigate as it was before you ran off to find your boyfriend. People—Either in the show themselves or apart of tech like Leo—Were running around, trying to make sure the preparations were all set and everything was ready for the first showing of the musical.
Then you got told by one of the tech team members to get in your place on stage.
After about 2 and a half hours, the morning show of your high schools performance of ‘Heathers The Musical’ was over. You bowed before the audience, sweating, your throat sore and hurting from singing for almost 2 hours straight. At this point, all you could think of was the bottle of water that was waiting for you by your bag backstage.
As soon as the curtain closed, you ran off stage to where you had set your bag in desire of the bottle of water you had gotten before hand. And there it was waiting for you, along with Leo, your boyfriend.
“See? What did I tell you? You did amazing, just like I said you would.” Leo said, wrapping one of his arms around you, seemingly not minding the fact that you were practically covered in sweat.
“Yeah yeah, I know,” You groan in reply. “Just lemme grab my water before you start praising me.” You let out a dry laugh, —Dry to the fact that your throat was now killing you. You reached out your hand for your bottle of water, but Leo grabbed it before you could. You thought he would hold on to it tightly and reach his hand up high, making you reach even farther for it, but he didn’t. Instead, he opened it for you and handed it to you, seemingly recognizing how tired you were after performances.
“You look tired,” Leo mused, knowing exactly where this was going to go. After most shows and performances, you would be tired and feel miserable. So miserable and tired that you would just crash in his arms. “Come here..” He said, opening his arms for you to fall into. You quickly leaned your whole body against him, leaning into his arms.
“Thank you,”
#percy jackon and the olympians#pjo#fanfic#franciswasteland#heroes of olympus x reader#heros of olympus#fanfiction#pjo fandom#pjo hoo toa#leo valdez x y/n#leo valdez x you#leo valdez x reader#leo valdez#x reader#heathers#heathers the musical#highschool au#veronica sawyer#rick riordan#riordanverse
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realistic “hamilton watches hamilton” 🫡😭
*reanimated/timetraveled AHam on his 10th day alive in 2015, curled up on the couch in LMM’s apartment, hugging a huge dog plushie, watching the 47th documentary (this one is about plato)*
LMM: hey, uh, i’m performing my musical about you tonight… wanna come?
AHam: you said it was like theater, right?
LMM: kinda yeah!
AHam: ah, then i would much rather stay here to learn about these fascinating subjects! these documentaries are incredible… did you know a group of species used to exist called dinosaurs?
LMM: dinosaurs are common knowledge now. are you sure you dont wanna come?
AHam: *eyes still glued to the screen* i have lived my life, dear friend, what point is it to see it again? and i must admit my aversion towards theater and the likes.. i much prefer the peace of the written over the noise of the recited. *a moment of silence*i am sure you have done and excellent job though!
LMM: alright then! you have fun there, i’ll be back around midnight. don’t burn something down…
AHam: yes, yes, hurry, you will run late if you continue to question me like a suspect!
LMM: want me to grab you something from the store while i’m out?
AHam: *holding up an empty packet of liquid IV* could you grab more of this?
LMM: sure *to himself while turning around and walking out the front door* i should be this guy to a doctor
AHam: what was that?
LMM: nothing don’t worry i’m practically gone already! don’t try to touch stuff i haven’t told you what it is yet!
AHam: yes yes hurry already!!!
LMM: fine i’m going, goodness!
— the end
#historical alexander hamilton#idk why#i feel like he wouldn’t even wanna see it#alexander hamilton#hamilton watches hamilton but not really ��#amrev#he just like me fr#lmm
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I have to get this out of my system:
I'm afraid that they will make Mikenessa canon in the second FNaF movie, it's not because I don't like the ship (I don't) it's just that I see it as unnecessary. I know that in most children's or PG13 movies the hero gets the girl, but Mike proved to be self-sufficient (somehow) that he dont need find a partner, I mean, the guy 'raises' a girl while his past torments him, and he have someone? No, just him and his little sister. I know that some interactions between Mike and Vanessa could be considered 'romantic' scenes but I see them as more empathetic, since they both don't have the best backstory in the world and their childhoods were ruined by the same man, I know that the hospital scene where Vanessa was in a coma and seeing Mike going to check that she is okay is cute, I would see it more as a friendship that could be strong, even though she is the daughter of his brother's murderer and kidnapper, but I don't think that get to the point of going into a much more serious relationship.
(Speaking of the hospital scene in the movie theater where me and my mom were there was a group of kids who were very annoying at the beginning of the movie, in the hospital scene when Mike started talking and stopped at the 'Vanessa ...' one of the kids murmured 'I love you' as if waiting for Mike to say it and inside I was like "Oh shut up he wants to sleep for 5 years before having a relationship 👺")
Anyway, if that were to happen I think it would be rescued by the fact that Skeet Ulrich is Henry Emily because he and Matthew work very well together and are very good friends, plus it would be kind of fun to think about the fact that he would be a character good unlike one of his best-known characters: Billy Loomis who is the bad guy
but hey this is just the opinion of a random person, please don't kick me out of the fandom 😋✌
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so the mutant mayhem series...
look im happy to get another show and im open to watching it and i will give it a chance.
but some stuff in the trailers really rubs me the wrong way.
april saying "isnt your whole thing a costume" in reference to ...just their bodies is icky and im dissapointed her kinda being mean to them is gonna continue. like- its not an initial shock thing like with 2003 and 2012 april its just "sure we're friends but im gonna call out how different you are even though your WHOLE goal is to fit in and be accepted.". i like her design and her story seems interesting and i hope she gets a real arc unlike a lot of aprils but like- the comments are un-necessary and it feels like shes making fun of them instead of being a supportive friend. [if theres an episode where the guys get fed up and talk to her, possibly having a lesson about expressing to your friends when youre uncomfortable with what they do then ill be overjoyed because that message NEEDS to be in kids shows and it would clarify april just didnt know it bothered them and would tone it down because she doesnt wanna hurt her friends]
in a trailer the others got praise and when it was mikeys turn someone was like "oh what do you do?" and mikey doesnt have a real answer. as a mikey fan i just cannot stand the constant dismissal he gets. if the series is gonna expand on that and take it seriously im totally in though.
i didnt mind the movie artstyle. its not something i enjoy and it kinda gave me a headache in theaters but objectivly there is nothing weong with it and a lot of work and talent was put into it. the show style is...ehhh? i dont like it. i dont hate it. i dont really enjoy the color palette. its not appealing to me and an art style can really change how much i enjoy a show.
and why does leo sound so much older. i cant be the only one hearing that right? like i know thats fairly standard for the shows but the movie had all this hype about the guys sounding and acting their age so???
and structure wise i feel like this is going to feel more like kim possible and spiderman instead of tmnt? cause like ...a HUGE part has always been theyre a secret and they work in the shadows cause theyre ninjas and now theyre just in the open. im ok with change- all franchizes NEED to change and adapt but im not gonna get hopeful till i see it done well int he actual show
speaking of that this is a reminder i by no means think the show will be bad. i want it to be awesome and fun and make its mark like other tmnt shows and films have! i just had to get this off my chest cause it was bothering me. im sure the show WILL be good cause i havent watched a tmnt show i outright disliked yet. the trailers just rubbed me the wrong way.
#tmnt#teenage mutant ninja turtles#tmnt mutant mayhem#tmnt ramble#tmnt rant#mutant mayhem#restating in tags i do like these versions of the characters#i like april- i like the guys#im just mixed on the show from what ive seen
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AROACE POLYSHO ???? SPILL SPILL SPILL TWLL ME ALL ABOUT IT PLEASE
AROACE POLYSHOW AROACE POLYSHOW THE GREATEST THING OF ALL TIME.
things of note that i think are fun.... nene and rui had major questioning phases pre-wxs about being aroace. i'd imagine nene being really confused why everyone around her seemed so interested in dating and romance and the whole amatanormative feel of dramatic media and such. it's in so many plays, and people get in so many shipping wars/draw suggestive art for games. it's hard to ignore as a theater kid and gamer. she didn't get it and felt isolated. she came across the term aroace online but had a hard time accepting that she might be that, but eventually silently embraced it. rui on the other hand knew full well he was not like other people. he's not the kind of guy who would pick and choose a crush that isn't there. being aroace and a middle/high schooler made him feel even more lonely and alienated from his peers. he agknowledged the fact he was aroace pretty easily, but it took him a lot longer to accept that isn't a bad thing at all.
emu and tsukasa had NO clue they were aroace. did not occur to them at all. emu had to be told it was a thing and she went "huh? OHHH THATS ME !!!! :D". skipped teh entire questioning/am i broken stage and went right to "hehehehehehe". (though other people don't believe her that often. emu is so full of love. how could someone like her not fall in love with other people? she's too young. she hasn't met the right person yet. it's just a phase. her siblings started off as ignorantly aphobic, but then realized the fault of their ways and learned.). my hc for tsukasa is a bit different than other peoples, but i am fully convinced he thought he was bisexual for teh LONGEST time. "guys and girls can both be good looking, so i must be bi! yeah the extent of my feelings is "they're cool" ... what do you mean that's not what a crush is". it was a shocking revelation to him that people actually want to kiss/have sex for real. he's accepted being aroace and actively embraces it, though he still feels connected to teh bi label. he'd like the concept of tertiary attraction and probably label as bi aroace, to honor both.
i like to think that tsukasa accidentally came out first (accidentally meaning he simply forgot to tell them and then was surprised when they were all surprised). emu was like !!!!! omg samsies and nene laughed and came out, too. wxs were the first people rui ever said the words "aromantic asexual" out loud to.
i personally think aroace polyshow never actually labeled themeselves as such, but BOY do tehy act like they're all married. they just care about each other soooooo much. its platonic its queer platonic its romantic its everything all blended together. if its them, they can do anything. with the shared knowledge of being aroace, they all also sort of feel more comfortable being openly affectionate, yknow? there's no risk of misinterpretation of intent- they love each other. they love each other in a way that they cannot describe and most people wouldn't understand. they are tied by their love of shows and their love of each other. emu is really physically affectionate and they all feel safe cuddling with her. rui lightheartedly flirts and half the time i dont think he even realizes he's doing it, the other half he's just trying to be silly. nene excels in the silent acts of love, making sure the stage is clean and there's always a few snacks backstage and honeslty just being there for everyone.
they have game night/sleepover every once in a while, usually during planning stages of shows. there's also a high likelyhood one goes to another's house at least once a week for some reason.
oh also they never do romance plays ever. it was a revelation tehy only came to after coming out. it just... never occured to them to do one. and now that they all know none of them can fall in love they actively try and avoid it. they've re-written fables to be about the power of friendship, or re-imagined the tale to the point romance wouldn't even be on anyone's mind. it's not a theme the audience ever picks up on, but at the same time they do? they don't realize the pattern but nobody ever comes out of a show with that interpretation. their shows are a hit every time, too. ("story" doesn't mean "romance", after all).
wonderlands x showtime isn't a romance. it's a love story.
#i LOVE aroace polyshow with all my heart#literally ask me anything about them and i will tell you they are just. mmmmm. theater kids in love none of them can fall in it.#ace answers an ask!
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Anyways so I saw Twisters today and it was AMAZING! I highly recommend it. It's very fun and if you love weather like me, it was very cool. Was also sad, (I cried a couple times) but that might just be me being an emotional bitch 😅.
I really like the twist (haha) and how it wasn't really like a SUPRISE thing (like it wasn't too hard to see coming, but if you didn't already have the inkling of it, it would be a real "ohhhh" moment) Will not spoil it here though, that is gonna be under a cut. Mostly I mentioned it here for the pun and I thought it was really good plot wise.
The actors were all amazing. I really hated the soundtrack I have to be honest. I mean I don't like pop country really and I find a lot of post 2000 country to be not my cup of tea, so that's probably why. I know a lot of people (allegedly) really liked the soundtrack though so dont like go into it thinking "oh this is gonna be a bad music experience", bc hey you might like it!
Anyway as a kid I always thought the original movie Twister was a horror movie, and this one WAS one for me GSGDGDGDGD I was like so fucking scared for most of it 😭 I have a horrible fear of tornados
I thought that it was a movie ab a tornado forming and like chasing this couple?? Like it would suck back into the sky and they're like "whew we're safe!" And it just spawns from the same storm cell again and again until it kills them 😭😭 idk why I thought that
I also thought that just watching it would summon one 😭 I really don't know why I thought that
I just remember anxiously staring at my grandmas vhs tape and being asked if I wanted to watch that and then crying "no no no!!!" Agsgdgdgdggdgdgdg
Anyway very very good movie, although some parts were sad, it was all in all a fun movie and a really cool action adventure type film. I'd say it lives up to the hype
Spoilers below:
Okay so the parts I cried at were: when the boyfriend got sucked away and how he died protecting her 😭
The flashback when she thinks he's in the bed with her saying "its okay, I got you"
The videotape he made in the barn REALLY made me cry
The part when the tornado hits at the rodeo, the part with the mom and the little girl. I was SURE that little girl was gonna die or that she somehow got sucked up and the mom didn't feel her absence (so fucking glad I was wrong oh my god)
The part where the movie theater roof flies off and the screen gets torn off and people got sucked out, and when Lily was almost sucked out. (My cheeks were CLENCHED)
I loved Avi's character change and how he left that dickhead in the storm (but far enough away from the tornado) to go help
Idk why but I wasn't expecting so much death? Like graphic death, even if you don't see the bodies, just knowing like "theres people in there" as the vehicles are sucked up made me SAD
I'm glad Ben put down the camera and went to help instead of being like "ah yes this will make good for my story!" And taking pics anyway. I liked that he wasn't like soley focused on his job, that he saw the team helping others and went to help
Also liked how the team was not only hugging Kate for stopping the tornado, but Avi as well. Like they just adopted him into the crew and were glad he was alive too.
Oh and the Twist was that Storm Par was the bad team and the Tornado Wranglers were the good guys. That they only sell the merch to be able to pay for supplies and food to be able to help the victims. That they weren't as they seemed to be. I thought that was really nice plot wise.
Anyways idk if I was crying bc of the emotional impact of the movie, or if it was like my fear of tornados and fear of that kind of damage happening to my family, or both. Like maybe it was both and the existing fear being amplified had heightened my emotional state and what everyone else saw as a bummer made me cry idk
Anyways I do wanna see it again sgdgdgdggdgd 9.5/10 (.5 taken off for the irritating soundtrack)
Edit: wait wait wait the dickhead (I dont remember his name, you know who I'm talking ab if you saw it) was in The Tin Man truck, the tin man was missing a heart. That dude was straight up heartless.
Avi and Kate were in the Lion truck, they both needed courage. Avi needed the courage to ditch Riggs and stop helping exploit people's tragedy for sponsor money. Kate needed courage to get back into storm chasing, to let go of her grief (or stop being afraid of it), to try her project again, AND the courage to trust Tyler and let him look at her plan.
Avi and Kate BOTH got their courage; Avi came back to help, Kate all the above.
Can't say the same for the Tin Man lmaoo
But also ... is that calling the Scarecrow brainless? Agfsfddg idr who was on that truck but 👀
AND Dorothy was the start of it all/ arguably brought them all together in the first place
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Random ooc post
Hello everyone, as we know I’d hate Gideon if I ever saw him irl and I’d 100% eat him for being rich.
I just really like his character…
Is he the best villain ever? No
Is the media he’s from flawed? Very much so
However, I really like the idea of him. The premise around scott pilgrim is really fun and I like it a lot, and I think the exes are a really good part of it!
Sure in the comics and movie they weren’t the biggest most fleshed out thing ever, but they’re still very fun to play with and I like their characters, even if we don’t see much of it
I don’t love Gideon, in fact I think he’s a “nice guy”
However he is still one of my favorites. He’s very fun to play, and I think he was really fun in the movie (even if I didn’t like the movie besides the jokes)
I’d beat him to death on sight for the kung pao chicken line. Won’t even make a justification there.
I know others don’t like it much, but I like how different he is in each media while still having the same Baseline.
Comics? I really like that version! It shows Gideon in his most deranged, and I think he has some pretty good lines + I like characters with a mysterious element
Movie? Like I said, far from my favorite, but Jasons performance was really good and he clearly had fun! I really only like the movie because you can tell everyone had a really fun time making it and obviously really loved their roles. I’m never excusing the lesphobia and racism though thats ew!!!
Spto? Its flawed, and the rose tinted goggles have fallen, but I still really like how Gideon was shown. I will admit, there were plot holes (like gideon having an act around julie, who was on his side) but I think its a great way to cast him aside and stop his yapping so others could finally have their time to shine. I think it was refreshing, and opened up a whole new view of how he acts (even if it was flawed). Also goosepowers. Im the number one goosepowers defender. LOOK AT ME. THEY WOULD HAVE BEEN AWESOME TOGETHER IN THE COMICS.
I do acknowledge that Bryan himself never seems to know Gideons character..but that makes it so much fun to run with! As long as you’ve got the basics, You could accurately portray Gideon (which btw im gonna rewatch spto and the later half of the movie so I can get back on track with him, as well as Matthew)
This is probably a total yapfest with no true rhyme or reason, but I just want this to be known.
I am 100% against this man. I will be the first to drag him actually, and if he was around irl I’d be trashing on him so unbelievably hard. However, he is a really fun role to play and I’m so glad the other Gideon blogs got me to really focus on him.
He’s one of my favs, but thats really only because of you guys. I love Matthew more than him but oh my god Gideon is SO fun to play. I feel like such a theater kid rn, but its true. A lot of the blogs are shitposts, and I’ve done some of that too, but I have put my heart and soul into this blog. I really like being up on stage for people to see! Every rp I do I think of everyone reading along, and I really hope I’ve done my job of entertaining and keeping it fun!
I can say the same for Matthew too, but I love him in a different way. Gideon is fun to play and I like characterizing him, but Matthew is just a TBH creature to me. I dont think i can explain it.
Anyways yapfest over bye bye!!
#I will be honest im just really jittery today and I wanna talk as much as possible#wanna get stuff off my mind yknow?#spto#spvtw#scott pilgrim#spvstw#gideon graves#scott pilgrim rp
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more general headcanons. take them in addition to my other ones.
my last headcanon post got a decent amount of attention so i thought i’d do it again :3 my brain is like. a factory that is constantly producing headcanons from machines it’s how i function
anyways most of these r about magenta because i’ve just been in a very magenta mood recently she’s so silly (i’m going feral why is she so PRETTY)
- brad played with dolls as a kid but his parents took them away when he got “too old” for it to be some cute quirk because a Man has to play with Trucks like a Man anyways he did play with Trucks like a Man but he never forgot how to do their hair so even now he can french braid the shit out of people’s hair, especially magentas hair because the dolls he had also had big poofy hair like hers so he’s used to that. however columbia is typically magentas french braiding person so when she saw her gf getting her hair braided by another man she was like “HOW DARE YOU WE ARE OVER” (as a joke obviously don’t fret)
- magenta can do the splits. idk. i just get that vibe and i’m right about everything soooooo /j
- columbia cannot maintain eye contact and magenta STARES and forgets to blink or look away so every time they talk it’s just
“👁���👁️”
“STOP”
- this is such a specific scenario but if they are shopping and come across a pillow they want to buy they give it the columbia test. what is the columbia test you might ask? they just get columbia to scream all of her pain and trauma into the pillow, and if the sound is muffled enough it is deemed worthy to purchase
- magenta just. brings random animals into the castle. and i’m not talking about “aww she like adopts cats a lot :3” no this bitch has brought in Raccoons from the Backyard and riff raff who is a paranoid ass mf is like “THAT THING HAS RABIES” and magentas like “LISTEN. HER NAME IS BEELZEBUB AND YOU WILL TREAT HER WITH RESPECT”
- why are all of these about magenta help
- speaking of magenta :3 she is a huge wes anderson fan and she and columbia watched isle of dogs together for a lil movie date and columbia sobbed during most of it 👍 she liked it though
-can we all agree that frank just. knows how to vogue. like bro came out of the womb knowing how to do that shit and it stuck with him for the rest of his life
-so i spent a really long time being stumped on how i think columbia would dress. like i have everyone else’s style figured out but i just couldn’t figure out hers for some reason,,,,, until i went down a rabbit hole and discovered cyndi lauper. i mean obviously i had listened to girls just wanna have fun and time after time but i has never actually seen this absolute icon. anyways i discovered her and her style during theater class one day and from then on i knew that columbia dresses like cyndi lauper, columbia listens to cyndi lauper, COLUMBIA IS CYNDI LAUPER
-ok so canonically i dont think this would happen but in my own version of rocky horror that exists in my brain magenta and brad are bffs. like yk those videos u see of “unlikely animal friendships” that is literally just them. it’s like goth gf x Some Guy™️ (x used platonically)
-brad is a die hard swiftie. i won’t elaborate.
-magenta loves loves LOVES abba
-sometimes i forget columbia isn’t canonically a theater kid. cuz like. she just Is a theater kid yk that’s who she is
- she would love grease
i will probably make another one of these posts when my list becomes longer again ‼️‼️
p.s i have. two rocky horror aus. would anyone like me to post about them. because i can. i am so normal about . aus
#rocky horror#rocky horror picture show#rhps#rocky horror au#frank n furter#brad majors#columbia rhps#magenta rhps
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Five nights at Freddy's movie review
Spoiler free version:
I finally saw the FNaF movie (since it premiered here like a week later) and I really wanna talk about it.
It was fun. It's its own story that has some similarities to the games but it works well on its own which is a good thing imo.
It has a good pacing and I didn't get bored.
There are bunch of hints and easter eggs in reference to the games, like a guy is wearing a Midnight Motorist sweater or a dinner is named after Sparky the Dog, a hoax in early fnaf days.
It has violence but it's not too gory, most stuff happens off screen or in shadows.
I also liked the final solution, it was well established.
I do have 2 complains
1. I think most relationships needed more establishment.
2. One character kinda confuses me on their motive.
Overall I'd give it 4/5, though you'll get more of it if you're a fnaf fan.
And some tips. Watch it at home if you can or pick a later date. The movie theater was crowded and I think it hindered my enjoyment.
When you see Sparky's diner, pay attention to the waiter. You won't regret it.
And wait till the end of all credits.
Spoiler review under the cut
I think Mike and Abby needed a bit more time together or thinking of each other to make the scene where Mike realizes how much she means to him more impactful.
I feel like we were told rather shown she likes her brother.
Same goes for relationship between her and aunt Jane. We're told once she doesn't like her but it isn't enough to make her turn on Mike believable to me.
And finally Vanessa and William. The ending implies she's scared of him but we never are shown why.
This segways nicely into my other complain. Vanessa feels inconsistent. She starts out as a friendly police officer who knows tad too much about Freddy's and is revealed to be William's daughter.
What I got is that she vaguely warns the guards of the danger but doesn't tell them what it is. When the animatronics are friendly, she just let's Mike and Abby vibe there but when she learns Mike used Abby to get info on Garrett's kidnapper (her dad) she forbids him from taking Abby there ever again. I'm guessing this is to protect her dad.
But I think we should have had a flashback to her childhood and maybe a scene where she's terrified of going to the pizzeria but the she sees a drawing of Mike and Abby a decides to help.
But enough about stuff I didn't like and more about stuff I loved, in no particular order.
Actors are all really great and they did a fantastic job.
The opening credits are in style of old arcade games, just like in fnaf 2. It genuinely made me so happy to see it.
The cupcake mauling a man was both hilarious and terrifying. You go Carl!
The animatronics are all really expressive, especially Chica, when she smuggly sends Carl the Cupcake to murder a man or when she winks at Mike. Or when Freddy was looking for Mike and tilting his head as if he were listening.
I almost missed MatPat's cameo. I was like: "I know that voice! But from where?" And then he said: "It's just a theory!" and I almost screamed.
I love that the kids have some significance. Even if they dont have names, they still have more to do than they ever did in the games.
Also, it's exactly 5 nights at Freddy's.
1 - Mike arrives and sees the Missing kids for the first time.
2 - Mike gets scratched by Foxy and Vannesa shows up to info dump.
3 - since Max is dead, Mike takes Abby there for the first time. He cleans up the place and Abby meets her friends.
4 - Mike takes Abby there a second time, Vannesa shows up, they build a Fort and Vannessa gets mad.
5 - Mike goes there alone and the movie finale happens.
I noticed the trailer was insanely misleading. Vanessa ends up in the hospital at the end of the movie, but the trailer made it seem it happens somewhere in the middle.
CoryXKenshin cameo was awesome.
The ending credits song is Five Nights at Freddy's by TLT. Woho!!!
And after all the credits roll, we get a few letters spelling out "FIND ME" like in SAVE HIM minigame from fnaf 2.
Theories:
I wonder what happened to Garrett. Is he fully dead? Or is he possessing something, like the puppet?
I hope the next movie is a prequel, maybe told retrospectively by Vanessa while some stuff happens in the present. And the third movie can be a sequel, maybe with older Abby being a guard herself.
#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#fnaf movie#fnaf movie review#michael schmidt#abby schmidt#william afton#vanessa shelly
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dirk
dave
vriska
roxy
the signless
haha Uh Oh. this is gonna be long. putting it under a cut.
this is the post in question. putting for reference (so i dont have to flip between this and my gallery a bunch)
also this post will be a formatting mess. be warned.
dirk:
fave thing about them? idk really. dirk is my favorite character. actually? probably design. yeah i like his design :)
least favorite thing? uhhh hm. idk this question is gonna be tough every time. i have a hard time picking least favorites. wait no i got this one. hes kinda relatable :/
favorite line? also a tough question. theres a lot of good ones. i think "2024. The last free election the world would ever see." is up there though
idk what a brotp is. cant risk swapping apps and losing the whole post so this question will be skipped.
otp? i like dirkjake. they have such a Dynamic (most of the shipping ones are gonna have pretty milquetoast answers. i dont do a lot of shipping really)
notp? uhhh idk dude idrc
random headcanon? um. hmm. he would enjoy heathers the musical i think
unpopular opinion? i dont know whats popular really sorry guys :/// this is gonna be a common answer for this question.
song associated? oh no by marina. (unknown if diamonds are included. im dumb) it has the vibes i guess
fave picture?
i turned it into an emoji on my discord server. extremely usable 10/10 would recommend
dave:
fave thing? i also like his design. favorites are reeeeally hard though so idk
least fave thing? uhm. difficult again. cant answer :/ ohhh wait hes kinda relatable too :///
favorite line? the jupiter thing from act 1. really funny and also referenceable
brotp skipped
otp? i like davekat. boring i know, but again, dynamics good :thumbsup: also its funny
notp skipped too
headcanon? he would like hamilton. lots of musical theater headcanons here but its like one of five things i think about so :/ sorry
opinon skipped
song? telekinesis by lemon demon. it just feels right
picture?
good panel
vriska:
fave thing? i like her design too
least fave thing? i dont like her. just in general. but i get why people do like her. i get it i just dont that much. she does have the Complex Character Appeal, however.
fave line? uhm uh uhh hm. i dunno guys
brotp skipped
otp? vrisrezi as a Fucked Up Messy Relationship. they are messed up
notp? idk again
headcanon? if she were a human highschooler shed be one of those asshole drama kids. as opposed to the normal ones. i think that makes sense? idk i can picture the type of person in my mind
song? world burn from mean girls i guess idk
picture?
no caption necessary. its just funny
roxy:
fave thing? at this point everyone knows im a sucker for a good design. which she has.
least fave thing? i still cannot answer these questions properly. i think i know the reason now too. i think most things that could qualify for like.. a "bad trait" to me just makes them more interesting, so i dont count it as a negative. huh. not really related to roxy though i just wanted to write that down
favorite line? the miss zuipperpips bit maybe? i dunno its late and my computer is dead and i cant risk swapping apps :( sorry :(
brotp skipped again :pensive:
otp? okay i like callierox. plus john. i think thats fun (not sure about what the ship name for the three of them is tho)
notp? time to say that i only kind of half knoe what a notp is anyway. anyway idk again
headcanon? she would enjoy wings of fire. terezi would too but this isnt about her
song? fine by lemon demon. its fun! it has roxy vibes to me. maybe not the best candidate, but i cant check my playlists rn either :(
opinion skipped so much that i put it in the wrong spot
picture?
party hat roxy!!!! woo!!
the signless:
fave thing? idk i dont really think about the ancestors that much. design ig
least fave thing? again nothing to report.
fave line? does he have any????
brotp, otp, and notp skipped because i have no opinions
headcanon? idk if he read warriors i think he would have mixed feelings about moth flight.
song? idk i dont have a playlist for him
opinion skipped
picture?
we are going to beat you to death
ANYWAY. TO WRAP UP THIS POST:
congrats on making it all the way through. you get a little gold star sticker. good job.
i love receiving asks! keep it up. this did take a long time to write though because: 1. i am Bad at Formatting and 2. Typing on Mobile is Hard. (also 3. It was Bedtime and I Couldn't Use my Computer)
thanks for the ask!!
#moon yaps#LITERALLY SO MUCH#asks#hope i didnt end up with biased answers or anything. i am 15 and stupid so :/ idk#this was fun to write though yayyyyy
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Hiii me again. I failed economics but i think i can get my grade up
Anywho, how are you?? Im great, working on another fic, even though the others still arent finished,,,,,,i am almost finished w this one tho. It deals w some darker themes later, but that's only because there's a super fancy rich people only school involved. Major downside, i dont know anything abt universities! Do they teach theather and robotics in the same place?? They should, i think it could lead to some great innovations. Hamilton but w roombas.
Happy to report that Spider only gets tortured once this time! And also hes not w quaritch or the recoms most of the time but whether or not thats a good thing is up for debate. Also reporting that chapter 3 of ghost spider is coming along and boy oh boy is spider being spooky!
Anyhow, see ya on the next chapter!!
HI BESTIE! You definitely can, please don't stress. I failed a class in college after I first transferred, you can really get past it! It happens to more people than you'd think, it's hard!
I'm so good thank you for asking, just exhausted from my move and all my unpacking, and I'm excited to be done with unpacking and have time to invest into my work and you guys again!
I'm very intrigued by this fic idea!! It depends on the school, but most big ones definitely teach both those things but they'd likely be in different buildings. In my experience, it means that the robotics will be in a state of the art new building and theater will be in the shittiest, oldest building you've ever laid eyes on. This was true at both my colleges.
Great, I am reaching a level of insanity with Spider angst. I'm gonna have to start pumping out positive Spider headcanons, I can't handle it. Even if we create an angsty au, just know I'm sure that it can be fixed and the comfort will be insane and that's why I'm entertaining it. Guys, I literally think we can come back from the nocorro ghost au just trust me on this one. I know it might not happen in your fic but I think it can happen!!
Also it's not up for debate, fuck those hoes. I refuse to believe they would be a good time even a little bit. Their idea of fun is who can kidnap the most innocent children the fastest.
I will see you there and I will be FERAL in the comments, babe.
#love this ask just checking in and updating me on your life it made me smile so hard when i got it#and i was busy as shit at the time#miles spider socorro#spider socorro#neteyam sully#nocorro#miles quaritch#recoms#avatar#avatar the way of water#james cameron avatar#melissa's asks#melissa on avatar (cameron)
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U HAVE BEEN HOLDIN OUT ON VOX AND VAL FICS SINCE 2021???????!!????!?? 😭😭
Vox and Val concepts, but lmao yeah 🤣 although if you want me to be blunt anything with Vox in it was saved real short. the tricky thing is like, for one I actually haven't done any "research" on Vox like for Val so I don't have a good grip on his personality besides "cocky smug little shit who has a soft spot for his friends/shark and is kind of a dweeb who wears like Hawaiian shirts and a baseball cap on dates with his boyfriend"
Tbh there's a LOT of drafts for Val but not much for Vox, however there is that one idea I actually drew fanart for and posted about where "Reader meets Val and Vox by chance in a club, they develop a rapport, keep bumping into each other in public, the duo eventually finds out you're dating Alastor (and not entirely happy about it) and steals you away".
Tbh I really like the idea of Reader hanging out with Val and Vox like a dozen times and you idly mention your boyfriend now and then and they're on the downlow about being jealous as fuck and wanting to know who the bastard is.
"Oh yeah sorry I missed you guys the other night, I had a date with my boyfriend, he wanted to go to the theater"
"Ugh, gosh I'd drink if I could but my boyfriend is mad I keep coming home hung over"
"Ha, yeah, my boyfriend hates this stuff, I can't bring this back home if I wanted to"
Eventually one night the two Overlords bump into you after youve been lowkey ghosting them and you seem really quiet and stressed out and drinking a lot and say Vox says something like "what, your shit boyfriend want you home early again tonight?"
"Fiance"
"...What?"
"Fiance. He wants to get married, um, as soon as possible"
Vox and Valentino just gritting their teeth as you start listing some of the more personal details you never let loose before. You don't have a TV at home or any electronic devices besides your phone because 'he absolutely hates technology and has some weird hatred of monitors'. He doesn't like you drinking to get drunk and he bans anything more "recreational" than liquor which is why you're always bumming/buying weed off of Vox.
And I imagine at some point in the conversation you finally slip up. "I mean I know all relationships have difficulties but Alastor just-"
"The fuck you mean, 'Alastor'? The RADIO DEMON 'Alastor'? You're dating HIM?" And its obvious you were keeping it a secret because you wanted your new friends to like you and you're tearing up the second they're showing any signs of anger (even though it's at Al, not you) and I imagine they say some bullshit like "well hey if he won't let you party anymore, let's make tonight one big celebration, just one last time" segue into them pushing drinks and drugs at you until you either pass out or get roofied and, boom youre waking up in a room you dont recognize. Like, I imagine waking up in their bed, your eyes pop open and you turn and see one of them and jerk back, not realizing you're between both of them so you basically bump into the other, and the one you bump into is very loud and obnoxious, "what the fuck Val, what's your fucking--" and then both of them are waking up and you're checking your phone and you have countless missed calls and texts from Alastor and he HATES using anything other than a rotary phone so you KNOW he's furious
for some reason you have all these phone notifications for Voxtagram/Sinstagram/whatever they've named it now and you open it and. Oh no what did they do. Both Vox and Val had posted pictures online, ones of them and YOU, different kinds of photos. You three throwing drinks back, you and Vox shoulder to shoulder on your phones, you looking absolutely flustered beyond belief as Valentino seems to be saying something to you with the biggest most flirtatious smirk on his face, with some of the last photos including, oh god, both of them had uploaded different versions of making it EXTREMELY obvious they took you home for some fun. I can see Valentino blatantly fucking uploading a picture of like, he's got Vox on one side, you on the other, both of you passed out and here's Val "best way to end a night is to fuck the hos to sleep 🍆💦😴 #bejealous #pimplife #allnightfuckmarathon" and properly just straight up tags your profile too.
You're just frantic, "OH MY GOD WHAT DID YOU DO AL'S GOING TO KILL ME" and rushing to put your clothes back on and both of them are either like "you're going back to him????" And are angry, OR, act suspiciously unfazed, almost as if they know for an absolute fact that you won't be able to go anywhere...
#yandere stuff#sinprompts#ughhhhhh they would both be clingy in different ways#vox is possessive bc youre also or at least was his friend and has similar interests. and vals posessive bc hes daddy obviously cbdkdnfj
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Tw: vent, Sa
Lol. Yap sesh.
Im feeling. Not great again. These feeling are always at the top of my head, I haven't had a moment of peace in the past three weeks. I can't enjoy a time of hanging out with anyone or talking with anyone without thinking of it. So uh, just gonna.. yap here about it. Its hard to talk to any irls about it and i dont wanna annoy my discord pals w more yapping bout this topic
Silly anim becuz. I dont know. I needed to create something.
When i was younger, about 8 or 7 or. Or. Or. I dont remembwr any more. I cant fucking remember. I had a babysitter, his name was. Dumb to me, i guess. John or whatevwr. I only remembwr personal details like that because of his sister, she had the same name as the person who used to be my best friend so i got really easily attached. She was. The one who taught me how to shuffle a deck of cards lol
I remember John bringing me upstairs one day
Its all. Gone. I only remember a few things and i hate thqt. I need to remember, but i dont know how.
"Youre so beutiful!" "Do you have any friends at school?" eh.. not really, ahah.. "I can be your friend!"
"Do you know what sex is?"
"Do you want to try?"
"Its our secret"
"You cant tell your mom or dad."
God. Fuck. Oh my god. Why did i have to be so stupid? What in my stupid little dumb brain saif it would be a good idea?
I didnt know what sex was at thw time. After some years, my parwnts had "the talk" with me.
it all clicked.
i needed to tell them.
i HAD to.
But, i needed the right time.
So i waited,
And waited,
And waited,
I cant remembwr how much time had passed. But, i do remember the sinking feeling of my chest every day. Guilt was building. What if it was too late? What would happen if i told them?
One day, they were coming home
I told them i needed to talk to thwm.
And talk we did
I dont remember anything from that day to thw first day i went to the people who were supposed to help
I rememeber the yellow room, the oneway mirror they hid behind, i remember the little bag they gave me.I still have the pretty blue quilt in my bedroom, laying on my messy floor among a buncha papers.
I was so 'brave'. Apparently though, it wasnt enough.
I recently had a breakdown where i cried at a theater rehearsel, and my dad came to pick me up. He was so mad at me. I couldnt tell him qhat was wrong, i was still crying and my younger sibling was RIGHT thwre. Eventually, he told her to get in the car. Lucky me.
I told him why i had the 'breakdown', and he told me that. The guy was never arrested. Fun. Thats fun. My dad comforted me and made up a lie to tell my siblings, and we went to get some food to cheer me up.
It was. Scary. I feel so bad, I couldnt say enough and that man is still out there. Its my fault. I dont know how to fix myself and just let myself forget. I guess im just gonna be like this forevwr.
I can never experiance a happy moment without thinking about what happened.
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Prompt requests I see +v+
Hm... FumiIyo go to the movies.
ok i still dont know how to write romance so bare with me here lol, also posting this to my drabbles fic
“Well it looks like we’re done with work for today.” Iyozane said, it had been a rather busy day at Fumikado’s office.
“Augh, finally! Who knew running for office would take so much work anyways?” Fumikado said with a rather dramatic tone.
“What’d ya think you were getting into anyways?” Tsugumi sarcastically replied.
“I didn’t think it’d take this much paperwork.” Fumikado said.
“Why don’t we do something fun then?” Iyozane suggested, “It is a bit late but I’m sure we can think of something.”
“Hmm, maybe go to that restaurant downtown?” Fumikado suggested.
“I donno, I’m not really hungry.” Tsugumi said, “Unless you two are?”
“Mm, no I’m not actually hungry now that I think about it.” Fumikado replied.
“Wait, if you’re not hungry then why did you even suggest it?” Iyozane asked. “Oh whatever, what about a movie or something? I don’t know what they have at the theater but I’m sure they’ll have something interesting playing.”
“I don’t see why not.” Tsugumi said.
“Well it’s settled then, we're going to the movies!” Fumikado said cheerfully.
They were in the theater lobby looking at the list of movies they were going to play, there weren’t many movies playing at this hour of night, however.
“Hmm, what do you think about ‘Horror of the BatWolf’?” Iyozane asked.
“It’s probably some old cheesy horror movie, I mean it has horror in that name!” Fumikado said.
“Well no duh it’s a horror movie, but it’s probably better than whatever ‘Spacetime Shenanigans’ is.” Tsugumi said, “Actually look at the time on that it looks like it's five hours long? How do you even make a movie that long?”
“Oh damn you’re right. Well, I guess you never know what’ll happen when it comes to movies.” Iyozane said.
“Guys the batwolf movie starts in like ten minutes, let's get our tickets already!” Fumikado urged them to get a move on.
It didn’t take long for the movie to start playing once they got to their seats, there weren’t many people there as to be expected for a movie playing this late. Even though they were cutting it close already they did want to get some popcorn before the movie started. Iyozane was tasked with being the popcorn holder as they had sat in between Fumikado and Tsugumi. The movie finally began, and it certainly wasn’t what they expected. The first half of the movie was your run of the mill monster movie, there was a werewolf and a vampire tormenting the cast of run of the mill horror movie teens. But the second half of the movie is where things got interesting, the one remaining teen started to have some sort of romantic tension between both the werewolf and the vampire at different points in the movie.
“What the hell is going on?” Fumikado whispered to Iyozane.
“Honestly, I have no idea.” Iyozane chuckled. Tsugumi had taken the bag of popcorn at this point and wasn’t sharing any of it but the other two either didn’t notice or were so engrossed in the movie that they didn’t care.
At the end of the movie right as it seemed like the protagonist was going to have to decide between the werewolf and the vampire it’s revealed that the two monsters were actually one in the same! Who could have guessed this twist?
“What ‘n tarnation is going on in this movie?” Tsugumi said bewilderedly.
“They were the same person-monster-thing the whole time??” Fumikado said sharing the same sentiment as Tsugumi.
“Why did they get together anyways?” Iyozane asked the only reasonable question at this point.
The three of them left the theater way more confused than they could have anticipated. Fumikado and Iyozane looked at each other and just started laughing at the absurdity of the movie they’d just watched.
“I mean, hehe, if you wanted, keheheh, I could be your bat-wolf-monster thing.” Fumikado said.
“No...” Tsugumi didn’t like where this was heading.
“Oh sure, eheh, as long as you-” Iyozane was cut off.
“Oh, no no no, I am not dealin’ with you two.” Tsugumi said before they left.
The two of them weren’t really sure what to say next.
Fumikado was the first to speak up, “So uhh, you wanna go to my place or..?”
“Sure, you know I’d love to.”
“Great!” The two of them left after that and continued the night at Fumikado’s house.
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