(I'm pretty sure you've seen me spam your notifs I'M NOT STALKING I SWEAR I JUST LOVE YOUR WORKS!!! But I just want to ask)
You're CLEARLY underrated and some of your posts from vent arts said you don't care about relevancy. How do you do that? How do you manage as an artist?
anon thats so.. wow AHHAHAHA anyway-
As I mentioned for a billionth time, I've BURNT OUT ENOUGH.
I'm in-and-out in burnout, recovering from it is always a challenge but there are always lessons from it...
Before, I had always felt inferior even at a young age because I'm the type to have something- but never was acknowledged for it. Life revolved around what others think/what others have and it fed envy so much.
I had tried to keep up with an insane pace, and tried to stay perfect, tried to squeeze out affirmations, like a competition. The toxic part of it is being two-faced with other people's accomplishments/work.
And always feeling, so, so, disappointed that you expect nothing but that: Dissatisfied. It gets tiring, from the feeling of being envious to self-hatred to depression.
2022 and I realized a lot about inferiority. College already greets you with a variety of skillful people, so what will happen if you start working in the creative industry itself?
I degraded, so so much. To a point, I almost gave up on passion and myself. But I kept clinging. I didn't want to be stuck feeling that way with others. Rather, I started to appreciate and be more grateful for the things/reasons that kept me going in the first place, while kinder to others.
This 2024, I learned how to let go of what weighs me and restricts me from doing what I like: drawing/creating. I stopped caring about numbers/count, I don't care who sees them, I don't care if others may think badly of it. I am honest with myself and my work while being open-minded to perception.
I LOVE and APPRECIATE those who stay as a fellow audience that enjoys the same thing or whatever! I LOVE learning from other people who are more knowledgeable/skillful than me. I LOVE any advice/lessons I get from others. Loved and applied them!
I stopped wallowing in self-pity and just went: nah I'D WIN.
Mentioning this again, pain is where I strive best because it's what I was accustomed to. I learned grit from clinging to the tiniest spark of hope to battle negative thoughts and just kept going.
And until this day, I'm really grateful I'm still here. I can never get anywhere without any of you, and many other reasons I stay determined.
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the movies truly didn't do the King of the Golden Hall chapter justice. Where's Háma panicking when Legolas tells him his bow was a gift from Galadriel and trying to touch it as little as possible. Where's Gandalf scolding Aragorn when he gets defensive about handing Andúril over to Háma only to immediately do the same thing when he's asked to hand over his staff. Where's Théoden complaining about Gandalf stealing Shadowfax and telling Gandalf that he didn't mourn him when he heard news of his death. Where's Gríma calling the Hunters dirty beggers and accusing Gandalf of being a meddling vulture. Where's Gandalf freestyling about Galadriel before striking Gríma with lightning because he implied she was a liar. Where's Gríma lying prone on the floor while everyone walks into the light without him. Remember what they took from us
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At this point, the moment any group claiming to be Christian (or to have Christian interests in mind) loses compassion for their enemies, they've lost any allegiance they might have gained from me.
We bear the Name and face of a God who looked on those who beat Him, spat at Him, screamed abuse at Him, and murdered Him, and He still said, "Forgive them, Father, for they know not what they do."
If we do not want mercy for even our enemies, we cannot claim we are following Christ anymore.
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I would love to encourage more people to read the 18th-19th century Ulster Cycle tales so they can enjoy Baby Cú Chulainn with me. Unfortunately they only exist in out-of-print 1940s/1950s editions (with no translation) that are, as far as I can tell, completely unobtainable outside of a select handful of university libraries, and even there, they're often in Special Collections. And even if you track them down, you still have to read 18th century Irish, which is... a headache.
However, everyone should read Tóruigheacht Gruaidhe Griansholus, which does have a translation, and is available online. Story-wise it's the best of them anyway, although Cú Chulainn is 15 and therefore not at Maximum Baby.
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