#this was also from a few months ago so thats why the style’s different haha

[kathairoette]

Only happiness can await after grief, right?

(The concept’s a simple “what-if” AU, where Yuugi didn’t quite succeed in getting over his grief, so upon Atem’s return, becomes only Slightly unhinged about their relationship going forward. Atem though is too happy about being back to notice, leading to an odd, push-pull relationship that is could only be called “love”… right?)

[frienderbender]

hey frienderbender is it ok to ask for some lore/information on your magpickles 🥺 I’m very invested in those goods ( off the topic but can I just say I am in LOVE with the way you draw Skwisgaar my heart is just fluttering to fast when I see him 🥺💞 Anyways muah you’re wonderful artist thank you have a lovely day/evening )

oh sure! first off thank you so much for the sweet message! that made my night :'] i love drawing skwisgaar and im glad you like how he looks in my style haha

anyways im assuming youre talking about my general lore for them in the canon timeline, so ill talk about that under the cut

i think they first met some time in the late 80s while pickles was still with snb. they met after a show specifically. magnus introduced himself as a fan, and that was true! but (quick tangent for some general mag thoughts) it brings up something that ive always thought about when i look at mag. magnus definitely gives off the vibe of being the guy who was always just Around in the music scene, especially in the rock and metal scene of this era. like, hes a mysterious dude but he has connections. he will play with random bands sometimes. he knows so many fucking people in this industry (not saying hes friends with all of them though); what im trying to say is. Everyone Has A Magnus Hammersmith Story. hes the type of guy that gets talked about in podcasts decades down the line. ok all that to say he was able to get backstage because he just Knows People. and he introduces himself as a fan blah blah pickles and magnus drink and do some drugs and honestly i wouldnt be surprised if they at the very least made out with each other the first night they met.

so pickles is like, pretty into him right off the bat. magnus was too, but i think on his end INITIALLY he was more just interested in hooking up but they exchange info and keep in touch and all that. so. this is RIGHT before snb implodes. and theyre still meeting up fairly regularly and becoming closer and doing a lot of drugs and drinking a bunch. typical rockstar stuff.

but pickles had been on a steady downward spiral at this point (he was already like this before he met magnus), and in one night snb is no more. having burned all those bridges in his band (for now), pickles turns to his only friend left: magnus. and i think its at this point, when pickles comes to him, wrecked by the dissolution of his band, that magnus kinda starts to realize he might actually feel something for him too? seeing him like this, seeing pickles from fucking snakes n barrels, so raw and real and not at all like the fiery redhead he met that night after their show...it just feels different somehow. like yeah he was attracted to pickles from snakes n barrels, but he realized he had grown to care about pickles from tomahawk wisconsin. he liked that one better, there was no bullshit. no hiding beneath layers of glam makeup and hairspray.

so its the two of them against the world. its the early 90s at this point. on a whim, pickles decides they should leave LA and just drive. wherever. just away from the city because LA fucking sucks. he takes all his money and he and magnus get in his car and just start driving. they end up in florida eventually, because its the other side of the country. or something. they get an apartment, and for a couple of months they live together and its. kinda nice. its different, for sure. but not bad. magnus and pickles both always kinda skirted around the topic of their relationship. they never called the other their boyfriend. but i feel strongly that they did tell each other that they loved the other, once. and they meant it.

so heres where things get tricky for me. how did dethklok form? what was the order? who met who first? i dont know!! i wish i knew! its something i have a million scenarios for and i wish we got a canon order of the members joining at the very least so i can model my headcanons around it haha

with that in mind though, i do think magnus and pickles were a bit of a package deal. like, whoever joined first was able to get the other in. so. yeah. they joined dethklok some time in the early to mid 90s now.

they have a pretty decent few years. theyre still.......something....even in their new band. like they arent open about it and hook up when the other guys arent around and all that.

its around this time though that i think magnus is really starting to go through it. combination of feeling frustrated because of the bands status at this point, general untreated mental health, etc. anyways i think the stabbing incident occurred some time in the mid 90s, probably like '95 or '96 or something. so.....he gets kicked out. obviously. and those are the terms they end on for awhile.........

but uh. you see. pickles never completely cut ties with the dude because. well. what do you do when this happens to someone you care so deeply about. and i think probably a month or so later, magnus actually contacts him for the first time since the stabbing incident. and maybe i have a comic script and thumbnails about this encounter what about it. magnus tells him he wants to see him, so pickles slips out that night to meet up at an old bar they used to go to a lot. may or may not be the depths of humanity uhhh anyway. theyre talking for awhile but it just kinda devolves into honestly more one-sided arguing on pickles end. hes frustrated and sad and confused because fuck! magnus! why would you do that? why, when the bands just starting to take off? it becomes this whole like. you arent the same guy i knew. and in that moment it quietly hits them both that like. we arent who we were, and we dont know what to do about that. magnus asks if pickles would want to join him and leave the band, and pickles tells him to go fuck himself. and thats the last thing he ever said to him.

and thats where the magpickles lore/relationship timeline ends. i realize it really did kinda turn into a timeline but also i did write a timeline during a slow day at work once like two months ago but. anyways. this is basically that.

but uh. yes. i love them. they make me sad but in a good way yknow. its like. its one of those situations where i feel like under different circumstances, they probably couldve made it work in their own weird way. they have such a specific dynamic, whether in their background together in the canon timeline or just me fucking around with AUs and being like hmm what if i actually gave them a scenario where they could have the time to develop AS an actual couple. im rambling but i just love these two so much. this is so long.

i feel strongly they wouldnt get back together in any sort of canon capacity, but i do think they still have feelings for each other in that way you do when you remember people you loved in the past. old friendships that dissolved with no resolution. the person you still have things you want to tell them, even though you know you will never get the chance.

[jaehyunspeachparty]

daddy jaehyun

ii.iv. (m)

warnings: smut  wc: 3.247  a/n: okay this one is a little bit longer - again. Thats the reason why it takes so long. But now you have the update of the series aaaand it’s full of smut haha sorry not sorry ;)

Daddy Jaehyun Masterlist

"He has never really had the bottle. It could be that he will not sleep." You stood between door and corridor and just could not go. Jaehyun was already at the lift and rolled his eyes. "We also want to have a child soon, we have to get used to it anyway." Johnny and his girlfriend, with whom he has just moved together in a new apartment nearby, took care of Miga and Sunoh this night. Since you have had a second child, Johnny is completely in baby fever and now wants to become a father too. "And Miga can may be acting bitchy, especially when Sunho is whining." Somehow you could not quite tear yourself away. It would be the first night you will spend without your two children. "We'll do it, you really don’t need to worry." Johnny tries to calm you down and leans against the door. "Come on Y/N, the elevator is already here." Jaehyun called this to you and you finally take a step out of the apartment. "If anything happens, call me immediately." You look desperately into the room again, but then Johnny closed the door. A little sad, you go to your husband, who was finally able to get in the elevator. "Everything will be fine." Jaehyun took you in the arms and kissed your hair. "I know, but Sunho is still so small." You never thought that you would ever belong to the women who can’t live without their children. But after all, Sunho was only a few weeks old and only lived from your breasts. "You are no longer in puerperium and today is our anniversary. Let's just enjoy this night." Jaehyun was right. Everything has been all about your kids lately. Now it was time to take care of your relationship. For two weeks you already had the okay of your doctor that you can have sex again. Everything had formed back to normal. But your body has not been ready for sex until now, as you still felt a little bit of sore. But now you take the birth control pill again and slowly feel better in your body too. It was the perfect evening for it today. Jaehyun has reserved a table in a nice restaurant and then a suite in one of the best hotels in Seoul. He had really worked hard and you were very impressed. But you still could not switch off, the topic of your children at the dinner. You always have to think about Sunoh and Miga. "And on Wednesday we have to go to the paediatrician, because he gets a few more vaccinations. I hope it does not scare him." "Y/N, he is two months old, he will not remember." Jaehyun sighed and watched as you poke around in your salad. "Yes, but he is still so fragile." Now it was you who sighed and you take a bite. "You know I love our children, they are really wonderful. But can we forget today that we are parents?" Jaehyun looked at you with his dark brown eyes and put his hand on yours. He was right, because once again you had only thought of your duties as a mother. "I'm sorry, I don’t know why I suck on leaving the kids behind." You look up to your husband and smile slightly. "Because you are a good mother." It was a compliment that meant a lot to you and made you all red in the face. You were glad that Jaehyun saw everything so easily. "By the way, Johnny wants to propose his girlfriend next week." Jaehyun took a sip of his wine as he told you the news. "It's all very fast or?" A few months ago, Johnny was back in Chicago. Then he met his old childhood sweetheart and they fell in love again. She came to Seoul for a few weeks and now 4 months later they want to marry and have children. "I know, but I trust Johnny. He knows exactly what he's doing, and then somebody else is finally going to be a father too." You laugh and order, then another round. And you two done something this evening that you have not done in a long time - just talking about friends and about yourself.

After the meal, Jaehyun immediately took the hotel room key. Slowly you got nervous, but it was all so exciting. It was so long ago that you had sex and after the birth is the first time more difficult. After the birth of Miga, you had no idea that the first sex after would be so painful. You went to the thing pretty blue-eyed. But now you knew that it would not be so easy and that made you nervous. Many questions went through your head and your insecurity got bigger and bigger. When Jaehyun got the key, he came right to you. He looked unbelievably good that evening. He wore a black suit with a white shirt. His hair was styled backwards and black, with hardly comebacks lately, he didn’t have to dye them that often. "The suite is ready for us." He lifted the key card in the air. You smile and give him a kiss and when you wanted to break away from him, he did not let you go. "I hope you know you're driving me crazy with your dress." He whispers this in your ear and grabbed into your ass. You briefly gasp and look at him with wide eyes. It was all as intense and it felt as if you were alone in the hotel. You were sure people saw you, but you did not care. You just wanted to keep Jaehyun as close to you as possible. He smelled so good and his lips tasted incredible. Jaehyn called for the lift without letting you go. He pressed his lips on yours and his tongue played its own game in your mouth. When the elevator was there, he didn’t stop for a second and pushed you inside and against the wall. "Look what you do to me." He took your hand and put it in his crotch. You feel how his length was really hard and you start stroking over his bump. Jaehyun suppressed his moan as he devoted himself to kissing your neck. Goosebumps arose and your breaths grew louder. But then it rang, and you arrived on the top floor. Jaehyun took the key card, unlocked the door and opened his pants and that’s all between your kisses. You still could not see much of the suite, except that it was huge and all glazed. But before you could examine it further, Jaehyun already pulled you again to his body and distributed greedy other kisses on your neck. You reach back to his bump and rub over the fabric of his underpants. Jaehyun groaned again, but this time it was different. "Wait ... Stop ... fuck ..." And at that moment it was actually too late. You feel something wet and see how Jaehyun’s body twitched. "Did you cum?" It was very untypical for him, because otherwise he always had himself well under control. "Shit…yes." Somehow he was embarrassed. He ran his hand through his hair and his ears went red. "I mean, we probably had no sex for three months and you look so incredible good. I think I just could not wait for this here today." He broke away from you and looked ashamed to the ground. "I take that as a compliment. I mean, you still find me attractive after two children. You're surrounded by so many idols, stars and good-looking people. I'm just standard…a simple girl." Now it was you who looked down and Jaehyun was shook. "Do you really think so?" He came to you again and raised your chin with his index finger and thumb. "Do you think I'm so superficial that I'm just blinded by looks, do you think that of me?" Jaehyun looked deep into your eyes and you were completely frozen. He was right, but so much was going on in your body that he would never understand your thoughts. "I don’t want to blame you. Only, you must understand it best. If you're surrounded by beautiful people all the time, that you're under pressure yourself, and in addition to that, after just two kids, my body is just a bit deformed and I thus have another vulnerability. " Tears gathered in your eyelids and you knew it was just the hormones that made you so sad. "Hmm ... okay, I can understand it somehow. But I don’t think like that. I don’t care about the others, okay? It's just important to me that you know that you are the most beautiful woman of the world to me and that I really love you." "I love you too." You lean you head more to him and give him a soft kiss. It was good that you talked about it. After the whole thing with his ex-girlfriend Suji, who works with him again in the company, it builds up a lot of thoughts inside you. "Come, I'll make you feel good." He took your hand and led you to the bed.

His lips were back on your neck and with his figurines he reached for the zipper of your dress. You got cold for a moment when he pulled the fabric over your shoulders. Although his touch was not new to you, your body was filled with excitement. For a long time, you have not had this time for each other, just to touch you. Jaehyun started everything very slowly. He took off your dress very carefully and spread a trail of kisses over the places where your skin was covered with the fabric before. When he took off your bra, he began to groan. You never liked your breasts when you were breastfeeding, because they were always very blue because of the big veins. But Jaehyun just only saw that they were big and plump. He begins to stroke the outside of your breasts. With a flat hand he started to massage you. His fingers brush gently over your nipples and you feel that it triggered something in you. At some point he placed a few kisses between your breasts and squeezed them a little so that his face was dented by it. You hear a grunt and feel how he continues to walk down with his mouth. He pulls off the rest of your dress and plays with the waistband of your panties. "We start very slowly okay?" He smiled as he pulled the last fabric down. It was all very strange, as if you had your first time. So many times have you slept with Jaehyun. During the first months of your relationship you went hardly out of the bedroom. But now you were nervous and Jaehyun realized that. He carefully placed you in the middle of the bed and also took off his shirt. "You hardly train anymore, how can you still have such a six-pack?" You laugh and stroke his skin. "Miga keeps me fit." He smiled and gave you a kiss. And that kiss lasted longer again. You almost forgot what a good kisser Jaehyun was. It was always magical, because his lips were so soft and his tongue was so gently wrapped around yours. As you dwell in the kiss, you feel Jaehyun placing two fingers between your folds and stroking them along. You startle, because you were not sure how sore you were. "Relax, I promise I'm very careful." Jaehyun's eyes were serious and you nod. After all, you trust him. And you thought he would continue with his fingers, but you were wrong. Jaehyun now moves down on you. Put his head in front of your pussy and spread your legs. You look down at him in astonishment, but then try to lean back and relax, how he said. And then you feel his breath in your most intimate area. With his fingers he stroked over your folds and spread them apart. And suddenly you feel the light pressure of his tongue on you. It was cold for a moment, but then you get used to his temperature. Jaehyun's tongue played with your clit and you had to say one thing, he had not forgotten how to lick. His tongue was just pure magic and sometimes you asked yourself how he could do it. He was gentle, but at the same time he exerted the perfect pressure on your clit, so you feel that incredible feeling in your whole body. Previously, you could always come right away if Jaehyun satisfied you orally, but this time you were too tense. You had read about it the last days and learned that it is very unusual to get an orgasm the first time after birth. But it was not important for you to cum in this evening. Jaehyun always brought you to climax the other times anyway. Jaehyun devoted himself to your pussy for a long time, but then he looked up and smiled at you. "I think you're ready or? I mean, I think I've prepared you quite well." With his fingers, he stroked over your swollen clit and at the same time leaned towards you again. "Yes? You think so?" You joked and pull him to your face to give him a quick kiss. "I don’t just think that, I know! Your pussy is so wet for me." He also kissed you briefly and then he straightened up again. He got rid of his last garments and positioned himself in front of you. "But you also make me incredibly hard." He put his length on your lower abdomen. You feel like his cock was full of blood and thus hit hard against your skin. "Wow I forgot how big he can become." You look anxiously down to you. From the outside it looked so unrealistic. His hard length lay on your lower abdomen and his tip reached almost to your belly button. "You've had him in you so many times inside you. I can assure you, he fits." Jaehyun laughed and leaned down to you. "I penetrate you very slowly and you just say if it hurts, is that okay?" He looks deep into your eyes and you nod to his question. Jaehyun stayed down by you, his eyes rested on yours and you feel his tip pressed very carefully against your entrance. "Ok, I'm starting now. I'm very gentle." He smiled soft and stroked through your hair. With big eyes you look up to him and try to relax. When he started to fill you slowly, you realize that it was a bit uncomfortable. But it also felt good and a weird mix of feelings evolved. "Everything okay?" Jaehyun asked as he was completely inside of you. Your eyes were still big and everything felt very special. You could not describe the feeling to yourself. "Yes, it does not hurt." You smile and bury your fingers in his skin. "Don’t worry. I'll be very slow today, it's just about you." Before you could say anything, his lips were back on yours and it ended again in a wonderfully long kiss. Meanwhile, Jaehyun began to move a bit inside you. He just pulled his dick out a bit and slowly pushed him back into you. In the beginning you were still tense and your fingers were still tight around his forearm, but with more movement, you became more relaxed. Your fingers relaxed and you start to moan softly. As you become more vocal, a smirk was on Jaehyun's face. "Does it feel good?" His pace remained constant while he watched you. "Yeah, that's good," you moan further and feel how the small movements were getting more intense. Before, you had never tried slow sex, but it had its appeal. It was so intimate, and it was so extraordinary, because you have not had that much time for sex for a long time. It passed many minutes and you get more and more accustomed to the feeling of his cock inside you. Although you did not come to your orgasm, but you were close. Jaehyun's movements were still soft and slow. You both enjoy your togetherness and it was just nice to hear your moaning and breathing. "I'm close, can I fuck you a little faster?" You knew that Jaehyun needed it harder and faster. But you thought anyway that you were ready for more. “Yes.” You clasp Jaehyun's forearms again and look up at him. He was still bent over you and you notice him slowly increasing his pace. "Fuck, you feel so good." Jaehyun groaned and his breath became heavier. With the increasing speed his breath became heavier. You try to relax, but it hurt a little. However, you did not want to take his climax and try to relax even more. His grunt grew louder and then he straightened up, pulled his dick out of you and finished himself on your stomach. You had to say that this picture was very hot. He looked so tall and powerful, with his cock in his hand. His cum sprayed all over your upper body and when Jaehyun was done, he took a deep breath. He was out of breath and his body was sweating. "How do you feel?" He lay down beside you and took out of the bedside table tissues. He stroked them gently over your stomach and wiped you free from his orgasm. "It was so good. Thank you for being so patient." You turn to him and smile at him gently. “For me it is important that you liked it." You did not have to say anything, you simply kissed him, showing him how great he was, how gentle he was, what a wonderful husband he was. "I love you so much." With these words, you finish your kiss and sit up. "I love you too." His eyes rested on yours and he gently touched the tips of your fingers. The rest of the evening you could only end with a bath. The suite requested an open bath overlooking the skyline. You two spent a while in it, chatting and touching. But in the end you were young parents and sleep was slowly becoming a foreign word for you.

It was the first night in a long time, when you finally could sleep through. For a long time you had not felt so relaxed. You have ordered breakfast in the room and enjoy it once in bed to eat. But then it was time and you had to slowly check out of the hotel. "I know that sounds bad and I love our kids so much, but I wish this could take even longer." You sigh and looked one last time in the suite. Jaehyun came up to you and put his hands on your hips. "I feel the same way, maybe we should do that more often?" Jaehyun smiled and kissed you gently again. But during your kiss, his hands moved down to the hem of your dress and his fingertips starting to touch the fabric of your panties. "Jaehyun, we have to check out." You look at him with wide eyes. "We have 10 minutes left." With these words he grabbed you and carried you back to bed.

Daddy Jaehyun Masterlist

[esarts]

Emergency Bust Commissions!

Hey guys!

I opening mini commissions because i really need the extra help :/

Reblogs and support are substantially appreciated and are more than helpful <3

Im currently a student, studying math, (and ofc we all know the debt us student have lol but thats not why i need help haha) and i work part time. These past coupe of months ive only been able to work a couple shifts because hours are so in demand - its summer and everyone wants to work. That being said, i dont have much of an income and I just found out my grandfather in Japan is not in the healthiest condition and we have to fly there immediately (i live in america). The last time i visited my family in japan was 11 years ago, for we dont travel there often because of how expensive it is! And having lot of student debt doesnt help lol. This year i had to cope through two deaths, it was very hard because loosing a family member is unimaginable. And I do not want to miss this opportunity seeing my grandpa for the last time.

so anywayss I just whipped this last night for an example, because i havent drawn in a while, so its a very recent example haha

(If you wanted to buy this steven bust, I can sell it for $15! you will get both the sketch and colored bust)

I will open my full commissions in a few months, so watch out for that :D

Info:

● Contact me at emirys@uw.edu or DM me on here! Feel free to ask any questions about what i will/wont draw, or if you’re interested in waist up/full body/other commissions!

●I accept payments via Paypal and Venmo! (send the payment on paypal as “goods and services” please c: ). I will send you my info to send the money after I am done with your order. (but also please make sure you are 100% sure you want to order haha). I want to make sure i finish your art before I have to leave for japan (I wont have my tablet and computer there).

●When you contact me, let me know what you want to be drawn! please include references and describe any detail i need to know. If you want to add extra characters, a lot of accessories, etc, ask me! i wont bite haha :)

● There’s going to be a limited amount of slots, so first come first serve!

● And you will get a high quality version of your order :) I can either share the final image with you via email or google drive.

I WILL draw:

real life people

OCs, furries, and animals (if you want to see a old example of dog art, message me!)

characters from different fandoms

ships/PDA (unless it makes me uncomfortable)

I WONT draw:

nsfw/nudity

heavy gore

mecha/armor

complicated designs

Exact replicas of characters in their original style

Thanks so much for reading guys <3

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[ninatastic]

@kay-licious how dare u (thanks <3) @silent-calling youre doing amazing sweetie

1. Are looks important in a relationship?

I wouldnt call it a key factor but it’s important to feel attraction towards your partner

2. Are relationships ever worth it?

sure! If it’s a healthy one definitely :D

3. Are you a virgin?

nah 

4. Are you in a relationship?

yeh!

5. Are you in love?

I’d say so!

6. Are you single this year?

no

7. Can you commit to one person?

yes

8. Describe your crush

it me bf

9. Describe your perfect mate

same as above c: 

10. Do you believe in love at first sight?

no, only when it comes to animals c;

11. Do you ever want to get married?

thats a dream of mine tbh

12. Do you forgive betrayal?

I guess every healthy person would say no but yes, I’d absolutely do (only the first time tho, after the second time you gotta ask yourself if it’s really worth it)

13. Do you get jealous easily?

in regard to my bf: I used to but it’s a hell of a lot less nowadays. In regard to people in general, sometimes, especially when im not doing well mentally

14. Do you have a crush on anyone?

me bf

15. Do you have any piercings?

just have my ears pierced!

16. Do you have any tattoos?

no but maybe soon

17. Do you like kissing in public?

only if its sweet forehead or cheek kisses, or quick kisses on the mouth or hand kisses

20. Do you shower every day?

yes though I gotta admit I really have to force myself. Not because I like being stinky but because everything is kinda difficult sometimes

21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?

bruh I sure hope my bf does;;

22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

nah

23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?

I’ve been in a relationship for 5 and a half years now, I think so

24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

it is possible but who tf knows

25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year?

idk, to be frank: I think my life would be a bit easier if I wasnt in a relationship, or if I hadnt been in a relationship for the past 1-2 years. And I often feel like im more of a burden to my bf than anything else. But thats a different story

26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?

as in losing touch with me? I guess so

27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?

a song yes and it was awkward as hell ajhajdfha and people have done drawings for me which is <3<3<3<3<3<<3<3<33

28. Have you ever been cheated on?

Yup

29. Have you ever cheated on someone?

very very unfortunately yes, and just like a bunch of you guys I was this close to killing myself. I was in a very bad place which I know is not an excuse for this. I still think about it even if it’s been a time since then but I think I cqan never forgive myself because of that

30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?

often but im too much of a scared cat dsfskjf  idk though, I would love to be much more petite size wise

31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?

oh often

32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?

yeah;; I’m not exactly pretty or popular, so puberty was hard

33. Have you ever had sex with a man?

hell yeah

34. Have you ever had sex with a woman?

:( no

35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

yeh!!

36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?

Yeah and it’s difficult to be normal then aaaaaahhhhhhh

37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

some of my friends have a strong disliking towards my current bf but i dont know if you can call it hate

38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

yeah and it ruined me for a while

39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

uuuuhh not really I think

40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?

whenever I write bday cards I always put a poem in it :D

41. Have you had sex so far this year?

hella

42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?

depends on how thirsty I am

43. How long was your longest relationship?

5 and a half years and counting

44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?

2-3

45. How many people did you kiss in 2011?

uuhh I was 14, no one 

46. How many times did you have sex last year?

HELLA

47. How old are you?

22 my dudes

48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?

I#d try to play it cool because internally I’m panicking, someone help me

49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?

I love about my bf how you can ALWAYS count on him when shit gets down, even if he hasnt talked to a friend for a good while and they’re like “hey I need you”, he’ll be there in a sec Also that he is still able to surprise me

50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?

jsdfhsjdfks GO AWAY, I’d say while closing the door and shutting the blinds quicker than lightning

51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?

yeah, but that’s probably because I have bpd and depressions

52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?

yeah, I tried to help them on all occassions, so much that I ruined my own life partially and made myself sick. But whatever I did or said, they apparently want to suffer, so i gave up trying. 

53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?

yeah my abuser probably

54. Is there someone you will never forget?

unfortunately yes and fortunately yes

55. Share a relationship story.

uuuuuuhhhhh; I dont really know what to write here. Guess I’ll never forget when my bf held a kitten (which was only a week old) in his hands and he almost cried because he loved the baby so much. Haha, he was afraid of crushing it though because it was much smaller than the palms of his hands

56. State 8 facts about your body

I gained a lot of weight since last year which is why I avoid posting or taking pics, but according to everyone else you dont see it that much (?); my hair is getting its natural curliness back; I fucked up my knee so I’ll have knee surgery next year; I bruise easily; I have a shit ton of scars; I love my super green eyes; I have thicc thighs and if I’m very emotional I get red spots all over my body

57. Things you want to say to an ex

to my first ever bf: fuck u lmao to the second bf I had: I’m so sorry for everything and I hope that you found your place :)

58. What are five ways to win your heart?

uuuhhh be sweet and understanding, be funny, be somewhat smart, dont be a mean asshole and be nice to other people (especially kids) and animals and also be able to be fascinated by small things 

59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)

yikes

60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?

my current bf is 8 years older than me

61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?

how open and nice they are? Idk I always choose my ppl to hang out with according to this

62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?

even though I’m a switch I have a big preference for being the sub, so if someone can dominate me and yknow do stull like carry me princess style or something im all like !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

63. What is your definition of “having sex”?

everything that comes after kissing imo

64. What is your definition of cheating?

I think as soon as you try to pursue someone emotionally that already counts as cheating

65. What is your favourite foreplay routine?

kissing, grinding, I love when someone talks dirty to me

66. What is your favourite roleplay?

if it aint too much of a tmi i’d love to admit that we have a collar and a leash so (not thinking about pet play uughfjhjsdfkhsd, just yknow someone is able to drag me to them like this or being held in place while being taken from behind is p nice)

67. What is your idea of the perfect date?

something something being outside in the nature and also good food 

68. What is your sexual orientation?

69. What turns you off?

super super wet kisses where also my nose somehow gets stuck in someone elses mouth Like dude r u a vacuum cleaner sdfhsdkjhfks

70. What turns you on?

being manhandled

71. What was your kinkiest wet dream?

idk I dont really have a lot of wet dreams and usually theyre not very kinky but rather sweet and slow 

72. What words do you like to hear during sex?

I like dirty talk, so imma leave that open 

73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?

i love to get flowers, or lil stuff that reminds us of our friendship or something, self made/home made stuff is always !!!!!!!!!!!!

74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?

probably hands? I love it when girls have super slender hands and when boys have rough and big hands

75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?

I already answered that c:

76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone?

I have a few stories I’m proud of! But I really love this one: When I was little I grew up in a village in which like 300-400 people lived (maximum) and next to us lived this sweet older couple who always gave us sweets and vegetable for our parents, or they brought us stuff from when they went on vacation. The man is now constantly sick, he suffers from parkinson and you see the early statges of dementia setting in. A while ago he wanted to go and get the German version of fish and chips with his wife but due to him needing a ton of surgeriesw constantly he wasnt able to go out with his wife. When my mom told me this I was like wtf u cant just tell me this, I’m too soft. So I went and got fish and chips from the best market around us for him and flowers for his wife, despite the fact that I havent seen them in YEARS. When I arrived at their front door both of them hugged me and cried a bit

77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?

not bad if everything is consensual and if there’s a power balance thats equal 

78. What’s your dirtiest secret?

I think the leash thing is one of the kinkiest things we’ve ever done tbh

79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?

yesterday a bit when my bf went out wth friends and had a few beers while I was stuck at home with the thought that I can never have a beer again dkadfjahdf as stupid as that sounds but I always enjoyed these chill evenings with a beer and friends

80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?

this morning when I cuddled my cats :D

81. Who are five people you find attractive?

my bf and many videogame and anime characters, also my best female friend is hella attractive, also some of my friends are to die for

82. Who is the last person you hugged?

my bf!!

83. Who was your first kiss with?

my first bf sdfjsdfs

84. Why did your last relationship fail?

it didnt really work out, it seemed as he was more interested in saying “hey im in a relationship!” than in me, hah;;

85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?

yeah, sure

[dreamyoongi]

OH i see, so it's about like the quality of the production. i think your points are fair even tho tbh i didnt notice any of it for this video, i really enjoyed like the concepts and colorful stuff and ""retro"" typography signs and shit. but one of the things i hated about idol was the mv, like it was just too much going on in one single video and nothing felt connected, it was just so chaotic to me and some of it really looked cheap - A pt1

and the thing about the b sides. like i know its a tradition for bts to have the rest of the album be better than the tittle tracks lol but for the past few albums that didnt really happen much for me like i would hate the tittle track and half the album so i only had the other half to actually enjoy. even if this title track is the typical catchy mainstream wtv song, at least this time i dont absolutely hate it and thats such a weight lifted off my shoulders haha - A pt2

ive been folloiwng u for a good time i think and its so refreshing for me to see other ppl that arent very happy with current bts' choices. i actually felt mostly alone besides my best friend also feeling similar to me. thank you for sharing your opinions on this blog :) - A pt3

oh yeah i also agree about their styling omg! 90% of wtv gucci stuff they wear is fugly as hell and sometimes they put stuff on them that really doesnt fit and makes them look ridiculous, altho personally i strongly believe they have been doing that with yoongi in particular since the beggining. the number of hideous outfits he has had is outstanding and like why??? just tailor shit to fit him properly??? he can look amazing if they do their job right!! - A

i liked the building they shot the mv in front of too and the initial pastel tones were also super nice. but now after coming back from my vacation its literally the only thing i remember.... i had to go back and re watch to remember that they did several singing in the rain references. 

and namjoon said in a vlive a few months ago that nowadays title tracks are the most important thing on an album and rarely do people listen to the b-sides. and that is the moment where i REALLY started to doubt if i would ever like bts’ music as much as i did before. bc if most of their hand work goes into these title tracks... rip... 

and dont even get me started on the STYLING its a fucking embarrassment  at this point. their direction at this point is only ‘follow the TREND and the pricier the better. off the rack, we dont need to adjust to our widely different clients’ 

honestly being away for almost two weeks now i have barely checked into what is going on. and i havent listened to even one of their new songs if im being honest. at this point im not feeling it anymore and i really have almost fully left the fandom i think.

[kawaiibeela]

2017 in review... i guess?

so i guess im gonna do this lol... its not really a review of my year but i will talk about a few major personal things over the past few months that happened to me, LONG LONG LONGGGGG POST UNDER THE CUT

a lot of people complained about 2017 being a shitty year, a continuation for 2016..... and i thought it would be too.... and thats how it started.... i was stuck in a crappy job for 6 years.... i wanted to leave so badly but i was also scared.... scared that what if i couldn’t find anything else? scared in my skills as a graphic designer.... i hated all my work and everything i produced from that job, i got comfortable at this job.... i could come and go as i pleased, i could take any day off i wanted.... but they were toxic people, they judged me very hard for liking the things i did, they were very negative about everything, they forced stuff on me that wasn’t part of my job, they made me feel very awkward, they would make “comments” about my religion when it didn’t fit their needs...it was very uncomfortable at times.... i would just lie to myself and to other people when asked “how’s work going?” i would say “not bad, its pretty good, i’m doing some fun events” but i was slowly drowning inside.... my parents and close friends would always tell me “you need to quit!!! just quit!!! find something better!! you’re better than this place” but i never believed it..... i never believed them..... when i should have been listening to them....

i started to tell myself, this is enough.... i cant deal with this place any more.... i started to work on my portfolio website.... but i hated it..... i hated everything about it..... everything in there just reminded me of my old shitty job that i hated... all this effort put into something that i hated... because i was forced to do what the clients wanted, it was frustrating!!

a few years ago, i went to this graphic design conference that was meant to help people find jobs, i went to a portfolio review and all 3 reviewers told me the same thing, the work i put in seem forced and not my style, they said to add stuff i was passionate about and stuff that i enjoyed and my work would speak for itself, every person that i showed my arashi posters too, said it was my strongest piece.... i should use that piece for sure!!

that helped me get a sense of what i wanted!! i deleted everything from my old portfolio site, except my logo which i actually still love, i kept 1 project from my old job which was the biggest and most challenging one i worked on to show that i have real life experience.

i decided to develop my arashi project into a full campaign, i added more pieces, i designed more stuff, for the fun of it.... every weekend for a while in the spring and summer, my friends and i were meeting up at cafes to help focus on stuff, i got a lottttt done there!!! i wanted to focus on stuff that was important to me, fandoms!! duh!! arashi of course, kiramune which had recently at the time become my new loves, and oldcodex!!! i decided to try and make designs based on them for fun!! i took kirafes 2017′s design and I remade it for myself, i imagined how i wanted the goods to look, i imagined how i wanted the posters to look, the pamphlet, and it took forever, but it was fun, it was frustrating but it was rewarding to come up with something i was proud of!! something i was happy about!! something that when i talked about it, i could explain what i wanted to and why i did certain things. 

for the oldcodex stuff, i made an editorial piece, i wanted to reflect their personalities so i just kept trying different things until i was happy!! in the end it came out really great and i was able to do that piece pretty fast as well too!!

i also kept in my portfolio parts of a magazine that i had worked on.... but i wasnt happy with a lot of parts of that magazine too... so i made my own pages to “add in” about the olympics and they came out really nice!!

i was confident in my portfolio for once.... it took months and months of work.... but i was happy about it... i was proud of it.... i was excited about it.... but...... i was scared..... scared i wasnt ready for the next step.... what if i put all this effort into it and im still not good enough? how will i feel then? i also hate going to interviews because of my anxiety as well too....

but finally around the beginning of September, i was actually able to 100% complete my portfolio, my business cards and resumes were also complete...

and i was scrolling down on facebook... and one of my old friends posted something..... we were really close during college, we took graphic design together but as the semesters went on, we drifted apart as well too... it had been probably like 4-5 years since i’d ever talked to her even.... but she posted “looking for a junior graphic designer for a 3 month contract” and i kinda looked at that for a while... i messaged one of my friends about it and said “hmmmm...... my friend just posted this.... what should i do?” and she told me “just message your friend and apply!!! just do it” she gave me that push because she knew how much i hated my current job too!! 

so i messaged my friend and asked her if she could submit my resume to HR.... and she did.... that was on friday.... i was scared.... and nervous.....but then... on a tuesday after work..... my phone rang and i got a call from the company..... its a photography company here in Toronto that has locations across Canada. they wanted me in for an interview.... a what??? wait what??? an interview???? they said they looked at my portfolio and were interested....... ehhhhh??? i was in shock..... but i was so happy too!! but scared..... the last interview i went on was like 2-3 years ago and it went pretty bad......... so i had no idea how this one would go..... the HR person was really nice though... she had told me that i would be interviewed by herself, the marketing manager and the art director.... i was scared as hell..... she gave me their names so i looked them up.... the art director........ he was so good..... his website was so nice!!! i started to lose confidence again but, its funny.... he was japanese.... i thought “oh crap, what if he tries to read parts of my portfolio?” i had used japanese interviews in my kiramune project but i couldnt find stuff for each member so i just copied and pasted, i thought “hes gonna know im just making stuff up” LOL I just kept thinking of useless thoughts in my head..... but i thought.... whatever.... im just gonna do it...... my interview was on thursday, i had called my old job and told them i couldnt work that day and they said it was fine because it was a really slow time... i obviously didnt tell them i was going for a job interview.... but i went anyways, i got there really early so i just sat somewhere and went over stuff i had planned for my interview, i had written stuff down in my journal and was gonna use that as a guideline for when they asked me questions, they asked some things similar to what i had planned but they asked some different stuff too... they were so nice.... throughout the interview they had kept complimenting my stuff, they said everything flowed very nicely and they really liked me work, they had asked me how i got interested in design and i answered the most face palming thing.... i mentioned anime... and i said i used to watch anime and pokemon as a kid and i dreamt of being an animator in japan and then i was like “oh no.... i didnt just tell them im a weeb did it?” and i was like “oh god, my life is over” haha i felt really embarassed ahaha oops LOL but then they were also really impressed by that answer too.... they asked if i had any retail experience and i told them i had experience working at this amusement park after high school too and it helped me deal with customers and stuff too... this was a job i had from like 10 years ago or something, it wasnt even on my resume any more, is just one of those jobs u get to make money.... like..... i thought nothing of it..... but they were SO EXCITED about it when i told them, they were like “wow!!! thats so great!!” they seemed so intrigued in everything i said!! the HR person was like “you seem very energetic!!” and i was like really happy!! no one really compliments me or my work usually haha XD 

towards the end of the interview, they asked if i had any questions for them and i asked them 2 questions and they seemed really impressed too!! haha they were like “those are great questions” haha 

at the end of the interview, i asked for their business cards so i could email them and thank them for taking time to interview me. they thanked me and the HR person said she’d be in touch the next few days

after the interview, i messaged my friend who had helped send in my resume and she said “just between you and me, they came upstairs and i think they really like you” omggg i felt sooo happy haha

on the way home, i remember getting really lost LOL it took me almost like 3 hours to get home i think XD i ended up finding a small japanese store that i bought a bunch of stuff from ahaha

so... i waited the weekend..... it was monday.... and i didnt hear from them.... tuesday went by and i didnt hear anything, i thought i must not have gotten the job, but then wednesday again, i got an email from the HR person, asking if i could email her 2-3 references... which i had none... so i asked 2 of my old coworkers from different jobs and they replied right away too because they also knew i hated my current job ahah so i sent my references and then on thursday while i was at work... i got a call from the HR person saying “i called both of your refernces and they both said wonderful things about you so we would like to offer you the 3 month contract position” like OMGGGG i almost screamed of joy!!! i was jumping up and down outside the office haha XD 

i told this job that i would need 1 week to give my old job a heads up tho, so i could start on the following wednesday

but then i got scared again, i had to tell my current job i was quitting... i mustered up the courage and just told my one boss first, she was so happy for me, she gave me a hug and she wished me all the best too!! but then i had to tell the owner of the company and his wife, theyre both assholes so i didnt wanna tell them, but my 1 coworker helped me figure out how to tell them.... so i told them and they were unhappy but i told them id help for 1 last event (until the end of october) they appreciated that at least 

so that following tuesday was my last day being in office at that crappy job i hated!!! i literally left there SKIPPING with a HUGGGEEE grin on my face!! i would never have to go back to that horrible place again!!! omg i was soooo happy!!!!

im getting tired of writing all this now LOL so im gonna fast forward a bit, but the new job was amazing, people there loved me and they were so appreciative of me, it was a huge 360 turn!! 

i was working at this new place but then in the evenings id help at my old job by working from home, that was horrible, i couldnt deal.... after that last job at my old work was done, i told them i couldnt help out any more and theyd have to find a new designer.... after 6 years of working there.... 6 FRIKKEN YEARS!!!!!! i told them i was probably going to have my contract extended and i told her i was so excited and she messaged back saying “thats not good for us but anyway congrats” like WTF BITCH!!! I HELPED YOU OUT SO MUCH!! I WAS SO NICE TO YOU!!! GOOD FUCKING RIDDANCE!!! I CANT EVEN WITH YOU!! LIKE OMG!!! i told her id send her files that i worked on and she replied 2 days later that she’ll download them later my last message to her was just “k” i was SO FUCKING DONE!!!! I HATE HER SO MUCH!!!

ANYYYYYYYWAYYYSSSSSSS...... fast forward another few weeks?months? my manager told me that she was able to get me to job full time..... FULL FUCKING TIME........ this was my first EVER full time job that related to my career, the old crappy one was never full time.... this is the first one ive had thats full time and ill get benefits and vacation and everything!! like OH. MY. GOD. i left work SOOOOOO happy!!! i actually CRIEDDDDD tears of joy!!! i couldnt believe it!!! i cant believe it!!! like omg!!! they all congratulated me!!! they were so proud of me!!! i was proud of me!!! i told my parents and i think for the first time in mine and their life, THEY were proud of me!!!! like it was amazinnnnggg!!! its still amazing!!!! we had a work lunch party and my manager was like “id like to take this time to officially tell you all that Nabeela is now full time with us” and they all raised their glasses and cheered to that too!!! like OMGGGG I WAS SO HAPPY!! (also hella embarassed since im still awkward af!!) but SO SO HAPPY!!!!

HONESTLY GUYS...... i am 30 years old now..... 30........ its NEVER too late..... nothing in life is set in stone..... no matter how 1 person does things, doesnt mean you have to be like them too....you can always do things at your own pace!!! sometimes things dont go as you imagine them but things WILL AND DO get better!!! things will be alright in the end!!! thats how i ended my 2017 and started my life as a 30 year old obaa-chan XD 

theres a lot of goals and things id like to work on for 2018 but i hope 2018 will even better for me and all my friends, family and followers!!!

if any of you actually got through all of this, then im so sorry and also thank you so much for reading LOL to all my friends who supported me through this hard moment in my life, thank you very much!! 

if any of you are curious about my portfolio, you can check it out at www.nabeelahamid.com ^__________^ thankssss!!! if any of you guys are designers too, tips or positive criticism is always welcome too!!

to all of my friends and followers who are already in 2018, HAPPY NEW YEAR AND I WISH NOTHING BUT THE BEST FOR ALL OF YOU!!!!! and to those still in 2017 like me, lets bring in the new years together!!!

[bookworm-2692]

25 31 52 61

ooo this was from three days ago im sorry anyway here we go:

25: Which social science interests you more; psychology (how the mind effects a person), sociology (how society affects a people) or anthropology (learning about culture)? Why?

hmmmmm im really not sure??? theyre all so interesting??? i cant pick. i dont know much about any of them but if you told me something interesting about any of them i’d probably listen w rapt attention i just… idk. sorry

31: What’s your favourite song to sing a long to?

recently i guess om du rör mig dör jag by martin stenmarck? my phone has v limited space and pretty much just has non english songs at the moment (but i need to change it soon im getting bored of it) but thats the song that gets me singing the most? bc it just builds up. but many songs. i love singing along to songs but im just so bad at singing like trust me you do not want to hear me singing (tho you may not get a choice). i actually really enjoy singing along to asapscience’s period table song and the horrible histories kings and queens song??? idk

52: What’s something you thought would be really scary/bad, but was actually fine when it happened/you did it?

ooo good question. i actually think i told you something like this an hour ago or so so therefore ill think of a different one. last year around eurovision time my friend was having a party and the invitation made it sound v formal? like there was a dress code (black and white) and you could invite a plus one? like that just sounded way too fancy for me like first of all i actually had to PLAN what i was wearing and couldnt just look in my closet on the day??? and second of all you were expected to invite a plus one like what??? i remember it was on a friday night (so me and two other friends werent going to netball training for it so there would have been like three people from my team there whoops) and i was cycling home after school w two friends one of who was going (and also skipping netball training w me funnily enough) and another who wasnt. the friend who wasnt going was like “oh are you two going to the party” and we were like “yah” and she was like “i hear these other people who are going are planning to bring alcohol and stuff” and i was like “but its alcohol free??? everyone is either 16 or 17????” and she was like “yeah but theyre gonna sneak it in or arrive drunk?” and my mind was like !!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?! and i started dreading going even more like for context this friend had moved schools so half the people there would be from my school and the other half from her new school so i was really starting to worry bc it seemed too fancy and many people i dont know and now the possibility of ppl from my school i barely know coming drunk??? like no thanks too much for me. i remember putting on the eurovision semi final 2 (bc since i live in australia it came out live at 5am that morning) and i started watching and it started to make me feel better but i was still super worried? i remember polands song came on and it was calming me down heaps i loved it (i was so glad it made the final and ranked so high in the televote bc it made me feel so much better) anyway then i went to the party and at first i was terrified but after a few hours i started relaxing and realising it wasnt so bad so i was able to enjoy myself a bit more? still not my style of party but i survived. so maybe not “fine” bc i was still a bit uncomfy but definitely better than i expected.

HOWEVER the year before that some netball friends invited me to a halloween party so i went and the only people i knew were like four friends i was terrified the entire night that one didnt get better i think partly bc i only had four friends and two had other school friends? so only two friends by me the entire night? but the one last year did improve bc i had such a large number of friends so i was able to get more comfortable. note to self for future: bring a large number of friends to things youre worried about.

another thing im worried about coming up that i hope is better than expected is year 12 formal this year. im worried bc im not sure what formal involves? so idk how to prepare myself. also you have to wear fancy clothes? and look good? and girls are expected to wear dresses?? and make up?? idk. also people expect people to have a date to formal or something??? i just feel the coming months will be super awkward and i hope worrying was all for nothing and that its super fun and super chill w friends

anyway wow that was a long answer

61: What question(s) do you love being asked?

oh i dont know. things where i can just talk for ages? like last time when you asked my opinion on aliens and i just kept on going. also when the year 9s had to send out questionaires and one of the questions was like “what is nuclear fusion” and i could just ramble about it bc i had learnt it in ½ physics that year so i knew about it in a fair amount of detail (turns out the year 9 was actually talking about fission, not fusion, so i explained the difference to them). i guess i more just love those conversations where you can talk for ages bc you dont run out of things to say? so not necessarily any particular topic??? idk

anyway tysm for these i love answering questions in general and talking about me haha also these questions let me introspect and learn things about myself? its cool

[umusicians]

UM Interview: Barrett Turner

Dallas, Texas native Barret Turner has always been involved with music. The producer and singer-songwriter started making music as a child, when he was a kid and picked up a guitar. Turner was constantly making music but never seemed to let his songs go further than the four walls of his room, until now. For the past 5 years, Barret has been diligently working on his craft to now be able to share with you these new songs, which are both unique and personal to him.

Brittany Geertgens sat down with Barret Turner to talk about his new single “Never Stood”, collaborating with Nick Dean and more!

Brittany Geertgens: Hi Barret, thanks so much for sitting down and talking with me. How about you introduce yourself to the viewers and tell us a little bit about yourself. Barret Turner: Thank you! Im Barret Turner i am from Dallas Tx and ive been making music since i was about 13. Ive always loved it.. was in a pop punk band with my high school friends and grew up playing hockey… In college i moved to austin to go to college and pursue music. I made an album that was never released down there. to sum it up i moved back to Dallas kept working on music and some how ended up being a co driver on a race team with one of my best friends.. Thats how i ended up getting into video production i would film us racing and the adventures we would go on and i grew to love it. I now do video full time.. ive been making all my music videos for my new music.. My dream would be to make music a full time career.

BG: Let's start out by getting into your background a little. What is your music background and what inspired you to start your music career? BT: My music background is pretty basic, I had a friend Travis Hammond who taught me how to play guitar at a young age and i would always bug him to show me how to play new songs… full circle moment Travis and i have made a song that i will be releasing in the coming months. We are really excited about it.. I then started screaming in a high school band and then started to try and sing.. I really enjoyed it but was mostly a closet singer.. Then i wanted to play piano and i would go over to my grandmas and play her piano and look up how to play Something Corporate songs i have zero professional learning mostly by ear and just constantly trying to get better and better… I then realized i could record the music myself with equipment for my birthday my parents bought me a 8 track and me and my friend max would go down stairs and make music on it for hours.. It sounded horrible but i always knew the ideas were there.. i would stick my face up to the built in microphone and sing into it and then record sounds and guitars to go with it… Sometimes i wonder if ive gotten better and ill go back and listen to those tracks and it feels good to see progress.. I know produce full songs at my at home studio through studio one.

BG: What artist/musicians inspires you musically?  BT: I always randomly get inspired… its always someone new… right now it would be Dermot Kennedy but life long has been my friend Travis Hammond.. He has always made the most interesting music but still super catchy songs i wish i had his hand for the piano haha

BG: How has your artistry changed since you first started?  BT: It’s changed a ton but its like my core is still there. I like pop music, i like good verses and a really catchy chorus. When I first started it was just me and a guitar more alternative music, some would even mistaken it as country “I never thought that lol” Now its full productions almost could call it electronic music the music has changed but the way i write songs really hasn’t I think i’ve just gotten better at structure and making things fit and sound better.

BG: Alright, so you just released your single "Never Stood" featuring Nick Dean. Can you tell us about the single and about the writing process when writing it? BT: Yes, I started this song downstairs at my parents i remember sitting there thinking what direction i wanted to go today, I had been inspired by skrillex that week and thought id try making something out of my box.. More earthy just something i don’t normally make… Maybe i didn’t hit the mark but thats how i was going about it. That was a few years ago. Then about 5 months ago i sent Nick a email asking if he would like to sing on it.. I really enjoy listening to his voice and come to find out he is a really nice guy to work with. Not everyone is like that.. We just would email each other and text each other ideas. We might also have another song together coming out :)

BG: How did the feature with Nick Dean come about? BT: Email.. Email has been my biggest success when reaching out to singers. I had been following him on instagram and listening to his original songs and i felt he would sound perfect on Never Stood.. Kinda in his realm of style. After a few emails he agreed and we started cooking it up.

BG: You have 7 more singles that you will be releasing. What can fans expect from those singles? BT: Im not really sure. They are all different in their own way i hope they enjoy them… Ive really worked hard on all of them and i just hope it helps people

BG: How would you say this pandemic has affected the music scene? Do you feel like the music scene is going to change forever? If so, how?  BT: Ive honestly never really been in the music scene. So i don’t honestly know… I know its hurt people with live shows but im not there yet so i don’t really keep up with it. I guess, people will always listen to music people need music. I know i need music… I think yes it will change, Maybe the way its sold or the way live shows go.. but music will always be music a good outlet.

BG: If you had to describe your music in three words to someone that has never heard it before what three words would you use? BT: HAPPY, SAD, INSPIRED

BG: Who are your musical influences? BT: Illenium, Hootie and the blowfish, Gryffin, and alot more that i can’t think of because its always changing

BG: If you had the opportunity to collaborate with any artist dead or alive who would you pick and why? BT: Gryffin.. thats what i wish at the moment, i think we would mesh well together.

BG: What advice would you give to an artist just starting out? BT: You have to love doing what you are doing because there is really no guarantee… If you love it then just do it. Who knows what will happen

BG: What can fans expect from you in the new year? BT: MORE MUSIC!

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9 Things I No Longer Do With My Money

9 years ago I blogged about how people who like to “split the check” aren’t my friends anymore. I had totally forgotten about it, but the memories flooded back when I received the following comment on it just this week :)

I know it’s not entirely fair. BUT COME ON, it was only 3 bucks dude. After reading your article, it seems like you are the cheap person there. You had a good time, then just let it go! Chill out dude.

Haha… Fortunately these days I do just “chill out” whenever stuff like this happens (though I’ll still ask for separate checks w/ larger parties! Takes forever trying to pay those bills!) but it was a great reminder of how far I’ve come since first starting this blog all those years ago… Now I’m more likely to “split the check” myself, or pay for the other person’s meal entirely because it’s just a nice thing to do!

But in honor of hitting my 9 year Blogiversary last month which I accidentally skipped (oops), I thought I’d share 9 other things I no longer do either since my early days of paying attention to money.

Hope it helps in some way!

#1. I no longer obsess about money anymore

It helps having more money than I used to, of course, but somewhere along the line I’ve moved way from dreaming about millions, to dreaming about having a great LIFE instead. Which, big shocker, you can actually have with or without gobs of money! Now unfortunately it takes just as much time and energy to figure out how to set this up as it does your finances, but hey – it’s a valiant pursuit :)

#2. I no longer track every last penny

Someone on Twitter just asked me if I thought I’d be where I am today without tracking my money every month, and the answer would be an affirmative NO. I’ve tracked my net worth for over 110 months in a row now, but it was really those first couple of years that were most transformative. Paying attention to where all your money is coming and going is HUGE when you’ve never done it before – it totally opens up your eyes! But once you get a good grasp of it, tracking every last penny isn’t *as* game changing as it is in the beginning.

Now it’ll certainly save you more cash than not tracking it, I guarantee that, but once you’ve got your rhythm down you get the beautiful decision of whether or not it’s worth the trade off of time anymore. If it is, great! You’ll be saving more than me! But after a few years and seeing the same rough expenses over and over again I decided to just stick w/ my net worth which gives me that overall picture I need without driving myself too crazy. Then I’ll just pop my head into the nitty gritty anytime something major happens, like moving or new kids popping up ;) Another big difference between now and 9 years ago – I’m now a daddy, crazy!

#3. I no longer hustle 24/7

In my efforts to improve upon #1 up there, I realized that in fact working more does NOT make me that much happier despite our culture (and entrepreneur friends) telling us it does. In the last 4 years I’ve gone from priding myself in working 20 hour days down to working about 9-10 ones depending on how efficient I am or not. It’s still a lot more than I want – my target is to stop working nights and weekends! – but you know, one step at a time… And it was again those babies that really put all this into perspective because I was on the train straight towards Workaholicsville and couldn’t get off!

#4. I no longer chase credit card deals or the best interest rates or even the hottest stocks

I’ve since learned that I value simplicity far more than I do an extra percentage point on one of my accounts – so long as I have “good enough” (or, 80% for any of you Pareto Principle lovers out there). It means not having every last one of my dollars maximized, but it also means feeling more at peace with myself/wallet and not being so frantic all the time scouring the web for the next hottest deal, or worse – stock. And believe me, even if people can tell you the latest trending stock, they sure as hell can’t tell you when to cash out of it in time!

So there’s no more chasing the markets or looking for the best savings/credit card accounts for me anymore… I keep almost all my banking under one main roof I’m happy with (USAA), and then all my investments under another happy roof (Vanguard). I then keep my sanity and go about my business from there :)

#5. I no longer go shopping for the fun of it

This was one of the first epiphanies I had in my early stage of blogging. I had tried my first “No Spend” challenge where I couldn’t spend any money on stuff that weren’t essentials (bills, groceries, etc), and WOW did I realize I had gotten into a bad habit! I’d literally catch myself pulling into the mall or other random stores anytime I was simply *bored*. And the crazy part was that I had no idea I was doing it!

From that point forward I literally just stopped walking into stores and have saved myself approximately $200/mo ever since… (Now if only there was a way to not stroll into Amazon! ;))

#6. I no longer require new jobs or locations to be happy

This is probably the biggest shocker of them all to me. Having grown up moving around every 2 years in a military family, *change* played a major, and rather exciting!, role in my life. It didn’t matter where I was or what I was doing, as soon as that two year mark hit I was ready to move onto the next glorious adventure awaiting me.

It wasn’t until I went off to college and started working “real” jobs that I realized my normal wasn’t going to be normal anymore… Even so, I struggled with not being able to stay put, whether in location or employment (or relationships!), until finally this blog and my wife were found. Both of which showed that stability can be sexy too :) And coincidentally enough, both found in the same year as well, making it super easy for me to remember the more important anniversary! Haha… And thankfully the entrepreneurial life brings enough change and adventure to keep anyone on their toes.

#7. I no longer care what others think of me

This is also a big turnaround for me over the last handful of years. I still have my weaknesses and seek approval from certain people out of habit, but for the most part I try my best to just be me and do my own thing whether others seem to approve of it or not. Even my beautiful mother – gasp. (As evidence of me still rocking a mohawk at 30-something years old and “looking like a vagabond” with my ragged clothes, per this same mother ;))

Another perk of running a blog, however, is that you also learn how to grow some thick skin as there’s never a shortage of people who find it necessary to tell you how they really feel. Here are a few of these kinds words I’ve saved from only the past handful of months:

“The content is good, but I’m unsubscribing because I have a difficult time with the grammar style of this blog. I feel like I’m reading text messages, not trying to save for retirement.”

“I don’t really care to read about your life for the few nuggets of financial advice you give. My time is too valuable.”

“Oh, and I listen to your podcast with Paula. Love her, but you sound like a clueless 16 year old valley girl.”

“Not the most professional blog.. way too many smiley faces on everything.  I also cannot believe you rent!  You did introduce me to Rockstar Finance though, so thanks!”

And my all-time favorite:

“He says really nice things but looks like a weirdo. But i guess thats why people like him. Hes like the Miley Cyrus of Finance”

#8. I no longer watch the news/Facebook/media

Want a great way to feel worse about your life? Go scrolling through the news or your Facebook feed :) I used to be obsessed with keeping on top of everything, as well as what all my friends were doing/ buying/flying, and then I realized I never left any of those places actually feeling *better* than when I got there. I’d either feel depressed, jealous, anxious, or just plain scared.

So I stopped reading everything and deactivated all of my personal social media accounts except those relating to this blog. I’ve been in bliss ever since! Now it also means I don’t always know what the hell is going on in the world, but again – trade offs. And my wife is quick to tell me anything she thinks I better know :)

#9. I no longer buy bottled water or lottery tickets!

If you were around this blog in 2011 you might remember the hate storm that occurred when I proudly exclaimed that I drink bottled water and wasn’t ashamed to admit it ;) I was mainly targeting the financial aspect of it and how I don’t mind spending the $$ there since bottled was the only way that got me to actually DRINK water (thus, the money spent was = the health benefits), however, I underestimated the environment part of it and was called out pretty good about it.

6 years later though, I’m proud to exclaim that I very much still drink loads of water, but no longer need to use a new bottle every time in doing so :) Finding this bad boy has helped immensely with that, along with purifying the tap more.

And lottery tickets? Well, my experimenting there is over too as I no longer have as much fun playing them as I used to (nor the time to keep going out and buying them each week). I still enjoy giving, and receiving them, for Christmas as they make excellent (and cheap) stocking stuffers!, but now a days I get my cheap thrills off hanging with my kids or chatting with you all here on the blog ;) I’ll never get rich off of it, but hey – LIFE!

And that’s really the point of everything I’ve learned over the past 9 years. Money is great and severely needed up to a certain point, but once you’ve hit the minimum amount for survival/happiness, the rest just feels like extra. The trick then becomes incrementally improving your *lifestyle*, which is just as challenging, if not more, than figuring out your money.

My dream for everyone here is to be able to master BOTH sides of this equation, and then appreciate the progress we’ve all made so far as well. I don’t know what comes after that, but I’d imagine it’s one helluva place to be at :)

What have you learned over the past 9 years?

*****

PS: As far as I’ve come over the years, I still mess up alllllllll the freakin’ time. Check out last year’s 8 fails over 8 years of blogging for some good ways to feel better about yourself ;)

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Hey guys!

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Reblogs and support are substantially appreciated and are more than helpful <3

Im currently a student, studying math, (and ofc we all know the debt us student have lol but thats not why i need help haha) and i work part time. These past coupe of months ive only been able to work a couple shifts because hours are so in demand - its summer and everyone wants to work. That being said, i dont have much of an income and I just found out my grandfather in Japan is not in the healthiest condition and we have to fly there immediately (i live in america). The last time i visited my family in japan was 11 years ago, for we dont travel there often because of how expensive it is! And having lot of student debt doesnt help lol. This year i had to cope through two deaths, it was very hard because loosing a family member is unimaginable. And I do not want to miss this opportunity seeing my grandpa for the last time.

so anywayss I just whipped this last night for an example, because i havent drawn in a while, so its a very recent example haha

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I will open my full commissions in a few months, so watch out for that :D

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● And you will get a high quality version of your order :) I can either share the final image with you via email or google drive.

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OCs, furries, and animals (if you want to see a old example of dog art, message me!)

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ships/PDA (unless it makes me uncomfortable)

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9 Things I No Longer Do With My Money

9 years ago I blogged about how people who like to “split the check” aren’t my friends anymore. I had totally forgotten about it, but the memories flooded back when I received the following comment on it just this week :)

I know it’s not entirely fair. BUT COME ON, it was only 3 bucks dude. After reading your article, it seems like you are the cheap person there. You had a good time, then just let it go! Chill out dude.

Haha… Fortunately these days I do just “chill out” whenever stuff like this happens (though I’ll still ask for separate checks w/ larger parties! Takes forever trying to pay those bills!) but it was a great reminder of how far I’ve come since first starting this blog all those years ago… Now I’m more likely to “split the check” myself, or pay for the other person’s meal entirely because it’s just a nice thing to do!

But in honor of hitting my 9 year Blogiversary last month which I accidentally skipped (oops), I thought I’d share 9 other things I no longer do either since my early days of paying attention to money.

Hope it helps in some way!

#1. I no longer obsess about money anymore

It helps having more money than I used to, of course, but somewhere along the line I’ve moved way from dreaming about millions, to dreaming about having a great LIFE instead. Which, big shocker, you can actually have with or without gobs of money! Now unfortunately it takes just as much time and energy to figure out how to set this up as it does your finances, but hey – it’s a valiant pursuit :)

#2. I no longer track every last penny

Someone on Twitter just asked me if I thought I’d be where I am today without tracking my money every month, and the answer would be an affirmative NO. I’ve tracked my net worth for over 110 months in a row now, but it was really those first couple of years that were most transformative. Paying attention to where all your money is coming and going is HUGE when you’ve never done it before – it totally opens up your eyes! But once you get a good grasp of it, tracking every last penny isn’t *as* game changing as it is in the beginning.

Now it’ll certainly save you more cash than not tracking it, I guarantee that, but once you’ve got your rhythm down you get the beautiful decision of whether or not it’s worth the trade off of time anymore. If it is, great! You’ll be saving more than me! But after a few years and seeing the same rough expenses over and over again I decided to just stick w/ my net worth which gives me that overall picture I need without driving myself too crazy. Then I’ll just pop my head into the nitty gritty anytime something major happens, like moving or new kids popping up ;) Another big difference between now and 9 years ago – I’m now a daddy, crazy!

#3. I no longer hustle 24/7

In my efforts to improve upon #1 up there, I realized that in fact working more does NOT make me that much happier despite our culture (and entrepreneur friends) telling us it does. In the last 4 years I’ve gone from priding myself in working 20 hour days down to working about 9-10 ones depending on how efficient I am or not. It’s still a lot more than I want – my target is to stop working nights and weekends! – but you know, one step at a time… And it was again those babies that really put all this into perspective because I was on the train straight towards Workaholicsville and couldn’t get off!

#4. I no longer chase credit card deals or the best interest rates or even the hottest stocks

I’ve since learned that I value simplicity far more than I do an extra percentage point on one of my accounts – so long as I have “good enough” (or, 80% for any of you Pareto Principle lovers out there). It means not having every last one of my dollars maximized, but it also means feeling more at peace with myself/wallet and not being so frantic all the time scouring the web for the next hottest deal, or worse – stock. And believe me, even if people can tell you the latest trending stock, they sure as hell can’t tell you when to cash out of it in time!

So there’s no more chasing the markets or looking for the best savings/credit card accounts for me anymore… I keep almost all my banking under one main roof I’m happy with (USAA), and then all my investments under another happy roof (Vanguard). I then keep my sanity and go about my business from there :)

#5. I no longer go shopping for the fun of it

This was one of the first epiphanies I had in my early stage of blogging. I had tried my first “No Spend” challenge where I couldn’t spend any money on stuff that weren’t essentials (bills, groceries, etc), and WOW did I realize I had gotten into a bad habit! I’d literally catch myself pulling into the mall or other random stores anytime I was simply *bored*. And the crazy part was that I had no idea I was doing it!

From that point forward I literally just stopped walking into stores and have saved myself approximately $200/mo ever since… (Now if only there was a way to not stroll into Amazon! ;))

#6. I no longer require new jobs or locations to be happy

This is probably the biggest shocker of them all to me. Having grown up moving around every 2 years in a military family, *change* played a major, and rather exciting!, role in my life. It didn’t matter where I was or what I was doing, as soon as that two year mark hit I was ready to move onto the next glorious adventure awaiting me.

It wasn’t until I went off to college and started working “real” jobs that I realized my normal wasn’t going to be normal anymore… Even so, I struggled with not being able to stay put, whether in location or employment (or relationships!), until finally this blog and my wife were found. Both of which showed that stability can be sexy too :) And coincidentally enough, both found in the same year as well, making it super easy for me to remember the more important anniversary! Haha… And thankfully the entrepreneurial life brings enough change and adventure to keep anyone on their toes.

#7. I no longer care what others think of me

This is also a big turnaround for me over the last handful of years. I still have my weaknesses and seek approval from certain people out of habit, but for the most part I try my best to just be me and do my own thing whether others seem to approve of it or not. Even my beautiful mother – gasp. (As evidence of me still rocking a mohawk at 30-something years old and “looking like a vagabond” with my ragged clothes, per this same mother ;))

Another perk of running a blog, however, is that you also learn how to grow some thick skin as there’s never a shortage of people who find it necessary to tell you how they really feel. Here are a few of these kinds words I’ve saved from only the past handful of months:

“The content is good, but I’m unsubscribing because I have a difficult time with the grammar style of this blog. I feel like I’m reading text messages, not trying to save for retirement.”

“I don’t really care to read about your life for the few nuggets of financial advice you give. My time is too valuable.”

“Oh, and I listen to your podcast with Paula. Love her, but you sound like a clueless 16 year old valley girl.”

“Not the most professional blog.. way too many smiley faces on everything.  I also cannot believe you rent!  You did introduce me to Rockstar Finance though, so thanks!”

And my all-time favorite:

“He says really nice things but looks like a weirdo. But i guess thats why people like him. Hes like the Miley Cyrus of Finance”

#8. I no longer watch the news/Facebook/media

Want a great way to feel worse about your life? Go scrolling through the news or your Facebook feed :) I used to be obsessed with keeping on top of everything, as well as what all my friends were doing/ buying/flying, and then I realized I never left any of those places actually feeling *better* than when I got there. I’d either feel depressed, jealous, anxious, or just plain scared.

So I stopped reading everything and deactivated all of my personal social media accounts except those relating to this blog. I’ve been in bliss ever since! Now it also means I don’t always know what the hell is going on in the world, but again – trade offs. And my wife is quick to tell me anything she thinks I better know :)

#9. I no longer buy bottled water or lottery tickets!

If you were around this blog in 2011 you might remember the hate storm that occurred when I proudly exclaimed that I drink bottled water and wasn’t ashamed to admit it ;) I was mainly targeting the financial aspect of it and how I don’t mind spending the $$ there since bottled was the only way that got me to actually DRINK water (thus, the money spent was = the health benefits), however, I underestimated the environment part of it and was called out pretty good about it.

6 years later though, I’m proud to exclaim that I very much still drink loads of water, but no longer need to use a new bottle every time in doing so :) Finding this bad boy has helped immensely with that, along with purifying the tap more.

And lottery tickets? Well, my experimenting there is over too as I no longer have as much fun playing them as I used to (nor the time to keep going out and buying them each week). I still enjoy giving, and receiving them, for Christmas as they make excellent (and cheap) stocking stuffers!, but now a days I get my cheap thrills off hanging with my kids or chatting with you all here on the blog ;) I’ll never get rich off of it, but hey – LIFE!

And that’s really the point of everything I’ve learned over the past 9 years. Money is great and severely needed up to a certain point, but once you’ve hit the minimum amount for survival/happiness, the rest just feels like extra. The trick then becomes incrementally improving your *lifestyle*, which is just as challenging, if not more, than figuring out your money.

My dream for everyone here is to be able to master BOTH sides of this equation, and then appreciate the progress we’ve all made so far as well. I don’t know what comes after that, but I’d imagine it’s one helluva place to be at :)

What have you learned over the past 9 years?

*****

PS: As far as I’ve come over the years, I still mess up alllllllll the freakin’ time. Check out last year’s 8 fails over 8 years of blogging for some good ways to feel better about yourself ;)

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Dear Crashpad Diary #19

Yooooooooo you chalky beasts (climbing version of “filthy bastards” hahahah)

How are you all doing there?? I hope youre having fun and smiling as hell!! hehe

Sport-wise… whats the story??? Climbing?? Skiing?? badmington-ing? Chess-ing?? hahahaha

Talking about chess… I´m constantly making a joke that I should have gone for chess instead of climbing… that way my  fingers would suffer a little less and I would be able to grab a mug of coffee without the heinous feeling that I´m touching lava with my finger tips!! hahahaha

During our last days in Hampi… I was with that rage for finish projects… actually I had few projects and started putting them in order of priorities… considering the ones I was closer and I was sure that I could get in no time… that way I was going pretty much early mornings and late afternoons for them…. during the day though… I had not much to do other than eating… reading… and some of this activities that you stay relaxed and chill in one place… not moving much… thats the problem… if I don’t move I kinda go crazy… so… my afternoons were fulfilled with slackline sessions… nice sport… good for balance… concentration and not fingers or upper body related… should be good…. right?? haha

Well… I love doing new tricks and I started feeling pretty comfy doing jumps and all… and from that you can imagine… or you can search for slackline comps online and you gonna find out how mad are these guys jumping around haha… I don´t get even closer but I´m getting there hehehe

As you can imagine… falls are inevitable… mainly for me haha So… one day we woke up… went for my project… didn’t get… closer and closer though…. came back… brekkie…. rest a bit and Slackline… jump jump jump… slip… hit the line with my chest… could hear people that was watching going all “uuuuuuuffff”… cuz my headphone fell on the ground with the impact… fortunately I was fine… stood up… didn’t feel much.. just the impact and got a nice line drew on my chest by the slackline hehehe

The next morning went for my beloved problem called Sharmilla´s Hug… got even closer but no send…. I was feeling fine… went back… relaxed the whole afternoon and went back… didn’t slackline cuz I was feeling the ribs bruised… decided for putting the energy on the climbing… warmed up… sadly on the first go I was already suffering with the pain… gave other 2 goes and struggled in each one of them… I didnt want to believe but the 6 months of non-stop climbing had come to an end because of a line hanging between 2 trees… thats messed up!! hahahahah

At least I missed only 4 sessions after all!! Gladly, no one got injured during the trip… the balance so far was one visit to the hospital but that wasn’t me and everything was more than fine hehehehe =)

So… the rest of our Indian days we seized eating all the dishes we knew we would miss hahahah what a great way to finish the trip hahahahah Dosas, Idlis, Thalis, Homemade muesli, salads, Dal, Chenna, Currys and loads of other scrumptious dishes!! =)

Aaaaaaaand we´re off to Nepal…  hooray… went to the boat to cross the river cuz we had an overnight bus… whole day waiting at the airport in Bombay and then a flight to Kathmandu waiting for us… not before crossing from Hampi island… so… we were in that boat with heavy backpacks, crash pads and another small bags… I was in one side and Stephen the other… there was a group of Indian guys from Hospet and we started chatting… they are always good vibes… selfies as usual going on… and the time passing… it was already 5pm and our bus would leave at 6:05pm… ok… we have time… 15 mins later we were in the middle of a battle and not getting any fucking thing hahahah We were there and one of the guys from Hospet (a small city near Hampi), started shouting sth to the guy that runs the boat… related to the time he was taking to leave… the guy replied sth bad… I guess… cuz this guy that was in that group… who was pretty cool and kind… turned into a daredevil, stood up and ran straight to the boat man…. so they started arguing freaking loud… hands and fingers pointing each ones face… the other guys left the boat too… every time someone left their places the boat would move as it were rolling hahahah and we were full of equips tied up to our backpacks fixing the balance hahahah that was funny and scared hahahahaha

In the end people from the other side came to participate (as they are pretty participative in every happening hahahahaha)… suddenly we had loads of people shouting… the two boats anchored and loads of tourists waiting to cross the river… not forgetting that we kept balancing every now and then cuz someone would leave their places and put the whole boat “driedness” at stake hahahah After all the madness we got to cross and took the tuktuks to Hospet…

I think its fate of having adventures… I ended up getting the same driver that almost killed us in a crash when we went to Sri Lanka few months before hahahahahaha but this time he behaved hahahahaha

Sweeeeet…. we got to Kathmandu… quite good flight!! The dumb prize this time goes toooooo….. Me…. we had to grab some food at the airport in Bombay… chose the Subway among all the fast food shops because is the one with veggie option…. got the one I thought was the only option but totally forgot that we were in India and there the veggie rules…. hahahahah Was so sad for not choosing sth different among all the possibilities…. Stephen was smarter and got some “Super hyper mega paneer tofu soya totally organic veggie forever” sandwich…. but I enjoyed my Lettuce-tomato-plastic cheese sub!! hahahahahah

Kathmandu is cool!!! The people is extremely kind, cute, shy and smiley (I loved it!! =))… also the vibes in the city are incredibly good!!

It´s sad to see that many places are still destroyed or under construction because of the earthquake that hit the country in 2015. The amount of buildings skeletons or constructions rest you can find is out of my mind… and the whole city look like a construction site. At first, when I got here I couldn’t understand the reason to so much dust in the air… you can see, you can feel and you can even taste the smog… the way is to mimic the locals and use a mask most part of the time when you go outside… fortunately we will not stay long in KTM and wbouldedrill head to the mountains soon… fresh and cold air!! =)

haha yet relate to smoke.. while in Hampi the hype was offer “climbing banana, mango banana… (whispering) marijuana??”… over here they ask us every second “Do you smoke??” hahaha there was even a guy cycling the rickshaw who came close to us… didn’t stop and as he was passing by threw the question at us… but didnt stop… what was he thinking?? We would start chasing him shouting “Yeah Yeah… we smoke… do you have some???” hahahahah Or the other guy that came to Stephen… it seems that all the weirdos like him tho…. the sketchy guy came with a strange look… like crazy eyes… asking “”dooooosmoooooke??” hahaha that was so funny hehehe

We got to go to the climbing gym here with a couple that we met in Hampi… Denis and Maddie… really good vibes people and strong climbers!!

haha after 6 months climbing outdoors… plastic feels weird but it was cool climbing some gymnastic problems… quite similar to Rocklands and the style I love the most… great set… good people over there and we already got some contacts to go outdoors and met some strong Nepali climbers!!

After the sesh my ribs… that were still sore… started hurting a bit more… but we were going for food and you know… food always cure! hahaha We ate a dish called Takhali… it´s kinda thali but you get refills… as many as you want…. now you can imagine how hard we hit that hahahaha

Well…. I can’t keep fooling myself with takhalis for too long so, as my ribs were still pretty bruised and I didn’t know what was the story there, I decided to go to the hospital and check… the doctor as soon as started checking me with the stethoscope confirmed that I had a broken rib…. now it makes sense hehehe Thats why I didn’t send Sharmilla´s Hug… how would I hug that huge boulder… keeping the compression without all my ribs??? hahaha

He gave me some ibuprofen for the next 5 days and I´ll have to drop the climbing for few weeks… told ya…. should´ve gone for chess!! hahahahaha

The funniest part was checking the X-ray and chatting about all the other fractures I had and having them checking my collarbone that I broke in 4 parts years ago… “wow… I can see it…. can I touch it??” said the doc when he saw it!! hahahahaha

Anyways… maybe it is because of the cold weather, the tiredness for the past months, the change of the altitude or the injury… but since I got to Nepal I´m sleeping like a beast… loads… serious…. laziness is hitting as hell… fortunately thats exactly what I have to do right now before going for the trekking!! =) so… lets eat sleep and repeat!! hahahaha

Looking forward for the time we will go for the climb surf sleep and repeat!! hahahah

Hope you all are awesome and having fun with my posts and don´t worry… my ribs are already 127%…. in few days itll be 209%!! =)

Cheers beasts!! and good vibes!! =)

Evan

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I especially like you DON'T need to know it all.

All you need is a decent following or readers that trust you to start making a few sales.

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Yes there're many ways to earn money online.

You should find what fits you. To you face long hard road of building awareness, without it. I'm sure you heard about this. I had a couple of favorites until I read last one Someone Is All Ready Doing It.

It's much easier to compete in a niche that's already proven to work well for others.

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Yea if blogging was as easy as putting up ads and making money so we should all be rich.

That is great that you are finding your voice.

STRONG community first, and active community on your blog way before you push any products. Both you and I know what a harsh reality awaits them. I see a lot more people deluded by prospect of easy and huge income from blogging or online ventures. Thats what we need, more people to dispell myths and shout bullshit where necessary! Keeping your day job as you grow your blog will let your grow your blog with less pressure to achieve goals. Therefore, if you quit your job and wanted to make a living off your blog. You see, indeed your intro caught me once again.

Especially last part that you have to stay commited, success never happens over night. Excellent post John. I think another MUST for bloggers is networking and crosspromotion. Really important Whether not is up to debate but I believe that networking with other bloggers and building a readership beyond your personal graph is really,, or they knew that was what they have been doing at totime. Most successful blogs were able to create bridge points across different social graphs. Quitting your for any longer being that you've started blogging ain't a wise thing to do. Of course thanks very much for sharing. You must be certain your blog is bringing nice income before taking that bold step! Your same statement about making little with a couple of products VS a lot with one product can hold true for blogs as well.

Here's why micro niche's are becoming more popular and there're so most of them. Having 1020 microsites with $ 100 earnings every is $ 1000- $ 2000 and is easier to achieve than attempting to invest in a single site to reach those goals, it's far easier to earn $ 100 per month from one site than So it's to earn $ 1000 a month from one site. What are some blogging Lies you have heard? Tags. Hey John, all valid points. I think That's a fact, it's good that someone is finally showing things way they really are. Yea, I believe if poeople look for to make an extra 100 $ a month so they can do that pretty fast, 6 months or so. Yes, that's right! For you, I'm almost sure I say do some basic learning of blogging and WordPress hereafter just get to work.

Whenever learning things I felt I needed before I started my blog, m a little compulsive haha, I'm quite sure I could of started sooner but I wanted to be ready, To be honest I spent about 2 months just reading blogs.

An online business can move in different directions we just have to seize those chances when they come and roll with it.

Congratulations on your Social Media Manger clients and being in a position to take them on. It's a decent lesson for us all. Everyone should be rich, if it was this easy. Great point John, and I also agree with Pawel. Needless to say, a number of people have notion that setting up a blog with a bunch of ads and driving some traffic to their site will make them rich. Notice, micro niche blogs are becomign harder to do well with sicne Google new focus on quality.

Starting a blog is pretty easy and cheap.

Add to that Guest Posting, basic Search Engine Optimisation, Article Marketing and those are just a few ways to drive traffic to your new blog at no cost.

Now with social media, you can build a nice following of readers at no cost. You can get setup with a free blog and a $ 10 domain and your up and running. Basically, I think And so it's critical for people to find their passion, most certainly if you care a lot about your subject somebody else will So work that it will take to give it your all is like a marriage, and society has already proven that you may lose more than you win. Known I think it's possible that gonna be successful while others would not. With that said, your post has added more substance to this mad blog world, it's an ideal place to start.

Blogs are awesome for so many reason, people need to start for those reasons not merely for money since money wont come for awhile.

What I will say is you have to like blogging, you have to like all things that go with blogging for you to be successful for ages long time.

While learning to do all that is what actually was hard, as soon as you get all that clicking gether therefore a blogging income will come pretty fast. I especially like last part. For example, that one shouldn't be afraid to 'reinvent' wheel and try out things that others have done before you. Fact, if your talking about a full income from blogging so your looking at hard work for AT LEAST a year before you will see anything good. This is where it starts getting interesting. Mom was right.

There're many way you can make a blogging income. You just need to find what fits you and your blog. Basically the past 5 months I was getting clients hiring me to be their Social Media Manager. Because of what I was doing on my blog and social proof, they reached out to me, I'm almost sure I never planned to offer this service and I never even had it on my blog. For example. I am learning and working to make second income online. Let me tell you something. Love to have life balance and build my own side business in niche marketing, I'm consumed by my busy job. John, so it's an outstanding about all tolies.

Plenty of people wanna profit blogging in this down economy.

There's no get rich quick and free lunch.

Indeed, it should take time and hard work. Not, hell they both continue to learn today. You think John Chow or Darren Rowse knew everything about blogging before they started, right? Every successful blogger started at the initial stage. Anyways, you have to go with what you know and learn rest as you go.on job training. The reality is you are better to put out 5 -10 smaller products around one big product that way if your goal is to make $ 5000 a month, it going to be easier to make $ 500 to $ 1000 per product so it will be to make full $ 5000 from one product.

Making money from blogging takes time and lots of effort, much more than what you usually give to your employer and it may take years how many burger places we have in town, I reckon about They do compete for customers but all offer different experiences. Blogging is identical thing. I know it's funny you mentioned to burger joint. Content that is discused is fine to write here and there sinc eno one has your view point as well as like you said, its not new to you but it can be to your readers. Blogging is just one from many points of earning money online Either another,, or way. Also, try other way, if not. Furthermore, for people who succeed, job well done to them. Accordingly the point is to be authentic, form a strong relationship with your readers, and eventually money will come.

Lets not forget that now we're all interconnected in a global scale, that allows us to reach even a broader audience.

Competition is good, and there're so many people to reach out to one blogger could never do it all.

There're many bloggers that earn a blogging income doing quite similar thing and So there're just fine, as far as blogging. YAY! What I was really doing best in order to say is that it's an ideal post. Furthermore, it's only repetitive to me. As a result, after that, I believe two things. Essentially, my content had been discussed before but I have alternative perspective and spin. My readers may not know about bloggers that are bigger than for ages being that I target different markets. You should take this seriously. Everyday, I'm pretty sure I worry that my content is repetitive.

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kidjang replied to your post:Hey I’ve been feeling a little down about my art... Reply and response under the cut

1) i really like how you draw hair a lot!!! and other fluid movements. your full body stuff looks very natural to me and your coloring also reflects that-in that its very soft even when you cell shade. im a big fan of your eyes and under eye lashes style for certain characters. i like echo drumstick and silences hair a lot, i think you can really play around with how hair sits (and on that note, how fabrics sit as well) 2) now to my suggestions. this is @ myself also, but try to do more away from 3/4 head busts. its an ok warm up, but try doing 30 second/15 second gestures with posemaniacs or something thats more full body or at least torso up including arms and hands. then try playing with more dynamic face shapes. i usually end up in a space where I Just Dont Know What To Draw. so i would say pick a series and put a bunch of character names through a random generator and then draw them with exaggerated features. include characters that you wouldnt necessarily draw-i did this with DA2 a few weeks ago and it was actually kind of nice exercise. i didnt like most of what i drew but it was a better way to exaggerate m!hawke's muscles to suddenly a much more snake like orisino to very round merrill etc i think i get a huge tendency to get stuck in same face syndrome and everything looks the same sans hair for me ;~; so ive been playing with nose sizes, lip sizes with mouth closed, big cheeks, big chins-sometimes drawing from real life/red carpet photos is fun bc everyones faces are just a little bit more different  most of all i suggest redrawing some of your art in more dynamic ways. if its a head bust, make them have a much bigger expression. if its a chibi, make them doing a bigger action or interacting with something. your art has definitely improved even from like 6 months ago i think. just take a little more leap of faith and know that you are doing better than you think you are. i literally wrote an essay im sorry i love u, u got this <3

Aaaaa I’m really glad you wrote so much, sorry I had to put a break on it haha. I’m glad you think I make hair and fabric sit well b/c thats one of the things I always worry gets too stiff at some points. And yeah I get stuck in 3/4ths left facing hell. I’ve been trying to play with profile views but get caught on lips ( I used to do em so well idk why I can’t anymore haha) I recently bought one of those figma mannequin body-kuns or w/e they’re called so I’m hoping that’ll help with pushing poses for something I like, that was always my problem with posemanics is I couldn’t ge tthe pose and angle I wanted. ALSO THE CHARACTER RANDOMIZER IS A SUPER GOOD IDEA! I’m defs gonna have to use that. I think there was one somewhere that was an OC randomizer, I need to find that and use that to draw too, that should help with bodies and faces. I know i need to experiment more and get out of my comfort zone  to push  my art to a better place but I get fed up easily, just gotta be more persistant next time >n< Thanks so much for all this JJ  <3