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i muse about this a lot, specially considering how every other day it gets revealed a very well known author / creator/ etc turned out to be an abuser or generally a terrible person.... and naturally people are shocked or betrayed because that person's creations (or the message of them) often completely goes against their horrible actions
and yes, it is terrible every time it happens, and people have a right to be upset about it but it just convinces me more of this (and it's been proven over and over):
horrible people can make beautiful and inspiring things, "wholesome" things, just as incredibly kind and well meaning people can write about "fucked up shit" (and get called freaks for it, which is just wrong)
thinking that you can understand a person or their morals solely by the kind of fiction they consume or create is a fall-trap. it's bound to fail 90% of the time
yes, people's biases influence their creations (this is an inevitability and it affects how they interact with others and several aspects of their lives and choices) but you cannot make a 100% accurate profile of a person based on what they create or enjoy in a fictional context, even if what they like is super weird or fucked up (to you) (subjective!). people aren't merely this or that, there's many greys in the middle (again this is a very general statement, often you gotta look at these things case by case)
there's also this thing with associating "what i consider weird=what is bad" and just bc you dislike something or think it's weird doesn't mean it's harmful. i think foot fetishes or pregnancy kinks are weird because i don't like them and they make me uncomfortable, but ppl who like that stuff aren't harming anybody for liking that and i won't judge someone cause they tell me they like that (i will simply do what i always did, mute the tag) (like wow you can CHOOSE to NOT engage with what you don't like!!!!)
like overall, my tastes are pretty tame(? imo, i don't like 99% of dead-dove, and i won't engage with it, but i know people who do and while i can't understand WHY they enjoy it, i don't immediately assume they are secretly abusers or fucked in the head for liking that. i think that at the end of the day, people need fiction to escape reality, which CAN be very fucked up! and horrible!, so if in their spare time they wanna read idk cannibalism fantasy and let their mind float for a while before having to return to dealing with bills and rent or impending doom in the horizon...who am i to judge.
reality can be stressful enough already. we all deal with that differently and w/ different types of fiction; that's why some prefer horror or others romance but at the end of the day both are fantasies. real romance doesn't work like in books, at least not down to a T. heck, i love to read romance but i want little to nothing to do with it in real life: my taste in fiction doesn't define what i'd enjoy in real life. i love to read abt my faves getting fucked but irl i couldn't care less for that. fiction can be its own contained universe, with its own laws, and that's what's FUN and interesting about creating. once you close the book/game/etc you leave that universe and come back to reality's laws; you don't need a piece of fiction to tell you what's right or wrong in real life, that's not it's job (but yes a piece of fiction can inspire you and leave you with a beautiful message! not mutually exclusive! IT'S COMPLEX!!! ) (fiction can also be realistic but it doesn't mean it's = reality)
but well all that nuance gets more and more lost as time goes by and i'm tired and this was just me rambling
#text#sonny muses#thinking out loud rn#this was a random ramble on a thursday good evening n good night
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Sacred Tradition
A/N: Hi again! This was a quick idea that was bouncing around my head for the past two days. This is a little shorter than my last, and I honestly didn't even read through it once I finished typing it out, so... try not to judge me too hard for silly errors. - Hy
Just a special shoutout to @bl0ssomanddie whose compliment made me cheese so hard that I couldn't help but continue trying this whole "posting my writing" thing out.
Warnings: ramblings, momentary angst, fluffy ending
Word Count: 2.8k
Per tradition, Thursday nights were movie nights at Eddieâs little apartment.Â
Since the whole Vecna thing had gone down, he and Wayne had gotten a good settlement from the government to keep their mouths shut about what they knew, and then another for the accusations and resulting manhunt that had caused Eddie mental anguish and physical harm. As soon as heâd graduated high school, heâd gotten himself a little apartment on the nicer side of town, moving out of the house he and Wayne had been moved into once the trailer park was deemed unlivable. As soon as the town was cleared for entry, youâd taken a flight from your college town on the east coast to head back to your hometown, where your friends were. (Not that it looked the same, since the government had to jump through hoops to fix up what Vecna had left behind. Or officially, the âearthquake.â) The only reason you knew anything about Vecna was because Eddie had written almost a journalâs worth of letters to you, with polaroid photograph evidence, and testimonials from his friends before heâd been sworn to secrecy. So naturally, when youâd come home, youâd been panicked to see him and hear about the story in person. You had just entered your junior year of college, but after the chaos of Hawkins splitting open, you couldnât bear to be away anymore. You decided you were staying in town, and youâd finish your degree at your local college, while you worked locally. Fridays were the only weekdays you didnât have class, and thus had started your movie night tradition.Â
By the time youâd gotten your degree and gotten your own little apartment in town, youâd both felt it was inappropriate to change sacred movie night tradition. Eddie didnât work at the shop on Fridays, and you didnât work the opening shift at the store, so Thursdays continued to work. Sometimes, however, Eddie liked to break tradition and hold movie night at your place instead.Â
That particular Thursday, Eddieâs oven unit had been acting up, so heâd called you to request the change in venue, and you didnât mind it one bit. A functioning oven was a must, otherwise you couldnât cook your instant stovetop popcorn, and neither of you would dare do movie night without your popcorn. He arrived early, as you were getting home from work, so you left him to his own devices while you went to shower and get into your comfiest sweats.Â
Typically, with Eddieâs endless supply of energy, he usually found something productive to do with it. However, he was typically in his own apartment, which meant he could pick up one of his current reads when he was bored and read until you gave him attention again. At your place, however, it was a little harder to find a way to tamp down his energy. He chose to just read anything and everything with text that was on your coffee table. This included a mailer ad youâd received for a car, an electrical bill that was annoyingly lower than his own, and a fashion catalog. The problem was that none of these things were near interesting enough, so when he saw an open journal tucked in the bottom shelf of the coffee table, he had to grab it.Â
He started flipping through pages of random notes youâd made: movies you wanted to watch, a word you wanted to look up in a dictionary, a D&D campaign idea for Eddie, and then a bunch of blank pages. As he was about to give up on that, he flipped to a later page on accident, and saw youâd doodled a bunch of hearts, and in the middle was your name⊠with his last name tacked on. It stopped him in his tracks, and he just stared down at the page awhile, trying to process if he was seeing what he thought he was seeing. After he gathered his bearings again, he flipped through more pages, and found his name doodled all over the edges of the pages, and hearts. He also found plenty more instances of your name with his Munson surname. Feeling that heâd definitely seen something he wasnât supposed to, he closed the journal and put it on the coffee table, halfway covering it with a TV guide that was on the side table beside him, and sitting back on the couch, tense.Â
When you were done with your shower and fully dressed, you came out, scrunching your hair dry with your towel. You smiled when you entered the living room, âready for some Gremlins?â He gave you a strange smile and a stiff nod, but you didnât read too much into it, knowing Eddie had a tendency of being weird at times. Instead, you went to grab the movie from the shelf, tossing the box to him before going to prepare the popcorn. He was quiet while you did so, but again, you tried to give him the benefit of the doubt. When everything was ready, you headed to the couch with the bowl of popcorn in arm.Â
You were about to take your usual seat curled up with him when you spotted your journal on the coffee table, underneath a TV guide. Only you hadnât left the journal there earlier that morning. When you realized what must have happened, your stomach sank to your toes, and you sat a respectable distance from him as the movie previews began. You put the popcorn bowl in the space between you, and tried to calm your now racing heart as the movie began. Usually, movie nights together were full of laughter and silly comments, especially when watching movies youâd already seen a million times. This time was not like those times. Unfortunately, he was too shocked at this new information to be normal, and you were too petrified that he knew how you felt to act cool. It meant that the whole movie night was weird and tense, and when it was time for him to go, you tried to act as normal as possible, waving before closing the door and locking it behind him, and then collapsing on the ground to stare at the hardwood and contemplate just about every life decision youâd ever made.Â
You shouldnât have left your journal in your living room. It was such a stupid mistake. One you never made. But you hadnât expected Eddie to change plans and decide to go to your place instead of his own, so it hadnât even crossed your mind until youâd seen it there. You couldnât be upset with him, he knew he was welcome to look through whatever you left in your living room. He knew not to snoop in your bedroom, but living room was fair game. He had seen your deepest, darkest secret. You had been so good about hiding your crush on Eddie. Youâd never once let on, at least not in your eyes, and he certainly never seemed to notice. You thought you were in the clear. But the way heâd tensed around you today? That was all the information you needed. Not only did he not know prior to now, but he was uncomfortable around you now that he did know. Needless to say, you would not be speaking with Eddie anytime soon.Â
Eddie stood outside your door for a few minutes after youâd closed it, and heâd heard the lock turn. He stared at the parking lot a few yards away, just trying to process what heâd just experienced. If heâd understood correctly, his best friend was writing her name with his last name in her journal, surrounded by hearts⊠meaning she liked him. More importantly, she returned his feelings. Heâd been in love with her for so long, but had never had the nerve to take things to the next level, for fear sheâd reject him. Now, there was no more fear of that.Â
But heâd done something much, much worse, instead. Heâd made it seem like he wasnât interested. It was an accident! He had seen that information, and he couldnât wrap his mind around what heâd read! So heâd let things get tense and awkward, and then he couldnât very well do anything about it, because he had the distinct feeling sheâd seen what heâd been doing. Heâd succeeded at making her uncomfortable, and that was about it. He looked back at the door after his entire thought process had concluded, and noticed your living room lights were out, so youâd definitely retreated to your bedroom. He wouldnât knock again, so instead he hurried to his car and raced home, before calling you and nearly chewing his nails off as he waited for you to pick up. When you didnât, he called again. And again. On the fourth time, he got a busy signal instead of just no response. He went to bed with a heavy heart that night, afraid you hated him now.Â
Youâd heard the phone ring the first time, and you just knew it had to be Eddie. Surely, he wanted to smooth things over and let you down easy, but you really didnât want to hear the pity in his voice. So youâd covered your ears with your pillow, and hoped the phone would stop ringing. Instead, he called again, and again. So after the third time, you just took the phone off the hook and hoped heâd get the hint. You waited an agonizing twenty minutes before putting it back in its place and then finally letting yourself get to sleep, knowing youâd have nightmares that night. The next morning, you took yourself to your favorite coffee shop as a treat, figuring you could at least do something nice for yourself considering your relationship with your best friend was imploding entirely.Â
Unbeknownst to you, Eddie had gone to your apartment early to try and find you before work, only to find your car missing from the parking lot. He then tried the store you worked at, and didnât see your car there, either. He waited a bit, in front of the store, before deciding to just go home and give you some space. On his way to his apartment, he found himself instead turning onto Wayneâs street, to try and get some advice. Wayne wasnât home either, so he collapsed onto the old manâs couch and ended up falling asleep there. Heâd get his uncleâs advice when he got home, surely.Â
You had no idea the trouble eddie had gone to to find you, so you went about your workday as normally as you could. Thankfully, your boss suggested closing early that night, and you grabbed takeout and headed straight home, refusing to speak to anyone. You found yourself watching one of your favorite romantic films, working yourself up about the whole situation despite not actually having spoken to Eddie about it all. You just didnât want to see the pity on his face when he let you down easy. Youâd much rather he just pretended nothing ever happened.Â
The next day, the only reason youâd had peace was because Eddie worked Saturdays at the shop. It was his longest shift. He got paid extra for it, since no one else wanted to work Saturdays. That meant that by the time he got home that night, he was too tired to pester you, and fell asleep quickly. But the next day, he was determined to follow Wayneâs advice. He woke up extra early, picking up your favorite drink and pastry from your favorite coffee shop, and headed to your apartment. He knew that knocking wouldnât be helpful, so he had gotten there just in time to wait outside your car until you left for work.Â
When you opened your front door and saw the familiar mop of curls by your car, your heart nearly jumped out of your chest. You took steadying breaths, and tried to remain calm. Once your door was locked, you walked towards your car with your eyes on the sidewalk, then the asphalt. You unlocked your car door and he appeared at your side to hand you the drink and pastry. You looked up at him silently, before taking the treats with a soft thanks, putting the cup in its cupholder and the pastry on your passenger seat. He grabbed your arm, however, to keep you from getting in the car yourself. âPlease,â he said simply.Â
You stared at the hand on your arm and closed your eyes a moment, before letting out a breath and responding, âI really donât want to talk right now, Iâm going to be late for work.â But that excuse didnât work with him, because he knew what time you had to be at work to open the store.Â
âWe need to talk, please. You havenât talked to me in two full days. Thursday night, you avoided my calls. Iâm not leaving until you talk to me, and Iâm not letting you leave either,â he used his position to switch you, and close your car door - leaning on it for good measure. You took a breath and stared at him, expression unreadable, before shaking your head.Â
âNo, I donât really have anything to say, and I donât need you to say anything either. Everything is fine and normal and great and Iâll talk to you later,â you tried to avoid the situation entirely, but your attempt proved fruitless.Â
âNope,â he crossed his arms in front of his chest. âIâm not leaving until you talk to me, sweetheart. Thatâs not how we work, and you know it.â
âYou shouldnât have snooped,â you said simply, âyou shouldnât have gone through my journal.â
He blinked, surprised that youâd bring it up first. âWell- yeah, thatâs probably true. And Iâm sorry about that, really, I am. But Iâm not mad I saw what I saw, you know?â
This time it was your turn to look surprised, your eyebrows scrunching together in confusion. âWhat do you mean? You sat there, stiff as a board, all night. If my feelings make you that uncomfortable, I donât know what you possibly want to talk to me about. I got it, youâre not interested, okay? I donât need you to-â
Eddie laughed and covered your mouth gently with his hand, effectively shutting you up, but shocking you as you stared up at him with wide eyes at the audacity. âCan you let me finish? I wasnât uncomfortable about your feelings, okay? I was sitting there for an hour and a half, trying to figure out if the girl Iâve been totally pining over for ages actually doodled her name with mine, or if I was entirely insane. And then you got stiff as a board, and I thought for sure Iâd messed everything up. Do you know how long I stood outside your door after you locked up? Probably like, fifteen to twenty minutes. Standing there. And then when I ran home to call you, you didnât pick up. Those are mixed signals if Iâve ever seen âem,â he pointed out, slowly retracting his hand from your mouth.Â
âFirst of all,â you pointed your finger in his face in a familiar sassy attitude that made him feel a little more comfortable than your previous silence. âDonât you ever shut me up like that again, Iâll kill you. Second of all, I- what?â You finally deflated, puzzled at his admission and not fully grasping it. âI donât understand, so⊠you werenât uncomfortable with my feelings? You were uncomfortable with⊠the not knowing? And I donât understand, why did you stand at my door-â Eddie laughed warmly at your rambling, cheeks pink, and that time shut you up an entirely different way - by grabbing your face in his hands and leaning down to kiss you.
You felt like your heart might explode, and the butterflies in your stomach erupted like nothing youâd ever felt before. It took a moment before you finally closed your eyes and let yourself melt into it, before pushing him away from you with a pouty angry look, making his own eyes go wide this time. âI told you not to shut me up, Edward,â you huffed, though your flushed cheeks said you werenât really angry with him. He hummed and brought his hands to your hips, pulling you closer to him as he leaned down to kiss your cheek this time.Â
âOops. You should get to work, youâre really gonna be lateâŠâ he teased, and you smacked his arm.Â
âYouâre driving me to work today. And youâre driving me home. And buying me pizza,â you told him simply.Â
âYeah,â he grinned. âI think I can handle that.â
#my writing#eddie munson#eddie munson x reader#eddie munson x you#eddie munson fanfic#eddie munson drabble#eddie munson imagine#eddie munson fic#stranger things#x reader#hy's writing#chrissy cunningham#eddie munson fluff#eddie munson blurb#my fic#eddie munson oneshot
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Bad Dream
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Female Reader
Warnings: Nightmares, Mysterious passes, Breaking and entering, Panic attack, Breaking washers, Bucky touches your underwear (whoops...)
Summary: You and Bucky are not only neighbors but friends for months now. You two are close... but are still finding out new things about each other...
Word Count: 2,613
A/N: This was inspired by an amazing request got from an anon. I loved the idea so much that I can see this being turned into a full series if enough people like it! Just let me know! I look forward to feedback like always! and request are always open!
Part two in the works!
"So... What am I eating?"Â Â
Bucky says almost suspiciously as he looks at the macaroni noodle on his fork.
"I can not believe you are so picky," you say, rolling your eyes before taking a delightful bite of the casserole dish you made. Once swallowed, you point your fork accusingly toward Bucky. "It's called tuna mac. It's cheap to make but delicious. Now you can either eat it, or I will stop being such a friendly neighbor and stop sharing my dinners with you."
Bucky chuckles before giving you a smirk, "If that's the case, don't come knocking on my door when something of yours breaks again."Â
You huff, he doesn't play fair.Â
He watches as you pout and sigh before he takes the macaroni and tuna mix into his mouth. When he eats it, his eyes bulge slightly. "That's actually really good?"
"See, you just need to trust me neighbor. It's something my mom used to make. Boil noodles, mix up the sauce, and top with cheese. It tastes better than it sounds."Â
Bucky smiles as you ramble on. When you look over at him, he quickly goes back to looking at his plate, mixing it around as he makes a face before eating more. "That's true. This is way better than that chicken we had last Thursday."Â Â
"Hey! We agreed to forget that monstrosity!"
Of course, Bucky laughs at your dramatics, and you can't help but echo it back. Thursday night dinners have become your favorite tradition since moving in; no matter how shitty your week could have been, this always lifts up your spirits, even just a little bit.
Most people in your building seem to avoid Bucky; they won't join him in the elevator or even greet him at the mailboxes. They judge his past... but who are you to judge?
Though getting to know him didn't happen instantly, it happened because of an accident you might have causedâŠ
You have been fighting with these washers and dryers since you moved in. And now here you are fighting with the washer. The stupid thing won't spin, and it's starting to flood with water. You paused the cycle and knew that you should just ask the maintenance guy for help, but that has the risk of being blamed for it being broken.
Distracted, you don't notice someone walking in to use the other machines. Honestly, it's surprising someone else is up this late just to do their laundry. So much for not running into anyone while you're dressed in your lazy day pajamasâno bra just to add to the pending embarrassmentâŠ
Trying your best to keep your head down and fix the machine as silently as possible, you didn't realize that your rattling around has definitely drawn attention. Until a shadow is cast over you. Turning slightly, you look up at the imposing figure and see your next-door neighbor. James Barnes... Ex Winter soldier and a current Avenger...Â
His head tilts as he stares down at you, "Problem?"Â
This is the first time you have really seen him up close⊠he's much taller than you thought, and his eyes are the clearest shade of blue⊠You shamelessly let your eyes wonder over him, his hair looks freshly cut but his jaw is still decorated with a scruff. He's dressed so casually it throws you off, if you didn't see him on TV or see the vibranium arm holding the basket of clothes you would think he's just some random dude... a cute random dude. While you're clearly staring, Bucky shifts on his feet, his scowl deepening.
Great, now you not only look crazy now your staring... you mentally chastise yourself for being rude before pulling your hand from the filled drum to offer him a handshake, stumbling out your name in the process. This was a mistake, however, because you ended up splashing the super soldier with washer water⊠-ShitâŠÂ
You look around forb something to wipe him with only finding one of your old tees, When you offer it he lifts his brow before just wiping the liquid away with his hand.
"I'm sorry, and yeah, I'm just trying to get this washer to work⊠they never want to act right⊠old machines acting wonky, what's new?" You huff a laugh, but Bucky keeps looking at you unamused⊠ah yes⊠he's an old machine, you idiotâŠOr maybe not? Danmit why didn't you read more about him!
You quickly take another step closer to him in panic mode to clear up your unplanned insult, your first impression clearly not going well... "Oh! But not all old machines! My grandma had a vacuum for like 20 years, and it never crapped out on her!" -what are you even saying? shut up! Shut up!Â
Buck just further scoles you, keeping his eyes locked on yours. Okay... he's defiantly a bit intimidatingâhis intense stare locked onto you. Then there's the fact that his glare doesn't roamâit's just set on your eyes. Plus, you're just rambling on, and he's just watching you like you have lost your mind! You can't afford to move againâŠÂ
"Why don't you just call for maintenance?" he says in a confused tone, his brows knitting together. Â
You give him a gentle smile, "I don't want to be blamed for breaking itâŠ"Â
He doesn't seem too impressed with your excuse as he rolls his eyes, but to your surprise, instead of walking away, leaving you to struggle, he places his laundry down and begins to investigate the machine.Â
You step closer to him, "So you're going to help me?" you chirp.
"I'm going to try, but if it breaks further, that's on youâŠ" -Okay can't really blame him for that..
"Fair enough, neighbor." he only seems to hum at that before continuing his investigation.Â
He does his do diligence checking everything out; while he does that, you're doing your own checking out. It's not like you're trying to be a perv.... but curiosity always gets the cat in the end, so you allow yourself to check him out a little. His back faces you, and it's incredible how sturdy it appears; you can even see how the muscles ripple with every move despite it being hidden underneath his t-shirt. Then his narrow waist that draws your attention down the length of him, and his arms bulging with every move as it roots around on the inside of the drum. The dark metal arm is so eye-catching you can't help but stare even though you know you shouldn't... But you can't help yourself from admiring how pretty it truly is⊠and the craftsmanship is impeccableâŠÂ
"I think something is just caught if I can unwrap itâŠ" With another pull and a slight groan, he rips out what was caught. Surprisingly, it's small... red and-Â
Bucky holds up the dripping wet material, and now that he has it unscrambled, you are mortified... Of course, out of everything to get tangled up and caught, it had to be your thong. Turning it about, Bucky looks at the material confused, unsure, until he meets your wide eyes and flushed face. It must suddenly click for the man that he's holding a stranger's underwear because, with the inhuman speed, he's met with realization and he's practically throwing your underwear at you like it would bite him.Â
The flush of his neck and the way he suddenly does not meet your eyes tells you he's thoroughly embarrassed.
"I'm sorry, ma'amâŠ" Ma'am? Wow, now he's talking to you properly; he really is embarrassed...
It's quiet for a moment as Bucky awkwardly shifts on his feet. Then you can't help yourself any longer, and you laugh. You laugh so hard you all but fall over yourself, and to your shock, Bucky breaks from his embarrassment and joins in on your laughter till you both were on the verge of tears. As you wipe away your tears, you catch him smiling, and it's like looking at a completely different guy. If people saw this, they wouldn't be avoiding him, that's for sure.Â
With the washer fixed, you could finish your laundry cycle as Bucky moved to start his. As you're turning to thank your helpful neighbor, he is gone? Scanning the room, you see him leaving, shit!Â
"James!" You shout without thinking. He pauses before turning back with a small smirk.Â
"Don't tell me you broke something else."Â
He's⊠teasing you? A grin spreads to your face, "I wanted to thank you for helping me out."Â
He shrugged, "It's no problem, but call me Bucky." With that, he walked off.Â
Days later, you were still troubled by the feeling you didn't get to properly thank your neighbor for saving your panties from doom. So you did the only thing you could think of; making him food. Make sure debts and gratitude are always paid... or it could come back a bite you... it's something you picked up from how you grew up, but where your dad made sure to do it with favors and money, your mom would always pay by making desserts and meals. So, in your situation, you decided on a platter of brownies.
The look on his face when you knocked on his door was priceless. Of course, he accepted, and thus, the cycle between you two started. You would have a favor, Bucky would help, and then you would make him a meal or dessert. Over time, Bucky's grumpiness was replaced with friendliness, and your friendship got stronger. Even though you had fewer favors, you two continued the tradition of eating a home-cooked meal together once a week until suddenly, it was odd if you were not seeing him.
Like now...
It's been three weeks since you last saw him. It's honestly so lonely in the building without him around. Sure, he's not talkative all the time, and there are still things you know you two have not shared, but it's undeniable this closeness you feel to him.
You just hope you get to see him soon, or you will be forced to break something and force him to come backâŠ
It's another quiet night. It should be a night that you rest easy, drifting far off into dreamland. But you just can't seem to fall asleep. Perhaps it's the fault of a certain super soldier's absence or maybe it just sometimes getting your mind to settle is just an impossible task. As you lay pondering whether you should just force yourself to rest or get up and do something until you're tired, a loud bang from the neighboring wall interrupts the stillness.
On instinct, you freeze and try to listen to where the crashing is coming from. Bucky's place... but that's odd; he's not home. Or did he come back and you just miss him? Another crash makes you second guess, it could be a break inâŠÂ
But who would be dumb enough to break into a super soldier's apartment?
Apparently, you...
It is technically breaking and entering, but is it bad if you do it for a good reason? What if someone is wreaking his place? What if he's in danger? What will you do if you actually run into someone?
You ignore that for now as you concentrate on picking the lock... You hated it then, but you're now thankful for the skill at times like this. It clicks with a few more twists, and you're now sneaking through the threshold.
It's the same place you have been in multiple times, but tonight, you see the crumble of blankets on the living room floor, the flipped furniture, the mess of wreckage. Then you see the more heart-aching sight in the room's darkness.Â
Bucky usually stands so tall and has that sly smirk for you with some greeting. Now, he is crouched so small, disheveled, and trembling. Those ocean-blue eyes clenched tightly...
A step towards him immediately has him on the defense, ready to fight. But he pauses at the sight of you, confused, rightly so. But you're more distracted by how the outside lights for a moment reflect on the tears rolling down his cheeks.
You're about to say something, but his hoarse voice cuts you off before you can, "Get out!".
The sound of his rough voice gives you pause, you should really listen, but as he sinks back to the floor, your feet feel like lead. With a swallow and a steadying breath, you step closer. He should understand by now that you're not one for listening.Â
Closer now, you can take in his sweat-drenched body and matted hair and how he tries to stop shaking but just can't... Thousands of questions flock to you; but you just swallow them down. Slowly, you sit close enough to be noticed but not enough to touch him⊠Settled beside him, you place your hand out towards him on the floor, making a silent offer. "I'm going to stay for as long as it takes... I don't think you should be alone..."Â
It could take minutes or hours. There is also the chance of him lashing out, but you will just be silent and patient and let him feel your presence and hear your calm breaths. It's the only thing you can think to do... to wait...
You're there for a couple of minutes until a clammy warmth touches your hand. Looking down, you can tell the shaking has stopped a little. You spread your fingers and let him lace them with his own.Â
"I... don't know what to say..." he mumbles, but you shake your head before meeting his eyes.
"You don't have to explain... We all get bad dreams. "
"Every night I have bad dreams... Sometimes, I just randomly shake awake."
"Other times, you just lay there waiting for the sun to rise."
The look he gives you tells you he's shared the experience. You shrug and look out the window, "Like I said... bad dreams."
As you two sit there, his shaking slowly stills, but the grip on your hand only tightens.Â
"I'm sorry..." It was such a silent whisper that you almost didn't hear it. Looking at Bucky he looks so tired, and a wreck, it brings back memories you thought were packed away.Â
"Don't be sorry. Let's just work on getting you cleaned up. Go rinse off and I will clean up."
Bucky looks like he is about to protest but you just shake your head before standing, "Don't argue with me, go."
Bucky nods before standing up... He walks towards his bathroom but pauses just short... He has his own set of questions he wants to ask...But it will just have to wait.
You start placing what you can remember in their proper spots. Sure, this place was a mess, but you have had to fix the fallout of worse. Once done, you move on to the kitchen to brew the tea, your mom always liked tea on rough nights so it just seems like part of the process now. As the water heats, you just listen to the muffled sound of the shower.
Does this happen often? And if so, how have you never noticed before? You know he has a checkered past but, you never noticed this... he's always so buttoned up you guess he just popped...
Bucky takes longer to wash off than you expected, but ultimately, it's a good thing he took the time for himself. Getting the tea set in the living room you wait in dim silence till eventually he comes out of the bathroom. He emerges only in pajama bottoms, wet hair dripping down on a towel resting on his shoulder, and fixing his metal arm back into place. Bucky plops down on the couch and for a long moment he's just quite. From the look on his face he's still thinking of what to say, but you just slide the peppermint tea over to him.
Bucky gives a small thank you before he lifts the cup, letting the smell waft to his nose and the cup warm his hand. When he finally takes a sip, you feel like you can breathe again. While he works on his tea, you notice the drops falling from his hair and landing on his skin, causing him to shiver. He didn't even bother to dry his hair, huh? Carefully, you take the towel from his shoulder and softly start to dry his wet hair away. Bucky looks at you curiously as you focus on the task before you.Â
"Why are you so good at this?"Â
"Like I said, everyone gets bad dreams. Some worse than others."Â
He hums before slightly chuckling, "Is that also why you know how to break into apartments?"
The playful tone in his voice makes your heart squeeze, and you can't help but grin, at least his humor seems to not be fazed, "You're not the only one with secrets, soldier boy."Â
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âgo to sleep.â
âi will in a bit.â
kuroo lets out another sigh; that was also your response to him two hours earlier. he knows how important academics are for you, and he supports you for it. but does he support you sacrificing your sleep and meals to achieve your dreams? absolutely not!
âyou also said that earlier.â
âyou did? i donât remember.â you reply, not even bothering to look at him as you continued on working. he leans against the door frame with his arms crossed, just watching you and listening to the sounds of you typing away on your keyboard.
after a good few minutes of thinking about what he should do, kuroo decides to pick you up from your seat and carry you to bed. âhey! i wasnât done yetââ
âyou need to sleep.â he says, putting you down to tuck you in bed.
âiâm perfectly fine, tetsu.â
âno, youâre not. when was the last time you properly slept? your ten minute naps donât count, by the way.â he asks.
âuhmâŠâ
okay, he got you there. the last time you properly slept was probably thursday, and itâs literally sunday now. âsee?â kuroo always knew you like the back of his hand, so itâs really no surprise that he knew all of this.
âfine, you win, but let me just finish what i was working onââ
âno.â
âplease?â
âno.â
âtetsu, pleaââ
âdid you know that sleep deficiency is actually linked to many chronic health problems, including heart disease, kidney disease, high blood pressure, diabetes, stroke, obesity, and depression? itâs also linked to a higher chance of injury in adults, teens, and children. so please go to sleep.â
what the fuck? is he seriously going to be nerdy with you now, of all times?
âtetsu, literally what the hell are you on about now?â
âiâm not yet done. anyway, as i was saying, if you skip a night's sleep, your mental function and mood will significantly decline the next day. and apparently, according to the CDC, being awake for 18 hours causes a similar mental impairment as having a blood alcohol content of 0.05 percent, and being awake for 24 hours is equivalent to 0.10 percent. so technically, skipping sleep is the equivalent to being drunk.â he continues.
if this is your boyfriendâs way of making you sleep, then itâs working. because as much as you love to listen kuroo ramble and act all nerdy, you would really love it more if he were to shut up right now instead.
âokay, okay, fine! iâll sleep. so please shut up about the effects of the lack of sleep.â you said with a defeated sigh. âthatâs more like it.â he replies with a grin, leaning himself closer to give you a quick kiss.
what would you do without him?
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| stay next to me | (dokyeom)
*based off the song 'stay next to me' by quinn XCII :)
~lyrics~
"we should go somewhere,
you choose i don't care.
as long as you're right here.
stay next to me.
yeah, we can barely stand,
and we both don't know this band,Â
i'll move just hold my hand,
stay next to me."
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Y/N POV
your head pulses as the music booms through this packed house, taunting you as you shuffle through bodies. your friends dragged you here on a Thursday night, promising you that this one would actually be fun. spoiler alert: it's not, but you already knew it wouldn't be. you lost them somewhere around 10:30. this left you to your own devices, which means in simple terms that you just want to get the hell out of here. there's a serene moment of peace where the band finally stops, just for it to start back up again. your anxiety picks up immensely as you realize you really are alone, not knowing anyone here but your friends who are MIA. your heart starts pounding and you feel like you need to leave right now. you try to make your way to the back of the house when you fully collide with someone.Â
"oh! i'm so sorry, that was my totally my bad, i wasn't paying attention. let me help you up" an unidentified voice says, sounding sincere in their apology.Â
you look up from your place on the ground to see genuinely the most beautiful man you've ever seen, looking down at you worriedly and holding his hand out to you. maybe good things do happen to good people, you think.
you take his hand and stand up, fixing your shirt in the process. "oh my gosh don't worry about it! i'm sorry about that" you say, stumbling over your words a little bit. you try to calm your nerves, but its clear you were on your way to some type of panic attack just seconds ago.Â
you force yourself to make eye contact even though your heart is beating in your ear, and it was surely a mistake because he's looking at you with a sweet smile and the softest eyes you've ever witnessed.Â
"i was just trying to find my friends, they ditched me again even though they promised they wouldn't, i haven't seen them in half an hour. you know you would think after dragging me here they would at least pretend to stick around for a while but.." you look up, breaking yourself free from your nervous rambling. "i'm sorry" you blush, embarrassed.
he smiles at you again, clearly amused by your outburst. he also notices your shaky hands, and the way you're breathing.Â
"i totally get it, i'm in the same boat right now, if it makes you feel better" he admits softly. "can i get you anything? some water? food?" he asks, showing worry.Â
you can't imagine someone like him being ditched by his friends. you also can't imagine him being worried about someone like you, you must be making it up in your head. you smooth your hands over your ruffled skirt.Â
"i'm okay, thank you though." you smile up at him, not used to random guys being this kind to you. he hums an 'okay' in response and you shuffle on your feet, not knowing how to full the silence.
"plus, this band fucking sucks" he breathes out, in full sincerity.Â
you giggle at his disgust as he shakes his head at them, "they really fucking do" you agree with him. his smile widens, and he looks nervous for a moment before he speaks up again.Â
"wanna get out of here?" he asks, hopefully. you open your mouth after a moment of hesitation but before you can say anything he adds,
"shit. i know that sounds like such a cliche movie line, and i'm a total stranger and it's totally okay if you say no. but i was just gonna go for a walk around the block to get some air" he rushes out.Â
you don't know if this is a mistake and something that is screaming STRANGER DANGER, but you feel completely comfortable with him. you can't think of a single good reason why you should stay in here, and you were in fact about to go out to get some air.Â
"you know what? yeah actually, that would be nice" you say. you never usually do anything like this. but when the universe puts such a beautiful, tall, handsome opportunity in front of you, you take it.
"i'm dokyeom, by the way" he smiles gently at you, showing his teeth.
"i'm Y/N" you respond shyly.Â
you look around at all the bodies you still have to get through to reach the doors, and wish you could just teleport outside. he notices your hesitation.
"it's okay, just hold my hand" he offers up his hand with a soft smile. you take it quickly, butterflies erupting in your stomach as he intertwines his fingers with yours.Â
"stay next to me" he mumbles in your ear as he begins to lead you both through the crowd.Â
you hold his hand tight as you try to follow in his footsteps. at one point you almost get separated, and you feel his hand hover lightly on your waist to guide you around the person in the way. you hate how giddy that made you feel. eventually you make it outside and the air hits you and you feel like you can finally breathe again.
"ah, this is much better" dokyeom says from next to you, stepping down off the front lawn and into the street. and you can't tell if he really suggested this for himself, or for you. you agree with him, stepping down to meet him. as he walks a bit ahead of you you slow down for a moment to really study him.
he appears brighter out here without all the chaos inside. his oversized striped long sleeve hangs off his torso. his baggy jeans fit him cutely as he shuffles towards the moonlight. you find yourself smiling at him. you might be being creepy right now, but you can't help it. he turns around promptly after realizing you aren't right next to him.
"i don't bite, promise" he smirks, chuckling a little at the distance between you.Â
you blush as you walk quickly to catch up to him. "i'm sorry" you apologize.Â
he smiles, nudging you softly with his shoulder, lightening up the mood. "we can go back inside and i can help you find your friends if you want" he offers, clearly picking up on your nerves. but the nerves aren't for the reason he's thinking. you really don't get much male attention, probably because you never put yourself out there. you're enjoying this, but also don't want to do or say something that makes you look like an idiot.Â
you shake your head vigorously, saying "no, no no, this is perfect". you immediately do a facepalm because that was a stupid, desperate answer.Â
you feel dokyeom gently pull your hand away from your face, giving you no option but to look at his face.Â
"you're cute, you know" he chuckles.Â
you don't even know how you're going to get through the rest of this interaction if he keeps making you feel this way.
you begin walking again, just taking in the breezy october air. he walks next to you, staying at a respectable distance, still hesitant about your nerves. between the darkness provided by the night, and the smell of his cologne on the wind, you feel a little braver all of a sudden. you inch your way closer to him in what you thought was a sneaky manner. apparently you were wrong.
he smirks to himself, noticing right away.Â
"just cold" you mumble, lying straight through your teeth to try and bask your embarrassment.
"mmm, of course. in that case, let me warm you up" he says, letting you play out your lie, but you both know the truth. he drapes his arm over your shoulders, pulling you into his side. he's so warm, and god he smells so good. he rubs his hand up and down your arm to shield you from the cold.
"Y/N!!" you hear from behind you. you sigh, recognizing those voices. you and dokyeom stop and turn around as he lets go of your shoulders. out of all times to find me, they choose now?
you give them an awkward wave after noticing them giggling over your current state, and especially the extremely handsome boy next to you. they walk closer to you guys saying, "girl we have been looking for you everywhere". they look back and forth between you and dokyeom, clearly wanting to catch up on everything they missed.
"i've been looking for you guys everywhere too, we ran into each other and decided to get some air" you say, shrugging casually as your friends raise their eyebrows.
"hey" dokyeom says, waving awkwardly.Â
"well i'm very sorry to break up this love fest but we have to go right now, because daniella is on the verge of death we think" she says gesturing back to the front yard where your other friend is sitting with her head in her hands. they start dragging you away without even letting you think for a second.Â
"wait! y/n" dokyeom says, jogging to catch up to you and holds your hand gently to stop you from being dragged away.Â
he asks for your phone to which you give it to him without hesitation. you watch as he puts his phone number in your contacts. he hands back the phone, letting his fingers linger on yours for just a little longer than needed.
"call me, yeah?" he says, giving you his famous smile. something like nervousness crosses his face for a moment before he leans in and gives you a quick peck on the cheek. you're pretty sure you almost die. and yes, just from that simple gesture.Â
"i- yes. i definitely will" you stutter, making him chuckle endearingly at you again.Â
your friends go back to dragging you away and you turn around to look at him just as you are reaching the front yard. he waves back at you, adding a wink for good measure. thank god my friends dragged me to this party, you think.
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Teddy Bear - 7 : weak for his puppydog eyes
*ââ·synopsis ! : on your birthday one of your best friends, soobin, gifts you an adorable teddy bear. you keep it all day once he gave it to you, carrying the adorable thing around for your entire birthday day and going to sleep with it that night. the next morning you wake up with.. a man in the place of your precious bear?! he doesn't have a name and he looks at you like you hung all the stars and.. did he just say he WAS the bear?
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You were honestly pretty conflicted on where you would put Beomgyu tonight. You didn't really want to sleep with some random man but you also didn't want to hurt Beomgyus feelings. I mean, he had already slept with you before.
After your conversation with the girls, you couldn't stop thinking about what they said. Were you really crushing on Beomgyu? Already? It had only been a day!
Plus it felt kind of.. wrong. He was clueless and innocent almost like a child, you were the first human he had ever met! He was obviously infatuated with you, but probably because he didn't understand human emotions and was just thankful towards you. What if this turned into a weird power dynamic thing? Or he decided he was âin loveâ with you when it was really admiration and gratitude? For these reasons you'll just decide to step back and keep the fluttering of your heart under wraps.
He didn't need to know and feel pressured to label the gratitude he felt towards you as love.
Either way, you need to focus on the problem at hand. Where was he going to sleep? The boys had already left despite Kais desperate attempts at a slumber party. You had work after all and Kai would definitely keep you up. But Taehyun did offer to come and keep Beomgyu company while you were gone.
Taehyun didn't have any classes Tuesday and Thursday despite having them on weekend mornings. So, he offered to come hang out with Beomgyu on the mornings when he didn't have school or work to keep the boy company. It was a sweet gesture, the two youngest had really warmed up to Beomgyu.
Gosh, you're getting off track again! Sleeping arrangements.
Glancing over at where Beomgyu seriously played subway surfers on the phone gifted to him (Kai had insisted on downloading a few games), you began to think. He could sleep on the couch, that seemed like a safe option. It was getting late anyways.
You decided to wait until he finished playing, knowing he wouldn't last very long. He was getting better at the silly game but really wasn't that good. Once he hit the train and cried loudly in annoyance, you took that as your chance to step in.
âBeom, it's getting late. Do you mind sleeping on the couch? I don't have an extra bedroom or anything for you right now.â You quickly got out before the boy restarted.
Beomgyus' ears turned towards you before he even lifted his head to look at you. But once you mentioned sleeping on the couch his head snapped up towards you.
âWhat? On the couch? Why can't I sleep with you?â Beomgyu was quick to ask, brows a little furrowed and his eyes almost looking bigger than normal. Is this like puppy dog eyes for bears?!
âWell it's just-â You tried to begin before being swiftly cut off by Beomgyu quickly crawling across the couch to approach you, speaking while doing so.
âDid I do something wrong? I'm sorry y/n! I didn't mean to upset you!â Beomgyu exclaimed, still with that confused and hurt look on his face. He looked pitiful.
You stared at him for a moment and his big, sparkling eyes stared back. He looked devastated and confused and it was obvious he seemed to be convinced he did something wrong. Fuck.
âYou did nothing wrong, Beom. Y'know what? I changed my mind. You can come sleep with me, okay? So don't worry.â You cracked easily at his pitiful face, reaching forward to ruffle his curly brown hair before standing up. The way his face immediately lit up made you smile, he was so cute.
âOh thank you, y/n! I promise to not cause trouble!â Beomgyu rambled on as he followed you back to your now shared bedroom.
Now you knew how weak you were to Beomgyus puppy dog eyes.





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dream about walking through the streets of emon
A/N: this is an old blurb originally posted back at the beginning of June
Warnings:Â Spencer Reid x reader, critter!Spencer, critical role spoilers (all campaigns), kith and kin spoilers, established relationship, this is literally just Spencer rambling till you fall asleep
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Curling up with your head in his lap, you felt his fingers start to weave through your hair. A few minutes ago, youâd asked him what he had done the night before. If Morgan had been here, he would have called that question a grave mistake, but you would never call getting to hear your love infodump a mistake. It was one of the great pleasures in your life.Â
You were well aware of the fact that last night was a Thursday, so you knew exactly what youâd signed up for. He always, if his work schedule allowed it, did the same thing on Thursday nights.Â
âAnd so then, they got this letter from none other than Vexâahlia! And of course, they made Laura read it out loud,â even though you werenât looking at him anymore, you could still hear in his voice just how hard he was smiling, âand it was so comforting to hear her again. It was like when Allura and Kima got involved in campaign 2, I honestly almost cried, not because it was sad, I just miss and love them so much!â
Softly running his short fingernails over your scalp, âand of course that moment also made me think of when I read kith and kin last winter, or I listened to the audiobook version, which also is reading, it doesnât matter how you get the story, just that you get it. Anyways, that audiobook had their voices reading it! The right ones! It wasnât just Liam and Laura reading, it was the twins!â
Letting out a warm yawn, you let your eyes fall shut, âand the story itself had no business being that good, and not just because itâs a part of a world I hold near and dear to my heart, but just the book itself was so good. And you know, in that, we finally got the backstory of Simon, Vaxâildanâs belt? We found out pretty quickly that it took place in a time he didnât have it yet, and when we did see it, it was on a man named Thorn, so we automatically know that he must be someone important to the story because he had the serpent belt, he had Simon! So then, this whole big tragic romance ensues, and he ends up getting the belt.â
He then hop-skipped around, explaining random things and somehow ended up trying to explain something called the calamity. As his enthusiastic voice slowly faded away, you had a feeling that his bedtime story would end up making you dream about walking through the streets of Emon, hand in hand, with him as your guide.Â

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Untitled TFATWS Fic: Part 1
Bucky Barnes x Reader
Prompt/Background: After turning yourself in to the government following the events of CA:TWS, they lock you up for the crimes you committed during your time at Hydra. Spending years there until Captain America got you on parole during the blip to help fight Thanos. Now, after doing community service acts and helping the broken society, when they give the new Captain America the shield, youâre thrown back into a life you didnât want.
Word Count: 1871 (ahaha, yea)
Reader: Female
Warning: parole officers might be triggering??? idk
Authorâs Note: Iâve decided to end my 141 part Wattpad Sebastian Stan imagine book and post on Tumblr instead :â), a happy day. Also, IâM SORRY THAT I LIKE SLOW BURN SERIES OK? Schedule for this series is every Thursday. ALSO IF YOU HAVE TITLE IDEAS FOR THIS SERIES, LMK! PLEASE
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The sound of your heels echoed throughout the dimly lit room as you make your way through the exhibit. The walls take you back in time, reading how Captain America came to be and all his past accomplishments. They even updated from the last time you were here, documenting the events on the Blip.
You didnât even know where you were going, absently letting your emotions and feet lead to where it felt you needed to be.
âFor a former spy, youâre not really good at sneaking up on someone.â Rhodesâ voice greets you once you open up the curtain to a different area. A small smile sneaks its way across your face seeing the two men in front of you.
âBit out of practice.â You spit back, walking towards them. âItâs nice to see you again, Rhodie.â You open your arms out to him and he gladly takes the hug. âHopefully lifeâs been treatinâ you well.â
âFor the most part,â He chuckles out while pulling away from the embrace. You move on to the other man, him happily wrapping his arms around your waist as you wrap yours around his shoulders.
Sam lets out a breath into the crook of your neck before pulling back. âYou doing okay?â You ask, looking at his face for any sign of emotion. He nods but there was something in his eye that told otherwise.
You open your mouth to push him for the real answer but Rhodes cuts you off, âWell, I have to get going. It was good seeing you, (Y/L/N), hopefully, we work together soon. Remember what I said, Sam.â With that, he leaves the room to leave you and Sam alone.
The room fills with silence as the two of you turn to the iconic suit and shield in front of you. You try to watch Sam from the corner of your eye but he just stands with his back straight and his eyes forward.
âYou know, Iâm sure Steve would understand.â You decide to say, clasping your hands in front of you. âI didnât become as close as you did, but from my time with him during the Blip, he tried his best to help everyone. He had a lot of responsibilities and issues of his own along with having a whole country looking up to him...Â
âIt was a lot⊠he opened to me about it one night before⊠you know.â You admit which makes him finally look at you. âHe told me what he was going to do and all I could do is support him⊠I asked him what he was going to do with the mantle and he said give it to you.â Turning your head, you make eye contact with him. âI asked him if he was sure.â
He lets out a snort at that, shaking his head at you. âReally gotta do me like that?â He wipes his hand across his face then stuffs his hand in his pockets as he turns to face you. âI thought we were having a nice bonding moment and then you had to drop me like that?â
You canât help the giggle that escapes your lips at his whining. âIâm being serious, Sam, stop.â You hit him on the shoulder. âHe said there was no doubt in his mind that you do what needed to be done with the shield. He trusted you and your judgment, Falcon.â You emphasize his hero name which he just rolls his eyes at you.
âYea, Iâm sure he did.â He smiles and then changes the subject, âHowâs parole treatinâ ya, still got the collar on?â He gestures to your ankle causing you to lift your dress pant leg, flashing the electric bracelet around your ankle. He lets out a hearty chuckle at it. âStill canât believe that they have you on a leash.â
âPrice you gotta pay for freedom.â You shrug and drop the cloth. Thereâs a beat of silence between the two of you, both of you taking a glance back at the exhibit and the shield.
âHave you talked with Bucky recently?â
âNo, I was going to ask you.â Your heart sinks at the realization. âWeâve been texting a bit but I havenât seen him since I spent the weekend with him a couple of weeks ago.â You shyly admit and look down at your feet.
âWeekend, huh?â
âShut it, Sam.â You knock your foot against his. âWe didnât do anything, he doesnât like me like that. Plus, he wouldnât even let me spend the night. I had to go to a hotel, he sleeps on the floor, Sam! Iâm worried about him.â It took weeks for you to convince him to let you come over and you finally knew why when you step into his apartment. It made your heart sink, it looked like if a Hydra cell got a remodel. âHe has two chairs and a tv.â
âLiving modestly I see.â He snorts out, covering up whatever he was actually thinking. Itâs now your turn to roll your eyes at him, frustrated that he isnât willing to talk about this. âHey, heâs still figuring stuff out, okay? He just got all his memories back and heâs still working on living with his past. You should know better than I do to give him time.â His tone is soft as he lightly scolds you. You hang your head at his words, knowing heâs right.
It took some time for you to come to terms with your past when you turned yourself in after Hydra and SHIELD fell. You took accountability for your actions during your years at Hydra and spent a few years in jail before Steve took action to help you get on parole. That didnât mean you werenât fully recovered.
âWhen are you joining me on the field, anyway?â Sam changes the topic noticing how you went silent and your eyes looked past him. âI could use you on some of my recon missions.âÂ
A large smile forms on your face at the mention of your parole. âA couple more check-ins and Iâm good, I think.â You excitedly inform, âThey actually want to talk to me about something, and then itâs the last three months. Saving the world made my good behavior skyrocket.â
âIâm sure it did.â He smiles, âWell, let me know what happens. Iâm heading down to Louisiana soon and my sisters want to meet you. She heard about your work with the soup kitchens in New York and she wanted some insight.â
âReally? Give her my number, you know Iâd be happy to talk with her. Iâve been thinking about trying to get my officer to convince the big guys to expand my tracking radar so I reach out more.â You start to ramble about the ideas youâve been having for more community service actions. During the blip, Steve got you into volunteer work and it sparked something inside of you. He said it might give you a new purpose and he couldnât have been more right.
The two of you spend the rest of the day together, catching up on everything thatâs been going on. You didnât realize how much you missed his snarky comments and banter until he smothered you in it, âmaking up for lost timeâ, he said. He continues the bullying by texting back and forth for the next few days.
It was nice to have a friend after everything that happened over the last few years. Steve and Nat were gone so the friendships you built up during the blip were just a memory now. Yea, Bucky and you were friends but it was a bit more complicated than that.
Itâs a few weeks after that and theyâve already named some prick the new Captain America. You were frustrated at Sam but you realized that he couldnât have known that this was going to happen. Especially since when you reached out to him and he was more furious than you were. Bucky was a whole other story. When the press conference aired, he immediately called you and went off about Sam. You couldnât offer answers so you just told him to talk to him about it. This didnât involve you.
Now, you were sat at some random government office in DC. You were beyond nervous, leg bouncing and fingers tapping. Kevin, your sweet parole officer, had called you in for an emergency meeting. He didnât mention anything about the content of it but he assured you not to worry. It didnât help, though, your mind was scrambling trying to think of anything you couldâve done to break your parole or anywhere you couldâve gone that went outside your tracking radar.
â(Y/L/N)?â The familiar voice echoes through the lobby makes your head snap up. Kevin, your knight in a cashmere sweater, stands there with his hands in his pants pockets. He nods his head, gesturing for you to follow him.
He leads you down a long hallway, stopping at the end of it and holding the door open for you. You send him a grateful smile before entering the office. It was very different from his usual office. The tall windows lined the wall from floor to ceiling, making the already large room feel even more spacious. It was a bit unsettling compared to his close-knit office space located in an old house on the outskirts of DC.
Kevin moves you two to the large conference table on the other side of the room, having you sit before he does. He takes the chair at the head of the table, sighing as he opens the folder and takes a few papers out.
âSign these.â He slides them over to you but you furrow your eyebrows in response.
âWhatâs going on?â
âYouâre being released.â He announces, leaning back in his chair with a tight-lipped smile on his face. Your jaw drops and your heart picks up but you canât help but question it. You quickly compose yourself and look down at the papers.
âIsnât it a bit too early?â You ask while briefly scanning the papers. âI still have two months left, not that Iâm not grateful but where is this coming from?â This was happening too suddenly, Kevin was good with warning you about the activities that go on behind the scenes of your parole and he didnât even mention the thought of an early release.
The brunette man lets out a sigh, running his hair through his long hair. He then leans his elbows on the table with his head propped up on his palms, he opens his mouth to answer but is cut off by the office door opening.
The new Captain America and his sidekick come waltzing in, a few of his goons following as well. He didnât need the uniform or shield for you to recognize him since his face has been plastered on every channel since they came forward with him. Heâs all everyone could talk about.
âHe released you.â You barely hear Kevin as your mind goes into spirals. What the hell did this guy want? Why is he even here? What the hell did he want with you?
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skirt chasers - drabble iii
this a skirt chasers drabble in case u couldn't tell uhhh hereâs i and ii lol
summary;Â âI think the alcohol broke my amygdala. Your epidermis looks pretty todayâ did you use that toner I told you about?â warnings; alcohol mention, tit sucking, unprotected sex, use of the pull out method, uhh making out??? ratings; mature (18+) misc; educational abolitionist!jungkook, drunk jk, mentions of throwing up lol, jk is an anatomy frEAK, more skirts, more jk has questionable kinks wc; like barely 2k
notes; i wrote this in like 40 mins bc i couldn't stop thinking about STIMBO jk from skirt chasers and how cool he is enjoy xxxx also i barely rmr shit from anatomy bc it was the worst course of my life so pls bear with me
His first mistake is getting drinks with the boys. You like to think you know your boyfriend pretty well, know what heâs good at, where he excels, where he thrives, and well. Drinking doesnât rank too high on the list.
Jimin calls a little past midnight. âKookâs on the table,â he slurs into the phone, too loud and too sloppy for a Wednesday night phonecall.
âHa?â you mumble back, rubbing your eyes until you see stars. The room is dark, practically spinning from how out of it you are. Chaeyoung is dead asleep in her room, so even whispering feels like a crime. âWhere are you guys?â
Some bar on the south side of town, that strip where all the newly turned twenty-one year olds go to get wasted. Jungkookâs supposed to be studying for some big exam he has on Fridayâ at least, thatâs what he told you âso it takes a few minutes of convincing on Jiminâs part until youâre shrugging your coat on, blindly navigating through your apartment for your keys and wallet. You briefly consider taking an Uber, but ultimately decide youâd rather get stabbed to death on a public bus so at least your family can sue the city afterwards.
Jungkook is indeed on the table, except the table has long since tipped over. So now heâs just sprawled across some dirty bar floor, puppy-soft head of curls spilling over his forehead. Heâs so cute, so adorable. You want to kill him. âUp,â you command, channeling the strength of twelve football players to haul your beefy boyfriend off the ground.
âBaby,â he beams, looking at you but not actually looking at you. âI think the alcohol broke my amygdala. Your epidermis looks pretty todayâ did you use that toner I told you about?â
You donât even know what that means, canât even question him, because then Jin is angrily yelling at you to cover his tab. You pay with a stiff middle finger, flail the three dollars in your wallet at him, before sweeping away your poor damsel in distress. âYouâre supposed to be studying,â you huff, canât even be mad when he stops to throw up in a bush outside the bar. Youâre so embarrassed, pretend you donât know him as you pull up the bus times on your phone.
Heâs huffy by the time you get on the bus, sniffling against your neck as he cries about his common hepatic portal vein thingâ you donât fucking know.
Chaeyoung isnât too impressed with you when you bring him home, dump him on the couch while she steals your AirPods from your room. âExplain yourself,â you demand, and his head rolls back.
âI hate school,â he complains, slaps a hand down against his forehead. Youâre certain heâs concussed himself this time. Then heâs bending over, head held between his hands. âWanna cry.â
You sigh, kneeling in front of him. âYouâre almost done,â you comfort him, hand on the back of his head. Heâs so sweaty, and smells like all his friends colognes at the same time. âYouâre smart, baby, you can do this.â
Your words have the opposite effect, because then heâs rocking forward childishly, nearly rams your skulls together and kills you. Heâs reached the point of his insobriety where heâs too sad and huffy to think, sadly leaning against your shoulder as if thatâll somehow solve all his problems. You doubt it will, but thereâs really nothing much you can when Jungkook reaches this point, so you settle on softly patting the back of his head until the fool is fucking snoring against you.
Chaeyoung blesses you with her divine retribution the next morning by using up the last of your body wash, and then youâre left to deal with a hungover Jungkook on a Thursday morning. Youâre pretty sure he had a class that morning, but he wakes up too late for you to even try to convince him to still go, and then heâs moping on your couch in last nightâs clothes. Youâre getting ready for your internship, blouse half buttoned, pencil skirt wiggled up to your waist.
âAbolish exams,â he mutters, numbly staring at the ceiling as you wipe his face with a cleansing towelette. He doesnât seem remotely interested in the shower or the pancakes you made, which lets you know this is a much more serious issue than just a drunken episode. âArenât they stupid?â You nod. âSure, test me on every damn thing weâre learning right now as if science isnât always changing and Iâll have to keep learning anyway.â
He looks over at you, under-eye bags absolutely horrendous. âTests are stupid,â you agree, and it seems to be exactly what he wants to hear as he sinks into your arms, face buried in your chest. âToo stupid for smarty-pants Jeon Jungkook.â
Jungkook groans, flops over you on the couch all smelly and gross. âThey test you for memorization and not comprehension,â he adds, finally wiggling out of his stinky clothes.
With Jungkook, you can never tell where things are going. One minute heâs cursing the education system and the next heâs kissing along your neck in his rambling fury. âAs if I these materials will somehow become nonexistent once Iâm working,â he huffs, hands on your thighs. Your breath hitches in your throat, fingers digging into his biceps as he mindlessly kisses down the valley between your breasts. âShitâs so fucking stupid,â he spits, bunching your skirt around your waist.
âJeonââ
âIâm just trying to be a fuckinâ pediatrician, for fuckâs sake,â he growls, hastily undoes the front buttons on your blouse. Your black bra comes into view, heart pounding in your chest as Jungkook makes quick work of reaching behind and undoing it, pushing it away, and cupping your breasts in his palms. He guides one of your legs around his waist, tucks it around him as he gets to work raining down kisses on your tits. âSo pretty, doll,â he murmurs, pretty pink lips leaving smooches down your chest.
You bite down on your lip, watch through hazy eyes as those big doe eyes flick up at you, tongue swirling around your nipple. âNâ Not tired anymore?â you pant, hands in his hair. Itâs still dry and knotted from last nightâs adventures, but you donât mind. Not when Jungkookâs hard cock is flush against your thigh.
âNah,â he confirms, rolling his hips forward against your core. Oh he was horny horny this morning. Or was he angry horny? You donât care, either way you were winning. âI serenaded you last night, yâknow?â
You snort, but it morphs into a whimper when he captures your rock hard nipple between his perfect teeth. âNot a serenade,â you whimper, fingernails running along his scalp, âif Iâm not there.â
Jungkook leans back, lets you breathe for a second as he unbuckles the front of his pants, jeans pulled down around his thighs. And of course heâs hard as fuck by now; this was Jeon Jungkook you were dealing with. He could get it up and going in two seconds flat at the mere sight of your collarbones. âYou were there,â he insists, capturing your hand in his all romantic like until youâre flustered and shaking him off. He levels you with a cheesy grin, presses your palm against his chest. âHere.â
You gag. âThatâs disgusting.â
Jungkook laughs, all squeaky and airy because heâs never given a fuck about looking cool in front of you. His next words only prove your point. âWhy? Donât like being nestled against my left lung and esophagus, all sexy like?â
You roll your eyes, tug your panties aside to give him a full view of what his dorky anatomical talk has done to you. âDick me down or go away,â you say, pointer finger nudging his chin up when he stares too long
He snaps his teeth at you, almost bites your finger, the fuckinâ weirdo. âSassy today,â he teases, presses the tip of his cock against you. Both of you groan, watch as he glides himself up and down your folds, angry mushroom head pushing against your clit. âAlways so wet for me,â he mumbles shakily, eyes zeroed in on your wet folds and how slick they feel against him. âDidnât stretch you out again.â
âYoâ Youâre mean about that anyway,â you pant, pulling him closer by those firm ass cheeks of his. âI can tell when youâre using me as a reference model.â
Jungkook gasps as if heâs genuinely scandalized by your claim, follows your wordless command and finally lines himself up with your quivering entrance. âIâm a hands-on learner,â he offers, his cheeky smile still on his face until he finally sinks into you and his features twist up all pretty. âYour pussyâs just so pretty, baby,â he grunts, hand on your hip.
Your face feels warm, from the pleasure that rolls over your body and the vulgarity of his words. âShush now,â you say, try to sound strict and in command, but heâs got his other hand cupping your jaw, looking at you like youâre a goddess and not some dorky college student in their even dorkier internship uniform.
âTemptress,â he mumbles, pushes past your clenching lips until heâs flush against you, your walls spasming around his cock because he just feels so good. âTried to sneak past me in that tiny skirt.â He draws back, lets his swollen head catch at the entrance before sliding back in, pace slow and sensual, too intimate for some random Thursday morning. âLittle doll just needs to be fucked in the morning, doesnât she?â A pitiful whimper catches in your throat, eyes rolling to the back of your head with every glide of his dick back inside of you.
âN- Not my fault you have naughty eyes,â you whimper, hand coming up to bite at your knuckles as Jungkook continues to fuck you so sweetly. âFuck.â
Jungkook ducks over you, wavy hair tickling your forehead as his hot breath fans across you. Smells like the mouthwash you made him take and hints of last nightâs alcohol. âCanât help it,â he husks, capturing your lips in his. Sloppy and wet, tongue clashing with yours as he guides you along, hips slowing to rhythmic ruts that have you moaning after each roll.
A few drawn-out thrusts later and youâre coming, body so sensitive this early in the morning, and it certainly doesnât help that Jungkook looks like that (sweaty and worn, dark eyes watching you writhe beneath him). Surprisingly, it takes him a few more rushed thrusts before he follows, barely managing to pull out in time before his sparkling cum is splattering over your tummy and the skirt bunched around it. âNo,â you whine, melting into the couch. âJeon, this is my only one,â you complain, rubbing a hand over your eyes as if thatâll somehow make your legs work again enough to push him off.
Jungkook says nothing as he tucks himself back into his boxers, chest heaving from exertion as he crashes back onto the couch. âLiar,â he responds after a moment, out of breath and half asleep again. Heâs still technically hungover. Hand lazily drawing circles on your knee as you sit up, wiggling your skirt back down. He gives you this indecipherable look. âI hid the other one under your dresser.â
You smack his arm. âWhy the hell would youââ
He tackles you back into the couch, presses the stain into your skirt. It must feel gross against his naked tummy, but Jungkook doesnât seem to care. âMakes me too horny,â he announces, pout pressed against your neck. âI had a teacher fantasy the other day. Did I tell you?â You roll your eyes, resigning yourself to this new life squashed beneath your boyfriend. âYou were my high school anatomy teacher and I failed, so you made me stay after school for supplemental lessonsââ
âThatâs an abuse of power,â you point out, back to carding your hands through his now sweaty and greasy hair. âAnd you would never fail an anatomy class, thatâs literally your comfort area of study.â
âListen,â he stresses, lifts his head until heâs peering at you with these humongous Bambi eyes. âYou spanked me andââ
âGo get my skirt.â
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Somewhere Only We Know
A/N - Hello, you lovely lot! Hope you are all keeping well in these utterly shit Covid times. Who wouldâve thought that we would still be here in December?! Please see my offering for @goldenbluesuitââs Christmas Fic Challenge. Hope Iâve done a bit of justice with this piece.
I can remember Katie texting me telling me about the challenge, and Iâll admit I was given first dibs and now Iâm absolutely shitting myself because Iâve seen all the brillaint entries so far and Iâm not sure I really cut the mustard with this piece but Iâm proud of myself for being able to put a solid 70% of this together in just one day (that one day being today).
Anyway, I hope you enjoy! Katie has done a brilliant job and I know how grateful she is towards anyone who has joined the challenge or supported by reading/sharing etc.... I need to stop rambling... Okay, thank you for sticking with me as always and happy reading! .x
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The last thing you remembered actually reading in the group chat was âmake sure you have your welliesâ. You were glad that you remembered that part at the very least.
Winds whipped around you as you buried your face further into your cream roll neck cable knit jumper, all but hidden underneath your tobacco borg teddy coat that someone had already likened to Macklemore.
Nothing like being back home with your closest and oldest friends.
Mud squelched under your feet as you walked in line with two of your oldest girl friends, eyes looking over the four males in front of you as they led the way over the grassy hills.
There had been zero planning on what todayâs events would bring. It was quite clear that the seven of you just wanted to be reunited with the country air and wind bitten cheeks.
It was nice. How simple it was. On the surface at the very least. That was until you zoned in on the little things.Â
Like his laugh. The same laugh that always carried somehow and it seemed like the wind was making it that much more prominent than usual today.
There was no denying, he had this glow about him. Even from the back of him. You felt silly for thinking it, but it was true. It was in the way he held himself as he attacked the grassy hills with his feet clad wellies and brown trousers.
Life had changed a lot in over a decade. Christ, had it been that long? Youâd all gone from baby teenagers to fully fledged adults. The age range of your friendship differing slightly, the odd person here and there slightly older than a couple of people in the group.
Nonetheless, many of the experiences had been the same. The big job offers, and the even bigger promotions. The heartbreaks, regardless of their prominence or lack of, had been the felt the same. The flirtation between some of you sparked probably a bit more so now with a finesse that didnât have you rolling your eyes but rather leaning into it.Â
Four out of seven of you were single. Jack and Jonny were virtually married off, however neither of them were with their partners this year with both deciding to spend Christmas at home and New Years with their significant others. Alice was still loved up and going strong with her fella, as was Grace who you hadnât heard a peep from as she constantly checked her phone to see when the person she was besotted with finally arrived up North thanks to West Midlands Trains pulling into Crewe.Â
So that left Will, you and Harry. Harry who had quite publicly made it known that he was single. Well, according to your Mum he had, in several interviews. Including the one that she had described as an âincredibly relaxing watch and nice background noise to my Sunday evening brew and ironing sessionâ.Â
That was a strange one for you, his honesty. In earlier years of friendship, he always seemed quite aloof. Like he was keeping his options open. Guarded in a way that frustrated at least 75% of the friendship group, in the nicest way possible. You knew that was a contradiction but any annoyance came from a good place.Â
You remembered one night in 2014 when he wouldnât quite give you a straight answer over tequila shots whether he was shagging someone or not. You also remember the way heâd been pulled away from you tactfully by Alice that night when she sensed how you were about to blow up at his lackadaisical attitude.Â
The same had been felt in 2016. Not so much in 2018, but you werenât single then so maybe you just didnât care.Â
2019 was significantly different though.
See the thing was, you knew him now. Like, knew knew him.Â
Some would think it was a lapse of judgment, a reading that you would agree upon given what had happened two days prior if ever prodded about it publicly.
Others would vehemently disagree. Stating how long any sort of energy between the two of you had been bubbling for a number of years.Â
Looking back you couldnât even understand why youâd attended his show. You lived in Camden and it made sense, but thatâs where the sense stopped. Even the ways he had reached out had been one of the most random messages youâd received from him
There was no context, just a simple âIâm playing the Electric Ballroom and thereâs tickets waiting for you if you want âem.â
And the thing was, you loved that venue. The grungy-ness of it all. The way you had stuck to the floor while trying to dance along to the likes of The Hives and Kings of Leon when seeing them playing there, basking in your sweaty happiness.Â
But the stickiness of the floor and sweatiness of the room didnât compare to the stickiness and sweatiness you later found yourself partaking in as Harry took you from behind over the side of his couch.Â
A shiver rolled through you at the thought, one that you would blame on the December bitter chill because it was a secret. One that neither of you had mentioned since it happened on Thursday night, or to be technically correct the early hours of Friday morning.Â
Heâd been good. Of course he had been.
He had that way about him that night that pulled you under a false sense of endeared security. From his dimpled smile to gleaming eyes. He was happy.Â
And the way he had shone as he found you on the balcony had warmed you like nothing you had known in the longest time.
It caused you to forget about the worry that had laden you limbs as you turned up at 9.13pm to the wooden doors of the building, wondering how many songs he was in to the set as you convinced yourself he would start at 9.00pm.
As youâd been ushered over to a clear box window and uttered your name to a dorky looking man wearing a tracksuit pull over and watched him handover a white envelope through the circle hatch.Â
You stood in the dark, next to two much younger girls who enjoyed the way his glances lingered over at their side. Eyes had found Gemma in the opposite corner of the balcony, her dancing and singing with some recognisable faces mainly more so because you had seen them on social media.
You, however, kept yourself to yourself. Until you were anchored in the tightest hug from Gemma that you had ever felt from her and swayed from side to side as she made it known how pleased she was to see you once the concert was over.Â
That familiarity had been nice. The vibrancy of nostalgia consuming you in your entirety.Â
Watching him work a room when he finally entered the after party was a sight to behold, in his navy blue pinstripe suit and yellow âIâm gonna die lonelyâ t-shirt.Â
He wasnât. Gonna die lonely, that is.Â
He glided so smoothly from one person to the next, spilling a drink down himself in the process youâd seen (and later felt when your hand clung to the fabric of his t-shirt as you kissed), making time for everyone in his own unique way.
Big eyes followed you over Gemmaâs shoulder when he had finally found himself within your circle and hugged his sister once more that evening. They were hard to read but also openly filled with a glimmer of hope as he dropped his gaze to see what you were wearing.
And when he approached you, he hugged you in a way that managed to pull you into the darkened corner of the dingy space. Spinning your body to keep your face concealed from any prying eyes.Â
He revealed to you how he didnât think you were going to turn up, scanning you with his gaze as he spoke. You did the same, a bit taken aback by just how attractive you were finding him. He had always been handsome but the aura he gave off, made your fingers itch to have him closer to you.Â
Words ran away from you that night as he begged and pleaded with you to tell him what your favourite song had been. Based on first impressions, which the show has been, then Canyon Moon and Watermelon Sugar had smothered you and given you no other option but to pick them.
If he were to ask you now youâd probably say To Be So Lonely, thanks to the drive home being longer than originally thought and said album being your choice of road trip music.Â
Forget Driving Home For Christmas, nothing slapped more than one of your closest friends admitting to being an arrogant son of a bitch.Â
After your chat, he mingled some more but Harry was always tactile and that night had been no different. He veered conversations with people you had never seen before to take place by the zone that you all occupied.
He actively kept his back against yours, allowing the faintest of touches and brushing of arms - sometimes hands too if he dropped them down heavily enough with his arms as he spoke - to entice and create a spark.Â
You were kept late enough to miss the last tube. Battery dangerously low on your phone that you didnât know if a transaction with Uber would be worth a try.Â
Jumping into the same car as him had been easy. His soft and tired eyes findings yours in the cab as he leant his head back against the headrest in the back seat and let his lips tip upwards in an expression of tenderness that had you melting in your seat.Â
ââS been a while since weâve both been a bit pissed in the back of a taxi,â he mused, pushing his fallen locks out of his eyes to ensure his view of you wasnât obscured. âCome anâ cuddle me like you used to do when we went out aâ home and were worse for wear.â
Falling into his side was almost second nature, eyes closing as you let your forehead rest against his jawline and let his worn in cologne fill you senses and scatter your judgment.
You donât even remember how you ended up kissing that night. A mixture of confessions about missing each other and praise of how good you both were in your own ways. The sound of his whispered, âare you coming home wiâme?â against your lips an offer too good for you to refuse as you sat pressed into his side and half in his lap.Â
The giggles that night, around dramatic shushes as you tripped and shuffled from the car to his front door were almost haunting in your memory as he tried to chastise you around spluttered laughter about being respectful of his neighbours.Â
Getting the key in the lock proved unchallenging -Â one of the better analogies aligned to your memories and latter sexual endeavours - as you slipped into the house. He enjoyed watching the way you walked ahead of him into his home, not realising how much he needed that visual of seeing how well you fit in.Â
While time seemed to slow in that moment, movements desperately sought the opposite. Hands gripped and clawed like their lives depended upon it.Â
Looking back now, both he and you wished it hadnât happened the way it did. Skirt lifted and over the side of his couch. Teeth clashing and hips knocking.
It had been every inch a drunken fumble. A first meeting slightly cheapened but wanted nonetheless. Only made even cheaper by the hush-hush concealing of it ever occurring.Â
But a secret it was and a secret it would remain.Â
And oh how you wished you had a pillow you could press you face into right now and scream, this time for an entirely different reason. Unlike that night.Â
âNot seen a sign of any deer yet, mate,â you heard a voice break you out of your indulgence of recollecting past events. Harry was the worst at wanting to get a reaction.Â
âChrist, have a bit of patience would yer?â
You smiled at the bickering, just like it always was as the River Dane could be heard in the distance somewhere as you walked. If you listened really close, that is.Â
Lifting your eyes, your smile lingered as you watched Harry spin his body around and let his hands get lost in the massive pockets of his parka. He walked backwards holding your gaze softly with his eyes twinkling before he gently rolled them at the overreaction and impatience of your friends.
He seemed pleased that youâd enjoyed his teasing as you once again hid you smile into your jumper.Â
Youâd be alright.
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You heard giggles and screams ahead of you as your friends stumbled in the dark and messed about as you got closer to the viaduct. This place or the people didnât change, and at times while it filled you with a warm nostalgia, it could be heavily jarring.
A soft and lazy smile pulled at your lips as you felt his heavy forearm lightly tug you closer to him, his lips finding your hair. And then there was Harry.Â
âThink we should go this way mâself,â Harry mumbled, the nudge of his hips against yours had you stumbling slightly in your heels away from the direction of your friends and somewhere completely different.Â
âAnd whyâs that?â You turned your face slightly, cheeks warm and flushed thanks to the mixture of alcoholic beverages; eyes glazed as they lifted up to look at him.Â
âCause you never wouldâve let me when I was sixteen,â he admitted.Â
âYou didnât ask.â
ââM askinâ now.âÂ
With slow blinking eyes, you looked at his own unfocused vision. A soft shine to his skin, hair blowing gently against his forehead. The softest of smiles tilted at your lips. Â
âOn yer go,â he nudged you forward, this time more so with his crotch and his hands, which wrapped around your hips to help steer you. Harry was met with only a small amount of resistance from you as you split off from your friends and turned in the different direction.Â
You bit back your laugh, dropping your head slightly as you felt your heels started to sink into the grass as you walked. Harry was level with you when you sunk down noticing the way you legs slightly gave way, a soft chuckle omitting from his throat as he asked, âYou alrighâ?â
âIâm sinking in these bloody things,â you grumbled, pulling your heel from the grass and trying to place the sole of your shoe onto the ground beneath you first.Â
âSo much for noâ being able to take the country out oâ the girl. Londonâs changed yer, swear it.â
Shaking your head, you cut your eyes to give him a harsh stare for his wind up. His amused expression lit a fire in you like no other. He really wasnât one to talk though, was he?Â
âGiâme your hand âere,â he held his out to you, quickly cupping it when you handed it over and pulled it under his bent elbow. âRemind me again whoâs idea this was, eh?â
He didnât need reminding, he had been one of the keen instigators for the whole jaunt down Twemlow Viaduct. It usually was him, or Jack. The two of them often reminiscing on times they had both raided their parents' alcohol cupboards and managed to sneak out with some dusty bottle that held a liquor that tasted out of date and stale, and if not that then, cheap.Â
ââS still fucking freezing down âere, inâit?â He asked, lifting his left hand up to his mouth and blowing against it to try and get some feeling back into his fingers.
âWeâre so close to the river, I donât know why youâd expect anything different?â
âIs this why everyone was always so insistent on necking anything with over 11% alcohol in it when we came down âere as kids?â
âProbably,â you softly laughed.Â
ââS a bit different now though innit?â
âOh, Iâm not so sure,â you started to correct him, shrugging your hand out from under his elbow and reaching for your bag. Quickly fumbling with the clasp, you lifted up the quilted flap and managed to pull out the stainless steel hip flask.
Harry cackled a harsh laugh, his eyes crinkling as he slowly let his laughter die down and softly let his joy wash over his features. âImpressive. Gone all proper on me.â
âYou know I havenât,â you held his eyes watching as he nervously cupped at the back of his neck for a short while, a gentle bite down of his bottom lip, as you quickly uncapped the item and held it out to him. He looked like he needed the courage. You continued, âWeâre just a bit more refined, that and we earn a good living. Some more than others, and by some I mean you.âÂ
He held his hand up towards you with an amused grin at your comment. âYou first, âs yours after all.âÂ
Lifting the item and knocking back your head, you swallowed the whiskey with a small grimace, before offering it to Harry once more. This time he accepted, his right hand making light work of taking the item from your hands and sipping at the contents.
His face wasnât as contorted as yourâs when he swallowed, a fan of the chosen beverage if needs must. ââS the proper stuff, thaâ is,â he commented with a quick lick of his lips before continuing, âCome a long way from sneaking the bottles of dusty Blossom Hill from the back of the cupboard.â
âDonât know about that,â you smiled, taking the item and pushing it back into your bag. âIâd still drink if, if it were on offer.â
ââM sure Mumâs got a bottle or two going at home?â
âIs that your way of asking me to go home with you?â You paused. âAgain.â
Harry remained silent at your words. Both you and he knew it was going to happen. A mixture of sparks and lovelorn, lingering glances was enough to make anyone both want to give up, while also giving a burning confidence usually unknown.Â
Neither of you expected it would be you who started the conversation, however.Â
âIt is, âf itâs gonna work. âM not sure I could wait any longer tâbeâonest wiâyer.â
Laughing, you reached up to push at his shoulder. He always knew exactly what to say, but no way was he going to make a laughing stock of the whole thing. âOh, give over,â you spoke, harshly swallowing when he kept your hand against the thick cable knit black jumper he had on. âYouâve made it this far, thus far just fine.âÂ
ââM not playinâ,â he whispered, hand gently curling around your own and lifting it up to press against his face. His cheeks were warm underneath the cooler hands, despite the cold night whipping around you both and your mind quickly wondered if he was just as embarrassed for his lack of acknowledgment as you had been. âHomes nice, youâre nicer.â
âI thought we werenât going to talk about it,â you let your soft voice get taken by the wind.
âAnâ what gave you thaâ impression?â
He did. He gave you that impression. By not mentioning it. By treating you how he always did.
âYou.â
âMe?â Harry responded, indignantly, blowing out a sigh that had his cheeks puffing out underneath your hand. ââM not doing a very good job then am I? I canât keep mâeyes off oâyou. âS not my fault you donât bloody notice âem.â
But you had noticed them.Â
His eyes, gaze following your every move, near enough. Stupid little touches. Glances of approval. Not just now, but from years before.Â
Treating you how he always did.
Oh, treating you how he always did.
Bringing your eyes back to his figure, you saw the way his gaze darted and nervousness dragged at his features. A frown began to set itself between his eyebrows from worry.Â
âChanges everything.â
Running his tongue along his teeth, Harry pursed his lips. âEverythinâ has changed, changed a long time ago anâall.âÂ
You dropped your hand down, it now massaging against the back of his neck and shoulder as you felt the tension of his body radiating through his clothes. Under the dim moonlight and the odd spotlight that had been added to the viaduct with each passing year for safety, Harry exhumed everything anyone would want in a boyfriend. He was soft, and so bloody gorgeous. Not just because he was personification of an almost six foot tall string of handsomeness, but his character did the talking for him.
He knocked the door before he walked into a room, for example. Who really did that kind of thing anymore?Â
But you could also still see the heartbreak that lingered, albeit not as strong as it once was, it was still there. And that was problematic and scary. To be on the receiving end of it. Not that you would hold it against him, because you had been him at one point too. At many points in fact.Â
When the two of you had shagged, because letâs face it that is exactly what it had been, while a sense of familiarity in the person was prevalent it was definitely overruled by the desire to just hit a euphoric high that if hit right could not be topped.Â
Familiar overruled in other aspects, and it wasnât to be brushed away. But was familiarity a mask that would slip sooner rather than later? Was it the start and the end?
The both of you experienced similarities in your life that could not be matched by the friends in your friendship group. London had chewed you up and spat you out, ruthlessly so. While rewarding you with long hours but fat pay cheques, careers that catapulted you to new heights and enabled you to see parts of the world that two country kids (which in one way you were) could never have imagined.Â
Sure Harryâs had been on a much, much larger scale - you would not ever deny that - but you no longer fit in.Â
And neither did he.Â
This was a place that only the two of you knew. A place where you watched those around you fall in love and have the time to do so. A place where your friend's happiness was created a lot easier than it wasnât and allowed a sense of success to weave its way in, through the most unexpected of happenings.
Not a place where you found happiness in your work because there was less of a space for happiness to blossom elsewhere. Not really. Not like you; both of you.Â
Understanding was vital.Â
This had been a place you knew like the back of your hand. A place that had you feeling the earth beneath your feet, fresh air in your lungs and had at times made it so you found yourself sitting by a river and finding yourself feeling complete.Â
Yet looking over at the almost 26 year old, that just wasnât the case anymore.Â
And for once you didnât feel alone.Â
The sound of the odd piece of cobbled pavement underneath Harry shoes, buried beneath overgrown grass and plants, broke you from your thoughts, as you watched him kick at the ground and scuff his shoes.
He sighed, head tilted back before he knocked it to the side and caught your eyes. A small scoffed laugh left his lips as he shook his head and dropped his gaze to his feet.
ââS it fucked?â
You hummed, a small frown lacing your features.
âFucked it, havenât I? Fuckinâ- idiot-â he breathed out a noise as he clenched his teeth, one that wasnât quite a growl but enough to let you know he was agitated. Only strengthened by how tight his jaw became.Â
Before you could even think, the back of your hand gently brushed against the pulsing hinge of his jaw. Muscles taut as you tried to soothe him in a way that your mind was screaming was far too intimate.
You didnât want him having any internal battle about right and wrong. Not when you had both taken the same steps to get here.Â
âThought it was just meant as a one time thing,â you admitted. âLike you needed it, and I needed it. Was what it needed to be at the time. Bit rough, bit sloppy-â
You cringed are the use of the word. Wanting the ground to swallow you in a weird fashion. You should be able to talk open and honestly with someone who you had known longer than hadnât.Â
âRough?â Harry swallowed audibly, his face fallen. âThatâs not-âÂ
His eyes held an emotion similar to sorrow at the mention of the word. âThatâs not the impression I wanted to give you.âÂ
âWe were both drunk, it happens.âÂ
âNot with me it doesnât. Not when itâs me, wanting to be wiâyou.â
âI mean I was into it if that helps anything?âÂ
âWere yer?â
You looked at him from the corner of your vision, watching his lips try to fight a smile as you rolled yours into your mouth to not give yourself away. You knew what you were trying to do by speaking those words aloud but you wished you hadnât. Awkward breathy laughs were shared by the two of you as you held his eyes.Â
âWas I?â
You hummed in agreement to answer his question, letting your smile dance along your lips now and watching as Harryâs dimples started to show. His expression was youthful, slightly smug.Â
âGood tâknow.â
***
Finishing saying your goodbyes to your friends and ignoring their suggestive expression because âHarry was stopping as an extra pair of handsâ, you shut the heavy wooden door and reached up to close the deadbolt lock at the top. Shortly after, you let your feet drop as you stopped standing on your tiptoes and pressed your forehead against the door.Â
The silence of the pub was always a strange one to you. A place that was usually thriving, whether it was just your friends, or your parents friends. When the lights were turned out, it was actually quite a lonely place. Regardless of growing up around this sort of industry your entire life and having parents as publicans nothing was more depressing than an empty bar, lifeless and nothing like it was intended.
A suggested lock-in from Jack, who managed to interrupt both yours and Harryâs conversation earlier had not been a bad shout after all. You knew it meant that you would have to deal with the fallout with it being Christmas Eve, but it wasnât very often that you found yourself in the setting.Â
Turning to move from the door, you almost jumped out of your skin when you heard the opening of a familiar Lily Allen song start to play over the speakers.Â
Harry emerged from the corner of the pub that housed the jukebox, slowly rubbing his hands together before he wordlessly picked up the scattered pint glasses that had remained on one of the tables that had been missed by the staff on the evening shift. His eyes glanced over at you, as you stood with a hand to your chest.
This wicked smile and gleam washed over his face as he paused his movement. âDid I scare yer?â
âDo you not think itâs a bit loud?â
He wrinkled his nose at you, a soft shake of his head no, to answer your question.Â
ââS your fave innit?â He asked, head nudging to where the jukebox was now hidden.
With a small smile you nodded, âPrefer the Keane version in all honesty.â
âDonât have it in the bloody jukebox though, dâyer? Canât like it that much.â
Your smile deepened at his exclaim and how prominent his accent sounded as he spoke, the small clink of the glasses he was holding only heard if you really zoned in.Â
âWhere dâyer want these?â He asked, holding up the five pint glasses he had collected. âBehind tâbar?â
Humming, you nodded and watched as he weaved his way through the tables to you. You frowned as he got closer, not understanding why he hadnât bypassed you completely.
Once he was close enough to you, you watched as he reached for what you knew to be your own glass of wine that was almost finished.Â
âFancy the rest of this or can it go too?â
Looking at him and down to the glass, you gently wrapped your hand around it and brought the lip to your mouth. You knocked the item back quickly, swallowing the rest of your wine, before handing over the now empty glass back to Harry.
âGood girl,â he joked, light laughter lacing each word. âSit yourself down.â
Wearing an amused and quizzical expression, you let yourself sink down into the wooden chair. Resting your chin on your hand, you spun slightly in your seat to keep your eyes on Harry as he placed the glasses down and lifted the hatch so he could step behind the bar.Â
With your free hand, you started to tap the worn beer coaster labelled with the Cheshire Brewhouse logo against the table. Part of you hated how Harry had a knack for anything, including knowing his way around a bar.Â
He busied himself with collating the glasses once more as you let your eyes take in the surroundings you had known, loved and even grown out of.Â
Your parentâs pub was cosy and friendly. A trulyÂ
classic and quintessential British village pub, featuring open fires, bookcases found in the very far corner or the jukebox in the other, lots of old oak and a really pleasant garden with benches for the summat and heaters for the winter. You know the kind that had its regulars that had kids who had seen each other grow up.
The bar was the centre of the pubs house, with an extensive array of whiskies amongst many other delights. A nice range of local ales and a well-balanced, great quality list of wines on offer designed (which you would be taste testing if the service hadnât decided to take a break) to complement the food menus designed daily by a team of chefs who all have a passion for great cooking using fresh, seasonal and local ingredients.
It looked as Christmassy as Christmas could get, with a real tree which was locally sourced from one of the many surrounding farms and traditionally decorated with golds and reds. Twinkly lights shone, not only on the trees but as part of the garland that was hung above the bar each year, much to the annoyance of your Dad and the delight of your Mum.
Slowly dragging your eyes back to the bar, you watched Harry as he poured you another glass of white wine and started to recap the bottle. He mustâve felt your eyes on him, his gaze meeting yours almost immediately.Â
âService is a bit slow,â you jibed, once you knew he was with you. âGoing to ruin the reputation of a fine establishment.â
His chuckle was breathy in response, but warmed you through as he turned his back and pushed his tumbler glass up against the device at the bottom of the Glenfiddich distilled malt whiskey, not once but twice going for a double.Â
âHelping yourself to the stock now, as well.âÂ
ââM sure your Dad wonât mind,â he responded, twisting his body back around to reach for your own glass and place it onto a tray that sat along the bar top. âIn fact heâd probably make a comment about how itâd put hairs on mâchest.â
You laughed, unrestrained, knowing just how right he had been with that comment.Â
Over the otherside of the room, Harry smiled and shushed you as he walked closer, easily holding the tray with your drinks upon it. âBeing a bit loud,â he taunted as he slid the tray down to the oak table.
âOh, now youâre concerned about the noise.â
With his hand against the back of the chair which was currently housing your outstretched legs, you felt him start to wobble the seat to give you a warning.Â
âHang on,â you said, âPlenty of other chairs.â
âThis oneâs mine,â he responded.
Wanting to roll your eyes but deciding not to, you let your legs drop down and gave the seat back to Harry. Once he was comfortable and heâd taken your drink off the tray, he gestured with his right hand.
Not entirely focused, he had to do the âcome hitherâ motion a couple of times before you finally cottoned on. He was willing to let you put your legs on his lap instead, while he may have taken the seat it didnât mean he wanted to take away your comfort.
No sooner had your legs been raised to rest against his tan washed velvet corduroy trousers, was he fiddling with the buckle of your stiletto sandals.
âGot mud everywhere,â you commented, wiggling your toes that were painted a festive red and inspecting the little dots of dirt that were splattered against your skin, as Harry dropped the first shoe to the floor and quickly worked on the second. âDread to think what they smell like.â
âSmell alrighâ from âere,â he mused, smirk faint but glaring obvious in his tone of voice as he threw a quick and mischievous glance at you. As you elongated your foot against his thighs, the tips of your toes were just about able to press into his thick jumper to try and jab at him for his comment.Â
Before you were able to put any sort of force behind your action, Harryâs hand clamped down around the top of your foot causing your eyes to snap up away from his hand and up to his eyes.
There he sat watching you, top two teeth pressed into his bottom lip keep his smile at bay. Releasing his lips slowly, his whispered threat left his throat, âI will tickle.â
You tried to fidget away but to no avail. With a whined laugh, you frowned as Harry goaded you by slowly raising his eyebrows. âYou wouldnât dare.â
âTry me.â
You had tried him.Â
Truth be told you wanted to again.
If he wanted to.
Reaching for your wine, you took a hefty sip and let the silence swallow you both. Harry, who kept his hand on your foot and his fingers dancing gently against the top, let his head fall back awkwardly against the hardwood. His head dropped to the side taking in his surroundings and their familiarity.Â
âDo you ever get tired of coming back?âÂ
You hummed, sure you had misheard due to the way the blood was rushing around your ears. He turned to look at you, all double chin and puffy cheeks.
âOf everything being the same, but different?â
His whispers captivated you, hushed confessions not quite meant for anyone else but his own mind yet spilling from him with such an ease that he did nothing to fight them.Â
âIâll admit, I come home for other people. Not for me.â
âPeople?â
âMum, Dad,â you paused. âYou.â
His smile deepened. His chin knocking down to his chest, his eyes looking up at you from underneath his curling hair from being caught in the moist winter evening just hours before.
âYou can stop looking at me like that.â
âLike what?â
âLike you did three nights ago.â
Harry breathed in deeply, his nostrils flaring and his chest expanding. A lick of his lips, before his mouth dropped to sit slightly agape.Â
âWhat if I donât wanâto? What if I want tâlook at yer like this all the time?â
You found yourself unable to respond, nose burying itself into your wine glass as you pressed your lips against the cool outside to try and hide your burning smile.Â
His lips curled lightly, before he breathed a laugh once and gently shook your foot with his hand. âEh? Come âere-â
âHarry,â you breathed.
âCâmon, câmere. âS room for more than just your feet.â
If it wasnât for the creak of your chair as you slowly started to push yourself out of it, you wouldnât have consciously been aware of how you were making your way to him.Â
His body relaxed, somehow managing to become closer to horizontal than sitting upright in his seat, as he peered as you walking the short distance over to him.Â
With his legs widened, he pressed his face into your side now that you were close enough. His nose inhaled the familiar scent of your perfume which was only faint now due to the other senses and scents it had mixed with throughout the evening.
Rolling his face out of your body, he knocked his head back and pressed his chin where his face had been. The face you showed him was worn with worry, an expression he did not want to meet.
ââS wrong?â
His ask was lazy. Not wanting to dig deep and know. What if he didnât like what he found?Â
âWe know how this is going to end.â
âDo we?â He prodded. His eyes moved over your features quickly before they partly disappeared to him, thanks to your curtain of hair which slowly fell down.
His hand reached up, desperately brushing it away and cupping at the back of your head as best as he could while he remained seated.Â
âHowâs that? Tell me.â
âSame, but different.âÂ
You knew you shouldnât use his words, not in a way that could be considered against him, but they - in the most ambiguous of ways - described everything perfectly.Â
âNot if I have my way.âÂ
His words were almost lost against your stomach as he pressed his face against you once more and wrapped his hands around you; sweaty, nervous palms pressing to the backs of your thighs.Â
âSame, but better.â
Harry guided you down to his lap, his lips somehow managing to remain pressed into stomach, or your chest, or your clavicle, as your face became level with his.Â
âDifferent, but better.âÂ
He kissed against your cheek slowly, nose nudging at your skin as he willed for you to relax against him. âI donât know how you like it, like this,â he whispered in confession. âShow me?â
A puff of air left your lips as you turned to look at him with hooded eyes. His mouth was closer to yours than you originally thought, corners of lips brushing as you slightly pulled away.Â
When your lips met, it was in the softest of pecks that trembled under your nerves. Both sets of eyes looking back at each other as you innocently engaged.Â
If you were to take your eyes away from him in any way, you would notice those fluffy curls of his falling over his forehead and the lightest dusting of red blush making itself known against his cheeks and the tops of his ears.
He felt like a school boy, lost and clumsy. The kid who was once again flicking paper at you in science class just so he could pull a face at you over something your teacher was saying to get you to laugh.Â
Mouths hovering over each other, your breathing mixed, as Harry nodded to you slightly. You pressed your lips to his once more, feeling the way he gradually opened up to you, warmed and softened underneath the puckering of your mouth against his.Â
His hands, that slightly trembled, smoothed over your hips trying to pull your body so that it was more so flush against his. You moaned softly, your hands running over his jumper covered shoulders, fingers digging and pulling at the material just below the nape of his neck.Â
The chair beneath you moved lightly against the floor, not quite a scrape but a dull drag. Neither of you broke the kiss, but his hands against you allowed fingers to dig in to hold you steady to him so if you were to fall from where you were sitting, he still had you.Â
His lips slowed, moving to press against your cheeks again as he panted and his warmth breath bounced off your skin. âThink I got it,â he heaved.Â
âDo you?â
Harry hummed his âyeaâ, before pressing his lips so tenderly to your chin and the underside of your jaw. He felt how you swallowed heavily, throat dry from the way your mouth hung open and your neck further exposed itself as you lolled your head back.Â
You were falling further and further back, finding it hard to stay upright as he devoured you and made you weaker with each pulling kiss. His groans were needy, muffled and making your ache. While yours were silent and making his desperate to pull something from you. To build is confidence in that he was doing something right, you liked it this way too.Â
Hands fumbled and dragged upwards at your skirt, faintly aware now how it was similar - if not the same one - to the garment you wore to his show.Â
âGonna take this off properly,â he mumbled, feeling the way your hips moved slightly from his hands to roll over him.Â
âYou donât have to-â
âNo?âÂ
Your voices were rushed as you spoke to each other, barely audible but loud enough all the same. His head was knocked back slightly as you hovered over him and you found yourself admiring his blissed out face even only in the lead up.
This was a sight that you hadnât received last time, and if you had your way it was one you were going to greedily enjoy in all its glory.
Like watching the way his eyes closed and he softly grinned, the left side of his teeth started to show as the one side of his face reacted first while your hands blindly moved to lift up his jumper and the white tee he had on underneath, to allow you to find the button of his corduroys.
âWhat ya doing?â
âNothing,â you mused.Â
He pulled a face, the kind that down turned his lips, eyebrows raised and head slightly tilted to the side. The kind that had you smiling.Â
âNot trying to get mâtrousers around mâankles for a second time within a week then?â
You giggled. âNo.â
âPlease do.â
A low moan left you as you pressed your forehead to his jaw and dropped your eyes. Your hands slowly started to pull at the brass button and pop it open before seeking out the zip thanks to his desperate plea, encouraging you to continue.Â
Hands quickly sought out the waistband of the trousers and gently pulled at the item. From the way that you were sat, you knew there was no way you were doing to make them budge.
âStand up foâ me,â he mumbled, quickly helping you get off his lap so that he could make light work of his clothing and pull down his trousers and underwear.Â
His bare bum made easy contact with the cushion leather beneath him, eyes carefully watching you as your hands moved to underneath your skirt.Â
The fabric of your underwear slipped so easily down your legs, his eyes just about caught the sight of them as they pooled against your ankles and you kicked them away.Â
Legs pressed together, you slowly untucked the v-necked blouse you had chosen and pulled it over your head. Wearing nothing but a fancy black bra, and a tight little skirt you hastily snatched for your wine and took a hefty gulp.
You could feel his eyes on you, a gruff groan catching in the back of his throat and when you finally turned your eyes from where they had been looking down at your heaving chest and how great this bra made your boobs look, causing him to move his hand down to start playing with himself.Â
His name left your lips in a breathy gasp, causing you to look up quite surprised at the find of his right hand gently tugging at his hard length.
âKeepinâ me waitinâ,â he groaned, his left hand sloppily reached for the back of the collar of his jumper and tee, pulling the item roughly over his head.
âFuck sake,â he mumbled under his breath, agitated that he was unable to get both items of in one go.
âSmooth.â
Harry stared up at you with a playful squint, before he gently fell back and moved the chair as he did so, the dull scrape heard once more.Â
And if you didnât know he was flushed before, when you first kissed, you were definitely aware now. His eyes were blown out and hungry as they devoured you. Hair wildly haphazard before he let go of himself with a soft slap of his skin and harshly pushed his fingers through it.
ââS it still a couple of quid for a strip of three,â his words brought you back to him. This smugness radiated off of him as he groaned and leaned forward to push his trousers down all of the way. Over his vans and socked feet, before he toed them off as well be harshly pulled at his white sport socks.Â
You didnât even need for him to explain what he meant, staying silent as you watched his hands tug at his corduroys from the floor and retrieve his wallet. As his fingers moved around to find a couple of quid, the jangle of the coins was taunting.Â
One leg crossed over the other, you swayed and found yourself blushing when he looked up at you once heâd managed to find enough money and then some. With his wallet thrown on the table, he stood proudly from the seat and closed the short gap between your both.
Leaning forward he easily took your lips with his own before pulling away. With his face still close to yours he whispered, âPromise not to look at my arse.â
He didnât hang around long enough for your reply, instead turning away and brazenly giving you all the time you would ever need to admire him, his fantastic bum and his hairy legs before he opted for a jog-walk type of thing, suddenly conscious that he was absolutely walking around naked from the waist down in a pub owned by your parents.Â
While you waited you took a quick pull from his whiskey, needing the heftier burn for Dutch courage. Nervousness returned when you heard the endings of what you believed to be Harry whistling.Â
âMachine ate all mâfuckinâ change,â he grumbled, regardless of the twinkle in his eye at the strip of overpriced condoms he had managed to score from the menâs bathroom. ââS Durex. Business must be booming, your Dadâs definitely gone up in the world.âÂ
âPlease donât talk about my Dad.â
He smiled brightly before he reached for your face with one hand and pulled you towards him mumbling his âsorryâsâ against your lips as he gave you several kisses in quick succession.Â
His other arm loosely wrapped around your back and pulled you with him as he walked backwards and slowly lowered himself back onto his previous seat. The chair creaked as you joined him, slipping into his lap and feeling the way he was smiling now.
Pulling away from your kiss, he quickly tore away one of the condoms allowing the others to fall without much care to the floor. Teeth took a hold of the foil-like packaging and he tore it not so elegantly with his eagerness.
With his cock nestled in the crease of his own thigh now, the heat radiating from it matched your own agonising yearning. Scooting back to give him space, you heard him groan as he gently rolled the condom down onto himself. Eyes looking up just in time to see him knocking his head back and breathing deeply through nose. The foil-like packaging was back in between his teeth once more as his hands were otherwise preoccupied.
Slowly your hand reached up to take it from his mouth, feeling some playful resistance as Harry continued to hold it in his teeth. His eyes were open and boyishly sincere, as you tugged at the item and he finally released it when you lightly laughed.Â
âGiâme a kiss.â
Obliging him, you leant forward and slotted your mouths together a lot easier than you had done at the start of the night. A heat built easily between the two of you, as Harry gave you his tongue and you felt the flex of his jaw under your hand as he worked your mouths together.
He was eager, his hands tightening on your waist before he growled when he understood he had to grab handfuls of skirt before he could cup your backside. But when his skin met yours and you ground down onto his lap, the groan that left him was the most animalistic sound imaginable.Â
The frown your face fell into showed your desire to whimper, as he kept you atop him and marvelled in the way you writhed, both from satisfaction and keenness at the pressure of his cock against you.Â
âCan I have you again?â He asked, the startings of sweaty hair being pushed off your face. His eyes peered at you, searching for his answer as you seemed to be able to do nothing but pant and look back at him yearningly. âAre you letting me?â
You dragged your fingers down his t-shirt covered torso and lifted it slightly just to see the quiver of his stomach as pulled you onto him once more.Â
âLike this?â you voiced, meekly.
ââF this is what you like then, yeaââ, he breathed into your mouth, hands shifting your pliant body. âIs this what you want?â
You wordlessly nod, mouth falling open in a breathy gasp when he managed to move you so he sat so enticingly at your entrance. He was teasing both yourself and him, wanting to keep you both on the edge.Â
Harry blinked a few times as he looked at you, and you revelled in the way he couldnât seem to concentrate. His hands held your flesh tightly, fingertips dipping into the skin of your bum cheeks as he gently guided you down.
An unattractive and dull, quite strangled noise, left your throat as you let your forehead fall against his temple. Eyes falling down you see the cups of your bra fall slack, you felt his hands softly gliding over your shoulder blades and shoulders.Â
He rid you of your bra, hands moving to your chest to squeeze your breasts. His jaw fell slack when you found yourself sitting snugly on his lap - on him - settled and already feeling spent.
This was so different compared to the last time; if not overwhelming so because of the way you both appeared to be so present. Each movement of your hips, and the way they rolled and grinded and dragged felt too much. So much so that you had become nothing more than a mess of short, quick breathing and blushing, sweaty cheeks.Â
Slack-jaw, you were unable to find it in you to return Harryâs kisses, and his joyful, breathy chuckle seemed to lead you to believe he was fine with it. In fact he was happy to keep going as you were.Â
Your movements were frantic, and despite the build up, not entirely driven by lust either. Harry continued to encourage you to move as you were; slow, grinding motions on his lap that caused the filthiest of groans and dirtiest of laughs from the two of you. Laughter that was only made stronger as the chair that held you both started to creak too.Â
You couldnât do much about it though other than to breathe into each otherâs mouth, and rock your hips together with more fervour each time.Â
âYeaâ,â he breathed against your lips, left hand at the back of your head holding you to him, while his right rested just above your bum. ââS better. Thatâs better.â
It was better. Better than last time. Better than anything before.Â
And while it hadnât been frantic before, it was now as your legs that were hanging down either side of the chair started to tremble and your toes started to dig into the worn carpet beneath them. Hips knocking and your clit dragging heavenly against his public bone, you grasped his name as you buried your face into his neck and dug your nails into his nape.
Harry hissed his approval which fell to a groan as your nails pushed up into his hair and lightly pulled as you sought leverage. There were so many things you were learning this time around and his penchant for liking his hair pulled from time to time, was one of those things.Â
âGod, âm gonna come soon,â he admitted, gruntly as he forced your hips down as he anchored his legs and widened his seating position. âAre you close?â
âYeah,â you whined. âYes. Like this-â
And as you pressed your face to his once more, he was everywhere. Soft but hard, loving but commanding. Smelled like clean washing detergent but of country air. Inviting and alluring, allowing you your lingering kisses between grounding breaths that became staccato in unison with the movement of your hips.Â
You arenât ashamed of the whines that escaped your throat as you squeezed down on his cock, praised by indecipherable works that left Harry but were nothing more to you than lips moving against your rough and dry ones. Word that made the burning feeling of your pending orgasm spread through your entire body, warming you and setting you alight.
It was long and deep, with your toes curling into the carpet they were pressed against now. Barely able to catch your breath, sucking in harshly and shaking.Â
And when you came to, thoroughly exhausted, you noticed that he was waiting for your say so. That he could let go and enjoy the pleasure brought about by your shared labour.Â
âComing-â was all the warning that you got and was enough to encourage you to watch him as he came, his face completely void of anything other than pure pleasure. Wrinkles and frowns fade, his mouth falling open with his pink lips glinting prettily under the dim Christmas lights around you.
His forehead gleamed with sweat as he wrapped his arms around you tightly and his hips bucked up one, two and three times for good measure. âFuck me,â he heaved gruffly.
You were suddenly desperate to feel his lips on yours despite the way you both continued to fight to get your breath back, but settled for resting them against the skin of his cheek, which was hot to the touch.Â
When you felt Harry start to go soft, you reluctantly pulled away and let him slip out of you. He wasnât so keen to let you get too far, holding you just that bit higher than before with his hand cupping gently but firmly at your hip. âWhereâd you think youâre going,â he hummed, eyes still closed as he continued to heavily inhale and exhale.Â
You softly smiled, taking in his soft face and responded by nuzzling close to him again.Â
Nowhere. Somewhere. Anywhere with him.
A place where only the two of you knew, like the back of your hand. The same way you knew each other. Now and possibly forever.
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Certainly- Kaz Brekker
The reader is a bit of an astrology and astronomy alike geek for this, which I hope yâall donât mind! Also, in this case, phones exist so lets pretend that phones exist in Ketterdam, making it a bit of a modern au, I guess!
Also, thisâll probably be a bit ooc for Kaz
Fic type- angsty fluff
Warnings- blood, mentions of death, and the reader is sick (nothing specific, I just kind of took random symptoms and made up a word for the sickness)
You were determined to see the stars before you went, and as you grew sicker, none of the crows knew when that would be, so, after a little convincing, the crows had gotten Colm to let you spend a couple of months at his farm in Novyi Zem, where the stars were the clearest at night, not burdened by light pollution or the screams of lively cities.Â
It was the seven of you crammed into a basement, sharing beds, but none of them cared, and you were just glad to be with the people you called family. You were happy that they were with you, that Kaz was willing to wheel you everywhere when you got too weak to stand, that Jesper still made jokes, even despite watching you deteriorate. You were grateful for Inejs smile, Wylans music, Ninas impeccable tastes and Matthias and his big arms that could lift you and put you down without issue.Â
The six of them had started taking shifts taking you outside. Nina took you outside Sunday nights, Matthias Mondays, Wylan Tuesdays, Jesper Thursdays, Inej Fridays and Kaz Saturdays. Wednesdays you rested up; ate when it was time to eat, used the bathroom when you needed, took a shower if it were the appropriate time, but other than that, you slept.
It was Kazâs day to wheel you out, and youâd had a particularly rough day that day. Inej went with him, promising not to intrude on the time that you would spend together. Sheâd do backflips and run across the roof of the farm if you asked her to, but sheâd not interrupt otherwise.Â
âI love the stars,â you whispered, leaning back in your wheelchair and tightening the hold of the blanket over your lap. âThank you both. For doing this.âÂ
âDonât you worry, love,â Kaz murmured. âJust keep your eyes on the stars, okay?â
âWeâre happy to do this,â Inej added. âAll of us are. Really.â It was like both of them could sense it as well as you could. You had a feeling that the night would end terribly, just like the morning had begun.
Youâd woken up only to need to rush to the toilet immediately, blood coming up your throat like bile, staining your skin and leaving your bottom lip red as a cherry.Â
Kaz had been at your side in a minute, Nina and Wylan right behind him. Wylan kept your hair away from the sides of your face, Nina slowed your heartrate and Kaz wet a cloth with cold water to get your body temp down.Â
Kaz had forced himself to stay in the moment, to not let his thoughts stray to the urge to sleep in the same bed as you to make sure that nothing happened while you slept--to be there in case something did--but to stay on the sun as it set and the faraway sound of Wylan playing his flute with the window open so that youâd be able to hear it.Â
Once youâd gotten settled under a tree, Inej ran off, making her way inside and up to the barns roof, where she sat, keeping a watch from a distance as Kaz let you rest your head against his shoulder, gloved hand interlaced with yours.Â
âI love you, Brekker,â you murmured. âPlease donât forget that. Ever.âÂ
âI wonât,â he whispered. âYouâre gonna stay around and get better until we can spar again, and you can beat my ass even though Iâve my cane as a weapon.âÂ
âYou know full well I canât promise that,â you wished that you could. You desperately wished. âIâm going to die young, Kaz. Iâm not gonna get to eighteen, much less eighty.â Kaz hated you for that.
He hated you because everything that you said somehow managed to be right. It was like you had a sixth sense for that kind of thing, and while, on missions, it proved useful, in that scenario, it just proved annoying.Â
âYouâre gonna make it to eighteen if it kills me,â he informed you. âIâll take you around the globe if I need to, just to make sure you end up okay. I will not live a life without you in it, Y/N.âÂ
âYouâre sweet,â you murmured. âIncredibly sweet.â
âOnly to you, L/N.â That was the last bit of conversation for a long while as the sun set and the stars came out.
âDid you know that the moon isnât circular?â You pointed lazily to it, bright and beautiful amongst the even brighter stars. âAccording to scientests, itâs actually shaped like a lemon!â Kaz didnât fight his smile.
Of course youâd be spouting off the little factoids you knew about space. You loved it, how vast and crazy it all seemed.Â
âAnd that the clouds at the center of the Milky Way smell like raspberries and rum?â Kaz snorted.
âOkay, now, theres no way that ones true!âÂ
âOh,â you leaned up, booping his nose without a care in the world. âBut it is! Itâs in a study somewhere, I think! Look it up!â He laughed, pulling you closer to him as you rambled.
Inej had started doing running flips across the roof, spinning and dancing and no doubt laughing as she did. Kaz knew it was an elaborate effort to get you to smile, and it seemed to work as she moved; a delightful silhouette amongst a star filled sky.Â
âI love you, Kaz Brekker,â you whispered. âYou donât need to say it back, but I really, truly do love you with every bone that exists in my body.â
âI love you too,â he said it without hesitation. âAnd Iâll love you until weâre old and grey, I swear it.â
âDonât hold me to that promise,â you murmured. âYou know how bad this is. Stop thinking that Iâll make it into the new year. I probably wont.â
âYou will if it kills me, Y/N,â he gave your shoulders a gentle squeeze. âIâll drain the bank dry if I have to, I swear to Ghezen.â
You didnât say anything after, too exhausted to even think about starting an argument with him, simply not wanting to.Â
But then, an hour later, Kaz felt fear trickle into his stomach like it hadnât ever in his life.
âAnd then theres Supernova. Itâs like a star thatâs dying having itâs last celebration. Like when we get a really big win, or when we get away with what we intended to get away with, and we all get shitfaced before we collapse onto our beds and sleep for the night? A supernova is a dying stars explosion. Itâs the last celebration that the star has before it dies out.â youâd been rambling.
âTonight is my... tonight is my...â Kaz had called for Nina right then and there, screaming her name while he felt you go slack against him.
âZenik!â He screamed, not caring at all if he were to wake up Jespers father. âZenik, call in that fucking favor with the bloody Ravkan prince!â Matthias came barreling out after her, phone in hand, already speaking to someone as Nina began working, steadying your heart and trying her hardest to keep you alive.Â
Kaz had to force himself to walk away from it all, pushing his feet away after giving your shoulders one last squeeze and walking far out into the field.Â
Once he was sure he was out of earshot, he couldnât stop himself. Tears flooded his eyes and he found himself glaring at the sky, wanting to scream, wanting to shout, wishing that there was someone around that he could gut like a fish.Â
âSaints,â he murmured through gritted teeth. âSankt Ilya, Sankt Adrik, Sankta Alina of The Fold, I know I am a terrible person, but Y/N is not. Theyâre good, they smile, they laugh, theyâre kind to others when those people probably donât deserve their kindness. I know Iâm damned, I know that you probably strongly dislike me, but theyâre different.â Heâd never asked the Saints for anything before, and he never would again.
âPlease, just, let them live. Let them get the life that they deserve. Iâll do my best to make them happy, but you have to let me,â he wiped the tears from his eyes as they came. âThey deserve the life that youâre so willing to take away, and all I ask is that you donât take it.â He heard the sounds of the ambulance car and raced back to you, gripping your hand as they helped you onto a stretcher and out of the field, through the house and out the entrance.Â
I wonât lose them, he told himself. A world without them is one thatâs unbearable.Â
O N E Y E A R L A T E RÂ
You laughed as Nina chased you through the halls of the Little Palace, running quickly through the endless corridors, your laughter carrying through them as you kept yourself in front of Nina.
Nikolai had kept you in the Os Altan palace since that night, where Inej laughed and danced and did her flips, whilst Wylan played the piano and Kaz sat beside you, listening to your ramblings without a care in the world.Â
âYou seem delighted,â Nikolai noticed as you stopped in front of his office. âIâve never seen you walk without that Brekker boy at your side, much less run while Zenik is on your tail!â You shrugged, laughing as Ninas front crashed into your back.
âThis is the best Iâve felt in a year,â you murmured. âI figured Iâd see if Nina was up to chase me around this morning, and I havenât stopped running since!â You peered in through the open office door, looking for that familliar mop of dark brown hair.
Nina wrapped her arms around you and gave you a gentle squeeze. âHeâll be here any minute,â she murmured. âHe and the boys are just finishing up a job for Nik in East Ravka, but Matthias told me the second that theyâd left!â
âTrust me. Y/N,â Nikolais smooth voice murmured. âI put them on one of my fastest boats. I knew how long itâd take them to get from here to east Ravka and back, and I promised him heâd be here when you finally awoke.âÂ
âHows it feel, anyway?â Zoya appeared at his side. âEighteen, I mean.â You shrugged.
âI miss Kaz,â you murmured bluntly. âI hate that I have to tell him that he was right, but I still miss him.âÂ
Nikolai took Zoyas hand, pulling her close as you and Nina watched, smiles on your faces.Â
âYoung love,â Zoya teased. âZenik, let go of them so that they can turn around.â Nina obeyed, letting you go and moving to lean against the doorway with Nikolai and Zoya.Â
You turned, and smiled when your gazes met. âYou were right, Brekker,â you murmured, walking toward him as he held out your gift to you. âIâm better now, and the second that youâre ready to spar, Iâm gonna beat your ass, even though youâve your cane as a weapon.â He grabbed your pinky with his the moment you were within distance.
âHowâd the heist go?â You murmured once the two of you had walked out of earshot.Â
âGood,â Kaz let himself be close to you as you two moved, squeezing your pinky as you slowed your steps. âPlan went off without a hitch, for three idiots and a mastermind with a limp. I brought you this from it,â he held the gift out to you again, and you took it in your free hand, examining it.
âI had to ask permission for that,â he murmured. âI had to get the Ravkan kings seal of approval to steal that for you.â You laughed, looking it over.
It was a journal. Black and leather bound, pages crisp and untouched. A pen was tucked into the cover.Â
âI promise, weâll go home soon,â you responded. âI miss Ketterdam. I could go for some waffles.âÂ
âDonât they have waffles here?â Kaz questioned.
âNot Ketterdam waffles, love. Ketterdam waffles are unlike any pathetic waffle from here! Doused in syrup and whip cream--â You let out a satisfied sigh. âSo good itâs almost surreal!â Kaz smirked.
âWaffle date when youâre well enough to return home then?âÂ
âCertainly.â
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Attraction
Kinktober Day 27 ~ kink: rivalry
pairing: todoroki shouto x fem!reader
warnings: smut, cussing, alcohol mention, college!au
word count: 11,000
a/n: I went.... plus ultra on this... I wrote it all day and I think its amazing. if youâre concerned I even made a literal summary of what it is. by all means you can read most of this even if you donât like smut!!!
Synopsis:Â You and Shouto have to work with each other on a psychology project. A psychology project on attraction. The hard thing about this of course is that the two of you hate each other.Â
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Being a doctor was the biggest dream youâve had since high school. You wanted to take care of people, improve their physical and emotional wellbeing. A doctor was your everyday hero and you wanted to be that.
When university applications began during high school, you submitted an application to the best school in Japan.
Yuuei University.
They were now known for their very low acceptance rate, it's high retention and graduation rates! As well as most graduates becoming the most successful individuals in their field! It was no question that you applied there!
When you got in, your family and you had celebrated for an entire week. It was extraordinary.
Of course, Yuuei was a rigorous university. You spent days and nights studying. Even the weekends werenât filled with partying due to the nature of your classes. As a Biochemistry Major, you had a lot on your plate. All while taking the needed courses as well as the pre-req classes for medical school. You were always at the top of your game.
So when you were selecting classes for the second semester of your third year, it shocked you to hear that four more units of a psychology class were needed. A class needed to complete the core requirements that the university held.
So you sat in your advisor's office. Your eyes looked at the different courses offered for psychology. All the weird ones were for the second semester. You had first pick still, given that you had so many credits and were now an upperclassman.
âIs there anything in psychology dealing with physiological or neurological issues?â You asked, only seeing Abnormal Psychology which youâd already taken.
Your advisor looked up at you, his tired eyes bloodshot as he skimmed the course list. Aizawa had been your advisor since you were admitted. You came in already declared as a Biochemistry major and had stuck with your decision all this time.
âThereâs a 400 level class called Psychology and the Brain,â Aizawa told you, moving his computer screen for you to look at. âIt looks like you met the requirements to take the class, and itâs the only class close to what you want.â
You nod your head as you type out the class on your phone.
âIt meets twice a week, Tuesday and Thursday for two hours,â Aizawa tells you as you nod. All of your other classes were on other days. It worked within your schedule.
âThat sounds good!â You chirp standing up, slinging your backpack over your shoulder you sigh. âYouâll let me know if I have any of the same classes as him?â
âNo can do, you two have the same major. You need to get over this childish rivalry.â Aizawa deadpans as your nose wrinkles.
âFine.â You moan as you wave goodbye, your pace quickening so you wouldnât miss your one p.m. lecture.
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The Next Semester
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Your eyes widened as you stepped into the Psychology lecture. It was a bigger class then you were expecting. With a total of what you were guessing to be already sixty people in the class, your eyes locked onto your friends.
âY/l/n!â
âHi, Mina.â You smile as you walk over towards the empty seat next to your best friend.
âI canât believe Iâm taking this class!â She gushes as you sit down next to her, your fingers pulling out your laptop in preparation for the class. âI wasnât going to take this class at all, but then you told me you were taking it! I also heard that this is a huge partner-based class, so if we get paired up together itâll be super fun!â
You nod your head in agreement as the pink-haired girl rambles off. She speaks excitedly about what this new semester was going to bring! About how excited she was for the final year next year! While she was speaking to you, your eyes took a better sweep of the room.
There were a lot of people you recognized! Youâd taken classes with many of these individuals before. It was for general biology, general chemistry, and the abnormal psychology class. You smiled and a warm feeling spread in your chest seeing that the one person you didnât want here wasnât here.
âDid you hear that Yao-momo is going on a date?â Mina asks you, and your eyes widen.
âWhat! No?! With who?!â Your jaw is on the floor as Mina catches you up to speed.
During your freshman orientation, you were then placed into a group of twenty kids. Under the name of Group 1-A, the twenty of you became very close friends! To this day, you were all very close! That is, except for you and him.
Well, he wasn't close to anyone except ten people.
Your eyes snapped towards the front of the lecture hall as Professor Midnight walked in. Multiple binders in her hands as she tossed them onto the table by the podium.
Professor Midnight was a blessing to your school, in your opinion at least. She was incredibly intelligent and was very open about her sex life. Midnight was funny and entertaining. It made you wish at times that you were a psychology major just so that you could have more classes with her. Midnight believed that being open with your sexual identity and things alike were important.
âAlright!â Midnight shouted towards the class and everyone quieted down. âThe syllabus is on the website, make sure to read it! We have a lot to cover and not enough time so without further adieu, letâs getââ
The doors opened.
Your eyes looked back and your previous excitement died in your chest as you saw who walked in. Tall and serious, with a pair of black joggers and a black t-shirt he sat down near the front of the class.
A short giggle was heard from Mina who nudged you. You had to restrain the frustrated groan at the back of your throat as you rubbed your throbbing temples.
Why?
Why must this always happen?
âTodoroki-san, thank you for being on time for the first lecture.â Midnight jokes with no malice as she turns her attention back to what she was saying.
Your eyes wander toward the two-tone-haired man. Your fingers drum against the desk as you exhale, why was this always happening?
âAs you may or may not have heard already, this class is a major project class. There is minimal lecturing, only presentations that will be conducted based on your topic. The final is a paper and formal presentation to be done with your partner.â You felt Mina nudge you with her elbow and you glanced at her and grinned. âThat being said, I have already created said partners for you.â
Your smile fell off your face as Midnight connected her laptop to the projector.
âThis list was created at random, so no, I do not care if you want to trade or switch partners. You donât get that option. Please find your name and partner and sit next to each other. We will begin with your first assignment after youâre paired up.â
The list flashed onto the screen, and your eyes scour the list in search of your name.
Please just let it be someone goodâŠ
âOh,â Mina exclaims, her hands on her face as she grins. âIâm with Aoyama!â
âAoyamaâs in the class?!â You ask looking around for your favorite blond.
âI guess so, but I need to go find him now! Good luck!â Mina cries as she grabs her things and looks around.
Your frown increases as your eyes continue down the list.
Y/l/n y/n.
Y/l/n y/n.
Y/l/nâ
Your breathing stops in your throat as you find your name near the bottom.
Todoroki Shouto, Y/l/n y/n.
Oh no.
Your eyes immediately look over towards Todoroki whoâs looking back at you. If this was an anime, the class would have dropped in temperature by fifty degrees by two of yourâs icy glares. Both of you didnât move.
Everyone else was already with their partner, introductions being made if they didnât already know the other.
But you and Todoroki?
Neither one of you moved.
Your gazes still locked, but your bodies were unmoving. Like hell, you were going to move to the front of the room.
In fact, Todoroki was the only person in the front of the room! You had also decided that you were not moving.
With your gaze never breaking away from his, you point towards the empty seat next to you. Todoroki rolls his eyes, his own finger pointing towards the empty chair next to him.
Both of you refusing to move, and your heart was pounding in your frustration. Why was he such a fucking dick?
âTodoroki, Y/l/nâŠâ Midnight called, her arms folded as her eyes swept between the two of you. Giggles erupt within the class. Oh yes, the hatred and rivalry between the two of you were legendary within the school. âOne of you needs to moveâŠâ
âI was here on time, professor.â You say never once breaking eye contact with the heterochromatic man. Who the hell did he think he was anyway? Thinking he could act this way because his dad was rich and sort of famous?
âAs was I.â Todoroki quirks his eyebrow. âLecture starts at one thirty-five. It was one thirty-four when I walked in; Midnight was early.â
âDoesnât change the fact I was here first.â Your lips pressing into a scowl as you crossed your arms.
âToo embarrassed to sit in the front, y/l/n?â Todoroki taunts and your rage spikes.
âToo stupid to pay attention near the back, Todoroki?â You retort.
âChildren, children!â Midnight cries, her fingers rubbing her temples. âLetâs compromise! Why donât you sit in the middle of where you both are.â
You want to say no, but you know what a pain in the ass the two of you are. Still, as you gather your things, the two of you refuse to break eye contact. You walk towards the middle and sit on the aisle seat. The class snickering as Todoroki takes the other aisle seat.
There was no winning in this war.
â...okay, well moving on. Letâs pick your first research project which is due next month!â Midnight exclaims her hands grabbing a jar with folded pieces of paper in it. Seeing that you and Todoroki were in front of everyone else, Midnight approaches you two first. âWhoâs pulling?â
Both your and Todorokiâs hands shootout. Your eyes glaring at each other as Todoroki retreats his hand given that youâre closer. You smirked in triumph as you place your hand into the bucket and pull out a piece of paper.
You unfold the paper and read-aloud for the class.
âThe Mental and Physiological Effects of AttractionâŠâ Your voice trails off, your body seemingly wilting in on itself as you sigh.
Todorokiâs glare slams onto your face and oohâs and ahhâs resonate through the class. Your hands rub your face as Midnight giggles leaving the two of you to get to the next pair.
Why were you so out of luck when it came to Todoroki?
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âSo, youâll never guess what!â Mina laughs as she drinks from her bottle of soju.
You roll your eyes as you look over your class notes from the week. After what you would call an average first week back to school, you and your friends were gathered together to study and drink. Was it a bad combination? Yes. Was it fun though? Yes.
âLet me guess!â Hagakure squealed. The medical mask she always wore was on the table, her stack of textbooks and notes on the floor. Hagakure wasnât one too involved in her studies. âTodoroki-kun and y/n are in all the same classes together!â
Your cheeks flared up in embarrassment and anger as the six girls howled in laughter. âCome on!â You moan as you pouted. The many pages of notes you had been writing were currently being transferred onto a google doc for clarity and memory retention.
Mina nods her head excitedly, ignoring your protests as she rambles. âNot only are they in the same classes, but theyâre partners for the entire rest of the semester! Plus theyâre writing about attraction!â The girls seem to eat this right up as you try to ignore them.
Momo nudges you with her shoulder, her fingers grabbing at your notebook for the psychology class. âYou two canât get enough of each other, can you?â She teases as she flips through your notebook that was already filled with notes.
âYouâd think with all those classes they have together theyâd at least be lawful with each other.â Uraraka snorts as she takes a rather big chug from her drink.
âHeâs a fucking dick thatâs why.â You roll your eyes as you crack your sore wrist. You had finished up your notes for your biochemistry class. Now you would be moving on to starting the paper with Todoroki.
There was a good reason for this paper to take an entire month to be due. It was required to be at least fifty pages with fifteen different resources, and to your belief, it was going to be a pain in the ass to complete.
âI think heâs super hot, too bad he wonât ever give in to my seduction!â Mina sighs and you choke on your water, your eyes flying to your best friend.
âE-Excuse me?!â
âJust because you two want to skin each other doesnât mean I don't want to.â Mina laughs and you groan.
âWhy do you even hate Todoroki-san?â Tsuyu asks, her fingers on her chin in a quizzical fashion. âI thought you two were finally over your pride?â
âOH, I can explain this.â Jirou cackles as leans onto the table. Her musical compositions hidden behind her elbows. âTodoroki and y/n are in the same major! They have the same classes all the time somehow, and have received the same test scores on everything! They share the same ranking in school because of this, and y/n is super salty about it.â
âI am not salty!â You complain, your hands covering your face as the girls laugh at you. âI tried to be fucking nice, but he was a total cunt to me, so I stopped.â
âBut Todoroki-san isnât rude.â Momo defends her longtime friend.
âTo you maybe.â You sigh, your fingers grasping the bottle of wine that Momo had been hogging. âI just think thereâs no reason for me to be nice to someone who isnât nice to me.â
âSounds petty to me!â Uraraka laughs as you kick her shin from under the table. But the girls are too lost in their mirth over this situation that your protests fall on deaf ears. âWatch them get into the same medical school, too!â
You freeze as you look up from your new google doc, âWhat now?â
âHe wants to be a doctor, too.â Jirou sighs, her head leaning against her palm. âThis is really old news.â
âWha--â
âWhy do you even dislike Todoroki-kun?â Hagakure asks, her head tilted as she takes a long chug from her drink. âIâve never understood why.â
âBecause heâs arrogant, condescending, his voice is entirely way too annoying! He always rolls his eyes when someone says something wrong but never raises his hand to say the right thing! Then he always has this attitude! For the one philosophy class, I took, did you know he always was on the opposing team just to fight against me? I was never fucking wrong, but he never failed to be on the opposite team just because I was on the other team. Plus, that one time I had my hands full of shit and was trying to go to the elevator -- stop laughing -- he let the doors close before I even got there!â You scowl at your amused friends who were in very much enjoying your rant. âSo no, Jirou, it is not because of school-related things!â
âMaybe they just need to fuck to get over whateverâs happening between them.â Mina stage whispers to Uraraka who nods in agreement.
âCome on, what is this high school?â You roll your eyes.
They could only grin as they shouted to each other their ideas as to what was happening between you and Todoroki. There was a knock on your door and you sighed as you pushed away from the table and walked over to the door.
âWho is it?â Tsuyu calls before you can even open the door.
âI donât know!â You respond as you throw open the door and come face to chest with Todoroki.
A scowl solidifies over your face as you look up at the taller man. âWhat?â You ask, your arms folding as you lean against the door frame.
âYou guys are being loud.â He says, his face in a deadpan.
âQuiet hours arenât until midnight, and itâs only eleven.â
âI know, but we can still come over and complain.â
âWeâll be quiet at midnight.â
âIâm asking you to be quiet now.â
âYouâre the only ones complaining, and Iâm sure you and the boys arenât being quiet yourselves.â
âMidoriya has a headache.â Todoroki narrowed his eyes at your stubborn position.
âMidoriya-kun was over ten minutes ago! He was feeling perfect because he was talking to Uraraka-chan.â You remark, your hands coming out to look at your fingernails.
âWho is it, y/l/n-chan!â Momo calls out this time.
âItâs me,â Todoroki responds as you made no effort to respond to your friend.
Your eyes shut in a grimace at the sounds of scraping chairs. You can hear them walking over. The small yet amused chatter ringing in your ears as you glare up at Todoroki who quirks an eyebrow at you.
âHey, Todoroki-kun!â Mina exclaims and you watch as your friends all greet your bitter rival.
âYou guys are being loud, would you mind being quieter?â Todoroki asks someone in the group, but his eyes are concentrated on yours.
âOh, yeah! Sorry for being loud.â Jirou responds back for the group, but you roll your eyes as Todoroki smiles in thanks. Itâs a smile directed at Jirou but his damn eyes are still on you. A stupid charming smile on a stupid fucking asshole.
âIs that it?â You ask, your nose sticking up into the air, your hand on the door ready to slam it into his face.
âOh, for the paper. Iâve already started.â Todoroki tells you with a condescending smirk. âIâll share the document with you, but I donât expect you to write anything productive or of value onto it.â
âI can write a fucking paper in two minutes that is a trillion times better than you in a whole month.â Your sneer as your grip on the door tightens.
âYou look like the type to forget to write your own name on papers, oh wait--â
You slam the door in his face, your ears burning with embarrassment as you refuse to turn around. You donât want to see your friends faces as your head slams against the wood door.
âYou⊠forget to write your name on your papers?â Momo asks you.
âItâs okay, y/n, I forget all the damn time.â Mina cackles as they drag you back to the kitchen. Despite your best attempts, the girls remained relatively quiet for the rest of the night.
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Two Weeks Until the Paper is Due
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You walked into the library. Your fingers were holding onto your cup of tea. Your arms filled with books for your research paper, and your backpack was open. You ignored the looks of pity that followed you as you climbed the staircase of the library.
How was it only two weeks into the semester and you were looking like it was finals week? This was the fucking worst.
On top of your disheveled state, you were late for your meeting with Todoroki. On one hand, you hated being late. You were a punctual student and always arrived before necessary! So there was a part of you that felt bad even if it was Todoroki. But on the other hand, fuck him.
You giggled at that thought as you moved towards the study rooms on the back walls. Your eyes peered into each room. Looking for what seemed like the genetic phenomenon boy himself. You found him in the room furthest away sitting in there with Bakugou who was packing up his own things. Without knocking you walked in, the door slamming against the wall as you did so.
âFucking hell, y/n/n!â Bakugou hissed as you walked in. âLearn how to open a fucking door correctly!â
Placing the cup of tea onto the table you smiled at the ash-blond who was zipping up his backpack. âSorry, my hands were full and I donât know my own strength.â You tease as the blond man pinches your cheeks playfully. âOw, donât be an asshole!â
âRespect the laws of the school first.âÂ
âDonât become Iida!â You laugh as Bakugou pulls you into a one-armed hug. Oh, how the three years at Yuuei had changed this man.
âHah? Shut the fuck up.â Bakugou rolls his eyes as he pulls his backpack on. âAlright, Iâll be going, see you guys.â His hand waves as he walks out of the room leaving you and Todoroki in the awkward silence of the room.
You move in silence. Pulling out your notebook, organizing the textbooks you had, and grabbing your laptop.
Todoroki is sitting by the wall, and in a room designed to hold at most ten people, you sat on the chair furthest from him. You pull out the rolling chair and sink in. Your eyes falling on Todoroki finally who was looking less than amused.
âTake a picture, itâll last longer.â
âI donât want to waste my memory data on you.â
âToo bad, youâd finally have something of value on your phone.â
Todoroki rolls his eyes as he leans backward. âYou were late though.â
âOh get your panties out of a twist,â You mumble as you open the shared document between the two of you. âI lost track of time.â
âYou said you were on your way thirty minutes ago. Youâre five minutes away.â
Itâs your turn to roll your eyes as you stare at him, âIâm tired, Todoroki. I went to go get some damn tea and they messed up my order! But since it was the coffee rush hour they couldnât make my tea right away as they typically do.â
Todoroki glares at you but breaks away from it as you both turn to the paper.
Itâs silent outside of your fingers hitting the keyboard. The paper was being written at the very least.
Well, okay, it wasnât really.
The two of you had fought at three in the morning about how ugly the paper was being written. Yes, your roommates were sick of the two of you when the argument was being fought. The same night he had told you and your roommates to shut up, you went over thirty minutes later to complain about how he was writing the paper. Under the combined powers of Momo, Iida, and Midoriya the two of you agreed to write the paper separately. Later you would join whatever flowed better between the two of your pieces. The prompt was the same after all, and you were both using the same resources.
âIâm playing music.â You announce, putting your Spotify playlist on.
You knew what music Todoroki hated. It took getting your best friends drunk, but you had managed to get a shitload of information on Todoroki. Details surrounding what he liked, but more importantly, what he hated.
You concentrated on the paper in front of you, but the curling grin on your face was unstoppable as you caught him freezing. His eyes snapping over to your hunched figure as I Want It That Way by the Backstreet Boys played through your speakers.
âI donât like this song,â Todoroki says, his tone smooth. His hands pressing into the table in what could be an intimidating position.
âHm, I donât remember saying I was playing this song for youâŠâ You murmur. You straighten up as you stare at him, your mouth dropping as you shake your head. âDonât tell me youâre not a fan of pop music? This genre has the greatest artists in the world! Like when people say they like rap or lo-fi theyâre insane for ever believing that!â
Todoroki stares at you, his expression unamused as he turns back towards his computer.
Oh yeah, you were both going to murder each other well before this paper was due.
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One Week Before the Paper is Due
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You sat on Todorokiâs bedroom floor.
Your hands shifting through the mountain of books the two of you were in possession of for the paper. The assignment itself was not hard at all. In fact, had you been with a less infuriating partner, you were positive it would have finished already. But for some reason, whenever Todoroki and you made one step forward, you shot back twenty steps.
Today you were working on the assignment in his room for a few varying reasons.
One is that for some reason all the study rooms were being used and the two of you didnât have time to wait around. Second, being that Uraraka had requested to have the dorm room for four hours. Given that you have all requested to have the place to yourself before, everyone agreed. The third and final reason being that Todorokiâs kitchen and dining areas were now occupied by his roommates.
When the two of you trudged in together, his roommates nearly lost their shit. Kirishima and Iida were the most expressive, and Bakugou had quirked an amused eyebrow. You were a bit confused as to why they all seemed so excited by your arrival with Todoroki of all people. Most people were not so amused when the two of you entered the same room.
âWeâre here to write the paper.â Todoroki inputted right away, walking to his room as soon as he could. You rolled your eyes as you went around and said hi to his own roommates-- your friends.
You, uncaring of what Todoroki thought of you, stayed out there and talked with your friends. Todoroki and you were both thirty-seven pages into your separate and yet to be fused paper. Given that you had a whole outline for the next at least thirteen pages, you werenât in too much of a hurry to run over to his room.
âY/l/n, really?â Todoroki snaps as you were talking to Kirishima about if he would help you dye your hair one day. You look over at Todoroki whoâs changed into sweats and a white t-shirt.
Stupid fucking genetic phenomenon you internally cursed as you smiled at the other boys.
âI guess I gotta go, donât forget about me.â You depart with a sad smile, Todoroki glaring at you as you pass him in the hallway.
Now, you sat on his floor as he took his bed. Your fingers were typing away as you hummed to the playing music. It was Todorokiâs turn to play the designated music, and you had to admit lo-fi music was extremely catchy.
Your feet tap along with the music as you think of ways to rearrange a sentence you had written.
âWhat did you get on Aizawaâs test?â Todoroki asked you, ripping your thoughts away from your writing. Your eyes fluttered as you looked at him.
âThe test grades are out already?â You asked as you pull out your phone to look at your grades app.
âJust posted,â Todoroki grumbles.
You nod as you look at your result. A swell of pride shoots through you as you nod, âWhat did you get?â You ask a confident smirk on your face.
âNinety-seven percent.â
âFucking hell.â You growl tossing your phone away from you. âSame hereâŠâ
Your eyes glue onto your laptop again, and you miss the amused smirk on Todorokiâs face as you continue writing.
âAre you almost done yet?â Todoroki asks you, his eyebrow quirked.
You glance up, your eyes rolling as you scoff. âIâm on page forty-three, what are you on? Twenty?â
âI have fifty pages done.â
âNo, you donât.â
âI do.â
Your fingers trace your mousepad. Sure enough, there are ninety-three pages on the single document. Your lips tighten as your eye twitches.
âWell, itâs easier to write when youâre implementing an eighty percent quote paper.â You snark as you return to your pages.
âMy paper has the bare minimum amount of quotes, youâre the idiot who canât keep up.â
You huff your fingers returning to the paper as you typed away. The music kept playing as the two of you remained in silence. You pushed your hair out of your face. You continued looking between what you were writing and what you were needing to put.
âWhat are you even writing?â Todoroki asks you, his brows furrowing as you type away.
âThe paper weâll be submitting, why?â You ask, your eyes looking over at him before returning back to your screen.
âItâs kind of shit.â
âI bet yours is worse, so shut up.â
âYou know, thereâs no shame in admitting that youâre not good at writing.â
âThere is nothing wrong with my writing!â You sneer as you continue writing, your fingers coming down to hit the keyboard harder. The clattering of the keys echoing in your ears as your heart hammers away.
âNothing is making sense, itâs a research paper, y/l/n. Why are you trying to make the wording pretty? No one cares how many high-level words are in your vocabulary, be concise and stop being a fucking scholar.â
âOh yeah, sorry, I forget that words like brain and neurology are too advanced for you.â You gasp as you stare at his unamused eyes. âOh, let me dumb that down for you. My words too smart for your head.â You pout in mocking sadness as you return to your paper.
You canât explain it, but your heart feels like itâs cracking as the two of you remain in tense silence as you finish writing.
It takes an hour, but youâre finally done with your fifty pages. You stand up without a single word. Your joints are sore from the uncomfortable floor, but you pack up without a sound. You can feel Todorokiâs eyes following after you as you throw your arms under your backpack and leave. His bedroom door slamming closed as you walk into the hallway.
Six pairs of eyes stare at you as you smile weakly.
âBye, boys,â you say as you walk out.
This semester was nearly a month in and you were going to have to deal with him for the rest of the semester. Something told you that you were not going to be able to handle Todoroki for much longer.
Yes, you hated him, but you could not fight and argue with him every day of the week. It was just exhausting.
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Three Hours Until Paper is Due
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Your eyes trained on Todorokiâs paper.
Your pointer dragging along sentences you hated. Editing basic issues he passed by and leaving comments where you deemed necessary.
âWhat the fuck was wrong with that sentence?â Todoroki asks, his eye twitching as you were busy typing in a reason why the sentence was wrong.
âWait for my comments,â you sneer as you press publish.
You continue reading his paper. Your eyes concentrating on yet another sentence that you believed was subpar.
âYou hate the entire thing because I didnât use a semicolon?â Todoroki exclaims, his hand dragging against his face. âAre you fucking sane, y/l/n?â
âVery much so, youâre twenty-one, grow the fuck up.â You roll your eyes as you type up yet another rude comment on his paper.
The two of you had been in a study room together for the entire day. Yes, the entire past sixteen hours the two of you have sat in this room together attempting to fuse this damn paper. So far it was not working.
Since the two of you had edited your works during the week, today was actually supposed to be a fusion day only. The second the two of you began reading over your essay, Todoroki looked at you, his eyebrow twitching.
He had gone on to complain that what you were writing was atrocious. That it was by far one of the worst things he'd have to read in a while. You, not wanting to be talked to like that about your hard work, fought back.
The two of you were now editing every single little word of each other's paper. Nothing passed your eyes as suddenly you both became literary geniuses. Grammar and spelling suddenly making sense to you as you destroyed Todorokiâs paper in your hands. No word went unhighlighted. Comments littered the sides of the paper commenting on truly trivial things. Things that werenât needed to be said. Things that a psychology professor would not care about in the slightest.
There was nothing productive about your comments. With the ticking time falling through your fingers the two of you should be paying greater attention to what you were doing. But the anger, the uncontrollable rage for what was happening was too large, too grand to be ignored.
The two of you were obsessed with every new comment that was made. Your fingers scrolling to the new comment to yell and argue about how the other one was being childish. It was infuriating and you wanted to leave. Fuck Midnightâs random matching machine, that thing had to be broken if it landed on Todoroki.
âI donât know why I didnât fight Midnight on why you were my partner.â You growl as you highlight an entire block text of a quote and wrote in that it seemed fictitious and off-topic. âYouâre the most immature person I have ever had the displeasure of knowing.â
âOh please, I have a niece whoâs in her terrible twos and behaves better than you do on a good day.â Todoroki jeers his eyes like ice as he glares at you.
âIâve met a four-year-old whoâs able to write more complete sentences than you!â You sass, your elbows on the study room table, your face leaning in towards his. âYou either write run-on sentences or a three-word sentence. Did you ever learn about the subject and predicate of a sentence? I would be more than happy to teach you because itâs obvious you werenât taught!â
âHonestly, it shocks me that youâre even a STEM major. You want to be what? A doctor? Oh please, you have to be actually smart and a team player. But you? I have never seen you once try to be apart of the team. If itâs not your way, itâs no one's way.â
âAw, you do know things about me.â You coo, but your words are steely. Your nostrils flare as you lean away. âDonât even fucking start on me with the team playing. I participate in groups, I fucking love group work. Just because I donât enjoy doing these things with you doesnât mean I donât enjoy it at all. Youâre not the center of my world.â
Iâd beg to differ.â Todoroki coldly smirks, his body shifting closer to yours, and you move in too. Your eyes flash down to his lips that are pulled into a disgustingly attractive smirk. His muscles tensing on his arms. âTell me, y/l/n, what are the different things the body goes through when youâre attracted to someone. It seems like you donât fucking know this.â
Your eyes narrow, what was this some fucking test? Of course, you knew! You spent an entire fucking month researching it. Your hand moves to wipe a rolling piece of sweat from your temple. When did it get so damn hot in this cold room?
âThe main components of being attracted to someone is summed up in the following physiological states. When attracted to someone, eyes dilate. Bodies sweat more. Bodies become in sync, due to mirroring habits people have when they are high on endorphins. Dopamine levels rise as well as serotonin. Dopamine helps regulate movement, attention, learning, and emotional responses. It also enables us not only to see rewards but to take action to move toward them. Since dopamine contributes to feelings of pleasure and satisfaction as part of the reward system. It also plays a part in addiction. Serotonin in the brain is thought to regulate anxiety, happiness, and mood. The more you have the better your mood. It was also seen that the putamen and the insula light up on an MRI. Indicating that the studied person is experiencing feelings of romantic love, or attraction.â You snark this all while staring him in the eyes.
Your body as tensed as his.
Neither one of you moving.
Neither one of you allowing yourselves to breathe heavily.
âYou donât even fucking see it, do you?â Todoroki growls as he leans back.
You lean back as well, your arms folding. His arms fold.
âSee what Einstein? That I fucking know what Iâm doing despite what you think? Are you fucking kidding me Todoroki? I deserve to fucking be here even if you hate me! Would you for one moment stop being a complete asshole to me and fucking leave me alone? And people fucking wonder why I hate you,â you hiss leaning in.
Todorokiâs hands slam onto the table. You jump taken off guard due to the loud noise, and you feel your breath stop in your throat as he leans in dangerously close. His face is centimeters away from you, his eyes angry and yet convoluted with something else...
Your eyes widen as your jaw drops slightly, did you finally push him over the edge?
You watch as his own eyes widen slightly he chuckles. The sound is deep, running against your skin in a way that sends chills down your spine as his eyes trail your body.
âYour eyes are dilated right now,â Todoroki observes, his voice low and husky. âYou're sweating just the slightest bit, donât think I didnât catch you wiping it away. Your body has been moving in sync with my own this entire fucking month. Iâm sure your dopamine levels are soaring on account to your attention to me, is your heart racing because of me? Are you anxious? I think you are, which means you have a healthy amount of serotonin in your body. The putamen and the insula make the hate circuit more interesting. Both of these areas light up on an MRI when the person is experiencing feelings of romantic love. So, you tell me, y/l/n, do you actually hate me? Or are you attracted to me?â
Your eyes are wide, Todorokiâs soft yet heavy breathing hits your lips as you continue staring at him. The wide and cocky grin on his face is infuriating, yet stupidly hot. Your blood feels like itâs boiling, anger and fury pumping through your veins as you take in his words again. The knowing laughter that slips from his mouth only further incites your swinging emotions.
âThatâs what I thought.â Todoroki determined as he moved to sit back down.
Now you were no idiot. But what you did next was fucking dumb.
Your fingers lashed out, fisting into the collar of his shirt and slammed your lips into a searing kiss against his own.
The windows had been drawn earlier on account of your noisy roommates and friends taking pictures of the two of you fighting. The door was also locked due to that fact, and you were planning on using that to your advantage.
Your lips pressed against his, hot and heavy movements as you pressed further into him. Uncaring, unconcerned about his reaction.
Todoroki groaned softly, his lips moving to keep up with yours. His fingers digging into your biceps as the two of you stood up, leaning over the table as your lips continued this passion-filled battle.
His lips are fervent against yours and your mind spins from having his mouth against yours. Where you really all this time just attracted to him but refused to admit it to yourself? Todorokiâs hands move from your biceps to searching the table, your eyes barely manage to open. Theyâre heavy with lust, laced with growing desire as your lips part. The books and laptops are taken off the table, leaving the table meant for four students empty and clear. As you come back up from placing your laptop down, Todorokiâs warm hands feel like fire against your heated skin. And you let him pull your face in for another impassioned kiss.
His lips are heavy against yours, pushing and pulling you in with every movement of his lips. He continues pulling you closer and soon enough youâre climbing on top of the table, pants leaving your mouth from the high position of the table as you crawl closer to the boy who was making your heart beat faster than any strenuous activity. As you move closer, his hand runs from your face to rest against your ass. His hands are strong against your ass, and he pulls you nearer so that youâre sitting on the edge of the table, his body between your open legs.
Youâre gasping now, sharp breathing as you try to calm your nerves. This man set your mind on fire, and you were drowning in his lips. His mouth dissipating all the anger and hatred you held in mere seconds. Your mouth opens and your tongue swipes at his bottom lip, pleading for entry. Todoroki moves his hands from your ass, trailing down your legs to pull you closer to him, and his mouth opens granting you entry.
Tongues crash together in the middle. Dominance riding high on both of your parts, neither one of you wants to let the other into each other's mouth. But lord, is his tongue working magic against yours. Your body shuddering as your legs wrap against his waist, your crotch pushing forward to grind into his pelvis. His budge is obvious against your clothed core and both of your moans tumble into your mouths.
His hands trail under your shirt and you arch against his chest, and in your moment of serenity, his tongue is able to push into your mouth. You shudder in his hold, his tongue tracing around your mouth in a way that makes your eyes roll back. His tongue runs against your tongue, swirling around it before tracing the roof of your mouth. A moan expels from your mouth as his other hand slips under your shirt. Todoroki laughs, his voice falling on his tongue and you tremble softly.
What the fuck was wrong with you? Making out with Todoroki Shouto in the library study room? There must be something in the air.
Todorokiâs mouth left yours completely, his hot mouth trailing down your neck. His teeth nipping at your skin, his lips sucking against your skin. Your head tosses back in increasing pleasure as your hips press against his bulge again. His mouth stays on the same spot, his mouth sucking harshly against your skin, his teeth biting down sinfully against your skin.
Your arms wrap around his body, pulling him desperately closer to you. The friction not enough, these actions not strong enough for you. âDonât be a pussy about fucking me.â You canât keep yourself from stating as Todoroki pulls away from your neck. Your skin throbs from the hickey that has for sure formed.
âDonât worry,â Todoroki smirks as he lifts your shirt over your head, âI wonât.â
You suck in a sharp breath of air as the cold air hits your exposed body. You feel dirty for wanting to fuck Todoroki. You feel disgusting and delirious for wanting him to claim you right in an often-used library study room. You donât have time to think anymore as his lips come back to claim your lips. This time, youâre not going to give in as your teeth sink into his bruised lower lip.
The harsh motion of your teeth sinking into his plump and used lips makes him moan. The sound is electrifying to your ears. Your tongue slides back out to soothe over his throbbing lip. Your grin spreading across your face as Todoroki picks you up from the table. Your body shudders as your aroused sex brushes up against his hard cock. His hips thrusting up against your own and you cry out in his mouth. Your own teeth sinking into your bottom lip as Todorokiâs mouth trails down your chin. His teeth brushing against your jaw causing your hips to roll out against him.
Your arms wrap around his neck as you bring your mouth against his neck. Your mouth trails peppering kisses against his strained neck, and your hips grind down against his bulge. âPlease take your shitty shirt off, Todoroki.â Your groan as your fingers drag against his muscular back. The muscles delicious against your skin, yet you feel denied, you feel teased at the fact you can feel him better.
Todoroki moans as your heavy and hot breathing makes his mind reel against the cold saliva on his neck. âCall me Shouto, y/n, I think weâre past this last name business.â He growls. The simple use of your name sends a heavy shiver down your spine. You never thought youâd hear him call you y/n and Shouto felt like a stranger on your tongue, but you feel coy as you nod.
You push away, your hair whipping over your shoulder as you stare at his blue and gray eyes. You watch his pupils that are blown wide stare into you as you lean in close. The sweat building slowly on his temple as your mouth pressed against his ear softly.
âOf course, Shouto,â you accentuate his name and he groans.
His hands grip tighter against you as his lips come back against yours.
Your hands reach down for the hem of his shirt and you waste no time in tearing it up over his head. His toned body now exposed for your desiring eyes as you breathe shakily. Maybe you were always attracted to him.
You look at him and a proud blush spreads across your face as he stares at your breasts. You were not at all wearing a cute set, they were simple, black and not revealing. But the way Shouto was looking at you. The way his finger trailed up to your covered bra made you believe that you were wearing the best lingerie set in existence. âDo you like this set?â You tease, your teeth biting down on your bottom lip as you look into his eyes under your eyelashes.
âI think Iâve been the world's biggest idiot for denying you for so long.â Shouto groans as his face pushes forward to kiss your breasts. You feel like youâre melting in his arms as his lips ravish your tender breasts.
âWho says -- fuck -- who says I want you?â You gasp as his mouth continues trailing sweet and hot kisses against your skin. âIâm a wanted woman, you know.â
âLike hell, Iâm letting you go now,â Shouto grunts his large hands enveloping your breasts as he gropes them. âDonât pretend you donât want to be mine.â
You donât have the chance to respond back as Shoutoâs right-hand moves behind your back and removes your bra with one hand. The smooth action somehow turning you further on. The bra is thrown off your body and your breasts bounce as theyâre not entirely exposed. You donât know how to feel bashful or to feel confident in the way that Shouto stares at your exposed chest. His eyes locked on your breasts, his lips dragging against his teeth as he looks back up at you.
âYouâre so fucking hot,â Shouto groans as his mouth slips your nipple into his mouth. You cry out as your hips roll against his crotch again, and you feel him walking forward.
You whine as Shouto sets your back onto the cold surface of the library table. Your pants heighten as he slips off your sweatpants. The cold air hitting your hot legs making you shudder at the temperature difference.
His fingers roll your free nipple between his fingers. The sensations on your nipples overwhelming as your hips thrash against his. Moans and gasps pour out of your mouth as he continues ravishing your breasts. His teeth nipping and pulling on the sensitive skin. Your head throws back as he pulls away, a resonating pop filling your ears as he lets go of your nipple. Harsh heaves leave your mouth as you look down, your breasts shine with his saliva and you moan again.
âIâm going to fucking eat you out, and youâre going to watch me the entire fucking time,â Shouto commands you, his fingers hooking around your panties. âDo you understand?â
Breathlessly you nod your head. Your eyes locking onto his bi-colored ones as your panties join the rest of your clothes on the floor. Shouto chuckles as his finger drags against your soaked slit, âYouâre so fucking wet.â Shouto remarks and your body shudders against his actions. Your eyes flutter closed before you force them back open to peer down at Shouto, âGood girl.â He praises and you feel your pussy throbs at those two words.
Shouto presses a hand against your waist and you watch as he sinks two fingers into your blazing heat. You cry out in pleasure as his heated fingers plunge in and out of you. Your eyes struggle to keep themselves onto his proud form. Your hand slaps across your mouth as his fingers curl within you. Their curvature adding even more stimulating pleasure within your body. Melodious moans are now muffled underneath your hands and Shouto sneers at that.
âDonât hide what Iâm making you feel, y/n.â Shouto snaps. His fingers increasing in their roughness as they pound against your soaked pussy. âDonât you want the world to know that Iâm the one making you feel this way?â
Your hand trembles as you move it away from your mouth, but your teeth subconsciously clamp down onto your bottom lip. Youâre embarrassed at being caught in the library. Even though you were attracted to Shouto, you didnât want to be found in this state.
On a public table, legs wide open, and Shoutoâs fingers deep into your pussy.
Shouto, unsatisfied with your quiet affirmations of his actions, slips another finger into your aching pussy. A silent shriek leaves your mouth as you push up off the table. The additional width of his thrusting fingers overwhelming.
âOh,â Shouto laughs smugly, his smile stretching wide across his face. âDid you like that?â
âYes, you blind fucking idiot!â You thrash against his fingers, your head falling back in your distracting pleasure. The sensations are numbing your mind. Your rationale slipping away as his fingernails drag against your inner walls. Your cunt feels like itâs pulsating faster than your heart as he continues going.
âArenât you just a fucking sweetheart.â Shouto purrs and his hand reaches out to lock in your hair. Your head is roughly brought back up, and a low groan of pain rumbles in your throat as you stare at his slightly furious eyes. âDidnât I say to fucking look at me?â
Your chest heaves in embarrassment and wounded pride. Like hell, you were being dominated by him.
Before you could try wrestling him for dominance, his mouth lowers towards your dripping cunt. His tongue takes a languid and slow lick. His tongue slipping between your slit and you fall back onto the table. Your eyes fluttering in their battle to stay open. Your eyes still locking onto his victorious face.
Your legs tremble as he thrusts his tongue within your drenched walls. His tongue swirling in circles and thrusting further in. His fingers still thrusting into you as you fall apart on the table. On one lick, one measly irresistibly mind-numbing lick, your legs come crashing against his head. Shoutoâs free hand moves to grip onto your trembling thighs. His tongue coaxing your orgasm closer to the edge.
âS-Shouto!â You curse, your hips moving desperately against his mouth. Your hips were unforgiving against his merciless tongue.
Your eyes struggle to remain locked on his eyes, your body twitching with the building pleasure. The electricity igniting in your flesh and bloodstream. You can hear the sounds of your squelching pussy against his moving fingers, and your jaw drops. Youâre under his absolute control and you're no longer able to hold back anymore as your orgasm is right on the edge, but then he pulls away. His fingers and tongue disappearing from within you. Causing you to whimper in pain, in lust, and in denied orgasm.
âSuck yourself off my fingers.â Shouto pants as his arousal covered fingers press against your mouth. You take his fingers without a second thought. Your teeth scraping softly against his fingers as you suck your juices off of him. Your eyes remain on his as your tongue slips between each finger. You suck onto his fingers as he pulls away and Shouto growls as he pulls his hand away from you.
âGet up.â Shouto snaps, his hands moving to remove the belt around his waist, and you are quick to slide off the table. Your knees buckling under your weight as Shouto removes his pants. You watch in an almost lusting horror as his cock springs out from under his underwear. He was by far the biggest guy youâve ever seen and your throat feels dry as he gasps. His dick must be hypersensitive already.
Steeling yourself over, you drop to your knees, uncaring that he wasnât quite ready as Shouto struggles to step out of his pants.
As soon as his feet are free, your hands immediately grab his length. His girth wide enough you struggled to hold it with one hand. You smirked at the fact that he had two protruding veins on both sides of his cock, how typical for this half and half genetic phenonium.
âY-Y/nâŠâ Shouto stutters as your hand fists up and down his length in pretense. Your eyes snapping up to meet his lust covered ones.
âNow,â You sigh as your thumb rolls over the pre-cum that slips from the tip of his head. âI better not catch you not looking at me, understood?â
Shouto licks his lips, his eyebrow quirking. âI donât take orders from you.â
You smile softly, but thereâs a strong sadistic tone to it as your hands twist his skin. Shouto curses as he nods, âFine!â
âGood boy," you tease as your mouth opens and you let him penetrate it. His girth so wide you had to open wider than you were used to. You gasp as you push him further down your throat. Your eyes flashing up to see Shouto struggling to keep his head down and eyes wide. Good god, you hope you were wet enough to take him in without lube.
Your mouth sinks down as far as you can go while not straining yourself. Your fingers trailing up and down his toned thighs as you move your head up and down his length. Youâre now in a smooth rhythm, sucking his cock with enough vigor to make Shouto curse your name.
Your movements signal to Shouto that he can move as well. Shouto groans and his hips move forward. You relax against his rocking hips, you're focused on your breathing as his cock moves up and down your throat. Deeper and deeper, you feel his cock move within you. His hand pressing against the back of your throat, and you gag softly against his length.
Your eyes look back up to see Shoutoâs eyes closed. Moans and pants spilling out with every thrust, and your cheeks hollow out. Creating a vacuum sensation against his length.
âFucking shit!â Shouto snaps. His hands tangling within your locks as he overtakes your dominance. Shouto then begins fucking your throat without hesitation. âTaking my cock like the dirty slut you are, of course, you would be good at this,â he hisses as his cock only goes further down your throat.
You struggle to breathe with his thrusting. His snapping hips overwhelming you with their speed and depth. Heâs barbarous against your throat. Uncaring about the burning sensation erupting through your airway as he continues at his strength and speed. Your tongue swirls around his thrusting cock. Trailing against his veins as his hips stutter.
You moan against his length. The action allowing you to gain more air and sending a snarl from Shoutoâs mouth as his pace increases.
His hips abuse your throat, and youâre delighted in the fact that youâre keeping up. The soft gags that occasionally slip from your mouth stirring him on. The hum on your throat allowing him to further his strength and speed as your actions overwhelm him. Heâs sinful yet heavenly in your mouth and you want him in your dripping cunt. Your thighs shaking with the mere thought of him having his way with you.
He pulls his length away from your mouth. Your saliva stringing between your mouth and his still erect cock. You cough as you try taking in the air again, the lack of oxygen had been ignored as your pleasure was so high.
However, you donât have the time to adjust to your new air as Shouto pulls you up from the floor. His mouth once again attacking yours as you find your back pressed against the table. His lips are intoxicating, and you can still taste yourself in his mouth. You moan as he lifts you up on the table again.
âFuck youâre amazing.â Shouto grunts as his mouth trails down your neck and you shudder. How you craved a man you were ready to beat the shit out of earlier was beyond you. Maybe attraction and hatred ran on a fine line.
âI know I am,â you gasp as he spreads your legs, the tip of his cock stroking your soaked folds.
âIâll get you to say it when my cock is in you,â Shouto chuckles and you moan at the feeling of the tip of his head sinking into your trembling cunt. âAre you ready?â
Your head nods nevertheless, and you still as he chuckles.
âSay it.â
âShouto--â
âI want to hear you say it," he interrupts, and you stare into his bi-colored eyes and feel as if youâre drowning in his them. Theyâre desperate, needy, and full of want. Itâs enough to steal your breath away as you nod again.
âPlease fuck me.â You whisper, and Shouto smiles.
A shriek crashes through your mouth as he pushes his cock all the way into your awaiting cunt without hesitation. His girth stretches you out in an unimaginable way. Your walls fluttering as they attempt to relax and grow used to his size. âFuck, fuck, fuck, youâre so fucking huge!â You cry as your body trembles as Shouto leans forward. His own breathing a quiet hiss as your walls clench around him.
âI bet Iâm the biggest youâve e-ever had.â Shouto cockily rasps, but his words feel powerless as he is affected by your pulsating walls. âFuck, youâre so fucking tight.â
You whimper as the painful throb in your pussy lulls and you wiggle your hips against him, âN-Now fuck me right. Donât fucking make me regret giving in.â You gasp as his eyes lock on yours.
Thereâs something unsaid flowing between the two of you. An agreement, a secret being whispered through your eyes. Three years of frustration and denied attraction. Three years of forced hatred disappearing between your bodies.
Shouto smiles, small and sweet, yet terribly contrasting as he adheres to your demand. His hips position to a better angle, and you can only watch with fluttering eyes as he begins ramming into you. Your hips move in time with his. Both of you desperate under your denied orgasm and this heightened state of pleasure. Shoutoâs hands grip your waist. His grip leaving bruised marks as he slams your body faster against his huge cock. He's stretching you out deliciously. His hands drag out under your ass, clenching your supple flesh as this tiny different position stretches you out in a mind-numbing way.
His hips crashing into yours is transcending, and your cries only fuel Shouto on. Your body feels as if it is on fire as he drags a single leg up onto his shoulder. His cock bottoming out into you making your back arch off the table as you wail out his name. Shoutoâs heated fingers press against your throbbing clit. You sputter as he rubs harsh and delicate figure-eights onto your puffy nerve. Your pussy is clamping down on his moving cock, slowing him down slightly, before he grunts and increases his speed and strength.
Your noises of pleasure silences as his cock hits the back of your walls, your legs thrashing around as he drilled into you the same way.
Again and again.
More and more.
His cock smashing against your walls until he tilts his angle and comes down hard against your g-spot.
âSHOUTO!!!â You scream as he continues pounding into your g-spot. His name a prayer on your lips as he continues fucking your brains out.
You shoot up off the table, your screams sounding in his ear as you wrap your arms around him. Despite the fact that your leg was on his shoulder, you held on. The angle allowing Shouto to drive his cock against your g-spot over and over again, your screams drowning out as his mouth covered yours. His body is giving you exploding sensations, your tightness making Shouto moan and curse.
âI needa -- fuck yes, baby do that again -- I needa come!â You squeak as your body rocks against his own.
âCome for me, baby.â Shouto sighs into your mouth. âCome around my cock.â
The pleasure in your belly is overwhelming, it's building up so fast, and your toes curl in electrifying pleasure. You canât handle it anymore, the pleasure being too much.
Your orgasm crashes through you, your vision turning white as your jaw drops as your screams go silent. Shoutoâs mouth continues to move against yours, kissing sloppily against your teeth as he chases his own orgasm.
His hips continue slamming into you, theyâre brutal as they slam over and over again. Heâs chanting your name as your stimulated cunt continues clenching around his length. His pace is making you grow limp in his arms, although your hips still continue to roll against his. His breathing is short and tense. Panting as he struggles to keep himself composed.
âCome inside meâŠâ You whine into his ear, desperate to feel his hot seed expelling within you.
His cock stretches you out in a new way as he presses you back onto the table his arm lifting your second leg over his shoulder. The twin bulging veins on his cock rubbing a fire against your walls. Shouto fucks you mercilessly, his fingers clenching your ass as you come apart for him. Shouto, unable to keep a controlled mind on his shoulder, loses himself within you. His hips drilling forward one last time. A heavy load shooting into your throbbing cunt.
Shaky breathing fills the air as he pulls out of you.
You whine at the lack of him within you, and your body relaxes as he steps back. Your hands pressed against the table as you pant, desperate to find your air again. A whimper on your tongue as you feel your combine cum seeping from your clenching pussy.
âYou were amazing.â Shouto chuckles as he leans down next to you.
You moan as you look over at him.
âI canât believe I let you fuck me in the library without you even buying me dinnerâŠâ
â...would you let me buy you dinner one day?â
Your eyes blink as you stare at your rival in front of you. Your cheeks feel like theyâre on fire as you nod.
âIâd love toâŠâ
You moan softly as his lips press against yours.
You lose yourself in his lips until the reason why youâre in this library to begin with flashes across your mind.
âSHOUTO THE PAPER!â
Bonus!
Everyone stared as you held onto Shoutoâs hand as you walked into your psychology class. Everyone was silent as the two of you sat next to each other in the same row you two had claimed as your own.
No one dared to speak as you kept your head down and Shouto, unconcerned about others' opinions, placed his arm around your shoulder.
Youâre pretty sure you heard people choking on their air at that fact.
Midnight thankfully strolls in, her hands full of her things as sheâs ready to get these presentations over with.
âThank you to all of you who turned in your papers on time! We only had one pair not do that!â Midnight chirped as she stared at you and Shouto.
There was a spike of restless energy in the room as they all put together quickly that it was top students Todoroki Shouto and you.
âCare to explain to us why it was late, and why you two are suddenly⊠buddy-buddy?â Midnight grins, her cheeks blushing as she finally was able to bring the two of you together, not that you knew anyways.
Shouto stood up, and your heart beat in your chest as you had no idea what he was going to say.
âWe fucked.â
And screams sounded throughout the classroom.
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Normalcy of the Pretty Posse
Chapter 2
Word Count: 3708
Pairing: ??? x reader
Description:Â Stupid Jeongguk and his cute sweaters and pretty posse of hyungs.
Genre: again like 90% fluff, 5% humor, and another 5% of reader literally forgetting how to function a little
(Some rambling because I have no life: here is part 2! I honestly didnât expect any one to find part 1 so??? thank you guys so much. Iâve missed writing lately and this has been such a good outlet for me. I hope you guys like it.)
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âHyungâŠâ Jeongguk skids to a stop just before one of the sets of speakers. A whine leaves his mouth as he puffs out some air before tossing his bag haphazardly against a random speaker. âI messed up. Big time.â His legs, just slightly too long for the childish behavior, fold underneath him awkwardly as he flops against the dusty linoleum floor.Â
Hoseok looks down at his younger friend as he folds another chair and places it against the wall. âMessed up as in pissing your pants again like that one time Freshman year or getting another C on a test?â Hoseok only laughs when Jeongguk throws a pen from his pocket at him. Jeonggukâs pout settles deeper on his face as his eyebrows furrow and Hoseok knows that whatever is bothering Jeongguk is something a little more closer to the heart than pissing his pants at a frat party after chugging an entire keg upside down.
âHyung, Iâm serious.â Jeongguk closes his eyes and wraps his sweater tighter around his body as he rolls on his left side to look at Hoseok. âYou know that girl that dances in the back in your Thursday workshops?âÂ
âIâm gonna need you to be a little bit more specific, Guk. There are a lot of girls who come here.â Hoseok is only kidding, of course. He and all of Jeonggukâs hyungs know of his crush on the girl who comes every Thursday to his workshops. Jeongguk had originally only come to the workshops because Hoseok was nervous no one was going to come, but that was 2 months ago and despite the sign up list being full every week, Jeongguk still came despite being a little bit more advanced than the beginner classes he attended. Hoseok had offhandedly mentioned that Jeongguk tended to glance at the back, at a particular girl, during another one of their game nights and Jeongguk, wine drunk off of two bottles, giggled as he explained his small crush on a girl who attended Hoseokâs beginner class.Â
âHobi-hyung, sheâs not a beginner like have you seen her dance? She just looks so pretty and her hair is just so..â Jeongguk giggles as he wraps a finger around his hair. â...fluffy after she dances.â A small hiccup escapes him as he finishes his glass. âItâs so cute.â Jeongguk, in silent awe, squeals a little into his glass, one of the many stolen from his favorite bar, as he scrunches into a ball and bangs his knee against the table. A smile never leaves his face as he continues to giggle into the fogging glass.Â
Hoseokâs heart strings tug at the fond memory he has of his younger friend and decides to leave putting away the rest of the furniture to the workers who litter around him. Jeongguk lays his head against his knee when he sits next to him. âTell Hyung what happened, Gukie. It canât be worse than vomiting on the poor girlâŠ..â Hoseok grimaces before giving Jeongguk a look. âYou didnât vomit on her right?âÂ
Jeongguk shakes his head no before huffing. âI asked her friend last week if (Y/N) was okay since she hasnât been coming and I donât know I panicked because like what if I missed my chance to even talk to her. A-and I saw her outside and I walked over and like spoke to her?â Jeongguk knocks his head a couple of times against Hoseokâs knee as he relives the moment in his head. âI was so nervous and sounded so stupid. She probably thought I was stupid and weird for coming up to her. What kind of person asks a stranger if they plan on coming back to some stupid dance class. She probably thinks Iâm a creepy ass stalker who watches her dance every week.âÂ
Hoseok runs his hand through Jeonggukâs hair for comfort as the younger beats himself up mentally. âAre you saying my dance classes are stupid?â Itâs meant to be a joke, but Jeongguk shoots his head up and sputters out incomprehensible words. âGuk, Iâm kidding. I know you donât think my classes are stupid, youâre just frustrated at yourself because your first interaction with your crush didnât go as well as you planned.â Jeongguk flops back down against Hoseokâs thigh as he groans. Hoseok just smiles softly at him wondering how Jeongguk, handsome and all, was someone inept at talking to a simple girl.Â
âI may have also lied and told her that you have me here to help out with teaching.â Itâs muffled against his leg, but Hoseok hears every word.Â
âSo you chose to lie, for what?âÂ
âI panicked! I told her that her coming helped me with the others since sheâs obviously experienced. How else was I supposed to explain that I, a complete stranger, noticed she was gone for two weeks? Sheâll think Iâ, watching her or something.âÂ
âThatâs all you ever do, Jeongguk. And besides, I didnât even notice she was gone and I read the roster every night.âÂ
Jeongguk smacked his hyungâs hip closest to him as he huffed. âYouâre not helping Hyung! Even if you didnât notice she wasnât here, she probably thinks Iâm a stalker now. A big stupid stalker who canât even look her in the eyes. Iâm gonna be alone forever!â
Hoseok wanted to laugh at him, but decided that he needed to play the role of the helpful caring hyung for now. Heâll let the others clown him later once he retells everything to them tonight. âGukie, youâre not gonna be alone forever. Youâre smart and stupidly handsome. I donât think you shouldâve lied to her, but itâs not life or death, so you should be able to save yourself from this. How about you let your hyung help you a little tonight? Let me work my magic.âÂ
âYou would help me?â Jeongguk throws his arms around his waist and gives a tight squeeze.. Hoseok grimaces from the too tight hug and the dust from Jeonggukâs sweater falling onto his new clothes. He ignores both in favor of giving Jeonggukâs back a few solid rubs. âYouâre the best, Hobi-hyung.âÂ
âYouâre on your own after tonight though, Gukie. No more help from your one of kind, amazing, most handsome Hyung.âÂ
âJin-hyung isnât here though?âÂ
Hoseok scoffs and pushes Jeongguk off of him as he cackles from the floor. âGo open the doors you ungrateful brat.âÂ
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Tonight had been⊠interesting to say the least.Â
Yoonjin had chosen to nudge me every time she thought Jeongguk had glanced in my direction resulting in a dull throb in my ribs.Â
âDonât look but heâs looking again⊠Oh my god, I said donât look!âÂ
âYou said that the last 4 four times and every time I look back heâs literally looking at Hoseok-shii.â I huffed and rubbed at my right side. Yoonjin has always been stronger than she looks. âYoonjin, if you ram your boney ass elbow into my ribs one more time I will drop kick you into the wall.â
Yoonjin blinked at me before rolling her eyes. âHe keeps looking away. Just trust me why donât you! Why would I joke about this.â I rolled my eyes and refocused on Hoseok as he explained some of the footwork again. House dance had never been my speciality.Â
âI donât know, maybe you like to see me suffer.âÂ
âIâm literally trying to help you get a man.â
âNo, youâre trying to break my ribs.âÂ
9 oâclock rolled around sooner than I expected as Hoseok wrapped up his lesson. Many of the students who endured the class in its entirety were shuffling to the walls of the room where their water bottles had long ago since turned lukewarm. Hoseok was not one for lots of water breaks. Used to long durations of exercising and cardio, I had chosen to hang back and stretch out while Yoonjin made small talk with the others around her. I held in my laugh as she shot me a look or two of âwhat the fuck is going onâ and âplease help meâ while talking to the animated girl with sweat drenched pink ponytails. Figuring that whatever kind of conversation she was wrapped up in was payback enough for the bruising I was sure to have on my ribs for the next week, I chose to let her suffer.Â
âYou know I think youâd do a lot better in a higher level class.â There stood Jung Hoseok in all his beautiful glory as I attempted to straighten my legs from their lunge. I tried to blame the jittery feeling settling in as adrenaline from the cardio, but I knew my body was just buzzing from having him stand so close. Did he even sweat? How did he manage to smell like fucking flowers after dancing? Damn Jeongguk and his pretty posse.Â
âUh sorry?â
Jung Hoseok smiled and offered a hand to me. I smiled back, although less brightly, and hoped my hands were not as sweaty as the rest of my body. âI just meant that you seem a little more experienced than what this class has to offer. Itâs a shame to see talent be wasted on some basic combinations.â His eyes took a quick over my body and I flushed at movement. If he looks at me like that more time, I will be internally combusting.Â
âI-uh used to dance growing up.â My hands gripped my shirt as Hoseok proceeded to make eye contact. Does he have to be so nice and beautifully intimidating? A deadly combo for my poor nerves. Do I look away? Is it rude to keep eye contact? Would a wink be appropriate for a first conversation?Â
âHow long did you take lessons?âÂ
âLike 14 years maybe? My mom tried to put me in baseball like my brothers when I was 4, but after I started spitting and grabbing my pants before I batted she decided it probably wasnât a good influence to be surrounded by all boys at home and during practice.â My lips pressed together as I pinched my face in horror. Oh god, why did I say that? Hoseok on the other hand was having a jolly good time as dropped his jaw and choked in a fit of laughter and I screwed my face shut in embarrassment. âI donât know why I said that. Oh my god, please forget I just said that! Iâm just nervous and I say stupid things when Iâm nervous. Iâm an idiot and I just donât know how to shut up sometimes.âÂ
Hoseok continued to laugh as I covered my overheating face with my hands wishing I had grabbed Yoonjin and left before we both got wrapped in unwanted conversations. âY-youâre too cute. Oh god, I can totally see it!â Hoseok laughed for a few more breaths before settling down into giggles.Â
âHyung...? Is everything okay?â Jeongguk shuffled over with both his and Hoseokâs bags as he glanced between Hoseok and I.Â
Hoseok giggled a few more times before accepting his bag from Jeongguk. âI was just just asking if...â Hoseok titled his head before looking back at me. âI forgot to ask for your name actually, Iâm sorry.âÂ
Not used to having 2 out of 7 members of Jeonggukâs Pretty Posseâs attention on me made me flush even warmer. âNo worries, Iâm (Y/N).âÂ
Hoseok smiled at me before swinging his bag on his shoulder and went back to addressing Jeongguk. âI was just complimenting (Y/N) on her dancing. We could do with another dancer on the team donât you think Jeongguk?âÂ
âWe could?â Jeongguk bugged his eyes out a little at his hyung before throwing a confused look his way.Â
Hoseok raised his eyebrows and tiled forward a little bit. âOf course, we could Gukie! Remember we had that talk earlier about adding a new member? Junhoo graduated last semester, so we donât have anyone to fill his spot.â Jeongguk stared at Hoseok wondering who the hell Junhoo was and when this conversation happened. Hoseok starred a little harder before-Oh! âHow about you let your hyung help you a little tonight.âÂ
âYes! Youâre totally right Hobi-hyung! (Y/N), you would love our dance team! Youâd fit right in too!â Jeongguk bounced on his heels a little as he turned to me. Back on was the sweater he had been wearing earlier. Damn. The sweater paws have returned too.Â
âIsnât it all guys? How would that even work? Iâm literally like half Jeonggukâs size.â My glance danced between Hoseok and Jeongguk as I bit my lip.Â
âWhere there is a will, there is a way (Y/N). And Iâm sure you wonât pick up any bad habits this time (Y/N). Weâre all mannered and hygienic, so no worries!â My jaw dropped as Hoseok poked fun at my previous story and raised his eyebrows at me. That little-
I scoffed and stomped my foot to turn his direction fully. âI wasnât even talking about that! I canât believe you! I let one thing slip and you use it against me!â I jutted my lips out in a slight pout as I crossed my arms.Â
Jeongguk deflated a little as he watched Hoseokâs teasing glance and my pouting. âAm I missing something?â
âNo!âÂ
âYes!âÂ
My finger found a place on his chest as I leaned closer. Are those pecsâŠ?  âJung Hoseok, you keep your mouth shut!â Those are definitely pecs.Â
âI will if you join our team.âÂ
My mouth fell open as I removed my finger with an inaudible gasp. âI see you play dirty, Jung.â I tsked at him before turning to Jeongguk. âGet your hyung before he embarrasses me more and I combust.â Jeongguk blinks as I give him my sole focus and nods softly, most likely lost on whatâs happening.Â
âSo if that is a yes?âÂ
Defeatedly, I face Hoseok and shrug my shoulders as I grab my bag from Yoonjin as she approaches. âYouâre in luck. I was actually looking to join something a little more advanced dance wise. My body misses dancing despite how old it makes my bones feel.âÂ
âSo.. is that a yes?â Jeongguk reiterates as he bounces forward a little, eyes wide as his hair flops a little. I smile a little as my heart flops along with his hair. I give Hoseok a quick glance and will the oxygen to return to my lungs and brain at the focussed look he gives me.Â
âItâs a no.â My heart sinks at Jeonggukâs sudden smile. âNot that I wouldnât join; I totally would! Itâs just I have to find a music production mentor for my Music Composition and Engineering class and Iâm basically meeting with strangers every other day until one decides to take me under their wing. I really need this class to graduate and I canât afford any breaks until I find someone.â My hands are flying everywhere as I try to make my rejection lighter on Jeongguk.Â
Jeongguk nods a little and licks his lips as he gives Hoseok a quick glance. Hoseok seems to understand whatever is going on in his head and tilts his head toward him with a hard look as a warning to think before you speak, you love sick idiot. Jeongguk, with a heart often bigger than his brain, ignores his hyung and blurts out, âYoongi-hyung is a music producer! I can introduce you to him and see if heâd be willing to mentor you.âÂ
Hoseok closes his eyes and drops his head forward into his hands. Dammit Jeongguk.Â
I blink a few times before trying to stop my smile from spreading. âAre you sure? I mean Iâd really appreciate it of course, but I know it might be a lot to ask. Iâm also a total stranger, so you donât have to at all!â My mouth suddenly feels dry as I lick my lips. âIt would be really great though! Some of the guys I meet are total creeps and I donât know how many coffees I drink everyday while one of them tries to feel me up.â I force a laugh to lessen my discomfort and hope it comes across as less awkward than I feel.Â
Jeongguk looks to Hoseok after Iâm done exhausting my voice and they seem to share a meaningful look before Hoseok reaches into his pocket. âHere, give me your number. Jeongguk and I will talk to Yoongi-hyung and see what we can do. He might be willing to meet with you and see if you guys âvibe.ââÂ
My eyes flick up to meet his as I smother another smile. My attempts fail and I grab his phone and giddily put in my number. âYou guys are the best! I promise to join you guys if I can resolve this whole mess.â My grin widens as I think about not having to stifle through conversation after conversation every other day in some overpriced cafe with another self employed music producer as they critique every layer of my pieces. âDo guys like cookies? Iâm totally baking you guys some cookies as thanks!âÂ
âAre you ready to go (Y/N)?âÂ
âYoonjin! Weâre going to be baking cookies for Hoseok and Jeongguk!â Yoonjin furrows her eyebrows as she loops her eyebrows with mine.Â
âWe are?â
âWe are! Is chocolate chip okay?â I offer her no other explanation as I ask Jeongguk with a sweet smile. These pretty boys were coming in handy and so were my depressive episodesâ baking habits.Â
âChocolate-chip sounds great.â Jeongguk licks his lips as he feels his heart rate border an unhealthy pace. âHyung, we-uh should probably head out and go pick up your package.âÂ
âMy package?â Hoseok finishes adding a baseball bat and a flower emoji to his new contact before catching the look Jeongguk is sending him. âOh! Yeah, uh, Iâll have Jeongguk text you about Yoongi-hyung. It was nice meeting you (Y/N), get home safely!âÂ
Yoonjin and I watch them both leave the room before facing each other.Â
âWhat the fuck was that?âÂ
âI honestly have no fucking clue, but I think Iâm gonna die. Please check my pulse.â Yoonjin feels at my neck and sighs.Â
âNope, still alive. Maybe next time though.âÂ
I re-loop our arms and pull her out of the emptying room. âCome on we have to go get Chaebin from the library before she has another aneurysm over her homework. Iâll fill you in on the way there.â
Yoonjin shrugs and follows along. âI hope you know that if this progresses into some dramatic fated love story I will be living vicariously through you.âÂ
âI expect nothing less.â
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vegas run. (I)
plot: itâs the annual las vegas run. letâs see what kinda trouble you get into this year!
A/N: this is an ongoing series! the first part is fairly long sorry. i currently have about 4k written so iâm excited for whatâs to come. hope yall like <3 shoutout to ellie for letting me ramble abt this
masterlist!â
Being invited to the annual Las Vegas run with the boys was something you had gotten used to. As Bazeâs best friend from back home, youâd been to more events than you could even remember after heâd joined Machine Gun Kelly. Itâd taken a couple years for them to blow up, but Baze would always ask you to fly out to Cleveland for the little things, release parties, New Years Eve, even Kellsâ birthday once youâd gotten familiar with the other guys.Â
The Las Vegas tradition had started as an accident. Youâd been with the band on their tour for a couple of cities, staying in the small tour bus that they were using this time around. It was kinda cramped with all the band, the constants slew of guests, and the little after-show parties every day. After the Vegas show, you guys had decided to party outside instead. Thereâd been an all-night rager in different casinos, clubs flashing their lights only to entice your friends in. Then, the bus had broken down, and it had started storming, and before you knew it, the next few shows were rescheduled, and you were stuck in Las Vegas.Â
It had been a week of straight craziness, constant drunkness, and chasing after Kells who had suddenly decided to mix alcohol and mushrooms. But it had been a great week, and youâd gotten closer to all the boys, learning more about them with every single incident gone wrong.Â
After that, Colson had decided to schedule a week-long break on those dates, marking it down as a tradition every year. He made sure you were always invited, and kept it as close to the people that were there the first time around as he could.Â
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Youâd forgotten about the Las Vegas run this year around. Things had been so hectic recently, with you opening up your own business and dealing with customers day in and out. At first, youâd started online with just a couple of orders, but after a mean deal done with one of the biggest designer companies, youâd landed your own well-deserved store with customers aplently.Â
The phone call came around 4pm, phone lighting up with the words Machine Gun Kelly. You hesitated for a second, wondering why he would be calling you on a random Thursday, but decided to pick up after looking around to make sure any customer was being attended to.Â
âY/N!â Colsonâs voice came through loud across your phone speakers.
âHey man! Whatâs up, how have you been?â you questioned, pulling the phone back from your ear just a little.
âIâm good, just finished up the tour for this summer and weâre back in LA right now,â he answered, and you smiled, knowing all of this already since Baze had shown up to your store the day before with his lovely girlfriend, proud of everything youâd accomplished.Â
âI heard,â you started before he cut you off suddenly.
âSorry, I know youâre working and all right now. I donât wanna take up time, but I was hoping youâre still coming to the Vegas run?â he rambled out, and you rolled your lip into your mouth, suddenly remembering.
âOh fuck, yeah itâs next week right?â you asked, fingers tapping on the desk as you already tried to come up with a way to get your assistant manager to cover the store for the week.Â
âYeah. Baze was telling me you have the shop and all, but I wanted to ask you anyway. Wouldnât be a Vegas run without you,â he murmured and you relished in the last few words before clearing your throat.
âIâll try and work something out. Text me the details?â you spoke back, seeing your sales assistant walking towards you.Â
âYeah of course,â he replied before you exchanged byes and shut off the phone.
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It took a lot of bargaining, but soon you were clear for the next week. You had to come in on Saturday to finish up tasks and stay late a couple nights this week to sort out products, but other than that, your assistant manager was prepared to take over.Â
Taking a quick break for lunch, you stepped out, eager to soak in the sun as much as you could before staying in late tonight. Walking to the corner of the block, you decided to treat yourself with one of the special milkshakes from Lucaâs Diner. It was a hotspot for the locals, sugary goodness & crunchy cereal sprinkled into every shake they made.Â
Thatâs when you spotted a familiar Aston Martin, violet purple standing out amongst the wave of other cars. Parked on the curb, the car seemed to be empty and you stepped into the diner, eager to find the owner.Â
The diner was flowing with people, chatter lighting up the air as you tried to spend a minute looking for Colsonâs figure somewhere. Eventually giving up, you walked toward the counter, already smiling at the idea of having a sugar rush.Â
âHi! Welcome to Lucaâs. What can I get for you?â the cashier asked, fingers tapping away at the screen.Â
âHey, can I get a Cinnamon Crunch Delight with extra whipped cream?â you answered, hands going into your pockets to pull out your card.Â
âAnd a basket of fries!â came a voice behind you, and suddenly there was a hand dropping around your shoulders.Â
You turned up to look at Colson standing there, grinning down at you as he said, âWhat Y/N? Câmon Iâm paying.âÂ
You smiled back at him, before gesturing to the cashier, who looked a little star-struck.Â
âFries. Uhm, got it. Anything else?âÂ
âI think weâre good,â he answered, moving his arm off you to grab his wallet. You sidestepped as he paid, waiting by the milkshake machine.Â
You hadnât seen Colson in almost six months, both of you busy with different things. The last time youâd hung out was during his New Yearâs Eve party and honestly, half of that night was its own blur.Â
âHowâve you been pretty lady?â he asked, walking over to you.Â
You looked up at him, taking in the drastically different look he was sporting. His hair was fluffier than youâd ever seen it, poofing up at the tops. As he tucked his wallet back in, you spotted the designs done on his nails & smiled a little.Â
âBusy! It feels like the phone never stops ringing,â you laughed out, fingers sliding on the counter.
For some reason, you felt the inkling of something fluttering in your stomach. You didnât know what it was, but the concept of having a crush on your best friendâs brother figure didnât sound good to you. So you willed yourself out of it before speaking again, âHow bout you rockstar?âÂ
âCanât complain here,â he moved both his hands up, waving them around in jazz hands, âTouring just ended so Iâm gonna probably go crash in bed for the next few days.âÂ
âI caught your Miami show that day!â you exclaimed as his face suddenly became puzzled.Â
âYou were in Miami and you didnât tell us?â he asked, voice pitching higher as the question fell out of his mouth.Â
âNo,â you laughed again, waving him off, âmy assistant went and she eagerly sent me a few hundred videos of you guys doing your thing.âÂ
He smiled at that, hand running through the messy hair before turning towards the counter, grabbing his fries. A second later, your milkshake came out and you picked it up, eyes catching the clock on the wall. You shouldâve been back in the office a couple of minutes ago.Â
âHey, do you wanna come around to the store? If youâre free that is,â you offered, as he walked ahead of you to a table.Â
âOh dude yeah! Thatâd be dope, I wanna see your genius creations,â he gushed, plopping onto a seat.Â
You hesitated at the table before deciding it would just be easier to eat here anyway, less of a mess to clean up later. You knew that Sarah, your assistant, would be blowing up your phone soon, but you sat down anyway.Â
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Youâd missed him you realized suddenly as he rambled on about a tour story. One youâd probably end up hearing again from Baze anyway. It was weird, missing Colson when you guys werenât that close anyways.Â
Youâd been there for the big moments, but always as Bazeâs friend first, and you wondered when thatâd turned into being Colsonâs friend too.Â
Flashing back to the last tour, you remembered sneaking out with Kells right before shows, getting high in bathrooms together, even making smoothies at 3am, waking up the rest of the guys as you blended away different mixtures. Maybe thatâs when the scale had tipped, and why he seemed so at ease around you, legs stretched out, foot kicking against your ankles.Â
âY/N, dude your phone!!â he emphasized, hand knocking at your arm as you clicked back into action.Â
âOh shit,â you mumbled before picking it off the tabletop.Â
There were 2 missed calls and four very angry texts and you stood up, not wanting to lose the week off you had leveraged with Sarah. You were the manager, but she was much more organized and often kept you on track.Â
âThatâs my assistant. Câmon we can finish your story at the store,â you uttered, grabbing your untouched milkshake as you left the crowded diner.Â
âYo can I leave my car here?â he asked, stumbling behind you.Â
You nodded, knowing that his car wouldnât get towed anytime soon as you sped past the few stores to get into your own.Â
He matched your pace, and soon you both were stepping in, his eyes lighting up at your outfits lining up the front.Â
âWoah,â he breathed out as you spotted Sarah in the office.Â
âSorry, sorry I got caught up. Whatâs up?â you ran over to her, making sure to place your milkshake on the table away from your company computer.Â
âFinally! The fabric companyâs on the line, something about the lace you ordered? I didnât get what outfit they were talking about,â she uttered, handing over the phone as she moved out of the way.Â
âOh fuck, the off-white one?â you asked as she nodded, and you groaned before picking up the phone.Â
âHi Mr.Hand, So sorry to keep you waiting. Whatâs the situation looking like,â you started, grabbing your chair before you settled into your desk.Â
As the company started describing statistics, your eyes wandered, seeing Colson walk around the little store you had. He was peering at every outfit, the shirts put out, and you stopped yourself from grinning as he ran his hands over the chained pants youâd created this morning.Â
Within a second, Sarah was on him, and you stifled a laugh as she fell quiet, staring at him. He smiled, introducing himself with a handshake and you saw her physically shake off the nerves as she went on her sales pitch.Â
Within ten minutes, youâd fixed the issue, bringing up the idea of another distributor sneakily in order to sweeten the deal. Dropping the phone back, you pushed off your seat, picking up your shake.Â
Sipping at it, you groaned a little at the taste of it all, relieved that it was still good after waiting. Colson was sitting near the counters, swiveling around on the seats as Sarah fiddled behind it.Â
âSorry bout that, things are kinda insane now,â you offered, walking up to where he was. He swirled around once more, before planting his feet, looking up at you.
âNah, youâre all good. This is really fucking cool,â he praised and you smiled at his words, trying not to revel in them too much.Â
âI see youâve met Sarah,â you motioned and she looked up awkwardly, giving you eyes before smiling at him.
âYeah, hope Y/N hasnât been driving you too crazy,â he said, knowing that you guys had just opened.Â
âOther than not letting us come in hungover, sheâs been good,â Sarah scoffed, regret immediately flowing on her face as she caught your eye.Â
You laughed, letting her know that it was okay and she eased up a little as Colson continued, âHungover? Iâve seen her much worse, believe me, the ruleâs kept for a good reason.â
You shoved his shoulder and he moved a little, chair still swiveling around. Getting up, he moved back over to the pants youâd laid out this morning and Sarah took the opportunity to lean over, whispering, âMachine Gun Kelly just comes waltzing into our store?â
You scrunched up your face before whispering back, âYeah total accident. I didnât even know he was in the area.â
You both looked over at him as he picked up the pants, viewing them closer before he moved over to the full-length mirror standing in the side of the store.
âI can take things over for tonight, you know? Like if you wanna go hang with him?â Sarah offered, taking in the way your gaze lingered on him for a half a second more.Â
âNo, itâs okay. I already have you working all day next week. I donât wanna add more into it,â you murmured, watching Colson pose, hands gripping onto the pants out of the corner of your eye.
âOh shut up Y/N. Youâre still young, go enjoy your 20s bitch,â Sarah uttered back, trying not to laugh at the way your eyes widened.Â
âYou sure?â you asked, trying not to let the happiness take over your face.Â
âYeah. I mean it, go hang,â she smiled, and you grabbed her face, smacking a kiss on her cheek.Â
âI owe you everything,ââ you whispered and she blushed it off, clearing her throat as Colson walked back over.Â
âI kinda wanna buy these,â he said, holding the chained pants up, and you raised an eyebrow.
Within minutes, Sarah had completed the purchase and eagerly hinted at you being free until you had thrown a look, begging her to stop.Â
âSo Iâm guessing youâre free for the rest of the day?â he had asked, laughing as you rolled your eyes.Â
âI guess I am. You got anything in mind?â you mumbled, packing in your purse.Â
âYou wanna come over? I know the guys been missing you,â he said, and you licked your lips, deciding to test the waters.Â
âJust the guys? I thought I was special Colson,â you mockingly stated, hand clutching at your heart.
âYeah, yeah. Iâve missed you too loser,â he spoke, and you grinned as he led the way out back to his car.
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Walking into the house, you were immediately hit with the smell of something baking. You couldnât quite place it but as Colson closed the door behind him, he mumbled out, âDubâs making baked mac,â with such a fondness in his tone that you laughed.Â
It took five minutes, and then you were grilling up turkey burgers with Rook, laughing as Slim offered you another shot of Patron. It felt oddly like coming home, and you soaked it in, knowing that your own house was empty and cold.Â
Baze was gone when you got there, and you chalked it up to the fact that he wanted to spend time with his girl. Another girl wandered around the house, easily slipping into the chaos and you felt the nerves start to build back up. Colson tracked you watching her and then he swooped in right behind you again as you flipped over a patty.
âThatâs Olivia, my assistant,â he murmured into your ear, and you brushed him away, feeling way too close.Â
âWho said I was asking hotshot,â you whipped out at him, as he leaned against the countertop, red Solo cup in hand.
âSaw you looking,â he replied, taking a sip, smirk showing in his eyes.
âOh yeah? What else was I looking at,â you asked, voice tilting up at him.Â
âThatâs for me to know,â he murmured, and you scoffed as he stuck his tongue out at you, lips still wet from the drink.Â
Then, Baze strolled into the house, Ellie right behind him and you dropped the spatula, running over to give them both bear hugs. You could hear Colsonâs laugh echoing behind you.Â
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After dinner, you attempted to head out before realizing your car was still at work. It was a dumb move on your part and you wondered if it was worth an Uber ride or if you should just ask one of the guys to drop you off.Â
âWhatcha thinkin?â Rook shouted, scrolling on his phone as the music blasted through the speakers.
âIf I should order an Uber!â you shouted back, cupping your hands around your mouth to get the words across. He didnât seem to hear you, shaking his head and you sighed it off, pulling out your phone to download the app.Â
A second later, Kells showed up, pulling your phone out of your hands, going, âIâll drive you back.â
You throw him a little glare, but soften up as he hands you back your phone. Following him back into his Aston, you smiled up at him grateful for the ride. Next week was going to be a mess.
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Fool for You (Crygi) - Frankenvenus
After realising she has fallen for her straight best friend, Crystalâs therapist recommends she write her crush love letters. So instead of communicating her feelings, she scribbles then down and slips them into Gigi Goodeâs locker.
A/N~ I hope you like this cause it took forever. I finished it super late at night and I did read through it twice but I apologise for any errors.
Crystal stormed her way into her therapistâs office, throwing herself onto the pink sofa that she sat and rambled on for an hour and a half every week. Her therapist looked at her bemused as the blue-haired girl uttered the words, âIâm in love with my best friend.â
Her therapist, Widow, huffed out a sigh, placing her clipboard down on the coffee table in front and pushing her glasses slightly down her nose, âWell. Thatâs a common issue for young queer folks like yourself.â
Crystal groaned and rolled over, displaying her puffy eyes and messed up bangs, âBut I thought I was immune to it.â
Widow chuckled slightly and leaned towards where Crystal lay, brushing her hair from where it stuck itself in her lip gloss, âDo you need to rant to me about it? You know thatâs why Iâm here, sweetie; to listen.â
The young girl groaned again before sitting up, straightening her back and recounting the events of her day.
It had started off a normal Thursday. On Thursdays, she would usually peddle to her best friend Gigiâs house before school began so they could scribble down fake absence notes for phys ed, then Gigi would hop on the back of Crystalâs bike and theyâd cycle the last half mile to their high school. It was routine for them. Never weird, never crossing any lines. It had always been the two of them, best friends, since middle school. So when things shifted, it took Crystal by surprise.
âI wanna do something different today instead of just sitting in the library until Phys Ed ends. Iâm sick of the librarian shutting us up. We literally arenât even loud,â - Gigi had said, fixing her dirty blonde ponytail in the school bathroom mirror after the bike ride messed it up.
Crystal had agreed with her, before asking her if she wanted to try something new. Although Gigi was her best friend, she hung out with the stoners whilst Gigi hung out with the high-fashion Instagram girls. The dirty blonde had never tried weed, and Crystal never offered - but today she did, and Gigi was eager.
The two of them snuck to the abandoned bike shed at the back of the school, covered in ivy with smashed windows. It was a spot that only Crystal and her friends Daya, Daegen, Lux and Tiff knew, so Gigi was curious to see it.
âThis is so cool,â Gigi had gaped, finding a spot in the corner while her friend rolled her a joint. Crystal had to assure her multiple times that they wouldnât get caught, but Gigi didnât shut up until the sizzling rice paper was placed in her mouth. The older girl talked her through how to inhale it properly, and soon enough Gigi was coughing the smoke into the air.
âCan you feel it in your chest?â Crystal had asked, and when Gigi nodded, she said, âGood. Thatâs how you know it worked.â
They sat there, minds foggy, trying to hold conversation despite their thought process and immediate short term memory being cut off every few seconds. At some point, their pinkies intertwined, followed by the rest of their fingers. And then, Gigi was nestling her forehead into the crook of Crystalâs neck. Thatâs when it all tumbled down on the latter.
The contrasting feeling of the coldness from Gigiâs skin against her own warm, buzzing skin sent jolts of emotion through her, and the gentle brush of Gigiâs wavy locks against her jaw caused her heart to squeeze itself in a way that was unfamiliar to her. It didnât seem too serious to Crystal whilst she was still in her high, but when the effects of the weed began to fade by fifth period, the sudden feeling of need for her best friendâs touch remained in place.
Her mind kept travelling elsewhere during fifth and sixth period, which happened to be double Spanish. Jaida had to pinch her multiple times, bringing her back down to Earth. Jaida didnât question Crystalâs behaviour too much though, because the latter wasnât usually focused in Spanish class anyway, and thatâs why she was failing.
Gigi had debate team practice after school on Thursdays, so instead of going home together the same way they would travel to school, Crystal biked alone. She had her earplugs in, blasting Clairo like usual and wondering what the hell it was that she felt today. It wasnât until âSofiaâ by Clairo came on did everything click in her mind. Something about the lyrics âStanding here alone now, think that we can drive around, I just wanna say how I love you with your hair downâ made her realise that oh, she wanted to be able to call Gigi her own, and not just platonically. Then she almost crashed her bike.
She swerved into a fire hydrant, gratified that her bike sported thick mountain bike wheels to soften the hit. Luckily, she didnât fall off - she just got a fright. She decided to walk her bike the rest of the way home, which thankfully wasnât far.
When she reached home, she spread herself across her bed and allowed herself to make connections that she shouldâve made before. Why else could she never take her eyes off Gigiâs plump lips? Why else did people at school assume they were a couple because they were so touchy all the time? Why else did she feel such tremendous jealousy whenever Gigi showed even the tiniest bit of romantic fondness towards someone that wasnât her.
Her mom knocked on her door, reminding her that she had her therapy appointment in an hour, and that led back to the present.
âThat seems like quite the epiphany,â Widow smiled warmly, passing Crystal a tissue box when tears began to spill over, âNormally falling for a long-term best friend is something that you realise over time, but not for you apparently.â
âI think maybe Iâm just an oblivious fuck,â Crystal sniffled. âBut even if I realised it today, years ago, or tens of years from now, she still wouldnât like me back.â
âWell, Iâm not your friendâs therapist, but we canât be so quick to assume.â
âOnce you see the girl, youâll know. Sheâs a hardcore ten. Iâm a five, at best.â
âCrystal, remember what we went overâŠâ Widow began, and the blue-haired girl finished the sentence.
ââŠInstead of self-deprecation, tell yourself youâre the best person ever, no matter whether you believe it or not - yeah, I get it,â Crystal rolled her eyes, âItâs just hard when you know itâs not true.â
âWell, I have a little tip I give my clients when theyâre in a similar situation to you. The whole unrequited love thing,â the older woman got up from her seat and walked towards a cabinet, pulling out a packet of fresh, plain envelopes, âI usually tell them to write their crush love notes. Itâs up to them whether they send them or not, or whether itâs anonymous or not, but they can be very therapeutic when needing to express bottled up emotion. Do you see where Iâm coming from?â
Crystal raised a brow and tilted her head to the side slightly, the hint of a smile on her lips. She actually didnât mind the idea.
âThatâs actually super cute,â she giggled, taking the stack of envelopes from her therapist, âThank you.â
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As soon as Crystal got home, she sprinted to her room and grabbed an old notebook from the back of her stationery drawer. It was a plain A5 paper notebook, but spread across each page was a ginormous red opaque One Direction logo. Crystal had got it for Christmas about a decade ago, but it had only been used a handful of times for random sketches and one draft of a Louis Tomlinson and Harry Styles fanfiction.
She grabbed an ink fine-liner from her art pot which she would normally use for her pointillism artwork and began the first letter.
You donât know who I am. Well, you do but like, not who is writing this. I hope you arenât scared or anything - cause thatâs the last thing I wanna do. I promise Iâm not a freak. Well, I sorta look like one but, I know you arenât one to be bothered by that kind of thing. Itâs beautiful, you know. The way people look at you and assume youâll hate them for who they are cause youâre so pretty and popular, but then youâre just as wonderful on the outside as you are within. That look on your face when you meet a new person drives me nuts. The way you look like youâve swallowed the sun. Radiant. Always.
Sometimes I wish I could just tell you how I feel about you to your face, but I think you might faint out of disgust. You do that a lot. I sound like a stalker, but I promise Iâm not. I think Iâm just smitten.
She finished the letter, reading it over to make sure her handwriting looked unrecognisable. Although Gigi wasnât the most observant person, she and Crystal were so familiar with each other that she was bound to notice her unique handwriting. She also made sure to spray it with an old perfume that she never wore, so Gigi wouldnât connect their scents. Gigi always made comments about how she loved Crystalâs perfume, so the blue-haired girl had to take precautions. Her strong scent of cocoa and vanilla was bound to rub off on the paper, so she sprayed it with a menâs cologne that she had likely shoplifted years prior, spraying it onto the paper from a distance.
Although Widow had given her the option not to post the letters, Crystal felt like the weight of her crush wouldnât be eased unless she actually posted it. So, she placed it into the envelope and slipped it into Gigiâs locker the next day at school when the blonde wasnât around, her heart pounding in her ears with anticipation and verve.
She sat through her first class of the day, social studies with Daya, desperately trying to take her mind off the painful wait. Daya ranted to her about dinosaurs and how everyoneâs perception of how they looked was wrong, but Crystal hardly paid attention. She would nod every so often, just so Daya wasnât insulted, but she wasnât really in the conversation.
After social studies, she shared a free period with Gigi. She made her way to their meeting spot in the library after the bell dismissed them from their first period, and sooner than she wouldâve liked, Gigi was marching across the library towards her with the smuggest grin on her face.
âOh my God Crystal Elizabeth you will never guess what I just found in my locker,â she squealed as quietly as possible, sliding into the seat opposite Crystalâs.
âWhat?â Crystal raised a brow, her mouth full of skittles. Now here was the hardest part - pretending to be shocked.
Gigi reached into her blazer pocket and pushed the familiar envelope towards the older girl, who plastered a confused look on her face. The dirty blonde gestured for her to open it, so she complied. She pulled out the letter that was already likely covered in her own fingerprints and unfolded it with a faux-expression of excitement.
âWhat the fuck is this?â she chuckled, trying to suppress the shake in her fingers as she held the letter.
âA letter. From a secret admirer,â Gigi beamed, placing her beautiful shaped chin into her palm and flashing her angelic white teeth. Wow, Crystal was more whipped than she thought.
âThis is so dumb,â she lied blatantly, and to her surprise, Gigi frowned.
âYou think so? I think itâs so sweet. And shit⊠whoever wrote it has a way with words,â she exhaled, tugging her plump, peachy lower lip between her teeth.
Crystalâs breathing hitched and she felt her skin redden. She assumed Gigi would find it painfully corny, but it seemed like she felt the opposite. The blonde promptly took the letter back from Crystalâs grasp, taking a look at it once more. The older girl wished she was imagining the blush that began to cover Gigiâs face, but it was definitely there.
âI hope they write again. I wanna play Nancy Drew,â Gigi smiled sheepishly, taking Crystalâs hand suddenly, âWill you help me, you know, try and crack the code?â
âSure!â
Fuck. Crystal felt like Hannah Montana.
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They spent Saturday together, drinking on Crystalâs roof and gossiping about their own respective friend groups, however, the conversation kept moving back towards the letter. Gigi was conflicted on whether or not she knew the person, but her repetitive use of he and him pronouns when she referred to the secret admirer caused Crystalâs blood to simmer.
When Gigi left the next morning after spending the night on Crystalâs couch, the blue-haired girl was quick to begin her second letter.
I hope these letters havenât made you uncomfortable in any way. The look on your face when you read it tells me they havenât though. What I want to tell you though, is that Iâm not what you think. I hate to disappoint you, but Iâm not a boy. Iâm a girl. I donât know if you like girls. If not; Iâm sorry, but if you do; so do I. I like you a lot. All I want is to make you smile.
She spent Sunday at the skatepark, smoking with Daya, Daegen, Lux and Tiff, before slipping the note into Gigiâs locker first thing on Monday morning. The two of them, as well as Gigiâs friends Nicky and Jaida, all shared music class first period of Mondays. Whilst Crystal was pulling her viola out of its case, Gigi suddenly began dangling the envelope in front of her nose.
âAnother one!â Gigi grinned, her voice cracking with adorable excitement. She took a seat beside Crystal and opened it. âI havenât read it yet.â
Crystal watched her friendâs face with anticipation whilst she read the letter aloud, quiet enough that surrounding people wouldnât hear. Gigiâs eyes widened as she read it over, and her grin faltered into an unreadable expression.
âWhat does it say?â Crystal questioned nervously.
âThe person who wrote it isnât a guy,â Gigi sighed, scratching the top of her head, âItâs a girl.â
The tanned girl pursed her lips, not knowing what to say next.
âWow, uh. So⊠what do you think about that then?â she queried stupidly.
âAbout what?â
âYou know⊠a girl liking youâŠâ
The blonde crossed her legs and looked away from Crystal, âA pair of tits isnât gonna stop me from loving this girls way of words. The anonymity is sexy. I shouldâve known a man wouldnât have the mental capacity to do something so romantic.â
This could not be real. Crystal felt like she was lucid dreaming.
âSo you like⊠girls?â she pressed.
Gigi turned to her with a glint in her eye, âNo gender or sex will stop me from wanting to kiss someone pretty.â
Oh.
âWhat? Are you homophobic or something?â Gigi added, and Crystal simply laughed.
âAs if! Have you seen me? I think I should get âflaming lesboâ tattooed on my cheek. I just didnât know about youâŠâ Crystal rushed out before she could even think about it. Never did she think she would come out in that way. In her mind, for most of her life, she had anticipated coming out in a very deep, emotional way - likely crying on Gigiâs bed. This was nothing of the sort.
âYouâre a lesbian? Wow. I shouldâve known,â the blonde simpered, and Crystal shoved her shoulder playfully.
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When my therapist recommended I write these, I thought it would help me get over you, but fuck I think Iâm falling harder for you. That floral outfit you wore yesterday was so cute. When you walked into class, it lit the whole room up. You truly are Godâs favourite, huh? Just kidding I donât believe in God, but whoever sculpted you took their time.
âCrystal look at this one! This is the most poetic piece of artwork I have ever read,â Gigi gaped, rushing towards Crystal after the latter had waited outside her human biology class for her.
The older girl took the letter and read through it, biting hard on her lower lip whilst Gigi watched with a smile, âItâs cute,â she said.
âIt isnât just cute! Itâs⊠beguiling!â
âDo you even know what that means?â
The blonde groaned as they began to walk through the hallways together.
âI think youâre jealous because no one is writing you captivatingly beautiful love letters.â
Crystal shrugged and continued walking, eventually bumping into Daegen and going for a much-needed smoke. The blue-haired girl didnât want to come off as cold to her best friend, but she feared that if she said too much, Gigi would make the connection. She smoked in silence, allowing Daegen to rant about her weekly argument with Daya that would likely be resolved by Friday. Occasionally she would nod, but she kept quiet.
It was surprising to Crystal that Gigi appreciated the letters so much. She thought the blonde would find them creepy and stalker-like, and perhaps fear for her own safety, but the opposite reaction was apparent. So now Crystal didnât know what to do. Gigi was falling for her words, but she didnât know it was her.
Apparently Daegen had been saying something because suddenly the girl was snapping her pink acrylic covered fingers in front of her eyes.
âAre you listening to me, Crys? I asked what you were planning on doing for Halloween this Friday?â
Oh. Crystal had almost forgotten that she had been working on her Corpse-bride inspired Halloween costume since July, putting her entire soul into the concept and causing her fingers to bleed with the many late nights of sewing layers of tulle. Everything with Gigi must have been really getting in her head - so much so that she forgot about the object of her whole summer.
She was too old for trick or treating now, unfortunately, but she had been planning to have a small get-together (edging on a party) with her remote friend group as well as others. Gigi had promised to attend, after spending the last two Halloweens with the popular kids getting shitfaced at college parties.
âDonât you remember? Iâm throwing a party. My dad is out of town for work and my mom is spending time with our grandma. The house will be empty,â Crystal grinned, puffing a cloud of smoke into the air.
âCrystal Lucia Elizabeth throwing a party? Who wouldâve thought,â Daegen smirked, âIs Geege coming?â
âYup,â Crystal said, her smile faltering slightly as she popped the âp.â Daegen didnât press on, so soon they were both putting their cigarettes out and heading to their next class.
Word of Crystalâs Halloween party spread like a virus, and the prominent conversation around the school was what everyone was wearing. Thankfully for Crystal, most of her friends were art kids, so instead of wearing a slutty (insert random occupation) costume, theyâd all be wearing actual thought-out looks.
At lunchtime, Crystal and Gigi sat under the bleachers together, sipping Yakults and talking about their days. The blue-haired girl asked Gigi what sheâd be wearing to her Halloween party, but the blonde wouldnât tell her.
âItâs a surprise.â her eyes were glinting smugly. Gigi was a seamstress, and everyone knew it. She would create intricately designed, beautiful outfits and sell them to big names on Instagram. Crystal often wondered why she hadnât just dropped out of school, considering it seemed like she had a strong career set in stone.
But oh boy, Crystal knew whatever it was that Gigi was planning to wear would sweep her off her feet. Figuratively and literally - she was quite clumsy.
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I canât wait to see you at the Halloween party tomorrow. I know youâre going to look ethereal. You always do. Itâs so hard to look at you without kissing you. I donât know why I would ever think you would kiss me considering Iâm not even half as pretty as you, but I will continue to manifest it as long as youâre in my life. I think I love you.
âShe said she loved me in yesterdayâs letter,â Gigi shouted through the wind, holding onto Crystalâs waist tight as the latter peddled through the neighbourhood.
âDo you love her?â Crystal replied, thankful that her friend was unable to see her expression at that moment. She couldnât think straight with Gigi holding her in that way.
âI mean. I guess I have to talk to her face to face. For all I know she canât speak for shit in real life. She said sheâs going to your party tonight. Maybe all will be revealedâŠâ
Crystal breathily laughed out a response as she turned into the school gate. She knew she wasnât ready to come clean yet. Gigi would simply have to wait another day.
The day passed in a blur. The girls skipped Phys Ed as per usual, but instead returned to the library again for extra revision instead of going back to the bike sheds to get high like last time.
Friday night took a painfully long time to come, but when it did, Crystal could hardly breathe the entire day. She managed to flirt her way out of sixth-period history so she was able to speedily bike her way home to make a start on her eccentric Halloween makeup. People were set to begin arriving at 9 pm, and there wasnât much preparation to be done aside from throwing a couple of fake cobwebs around the place and placing stacks of red solo cups on the kitchen counter. Her makeup would take at least an hour and a half, so as soon as she got home she took a five-minute shower before beginning the look.
She painted her entire body a silvery grey before carving out strong cheekbones with black paint, giving her an undead appearance. She shaped her brows in a way that would make her look constantly mournful. She slipped her dress on, threw on four different silver necklaces, pulled her voluminous black wig over her head, and clipped the vail to it carefully. After admiring her masterpiece through her phone camera for a few minutes, the doorbell rang. It was Lux and Tiff, who had texted to say they were arriving early.
âOh my God,â Crystal squealed as she opened the door, revealing the two girls. Both of them were dressed in beige prison outfits, and it quickly clicked to her that they were supposed to be Alex and Piper from Orange Is the New Black. âLesbians, I assume,â she grinned, but the two girls in front of her were too busy gaping at her own outfit.
âWow. You are Tim Burtonâs wet dream,â Tiff said, pushing past Crystal and entering her home.
âNo, Iâm not. Iâm not white, remember,â Crystal joked.
Lux had brought her large overpriced speaker to blast music. She heaved it into the living room and plugged it in, immediately starting to blast Stupid Love cause she was that girl.
Luckily for Crystal, her neighbourhood adored her. Her street was predominantly old women, but instead of constantly yelling at Crystal for dressing slutty, partying and smoking weed on her roof, they would simply envy her recklessness.
After an hour of pre-shots, people began to arrive. Most people brought their own alcohol, but it was clear that many of them were already drunk before they even arrived. Crystal remained in the foyer, leaning against the wall, singing along to Luxâs music and answering the doorbell whenever it rang. Every time the ringing echoed across the house, sheâd subconsciously pray Gigi was on the other side, but for the first two hours, it never was.
Nicky, Jaida and Gigi all arrived at once, and Crystal felt herself get cotton mouth for a second when she looked over them all. Nicky was dressed in a basic white gown with her blonde hair down, however, she was absolutely drenched in fake blood and she wore a small prom queen tiara and sash. It was obviously a Carrie cosplay, and Crystal adored it. Jaida had her entire body painted green and wore a black catsuit over it, cosplaying as Gamora from Guardians of the Galaxy.
Crystal complimented their costumes first, but she couldnât take her eyes off Gigi. Her Halloween costume wasnât as bold as they had been in the previous years, but there was something about it that took Crystalâs breath away. The blonde had her hair down and curled in smooth waves and she was wearing a loose white dress with a victorian-Esque corset pulling her waist in impossibly tight. She had dripped wax below her eyes, giving a crying illusion, and her makeup was a shimmery purple, making her look angelic. Yes - that was her costume - an angel. Strapped across her back was the largest pair of faux feather angel wings Crystal had ever seen. They were reminiscent of the ones a Victoriaâs Secret models would wear, and they shimmered under the moonlight.
âHoly fuckâŠâ Crystal blurted, before squeaking slightly.
âI know right? Theyâre so fucking heavy,â Gigi giggled before hopping in and air-kissing Crystal on each cheek, âYou look so good, girl.â
âThanks,â Crystal smiled, deciding that she would no longer be taking doorbell duty. She wanted to enjoy herself, so she walked through to the kitchen where Daya was doing body shots with some guy she had never seen before and promptly decided to join her.
Every so often, she would catch Gigi dancing and knocking things over with her wings. She didnât mind if Gigi ended up shattering a vase. She would glue up every fragment of china for her.
After her second shot, Crystal made her way to the living room with Daegen to observe peopleâs dancing, and thatâs when she saw them.
There was this guy from Gigiâs geography class that she never shut up about. His name was Toby, and he was one of those âhipster boys.â He was a self-proclaimed feminist but probably cried about rejections from women on the internet. Every time Crystal saw his lanky frame enter a room, she felt sick and fantasized about decking him. There was something about him that was just so irritating to her, and every time he stuck his tongue out at her friend or wiggled his eyebrows like a fucking loser, Crystal wanted to cave in on herself.
And there he was, in her home, dancing with her best friend to âIf Youâre Too Shyâ by The 1975, grinding against her cause her angel wings were too large for the roles to be reversed. Gigi was biting her lip and grinning wide - evidently drunk - and she flipped her hair and bounced to the upbeat synth. Nicky was cheering her on from the couch, and Crystal wished she could just shut the party down. So much for Gigi falling in love with her words? Now she was grinding over some flimsy incel that looked like he would have to be pegged by a woman in bed.
It only got worse from there. The blonde caught Crystalâs eye and she walked up to her slowly, her hand still intertwined with Tobyâs. Her words were so slurred that the older girl almost didnât catch them, but she heard Gigi say: âHey Toby was wondering if your bedroom was free? All the other ones are occupied but Iâm desperateeee.â
Crystal had to hold back the mouthful of vomit threatening to spill from her lips. Gigi was so incredibly drunk, and it seemed like Toby was sober, so the entire endeavour didnât sit right with her at all. She mentally cursed herself for being so generous, because before she could even register what she was doing, she was pulling a small key out of her bra and Gigi and Toby were rushing their way upstairs.
âFuck, Crys. Have some respect for yourself,â she mumbled when she was out of earshot from her friend. Decidedly, she made her way to the garden where she knew Daegen was smoking with Tiff. She had to ease her mind.
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âFuck, Goode, youâre so hot,â Toby grunted, carelessly pulling Gigiâs wings off her arms. Gigiâs mind was hazy and she couldnât think or speak properly, so she wasnât able to tell the boy that the wings were handmade and extremely fragile.
âThanks,â she slurred as he began to undress her, âWait.â
âWhat?â
âLet me try and find a condom.â
She hopped off Crystalâs bed and somehow managed to find her way to her friendâs chest of drawers. She found panties and tampons among many other things, but she couldnât find a condom. She reached the final drawer and frantically poked around for one. Then she grabbed something, and suddenly she sobered up.
It was a red A5 notepad with a black swirly binder. On the red cover, Gigi spotted five faces; Zayn, Niall, Liam, Harry and Louis. She chuckled slightly, before opening the notebook. Her heart dropped. If the familiar 1D watermark print paper wasnât enough to make the connection, the titular scribble saying âLove letter for Geege draftâ at the top sealed it.
âAre you okay, Gigi?â she heard Toby ask from the bed.
The blonde paused and furrowed her brow, not sure what to do next. âUm. I canât do this. Sorry.â
âBut it was gonna be so good⊠You look so fineâŠâ âNot tonight, Toby. Sorry.â
Her tone was serious, and Toby knew not to cross her. The boy watched as she pulled her dress and wings back on, and squinted his eyes when she saw a small red notebook in her hands.
âWhatâs that?â he pressed.
âGet out. Crystal wouldnât want you in her room.â
After muttering a few disgusting insults under his breath, he left the room, leaving Gigi alone on her best friendâs bed with an overwhelming amount of thoughts.
Downstairs, Crystal had a growing concern as to where Gigi was, because she swore she saw Toby leave with another girl on his arm. Instead of being petty, she decided to be a good friend and creep up the stairs. To her surprise, her bedroom door was wide open. Upon entering, she realised it was empty. And then she saw the small A5 One Direction notebook wide open on her bed, and knew it was time to shut the party down.
It didnât take more than fifteen minutes to get everyone out, but she was still met with groans of annoyance due to it only being little after midnight. Daya stayed back to help Crystal clean up, but the blonde knew something was wrong.
âCrys? What happened?â she asked, placing a hand on the girlâs shoulder. Her other hand was occupied with a large bin bag filled with chip packets, put-out cigarettes and paper cups.
The small motion of comfort caused Crystal to break down, tears tumbling down her cheeks and creating streaks in her white face paint. Patches of caramel skin showed through as she cried more and more.
âNo one⊠touched you⊠did they?â Daya questioned, dropping the trash bag and wrapping her arms around her friendâs waist.
âNo,â Crystal sobbed, âI donât really wanna talk about it. Iâm fine. I just have to figure out a couple of things.â
âDo you need me to stay over?â
âNo. Itâs fine. I need some alone time.â The house was back to its usual state after twenty minutes, then D ayaâs Lyft arrived and she left. Crystal found herself in front of her vanity, scrubbing at her face with cotton pads in an attempt to remove her many layers of makeup. She turned on her âSad Girl Hoursâ Spotify playlist whilst she cleaned herself up and continued playing it when she slid into the bath.
Gigi knew.
She couldnât even think about why Gigi was snooping about in her drawers, she just knew that Gigi knew. Gigi finally made the connection. Crystalâs mask of hiding behind her romantic words was gone. There was no coming back from this. Part of her wanted to slide her body down the white acrylic bathtub surface, submerging herself in the water and remaining there until her lungs couldnât function without another breath.
Instead, she simply sat there, neck and below beneath the steaming water, eyes shut. Her mind swarmed with escape plans. Would transferring to another school be worth it? Her current school was the best in the district. Should she give it up merely to run away from her problems? Should she face the issue head-on and talk about it with Gigi? Yes. Will she? Absolutely not.
She clambered out when the steam from the water began to make her dizzy. She straightened her blue hair every morning, but it had returned to its curly, frizzy state when it became dampened by the water. She rang it out into the sink using a hand towel, droplets of water falling from her naked frame. Everything was calm. The only thing that could be heard was the occasional sniffle - for Crystal was still crying sightly.
But, like all things, the peace came to an end when Crystal heard a clattering noise come from her bedroom. She yanked a towel from behind the bathroom door before hesitantly making her way back to her room, gasping when she saw someone climbing through her window. Instinctively, she grabbed a tennis racket that was hanging in the corner of her room.
âJesus Christ - put that down!â the intruder gasped, and Crystal realised that it wasnât an escaped prisoner coming to steal her and hold her captive in their trunk - it was Gigi.
Part of Crystal wanted to hit Gigi across the head with the racket painstakingly hard so the blondeâs memory would be wiped, forgetting the humiliating events of the day, but instead, Crystal just placed the racket down and covered herself tensely. She was still in her towel, and her hair was still dripping down her shoulders. She likely looked a mess, but it was too dark to notice.
âItâs almost 3 amâŠâ Crystal whispered. Although she didnât ask anything, it was clear her statement meant âwhy are you here?â
Gigiâs eyes trailed over to the blue-haired girlâs bed where the notebook still sat. Crystal had been afraid to touch it.
âListen, if youâre going to ridicule me, do it on Monday, cause Iâm too tired for this-â the older girl began, but Gigi stepped closer towards her.
The blonde had removed her costume and had her face now bare of any makeup. She was just stood there in black sports leggings and a pink sweater that was three sizes too large, swallowing up her slender frame. Her hair was damp and now in plaits, and her eyes were as puffy and tear-stained as Crystalâs, yet somehow still so beautiful.
âIâm not going to ridicule you, Crys,â she whispered, âI just wanna know⊠Was it you all along?â
Crystal didnât wanna say it. Her body had never burned so bad, despite being bare and dripping with water. It was impossible to look Gigi in the eye, so instead, she looked at the gathering dust on the floor, gulping instead of responding.
âAnswer me, Crys.â - she was getting closer.
âI donât know if I can- if I can say it-â Crystal stumbled, her voice cracking under pressure.
Gigi stepped into Crystalâs bubble suddenly, reaching for the latterâs shaky hand. She took it in her own and pressed a soft kiss to it. âDonât be scared to talk to me. We are best friends, remember. We vowed to always be transparent with one another - so I need you to tell me.â
After too long, Crystal finally met Gigiâs sparkling blue gaze. She swallowed back yet another lump in her throat before nodding. âIt was me. I wrote them. All of them.â
The older girl swore she heard Gigiâs breathing hitch, but if the blonde was shocked in any way, she didnât show any sign of it.
âI wanted to believe it was you, but when you seemed so disinterested in the letters, I began to question it. I never knew that you could write in such a way, Crys,â Gigi smiled sadly, reaching over to catch a tear spilling from Crystalâs eye with her thumb. The touch seemed to burn, sending electrifying sensations through both of them. âDid you truly mean everything you wrote in those letters or was it all a big joke to make me feel special?â
Crystal gasped slightly and furrowed her brow.
âGigi Goode⊠You are special. When we got high during Phys Ed and you were all touchy I- I realised that I liked you. Even though it hasnât been long since I realised it, I know my attraction to you has been there from the start. It started to become impossible to be around you without telling you how I felt, so I wrote it down in letters and hoped I could send the feeling away.â
Crystal was crying now - hard. She was a crier, and everyone knew it, but there was something about the quiet whimpers escaping her lips at that moment that took Gigi off guard.
âI wish you wouldâve told me but, I canât blame you. Itâs terrifying,â Gigi sighed, stepping even closer. âI canât even begin to explain how those letters made me feel, Crys. They made me feel like I hold some significance in somebodyâs life. That someone might want me. That I am good enough for someone. You made me feel all that.â
In a bold move, Crystal was reaching towards her friend and tucking an escaped wisp of blonde hair behind her ear, âI canât imagine a world where you arenât good enough, Geege.â
âYour letters made me feel so loved,â Gigi sniffled. âDo you love me, Crystal?â
Crystal parted her lips, her hand still lingering by the side of Gigiâs face. It was a make or break moment.
âYes,â she breathed, and then Gigi was leaning in.
The blonde paused before their lips could meet, looking for a sign of approval in her friendâs eyes. Crystal nodded, and that gave Gigi what she needed to finally press her lips against the formerâs frown. They instantly became so content like that, lips moving together so perfectly like they just fit.
It was so gentle, to begin with, Crystalâs hand barely touching the side of Gigiâs face - but then the blondeâs fingers grabbed the top of Crystalâs arm, pulling her closer and prying her mouth open with her tongue. Their lips shifted clumsily against each other, but it still felt so right. Crystal tasted like teardrops and pineapple juice, and Gigi tasted like mint.
As the kiss became more and more heated, Crystal figured out what to do with her free hand. She took Gigiâs hand and led her towards the knot that held her towel together, staring at the blonde with dark, lustful eyes.
âI want you,â Crystal said, like it was a promise, âI need you.â
âIâm yours,â Gigi replied, pulling the knot loose and watching as the towel dropped by Crystalâs feet, showing off tanned curves glistening in water drops, begging to be marked.
They pulled one another in once again in a knee-weakening kiss, their noses colliding with each other as the passion fogged their minds. Soon, they were falling onto Crystalâs bed, and Crystal was watching whilst Gigi undressed herself in front of her.
âPromise me weâll do this, and then we will talk everything out?â Crystal asked whilst Gigi was pulling her leggings off.
The blonde pressed a gentle kiss against Crystalâs cheek before whispering, âOf course. I love you.â
While Crystal watched Gigi hook a naked leg over her own, all she could think was: Widow VonDu needs a pay rise.
#rpdr fanfiction#crygi#crystal methyd#gigi goode#lesbian au#high school au#friends to lovers#frankenvenus#concrit welcome#s12
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Baby Making
Baby Making Â
Tom Holland x Reader
Warnings: SMUT +18, talk of anxiety, swearing, nursing genital facts (this was my last unit in my Anat and Physiology class, so I wanted to write some), swear words, other words for genitals, and fluff
Do not read this and get me in trouble if you're under 18
A/N: This is the second of two works I have for @hollandroos and @neptuneparker for their Whatever It Takes writing challenge. Both of them are separate from one another.
#sophsandcoraswc
Summary: Baby making sex is enjoyable, as long as your anxiety doesnât get in the way.
AN: I've never had sex, so sorry for my terrible smut writing. I also had no idea how to start this and I kinda got carried away. Comments and feedback are always appreciated. Requests are open and Messages are open if you want to chat. The gif is from google, so credit goes to the person who made that.Â
P.S. I've now seen Endgame, and cried 3 times. I love you 3000. âĄ
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Italics = thoughts
Smut prompt:
4. âLetâs make a baby.â
Word count: 2,611 Wow
You didn't know where the tradition to lose your virginity on your wedding night came from, but you definitely weren't following it. You were still a virgin, but you didn't want your first time to involve alcohol. You wanted to remember every second of it. How it felt to be aroused and connected in the most intimate way possible with the love of your life.
The problem is your stupid anxiety. Even as a married adult with a successful career of her own you get shy around others. Yes, you might stare at your shirtless hunk of a husband from a distance, but you get hot and flustered when he comes near you and you can't look him in the eye. Do you do it out of respect? You're not sure, but if you can't look at your husband shirtless, how will you ever be able to see him naked, much less him see you naked.
The honeymoon came and went. After sightseeing and dinner, you both would be exhausted at the end of the day that you would just cuddle and go to sleep.
The topic didn't come up until a double date with Tom's parents a few weeks later. Grandchildren were something they wanted and you wanted too. You just didn't know how to bring up the topic without your anxiety getting in the way.
It was another Thursday movie night when you were cuddled into Tom side with your head resting against his shoulder. Â His arm laid on your right shoulder while the pads of his thumb rubbed circles and Jack Reacher kicked ass on the TV.
You could feel his eyes taking glances at you while his fingers drifted lower down your arm. His hand then left your arm and rested on your hip while his fingers played with the waistband of your pajama pants. That was the straw that broke the camel's back.
In a fit of confidence, you kissed the point where his neck and sharp-ass jawbone met. He immediately turned his head to where your lips met. You immediately deepened the kiss hoping it would do all the talking for you. Unfortunately, that wasn't the case, as Tom pulled away and look at you with those caramel brownie eyes that you fell in love with.
"What's this all about?"
In one swift motion, you turned off the TV and straddled his lap. His hands went from your hip to resting on your upper thighs still caressing circles with his thumbs.
"As much as I wanted to finish watching that, I have to get this out of me before this wave of confidence disappears." Tom's head turned to the side much like Tessa's when she's studying something. "I want kids, you want kids, and I want to carry your kids. That's not a mystery. I'm just nervous to start sex because I'm scared you'll look at me differently because of my inexperience. Also, the fact that my nursing brain just spouts random fact and I might ruin the moment and you'll-."
He cut you off with a sweet kiss that neither of you deepened. It was your turn to look confused when he pulled away this time. "I love when you ramble about what's on your mind." This coaxed a shy smile across your face while not making eye contact. That's when his hand left your thigh and went under your chin so you could meet his gaze. "Darling." You silently loved it when he called you that. "I did not ask you out for sex. I did not make you my girlfriend, fiĂĄnce, or Wife because of sex. I fell in love with the nerdy small city girl with a sunny spirit, a caring heart, and the cutest piggy-snort laugh. That's who I married, so you have nothing to be nervous about; I would love to see you pregnant with my child. Whenever you're ready, obviously because you'll be carrying them."
That brought a toothy grin to your face. You gently pressed your lips to his in the sweetest love-filled kiss possible. Until you stuck your tongue out and rubbed it against his lips. He then took the lead in deepening the kiss as his hands went back to your hips. Your hands held his shoulders as you started to grind you core against his.
"If you keep doing that darling *kiss* this is not going to last long. *kiss* and I want to make *kiss* your first time romantic."
"Okay. *kiss* Letâs make a baby. Bedroom then..." That's the moment when he turned you on his lap and swept you up bridal style and carried you to your room.
"Thank goodness Tessa's not awake. Otherwise, she would want to come in with us."
"Haha. Yeah. She always wants to be near us."
Tom then kicked the door closed with his heal and set you on the bed as his lips went back to yours. Your mouths molded together like two puzzle pieces finally fitting together after being separated for so long. "We'll go slow. If you're uncomfortable with anything, please tell me. And don't be afraid to say if you want something." His kisses started moving lower down your neck. Taking his time to suck on your pulse point. This sent ripples of arousal through you like electricity making you hyper-aware of everything your husband was doing.
You pushed your back off the bed to pull your t-shirt over your head. Your bra now on full display with all its lace detailing. Tom went back to kissing your clavicle slowly moving down your chest to the lowest point of your bra. He expertly reached one hand back and undid the clasp. You tossed it to the side as the cold air made your nipped stick up and goosebumps form on your skin. Tom kissed his way down the valley between your busts and massaged one of your nipples with his tongue while his hand went to your right breast.
Your skin was littered with goosebumps by the time he made his way to your rib cage. His hands caressed further down than his lips. He blew bubbles on your belly button, which made you giggle. His hands went to the waistband of your pajamas and his eyes stared at yours as if asking permission. You lifted your hips off the bed to help him as he slowly pulled your pajamas off and your underwear along with them. His hands slowly went back up your legs making goosebumps appear again. Your knees were in the air as his chin sat on your knees. His hands were caressing your thighs as he took in all there was to see.
You pushed your back off the bed and reached to the back of his neck to grab his t-shirt. You pulled it over his head and his arms followed suit. He sat up and you let your eyes rake over his bare chest. His muscles weren't as defined as they had been, but you didn't care. As long as he kept himself healthy, loved you, and worked hard, that was all you could as for.
"You know it's impolite to stare." That cheeky grin was what you lived for.
"Well, I'm staring at a gorgeous specimen with the cutest smile above me. I can't help it." He kissed your knees at that. "Also guys have nipples because they develop in the womb before the sex gene decides if it's a boy or girl."
"I love when you talk nerdy. *kiss* You're beautiful. Let's get you comfortable."
He then sat me up with some pillows so I could still lay back and relax, but see what he was doing. He then pried your legs open and nestled his clothed crotch in between them. His sweatpants not doing much to hide the bulge underneath them. Kisses made their way from your lips back down to your heat and you knew he was just teasing you at this point. Small whimpers escaped you until his face was at your vagina. His lips were wrapped around your clitoris and shock waves were paralyzing your legs. He kept going with his fingers teasing your entrance until you felt a million butterflies in your lower abdomen. This feeling was new and wonderful that if left you breathless and very wet apparently.
"You feel good for your first orgasm?"
"First orgasm with someone else." You corrected him. Â "And it felt good." You hoped he couldn't tell you were still slightly nervous about what was to come.
"Well let's continue, because it's going to get a lot better." He sat up so he was sitting on his knees and pulled you up with him. You kissed from his neck down his chest making sure to try not to leave marks, since he had to be shirtless more than you. You wanted to find his weak spot. The place that would get a moan out of him before you got lower than his belly button. You sucked on his nipples as your hands caressed his sides and that did the trick. Outlining his rib cage with your tongue you made your way lower on his chest.
His member making their presence known. You kissed his V-line that was poking out of his sweatpants, which brought another moan out of him. You hooked your fingers into the waistband and gave Tom one last look that hopefully told him how nervous you still were. He kissed you sweetly on the lips giving you the reassurance you needed. He lifted up his hips and you pulled his sweatpants down to his knees.
Of course he wouldn't wear boxers underneath. What guy does?
His member came up slapping him against the chest as it stood at attention. Precum was leaking from the head as Tom kicked his boxers off the rest of the way and tossed them somewhere in the room. He could tell you were still nervous by the way your hands stayed on his thighs and didn't dare to move. You were more nervous about how he was going to fit in you. He was seven inches at least and you knew it would hurt at first, judging by how thick he was getting.
"Why don't you label me?" This confused you greatly.
"What?"
"You said reproduction was part of your Anatomy and Physiology class. So, tell me what you remember."
With your hand still ghosting over his member, you closed your eyes for a second to recall what you knew. "Well, when you're aroused. Sixty times the normal amount rushes to your genitals."
Your hand leaned down and cupped his balls as Tom bit his lip because a moan was threatening to interrupt you. "Sperm kept in your balls has to be two and a half to three degrees Celsius colder than body temperature." You rubbed the skin of his balls up to the base of his cock. "The sperm mature at the base of the Epididymis, and travel through the Vas Deferens until they get to the seminal vesicle." You gripped the base of his member and watched his face contort in pleasure. "From there out it's semen." You pulled your hand toward his head and back, slowly jerking him off. "The prostate gland stops urine from going through since you only have one urethra." Your thumb came back to his head and spread the precum that was leaking. "The precum comes from the bulbourethral or Cowper gland to neutralize the acid from the urine in the urethra, and -." You were cut off by his lips meeting yours again.
"If you keep being smart and sexy like that, I'm going to cum before I even get inside you."
You smiled at his statement seeing how much of an effect you had on him. You laid on your back and pulled Tom down with you while deepening the kiss. You opened your legs for him as he rested on his elbows boxed around your head. One hand reached down to line himself up while his other arm kept his balance.
"It may hurt a bit at first, but it will feel better. Just tell me if you want to stop."
"Okay."
You could feel his head spreading your wetness to your clit, which made your twitch again in pleasure. His head parted your folds and slowly sank into your pussy until it was completely soaked in your wetness. It did hurt, and considering how big Tom looked you were expecting it to hurt more. But you felt this feeling of fullness and connection felling him inside you this way.
You looked down and all you could see was the base of his cock and his balls, but you could feel the rest of him inside you. This made you wetter as an idea came to mind. You clenched your pelvic muscles and that got another moan out of him. "That feel good? Being nothing between you and me."
"Ahh. You are going to be the death of me." That signature grin enchanted you under his spell again and you were all his. He slowly started to thrust in and out of you in shallow motions, hitting pleasure placed that you didn't know your body had.
"Tom. Faster. Please." Tom apparently had a praise kink, because those words sent him into full overdrive. His hand was circling your clit as he pounded into you. You moaned each other's names as the bed creaked under the constant weight shift. Your wet bodies making the only noise in the room as all the other moans were swallowed when Tom returned his lips to yours.
Your orgasm hit you like a train. Hard and unexpected. You clenched around Tom as you felt his cock twitch before stilling deep inside of you, shooting streams of his cum as deep as they would go. You hissed at the slight burning you felt as his cum coated your walls. Definitely stickier than you thought, but this was the fun part of baby making.
Your breathing evened out as the sweat on both of your bodies began to cool.
Tom lifted himself on to his elbows keeping himself inside you. His hand came up and caressed the apples of your cheeks with the pads of his thumbs as you lazily kissed.
"Can you help me clean up? I have to pee."
He pulled out of you and went to the bathroom to help you clean up. All you could feel was sweat sticking to your skin and his cum dripping out of your vagina. He returned with a washcloth and you held it between your legs as you rushed to the bathroom.
You returned to see the bed made and Tom sitting with his back to the headboard. "It kind of ruined the moment. But I've always wondered why women have to pee after sex."
"It's more to prevent Urinary Tract Infections. Women have a shorter urethra than men, so it's more likely for vaginal fluid to get in there. It's not impossible for men to get UTIs, it's just unlikely." You snuggled under the blankets with Tom being the big spoon. Your hands intertwined as his thumps caressed your stomach.
"You're going to be the best Mum someday."
"And you're going to be the best Dad." You turned to face him and plant a sweet loving kiss on his plump lips."But if it ends up being twins, I'm going to blame Sam and Harry." Giggles filled the room as this ended your first night of lovemaking as you waited for a miracle to happen that would change your lives for the better.
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