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Typical racist chris evans fan/// what?! According to mod I can't be racist because I'm black. 🙄🙄 Mod, how's your Nazi grandfather? I know you like thinking you're so different from him because you have ✨pronouns in your bio✨ but you're just as prejudicial, racist and ignorant. 🖕
This entire ask is wild but also so wildly wrong that if you actually understood the severity of what you were saying right now, I would hope to everything holy you wouldn't be saying it.
But then again, assholes rarely change, do they? So you probably wouldn't.
I wasn't going to honor this with one of my responses because, truly, you do not deserve one of my well educated elaborated responses that I am so famous for making because of your shit personality, but then I decided, you know what? This is enough.
This is enough to trigger me. This topic and the word you used is entirely enough to trigger me into ranting.
So I will.
It is almost 6am as I am writing this and I have been drinking wine for the past 10 hours so excuse me if this is not as elegant as I could have delivered it under sober circumstances.
But then again, would I really have delivered this under elegant circumstances even if I was sober? I don't think so.
I am my fathers daughter. And while me and my father disagree on many things, there is one thing we heavily agree on.
There is one very very important thing he taught me from an early age.
And that is, if people fuck with you, you punch them in the face.
So I do hope you didn't have a nose-job recently, anon. Well, to be honest, I don't give a shit if you did. Were you standing in front of me right now I would have no apologies for you. I still would have punched you in the face.
And as a descendant from Vikings, and knowing that that is the only information anyone on here knows about my true form outside of the internet, let me tell you.... It would have hurt.
And (hopefully) broken your nose.
Now.
Most people who have followed me for a while will know that I am from the Nordics. They will even know I am Scandinavian. I am. Very much so. Painfully so.
So what you just thought out in your mind and then decided to type onto your keyboard and eventually send me is highly offensive.
I don't often say this, but I will say it to you. Because I truly mean it.
May you die a terrible, just purely awful, death.
What you have written to me is, and I mean this sincerely, despicable. I hope you are punished for it.
I study law, and while I know that nothing I'm saying right now are eligible as threats, I would not mind being blamed for it if it came to that.
You're a bad person.
You're a terrible person.
I hope none of your family members hug you ever again. I hope you live your life knowing that they're ashamed you. If they're not, then please know that the rest of the world is.
You're shameful.
You're despicable.
You deserve nothing good in your life.
You sent that message to someone because of an actor you don't know, someone who doesn't even know you exist, in defense of him.
You did that for absolutely nothing, it means nothing and will achieve nothing.
But I won't stand for it.
I was not raised to stand for it.
I will tell you this, though –
You crossed a boundary. And if you ever, and I mean ever, return to my space with that sort of language directed towards INNOCENT people expressing their opinion, I won't be the only person pursuing you.
Because what you're doing is illegal in a lot of countries. Maybe not in yours. But in a lot of others. And we have the right to sue you for slander.
And as someone who studies law, who has previously admitted to being extremely privileged, let me tell you; getting out of it won't be easy.
It will be very painful. And it will cost you a lot.
So I hope you're ready.
#mandy answers#chris evans#alba baptista#defenders#nazis#this is LEGIT what we deal with#theyre fucking sick#disgusting#bad people#who says this to another person?!#this person has no idea who i am#THESE ARE THE PEOPLE SUPPORTING AND BACKING UP ALBA BAPTISTA#which is not surprising#but for them to be supporting chris?#i hope he would he disgusted#but then again#i cant be sure#knowing what i know now
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warning this might be a nothing post i'm just a little emotional & rambling but like... i think a lot about hometown showdown and gay and not proud a lot. and i understand this was in the peak of YouTube's fuckery with Dan and disrupting his plans for DINOK so i understand there's like a tension behind a lot of what was ongoing. i also realize that YouTube-- more obviously with hometown showdown-- but generally had strong business rationale for wanting Phil to feature in these videos, with Dan & Phil being the duo of HS and Phil being there in gay and not proud (sorry the acronym for this looks ugly).
but man... i think a lot about how hometown showdown was just kind of a lot of dates. i've not seen the other ones but i hear a lot that they were way more competitive versus Dan and Phil were just casually exploring their hometowns together, showing pieces of themselves to the other. i think about all the dialogue that was cut (that I think was alluded to in WDAPTEO 2?)
and i think about like. the seismic Importance of Phil being in gay and not proud as like... Dan's safe space. the same way he's remote crisis manager, the same way he was part of WAD's pre & post show, the same way he filmed that haircut video basically to promo YWGTTN and Dan is leaving me to talk about WAD. the same way that Dan got a taxi to his place after his nightmare experience at the laundromat to do laundry because "for the first time since I was a tiny child, I actually felt safe."
and after the latest mukbang it's like... it's really insane to me how their personal relationship has continued despite the pressures they've faced as being a comedic influencer duo. the fact that they work as business partners but still have this relationship. the fact that even in these YouTube originals that Dan was resentful of at the time anyway you can still glowingly see how much they love each other. like Phil being in gay and not proud wasn't a cameo, it was a fucking love confession.
i dunno. this is something that's been talked about a Lot but i do think about it frequently. i don't tend to rewatch these specials a lot because Jesus Christ the editing really gets me, but like... idk. "you're next to me in my life," or whatever. 15 years have passed and Phil's still cheerleading for Dan, from his first YouTube video to his first solo tour. i dunno.
#astra.txt#dan and phil#phan#i've said this before but that was the part of basically i'm gay that i think helped me the most personally. or at least really affected me#the idea of meeting someone who made you feel safe. and for a while i kind of thought i had that and then i reflect and i'm like...#... no i shouldn't really settle. because it IS so important.#one person accepting you CAN make all the difference. and i'm so glad Dan was able to find that person#and also obviously that Phil has Dan because Dan loves and supports Phil a lot too.#hate when i'm overly emotional about these videos because i don't want to rewatch but i am like mentally compelled to#the fact that Dan has done a lot of genuinely impressive solo work and Phil is like right there being like#guys read this book! guys go see him on tour! 45 minute masterpiece!#it's dan's birthday lets get that to trend! like UGH.
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Sunday thought of the day:
Sunday likes to leave traces of himself on you.
He’ll adorn your neck with beautiful jewelry, classy and not too gaudy, made with precious stones that were imported from other star systems. Your favorite dress was commissioned by him, hand-made with the softest fabrics and finest stitching (Sunday reviews the stitching himself. The seamsters who worked on the apparel can only stand there with bone-chilling anticipation as Sunday silently— meticulously— scrutinizes the sewing. He only wants the best for his darling, after all). He’s bought some aromatic oils for you too. When you get ready in the morning, he takes his time massaging it into your wrists and the pulse points of your neck (you don’t seem to realize it’s the same scent that he uses).
They are all symbols of affiliation— a claim over you that remains unspoken. Despite this, others are not ignorant to the tacit message that reflects off of the glimmering stones in your necklace, or the luster of the silks that swathe you: you are involved with Sunday, and one should remain circumspect in their interactions with you.
#also playing with the idea of Sunday getting his name engraved on the inside of a collar he gifts to you#when you wear it for a few hours the ridges of the engraving leaves an imprint on your neck#hsr x reader#sunday x reader#honkai star rail x reader#I am also looking directly at that one person who said Sunday has you use his soap to smell like him#gnawing on that hc SOOO hard#delicious#I had more tags but tumblr said no
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also - I know this is secondary to the abuse that actually materialised for gaiman's victims, but I've seen enough other secondary concerns being aired that I think this one needs doing too:
Talking about the gaiman allegations in a way that treats 'fans' and 'victims' as entirely separate, siloed categories is common but supremely unhelpful. Some of his victims were fans that he met at signings. That alone means there's no clear categories, however much you might want it.
But the additional point is - Well, some of his victims were fans who liked him enough to go to signings. All of his victims seem to have been young women. There's quite a lot of people who've been fans of his work and identified as a young woman at the same point in their lives.
There is SO much disdain for the fans who have been trying to process all this stuff on a personal level, even to the extent of insinuating that personal processing is an immoral thing to do in this case. But I feel like there is basically ZERO acknowledgement, so far, that for anyone who is or has been a gaiman fan and a young woman at the same time - processing all this may well include processing the knowledge that he would likely have viewed/assessed them as a potential victim, had they met. And some of them did meet him!
That's not nothing to have to come to terms with about someone you previously looked up to, and it's not something you can easily ignore, even for the noblest of reasons!
#Neil gaiman#cw rape#cw assault#cw sa#good omens#the sandman#dead boy detectives#also tbf although I do meet both those criteria and this has definitely been part of my own processing#I am self aware enough to know that I personally would never have been especially at risk in this situation#because he definitely seems to have taken to heart the idea of 'if you're famous hot 20 year olds will always want to sleep with you'#and like. that ain't me and it wasn't when I was 20. I am not conventionally attractive#but I know that for other people this is going to be a much more significant part of things#like for plenty of people awareness of their attractiveness comes partly through being harassed#and if that is something someone's already got going on then it feels as though that could interact with this in some very gnarly ways#but also the knowledge of like. looking up to someone who cultivated an admirable persona#and then learning that they would likely not have even done you the courtesy of regarding you with indifference#as would be their prerogative#but that their opinion/assessment of you in turn would've likely boiled down to 'is this person hot enough to use for my pleasure'#that is NOT a pleasant thing to have to work through in your head and I'm not surprised that a lot of fans are feeling personally shitty
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How do you feel about being called a dude? (For complimenting you reasons)
im dude (90s lesbian edition)
#😎#everyone reads me as a chick except for people who get confused about short haircuts#wife n i call each other dude. buddy. king. queen. kweeng. and sometimes (if the situation warrants) bro#makes me happy to be gendered any way. or slap shotted into the no gender zone. can play however if everyones playin nice :)#it has been nice to have Grown My Own Flavor while talkin to trans partners and friends about them gender ideas#i have many many many thoughts and as an adult am very happy with who/what i am!#its as deep or as whatev as u want it to be. me personally i am deeply unserious about it. comfy about it. play around about it#wlw and gay and queer and ??? idc#she he any#bless u on ur gourney (jender journey)
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Imagine Buck saying “i love you” first and for the first time Tommy feels behind. He feels like maybe they are moving too fast.
Then he has a talk with some of his team. They’re not AS close as the 118 but they put their life in each others hand’s on the regular and that counts for something.
Andy asks Tommy about last week, when Buck was complaining about his apartment being so far so they started talking about moving in together? Aubree mentions how much he jokes about buying a ring for his beau, and Tommy sits back because he does joke a lot about (he hasn't spoken to Evan directly about it but anytime the kid does something sweet he asks him his ring size). Lucy mentions the time they spend talking and texting, she calls it nauseating with a wink, but Tommy doesn't remember the last time he wanted another person in contact with him at all times and who returned the feeling tenfold.
And after all, with their job they could die any day. He sits in his kitchen and replays the moment Evan said it again and again: "I know I'm dragging you through milestones like a cat with a mouse, and I want to let you know that you don't have to say it back. But I love you, Tommy. You mean a lot to me and I'm so happy we met."
Nine months is the longest relationship Tommy has ever had. And he still wishes he could spend every waking second with Evan.
By the end of the night he's barging into Buck's apartment and sticking his tongue in the younger man's mouth. He stands back and pushes his chest up and smiles and says "I love you too, Evan."
Buck is laughing, he's smiling and kissing his boyfriend back and hugging him tight. He can feel Tommy's heart racing when he puts his hand to Tommy's chest. He expected it to take longer. He'd heard about all the ways Tommy had been hurt before. But in the end it only took a day
then they hear a flush and Eddie walks out of the bathroom. He's smiling because Buck's loft is Not Big and he might have heard every word. For just a moment, they all stand in silence not uncomfortable per say but definitely charged.
Then Eddie says "I love you too, bro." Buck lovingly rolls his eyes and Tommy is cracking up. If it were anyone else he'd probably feel embarrassed but Eddie has shared friendly declarations of love before and its not uncommon for the L word to be passed around a 118 dinner party like hors d'oeuvres.
#911 abc#bucktommy#evan buckley#tevan#kinley#eddie diaz#tommy kinard#please ignore any and all timelines that dont make sense i just said random numbers and thought adorable things#andy & aubree might be seen again. idk#aubree is australian and bi and maybe had a crush on tommy when they first met but that was like three years ago now#andy is the captain and divorced but he has a son and daughter who he loves more than life itself#and yall know lucy#yes this inspired by david and patrick bc i am STILL watching schitts creek#personal#fic ideas#PS if you think Buck would say out before 9m i see you. but remember theyre working half that time so im cut that in half when calculating#time actually spent together#idk it made sense in my head
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(x, x, x, x) patrick aegyo king 🫶
#MY IDEAL WOULD BE ONE OF HIM DOING THE FINGER HEART..... PLS PATRICK......#next person who has m&g i am incepting this idea into ur brain rn pls make them do all manner of silly trendy finger hearts#media blitz#patrick stump
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let it be known that i love prince inigo with my whole soul. however sometimes it is SO much fun to think about owain and his two most loyal-est knights you ever seen: worst guy in the world #1 and worst guy in the world #2. i love retainer inigo and severa so much. retainers who bully you and make fun of you and trash on you but they’d leave behind everyone and everything they ever knew to follow you and protect you in a whole new universe. they love you so much that they’d swear allegiance to total strangers but that loyalty pales in comparison to what they’d do for you. and they were all lovers!!!!!!!
#ann plays awakening#awakening trio#sometimes i forget owain is literal royalty and like#in the bad timeline hes probably like. the second most important person there?? unless luci has a sibling#obviously she’d need her own retainers but unfortunately i am thimking awakening trio thoughts. i miss. i love them in any form#that they are handed to me#i love them as best friends. as forced circumstance allies to family. as lovers.#i know i said lovers in this post but im not sure they’d ever label it as that#to me its very much ‘its not exactly romantic but its too intense to be platonic’#what i am getting at is queer platonic awakening trio btw. in case that wasnt obvious#like no matter who they are or where they go they are eachothers people dude. like literally do not separate#anyways im gonna be thinking long and hard about who should be everyones parents in this timeline#i have what i call my ‘main’ pairings and thats what i use for most of my headcanons (ex prince inigo)#but i’d like a completely separate one for owain retainer trio#i think im pretty set on fred!severa#i couuuldddd pick fred!inigo which i do think is SUPER compelling as well but something about freddy!severa… also shes so cute as a brunette#like sorry… shes just so beautiful#ive been having a lot of thoughts aboht tharj!inigo and i need to figure out if thats current bias talking or if im cooking with that one#i got no idea who owain’s second parent should be. robin maybe? idk#i mean his second parent isnt quite as impactful in regards to trio dynamics in this case just because he’s always the prince but. idk#i really like the idea of half plegian owain but i ALWAYS run half plegian owain cuz im always pairing lissa with robin or henry so its like#this isnt new 😭😭😭 but god. PLEGIAN OWAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#hm. though. hear me out. manakete owain???????????????? ehhh????#sorry. idk. i love how changing the parents of the second gen can change their characterization. its like my favorite thing ever#i think its why im so attached to all of them. theres always new things to explore with them!!! its so much fun!!!!!!#graaarfggjjjhhhhhhn!!!!
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played dragon age 2...just simple scribbles
#dragon age tag#i doubt that will see much use again..but who knows. vvv rambling below#weird game..the characters dialogue stuff and ending were good tho :')#i've played some of the first game but it kept crashing. i knew already despite knowing nothing that this guy was going to be my type#it doesnt feel right making video game art any more bc games like this end up feeling really personal - an experience that happened to me#if i design the main character a bit and fall in love then..that happened to me..i can't make Fan Art of that..only ive been through that..#like i cant make fanart of my dear companions in bg3 despite it having been a huge part of my heart in the last year#almost 1000 hours of playtime in something i can barely talk about bc it means too much.... lol#tons of ideas and conversations and extra thoughts and scenes and emotions about all the incredible times i've been through in bg3#and the maelstrom just rotates around intensely in my own heart forever...but that's ok too...that is so precious to me#but fortunately i already knew people that have played this game and talked/drew abt it recently so it was saved from that for me#sharing scribbly fanart on my Blog is a way to capture the feeling just after experiencing something so it has good points#witch hat atelier escapes that by not being a GAME. games are so immersive. but my wha art & feelings are incredibly immersive too#which makes it difficult sometimes now. i live a complicated and emotional life <3 i am not suited to fandom <3#my character ended up looking so much like oru without me realising that's what i was doing. Kind bearded fireball throwing gay mage. Hmm.#falling for a sad white hair memory trauma fellow that keeps you at a tragic distance. Hmmmmmm.#i see also how very much bg3 is inspired by stuff like dragon age now lol so i'm glad i experienced it. I WANT MY KIRKWALL LIFE BACK...#so dated though as well and unpleasant at times (the city and the dismal atmosphere was depressing.) i hate violence/horror..#bg3 is SOOOO very dismal but it feels like I am killing people and going through horrors because i have to survive i have to be free#Well anyway. ahh it's so refreshing to fall in love. my gay journey continues...
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Something something perhaps the reason Curly lacks a truly undamaged ID where his face is visible is to represent how much damage Jimmy had already affected on him throughout their relationship and the way Curly obscured part of who he is and what he stood to unintentionally cater to this toxic influence in his life.
#I think there is something to say that most people draw post crash curly and may not have every drawn him pre crash#and I think it says something that we only really look at the characters substantially in relation to Jimmy and not their own merits#unless we are discussing how J I M M Y mischarcterizes them cause in this#since we don’t assign a face and identify to Curly’s actions outside of Jimmy until the end their is the question of how much we are viewing#them as separate entities rather than intertwined actions cause while the flipping#of who we play at shows them and parallels and in separable in terms of the story going down#they couldn’t be drastically more different in thinking and you only really realize that at the birthday scene where Curly felt the need to#take responsibility for something while Jimmy just felt the need to take#this is also more so me thinking about all the reason people think Curly and Jimmy could be friends but they are missing the point of Jimmy#and his dynamic there is nothing severely weird or sinister about Curly or his intentions it’s that he’s well meaning to a fault#he’s an average dude having a mid life crisis and Jimmy is a guy that takes advantage of good intentions like the idea#that curly has to be like Jimmy in some way personality humor morally is the exact sort of projection Jimmy wants#to happen and does like it’s the sad and real case that sometimes people just have friends like Jimmy that they can’t cut off for one reason#or another like it’s not highly philosophical people are friends with objective assholes but it��s less about them#and more about the person feeling some obligation to stay like I feel like crafting him into#being more morally grey is to just make it easier to be angrier or think someone with more of a backbone#could of done something but it’s not even that he was spineless he was just too distracted and sometimes that feel like cowardice like even#Swansea waited it’s just the sad truth of how people avoid people like Jimmy or setting them off#sometimes it just does more harm than good I just am so bored with all the takes#acting like there was a perfect man on that ship and that any one outside of Anya knew the exact type of guy Jimmy#was from the get go like the point is other men wouldn’t in rape culture but women and their victims already know#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#curly mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing#throwing rocks at Jimmy
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When is an analogy about a falling tree actually about the complication of Eddie having moved his life to Texas only to realise he’s in love with his best friend?!!!
Because that’s what I’m getting from that Tim quote!! To talk about self flagelation, complications in reestablishing his relationship with Chris and then throw in a comment about never knowing what tree might fall on you to finish off the answer - was a choice!
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And I can’t be the only one that is thinking back to 6x04 and the birdwatcher stuck under a tree (and the whole episode being about misunderstanding things and christopher lying and buck and Christopher’s relationship and things being complicated!) we’ve already had a callback to this episode as well this season with Buck riding white bikes and stopping traffic - we’ve graduated from a pushbike to a motorbike - things are speeding up!
#what can I say - I am having a lot of thoughts#trying to decipher Tim is never easy#but 604 feels like a very important episode - because it’s so focused on Eddie and Chris’s relationship and Eddie’s with his dad#it’s a parental focused episode and there is a fair amount of focus on buck and parenthood as well as the Eddie and Chris relationship#so I’m calling this episode as telling#also the bird watchers were brother and sister and that’s making me think that maybe we’ll get to see some Sophia and adrianna stuff#plus 604 is about knowing someone is a good person - knowing the truth of who a person is#there’s something about the idea of Tim hinting at a play on Eddie knowing himself more intimately - learning a truth about himself#realising he’s been lying to himself his whole lifand that is giving me queer energy#and we know Tim has been doing a speed run through buddies greatest hits and while this episode isn’t buddie focused in the strictest sense#it was an important episode for their relationship and for each of them that season#yeah I am musing hard#911 spoilers#911 abc#eddie diaz#evan buckley#buddie#Tim minear
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Met Jason Schwartzman today, at the Venice Film Festival. I think at least 20 people completely surrounded him after the showing of Pavements (2024). He was so incredibly kind with every single one of us, very soft-spoken, took the time for an autograp or a picture with everybody, and I mean, EVERYBODY (security had to tell him numerous times to get out of the cinema because they had to show another movie). And even outside the cinema, he kept chattering with us and taking pictures and signing photos and programs of the Festival. He thanked us numerous times for coming to see him, seeing his movies, paying him compliments. He seemed almost as happy to see us as we were to see him. I got to tell him that one of my favourite movie characters of all time was Max Fischer, from Rushmore (his first movie ever). He was pleasantly surprised, a little endeared dare I say, thanked me for that and I think he paid me a compliment as well but I kinda blacked out from the emotion. I just remember that at some point I said "Thank you for being you" and he said "Thank you for being you" and I still think I died on the spot and I am currently in heaven. It was such a nice moment, I wanted to share.
#la ragazza accanto a me che proprio gli ha detto in faccia 'CHE PATATO'. Mood.#I got my autograph! He drew a couple of musical notes next to it!#look. I basically only watch movies. I rarely know about celebrities personal lives.#I have no idea if this behaviour from him is typical if he used to be brattier and then had a change of heart#I just know today he stole the heart of everybody who had the pleasure to interact with him and was nothing short of delightful#go see pavements (2024)#an absolutely crazy musical documentary#I gotta say Alex Ross Perry is a madman and I am proud to have said to his face that he's 'such a cool dude'#jason schwartzman#pavements 2024#rushmore#max fischer#he's also in Queer (2024) by Luca Guadagnino#and he's hilarious in that
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hey do you ever think miu called kokichi a twink. i wonder how he would react to that
#danganronpa#drv3#kokichi ouma#miu iruma#idk random shitpost#i personally think she once pointed a finger at him and loudly proclaimed he was the twinkiest guy she knows#but i have absolutely no clue how he would react#anyone who has no idea what im talking about just know i am very sick and it's 2am and i'm hyperfixated on danganronpa
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Chat….genuine question. And pls nobody fight! 😩 Do you think that if the roles were reversed—if it were Gortash who had his memories erased instead of Durge, do you think Karlach would have offered him a chance to befriend or work with him? If Gortash was a completely blank slate, without any recollection of his past actions or morals. No idea who she is. Would she have considered giving him an opportunity?
Not saying forgive him! Or even pretend it didn’t happen or anything actually “positive” on her end….but I wonder if she would try and work with him…..almost begrudgingly if possible, if their roles in the game were still happening, being tadpoled and whatnot 🤷♀️
I say some spoilery things in the tags, so don't read if you haven't finished the game or have not discovered everything about Gortash that the game allows.
#this is a very ooc reality lol I am aware#but I just think about who Karlach is as a person#and how compassionate she is#I just wonder if even for someone like Gortash#who ruined her life pretty much and betrayed her trust#if he became a blank slate with no memory of anything he has done#I wonder how she would handle something like that?#especially if they were in a similar boat like in the game#it just makes me wonder because she does show sympathy when she finds out what his parents did to him#AND she approves when you violently kill his parents#she is aware that this does not excuse his actions#but I just think about what she would do#if he came up to her and had NO idea who she was or who he even was???#……hmmm#her moral dilemmas would be thrown through the ringer lmao#enver gortash#durge#gortash#karlach#bg3#professional yapper
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#random personal stuff#personal whining ahead feel free to ignore#kind of struggling right now (what else is new)#I was up past three last night having A Crisis#I'm burned out and I know why I'm burned out#but there's no good solution#and on top of that there's some shame and the ever-present need to Restrain just how awful I am#(ha! this time I will have proof for my counselor that I am in fact the worst and I'm not just making that up)#there aren't any viable other life options & who knows if I wouldn't just be exchanging one struggle for another (worse?) one if I tried#the current situation is stagnant and sucking out my soul#people keep telling me to do A Thing for it to improve but it costs money and energy that the current situation isn't leaving me much of#and I don't even know if The Thing is really what I want anyway even if I could do it#I went into this with such ridiculous starry-eyed ideas of helping people but for a long time now everything has seemed meaningless#the same mindless repetitious tasks forever until I die#stuck behind the same desk and not mattering at all#but it's the only thing I can do and I don't know what I would want to do if I had the choice#maybe not work around people again ever which would be better for humanity in general#anyway I want to ask for prayer but I don't know how/what to ask about?
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Aging rockstar Eddie Munson who goes viral on tiktok after dueting a fancam of him and Stevie that is backed by the bi wife energy audio.
It's shaky, clearly a spur of the moment response, Eddie is obviously captivated for a second by a clip of Stevie that starts to play. He sighs and directs his attention back to the audience. "I love my beautiful wife, the sun to my moon, the light of my life."
You can just make out another voice from somewhere in the background call out, "Love you too!"
"But I did not survive being an openly gay teenager in the 1980s in rural Indiana to be called a heterosexual!"
He zooms in closer to his face, it's unclear whether this was intentional, "I did not go through a sexuality crisis in the early 90s when she transitioned, to be called a heterosexual."
Stevie comes out from somewhere behind where Eddie is ranting to drape herself around his shoulders, "Oh that's a good picture of us." The original video is a step above thirst trap and the picture in question is a pap shot of Stevie and Eddie from a long past Halloween. Stevie is in the famous Farrah onepiece and Eddie is in first husband Lee Majors' Six Million Dollar Man red tracksuit.
"You just like it cause we actually ran into Farrah and she liked your hair."
"It was also-"
She isn't dislodged as Eddie fails, well practiced at staying on her perch. "I didn't cancel the back half of our 1995 tour because of morning sickness to get called a HETEROSEXUAL!"
Stevie's smile is indulgent and soft, it wrinkles the corners of her eyes in soft crows feet that betray her age. "You can be trans and straight."
"A fucking ally then!"
She's got a sage Mona Lisa smile as the video ticks to a close, "I love my husband, and he's actually bi."
#steddie#t4t steddie#transfem steve harrington#stevie harrington#trans eddie munson#do you ever get the bi wife energy song stuck in your head for weeks at a time cause your brain is broken?#anyway i am enchanted by the idea that both halves of steddie gave eachother little bi crisises#little freshman stevie getting butterflies over this charismatic sophomore#eddie who has been sure hes gay since he can remember being completely blindsided by his attraction to stevie#is this a vecna verse thing who knows#maybe they went their seperate ways and came back together but either way#stevie also likes the halloween picture because thats their first halloween with their daughter technically#eddie had to scrap his original costume plans because he started showing#idk i just imagine a famous eddie keeping his personal life private and then people make assumptions about this guy and his wife#and those assumptions are that hes straight and that just wont stand
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