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[rottedbrainz]

Went and saw the new Spider-Man movie. Can you guess who's my favorite?

[johnbronze]

ok for real I know they were limited in their options for explaining Stiles’ actions because DOB didnt come back but like SERIOUSLY. I have so many questions and complaints and not even all of them are Stydia related….. spoilers obviously

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Uhhh I can’t figure out how to add a read more on mobile sorry folks hopefully this is a good enough buffer !!!!!

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Did…. Did anyone bother to tell Stiles that Allison is alive?  are we meant to believe that nobody did?? or what’s worse, that he was told and he just didn’t come to Beacon Hills or call or anything?

On that note, are we actually supposed to believe — and I am not a Sterek girlie by any means, love and light to y’all but it’s just not my cup of tea — that Derek fucking DIED and there was a whole ass memorial service that Stiles just didn’t bother to show up to???? HELLO????

I mean it’s also nearing levels of ‘spn finale Dean Winchester ending’ stupid that Derek died in the first place, given that his whooooole character arc (by my book, anyway) is springing from the place of his trauma, and the way that he has blamed himself, struggled with guilt and loneliness and has been atoning for all of the pain of what he perceives to be personal failures the ENTIRE TIME, never letting himself get too close to people, never asking for help, and instead sacrificing for and nurturing Scott as the ideal alpha that he feels he couldn’t be… I don’t know. It just feels like a needless sacrifice to me, like there are so many ways that you can restrain someone and prevent them from moving from the place where you need to. Oh I don’t know burn them alive ?maybe? Which don’t involve sacrificing yourself and burning alive yourself, right in front of your son and the rest of your loved ones. I know again there are production factors at play, maybe it’s likely that they knew damn well Tyler H wouldn’t or couldn’t come back for another movie so they decided to kill off his character?? but suffice to say I was not happy with that at all (and not in the way I think it was INTENDED to upset me.)

Anyway, I know that Stiles needed to be absent because Dylan O’Brien was not a part of this movie, but if I’m being honest, I kind of would rather that Stiles had died ! Obviously I love Stiles’s character and it’s not that I want him dead at all!! it’s just. if they were going to fully send it, and they know he’s not coming back, and they knew that they were going to make up this premonition dream to break up Stydia and (poorly) explain his absence, then it would’ve done a lot better to make that separation as permanent as in life and death. The Stiles we know would never want to be separated from the people he loves as much as he has been now because of all of the external, real life factors. In fact, the season arc with the ghost riders proved to us just how far Stiles can and would go to be present! It was aaaactually a whole thing ! So, if I’m being honest… (1) the way that he and Lydia parted, (2) the way that he isn’t present or even mentioned in the light of his loved ones dying/being resurrected, and (3) again the fact that he wasn’t even at Derek’s memorial … it all feels like a silent character assassination to me. It feels like the mentioning of “Stiles” in this new canon contains less essence of Stiles than it would’ve if he had died. I know it’s easy to have a hater moment and make criticisms and piss and moan about how I would’ve done it better, and I know it’s not always as easy as it sounds… but JESUS CHRIST

Also congrats to the sterek girlies on your own personal y yo a ti moment……that jeep shit was CRAZY







[classicschronicles]

Hi lovelies,

I feel like I’ve just returned from ‘buying the milk’. I’m sorry I disappeared for *checks notes* 11 months, but it’s been a hectic year. I feel like if I get into it I’ll sound like an AO3 author, so here are some very quick highlights- I have just finished my first year studying Classics at university, I qualified as a fitness instructor (which is a side quest nobody asked for), I’ve become a theatre kid again, and I finally watched Game of Thrones. Studying Classics at uni is basically telling everyone that you study Classics at uni and then getting one of two reactions- “What is that? What kind of job are you going to et with that?”. To which I have no response, because honestly I’m not sure. Or the ever famous- “Oh like The Secret History?”. To which I cry inside because it is nothing like The Secret History. It is actually reading so much Thucydides that he becomes your sleep paralysis demon, and having to translate so much Caesar and Cicero that your daydreams become wishing you were in the Theatre of Pompey on March 15th 44 BC… for no particular reason. And also crying at 3am whilst you try to delude yourself into thinking that this is so dark academia core (spoiler- it’s not). All that being said- this has actually been one of the best years of my life and I am so happy I get to study what I love.

Anyways, I feel like we’re missing the most important part- and that is of course Game of Thrones. Guys. I have a crush on Jaime Lannister. HEAR ME OUT! I can fix him! I promise. I just need one chance. But also, I would fight him because why did he do my girl Brienne like that. Anyone who makes her cry can fight me fr. You know what made me cry though- Shireen Baratheon. What the fuck was that. And Ser Davaos’ finding out and his whole “I loved that girl like she was my own”. BAWLED. Anyways, it might surprise you to know that her death was actually based on a very famous greek myth- the myth of Iphigenia. So that’s what we’re going to talk about today.

Iphigenia’s story finds its beginnings in another myth entirely- the myth of Agamemnon and the Deer. Quick fun fact- the movie ‘Killing of A Sacred Deer’ is actually based loosely on this. The story goes that Agamemnon, out hunting one day, killed a deer belonging to the Goddess Artemis. This angered Artemis, not least because the deer was pregnant and Agamemnon’s little hunting accident killed both the mother and the baby.

Fast forward to some time later, Agamemnon launches a thousand ships to save his sister-in-law Helen from the Trojans at the behest of his brother Menelaus, and also the whole blood oath situation. The Spartans and the Mycenaeans make camp at the island of Aulis whilst they wait for the rest of the fleet to arrive, only to find that when they are ready to set sail once more, they cannot leave the island. There is not wind to push their ships, the air hot and heavy and remarkably still. This goes on for quite some time. Eventually Agamemnon consults the priest Calchas who tells him that the Gods (Artemis) are angry with him and demand a sacrifice. More specifically, the sacrifice of a virgin. This is also where some accounts differ- some claim that it could be any female virgin, some say that it had to be Agamemnon’s eldest daughter. In all honesty, I think the latter is probably more accurate because of the level of hesitation he shows before he makes his final decision. If he could sacrifice any virgin I don’t really think he would care.

Anyways, he obviously cant just write to his wife and say “hey babe can you please ship our eldest daughter over, I want to sacrifice her xoxo”. So he instead he comes out with an altogether more devious plan, and that is to tell his wife that the Prince Achilles wishes to marry Iphigenia before they sail for Troy. Both Iphigenia and Clytemnestra are of course overjoyed that she should marry ‘the best of the Greeks’ and she comes to Aulis where the army wait for her.

This is where it starts to break my heart a bit. On the morning of Iphigenia’s wedding day, Clytemnestra dresses her daughter and prepares her. She, of course, does not know that she is preparing her child for death. Her fathers men come to her tent and escort her and her mother to the alter. However, she never gets to say her vows because as soon as she steps onto the platform, they cut her throat and spill her blood as an offering to Artemis. Her mother is of course beside herself with shock and grief, but her husband does little to comfort her, telling her only that Artemis is appeased, and with the return of the wind he is leaving for Troy.

Euripides’ Iphigenia at Aulis, differs from this account and tells the story that on the morning of her supposed wedding, Iphigenia was aware of her fathers plan to sacrifice her and accepts with stoicism and all the bravery of a child put in an impossible position. He writes the following, heartbreaking, lines:

Iphigenia- “If only I could sing like Orpheus, father! Orpheus, who could charm even the heartless rocks into following him! If I could use such a voice and have everyone charmed, have them convinced to agree with me and follow me, then I would use that voice. But I have no such skill. The only voice I have, father, my only skill, is in my tears and, here, father, I’m giving them to you! I’m giving you my tears! I’m giving you all I have! She leans before him and embraces his knees Here, father, here is the body of a suppliant! Here is the body that your wife has given birth to. I wrap its limbs around your knees and beg you: Please father, do not cut off my life short. Let me enjoy the sweet light of day and do not force me to enter the world beneath the earth. I’m your first one, father! The first one to call you father, the first one you called daughter. Me, father! I was the first to play on your knees, the first one of your children to enjoy your love and the first one to give you a child’s love. Remember, father? You used to ask me, “I wonder, my darling, will I get to see you married one day, married and settled happily in your husband’s home, your life ever blossoming, making me proud of you?” And I’d touch your chin, my father, hang from your beard, father, like I’m doing now and say, “and what about you, father, will I get to see you, father, an old man, visiting me at my house, ready for me to repay you for your hard work in raising me?” No, you don’t remember these words, father. I do but you don’t! You’ve forgotten them and so, now, you want to kill me. Please, father! Please, in the name of Pelops and of Atreus who is your father, I beg you! Please don’t do it! And I beg you also for my mother’s sake, the woman who laboured to bring me to life, the woman who is being tortured even now. I beg you, father! What does my life have to do with the marriage of Paris and Helen father? Why has their marriage brought about my death, father? Agamemnon turns away. She continues despondently. Come, then, father, turn to me and give me a final kiss. A kiss to remember you by in the underworld, since my words have not convinced you. Agamemnon does not move. She goes over to her mother and takes baby Orestes in her arms. She swings him, sadly, gently back and forth and leans over him as she speaks to him What a weak little helper you are, my tiny brother! Won’t you cry with me, Orestes? Come on, won’t you beg your father not to kill your big sister? Come on, Orestes, even babies know when there’s trouble around! Ha! See, father? Orestes is begging you, too! Begging you by his silence. Do you not care about me any more? Spare my young life, father. Spare me! Here! Look here, father! Here are the two of us, one’s a baby, the other a grown up girl, a brother and a sister, both your children, begging you, by your beard, pleading with you… She turns and looks sadly around her, then up at the sun. That! Up there is my final argument. That light, this light all around us, will cut all other arguments to pieces. This light is the sweetest thing that can fill the eyes! The world beneath the earth is a world of nothing. Only fools would pray to go down there. I’d rather live a life full of misery than die a hero’s death!

If that doesn’t make you cry I don’t know what will. And then to top it off he follows it up 200 lines later this this tear jerker:

“C- What report shall I give to your sisters?

I-Do not dress them either in black garments.

C-Is there any word of love from you I should give the girls?

I-Bid them farewell; and make sure you bring up Orestes as a man!

C-You look at him for the last time- hold him tight!

I-(holding Orestes close): Darling boy, you helped you dear sister as much as you could!

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I-Who will come to take me there before they drag me by the hair?

C-I will be at your side…

I-No, not you- that would not be right!

C-…holding on to your clothes!

I-Mother, oblige me in this: stay here! This is the nobler course for me and for you. Let one of my father’s attendants here escort to Artemis’ meadow where I shall be sacrificed.

(Iphigenia begins to move away from a crying Clytemnestra)

C-O my child, are you going?

I-Yes, and never shall I come back.

C-You will leave your mother?

I-Yes, as you see, we do not deserve this.

C-Wait- don’t abandon me!

I-I forbid you to shed tears. (C sinks to the ground)”.

In every version you read, however, sacrificing his daughter is not a choice that Agamemnon takes lightly. He is torn between sacrificing his daughter and angering his wife- but winning glory for the Greeks, or saving his daughter, but abandoning his men. As a father, he made the wrong choice, but as a king some would argue that he did what was expected of him.

I do like, however, in Euripides’ version the character of Achilles. He is adamant that he will not be privy to the murder of Iphigenia. He tries so very hard to save her and to offer comfort to Clytemnestra and genuinely I think that this might be one of the loveliest most favourable depictions of him.

This myth then gives way to part of the Oresteia trilogy and many many retellings of her Iphigenia’s story- every single one of which always make me want to cry. I can’t explain what it is- I know that the whole point of tragedy is that build up and release of emotion but no tragedy has every made me actually sad other than Iphigenia at Aulis.

Anyways, you can imagine my absolute horror when I watched S5 EP9 and saw Shireen tied to the alter, literally gave myself whiplash with how quickly I tried to look away from the screen.

I would say I hope you enjoyed reading about Iphigenia, but if you did you’re an absolute psycho! The two translations I used are from PoetryInTranlsation and Penguin’s 2005 edition “The Bacchae and Other Plays”. Hopefully, now that I’ve posted again I’ll try and be more regular with it and I hope you all have a lovely lovely week <33

~Z

[cheemken]

Y'know what,, have some lil hcs abt Regulus and An-An bc I saw art abt them and y'all don't know how quick I get attached to crack ships and rare pairs

Anyways

•Horror movie marathons w the gfs, do you see my vision when I say Regulus canNOT handle horror movies, girl fucking hates it lmfao

-An-An tho? Loves them, has posters of her fave horror movies in her room that's why Regulus always insists they'd hang out in her own room instead of An-An's

-real tho, An-An purposely picks the movies w jumpscares in it bc she knows Regulus would cling to her when she gets scared. Bonus points she'd end up teasing her how weak she was w horror movies lmfaooo

•joyrides

-pls, Regulus is an absolute speed demon w her lil vespa, it's honestly surprising how fast it could go. An-An is the only one who can really tolerate and handle the fact Regulus has no concept of a speed limit

-but also it's cute bc it's also the same art that got me to ship them here look

-also it'd be fun if Regulus drives her to the haunted sites An-An discovered. She wouldn't join ghost hunting tho, girl would cry fr edit: y'know the more I think abt it, I think An-An wouldn't let her join sometimes bc she knows Regulus would have beef w the ghosts lmfao

•Regulus would ask An-An if she'd still love her if she was a worm, SHE WOULD

-i have this concept that Regulus pulled in Schneider and Sonetto on that, just a lil prank y'know, to see if their partners would say yes or not

-surprisingly enough, only Matilda passed the vibe check lmfaooo

-Vertin walking down the hall after Schneider kicked her out and saw An-An on her knees banging at the door of Regulus' room going "Reggie, baby, I'm sorry! I swear I'll still love you if you were a worm!"

-guess Vertin isn't the only one sleeping on the couch tonight

•attention whore Regulus is so real and dear to me you don't understand, like An-An working on her blog? Hah, best bet Regulus will sit on her lap till she has her full attention

-sometimes just to fuck w her, An-An wouldn't even look at her lmfao, she thinks it's cute when Regulus gets all pouty

•An-An saw Regulus try out her red/green shades* once and she hasn't recovered since, her girl was so cute in her shades holy shit

-she let's Regulus wear it more often

•imagine APPLe giving An-An the shovel talk tho😭

-just this tiny floating apple trying to act tough and serious to a person ten times his size lmfao

-but also him crying bc augh his daughter is growing up and now she has a gf and she's gonna leave the nest soon and he starts bawling

-An-An had to calm him down

•this makes me wanna write abt them now ough,,

[amourcheol]

i have a few things to say and first of all i’d like to say how dare you? genuinely, how dare you? you are absolutely insane

the way i went through an entire rollercoaster of emotions that went from pure despise to shedding actual real salty tears is sickening, i want to yell at you fr

to repeat myself: how dare you? how dare you write such a fic that left me in shambles, on my knees, crying in a walmart parking lot, going through as many divorces as txt did for lovesong, bawling my eyes out, throwing myself against a wall and did i mention i cried?

jesus christ dear god goodness gracious holy mother mary i am NOT okay, it is 5am and i need to work tomorrow (more like getting up in 1 hour to leave for work) and i just could NOT stop reading your cheol work, i HAD to know how it ends, i could physically not handle not knowing how it plays out

first of all id like to say that the way you write is pure poetry, the words and descriptions you use are so rich in detail (like the paintings hehe) and gave your fic so so so soooo much life and depth, your writing style is just so mwah mwah 5 star michelin level, i can not stress enough how incredibly good your writing is

and the plot???? i saw 41k words and was legit like 👁️👄👁️->🫥->🤨-> 🥶 because i have the brain capacity of a fly that just flew against a window at full speed but OH GOD reading it was SO worth it and let me tell you, the plot was so good ???? like never did i ever even think about skipping a paragraph ahead

also, the way you wrote the characters is so good i don’t know if i want to throw something at you or smooch your brain, you really said enemies to lovers and not:

person a: “i don’t like you.”

person b: “fine i hate you too”

person a : “shall we still kiss?”

person b: “okay”

you legit said you’re whipping out a steven spielberg quentin tarantino oscar worthy plot i’d pay for to see in a movie because DAMN the characters (especially cheol lmao) were so well written and had SO much depth to them

next up, the scenes, THE SCENES

i hope you know you took my heart, shredded it, let birds pick it apart, threw it into the smoothie mixer and blended it, cut it with a chainsaw and then made it combust with that scene with cheol and his uncle talking about how he is in love and risking his career

also, the way you gave the nickname so much depth???? how did you even come up with that like??? your brain is built different, i swear if you were to take an x ray it’d be heart shaped because WHAT i SOBBED and i CRIED like actual water in my eyes down my cheeks, that was so cute, so precious and so tooth rotting sweet i want to run into a streetlight i could not handle that part of the plot i am still in shambles i want to sob every time i think back like ?????? (not spoiling anything specific here BUT AH THIS WAS SO KSKSKSKS)

in conclusion, i’d like to throw something at you for attacking the entire fandom like that BUT i would also like to wholeheartedly thank you for putting so much time and effort and thinking and love and brain capacity (yes your heart shaped brain, prove me wrong!) into that fic which is so so long but so full of plot and plot twists and lovely details and in total so lovingly written, your writing style is so nice like ???? the whole fic is a giant piece of art for real, thank you so much for blessing us with this, i wish you all the best and someone like the cheol you wrote to be your special someone, you deserve someone kind and caring and loving and only wanting the best for you because that is what you deserve

also i wrote this in a rush of emotions it is 5am my brain is dead and there might be typos grammar mistakes anything of the sort but i’d like to say i don’t know you but i love you sm for putting this out i hope i gets the appreciation it deserves and mwah i hope you’re having a great day

oh my fucking god this ASK THIS FUCKING ASSKKKK 😭💖💖🩷🩷💖💖😞😞😞💖😭🩷🩷💖 CURRENTLY SCREAMING CRYING INTO MY PILLOW SHITTING MY PANTS GIGGLING EXPERIENCING RESURGENCE OF GIRLHOOD

TXT DIVORCES SCR E AMMMING GGG G what i like to do is HURT BITCHES ☝🏼😍 WAIT SCREAM 5AM ??;£;£: OH MY FOD I HOPE U WERENT TOO SLEEP DEPRIVED RHE NEXT DAY IM SO SORRY 😭😭👹👹👹👹👹

5 star Michelin level 😞😞😞💖💖😞💖💖😞💖💖😞💖 PLEASEEE im so glad u enjoyed the paintings description!! the art whore in me is very very happy 😞😭

A STEVEN SPIELBERG QUENTIN TARANTINO STAWPPPPPP ITTTT STOP THIS IMMEDIATELY I WILL KISS YOU 😞😞😭😭🥹🥹🩷 i was so nervous about pacing their hatred/love because I didn’t want them to just fall in love w each other quickly cause it wouldn’t be realistic at all !! thank u for appreciating that 🥹💖

SCR E WAMINGGGG UR WAY W WORDS ARE MILES BETTER THAN MINE ?;£:!3£33 UR TOO FUNYN LFMAOA I’m glad I had this much of an effect 😍🙏🏼 i will take being thrown shit at for my work LMDAO

HEART SHAPED BRAIN 😞💖💖😞💖 I’m so so happy u enjoyed the nickname bit cause idk nicknames are such an important aspect of ur identity and cheol is such a cute fucking nickname i feel like shitting screaming crying over it whenever I see him so i needed to express that 🙏🏼🙏🏼

OH GOD UR LITERALLY SO INSANELY SWEET??? I could only hope i find a man as insanely kind, beautiful, endearing as cheol (me and him would eat each other alive)

thank YOU for the kindest words, your ESSAYYTT of a review 😞😞😞💖💖💖💖 i honestly wasn’t expecting anything like this when I released cheol fic, but it’s people like you that make posting worth it 🩷🩷💖

[taegularities]

holy shit 20th century girl had me BAWLING. they deserved a happy ending. i was literally devastated the whole day after watching it n those damn edits that pop up on my fyp don’t help at all 💔

not your fyp adding to your pain lolll 😭 no bc WHY DID THEY DO THATTTT !! i was already sobbing at the train station scene and 🥺 also.. i understand how the message might be that life changes, and it does so quickly and drastically but — and this might be an unpopular opinion — i would've preferred a happy ending bc this one seemed very abrupt 🥺 but it was such a gorgeous movie nevertheless like fr im a sucker for those y2k things </3

[journalofsorts2]

i think that the biggest compliment i can ever give to a piece of work is crying over it. im a very emotional person. i cry easily over all the things that go wrong in my life. but when it comes to consuming media, whether it be tv shows, movies, books, art, etc. i find it very hard to cry over what's happening. maybe it's cause im autistic or something but i just can't do it. i'll feel empathy towards the character and i'll feel genuinely sad, but i've never been one to get worked up about a scene. which is why i did not expect myself to cry over the fucking vampire tophabe fic. you know the one. Abraham Lincoln: Vampire Confidant on ao3. i cried. i cried hard. and maybe it's just cause it's 1:30 am and i had a long day today (first day back at school) but jesus christ that fic dug deep. it's just topher is so me y'know? societal outcast who fucks up every good relationship he's ever had? me fr. and when him and abe weren't talking cause of the fight i fucking felt that. i know exactly how topher felt in that moment. and when he met back up with abe eventually and it turns out abe thought topher hated him and not that he hated topher? i started bawling. all i want is to go rebuild all those bridges i burnt just to find out they still loved me. i want so badly to go back to all those friendships i royally fucked up only to find that they felt the same and we were both still thinking of each other. god i want that so badly. idk man im on the verge of tears again. i gotta go to sleep i got school tomorrow 😭

[sapphicobsessions]

Do you mind if I ask your top 10 favorite characters (can be male or female) from all of the media that you loved (can be anime/manga, books, movies or tv series)? And why do you love them? Sorry if you've answered this question before.....Thanks....

Hi thanks for asking!

Actually I've never thought about this myself lmao, i consume a lot of media and it's very hard to choose top 10 bcs I have a LOTS of favourites but I'll try to choose hehe

10) Skylar from lost in the cloud

I think the main reason I like him so much is bcs he literally is my gender envy and I wanna look like him so bad 🏃

9) odasaku from BSD

I literally have no idea why I love this guy so much but he had a chokehold on me and i fr cried over him for two weeks 💀

8) ga eul from viral hit

The amount of happiness i get when she is on the screen >>> (it's been a while since I read viral hit tho)

7) denji from chainsaw man

I love him so much he deserves so much more 💔💔💔

6) power

my babygirl my true happiness

5) hashida from Blue Period

His arc had me bawling my eyes 💀 he's so gender bro

4) jongwoo from strangers from hell

I love what he became in the final episode

3) yatora from Blue Period

I see myself in him and i truly love his character development <33

2) Emma from TPN

my comfort character <3 the warmth she radiates>>>

1) dazai from BSD

my babygirl. I can't say anything more.

(and before y'all come to attack me for liking this mf, i haven't read BSD in a while and where I had left he was still an alright person)

im not exactly sure of this list lol i might have forgotten my other favourites 💔💔 but yeah these are some of the characters that i like

And I'm extremely sorry for answering this so late I had actually logged out and forgotten the password 💀💀💀

[nifflermini]

my thoughts on the Haikyuu Movie (Spoiler Free)

Omfg was this WORTH THE HYPE.

i actually cried my eyes out at baby kuroo and kenma, they were so cute!!!!

I literally started ugly crying at the theater this was so good.

I cannot describe how worth it this was because this has been built up since the first season, and it was so so so worth it!

Plus so many things happened that made me feel so happy because I remember watching it, and seeing everything come to fruition was the thing that had me bawling.

Summary: It was good, you should go watch it, fr

[mortallynervousgardener]

"See Me" by Tella Alvarez

First things first people, I wanna come out and say that this book.... ain't even a paperback. Nor is it officially published. This book and writer hail straight from Wattpad, you know... where stories live.

And MAN! Let me tell you, I haven't read book this good in ages. If anyone decides to check them out I wanna give fair warning, the book does contain very mature themes like: alcoholism, r*pe, SA, depression, su*c*de, THE WHOLE NINE.

I heavily relate to the main character.... maybe that's why I like it so much? But I don't think so, considering I'm practically in love with all her other stories as well.

There's just something so SOMETHING about this book that after I read it, I was constantly trying to find others like it to fill the void of emptiness I felt after I had finished reading it.

Having said that, let's jump head first into the review. :)

CAUTION!!!! SPOILERS!!!

One thing that I love about "See Me" is that the characters are so well developed, its easy to envision them. Like the main character, Serene for example. Her thoughts, actions, and words they're all so vivid and well articulated, it's like playing a movie with words in my brain fr.

The build up is amazing, the way that Tella describes the struggles of a SA victim is honestly captivating. All my needs (refer to bullet points to see my needs) are very much fulfilled in this book alone.

my needs being:

minimal spice

relating to the character

having my heart broken

being brought to the brink of bawling my eyes out

bawling my eyes out

feeling relief after a happy ending

The book takes place in high school so, I believe most of the characters are 17-18.

Anyway let's talk about Serene.

Serene is as beautiful as they come. The girl that every boy wants to f*ck, date, whatever you can think of.. they want. The girl that every other girl envies, compares themself to, and wishes so desperately to be in her shoes for even a day. And because of her beauty and her body, she is HEAVILY s*xualized among a majority of her friend group, scrutinized by the girls she's called her friends, and pined after by boys she couldn't care less about. She's constantly disassociating herself from the things happening around her because of how much she's constantly struggling with because she's seen as just her body. She feels empty and turns to drugs and alcohol to fill the void of emptiness and loneliness. After one nightmare of a night, she just can't help but fall further into the darkness that all but consumed her as it was.

Now, let's talk about Zane, Serene's main love interest.

Zane is the new boy....ish. He's been in the friend group for about a year but, he's the mysterious one, the quiet guy of them all. He's definitely the only one Serene DOESN'T have problems out of. And that's saying something considering there's like roughly 7 of them altogether. He's the one who worries most about Serene because of the behavior she's exhibiting. And it worries him more because he's got past trauma with a situation almost similar to hers. He helps Serene, taking it day by day and doing all that he can to be a shoulder for her to lean on. He's real cute guys, ok? On this blog, we love Zane.

AND FINALLY, the review. Which I know, I've talked so much you're probably like "Uhm... Myth... WHERE'S THE REVIEW AT?!?!" Look its right here, calm down.

I love the book, if I haven't said so already. This book is the kind of book that has aspects that you'll definitely try to search for in other books. It'll have you on the edge of your seat, not with anticipation, but with fear, with lust. Not even the s*xual kind, but the kind that makes you crave more, the kind that has you wrapped entirely around its nonexistent finger.....which now that I think about it, it does sound a little s*xual. It'll definitely break your heart. It leaves NOTHING to the imagination because everything is laid out for you on a silver platter.

The only thing I could possibly want to EVER change about this book, is the fact that it isn't in my hands in a physical copy already.

Overall, I am utterly in love with this book. So much so that I finished all in one night. I will be giving it an astonishing 10/10 <3 Everyone, a round of applause for Tella, if you please.

[notebook-of-elle]

TOP GUN SPOILERS

just a post to appreciate the thoughtfulness that went into making the moments before the mission seem for sure like they would be mav's last time flying, like he was for sure dying for these (not really) kid's. and then actually freaking have him tAKE A HIT for rooster. and throw a "i didn't see a parachute". fuck you. and then have to watch HIM take a hit for mav and the seconds (hOuRs?) for us to see the parachute. it's rare to make me cry like that, ofc im a baby and i cry whenever they cry or it's a sad scene. but this movie. omg. i was crying every five minutes even the second time watching it. any scene that had any hint of the characters being hurt, any scene that was stressful and im just thankful my row was empty both times i went because i was bawling by end because of the HAPPY SCENES AS WELL. are you kidding. what? am i supposed not to cry when rooster says "cmon maverick do some of that pilot shit" like shut up fr he sounded like goose sm. and hangster staring into each other's eyes at the end, dead. and mav and rooster HUGGING TWICE. my man this movie has wrecked me for any other.

[berryunho]

hiii I love love The Answer 😭 it’s so fun to read I literally cannot wait to see what happens next. I was wondering, what inspired you to write this story? was there any specific stories/cults that you’ve heard of that you took inspiration from? I love thriller stories so muchdkfk so I’m just so happy to have found your blog!! also do you usually read thriller or do you prefer reading other genres? tysm for sharing your work you’re so talented!!!❤️❤️❤️

omg hi!! first of all thank you so much for reading hehe i'm really glad to hear that you're enjoying it!! and aaaaaaa thank you for the questions omg this might get kinda long (edit from future lauren: yeah it did so im adding a read more lol) but im excited hehe

sooo to answer the first question of what inspired me hehe it was definitely a mix of a few things!! biggest inspiration was me reading mists of celeste and being like "what the fuck. can i do that?" bc ... im sure you've all read it and yk what i mean LMAO its just so good and i wanted to know if i could write something as impactful hehe i had already been a writer but i had never shared my writing or tried to write a longfic so it was a big challenge to start and im so happy i did!!

and soooo after i decided i wanted to write my own fic i figured some things out like i definitely wanted to do an au and i pretty quickly decided that i wanted hongjoong to be an antagonist so i started pondering what situations make Bad People into People Of Power and ... the cult idea plopped nicely into my brain and then everything started falling into place after that hehehe

and YES there are specific cults ALKJFKDJFDK the way im majorly freaking out getting to talk about this thank you again for asking omg anyways. scientologists (so sorry if any of you are scientologists but fr...) heaven's gate. branch davidians (mullet hj is canon in the answer for 1 reason and 1 reason only. david koresh’s mullet.) and like ofc the manson family and the people’s temple (though more so just jim jones himself idk that whole 900 people thing… not intimate enough for the vibe i was going for) and honestly the characterization of hongjoong is derivative of a few irl people too LKFJSDFKLJSD like im not gonna name names bc then yall would be like “oh god …” and judge yourselves so ill save you the torment lol but you could Probably Guess

and yes!! i definitely mostly read thriller/horror novels hehe but i also really love fantasy & sci-fi & lately historical fiction ?? and my favorite book ever is none of those genres hehe i would love any and all recommendations for any of these genres!! i know you didn’t ask this one but im gonna give some book recs anyhow hehehe so my Favorite Book Ever — the secret history by donna tartt … literally in love w this book. the amount of times ive pondered an au…… shhhh my Second Favorite Book Ever — the long walk by stephen king. idk what to say other than literary masterpiece. (its actually super weird but the characters … ugh chefs kiss) the Scariest Book Ive Ever Read — gerald’s game by stephen king. there were just moments of tension that were so perfectly written that it was almost unbearable like wtf not to be that person but like fr i dont get scared by books or movies or documentaries or anything but … yeah this was something an Interesting Series — the southern reach trilogy by jeff vandermeer !! crazy world building very intriguing books a Fantasy Novel — the priory of the orange tree by samantha shannon … yes i know booktok book but it was really good okay a Historical Fiction — circe by madeline miller !!!! bawled but it was really good !!! annnnd a Sci-Fi — project hail mary by andy weir ... glakdjfkasj me feeling emotions over a rock alien ... anyways

… SO YEAH AKDJFASDKFJ; THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING THE ANSWER AND FOR ASKING ME QUESTIONS AAAA i hope i provided some good commentary lol idk hehehe tysm ily <3

[cheerfullycatholic]

Can you please give me some good book recommendations?

What kind of books are you looking for, exactly? I could give you loads of fictional book recommendations, but that would be silly of me to do if you're looking for books about Catholicism specifically.

I'll just give you a few of each! However I apologize for not explaining the plot of each of them. I'm terrible at explaining things, and due to past experiences, I've found it best to just leave figuring out what the book is about up to the person I'm talking to.

For fictional books, I really liked The Infernal Devices trilogy by Cassandra Clare. By "really liked" I mean I bawled my eyes out into my dog's fur when I finished the last book and got a five dollar fine at the library because I refused to return it (eventually my sister had to return it in secret). However I don't know what kind of story you're looking for so, results may vary.

The Darkest Minds by Alexandra Bracken was very good, as well, and the movie was probably the best book to movie adaptation I've ever seen, with only minor details missing or changed.

A Thousand Pieces of You by Claudia Grey is very different than the other two I mentioned, but still great.

I have to apologize again, actually. I lost all motivation to read a few years ago (saddest thing in the world, I know) and read those three when I was around fifteen or so, and haven't read them since. Some may not like that they're young adult books. If you're looking for adult fiction books, I can't help you. Well actually, my sister really liked (what I think is technically an adult book?) Red Rising by Pierce Brown (gorgeous man, great writer, you should watch his interview with Tasha Polis on youtube, I ship them). I haven't read that one myself yet, but I trust my sister.

Now, as for Catholic books, I started reading Saint Faustina's diary and really like it. It feels like an invasion of personal space sometimes 😅 but she's such a beautiful person and her faith is very inspiring.

I also have (but haven't read into it very much yet) See How She Loves Us by Joan Carroll Cruz, it talks about 50 approved apparitions of Our Lady.

This one is fictional, unlike the other two, but heavily involves Catholicism and I've followed the guy who wrote it on Instagram since before he published it and feel the need to recommend it all the time, and that is Stork: Sowing Season by Brian Patrick Edwards. It's his first book so don't expect it to be a masterpiece if you read it, but the story and characters are fantastic (Cole is my favorite). This one I think could be considered adult fiction, now that I think about it.

Hold My Beer by Fr. Mark Goring is super short, but worth it. Oh, this one is fictional, too.

AH I HOPE I'VE DONE WELL. IF YOU READ ANY OF THEM, I HOPE YOU ENJOY THEM AS MUCH AS ME and if you have recommendations for me I would gladly take them, I only care that they don't depict animal or child abuse, unless it's very brief and the plot is so good that it makes up for it

[yukiette]

🌸 ʏᴀꜱꜱ ꜰɪɴᴀʟʟʏ ɪᴛꜱ ᴏᴜᴛ ʜᴜʜᴜʜᴜʜ 🌸

Thoughts on movie below! ✨️⚠️Beware Spoilers⚠️

Okay so based on the trailer, I knew it's going to be about these new characters life and such.

But fr thouuuuuuuu, wish the original casts could appear more..

At least theres silhouette scenarios that's voiced by the original cast VA's huhu..

The one that piqued my interest and made me feel rather emotional at the same time is when that father and his childrens silhouettes (Doremi's father, Doremi and Pop.) were arguing and how her and her sister told him that they won't never ever forget their father and silly for even thinking such things.

And also that moment where Reika meet her father...

I just can't help but to cry hard over that, How her father looked painful of not wanting to ruin his new family in his old age..

How her voice just cracks when she decides to keep quiet and told them that she's mistaken

How she told Mire that the painting her father drew seemed has lost its colour in her eyes to the point she wanted to become art restorer

..Which actually the reason to that was because its all left she could cling for is just.. Hits way too hard.

One of my favourite scenes is when that boy who had learning disability showed his drawing to Sora.

How Sora reacts to that picture really feels like how teacher does in real life, too.

Teachers do always find opportunities to help the childrens to look it in a less complicated way.

How he frowned when Sora does that is also how would childrens react too.

For a second I had a fear of this turning like I fear it to be but I'm glad that the teacher became his motivation instead.

I really do hope that such childrens in real life have such admirable teachers too since they're the ones who takes parent role in school.

..Suddenly this turning to serious talk dang.. Well, I admire how Ojamajo Doremi tackles all kind of problems in life despite being labeled as a kid's show.

When I watched it back then as a kid I did have quite problems they shows in the anime, and well.. I'm glad because childrens can go through things too although they're still young.

So, well, I felt like I was understood through that anime.

Though, since it's really sensitive problem I just can't bring myself to watch it much, I haven't been rewatching Ojamajo Doremi these past years but even to this day I could still remember the details, their pained expressions, mental breakdowns that they suffers.

..Okay seriously, why did I talk about this again?!?!?! Aughhhhe </3 sowweh

Anyways, it's great that they rearranged the theme songs.

Really love how I could sing along and part of the song are made to be silent for us to respond to them. ♥️

And well.. The ending song has a great rearrangement (esp the instrumental.) but it hits way too hard sobs, they're trying to make us bawl at this point brahhhhh ߹ᯅ߹

Anyways, this movie does make us realise we've grown a lot compared to back then, guess we're old now.. rip lol..

Coming from stranger but hope y'all have a best day ever and be healthy, happy always with your loved ones too. ♥️

[bonnieandstars]

Today's fact is about Alan Turing OBE FRS (!!) Alan Turing was an English cryptanalyst, mathematician, logician, philosopher and also a theoretical biologist! Not only that, he cracked the Enigma during the Second World War in Bletchley Park , a secret headquarter for code workers. Today, I am going to tell you some facts that are much lesser known.

1. He was what nowadays people would call 'a weirdo' (I wouldn't dare to call him one, he's downright a genius) : He apparently wore a gas mask when he used to bike to prevent the allergies. he was also said to have a faulty chain in his bike but instead of fixing it he immediately dismounted off the bike before the chain slipped off. he also chained his mug to a radiator so that it wasn't taken by others.

Turing started running as a schoolboy and continued throughout his life, regularly running the 31 miles between Cambridge and Ely while he was a fellow at King’s College. During World War II, he occasionally ran the 40 miles between London and Bletchley Park for meetings. He almost became an Olympic athlete, too. He came in fifth place at a qualifying marathon for the 1948 Olympics with a 2-hour, 46-minute finish (11 minutes slower than the 1948 Olympic marathon winner). However, a leg injury held back his athletic ambitions that year. Afterward, he continued running for the Walton Athletic Club, though, and served as its vice president. ”I have such a stressful job that the only way I can get it out of my mind is by running hard,” he once told the club’s secretary. “It's the only way I can get some release."

Turing was a homosexual and for that he was prosecuted. The judge gave him two choices, either he would spend 2 years in jail or he would undergo hormonal treatment to "cure" his homosexuality.

In 2009, Prime Minister Brown issued a public apology to Turing .“Alan and the many thousands of other gay men who were convicted as he was convicted under homophobic laws were treated terribly," he said. "This recognition of Alan's status as one of Britain's most famous victims of homophobia is another step towards equality and long overdue." Acknowledging Britain’s debt to Turing for his vital contributions to the war effort, he announced, “on behalf of the British government, and all those who live freely thanks to Alan's work I am very proud to say: we're sorry, you deserved so much better."

In 2013, he received a rare royal pardon from the Queen of England.

Turing was only one of the many men who suffered after being prosecuted for their homosexuality under 19th-century British indecency laws. Homosexuality was decriminalized in the UK in 1967, but the previous convictions were never overturned. Turing’s Law, which went into effect in 2017, posthumously pardoned men who had been convicted for having consensual gay sex before the repeal. One of the activists who campaigned for the mass pardons, around 15,000 of the 65,000 gay men convicted under the outdated law are still alive.

He created the first computer chess ! Now, I wish I knew how it worked but you see I'm not that smart yet. He created an early algorithm with pencil and paper called the Turochamp. The Turochamp was designed to think two moves ahead and choose the best one.

There is an Alan Turing Monopoly! In 2012 Monopoly published an Alan Turing themed edition, but instead of hotels and clubs there are huts and blocks closely resembling Bletchley Park. The design was based on a hand drawn board in 1950 created by William Newman. So apparently only a few copies of this are still available.

A movie about Alan Turing was released in 2014 portrayed by Benedict Cumberbatch. The movie has received eight nominations at the 87th Academy Awards, winning for Best Adapted Screenplay, five nominations in the 72nd Golden Globe Awards, and three nominations at the 21st Screen Actors Guild Awards. It also received nine BAFTA nominations and won the People's Choice Award at the 39th Toronto International Film Festival. Massive yes !

It is lowkey sad that I learnt computer science ever since was 9yrs old to 14yrs and never even once did I hear his name. It was way later after watching the movie i came to know about him. He should be given the appreciation he deserves for saving the world by reducing the war by 2 years. Kiera Knightley who plays Joan (Turing's ex fiance and co worker) says that she saw a city that wouldn't have existed if Turing never broke the Enigma and bought train tickets from a man who would likely be dead and trust me I bawled at the words. They hit hard.

So here's to Alan Mathison Turing OBE FRS (23rd June 1912 - 7th June 1954) we owe you an apology for never giving you an opportunity to enjoy life as you wanted to, to snatch the happiness you wanted to experience. Here's to you Sir, you're the greatest man of all and history will remember your name.

[yamithediaperdork]

Jace’s Mall adventures part one: Let’s all go to the lobby! (Mortal instruments)

Following the fathers day show in the park, Jace had mostly accepted his life as a 24/7 big toddler, and while he still could feel SOME shame, he'd learned to mostly accept it. True it wasn't as easy when Simon and Alec had started dating, double so when the the hunter and vampire would make out in front of Jace since the big baby had been told part of the price of being a 24/7 big baby was a lost of any adult privileges, which included 'making stickies.' Still there was other things he could direct that pent up energy into and 5 weeks after the show at the park Jace was all excited to be going to the premier of the new paw patrol movie, having become a HUGE fan of the show. Not only was he getting to go and watch the movie, live at the cinema, But his daddies had let him have big kid cereal, a bowl of frosted flakes! Having big kid sugar fr the first time in so long Jace was semi giddy to begin with, and unknown to both of of his daddies, he had begged and whined till Alec put in a scoop of sugar, and then like wise to Simon. Practically vibrating in his seat as he slurped down the sugar filled milk, getting it all over his bib, he listened to his daddies have a fight. "Come on, your the one who told him he could go. you need to handle this. you KNOW I can barely stand the show!" Alec was saying. "Look, I HAVE to go to this meeting, or the little peace talks I've been working on, for YOU guys I might add, is gonna fall though." Simon growled. "Damn itttt..You owe me big time for thing." Alec grumbled. "I know I know, I'll do that thing with the cowboy boots you like so much." Simon chuckled. Jace giggled quietly at that but having a heads, up, put on his best pouty face, sure he could totally score more treats out of this if he played his hand right. "Buddy we have some bad news.." Simon started and Jace let the tears flow out.

20 minutes later, Jace was dressed and in his car seat, with the remains of 10 cookies smudged on his face and hands and clapping as he bounced up and down. He was wearing of course his normal triple thick diapers since he just peed too much for a single diaper to hold up for long, but over that he had on a white diaper shirt that had a dog bone theme going on and over top of that a pair of blue denim short-alls on with a picture of chase on the front pocket. He had on a pair of white socks and paw patrol themed light up sneakers and he was now kicking them as the sugar was getting to him. "Eee eee eee! Gonna see paw patrol! Paw patrol paw patrol! Gonna see paw patrol all with daddyyy!" He sang, badly. behind the wheel and already with a building head ache, Alec was dressed in black jeans and a black top, and already wondering if Simon being his cowboy stud tonight was worth the headache he was going to have. "Jace buddy, can we lower the volume? Daddy's getting a headache." Alec tried. "Oh no! I'll kiss your head bigger then daddy! Pull over and I'll give you a kissy! Kissy's make it all better like when I got a boo boo on my knee!" Jace said, reaching forward now and trying to grab onto Alec. "Buddy we're almost there and I'll pull ov-" "NOW! Now now now now now now!" Jace said and then started to kick Alec's seat. "JACE SHUT UP RIGHT NOW AND STOP, OR I SWEAR TO GOD I WILL DRIVE US OFF A CLIFF!" Alec exploded, then looking into the rear view mirror saw the look on jace's face and regretted his words instantly. "Buddy Daddies sorry he didn't me-" he started to say, but got cut off. "...-sniff- WAHHHHHHHHHH! DADDY DOESN'T LOVE MEEEE!" Jace started to bawl. "This is going to be a long, Fucking, Day." Alec whined, pulling over and putting his head on the steering wheel, then getting out to come to the back seat and console the big baby.

After cleaning himself and Jace off of the chocolate and -ugh- booger and tears, they made it to the cinema with only a few minutes to spare. It had taken promising Jace to let him have a big gulp soda to get the water works to finally stop, and with how sudden they did Alec couldn't help but wonder if he'd been played. As they stood in line to get the drinks and snacks (the tickets had been purchased already thankfully) Jace suddenly got excited and started to wave to a group of boys and if it hadn't of been for the iron gripe Alec had on the babies other hand he would of gone running over. "HI KEITH! KEVIN! IT'S JACE! YOU KNOW? FROM THE PARK!" Jace hollered, trying to get their attention. "Jeez Jace, was that loud enough? I don't think they heard you in china." Alec muttered, and turned to see four boys coming over. "Oh hey! it's the big little guy." Kevin said smirking. "Wheres your daddy?" Keith asked. "Huh? Right here!" Jace said and then Glomped on Alec's arm, before a dawning look came on his face. "OH! yeah! Other daddy! This daddy is dating my main daddy and he's trying to be super duper cool. It's a struggle for him, cuz you know, he doesn't even like paw patrol." Jace said, leaning in and using a mock whisper for the second part. "..I'm Alec, you must be the kids who were spoon feeding Jace." Alec said, rolling his eyes. "heh. Nice to meet you. I'm Kevin, this is Keith, and those are Alex and Jacob." The one with a brunette crew cut said. "Oh! your little guys!" Jace squealed and giggled, and the twin's were instantly blushing and squirming. Did you get them in diapies yet?" Jace asked, looking at the twins tight pants. "N-No!" The twins both huffed and whined, insulted by Jace just blurting stuff like that out in public, but to baby Jace and alec, it looked like they were annoyed to be still in big boy undies. "Now now, don't be cross with Jace..he's just a baby." Keith scolded the blonds, shaking a finger at them. "So what movie are you guys coming to see? I bet it's paw patrol isn't it? Oh! we could all sit together!" Jace started babbling away. Hearing that Alec got his hopes up for a minute, and was about to ask if the kids wanted to make some money babysitting Jace throughout the movie, only to have his hopes dashed as Keith answered. "Nah, don't get me wrong, paw patrol is SO awesome." Keith was saying, smirking and clearly just saying what Jace wanted to hear. "But these two wanna watch the new My little pony movie so-" "NUH-UH!" Jacob cut in. "We're watching the new Rock movie!" Alex added. "They're only saying that to save face." Kevin said and winked. "Ohhhh..hehehe well of course. cuz my little pony is sooo dumb." Jace said and winked back. As the Twin's fumed Jace said bye bye and him and Alec got their drinks and popcorn and headed for their movie.

Ten minutes into the movie and Alec was wishing he'd snuck a flask in, somehow Jace turned out to be the quietest kid in the room. Not only, that, the most popular and fights had broken out among the real toddlers over who was gonna get to sit next to the big kid who had SUCH a awesome possum outfit. Stuck in a sea of 2-5 year olds and with many of them apparently unashamed to pass gas at a moments notice, Alec was sure he was gonna have to have his nose removed before the halfway point. Jace, who was torn between watching the movie and basking in his newfound popularity decided to put them all to shame but getting up on his seat and letting out a fart to end all farts, taking advantage of Alec having a hand over his face. His legs were a little wobbly from starting to come down off of his sugar rush and as Alec turned and looked, one of three things happened. 1) Jace started to slip and tried to balance himself but planting his butt on something stable, which turned out to be Alec's face. 2) The fear of the fall and all the junk food, made Jace let out more then just a fart, and he filled is \diapers as his butt was again, planted in Alec's fact. 3) trying to get the stink bomb out of his face, Alec pushed Jace which while the little guy recovered without falling, came at the cost of his big gulp he'd been holding, and ended up dumping it on Alec. Needless to say they didn't finish the movie and Alec swore he was never ever taking Jace to the movies again, and promised Jace he was going to regret ALL of this the next day. Jace, wisely stayed quiet on the drive home, where upon coming in they were greeted with the smell of weed, and the sight of Simon on the couch smoking a fatty, having lied about the peace talk meeting being today and had just wanted some alone time. Jace wasn't the only one to end up in a corner with a red ass.