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crink be upon ye! anyway so like basically right I thought of this funny idea- which led to another funny idea which led to this comic! what can I say I like a little bit of slowburn skeleton yaoi
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hiii i'm a new follower and i love your writing so much
ik u said no requests in ur bio but i just finished reading ur sanji fic.. so even if ur still not taking requests i'd just like to throw in an idea that u may or may not feel like using in the future, up to you (i'm requesting this with opla sanji in mind but if u wanna use it for zoro that's cool too)
k so imagine reader being invited to a friend's wedding, & being excited to go until they find out their ex is coming too (with their partner of some amt of yrs). so now reader is pressured to bring someone w/ them & ends up asking their best friend sanji bc they don't want others thinking they're still hung up on the past.
wedding dress
opla!sanji; 6,544 words, pining with a happy ending, fluff and a tad of angst, flirting, lovesick!sanji, whipped!!!!sanji, no "y/n", zeff is a whole mood, confessions, sanji-appropriate nickname usage, modern!au?
summary: you invite sanji to be your plus 1 at a wedding
a/n: im so sorry this took so long. but. better late than? never? also, there is a tiny bit of rehashing for ep 6 of the live action for sanji and zeff's relationship so... spoilers?
Itâs a chilly, overcast kind of day when the call comes in. And in retrospect, Sanji thinks he shouldâve known better when heâd seen your name on the caller ID. Heâd hesitated, because by god if it wasnât his New Year's Resolution to get the hell over you this year, but itâs almost December again and he still canât help the way his heart races at the sound of your voice.
âHey sweetheart â long time no talk!â he answers after a brief moment of contemplating his entire life, dusting his flour-covered hands on his apron.
âHey! Sorry for calling so⊠out of the blueâŠâ your voice is still as sweet as ever, and the way his stomach twists at the tinkle of your nervous laughter makes him want to kick himself. Still, he forces himself to stay calm, clearing his throat as he checks the oven â itâs almost done pre-heating.
âNow you know what I said about actinâ a stranger â just because you moved halfway across the entire world doesnât mean we ainât best friends anymore, right?â
Itâs what youâd said when heâd been standing at the airport, three seconds from dropping to his knees and begging you not to go. But he hadnât, because he knew how hard youâd worked for this â for this opportunity abroad, to study art in the birthplace of the Renaissance itself, in the heart of Italy.
âAnd⊠you might be able to come visit me, right?â youâd said, rocking on the balls of your feet, your eyes full of what Sanji could only call false hope â which is always, always the worst and most painful kind.
Sanji had swallowed and nodded and said something or other about Europe and fine dining, but thereâs a terrible, prickling heat eating up the back of his neck and a voice thatâs screaming at him to pull you to him and kiss you. He doesnât. And he regrets it to this day.
âAh â right⊠Iâm actually calling because⊠Iâll be in the area in about a week andâŠâ
Your voice pulls him out of his reverie and he clears his throat, hitches a smile to his face that he knows you canât see but heâs sure you can hear.
âOh! Thatâs great, darling! Youâve gotta come for a drink, Iâll whip up all your favorites â we can make a night ââ
âItâs actually for a wedding.â
There are a few moments in everyoneâs lives when they learn the true meaning of a thing for the very first time â elation, pride, stomach-twisting guilt, and⊠fear. True fear, the kind of fear that shakes the muscle from your bones and sends them tingling, threatens to overwhelm you with numbness. Fear, that pushes adrenaline through you like a drug, forces the world into a terrifying, all-consuming focus.
Sanji feels the fear coursing through him, wild and contentious at your words.
A wedding.
Your wedding? Perhaps?
He canât bear to think of it; heâs so terrified he can barely breathe.
Then comes the moment after, the wave of everything else that the fear had washed away â confusion, anger, guilt (always guilt, for some reason), because isnât he supposed to be happy for you? For you, the person he loves most in this entire world, to find love, to know happiness. He should. He should.
âOh.â
Sanji sags back against the hard, metal counter. Almost mindlessly, he reaches into his pockets with shaking hands, digging around for a smoke.
Your breath is soft in his ear, too far across the phone line and a thousand miles of ocean.
âI originally wasnât even planning on going â sheâs not a very close friend â we had like one class together but ââ
And within the span of a minute, Sanji also learns relief. The kind that melts the world around you into sizzling butter and champagne bubbles. The kind that makes you want to lie down on the ground and scream.
ââ it was so close to your restaurant so I said yes but I didnât know he was gonna be there and ââ
Youâre still talking, rambling like you do. And it takes nearly everything inside Sanji to pull himself back to the conversation.
âSorry, love, who did you say was gonna be there?â
âMy ex â you know the one ââ
Sanji grimaces, flicking on his lighter with still-shaking fingers.
âMm, yeah I do. The tall, dark-haired bastard who ââ
âYeah well â heâs gonna be there too and I just ââ he hears you swallow hard and take a long, steadying breath. An unnameable something is calcifying in the depths of his stomach as he waits for you to collect yourself.
Curiosity? Why had you called like this, so suddenly, about a wedding where your ex was going to be? Concern? Were you thinking of going back to him?
But slowly, as you stutter through your next few words, the unnameable thing obtains a name â dread.
ââ I just donât think I could do it myself, yâknow? And â and you were the one who got me out of it wh-when I decided to break it off with him soâŠâ
Sanji takes a long drag of his cigarette and casts his eyes up at the high, white-slabbed ceiling of the kitchen, scored with long strips of bright, fluorescent lighting that floods the entire room in a direct, unforgiving glow.
He closes his eyes and counts to three.
âCourse Iâll come with you, darlinâ. It ââ he wets his lips, taps off a bit of ash from his cigarette, and sucks in through his nose, clearing his throat of the words still lodged there, ââ itâd be my honor.â
Relief â he hears it in your voice, and by gods he can almost see it â the way your whole face would light up, washed as if by the setting sun, your eyes wide and dark, your cheeks flushing his favorite fucking shade of pink and â
âThank you, thank you, thank you! I really owe you for this one ââ
Sanji makes a valiant effort at a nonchalant chuckle; it comes out sounding like a dog with a bit of bone stuck in its throat instead.
âNonsense â what are best friends for, anyway?â
Thereâs a tiny pause where Sanji can feel the words best friend scraping along the insides of his mouth, barbed and harsh, leaving his tongue feeling raw and metallic.
âYou really are the best friend anyone could ask for,â your voice is soft and honest and Sanji wants nothing more than to chuck his phone into the industrial blender.
You tell him that youâll send him the details, that you canât wait to see him soon, that youâve got a world and a half of catching up to do, that youâll buy him so, so many drinks, and that youâll come bearing presents. He laughs at the right times, makes soft noises of consent and agreement, and when finally, finally you tell him goodbye, he clicks off the phone and takes another long drag of his smoke.
And then, he whips his hand back and throws the cigarette butt into the large sink, where it tinks against the metal and sizzles sadly in the murky dishwater.
âReal sucker for punishment, arenâtcha, lilâ eggplant?â
Sanji groans, turning around to find Zeff with his arms folded, the hip to his bad leg propped against a counter.
âWill you fuck kindly off â canât you see Iâm going through a thing here?â
Zeff snorts, clunking unevenly towards him.
âYou been going through that thing for the last year and a half since you chickened outta askinâ her to stay so ââ
âI didnât chicken out â I â it was her dream to go to Florence and study ââ
âAnd what was your dream then, ey?â
Sanji bangs his palm against the counter and sighs, âItâs not like I could leave you here with ââ
âWith what? A thriving restaurant business that I started? A guest list out the door and round the corner ââ
âI â I helped!â
Zeff rolls his eyes, âAh sure ya did, but I never asked you to, did I?â
Sanji huffs, pressing his tongue to the roof of his mouth to stop the torrent of horrible, sad, acrid things he could say and could never mean, so he swallows them back down. When he looks up next, Zeff is still standing there, but thereâs a softness around his eyes.
He opens his mouth a few times, but eventually, all he says is, âThe ovenâs over heatinâ.â
Sanji swears and jumps up to tug open the oven door. A wave of hot air whooshes out and nearly catches him in the face. Behind him, he can hear Zeffâs dark, gravelly chuckle, and the dull clunk of his wooden leg.
âYou burn the kitchen down, you pay for it.â
And then heâs gone again, leaving the door swinging behind him, and Sanji very much alone with the too-hot oven and a counter full of things he canât really remember the recipes for anymore.
Nearly a week later, Sanji finds himself standing at the airport, rocking on the balls of his feet, nearly in the exact same place as heâd been a year and a half prior. Except this time, youâre not walking away from him. Youâre walking back towards him. He wonders if thereâs a name for deja-vu in reverse and comes to the realization that thatâs just called⊠a memory.
And memory seems to work in strange ways now, images superimposing themselves on top of one another â the flicker of a film lens, the bat of an eyelash, the shadow of a smile crimping the corner of your lips. All of this, he sees in the here and now, but he sees it in the air around you too, shimmering and mirage-like â all his memories and dreams of you layered over the shape of you. Your memory like a ghost of itself, trailing behind you as you walk towards him, a shy smile on your face, your cheeks flushed from travel and the cold and â
He doesnât let himself hope. Not this time.
âHey!â your voice is just as bell-like as he remembers it, pitched a little higher than it usually is, probably out of nervousness. But it still feels like a kick to the guts. Sanji forces himself to smile.
âHi, love,â he says, leaning down as you reach him, but the motion aborts halfway because â is it still appropriate to hug you like heâd always done? To press his lips to your cheek or your hairline and revel in the bright citrus of your shampoo, to soak in the butter and cream of your skin like he used to?
Thereâs an awkward half-second pause before youâre standing up on tip-toe and Sanjiâs heart nearly drops out of his ass as you lean in. But then â your lips skim by his cheek and your arms are around him, and stupid, stupid, stupid heart â thundering in his chest like horses or hooves or fists or thumping rabbitâs feet â leaping into his throat and pattering against the base of his tongue as he wraps his arms around you and holds you close. But itâs not close enough. Itâs never close enough.
He breathes and distantly, a part of him notes that you still use the same shampoo.
âHiâŠâ your voice is warm by his ear, a bit muffled, but he canât help the way it makes him shiver, âItâs⊠so good to see you.â
He nods, not trusting his own voice to do the normal thing and, oh, you know â work.
âIâve â Iâve missed you.â
He makes a noise somewhere between a laugh and a cough as he nods again. He feels your arms slackening around him and a fierce, terrifying thing is flapping its wings in his stomach, screeching at him not to let you go. But he does â like he did before.
âI â I missed you too,â he says, though his voice sounds flat and scratchy and he clears his throat again.
A dozen different expressions flicker across the lovely planes of your face and finally, it settles on endeared exasperation.
âPlease donât tell me you still work through like three packs of smokes a day.â
Sanji laughs then, shaking his head as he reaches over for your luggage, âNah â well, maybe not three but ââ
You whack him softly on the arm.
âI actually tried to quit right after you left.â
âYou did?â
Sanji shrugs as the pair of you start to make for the exit. He feels your gaze go slanted and shrewd.
âHow longâd that last?â
He smirks, âFew hours.â
You whack him again and this time, he dodges out of the way just to bask in the bright spark of your laughter as you chase after him.
âSeriously though, you know how terrible they are for you!â
âSure do,â he says, tugging one out of his pocket as soon as he clears the airport doors, pivoting left towards the parking garage. You have to jog to keep up with his longer strides, your breaths misting the air between you in silvery puffs.
He makes no move to light it as he helps toss your luggage into the trunk of his car, sliding into the driverâs seat. You huff as you wiggle into the passengerâs side.
âThen why ââ
Sanji waits patiently for you to buckle your seatbelt before pulling out of the parking space, one hand on the steering wheel, the other resting soft against the middle console. He slates you a glance.
âCause,â he says, fixing his eyes back on the road, an easy smirk twisting his lips, âitâs a metaphor.â
You groan, sinking into the seat, âJust because you read John Green one time ââ
âOi, Iâll have you know I read his entire bibliography after you showed him to me.â
âUgh, whatever you manic-pixie-dreamgirl-loving ass.â
âYeah, whatever â you actual manic pixie dreamgirl.â
You smile and Sanji allows himself the brief and aching delusion that the past year and a half didnât happen, that you never left, and that youâd never leave. That youâd always be here, warm and laughing and just within reach.
The rest of the car ride is spent in mundane conversation, in how was your flight and tell me about Florence and howâs Zeff doing these days and I wanna know about your latest dish. Itâs light and easy, and Sanji lets it warm the air around him. By the time he pulls into the front of your hotel, all the unsaid words from the past year and a half have soaked through his socks and into his shoes. It sloshes out onto the pale pavement as he opens the car door.
He helps you roll your luggage up into the lobby and tells you heâll be here at 3PM to pick you up tomorrow. The venueâs just three blocks away.
âYeah, Iâll see you then,â you say, pursing your lips, waving as he backpedals towards the automatic doors.
âYouâve still gotta send me pictures of the dress youâre wearing â I gotta find a matching tie.â
You laugh, a bit embarrassed, âRight â and here I thought I might surprise you.â
Sanji freezes, eyes wide.
âO-oh! Er â well, you can just â just tell me what color or ââ he waves vaguely, âsend a picture of a corner of the dress â just so I have something to color match against ââ
You nod, eyes glittering, eager once more, âOh! Thatâs a good idea â Iâll do that.â
âGreat,â Sanji says.
âGreat!â you echo, perhaps a bit too chipper.
He gives you one last smile before turning and striding from the hotel, firing up the engine as calmly as he can, forcing himself not to turn and check if youâre still watching him through the brightly lit, sliding glass doors. He allows himself a glance through the rear-view mirror as he pulls away from the drive and his heart skips a beat when he realizes youâre still standing there, right in the middle of the lobby, fingers wrapped around the handle of your suitcase, your eyes fixed on the shadow of his retreating car.
He lights the smoke the second he turns the corner, your shadow no longer in his rear-view mirror.
That night, Sanji dreams in fits and leaps, flashing images and long, sticky streams of could-have-beens â
He dreams of your laughter in a white-tiled kitchen, of powdered sugar and eggshells cracked and leaking on an exposed wood counter, chopsticks clinking against a thick glass mixing bowl. He dreams of your voice echoing off the shower tiles as you sing off-key, the way you used to when youâd sneak into his college dorm for movie night and a midnight snack. He dreams of coffee mugs and errant rose petals and dandelion seeds blowing in the wind. He dreams of dancing with you in his arms in a darkened dorm room that morphs into a bigger room with a softer carpet, one that heâd never seen before but he knows implicitly (like bodies know) is his home â it has pictures on the walls, trinkets lining the far bookshelf, your favorite scarf draped over the back of the well-worn sofa.
In the dream, you pull your head back from where it's pillowed against his shoulder and smile up at him. He leans down to kiss you, his lips hovering half an inch from yours.
Sanji jerks awake to the sound of his alarm, fingers fumbling for his phone, groaning as he smashes the orange snooze button and flips over to bury his face back into his lumpy pillow.
âAh⊠fuck.â
Itâs not the first time heâs had that dream, and he knows it wonât be the last. But itâd been so real that night, real enough to make him wonder if it just might come true.
He rubs at his sleep-crusted eyes and peers blearily at all the notifications on his screen. Thereâs a text from you with a picture attached. He clicks it open to find a short message attached to the picture â I really did want to surprise youâŠ
He blinks for three seconds at what looks like a blurry picture of studded black silk before he remembers â
âSend me a picture of a corner of the dress â just so I have something to color match against.â
He allows himself a laugh, swinging his feet out of bed even as he types back â you coulda just told me it was blackâŠ
He watches the three little dots appear and disappear a few times, chewing on his bottom lip, before the text appears â well there are different shades of black, right???
Sanji laughs, shaking his head.
sure there are.
A string of tongue-out emojis, followed by an equally long string of middle-finger emojis.
He spends the rest of the morning fussing over which specific black tie to wear before settling on one that heâs quite sure is the exact same shade of black as your dress (and yes, he does have quite the collection of black ties), before tugging his best suit out to press.
It shouldnât feel so easy, slipping back into the rhythm of things, of texting and smiling and hearing your voice in his head when he reads your texts. It shouldnât feel so easy to forget the months of radio silence and guilt, the oppressive, resonant weight of what might have been if either of you had done a single thing different that day at the airport â he wonders if he shouldâve reached for your hand, he wonders if youâd ever looked back.
He hadnât. He couldnât let himself.
He is waiting for you in the lobby at 2:45, wearing a hole into the plush Persian carpet, collecting strained looks from the concierge who had assured him three times in the last four minutes that heâd already rung up to your room and that youâd said you were on your way.
âWow, youâre early â sorry I took a while â I couldnât figure out what to do with my hair and ââ
Sanji lifts his head and thinks distantly that all those rom-com cliches of a guy looking up, time itself slackening, the room smearing sideways around him, the music going slow, the lighting soft â all of it is painfully, startlingly true after all.
Because there you are, walking towards him, still saying something, but he canât make out the words anymore because time isnât really a thing anymore, is it? He canât focus on that and also the dark glimmer of your dress, the way the neckline skates just beneath your collarbones, barely skimming the skin there before it slips down along the slope of your shoulders in a way that makes his breath unspool inside his chest like loose threads.
And in the slanted, ethereal light of the winter afternoon, your dress looks like itâs cut from a swath of darkest midnight, moonless and scattered with stars.
You blush as Sanji attempts to pick his jaw up off the floor and hitch his lips into something resembling a smile.
âW-wow⊠you lookâŠâ
Your smile is shy as you press your palms against the dress, looking down, âThanks⊠you donât think itâs⊠too much?â
Sanji shakes his head, feeling dazed.
âNo! I mean â itâs ââ his mouth is dry, drier than he ever remembers it being, and suddenly itâs very hard to swallow and Sanji isnât even sure the muscles in his neck know how to perform the action, let alone force words out alongside it. He struggles for another few seconds, his jaw working furiously as his eyes skitter down and back up the shape of you.
âYou look⊠perfect,â he says, finally, because the word has been ricocheting around his chest like a stray bullet and he had to let it out somehow.
âThanks â you donât look so bad yourself,â you say, your voice breathy in a way that makes Sanjiâs stomach squeeze.
He offers you his arm, and you glide forward to take it.
He drives the three blocks to the wedding venue in a daze, his mind spinning slow and off-axis, tilted so by the gentle waft of your perfume, the lullaby of your voice as you chatter nervously about this and that and the weather, I mean, can you believe itâs gonna be an outdoor wedding in the winter? He wonders briefly why youâre so nervous, and then heâs reminded of the reason heâs even here at all â your ex will be here. Ah. Right.
âReady?â he asks, offering you his arm again as the both of you follow the meandering stream of arriving guests toward the paved outdoor garden area where the ceremony is due to take place.
âNo, but⊠youâre here soâŠâ you let out a breath and for a second, Sanji almost thinks he hears the hint of an ache in your voice. An ache like an old scab picked at too many times, like unrequited love, perhaps. Itâs an ache with which Sanji is so intimately familiar that he immediately tamps it down and vows not to think about it again for the rest of the night.
There are stiff-backed waiters wandering around with plates of hors dâoeuvres and thin flutes of bubbling pink champagne.
Sanji grabs two glasses and hands you one.
âCheers, then.â
âBottoms up,â you say, tossing back the entire flute in one.
Sanji cocks his eyebrows, grinning as he follows suit, smacking his lips.
âAlright then, I guess if thatâs how youâre playinâ ââ
Your laughter is light, if a little strained, but he remembers how quickly bubbly drinks tend to go to your head and makes a concerted effort to slow down. You make it all the way through the actual ceremony without bumping into your ex, though you do lean over and grab Sanjiâs hand as the bride and groom exchange vows â something about love being a choice, one that they promise to make every morning of every day for the rest of their lives â and he looks over to find you misty-eyed, bottom lip caught beneath your teeth.
âSap,â he whispers, leaning over. It earns him a choked laugh and a half-hearted elbow in the ribs, but itâs worth it to see the tension melt from your shoulders.
Sanji turns back towards the bride and groom, exchanging rings now, and unbidden comes the images of you and him standing where they are â you in a dazzling white gown, him still in a dark suit, but one perhaps of more expensive material and much better tailoring. He thinks about all the things he might promise you, wonders at what you might promise him in return â
âI promise to love and cherish you ââ you might say.
âI promise to make all your favorite foods,â he might say.
âI promise not to touch your emotional support le creuset pans.â
âI promise not to make you taste all my experimental dishes ââ
âOkay, but what if I want to ââ
He imagines the way the crowd would titter, how the officiator would affectionately clear his throat. He imagines Zeffâs warm, well-worn laughter, rough and a little torn at the edges because heâs just as sentimental as the next guy behind all the beard and gruffness. He imagines the crowd smiling up at the pair of you, the way youâd squeeze his hands to get the both of you back on track â
He jerks out of his reverie as you tug your hand away from his to clap, and it takes him a beat to realize that everyone else is clapping and cheering too. He blinks â the bride and groom are kissing, pulling apart as the music swells around them and they link hands to walk back down the aisle.
Sanji clears his throat and hurriedly gets up to clap as well, his eyes trailing the radiant smiles on both the newlywedsâ faces. Another sharp ache sings through him but he feels your hand in his again and he canât tell if he wants to grip you tighter or pull away. Theyâd both hurt just as much, wouldnât they?
âCâmon, letâs get inside â I wanna judge the catering with you,â you whisper, your breath tickling his cheek, and he knows without having to look that youâre standing on your tiptoes, your chin almost propped on his shoulder.
He fights down a bout of shivers and smiles, âMy favorite part of any formal event, honestly.â
You laugh, âI know â me too.â
So you spend the entire dinner service whispering to each other about the food â
âGod, this steak is so well done I think it just might dislocate my jaw ââ
âWhatâs in this sauce?â
Sanji chews thoughtfully before making a face, âDunno, but itâs got oregano.â
âOh the cake looks good though.â
âYeah, but we both know how much sugar and butter goes into that right?â
You nudge him with an elbow, âWeird, cause Iâm pretty sure happiness is also made of sugar and butter.â
âWell for me, itâs always beenâŠâ but Sanji trails off, biting his tongue. No. He canât say that â not now. Not here.
Because for him, happiness has always just been you.
So instead, he swallows passed his own mouthful of regrets and attempts a lopsided grin. And thankfully, your attention is drawn elsewhere by a loud peal of laughter before he has to make a shitty joke about happiness being a well-lit kitchen and a gas-lit stove.
Youâre both at least a bottle of champagne deep when it finally happens, inevitable as a summer storm â your ex saunters up to you on the dance floor, sporting a grease-slick grin, eyeing you up and down like a piece of well-cut meat. Sanji is at the bar, grabbing more drinks and youâre catching a breath of fresh air just outside the dance hall.
âWell, well, well â look who it is.â
Sanji turns sharply at the sound of the voice, his eyes narrowing â Asshat. Fantastic. The bartender is putting the finishing touches on two custom cocktails but blinks, confused, as Sanji swipes both drinks out from the bar and casts him a hurried grin.
âThanks mate, these look great,â Sanji raises the cocktail glasses at the bewildered bartender before hurrying off, slowing ever so slightly as he reaches you, straightening his spine and smoothing out his shoulders.
âHere, got them special-made for you,â he says, pressing the cocktail into your hand, cutting into something that Asshat is saying.
âOh! Thanks â oh wow, this looks so good!â you beam up at him, taking a sip.
âOh wow, didnât know you were still hanginâ out with this guy,â Asshat says, hooking his thumbs into his belt-hoops and jutting out his chin.
You frown, pressing your lips, âExcuse me?â
Asshat scoffs, posturing, âI mean, when we broke up, it was cause oâhim right? So I just thought you mightâve realized what a mistake that was and ââ
Sanji barely has the time to feel offended before Asshat is gasping and stumbling back. Youâd tossed the remainder of your drink straight into his face.
âWhat the ââ Asshat sputters, his fists clenching, but quick as anything, Sanji swipes out a leg that catches him right in the shins and makes him stumble. In one fluid movement, Sanji pushes his own drink into your hand before reaching out the other arm to steady the now flailing Asshat, catching him around the shoulders.
âWhoa there! Seems like youâve had a bit too much to drink, my friend!â he says, loud enough for the people around you to hear. He thumps Asshat on the back in a would-be kind gesture before tugging him close, still coughing, and hissing in his ear â
âListen here, you asswipe â youâre gonna turn around and walk away and stay the fuck away from us for the rest of this wedding, you understand? Iâve got plenty more oâthis for ya if you donât, got it?â
Sanji scuffs his foot along the gravel-covered ground in a motion that could easily be mistaken as fidgeting, but you know better. And so, it seems, does Asshat, who scoffs and shoves Sanji off him with a glare, but after another second, straightens his drink-soaked jacket, turns, and stalks away.
You let out a long breath, swallowing hard.
âHey darlinâ⊠you alright?â Sanji turns and bends down to level his eyes with yours.
âY-yeah â thanks â you didnât need to ââ
âNah. Course I did â itâs why you invited me, right?â he allows himself a lopsided grin that borders on self-deprecating and you look up, eyes wide.
âNo! I â thatâs not ââ
âItâs okay, love â I promise Iâm not offended ââ Sanjiâs babbling, he knows he is â but he has to, because the alternative of letting you speak, of letting you confirm what he already knows to be true (that youâve only ever seen him as a best friend, that you love him in all the ways except for the one way he wants you to, in the one way he loves you) is too much. He tucks his hands in his pockets and shrugs up his shoulders, pulling them up towards his ears like armor.
And then you lean in and kiss him, and every single word heâs ever thought of saying just to fill the silence turns to mist and mornings on his tongue. His mind turns blissfully blank and when he regains consciousness (or has he? Because isnât this the dream heâs dreamt every waking moment of his life for the past⊠however many years?), he thanks every god he can name that he feels his fingers in your hair, his other hand cupping the soft curve of your jaw. He tastes your uncertainty against his lips and presses in, hoping, praying that if he just kissed you hard enough you might understand.
When you pull away, he canât help the satisfied purr that curls up his chest at the pinkness in your cheeks and the slightly glazed-over look in your eyes.
âO-oh â sorry I ââ
Sanji shakes his head, leaning in to push his forehead against yours.
âNah, nah, nah â if you tell me that was a mistake now I might just turn around and never speak to you ever again â because donât you dare ââ
You let out a helpless laugh, shaking your head as you reach up to cover his hands with yours. Itâs only then that he realizes theyâd been shaking. He swallows and he thinks he can taste every single morning after for the rest of his goddamn life in the whisper of your breath.
âIt â itâs not, I wasnât ââ you close your eyes and Sanji holds you still, foreheads still pressed. Distantly, Sanji is aware that people are cheering, that more drinks are being poured, that the dance floor is probably a mess. But he doesnât care. He doesnât think heâll care about anything else ever again â why would he? Now that heâs got you.
âShh⊠take your time, love⊠weâve got all the time in the world.â
He feels the relief take you, and then youâre falling into him, burying your face in the lapel of his suit jacket, probably smearing it with your foundation. Vaguely, Sanji considers framing it when he gets home.
âIâm⊠Iâm sorry it took so long â Iâm sorry I didnât â that I wasnâtâŠâ you curl your fist into the material of his shirt and thump him lightly on the chest, even as he laughs and wraps his arms around you.
âI know, darlinâ⊠I know.â Sanji presses his lips into your hair and canât help a smile.
Finally. Finally.
Your hair smells like citrus shampoo.
Finally.
âI thought about you every single day,â you admit, your voice small when you finally pull back to look at him again. He thinks there might be tears in your eyes, or maybe itâs just the starlight caught in the thick night sky of your lashes.
âDid you now?â he asks, fumbling for some semblance of normalcy amidst this night of revelations.
You nod, fervently, and god he wants to kiss you again. Briefly, he wonders if he should, if heâs allowed to now. Instead, he smiles and cocks his head.
âSo? What changed?â and he canât help the tiny note of hurt out of his voice, the slightest shiver of disbelief. After all, cynicism is a hard habit to break.
Especially after so many years of practice.
You shrug, sighing, âNothing â everything. I mean â Iâd always⊠but then I thought â you had your career as a chef and I didnât even know what I wanted to do with my life. But it ââ you lick your lips, and Sanji nearly breaks when you tear your eyes away from his. He wants to force you back, to soak in the dark and bright of your gaze till he can see the world exactly as you see it.
âItâs always been youâŠâ you say.
At this, Sanji does break. He tips your face towards him with a thumb and a forefinger and leans in, waiting for you to pull back, bracing for it. But you donât â instead, you press in and close the space between you again, and again, and then again.
He wants to tell you â he needs to tell you that itâs always been you too, that thereâs never been anyone else. From the moment he first laid eyes on you, heâs known, even though both of you were children back then, and neither of you had any idea what âloveâ actually meant. He knew then, too.
âLoveâŠâ his voice trails off, but you smile, and he knows you know, knows that you can hear it in the rawness behind his voice, in the softness of his breath, in the way it shakes.
You make to kiss him again. But your lips hover half an inch from his and you stop. Sanji sighs.
âWhat â whyâd you stop?â
Your smile is sweet and sharp, honey glinting on a razorâs edge, and he knows that he has you. And maybe that heâs always had you and was just too blind, too terrified, to see it.
âHavenât you heard? Itâs a metaphor.â
Sanji groans, âFuck your metaphors.â
You bat your lashes, pulling an expression of mock affront onto your face.
âWell at least wine me and dine me first ââ
Sanji licks his lips, âWhatâdyou think Iâve been trying to do for the last ten years?â
Your breath catches.
âOh.â
Sanji smirks and kisses you again, slowly this time, languid and deep. Unhurried. He luxuriates in the way you go soft in his arms, in the way he can feel the gentle hitch of your breath as he runs his tongue along the edges of your teeth, coaxing you towards him, closer and closer and closer.
The hardest, angriest part of him wants to swallow you whole, bite down just to hear you hiss, to taste your blood on his tongue. To make you feel even a sliver of the pain heâd felt. He tamps it back down â thereâs time for that later.
Instead, he forces himself to pull back and allows himself the satisfaction of watching you chase him, pursing your own lips with a bashful look away, your cheeks dark.
âSo,â Sanji takes half a step back, puffing out his chest in the best imitation of a fuckboy at a wedding party, âwanna get outta here?â
You let out a helpless laugh, falling into his side. He lets the sound ring through him like so many silver bells.
âYeah, Iâd love that.â
He chuckles, looping an arm around your middle and leaning towards your ear.
âYour place, or mine?â
You roll your eyes, âIâm pretty sure I still have a toothbrush at your place.â
Sanji hums, âYou still have a whole drawer at my place.â
You smile up at him, open and happy and sincere, âThen⊠I guess thatâs your answer then.â
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đ§đđŻđđ« đŠđđđ đČđšđźđ« đĄđđ«đšđđŹ ⥠choi soobin.
If it was up to you, you would worship the very ground Choi Soobin walks. No, youâre not a simp, heâs just that amazing â the star of your collegeâs broadcasting club, your role model, the reason why you even have a dream career, andâŠsomeone youâd really like to make out with if heâd allow it. But the first ever conversation you have with him has your rose-tinted, star-studded glasses shattering to pieces when he turns out to be a huge jerk. Is this just a misunderstanding or is it the end?
⧠choi soobin x f. reader | 16+ | college!au ⥠strangers to lovers!au ⥠angst ⥠fluff
⧠10 k words
⧠warnings! inaccuracies wrt broadcasting journalism majors & college broadcasting clubs, profanity, some suggestive language, misunderstandings, allusions to slut-shaming, soobin being an accidental (?) asshole, some heartbreak, some conflict, some yelling, insecurities wrt social standing in college, yn is a certified soob simpâą but goes thru a hater era for half a day </3, stinky cute fluff later on, some cringe, so much blushinG itâll make u sick, a make out sesh, cameo by yj & his girl from fic 1 bec i love them sm :(
⧠note! set in the same universe as no one but you. iâve been working on this since marCh, idk why it took me so long to finish? the wc def ran away from me a little whoops! anyways, this gets rough in the middle â soobin might shock u with his behavior but it will all get resolved, i promise!
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âIâm sorry, the tryouts are closed!â
You blink. Take a step away. Peek at the huge poster stuck on the huger double doors to the auditorium. The notice says the tryouts would run from four to six in the evening â itâs presently five minutes past five. What the heck?
Around you, you notice a number of girls looking as disgruntled as you feel. You approach one. âUh, heyâŠdid you already do your piece?â
The girl twirls a vibrant purple strand of hair around her finger and rolls her eyes. âNope. Choiâs bitch ass shut the doors unannounced âcause heâs pissed off for some reason.â
Choi? Bitch ass? This girl canât possibly be talking about the Choi Soobin, right? The prince of the universityâs broadcasting club who always emcees every single stage performance the university hosts?
No, she canât be. No one would refer to the Choi Soobinâs glorious behind as âbitch ass.â Besides, you really donât think heâd sit around judging freshmen entrants to the club when heâs got so many better, so much cooler things on his schedule.
Choi Soobin the Great has been in this club for three years, two of which he has spent as its president. That, in itself, should be pretty explanatory with regards to how skilled he is at the whole announcer, emcee, broadcast business.Â
His extraordinary talent with the mic is what inspired you to pick broadcast journalism as your major, in fact. You'd entered the university on jittery, scared steps because you didn't believe you would actually find something that interested you enough to make a career out of. You spent a whole academic year fluttering between psych and communication, aimless and despaired.
But then came sophomore year where you volunteered to set things up for the new freshman batch's orientation week â and that is when you saw Choi Soobin, a fellow sophomore, take the stage and blow everyone away. He was so good with his audience of the new admittees, providing them with all the important information without making them feel nervous because he used the perfect amount of jokes as a buffer.
It was love at first sight for you.
Okay, like, not like that. You did end up making an altar for Choi Soobin the Great where you continue to worship on the daily because he's a god on stage, but what you actually fell in love with was the art of emceeing.
So you registered your major in your third semester and began to work on polishing your skills. Now, two semesters later and midway through the junior year, you finally feel confident and prepared enough to enter your God's actual, holy shrine and join his praying circle.
âŠmaybe you should stop with these metaphors before it gets weird.
Anyways.
Case in point â unlike this uninformed rodent of a girl who found it fit to disrespect your role model and gave up on these tryouts in favor of rolling her eyes and complaining in the hallway, you are nothing if not strong-willed.Â
You are finally ready to do something about your one true passion that you can actually see yourself pursuing professionally after college. Being part of the university's broadcasting club means guaranteed dream job; you've seen it happen with your eyes for two consecutive years. You're finally ready to follow suit; finally ready to join the ranks of the elite and learn from Choi Soobin the Great himself â and you are not about to let a gruff call of "tryouts are closed" from an overworked janitor deter you.
Checking this way and that for any onlookers, you sneak off to the narrow passage to the side that you know connects to this auditorium's back door, and in turn, the cafeteria. You're just gonna casually stroll through it, maybe loiter a bit around the doors until someone from the judges panel steps out so that you can beg them to give you a chance. And if someone catches you? You were just looking for the cafe!
It's the perfect plan.
Until, that is, your loitering ends with the legend himself, Choi Soobin the Great stepping out of the backdoor and freezing you to a statue.
You've seen the man from afar more times than you can count on both hands. You're a true fan, a great admirer, a semi-obsessed devotee (?) of his. But never once have you seen the guy from this up close. Needless to say, your brain's short circuiting a little.
Three things strike you all at one â that the university's emcee prince did, in fact, sit in to judge freshman entrants to the broadcasting club despite his various busy schedules; that the purple haired female auditionee actually did call this great man's glorious behind 'bitch ass' like an uncultured heathen; and finally, that Choi Soobin sporting a combination of dark black hair, bright red lips and stark white t-shirt should be banned because it can cause brain malfunctions in people.
Because while the guy's eyes widen and then squint as he looks at you, and mouth opens as if to say something to you â you stay absolutely frozen, literally turned to stone without a single muscle moving in your body. Including your lungs that are jammed because you're pretty sure you aren't breathing.
"Um⊠can I help you?"
Oh shit, his dimplesâŠ
His dimples!
You realise this is entering borderline creepy territory but you can't help staring at him. He's just so pretty. Though your brain functions are still experiencing a slight lag, you're starting to realize that your crush on the guy is winning over the admiration and respect you have for his talents, at the moment.
He's ethereal. He's unearthly. He's the most beautiful guy you've ever met. You're a simp.
"Excuse me?" Soobin's head tilts to the side in confusion. "Can I help you?"
He definitely can, in more ways than one, but that conversation is for another time.
His impatiently raised eyebrows suddenly push you back into motion, breaking your frozen state, but now you're on an overdrive, very close to hyperventilating in front of him.
"Hâhey! I mean, hâhi. I mean, fancy bumping into you here! Nânot that we bumped, just, uhâhaha, you know? Fancy â fancy seeing you here, how have you been?"
Oh
God.
Did all of that just exit your mouth?
You need a shovel because this calls for digging up a hole and burying yourself alive. What the fuck is wrong with you?
Your entire face feels like it's caught on fire, and all the nerve endings in your body are tingling from embarrassment. You feel like you're vibrating. Wait, if you vibrate at a frequency that's outside of the visible range, can you voluntarily make yourself disappear?
The only thing holding you back from combusting into flames is the amused smile that replaces the previously formal tilt on Soobin's lips. "Hi. I'm sorry, where do I know you from? You look very familiar, but I'm just missing itâŠ"
You look familiar? So he does notice you in class! Maybe getting that hair spa last month has worked in your favor, after all. You're getting a little googly eyed, but you do your best to control your reactions as you gauge his.
He looks so darn cute with his dimpled smile that makes his eyes squint, that you're left gaping for a couple of seconds before you're able to notice the hand he is forwarding you. Nodding haphazardly, you forward yours and let him wrap his huge palm around your significantly smaller one. Even though you try to repress it, the warmth his skin emanates sends a shiver running through you.
If Soobin notices the subtle shake your body gives, he doesn't comment on it.
He's being so angelically patient and kind, you need to get it together!Â
So you clap your hands in front of your face and pull your lips up in a smile, preparing yourself to say your thing without any unnecessary words this time.Â
"Uh, I'm â I'm in your class? I don't know if you know me, but I know you! I'm, um, I'm here for the broadcasting club. And â and I noticed that the banner said that the tryouts would run from four to six, but I've been told that the gates have been closed when it is barely past five, so I was⊠wâwonderingâŠ" You slowly trail off, stuttering a little when Soobin's facial expressions do a sudden one-eighty.
Gone is the sweet, dimpled, kind guy who was smiling at you with his eyes. Now his lips are pursed and eyebrows furrowed, a clear look of irritation on his face. Well, he's still got a dimple showing, but this one's part of his frowny face so you're not sure if you should be admiring it anymore.
"Wow. You're gutsy." His tone has changed now, too, really stiff with an underlying scoff in words. "Did you follow me here?"
You blink in surprise. "What? Of course not! The â the main doors were closed, so I was looking for another way in andâ"
"Good God, please stop talking," he interrupts you with a groan, rolling his eyes as he tilts his head to look skywards â and you're fully paralyzed now, clueless and a little scared because Soobin looks so mean and intimidating with his eyebrows scrunched up like that. "I don't get what you guys' problem is. I'm â I'm trying to do something serious here. Why the hell do you not get it?"
Blinking slowly, you gape at your idol, your icon, the deity of all things broadcasting as he yells at you about something you can make neither head nor tail of.Â
'You guys'? Who?Â
You know that you of all people definitely get that he's doing something serious. You're as much, if not more, serious about the club yourself; the reason why you've taken so long to decide to audition for it. Besides, how's he judging you when you've never met before?
Willing your frozen lips to move, you attempt to clear the air. "We've â we've never met before. You don't know me. I'mâ"
"Oh, I know you enough." This time there is vitriol in his eyes as he spits the words, and you take an actual, vary step away from Soobin. "I've been through twenty auditions and seen fifty applications in the past hour and every single one of the girls like you is dying to get to interview the hockey team and talk to Yeonjun about his strategy for his final season in college. So I know exactly who you are and exactly what you're after."
He is rolling his eyes again, this time with both his hands braced on his waist.
But his words are very confusing and a little hurtful. Why is he grouping you with whatever 'girls like you' he's seen so far? You've been a fan of Soobin for a while now, but you've never encountered any instance of even a mention of him being anything less than courteous and big hearted.
This attitude from him feels like living a fever dream â and not of the good kind.
"So for the last time â I'm not taking any of you groupies into this club because it is not a means to get into the hockey captain's pants! I need serious people who look at announcing and broadcasting with respect and not as something they can use as cover for their ulterior motives. Oh, and if it means anything to you at all, Yeonjun hyung has a girlfriend now. We probably won't even be covering him at all because his fangirls are always a bit too much."
Your head is spinning a little now.Â
Did he call you a groupie? Yeonjun's groupie? He thinks you're doing this to get into Yeonjun's⊠what the hell?
While you're still processing his previous words, Soobin gives a wince. "Look, I'm sorry if all this sounds harsh, but you've left me no choice. Trying to corner me was a really low blow, okay? There's a limit to acting desperate and you're clearly crossing the line, here. If you can't respect me or the club, at least respect yourself."
The pieces have finally fallen in place in your head. You couldn't make sense of it earlier because you didn't really allow yourself to think Soobin would go there. But given his last statement, now you have no doubts.
You don't live under a rock â you really can't afford to when you dream of joining the broadcasting club, of all things â so you obviously know hockey captain Choi Yeonjun and the hype surrounding him. And because you always do your homework well, you also know that he used to be somewhat of a serial dater before he got into a serious relationship with his long time best friend, just last month. All of Yeonjun's fangirls across campus have been disheartened by this development and have been acting desperate ever since.
But why on earth has Soobin pegged you as one of them escapes you. You did not say a word about the hockey team. You didn't get to tell him what your goals actually are. Hell, you didn't even get to tell him your name before he shut you down.
This is a very overwhelming generalization, and you really wanna give Soobin the benefit of the doubt here because going through fifty bullshit applications can be a lot â but he needs to hear you out for you to do that.
"Soobin," you try again, raising both your palms up in an attempt to placate him, "I don't know how you're getting this idea, but I'm not one of â one of Yeonjun's groupies, or whatever, okay? I literally told you I'm in your class."
âLook, I really donât have time for all these tales,â Soobin interrupts you with a sigh, a huge hand raised up to shut you up â so you do. âYouâre dressed⊠too prettily to be trying out for the broadcasting club, anyways. Is that a cheerleading skirt?â
He's looking down his nose at your miniskirt that you felt very pretty in, annoyance on his face, and now â
Now you're hurt. Now you're hurt beyond giving him the benefit of the doubt. Now you're hurt enough for your eyes to sting with offense.
âAre you trying to pass a judgment on myâŠclothes?â you ask him in shock, your voice low and a frown creasing your forehead.Â
He looks a little uncomfortable as he clears his throat. âIâve seen the way Yeonjunâs fangirls dress, and you kinda⊠fit the description.â
He really isnât giving up on the groupie allegationsâŠ
In any other scenario, you would honestly take that as a compliment. Because you have seen these girls as well and their appearance is honestly on another level. But this guy in front of you definitely means it as an insult. And he is still scowling, as if you have dressed up to personally offend him.
Youâre at a complete loss now. He hasnât let you talk, you havenât even told him your name, and he is acting like knows everything about you. His mind seems fully made up too.Â
What are you supposed to do?
"You know what? Maybe I⊠I should leave through the front door,â he murmurs in your general direction and then moves to step back through the gates heâd emerged from.
You just stay rooted to your place, offended at his dismissal and still in partial disbelief.Â
Choi Soobin is nothing like anything you thought he was.Â
The smiling, giggling, squinty-eyed guy that you always heard being called kind-hearted, warm, understanding and sweet? Cannot be the same guy you just met. Part of the reason why you like him so much has been the overwhelming amount of praises you have heard about him.Â
At times, you found yourself wondering how such an important and busy guy could muster enough patience to be a sweetheart to everyone. Now you know that itâs all a sham â a character he has created to showcase. Itâs all pretend.Â
This, the version of him you just met, is what the real Choi Soobin is like when no oneâs looking.Â
Not just your crush, but your idol has broken your heart.Â
How are you gonna move on from this?
"Y/N!"
The sudden shout of your name makes you jump in surprise, wide, watery eyes turning to the end of the hallway. Soobin has stopped in his place as well, a frown on his forehead as he attempts to follow your gaze â but he's a little off center from the curved hallway to be able to locate a bubbly looking Yeji excitedly waving at you.Â
Oh fuck. Not right now. You don't need your best friend to witness you experiencing the worst moment of your entire life.
But Yeji being the loudass clown she is, doesn't stop speaking at the top of her voice as she marches down the hallway to you. "Where have you been? The janitor says they closed the tryouts? Did you pass? Oh, and a girl told me Choi Soobin was in the judging panel! Did you get to see him?"
Your eyes jump wide, traveling to the said guy involuntarily to witness the way confusion overtakes his face. He isn't moving, though, probably out of intrigue now that he has heard his name, and you're halfway scared to death that Yeji is about to reveal your secret and bathe you in the kind of embarrassment that you will never be able to live down.
"Yeji, I'm justâ"
"Babe, why do you look so pale?" she cuts you off, squinting as she nears you, and before you can get another word out, her lips are tilting mischievously and eyebrows are wiggling. "Did Choi find out about your obsessive crush on him? Did he kick you out? Are you hiding from him?"
Yeji is done walking up to you and is now standing with her back to the still open door to the auditorium to look at you with her head tilted and hands braced on her waist. But your gaze is stuck to the person whose face you can easily see over her shoulder.
Soobin's eyes are impossibly wide and mouth is parted to allow his bunny-like front teeth to peek out. There's a subtle flush covering the top of his cheekbones, ears and the bridge of his nose â a sight that would've had you cooing in adoration if you werenât so distraught, right now.
And then his lips move to form a broken sentence that makes you want to stab Yeji and then yourself: "You⊠obsessive crush⊠me?"
To her credit, Yeji seems to recognise the guy's voice and also the context of this ridiculous situation pretty quickly. Her eyes grow wide immediately before a wince overtakes her face as she mouths the word 'sorry' to you, probably mistaking your fallen expressions to be a reaction to the chaos she has caused. Little does she know.
Just as she has stepped aside, Soobin takes a step closer to you, heavy guilt and bewilderment sewn into the lines of his forehead and the twist of his lips. It's so weird that your heart is still skipping a beat when his gaze searches yours.Â
It's so unfair.Â
You inhale deeply and shake your head, though, steeling yourself against his deceitful innocent eyes. His dimples are just a facade to hide his arrogance. You know better now.
"Not anymore, don't you worry," you tell him with your chin lifted and eyes narrowed.
And damn, you feel so brave for that one. Especially because the words aren't even true. Getting over him will be a hefty task and you have no idea where to even begin, because your life has pretty much revolved around the guy for over a year.
Soobin frowns at that, looking almost hurt, and you want to laugh in his face at the hypocrisy. But you've had enough of him judging you and you're also ninety-eight percent sure you will end up crying if you tried to laugh, so you choose to just grab onto an embarrassed and confused looking Yeji's wrist and tug her with you to the other end of the hallway, exiting into the college's cafeteria.
"Babe, that wasâow!"
Yeji is cut off by you smacking her upside the head. "You're so fucking stupid, Hwang."
"I know⊠I'm sorry?"Â
"Shut up, youâre buying me lunch."
The next day, while youâre supposed to be attending your Media Law class, a mandatory course in your major, you find yourself sitting (read: sulking) in a corner of the library by yourself, staring at the laptop in front of you unseeingly. Your attendance is good enough to save your grades and you can beg Chaewon for notes later in the week.Â
But you truly donât have enough mental strength to face the classâ star student after the shitshow that went down, yesterday.
While Yeji bought you lunch yesterday, you filled her in on everything that happened. Your best friend provided you with a shoulder for your tears, some tissues for your snot and four golden words of advice: never meet your heroes. Because now everything is ruined, and youâre beginning to wonder if picking this major was even worth it when the reason why you did has turned out to be a sham himself.
Your phone suddenly pings with a message, breaking your chain of spiraling thoughts.
11:03 | yeji đ dood. guess who i bumped into omw to the chem lab and guess what he asked me for
You blink and then squint at your phone. Why is your best friend trying to be so mysterious?Â
âȘ wtf jiâŠ? âȘ who asked u for what? âȘ are u okay?
11:05 | yeji đ what? yeah iâm okay choi soobin asked for your number
What?Â
âȘ yeji⊠âȘ tell me u didnât give it to him
11:06 | yeji đ of course not bestie <3 i told him to talk to you in person heâll be there in a min good luck! đđđ
You hadnât even fully inhaled your breath of relief at Yejiâs first text when she cut it short with the next one. In person? In a minute?Â
Did Yeji tell him where you are?
âUh, hey⊠Can we talk?â
She did. Shit.
Even if you donât lift your gaze from your phone, Soobinâs tall form blocks the incoming light from the window you were seated next to and casts such an obvious shadow on your form that you cannot ignore him without making it weird. So you lick your lips and collect your nerves, preparing yourself to face the guy who single-handedly inspired and then shattered your future plans.
Soobin looks as devastatingly handsome as ever, dressed in a white, collared shirt. His hair is just as black, lips just as red, but thereâs an additional pair of thick, black, round-framed glasses sitting on his eyes this time that make your heart beat faster. He just had to look like a runway model in glasses. The universe hates you. Figures.
The expressions on his face scream clear distress and the guilt you saw yesterday. Heâs nibbling on his bottom lip, which is a great sign because his bitch ass should be antsy about his audacity of talking to you now when he didnât wanna listen to you yesterday.
Wow. Maybe that purple haired girl really was onto something, yesterday. Choi Soobinâs derriere is most definitely a rude and a bitch ass.
Looking down at your laptop, you clear your throat and ask him, âWhat do you wanna talk about?â
You donât ask him to sit, you do not smile, donât even wave back in response to his lame ass âheyâ â just cut straight to business. Youâre proud of the way your voice sounds the right amount of impatient and careless.
âI⊠I owe you an apology.â
That has you looking at him again. Heâs frowning now, looking so conflicted, you almost soften. But then you stop yourself. This is probably not even that heartfelt. He heard about your crush on him and now he pities you. You wonât be a vessel for him to pretend to clear his conscience when he wasnât even willing to get off his judgemental high horse for you.
âSoobin⊠donât.â
He takes the seat opposite yours, ignoring your eyebrows that rise up in shocked outrage. "I have to. Please."
"You really don'tâ"
"I was horribly out of line, ridiculously ignorant, unprofessional and â and an asshole."
You blink at him in mild surprise. At least he knows; thatâs an oddly good start. "You can say that again."
He removes his glasses and rests his elbows on the table, leaning towards you with wide, desperate eyes. "I do not expect you to forgive me, I just need you to â to know that I'm not⊠I'm not who I was yesterday. That's not â I was under pressure and I felt irritated, insecure and a little jealous? And I said everything I didn't mean. Especially that comment about your dress up! I didn't mean it, I swear! You looked pretty, your skirt was really cute, okay? I â I didn't mean to insult you, I would never stoop to that level."
Your cheeks involuntarily heat up at the compliment he tosses at you so casually. "Why say it when you didn't mean it?" you mumble, attempting to hold your ground and stay mad because he's saying all the right things to weaken your resolve and give him an ear.
He hangs his head as if in shame. "Because I'm a moron. None of the stuff I said was aimed at you. As you said, we hadn't even met before, and⊠I was frustrated and tired and just drew all these wrong conclusions about you and went off like an idiot. I feel so horrible. I'm so fucking sorry..."
Very slowly, you lean back in your chair and shut your laptop. He really knows how to apologize, damn.Â
You were preparing to knock Choi Soobin off the throne you had him sitting on, mentally, and then crush that very throne to pieces because if he could disappoint you like this, you were determined to never look for another role model. You were preparing yourself to leave Choi Soobin and his arrogance in dust and move on with your life.
But now here he is â apologizing like the decent human being you always thought him to be, saying everything youâd never admit you needed to hear.
Heâs climbing back upon the throne that took you a whole day to make up your mind to remove him from.Â
Youâre kinda pathetic, to be honestâŠ
In an attempt to regain some of the dignity your inner monologue has stripped you of, you frown at him. But you are definitely intrigued now because if the kindness and sweetness he shows everyone is a facade, why is he being kind and sweet to you in private?
Could there possibly be⊠an explanation for his behavior yesterday? He said he was under pressure and frustrated. Although you understand the former, given his position and the auditions yesterday, you donât really get why he would be frustrated.
When you meet his gaze again, you find Soobin looking at you with those wide eyes of his spilling desperate hope. So you decide to bite.
 "You â you keep saying you were frustrated⊠Why was that? "
He thumps his head against the table with a groan, making you jump a little in surprise, and then looks up with a determined expression on his face. "I'll begin from the beginning. I owe you that much."
"You really don't owe me anyâ"
"Please, Y/N."
Oh. Did he say your name? Oh.
Wow, this is why crushes are horrible. Now your heart is thumping wildly and your face feels really hot. Honestly, there should be a system where one can run a background check on an individual before they can be deemed safe enough to be crushed on so that one doesnât end up embarrassing oneself.
You can only hope your face hasnât heated up to a noticeable degree.
"I⊠Since the day I was made President of the Broadcasting Club and was given the duty to conduct interviews for the different sports teams our college has, thereâs been this â this recurring pattern. Huge throngs of girls that want to join the club for a chance to interview the hockey team and get close to Captain Choi.â He gives a tired exhale and runs a hand down his face. âIâve seen it repeat every semester. And this time it got really out of hand because I actually decided to sit in for the tryoutsâŠâ
You didnât even notice when you leaned on your elbows to mirror Soobinâs seating position and focused your eyes on his face, so when he looks up to meet your gaze, your breath catches for a moment. And then you see absolute, sheer tiredness reflected by his brown orbs.
He cannot be this good of an actor, can he be? That would mean that he's really been going through something with this whole insincere signing up for the club thing.
"It was really wrong of me to explode on you the way I did," he continues in a softer voice, looking down at the table next to his palms. "I assumed you were one of the girls that had been giving me a hard time and⊠didn't even let you say your thing. I'm really, terribly sorry for being a jerk to you."
Your jaw drops a little at the sincerity that spills from his apology. He doesn't sound like he's doing this to clear his conscience or out of pity â he sounds really regretful. He almost sounds like he's in pain, in fact.Â
Does he really feel that guilty?
He would only be feeling so bad about this if⊠everything he has said so far is the truth and heâs actually not the kind of person he painted himself as, yesterday. You can sense the way your previously drawn conclusions begin to dissipate little by little.
"After you left," Soobin begins again, this time with a slight twinkle in his eyes and a tilt to his lips that makes his dimples pop, "I went looking for your application form and read about your interest in announcing. You⊠you picked your major because of me?"
Your cheeks are definitely on fire now and thereâs no way Soobin canât see that. Why did you put that in your form, you embarrassing imbecile?Â
Well. If Soobin has been gusty and virtuous enough to come looking for you and make an attempt to honestly explain himself and apologize, maybe you can be a little honest with him as well.
"You see⊠the freshman orientation you hosted last year left an impact on me," you reveal, unable to look at him. "And then I saw your sports coverage and realized that I want to be a sports announcer in future."
Soobin says your name, making you look up and meet his soft gaze. "I never thought I would do anything in life that would be worth an inspiration⊠so this means a lot to me. A lot.â His eyes are shining with sincerity and emotion, and youâre looking into them, spellbound. âI am so sorry I hurt you and Iâm ready to try and make it up to you for as long as needed. I donât really expect you to accept my apology, like I told you, but if you would please give me another chance, I would like to show you who I really am. And maybe initiate you, if youâd like?"
He finishes with a sweet, dimpled smile and maybe that is to be blamed for the way his question bounces right off of you.
"InitiateâŠme?" You cluelessly blink at him.
"Yeah. Into the club. All the members went through your application and some samples of you emceeing. So itâs not just mine, but everybodyâs decision. Insistence, if you will. Request? We â weâd really really like to have you on our team."
Your eyes jump open very wide at that. Join the club of your dreams? Heâs finally offering you the spot you thought youâd lost forever?Â
Wait, did he say samples? Of you emceeing? What?
"Iâm sorry, what samples?"
A blush tinges his ears. "I contacted your friend Yeji about this, last evening. Please donât be mad at her, she just wanted to help you. She told me how much this means to you⊠and then sent me a couple of clips of you managing a stage during a kidsâ talent show in your neighborhood. You were really impressive, Y/N."
Holy fucking hell, you're going to scream.Â
First at Hwang Yeji for going behind your back and selling you to the enemy, no matter what her motivation mightâve been. And then because your idol just complimented you on something you've learned from him.
"Thâthank you, Soobin." You bite your lip at the stutter in your voice, peering up at him with hesitant eyes. And then you decide to be honest with him again: "Your praise⊠means a lot to me."
Soobin's eyes sparkle at that, a warm smile pulling at his lips. "And I promise to always remember, respect and honor that. Just one chance?â
You stay like that for the next few moments, looking at him with a soft gaze.
Youïżœïżœïżœve been polishing your skills to prepare yourself for a spot in this club for a year. If you had gotten the chance to audition normally yesterday, there is no doubt in your mind that you wouldâve made the cut. So wouldnât it be unfair if you give up now?
And then thereâs Soobin, of course. Itâs going to take you some time to trust him. But if he says heâs willing to work on it, says it with a sincerity in his eyes that gives you goosebumps, you believe itâs worth giving him a chance to correct the misunderstanding he caused yesterday.
You exhale, mind made up, and nod at the guy tentatively. âPromise me you will hear what I have to say before you draw any conclusions?â
He leans closer to you, bringing his face at the same level as yours and nods eagerly. âI promise. Cross my heart and hope to die. Do I take this as a yes to joining the club?â
His eagerness makes you crack a smile, which causes Soobin to scrunch his nose bashfully. You inhale deeply and give him another nod. âYes, you may.â
Time flies really fast after that day as you attempt to find a stable way of juggling your classes and the club duties.Â
The work isnât as much in bulk as it is in the details. Soobin is, as youâd known beforehand, a meticulous perfectionist. Every single activity the club is involved in has to be fully planned in bullet points and a step-wise-step itinerary, and uploaded to the clubâs shared Google Drive, days in advance, or Mr. President begins to lose his calm . You, being the newest addition to the bunch of six experienced members, are mostly tasked with assisting the guy on building this very itinerary.
Not that you mind.
The more time you spend next to him, witnessing him in his element up close and actually getting to peer into the creative wonderland that his mind is, the more you find yourself in awe of him. He has been a role model to you for a reason, after all.
With each passing day, you pat yourself on the back for taking a chance by accepting his apology as you slowly begin to see the real him â the version of him that is absolutely nothing like the asshole you met that day. And little by little, your trust in him begins to grow.
Soobin, to his credit, doesnât leave a single stone unturned to make you feel welcome into the club. He is incredibly patient and delicate with you â always pausing to check whether you have been keeping up with all the new stuff or if you need any guidance.
Youâre beginning to understand that it is in his nature to be kind. The word that got around about him has been correct all along â he really is gentle, understanding and sweet. And if he is going an extra mile for you with the intention of appeasing you because he is apologetic? Well⊠heâs damn well succeeding.Â
The two of you have quickly fallen into a routine where you attend your 10 am Media Law class together, collect the communication majors Karina and Jongho from their block, and then report to Arinâthe only senior in the club and known to be an effortless aceâin the broadcasting room. After a short briefing about the previous daysâ tasks and a rundown of the fresh dayâs checklist, you and Soobin depart to the library to work on it.Â
After that you both attend your separate afternoon classes, meet up at the broadcasting room at four in the evening for the college announcements that are alternated between Yunjin and Jongin, sophomores and the final two members of the club, and the lot of you finally take your leave some time around six.
The first week is so exhausting for you that you are barely left with enough strength to feed yourself before you collapse into bed every night, let alone think about your academics. You donât even text Yeji for three whole days, until she accosts you in the library.Â
Soobin texts you, that evening, sharing tips on time management, task management as well as a small list of snacks that he munches on to retain energy. To say your heart nearly beats out of your chest at the gesture would be an understatement.Â
The following weeks are full of you being on the receiving end of more such thoughtful acts by Soobin. Getting you coffee â one that is made exactly the way you like it â before the evening meet-up, walking you to your dorm if you donât have anyone from your building accompanying you, repeatedly checking in to ensure youâre well-rested and not overwhelmed by the sudden change in your routine.
And then there is that one time, some three weeks later, when you're filling in for an absent Yunjin and make a mistake during the announcement â landing yourself at the receiving end of Arin's ire. You feel really bad about your mistake as it is, and so the addition of a reprimand from the senior you've come to look up to has you immensely low.
"She said it was a mistake, noona."
Your head snaps up at Soobin's firm statement. His eyebrows are furrowed and arms are crossed as he looks at Arin. You, along with three other pairs of eyes, gawk at the rare sight of Soobin getting angry, and the rarer sight of him going against the club's queen.
"She's apologized thrice. What more do you expect?"
Arin looks taken aback at the brusque interruption, but doesn't put up a fight against the president. "She needs to practice her pauses, Soobin."
"And she will. I'll make sure she does." He gives a small nod to her before turning his gaze to you. Put in spot, you stare back at him with wide eyes. "I'll stay with her while she practices."
Flashing you a small smile of reassurance, Soobin turns back to the other girl and pats her shoulder to calm her down. And because no one in powerful enough to maintain a frown when Soobin unleashes the power of his dimples upon them, Arin eventually smiles in defeated acceptance and dismisses the meeting.
But your heart never quite manages to dismiss the way this incident makes you feel.
Because Soobin holds true to the promise he made as well â accompanying you to the college's courtyard whenever you're both free and practicing speech with you. To be really honest, he seems to be wanting to spend all his free time with you. You find yourself having to say no to his texts at times because you have plans with Yeji, or are too tired to function.
You'd be lying if you claimed that having so much of his attention on you doesn't make your heart to somersaults in your chest. Which is why you begin to wonder where his extra mile of apologetic appeasement ends.Â
The whole apology acceptance thing happened between the two of you awhile ago. He really shouldn't have a reason to continue to dote on you as if he has been hired to take care of you. Last time you checked, you were the one with a gigantic crush on him and not the other way round.
A few explanations pop up in your head, but none of them feel plausible enough for you to even think about. So you do the next best thing â share your dilemma with Yeji on an impromptu girlsâ night in, one Saturday.
For a moment, your best friend squints her eyes in the way she does when sheâs analyzing some complex situation. And then she shrugs a shoulder, pops a pretzel in her mouth and announces: âSounds like heâs got a crush.â
You blink, caught so off-guard that youâre stunned into silence. It is only when she looks at you with her eyebrows raised that you manage to cough out a scoff. âWhat? Donât be ridiculous.â
This time Yejiâs the one to scoff. âExcuse me? Whatâs so ridiculous about him liking you?â
âDude. IâŠâ You vaguely gesture to yourself. âIâm me. And heâsâŠhim. Choi Soobin the Great, the prince, the God, the emcee of the year.â
âUh, Iâm sorry, whatâs that supposed to mean? Youâre you â the princess, the goddess, the prettiest girl on campus and the best student in our year.â She tosses a pretzel at you, scowling. âYouâre amazing, bff. Choi Soobin is one lucky motherfucker to have the privilege to spend so much time with you. Of course heâd fall in love! Iâd date you if I was into girls!â
The last part of her sentence makes you giggle. âStop, no oneâs talking about love just yet. Do you really think he could be doing all of that with⊠I donât know⊠the intention to woo me?â
âOf course! Heâd be a fool not to!â Yeji sits up from her recline on the couch, nearly aggressively grabbing onto your shoulders to shake you. âDidnât you hear the part where I told you I would dateâhell, Ryujin would date you!â
You gape at your best friend, feeling uplifted, reassured and confused all at once. âWhaâ? Does Ryujin like girls?â
âNo, but sheâd still date you. Sheâs open minded that way.â
âYeji, what the fââ
âMy point is!â She raises a finger up to silence your protest. âYouâre fabulous and amazing and gorgeous â have you seen your eyes? Bff, theyâre fucking pretty. Do you know what that makes you? More fucking pretty. He likes you, boo, and he's probably got a list of reasons why.â
Yejiâs love language might be words of affirmation through⊠aggression, but it is surely effective at reminding you of the fact that youâre lovable.
And so more time goes by, with things staying mostly normal if you donât count the way your cheeks seem to get extra warmer with every cup of coffee that Soobin hands you, lately. If your locked gazes stay locked for longer than necessary, or if his goodbye hugs linger a little and cause your heart to nearly beat out of your chest â it is no oneâs business but your own.Â
You know, deep in your heart, that you never really got over the guy. He left you heartbroken for a total of 36 hours, while he's spent more than 36 days swirling up a swarm of butterflies in your tummy with every action of his.
It is inevitable for you to fall for him all over again.
You have absolutely no plans of doing anything about it, however, because you have come to really cherish the close friendship you share with Soobin. You like the wheel of routine the two of you constantly spin within and don't wanna change a thing about it.
Although, that is not to say that no change ends up happening.
The wheel of routine makes a detour around a week later, some five weeks after your initiation into the broadcasting club, when you find yourself wrapped in a jacket and still shivering, sitting next to the universityâs star athlete on the bleachers in the hockey arena, at six in the morning.
âIs that all? For real?â Choi Yeonjun asks you with his eyes wide in pleasant surprise. âThat was quick.â
While you just nod with a chuckle, his girlfriend peers at you from his other side and punches him in the side. âIâve told you the important questions donât take that long! Your fangirls just wanna extend the interviews because they wanna ogle you longer.â
âYou donât have to worry about that anymore, I promise,â you tell the girl with a grin, which she returns fully.
âNah, you donât even have to tell me because I can see it in your body language,â she mumbles, pressing her cheek into her boyfriendâs shoulder, over which he tips his own head affectionately. âYouâre the first ever girl to not view him like a piece of meat. Iâm not even kidding.â
âAh, Iâm sorry about that. Your manâs okay, but heâs not my type.â
Yeonjun grins widely at your words, while her girlfriend breaks into laughter because she apparently hasnât heard anyone use the adjective âokayâ for Yeonjun ever before.Â
Anyone that tries to get between these two must be crazy, you realize, because youâve sat with them for less than an hour and can already tell how deeply in love they are. And how stinkingly cute they are together.
Well, the general consensus states that Yeonjun is cute, too. Along with being handsome, beautiful, sexy â and a whole plethora of other adjectives that his fans use for him. But it becomes hard for you to agree with the opinion when your heart, instead, chooses to skip a beat for the dimpled cutie seated two steps away from you, smiling at you from behind his camera.
Right as your eyes meet, Soobin waves a hand at you to let you know he has stopped recording. Nodding, you wave goodbye to the couple next to you and leave the spot to walk up to your cameraman.Â
âIf I get hypothermia, youâre footing my hospital bills,â you announce as you settle next to a laughing Soobin, intentionally shifting closer to him to hopefully absorb some of his body heat.Â
âI told you to bring a jacket, didnât I?â
âAnd I did, but it was useless.â
âBecause it was denim!â He gives a full belly laugh at that, and the sound is so beautiful to your ears that it becomes hard for you to maintain your scowl of annoyance. âWho brings a denim jacket when asked to carry one?â
âHey, you texted me at five am!â you whine in complaint. âI could barely open my eyes, my brain wasnât working!â
âIs that why you didnât question me?â His tone is a little teasing and so are his raised eyebrows as he smirks at you. âI asked you to come downstairs quickly and you arrived within ten minutes, ready to run away to the mountains with me if I asked. Whatâs up with that, hm?â
Your cheeks feel on fire at the implication of his words. Clearing your throat, you try to come up with a response, but your heartbeat is too loud in your ears and meeting Soobinâs playful gaze might just make it crash due to the onslaught of overwhelming emotions.
Well. At least youâre feeling a little warmer now.
âYou â you said it was a surprise and a huge honor that Iâd later thank you for⊠I got excited,â you mumble, entwining your cold fingers and stuffing your hands beneath your knees to warm them up. âThanks for thinking of me for this honor but honestlyâŠâ You gesture towards Yeonjun with your chin. âI don't really care for athletes. Theyâre not my type. I prefer brains over brawn. This guyâs taken, anyway, so people should reallyâŠâ
You trail off when you turn to look at Soobin and find him smiling at you almost knowingly, such unabashed affection in his gaze that your throat closes up with nervousness.Â
âI⊠I â I meanââ
âYeonjunâs not your type?â
Swallowing past your nerves, you very slowly shake your head. âIs that a surprise?â
He shrugs his shoulders, trying to seem nonchalant, but you see the stiffness that enters his spine at the question. âYeah, kind of. Heâs⊠well, everyone I know either wants him or wants to be him.â
Wants to be him? Oh⊠Your lips curve up in a small smile as it begins to make sense to you. âIncluding you?â
His eyes widen in surprise as he looks at you. âHeâs the most popular guy at our uni, Y/N. Who wouldnât wanna be him?â
You should be surprised by his answer but you somehow arenât. Because this ties up with a number of things youâve been unable to fully make sense of about Soobin. Most of all, this explains why it would get him so riled up that people would try to use him and his club â one of the most sacred things he holds in his life â just to get close to Yeonjun. It would also explain why he would have felt insecure and jealous about it.
Emotions such as these are hard to navigate. Within the month that youâve spent working closely with Soobin, youâve come to know that he cares about his friends a lot â he truly loves them and would go to extreme lengths to help them whenever and wherever. It pains you that he struggles with this burden on the inside.
You need him to know that he shouldnât. That he doesnât need to.Â
Which is why you shuffle closer to him, to the point where your thighs brush together, and look into his wide, bunny eyes to tell him that: âWhen I first saw you, I was fully convinced you were the most popular guy at the uni. And it stayed with me for months until I began my research into uni related facts and opinions and found out about our hockey team. This is why I could never gather enough courage to approach you, you know? You were this tall, handsome and sweet guy â textbook university crush material. How could you not be the most popular?â
Soobinâs cheeks turn pink, then pinker, then bright red, and by the end of your confession, heâs got a trail of redness climbing up to his ears. His eyes stay glued to yours, even as he bites down on his bottom lip.
When you see the way he exhales shakily, you finally release a giggle at his flustered state. âWhat? Are you really blushing that hard? How're you so cool as an emcee but your cheeks go red when a girl compliments you, Soobin?â
Soobin huffs out a laugh through his nose and rolls his eyes, pursing his lips to bite back his smile. Then he shakes his head. âNot just any girl.âÂ
This time, you feel a similar blush begin to cover your face. You attempt to joke it away. âI⊠Iâm hâhonored, I guess?â
Smirking at your stutters, Soobin simply averts his gaze from yours and goes back to packing up the recording equipment. âSpeaking of honors, by the way. This isn't exactly what I was talking about.â
You frown in confusion. âOh? So what isâwait. Why did you wake me up at five, then?!â
âWoah, easy!â he laughs when you get up and brace your fists on your waist, ready to throw hands. âI brought you here because having your first solo interview with Yeonjun would give you a good boost of publicity for your future with the club.â
âOw, are we using him for clout?â You scrunch your nose up when Soobin proudly nods.
âPrecisely. And also to give you a small rehearsal so that you know what all to focus on when you prepare for the freshman orientation thatâs coming up soon.â
You freeze in the middle of a nod.
To prepare you for what?Â
Your brain refuses to comprehend the words. He couldnât possibly be talking about the orientation, right?Â
Eyes wide and jaw dropped, you stare at Soobin while he seamlessly continues to speak.
âYou're pretty comfortable with the mic and you actually enjoy interacting with groups. I still remember the clips your friend had shown me. Orientation stage requires the ability to interact well and improvise upon the script efficiently, because youâre tasked with making sure these bunch of seventeen year olds feel welcome into their new surroundings. And you, maâam, happen to be an ace at both the arts.â
Still in disbelief, you sit next to him again and forward a hand to hold onto his forearm, bringing his focus back on you. âSoobin⊠are you sure? Iâve â Iâve been here for a month, andââ
âAnd you were amazing even before you joined us.â He turns to you to take both your palms between his, and says your name. A surge of sparks passes through your nerve endings at the warm contact, but Soobinâs gaze grounds you â itâs so open and honest that it compels you to believe every word he says to you. âYouâve only improved with each day, right? You will be great, Iâm absolutely sure.â
Nodding slowly, you begin to smile when he does.
Giving your hands a jerk, Soobin points at the couple seated a few feet away. âJust you wait and see, youâre about to go viral when this bit is released. The one girl that remains unaffected by Choi Yeonjunâs charm? Oh, youâre gonna pull so many admirers within a week. Get ready for fanboys crushing on you and sliding into your DMs. Bet theyâll have a fan page up and running before your next public appearance.âÂ
You break into laughter, craning away from him at his teasing. But Soobin tugs at your hands to pull you back up, this time bringing you closer to him than you were before. The previous traces of playfulness have given way to a small, expectant smile on his face.
"Do I get brownie points for being the first in line?"
What? What? An awkward chuckle leaves you, quickly dwindling when Soobin's smile remains unchanged as he continues to look into your eyes. "What⊠what are you talking about?"
He tilts his head sweetly, giving your hands a small squeeze as he says your name. "As if I haven't been so obvious⊠You're the most talented member our group has seen in a while, you know? I can't look away from you when you're working and, like, initially I thought I was being a fan⊠But then I started to daydream about your bright eyes, gorgeous smiles, your cute giggles, your huge fucking heart that is always so kind to everyone, andâŠ" Soobin pauses with a sigh, cheeks turning red and dimples flashing. "Come on, are you really gonna make me say it?"
Your breath comes in stuttered gasps as you try to gather your thoughts. "SooâSoobin, I⊠I⊠Do you reallyâŠ?"
"Really like you and really want to go out with you? Yeah, I do.â He smiles at you, bringing your faces close enough to boop your nose with his own. "Is there a problem?"
"You⊠like me?" You feel terribly confused, somewhat lost, and just a bit scared. If Soobin doesn't mean it with one hundred percent sincerity, you'll never recover from this hurt. So you just try to deflect: "But you barely know me?"
He pulls away with a small scoff of disbelief, eyes widening in surprise. "So it's believable for you to have a crush on me when you'd never even held a conversation with me, but you can't accept that I like you because you're the most beautiful, most intelligent and the most caring person I've ever met in my life?"
Your breath hitches on an exhale â and you're unable to breathe in again for long moments after that.Â
He thinks you're beautiful, intelligent and caring.
He likes you.
He actually likes you.
Yeji's words of aggressive affirmative circle in your head: He likes you, boo, and he's probably got a list of reasons why.
She was⊠actually right? Holy shitâŠ
You're so freaking emotional right now, you might cry.
A cross between a chuckle and a sniffle escapes you despite your attempts of stifling it, catching Soobin by surprise. His hands immediately let go of yours to cup your cheeks in concern.
"Hey, hey, what happened? Please don't think too hard aboutâ"
"Soobin," you cut him off with a whisper. "I like you, too. So, so much."
A slow smile begins to curl his lips up, beautifully. "You do?"
"I have for so long. I⊠don't think I ever stopped."
"Even with the way I hurt you so bad?" His face becomes somber for a moment.Â
"Yes, even then. You've shown me who you really are, Soobin, and that person is amazing. You've proven to me that I caught you in a moment of weakness, and⊠I think I understand it now more than ever." You smile when his lashes flutter, eyes gazing at you as if in wonder. "Besides, I think I forgave you when you first got me my correct coffee order with that cute smile of yours."
He blushes again. "Ah, so my smile is cute?"
"The cutest." You solemnly nod, cheeks still held in his palms. "Your whole face is."
"Well then, I hope you're okay with my cute face doing this?"
You know what is coming as you watch him erase the space between your mouth and his, and yet you're not nearly prepared for the way your blood turns electric the moment his plush, heart-shaped lips make contact with yours. Pure fire surges through you, body strung tight one moment and then fallen pliant in his hold the next.
Soobin's thumbs brush against the heated flesh of your cheeks, as if attempting to comfort your loud heartbeat â but it's to no avail. Your heart works faster and faster with every push of his mouth against yours, so full of giddiness that it eventually seems to levitaties up and above your body, leaving you weightless and breathless.
You try to kiss him back to the best of your abilities, but you feel like you've been entranced â held in a dreamlike state that has rendered you completely immobile and turned your brain to goo.
Soobin seems to recognise your condition, somehow, pulling away from the kiss with a chuckle brushed against your slightly parted lips. Lidded eyes look into yours with a smile held in them, his chocolate irises turned to thin rings due to how dilated his pupils are.Â
"You good?"
His voice comes out all hoarse and breathless, making your stomach clench with desire and you're instantly spurred into motion.
Reaching out with both your hands, you grip onto the back of Soobin's neck and the side of his jaw, and this time pull him in for a proper kiss with equal participation. His breath hitches for a moment, but is released in the form of a small grunt when you open your mouth against his â and that is all you need to absolutely lose yourself into the taste and feel of Choi Soobin.
You would've probably stayed lost for quite a bit too, had a loud whistle not echoed around the arena, making both you and Soobin jump apart with startled gasps. Wide eyed, you look at each other, and then two stairs above you.
Yeonjun's girlfriend is grinning at you with her entire teeth on display, while the guy himself has his arm extended towards the two of you, thumb pointed downwards.
"Her first interview isn't even out yet, dude!" he calls out, booing Soobin with his entire arm. "Literally obliterating her popularity before she could even gather bitches, you're so lame and insecure, Soob, boo hoooo!"
Soobin tosses a random plastic case towards the guy, whining into your ear as he rests his chin on your shoulder grumpily. You giggle at his pout, entwining your hands together to bring them up and press a soft kiss to the back of his.
"Are we going on that date before or after the interview is aired, then?" you tease the guy, wiggling your eyebrows.
Soobin glares at you through playfully narrowed eyes beneath lowered eyebrows, until you're giggling again and he's kissing your smile. "Definitely before."
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Heyyyyy so id like to apologize in advance for this ask, itâs dlmliyh related but mostly just a Drabble I wrote in a trance and figured no one else but you would appreciate. BUT if youâre done posting about that AU I totally understand and pls feel free to delete haha! Anyway, i was going through the whole dlmliyh tag (an entire years worth of posts woo!) and came across this one in particular ( https://www.tumblr.com/ohbo-ohno/727861861927747584/okay-but-reader-hearing-simon-punish-soap-for-the ) and omg this little Drabble just wrote itself basically. Uhhh yeah I hope u enjoy??? Iâm not a writer obviously but I was possessed. Also Iâm sending on anon cus tumblr is dumb but my cod side blog is irnbruandmanu so yeah u might see me floating in ur notes â€ïž
You can hear the harsh smack smack SMACK of Simon hitting Johnny in the other room, probably in the face from the way he grunts after each impact. A particularly harsh sound of rubber hitting flesh followed by a heavy THUD paints a perfect picture of Simon kicking John right in the ribs, sending him sprawling to the floor.
Youâre shaking almost uncontrollably now. Adrenaline and fear mixing in your stomach to create a cocktail of 100 proof nausea and anxiety. Youâre in an entirely separate room but every hit makes you flinch like itâs coming straight for you. It keeps going. On and on and on, and youâre getting more agitated by the second, nerves ramping up. Smack smack SMACK. A whine. Muttering voices. You shake your head to clear the black spots. You canât stop picturing Simon treating YOU like that. Hitting YOU so hard you slide across the floor. God youâre scared. This punishment is the worst youâve heard so far, and even though Johnny is technically the one who wrought this whole situation upon you, you want, NEED, his suffering to end before your brain splits in half and you completely lose your mind out of fear.
Trembling fingers come up to the bars of your-no, johnnyâs- no, THE dog cage, flexing against the metal. When you clear your throat, you find it so dry it feels like you havenât spoken in days. You swallow a few times to build up both nerve and saliva.
âStop.â Christ itâs basically a whisper. Maybe you HAVENâT spoken in days, itâs hard to tell really. But even your own ears had trouble picking up that pathetic cry.
This time, you hit the bars a little bit and try to yell. âStop!â
But the punishment DOESNâT stop, doesnât even slow down from the sound of it. Christ, Simon might actually kill him. Then thereâll only be you for him to focus on. You really rattle the bars now, finally seeming to find your voice.
âStop! Stop it!â
Silence. Instant and total silence. The air seems to have been vacuum sucked from the entire house. Despite how much you were begging god for it just seconds ago, the quiet suddenly seems so, SO much worse than the noise. Maybe this was a mistake. Fingers still wrapped in the cage bars, you sit there trembling and waiting to see whatâs going to happen.
The creaking of the floorboards is the first indication that anyone else is still alive in the abode. You know itâs Simonâs boots because youâd seen Johnny barefoot before the whole incident lit off. Slow, methodical steps from the next room followed by the sound of something heavy being dragged across the hardwood floors. The seconds tick by like theyâre being dragged through molasses. By the time Simons big black boot steps over the threshold of the bedroom, your eyes are glued to the floor, body seizing up periodically with involuntary shakes.
You started this. But any confidence you had is gone with the wind. You canât even make yourself look up. Fuck, FUCK, you shouldâve let Simon kill the idiot. When he fully enters the bedroom you see heâs half dragging Soap behind him by the hair, and you flinch. He comes to a halt in front of the cage and releases his hand from Soapâs head, letting the younger man basically collapse on the floor at his feet. Then Simon slowly crouches down in front of the cage, craning his neck to try and get a good look at your face. Every move is so slow and calculated, you know youâre in for it. You can tell youâve really upset him now. Youâre still too nervous meet his eyes.
âYou say something?â He growls, actually literally GROWLS the words out like it pains him to even be in your presence.
When you still donât look at him, he snaps his fingers at your face until your gaze finally flickers up to his. âOi! I asked you a question, girl.â
You know you have to respond, and you know you probably look like a dumbstruck fish when your mouth opens and closes a few times. Eyes dropping back down to Soaps body on the ground, you manage to get out a few words. âI justâŠplease stop hurting him. Please. Please I canât-â But even those few words have you choking up and starting to hyperventilate, anxiety ramping to a full blown panic attack.
Simon cocks his head again and looks you up and down. The silence besides your panicked crying and johnnys breathing weighs heavy for a long moment before Simon chuckles, and the tension seems to break immediately. The masked man in front of you relaxes his shoulders and shakes his head.
âAww you hear that, pup? Our girlâs already worried sick over you.â The condescension drips like poison from his mouth, but underneath it all you think he might genuinely be finding this kind of funny.
Johnny groans in response from the ground, but when Simon cards a hand through his hair, he sighs and lifts his head from the floor to lean into the touch.
âGo on boy, tell âer youâre alright.â Simon says, nudging Johnnyâs back in a place he must have hit earlier, because John practically whines at the touch.
â âS okay BonnieâŠâ he mumbles. âWas a bad boyâŠâave to take my punishment now.â At this, Simon seems to rumble an agreeing sound.
âYouâll get it one dayâ Soap adds, even as youâre starting to shake your head in disbelief. At this, Simon lets out a real laugh, seemingly uncaring as you flinch back further into the corner of the cage, trying to form any kind of distance between yourself and these two fucking psychopaths.
hello!!!! i have literally nothing to add but this was so so good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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U said prompts are ok too so maybe... Ingo falls into Hisui with at least 1 pokemon?
(still taking!)
(hmmm ok there is a very chandelure centric au i've been kicking around but idk if i can work it in a short thing. let's find out)
Chandelure are by no means native to Hisui, so nobody in the clans has see this specific kind of Pokémon before, but it doesn't really matter, ultimately. They know what that purple flame signifies, what kind of fuel it burns.
They're right, but their fear is also misplaced. Ingo knows this. It's not that the lantern has morals, exactly, but it's well trainedâit knows how to siphon only a tiny bit of life, how to feed itself without killing others, it would only eat whole humans if it was desperate.
But he also knows that if it were starving, it wouldn't hesitate to use whatever was nearby. And, worse, he also knowsâthough he can't justify it to any level of conscienceâthat he would let it. For some reason, there is nothing as important to him as keeping the lantern lit. And if it fights too hard and its flame dips low, he feels it, as if it's him that's growing exhausted, but that isn't it. That's not enough of a reason. Whatever his connection to this lantern isâwherever he found it, why it follows himâhe can't shake the feeling that if it ever goes out, something terrible would happen. Terrible enough that he would do just about anything to keep it burning.
And Hisui, he feels, is sparsely populated, such that it might struggle to find fuel, but fortunately they figure out a solution pretty quickly. It drinks the frenzy of alphas. It's easyânone of them come close to matching its strength.
(The Pearl Clan warms up to it pretty quickly after that.)
#the nemesis speaks#the nemesis answers#anonymous#swift writes#pokefic pitch#uh. the actual au idea. bc i guess i should clarify ghskjh#is that as a kid emmet came very close to dying so ingo (very desperate and also a child with very limited planning ability)#went out and got a litwick (line? i think litwick but it couldve been any of them) and fed it BOTH their souls.#with the contract being that instead of making them fuel it would make them the flame itself-with all the give/take that implies#so they live as long as the flame is burning- but what ingo is unconsciously remembering here#is that if chandelure runs out of fuel not only will HE die. but so will emmet.#anyway unrelated to all that i also think the idea of chandelure defrenzying alphas by Eating the frenzy is fun#and i wonder if that has any side effects!#litwick souls au#sorta. this was the original concept anyway
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HIIIIIIIiiiiii itâs @mrfartpowered I just need you to know that ur band au is literally eating my brain. It lives in there, dude. Itâs like a second canon to me đđ the angst is SOOOOOO so so tasty Iâm actually such a fiend for the tension and dramaâŠâŠand giving levander the role size he deserves ?? CHERRY ON TOP (chefs kiss) if u ever wanted to talk more abt that I would looooove love love to hear :3333
omg thank you im glad you like it so much <3 i have so many ideas for the band au that makes no sense to anyone but me
speaking of nonsense that makes sense to no one but me, do you want some randyverse ideas i have? here's some ideas. human nomicon my beloved putting this under a read more. i've been thinking about this again
I have a lot of thoughts about the ninja nomicon during all this
So there's 4 different nomicons. OG Nomicon, which OG Randy has. Band Nomicon, which is with the band ninja. Swap Nomicon, which is being evil in the swap au. and guide nomicon, which is with the guide ninja in the guide au.
Band Nomicon has all of Band Randy's memories, though it and the band Ninja are completely irrealvant. They don't show up at all. Guide Randy suggested that they don't get the band ninja involved in this whole multiverse thing because. what are they gonna do about it?
Swap Nomicon probably ends up teaming up with evil juilan to destroy everything
OG Nomicon has. absolutely 0 goddamn clue what's going on. Nothing like this has ever happened before. It's struggling Hard to comprehend that there's alternate universes.
It... doesn't really trust Guide Randy, thanks to what happened with Mac Antfee. Probably tries to mind wipe him every time he goes inside it.
Levander had no clue about the ninja nomicon, so when he sees OG Randy go into the nomicon for the first time, he thought he died.
i have a more specfic idea for guide au nomicon. here it is
So, guide au. a stanking happens, guide randy and the ninja go to investigate it, guide randy falls into the multiverse
While he's stuck in the band au, the Ninja and the Nomicon have. NO goddamn clue where he went. As far as they know, he's not in the realm of shadows, but he's alive.
They... really don't know what to do about it. the Ninja can't go after him if they don't know where he went. the Nomicon has NEVER had a student just. outright disappear before. It's had students do stupid stuff, get hurt, mind wipe, etc but never just disappear.
The ninja does try looking for him around Norrisvile, thinking the portal might have been like, a portal from the video game portal. but no dice.
Well, they can't just let Randy lose his job as a teacher. So, Ninja suggests to the Nomicon maybe making some kind of clone of him to pose as him until he comes back.
NomiRandy is. NOT down for it. outright tells the ninja to fuck off at even suggesting such a thing.
Ninja turns to the Nomicon and is like, "maybe you can pose as Mr. Cunningham until he comes back? I mean, if you can give Nomirandy a body, maybe you can give yourself one?"
Nomicon is... hesitant to do so, but it ultimately agrees to act as Randy. It shapeshifts itself to look like him using the art of disguise.
The thing is, Nomicon is a book. It doesn't understand human stuff very well, despite being filled of memories from humans. 14-18 year old humans.
Nomicon essentially just. gets into a bunch of trouble and pins it onto Randy's name. Payback for all the stupid shit he did as the ninja.
At school, the Nomicon tries to follow the Ninja around, but it's like Ninja: No, Nomicon you gotta stay in Mr. Cunningham's classroom. You can't follow me everywhere. Nomicon: ?????? But you're the ninja?? I have to stay with you. It's my duty to teach you the ways of the ninja. Ninja: I know, but no one else knows that. I know you're the nomicon. but right now, everyone thinks you're Mr. Cunningham. Nomicon: But... I have to stay with you. Ninja: I know but... look, just stay in his classroom until school's over. I'll be back as soon as I can. Nomicon:... What am I meant to do? I-I've never done this before... Ninja: uh... I don't know. Do what teachers do. Maybe grade some papers? Nomicon's angrily sitting at Randy's desk, getting anxious like it's husband just went off to fight the war when the Ninja is 3 classrooms away.
Randy's known as one of the cooler teachers at the school. He lets students skip in his class as long as their work is done in whatever class their skipping, doesn't give out homework, and is just chill overall. One student reguarly skips in his class, and they try to tease the nomicon.
Student: Come on, Sensei, aren't I you're favorite student?
Nomicon:.... you're not the ninja
Student: HUH
Nomicon acts stand-off-ish around the other teachers, which is weird bc Randy's usually friendly and respectful to everyone. It asks one student what it's supposed to be teaching, (randy teaches either japanese, english, or art. entirely depends what i feel that day), doesn't take attendance, and just acts strange all around.
Instead of teaching anything actually useful, Nomicon teaches the regular students some wild shit, like how to make a smokebomb or how to build a boobytrap. The students are absolutely down for it, the rest of the staff... not as much.
Word eventually gets around to the Principal of 'Randy's' weird behavior. the Principal is another OC of mine. He took over after Slimovtiz retires and is friends with Randy. Principal relies on him to deal with all the weird shit around the school, and they hang out after work sometimes. Dude has NO clue Randy's working with the Ninja, tho.
Principal: So I've been hearing some, rather concerning stuff about you these past few days. You haven't been as friendly with the rest of the staff, you haven't been teaching the curriculum, and I'm sure you know the rest. Now, I know you're not exactly the most strict teacher but... is everything okay? Nomicon: uhhhh yep!! Everything is fine!! I'm totally not an 800 year old book posing as my previous student who randomly disappeared and possibly died!! Nope, not at all!1 Principal:.... what -
Principal: I... hate to ask this, but I have to, just to be safe. You're not on any substances, are you? Nomicon:... What do you mean by substances?
Principal: Drugs or alcohol or anything of the sort. You've said before you don't take anything, but I just need to be sure. Nomicon: Oh I'm on all of the drugs *among us sus sound*
Nomicon's trying to act like randy based off of it's 14-18 year old memory of him. It's not going well. only reason he's not fired is because the principal doesn't tell the school board about it.
Guide Howard has, no clue about any of this. Before he disappeared into the multiverse, Guide Randy told him he had a work thing to take care of.
Howard tries to reach out to him. He tries texting and calling, no response. He goes over to Randy's house, he's not there. He goes to the school, only to find the Nomicon.
Nomicon... doesn't recongize him at first. While the nomicon sees Randy almost daily, it hasn't actually seen Howard since graduation.
Howard: dude where have you been? I've been looking for you EVERYWHERE Nomicon, leaning over to the Ninja: who is that
Nomicon tries to keep up the act for a bit, but Howard sees through it almost immediately. Ninja tells him what happened, and Howard is PISSED.
"Are you serious? He told me he had a work thing! *long, deep sigh* goddammit, Randy..."
Guide Howard is worried sick like a mom watching their kid go to college, while Guide Randy is totally fine, trying to learn how to dance in place of band randy while band randy is MIA.
I imagine the guide bros also have some drama to them. Howard's supportive of Randy still sticking with the ninja, but Randy pushes him away because he doesn't want him to get hurt, and doesn't want to be a burden on him. may or may not lead guide randy being corrupted later. who knows
i have thought about this. too much
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Forgot to share the rest of this, my bad
This Alphys is heavely inspired on Core!Friskr, so that probably already tells you a lot
Anyways, before I get down to explaining:
TW: SUICIDE MENTION
(Also, VEEEEEERY long post ahead)
In a part of the game (don't remember exactly where, sorry), Undyne mentions she met Alphys at the dumpstare in Waterfall. More specifically, she says that she saw her near the border of a waterfall, and that she "saved her from accidentally falling". From the whole dialogue and what we learn about Alphys later on in the game and all her insecurities, it is heavely implied that she was trying to take her own life, but Undyne, without knowing her true intentions, stopped her from doing so
Now, imagine, what if instead of doing it in Waterfall where Undyne would stop her, she decided to go somewhere closer, like for example, the Core
Just like a certain mystery man, Alphys gets earased from the timeline, and the universe desperately tries to fill in the gap that was created when she dissapeared (and here's where the concept for just one character railed off into a whole AU, BUT FIRST WE FOCUS ON THE GIRLIE)
At first Alphys was stuck in the void, that's where she met Gaster and other people that had fallen into the Core. Turns out people's worries about how someone might fall in there were right, and she felt stupid for thinking "Well the Core has been standing for years, and no one has fallen in yet, so it doesn't seem likely for something like that to happen", but Gaster calms her down saying that he made the same mistake as her, and that it wasn't her fault, that she had no way to know what would happen, after all, the universe itself was hiding all the incidents with the Core
After that she starts paniking. She needs to go back, this is even worse than living her pathetic life. She may have wanted death, because it meant the end of all things, but this wasn't it. Sure, she had cease to exist, but she was still concious, she could still see what was happening in the real world, and how she was now an outsider to it. Her attempts of reaching out start making small fractures in reality: phone calls from unknown numbers that when picked up only make weird souns, TVs suddendly going static with the vague sound of someone calling for help, notes appearing on computers' destokps saying things like "is anny0ne th ree ?." "ca can you h ar mme?" "iT ''s $o cOoold" "do U rembember mE ME-'?", etc. There has been some rumors in Snowdin of people who get lost in its forest, they say that a monochrome dinasour monster helped them get out of there, pointing at the direction they should follow. Those few who tried to touch them say that she tried to scream, but no noise came out of her mouth, then started melting, and dissapeared in the blink of an eye
Eventually, she's able to escape
She can't go back to her timeline; the universe recognises her code as something it has been erased, and so, unable to delete her again, it tries to kick her out as soon as she enters. Instead, she's able to explore the multiverse
I had some trouble thinking about what would be Alhpys' role in the multiverse, as I didn't want her to just be Core!Frisk 2 but Lisa Simpson flavoured, but I think I have kinda figured it out. She of course is found by Core, who offers her to stay on the Omega Timeline with more people like her, which she accepts as she is desperate to be around other people besides those trapped in the void
Alphys has currently three objectives: 1_ Fix the code of her timeline so she can go back to it 2_ Fix whatever the hell is wrong with the Core that keeps deleting people out of existance (Not just from her universe, but from every universe) 3_ Help people
I know "help people" is very vague, and that's why I'm explaining it here. She helps guide those who are lost, either physically or mentally, just like she used to do in the woods of Snowdin. Those who are lost in the way of, they have lost everything, she guides them to Core, as she knows they know better than her about what to do in those situations. But also, she is focused on preventing people to become like her, erased from their worlds (Either by falling into the Core, weird things with resets, whatever the hell happened to most Error characters, etc)
Personality wise, she's still Alphys to her core, but of course stuff like this changes a person. She has become more anxious and a perfectionist, she thinks that she can't dare make a mistake now that she has seen what those mistakes can do. Because of this, she's always on edge, and since her code corruption made her more unstable, she may be quick to jump to anger unlike other Alphyses (She then feels bad and overly apologises for snapping at people for so little)
Her abilities (besides travelling between AUs) include manipulating technology, teleportation, going through walls and other solid objects, and do small jumps in time either forward or backwards (This last ability happens involuntarely, and no matter how much she tries she's unable to control it. Fortunatelly for her, this is something that very very very rarely hapens). These powers are all directly connected to her innestability
Some other fun fact about her: · Just like Fatal_Error, her speach bubbles are messy and difficult to understand (though she is far more easier to understand than poor Fatal over here) · Her image may start melting when she's upset, paniking or stresssing out · She still loves anime, and watches it in the OT with other monsters that live there · Refuses to go to therapy because "I'm not even that fucked up, other people have it worse, lol" (Girl, you literally killed yourself) · She tends to pop out of nowhere, acting like she has been there the whole time (Kinda like Core)
But what happened to her AU? To the empty space she left behind?
Like the very basic Undertale fan that I am, I have replaced Alphys' place in the laboratory with Sans, but I want him to kinda suck at it. I always liked to think that Sans was kind of like Alphys' assistant in the game, so now having him as the main and only scientist, he starts to question himself. "Has the job always been this difficult? How was I able to do all those things? Why does it feel like there's a missing pair of hands helping around here? When did I do any of this?" Don't get me wrong, Sans is a smart guy! But there's a reason why he was the assistant
And then there's the amalgamate problem. He... he couldn't have done that, could he? No, of course not! These entries, they have no name, and he definitely doesn't remember doing this out of all things. Must have been the past royal scientist... whoever they are, and now it is his problem to deal with. He asked Asgore about who had been the previous royal scientist, but he couldn't remember who it was, nor why they needed a replacement. He also mentioned having a deja vu
Sans' issue in the story wouldn't be Alphys' struggle of feeling like a fraud, but instead, he fears the gap in his memory and the unability to keep up with his job. He, more than anyone, has the feeling that there's something missing, and starts believing he has a mental illeness that affects his memory, but all results with multiple doctors say that he's perfectly fine, and that's what's making him go nuts the most. All this research, it clearly isn't his, not only he has no memory of doing so, but he's also unable to recreate it, so why do all these papers have his name on them? He wants to believe the doctors, but he can't, because he can feel the chunk of his brain that has been ripped away from him
Most other characters remain mostly the same as they didn't have such a strong connection to Alphys until the events of the game, but there are two that have been affected by the changes in the universe
If we talk about Sans, then we must talk about Papyrus. Contrary to what happens in UT, here, Papyrus constantly tells Sans that he should rest, take a break. He sees how his brother is over working himself and stressing out, barely taking an eye of his work. This has gone as far as him going to Sans' lab at night because he hasn't arrived home yet, only to find that he has falled asleep while working. Sans tells him that he's fine, that he doesn't need to worry about him, but Paps isn't blind nor stupid, and he sees how he's clearly not fine. Not only is he tired from his job, but he can also see how there's something else bothering him, but isn't sure what it is. If only Sans would open up to him and accept his help (Fun fact, in the events of the game the only reason why Sans is in Snowdin to do his shinanigans with Paps, is because that was one of the few times Papyrus was able to convince him to take a break. He does however leave when the human gets to Snowdin town as he has to get back to his work)
The other character affected by this is Mettaton, but not in the way you'd think. As I mentioned before, the way Alphys tries to communicate with her timeline is through electrical devices, and one of those devices is Mettaton's body. Since she was the one to build the thing, it is easier for her to get in contact with it. Alphys and Mettaton constantly talk in Mettaton's mind; he is the only person who she can make direct contact with. Mettaton, like everyone else, doesn't remember Alphys, but he's very aware of her existance, somewhere, not in this reality. He also is very kin to believe that she was part of this world, not only because some of the things she says make sense and coincide with this universe, but also because, just like Sans, he can feel the gap in his memory, and Alphys fits so well in it. They become friends and bond over the same things as they did originally, but their relationship is more complicated to mantain since Alphy's conection keeps turning on and off
Alphys' and Mettaton's relationship also affect how things in Hotland play out. As we know, the reason Mettaton originally went after the human was because Alphys wanted to act as their hero, but of course, without Alphys in the ecuation trying to feel like a hero, Mettaton wouldn't attack the human, and all the puzzles in Hotland would be turned off as Sans doesn't see a reason to keep them on, inconveniencing people. However, as someone who is outside of time and space, Alphys knows about the resets and saves, and thus she doesn't trust the human, she considers them a threat to her world. Because of this, she activates all the puzzles in Hotland, hoping that they will push the human into the Core and end their existance, and informs Mettaton about the threat, so that he can act on it. But, he likes to think that there's some good in the kid, so all their encounters throught the game are like tests to determine whether they are a friend or foe, and depending on their actions, their final battle will either be just an act to entertain the public, or an actual attempt to be rid of them. Meanwhile, you've got Sans freaking out all over the place because a bunch of dangerous puzzles activated out of nowhere, can't turn them off, and Mettaton has gone all crazy robot mode with not apparent explenation. Jesus Christ lady, you really have no idea how hard it is to keep up that promise of keeping the human alive! (In a genocide timeline Sans himself goes like "Nah dude, fuck that kid" and activates all the puzzles while telling Mettaton to go for the throat)
Also, yes, the fact that Alphys knows about Frisk's resets means that she's also aware of Flowey's. Poor little guy, he has shat his pants a bunch of times when stumbling against her, and he has also gone a bit nuts trying to figure out who she is and where did she come from
I think this is all I have to say about this AU for now If you have any ideas (or any ideas for the name) you can send them to my askbox I'll draw her some other day
Also, I am so sorry for splitting up the lesbians </3 (I'm sure I can find her some Undyne in the OT for her to make out though, if that's what you want)
Edit: I have chosen a name for the AU. "Missing Piece Tale" (I know, super creative /s), or just MPTale for short
I just had a great idea for an Alphys outcode
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i just can't get the Moonlight Thief Au ideas out on my mind its actually spreading fast like moss its taking half of my brain so here's another fic based on it hueueue
au credits to @jackplushie
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The Rose Ruby
(Moonlight Thief!Reader x Riddle)
Summary: Riddle have been assigned to guard a gemstone from another country to prevent you from stealing it but he didn't guessed you were after him instead. a tyrannical rose ruby is what you eye, what a great find.
Note: Reader might sound ooc but that's just because of the dialogue i wrote i hope you don't mind it ehehe
Riddle was anxious
the Moonlight Thief hasn't been catched ever since their first steal, being famous for their tricks and schemes they started to rise up with their fame yet they only leave notes and only have few photographs doing the stealing in action or escaping the minute the moment authorities arrived
you were truly mischievous
but this time, he will catch you he damn sure will
he didn't just became a police captain for the top position and following his mother's footsteps, he had became a police captain so he could catch you and make his mother even more prouder of him than now
truly, catching you became his top priority the moment he had achieved the position of police captain
you have managed to run around the hedges of his rose maze, like a sneaky little mouse, but he'll stop it now.
a expensive red beryl gemstone have been transported to the Seven Sage's City, it was to be delivered into another country and only staying at this city for temporary check-in
Riddle was assigned into the important task of guarding it, including the whole Heartslabyul troupe and leading them to catch you tonight.
it was theorized that the rare stone is going to be in your hands as soon as it arrived, of course news would get around since nothing expensive get past you lest a important imported stone from another country, if anything everyone knows you would likely to steal it
but he won't let that happen, tonight he would catch you once and for all, ending ll your mischiefs and crimes. he had called for backup incase the portion of guard would be too small and easy to escape for you
applying tons of rules to his troupe members, strictly lecturing them whole and perfectly shaping them to follow his laws. he had heard them slander him calling him awful and a tyrant but he didn't care it was all to catch you
he also added multiple security cameras, laser beams that automatically blares when somebody who doesn't have a police badge pass through, and the captain police himself guarding the precious stone inside alone .
don't you see Moonlight Thief? he was doing everything he can to catch you so why not just be kind and give yourself up to him
he would love to see you inside of an interrogation room, answering the questions of your true intentions of why you would steal important or expensive materials from rich people
you didn't have a pattern in your purloins, you ought to get whatever catches your eye even if it only sparkled a bit. everyone would be scared to brag about the expensive jewelries or accessories they own as long as your alias would be brought up to the room
they would want to protect it as if it's important more than their own lives, terrified of you taking the dearest item away from their money-greedy hands, why would that be? what was your real ambition? what is the real charm you hold to keep the greed and evil itself afraid of you?
he wishes to find out.
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in disguise of a police officer, you enter the room without problems and approached the young red haired man guarding the stone alone, smiling to yourself as you ask if this is where the gemstone is kept as he looked at you suspiciously
"go back to your position rookie." as the police captain he is, he glared at you with full distaste, clearly you were being disrespectful to your senior and leaving your assgined position didn't make it better, rule 345 said that "no rookie are supposed to leave on their on own unless they are ordered to", you need a scolding about following the rules in Heartslabyul when he is done with his current mission on catching the moonlight thi-
"Hmm sure, but can i ask you a question question?"
"Make it quick" Riddle replied stubbornly so
"have you heard about the Rose Ruby of the Queen of Hearts? he kind of caught my eye on my way here." you clasp your hands in glee hoping that he would know the answer
"Rose Ruby of the Queen of Hearts...?" Queen of Hearts? where have he heard that nickname before?
"son of a highest ranking chief officer of seven sages city." you were addressing his mother but your voice sounded dangerous making him alert.
"I'm talking about you, The smartest and tyrannical leader of the Heartslabyul Troupe Squad, The Rose Ruby, Riddle Rosehearts."
"wha-" before he could even say anything, you swiftly move towards him, carried him and crashes the glass of a window nearby as you jump off with Riddle on your arms
the sound of shattering glass alerted the guards outside of the building, looking at your way. the sight of the shattered fragments of the window glass and the Moonlight Thief carrying the red haired police captain while shining against the moonlight was fascinating and would be thought as romantic if the situation isn't considered as a kidnapping and a robbery crime
"HEY! CATCH THEM, THE MOONLIGHT THIEF PROBABLY HAS THE STUPID STONE!" one of the man shouted loud enough for you to hear, as you land they were running after you and firing shots whilst the others rushed to check your previous location.
after running around for a bit, successfully avoiding the bullets of firing guns behind you, and bearing the flailing Riddle on your arms repeating the words "let go of me!!" you have finally lost the men running on your tracks
after catching a few breaths, Riddle was still squirming on your hold, it annoyed you a little bit but carrying him like this is a fun way of teasing him
you lean down with still
"shh, look" you whisper to Riddle as you lean down on the bushes with him still in your arms, you both saw the black cars driving away from the lot fast that smoke and tire scratches on the ground appeared so visibly
"heh stupid idiots, that's not even the real thing" you mumble while grinnin with a stupid smug, Riddle's head lowered and his hand shifted near his waist
he took out to his gun and successfully pointed it to your chin in a threatening way
"put me down, back off, and put your hands in the air Moonlight Thief." His grey eyes and reddened face are filled with flaming rage you thought the moment he put his finger on the trigger he would shoot you with no hesitation
you sigh as you put him down and backed off a bit raising both of your hands in the air, his gun was still pointing at you so are his angry eyes.
a few moments of silence you decided to speak
"the backup you called are not backups, they were poachers like me who's after the stone" you said stretching your arms, Riddle was small and easy to carry but it still kinda strained you
"and they took the fake one and left." you smirked about those idiots who didn't even check close if the thing is real or not, it just really says how inexperienced the crooks nowadays
"no worries though, your whole troupe is safe on another building, they lead them there so they wouldn't have to deal with a lot of heartslabyul guys, their actual plan is to just take you out alone" Riddle shooked, he didn't even notice it, he was too focused on tactics on catching you he didn't become careful of his actions leading him to an dangerous situation
he clicked his tounge and sweat, seeing how panicked he is you felt a little pity for him, you move your hand down to your pockets as if reaching for something
"keep those hands up where i can see them or else you'll get it" you hesitate and looked at him raising your eyebrow, nevertheless you didn't let his threat stop you continued searching your pocket
by moving like that to Riddle you have already accepted your sentence and he pulled the trigger but instead of a bang it was just a click, no bullets were released or gunpowder to fire the bullets out
he was confused and repeatedly tried to pull the trigger again and again at you
"oh, were you looking for this?" his eye wide opened as your hand revealed several bullets of his gun
"can't have you shooting me so I'll take it okay?" you grasped it closed and put it back to your other pocket leaving Riddle's face still in shock
just when did you even had time to do that? your skills at stealing is impeccable he himself can't even believe it
your hand bump into something hard inside of your pocket and you brightened up
you take it out and throw it to Riddle who tried to catched it while trying not to stumble on the ground by doing so
the Red Beryl
the stone you were supposed to take
his bait on catching you and putting you on that prison cell
"why are you giving it back? didn't you want this?" Riddle gave you a look of confusion and uncertainty
"well, like i said i am not here for the red beryl" you said as you try to step closer to Riddle who tried to back away as you have stepped closer
"i was after the reddest rose ruby of the Queen of Hearts" you smile softly at him
"and I've completely stolen him haven't i?" he felt heat rush to his face revealing a red blush on his face as you said those words
are you really flirting at him at this type of moment!?
you chuckle as you torment the man in flustering, he clearly doesn't really know how to respond to your words
"I'm taking your bullets though, i don't want you shooting me if i return it after all and plus" you turn your back to him jumping on the highest prefecture you can reach
"even the tiniest fragment of the ruby is just as important as the ruby itself. I'll remember you with this--" you jump away from the scene leaving the young man stunned at your figure glossening at the moon
"my favorite ruby, Riddle."
OMAKE:
News Reporter: is it true that the Moonlight Thief isn't successful in stealing the Red Beryl because of you?
Riddle: huh...ah yeah not that they want it though they wanted m..me
News Reporter: huh?
âą|âą
Heartslbyul troupe eating tarts and muffins: i feel like I'm forgetting something
another Heartslabyul police: maybe it's not important if you forget about it
Heartslabyul Troupe: Yeah you're right
*Riddle who's guarding the stone alone in another building about to be killed if it weren't for the Moonlight Thief*
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a/n: I LOVEEEE CAPTIVE PRINCESS X GENTLEMAN THIEF TROPE SO I DECIDED TO BASE IT ON THIS I HOPE YOU DONT MIND EHEHE (â ïœĄâ âąÌâ áŽâ -â )â â§
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a/n: here she is!!! while i work on afl, here is my crackfic on tattoo artist bucky!! if u havenât caught on yet, most of my writing is auâs because of all the possibilites in terms of scenarios and storylines. anyways, i hope you enjoy, lovies!!! xoxo, ali <3
wc: 2.8kÂ
[tattoo artist!bucky x fem!reader]
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It was like an addiction.Â
Your first tattoo you got was simple. It was a dainty, small one on your wrist.
But now, it was slowly developing into a sleeve.
Not that you minded, though. Your forearm was slowly becoming filled with designs that you kept going back and getting here and there.
And at the tattoo parlor near your apartment in Brooklyn, you had become a regular at this point.
It was called B&R Tattoo Shop, and it was run by two of the kindest, but most attractive men youâve ever met.Â
Youâve come to find out after getting to know the owners, that they opened the shop a bit after they returned from their second tour in the army and wanted to settle back in their hometown. Â
Steve and James were hospitable to you, especially when they first met you. Steve was the one to meet you and speak with you at first, but he handed you off to James, or Bucky as he asked you to call him, because he was the artist at their shop that specialized in more of what you were looking for in terms of style.Â
As far as first tattoo conversations go, you and Bucky got to know each other pretty well in one session. The tattoo itself took less than an hour, but it felt like Bucky was... prolonging it in a way, like he wanted to keep you there longer.
As you swung open the door of the shop, you were greeted by their piercer, Natasha.Â
âHey, back for another already?â She smirks from her spot behind the desk. While she wasnât piercing, she usually worked the front if there was no one else free.
Your first tattoo had been done by Bucky, and you instantly fell in love.
With the tattoo.Â
Well, Bucky too. Just a little bit.
He was extremely soothing and eased you into the process of tattooing you. He told you when something was going to happen, and as soon as you got used to the feeling of the needle against your skin.Â
The more he talked to you, the less pain you felt. It was already not that painful, but you almost forgot about it with him talking to you. When he looked up to you as he finished, you looked like a confused puppy.
âOkay, all done, doll.â Bucky looked up at you, moving to turn off his machine.
âOh... that was fast.â You furrowed your brows.
âWell, yeah, we moved pretty fast since it was a pretty small piece.â He explains, grabbing a paper towel and the anti-bacterial spray.
âDo you mind if I take a quick picture of it? I usually do, for my portfolio.â Bucky asks, inspecting the tattoo closely once again.
âOh, yeah, thatâs fine.â You wait for him to pull out his camera, take the picture, and he comes back with a piece of plastic film in his hand.
âOkay, so this saniderm has to stay on for about three days. This is how itâll heal, and when you take it off just wash it up with a gentle soap and use a cream without any fragrance or any of that crap. I can give you a little of that spray if you wanna use it to clean it up if you ever feel like itâs dirty.â Bucky explains, giving you a mini bottle of the antibacterial spray.
âThank you,â you say, moving to sit up in the chair. âHow much do I owe you?â
âUh, just about $40.â Bucky says without eye contact, heading to the computer at the front counter.
â$40? Thatâs it? When I signed the waiver it said the shop minimum was $75...?â You wonder out loud.
âLetâs just say you get a special discount, doll.â He smirks, typing something into the computer and only sparing you a glance.
âO-Oh. Alright.â You say sheepishly, handing him your credit card.
âOkay, youâre all set. Hopefully Iâll see you again soon.â He tells you with a gentle smile. It really contrasted his aura; a big, beefy guy with a metal prosthetic arm, covered in probably hundreds of tattoos. But here he was, smiling like sunshine.
âI think I will be. Have a nice day, Bucky.âÂ
âYou too, sweetheart.â He gives you that smirk again, making you feel like you might actually pass out. And not because you just had a needle jabbed into your skin for almost an hour.
âUh, I already talked to Bucky for my session today. I know Iâm a bit early, I can wait if heâs still working on someone else.â You tell Natasha with a smile.
âSure, let me get you your waiver.â She says, and you plop down into one of the chairs at the front and pulling out your book to pass time after filling out the form.
After a few minutes, Bucky emerges with a girl from his little tattooing corner.
You hear his voice first, looking up from the book while he talks to her.
âOkay, since this was your first piece and pretty small, Iâll only charge ya $55 for it, doll.â Bucky tells the girl with a smile, and you immediately feel a pang in your chest.
You didnât want to say you were jealous, but goddamn it, your breathing became just a little more shallow at the sight you were currently witnessing.
Even Natasha and Steve turned their heads to him, confused looks on both of their faces.
âOh! Y/N, youâre here! Câmon back, Iâm sure Nat already set you up with your waiver.â You nod, not saying a word as you follow him to the familiar chair.
âSo, are we still doing what we discussed on the phone?â Bucky asks, setting up his area to tattoo you.
âActually, I was thinking something different.â You say sharply.
âDifferent?â The shock is evident on his features.Â
âYeah. Different. Just want a little something on my collarbone.â You say, sitting down.Â
âO-Okay... what were you thinking of?â He asks, pulling out his sketchbook.
âI want an olive branch, going from here to here.â You show him where you want it to start and end. It was a bit of a stretch right across the left side of your chest. âSomething simple and minimal. Iâve been thinking of starting the top of my sleeve, this might be a good way to transition into it.â You say nonchalantly.
âUhm... alright. How does this look?â Bucky asks, showing you his sketch. âI would, of course, add more detail to your liking, just let me know.âÂ
âYeah, I want some more shading, please.â You say shortly. You honestly werenât trying to be mean, but you were irritated.
But in the end, you really had no right to be.Â
After almost ten sessions with Bucky, he hasnât made any indication that he likes you the way you like him.
Sure, he calls you pet names, but he does that to everyone. Even discounts. You werenât special. He was just being nice and doing his job.
So honestly, you had to cut the act here.
âAre you sure this is what you want? Are you saving the other design for our next session?â Bucky asks, growing more and more concerned with your odd behavior. Usually you would talk to him about your day, how work was, really anything.Â
âI donât know. I think I might ask Steve to do that one instead.â You say out of spite, more than anything. You would never take a design that Bucky made specially for you to another person to tattoo on you, even if it was his own business partner.
âWha- Why? Did I do something? Youâve been acting really weird today...â Bucky questions you carefully. âTalk to me, doll. Did you have a bad day at work?â
But that, that right there, was your breaking point. Doll.Â
âNo, Iâm fine. Letâs just get this done.â You huff, laying down after nodding to the sketch that Bucky drew out.Â
Buckyâs brows furrowed even further, but didnât ask any more questions. He laid down the stencil and asked if the placement was alright. You looked in the mirror he handed you and nodded briefly.Â
The entire time Bucky had the machine in his hand, neither of you spoke a word. He tried to make brief conversation, but you only responded with a hum or nod.Â
When he finally finished up, you got up and headed to the counter without a word after looking at the finished tattoo in the mirror.Â
Your face was blank, emotionless, and Bucky was truly lost.Â
After you paid the full price of your piece, you walked out of the shop, not even sparing anyone a glance.Â
Once you left, the shop was dead silent. Everyone either just finished up with a client or didnât have any at the moment, and the shop was blanketed in an extremely uncomfortable silence.
âWhat the hell was that, man?â Samâs voice broke the silence, making Buckyâs head snap towards him.Â
âI-I... I have no idea. She was acting so...so weird today.â Bucky looked more confused than ever.
âYouâre an idiot, you know that?â Natashaâs voice cuts through the palpable silence.
âWh- What the hell did I do? I asked her too, and she didnât give me an answer...â Bucky mumbles.
âDo you like her?â She fires back with a fire in her eyes.
âW-Well, yeah. Sheâs a regular.â Bucky answers, looking at his fiddling hands.
âNot like that, you dunce. You know what I mean, donât act dumb.â Natasha rolls her eyes.
Bucky sighs, not making eye contact yet again.
âI-... I do like her.â He says. âBut I donât think she feels the same.âÂ
âJesus fucking Christ... You really are a dumbass.â Sam sighs out.
Steve snorts at his words, nodding in agreement.
âBuck, she got jealous.â He explains, shaking his head at his best friendâs obliviousness.
âJ-Jealous? Of what?â Bucky scoffs in shock.
âThat girl you had right before her. Gave her a discount, called her pet names. The whole shabang.â Natasha points out to him. âAlso, you gotta stop giving out discounts like that. Youâll lose more money than youâre makinâ.â Natasha scoffs.Â
âWh- But... She never said anything...?â Bucky thinks back to all the times youâve sat in his chair. You never made any indication that you were outwardly interested in him.
âI think she said enough today without actually saying much.â Steve laughs. His friend was a real idiot.
âI... But, why didnât she say anything before?â Bucky asked.
âBuck, you never said anything either. I guess that when she heard you talk to that girl like that, she thought you really didnât like her like that at all. You treated that girl the same way you treat her.â Natasha explains to Bucky, who had a look of realization on his face.
âBut... I was just... being nice...â He says with his head in his hands.Â
âWell, now she thinks you do that with all you clients, so...â Sam says, making the brunetâs head shoot up.
âFuck. Fuck. I fucked up everything!â He exclaims. âI-I do like her!âÂ
âWell, donât tell us that, tell her!â Sam shouts back to him, and before Bucky can process, heâs pulling out his phone and dialing your phone number.
âCâmon, pick up, pick up,â He mumbles repeatedly, but the call goes to voicemail. âFuck.â
âNot pickinâ up?â Steve questions, coming to the front and picking up the shop phone. âGimme her number, sheâs doesnât have to shop saved to her phone, right?âÂ
âNo, I donât think she does.â Bucky says, watching as Steve dials your number.
âHello?â Your voice sounds annoyed as it filters through the phone. âWhoâs this?âÂ
âUh, Y/N! Hi!â Steve speaks, looking at Bucky in a panic, his facial expression screaming, âtalk to her!âÂ
âSteve? Whatâs up?â You ask, wondering what he needed.Â
âYou uhh... you forgot your book here!â He blurts out, trying to find an excuse, but quickly found one upon seeing your book resting on the seat where you were waiting.Â
âO-Oh... I guess Iâll just turn around. Iâll be there in a few. Thanks, Steve.â You say, ready to hang up.
âO-Okay. Bye, Y/N.â He clears his throat, hanging up. âYou have like, ten minutes to get your shit together and talk to her when she gets here. Good luck.â Steve pats Bucky on the shoulder, ready to haul Natasha and Sam to the back to give you two some privacy.
Bucky thought that this was the longest ten minutes of his life, and he was trying to conjure up a speech in his head to confess to you.
Finally, when you did appear through the doors, you looked lost. You only saw Bucky, which made you even more aggravated from the fact that you had to turn back around.
You were ready to head home and wallow in peace, but alas, you wanted your book.Â
Bucky just watched as you picked up the book from his grasp across the desk, your eyes not meeting his while he kept his gaze on you very intently.Â
Just as you turned around to leave, Buckyâs voice cut through the unbearable silence.
âY/N?â He simply asks, and you feel like the windâs been knocked out of your lungs at the sound of his small voice. This wasnât the Bucky you knew and... loved.
âYes, James?â You simply respond, and Bucky cringes at the sound of his first name being used.Â
âCan I talk to you for a second?â
â...Why? Is everything alright?â And although your voice didnât give it away, you felt your heart drop to your stomach. Any possible scenario popped into your head. He has a girlfriend. Heâs gonna tell you he doesnât wanna see you anymore. He-
âE-Everythingâs fine, doll. Just wanted to tell you that... That I...â Buckyâs voice sounded strained, like there was something caught in his throat.
âBucky, just spit it out.â You say, wanting to leave already.
âItâs just- I like you. A lot. And Iâm so sorry for earlier with that other client. I was just trying to be nice, but I realized how that looked to you, and I never thought anything of it because I didnât know if you liked me back or-â Bucky was rambling, and your eyes were wide as saucers.
âBucky, Bucky stop. Let me talk before you drive your own head in with conclusions,â you say, resting your hand on top of his on the desk.
âI like you a lot, too. I didnât think you like me either because of that girl before me. You just- you treated her the same way you treated me, and I got jealous. I know I didnât have the right to be, but it just made me think that... that you didnât feel the same way about me, that I was just another client to you. Iâm sorry for jumping to conclusions, and also for being kind of a bitch to you...â Now you were the one rambling, your hands flying all over the place in explanation.
âD-Doll, I never wanted to make you feel that way. Iâm sorry, too. I shouldâve told you before, before I almost blew everything with you that weâve been building these past months.â He says placing one large tattooed hand and one metal hand on the sides of your face. âBut Iâm not gonna miss my chance again. Y/N, would you like to go on a date with me?â
âI-I would love to, Bucky. Took you long enough to ask me.â You giggle, holding onto the hands on your face.
âYeah, well, Iâm kind of an idiot, if you havenât already noticed.â He laughs, gazing into your eyes with a look that almost turned you to mush in his hands.Â
âDo... do ya wanna go now?â You ask, nodding your head to the door.
âSure, let me go grab my jacket from the back.â He tells you, and you nod, watching as he keeps his eyes on you until he disappears to the back.
âMy man, who wouldâve thought youâd finally man up?â Sam ridicules him as soon as Bucky appears.
âDude, shut up. I got a date to get to, see you losers later.â He rolls his eyes, moving back out where youâre smiling at him.
âReady, angel?â Bucky asks, slipping his hand into yours.
âReady, handsome.â You reply, and as soon as you step out into the fall air, you plant a kiss on his cheek. âWhere to, lover boy?â
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For Whom the Bell Tolls(Adler x Bell!Reader)
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Chapter 3| How Little We Know of What There is To Know
Chapter Summary:
Pretending and being numb is the key.
Yet Adler always manages to bring some emotion out of you.
Cold War Reset AU| Undertale Reset AU
Warnings: Torture, Brainwashing, Manipulation, Possible Non-Con/Dub-Con, Trauma
A/N: Where pineapple is the nectar of the gods and scars are lightning.
âBellâ
Second Life
23:09 | February 25, 1981
CIA SAFEHOUSE E9, âDIE LANDEBAHNâ
You rubbed your dry eyes as you stared at your notes all over the desk youâve chosen as your little corner, the large bulky computer taking up space but youâve made do by moving the brick that is the keyboard as much as you could off to the side. Your papers held inks of different colorsâalthough they were only red, blue, and black and yellow highlightsâand you had a stack of folders behind the computer that were from the CIA and MI6 archives. You had Krausâ ledger off to your side, headphones on top of it for you to hear the audio of U.S. cities and numbers. Your fourth mug of coffee of the day was already gone and you would grab another just to enjoy the warm liquid to go down your throat instead of the caffeine itself, you were always one of late nightâs either way.
The safehouse was quiet outside the hum of the generator and the lights above. Most of the crew gone. Outside of your absent tapping of a pen against your messy notes and the white of a nearby fan for extra circulation, the main open area of the safehouse was a desert.
If you focused deeply, you can hear mumbles and murmurs that you canât make out coming from the office. Adler has been in there for awhile talking over the phone. To who, you donât know but you have your suspicions. You just hope the subject is not about you being suspiciousâthe talk on the roof was a slight on your part earlier.
You truly donât know what came over you. But you need to watch your mouth and expressions. Adler is perceptive, deadly and ever watchful of a personâs micro expressions and body language.
You canât mess up.
A shot rings. And a heart splinters.
âIt was never personal.â
You really canât.
Which is why, you have been focused solely on decoding the entire day. Your eyes scanning and assessing the acquired Intel from the Volkov mission for Operation Chaos and Operation Red Circus. You have the knowledge on how to solve them but you are lacking needed Intel to help finish Operation Red Circus.
Operation Chaos was tricky. With two pieces of evidence outside of the newspaper, it being the audio log and the paper that had the coded message. Earlier in the morning, you wrote down all the possible numbers the missing parts of the code beâtrying to find the pattern in the set of red and blue numbers. You were writing down the possibilities, your paper looking chaotic with arrows and numbers and cities that could coincide with said numbers.
After the quick checkup of your head with Adler, all firm and gentle touches with you keeping your eyes to the side or down as he fulfilled why he got the alias Docâtreatments of gun wounds and cuts to bayonets, complete trust heâll take care of you as he would lecture or tighten a bandage a tad too tight in reprimand due to a reckless actionâand kept quiet as he did so outside of a soft yes or no when he asked  about the pain, you moved to go to work. Ignoring the feel of his gaze on you as you did so. Park coming to your desk after you moved your stuff from the center table to your chosen corner to begin, papers already everywhere and scattered as you tried to organize it in a manner you could only understand, a mug close to her mouth and a cocked brow at the mess.
âThereâs a way to keep it a bit more clean and less like a junk pile,â the British woman said, amused as you made a distracted sound, squinting at the coded language in your hand as papers rustled. âAnd when I gave you my advice, I didnât think you would take it so seriously. Thereâs a better desk you couldâve chosen as your own, Bell.â
You blinked, giving Park a confused look.
âAdvice?â
Park making an obvious glance to the center table in front of the evidence board, you automatically following it. Only to turn back to your paper once you noticed Adlerâs form by the table, cigarette in his hand as he stared down at his own files.
"From one woman to another, give him a wide berth."
â. . . I just needed some space to focus. Iâm sure Adler wouldnât like all my papers everywhere around him either way.â You could still feel the ghost of his touch on your head and your hand. You wanted to erase it. âBut I donât mind staying close just in case. Easier to hand things to you or him whenever Iâm done.â
âSomeone sounds confident,â Park commented with a sip of her coffee, making your own lips twitch for a moment as you replied that you are the best as you moved some papers around. Than, in a quiet murmur with a quick dart back to Adlerâs direction, âDistractions are best to be avoided. . .â
âWhat was that?â You asked, placing everything in a pile as well trying to keep some of them up by leaning the papers on the computer screen and failing as they slid down. You heard Park release an exasperated humored huff through her nose just as you heard her step away only for you to have a black leather gloved hand in your face with sticky notes. âWhat is. . .â
âOh come now. I am sure itâd be easier if you used these. Make sense of this chaos. I guess there is some fact of what people say about geniuses and their rooms,â she motioned the sticky note pad again as you stared at it. The papers were yellow but new. Unused, outside of a crinkle at an edge.
âWhere am I?â
âWho am I?â
âWhat is happening?â
âWhy canât you remember?â
âD o  y o u  h e a r  i t ? â
âWho is Perseus?â
âTell me who I am!â
Blood forms the words, as if with a finger.
âThey want to kill you.â
âMake it stop.â
âMKâ
Words pressed on the page, over and over and over with harsh penmanship and you donât understand whatâs happening. What is this room? And that man. . . Â Why does it hurt? Is this helping Russell?
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You turned away back to your papers, jaw tight.
âIâm good. Sticky notes can be a pain. Thank you, Park.â Park lowered her hand, giving you a questioning stare in the back of your head. You sighed, turning your head over your lowered shoulders. âIâm going to try to finish this today but I think Iâm missing a few pieces of Intel. You can give me other things to decode for MI6 in the meanwhile.â
Park frowned delicately, lowering her mug.
âThat sounds like a hefty workload. And I believe it would be best if we put all our focus into Perseus for now.â
No. You have to be useful.
âItâll be fine,â you say, searching for a paper and giving it to her while Park grabbed it. âI solved that part of the code already. The other intel we got from Kraus, Iâm going to need more information in order to figure out who exactly can be Strong Man, Bearded Lady, and the Juggler. I canât go forward with that so might as well help with other codes you guys may have trouble with. What did you imply?â You ask with faux curiosity, your lips twitching up before falling as you wrote something down. âThat Iâm a genius?â
âSmartarse.â Park retorted, although she seemed to still hesitate but eventually she gave you three files where they seemed to be having trouble. You getting to work immediately to help as Park walked away and you hearing later on Park and Adler head to the office.
You did your best to not think too much of it. You have to keep at your work and make sure youâre capable and on task. You rather not get jabbed.
âWe got a job to do.â
And although it might be inevitable, you would rather not have those words said to you as well. Even if it didnât seem to have the same affect as before, the feeling and how your thoughts seemed to blur came back. Being aware you moved like a puppet and were one all along is not what you would like to focus on.
After you finished two of MI6âs filesâhad to do with KGB and how interesting they would use some quotes of Oscar Wildeâs 1984 hidden in the code as if the man was in support of communism with the workâwith a hum mixed with impressed and curiosity from Park as she looked at the solved papers, your nose twitched at the scent of smoke and leather as you worked on the last MI6 folder.
âStealing away my protege, Park?â Your hand around the pen paused before continuing, a plume of grey gathering above you. âAnd here I thought we have an equal partnership when it comes to this whole Perseus business. At least tell me youâre not wasting her time?â
âI wouldnât call it stealing if sheâs willing,â Park easily replied before handing him the two files to look over that you did, Adler scanning through it as she continued. âAnd it still has to do with our red friends. You sure are quick with the ball, Bell.â
âItâs nothing,â you say quietly, âCanât exactly go forward so might as well help you with other codes that others canât solve. Just send anymore my way. You too, sir.â
Adler made a distant hum, closing the files and handing it back to Park. You felt his stare at the back of your neck as you stared at the paper in front of you that might as well be nonsense since you sensed him.
Look at him, pup.
âIf you wanted a more exciting challenge Bell, you couldâve asked. Always the type to leave no stone unturned and show off.â
ââMore exciting challengeâ?â Park repeated, âThink MI6 codes are all flowers and rainbows compared to those in the CIA, Adler? I believe I recall that it was only Bell that could be able to solve the dossier instead of anyone else within your organization.â
Yeah, cause you brainwashed me, you thought bitterly but the two kept going as you could only sit in between. Nice to have to be a witness between these two again.
âBell is the best CIA decoder we have,â you tightened your jaw in surprise instead of to tense when his hand landed on your shoulder, a gentle squeezeâin comfort, in belief, in trust, in camaraderie, in everything but what you wanted and what you needed, in order to controlâ as you lowered the paper in your hand. âAs well as having a wide range of other skills. You think I would just call in any brain dead desk sitter for this operation?â
You could see in your mindâs eye how dizzy you would get before due to all this praise. Now, you just do your best to press your lips as your chest tightened.
You felt Park shift behind you, her looking at you in appraisal.
âYou are one of a kind, Bell. Shame you were born in the wrong country. Having to have Adler here as your superior.â
You huffed through your nose in dry amusement at that. Irony not lost on you.
What a curse indeed.
You turned in your chair finally, lips quirked that didnât quite meet your eyes as you pointed your thumb towards Adler.
âYou shouldâve seen him in âNam if you think heâs bad now. Always with the lectures.â
You felt Adler release you, watching as he took an inhale as he did a small shrug in disinterest.
âYou can be stubborn, Bell. If I couldnât beat it out of you, Iâll talk it out of you.â You looked up and you could sense his eyes looking down at you behind those shades. âAlthough I feel like sometimes Iâm wasting my breath. Your recklessness borders on insanity.â
âI think I can see why they put the both of you together than,â Park said, brow arched towards Adler and a certain look in her eyes towards him you couldnât quite read. It looked like a warning. But what could that look be for? âInsanity breeds insanity as they say.â
They left you after that, you waving off Adler asking if you need a break. He took that as the okay to bring you CIA files for you to decode. Seems he has no trouble using you dry if youâre going to insist on it. Despite that, you took them and you were able to solve three.
Park came back towards your desk and saying you could have a break, again, you waved her off. As well as her concern you wouldnât want to read intoâis it real for you and your body, or is some sort of guilt that perhaps they gave you a strong dose for the memory exercise and youâre running on steam, is it fake or real, donât break the puppet- so you didnât. You telling Lazar the food you wish and him dropping it by your desk with his own comment that your brain might fall out and you saying youâll be fine, even threw in a small joke that with his food your brain will be well nourished. Outside of your favorite brand of pumpkin seeds of course. Sims only made a stray comment about the stacks on your desk, getting tall as the day went on and turned to night. You donât recall if you said something back. You probably did, Sims was always distantâyou have trauma thatâs not even real and have the gall to have some nightmares about it when he actually went through that horrible war and sees a therapist for it, you donât know the warâso you would take what you would get.
Everyone eventually shuffled out, Parkâher brows looking creased and a purse to her lipsâback to the side of your desk before she left and saying you should rest and leave the rest tomorrow.
âIâll finish the rest today,â you replied, resolute and determined as you wrote the next possible code from this possible radio station an ally of Perseus may be using. âNo rest for the wicked. As they say,â you threw out additionally, an echo of her words earlier which made Park raise her brows. âItâs fine. Once I start something, I have to see it through. It helps I can be patient when it countsâat least with this.â
âYou seem to take it literally. Youâve been at it since early this morning. You only moved I believe when Lazar brought your food and to use the washroom.â Once you shrugged and said that seems normal to do and youâre fine with that, you heard Parkâs tone grow stronger in reprimand. âYes, youâre fine. Tell me, is Adler stopping you from taking breaks?â
You stopped, looking at Park and her irritated expression.
âNo. . . No, itâs just me.â So none of you stick me with that dreadful drug and dig around my brain. So I can show all of you I donât need itâthat you donât need to do that. That Iâm useful and more than an asset. Unneeded assets get thrown away. âI justâjust donât want to disappoint.â
"Disappoint? You've exceeded expectations at every turn, Bell. Disappoint who?"
You didnât answer, only turned back around and continued with your pen. You heard Park mutter a curse before walking out, giving you a pat to your back and tell you youâre driving back with Adler than since heâs determined to work as well before leaving. Your eyes round down to your desk.
Youâll be alone together with him again.
You took a shaky breath, focusing on the paper in front of you.
Youâll be fine. Just keep what youâve been doing. Pretend everything is okay.
Pretend his concernâthe touch on your shoulders burned as he shook you, as if to erase your dark thoughts out of you, lifting you up with his hand easily with words of a concerned reliable friend commanding officerâis real. And his kindnessâwhy did they save you, youâre useless, what use is an untrained dogâis real too.
Just donât question it. Youâll go mad.
Mind your tongue as wellâcontrol yourself. You used to tease before with faux confidence when the both of you bantered, but you have to watch your spiteful and petty comments. You really donât want him to give you a dose.
But if you feel like the path is leading you there, you have a way to get at least a semblance of control back.
Puppets donât control the puppeteer.
âBell.â You turned in attention, Adler by the center table as he motioned his head towards the garage door, cigarette in hand. âTime to go.â
You nodded once, getting up after fixing up your desk a bit. Grabbing your beanie turned ski mask and placing it back on your head instead of your face and walked over obediently as the both of you walked out through the side door.
Good dogs come when they listen.
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âCome on, you know I hate fruit cake! Just give me your pears, Singer!â
âSorry, Bell,â Singer grinned, taking a big purposeful spoonful of pears from the can, teeth flashing. âGuess you have to deal with all of that yourself. Too bad you donât have a connection to those who pass the MCIâs, huh?â
You quietly glared at him with no heat, the act almost making Singer choke on his precious pears that he couldâve given you. The choking action making him spit out some and towards you, you making a noise of disgust as you punched the laughing man harshly to his shoulder as vengeance. It made him wince as the others around the campsite laughed at the two of youâthe sun still above and the Vietnam jungle loud with birds and the trees moving against the wind. Although not really a campsite you would say since there no fire. Canât have any eyes on them to go towards smoke.
âThey know these jungles better than usâ as Adler says.
Speaking of Adler, you turned towards him where he leaned against a thick great Banyan tree local to this countryâthe trunk thick just like the branches that spiral even to the floor. They were all actually hidden in the alcove of this tree, the space enough for them until they kept going to their destination. A beautiful yet haunting tree with its dark and smooth bark all around. You overheard once by Lee and other South Vietnam soldiers in base that these trees can have spirits inside. Dangerous they said for some of them. You donât think these âspiritsâ ever met Adler.
You could see Adlerâs lips were up in amusement due to your predicament despite his war paint, raising his brow over his black shades when he noticed your gaze.
Before you even fully lifted your hand with the can of horrendous fruit cake, he shook his head at you, lips going even more into a smile.
âDonât even try, kid. I fucking hate fruit cake myself,â he adjusted himself against the tree and the gun in his lap. The food of his MCI basically gone outside the crackers and canned pineapple. âDisgusting things. I donât know whoâs bright idea was it to have hard pieces of fruit and dry raisins in cake.â
Thatâs what youâre saying!
âPlease, Adler. I gave you my cigs already, at least give me some of your pineapple?â
Sims laughed beside you, nudging your shoulder with his and shaking his head in disbelief.
âYou think Doc is gonna give you some of his golden nectar away? Might as well have asked him to give his cigs along with his lighter.â
âNot happening, Bell.â Adler answered casually, finishing up his crackers and swiping his hands against his pants before moving to the can. âBesides, not like you smoke anyways. The cigs would just sit there pretty in the box if you donât hand it to me. Unless you want to try to smoke again. It went well last time.â
âDidnât she choke?â Singer teased around a mocking grin. It made his youthful face boyish and eyes bright. âAlmost hacked out a lung didnât you?â
Larson, who was quiet between Singer and Adler, spoke up. Already finished with his food since heâs been mostly keeping to himself. This is the first official mission heâs had since he got the news. Poor guy.
âI remember that,â Larson said softly, looking towards you and you just took all their teases. You blame Adler. âIt was after the drinking game between Butcher and Hamilton. You wanted to see the big deal about why everyone liked the nicotine.â
âOnly for Doc to come to the rescue after Bell took one of his cigs,â Sims ended with a shit eating grin. Youâll kill him. âSurprised youâre still here and alive. Not from just avoiding choking on nothing either, but that you took a cig from him.â
âYou guys bet that I couldnât. . .â You muttered with narrowed eyes towards Sims who shushed you.
âWhat was that?â Adler asked, cocking his head only for Sims and Singer to shake their heads animatedly. Adler hummed doubtfully but dropped it.
âNever mind that! Justââ You groaned, putting your head on your hands as you still held the can of fruit cake. âYou think I can eat this shitty cake? The âraisinsâ,â you said the word doubtfully, âcould be actual pieces of shit for all I know. It could explain the taste. And how hard it can be.â
Singer and Sims snorted next to you, on both sides while Larson actually cracked a grin as you raised your head and told them strongly to think about it! Adler shook his head, watching the jungle periodically in the open spaces of the alcove which all of you did to be cautious but the fruit cake debacle must be solved.
You turned your eyes towards Sims, spotting his fruit cocktail. Only for his hand to block it.
âNope.â
âCome on!â Sims shook his head, opening the can and eating the fruit cocktail and you scowled. âAll of you are shitheads. Now Iâm gonna have to eat this.â
âDamn straight you do,â Adler reaffirmed, stern yet you could spot he found your curse to all of them, him included, funny based on his arched brows. âNo wasting MCIâs. You know the drill, Bell.â
You grunted unhappily at Adler, but you knew he was right. Which is why you wanted to trade in the first place. Food shouldnât be wasted, no matter how heinous.
You took a spoonful after managing to cut into the hard cake, Sims laughing in your face and you could spot Larson keeping his smile at your disgruntled expression only for it to deepen when you took a bite.
You tried to distract yourself through bites by asking Adler how far away they were from their destination. Adler answering after they reach the next nearest foxhole which is two hours away, it will be another six till they reach where they need to be.
âHue is a mess right now. With us additional reinforcements, weâre going to aim for stealth and go around and take out as much as we can.â Adler explained as they all attentively listened. They canât mess up. âWeâve been able to give them a lot of damage last I heard, with one final push of us taking out some of them when theyâre scramblingâweâll consider the Battle of Hue a win. Of course, if thereâs more than we can handle, weâll stick to recon and head back around to tell command at the Hue MACV compound we have there.â
âAnd the civvies?â Larson asked.
âDonât shoot âem.â Was all Adler said before they all moved to clean up and move on after you and Sims finished up.
You having to force to swallow and chew the cake and packing up the trash. They canât leave anything else it can be used to track or find them.
Larson, Sims, and Singer were outside the alcoveâwaiting for you to finish as you smacked your lips as if that could take away the taste in your mouth as you grumbled. You moved to go out where Adler was as he stood by the opening to head out. You spotted something on the ground where he previously sat.
âYou left something, sir,â you say, growing near to pick up the can. Huh, itâs not empty.
Adler turned his head over his shoulder, expression questioning.
âWhatcha mean, kid? Thatâs yours isnât it?â You frowned, looking down at the can only for your eyes to widen. There was some pieces of pineapple left, a little less than half of the can gone but itâs something. He turned his head back as he muttered. âDonât expect this to happen again. Not here to spoil you, Bell.â
âDonât expect you to, sir.â
âJust pick up the trash and move it, kid.â
You grinned, knocking back the can and easily and quickly eating it. The juices spilling down your chin and neck but you didnât care as you licked your lips. The taste of disgusting shit cake gone.
You packed the can quickly, swiping your chin with the back of your hand as the both of you walked to where the others were.
âThanks,â you said to him softly.
âFor telling you to pick up your trash?â Adler answered easily and you smiled knowingly but let it go.
Such a hard ass.
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The car ride was silent, passing street lights and empty cafeâs whizzing by and enlightening the car for a mere moment before it would be enveloped in darkness once more until the next light comes. You were staring out the window as they passed the streets of Berlin, the sounds of the wiper periodically occurring due to the light rain occurring. Not many people out at this time of night, nearing midnight unless you were a working girl or at the local bar. Some wisps of smoke remained in the car despite Adler on his side having his window slightly open. Your eyes watching as it moved lazily and glancing towards the quiet, relaxed man next to you before you would turn to look back out. Curious to see more of the city besides in the backstreets and being stealthy.
You didnât see much last night after Volkov, you falling asleep in the car as Park drove you. You were too out of it when they arrived at the hotel, just absentmindedly listening and nodding along to Parkâs directions and promptly knocking out once you reached your room on the bed. Only to awake once more at the alarm you or someone else mustâve set early in the morning.
You were focusing on that instead of the last time you were in the car with Adler.
âYouâll like where weâre going. Trust me.â
You took a sneaky glance towards the man once more, just as the man exhaled out a cloud of smoke that you watched. Enraptured in how it moved to and fro lithely, easily as your nose took in the smell before you glanced back at Adler, the side facing you being his âgoodâ side.
You wonder once more of his scar that accentuated this manâs beautyâall harsh lines that created a map that even now you wish to trace. For someone like this to earn the title Americaâs Monster, all styled wheat hair, suede shades, and an easy, wry toneâit should at least match the title.
Than again, you thought with faltering wax wings and of anotherâthe fall of a devil with none. It was never about his looks was it?
âItâs a small price to pay.â
What does that make you?
âAlright, kid,â he says, taking out of your stupor as you stared fully at the man now. Smoke releasing out his mouth as he spoke, making you lower your gaze to it. âIâll bite. What do you want to ask me? Must be a juicy question since you keep burning holes to the side of my face.â
Embarrassment colored your face, caught, as you quickly adjusted your gaze to straight ahead and instead watching raindrops going down the windshield.
âItâs nothing.â
âMmm. For some reason, I canât believe that. What did I say before?â
You said a lot of things before, you thought with a sad frown. But you knew what he was referring to. Always wants to be the one you tell all your worries and concerns to. Before, you thought it was genuine. Now, you just see it as how it wasâa cloak to observe and make sure if your true real memories came or if they needed to give you a dose.
âYour scar,â you began as he tilted his head towards you, hair moving as he did so as he kept his one hand casually to the wheel while the other was leaning against his door. You didnât get distracted by it. âHowâd you get it? Thereâs a story there.â
âScar?â He asked in false confusion, still stoic outside of a cocked brow and making your lips twitch up despite yourself. Before motioning with his cigarette hand towards his face. âYou mean this? Is it noticeable?â At your unamused huff though your nose, he continued. âBack in â73, I was nearly killed by a tiger while on a mission in Malaysia. But human ingenuity still runs the animal kingdom.â He turned his head towards you when they reached a light, his brows rising above his glasses. âYou ever been attacked by a tiger, Bell?â
You stared at him in disbelief before releasing a surprised snort. The nerve of this man.
âYouâre lying. Thatâs not from a tiger, it would be worse than that. You and your need to tell stories. . .â You mumbled the last part, you donât think he heard that.
âDidnât know you were an expert on tigers, Bell. Got a degree in zoology under your belt that I donât know about? What makes you think Iâm lying?â
âBecauseââ Thatâs not what you said last time. You stopped, a realization going through you. Because of course heâll lie to you about this too. Worse kind of crowd, your ass. âIf you got that from a tiger than I must be a distant cousin of Joseph Stalin.â
âThat unbelievable, huh?â He said more than asked, amused at your sarcasm as you looked at him with crossed arms as the car moved once more. âFine. Iâll give. I jumped on a roof in Calcutta back in â75 while chasing a Soviet agent. The jump was successful . . . the landing not so much. Advice: always know where the utility poles are.â At your deadpanned look when he glanced at you, his lips quirked into a humored smirk. âThat one didnât hit the mark for you either? Was it the jump?â
You shook your head, a small groan leaving your lips as you leaned your head against the dashboard.
âAnybody whoâs anybody can jump from roof to roof,â you replied, staring at your leather bootsâforehead pressed against the dashboard and maintains it there even as they turned or there was a bump. âYou know that. Just like you know a utility pole wouldâve either choked you or electrocuted you. At least with electrocution itâd be more scars throughout instead of that part of your face.â
âWatch the cockiness, kid.â He reprimanded but than, âYouâre right though. Roof jumps the standard when it comes to our work. But youâre really confident that I donât have any other scars throughout the rest of me. Know something I donât?â Your eyes darted towards him, wide and as they passed a street light, you noticed he was peering down at you in turn. Your skin burned as you looked away and mumbled no while staring at your very interesting shoes. The man hummed. âHow about this. You know what they say about kids falling in with a bad crowd? Letâs just say I fell in with the worst part of a bad crowd. The girl wasnât worth it, believe me.â
At your silence, he glanced at you.
âWhat? Thatâs the one you believe?â You gave a small shrug. When he first told you that, you didnât ask any more questions. It sounded personal the way he said it. Truthful. Adler always lies. âWhat makes this one believable? The lack of a specific date or are you a sucker for romance, Bell?â
You threw him a meaningful look up at him. Not feeling the need to say anything. At his arched brow though, you opened your mouth.
âYour ex-wife.â Â His brow flattened at that. Something shifting in the air. âWas she worth it?â
A beat. A passing of street lights. The pitter patter of rain against the car.
âA romantic than. . .Never saw you as the type.â At your probing stare and his silence, you turned away. Seeing he wonât answerâtoo private. Youâre a fool to even think he will say the truth at all. âOnce.â You blinked, turning your eyes back up and lifting your head in attention as Americaâs Monsterâa secret, a peek through the shades, a hint of something real besides the cold, black abyss, what are you Russell Adlerâspoke ever so softly. A sardonic turn of chapped lips. âYou can say we had a difference of opinion. Not much to it.â
There was more but you will take what you can get.
You thought of the memories you had, of friends you once believed were your own. Of little moments in beaches and camps and villages when all was calm and not chaotic with smell of burnt bodies or blood or how it feels to stab a bayonet through someoneâs chest in defense. You could see them as clearly as any other memory you had. And feel it.
You thought of the poor soldier leaving a war only to get into another one in his home country.
âLarson. . .â you murmured, Adler hearing as he released a dry chuckle.
âSort of like Larson. The poor bastard.â You watched him take a deep inhale, the cigarette almost a near stub. And you realize when that happens, heâs stressed. As stressed as a man like him could be. Youâve seen him in many moments in Vietnam. Not always the best. You wonder if that was another reason for your death. Adler exhaled a puff before having to throw the cigarette out the window with a flick, putting the window all the way up. âI donât see why youâre so interested either way. Scars arenât that impressive. Unless you always had a habit about asking for oneâs ugly mug.â
You darted up at his eyes, shaded as they were, trying to sense if he was being serious.
Because he couldnât be.
Not this man, with strikes of lightning upon his face as if Zeus did it himself. All power. Grace. Strength. Different from your barely functioning wax wings as you struggle to fly. Only able to watch and hope a falling demon crashes to its deathâall harsh and slow.
What are you, Russell Adler?
Perhaps he is Zeus himself.
Perhaps how Adler got his scar was harsh retribution to control lightning, his scars even mimic those powerful strikes across his face. All strength. And all beauty. Those who survived struck by lightning always have the most beautiful marks upon their skin indicating their survivalâyou are selfishly bias though. Even now, you admit with self-loathing. The rougher marks on his face is all grace and you could wonder how he truly got it instead of fantasizing him as a God Of Lightning who mistook his own power upon his face.
It would only make sense. Both beautiful men, although youâve never met the Greek God.
They both also have a habit of hurting women.
Heâs all of that, while you could only hope with your squeaky levers and ropes and feathered wax can go up to said Mount Olympus where he was. A naĂŻvetĂ© where you think youâre close with tired and sore arms only to be burnt away. A free fall down to the abyss.
Good pups stay in their place.
âYouâre joking.â You accuse seriously as you stared up at him, your head against the dashboard but tilted slightly in his direction.
Adler tilted his head down slightly to stare down at you, a brow arched at your look.
âAbout?â
You didnât say anything.
Just meaningfully looked up at him through your lashes, staring at his jaw that was strong as if Michaelengelo carefully carved it himself with minute details with his trusted mallet and chisel until dawn with a candle on his head due to determined ingenuity. Observing how the collar of his shirt did not do a good job in hiding his neck, his favorite jacket failing in that too so you could take it in. Not one strand was mussed or out of place on his head, all volume and thickness as your gloved hand twitched by your knee.
You than met the shades, in turn meeting his eyes as your heart seemed to pound as he stared down at you back. A look passing through his eyes too quick for you to catch, besides what you saw in your peripherals. The hand on the wheel tightening an iota as the air shifted to something heavier, blood pumping as your mind thought of reasons as to why which you pushed away. Impossible.
You licked your dry lips nervously, Adlerâs expression seeming to tense when his eyes followed the action. You turned away, looking back down except to play with the ends of your gloves, neck hot and spreading.
You still felt his stare before he focused back onto the road.
They didnât speak the rest of the ride.
Foolish dog should mind their eyes.
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You couldnât sleep much when you reached your room, another floor to Adlerâs and near Parkâs, and not just due to how you were more one with the night.
You opened Pandoraâs Boxâsomething forbidden coming out into the world as you thought back to the meaningful stare between you and Adler in the car. That even the thought makes your heart pound once more. Your brain further muddling and melting away the more you spend time alone with that man. Whether in being caught in his pace or just the mere thought of what heâs done.
Although, you suppose you already opened a Pandoraâs Box. Possibly even darker than the one you discovered.
If the monster in manâs skin was Zeusâhe created the box in the first place. Except he wished to hide it from you and keep you willfully ignorant instead of tease you to release envy and greed and disease out in the world. You managed to open itâand it was none of those things, it was cruel and inhumane to you all the same.
Take this needle and follow the story, do the trick.
If only that box stayed close.
Zeus always did like to confuse.
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You let out a heavy sigh, hand mussing your hair harshly as you chewed your lips, staring at the paper on the center table of the safehouse.
âHaving trouble?â
You slightly jumped as Adler, who was quiet in the seat across and to the side of you, spoke. Looking mildly curious at all the papers on your side of the table before taking a small puff. You sighed, looking back down at the paper in slight frustration.
âJust a little. Whoever made this code created a difficult to encrypt language. I have some of the numbers though already, itâs just the rest. Iâve never seen such an elaborate one before. . .â You said in thought as you tapped your pen against the paper. âI have to say, itâs impressive.â
Adler hummed idly, taking note of your words.
âPerhaps you need a sort of incentive.â
You moved your eyes up in confusion, wondering what that could mean. Only to stop once you noticed what was in his opposite hand not holding his precious cigarette.
It was a pictureâa polaroid specifically. But not just any one. You stared at your oldest friend in the picture, taken on the rooftops in East Berlin, his face tilted down and a level of focus and calm as he stared down below in his crouched position. The lights behind him giving him an ethereal glow, a mix of white, red, and blue as those shades on his face gave a little glint due to it.
You reached a hand to see it better only for Adler to click his tongue, taking the picture back closer to him with a shake of his head.
âSorry, kid. Canât exactly be incentive if I gave it to you easily like that. You seem eager though.â Adler arched a brow at you. âAny reason as to why?â
Your cheeks prickle as you cursed in your mind. Why didnât you get the film from the red room or Park yourself? You thought of a T.V. turning on itâs own, flashbacks to what happened in Vietnam on the screen, the memory sobering you up. You still. . .havenât told Adler about that. Heâll call you soft and put you solely in the safehouse with no more field missions. You hate his disappointment. Still though, you recall you were determined to get it. A quick in and out but than. . . something? Something. . . happened?
At your brows furrowing deeply, Adlerâs own brows furrowed and you answered his silent question as you touched your head.
âSorry. . . That coma I woke up from still has done a number on me.â
âYou did get shot twice, Bell. You have issues with always trying to push me out the way, even back in âNam.â You smiled at his tease. You did have a protective streak. But only for certain peopleâeven if you knew Adler could handle himself, you would do what you must for him if he told you an order. Or even go against it if it involved him doing something stupid like a sacrificial mission. Youâd follow him anywhere. âDonât think too much on it. Iâm sure the rest of your memories will come back soon enough. Â Just remember in the end that mission was a success.â
âWhatever it takes, sir.â You said, a phrase that he spoke often back in the war. Which you would repeat. You would always do what you must.
Adlerâs expression shadowed as he nodded once.
âWhatever it takes,â he glanced at the polaroid in his hand, it facing him as he seemed to stare in thought before turning his gaze towards you. Your expression curious as you wondered what he was thinking before he turned the picture back towards you, brow up inquisitively. âWell, Bell? Donât think youâre going to dodge the question as to why you want this? I went through a bit of trouble to let Park let me have it. Sheâs stubborn when she wants to be.â
You slightly scowled at him, feeling the blush once more.
You hated when he did that blasted rhyme!
You also had a sense there was more to him asking Park but you were too busy trying to defend yourself. Not think about their daily quiet pissing match.
âI like taking pictures. Itâs an art form. Every artist would like to have their own paintings,â you said, tone even and you wanted to pat yourself in the back for that.
Adler rose both his brows now.
âReally?â The way he said it made it seem he doubted you. âNot a photographer. Was never really interested in art either so maybe thatâs why I canât relate. Still. Itâs a good picture, my good side and all. Can see why you would want it.â
You restrained yourself from saying what you wanted like last time. That basically you would want that picture even if it was on his scarred side.
âIt had good lighting.â You added as Adler stared at his picture, cigarette being held in his lips. He turned back towards you, glasses slightly falling from his nose and you could see a hint of his eyes. A tease. You stared. His lips curved around the cigarrette, amused and indulging. You panicked. âI-It does!â
âI didnât say anything. But say, the sooner you finish that code, the sooner you can have thisââ he paused, waving the hand with the polaroidââpiece of art of yours. Never thought I would say that but I guess thereâs a first for everything.â He pocketed the picture back in his jacket, blowing his smoke away from you before he stood up and headed towards Sims only to add over his shoulder, âIâll leave you to it. I know you got this.â
You stared as he walked over, the belief he had in you with those words moving around in your brain. You moved back to work, pointedly ignoring Lazarâs whistleâhim able to hear some of what occurred no doubt. You threw him an impolite gesture that only made the man laugh as you focused on the code. It took you three tiring and near sleepless nights, but you finished. Adler handing you the photo in between his fingers as you took it gently, trying not to crinkle the photo further as Adler watched you behind his shades as you held the photo, taking a thoughtful inhale of his cigarette before looking away. Looking around their surroundings outside the safehouse. Their break time spot.
âYou sure got talent, kid.â
âYou should know by now to not doubt me, Russ,â you replied, your eyes still on the photo between your gloved hands. âOnly the best of the best with you. Just took me longer than I thought.â
âWatch that confidence doesnât blind you one day, Bell.â
âYou first.â
He chuckled at that, breathless and surprised making you stare up with wide eyes. The sound rare. Adler tapped the end of his cigarette, ash going on the ground as he stared towards the doors of the safehouse, an echo of a smile on his face. Barely there. Others wouldnât see it, but youâve known Adler for years.
âYou got guts. And spunk. Met my match with you it seems, kid. You know me too well. . .â Adler took a puff, deep as he trailed off, shades dark.
âThatâs not a bad thing,â you say, lowering the photo in your hand. âSims does too. Canât exactly get rid of us that easy.â
âSims has been through many missions with me, but not as much as you.â Adler explained calmly. âSome of those, Iâm taking to my grave. If I breathe a word about it, Iâll have a bunch of people up my ass.â
You sense as if this was like a conversation from years ago, on a beach. Quiet and away from everyone in the camp, just the two of you talking about realities and soldiers. You think about that memory a lot.
You recall some of the memories heâs referring to.
You half shrugged, pocketing the photo in your bomber jacket as you leaned against the wall of the safehouse.
âWhat can you do? It was necessary. Besides, I canât exactly tell anyone else either, Adler. Brutality is sometimes necessary. Thatâs all I know.â You paused, tilting your head and throwing a teasing smirk his way to get him out this weird mood. âDonât tell me Americaâs Monster actually cares what other people say?â
Adler deeply exhaled in exasperation, smoke coming out his nose.
âDonât tease me, Bell. You know I canât give a shit.â
âThan whatâs the problem? You do what needs to be done. Make the tough calls. You know. . . you know I understand right?â You asked carefully. âIâm with you when it comes to doing what we must. To protect what we need to.â
Adler was silent. He never answered.
You didnât push him. Didnât feel the need.
You understood him the best.
Only monsters can see one another, after all.
⯠⯠⯠⯠⯠⯠⯠⯠ââ⯠⯠⯠⯠⯠⯠⯠âŻ
Monsters, youâve come to know, are also a certain kind of creature that takes what they need.
To want. Selfish and uncaring and you should be concerned at how easily you take in those traits.
Too busy to worry about regular peopleâthe mundane. There are bigger things to be focused on than otherâs opinions on what actions are necessary.
You and Adler can give not one fuck about others. They know what they are and will accept the titles from others with a nod.
What youâre coming to find however, that even with monsters, thereâs different breeds.
You basically reiterated to him that what he did with you was necessary. Needed. Sound brutality at its finest. You feel like you canât even argue.
What is betterâloyalty to a country or to people?
Youâre trapped.
.
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I have a problem. This story is going to be long when it was supposed to be short. Oh well.Â
Also, hot take maybe, I love both Soft!Adler and Dark!Adler so letâs just have both sides of him shall we? WaitâŠis Adler truly soft here? Who knows.
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Hello love đș umm can u pls please please write dark!steve x reader, where he bully and verbally harrases the reader but somehow kind of love her but just treat her bad and degrade her but when someone else tryna make her fun of her then he shows who she belongs to kinda stuff (pls if u gonna write pls make it so it so darkđ„șđ„ș)...... Feel free to ignore tho cause i'm sorry this seems so long đŹđŹđ§Ą
2/2 Hey it's me again đđđŹwho just send u a request of a long one shot of dark steve rogers x reader where he bullys her but i just forget to tell u that can u pls make that a Highschool AU pls , i really forget to tell u đŹđŹ
bully
steve rogers x reader
summary: Steve bullies you after you rejected him and he soon regrets it.
warnings: dark, non-con, violence, bullying, blood, self hatred, insecurities, psychological trauma, they are of age, please donât read if youâre not comfortable with any of these. Not proofread.
word count: 1.7k
a/n: just wanted to post something so this may or may not suck
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Steve wasnât always a bully.
Itâll probably be because you hurt his ego.
Maybe he asked you out one time but you were new in school and wary of people so you politely declined his offer.
For Steve, he saw that as you humiliating him in front of the school. The new girl just rejected the Steve Rogers.Â
Steve would be like âwho do you think you are?â and the cheeky flirty guy he was before becomes someone else.
He started spitting insults here and there, never missing a day to make you feel weird about yourself.Â
The soft and beautiful blue eyes from before turned dark and hostile towards you.
Sweet words turned harsh.
Flaws that you didnât see before started surfacing.
Suddenly your hair is too messy and all over the place. Your skin is too dead and it makes you look creepy. Your eyes are too dull and sad that you donât seem friendly anymore. Your nose is weird, and so on. The list never ended and you started to change from the person you are before.
Steve made sure to make you feel the way you made him feel.
You suddenly became closed off and did everything to be unnoticed. Itâs better to be a nobody than be the center of everyoneâs torment.
Steve is a popular guy and it didnât take long for everyone to follow his lead.
Youâre just trying to finish your last year and finally leave the hell you created for yourself but Steve swore to make your life a living hell.
âIf it isnât my favorite dead girl!â Steveâs voice booms through the hallway, the chatters immediately stopped to witness the popular guy, and now, the loser of the whole school interact.
âGot somewhere else to be?â His voice was sweet as well as his eyes but you know, everyone knows that his intentions are far from being sweet.
âWhat? Your tongue isnât working anymore? Bet it rot with your dead body and now everything is decaying with you, is that it?â He raised an eyebrow at you, waiting for his friends to back him up which they did. Steve smirked as the hallway started being filled with thunderous laughter and theyâre all directed at you.
You did nothing but bite your lip in hopes of stopping yourself from crying in front of everyone. You canât afford another round of teasing.
You fake a laugh before turning away from him and started heading to your last class.
Steve hated the way your eyes looked at his with nothing but sadness.
Your sadness wasnât even directed at him but at yourself.
He just wanted to make you feel the way you made him feel so you can understand that the both of you belong to each other.
Youâre fucking perfect and Steve is far from that. He might be the most popular guy in school but you were way out of his league so he had to bring you down just a little bit.
But it got out of hand.
He had no idea how to stop what he started but then something happened.
He was just on his way out of detention, the hallways are now empty, everyone has already gone home and Steve was used to that. What he wasnât used to is the sound of whimpering. More importantly, itâs the sound of you whimpering.
He wasted no time and ran towards the direction of your voice and as he turned the corner, his blood turned red hot in seconds. Heâs seeing nothing but red at the sight in front of him.
Mrs. Roberts asked you to come to her office before going home to discuss something and you didnât know whether to cry because of sadness or cry because someone actually cares for you.
Mrs. Roberts shared her worries with you because your once impressive grades started pummeling down to the point where it can cause problems with your chances of graduating.
Mrs. Roberts gave you special assignments to do so you can pass her subject and you thanked her for that. You even hugged her so tightly and dwelled on the affection for too long which worried her.
âIs there something wrong, dear?â She asked, eyes glossing over yours with worry.
You decided against telling her and just shook your head at her. âDo you think Iâm failing my other subjects? What if I donât graduate in time?â
Mrs. Roberts was quick to calm you down, telling you how the meeting with the teachers went and even joked about you purposely failing only her subject which you laughed at.
You left her office with a smile, chuckling at the memories of her jokes when you suddenly felt an impact on your left side and then your right side when you hit the lockers with a loud bang, making you whimper in pain.
âThe fuck are you laughing at, dead girl?â An unfamiliar voice says above you.
You look up to see a boy a year younger than you but before you could reply, his foot started meeting your abdomen, your sides, or whatever part of you that he could kick. At some point, he was able to kick your face which made your ears ring in pain so you decided to shield your head with your arms to block his kicks.
âI donât know why Steve never did this before but I am doing it for him. Heâll be so proud of me! I can take over his place after he graduates.â
You didnât even realize that you werenât receiving his kicks anymore but the sound of kicks can still be heard.
You peak out of your arms to see the young boyâs body across from you on the floor, receiving hits from a large man above him.
âWhat the fuck do you think youâre doing, punk?!â Steveâs voice growls in anger and you didnât know if you were thankful that you werenât on the receiving end of his growl but it still terrified you.
âM-making you proud! Iâm doing the thing you canât seem to do!â The younger boy spits out red liquid before scrambling away after Steve pulls him up by his collar.
âIf I fucking see you touch her again, youâll never be able to see a day again, you understand?â Steve pushes the boy away before looking back at you, all the anger on his face turns into something softer.
He scrambles towards you, kneeling before you and helping you so gently until your leaning on the lockers, heaving at the pain that the boy caused you.
Steve continued to stare at you, eyes observing you before his hands gently prodded your face.
âYouâre bleedingâŠâ He murmurs before pulling out a cloth and dabbing it softly on the wound, apologizing when you flinched at his touch which surprised you.
âW-what are you doing?â Your voice trembles and Steve only sighed in response, shaking his head in disappointment.
âWhy did you have to reject me?â He asked, carefully putting a band-aid over the scar and kissing it so gently with his pink lips. You stared at him in shock and confusion.
âWh-What the f-fuck?!â You try to push him off but he only gripped both of your wrists with one hand while the other caress your face.
âWe wouldâve been so happy together. You wouldâve had a great experience but you always manage to put yourself in danger⊠Why didnât you just let me in?â The hand on your face goes to the back of your neck and your struggles were no use when he easily pulled you into a kiss, his tongue easily forcing itself into your mouth and coating and mixing your saliva with his.
âI shouldâve not given up but you⊠you hurt me, ya know?â He pulls away before admiring your face.
âI lied though. Youâve always been so beautiful. I just wanted you to give me a chance but then you started avoiding me more.â His jaw clenches before his grip on your wrists tighten.
His other hand goes under your shirt before fondling your breasts through your bra. He leans in towards your neck before sniffing and moaning as he continues to massage your breasts while his hips started to grind against yours in need.
He growls against your neck as his grind started to get violently fast.
âAhh fuck!â His hips stopped before heâs shaking against your body.
Your eyes widened at him as you looked down at the front of his pants which now had a stain on the crotch area.
âD-did you justââ
âSee what you do to me?â He laughs before kissing your lips once more, the hand on your breasts trailing down before he forces it down your pants and under your panties to feel your core with his big hands.
His fingers make a quick swipe up your slit making you shiver at the feeling of him on your sensitive area.
âAnd I see what I do to youâŠâ He inserts one finger, groaning at the way your walls are tightening around just one finger.
Steve swore he could cum again at the thought of his cock entering your very tight pussy.
âWe didnât start strong but we have all the time in the world nowâŠâ He places a kiss wet on your lips, continuing his assault on your core while his thumb finds its way to your clit.
Steve enjoys the way your hips jolted at the feeling and he smiled.
âI will help you graduate with honors and then after that,â he pulls back from the kiss before smiling at you.
âWeâll start over. Iâm never leaving you again. Iâm never going to give up on you. Weâll finally have what we both deserved.â He feels your walls fluttering around his one finger so he added another, thumb flicking your nub harder, forcing you to release.
âMmm!â You bit your bottom lip as an orgasm was forced out of you, pleasure showering you as your eyes shut tightly.
âSo fucking beautifulâŠâ Steve pulls his hand out of your jeans before quickly placing his fingers inside his mouth to taste you.
âSo fucking delicious as well.â He helps you up carefully before guiding you out of the school and into his car.
âIâll drive you to school and from school from now on. There wonât be a time when Iâm not watching over you. Iâll protect you from now on. Iâm going to right every wrong thing I did to you, babyâŠâ He leans down to kiss your lips then your head before fixing your seatbelt for you and starting the car.
âEverything will be better now.â
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a/n: been trying to write but itâs just not working rn but im trying to come thru hehe
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Bro danny phantom is so cool n stuff, infodump man!!!! Just,, yeet ur feelings about it. I love fanart n stuff of danny so gimy ur thoughts on it!!!
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Well, so first off I have a whole sideblog for it @superphlyduskull :3c if ur interested
Second this is straight up like. The most invested I've ever been in a fandom tbh, it's the first time I've posted anything and the first time I've attempted fanfiction!! (tho I haven't finished or posted anything yet) I recently thought up a headcanon that ghosts see more of the light spectrum than we do and that thats also how they become invisible, by only reflecting light humans can't see. I'd like to make a little fic abt it I think! Maybe one where a bunch of bugs follow him around bc I think it'd be cute
I think what really gets me about this fandom is the potential for worldbuilding. The show did close to fuck all in terms of exploring its own lore, but there were hints everywhere of how the world might work, and it's SO FUN to play with!! It leads to so many interpretations that are all equally plausible! Plus the huge amount of AUs inspired just by the source material... the way it lends itself to crossovers super easily as well, considering Clockwork has sent Danny into a different universe in the show (yknow, to stop the timeline where his family and friends and teacher die because he cheated on a test, eventually leading to him destroying the world...... there are some interesting morals in the show)
The angst potential is also insane, and I'm actually interacting with angst a lot more in this fandom than I usually would bc its so beautifully handled a lot of the time. Between identity reveals going wrong and the Guys in White getting a hold of him and Vlad being a shitbag to Danny being the GHOST KING
Ghost King Danny is probably one of my favorite AUs, I think partially bc its really fun to explore how insane it is for poor Danny to be saddled with this huge responsibility, and also to see how much power that gives him? Like on the one hand thats too much for a kid his age to handle and I feel like I might be projecting a bit since I was responsible for more than I would've liked from a young age, but also it reeeally spices up identity reveal scenarios and can save him too much grief in others bc depending on the take, a huge amount of the ghost zone has his back!! Like uhhh No, you are NOT going to mess with our King, [insert possible antagonist here]
It's also super fun to think of what ghost culture might be like, as well as just how ghosts work! We see glimpses in the show, but again, nothing is explored much? I love the universally accepted headcanon that ghosts have a vital organ called a core (though how it works varies greatly from person to person), and the idea that there are multiple ways a ghost forms (like from a being dying, or just forming from ectoplasm and strong emotions or big concepts, or being straight up born??). I've also seen the idea that a lot of ghosts don't really mean harm to Danny and that ghost culture is generally more violent bc they're not as squishy as humans!
Also!! There's gonna be a new graphic novel which is sick as hell! We don't know much more than that, but hopefully Nickolodeon doesn't mess too much with the creative team, because I'm really interested to see where they take it (especially since I think bitch fartman doesn't have any say in decisions? I'm not sure on that tho). Either way it's new content and I'm excited to see where the fandom goes with it too!
I have also realized the reason I don't infodump much is because I'm terrible at explaining things and trip over my words and am hard to follow lmao, particularly in person. You'd think that as an actor I'd be a little better with words but naaah lmao. I need to rehearse them for them to come out right apparently
Anyway idk how coherent that was but if u ever want to hear me ramble about dp feel free to send me more asks! Esp on my sideblog, I'm Always down down yell abt it!! Thank u for sending me that ask btw, it was really nice to do a bit of infodumping!!!đđđ
#i didnt realize how much i needed to just ramble about dp#that was really freeing#my chest feels lighter??#but anyway thanks for the ask!!#ask#thekawaiibutterflygirl#danny phantom
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What do you think are the good and bad aspects of each season of ST?
ok 1. thank u for this question omg and 2. this answer may or may not be a mess, but either way itâs long (almost 7k words lmao) bc iâm insane, which is why itâs under a cut. itâs still by no means an exhaustive list but these are the things that just kinda came to mind.
also i realize you asked âgood and badâ and i wrote this whole post as âstrengths and weaknessesâ which um. is not Exactly what you asked. but close enough <3 i also ended up including a lot of au ideas ksjdckmn bc like i personally hate when people say a certain plot or whatever was bad without suggesting anything that could have improved it yknow so whenever possible i tried to provide Some idea for fixing the issues i had with the show!!
season 1
strengths (this is probably gonna be the longest section but thatâs because a lot of these strengths also apply to s2/s3 by default)
nostalgia and authenticity
this oneâs pretty simple, but i think that season one did a good job of blending classic eighties media homages (such as the many many e.t./el parallels) with explicit pop culture references (such as mikeâs yoda impression, mentions of the x-men, etc) to create a show thatâs essentially dripping in early eighties nostalgia without it feeling too forced. before st, i think the most popular depiction of the eighties in mainstream media was that overly exaggerated neon scrunchie aesthetic from the mid to late eighties, and it was usually done in a comedic sense first and foremost. st took a different approach, instead focusing on the early eighties, a time thatâs often ignored in favor of going either Full Seventies or Full Eighties, and i think that this choice likely resonated with adults who lived through the eighties and hadnât yet seen something that felt quite so accurate to their own adolescence. a lot of young people who watched st were totally unfamiliar with this period of time, unfamiliar with books/movies like âstand by meâ that st borrows from heavily, and i think st lent more seriousness to the eighties than most young people had experienced so far, and this was refreshing and interesting!
the use of dnd in the show is also quite genius in a way iâm not sure i can articulate?? it isnât something Everyone would have played at the time, but itâs something that existed within a different context back in the eighties than it does today, and it really lent a sort of authenticity to the naming of the showâs sci-fi elements. like, of course these kids would name parallel dimensions and monsters and superpowers after these similar things in their favorite game! it just feels so real and it grounds st in our reality moreso than you might expect from the typical sci-fi or horror universe.
utilization of existing tropes
almost every single character in st clearly originates from some popular trope. the plot itself is riddled with classic eighties movie tropes. almost every single element of stranger things can be clearly traced back to some iconic eighties film or just to, like, overused horror/sci-fi/mystery/coming-of-age movie tropes in general. this might sound like a bad thing, but it really works in stâs favor! starting off with familiar tropes gives st the ability to easily create a lot of complexity and make a big impact by selectively deviating from those familiar, comfortable tropes!! while elâs whole plot, hopperâs character, etc, are all examples of this in action, i think the steve/nancy/jonathan plot is the greatest example. even from the start, the fact that good girl barb dies while nancy is off having sex with her asshole boyfriend is an incredibly thorough inversion of the most well-known horror movie trope in the book. how often do girls in horror movies have sex for the first time, walk home alone in the dark of night, and live to tell the tale? nancy and jonathanâs dynamic at first glance is a sort of classic âgood girl meets boy from the wrong side of the tracks, discovers heâs actually got a heart of goldâ thing, but instead of following this well-trodden path, st diverged. nancy is brash, impulsive, and at times downright insensitive. jonathan is angry, bitter, and actually a bit of a creep at first. while they have the capacity to emotionally connect and support one another, they can also bring out each otherâs darker side, which is not what weâve come to expect from that initial tropey dynamic.
in addition, steve, the popular rich asshole boyfriend, is actually... a human being! unlike the cartoonishly evil jocks that weâve come to expect (especially from eighties movies), steve has complexity. despite his initial immaturity and selfishness, heâs also kind to barb, he backs off when nancy says no, heâs gentle and sweet when they sleep together, his first big Dick Move of the season is in defense of nancy, he realizes the error of his ways after the fight and does what he can to fix it, heâs worried about nancy when he sees that sheâs hurt at jonathanâs house, and to top it all off, he ends up saving both nancy and jonathanâs lives when he could have just walked away, and the three of them all work together to fight the demogorgon. like... steve began as the most stereotypical character of all time, and by the end of the season, he had one of the most compelling and unique arcs among the whole cast!
finally, at the very end of the season, instead of dumping steve for jonathan as expected, nancy ends up getting back together with steve, and theyâre both on friendly terms with jonathan. i realize that i just kinda. summarized s1. but my POINT is that i donât think the dynamics between the monster hunting trio would be nearly as fun and interesting had the characters of nancy, steve, and jonathan not been set up to follow certain paths that we already had charted in our own heads. like, within the first couple episodes of s1, itâs pretty obvious that nancy and steve are gonna break up, nancy will get with jonathan, and steve will either die or go full evil or just never be seen again. like, duh! youâve seen this story a million times! you know thatâs how itâs gonna go! so, when the story DOESNâT go that way, the impact of each characterâs arc and the relationship dynamics become stronger due to their unexpected complexity and authenticity.Â
distinct plotlines separated by age group
this oneâs rather obvious, but the way that the adults in s1 were essentially in a conspiracy thriller while the teens were in a horror flick and the kids were in a sci fi power-of-friendship story and all three converged at the end... wow. brilliant showstopping etc. not only was it just really well done and unique, it also gave stranger things near-universal appeal. like, thereâs genuinely something for pretty much everyone in season one!
casting
obviously this applies to every season sorta by default, but when i think about what made season one So successful, i always think about the cast, and not just winona ryder. yes, sheâs absolutely amazing in the show and itâs very doubtful that st would be as big as it is today without her name being attached to it from the start!! however, i think the greatest determining factor in stâs success is the casting of the kids, particularly millie bobby brown. like... el is just absolutely incredible. sheâs amazing. this has all been said many times before so i wonât harp on it, but millie and the other kids are all So talented and charismatic and i think their casting has been instrumental to the showâs success.
strong visuals
the way that multicolored christmas lights which have been around for decades are now kinda like. a Stranger Things thing. jesus christ. those lights are probably the biggest stroke of stylistic genius on the show.
atmosphere and setting
this is probably like. the least important one here for me sdjncdsc because i think s2 and s3 both had like Even Better atmospheres and shit but s1 was good too and it laid the groundwork!! i know a lot of people would have preferred st be set somewhere more Spooky with lots of fog or giant forests or whatnot, and while i do enjoy thinking about alternate st settings and how they might alter the vibe, i think hawkins indiana was a good choice. as the duffers have said, placing stranger things in a fictional town allows them more flexibility than if theyâd gone with their original plan of using montauk, new york. besides that, i think the plainness and like... flatness... of small-town indiana just Works. like, the fact that hawkins is never really scary on the surface is a big part of the horror in the labâs actions and their impact. hawkins isnât somewhere that people just disappear all the time. it isnât somewhere known for strange occurrences (prior to s1, that is). it isnât somewhere shrouded in mist and secrecy. hawkins on its surface seems like the sort of place with no secrets and nothing to fear, and thatâs the point! the lab is out in the open! itâs right there! everything is so close to the surface, yet so far out of the public eye, and i think that really works.
the byers familyâs whole deal (specifically the joyce/jonathan dynamic)
this is going here bc i miss it so bad in s2 and s3. iâm not one of those people who believe The Byers Are The Whole Point of the show, because st is and always has been an ensemble, and el, hopper, and the wheelers are just as instrumental to the plot as the byers, but ANYWAY, i do think the byers were one of the most interesting aspects of s1. joyceâs difficulties with supporting her sons as a poor and (implied mentally ill) single mother, jonathanâs stress as a result of having to earn money, care for his brother, and keep the house in order when his mother is unable to do so, and the resulting tension between them when willâs disappearance and supposed âdeathâ brings the situation to a tipping point? holy shit! itâs so good! that argument after they see willâs âbodyâ is just incredible and gut-wrenching. their relationship feels so real and messy and i think itâs just... good. also winona ryder REALLY acted her heart out and she carried a lot of s1 which i think people often forget to mention so iâm saying it here.
weaknesses
pacing/timing
ok so pacing is probably going to go in each seasonâs weaknesses, to be honest, because i think they all had a blend of some good and some bad pacing. good pacing is invisible pacing, though, so i probably wonât be putting it in any of the strengths sections and will only be focusing on it in the weaknesses. iâm also probably not going to talk about weird day/night cycle things, just because i donât want to get nitpicky on timelines because that would require going back and rewatching things to double check timing which i donât wanna do at the moment lmao. anyway, when i think of bad pacing in season one, i primarily think of two things: nancyâs little trip into the upside down and subsequent sleepover with jonathan, and the sort of staggered nature of the climax in the final episode. the latter is simple so iâll explain it first: while i understand that each groupâs respective climax is like part of a chain reaction and thatâs why each big moment happens separately and at different times, i think that st is strongest when the whole group is together, and i think that makes the stakes feel higher too, so iâm not In Love with the way s1 separated everyone and gave each group their own climax.Â
okay, now on to the nancy/upside down thing! idk if iâve ever talked about it before, but i think the worst decision made in s1 by far is the inclusion of nancyâs brief trip into the upside down, wherein she dives headfirst into another dimension with absolutely no backup, watches the demogorgon chow down, freaks out and runs around for a minute, and then leaves. like... what the fuck? even putting aside what an idiotic decision this was (because i do think nancyâs tendency to rush into things headfirst is an intentional and consistent character trait), it just kind of destroys any remaining suspense surrounding the demogorgon and the upside down, and it accomplishes basically nothing besides scaring nancy enough to have jonathan sleep over, which is lame. i will break it down.
like, first of all, nancy just getting to waltz in and out of the upside down and get a good, long look at the demogorgon makes the entire thing far less mysterious, and by extension far less scary. like... before this scene, we the audience havenât got a good look at the demogorgon. weâve seen its silhouette briefly and weâve seen a blurry picture of it, but nothing more, and i think that is far more effective at building fear than this jaunt nancy goes on which gives us a full view of the thing and makes it into less of a horrifying nightmare and into more of a humanoid animal. like, maybe this is just me, but i found the demogorgon far less intimidating after that scene than before. it also lets nancy and jonathan know For Sure that theyâre right without providing any crucial information that they need to fight the demogorgon (aka itâs unnecessary to the plot), which removes a very compelling story element (the faith nancy and jonathan need to have in order to keep going against a vague and poorly understood enemy, the doubt they might have about each other and their own sanity, the possibility that they might be wrong, the trust they need to have in each other) a bit earlier in the plot than i believe is ideal. at the end of episode 5, nancy goes into the upside down and jonathan doesnât know where she is and itâs intense!!! youâre thinking like, oh fuck, not only is nancy missing and fighting for her life now too, jonathan might be implicated in her disappearance!! some people already think heâs the one who killed will and people know that he took creepy pictures of barb and nancy before they both disappeared, maybe this is gonna cause some serious problems for him!! maybe nancy will find will in the upside down and sheâll help him survive!! fuck, maybe sheâll actually die!! this is huge!! and then episode 6 starts and theyâre immediately like oh nevermind jonathan found the tree and got nancy out and sheâs fine. my point with all of this is that nancy entering the upside down could have done A Lot in the grand scheme of the plot, but all it did was just... get jonathan to sleep over so he and nancy could have some awkward romance moments and steve could see them together and pick a fight. which could have honestly happened at Any point while nancy and jonathan were working together to hunt down the demogorgon, without ruining the demogorgonâs and the upside downâs mystique. so yeah <3
weird behavior and dumbass decisions that make no sense (aka the whole camera thing)
gonna go off about the teen plot again sorry but: why was nancy so unbothered and quick to forgive jonathan for taking those pictures? girl what the fuck are you doing? why wasnât that a bigger deal? why was jonathanâs motivation for doing it so weak and why did they just kind of forget about the whole thing? why did nancy TRACK HIM DOWN AT THE FUNERAL HOME while he was PICKING OUT HIS BABY BROTHERâS CASKET to be like hey can you tell me whatâs in this creepshot you took? itâs insane. itâs so insane. i mean i think the funeral home thing is hilarious and i donât mind it being in the show necessarily but like my point here is that i think a lot of character decisions in s1 just kind of.. happened because they Needed to happen for the plot. like, they wrote this plot that required jonathan to be secretly taking pictures of the party and required him and nancy to work together after seeing something odd in the pictures, but they didnât like... really consider what that event would mean for their characterization and relationship. the whole thing was sort of just dropped with minimal discussion and i think it did both nancy and jonathanâs characters a disservice and was really mishandled.
lighting and saturation/color grading
i am literally begging horror/sci-fi shows to let me see shit. i GET IT okay i understand that when youâre doing cgi effects it helps to keep the lights down and iâm not mad at any of the lighting in the demogorgon/upside down scenes!! iâm really not i think the demogorgon scenes in s1 all look sick!! but like... dude. the colors. where are they. why does everyone look like a vampire. i know blah blah this was probably an intentional stylistic choice intended to mimic film at the time blah blah but dude a lot of old movies are very colorful!! please just let people have color in their faces so everyone doesnât look like a sheet of paper!!! also iâm white and not a professional lighting designer so yknow grain of salt but i think lucas was kinda poorly served by the lighting sometimes in s1. not Hugely so, not to the degree that iâve seen poc be poorly served by lighting in other shows, but there were some times where it felt kinda like the lighting setup was just not designed with darker skin in mind.Â
horror
i just personally donât find s1 very scary like... ever. i donât think they were really Trying to be extremely scary yknow so iâm not counting this as a big deal, but i do think that each season has improved on the horror aspects. i think s1âČs horror lies more in the mystery and the unknown than in whatâs seen onscreen, and as iâve said already, i think s1 kind of fumbled that suspense ball.
season 2
strengths
the possession plot
iâll warn u rn this whole s2 strengths section is probably gonna be really short bc idk like. how much there is to really say i feel like itâs all so self-explanatory skjncmn. anyway yeah the possession plot!! eerie as fuck, and noah OWNED. so did winona tbh and finn and sean etc but like. noah. wow! i think the possession plot helped the show maintain a good amount of tension and suspense throughout the season, and a lot of scenes with possessed!will are flatout disturbing to watch. in a good way. i think the mindflayer and willâs possession were far more genuinely frightening than s1âČs demogorgon, and it provided a new layer of depth and intrigue to the antagonist besides just âbad monster want eat people.â
tone and aesthetics
halloween season... literally halloween season. halloween season. that is all.
actually i will elaborate a bit and just say that i think s2 did a good job of having the sort of foreboding vibe that s1 was often going for, but without the annoying darkness and desaturation. so points for that.
also st2 is like one of the best Autumn pieces of media ever like it just. like steve and dustin on those train tracks with the fallen leaves all around them.... god. god the vibes are unparalleled. all of the halloween stuff also really contributes to the nostalgia st runs on yknow it makes you think about childhood and trick-or-treating and you kind of get transported like damn... i remember going to the rich neighborhoods to score the good candy..... idk i just think the whole thing is incredibly effective.Â
âbabysitterâ steve
by sending nancy and jonathan off together, the show created a problem: what to do with steve? this problem pushed them to create the unconventional and unexpected duo of steve and dustin, and the world is so much brighter for it. seriously though we all know steve and dustin are great i donât need to argue that point. all iâll add is that i think allowing steve to grow in this way, serving as a mentor figure and becoming genuine friends with someone so unexpected, really took the originality of his character to the next level. no longer content just to defy his archetype, in s2 steve begins branching out in ways that never would have been considered in s1, creating an incredibly complex and interesting person from the sort of character that most shows would have simply written out or killed off for convenienceâs sake. and it works and steve and dustin are such a joy to watch and i love them. <3
the lucas/max plot
so first of all max mayfield is the most perfect baby girl on godâs green earth and idk what i would do without her but anyway. i think lumax is the best romantic relationship in the show and not just because theyâre the only ones with like an age-appropriate approach to the whole thing. itâs also because their relationship accomplishes more than just putting the two of them in a relationship!! lucas and max spending time together motivates billy to do his evil shit, providing more conflict in the narrative, and it also helps establish max as part of the group in a relatively natural way while giving both her and lucas a great subplot. lucas (and dustin) has a crush on the new girl, they start spending some time together, and lucas ends up needing to decide whether heâll keep the secret of the upside down and lose her, or risk both of their lives by telling her the truth. thatâs a pretty big, character-defining decision that he gets to make!! max has to choose whether to trust this boy she barely knows and endanger herself, or to walk away and stay safe, yet another great character-defining choice that also contributes to the sense we get as an audience of max as somebody whoâs incredibly lonely and desperate for love and connection. this post is way too long already and i have a ton more to say so iâll stop now but yeah i think lumax really Works in the show without ever distracting or detracting from the overall plot and narrative in the way that some other ships (coughjancycough) often do.
balance between the normal and abnormal
s2 i think did a pretty solid job of melding daily life with more fantastical sci-fi horror elements. i enjoyed seeing so much of the kids at school in the first few episodes!! you really get a strong sense of where theyâre at in life, what their daily lives are like, and you get a sort of gradual shift into madness that makes everything feel more grounded than i think it would if they had just leapt straight into the horror shit, yknow?Â
the el and hopper dynamic
go back and rewatch s2 and tell me thatâs not one of the most moving portrayals of parenthood and trauma and growing up that youâve ever seen. you canât. or well you can but i wonât listen. i really canât imagine stranger things without el and hopperâs relationship, and itâs my absolute favorite part of s2. their whole dynamic is so beautiful and complex, and gives them each amazing personal arcs in addition! the black hole scene is literally one of the showâs greatest moments of all time. any given scene between the two of them in s2 is just guaranteed to be heartwarming as well as heartbreaking, and i think that makes for an incredible show.
weaknesses
flashbacks
okay this applies to Every season they All have too many flashbacks but in s2 specifically... please stop showing me shit from season one. i watched it. i know what happened. you donât need to spoon feed everything to me!! flashbacks can be a really helpful way of delivering information to an audience, but st has a bad habit of not only being kinda demeaning in how often they flash back to shit that the audience already knows, but they also have a bad habit of using flashbacks almost as a crutch to avoid having to deliver information subtly and naturally.Â
you know i gotta say it... the lost sister
this is so sad. the lost sister really is like a great concept for an st episode, and iâm not mad about the idea of st taking a break from the normal action to focus on one story for a full episode, but the execution of it was just dreadful. kali and her crew feel very over-the-top and stereotypical, and its placement in the season totally kills the tension and excitement that was built in âthe spy.âÂ
i think the lost sister honestly could have gone over far better, even with the stereotypical fake-feeling gang kali has, if they had just swapped it with âthe spyâ like... ok, the end of episode five has el setting off to find kali and will collapsing on the ground seizing. right? imagine if, instead of immediately following will to the lab, weâd followed el. we donât know whatâs happening with will, but itâs a very simple cliffhanger that leaves us on edge without making us feel cheated by the show cutting away. we follow el on her little journey, everything happens much the same as canon, and then at the end, el sees hopper in scrubs. she sees mike, screaming, sees that theyâre both in danger. holy shit!!! what the fuck!!! whatâs happened since we left will seizing on the ground??? we feel elâs fear and confusion. she decides to go home. and then... boom. âthe lost sisterâ is over. now, we rewind, right back to will seizing on the ground, and âthe spyâ commences. we learn how they got into the danger that el saw in the end of âthe lost sister,â and we sit on the edge of our seats all through âthe spyâ and âthe mind flayer,â KNOWING that el is on her way back to save them but not knowing when sheâll arrive!! idk i donât think that would have necessarily saved lost sister but i think it may have alleviated some of the issues that i and many others have with it, timing-wise.
the nancy/jonathan sidequest
once again, the idea of nancy going off on her own little mission to find justice for barb after s1 is like. amazing. genuinely i love that plot for her and i canât imagine anything better for her to have focused on in s2. unfortunately though i think her and jonathanâs little trip to see murray was just kind of... lame. the whole thing just felt like an excuse to get the two of them alone together, yknow? which is fine i guess people contrive all sorts of situations to get characters alone together for romance reasons but in this case i think it just really doesnât work for me because of what itâs juxtaposed with. like, will is POSSESSED, and jonathan is just off on a mini road trip and sleeping with his bestie, and jonathan never seems to communicate to joyce/will that he left town, and joyce never like... thinks to tell him that will is like sick and fucked up and theyâre looking at him in the lab??? like itâs so weird i know joyce always forgets about jonathan when shitâs happening with will but jfc youâd think at some point in that like... 72-ish-hour period where jonathan was out of town she would have thought about him. like at least once. maybe iâm forgetting something and she mentioned him sometime and i missed it but even still, i hate the juxtaposition of nancy and jonathan just like cheers-ing at murrayâs place and sleeping together and whatnot while everyone else is dealing with possession or trying to hunt down dart yknow? it feels really boring in comparison and i think it could have been done far better. like it was SO insanely easy for them to get into the lab and get an admission of guilt and escape with it!! i think it might have been a lot more engaging if maybe someone from the lab tailed them to murrayâs place and they had to like lose the tail and race to get the recording out to as many news outlets as possible before they got caught, or something like that. the tension in their plotline is completely resolved in episode four!! episodes five and six are just them screwing around and addressing envelopes. while there were a lot of strong ideas in this plotline (i really enjoy nancy going out of her way to get justice, and the fact that they have to water down the story to make it believable), i just think the focus on nancy and jonathan getting together hindered it a lot without adding a ton to the plot or their individual characters.
season 3
strengths
starcourt mall as a setting
while i donât think the mall was utilized quite to its full potential (something i could make a separate post about if anyoneâs interested), i do think that starcourt was a genius addition to the series. iâve said this before, but building a new mall is a literal Perfect in-universe justification for a significant leap forward in fashion and aesthetics, and it provides a great location for characters to just... be characters. idk how else to articulate this i just think that the mall is a great setting to let people interact with each other and to bring people together who may not have been otherwise (i.e. scoops troop). not to mention how sick it was to see the mall get wrecked toward the end kdjncdkm like they were able to do so much more with the mall in terms of like The Finale than they could with just the byers house or the cabin or the school or even the lab. i love all the back tunnels they run through itâs such a fun like acknowledgement of how this glitzy eighties mall is just a real place where employees get shipments and take out the trash and shit idk itâs all about the perfect facade and whatâs hidden whatâs underneath whatâs hiding in plain sight etc etc iâm just saying words now. anyway.Â
willingness to experiment and go against expectations
gay robin. neon aesthetics. giant fucking meat monster. i know some people hate both the neon and the meat monster but i personally think they were kind of amazing and like. yknow regardless of personal tastes i think itâs impossible to deny that s3 had a lot of incredible visuals, and theyâre all visuals that just wouldnât have been possible if the show were too afraid to stray from its s1 aesthetic. robin being canonically gay (and her resulting friendship with steve) and the seasonâs striking visuals are two things that most everyone (besides like homophobes skjncdknm) can agree were great, right? and they were both departures from where the show began and what we all expected!! so yeah i think while some of the experimentation in s3 wasnât ideal it was also that experimentation that allowed for some of the seasonâs strongest elements to come about.
the hospital sequence (and the seasonâs action/horror scenes in general)
this one is fairly self-explanatory. while they may have underutilized the âbody snatchingâ element of the season, the hospital sequence with nancy and jonathan fighting off their possessed bosses did an amazing job of building tension and creating a genuine sense of really intense and personal danger.
in general i think that s3 melded action and horror rather well, particularly in the sauna test, the hospital, and when the mindflayer busts through the roof of hopâs cabin. horror can come from many things, and in this case, st elicited horror largely from the feeling of helplessness, and it was really effective for me personally. i think it worked better for me than s1âČs brand of horror because it doesnât rely so much on a lack of knowledge or a sense of suspense that inevitable disappears upon a second viewing.
the body horror we got in s3 was also really fun! thatâs it i just think all the blood and guts and slime were fun and i would like more of them. once again, the impacts of body horror are less dependent upon the viewer being in the dark or unsure as to whatâs happening, and as such i think it tends to be a little more effective at eliciting reaction in the long term.
timing and mechanics of the battle of starcourt/finale
i think the battle of starcourt is just fucking awesome, and beyond that personal opinion, i think itâs the most high-stakes and intense finale of all three seasons, and this is for two main reasons! 1. el is out of commission, and 2. (almost) everyone is in the same cental location. this means that (almost) everyone is in danger all at once, and they are all working together at the same time to fight the same threat. s1/s2 have their groups more fragmented for the finales, and while i understand why in each case and i wouldnât call either seasonâs finale necessarily weak, i do think the centralized nature of the s3 finale just Works on another level. in s1 and s2, large segments of the cast are already perfectly safe by the time el dispatches the primary threat. in s3, however, everybody save for dustin and erica is still in danger up until the last moment, and el is seemingly (you can def debate how much power she still had in her when she peeked into billyâs mind and whether the memory broke the mindflayerâs hold on him or if she was actually controlling him to some degree) completely vulnerable. this increases the tension and raises the stakes, making the finale a real crescendo to fortissimo as opposed to a series of little mezzo forte moments. i hope everyone reading this knows music idk how else to phrase that my brain is stupid.
emphasis on friendship and adolescence (but in a different way than s1/2)
this is definitely a controversial one but i think that s3 really did like... show a side of friendship that had been more or less unexplored thus far in the show. el and max were amazing, and i think itâs really nice that we got an opportunity to see the kids have some growing pains as well as see them support each other through Normal Adolescent Stuff like boyfriends and breakups instead of just like. death and trauma. this is maybe just a personal preference, but i think it can be really enlightening and provide a lot of depth when you get to see how characters respond to normal everyday conflict and not just how they respond to giant world-ending conflict!! letting el use her powers for goofy teenage shit like spying on boys and messing with mean girls at the mall is not only fun for her and the audience, but it also really emphasizes just how much those powers are a part of el, making it that much more devastating when she loses them at the end of the season.Â
weaknesses
tonal dissonance
so this is like. obvious. but it must still be said! i wonât go on and on about it since we all know this so iâll try to like talk about it from an angle people donât usually? anyway. it seems to me like they were maybe a little worried about s3 being too dark. while the choice to really lean into humor was definitely driven by the sorts of eighties teen films from which s3 drew inspiration (like fast times at ridgemont high), i think it was also done in an attempt to alleviate the more troubling implications of some events in the season, particularly the russian bunker plot. like, yeah, st can be incredibly dark, but if theyâd played the whole âchildren being stuck inside of a foreign military base, tied up, tortured, and druggedâ thing completely straight without the humorous elements that exist in canon, it had the potential to be like... disturbing on a new level. steve and robin donât have powers like el yknow their kidnapping/torture doesnât have any sci-fi elements to sorta soften the blow. theyâre just innocent teenagers being brutalized and traumatized by grown men. so anyway yeah i think maybe the writers were concerned about this storyline coming off as too dark and they wanted it to be a little more whimsical but they ended up pushing way too hard in that direction and creating extreme dissonance at times. this goes for joyce/hopper/murray/alexei too, but to a lesser extent. i think the ridiculousness in that group felt a lot more like... realistic. but still.Â
newspaper plot
once again i feel like i donât even need to say this skjdncmn we all know it was insane how the show basically ended up delivering the message âwhile misogyny is a serious problem poverty and classism are notâ and iâve said it on this blog a million times so i donât need to repeat myself. iâll focus on another weak point of this plot: the fact that it completely separates nancy and jonathan from everyone else. once again, the showâs preoccupation with j/ancy held them back! like... can you imagine a version of s3 where nancy and jonathan both worked in the mall? i have a lot of ideas about this possible au and like how the plot could play out differently if they worked in the mall but first of all itâs just more realistic, second of all it further utilizes the mall as a central setting, and third of all, it would bring everyone together. as it is in canon, nancy and jonathan were unnecessarily isolated from the rest of the group, and this isolation was detrimental to both of their characters. like, they only ever get to interact with each other! if theyâd gotten summer jobs in the mall, they could have had more interactions with the kids/steve/robin, and they absolutely still could have had a similar argument! maybe in this case, nancy notices the rat thing (or something else odd) herself when taking out the trash behind the mall, and she wants jonathan to ditch work with her to check it out bc she thinks it may be related to the lab. jonathan doesnât want to ditch work because he needs his job, nancy argues that theyâre working shitty mall jobs anyway and who cares if they get fired, and we get more or less the same thing as s3 without the cartoonishly over-the-top misogyny. i mean honestly i think the rat shit could have been cut entirely it didnât rly... accomplish much of anything. in my opinion. like imagine s3 without the rat plot you literally would not be missing anything except it would be more surprising when the dudes melted into goo at the hospital. so yeah i think it would have been better if nancy and jonathan had jobs at the mall, werenât isolated from everybody else, and were maybe absorbed into the partyâs plot or the scoops troopâs plot from very early on, allowing them to interact with more characters and have a less... dumb.... plot. like god splitting up nancy and jonathan between the party/scoops troop would have been So Much better i just. sdkjcnksdmn anyway yeah.
briefness of group reunion/separation of groups
remember in s2 at the beginning of âthe gate,â where mike and hopper had a confrontation and max and el met for the first time and el hugged everyone and steve and nancy had their sad little moment together outside... whereâs that energy? obviously the s2 reunion wasnât that long either, but it made space for some significant emotional moments to take place. s3âČs reunion had some hopper/el/mike resolution, but besides that... there was nothing, really. i just think that the whole group getting together in s3 was SO exciting and powerful the way they did it (with both the scoops troop and the adults having their own Big Moment reconnecting with team griswold family), but the emotional potential was more or less squandered.Â
i also think in s3 at times they were really stretching to keep everybody separated even though it made no sense. and like... in s1 the separation worked bc nobody else knew that (x group) was experiencing weird shit too, and beyond that, each group (as i mentioned in the s1 section) was sort of operating within their own genre and bringing something unique to the season. theyâve stopped doing that though! now, the groups arenât separate bc each plot is tonally/structurally different, the groups are just separate bc... they need to be, because itâs a big ensemble cast and you canât just have them all be together for a whole season or it would be way too difficult to coordinate things and keep the show dynamic. all this is to say that iâm excited for s4 because the location differences make it so thereâs a Reason for each plot to be separate at the beginning, and i think thatâll work better.
general ridiculousness
i dont mean like i think itâs bad that they made jokes this is just me lumping in all the dumb shit like hopper not worrying about el and not wanting to check on the kids, him and joyce bickering long after they both know they and their children are in danger, max seemingly forgetting that billy is a racist abuser, etc etc. i think many of these are just a symptom of the show 1. trying desperately to keep the groups split up a certain way even though it may not make any sense, and 2. trying to fit into a certain genre/trope mold when their actual characters are more complex than the tropes theyâre imitating. this is so fucking long already i am not gonna elaborate further rn but i trust u all know what i mean.
soooo... yeah, thatâs about all! i mean itâs not all there are definitely many more things i could talk about and i know i focused sorta disproportionately on the teens which is my bad :/ but iâm done for now. thank you for asking, and apologies for the delay in responding!! iâm sure some people reading (if anyone read this far) will disagree with some of what iâve said and thatâs alright like iâm not The Authority on st or anything iâm just trying to talk about like my own thoughts yknow? so yeah luv u all i hope someone enjoyed reading this!!
#asks#em talks#lesbianrobin.canon#stranger things#if u actually read all this i love u and im sorry#these r just my opinions!! and im sure i misremembered some shit my brain is swiss cheese#i did my best tho
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abstract: the one where steve finds your love letters.
pairing: au!steve x fem!reader
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warnings: cussing, fluff, angst, crying, slight self-deprecation.
[authorâs note]: hey guys! iâm really new to the writing scene so kind words are appreciated! srsly just testing my writing style out and wanted to just post something to motivate me to keep writing. hope u like it. <3
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Stevie,
First and foremost, I want you to know how proud of you I am. You have become the man youâve said you become, the one I always knew you would. You have finally seen what the rest of us see.
A good man.
The soul you carry within you shines brighter than Iâve ever seen. Just for that only, Iâm thankful for the time weâve spent together. Maybe one day, Iâll be brave enough to tell you this without hiding behind the comfort of this notebook. She wonât spill my secrets, fortunate for me.
Some days you have no idea how badly I want to tell you. I think itâs on the days I discover a new fleck of green in your eyes or maybe when you show up to class with a cup of coffee for me without request.
More. More. More.
More. More. More.
Itâs selfish of me, that much I know. More days than not, I would say you give too much of yourself away. Always wanting to appease everyone, you, Steven Rogers, the bridge to making the people around you happier than they walked in. Even when Bucky drags you into his nonsense bullshit, you say yes without hesitation.
Iâve got not a a clue on how you continue on, how you still remain you when you tend to spread yourself so thin. Who watches out for you? Who cares for you? Who loves the almighty, selfless Rogers?
For me, itâs much easier to pretend you carry too much on your plate than to deal with the rejection I would receive from you. Youâre just too good, more than I deserve. More than I would be willing to take. I know I couldnât possibly give you what you deserve but, I hope that one day you might see me differently. You would see me more than the light Iâve painted myself in.
Even though the shade is lovely, I want to be deeper. Deeper into you on a level which only seems unattainable at this point.
A forever friend. To be in your life, just as a friend, is an reward in itself.
But someday I hope you would love me in the same way I do. Itâs all a love struck girl could do. Hope for the best, bet be prepared for the downfall.
With much love, your forever friend.
Tearing the page away from the binding of the overfilled notebook, dispensing it in the first empty drawer you could find, you abandoned the feelings as soon as the penâs ink bleed out dry.
âYou know it would just be easier to tell him how you feel.â You peaked up at the sound of her voice, before realizing she was looming over you, watching your write the letter.
Your supposed, secret letter.
âNat, please. No.â Opening the drawer, she grabbed the letter but was surprised with just how many she found.
âYouâve got to be kidding me. Youâve written about him multiple times?â You sank in the soft, plush material of your seat hoping that just maybe it would begin to swallow you whole. Hopefully, fast enough were you wouldnât have to endure the rest of the conversation. One you had been trying to avoid, for the past three years.
âItâs nothing Nat, just forget it.â Just like a Romanov, she couldnât leave it alone. Even if she tried it was laced in her blood to see any little thing through.
âYou really shouldnât wait so long. A window might close for you, much sooner than you think.â With a curious eyebrow lifted, you felt your breath leave you.
âWhat does that supposed to mean?â Steve certainly deserved the best and you knew it was only time for him to figure out you would never be enough for him.
âPeggy Carter.â Peggy.
The one girl of a sea of many who had been enamored by Steve. He never really seemed to spend anytime with the women who vied for his attention, but Peggy was surely different than the rest.
Even if Steve was oblivious when it came to the advances everyone would make on him, he saw Peggy. Considering she was the most beautiful woman you had ever seen, she intimidated you. God, did she ever.
On numerous occasions she and Steve had gone out, and even though he assured you they were just friends you were starting to believe he was only trying to protect your feelings. As a friend.
He had never cancelled on you once for her and he would tell you if he had started to date someone, just like he had before.
Even though the entire three years youâd known him he only had one serious girlfriend and after eight months, the pair broke up and even now he still didnât budge on why they broke up.
âSteve can do whatever he wants with her. Heâs a single man. Heâs gone out with her before and heâll probably go with her again.â Then Sam was the next to speak up, dismissing the total bullshit spouting from your mouth.
âCanât you see he doesnât want to? The damn man follows you around like a goddamn puppy.â Okay, when did he even come in here?
âGod, fuck, no he doesnât. He would have said something by now, heâs had three years and itâs been nothing but radio silence.â With an all knowing smirk, Sam proposed a new concept into question.
âIt has been three years. So, have you ever said anything to him?â
Shit. Fuck you, Wilson.
âW-Well, not exactly.â Sam didnât have to say anything in response. You knew he was right and you hated it.
Your unwillingness still stood for you, there was just no way he actually would reciprocate your feelings.
âListen, I think it would be really good for the both of you to air everything out. Peggy is sinking her claws in him and it isnât too long before they get stuck. Just talk to him.â You nodded silently, but you werenât sure if youâd ever have the courage to.
â
Emptiness.
Itâs all you seemed to feel today. Following you around was a dark cloud, looming over you. Wishing you could be anywhere but your own body. Nothing in particular happened to make you deserve the feeling you were granted with. It just so happened to be one of those days.
From the moment you got out of bed â or rather stayed in bed until four in the afternoon, you felt like anything you would have done just didnât feel enough. The feeling was fleeting, never staying for more than a day or so, but it made the day drag on. Never ending.
Your muscles sore, body aching from the lack of activity your presumed. Or maybe you had built it in your head too.
Thankfully for you, Nat was busy helping Bucky move into his new place the entire day. She asked if you wanted to help, but mentally you didnât feel you would be useful for anyone. Simply, telling her you would hang back, claiming you had another an essay to write.
Which you did, you werenât completely lying, but there was more than your sour mood to blame for your dismissal of social interaction.
You hated to be that girl, the one who needed the presence of men. Specifically, the company of one very beautiful, blue eyed one.
His absence in your life the past few weeks felt heavier on you than you thought it would. You knew from Samâs intel he had been hanging out with Peggy more and more. He said the two of them were getting close, mercifully sparing you the details.
You hated itâs youâd become. A girl so damn struck over a boy who was giving his attention elsewhere. Upset you were though. Before even if he was busy between classes and his internship at the gallery, he would still text to check up on you.
Now, it was nothing but radio silence letting you draw conclusions on your own. Very, very dangerous territory for you to travel to.
Steve and you are just friends. Get. Over. It.
You thought youâd be alone the rest of the Saturday, especially since it was nearly midnight. Figuring Nat was staying over at Buckyâs and Wanda leaving earlier in early hours of the morning to see her boyfriend for the entire weekend.
Then, an incredibly drunk Steve stumbled into your quaint apartment, the thoughtfully sweetness in him blubbering out with the alcohol flooding through his system. It was like he was on overdrive. More than ready to crash at any given moment.
You had enough when Steve started shamelessly raiding your kitchen, but you remained on the couch attempting to maintain some distance between the two of you. He had a history of being incredibly handsy whenever he had bit too much to drink.
Stumbling his way over to you, almost tripping on the rug, until he was basically cuddling up to your side. His arms latched tightly around you, pulling you into him. Not spared a choice, not that youâd want one.
The security of being wrapped up to him wasnât something you ever grew tired of. You donât think there would ever be a time you would ever be capable of turning him away.
âIâve missed you. Itâs been too long.â His soft tone, penetrating the tiny resistance you held towards him. âMe too. I was starting to think you disappeared on me, bubba.â
âNever.â His iron grip holding so tight like he was afraid youâd slip right through.
âIs everything alright?â Trying to pull from him, but Steve seemed unable to let you go. You whispered in his ear, caressing his back.
âI think so.â
âHere, let me grab you cup of joe and some water. Okay? Iâll be right back.â Leaving him a kiss on the cheek, before heading him into the kitchen.
If you had been around him recently, perhaps you would be more in tune with how he was feeling. Then the guilt sept in.
âSweetheart, do you know where the phone charger is? Itâs not by the recliner.â You heard him shout, trying to stop your heart from hammering into your stomach.
Just make him some coffee, sober him up, until he crashes.
Steve always seemed to be a lightweight and somehow whenever he did decide to drink he always found himself routing his way into your home. You thought it was simply for accident alone. The bar he frequented at was only a few block from you.
The past few times he would just stumble into your bedroom, immediately passing out in your soft, silky sheet. Now, he seemed to have more pressing matters at hand.
âCheck the drawers, Stevie. I think thereâs one you left around here somewhere.â You grabbed the filters and the grounds out, brewing the coffee. Soon, with a black cup of coffee and a water bottle in hand you took note of just how quite he was being.
He was never this silent and it was freaking you out.
âAre you sure youâre o-â
Just like that.
Fuck.
Hunched over, practically on his knees, he read over the endless letters you wrote about him. Confessions never meant to be seen by him. You lost track of how many you had written over the past few years once realized how irrevocably in love with him you are.
He didnât realize you had found him and you were suddenly paralyzed. Unaware of your presence he continued to read through them and his expression was unrecognizable. One youâd never seen from him before, and you didnât quite know how to react.
No. He wasnât grimacing nor did he seem to be elated either. He just stood there just like you, afraid what would happen next.
What did this mean for the two of you? Your entire relationship was purely riding on whatever happened next.
Softly, with a gentle hand, he sifted through them all like he was looking for something specifically. Steve let them fall to the hardwood floors as your shaking hands could no longer support the weight of the dainty coffee cup he had actually sculpted himself.
The glass shattering everywhere, several pieces making their way towards him, thankfully not fiercely enough to penetrate his skin.
Truly, you had never been more sorry than when he looked up at you with tears in his eyes. Threatening to spill over. Because of you.
You didnât have to be told, you already knew.
Carefully, Steve stood up making his way over to you around the shattered mug. Still you couldnât bring yourself to move. Simply just watching him until he was right in front of you â more silent than youâd ever seen him before.
âThose were about me. Werenât they?â You nodded having no reason to lie other than to protect yourself from a rejection you been hoping to spare yourself from.
âI didnât want you to find out like this. Or at all really.â Your resolve dropping instantly when Steve took a step further gripping by your hips, pulling you closer.
âWhy not?â He questioned you, again. Almost like he needed a verbal affirmation of every secret he had just read.
Unintentionally, stealing your soul served for him on a silver platter.
âI know how youâd feel about me, Steve. Itâs not how I want it to be and itâs okay.â You remove yourself from him, traveling to the other side of the living room. Suddenly, the apartment seemed suffocating with him in it. âIâm fine, Steve.â
Hearing him sigh in frustration only furthered your immense feeling of being a burden to him.
Youâre just one more obstacle he has to deal with.
âOne of them dated back for over two years ago. Two fucking years.â His harsh tone, piercing through you like a knife.
âI know. I should have told you.â You whispered, wishing you could disappear into any abyss that would take you. Deeply wishing you just didnât have to endure for the rest of this conversation. Wishing you could have stopped him from opening that stupid drawer. âI tell you everything, but I just couldnât bring myself to speak about this. Look at how youâre reacting? How could you blame me when every fear I have about this is justified?â
You really should have kept those elsewhere, not your open, public living room.
âBecause itâs us. Iâm always here for you.â He was still crying through broken words and you didnât know why. Almost like you had shattered his resolve and his control leaving with it.
âNot lately. Youâve been otherwise occupied.â Suddenly find the plant in the corner of the room. It certainly werenât trying to distract yourself from the insatiable cerulean eyes.
The breathtaking british woman wasnât even here and as soon as she was brought up â there was a wall. Seperating, you from whatever was between the two of you.
âThis isnât my fault. You never said anything. How was I supposed to know you feel that way about me?â He tried to make his way towards you but you just stalked off in the other direction. Circling around the living room like a coward.
âIt didnât matter though, did it? You found someone perfect for you regardless of how you feel.â God, you wish he would just leave so you could let the dam break.
âNo. You donât get to do that. Since the moment I met you I only had eyes for you, but you never seemed like you were interested. So, I dropped it. Okay? You never left me a crumb to think you would ever want to be more than just friends.â
âYou were my best friend. You still are. No matter how I felt, it could never outweigh the need I have for you to be in my life.â He sighed, rubbing his hands over his face. Trying to figure out what was next for the both of you. Steve always had to initiate and this time was no different.
âPeggy told me tonight she wants to be exclusive.â His confession washing over you like a ton of bricks. Crushing you.
You really couldnât have any ill feeling towards her, she was just doing what you lacked the courage and the tenacity to do.
âBut I didnât really know what to do.â He took quiet steps towards you, not wanting to spook you. He voice not no longer held the a warmth of teddy bear, but a man on a mission rather took over.
Steve kept quiet until he had you backed up into a corner, no escape route in vision for you.
ââCause thereâs this other beautiful woman, absolutely breathtaking â and I just I really needed to know how she felt. If I had known before, Â I never would have gone anywhere else.â His hand caressing your soft, plump lips. Pulling on your bottom lip with his thumb, sending you into a frenzy.
âThen, I just wanted to forget about everything until Sam called me. Three beers deep, when he told me of a drawer filled with letters I should take a look at.â You could feel his breath on you, temple pressed against yours.
âI just need to hear you say it. Just once.â Taking it a step forward, intertwining your finger with his own.
âI love you.â It was all he needed as he sealed his own affirmation with a sweet kiss, inking your lips with all of his love.
#for the love of god let these tags work :/#steve rogers#steve rogers x reader#steve rogers x reader fluff#steve rogers x reader angst#steve rogers fluff#steve rogers angst#steve rogers one shot#steve rogers imagine#steve rogers au#college!steve rogers#au#mcu#mcu fanfiction#fanfiction
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please by all means make a post about adachi and the gsa i would literally die of happiness ( but no pressure i love ur tag essays )
honestly u asking me this already makes ME happy fjdnddjwhcuwhdns mwa
I was honestly wondering where the heck Iâd even begin since I donât know how to condense all this information in one go but Iâve decided to đ„đ„đ„ overanalyze chair car adventure from scratch AHDNEHCHAJSNWJD (I canât find any of my previous essays so letâs !!!! do it all over again!!!!!!! /starts running into oncoming traffic/)
Adachi, as I personally perceive, looks like a very unmotivated person. Enticed by cheap things and looking for the easy way out, whether itâs efficient or not. He has no personal belongings he holds sentimental value in as seen in his plain and barren apartment, and the objects he couldn't even recall having when presented to him when his home was searched.
Despite being incredibly lazy in most aspects, he certainly is bored. Which leads him to start shit even if itâd make things inconvenient for him. Whether itâd be killing people to start a case for his own entertainment, or seeing how much he can poke Dojima until he gets b-grade sushi for dinnerâor his own ass whooped.
Heâs a clever and smart guy, but more often than not, he can lookâŠgenuinely stupid despite his clear intentions.
The attendant acts very similarly to Adachiâs own facade. But in the context weâre meant to believe, the attendant is their own person; a more genuine "fool" to Adachiâs "jester." If Adachiâs putting on an act to get by, then the attendant is, simply, being themself.
Whatâs peculiar is that Adachi never bothered to put up his own facade in front of the attendant. One dent in his car and he decided he wouldnât give the effort. And as he expected, everything would go downhill from there.
And why would he? He wouldnât even come back here. His car was already breaking down, and heâs experienced firsthand that itâs hard to get around the winding and narrow streets of old, cracking pavement of the maze Inaba makes itself to be. And as if a guy working in the economically suffering shopping district would get payed enough to even bother snitching on a police detective (who, equally embarrassing, was transferred to a backwater city for his own blunder).
A fool meets an actual fool. What would come out of it?
Interestingly enough, an entertaining and unforgettable experience that Adachi would warm up to and remember fondly.
(continuing the analysis down here and more of my au!!!! IT'S SO LONG)
Like mentioned, the attendant is more genuine of their clown personality. Theyâre polite, they have a sense of humor, overly curious, and do their best to follow the ethics of work. But theyâre socially inept, which would probably make their actions, reactions and humor seem insensitive or rude and even unnecessarily nosy. But thatâs simply because they arenât aware of social etiquette or that they may perceive it differently. While their obliviousness isn't meant as an insult because they really don't Know.
Would Adachi have taken this as inspiration and possibly something to strive for in his own facade heâll continue acting out for all his time here? Yes. âŠ.to some extent.
The attendant is very good at being âanti-Adachi.â All of this manâs supposedly sly gimmicks wouldnât work at all because of how incredibly stupid this guy even is. The attendant being the embodiment of âbit confused, but got the spirit,â makes Adachi wonder what this guy knows and doesnât know. Down the line, it could be realized that Adachiâs been treating this guy like a kid whoâs experienced life from watching through a window.
He canât make fun of them, they donât know what most insults even areâor they might turn it around and take it as a compliment, at worst. He canât make himself look good, since they might as well take that context and connect it to a whole new thought entirely and make fun of him instead. He canât make a joke thatâs funny because all theyâll laugh at is how funny this poor man is for desperately trying to make a joke in the first place.
Itâs not that Adachi canât be himself just to interact with guy, but that he has to stop doing things under the intention of trying to wrap this guy around his finger. In fact, all he shouldnât have any intentions, and just, be himself. Thereâs no need to strategise and start psychological warfare when itâll just end up with pies to his face for trying so hard. This is a gas station attendant for peteâs sake.
Granted, he was pissed off. I suppose he was just trying to let out steam, whichâŠ.just made shit worse if he directed to someone specifically.
Actually, he should just stop being easily offended and see this guy as a kid. Which, as said, is something heâll realize down the line.
That being said, what would this man in his twenties (he assumes from what the guy said) had been doing for majority of their life to not understand the workings of this cruel world?
âThat, or they truly know whatâs going on with the world, just like himself.
âŠ
Bah. Theyâre just an dumb idiot.
Going back to his first interaction with the attendant, he acts quite decentlyâkindly, evenâwhen heâs not too fed up with everything. He goes on a rant of his life before Inaba and apologizes for his pessimism immediately after heâs realized it. Heâs happy when heâs made someone laughâwell, before being told it was not because of his joke, but of how he himself was funny being related to another context, that is. He responds to all of the attendantâs blunders rashly, but doesnât do anything to punish them for it and just lets them be (which could obviously be interpreted as Adachi not having any energy for everything, but Iâm keeping note of this).
The most endearing part of all this is that, despite being harassed for the past five minutes straight (all due to a manâs genuine blunders which Adachi understands yet still whines about in accordance to his personality), Adachi sees the attendant crack and start laughing. Maybe the guy laughed because it was obligatory, or maybe they really did find Adachi funnier than his own âjokes.â But in any case, it broke through Adachiâs clouds of anger and annoyance and made him laugh too. (I KNOW THIS IS ON THE ACTORâS PART OF FINALLY BREAKING CHARACTER IN A LITERAL COMEDY SKIT BUT I DO NOT. CARE). And Adachi couldâve just left them on the ground, but no! He picked them up driven by happy adrenaline and tried his best to get back on his âannoyed man who doesnât want to be in the hicksâ front.
Actuallyâthe most endearing thing is here is that Adachi calls them âbakabaka.â Varying his âkimiâ and the more derogatory âomae.â But if he ever had a fixed name for this unnamed moron, itâd certainly be âbakabaka.â I just find it amusing heâs consistent with this. A name in his brain he associates with one person, with derogatory intent or not.
And then /TV recording fast forward sound effect/ months later does Adachi try to bring this up.
In the rice fields in the middle of summer in the middle of an investigation does Adachi decide to tell Dojima of the story of his first day in Inaba. Adachi whining about the barrenness of the boonies and getting called a rookie with the usual bold annoyance Dojima holds does Adachi remember of his memory before the flowers bloomed (he said this. it was. kinda poetic when he was literally just trying to the recall the time it happened).
Maybe with the added factor that this would drive Dojimaâs attention away from being annoyed at Adachi. But whatâs interesting is how Adachi was just so incredibly persistent about talking about this story in the first place.
Calling the attendant âthis interesting guy,â and having a stupid smile on his face starting out each attempt of his narratives withâso I was in my carâŠâ all while bringing his hands up to imitate him holding the steering wheel (oh my GOD Iâll never get over these two scenes). Dojima, too many times to count, gets interrupted by calls to the point Adachi whines as Dojima picks up his phone like a little brat and even going âhey hey :3 yâknow u can. u can turn off ur phone, right <:3 yâknow that :3 right.â
All this to talk about the time his ass got grabbed and how he had to deal with five full minutes on earth with the most annoying man alive.
Steering this into the context of my au, itâs funny to think that in this relationship, AdachiâsâŠactually being his genuine self for once, but with a person putting up an act. Someone he doesnât have to be fakey smiley around since theyâre the one smiling for the crowd. In exchange for them wearing a mask, Adachi can finally take off his own mask and breathe for once.
A nobody in the unusually quiet part of town he can vent to without consequence. He can give the idiot a good smack on the back and he wonât get harassed by their dad or uncle or whatever whoâs also his own boss.
Adachi has no inclination to put up an act in front of them, nor would that prove any benefit at this point. At some point Adachiâs become fond of their company and is glad he has someone he doesnât have to act around. When he smiles, theyâre no longer strained or fake. And he actually feels something from it besides thinking of it as an obligation to get by in life.
He can be as empty, hollow, pessimistic, and as sly as he wants. His emptiness would be filled naturally when he finds himself comfortable for once in his life. He might as well call himself guilty for leeching off of someoneâs sunshine but he canât help it when that someoneâs a literal ball of light constantly deflecting all of his usual pessimism.
Some days, Adachiâs terrified of all their optimism. Similar to Souji being a guy who canât stop helping people, would this moron heâs associated with also burn themself out one day? Or were they someone like him, just, even better at acting? And possibly, more empty than him?â But many of these times does his terror immediately subside when they do something stupid.
They do fun things together. They meet at the gas station (duh). They share drinks one of them bought from the convenience store (they take turns). They watch one rant about an annoyingly simple yet unsolvable case while the other gives him the last piece to the puzzle from a rumor they heard from the Housewife Network. In return the one has to watch the other service a broken gas fueled generator and give them the answer to their problem from whatever he remembered his boss mentioned when he gushed about taking care of his bike. Sitting behind the convenience store counter revising reports and counting the bills during the graveyard shift.
It doesnât always have to be at the gas station. Adachi could go to Samegawa and see them float like a dead body in the river. He could get awkwardly strapped to the backseat of a bike and hanging on to dear life while heâs being cycled away after saying he overslept for work. He could strap himself to the passenger seat of his car while itâs a driven by a maniac drifting through the empty city streets in the middle of the night just to watch fireworks. He could be in Junes and having to be more alert than usual that he doesnât lose a cryptid in a the supermarket and see twice more cabbages snuck into his basket when he blinks. He could go to Okina and wonder how a con artist got conned by an dumb idiot who doesnât even want money.
He has to be careful of what he says around an impressionableâŠ.adult. Too many times has he stopped them from trying to say anything beyond âbut mister detective saidââ in front of Namatame, Souji, the old woman, or even Nanako.
They end up talking, walking, shopping, fixing shit, cooking, and even drinking together. Talking about everything under theâŠrain. Walking and stepping into puddles reflecting moonlight when it showered in the morning. Getting each other things because it reminded them of the other. Teaching each other how to fix and mend things back to what it once was. Or how to make instant ramen more interesting with leftovers, to stir fry cabbage in sesame oil, to heat nimono for longer so the renkon isnât stiff. Getting one better branded canned beer while the other gets sparkling tomato juice with nine percent alcohol and simply being able to pour each other sake.
Smoking in oneâs home because he lit their cigarette himself. Dragging people into his home by writing their parcel address as his apartment and getting the deliveryman to drink with them. Or guiding a boy through a better lit path in the middle of the night to his apartment to deliver him bento made of leftovers. Or simply helping a lady up the steps of the stairs while carrying her pot of home cooked stew.
Adachi being friends with the sunniest person in town who gets even sunnier when the rain pours. The man too good looking for their job but manages to make the dumbest faces. Who constantly smells like petrichor and gas and motor oil. Who has callouses on their hands carrying crates and boxes and tires alike, yet delicate enough to mend a tear with the thinnest needle in the house. Someone so incredibly stupid but would tell you of the dangers of fire in a way they look like theyâd risk their life if you didnât remember.
As for the perspective of the entity behind the attendant themself. Well, Iâm sure itâs just as complicated for them.
update: happy 2023 pride. hereâs mimâs side of things https://www.tumblr.com/m0e-ru/715542668206292992/i-meant-to-send-this-yesterday-buy-forgot-but-its
#gsa sl au#persona 4 spoilers#long post#p4#p4v#sulululat#pagsususuri#assk#docmaruki#tohru adachi#moel gas station attendant#âœïžđ«#//wow gsa neurodivergent that means mim's neurodivergent that mean's marie's neurodivergent that means izy's neurodi#//the power of tunglr inbox for real#//hoping that u kno the stitched images arent necessarily chronological i just did it bc of tungles stupid stinky image limit /blow raspber#//idk if ive explained enough bc i genuinely dont know what ive talked about and what i havent so aaaa lol#//i would LOVE to talk about mimis perspective of this but im sure i'd triple the word count already khfaksdh it's 2.3k girl HELP#//having to consider their perspective as a deity and pointing out how they've been growing drastically throughout the year /screams/#//this is like. the tip of the iceberg i made their relationship so insane even I DONT UNDERSTAND#//everything starts falling apart when nanako gets kidnapped from every single perspective. she ties all of them together#//i talk about angst and post november angst very vaguely so. yeah#//ALSO IM NOT SURE IF I ACTUALLY ANSWERED THE QUESTION????LMAO#//one day i'll talk about gsaslau properly. one day#//AND TGANK YOU FOR THE ASK AGAIN I WENT INSANE I HOPE I PROVIDED SDJKGFALSURTHWAER
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Title: look into my eyes itâs where my demons hide Author: shelivesfree Status: WIP/Unupdated Rating: T Summary:Â Each time he comes back to her, a little piece of him is missing... left out there, in the field, with his brothers. She can see it in the way he smiles and it doesn't reach his eyes. In the way he cries to himself when he thinks she's not awake. And all she can do is hold him.
Title: lost Author: pinkeastereggs Status: complete Rating: G Summary:Â âI feel lost." âLost . . . what do you mean?â Padme couldnât help but frown, searching for any signs on her husbandâs face that could give her an insight to what he meant. But Anakin was just frowning to the side, seeming conflicted about something. He seemed distant, his eyes filled with an emotion that the young wife couldnât begin to describe. How long had Anakin had this look in his eyes? Had she been oblivious to it before now or was this something new? Anakin and Padme have a heart-to-heart when he admits to feeling lost and frustrated with the Jedi Council. With truths about his relationship with Palpatine coming to light, Padme fights to talk some sense into her husband.
Title: madam president Author: skywalkersamidala Status: complete Rating: R Summary: Between late nights and headaches and mountains of paperwork and fierce opposition from her political opponents, President Padmé Amidala already had enough on her plate. And then she just had to go and fall for one of her bodyguards, a relationship which would ruin her reputation and his career if anyone were to find out about it. Also, someone's trying to kill her.
Title: make the world a little colorful Author: estrangedlestrange Status: WIP Rating: G Summary: The morning after meeting her soulmate, Padmé woke up and saw color for the first time. In the midst of a political crisis, Padmé had just met a gungan, two Jedi, and a slave boy and his mother. She, like any rational young woman, assumed the padawan learner was her soulmate. Ten years later, after having accepted that she would never be with her soulmate, Padmé, reunited with both her supposed soulmate and the slave boy, she realized how wrong her assumptions were. The slave boy, Anakin, who had looked at her with wide hopeful eyes and asked if she was an angel, was her soulmate.
Title: the masterplan Author: stranestelle Status: complete Rating: T Summary: In the midst of the endless galactic conflict, Anakin Skywalker and Padmé Amidala have made a shocking discovery that brings more questions than answers. And maybe, just maybe, an end to the never-ending war. Sequel to Give Me A Signal.
Title: mother knows best Author: catiiasofia & misschrisdaae Status: complete Rating: M Summary: A long time ago, in a galaxy far, far away.... Shmi Skywalker Palpatine had ruled the Galactic Empire on behalf of her son, Anakin, since the death of his father. For his part, the next Emperor has been content to leave politics to his mother and engage only in military exercises. All that is about to change as Padmé Naberrie, former Queen of Naboo, comes seeking aid for her charity, Amidala's Crusade, and Anakin's long-dormant crush comes surging back. What should be a perfect match is opposed by a mother determined not to lose her son and convinced hers is the only way...
Title: no colors in our skin Author:Â JTHM_Michi Status: Abandoned Rating: T Summary:Â Anakin grew up knowing that his masters called him the wrong words. They all called him âgirlâ or âgirl-childâ and it was just another way for them to dehumanize him. He didnât know that, of course, not in those words, but it was true enough. His mother was always very clear with him, from the first time he came to her and asked her if she knew which master had taken his âboy partsâ, that just because his masters called him a girl didnât make him one. a.k.a. the Transgender Anakin Skywalker Verse
Title: no heroes on the high seas Author: spellcleaver Status: complete Rating: T Summary:Â When Luke's aunt and uncle are executed by order of the Emperor's right hand, Lord Vader, he flees his home to search for his sister and the mother he never knew. But then Obi-Wan Kenobi stows away aboard the same ship, Vader gives chase, and Luke is dragged into a conflict that his family are at the very heart of. Gen.
Title: nos cedamus amori Author: skywalkersamidala Status: complete Rating: M Summary: Anakin is a gladiator and a slave. Padmé is the wife of the Roman emperor's heir. Circumstances should never even allow them to meet, let alone fall in love.
Title: of mutated worlds Author: gemma Status: WIP Rating: M Summary:Â Nobody saw the end of the world coming. It happened overnight, no warning, no escape. They came from the shadows, biting, paralysing, and killing little by little until they were the majority. One day, everything was normal and then, suddenly, Padme Amidala Naberrie woke up in hell.
Title: of options and comlinks Author: estrangedlestrange Status: complete Rating: G Summary:Â In that moment it seemed like there were only two options: help Master Windu arrest the Chancellor and secret Sith Lord or heed to Sheev Palpatineâs begging and turn against the Jedi. But then, in a split second, a third option revealed itself.
Title: order 66-S Author: disco shop girl Status: complete Rating: M Summary:Â The order was to exterminate all Jedi: Past, Present and Future. Captain Rex has a different plan. Order 66-S: to save General Skywalker.
Title: parent-teacher conference Author: skywalkersamidala Status: complete Rating: G Summary:Â Anakin has to meet with the twins' second grade teacher after Leia punches a classmate in the face. But he hadn't counted on Ms. Amidala being quite so pretty.
Title: pas de deux Author: catiiasofia & misschrisdaae Status: complete Rating: M Summary: When Padmé Amidala and Anakin Skywalker meet at their mutual friends' house party, the sparks immediately fly, resulting in a one night stand that both of them want to be the start of something more. Except it turns out that Padmé works at the ballet company Anakin just took over. And Anakin is in the middle of a very heated divorce as he tries to gain custody of his daughter Leia. With pressure coming at them from their private and professional lives, making their fledgling relationship work will prove the biggest role of a lifetime.
Title: the path of the dark Author: catiiasofia & misschrisdaae Status: complete Rating: T Summary: Vader triumphs. Padmé resists. Series:Three Paths Not Followed. Series: The Darker Path.
Title: perfect Author: skywalkersamidala Status: complete Rating: G Summary: The war is over, Luke and Leia are five years old, and Anakin and Padmé finally have the peaceful life and big family they've always dreamed of. But their life is about to get a little less peaceful and their family a little bigger.
Title: perfect strangers Author: catiiasofia & misschrisdaae Status: complete Rating: R Summary: Anakin Skywalker meets a masked angel at a Halloween costume ball, and the two of them hook up for the best night of his life. But when the morning comes, she is nowhere to be found. Padmé Amidala forgot to get the name of a guy she hooked up with at Halloween before running out for work on November 1. A few weeks later, she realizes she's pregnant. Two perfect strangers, certain their paths are never going to cross again. Oops.
Title: pipe dream Author: skywalkersamidala Status: complete Rating: T Summary: Padmé's new plumber is the most attractive human being she's ever laid eyes on, so naturally, she keeps faking plumbing emergencies so she can keep seeing him.
Title: pocket full of sand Author: philthestone Status: complete Rating: T Summary:Â âIâm Leia Skywalker,â she says, and there is something unfathomably life-changing about that little declaration. âWeâre here to rescue you!â Luke remembers the circumstances of his mother's arrest with a frustrating amount of clarity. AU series where Anakin never falls, Padme is a spy in the senate, and the dynamic duo of Force Sensitive twins don't know they're related.
Title: purgatory Author: helent Status: complete Rating: T Summary:Â A newly dead Anakin Skywalker wakes in a new world - given the appearance of his 23 year-old self. However, the self-sacrifice that ended his life has also given Anakin an unexpected boon that he isn't sure he can accept. Worse, it comes with conditions that might just be impossible to meet. A moment of redemption is one thing, but a full reformation another entirely.
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