#this made me sooooooooo happy

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

OK @taylortruther reblogging her post made me go back and watch the whole BBC Live Lounge performance and her introduction to Can't Stop Loving You is SO revealing in retrospect regarding so many of the themes we've been talking about lately in her later albums.

"The type of love that this song sings about is unconditional love. People say that term all the time and they kinda think that they know what unconditional love is, but I think true unconditional love is, like, do you love someone so much that you would even love them if they didn't love you anymore? That is unconditional love."

Um, "hoax" has entered the chat. 😳

I feel like that goes a long way to explaining why she may have believed "hoax" was romantic, and why "grey skies everyday, would you still stay" was the ultimate expression of love. "Your faithless love's the only hoax I believe in" makes a lot more sense in this context, holding onto someone who's drifting away or showing that they may not love you in the way you need or in the way you'd once been. It's kind of heartbreaking because she's so earnest and so emphatic about it, but it's actually so sad in the context of ~everything~.

Help me hold onto you. That's the kind of heartbreak time could never mend. And I can't talk to you when you're like this, staring out the window like I'm not your favorite town. Your faithless love's the only hoax I believe in. Don't want know other shade of blue but you. I'll be getting over you my whole life. Like waiting for a bus that never shows you just start walkin' on. Pulled him in tighter each time he was drifting away. I left all I knew, you left me at the house by the Heath.

(My personal opinion is that unconditional love isn't loving someone even if they leave you; it's loving someone for who they are, including their challenges, and not seeing it as a transaction but an action. ANYWAY. Semantics I guess. I find the way she explains it really devastating tbh.)

(video timestamped @ 19:27)

Unrelated: I need an entire show done acoustically like this please and thank you because the entire performance is 🤌

[maydainsula]

The light now poured out of the doorway along with the final words of Rick Astley's “Never Gonna Give You Up.” In that door stood a small person [��] so full of “fuck the world” energy that there was absolutely no one else it could possibly have been.

-Hank Green, A Beautifully Foolish Endeavor, 2020

[girlivealwaysbean]

did you talk to my brother he got meds i look like a clown with cotton and soframycin on my nose

wait really? omg i was just. idk i was just being sad thinking if we lived together id drag you to the nearest medical store and apply it on you on a park bench while buying you a ice cream to shut you up and let me take care of you or even if you didn't wanna come id put my bra back on and run and get it or or id order it from swiggy genie

[le-velo-pour-dru]

Ah i am sorry calling you cute we are not close but i just wanted to really tell you that i am sorry if i made you unconfy

Oh, no no no, you don't have to apologize!! Getting that ask made me sooooooooo incredibly happy, that was such a sweet thing to say, it really made my night :) 🩷 I really hope nothing I said made it sound like I was upset or bothered :( Every ask I've gotten from you has been really nice, and I just hope I've been making that clear with the way I respond 🫶 So yeah, you've been really nice to me, and I'm sorry if my appreciation hasn't been clear in the way I respond to you, I'll try to be better about that 💖

[lovphobic]

damn are u me bc SAME (unfortunately)) and it's kinda eating me alive bc one of them has this super awesome bf that really cares about her and is putting in the effort to show it and yeah I'm happy for her bc she deserves the world but also I sometimes think about how I've always been alone and haven't even kissed yet and I'm like. am i not pretty or interesting enough for someone to put effort in?? and i feel bad about feeling envious lol but it's ok

FORREAAAALLLLL like god i love my friends i am happy for them but after having two like supremely toxic relationships its just like. well when will it be my fucking turn huh. and i FEEL u on the kiss thing bc neither have i <3 and ive definitely been pitied for it too.. YAY.

but like. ok maybe this is toxic maybe not but. i think being envious is ok? just as long as its kept in check. like you dont Ruin your friendship over the envy. is that toxic am i cancelled.

[silly1billy]

OKAY OKAY GOOD IDEA! can you make a headcannon of each member on an amusement park date 💕💕💕 sorry ik you just made a headcannon…..

NO NO NO I LOOOOOOOVE THIS! this is like my dream first date! I had sooooooooo much fun writing this <3

~ Stray Kids as Your Amusement Park Dates ~

pairing: Skz x f!reader genre: fluff summary: On a Amusement park date with each of Skz members

Bang Chan

This man planned the whole itinerary down to the snack breaks because he wants you to have the best time.

“Okay, so we’ll hit the roller coasters first before we eat so we don’t get sick, and then we’ll do the Ferris wheel at sunset for the perfect view.”

Holds your hand the whole time so you don’t get lost (but he’s the one stopping every two seconds to take pictures of you).

Acts all cool and confident until he gets on the biggest coaster—suddenly gripping the safety bar for dear life.

Buys matching headbands and doesn’t even hesitate when you pick something ridiculous.

Takes so many candid pictures of you, but half of them are blurry because he was running to keep up with you.

Ends the day by giving you his hoodie because “it’s getting chilly” (but secretly loves seeing you in it).

Hyunjin

Insists on taking aesthetic couple photos before going on any rides.

Acts all cool but screams the loudest on the scary rides.

100% the type to take videos of you mid-ride, just to laugh at your reaction later.

Buys matching accessories, like friendship bracelets or rings.

Insists on winning you a plushie but misses every shot, so you have to do it for him.

Films everything for his vlog, but half the footage is just him staring at you.

Changbin

So hyped for this date—he’s been talking about it all week!

“LET’S GO ON THE BIGGEST RIDE FIRST!” but lowkey gets nervous when you’re actually in line.

Screams dramatically on rollercoasters, but then laughs afterward.

Buys you all the snacks you want and takes so many selfies together.

Gets too competitive at carnival games and refuses to leave until he wins something for you.

Giggles when you feed him cotton candy and then immediately eats half of yours because he’s a growing boy.

Wraps you in a huge hug before the fireworks show because “I need to protect you from the cold.”

Buys an overpriced keychain as a souvenir and actually keeps it on his bag forever.

Lee Know

He acts nonchalant about the date but planned the whole thing in advance (and even researched the best food stalls).

Insists on sitting at the very back of the rollercoaster for maximum thrill.

If you get scared on a ride, he laughs first, comforts you second. “Why are you screaming? The ride hasn’t even started yet.” 😭

Purposely walks faster than you just to make you whine, then smirks when you catch up.

Wins a plushie, but for himself. If you pout, he might give it to you… maybe.

Puts an arm around you during the fireworks and casually says, “You’re lucky you have me, huh?” while smirking.

He is the "Butt hunter" so you better expect some hunting

Han

“LET’S GO ON EVERYTHING.” No fear, no hesitation—just pure excitement.

Makes the ugliest faces on rides to make you laugh.

Buys the weirdest food just to try it (fried butter? Sure. Cotton candy the size of his head? Absolutely.)

Gets competitive at carnival games but ends up with random, tiny prizes because he keeps losing.

Buys the most ridiculous souvenir hat (probably a shark or a duck) and forces you to wear one too.

Absolutely loses you in the crowd at least once, then dramatically yells your name until he finds you.

Felix

The type to say “Are you sure? You don’t have to go on this ride if you don’t want to” before every rollercoaster.

Buys you all the snacks because he loves seeing you happy.

Spends way too much money trying to win you a plushie (and is super proud when he finally does).

Tells you “You look so cute” at least a million times.

Takes Polaroids of you at every stop so he can make a scrapbook later.

Screams in pure joy on the roller coasters, then immediately asks, “Did you have fun??”

Gives you his jacket if you get cold and just smiles like it’s no big deal.

Seungmin

Roasts you the entire day but secretly finds you adorable.

“Why are you screaming? It’s just a kiddie ride.” (Says this before he gets scared.)

Takes a million candid photos of you—but refuses to send them to you.

Acts unimpressed by everything, but you catch him smiling when you’re having fun.

“This food is overpriced.” (Still buys you whatever you want.)

Pretends not to care about the couple headbands but wears one anyway.

Tries to act chill on the haunted house ride but jumps when something pops out.

I.N

Pretends he’s braver than you but screams SO LOUD on the scary rides.

Grabs your hand instinctively when the roller coaster drops.

Tries to act all tough at the carnival games but gets super pouty when he loses.

Forces you to go on the craziest rides with him just to prove a point.

“I totally wasn’t scared. Were you scared? You were, right?”

Insists on trying all the food—especially anything sweet.

[beanghostprincess]

Silly goofy wild and funky idea:

Transman Crocodile who transitioned via Ivankov.

Cross Guild events and Cross Guild Poly where Buggy finally gets the nerve to come out to her two lieutenants and also boyfriends. Mihawk just blinks like "yes? Your Haki is distinctly feminine, so this makes perfect sense. Oh, dear why are you crying, stop that-" meanwhile Crocodile has to bite back every single we traded genders joke and instead just shrugs, going "I quite literally could not be paid to give a fuck. You know I'm bisexual, this changes little, Clown."

Croc does off hand offer to hook Buggy up with Iva if that's smth she's interested in, tho.

Meanwhile Sanji has come out to the Strawhats as a transwoman as well, and the reactions are much more dramatic but no less supportive - if anything, some may be too supportive /hj ((Franky calls her queen and sis and Hawt Mama, Chopper already began working on ways to synthesize estrogen Just In Case, Luffy could not be made to give a single fuck, Ussop is swooning, Zoro informs her that this changes nothing and he'll still kick her ass, Robin offers her congratulations, Nami is already mathing out adding another bed in the girls' room or making a room JUST for Sanji and Ussop to share, Brooke waits 0.006783259 seconds before asking to see undies, just everyone being supportive and stupid))

This leads to Ivankov getting two separate contacts for their services, and so they arrange to meet at a small-ish island to help both, two birds, one stone :)).

Both crews go full Spiderman meme when they come across each other, and Iva handles it with all the gentility of a bull in a china shop, whisking both ladies away while the rest are left just plain gaping and awkwardly avoiding eye contact or completely oblivious to the tension (cough cough LUFFY).

Insert your own silly ideas here, generally.

But when they come back, Mihawk, Crocodile and Ussop are all just absolutely SWOONING for different reasons, full of Respect Woman Juice and I Love My Wife energy, it's adorable and cute and funny.

((Bonus: Luffy calls Buggy auntie without hesitation, and she almost cries even as she punches him over the head))

THIS IS SO CUTE SELJKFNSFLEFNLNDFDLKNSDLK

Okay, so, my thoughts on this. Crocodile having to hold back the 'we traded genders' joke is so damn real and I laughed SO hard. Love him. So true. And transfem Buggy lives in my mind rent free so this is just perfect because I absolutely love her. She's my beloved. She'd be so anxious about it and cry and Mihawk and Crocodile are like-- So done with her because she's acting stupid and dramatic and of course they're going to still want her. And she's crying and they're rolling their eyes and patting her head at the same time. Poor thing. She needs comfort okay??

And,, Transfem Sanji coming out is always so beautiful in my head. She's been battling her gender issues for AGES and now she feels comfortable enough to come out to the crew. She's anxious but she knows she has to do this now or she never will. And it's-- It's so real to me. The way she would explain everything that happened to her back in Momoiro Island and then say that she's actually a girl. And everyone's quiet because they know she's looking at Luffy only right now, expecting an answer from her captain. And Luffy is just like "??? Okay? You're still my cook. So who cares? You seem happier now!" and that is when Sanji starts crying. Because of course she's crying. And of course, Usopp is the one to hug her first because that's his girlfriend and she needs a hug and forehead kisses right now. But they have 0 privacy because Luffy wants hugs too. I mean. Obviously.

Franky is loud af and he's SOBBING while he screams how proud he is of their cook (I've always said Franky feels like a girldad because just look at how he interacts with Nami. And he's sooooooooo loving Sanji right now). Robin would be so so proud too and would say she's happy for her and smile in the sweetest of ways (Robin please adopt me). I think Chopper would also ask a lot of questions before making estrogen, just in case, but then he'd go and try to make it right away. Nami hugs Sanji but the sweet moment doesn't last long because she's already telling Franky her ideas for a bigger, better room for the girls or!!! "Better!!!!!! A room for Sanji and Usopp so we don't have to deal with them!!!!!! But also make the girl's room bigger because I say so!!!!!!". Zoro says he doesn't give a fuck because he will still kick her ass but he's secretly happy that she looks more relaxed and comfortable in her skin. Brook is Brook and he says his Brook thing about panties but I think Sanji would kick him having the best gender affirmation moment of her fucking life. And Jinbe is just the cutest because I think he'd laugh at the chaotically sweet situation and say that strength comes from being happy with yourself and Sanji is the strongest for being so brave and true to herself (he be saying poetic and cute shit like that and he expects me not to absolutely love him. Dad behavior. I am SO sure he would beat the shit out of anybody who misgendered Sanji. But that's what any Strawhat would do, so,,,).

They go see Iva (Iva my beloved) and they're all,, So uncomfortable,, Buggy acts overconfident and says she's perfectly fine and not scared at all of what Iva's going to do to her body (liar. She's scared af and Crocodile and Mihawk know so they keep scaring her even more because it's funny to see their girlfriend crying. Look. The fact that they're soft and dating doesn't mean they're not gonna bully her). And Sanji has smoked like two fucking boxes of cigarettes already despite saying that she doesn't care about it (she has never been more excited in her entire life) and she's holding Usopp's hand so hard she's going to break it at some point. Anyway, Iva is a dramatic bitch and they make Sanji and Buggy come with them to a more private place because they want it to be a surprise for everyone (drama queen. Love them. I would do it too. Trust the process, girls, you're in good hands). So Cross Guild and the Strawhats end up alone and waiting for their girls to come back. And. Yeah. Uncomfortable. Zoro looks at Mihawk at some point and goes:

Zoro: I thought you were gay. Mihawk: I swing both ways. Usopp: Actually, you swing sword- Mihawk: Awful. Shut up. Don't ever speak to me again. Don't even look at my direction, actually. Roronoa, why is your crew like this? Zoro: It was really funny, though. Mihawk: I wish to not partake in this conversation anymore. Everyone just shut up and wait. ............. Luffy: Hey, guys, do you think Sanji's going to have bigger boobs than Zor- Nami: OH MY GOD LUFFY YOU CAN'T SAY THAT Luffy: BUT I'M CURIOUS Zoro: Yeah, she's going to ask for the biggest of boobs only to piss me off because she's annoying like that. Mihawk: Why would you even care about your breast size, Roronoa? Crocodile: Tsk. You care about mine. Usopp: OH MY GOD SJKFNSKDEWKFJNJKSFN

Okay, so Sanji and Buggy eventually come back. Finally. And they were gorgeous before but now they're even more beautiful because they actually look extremely happy with their bodies. I want to describe how I see them but just check @/vongulli's account and see their fem Buggy because she kills me every time and that's the only way I can see fem Buggy now. And Sanji to me looks like @/sibmakesart's fem Sanji. This artist made a nude fem Sanji not long ago and I loved it,, So much,, ANYWAY!!!!!! Getting carried away.. Thinking about women. It's not my fault I'm a lesbian. But they look perfect and they're comfortable and happy. And Sanji's boobs are surprisingly not huge and Zoro makes a comment about that but Sanji is like:

Sanji: WHAT????? YOU ONLY SEE ME AS A BOOB-OBSESSED GIRL OR WHAT? Literally everyone at the same time: Yes. Sanji: Well, for your information- Usopp: She likes thighs more Sanji: Usopp, don't tell them- Iva: And also, my dears, that is not how my power works Zoro: So you did ask for big boobs and you couldn't have them Sanji: I'm going to kill you and wearing heels it's going to hurt even more Usopp: Is it weird that I'm kind of turned on right now? Nami: ...Haha Usopp: Are you okay? Nami: Hey, Usopp, I- Usopp: You can't fuck her Nami: I swear I can't have anything!!! What do you have against lesbians??? Usopp: YOU WANT TO SLEEP WITH MY GIRLFRIEND WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO SAY??? Nami: I dunno, yes??

Crocodile and Mihawk are having... A moment. They will still bully her and they're sure she's going to look extremely pretty crying and whining but right now she deserves to be worshipped because just look at her. Buggy approaches them and she's like "If you laugh I'm going to throw knives at you and then leave Cross Guild and!! And!! And I'm going to be really mad so pleasedon'tlaughireallylikethispleasedon'truinit" and they look at her with the fondest of looks (but gotta be honest, they're so horny right now it's unbearable. Like yes, happy wife happy home happy everything but also happy dick because just look at her). Crocodile is just frowning and genuinely asks "Why would we laugh? You look stunning, dear" and Mihawk follows with "I must say I'm not surprised, since you've always looked beautiful. But you look... More satisfied with yourself." And Buggy has to hold back the tears and that's why she starts saying things like "Pffft. Yeah! I knew I'd be gorgeous like this too! Now I look even flashier!" and y'know, the two men are letting her have her moment because now she looks even better and they can't stop staring at her. So maybe she's right this time when she fakes confidence.

Usopp and Nami need a second to process everything, I think. Also, they both hit Brook at the same time when he's about to ask Sanji the question™. Nami is having a lesbian moment, but of course Sanji realizes and does her Sanji thing like opening her mouth and speaking:

Sanji: Nami-swaaan!!! Do you like how I look now??? Nami, ignoring her and whispering to herself: Disgusting. I hate this. Zoro: At the end of the day it's just curly, huh? Nami: I was thinking with my dick. Zoro: Yeah. Happens. Been there.

So, Usopp and Sanji finally get their moment together because at least the Strawhats are respectful enough to give them their sweet uhhhh two minutes before they start complimenting Sanji. So that's something! Sanji is confident with her body but is a bit shy and isn't sure what Usopp will think about this. Not that she has changed much, even, but, you know. Just different. In a good way for her! But different. And Usopp approaches her slowly and smiling and he's just so so so happy. And he's like "You look gorgeous!" / "... Really? I wasn't sure whether you'd like it-" / "I will always like you! But more importantly, do you like you?" / "I mean- Weird phrasing, but yes. Yes? I think so. Yes." / "Then that's all that matters." And Sanji really, really doesn't want to cry because she has never cried in front of the whole crew. She just can't help it. But Usopp knows she doesn't like it when others see her cry so he quickly wipes her tears away and when she starts laughing (so so happy and full of love) Usopp just needs to kiss her.

Meanwhile, Luffy is there calling Buggy auntie and asking when she's going to tell Shanks about this. She keeps saying she will never tell him and if he wants to find out, he'll do it through her new wanted poster or whatever, but not from her.

[senatortedcruz]

watching financial youtube has made me sooooooooo happy I'm not a car person I don't have a car I don't want a car I have no car loans and I've never felt the desire to keep up with the Joneses when it comes to cars. Take the public transit pill my brothers and sisters.

[clove-noko]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU AND OYA!! 🎉🥳🎉🎉🥳🥳🎉💓💝💓💖💕💝💓💖💕💝💖💝💖💝💝💕💝💕💖💓💝💕💝💓💖Hopefully I'm not too late!

it made me so emotional that it took me half an hour to calm down, otherwise I would have died from how great it is....... /j

IIM LIKE????? THANK YOU??THANK YOU SO MUCH MCH MUCH???? 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭MY JAW LITERALLY DROPPED 😭😭😭😭

I literally have no words, but know that I am amazed to the core... I want to print this out and carry it in my wallet as a motivational photo... IQHSKQBISNQJSNQJWN LIKE IM SOOOOOOOOO HAPPY DEAR THANK YOU! 1?!1?1?1?😭😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️I put this as a widget on my phone, you just made my birth day if not a week or a month or my birth/j IM JUST SO SOSO HAPPY SORRY LOL

THANK YOU VERY MUCH SO MUCH THANK YOUUUU AGAIN AND AGAIN

@oya-oya-okay 🧡🧡🧡

A WIDGET

[hottiesforhockey]

may the best brother win ⎜ update

sooooooooo... i made a very irrational decision and may or may not have (i did) delete the "may the best brother win" series with the goal of rewriting and reposting it. A part of me just wasn't happy with it and wanted to really try again at building up the tension and giving each brother the chance to shine a little more. so sincere apologies to everyone that loved it and please know they will be getting reposted soon after I do some reworking!

I might consider posting the original as one long fic if thats what people want - so let me know

[doc-pickles]

sent to save me | sidney crosby (ch. 1)

series masterlist

summary: sid meets nikita’s best friend and runs into a ghost from the past

warnings: none! :)

author’s note: hello! sooooooooo I have probably a million other things to do/write but this came to me and I knew I needed to write it. this is going to be a series and will probably be a lot angstier than my vegas series. I have some ideas for what’s going to happen and I can’t wait to share them with y’all!! anyways I hope yall enjoy this!

xoxo

nina

(ps - title is from ‘always been you’ by shawn mendes)

It starts off innocently enough. He’s at Geno’s for dinner like he does once a week. Nikita is babbling away next to him about everything he’s learning in first grade.

“And Mrs. Riley is super nice and I get to sit next to Vivie who always shares her fruit snacks,” Nikita says all of this at a speed that Sid can barely comprehend but he simply nods at his godson.

“Always with Vivie,” Anna coos as she ruffles Nikita’s hair, her other hand coming to rest against her swollen belly. “Attached at the leg you two.”

Sid chuckles and gently corrects Anya which has her rolling her eyes as she squeezes his arm. Being with his best friend and his family made going home to an empty house hard, but Sid knew he wouldn’t trade his weekly dinners at the Malkin house for anything.

“Vivie is my best friend in the whole world,” Niki rambles on as he runs out of the room. He comes back with a picture frame and shows it proudly to Sid. “This is us at science camp over the summer.”

Sid’s brows furrow as soon as he looks at the photo. The little girl with her arm wrapped around Nikita is a bit shorter than him, dirty blonde hair pulled back into braids. Her big brown eyes are staring up at the camera, upturned nose and gap toothed grin framed with freckles and a set of dimples. Sid stares at the photo for probably a bit too long, the little girl looking somehow familiar even though he knows he’s never met her.

“Nice picture Niki,” Sid smiles when he finally tears his eyes away from the frame. Anya is watching him carefully but doesn’t say anything as Nikita begins talking about how much he loves math.

The rest of the night is uneventful, Geno’s steak and potatoes going over well with everyone at the table. If he and Anya notice that Sid is quieter than usual they don’t say anything to him. It’s not until he’s playing outside with Nikita after dinner that Sid catches his friends whispering to each other as they wash dishes.

When he gets home later Sidney doesn’t even take his shoes off before he’s walking down the hallway to his study. The photo album is tucked into the farthest bookshelf, the dark leather binding helping it to blend in. But he knows exactly where it is, exactly what it feels like in his hands. He pulls it off the shelf and holds it for a moment before opening it to the first page.

‘To Sidney, the love of my life. Happy anniversary babe!

xoxo A’

The handwriting is loopy and decidedly womanly. He traces his fingers over the words reverently before flipping the page. Sid’s breath hitches as his eyes lock on the photo there. Blonde hair, shining green eyes, and a dimpled smile so wide he still sees it every once in a while when he closes his eyes.

There’s a part of him that wants so badly to flip through every page, to take in the smiling woman on the pages and the version of himself that seems to have faded without her. Instead he closes the photo book, shelving it again before he goes out to the living room and pours himself a glass of scotch.

“Why the hell am I still here if you can’t make me a priority Sidney?”

“I’m trying! Don’t you see that? But I also have a team to think about, a whole fucking franchise riding on my shoulders! Don’t they matter too?”

The night and all of his regrets replayed in Sid’s head often. Annie’s tear soaked face, the words they both carelessly yelled at each other. His front door slamming, her things gone from his house by the time he came back from his next road trip.

He’d wanted Annie and hockey, wanted her to see that he was trying to make them both a priority but it hadn’t been enough for her. He hadn’t been enough for her.

And in the end none of it had mattered because three weeks after their argument Sid had shattered his knee in what would be his last game as a Penguin.

Yeah he missed hockey, but he missed Annie Wright more than anything else.

+

A week later Anna’s water breaks in the middle of the night. Sidney drives over and crashes on Geno’s couch as they head to the hospital together. When he wakes up Nikita is poking his cheek with a frown.

“Hey bud,” Sid yawns as he wipes a hand over his face. “Your mom and dad went to the hospital, looks like you’re gonna be a big brother soon.”

Nikita seems wholly unimpressed as he looks at his godfather, “Can we get McDonald’s breakfast before school?”

And because he’s a sucker for Niki, Sid agrees.

By the time they’re pulling up to Nikita’s school Sid is more awake, parking and following Niki up the path to his classroom.

“I’ll pick you up later too bud,” Sid tells him as he ruffles his hair. “Then maybe we can go see your little sister.”

“Nikita!”

Both Sidney and Nikita whip around at the excited voice, watching as a little girl runs up to them. Sid immediately clocks her as Vivie from the picture Nikita showed him. She’s sporting white overalls and a pink sweater, her blonde curls bouncing around in the pigtails fastened high on her head.

Vivie hugs Niki tightly then blinks up at Sid and he swears the air just got much thinner because he can’t pull in a full breath, not when he feels like he’s looking in a god damn mirror. Vivie has the same big hazel eyes as him, the same jutting chin and furrowed brows. But her smile and those dimples… Those remind Sidney of someone else.

“Vivie! You left your lunchbox in the car,” the voice that haunts his dreams is suddenly right behind Sid and before he can think better of it he turns around.

Annie looks much the same as she did eight years ago, her heart shaped face and wide green eyes exactly how he remembered them. Her blonde hair is shorter, resting just above her shoulders now. There’s something else Sid can’t quite put his finger on but he thinks that Annie doesn’t hold that same infectious joy she used to.

“Oh my god,” Annie breathes the words out slowly as she makes eye contact with Sidney. “I- Oh my god…”

“Miss Annie, this is my Uncle Sid,” Nikita explains excitedly. “My mommy is having a baby so Uncle Sid got me McDonald’s and took me to school!”

Annie schools her features as she tears her gaze away from Sid and pastes on a smile for Nikita, “That’s so exciting! I’m sure you’re excited to be a big brother.”

The school bell rings then and Vivie and Nikita waste no time hastily saying goodbye before running off hand in hand. When they’re out of sight Sidney turns to Annie who’s white as a sheet as she stares at her shoes.

“Annie,” the word is low and laced with hurt as Sid focuses on the woman he used to love. “Annie please tell me you didn’t… That she’s not…”

Sidney can’t bring himself to say the words out loud, even though he’s almost positive they’re true. Vivie’s face is ingrained in his mind now, showing up every time he blinks. His eyes, Annie’s smile… He stares at Annie and begs her to tell him anything but what he knows is true.

Please don’t tell me you had our daughter and kept it from me. Please don’t tell me I’ve missed seven years of her life. Please don’t tell me that perfect little girl has been so close and so far. Please. Please. Please.

“Sidney, I am so sorry.”

[moonpie016]

Ok before I throw this drawing at y'all, (even though I, for whatever reason, don't reblog much of anything on here. Only rarely. And probably should've saved this to tag and reblog.. idk how many I could've tagged anyway.)

I could've done that. Actually, it would've been more convenient to do that. Made more sense.

I was surprised, then the surprise turned to delight, sheer confusion, and then back to delight with too much smiling and happiness. Sooooooooo.

Idk how to word this properly without sounding repetitive. But I'm very happy y'all enjoy...my presence? Yeah! And all of you are cool too! Extremely!/gen

(If I've liked your stuff already, on anything, that shows the uhhhhhh, that I like the stuff you do??? The basic of knowledge with how such things work! And think you're very cool. And appreciate the words you all provide on stuff. I read them all. :] )

ANYWAYS.

*Steps up to your doorstep with this odd comparison*

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Now I know where this archetype of character came from in my mind. Kinda. NO WONDER MY MIND DESIGN REMINDED ME OF SOMETHING! It's cus of HIM. The literal loner. Error. Which I have not drawn in a huge chunk of time. I just thought their outfits looked similar. The big jacket and whatever the collar is called, (a lapel??? Idk?????).

Uh, have fun with the nostalgia and possible memories???? Goodness.

Error's cool.

I have nothing else to say about this, I should remake Undertale stuff again. It'd be fun. :3

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[bitchslapblastoids]

so we’re doing the sappy year-end affectionate thing, yeah?

I spent most of my phandom years feeling like a barnacle under a ship that d&p were steering and you were all the actual passengers of. During the time I spent lurking, it felt like fandom culture had changed so drastically that re-entering in any active way would be terrifying. But then I finished writing a phanfic that I’d originally started in 2015. And then I posted it and some people liked it. And meanwhile, I had already been feeling complicated feelings about the lack of engagement with fic and writing across all fandoms. And doubly meanwhile, things just kept getting more and more unhinged in the Dan and Phil universe, and I just wanted to yell about it. So I finally caved, made this blog, and stopped being a hypocrite who whined about how fandom wasnt interactive anymore while I wasn’t actually interacting myself.

The difference between lurking and participating in the ecosystem was that I realized I was a bit wrong. Bc people on here don’t just taketaketake; there is a wonderfully supportive fabric of celebration for creative works, of kindness and warmth towards one another. It’s a small community, but so alive!!

All my weird-kid traits that I keep compartmentalized and tightly managed (read: suffocated) as I cosplay daily as a somewhat normie-adult suddenly had somewhere to thrive and be externalized again. I gained access to this universe that i get to be a tiny cocreator of that is full of delight and silliness and warmth and hilarity. It stood in such contrast to my irl world that has been in flux - moving away from somewhere I loved and people I loved, coping with new peaks of mental illness in my family, building a life in a new city that felt (feels) lonely so lonely, falling victim to my own depressive self isolation habits. but here was an outlet, and suddenly my mind was a creative place to be again. It had been a while since that had been true.

and then tit happened and while I have known for a long time that concerts are the single most euphoric experiences in my life, I’ve always gone alone and anonymous and relished in the presence of unspoken community around me, the experience that feels religious and sacred, sharing in some rapturous devotion to an artist and their music and then all parting ways afterwards. But tit was something new. I’d seen Dan and Phil before, all the times. But never as someone actively embedded in the community enough to actually speak to people. When I bought the tickets, I intended on being fully invisible at my shows. Months later when I actually went, one of the most joyful parts of the experience was all of you, talking to people around me, seeing phannies in the flesh, and yelling on here about it all. It was truly euphoric. When I say it was bouying, I mean it. I felt high for days.

The people I’ve befriended on here or whose ideas and work and vibes I just absorb through their presence on my dash have reminded me how to see beyond the restraints of cookie cutter daily life, how to be radical and loving and how to embrace weirdness and love those parts of yourself, but how to openly love them in other people too; how to signpost that you’re an open recipient for someone’s weird, that their weird is safe around you. Dan and Phil have always done that too, haven’t they?

I started to think about all the people whose brightness and brilliance has touched me in some way on here this year, and the list was immediately too long to even hold in my brain. But probably if you’re reading this, you’re one of those people. Thank you for being around and sharing who you are 🩵

Sometimes I still get a little sad about the level of engagement fic gets vs other creative endeavors on here. But being a part of this renassiance and sharing in a mini writing community within this broader phannie ecosystem has been sooooooooo rewarding. I’m deliriously happy to get to know such an incredibly creative and generous and passionate bunch of humans.

happy 2025 phumblr!! i think we better buckle in for another wild fucking ride. 🧡🧡🧡

[liminal-therianthropy]

Sorry sorry happy and excited!!!

Sooooooooo i did in fact draw my mask idea!! It feels so nice to draw out what i think i look like as a red wolf.

Idk how the image quality looks, i hope it looks ok! I gave it piercings as i love piercings. The scar in the middle of its head is a reference to my unicorn theriotype, but also idk i just feel like i'd have a scar there? I did my best with the colors! I plan on maybe making more. Might either do my bat one or something else. Ima use this as reference to either making my own mask, or commissioning someone to make me this mask!

{Also note please dont use this for yerself! I made this for me and i'd be really upset if this was stolen. This is my face in a way and would like it if you made yer own concept. I dont mind inspiration though :D!!!}

[jadevine]

Sooooooooo as a former musical nerd who never actually got to be in musicals, I find it very poetic that Ariana Grande is infamous for having an affair with Ethan Slater... and Glinda's fiance ends up running off with her best friend. Also, Ethan Slater is Boq in the Wicked movie and I have to wonder what the director was thinking when he cast BOTH of them. I'm of the camp that dating your cast-mates is REALLY risky.

ALSO also, I know I made a crack at Jonathan Bailey being a foot taller than both of his co-stars, but I'm basically watching this for Cynthia Erivo because I don't care about Grande OR him. I was constantly irritated with Anthony Bridgerton, and Bailey just seems the most vanilla person you could EVER cast as Fiyero.

Like, Fiyero is HEAVILY a supporting role in the show/movie about the two most famous witches of Oz. I feel like they only cast Bailey because he's already played Anthony Bridgerton, a rich and conventionally attractive nobleman.

SPOILERS FOR ANY NON-THEATER FOLKS ABOUT WHY I DON'T KNOW IF BAILEY CAN PULL OFF FIYERO!!!

So while Fiyero starts out as a careless prince who pretends to be brainless to avoid the gnawing sadness/ennui in his soul, he eventually becomes a rebel with Elphaba to start freeing Oz's sentient Animals from slavery. He gets captured and tortured, and while Elphaba is trying to save/heal him, she accidentally turns him into a scarecrow.

The productions explicitly show the sentient Monkeys being forced to grow wings as painful, and Boq's actor can also play his own transformation into the Tin Man as horrific and painful as well.

I don't know if Bailey's done anything like that, and I especially don't know if his fans crossing over from Bridgerton are gonna be happy when they find out his pretty mug is going to turn into a sack with a face painted on it. A lot of Fiyero's other actors like to imitate Ray Bolger's walk from the 1939 film, where he's always tripping on himself and bending weird.

Since Fiyero is being tortured and gets turned into fucking straw, Bailey is gonna have to dig DEEP and find some Cillian Murphy Scarecrow vibes for that.

To Future Me, next month: If Bailey actually ends up being like Hugh Jackman playing Wolverine and just absorbing the character into himself for like ten years, I will eat my words without question.

[luciluck2046-md]

HAPPY OCTOBER 29TH!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MURDER DRONES!!!

After 3 years, this is its first time being celebrated while being fully out :3

Now if you will excuse me for the poor quality, I would have made the drawing digitally if I was home... But you'll get your GOOD QUALITY IMAGE in the end :3

Now, I promised you some teasers :3

They're under the cut.

Most of you chose to find out Uzi and N's kids names and a bit of their lore.

Sooooooooo

First child

Name: Mara Doorman

ID: crows-are-cool420 (she made it when she was 12 don't judge her. She can change it she just doesn't want to)

Birthday: February 16th 3074

Gender: Girl, Crowgender(SHE LIKES CROWS A LOT MORE THAN UZI ALRIGHT!?)

Attraction: Bisexual? (She's actually a lezbean but she doesn't know that yet)

Second child

Name: Kris Doorman

ID: knives&swords5780

Birthday: February 25th 3078

Gender: Genderfluid

Attraction: Demiromantic

Happy about the teasers? I'm already giving their names because the second part, which is going to be centered around MARA, not Uzi, is going to be out... After I finish the first part.

And oh God, I didn't even start the story. It's going to be LONG.

Like imagine that the actual adventure starts in chapter 8, wtf did I do for the past 7 chapters???