#this legit drives me insane every time i think about it

[posting-for-the-void]

seriously, stop demonizing female characters just because they “come between” your fav gay ship

as someone who’s not really a fan of the marvel cinematic universe canon (i like the concept of marvel—i just think they’ve made some shit story choices) and therefore is okay with honestly most ships that come from the mcu, i will never not be mystified with how a stucky shipper i once interacted with confidently told me that stucky is a better ship because steggy is problematic.

this is fine, whatever, because at first i agree. making steggy canon in endgame was problematic, because it was a total misinterpretation of steve’s character, and literally erased peggy’s life with daniel that she built on her own and the healing she had done.

but that’s not what this shipper thought was problematic about steggy. oh no.

“Actually, Peggy’s a Nazi and that’s why you shouldn��t ship them.”

UM????

what on GOD’S GREEN EARTH drew you to that conclusion??????

the only thing i can think of is maybe they read a fanfic with villain!peggy and just forgot that it wasn’t canon cause this literally just has nothing to support it in the actual canon 😭

[vashtijoy]

Hi! Pre-emptive sorry for the long ask- I don't know if you've answered this before but I was scrolling through your blog and in one of your posts you note that the brief bit we see of Akira's hometown has high rise buildings, which implies it's a city. I could've sworn there was in game dialogue calling him a country boy though or referencing him being from a rural area? Is there something in the Japanese text to suggest these are meant to be taken as jokes (I.E. protag is from a city, but it's not as big as Tokyo so he's playfully considered 'rural') or is this a case of the game devs simply not considering what buildings they had in the background of that scene?

Hello! First of all, I think it's insanely unlikely that the game devs just forgot Joker was meant to be from a shack on top of a mountain and accidentally put him in a city. Maybe they didn't have time to design a farm and shoved him in a random cityscape instead? Well, maybe. I would at least have pasted in a couple more trees.

So what do we know about this?

Sojiro calls Joker 田舎もん inakamon, short for 田舎者 inakamono—someone from the countryside; someone provincial. This is what's translated as "country boy", or "country bumpkin". Chihaya uses it about herself, and Chihaya I think is certainly meant to be very rural. The Adorable Woman and Rural Young Man in Shibuya Station use inaka a lot:

His name did not originally use inakamono or similar, by the way—he's the 上京してきた青年 joukyou shite kita seinen, "the young man who's moved to Tokyo". Note the moving-up kanji there, 上, lol—this is not a sideways move, it's a definite move up.

so what is the inaka?

In short, the inaka can be the remote countryside—but it can also just be your hometown, of any description. It can be legit anywhere that isn't Tokyo. Here's Tofugu:

My mouth was hanging open and I know I was being rude, but it was really hard to pull myself together. The woman I was speaking with was from one of the top Japanese Universities. She has had international relationships, traveled the world, and done work that most foreign anime fans would kill to see. Someone with her experiences, to me, should be open-minded about other cultures and lifestyles. Just the same, I can't help but to be bothered by what she said: "I feel like anything outside Tokyo's 23 wards is inaka." [...] Often, people usually just use what they read in the dictionary, but I learned fast that "countryside" in American English is much different than in Japanese English. For me, countryside means farms. Countryside is driving to see your closest neighbor, riding tractors for work and pleasure, and being able to immediately tell who's from your town just by looking at them. When I say this to Japanese people and ask them to explain inaka, the joke is always the same: "Inaka is anything outside of Tokyo." Osaka and Kyoto, for many, aren't inaka, but Sapporo, which is one of the few parts of the country where this legendary thing called "insulated housing" exists, is inaka. [...] So you might be wondering how "bad" it really is out here. Truthfully, I'm living in a city, at least by American standards. Great bus and train systems, tons of malls and movie theaters, some of the major stores people visit Tokyo to see, game centers, golfing… and a few rice paddies. Not many, but there are some. Imagine a fashionable mall, famous manga store, well-respected school with a strong baseball team, and major supermarket, all within walking distance, with maybe one field of rice. Honestly, the place is so city that I don't think I would willingly eat any rice that grew in that field. I swear, it's in front of a bus stop.

So, tl;dr: if you aren't in Tokyo, Osaka or Kyoto, you're probably in the inaka—at least to someone's mind. You can be somewhere that looks to us in every way like a city, and be in the inaka. And if you pick up sticks and move to Tokyo? Then you have a good chance of being jibed about being a "country boy".

so what is joker's inaka like?

[Joker] 田舎に帰りたい inaka ni kaeritai I miss the country... [lit. I want to go back to the inaka.] Ryuji ハハ、都会の洗礼ってか? haha, tokai no senrei tte ka? Hah. Not used to the big city yet, huh? [lit. Haha, so this is your first time in the city?]

We don't get a huge amount of detail in-game about Joker's home. Besides Sojiro's "country boy", Ryuji has a couple of comments. Here's another:

Ryuji あれ? お前ン家ってわりと田舎? are? omae n uchi tte wari to inaka? Wait a sec, your hometown isn't near the countryside, is it? [lit. isn't your place relatively countrified?] Ryuji いや、大自然でランニング練習とか気持ち良さそうだなーって。 iya, daishizen de ranningu renshuu to ka kimochi yasasou da naa tte I was just thinkin' it'd be great to run an' train somewhere out where it's all big, naturey open space. [lit. no, I thought it seemed like it'd feel great to train in the great outdoors and stuff.]

(I think something may be off here with that translation of daishizen, which seems to connote "the great outdoors", "a vast wilderness", etc, as well as just meaning "nature" (the sort you get out into) more generally". The word has been split up as if Ryuji was just saying "big nature" for some reason, like if you thought "the great outdoors" meant "the outdoors is great :D".)

But we can see from Ryuji's statement that Joker's home is wari to inaka, "relatively countrified", "kind of countrified"—it's more the country than Tokyo is, but it's probably not the ass end of nowhere, either. It's somewhere Ryuji pictures getting out into nature—but even if that's accurate and not just in Ryuji's city-boy head, that again doesn't connote "ass end of nowhere"; a lot of very built-up places are startlingly close to farmland or to nature, as with the putative rice field at the bus stop that we read about earlier.

the artbook picture

There is, of course, a picture of Joker's home in the artbook:

That doesn't scream "rural" to me—though it's also not the built-up area we see him in with Shido. It backs onto a cliff, it's very green. It's clearly a row of houses on a street, maybe in a fancy suburb on the edge of the city?

It's a nice house, at any rate. Joker moving into Sojiro's attic, with his clothes in a box, will have been a harsh step down.

Another detail from this image before we move on:

Look at this board. We can make out what it says. We can even, just possibly, make out a town name there...

日立自治会 掲示板 hitachi jichikai keijiban Hitachi Neighbourhood Association noticeboard

自治会 jichikai—neighbourhood associations. As you'd expect, they tend to be organised at the very local level—so Hitachi is likely to be a small district within a larger city, rather than (say) the city of Hitachi in Ibaraki Prefecture.

his city has a name guys i can't believe it lmao

the coup de grace

But there's one question I think really puts the nail in the coffin here: WTF was Shido doing in the middle of nowhere?

It's totally plausible that Joker came from a remote farm in the country, or a tiny village in far northern Honshu. But what is there in that to attract Shido? Like... Shido seems kind of an indoor guy, y'know?

He goes where his business is. He goes where the money is. It's difficult for me to picture him going to random rural areas with nobody to schmooze, with what I'm sure he'd consider to be poor facilities and shitty hotels.

Even if he did stoop to visit somewhere like that, by the time he was on his off hours getting pissed (in both senses) and attacking women, wouldn't he have gone back to civilisation?—back to the city?

conclusion??

This place Joker is wandering after dark doesn't look like The Country. It looks quite built up. I'd say it's the centre of a regional city or large town—with those nice houses we just looked at set off in suburbs along its edge. Look at this place:

It really does look like a less cramped version of Yongen-jaya, down to the trees. I don't think they spent too long on this area, but I also don't think it's inaccurate.

By the way, that "Hometown Neighbourhood" was originally 実家近くの住宅地 jikka chikaku no juutakuchi—"residential area near home". So this is not where Joker lived with his parents; it's an area close by. Like he says, he's on his way home late.

Where was he? We never find out. He has what looks like a school bag, well before his nasty crime days. Maybe he was visiting a friend we never hear about again. Maybe he was at cram school. But he's gone to this built-up part of town to do something there.

My guess would be that he lived in some prefectural capital or other. That's why Shido is there. I'd also guess that it's one of the Kanto prefectures, since the further you go from Tokyo, the less likely it becomes that Joker would have been sent to Tokyo for his probation, whether Sojiro was a friend of a friend or not.

As ever, all of this is for information only, and if you want to do something else superior in every way, you definitely should. At the end of the day Joker's a silent protagonist player insert, who can be from absolutely anywhere and as gay as you like. Let a thousand Jokers bloom.

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[base0h]

Hello,

Heard you’re looking for ideas so…

Here’s a crack one: The Straw hats working in a department store

Would they become employee of the month? Would they be fired immediately?

a/n - IM WHEEZING AT THIS— you are GENIUS bro holy crap 😭🫶 dude luffy would get fired so fast it’s insane— and imma just add everyone bc why not 😂

Warnings ⚠️ - MAJOR crack, multiple characters, I’m kinda dumb and might’ve forgotten people

they didn’t even make it past the interview 💀

.✩ kidd (tried killing the interviewer for asking him why he wanted to work there “I really am passionate about restocking— MF IM BROKE.”), buggy, bonney, paulie (did the same thing as kidd plus he parked in the manager’s parking spot)

literally within the first few seconds of the interview they’re hired | “My name is—“ “Can you start within the next few seconds?”

.✩ jimbei, koby, sabo, koala, izou, kaku, vivi

got fired the same day they started

.✩ luffy (ate the entire produce section and then asked the manager “is there more stuff in the back?”), corazon (he accidentally burnt the place down 😀), sanji (confessed his love and asked several female customers to marry him at his cash register), brook (asked for some poor random woman’s underwear 💀)

employee of the month every single month

.✩ jimbei, koby (old people always say how sweet he is to the manager bc he always helps them get the things they can’t reach 😭🫶), tashigi (kids hate her bc she catches them and scolds them if they take an extra candy/sticker from the cashier jar), vivi (accidentally gave herself this title when she’s the manager 💀)

the manager of the store

.✩ nami (steals money from the safe sometimes), aokiji (he literally never shows up to work on time and doesn’t give a shit what the employees do), akainu, fujitora, shanks (bro also does not care and comes to work hungover), dragon (has not shown up once since the interview), sengoku, garp, dadan, vivi, magellan

the sale sign flipper guy

.✩ zoro (if he manages to actually find his way to the store), bepo, ace, shachi, penguin, queen (you legit can’t miss him as you’re driving by 💀), yamato, oden, cat viper, bon clay, ivankov

they work solely in the back to avoid human interaction as much as possible

.✩ mihawk, law, smoker (he’s the guy that mans the big crane machine that moves huge boxes), hawkins, king, katakuri, smoker, lucci

they’re the CEOs of companies that are partners with the store and provide goods for the store to sell

.✩ crocodile (provides gut/immune supporting, healthy, all organic animal/pet food), doflamingo, kaido, big mom, whitebeard, moria (sells and produces copious amounts of Halloween costumes and other decorations)

actually decent employees

.✩ usopp, benn, x drake, robin, nojiko, baby 5, monet, vergo, franky, icebarg, bellamy (SHADOW FROM SK8 PLS TELL ME YALL SEE IT), hachi, killer

they start tweaking because they asked a customer how they were and they ignored them

.✩ shirahoshi (sobbing), bepo, sanji (asked a girl who had her headphones on), Uta (will get so pressed that they ignored her when in reality they just had headphones on)

they’re the reason why the store’s still in business | they’re basically the mascot

.✩ chopper, bepo, carrot, cat viper, dog storm

the dude everyone goes to for questions/help | “Idk go ask ___”

.✩ franky (has beef with cash register 4 bc it stops working for no reason only during his lunch break and never when he’s not doing anything), icebarg, kaku, usopp, lucci, jack, king, robin, jimbei

they’re the reason why no one likes to shop there | they have several weird allegations or felonies of some sort

.✩ trebol, caesar, diamante, dellinger, pica (he drives this mini car and always somehow fits inside it and takes up two spots in the parking lot), absalom, hogback (people have gone missing in the parking lot it’s scary), moria (would you wanna shop if you saw bro? Ik I wouldn’t 😭)

jobless for life ✌️

.✩ rayleigh (he slays idc), roger, yasopp

a/n - I think i forgot people but eh 💀 the one piece brainrot is so back 🙏

[meat-wentz]

here’s a list of things i think have improved my life over the past year:

a good button up- honestly the most versatile item of clothing that provides year-round comfort, lets my body breathe, and looks stylish no matter what- it doesn’t matter the fabric as long as it’s soft on the skin and the fit is loose enough to provide some good old darcy flounce, can be dressed up or down and has not only helped in my every day comfort but also in easing the irritation of my skin (works well with sweat in the summer and dryness in the winter)

good underwear- insane how most underwear wants me to kill myself, so finding good affordable underwear is a necessity, personally i like parade

good pajamas- again it’s like important that my skin feels nice in something, i live in a high desert climate which is extremely drying and literally makes me the itchiest little thing on the planet, so good loose fitting silky pajamas make me feel like a little prince tucked into bed all nice and sweet

a robe- dawg i love a robe, not only as protection for my outside clothes when im in my house covered in cat fur, but also as an extra layer of warmth in colder months, and a nice thing to ahem, i’ll say it again, let my skin breathe while i dry off from a shower before i get dressed or while just lounging around the house with nowhere to be but still feeling like i want to be “dressed”

chia pudding- dude i eat chia pudding every day and honestly as someone w a lot of digestive issues and genetic digestive shit, chia pudding legit is my girlfriend and i love my slimy little girlfriend

BEETS- had a big beet year after realizing i can eat beets whenever i want. love a beet salad w arugula and spinach and some goat cheese and pistachios and dressing of your choice (i prefer a dill or balsamic)- you can literally have beets whenever you want idk why i only thought i could have beets on special occasions, idk i think i have a weird covetous thing with food i really like, but yeah idk who needs to hear this you can have beets whenever you want dawg its true

new glasses- go see your optometrist. i am bad about seeing any doctor for anything bc i hate it but being able to see is important go get your eyes checked and don’t be like me wearing the same prescription for 8 years and putting it off while seeing stars while i drive and squinting at subtitles

good luck charms- idk man i just like them it’s kind of just nice to have a little thing you put a small amount of faith in every day like a little token from a friend or a necklace you wear or a funny little keychain i like to have a little thing i can hold or fidget with that’s like yes aha it’s my little charm for everyday life that says to me im all good i think having a healthy dose of positive superstition is a nice thing to have

a good perfume- idk it’s just nice to get whiffs of yourself and be like omg that’s me, one of my coworkers has the same perfume and every time i smell her im like omg you smell so good and start blushing bc i realize that’s how i smell and it feels nice

just a good sunscreen dawg and not for all the anti-aging bs but bc it’s just a good thing to wear like if there’s anything ive learned after a lifetime in the desert it’s that dude just wear some sunscreen it doesn’t have to be fancy it’s just good practice and genuinely helps prevent the misery of sun damage from a day in the summer or a long drive or anything you have to do outside

a solid refillable pen- tbh probably my best friend in this whole world is a good fountain pen

anyways i have a long track record of like denying my own needs especially when im depressed or upset which for the length of pandemic and my most recent relationship was something i really fell into and after feeling a bit more like myself and reclaiming a lot of the joy i’d lost, these are some things that helped me ground myself in the world and feel a bit more comfortable being joyous and re-finding what’s important to me (feeling like the food i eat doesn’t want me to kill myself, writing, feeling confident in being a person in the world, seeing clearly, etc etc etc)

[practicedvmm13fullofpotatoes]

Leftenmost Window bits that drive me to insanity

(LONG POST. AGAIN. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED)

Sam went into the story and thought "You know what? Female character time"

"Cry. Cry, cry, cry" AJ, I LOVE YOU BUT YOU SOUND SO SILLY I HATE IT /aff

AJ using myself twice in the same sentence bugs me for some reason help

"But my Egburt isn't a killer" and AJ immediately says a hypothetical that completely ignores what Sam said

"Would you rather be a gardener who has to go to war or a warrior who has to learn how to plant a garden?" SIR WHY ARE YOU ASKING YOUR DAUGHTER THAT? SHE AIN'T GOING TO WAR, SIR, DON'T WORRY

"I think the second one's probably safer 😃👍" YEAH, PROBABLY

"Are you saying that my Egburt is the gardener who's gone to war?" "No, no--" If I had a nickel for every time AJ completely ignores what Sam said just to say a sentence that makes no fucking sense, I'd have 2 nickels. Honestly, it's odd how I only remember it happening twice

"Don't be too hard on father! He gets his words mixed up" Luke came in to save AJ but then screwed him over again on accident with "after that injury in the Boer War in South Africa"

SALLY AND EGBURT'S WIFE JUST BARKING AT EACHOTHER AND THE "ORDERRRR" FROM THEIR FATHER

"Thank you, sister" GIVE HER A NAME GODDAMN IT PLEASE THEY NEVER GAVE HER A NAME I'M SOBBING SO SO HARD

"He promised me he would" MA'AM? MA'AM. THAT'S A BIT SUSPICIOUS, MADAM

"Yeees, it's the- that time" TRYING TO GET THESE TWO TO SEPERATE SO IT DOESN'T ESCALATE BACK INTO ANOTHER FIGHT

"Uhoaohh"

"There's only one trench you should be in" Sam. Please. No premarital sex. Wait until you two are married/wait until Egburt comes back alive

THE FIRST TIME WE HEAR EGBURT IT'S AJ TALKING??

Sam mentioning his mother and then her just appearing "Aah! Oh the migraines!"

AND THEN LUKE CHIMES IN AND CALLS AJ EGBURT?? HE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE EGBURT BUT NOOOO, WE NEED MORE SAM AND LUKE CHARACTERS WHO ARE CANONICALLY TOGETHER

"Thewomeninourfamilyhavealwayshadagift.." "O..kay?" SAM IS SO CONFUSED BY THIS SHE PROBABLY THINK HER MOTHER'S INSANE (SHE KIND OF IS THOUGH???)

TOM JUST GOING INTO THE AUDIENCE AND CROSSING THE SEA OF PEOPLE OR IN THE PLAY'S CONTEXT THEY'RE CROSSING A SEA OF SPIRITS THAT FIND THE MORTALS' SHENANIGANS TO BE HILARIOUS

"HEY, I'M NOT DONE! CAN'T YOU SEE I'M IN THE ASTRAL PLANE RIGHT NOW! D:<" IMPLIES THAT YOU CAN GET STUCK IF THE SPIRITS DON'T MOVE ASIDE??

"But- wait" SHE WANTS TO GO BACK?? THIS HAPPENS TWICE, BY THE WAY?? HONESTLY YEAH THIS IS PROBABLY WHY SHE'S ILL

EGBURT AND AJ'S CHARACTER LOOKING AT TOM'S CHARACTER AS IF HE DIDN'T GET SHOT IN THE THROAT PREVIOUSLY

"Neither did I" YEAH BECAUSE HE ISN'T A SCOT??

"What are you knitting over there?" "Scarf :)" "For you, Captain Egburt" SAM LEGIT JUST MADE LUKE EGBURT. HE WAS NOT EGBURT. HE WAS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE EGBURT

"Aye. That was me" NO BUT REALLY. YOU JUST SAVED A GUY WHO GOT SHOT IN THE THROAT AND SOMEHOW IMMEDIATELY FORGOT ABOUT IT?

Odd how Egburt didn't get shot when he stood up but Tom's character did. Same for AJ's character

DID SAM'S CHARACTER MOAN WHEN HE GOT HIT? I'M SOBBING SO HARD WHAT??

"How old are you?" HE'S YOUNG. THAT'S ALL YOU NEED TO KNOW 👍

"Medical Arena" WHY IS THEIR MEDICAL AREA AN ARENA? TO MAKE SURE THEIR PATIENTS END UP TRAINING SO THAT WHEN THEY RECOVER THEY'LL COME BACK BETTER THAN EVER? HUH???

Tom just going "😃!" when he and Sam said Egburt at the same time (Tom has the best expressions I swear) and then immEDIATELY TRYING AGAIN TO SEE IF THEY SAY IT IN SYNC

"It's me" "And her mother/And my mum" YOU MEAN BOTH OF THEM CAN JUST COMMUNICATE TO THE SAME PERSON? IS SHE GUIDING HER DAUGHTER?? PROBABLY, YEAH??

TOM NOT IMMEDIATELY CATCHING UP TO WHAT SAM WANTS TO SAY

"Lie down in the--" "NO, GET BACK" but aren't you two ALREADY in the astral plane? Is there an astral astral plane??

"The women in my family have the power to project their consciousnesses across space and time.. Well just space, I've not checked out time" Nah, sis, don't worry, your great great grandson has 👍

"I said I'll come back don't worry and then I kissed her on her forehead" LUKE WAS GOING FOR THE DIVORCE PLOT

"You're a gardener, not a warrior, a gardener!" Ah yes, referencing your father's nonsensical metaphor. At least she understood that part

"You took HER to OUR garden?" LUKE REALLY GOING FOR THE DIVORCE PLOT HERE PLEASE GUYS YOU AND YOUR FIANCÉ AREN'T MARRIED YET COME ON

Hans and Heimlich are such a duo I love them so much. "No no, I don't want to speak to you >:(" Why does it seem like there's more to this than just Hans not letting him drive. Why is there some romantic tension here and the other Hans is just the third wheel

"Just double-checking for the scene.." Hans and Hans' reactions are understandable. What scene are you talking about, Heimlich?

Tom's German soldier not knowing his team. Sir, you have trained with them. What do you mean you don't know that one of them listens to American music?

why did you call your father darling after he called you darling?

"She told you about that?" GIRL THAT'S HER HUSBAND, OF COURSE HE WOULD KNOW

SALLY BEING NERVOUS AND A BIT GUILTY. LUKE WAS REALLY GOING FOR THE DIVORCE PLOT UNTIL TOM CAME IN

"I have a closer relationship with father, he tells me more!" You mean your MOTHER? SHE'S the one who has the powers because the WOMEN of the family have the psychic powers.

Luke did a complete U-turn from the divorce plot. AJ then took the wheel and turned the car back to the divorce plot. Thank God we have Tom to save the plot from being darker than it already is

"The Xavier house" THEY'RE THE XAVIERS??? YEAH I WISH I HAD KNOWN/REMEMBERED WHEN I MADE THE NUTB HEADCANONS

"And now I return it to my mind because it's- it's good" MADAM? MADAM THAT'S A BIT 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴𝔂, MADAM

TL;DR: Sally is the only Xavier to have a first name mentioned in the play & Mrs. Xavier is a 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴

[20001541]

could you please talk about afo and yoichi's relationship(more) its been legit driving me insane lol

Yes, a favorite topic of mine!

Let's see uhhhhhhh

Well while it's true there is objectification in how AFO views Yoichi, I feel it's incorrect to boil their relationship down to that alone.

This is not to downplay the role objectification plays in their relationship we do see AFO literally says "I only wanted to make you mine." But it does a disservice to the characters relationship to only make it about objectification as I believe there is love mixed in the possessiveness and obsession that AFO exhibits towards his brother. In fact, the possessiveness and obsession wouldn't be there without the love.

We are told that at the very beginning he viewed Yoichi as being something that provided nothing to him, but he still kept him around as he considered him to be his. But we know this isn't true as Yoichi provided him something he needed at the time which was his own love and attention. Something AFO became severely dependent on as Yoichi was the only person who ever gave him it in a world that despised his very existence.

AFO refused to open his heart to anyone other than Yoichi, even when he had people who were willing to be close to him. As a result he ended up becoming way too dependent on Yoichi for affection and love, something every human needs. Which resulted in him becoming lonely because he deprives himself of that human affection that he craves as he wants desperately. He only wants Yoichi to fulfill that role for him and no one else. To me it's evident there is love and that AFO is capable of love.

Its the attitude that he adopted as a child that he must cling onto any little thing he has so no one could ever take it away from him. To me he seems to be under the delusion that with enough force he could make Yoichi be as loving and dependent on him as he was when they were younger. But it's a cope for him because they can never be that same way again. Even if he was successful in getting Yoichi back I don't think Yoichi could ever forgive him for all the things he's done to get him back. He won't get that affection he craves and Yoichi might end up more distant. I don't think he can force Yoichi's vestige to do anything and Yoichi might hide his own form away from him so he'll still end up as alone as he was in the first place.

So yes we can't ignore the love as it is evident and strong in their relationship. AFO's form of love is grasping and suffocating and toxic, but it's still love at its very core. Which makes a lot of things concerning their relationship more tragic but that's a topic for another day.

[galacticfire]

‼️ getting u into trouble on purpose :3 also 1️⃣

thanks i will do my best

‼️ Hot take/unpopular opinion?

Fine. You say hot take I give hot take. Doping talk time yippee!

"everyone is doping" and "nobody is doing anything that bad" are both bad black and white statements and don't take into account any amount of nuance of the real world!! Actually, imo most riders may be doping - or at least, interpreting the WADA / UCI rules in a way that is favorable to them but they are absolutely NOT doing to similar levels. And they have vastly different levels of responsibility to the current doping levels of the peloton. I think we're currently in a very bad phase of the sport doping wise - like not inventing anything crazy here you just have to look at the speed averages and the climb records and legit any interview of older guys about to retire or just retired talking about it and insinuating HEAVILY about it. It's been absolutely stupid since 2020 and every year since then it got dumber and there's obviously an arms race going on between jumbo and uae.

And this IS pushing everyone else to dope to keep up. Also I will not even bother arguing about whether your pogis and jonis are doping or not because pogi has the most thermonuclear staff of the sport like it's the evil avengers around him (just look up Matxin and Gianetti's previous achievements in the sport e.g. saunier duval if you're bored one day. you will find awesome things.) and jonas isn't beating him clean. God bless <3 Anyways my point is that some team management / riders are responsible for making it worse in the first place + coincidentally they're the ones with the endless fundings to put into R&D - because in the end testing will always be behind whatever new enhancements they manage to find.

Then there's the side of. Is it really doping? Is it medical malpractice? Is it actually dangerous? Like if they're just abusing the effects of some loophole in medication and......... Well I'm sorry. This argument drives me crazy. As if misusing medication hasn't always been a gigantic public health issue everywhere around the globe?? Take the tramadol ban for example. A thing various riders still active in the peloton were caught for so you Know it was widespread. It wasn't even banned because it enhanced performance but because it's an addictive medication that has side effects on your concentration and it was believed it was one of the main causes for dangerous unexplained crashes during races 😭 it's also like "Uhhhh yeah but increasing EPO with altitude camps isn't banned but blood transfusions Are??" well yeah maybe one of those is more of a health risk than the other. Ever thought about that. A substance being banned or not actually doesn't say much about about the health issues it could cause, and since we're currently smashing some of the most insane records of cycling (RIIS HAUTACAM YOU'RE NEXT!!) you can bet that some of the things they're taking are more dangerous than let's say. ketones. and even the carbon monoxide huffing room drama is probably only scratching the surface.

I guess my main point with this is that for me, doping, fundamentally, is a health issue and not a performance issue. But the performance is a clear reflection of the levels of doping that are currently happening behind the scenes. So I have a hard time putting on the same level a guy who will dope to keep up with the increasing speed and level of races, and a guy / team who is responsible for that increase in the first place. And they also obviously don't have the same team management / budget to be able to put together the same Medicalization Programme. I don't think this is an issue you should just wave around with a "oh they're all doing it" or "i'm sure they aren't doing anything that bad" when it's just wishful thinking. There could and there probably will be consequences, physical and mental wise - and that's just scratching the surface, let's not even talk about how this will incite people to try to dope younger and younger. ^_^

lol anyways lets stop here. i dont think it's much of a hot take for people who have followed the sport for a relatively long time but. yeah.

1️⃣What's the number one thing you'd like to see next season?

already answered it in a cynical way but i need to end this post on a lighter note. the happy answer to this is that i hope my pookie remcocobean goes to the giro and wins it!!

[forsakenwitchery]

Finished Veilguard the other day and I need you to see my Rook. xD idk I tried to create something similar to my face, but then it hit me I had Tallis on my hands. 😂

In case someone's interested in my thoughts (no spoilers): it was kind of a mixed bag experience for me. I couldn't agree more with the sentiment that the game's too sanitized, but I did have some fun with it and I did grow to like the companions after all. ALSO MANFRED NEEDS TO BE PROTECTED AT ALL COSTS! And Lucanis reminds me of Gale so much, guess that's my new type. xD Men cooking is the hottest trait ever, legit a dealbreaker no griffon or sentient skeleton can beat.

More rambling under the cut & adding all the critical tags I could think of.

I do think they sort of shot themselves in the foot by calling it Dragon Age, because I kept thinking it reminds me of Guardians of the Galaxy A LOT which was a good & imho underrated game!!! but it's not the best comparison for a DA game. I didn't like Bellara at first, but then it hit me she reminds me of Mantis. SO. MUCH. And I loved Mantis! So Bellara just felt so out of place in DA. I have a lot of thoughts, yet my main takeaway is that it should have been a new IP. Literally had it been called anything else 70% of my beef with this game wouldn't exist, and I think it's true for most people who are critical about it. Like, I played as a Crow, and literally all the Crows in the game are good(TM). My Rook told Harding she did some bad things, but nothing too bad! Literally no Crow in this game is willing to kill anyone. The banter about Grey Warden contracts... Was wild. What's the point of even having assassins who are so uwu goody two-shoes. :( Legit had they made a game in the vein of DA, but not DA, with new not preestablished factions, I wouldn't have this critique. And you can't say or do anything too bad in this game which is wild for DA. I think I was only allowed to be mean about Solas, but even tho I always chose the dialogs akin to 'he can go F himself', the game kept telling me 'he's just a poor sad little meow meow' by legit every character around me. WHICH GIVEN THE FINAL TWIST OF WHAT HE DID. FUCKING FUCK. There are not nearly enough mean things this game lets you say about him, and it's mind-blowing why half the characters would toot his horn so much. Sorry, I hate Solas' guts, I didn't think it was possible to hate him even more, but holy shit was I not prepared...

But like, had it been a new IP, my only critique would be all the handholding, especially the constant 'pointing out the obvious' at the start of the game. The first hours were driving me insane with it. Like guys, I'm not stupid, I don't need to be told the same thing 3 or 4 times. Or how to proceed in a linear location if I stop for one second. Yeah, it gets better with the obvious part, but not with repeating the same info, which made me wonder what age were they targeting with it. Because I don't think kids like to be talked down to, either.

BUT I expected way worse. It was overall not a bad game. Not a super great 10/10 one, but it had its moments. For me, it was a solid 6/10, maybe even a 7 in some parts. idk why, but I especially loved Evka and Antoine. And the cooking party banters. Super pretty, too, once I got used to the style.

Oh, and I also called my Rook Anthea, and since the Crows had a character called Teia, I got an added bonus of Lucanis actually saying that name a few times. xD

[paracosmicparadox]

So, I'm falling back into the FFXV kick, and I have decided that I disapprove of how little complex character development Square Enix has given the guys?? Like where is the emotional depth beyond surface-level cutscene angst?? So I took matters into my own hands and have compiled a handy little list of headcanons / expanded canons that I think make sense.

Noctis: Has clinical insomnia and frequent lucid dreams (sorta a given, but bear w me bear w me)

Feels the weight of having to take so much on from such a young age much, much more than he lets on

Loves to argue

Would've been happier if he and Luna stayed as childhood best-buds rather than betrothed fiancés (controversial, ik, but it just didn't seem like he cared that much for her romantically to me?? Like he obviously cared about her, but it seemed like a really strong penpal vibe rather than a "We're-gonna-get-married-and-be-the-next-hotshot-couple" vibe. If you disagree, coolio, I'm not gonna debate w you on this one)

Has a natural sadness to his eyes regardless of what he's feeling

Went through an anime phase (possibly still in his anime phase, idk)

Social anxiety for the win

Severe RBF

Prefers tea over coffee (black tea is best---particularly lavender earl grey)

Can play the cello (practicing tho?? Don't know her)

Writes the most beautiful poetry when The Motivation™ strikes him (usually when he's home sick and half-delirious)

Prompto: Has ADHD and clinical anxiety, but is undiagnosed and doesn't take any meds for either of them.

Is legit like SO SMART, but can never focus, so not many people take any notice

Wears contact lenses (he had glasses as a child and I refuse to believe he had some high-tech corrective surgery to eliminate the need for them when lenses are cheaper and less risky)

Doesn't drink caffeine because it makes him jittery

Doesn't drive the Regalia when the guys are around because having other people in the car distracts him from the road. Also he tends to drive like a speed demon, which worries Ignis to no end.

Sunburns insanely easily

Could legit become a hitman if he wanted to with the amount of gun-knowledge he has. It doesn't matter what firearm you put in this boy's hand---pistol, SMG, sniper, rocket launcher, you name it. He can and will hit the target every single time.

Addicted to adrenaline

Pansexual

Has a lot of self-loathing (we see a bit of this in Ep. Prompto) and talks with an online therapist about it via text whenever his lows hit him. He's making great progress in learning how to heal and how to accept himself for who he is beyond the mask he wears for others

Ignis: More than a little bit of a control freak, and works very hard not to be too overbearing or critical about his friends' misgivings

Hypochondriac

Wants to protect everyone all the time and mentally kicks himself when he doesn't get there fast enough

Is SO PROUD of Noctis's journey and felt a stronger hatred towards Ardyn than anyone else in the group for what he forced Noct to go through (he stayed up at night sick to his stomach with hollow rage and baked nonstop to take his mind off of it)

Can verbally obliterate a man, but only rarely chooses to do so bc he's classy like that

After losing his eyes, he notices so much more beauty in the world than he used to (the sound of rain on the Regalia's roof, the specific gait of each of his friends, the smell of salt on the wind in Galdin Quay, the flawless feel of one specific silk tie he has in his repertoire, etc)

His internal compass is never wrong

Regularly takes antacids for his stomach

Has the straightest teeth you've ever seen

Demiromantic

Gladio: Hates being wrong: it's his way or the highway

Actually so much smarter than the musclehead jock front he puts up

A little vain and easily jealous (this man has a Jealous Face like no other)

Thunderstorms are his favorite; his ideal place to be is at a campsite, during a storm, with a well-worn book and a mug of Irish coffee in hand

Would throw himself in front of a bus for any one of his friends

Would beat up kids for the folks he cared about in middle school and spent the time he wasn't training to be a Crownsguard sitting in detention with the most unrepentant, smug, and-I'd-do-it-again look scrawled across his face

Can make a better smoothie than anyone (except maybe Iggy)

Spotify junkie

Had a dinosaur phase as a kid and can still name random facts about them whenever the opportunity presents itself

Avid technology-hater and only has a phone to make calls and join the others in playing King's Knight since they begged him so profoundly (he's sure the thing's going to be his downfall)

Gets most of Prompto's pop culture references

[agentoffangirling]

the people talking about "alison" in pjo on tiktok are driving me INSANE. media literacy is DEAD im telling you.

i had someone tell me that alison was a confirmed and casted character.

i asked where, and they said the "pjoupdates" account on instagram. i said that wasn't an official source

and then they mentioned beatrice kitsos's instagram and how she posted a screenshot about it. the screenshot was from "the hollywood reporter".

so then i was like "there's no way she's a cast member if she's posting about it before the actual announcement is released"

and then they said "she probably just accidentally posted it!!! she just landed the role of a lifetime and got super excited" like WHAT

and apparently rick and the disney executives were doing an open casting call (false) and they asked smaller agencies to advertise alison to their actors (false) and apparently her neighbor auditioned for the part of alison and lots of other young actors did as well (also false. NDAs exist for any audition process).

and they were being so condescending toward me which is funny because they were straight up lying. every time i asked for a source, they said "google is free" like I KNOW GOOGLE is free. the problem is that it's not always right. and they were like "it's everywhere so many people are posting about it" okay then if it's everywhere, it shouldn't be hard to find ONE source.

like, i could make a fake pjoupdates account and say that TERRY CREWS was going to be playing silena and half the pjo fans would believe it. media literacy, critical thinking, and reading comprehension is dead. help me.

Okay okay I think I know what you're getting at

Just by searching up "percy jackson" you get several different sources reporting on castings for s2

While you are correct that pjoupdates and other fan accounts are not legit, Hollywood Reporter is, and they usually don't post on casting news unless it's verified. Reading through the article itself, they don't post a source, but the Reporter is typically correct on a lot of things and they mention who the actors are represented by at the end of the article

We can cross-reference this with the original "news" from Nexus Point a few months ago, where not only are they not a reputable source by any means, there were no other sources reposting this news. Their legitimacy was further debunked (by me, most of the PJO fandom was still taking this info and running with it) after they "reported" that there was a Kane Chronicles adaptation at Disney+, soon after Becky Riordan saying that no such thing was currently planned. So it was safe to assume that the first post they made was false as well

I suppose that is where that person assumed there was an open casting call, which is likely incorrect as Beatrice Kitsos (Alison) is an established actress and represented by an agency. Nexus Point was where they claimed an open call was underway, so it's just a mix-up of two different sources, one of which is not legitimate

If Beatrice is posting it herself, the news is most likely true and we can believe it. It's not entirely uncommon for leakers to get a few things right, although I strongly recommend not trusting Nexus Point and using other sources to back things up

[eroaneki]

I'm still so scared by what happened to me earlier this month. I feel like I had a legit mental breakdown. I still feel extremely raw and vulnerable and constantly on the edge of a panic attack, but I think that's more so because I'm afraid of not being able to control how I feel. Like that I feel completely out of control.

I literally triggered myself into a mental breakdown by drinking cold brew on an empty stomach. Like out of fucking no where had a massive injection of liquid caffeine directly into my bloodstream. And I was also coming off of weed. And it was... 3 days before my period. I think all of that combined with is what really sent me over the edge. I'm usually smarter about tapering myself off but I also have never had a 7 month period where I used daily. I think my longest has been like 2 months in the past. This has been basically daily use since like, January.

I've taken half of a 5mg edible twice in the last like 3 weeks because honestly I'm so fucking spooked I'm gonna end up going insane or something. I know it's unlikely. But man I miss the creativity weed gives me. My head isn't as loud anymore and quite honestly I feel "normal" I guess. Whatever my normal was when I was using daily. So I guess that means I've leveled out? But my heart keeps skipping throughout the day and it freaks me out and I hate it and I've already had everything ruled out by the cardiologist so it just is what it is I guess. I'm fine according to them.

Idk existence is scary as fuck. But I guess you have to have bigger balls than life and that's how you win. Just growing those balls into a massive force takes so much time and effort and "do it scared" mentality. I understand why people scream when they do things that scares them. It pushes them forward. Gives them the strength to do it.

Also side note, I hate adrenaline? I run so high in the morning and I know it's my body trying to wake me up but could you not? Can you be more gentle about it? Also life without coffee is fucking ROUGH. My heart pounds too fast when I drink it and quite honestly I don't need the extra stimulation in the morning so I've switched to tea, but occasionally I'll pour myself like 2-4 oz of coffee and sip slowly on that. Usually on the days I'm home.

God I feel like I have no idea how to survive as a person sometimes. I just feel like I'm walking blind. It sucks. Really badly. But I'm okay for the most part now. I still get a little shaky driving but again, I just think I'm scared I'm gonna freak out again while driving. I'm so scared of what happened to me that I'm trying every which way I can to avoid it happening again. It's rough. Rough rough rough but for the most part I'm fine.

My outlook is mostly positive and I feel more of my piss and vinegar self coming back, which is nice. But yeah. Still definitely licking my wounds and a little worried about my period coming up this month. But I have my emergency lavender and Xanax and sweet smelling body scrubs and ice pack and everything else I use to help calm anxiety lol

I also have a really good support group and I started therapy, though I did have to cancel my appointment for tomorrow because my new insurance doesn't kick in until 8/1. Annoying but I know it's not the end of me ever going to therapy ever again. Just have to wait probably another week 🙃

[storiesofsvu]

Alright, happy Thursday hoes, lets get to this.

Mothership first

Okay… interesting open…

Omg…how many times are they gonna use the trope of “don’t touch that!” “who the hell are you?” surprise it’s the new laywer…

Not surprised its another old white dude, but at least he’s not as old as mccoy

Okay seriously…. If they get rid of Samantha I will not be watching this show anymore..

I wonder if they’re going to bring this staff change up on svu too considering this guy is also now carisi’s boss… but the writers seem to have forgotten that these shows all exist together until they want to do a crossover.

If this was svu the ada would be storming into the squad room yelling at the detectives for making a mistake that’s gonna cost them their case. Why don’t we get to see that on mothership? I want more crossing over between departments, cops never show up in the gallery either, just to testify if they’re needed.

Oooo yesss that maroon suit. I see you ma’am!

Man they’re just right fucked with this case aren’t they?

This defence attorney is super crusty

How come these videos are coming up NOW and not before things went to trial??

This judges office is barba’s office. They really only have so many sets, hey? (also the continuity of that office on this show/universe drives me fucking insane).

My subtitles keep cutting in and out and that is also driving me insane

Toronto time.

Will I pay attention? Likely no

JESUS FUCK talk about a cold fucking opening wow.

Big surprise I stopped paying attention halfway through the ep. Like, it’s fully muted right now and I’m working on writing LOL

SVU time

BRUH is this maria stuff ive been seeing all over twitter legit?! I thought people were fucking clowning LOL

Olivia in uniform just fucking makes me so fucking weak every single time

Clearly the other captain hasn’t been in the field a lot if that was her immediate reaction to that crime scene

Okay… hear me out… olivia literally saved maria’s life and stayed on the phone with her ALL night. We all know she has a habit of taking in strays… there’s no doubt maria became a cop because of liv… maria would have reached out TO HER about her graduation, not the other way around…

Velasco getting actual screen time finally. I do have to say, im back on my Velasco bullshit…

LOL. I know it was unintentional but the harshness of velasco’s knock on the door killed me.

4 hours of law and order is too much. Im getting bored and this is the show I actually like. I think imma start skipping Toronto cause mothership does hit some days

If this girl has a good enough lawyer she could easily get off on an insanity type plea… tbh this episode would’ve been way better on criminal minds. That would’ve been bad ass.

This episode is almost over and we got absolutely NO closure on the maria thing AND we didn’t get to go to court. Im OVER this fucking show man lol

Liv being back in her bac nail polish era is bomb though

Fin doesn’t strike me as a scotch guy… this is weird..

Okay… liv is really not okay. Like this girl needs support, she needs proper and regular therapy, she needs a break from work. Go home and spend time with your son instead of drinking cheap wine alone in a bar? Also while we’re talking about drinking alone after work being all sad, can we touch on the fact that her mother was an alcoholic, and that was what *killed* her… this is incredibly worrisome and I doubt we’re ever going to touch on it/get it fleshed out like we should…

Okay we at least got some maria closure. Thank you.

OC time!

Jet *attempting* to control stabler, woof. At least someone’s trying loooll

This bitch is so dead

Part of me feels like its bullshit that se wouldn’t know any of this about her own brother, but also I never talk to my family so…. LOL.

Fuck he’s creepy as shit

There is NO WAY THAT TINY MAN IS THE SAME SIZE AS ELLIOT

The fact that it took THIS long for someone higher up to question his anger/trauma/etc affecting his job is wild.

THE BARTENDER IN ME IS FUCKING DYING. I had a PHYSICAL reaction to that conversation.

“you’ve never had a long island ice tea?!” “I don’t like ice tea it’s too bleh” guy promptly orders two to prove that theyre good? THERE IS NO ICED TEA IN LONG ISLANDS

Cragen’s really just gonna be in the last second of this episode isn’t he?

Everyone: proper ear pieces

Jet: nah. Air pod.

I really thought that stabler was gonna be missing for a like, a good chunk of time with no one knowing.

OHHHH right! The foil he found in the bathroom garbage and immediately licked… right… I forgot about that. Now the question is who it belongs to…..

[justsomeoneintoomanyfandoms]

Hello! May I receive an Obey Me! matchup? :)

To start off, I’m in my 20s. My pronouns are they/them, AFAB and genderfluid! My sexuality is panromantic and acespec, and love me some fictional men. <3 My star sign is Taurus and MBTI type is INFP.

Also I’m AuDHD, have PSTD and am a bit of an introvert.

For appearances, I’m 5’4 (cries) with medium length darkish brown hair in the style of a shaggy mullet, light warm toned skin and a mid size body type. And I’m nearsighted AF so I use glasses.

I tend to dress in very fem fashion most times. My style fluctuates between goth aesthetic and the pink cutesy aesthetic, which is always hilarious to see people’s baffled reactions when one day I’m dressed fully in black then the next day where a very pink and sanrio themed outfit. 🤭

Funny that a lot about me fluctuates either from one or the other, I’m so bad with decision making that it’s literally engrained in me lol. This goes for my taste in music as well!

It’s between nu metal and goth rock to chill lo-fi and melodic instrumental! but game soundtracks and music that’s like jack stauber (music you probably hear in a lot of those weirdcore and liminal spaces videos lol) is something I listen to as well!

I’m pretty quiet, get anxious easily (even though I tend to hide it but can still be seen through pacing back and forth a lot eugh). I’m excitable with things I love, though I get scared because my own excitement makes me ramble too much so I try to hold back a lot unless I’m comfortable with the person and am confident they won’t get annoyed or if they ever need a break they could let me know!

I do digital art in my free time and writing storylines and plots to OCs and personal projects probably for most of the day because I love it too much… also, I’m a gamer too! But I have huge preferences for indie horror and cozy games. Horror games with heavy topics like The Cat Lady, and cozy games like Stardew Valley! Also, don’t ever ask me to tell you the FNAF lore I will legit spend hours explaining and adding layers of theories. It’d drive people insane. 🧍

I LOVVEE cozy clothing like oversized sweaters, cold weather, SLEEPING even though I have a hard time doing so, and I’m a huge foodie! I like trying foods from all culture and try new things! :)

I HAATTEE overly bright lights, it sends me into a panic!! The feeling of rubbery squishy food, my autistic butt will die on the spot. 😭 Being ignored is something I can’t stand, I’d probably cry lol. Same effect if I get yelled at.

Okay that’s about it, thank you !! 💕💕

Hi Anon! Thank you for your request! Sorry it took so long. I hope you like your matchup!

In Obey Me, I match you with...

Satan is a good person for you to be around, both platonically and romantically.

He's great at helping you with your AuDHD and PTSD. Since he's read so much, he knows a variety of different ways he can help and will tailor those to suit your specific needs.

He will lend you his sweaters! He thinks you look cute wearing them and they're just the right type of oversized. He'll leave one laying around for you every day so if you want to wear one, you can.

Very attentive. You never feel like you're being ignored when Satan's around. He values your opinion and finds everything you have to say interesting.

Will never yell at you. He knows he can be volatile sometimes so if he thinks there's a chance he might snap and yell at you, he'll let you know and will keep some distance between you until he calms down. The last thing he wants is to make you feel uncomfortable.

[pippinpeppa]

write again—

rise again—

this past 2 weeks had been tiresome and difficult. i terribly miss my locks of hair, the hair i’ve grown for almost 3 years. they’re gone. i had to say goodbye when i was not ready. my dream to donate it was shattered. the dream i had been cradling for the last 5 years.

you know what, if you pass by, you are a lost cause. i would be glad if you read this. you robbed me of myself. and at times, i fantasize for my vigilante shit against you because in this land you have more money and power than me. you are so loud.

but let me ask what i have always been wondering,

why the fuck you need to cut your hair after i did? in the almost exact same style?

get a pair of glasses that look similar to mine,

and there are activities i am too exhausted to สาธยาย.

that’s a heinous crime. very insidious to do such things. going every where i went, then posting the pictures online, making me scared as fuck, making me seem delusional and insane. but no. YOU ARE. this is stalking. and the way you did it was absolute mindfuckery because it was so subtle and nobody understands why I am this afraid.

you came to me as a child asking for guidance, then snatched it shamelessly. you body snatcher. you even exploited my knowledge, resources, ideas, and experiences for your stupid and as-empty-as-you female gang. I hate you, very much. and i know it’s legit because finally, on 20th april 2024, you showed me your true colors. you showed me soooooooo well how you deceive people in the name of “love.” you seemed so proud to “rob” others’ hearts. but what you didn’t know was that, love is not a game. if you play that game, or if it was a game to you, then it could never be love. it’s called limerence. you just treat others as a mean to an end. an end to satisfy you. people are just toys to make you feel better about your shitty behaviors, attitudes, and appearances. you are extremely privileged and never realized that. AT ALL. you are an ugly spoiled brat who was charged with drunk driving so you spent a few nights in jail. that’s not rebellious and it’s not funny. never. it is dangerous. my mind has been playing tricks on me, spitting your sugar-coated buzz phrases like, “it’s her money, her body, her life, her choices,” but bitch please look at yourself and what you have done and caused. you caused disorderly and heartaches because you don’t decompress nor self-reflect nor regulate your own emotions. all you do is drink, get drunk, get high, go on psychedelic trips, which make you look cool i guess.

you inflict people around you with violence disguised as teasing. i hate it. they are very บัดซบ. name-calling a guy you date “stupid” because he lost his phone was terrible. you are a terrible person whose appearance was altered medically and you even expect people to just admire it. how can it be a crime if they don’t think you are pretty? in fact, i did think you are pretty but everybody else didn’t…. and that cannot be my fault. how can that be my fault? even? i started to see you as ugly when i learned the crimes you did and hid. from my place, i can only tell you that, karma is real. it’s really real. and i gotta admit that at some point, i got furious and wished i saw you burned in flames of avicii. and yeah, i was the one who got burnt badly. until i release myself from my own (or was it yours?) passion. i know now that karma will track you down without my help and when karma reaches you, when it’s your time, you will think of me, my faces will be the only thing you can see. and i cannot say i will have empathy for your suffering. (look at your suffering maybe? significant other responding late is not a crime, you know that? in fact if you admit that you are horrible, something might change)

you are a female jerk. your intentions towards others are malicious as fuck and i am scared. you scared the shit out of me just recounting your wrongdoings towards others around. i was dumbfounded and speechless on why someone could be this envious, jealous, empty, selfish, and narcissistic. like, how a person could choose a seat in a college just to take it away from some classmate you hate. i should have dismissed you since that day 4 years ago. no good person would do that just for fun.

but thank you though, for revealing how sick you are. so i was awaken that you are the ill-hearted one, not him. he has always been respectful and you gaslit me into thinking that he was a cheat. YOU ARE. you cheated on him. he was innocent. he was attracted to me and i was attracted to him, but we never acted on it, knowing our life choices. we never even talk or interact. he never cheats. it’s all your fantasy. i am still hurt i let you plant this idea in my brainstem. that he cheats. he is so pure you wouldn’t even know.

i also know that you are violent in other relationships but you are sneaky and know how to avoid the laws. of course, your father is charged with corruption but no one cares since he has a tons of friends, money, power, statuses, and a lot more. no wonder your visa was rejected.

i used to have empathy for you, but not anymore.

it is pure disgust.

oh no, there is anger too.

oh and i gotta admit there’s joy as well. when i see that you didn’t look so pristine like your online persona. you stink, your hair is greasy, your face not a porcelain, your nose looks weird, your lipstick was missing and you’re not as thin as in the picture. basically that persona is not even real. there is none.

i don’t know you at all,

[firecrackerhh]

I have to wonder how much of an antis life outside of the internet has to be fucking miserable.

Because if there’s anything I’ve realized, antis are in 3 categories.

They are either a child, mentally ill, or they are an adult in a situation where they have such little control over their own lives whether it be due to disability or whatever else that the internet is the only place they can escape to. The only place they feel any sense of power.

Fuck, that’s just…sad.

That does not make any antis behavior ok, obviously, but at least it makes sense why they do the things they do.

Makes it all the more pathetic when their bullshit doesn’t fucking amount to anything.

Like, it isn’t like constantly harassing others online actually does anything to solve your own fucked up problems yknow? Distractions only go so far, eventually you gotta grow a pair and fix your shit.

I feel like being mentally ill online while being an anti would just make you worse off. Because it isn’t like the people you hang around when you’re an anti care about you, they aren’t actually your friends, they’re just using your mental illness as a tool to keep spreading their misinfo, and honestly I think taking advantage of someone’s mental health like that is fucking morally reprehensible on every fucking level.

The worst part is that the person they take advantage of thinks they’re doing anything of value when they’re at most screaming into the fucking void.

They can cry all they want about Viv or Rebecca sugar or that fucking She-Ra show or whatever the fuck pisses them off, but, pardon my frankness, they’re a fucking loser whose whining hasn’t done Jack shit, it never will do Jack shit, and it’s fucking sad.

I can’t imagine devoting my free time to something I hate so much I start legit thinking it’s morally bad for society to the point I think the creator of whatever show may as well be Satan incarnate. Once you reach that point maybe your phone should be taken away from you and you should be put in a fucking psych ward.

I don’t say that to be mean, I say it because it might be the only way these people can get help.

Perhaps the reason these people have no control in their life and have restricted internet access or whatever else is because the people around them irl know how fucked they are and they don’t want to make their mental illness any fucking worse, but clearly there’s no internet blocker that is truly foolproof.

The second you start accusing random show creators of essentially being the fucking Antichrist or you think Hazbin fucking Hotel and Helluva Boss are the harbinger of fucking doom that will cause society to collapse as if they are in any way influential enough to do that, that proves to me you drank the fucking Kool-Aid and the only cure is some strong antipsychotics if not a fucking lobotomy.

Because anyone who thinks like that has to be fucking suffering inside and it drives me insane to imagine being that mentally unwell and yet the people around you don’t do anything about it. Either out of ignorance or malice, I’m not sure which option pisses me off more.

I just think people like this need help they’re probably never gonna get, all because the people around them don’t actually care, I can’t imagine taking advantage of someone like that, fucking disgusting. Antis are horrible fucking people, there’s no amount of progressive language they can use to hide the fact that they’re rotten from the fucking core.

Maybe they’re the fucking Antichrist. Fucking wolf in sheep’s clothing.

[quiet-in-the-wild]

lol in 2021 my wife & I spent the year taking road trips across the US & I went to dessert for the first time. And the road went up a little hill a minute when we were driving in new mexio & suddenly it was just sky everywhere had the worst panic attack. I felt like I was drowning and being held underwater because there was too much sky in every direction.

& I had to keep my eyes closed for hours.

& then I got horrible altitude sickness that lasted weeks. And still feel nauseated thinking about the food I ate when I was there.

Then we lived in south west Texas with her family for a bit & none of the trees or bushes were taller than the houses. And it affected me so much.

I’ll never go back. If we would have stayed longer I would have legit gone insane. My ocd was out of control, I was so paranoid about everyone we were staying with. So depressed & sensory overwhelmed.

And when we finally got out of there and around tall trees I felt like I could breathe again.

Love learning that I had an old timey affliction like prairie madness