#this isn't 2005

[bethanydelleman]

Most directors (it seems): The sexiest thing is sex.

Me: The sexiest thing is when two people spend weeks staring at each other in longing and then their hands brush against each other, and then they hug, but like with their whole bodies and one person puts their hand on the back of the other's head and it feels like they will never stop hugging because they've wanted it so bad, and then they kiss ONCE (1 time) but it feels earned.

[jakeperalta]

(this isn't a question about the best p&p adaptation ever, it is simply which you prefer OUT OF THESE TWO OPTIONS since they are the two most commonly talked about and compared!!)

[artdonaldsonbabygirl]

It wasn't that Art didn't know his frienship with Patrick was... different. Most friends didn't share clothes. Most friends didn't push their beds together. Most friends didnt teach each other how to jerk off. No Art knew what him and Patrick had was... something else. But Art also knew names had power.

When Art had asked, as all children ask their parents, where he had gotten his name frkm they had told him about his mother's father, his grandfather Arthur Donaldson. Art had never met the man. Couldn't have as he'd died long before he was born. And Art had asked, why not Arthur? For if they were going to name him for a dead man why not use the man's full name? His mother had told him she wanted to honour her father, not doom Art to become him. She'd said there's power in a name. If you give someone someone else's name they have to live up to it.

So Art didn't give what him and Patrick had a name. They'd be drawn apart soon. Art had already applied to his top choice colleges, Patrick had no intention of going to college whatsoever. Why name this thing when it wouldn't last. When it wouldn't live up to that name.

That's not to say he didn't engage in... that with Patrick. After all he quite enjoyed whatever it is they had. But to be fair Patrick never gave it a name either. Even if some times Art could see in his eyes that he was desperate to. Desperate to push through that last boundary. But he never did. Because contrary to popular belief sometimes Patrick knew when not to push. Or maybe, once again, Art was Patrick's exception. In the way he'd never allow Patrick to be his.

[uncanny-tranny]

What some people don't realize is that some trans people don't know they were trans as kids, but not for the reasons you might think...

Like when I was a kid, I would watch movies with women in them and I'd be like, "okay, I guess I'm a straight guy. These are very heterosexual feelings," and that was the end of it. What I didn't think was that that made me trans, because as far as I cared, I started life as a straight little boy.

[aiscapades]

i can't believe i'm doing this instead of sleeping

[cherrysmokesaconha]

These has to be my favorite old art I have ever done. A blast from the past!

I don't have their projects anymore so I only have these downloaded from Tumblr or Pinterest (I HATE PINTEREST) :(

Anyway. If you remember those arts then you probably know who I am. Petit_cherrey perhaps? Probably lol :)

I really want to redraw these. I really want to. I still love these arts with my whole heart despite being so old. And Theodore... Oh Theo, I failed you, I'm sorry💔/LOWKEY neg

[lbova]

I know robots don't give birth, but I wanted to use this.

[bonescaps]

[jennsterjay]

IT'S HIS YEAR, RAHHH!!!

Source: @SonicOfficialJP on Twitter/X.com

恐れず進め。 Fearless: Year of Shadow、始動。

[shostakowitch]

Blixa is wearing blue nailpolish!!

photos by Lutz Roeßler, from here

[egg-emperor]

we should see the Egg Breaker in today's Dark Beginnings part 2 because it's the part it makes the most sense to be in and you know I'm gonna make an appreciation post because I love it so muuuuch 🥰💜

[purgaytorysupremacy]

oh nuts. a life experience has given me a new layer of perspective on Cas's homosexual declaration of love to Dean.

recently I had occasion to tell a person I had feelings for them knowing full well they didn't feel even a twinge of the same thing for me. while the whole thing was a decidedly unpleasant experience, I kept laughing at myself internally bc I didn't want to say "the happiness is just in saying it" like fucking Castiel over here. (we don't need to talk about it, it's fine.) (I am happier having said it and it's kind of bullshit, but I digress.)

because the thing is, the happiness isn't in just saying it, right? the happiness is in the having. I made a whole TikTok "proving" that the Empty didn't come for Cas when he confessed his love, but rather when he realized Dean loved him back. even for Cas, the happiness was in the having, not in the saying, however brief it was.

and I've always been one of those people who rolled their eyes at the whole concept. why would the happiness be in just being, in just saying it, if it's right there in front of you to have. and then it hit me like a tonne of bricks (as I was washing my kitchen counters).

Cas really didn't think he could have Dean.

at all. in any capacity. he really, truly, and honestly felt to the depths of himself that Dean did not have any twinge of similar feelings, that this really was a Hail Mary shot-in-the-dark. and I think me, personally, really didn't understand that about Cas. that his belief in his love being unrequited was that unshakable.

something else I've been pondering is how audiences have so much more empathy for fictional characters who share traits that IRL they find objectionable and unappealing. but the thing is about fictional characters is that we follow them around in their most private, vulnerable moments. we see Dean mourning Cas when he dies, literally killing himself because he can't live without him, but it's so easy to forget that we're the omniscient ones here.

Cas never knew.

Dean's whole thing was pushing him away, keeping him at arm's length, making it seem like whatever heroic thing he does for Cas he'd do for anyone. he downplays how important it is for Dean to share the Deancave with him, to show him his favourite movies, share his favourite songs. he acts like the things Cas does for him don't mean that much to hide how much they do mean. he uses "we" whenever he even gets in the vicinity of expressing a feeling. "We were worried." "We're glad you're back." "We needed a win." "You're our brother." The audience knew the difference. We saw how he'd clench his jaw or swallow hard or make a face that said "God, I'm being such an idiot". Because we saw him in those little moments. We got to see the cracks in the mask.

but Cas never knew.

the self-hating angel of Thursday was never going to think it was all a way for Dean to protect himself. obviously, that's the delicious tragedy of it all, but what I think I realized at the end of all that is Cas confessing his love to a Dean who didn't love him back wouldn't have worked. Because the happiness really is in the having. If happiness was just in saying it, then The Empty would have come before Cas even finished getting the words out of his mouth.

so Cas's plan wouldn't have worked if Dean didn't love him back.

this is just me yapping on about my own nonsense, but I do think it's really interesting. there's contentment in "just saying it". there's freedom and relief and an unburdening. I think one can argue that it makes being happy in the being easier. there is certainly some joy in telling a person you think that highly of them. but true happiness?

nah.

true happiness is always going to only be in the having. Cas didn't understand the difference until he experienced it, and by then, it was too late.

[that-butch-archivist]

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[the-shy-artisan]

I just want my '05 remake :c

This better be a prequel to the Norse games... I want my angry boy back.

[mr-scandinavian]

Something very special arrived yesterday - and by "something very special," I mean the Constantine 20th Anniversary Collector's Edition Steelbook bundle