#this isn't 2005

[bethanydelleman]

Most directors (it seems): The sexiest thing is sex.

Me: The sexiest thing is when two people spend weeks staring at each other in longing and then their hands brush against each other, and then they hug, but like with their whole bodies and one person puts their hand on the back of the other's head and it feels like they will never stop hugging because they've wanted it so bad, and then they kiss ONCE (1 time) but it feels earned.

[jakeperalta]

(this isn't a question about the best p&p adaptation ever, it is simply which you prefer OUT OF THESE TWO OPTIONS since they are the two most commonly talked about and compared!!)

[uncanny-tranny]

What some people don't realize is that some trans people don't know they were trans as kids, but not for the reasons you might think...

Like when I was a kid, I would watch movies with women in them and I'd be like, "okay, I guess I'm a straight guy. These are very heterosexual feelings," and that was the end of it. What I didn't think was that that made me trans, because as far as I cared, I started life as a straight little boy.

[aiscapades]

i can't believe i'm doing this instead of sleeping

[bonescaps]

[jennsterjay]

IT'S HIS YEAR, RAHHH!!!

Source: @SonicOfficialJP on Twitter/X.com

恐れず進め。 Fearless: Year of Shadow、始動。

[purgaytorysupremacy]

oh nuts. a life experience has given me a new layer of perspective on Cas's homosexual declaration of love to Dean.

recently I had occasion to tell a person I had feelings for them knowing full well they didn't feel even a twinge of the same thing for me. while the whole thing was a decidedly unpleasant experience, I kept laughing at myself internally bc I didn't want to say "the happiness is just in saying it" like fucking Castiel over here. (we don't need to talk about it, it's fine.) (I am happier having said it and it's kind of bullshit, but I digress.)

because the thing is, the happiness isn't in just saying it, right? the happiness is in the having. I made a whole TikTok "proving" that the Empty didn't come for Cas when he confessed his love, but rather when he realized Dean loved him back. even for Cas, the happiness was in the having, not in the saying, however brief it was.

and I've always been one of those people who rolled their eyes at the whole concept. why would the happiness be in just being, in just saying it, if it's right there in front of you to have. and then it hit me like a tonne of bricks (as I was washing my kitchen counters).

Cas really didn't think he could have Dean.

at all. in any capacity. he really, truly, and honestly felt to the depths of himself that Dean did not have any twinge of similar feelings, that this really was a Hail Mary shot-in-the-dark. and I think me, personally, really didn't understand that about Cas. that his belief in his love being unrequited was that unshakable.

something else I've been pondering is how audiences have so much more empathy for fictional characters who share traits that IRL they find objectionable and unappealing. but the thing is about fictional characters is that we follow them around in their most private, vulnerable moments. we see Dean mourning Cas when he dies, literally killing himself because he can't live without him, but it's so easy to forget that we're the omniscient ones here.

Cas never knew.

Dean's whole thing was pushing him away, keeping him at arm's length, making it seem like whatever heroic thing he does for Cas he'd do for anyone. he downplays how important it is for Dean to share the Deancave with him, to show him his favourite movies, share his favourite songs. he acts like the things Cas does for him don't mean that much to hide how much they do mean. he uses "we" whenever he even gets in the vicinity of expressing a feeling. "We were worried." "We're glad you're back." "We needed a win." "You're our brother." The audience knew the difference. We saw how he'd clench his jaw or swallow hard or make a face that said "God, I'm being such an idiot". Because we saw him in those little moments. We got to see the cracks in the mask.

but Cas never knew.

the self-hating angel of Thursday was never going to think it was all a way for Dean to protect himself. obviously, that's the delicious tragedy of it all, but what I think I realized at the end of all that is Cas confessing his love to a Dean who didn't love him back wouldn't have worked. Because the happiness really is in the having. If happiness was just in saying it, then The Empty would have come before Cas even finished getting the words out of his mouth.

so Cas's plan wouldn't have worked if Dean didn't love him back.

this is just me yapping on about my own nonsense, but I do think it's really interesting. there's contentment in "just saying it". there's freedom and relief and an unburdening. I think one can argue that it makes being happy in the being easier. there is certainly some joy in telling a person you think that highly of them. but true happiness?

nah.

true happiness is always going to only be in the having. Cas didn't understand the difference until he experienced it, and by then, it was too late.

[that-butch-archivist]

as a baby butch i really appreciate your blog,, i feel so lost sometimes esp as a black butch as i haven't seen many sources on other studs,, so just having these lists is really awesome :)

Hey, thanks so much for reaching out, lovely to hear from you! I'm glad the lists are helping you, honestly that's everything I could have hoped for. Unfortunately, I have also found that it's strangely difficult to find material on black butches and studs ... but I am on the hunt nevertheless! As of the past two weeks a few more black lesbian anthologies have arrived and I have a few more lined up that I hope to procure soon--all this to say that I hope to present more material to you that suits your interests in the days & weeks to come. I hope we both can find good stuff for you. :)

(Which, speaking of ... if ANYONE out there happens to know where the treasure trove of black butches & stud lore is, I would happily trade my best cheesecake and/or cookie recipes for this knowledge. I can also provide manual labor and cleaning services.)

[starflungwaddledee]

please draw captain vul realistic birdman next

piece of cake. captain on deck!

[rathologic]

Bachelor ARG is real, it seems

(link to the ARG discussion thread on Reddit)

A physical train ticket for Bachelor Dankovsky, received among Kickstarter rewards and machine translated by u/DerpForceAlpha (who is to credit for everything discussed in this post!).

The Morse code shown on the ticket leads to the Reddit account u/FyodorVitin, who currently has a single post titled "The Beginning" - it's a picture of a handwritten letter:

The letter's text, transcribed/machine translated by DerpForceAlpha and very slightly edited by me:

I received a letter from a certain Isidor Burakh, who, they say, is personally acquainted with an unnaturally long-lived man. This man is the ruler of an unknown provincial town that stands at the very end of the North-Eastern Railway. If what he says is at least half true, then this long-liver will become the missing proof. We will finally wipe the nose of the damned Telman, and when that bastard is silent - we will be able to convince the Authorities to spare the "Thanatica". If I don't find anything there, well…science from the corral will go straight to the slaughterhouse. P.S. It is not calm in the steppe regions now, so I am taking the prototype of the Plaguefinder with me. I leave the current work on you all the records in my office. I will contact you as soon as I can. I hope they at least have a telegraph there. Daniil

It looks possible that this letter might be addressed to someone whose name starts with A. I don't think there's transcription of the other text in the image yet, but the top document is attributed to one I. I. Mechnikov. The pocket watch in the lower left appears to show the time 1:30.

No idea how this connects to the mysterious letters that backers have been receiving yet :-)

[antirepurp]

calling shadow 2005 a game that tried to be more mature is a bit mislead imo. it tried to be Darker and i don't think that's really comparable to being mature, not when it tried to still appeal to an audience of kids (maybe slightly older kids but kids anyway). like have you seen the promotional shadow interviews where he talks about eating doritos and hot pockets and skateboarding and hanging out with his friends? that's an entire 15-year-old how is that mature. his game is not mature it's edgy and dark and isn't afraid of being goofy either, it's an excessive and novel exploration of his character and his character is fucking edgy and his history has a lot of details and elements that make it very easy to lean into it and embrace it. shadow 2005 is not a mature game but that doesn't make it bad and i feel like if it had tried to pretend to be more mature than it was we would've ultimately been worse off for it. instead we can have a game that, while flawed, isn't afraid of being dark and edgy and full of guns and aliens and green blood while also featuring Clown Music in its ost and giving the player goofy as fuck weapons and overusing the one swearword they could get away with to a silly but memorable degree

[punkfunkuwu]

Bo gif by gamer_purgatory

Tell me I'm wrong.

[uncanny-tranny]

I think as we grow up, we have to be really conscious of romanticizing the world we grew up in in order to scorn how the next generations are growing up.

Nostalgia isn't inherently bad, but especially in political spaces, be very wary of this idea that there is an Ideal Past we must Harken Back To.

It sucks to feel left behind, but such is the human condition. It isn't bad to feel nostalgic, but that doesn't mean that these new generations are inherently "lost" and "need to be saved (by you)", and I think that is very important to remember and try to be conscious of.

[bethanydelleman]

Your evaluation of Pride and Prejudice 2005?

Things it got right, things it didn't, things it could have done better/differently, and your overall impression of it as an adaptation of the book.

P&P 2005 was my first introduction to Jane Austen so it has a special place in my heart. I really like the way scenes are set up like tableaus, I liked the attempt to humanize Mrs. Bennet, Mary, and Mr. Collins, even though it's somewhat out of character, and I really really REALLY love the song that is played at various levels of skill. The one that Mary, Elizabeth, and Georgiana all play, but Georgiana plays the best (Mary at the intro, Elizabeth at Rosings iirc and Georgiana when Elizabeth meets her). I also was very into Orlando Bloom at the time the movie came out and I thought Wickham was hot for that reason.

However, there are some things that I am just like, why??? Why are the styles such a mess? Why aren't those girls wearing bonnets? Why is Darcy a complete ShyBoi? Why is Mr. Collins so short? Why did Bingley just swear during his proposal? Why would Elizabeth be snooping around unaccompanied at Pemberley? (like the whole job of the housekeeper was to keep the guests from getting into mischief!) Why in the world would they put in that almost kiss after Elizabeth verbally drop-kicked Darcy? Why are the Bennets so messy looking and poor seeming? Why is Georgiana like that?

Overall, I think it does a decent job, it got me to read the book at least. It's nowhere near the disaster that is P22. The modern bits of language are clearly designed to help modern audiences understand the story better and they are quotable. It is generally well cast. There are changes and compressions that must be made when a long book is turned into a movie so I can easily forgive the exclusion of Louisa, for example. I honestly think it's a pretty decent adaptation even if it gets Darcy wrong.

[notsofriendlyfriendlyreminder]

Movies you should watch °❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:･

non-spoilery reccomendations, actors bolded, three movies incoming :>

Dead poets society (1989)

dark academia, coming of age, how I wish I was born a boy

Who is surprised that I'm mentioning this movie first? Not people who have seen my account. Especially if you watch House and like Wilson, Neil Perry (Robert Sean Leonard) is the main character and trust, you will fall in love with him and all of his friends. Who doesn't want to see Todd Anderson (Ethan Hawke), the new student, come out of his shell thanks to the new friends he found? And see young minds stir thanks to the new english teacher John Keating (Robin Williams)? There are many scenes which will make you laugh, cry, and scream.

My personal rating: 5/5⭐, all time favourite in my household

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Much ado about nothing (1993)

Shakespeare drama, romance, period piece

The two literary teachers I had in my life didn't agree on much, but one thing was certain, "You can read dramas, but it's always better to watch it." This, in my opinion, is the most important aspect if you want to enjoy any act. This play in particular is one of Shakespeare's comedy, centering around two couples, Benedick (Kenneth Baragh) and Beatrice (Emma Thompson), bickering, arguing, and on the other hand Claudio (Robert Sean Leonard) and Hero (Kate Beckinsale). But the stacked cast doesn't end there! There's also the prince, Don Pedro (Denzel Washington) and Don John (Keanu Reeves). Watch to see if Benedick and Beatrice ever stop arguing, if Claudio and Hero do end together, and how much can the angry Don John cause just to find revenge.

My personal rating: 5/5⭐

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Brokeback Mountain (2005)

neo-western, romance, lgbt+

It wouldn't be possible for me to do a movie reccomendation list without Brokeback mountain. The best way to watch movies is to know nothing about them, and this is true with this movie also. The monologue (you will know which one I mean), is never escaping my soul. The beautiful scenery, the main duo Ennis Del Mar (Heath Ledger) and Jack Twist (Jake Gyllenhaal), the women caught in it Alma (Michelle Williams) and Lureen (Anne Hathaway) and whatever happened on the mountain. While Much ado about nothing can be watched with any of your friends, I'd say this is a movie to watch alone or with someone you know you trust.

My personal rating: 5/5⭐ (Rewatched too many times)

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