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Cherry Red, Crimson Blood
Chapter 40: Where Do We Go From Here?
Summary: Things aren't going as smoothly as anyone would like. Maybe they can fix it. Maybe they can't.
Pairing: Poly 141 x reader
Word Count: 5,970 words
Warnings: Angst, discussion of nightmares, PTSD, discussion of death and killing people, emotions, so many emotions, angst, a little sliver of comfort
A/N: And it is back!! not super proud of this one but I'm starting out on a filler so...yeah. Really just setting up for the next part where some action starts again. You'll see. Anyway, glad to be back at it and I hope you enjoy!
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John stands at the door, gazing out at the yard. Itâs pouring rain, dumping buckets on the roof. The water has pooled on the planks of the deck, splattering with every big drop that pours from the sky. The weather once again mirrors your mood, your sobs audible from your room over the pounding on the roof.Â
John holds his mug in his hands, staring at the reflection in the window. Kyle and Johnny are sitting on the couch, both looking like kicked puppies. Theyâre itching to enter your room and go comfort you, but theyâve been kicked out for now. Youâre not in the state of mind to be around any of them right now, no matter how badly your sobs tear at their heartstrings.Â
You havenât been in that state of mind for a few hours now.Â
Whatever nightmare had plagued your mind last night, it was particularly awful. Youâve been up since the early hours, waking from a nightmare with a terrified scream that had continued until Kyle finally got you to stop and breathe. His ears are still ringing with it, his mind still pulsing with that fear. Something happened. Someone got in. Someone hurt you.Â
Nothing happened. No one got in. Â
The only threat was still just in your mind.Â
Graves.Â
He knows thatâs at least part of your nightmares. Christine had disclosed that to him quietly on the side. Even she doesnât know everything that plagues your dreams, but Graves seems to be a common specter in the darkness of your mind.Â
It makes his blood boil, and not just out of anger for what Graves did to you.Â
It boils with anger at himself too.Â
Itâs his fault youâre in this state in the first place. He should have known, he should have seen, he should have suspected. He should have never left you there. You should have been his priority over anything else.Â
How badly heâs failed you.Â
He lets out a sigh, turning away from the window to move over to the couches. He sinks down with a sigh, resting his elbows on his knees. The little progress youâve made has regressed with this new string of nightmares, the fear pushing you further and further back into your mind. Heâs resolved himself to only get worried when Christine is worried, and right now sheâs beginning to look worried. If you regress back again, the chances of bringing you out of that are slim. Sure, there are plenty of options to help, but you have to want them to help.Â
He knows exactly what will help, you just donât want it.Â
He runs a hand through his hair as your sobs begin to quiet. Itâs longer than heâs let it get for a long time. Theyâre all a bit scraggly and ragged looking, worn down and lazy now that thereâs no strict rules guiding their lives. None of them quite know what to do outside of the regulations theyâve spent the better parts of their lives living under. Heâs been in the military longer now than he hasnât, and heâs been finding himself itching for that structure again. He can never bring himself to relax and put the job aside even on leave. He only takes it when he has to and usually spends it training and keeping his skills sharp.Â
Now...now things have changed.Â
They have no return now. Thereâs no clear, set time that they have to return to base. They canât return to base. It would leave them too open to a possible retaliation from Shepherd. They were betrayed by one of their own already, who's to say someone else wouldnât be just as eager to become a traitor for a chunk of cash? Theyâre not even truly safe here.Â
How are they going to go back to base after this? Can he bring himself to take you back there, a place you never felt comfortable in the first place?Â
Where do they go from here?Â
Heâs been trying not to think too much about it. Thatâs a dilemma for a different day. Thatâs thinking too far ahead. Day by day is as far as he dares to take it now.Â
The door closes quietly, Johnâs head lifting to watch Christine as she approaches the couch. Thereâs a slump to her shoulders, something thatâs been getting lower and lower as the days have progressed. Sheâs struggling with this just as much as they all are.Â
She sinks down on the couch, letting out a long breath. Your sobs have quieted, no sound coming from the room now. The silence is almost eerie after days of constant sounds, good and bad from your room. You were doing better. You were looking more alive and well.Â
Then this happened.Â
âSheâs asleep.â Christine says, her voice strained. âFinally calmed down enough to nap.â She covers her eyes with a hand, sitting there still for a moment.Â
âThe nightmares?â John asks, glancing at Christine out of the corner of his eye.Â
âWorse.â She says, her gaze far away. âShe's remembering what happened.âÂ
John stares at Kyle and Johnny for a moment, the betas returning his worried gaze.
âThose shadows she killed...â Johnny says.
Christine nods. âShe's, uh, not taking it well.âÂ
John runs a hand over his face. He knew it was possible you'd start to remember what happened during the time your omega took control. It wouldn't remain a dark spot forever, though he hoped it would. The things you were forced to do are coming to light now, the things you did to survive because they failed you. Taking the life of someone who deserves it is nothing to them. Taking the life of someone who would take yours just as quickly isn't so much as a second thought.Â
You're not like them.Â
You've never had to face that reality before, and you shouldn't have had to.Â
âOne of us should talk to her.â Kyle says.
âI don't think that's the best idea right now.â Christine shakes her head. âShe's...regressed a bit. Pushing that on her, while well intentioned, might do more harm than good...â she trails off, her gaze still far away.Â
The three of them sit there, waiting for what sheâs going to say next. Heâs not even sure Johnny or Kyle are breathing as they wait patiently for whatever solution Christine might be able to come up with, whatever move she thinks is the best one to take next.Â
âI want to take her out.â Christine says.Â
âWhat?â John asks in surprise.Â
âShe needs to get out of the house. Itâs not doing any of us any good sitting in here all day.â She rubs her eyes. âShe expressed interest in going for a walk a couple days ago. She needs to get up and moving, start regaining some of her strength.âÂ
John lets out a breath leaning back against the couch. Heâs tempted to say no. His knee jerk reaction is to refuse. The world outside isnât safe. If anyone is watching, if anyone sees them...
Thereâs always going to be that risk though, and Christine is right. Sitting in the house all day isnât doing any of them any good. Theyâre at the mercy of the rain, but even then, he doubts it will keep any of them trapped inside for long.Â
âWhen the rain clears up.â He finally says. âWe'll discuss it more. But, I think that might be a good idea.âÂ
âWhat can we do?â Kyle asks, staring at Christine.Â
She lets out a sigh, covering her eyes with her hand. âI donât know. Iâve helped hundreds of omegas in crisis and yet I donât know why this case is so hard.âÂ
âThis has become more personal than those cases.â John says.Â
Christineâs shoulders slump even more. âI know. I try so hard but sheâs just so...different from other omegas.âÂ
âThis entire situation is different from what youâve done before.â Kyle says.Â
âYouâre right.â Christine sighs. âThe best we can do is let her lead. Do what she needs, give her what she wants. The worst thing that can happen right now is regression. If she regresses too far, we might never get her back.âÂ
âWhat is it? Tell me what ye need.âÂ
âCan you make me forget?âÂ
âI wish I could.âÂ
âHit me hard enough on the head I might forget everything. Then we can all just start over.âÂ
âThatâs not funny.âÂ
âIt wasnât supposed to be.âÂ
âKitten,â Johnny sighs, leaning his elbows on his knees. âI wish I could make those thoughts go away. I wish I could make them mine.âÂ
âI killed people.âÂ
âI know.â He reaches out, touching your hand. âI wish ye didnae have to. Ye were just defending yerself. Those Shadows would have done worse to ye if ye hadnât.âÂ
You curl up in your chair, turning away from him. âThatâs not helpful.âÂ
âSorry.â He says, letting out another sigh. âWe just want to help ye.âÂ
Youâre silent for a moment, sitting there listening to the waves. Itâs cold this morning, not even the thick blanket draped over you offering much respite. Itâs the first morning it hasnât poured rain in days and you were determined to take full advantage of it despite the objections of your pack.Â
âI know.â You finally say, staring out at the grey clouds looming on the horizon. The rain will return, just like the dark thoughts constantly swirling in your mind. They make you sick, nausea constantly churning in your stomach and threatening to rise.Â
Johnny wraps his hand around yours, his palm warm against your cold skin. âShould head inside. Gonnae catch a cold.âÂ
âYou know thatâs a myth right?â You say, tilting your head to stare at him.Â
âNo itâs not.â He says, pulling your hand between his. âItâs not good for ye being out in the cold.âÂ
âIâll live.â You say, trying to pull your hand from his, but he holds you firm. Heâs stubborn, but so are you.Â
âKitten...â He says, almost whining at you. âGo inside please.âÂ
You let out a sigh, staring out at the horizon again. The clouds promise more rain soon, another downpour on its way. You hate it, how much itâs been raining. You just want to be outside, down at the beach, going on walks. Your pack wonât let you though, not while itâs raining, even though they often leave no matter the weather.Â
Itâs not fair.Â
Youâre not a fragile flower and youâre tired of being treated that way. Even though your brain feels like itâs in a blender constantly. Even though the pain of what happened still drives into you like a knife, you just want to be treated like a normal human being again.Â
âFine.â You sigh, pushing yourself up to stand. âIâll go inside.âÂ
Johnny grabs your arm before you can head back in the door. âYe know we just want the best for you.âÂ
You stare at him for a long moment, emotions swirling in your mind. They are trying. Youâll give them that credit. Theyâre trying, but not hard enough. âWhat you think is best and whatâs actually best isnât always the same.âÂ
He looks like a kicked puppy as he lets you go. You turn away before you can feel guilty, heading back inside the cottage.Â
You pull the blanket tighter around you as you stare at the flickering flames in the hearth. The heat is intense so close, but itâs warming the chill under your skin. Itâs getting colder at night, foretelling the upcoming winter. All the blankets in the world couldnât fight off the chill thatâs settled in you at night. You know what might help, but youâre not brave enough to approach that solution.Â
The footsteps on the stairs donât startle you in the otherwise silent house, the creak of them audible over the crackle of the logs in the fire.Â
âIâd add another one.â A voice says from behind you.Â
âIâm going to.â You say, reaching for the stack next to the fireplace.Â
âCareful. Put it on the side.âÂ
âI know how to make a fire, thank you.â You snap, shoving the log in before moving it into place with the poker. âIâm not useless.âÂ
âDidnât mean to imply you were.â Itâs silent for a moment as you settle back into place. âWhat are you doing out here?âÂ
âIâm cold.â You answer simply, not feeling up to giving an entire expose on your current state of mind to the person you want to speak to the least right now.Â
âWe can turn the heat up more.â John says. âWhatever you want to be more comfortable.âÂ
I want you to leave. You bite your lip, suddenly not brave enough to say it out loud.Â
They are trying.Â
âWhy are you down here?â You ask instead.Â
âCouldnât sleep so I came to get a snack.â He says. âYou want anything?âÂ
âNo.â You say quickly, wrapping the blanket tighter around you. âIâm alright.âÂ
âYou sure?â He presses, standing off to your right.Â
You hesitate for a moment, curling your toes under the blanket as one of the logs snaps. Itâs not food you need from him. Your appetite has decreased again with this new wave of horrible things plaguing your mind. âI want to know why,â You say, swallowing the lump in your throat. âwhy you left me there.âÂ
John shifts behind you, silent for a long moment.Â
âI got too caught up in the big picture.â He finally says. âI thought that taking out Shepherd would end everything before it went too far. Itâs the only way weâll ever be safe, and I didnât consider the lengths heâd go to, the lengths heâd let Graves go to, just to cover his own ass long enough for him to escape. I was wrong in making that decision. Youâre not like us. Youâve never been left behind, tortured, had to fight your way out of an impossible situation. You shouldnât have ever been put in that position. We all failed you. Every last one of us.âÂ
Tears burn your eyes as you stare into the fire. âYou left me.âÂ
âI know.â He says, his voice thick with emotion. âItâs the worst mistake Iâve ever made.âÂ
âI canât do this.â You whisper, your knuckles white where theyâre gripping the edges of the blanket. The words are coming out and you canât stop them. Maybe itâs because deep down you remember the better times, when he was a comfort. Someone you could trust to catch you when you fall. âI keep seeing them, seeing what I did, what happened. I killed people.âÂ
âPeople that would have killed you without a second thought.â He says. âYou were defending yourself in a situation where that was unavoidable. Itâs not your fault. None of it is.âÂ
âCan we ever move past this?â You ask, your voice quiet and broken. Â
âI like to think we can.â John says. âIt wonât be easy, but if thatâs what you want, we sure as hell will work to make it happen. Things wonât go back to the way they were, and they shouldnât. You deserve better than what we gave you.âÂ
You donât respond because you canât. His words float around in your mind, replaying over and over. You want to believe him. You desperately want to believe him, but a deep part of you canât. Heâs made promises before and then broke them. How can you trust this time will be different?Â
The creak of the stairs wakes you. Itâs jarring, pulling you out of a sleep you didnât know you were in. Youâre on the couch in the living room, bundled under a blanket with a decorative pillow under your head. You donât remember moving to the couch. The fire is nothing more than embers now, but it feels warmer in the house. Itâs dawn, the grey light streaming in through the window, chasing away the shadows of night.Â
âWhat are you doing out here?â A gruff voice asks you.Â
You groan, rubbing your eyes. âFell asleep.âÂ
âOn the couch?âÂ
âThink I was on the floor first.â You yawn, pressing your face back into the pillow. âDonât remember getting to the couch.âÂ
âWhy?âÂ
âGot cold.â Your voice is slightly muffled as you pull the blanket up higher.Â
Simon lets out a sigh before moving around the couch to the fireplace. He adds a couple logs in before lighting it again, the fire crackling back to life. Youâre half asleep already as another blanket is draped over you, tucked up around your neck. Thereâs a feeling of a hand brushing over your head, but that may have just been your imagination as you drift off back to sleep.Â
You donât get to sleep long, more footsteps coming down the stairs waking you. A hand does brush over your head this time, the scent of the beach filling your nose. You let out a groan, trying to snuggle deeper into the blankets.Â
âSleeping out here this morning?â Kyleâs soft voice reaches your ears.Â
You grunt, chasing the quickly fading edges of sleep in your brain.Â
âBreakfast is ready, if you want to get up.âÂ
You are hungry. Thereâs a quiet rumble of your stomach as you begin to register the smells coming from the kitchen: bacon and eggs and coffee. Johnny is making the coffee most likely. Maybe youâll have some this morning. You might need it with how groggy you feel.Â
You stretch out on the couch, trying to breathe some life into your limbs. Itâs not the most comfortable couch, definitely not for sleeping, but itâs better than the floor. It was likely John that moved you. He was the only one that knew you were out here last night.Â
You're not sure how that makes you feel.Â
It's nice on one hand, that he saved you from the pains of sleeping on the floor. But at the same time it feels like an intrusion. There was a time you wouldn't have thought twice about it. There was a time it would have been normal and expected and you would have thanked him for it.Â
Now...now you're not sure.Â
You push yourself up to sit, joints cracking from being stuck in one position for so long. You blink slowly as you sit there for a moment. Itâs warm in the house, almost too warm now with your body warmed from sleep. Dr. Keller is sitting at the table, a steaming mug in front of her. Tea, most likely. Maybe coffee. Youâre not quite sure. She gives you a soft smile as you rub a hand across your face.Â
You feel groggy as you push yourself up to stand, letting your stomach and feet guide you towards the smells coming from the kitchen. Kyle guides you to the table with a promise of making you a plate and you take your usual seat at the end of the table facing the kitchen. Dr. Keller is to your left this time, coffee in her mug judging by the smell.Â
âHow did you sleep?â She asks, her hands wrapped around the mug.Â
âFine. Got cold.â You say, resting your head in your hand.
âJohn turned the heat up a bit. We can get you more blankets if you need them.â Dr. Keller says.Â
You hum, letting your eyes close for a moment. You wonât complain about more blankets, more soft things to lay with. There is one thing you wish you had, though. Youâre not quite sure how to ask for it, or that it would even be possible to get.Â
You jump when a hand touches your back, not realizing you had even dozed off sitting there.Â
âSorry.â Kyle says, setting a plate on the table in front of you. âFoodâs hot. You want coffee or tea.âÂ
âCoffee.â You say instantly, earning a wide grin from Johnny as he takes his own seat at the table.Â
âEven split this morning.â He says cheekily, setting his own mug down. âThree against three.âÂ
âTea is still the superior choice.â Kyle says from the kitchen. âBetter for you anyway.âÂ
âCoffee has a lot of health benefits as well.â Dr. Keller says. âSo long as you donât add too much sugar into it.âÂ
âSee.â Johnny says, giving them a victorious grin.Â
âShe said so long as you donât put too much sugar in it.â Kyle says, carrying over your mug of coffee. âYouâll get diabetes from how much you add in.âÂ
âTwo spoonfuls isnae too much.â He turns to look at Dr. Keller. âIs it?âÂ
Dr. Keller gives him a worried look. âYou might be pushing it there.âÂ
Johnnyâs grin turns into a pout. âWhat do ye mean?âÂ
A ghost of a smile tugs at your lips as you quickly shovel a forkful of eggs into your mouth. As much as the deep pain of betrayal still aches in your chest, as much as you still want to hate them, you have to admit you missed this. Itâs the least tense youâve seen all of them in the last few weeks. Even Dr. Kellerâs shoulders donât seem quite so squared as they have been.Â
A part of you feels guilty about it. It is your fault deep down. Youâre the one keeping them all on edge, driving that wedge between them over and over again. Deep down youâre the one causing the heavy weight thatâs settled over the house. You wish you could just go back to normal, you wish you could just wave a wand and make yourself okay again. You wish you could ease their pain just a little bit.Â
The eggs suddenly donât taste quite so good anymore.Â
You force them down regardless in favor of causing another scene, in favor of dragging the mood down. They deserve a little lighthearted moment after everything. They donât need to know the inner turmoil plaguing your mind.Â
Simon shifts next to you, his eyes darting to glance at your face. You can feel them, the intensity of his gaze just as sharp as it had been back in the beginning, back before he looked at you with fondness. Heâs stiff as he sits there, almost as if he can sense the storm raging inside of you as you force yourself to pretend that youâre fine in favor of keeping the bright mood thatâs settled over the table.Â
Maybe he can sense it. He is an alpha after all. Itâs his job to know, to understand. You glance across the table at John, his eyes on his phone as he sips his tea.Â
Your gaze drops down to your plate as you pick up a piece of bacon, your heart shattering just a little bit more.Â
ââS too early.â You whine as hands pull the blanket off of you. Cold air nips at your skin, making you curl up in a ball.Â
âItâs noon. Come on.â A hand closes around your arm, gently shaking you. âYou want to get up.âÂ
You let out a whine, pinching your face up. âNo.âÂ
âTrust me. Itâll be worth it.â Kyle says, brushing the hair back from your face.Â
âWhy.â You say, letting out a huff.Â
âWeâre going on a little trip.â Kyle pulls you up, forcing you into a seated position. âDress warm.âÂ
Youâre alone in the room again, the door left open. Light streams in, making you squint against the harsh intrusion. A quick glance at the clock reveals it is, in fact, a little past noon. You took a nap to make up for a night of tumultuous sleep, one of the few things you have to do here in this prison. Nap and read. Itâs a lot like your life before the cottage, before everything that happened, except now youâre stuck with your pack around you at all times.Â
You almost miss the times they were away.Â
You maneuver yourself so your legs dangle over the edge of the bed as you try to blink the drowsiness away. The nap hadnât been nearly long enough, but judging by Kyleâs eagerness, they let you sleep a bit longer than they wanted.Â
You let out a sigh before pushing yourself off the bed, moving to the dresser. You pull out warm clothes, quickly changing. You have no idea what they have planned, whatâs going on. There was no frantic rush, Kyleâs energy more excited than anything. It makes you a bit worried as you step out of the room into the living area.Â
Theyâre all waiting by the door, watching you as you approach them, rubbing your eyes.Â
âCome on,â John says, setting a pair of shoes on the floor. âBoots on.âÂ
âWhat are we doing?â You ask, moving forward automatically.Â
âWeâre taking a little trip.â Kyle answers.Â
You look at him cautiously as you step into the boots, pulling them on. You havenât been away from the cottage since you arrived two weeks ago. Youâve barely been let outside, weather permitting. Itâs an overcast day today, the world grey outside, but grey is better than rain.Â
âReady?â John asks as you stare at him.Â
âI guess.â You say, still a bit hesitant.Â
They make no effort to ease your discomfort and nerves.Â
Youâre led out the door and towards the cars by Dr. Keller. Her face is brighter than it has been lately which doesnât help your nervous energy. Sheâs excited too, just like the rest of them. Youâre not sure why youâre so nervous. Maybe itâs the anxiety of leaving after being trapped inside for so long. You just want to know where youâre going, what it is youâre going to be doing.Â
Dr. Keller ushers you into the back seat of one of the cars, getting in the other side. Kyle and John climb into the front while Johnny and Simon get into the other car.Â
You watch the green pass by as they drive, taking in the new landscape. You donât remember arriving at the cottage. You donât remember most of the trip at all. Itâs all a blur in your memory, much like the events that transpired after your omega took over had been. You wish you could remember the trip over those events. Youâd take green rolling hills over your own hands taking lives.Â
It had been jarring waking in the cottage for the first time. A new place, a lack of memories getting there. Youâre beginning to get tired of the pattern. You half expect to fall asleep and wake up somewhere new again most nights. You wouldnât know any better. A slip of a pill into some food and youâd wake up somewhere halfway across the world.Â
You like to think theyâd at least warn you beforehand.Â
John pulls the car into a parking lot, parking near a line of trees. Johnny pulls into the parking lot behind John, parking near the entrance. Itâs on purpose, you know that much. Everything is about safety and making things look as inconspicuous as possible. Anyone could be a rat. Anyone could be watching.Â
Itâs windier here as you step out of the car, even though you haven't gone far from the cottage. Walking distance, if you were up for a hike. Youâre not.Â
âCome on, kitten.â Johnny says, guiding you through the parking lot and towards a path.Â
You still donât know whatâs happening as you follow them, Johnny holding your hand as you step onto the rocky path. He leads the way, the others following. John is behind you, hovering in case you slip in the gravel. You do your best not to, despite how quickly Johnny is leading you. Heâs more eager than Kyle had been, and youâre sure heâd be running if you could keep up.Â
You begin to figure out whatâs happening as the sound of waves crashing on the shore gets louder and louder. Your chest starts to constrict with emotion as the trees start to get sparser and sparser, a cliff edge visible over Johnnyâs shoulder. You want to run now, you want to break ahead and race your way to the edge of the cliff. Johnny, even in his excited state, would catch you before you could take off and potentially hurt yourself.Â
You might hurt yourself just trying to run.Â
You hate it.Â
The land opens before you as you reach the edge of the cliff. The expanse of the sea seems daunting so close, grey and choppy from the wind. Salty air blasts you in the face, rustling your jacket as you stand there above a small beach. Itâs empty, but thatâs expected for the middle of fall. All the tourists have gone home, those with vacation homes back in better weather for the winter.Â
Youâre glad youâre alone. You wouldnât want anyone else ruining this moment.Â
Kyleâs fingers wrap around yours as you stand there, staring down at the beach below. âCome on.âÂ
The gravel turns to dirt as it winds down the side of the cliff, getting steeper as you near the beach. You do nearly slip as you follow Johnny down to the sand, your boots quickly getting muddy. Youâre glad for them, understanding why John chose boots over more comfortable shoes.Â
You pause as your feet sink into sand. You stare out at the water, at the white crests of waves crashing onto the shore. Itâs real. Itâs not just some mirage, some painting in the background of your life. Itâs really here. Youâre really here.Â
No one says anything as you take a few steps forward before squatting down. You scoop up a handful of sand, letting it slip through your fingers. Itâs coarse against your cold skin, thicker and rockier than the sand youâre used to, but itâs still sand. Itâs still a beach.Â
Youâre at the beach.Â
You scoop up another handful of sand, letting it run through your fingers again. You want to put some of it in a jar and set it on the nightstand at the cottage. You want to stare at it and remind yourself youâre really at the coast, youâre really just a short drive away from the sea. You want the sand to sink into your skin and flow through your veins and fill every crack thatâs formed in your mind. Â
Youâre really here.Â
You stand up straight, staring out at the water again. Your pack is still behind you, silently watching you. You shuffle forward a couple steps, waiting for one of them to stop you, to grab you and keep you from getting closer, but none of them move. You widen your steps, treading through the soft sand until you reach the edge of the wetter sand where the water was earlier. Itâs easier to walk on as you continue to approach the water, the sound of your pack treading through the soft sand disappearing behind you as you get closer and closer to the water. The waves flow up the beach, your feet getting closer and closer to where that water stops.Â
You half expect them to stop you as you step forward, letting the waves hit your feet. The salty water washes away the mud and sand clinging to your rubber boots, rushing up over the tops of your feet. You stare down at the water, watching it surge upward and around your ankles. Youâd keep walking if you were brave enough, let it get higher and higher until it soaked your clothes, but you know theyâd stop you. Itâs far too cold to risk getting wet. You can feel the chill of the water through your boots as it flows over your feet.Â
Youâre not sure how long you stand there, watching the water rush back and forth, feeling the pressure of it against your boots as you stand in the waves. Youâre really here. Youâre really standing in the sea.Â
You finally turn after what seems like an eternity, making your way back up to the softer sand. All of them are standing in a line, watching you. You wonder whatâs going through their heads, what they feel standing here. Relief? Happiness? Guilt? Shame? The wind whips at your back, coming right off the water, blowing their scents away from you. What you wouldnât give to be able to smell them right now.Â
Tears burn your eyes as you make your way up towards John, trudging through the sand. His cheeks and nose are pink from the cold wind, his beard longer than youâve ever seen it. You donât remember the last time youâve really looked at him up close. His gaze is uncertain as he stares down at you, trying to gauge your next move. He canât. You know he canât and it makes you feel powerful.Â
It shouldnât, but it does.Â
âThank you.â You say finally, a tear sliding down your cheek. âThank you.âÂ
You can hear them. They donât know it, but you can. They think theyâre speaking quietly, but in the silence of the morning, you can hear almost every word. Dr. Kellerâs protests, John's quiet insistence.Â
Leaving.Â
Thatâs the word that caught your attention. Leaving. Someone is leaving. Someone is separating themselves from the pack again, and not just for a trip to town to go to the store. This meaning is different, it hangs differently in the air.Â
âI donât think this is a good idea right now.â Dr. Keller says, her voice just barely audible through the open sliding glass door. Itâs open just a crack, just enough to hear whatâs transpiring inside.Â
âWe wonât have another chance.â John says, his voice insistent. âWe have to do this. She deserves it.âÂ
She. You. Whatever it is, it involves you. It always does. You canât remember a time over the last few weeks when it hasnât been about you. Itâs always about you and you hate it. You almost wish things would go back to the way they were before, when you were a second thought, the one left behind.
Youâre going to be left behind again.Â
âJohn-âÂ
âI know.â Johnâs voice is louder again. âWe have to do whatâs best for our pack, and right now this is it.âÂ
The sliding door opens, the conversation over. Your stomach is churning, nausea eating its way up your esophagus as John crosses the deck towards where youâre seated. His steps are slow and quiet, almost like heâs approaching a wild animal. He might be, depending on how this conversation is going to go.Â
How are you going to react? You expected it eventually. Theyâll always leave, theyâll always put you last and think about themselves first. Are you upset? Are you angry? Is it a relief?Â
You wish you could feel something right now. Instead you feel numb. Another promise broken, another lie told.Â
âYouâre leaving again.â You say, staring out at the horizon as John takes a seat next to you. You need to get it out first, say what you know before he can say it and break your heart again.Â
He lets out a quiet sigh, leaning back in the chair. âWe are, but youâre coming with us.âÂ
You turn to glance at him, taken aback by his words. Youâre leaving too? You hadnât considered this. The cottage is your prison. You are Rapunzel trapped by the Mother Gothel that is your pack, stuck in the tower for the rest of time.Â
Leaving?Â
âThereâs something we need to take care of back in the states.â John explains. âYouâre coming with us.âÂ
Back in the states? What could possibly be there that is left for you, for your pack?Â
You donât like the sound of that. You donât like the sound of that one bit.Â
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 Oh it has been a minute! Hello everyonee, I'm back with the pac that was promised! Sorry for the delay, oh it's just, I've been hearing some thunder (literally). Now, let's get straight into it. This pac is focused on first timers and who will be their first romantic partners. Take a deep breath, ask yourself the question and pick the pile that calls to you the most!
DISCLAIMER: this is a general reading it will be as close as possible to your situation but it will not be accurate. take only what resonates. if you want a more accurate reading you can ask for it when I open my shop!Â
PILE ONE
Personality wise? Intuitive, loving, good-natured person with whom you'll click with instantly, even though they'll have a hard time expressing their deepest feelings for you. They're going to be somewhat unstable in how they express them - one day super passionate, next day distant. They tend to just avoid addressing emotional issues directly. This is because theyâll carry emotional baggage from previous relationships that will make them struggle to open up to you.
What youâll like about them is their ability to stay calm, even when things get challenging. For example, if youâre overwhelmed or dealing with stress, theyâll be the type to quietly sit with you, not needing to say much but making you feel supported just by being there. Theyâre ambitious and hardworking, and though they may struggle to express deep emotions sometimes, they'll be really comforting and stable to you. Theyâre the type who, after facing a setback, will dust themselves off and keep pushing forward without complaining, which you can find inspiring. Their calm nature will help you feel at ease, (somewhat like some INFJs where their mere presence can calm people down) and while they may not be super expressive or the most touchy-feely, their presence will have a comforting, almost healing effect on you, especially when you need it the most.
In the relationship, their emotional baggage and hesitancy with expressing those deep feelings might make them seem a bit reserved or even detached at first. For example, theyâll take time observing and analyzing, almost like theyâre âstudyingâ how things are going instead of going âall inâ with romantic gestures. They could be juggling a lot, maybe between work and personal stuff, and sometimes theyâll struggle to keep everything steady. Theyâre straightforward but can focus on their own needs first if they feel overwhelmed⌠Theyâll be resilient and loyal once committed but will need reassurance that the relationship is worth their energy. They wonât rush or make bold actions. Because of past experiences, theyâll hold back on fully opening up right away, needing to feel truly secure before they can trust deeply. If you push them too fast, they may pull back, but when they finally commit. Once theyâre âall in,â youâll see a different side of themâyou know the saying: âOnce bitten, twice shyâ.
Will you marry them? Itâs unlikely this person will be your future spouse. This relationship will be meaningful and bring personal growth for both of you, but eventually, youâll find that your paths donât fully align. Theyâll be an important part of your journey tho, teaching you a lot about yourself and what you want, but it looks like youâll each move on to pursue different futures.
PILE TWO
TRIGGER WARNING: Mentions of abusive behavior. Ooh, to be honest I donât like the magician reversed. This is going to be the longest reading out of all the piles. Your first romantic partner will be pretty charming, their energy will be contagious and theyâll be really smart. But I believe this person to be really immature when you meet them. For some of you they wonât be a good person. I know you entered here to have your hopes up but sometimes things like this can happen. I sense both of you are avoiding growth and when that happens, the universe brings you closer to certain types of people as a wake up call. Maybe a few of you are still quite young and are more susceptible. With that said letâs get into it:
Personality-wise? Again, charming, smart and energetic/fun. Although I believe sly is the real term here, not so much smart lmao. But they're the type who might have big dreams but when it comes to taking real, consistent action, they lose interest or get distracted. They often rush to conclusions without getting all the facts. They tend to avoid taking real accountability when things go wrong. They can be sneaky about getting their way. For example, if they make a mistake at work or in school, they might cover it up or pass the blame to avoid the fallout. If thereâs something they want, they might subtly manipulate situations to make it happen. For instance, instead of directly asking you to skip plans, they might plant seeds of doubt, hoping youâll change your mind on your own. They might brush off conflicts, hoping theyâll just go away instead of addressing them directly. Again, really charming and sly. They have amazing intuition and quick decision-making skills, but doesn't always use this gift wisely: like catching on quickly when someone isnât being truthful. But instead of using this insight positively, they might turn it into a way to win conversations or prove themselves right, rather than genuinely helping or connecting.
What will you like about them? Well, to explain this it correlates to your lack of growth. You tend to let your guard down too easily, often sacrificing your own happiness and emotional well-being for the sake of keeping the peace. You're still avoiding some necessary growth and maturity in your life. Even when you feel drained emotionally, you might push those feelings aside rather than setting boundaries or confronting them. So because of this, despite seeing the flaws in their personality, youâre still likely to feel a strong pull toward them. They may frequently talk about personal struggles, past issues, or dramatic events in their life. This could be anything from ongoing issues with friends or family to frustrations at work. You find yourself wanting to understand these layers, even if they never quite resolve them. After peeling those layers, you might find they have an inner resilience in them that will impress you, even if it sometimes comes across as stubborn. Their imaginative way of seeing the world, their charm, their intelligence and their dreams will make you feel like life with them could be exciting and filled with possibilities. Their practicality will fly right above your head (sorry for the drag đ).
In the relationship? In the beginning, this person may be all about the grand gesturesâlike planning elaborate date nights, surprising you with meaningful gifts, or saying all the right things that make you feel special. That's why you always gotta be suspicious of the grand gestures, specially if they are too soon in the meeting stages (be careful with love bombing). But as time goes on, they struggle with consistency. Maybe theyâre super romantic one week, but the next, theyâre distant and non-communicative, leaving you wondering where you stand. Theyâll make you feel amazing on a fun night out, but if you need someone to talk to about stress or personal challenges, they might shut down or avoid the topic altogether. Remember the part I mentioned of them avoiding conflicts? Well here it is.
When it comes to routines like regularly checking in about your day or planning a future together, they might become disengaged. They might say things like âLetâs just see where things goâ, you know, brushing it off, which is a no-no if youâre looking for stability. If you try to bring up your feelings about the relationship or where things are heading, they might change the subject, become defensive, or pull away rather than engaging with your concerns.
This person is likely to be quite manipulative and somewhat fake in their approach to life. They put up strong barriers and tend to be overly protective of their resources - whether that's time, money, or emotions. To put it simply: they may make you feel like youâre asking for too much even when you want basic attention or support. While they might act tough and logical, they actually struggle with emotional immaturity. Like when their own emotions flare up, theyâre likely to overreact or act impulsively, revealing that they actually donât have good control over their emotions. They tend to be manipulative, using tactics like guilt-tripping, withholding affection, or even silent treatment to get what they want or to keep you feeling off-balance. This person keeps parts of their life hidden or vague, making it hard for you to feel close to them. They might dodge questions about their feelings, where theyâve been, or their plans for the future, giving you a sense that theyâre always holding back or hiding something.
Regarding marriage potential - absolutely not. You'll likely feel confused about where you stand with them, and while things might feel dreamy and wish-fulfilling at first, there's a lack of real foundation for something long-term. It might seem picture perfect at first, but when you get closer to it, it looks unstable.
PILE THREE
Personality-wise? Charming and smart. They stand out, unlike pile 2 while they are also charming and intelligent, this traits are not overtly malicious or as badly channeled. Now, for the raw traits: When it comes to commitment, they might seem enthusiastic at first, the will express genuine interest and will make you feel like youâre their main priority. But then, when things get more serious, they could pull back or start questioning the relationship. They will be the type to avoid talking about future plans or shy away from labels, leaving you feeling unsure of where you stand. Also, they tend to overthink. Even small decisions might become a source of stress, as theyâre often their own biggest critic. They will be someone grounded and quite stubborn, but they could be highly practical and reliable.
You'll be drawn to their unique mix of maturity and playfulness. You'll admire how they can switch from being super focused on their goals (they are quite ambitious tho) to being spontaneously fun (theyâre the type to surprise you with random outings or last-minute plans). They keep things interesting to even the simplest of dates. And if they mess up a dinner they cooked or accidentally get lost while driving, they are the type to laugh it off and turn it into a fun moment rather than stressing about it. Their different perspective on life will intrigue you - they might introduce you to new experiences, hobbies, or ways of thinking that you hadn't considered before. Probably related to their ambitions. While they might not be the most organized or conventionally successful person, you'll find their determination and drive quite attractive. This person will make life feel more exciting and vibrant for you.
In the relationship, they'll show a mix of behaviors. While they can be quite romantic and charming (surprise date nights and buying you your favorite album, cooking your favorite dish or buying you a bouquet of flowers), they also have a tendency to be passive-aggressive when dealing with conflicts. Don't get me wrong, they'll genuinely enjoy making you feel special. But when disagreements arise, they might avoid direct confrontation. Leaving you guessing at whatâs really bothering them. They will keep certain feelings or vulnerabilities tucked away, and their career or personal ambitions often take center stage, sometimes at the expense of your relationship. This can lead to moments where you feel like youâre not getting their full attention, or even that theyâre not completely transparent about their priorities.
You'll likely meet this person through mutual friends or they can be a childhood friend. A classmate or even a coworker for some of you. However, they can be quite rebellious and threw that with that stubbornness of theirs, they will prefer doing things on their own terms most of the time. Overall, someone set on their ways.
Oh, and whether they're your future spouse - while there's potential for a significant relationship that teaches you a lot about love and yourself, this person is likely not your future spouse. This seems more like a stepping stone that prepares you for your future spouse.ââââââââââââââââ
PILE FOUR
Personality-wise? Will be someone who appears strong and protective on the surface, but deep down they will have a sensitive side. Theyâre resilient and can be emotionally supportive. They are thoughtful, so when life gets tough, theyâll often retreat, not wanting to share their pain or burden anyone else. Ig theyâre having a rough week, they might go quiet and pull back from social interactions, choosing to process things alone instead of reaching out.
What youâll appreciate most about them is their vulnerability and honesty. Theyâre not perfect and have been through their own heartbreaks, but theyâre working to make peace with their past and be open with you. Theyâll show you that even with scars, love can grow. Despite sometimes doubting themselves, theyâre committed to building something real and meaningful with you, and their willingness to be raw and imperfect is something that will resonate with you deeply.
In the relationship, they'll be quite attentive and nostalgic, often reminiscing about your shared memories - like saving ticket stubs from your first date or recreating special moments. They love celebrating small, meaningful memories and might even keep a box of shared mementos. Think of the type of partner that remembers the anniversaries with a cute meaningful gift (how cute). Will make you feel valued and celebrated. However, they might struggle with expressing vulnerability, sometimes acting controlling due to their own insecurities. They might ask for frequent updates on where you are or get uneasy when youâre spending time with others. Despite this, they'll be emotionally intelligent and caring, even if they may occasionally get lost in their own fears and even anxieties. Theyâre generally good at reading your feelings and are caring, but they sometimes get lost in their own worries. Like, they might overthink something you said or get stuck in anxious thoughts about the relationship, which can occasionally affect their mood. But I do believe you can easily bring them out of it with communication.
Your first romantic partner will be an adventurous and passionate person. While they sometimes feel stuck in their own mental barriers (like overthinking everything before making a move), they're actually quite successful and satisfied with their life when you meet them. Professionally or in their personal achievements, theyâre doing wellâmaybe theyâve landed a good job, run a successful business, or already reached their dreams. But despite this confidence in other areas, theyâll often hesitate when it comes to romance. They might double-check a message before hitting send or worry too much about saying the ârightâ thing to you. They probably had some traumatic experiences tho, I sense a difficult upbringing or maybe they were victims of cheating. This makes them careful, sometimes overly so.
Will you marry them? It's not set in stone. So this will likely be a very important and impactful connection to you. A very few of you will get marry to them. The other majority of you will not. You'll both feel a strong pull toward each other, and with patience and dedication, this could lead to something lasting. While there's potential, there are those trust issues to work through first, so it is not going to be a smooth sailing. For a majority of you this can actually be the problem that will pull you apart: the trust issues and unresolved past heartbreaks.
PILE FIVE
Personality-wise? They're emotionally mature and logical, someone who's broken free from toxic patterns in their past (yay! finally!). In emotional situations, theyâre likely to stay calm and look for practical solutions. Say you have a disagreementâthey wonât get caught up in the heat of the moment but will try to address it diplomatically and with logic. Your first romantic partner seems to be someone who approaches relationships with a level-headed mindset, someone known to keep their emotions under control (not hiding them though nor in a controlling way). They value independence and will not be hesitant to leave what doesn't work for them (love this). Previous experiences have taught them to put their own well-being first. If something feels strange, they don't hesitate to speak out or take a break to evaluate things for a moment. This could be a person who has dealt with some unhealthy partners in their past, and theyâre now committed to keep their peace intact and avoid a relationship that could become possessive (controlling) or too emotionally draining. Theyâll avoid possessiveness and try not to cling, wanting a partnership thatâs healthy and balanced. Someone that knows when to step back if things arenât working and isnât easily swayed by sentimentality (while still remaining caring and responsible).
In your relationship, they might struggle with long-term planning at first, but they're genuinely invested in building something stable with you. For example, if you mention planning a big trip together in the distant future, they might say, âLetâs see where weâre at when the time comes.â This isnât necessarily a lack of interest but reflects their cautious approach to long-term planning until they feel completely sure. They'll be direct in their communication - sometimes almost too direct! (lmao) - and while they take their time processing things (like that awkward pause when you ask about meeting their family), once they make up their mind, they move forward with conviction. Like imagine you ask them: Hey what are we? and they reply with something straightforward like, âI really like you, but Iâm figuring out how we fit into each otherâs lives.â They wonât sugarcoat or hold back to please you, they will prefer to be honest and clear about their intentions (I mean, sounds great tho). Because once they are in, they will BE fully in.
You'll like that they are passionate, driven and willing. But when it comes to personal matters, especially about themselves, they might downplay their own accomplishments lmao (yk, humble). And at the same time someone that completely changes your perspective on love. They build trust slowly. You may find that they take small steps over time to reveal personal details, like sharing a meaningful childhood memory after several months together. Theyâre careful about building trust, so their reserved side isnât disinterestâitâs simply their way of ensuring stability and safety in relationships. So if you ask them whatâs wrong they'll be pretty honest with you and wonât play any games unlike previous piles. They're also determined to overcome their challenges and aren't afraid to go after what they want. Theyâre not the type to give up on a goal or dream, whether thatâs in work, personal growth, or the relationship itself. Youâll likely notice that theyâre committed to improving themselves and wonât let insecurities hold them back for long.
Will you marry them? As for whether theyâre your future spouse, the potential is definitely there. Higher than the other piles.
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This story has me absolutely WEAK. đŠđ
The way it starts off with such a casual, comfortably possessive vibe from Alastor and Lucifer is so freaking cute, with their warmth, teasing, and soft morning interactions. You can feel the intimacy and tenderness radiating off themâAlastor's cheerful voice and that delightful, smooth vibe he gives off is just so freaking sexy. But thenâOH THENâit all goes wildly chaotic and steamy, and I am HERE for it. đđĽ
I mean, you get this cozy, sweet moment where Alastor is all playful with his "Five more minutes" routine (and letâs not forget the adorable clinginess), but the tension starts building in such a perfect way! The way Alastor starts getting possessive over you, especially with his little teasing growl and that claws on your hip moment? HOLY. The whole situation is a mix of flirty and intensely dominant, which I am living for. đ
But THENâLucifer, the king of all sarcastic taunts, just casually gets involved in the morning shenanigans, adding a whole new layer of playful power struggle between the three of you. I love how Lucifer is just amused by the whole thing, casually letting you get under Alastorâs skin, while also knowing whatâs coming. The humor and banter are delicious. đđ
And letâs talk about that little wiggle moment. I can't evenâAlastorâs warning growl? The shivers from his sniffing and nipping at your neck? Like, the tension building here is so juicy that Iâm practically sweating. His voice, dripping with that playful but dangerous tone, is justâugh, it's everything. Punish me, Alastor, please. đ
Now, can we just take a second to appreciate how the anticipation builds even more after you take your sweet time with that shower? Like, you know what's coming, but the waiting, the teasingâyouâre in trouble and youâre loving every second of it. đ
And thenâOH MY GOD. The moment you walk back into that room and Alastor is just ready for you, Lucifer all riled up, and everything goes into full sexy chaos mode. The power dynamic here is insane. I am dying at Alastorâs feral grin, his complete control over the situation, and how you're just so done for.
But the climax (pun intended) of this whole scene? Lucifer, still not quite ready to give up that easy, being the perfect foil to Alastorâs dominance, while youâre stuck in this incredible trap of heated kisses, possessive groping, and literally being pinned down by two men who just adore making you squirm..
And can we just talk about the sensory overload?! The music metaphor for how Alastor and Lucifer work together? Ugh, itâs so perfect! The tension and buildup were absolutely killer, and the way they both took care of the reader, balancing pleasure with just the right amount of pain? OOF. SO GOOD. đŠđ
This whole scene was just so⌠overwhelming and sensual, like, I donât even know how to recover from this. Iâm dead. DEAD. đ It's pure magnificent madness and I'm so here for it. More, please. MORE. đ
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Alastor x Lucifer x FReader
CW: P in V sex, biting, blood, blood consuming (Alastor mild), threesome, anal sex, reader is a brat, small amounts of Dominance/Submission.
Good Morning.Â
Buzzzzz.
You hear the static hum as awareness seeps back into your consciousness.Â
Warmth is the second thing that registers with you. A warm bundle under your right arm that smells of pome fruit, and aftershave. Your arm tightens slightly in possession, as you feel the same done to you from a weight over your own abdomen.Â
A strong arm resting over your waist, the essence of woodsmoke tinged with iron drifts over your shoulder as you feel breath against your cheek, you know the sound you heard means heâs awake.Â
âGood morning dearest,â Alastorâs cheerful voice is never tired, and you groan in complaint, he chuckles, and you feel your hair being moved off your forehead as the press of his lips meets the side of your temple, you can feel the ever-present smile on his face even with your eyes still closed.Â
Snuggling down into the warm plush pillow, your bladder decides to make itself known as you feel pressure and the need to relieve yourself, grumpily you start to shift around, prepared to clamber over Lucifer to get out of the bed, knowing thereâs no way youâd get past Alastor, as heâs very clingy in the mornings.Â
As you sling one leg over the Fallen Angelâs waist, Alastorâs arm pulls you back against him, âand where do you think youâre running off to Dear?â A slight growl in his voice, as Lucifer finally rouses, a sound of complaint in the back of his throat as you're pulled away from even cuddling him anymore.Â
âWe talk about this every morning Al... I have need of the facilities.âÂ
âWell, Dearest, you know the rules,â came his taunting sing-song voice, as he taps your nose condescendingly, even Lucifer, who has turned over by now to observe, chuckles at your predicament.Â
âFive more minutes,â you grumble.Â
âCorrect, âfive more minutesââ Alastor hums, pleased, wrapping both arms around you, effectively trapping you, but being mindful not to squeeze your lower abdomen.Â
Lucifer snuggles against your front now, boxing you in, and you whine in complaint, but Alastor simply responds by wrapping a long leg over the top of yours, pinning them down too.Â
âYou two will be the death of me,â you whinge.Â
âGood job youâre already dead then isnât it my sweet,â Lucifer laughs.Â
âDonât you start too,â you complain, making both men laugh.Â
âYou know how needy Alastor is in the morning love, just let him do his thing,â Lucifer says, kissing you gently as you blink your eyes open, smiling at him.
âYes, my King,â you say with a mischievous grin at him, knowing it irks Alastor when you give Lucifer reverence of his station. As evidenced by the increase in the sound of static from behind you and the annoyed huff that makes your hair ruffle slightly.
A devious thought enters your head, quickly you grasp Alastorâs knee, and gently tug him even closer to you, causing a pleased sound from your Deer Demon as he presses himself against you fully.Â
You then wriggle your bum. A sharp inhale comes from behind you, as Lucifer snorts in laughter, knowing full well what youâre doing.Â
âDo you really think you want to do that right now dear?â Alastorâs voice warns you as the stimulation causes a slight swelling to press against you.Â
You giggle, âAbsolutely,â wiggling again causing his claws to prick your hip as he hisses.Â
âYouâre looking to be punished... arenât you dear?â Alastor taunts, his nose burying in the crook of your neck, the hair on the back of your neck standing up as it tickles you slightly whilst he sniffs you.Â
âMe? Never,â you feign shock as Lucifer basks in your warm embrace, pressing his head against your soft chest, his eyes closed as he listens to the pair of you in amusement, his own morning issue throbbing slightly between his legs, but he wasnât going to let you know about that yet, not when taunting Alastor is so much funnier to watch.Â
You try to wriggle away from Alastor again as he sniffs your neck harder, effectively tickling you, causing you to flinch and laugh, âIâm sorry, Iâm sorry, okay you win,â you laugh as he doesnât let you go.Â
Alastor stops his antics, his grin triumphant as you look over your shoulder at him, your bladder spasms again, reminding you of its growing desperation, âall right, now let me up,â trying to wriggle out of his grasp, he growls once more and you huff, increasing your resistance.Â
He puts head back in your neck and his teeth sink into your flesh in warning, causing you to yelp in surprise. Lucifer laughs at your dilemma, âItâs not time yet,â he chuckles.Â
âHow long,â you say in a whiny voice.Â
âOh... right about... ... ... now,â Alastor says cheerfully as he releases all his hold on you, leg and all. Lucifer also lets his embrace relax, accompanied by a laugh.Â
You huff in annoyance; Lucifer lets you hurriedly clamber over him to get out of the bed.Â
âOh Dearest? Do hurry back...â Alastor says amused, âYou wouldnât want us to ârelieveâ ourselves without you after all,â of course he knows Lucifer also has a hard on.Â
You are feeling stubborn, so stick your finger up over your shoulder as you go to walk out of the room, you feel a light thud on your back, you look around in annoyed confusion as a duck falls to the floor with a squeak, your eyes narrow at a suspiciously âinnocentâ looking Alastor.Â
Annoyed and deciding to be disobedient this morning you decide to take your sweet arse time, lest he get too cocky in his control over you. As much as you badly want to rush back to them and not miss out on a second of time with them, you decide to take a shower too.Â
After a shower, knowing full well youâve earned unescapable punishment by now you decide that you should go for all or nothing, and go downstairs to take things a step further, so you make a coffee for yourself, taking your time to drink it, smirking to yourself as Husk asks why youâre so happy today, you give a non-committal answer, mind already back upstairs.Â
Deciding youâve left them both (Alastor) to stew for long enough, you prepare a coffee in his favourite mug for him and a plate of pancakes for Lucifer knowing full well thereâs no chance Alastor would let your attitude go unpunished for long enough that they donât get wasted.Â
Wandering back upstairs, you school your features before walking back into the half bayou bedroom, as soon as you open the door you hear the moaning, you close the door swiftly behind you so no one else can hear.Â
Looking over at the bed to see Alastorâs red piercing stare directed unerringly at you, as Lucifer, hooked sideways across his lap, gets teased with his claw tips, stimulating the head of his aching weepy cock.Â
Alastor looks threateningly at you; Luciferâs eyes are squeezed shut as he whimpers, Alastor expertly keeps up with teasing him, his claws gently pressing into the clearly abused flesh.Â
âWeâve been waiting for you Dear, poor Lucifer has been taking all my attention while youâve been absent without leave,â his static voice dominating the room.Â
Your hands shake, half in fear, half in excitement, you know what Alastorâs displeasure means for you, but deciding to play it cool, you breeze over to the bed, placing the mug and plate down on the bedside table, âI brought breakfast,â you say ignoring his statement, despite the heat pooling in your belly, and moisture saturating your undergarments.Â
Alastorâs smile turns absolutely feral, you look into his eyes defiantly as Lucifer whimpers as his hand releases him, you feel rather smug at being able to draw such emotions from his easily readable eyes.Â
You shriek as a clawed hand grasps the front of your night gown, Lucifer is indignantly shoved aside with one hand, in favour of swiftly pulling you down on top of Alastor, who keeps a firm, sharp grip on you, making you wince as his eyes darken to radio dials.Â
âI suppose you found your little stunt terribly entertaining,â he purrs as he pulls your face down to meet his brutal kiss, as Lucifer huffs in annoyance at being neglected now, so he presses himself into your side, kissing your shoulder as your nightwear gets shredded, exposing heated flesh.Â
The world spins, and you feel the plush mattress on your back as youâre caged in by long arms, not many have been in this position with the Radio Demon and lived to tell the tale, you feel rather smug, as you moan into the kiss, his tongue forcing its way into your eager mouth as you give as good as you receive.Â
Luciferâs tail winds around your arms, pulling your wrists together as he starts kissing your neck. The dual attentions making you moan.Â
âYou my Dear, Iâm afraid, are in big trouble.â Alastor's voice is back to being deliriously happy, which makes you more nervous, as it means he has formulated a meticulous plan for revenge, not driven by emotions anymore.Â
His nips to your body, are indeed punishing, making you cry out with every single bite, not too deep, but enough that each one bleeds, he makes sure to taste every single one, getting lower and lower as he goes, Lucifer lying beside you, watching with heavy eyelids, stroking his impressively thick cock as he watches Alastorâs progress down your body.Â
You lick your lips as you spot the bead of precum on top of his tip, but Lucifer just smirks and bringing his palm up to the top of his cock gathers the moisture to rub into his already moist skin, he tsks at you, fully agreeing with Alastor at your need for punishment.Â
Which is technically giving you exactly what you want, but youâd never tell them that.Â
You wince and gasp as your attention is drawn back to Alastor with another sharp bite that smarts, and makes you hiss, right around your nipple, Alastor smirks again, suckling at the blood in pleasure before moving on, down your stomach, small bites that leave marks in a straight line slightly off centre, avoiding your belly button, before sinking his teeth into your right hip.Â
He keeps his torment up, until he spreads your legs open wide, Lucifer catching your left leg to keep it open, and Alastor keeping his hand on your right knee joint, making sure you stay spread wide as he inhales your mouthwatering almost floral fragrance of arousal.Â
The sound of jazz floating across the room as the radio comes to life startling you slightly, drawing your attention away from the sinful demon between your legs briefly, before a sharp piercing pain on the inside of your right thigh causes you to cry out, your eyes shooting back down as your still bound hands tangle in his hair, catching on his antler in your haste.Â
You feel a huff of air as he laughs, still keeping his teeth lodged in the meat of your inner thigh, he bites a little harder, causing you to half moan, half cry out in pain, you tug sharply on his hair in protest. His smile, impossibly widens, keeping his teeth steady, threatening you for just a little longer with them, before withdrawing, and licking the wound soothingly as you whimper.
âNow, what do you have to say for yourself Dear?â Keeping up with the soothing action of running the flat of his tongue on the reddened, bleeding bite, this one worse than all the others.Â
âI brought you a coffee,â you say cheekily as he growls in warning, knowing the kind of brat you can be.Â
You cry out as Luciferâs teeth sink into the other side of your neck as he punishes you this time.Â
âDonât be naughty sweetheart, you wouldnât want to provoke our dear Alastor now, would you?â Lucifer says lovingly, his bite not nearly as vicious as Alastorâs had been.Â
âNo, my Liege,â you say to wind Alastor up even more, by giving Lucifer more attention and respect than Alastor.Â
You gasp as you feel cool air suddenly hit your puffy, excited mound as your underwear meets the same fate as your sleepwear, tossed unceremoniously aside.Â
A rough tongue plunging inside you, you feel immediate sparks from static inside you in his annoyance, making you moan as your inside's spasm, almost like a mild electric shock.Â
âAlready so wet love?â Lucifer comments, his hand hadnât stopped rubbing his own throbbing need even once.Â
All you can do is whimper in response before Alastor drags his tongue out and up to your needy clit, rubbing the flat of his tongue over it just once before pulling away, making you whine in protest, feeling empty, desperate in a different way than this morning.Â
âReady to apologise yet Dear?â Alastor raises a brow.Â
âMake me,â you growl back, making both men laugh in delight.Â
âOh, donât worry, I will.â He mutters, his fingers sinking deep inside you, as Lucifer gives attention to your non agitated nipple, his long tongue making you arch your back into his mouth, whining for more.Â
Alastorâs fingers firmly but slowly rubbing the inner walls of your soaking wet pulsing heat, your hips buck, trying to make him speed up, the tips of his fingers bumping your soft g-spot each time, making you feel frenzied.Â
Feeling a tentacle wrap around your wrists as Luciferâs tail releases you, your arms raising above your head are pinned, making you let go of Alastorâs hair, a sound of complaint escapes you.Â
You do spot Alastorâs wagging tail over his shoulder, making you smirk.Â
You protest again at not being allowed to touch.Â
âTouching is for good little pets, not brats who donât follow the rules,â Alastor growls with a harsh push of his fingers, making that thrust in particular hit your cervix, making you cry out again.
Lucifers tongue and sucking mouth not giving a moments reprieve. His hand a blur on his own length now.Â
You feel the tightening in your stomach as you get built up on their combined efforts.Â
Just as you feel yourself about to burst, everything stops, Alastor's fingers stop, and even Lucifer withdraws from your chest, as you open your eyes you see Alastorâs fingers wrapped in Luciferâs hair, clearly having dragged him off you.Â
You pant, the flush in your cheeks and mess of your hair from the heat of the moment making you look delightfully debauched, you see Alastorâs arousal through his pyjama trousers, (The annoying deer hadn't even gotten nude yet, much preferring the power dynamics of having both you and Lucifer bare and at his mercy, before indulging you both, only after you are desperate and needy for him).Â
You whine, arching your back enticingly, trying to make one of them (Lucifer) break, and take pity on you.Â
âAh, ah, ahâ Alastor says, his smile unchanging, a sting from a slap to your inner thigh, lower than the bite, punishing you again for your obvious attempt at manipulation.Â
âSay it,â Alastor demands, his claw tips digging in where he left his hand on your trembling inner thigh.Â
âPlease,â you try again, making Alastor laugh and Lucifer to moan.Â
âNice try, but you know what I want to hear Dearest,â his voice lowering, static crackling, his eyes darkening to dials again as he teases you by taking over stroking Lucifer, your hands still bound, keeping you from touching either of them.Â
You growl again in need, frustrated and trying to tug fruitlessly at your restraints... both men of power laugh at the pathetic look in your eyes as Alastor breaks down your resolve.Â
âIâm sorry,â you whisper.Â
âLouder pet,â Alastor demands with another slap to your thigh, another tentacle taking over to stroke Lucifer for him as Lucifer whines and moans, falling back onto the bed as the tentacle is fast and rough with him, making his hips buck, the sight driving you mad.Â
âOkay, Okay, Iâm sorry, Iâm sorry, Iâm sorry, I didnât follow the rules... please, I need you, PLEASE.â you struggle against the tentacle restraining you.Â
âLovely,â Alastor praises, the audio stimulation far better than any other so far as you beg him.Â
His fingers return to your weeping slit and your head throws itself back as he starts thrusting inside you at a much more pleasurable pace than before, as he takes control of both yours and Luciferâs pleasure simultaneously, working you both to your peaks.Â
He stops once more, an evil grin on his face, as you both cry out to him, begging for mercy, itâs music to his ears, they twitch in pleasure, as he greedily observes both of your needy swollen throbbing cores.Â
Slowly he kicks off his own trousers, making sure youâre both looking, before excruciatingly slowly, dragging himself up your body and sinking inside your glistening, soaking wet, boiling heat with uncanny accuracy.Â
You feel like exploding around him instantly as your tight hole stretches to accommodate the intrusion, you moan and thank him profusely.Â
His tentacle resumes its torment of Lucifer, as he sharply thrusts his hips inside you once, wanting to hear the melodious cry you always make when he overstimulates you.Â
Without fail, the keening whine escapes your throat at your heat tightens from the feel of his cock hitting so deeply inside you with a jolt, fuzzy static filling your ears.Â
âPlease Al...â You pant, trying to move your hips, but he stalls you by gripping you  tightly, keeping himself fully seated within you for a while longer as he watches Luciferâs plight.Â
You look over and Lucifer is certainly a sight to behold.Â
Flat on his back, moaning, his hips rising and falling with every rub of the tentacle around him, claws cutting through the mattress below him, eyes screwed tightly shut, sweat covering his lovely, unblemished body, cheeks puffed out, wings spread out and crushed below his body, feathers rustling as they tremble.Â
You feel the return of the blood flow in your arms and your attention is brought back to Alastor as he starts thrusting consistently now, making your head return to the pillows as you scramble for purchase on his back, nails digging in deeply making him groan.Â
You moan in supplication, needing more, he leans forward kissing you as his hips pump his cock as deep as possible inside you, his hands helping you raise your hips to the correct angle that has you babbling and incoherent and you feel your entire needy sex clenching as his cock nudges your soft spot inside with precision.Â
Moaning muffled by his mouth, trying to kiss him back, but being quite useless as he uses his body to bully yours into submission, crying out as the feeling is too delicious for words to accurately justify.Â
âFuuuuckkk...â feeling more like a doll than a thinking feeling being at this point.Â
Alastor hums, pleased, and pulls out of you, making you grab at him in panic, tears in your eyes at the thought of being left in such a state... denied pleasure.Â
He laughs in amusement as he scoops you up, and deposits you on top of Lucifer, whoâs tentacle friend had withdrawn as you were dropped onto his lap.Â
Heâs in just as much of a state as you, âH-hello... love,â he manages to pant.Â
âMmmmm,â you reply slumping forward over his chest as you feel Alastor behind you, directing Lucifers cock inside your desperation, making you both moan in relief but also cry out at the pain, even with Alastor preparing you Luciferâs girth still makes you burn, once you get accustomed, you realise your shaking legs are too weak to ride him, and you almost cry again.Â
Alastor chuckles, and strokes your back, âpatience Dear,â he coos.Â
You moan as you feel wetness between your cheeks, groaning in pleasure as you feel Alastor working your other hole to stretch you in preparation to take them both.Â
Otherworldly sounds escape you straight into Lucifers mouth this time as he holds your face, kissing you to help you through this.Â
âSo tight love, youâd have thought weâd never done this before,â Lucifer says between kisses and his own noises of pleasure.Â
You can only whimper as Alastor stretches you with a third finger, thrusting, testing over and over again until he deems you ready.Â
You cry out once more as you feel the thick head of his cock pop past the tight ring of muscle, that was still quite tight around his own impressive thickness.Â
âAlmost there, Dear heart, youâre doing so well my love.â Alastor praises, his caressing not stopping as he eases inside you, you're panting and gasping not stopping.Â
Lucifer kissing your face and neck in support as he lets you breathe through this part, leaving your mouth unoccupied, grasping his shoulders tightly.Â
Finally, Alastor manages to go balls deep within your most private channel, praises and caresses not stopping as your mind and body try to catch up, slowly you calm down enough.Â
âGood pet,â Alastor praises, you nod your head to indicate he can move.Â
His hips move in little thrusts this time as Lucifer holds still, getting your body more pliant and used to the feeling again.Â
Your fingers dig into Lucifers shoulders harder, drawing blood, he doesnât mind, his own hands are in your hair as he keeps you both steady and still, showering you with love and kisses as Alastorâs on your hips keep you still.Â
Alastor is currently making you make the sounds that come out of your mouth, music to both their ears... it's the closest they think theyâll ever get to heaven, or back in Luciferâs case.Â
Once they both silently agree youâve had enough care and preparation, they both begin moving in tandem, your volume increasing as you are trapped helplessly between them.Â
A blur of overwhelming sensation from the two powerful men.Â
Lucifer thrusting up into you, rubbing every inch inside you and feeling Alastor through the other side of your walls, making him moan as you are stuffed to capacity.Â
You feel so much heat and tightness, Alastorâs attentions causing slight pain as he speeds up his own thrusting, rolling his hips. Gauging from your sounds, exactly how far to push your limits.Â
They work your body like a finely tuned instrument, Alastorâs fingers pressing into your hips, like the keys on a piano.Â
While Luciferâs fingers start rubbing your clit, strumming like a guitar... or acting as the bow he uses on his fiddle.Â
Your moaning reaches a crescendo, you cry out as the innumerable sensations overcome your body.Â
Squirting violently around Lucifers cock, the cries tearing from you becoming so loud that Alastor adjusts the radio with his power accordingly, as Lucifer tries to hush you with his mouth on yours again.Â
Both of them moaning as your holes grip them both like a vice, itâs so tight Lucifer feels a throb of pain, he canât move an inch, but it matters not as the sensation of you squirting a torrent right onto his pelvis has his own pulsing reach its limit, as he explodes deep inside you, spurting without even needing to thrust, already buried so deep not a single drop escapes.Â
Alastor waits patiently for you both to finish, his smile soft, before chasing his own end, using your relaxed body, lifting you by the hips to work his length in and out of you at a speed the isnât quite painful for you, but enough of a stimulation for him.Â
He growls as he bites you on the nape of your neck, one last time, his balls drawing up and reaching his inevitable end.Â
âMine.âÂ
Alastor pumps his load deep inside you, his hips smoothly thrusting through the transition as his balls empty, making sure to fill you and not waste any of his seed either as you feel the warmth flooding inside you, as he finishes filling you up.Â
All three of you slump in an exhausted pile on the bed, Alastorâs ears and tail twitching, Lucifers wings rustle, and you... youâre a trembling mess between them spasming at the slightest twitch within you.Â
Alastor is the first to recover of course and withdraws gently, then proceeds to help pull you off Lucifer, you and the King of Hell both make sounds of protest as Alastorâs swiftness makes your bodies jolt.Â
Alastor obviously doing so to entertain himself and punish you again for your audacity this morning.Â
Situating you so that youâre cuddled into Luciferâs chest, who presses a kiss to the top of your head bringing his arms around you.Â
Alastor makes a noise of displeasure drawing your attention... âCoffee is cold,â he says in disgust, placing the mug back down, and uses his powers to vanish it and the plate of pancakes, much to Luciferâs annoyance, but he says nothing, content to have you in his arms.Â
A hoarse laugh escapes you.Â
Alastor grumbles, and snuggles back in behind you, spooning you again, a facsimile of when you first woke up, but now youâre all a sweaty mess of tangled nudity, he kisses your temple again, before nuzzling the back of your neck, smelling you.Â
âGood morning indeed.â You chuckle.Â
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I'm kinda confused... In the main route, Mychael doesn't know yet if what he's feeling is love (that's what I think based on the last posts). But in 2 of the bad endings (the one that MC kills Mychael and the other where you are hypnotized by Mychael to stay with him forever), he says things that make us think he already knows he loves us. For example: "At least I'm dying by the side of someone, I'd like to hear your voice" or "I'm sorry, I wish I could know the way you are or that you'd love me the way I am" (I don't quite remember the quotes but they are something like this), and it ends saying "You love Mychael. Mychael loves you. You two live happy".
It makes me think... Mychael being placed in a dangerous situation where MC does not accept him the way he is, makes he know he loves her? What does it change? Actually, have I understand everything wrong? He does not love her in those endings, he's just desperate for companionship?
The last line of your question already answers it!
In Ending 2: You Monster, when he says that, he's comforting himself in his last moments knowing he's not dying alone. In Ending 3: Playing Pretend, when the narration says those lines ("You love Mychael. And he loves you.") he only thinks he knows what love is in his desperate attempt to convince you that everything is fine. In reality those words are empty, only serving as fodder to fill your head. In his eyes what he's doing with you (living together, spending time together and doing things together) equals 'love' when it's far from the truth. Especially considering he's puppeting your actions the whole time. He was just,,, a little,,, desperate,,,
#mushroom oasis vn#mychael ask#he was NOT cooking with that one#go back in the kitchen mychael smh#although re-reading your question.... are you perhaps playing a translated version??#because i dont recall some of the lines hmm
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hi pookie!! it was actually my birthday a few days ago and i was wondering if maybe you could write a regulus x reader fic where it's reader's birthday? (prompt b.12) if not, that's totally fine! take ur time bub :))
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i'm usually not a birthday fic kinda gal, but i'll make an exception for you my love<33 i hope you had a super birthday the other day, sending you big bday hugs!
Words: 1.3k
Warnings: not proofread, fem!reader, slightly suggestive (implied aftercare), kissing, toothrotting fluff, wolfstar reference, implied black family trauma (super brief)
Your chest is still slightly damp beneath Regulus' t-shirt that he gave you about twenty minutes ago, but your breath is coming at slow, regular intervals again. The dorm around you is wonderfully empty, Barty and Evan banished for the night, which they only reluctantly agreed to when you gave them a âitâs my birthday tomorrow and I want to wake up with my boyfriendâ pout. It feels private, intimate, in a way you relish in.
Here, curled up against Regulusâ chest with your fingers tracing constellations between the moles on his fair skin, is the first comfort you have felt all week. The kind that sinks into the bone and warms you through winter. His sheets are warm too where they are draped across your forms, and you feel increasingly like one singular being, heartbeats synced.
His lips are tracing faint butterfly kisses across your hairline and forehead, absentmindedly, as if itâs second nature to him by now. Maybe it is.
This is all you needed.
âWhat are you thinking about, amour?â His breath fans across your face as he murmurs against your skin.
âYou.â The word is spoken around curved lips and you feel his begin to match yours as he hums contently into your hair. âHow nice this is.â
âItâs been a hectic week for you, hasnât it?â he says, voice laced with empathy and understanding.
You just hum in response, burying your face deeper into his shoulder. You begin kissing at the skin you find there, light and soft in comparison to the passionate ones you shared earlier. It feels right to have both, like your heart is being completed.
âSo good. Youâre so good,â he whispers adoringly, and while you donât know if he is referring to your handling of said week or something else, youâre fairly certain youâll accept any and all praise slipping from his lips.
You tilt your head up to look at his eyes and find them already gazing at you. Regulusâ hand comes up to brush over the side of your face, from your temple to your cheekbone and jaw. âYeah?â you ask through a smile.Â
He breathes out something akin to a laugh and whispers back, âYeah. The best.â
Stretching your neck only slightly, you lean up to give him a soft and delectably slow kiss, savouring the feeling of his lips between yours. He reciprocates in full, humming against you when you support some of your weight with a hand on his chest. You feel his heartbeat beneath it and burrow your fingertips deeper, as if in search of it.
âDo you have anything specific you want to do tomorrow?â Regulus muses when you separate and you begin pressing kisses along his jaw and cheek instead.
âNothing at all. Not leaving this room.â While your heart means it, your mind is a more logical being and thus doesnât, so your words come out with a slight laugh, a joke at how stupidly good it would have been.
âHiding out from the world with me?â A cheeky grin before he captures your lips with his again briefly. âSounds like the best birthday ever.â
Supporting your own weight isnât ideal when youâre still a tad worn out, so you lay down with your head on his shoulder again and he runs his hand comfortingly up and down your arm when he feels it shaking. You keep your eyes on his though, head tilted up with a look that contains more worry than Regulus cares for.
âI still have to do quite a bit of reading for my History of Magic project,â you say in the same tone as someone would use to convey their life sentence in prison. âSo Iâm going to have to hole up in the library for quite a while tomorrow, birthday be damned.â
Regulus cannot fight the tsk-ing sound that escapes him as he frowns in sympathy. âIâm no expert on the perfect birthday, but Iâm quite certain thatâs not in the recipe.â
âI know,â you groan, burying your head into his flesh. âI know, but I have to.â
âYou have to do no such thing, pretty girl.â He kisses the top of your head to coax you back out from hiding. âDonât think about the project tomorrow, Iâll help you get back into it the day after.â
âAbsolutely not,â you try, but you recognise the look in his eyes as one you are rarely able to defeat. âReggie, baby, you have enough on my plate.â
âYet the most important thing on it is you.â He says it almost fiercely, passionately, but when you lift a smug brow at him at his unintended double meaning, he jokingly swats at you. âDonât sully my declaration of love, you heathen. Iâm saying Iâve got you.â
You kiss him part in apology and part selfishly because his lips jutted out enticingly when he pretend pouted. âI know, and I love you for it, but you canât help me with that big of a project baby, you just canât.â
âThere is no such rule in the boyfriend handbook,â Regulus says solemnly, as if reciting scripture. In theory, he technically is because when Regulus first opened up to Sirius about his anxiety of ruining things with you, the older boy made the ugliest homebound book titled How To Be A Good Boyfriend When Your Parents Fucked You Up Real Bad.
When Regulus questioned Siriusâ expertise on the matter, he said Remus made it based on all the missteps Sirius already had made in their relationship.
âMaybe not,â you reply. âBut you forget the first rule: a girlfriendâs word is always more important than any silly rule in any stupid handbook.â
Regulus rolls you over onto your back so he can attack your neck with kisses, likely because he had no actual argument against that. âQuerulous girl,â he made out between kisses but your laughter drowned him out.
When he came back up to hover his face above yours, bicep flexing beside your head as he held himself up, his hair was somehow even more messed up than before and oh so pretty. His eyes too, filled to the brim with love and humour, softening as he saw the clear flash of admiration across your own face.
âLet me spoil you,â he whispers, kissing your cheeks, your eyes, your forehead, your nose. âYou deserve it, amour. You deserve everything.âÂ
You thought you heard a small âI donât deserve youâ muttered when he kissed your head, but you couldnât be certain. Nonetheless you brought his face into your hands to press a resounding kiss to his lips to shut down any such stupid thoughts.
âI love you, you know.â Your smile was blinding, but Regulus looked good in the light.
âI know,â he whispers back. âI love you. And I am not letting you sit in the library on your birthday, no matter how many cute dates weâve had there. Tomorrow is about you â nothing matters but you.â
Tears almost well in your eyes, but you blink them away. Your voice is still watery when you whisper a soft, âOkay.â
âOkay?â A grin starts to form over his previously soft smile. He gives you no time to respond before his lips sweep down to catch yours once more.
He captures your bottom lip between his two, swiping his tongue slowly across and breathing a soft sigh into your mouth as you allow him access. Leaning more of his weight on you, he continues to deepen the kiss, feeling you completely, as he has so many times before and as he will again.
You arenât certain when it was you fell asleep, time floating around you like soap bubbles, irrelevant but beautiful in its presence nonetheless. What you do know, is that when you fall asleep it is with your body held close to his. And that when you woke up, it was to soft kisses across your face and a âhappy birthday, amourâ whispered in your ear.
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chapter 3
friendly reminder that i am not a writer, i'm just a girl who loves logan howlett and wanted to write something exploring his animalistic side since i so rarely see it done. my first language is also not english, so please do not be rude when giving me any feedback.
warnings: swearing, mentions of blood, mentions of sex, non-sexual nudity
series masterlist âmy masterlist
logan sleeps in your bed now. night after night you found him on the hard floor, until you couldnât deal with the thought of him being so uncomfortable just because he wanted to be near you. so you forced him into your bed, though youâre not sure if forced is the right word to use given how willingly he slipped in next to you - as if heâd done it a million times before, as if it was normal.
heâs a walking heater - you swear thereâs a fire burning under his skin, working through his veins to spread throughout his body. you naturally run cold, you always have, so cuddling up to his warmth is a luxury. even in the beginning, when you didnât want to fall asleep in his arms for fear of what it would mean for your relationship, you would wake bundled up in his arms, safe and protected and wanted in a way that made you never want to leave the bed.
itâs nice, really nice.
and it simultaneously sucks, because youâve started having dreams of logan, of kissing him, calling him your husband, watching him rock a baby. and youâve had other dreams too, the ones youâre sure logan can smell on you, with his advanced senses. heâs always awake watching you when you wake up from those dreams, his body still curled against yours, hard dick pressed against you. but he never does anything.
itâs horribly endearing. heâs obviously affected but wonât leave you, knows how much comfort youâve found in his arms. so he grits his teeth and bears it. despite being half-animal, heâs more of a gentleman than most of the men youâve met.
and you love knowing that you affect him, knowing that your feelings for him are not completely one-sided, even if you can only be sure of the physical component. when you leave the room to start on your morning routine, he stays behind.
you canât be certain, but you imagine him taking his dick in his hand, stroking himself to completion, hard and desperate and quick, muffling the sound of his groans with a hand pressed to his mouth.
youâre not used to being woken up like this, however. logan hovers over you, face twisted into a snarl so full of hatred it brings tears to your eyes. his claws are out and have ripped holes in the sheets and the mattress, locking you in a makeshift cage.
his eyes are glazed over, like heâs not quite present in the moment. heâs somewhere else right now, lost somewhere in his mind where you canât reach him.
this isnât a slow awakening where you can take time to blink the sleep from your eyes, letting them flutter shut for two more minutes to enjoy the bliss of being not-quite awake. the adrenaline hits you hard and fast, your heartbeat pounding loud in your ears.
youâre trembling, can feel it with every breath you take, shaky exhales and sharp inhales. youâre careful not to make any sudden moves, worried about what logan may do to you.
you know him, know he wouldnât hurt you. but he doesnât see you right now, you donât know who or what heâs seeing in your place. but heâs never looked at you with these eyes, with this level of anger - in fact, you canât remember a time when heâs truly been angry at you. scared, cautious, tense, maybe. but not fury like this.
âlogan,â you whisper.
the sound has barely left your throat when he pulls one clawed hand away from the mattress, tearing more of it in the process, before punching his claws towards your chest. you cry out, instinctually, and that snaps him out of it.
you feel the sharp sting of his metal claws dragging over your skin as he pulls away. itâs only a scratch, and not a terribly deep one at that. youâre used to small injuries, pricking yourself in the garden or accidentally cutting your thumb while cooking or any other stupid way to draw blood to the surface of your skin.
but itâs not the pain that matters, itâs the thought that if it took him a second longer to break out of his nightmare he could have pierced your heart, killed you.Â
âlogan,â you ask, shaky, âare you okay?â
heâs staring at you, eyes wide and frightened, but the hatred that was there is gone. his claws retract back into his skin. he nods, slow, never breaking eye contact with you.
and then you burst into tears.
you canât stop, your cries hysterical. logan sits on the bed, moving away from you with every cry that rakes your body, but you grab at his arms desperately, needing him. somehow, despite logan being the reason for your fear, heâs the only thing you want, your mind calling out his name like a prayer.
he hesitates to touch you at first, but you beg him with a broken âpleaseâ, and then heâs all over you, pulling you into his lap, nuzzling his face into your neck. he kisses you softly on the skin there, a habit heâs taken up that you donât mind. you probably should mind, but youâre unable to care about that when it feels so right.
you fall asleep crying in his arms, the exhaustion pulling you under. you wake up again with the sun, logan looking haggard and pale, still holding you. it seems he didnât fall back asleep when you had.
your throat feels raw from crying, and you can feel the tear tracks where they dried on your skin.
âwhat was the nightmare about?â you try to ask him.
he shakes his head, every line around his face pulled taunt, âno.â
youâd expected such an answer, something short and succinct where he refuses to lay his problems on you. still, youâd hoped he might share some information, even a sliver of his story that could help you help him.
youâre still worried about logan, but thereâs not much you can do if he wonât speak to you, so you leave the bed to wash the dried tears from your face. you go on with your routine as usual, keeping a closer eye on logan, waiting for possible signs to help you uncover the mystery of whatever the fuck is happening with him.
there are none, of course - heâs very difficult to read when he wants to be.
he doesnât touch you as much, a step further behind you than usual. but otherwise his behaviour doesnât change too greatly. heâs still sweet and grumpy and lovely.
you teach him how to cook your favourite breakfast foods, and to your surprise, it comes naturally to him. he works by your side like heâs always been there, listening to your instructions perfectly every time. the cuts on your chest still burn slightly, but simply feeling his presence by your side makes everything better.
youâre reading a book on the couch when logan returns from hunting. he never brings anything from his hunt into the house, for which youâre grateful, but he does drag in a lot of dirt.Â
you have a routine by now, or at least the bones of one. he likes it when you help him clean up after a hunt or a run in the forest, and so do you. itâs the kind of moment you imagine youâd find in a book, with a couple so deeply in love that they can hardly stand to be apart for a second.
youâre still not completely comfortable with the idea of stripping naked in front of him, but logan has no such qualms. in the bathroom, he pushes his pants and boxers down in one motion.
you blush as he steps into the shower, so unashamed of his body. thereâs a wild edge to him that you notice more in moments like these, where you realise the impact of not having those human memories, the socialisation that teaches you to dislike yourself, teaches you that confidence is a negative thing, makes you vain and egotistical.
the water soaks him in an instant, flattening his cute hair tufts against his scalp and you giggle at the way he looks like a wet kitten, though less disgruntled.
he tilts his head expectantly, waiting for you. his gaze is dark and heady, intense as you pull off your shirt, leaving you in only a bra. your face warms as you take off your skirt next, watching loganâs face the entire time, the way his eyes linger on your panties for a long, long moment.
itâs not the first time youâve undressed in front of him, but every time the effect is the same. warmth pools in your stomach, a mix of arousal and nerves. heâs intoxicating, and thatâs terrifying to you.
you donât take off your bra and panties. they feel like armour, protecting you from being fully defenceless in front of him. itâs not like he couldnât see the full shape of you, every curve of your body, the parts that you love about yourself, that make you smile at the mirror, and those you hate.Â
still, it makes you feel like the one in control - heâs completely naked and youâre not - though you know that heâs larger and stronger than you, that really heâs letting you be in control of the situation, not moving too much as you wash the blood and grime from his body.Â
he cares so much about your comfort. sometimes it makes you want to cry.Â
âyou, now,â he grunts.
âwhat?â
youâre taken aback at the break in the quiet. it always shocks you a little when he speaks, his voice rough from disuse.Â
âi will clean you, now,â he gestures at you and you laugh nervously, taking a step back, as far as you can until you hit the tiled wall. itâs not a very large shower, thereâs not really anywhere to go.
âlogan,â you whisper, heart in your throat, âno. not right now, okay? finish up your shower, i think- yeah iâm going to go now.â
you practically run out of the steam-filled bathroom, feeling like youâre going to collapse at any second. the thought of him stripping you out of your remaining clothes, unclasping your bra, pulling your panties down your legs and tossing them aside, his hands running over your body, even for something as innocent as washing you, something youâve done with him a dozen or so times.
youâre having enough sex fantasies about him as it is, you donât need to add more fuel to the fire. and the thing is, you want it. you want him. you want those fantasies to come to life. but you canât help but fear that loganâs only clinging to you because youâre the one who found him when he was at his most vulnerable.
when he goes out into the world, whether thatâs sometime soon or if it takes years, will he start to resent you? will he find someone better? will the soft intimacy thatâs been growing between you collapse like a house of cards?
youâre in your bedroom, laying on top of the sheets, staring up at the ceiling when logan enters.
âyouâre upset?â he asks, and at the tone of his voice, the pain that you hear reflected in each syllable, your head turns his way. he looks devastated, like the idea that you might be upset at him is the worst thing thatâs ever happened to him in his life. youâre very certain thatâs incorrect.
he looks so innocent like this, not a wild animal with claws that rip through flesh like butter, but a man, anxious and unsure and pleading. you canât help the smile that rises to your lips. you shake your head as much as you can against the mattress and reach your arms out towards him, a wordless beckoning.
ânever,â you say.
within moments heâs in your arms, hugging you tight, his face pressed into your chest. itâs nice, the solid weight of him, like a very heavy weighted blanket. minutes pass, and then logan shifts his body just enough to look up at you.
he makes eye contact with you, and in his eyes you see a raging storm. his face is blank as it often is, a mask that you canât read, but you can feel his muscles tense as if preparing for a fight, can catch a glimpse of several different emotions in the hazel staring back at you.
he leans up, until his face is barely a centimetre away from yours, and your breath catches. youâre scared to hope, terrified, even if all signs point in one direction, so you donât move closer but you donât move away, eyes fluttering shut as if itâll all become easier, as if the butterflies in your stomach will recede, if youâre not looking directly at him.
he closes the distance between you, mouth meeting yours in a chaste, soft kiss. itâs nothing like you expected from logan, feral and intense in everything he does. but heâs waiting for a response from you, scared in the way youâve only ever seen him once, when youâd first found him in the barn.
he pulls away and you grab onto him desperately, forcing him to crash back into you. you share open-mouthed kisses, hot and urgent yet so loving. itâs everything youâve ever dreamed about, perfect in the way little else can be, and you feel tears prickling in your eyes, a sob catching in your throat.
youâre absolutely fucked, your heart stolen by him, and you can only hope logan meets you where you are and doesnât hurt you.
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need a colin zabel fic where you are his annoying co worker yapping about your day while sitting on his desk (and on his files) swinging your feet and accidentally brushing your foot against his inner thigh and it makes things very much awkward and definitely brings up many feelings to the surfaceđŠˇ
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(colin zabel x reader) in where bothering your favorite co-worker results in something more than you expected... content: fluff, colin being a tired cutie a/n: this request was sooooo cute, thank you for sending it in! i love writing this man he's the sweetest ever.
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"hey, youâre back!" you say, standing from your desk as colin walks past. without a second thought, you fall into step beside him, weaving through the bustling precinct as the noise of ringing phones and low chatter surrounds you.
"hey, y/l/n," he murmurs, glancing at you briefly before his eyes go back to the case file in his hand.
"a bunch of us are heading to the bar tonight," you say, nudging him lightly. "you in?"
he sighs, his shoulders slumping just a little. "uh⌠i donât think i canâ"
"colin, c'mon." you raise an eyebrow, keeping your tone light but insistent.
"iâm alright, really."
"seriously," you say, quickening your pace to get ahead of him, backing into his office until you feel the hard edge of his desk and hop up onto it. "that case can wait. you need a break, or youâre gonna burn out and be no use to anyone."
he stops short, eyes narrowing a bit, and lifts an eyebrow. "youâre sitting on my files."
"i⌠realize that now," you say with a small, sheepish smile. "but this works in my favor. i havenât seen you all day. can we just talk for a minute?"
knowing you wonât take no for an answer, colin sighs, placing the file in his hand beside you, signaling that you have his attention. you launch into your dayâgoing over the calls you took, the quirky regulars, and the case you were working on. but after a while, you notice colinâs mind has drifted; heâs listening, but his focus is⌠somewhere else, his arms crossed, brow furrowed.
"earth to zabelâhello?" you nudge his leg playfully, and just then he snaps out of it, seeming to have had some realization. he reaches for his files, but you shift to block his path, mirroring his movements.
"colin."
he stops, and without thinking, you place a hand on his chest to balance yourself on the desk's edge. the warmth and firmness catch you off guard, and when his gaze drops to your hand, then meets yours, heat rises to your cheeks. heâs waiting for you to say something, but all you can think about is⌠well, him.
"someoneâs been working outâŚ" you mumble, barely realizing the words have slipped out.
colin blinks, his own face turning red. "um, what?"
oh god, did you really just say that out loud?
"nothingâsorry." you stammer, quickly removing your hand.
he chuckles, rubbing the back of his neck. "well, i'm glad someone noticed. didnât think it was showing yet."
"that makes it sound like you're pregnant"
"i- you know what i mean"
"anyways⌠uhâare you coming tonight?" you ask, watching as colin moves around to the other side of his desk, meticulously organizing a pile of files. he seems almost too focused on straightening the edges and aligning them, as if using the task to avoid your question.
finally, he looks up, giving you apologetic smile. "rain check?"
you groan in exaggerated disappointment, crossing your arms. "seriously?"
"heyâtell you what." he points at you with a small grin, as if making an official deal. "i'll take you to that, er, new place downtown youâve been wantin' to try."
you blink, surprised. that restaurant was fancier than youâd expected him to suggest. "thatâs⌠expensive," and intimate, you think, though you keep that part to yourself.
colin shrugs, nonchalant. "it's no problem," he says, then quickly adds, "i mean, of course, only if you're comfortable. we can just hit the bar or whatever if that's more your style."
you can't quite figure out how to respond to that, so you fall back on your usual banter. âyou sure you want more one-on-one time with me?â
his expression shifts in an instant, eyes widening as he realizes how his offer soundsâlike he just asked you out on a real, actual dinner date. he flushes a little, rubbing the back of his neck once again. "is that⌠is that a problem?" he asks, the tone of his voice dropping slightly.
you tilt your head, feeling mischevious now that the tables have turned. "not really," you say with a grin. "for me, at least. you, on the other hand⌠well, youâre about to lose that whole âworking outâ physique pretty fast.â
he laughs a little. "i think iâll survive."
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đ riize's favorite thing to do with you
pairing: bf!riize x reader, genre: fluff, warnings: they down bad fr
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âĄâ¸â¸ times he feels happiest by your side
shotaro . . . shopping with you!
taro truly loves spoiling youâ whether with new jewelry or a bunch of kisses, he always has something to give you. he often finds excuses to go spend money with you. for instance, you could mention that you really like chocolate and he'll respond, "let's go for some ice cream!" he just loves giving you everything you want :( and that's why he loves your late-night convenience store runs!
the second you tell shotaro you want a snack, he's already grabbing his car keys and telling you to put on your jacket. when you arrive at the convenience store, taro runs straight towards your favorite snack and tosses two of them into the basket. "is there anything else you're craving, honey?" whatever you look at, he puts it in the basket without even looking at the price. in his mind, the smile that you give him when you're eating snacks together is priceless <3
eunseok . . . lounging with you!
eunseok is a simple man, it really doesn't take much to satisfy him. something about the lazy days he spends with you always makes him feel so comfortable. he loves those saturday nights when he comes home from work and you're welcoming him with a warm hug and a kiss on the cheek. but he loves sunday mornings even more.
he loves waking up with you resting on his chest, not having to turn off his alarm or push you off to get ready for work. if you hadn't woken up and forced him to freshen up, he'd lie there for hours, falling in and out of sleep with you cuddled against him. after brushing your teeth and eating a quick snack, eunseok would drag you right back to bed so he could lie beside you while you finished your overdue tasks on your laptop. he'd occasionally get up to grab a snack for the both of you, but for the most part, he'd play his silly mobile games while you pat his head with your free hand. simple days like this make him feel so happy to be yours.
sungchan . . . eating with you!
sungchan is always so worried about you. the days when he's too busy at work to come and see you, he's texting you every hour to ask if you've eaten yet. he just wants to know you're taking care of yourself when he isn't there to do it himself :( which is why he's always ordering so much food when he comes to your house.
"thank you, baby... but i don't think i can eat all of this." you mutter looking down at the 6 containers of takeout. "it's fine princess, you can eat the leftovers tomorrow." sungchan melts into a giggly mess once you start eating. he loves how adorable you look when you eat <3 so much to the point where he'd buy you every single one of your cravings just to see those cute chubby cheeks :(
"you're so adorable, princess~ how is it? should i order more?"
wonbin . . . dressing up with you!
whether he's going to a fashion show or the grocery store, wonbin has to look good wherever he goes. it's almost sickening having to wait 40 minutes for him to get all dolled up just to grab toothpaste from the pharmacy. but you've got to admit, it's quite fun helping him pick out his outfits. one thing you should expect from helping him out is having to join him in his fashion frenzy.
wonbin loves matching outfits with you! before you leave the house, he'll go into his closet and find a comfy sweater that matches his outfit. but instead of wearing it, he hands it to you. "baby, try this on." you always love wearing his clothes since they're so stylish and cozy (not to mention they smell like him too). he finds it so adorable when you twirl around in front of the mirror, asking him "is this one okay?"
"you already know what i'm gonna say, baby. you're so beautiful!"
seunghan . . . singing with you!
seunghan is truly a passionate man. even on his days off, you catch him dancing in front of the mirror, working tirelessly to ensure he has the choreo down before he goes to work the next day. but when you catch him singing, it's almost mesmerizing. when you walk by the bathroom and hear him singing in the shower, you can't help but press your ear against the door in hopes of hearing him clearly. his voice is incomparable to anything you've ever heard.
he could say the same about yours. the first time he heard you singing a song he'd been practicing, he stopped dead in his tracks and let nothing take his attention away from you. you never believe him when he tells you you're good at singing (i mean, he's literally THEE hong seunghan), but he won't stop telling you how lovely your voice is. he loves your voice so much that his ideal date is singing his heart out with you in the karaoke room! he loves how adorable you look jumping around and singing your favorite song while he's cheering you on. you could never forget how he looks up at you with so much adoration sparkling in his eyes. he adores you more than anything else in the world.
sohee . . . playing with you!
sometimes you get a bit annoyed by how often sohee plays video games. it's so exhausting watching him spend all of his time at his computer when you just want cuddles :( he typically takes a break after a few rounds to grab a snack, but you're always lying on his bed with those sad eyes and a pout, waiting for any bit of attention from him. "hi pretty girl, you okay?" you shake your head. he stands up to stretch and walks to lie beside you. "let's play together." he can't help but laugh at your sudden mood change when he suggests spending time together.
sohee sits against the headboard and you immediately find a spot to sit between his legs, the back of your head resting on his chest. he hands you a controller and lets you pick a game to play. even if it's a game he doesn't like, he always engages in the gameplay and makes sure you have enough fun to forget how upset you were just a few minutes ago. you always giggle knowing your pout always gets you what you want. you truly are his soft spot <3 the two of you play for hours; screaming and laughing at each other until you grow sleepy. once you tell him you're tired, he'll take the controller from your hand and turn off the tv. he'll pull the blanket over you and hold you closer to his chest.
"let's play again tomorrow, hm?"
anton . . . cuddling with you!
to anton, there's no place that's more comforting than your arms. with every hug, he feels like he's falling deeper and deeper in love with you by the second. he never knew someone could feel so much like home. his hugs are always so passionate; wrapping his arms around your shoulders and hiding his face in your neck, savoring every moment of you. every hug drowns you in such addicting warmth that you can't get enough of him. nothing could ever top this feeling. well, except for cuddles, of course.
after a long day, all you truly need is to be held by your big teddy bear. lying down beside anton, he immediately turns to you and rests his head on your chest. beginning to run your hands through his hair, you tell him how exhausting today was and how badly you missed him. he leaves a soft kiss on your lips before wrapping his arms around you, closing the gap between the two of you.
"you're with me now, love. just focus on me."
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sunday, aventurine, etc (separately) with an elysia {hi3} personality reader?
i love ur fics btw remember to take care of urself đ¤
Chasing Stars and Sweet Nothings
Tags: Aventurine x Reader, Sunday x Reader, Elysia like personality!Reader, Romantic Fluff, Playful Romance, Lighthearted Moments, Mystery, Attraction, Comfort and Warmth, Thoughtful Conversation, Soft Sunday, Flirtation, Teasing, Emotional Healing, Philosophical Undertones.
A/N: I'm not sure if I wrote this correctly but I had to read the wiki for the personality, so I hope I got it right đŞ also thank you, anon! I appreciate and take care of yourself too!! đ¤đŤśđđ¤§
Aventurine had always prided himself on his ability to read people, but you? You were a mystery wrapped in rose-colored laughter and mischief, and he couldnât help but be drawn to it.
One evening, as the city lights painted your silhouettes with a glow, Aventurine watched you twirl in the warm night air, a contented smile on your face. âYou know, every time I look at you, I canât help but wonder what youâre hiding.â he murmured, amused but curious.
You laughed, your voice like chimes in the quiet. âNow, why would I hide anything from you, Mr. Big Shot Investor?â you teased, leaning into his shoulder with a playful grin. âUnless, of course, youâre willing to wager a bit more of your time to find out?â
He smirked, placing his hand on your waist, leading you into a gentle sway. âWith you, everythingâs a gamble,â he said, âbut for once, I donât mind risking it all.â You laughed softly, eyes sparkling with a hidden depth, drawing him in like the cards he played so expertly.
As you leaned closer, whispering sweet nothings and absurd promises, Aventurine found himself unable to focus on anything but you. You were a mystery he would never fully unravel, yet it was in your lighthearted laughter and gentle teasing that he found something heâd never bet onâa sense of peace.
âStay with me tonight?â he asked, a rare softness crossing his face. You gazed up at him, smiling as if you already knew the answer long before heâd asked. "Only if you promise weâll make it interesting.â you replied, leaving a trail of laughter as you pulled him into the unknown.
Sunday was used to people who followed his vision, who sought comfort in his promises of a painless dream, but you⌠you were a delightful anomaly, never quite fitting into any category heâd known.
âYou look so serious, Sunday,â you cooed, nudging him playfully. âWhy all the gloomy thoughts when youâre with me?â Your smile was radiant, as if the worldâs sorrow never even grazed your spirit, and he found himself taken aback.
âNot everyone views the world with such⌠resilience,â he replied, his tone softer than usual. âMost seek peace, an escape from suffering.â
You chuckled, twirling a strand of his hair as if youâd known him forever. âAh, but what is life without a little excitement? You donât think your âSweetdream Paradiseâ would get boring after a while?â You raised an eyebrow, your tone teasing, yet sincere.
Sundayâs gaze softened, his golden eyes reflecting an unspoken conflict. âPerhaps. But thereâs a kindness in sparing people from pain, is there not?â
You tilted your head, pressing a gentle hand to his cheek. âKindness, yes, but people need a spark too. Just think, Sundayâif we never knew pain, how could we ever appreciate happiness?â You flashed a cheeky smile and continued, âEven you, my noble dreamer, wouldnât want to miss out on a bit of thrill, right?â
He chuckled, an uncommon sound for him, but one that felt entirely natural in your presence. âPerhaps thereâs merit in your way of thinking,â he admitted, his hand resting atop yours. He leaned down, pressing a soft kiss to your knuckles. âBut tonight, Iâd like to learn from your world, where joy mingles with challenge. Show me how you see it.â
You beamed up at him, slipping your arm through his. âItâs a date, then! Letâs make this world unforgettable together.â With you, even Sundayâs unwavering dream began to flicker with shades of something new, something alive.
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Dean Winchester x FreshlyTurned!Reader
It was supposed to be a simple hunt. Something to get the three of you back on your feet after a year of thinking Sam was dead and no contact between you and Dean.
Word Count: 2.1k
Tags: Vampirism, the reader is turned, angst, hurt/comfort, soulless Sam is slacking, blood, vivid descriptions of smell and pain, vomiting, illness comfort, Samuel Campbell (yes he is a warning he sucks), brief mention of the reader killing Dean
Characters: Dean Winchester, Soulless!Sam Winchester, FreshlyTurned!Reader, Samuel Campbell
Anonymous requested: "hi <3 wasnât sure if I could request this or not, feel free to ignore if you donât feel comfortable doing it, but can I request a hurt/comfort fic with dean :) like patching up an injury or smth, thank you !!!"
Read it on AO3!
A/N: Bon Iver + St. Vincent title. Okay, I'm going to preface this by saying this went a little off the rails from what the request asked for, and I hope that this is still generally within the realm of hurt/comfort. Thank you for the request anon, and if you don't think I quite hit the mark, I'm sorry. Other than the haywire writing, this was a ton of fun to write, and made me brush up on my season six lore. Every mistake is my own, heed the tags, and enjoy!
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Blood ran down your chest and stomach, coupled with a hot, searing pain that pulsated from the side of your neck.
The barn you were in was slipping in and out of vision as you tried to focus on a small crack that ran through a few of the ceiling boards.
The reality of your life coming to an end in a barn on the outskirts of a small Midwest town crashed down on you.
It was supposed to be a simple hunt.
Something to get the three of you back on your feet after a year of thinking Sam was dead and no contact between you and Dean.
Rush the vamp nest, take them out, and torch the place for good measure.
It was a fairly simple plan, given the things you three had gone through over the past years. Ghosts, demons, and the damn devil himself. A plan that wouldâve gone through perfectly if Sam followed through on his end.
You were supposed to go through one of the top windows, Dean through the front, and Sam the back.
You found two vamps up in the loft, swiftly cutting through the head of one before the other kicked you straight through the loftâs railing, landing on your back a floor below.
Before you could get to your feet, he was on top of you, yanking the machete in your hands and throwing it across the room. He brought his grotesque mouth to your neck, all sharp needles made of bone. The metallic smell of blood caked to the back of his teeth wafted over your senses.
You could feel the muscles in your neck drawing taught as his teeth attempted to rip out the soft flesh between your neck and shoulder. You tried pushing him off, but the harder you pushed, the more his jaw would close. The only thing stopping him from ripping your throat clean open was Dean running behind him and holding the vampireâs mouth open like a wild animal.
Through your drowning ears, you could hear Dean yelling for Sam to come kill the monster on top of you, but no such relief came.
You didnât know where Sam was, but you knew Dean had a choice to make.
Either let the vampireâs jaw go, letting him yank your throat apart as he scrambled for a weapon to kill it, or continue yelling for his brother who was yet to be found.
Your eyes met his briefly through the struggle of his vice grip on your attacker. You could see confusion, followed by regret, flash in his eyes; like you were telling him it was one way or the other.
As strong as Dean was, you knew that he wasnât strong enough to wait for Sam and still have the energy to hold the vampire on you.
He knew it, too.
You closed your eyes when you saw his hands starting to move away from the vampireâs jaw before they slipped off and he was out of your sight.
You didnât blame him. It was a tough call to make, and if the roles were reversed, you were sure youâd make the same choice.
Thatâs the life, after all.
You were barely conscious enough to recognize Dean dragging you away to prop you up against a wall with a grunt. You heard the rotting door of the barn get kicked open, and you blinked your eyes open enough to see Sam finally make an appearance with the med kit that you stashed in the Impala.
âWhere the hell were you,â Dean spit at his brother with venom. You heard Samâs voice, but the words were garbled and you couldnât put together what he was saying.
Your voice rattled a moan without your control, like a ghastly breath escaping your lungs in an attempt to cling to life. Their voices came to a hush as Dean returned to kneeling at your side.
âHey, hey sweetheart,â his hand cupped the side of your face while the other remained pressed harshly on the gaping wound in your neck, âI need you to focus on me. Just keep your eyes on me, everythingâs gonna be alright.â
You knew you were at the end of your blood tank; in reality, it was a miracle you were still awake at all.
Fuck.
You moved your jaw, Deanâs hand riding on the side of your neck in an attempt to keep the wound covered.
In no human realm should you be awake or alive in this moment.
But, as Sam shoved thick pads of gauze into Deanâs hands, you felt the world stop as a new smell cut through the one of your blood.
A deep, unsatiated hunger, as if you hadnât eaten since the moment you were born, dawned on your tongue. It didnât pile in your stomach like normal hunger; it coursed through your body, wracking you with the urge to find the source of the smell.
Dean.
The smell was coming from Dean.
You forced yourself away from him, kicking against the rickety floor of the barn as he looked at you in shock.
âWhat are you doing? Youâre going to bleed out, please, I know it hurts, butâŚâ his words died in his mouth as you slowly stood to your feet, feeling around the site of the wound. Your hand moved on your skin, slipping in your blood but not dipping against the gaping holes you knew shouldâve been there.
âI need you two to back up away from me, please.â You stated as calmly as you could. Something was clicking in your jaw, and you guessed it was the new teeth forcing their way through your gums.
The two of the brothers stepped away, Sam a little faster than Dean, as you dug your nails into a wooden beam to stop your feet from moving.
You watched them from a distance, whispering to each other with occasional glances your way.
Dean took a step towards you, his hands in front of him cautiously as you firmly planted your feet to the ground.
âSam says he and Samuel may know how to deal with this, he thinks they might have a cure. Iâm going to grab the guy that turned you,â he turned to the body slowly, keeping eye contact with you, âand weâll need you to come with us. Can you do that for me, sweetheart?â
You craned your neck to look around before your eyes were burned with the light creaking through the walls. It burned like the sun had come down to Earth and set it on fire, swirling up to your brain and distorting your thoughts.
âDean,â you heaved out, planting your hands firmly over your eyes, âI donât think-â your brain felt too light to form more words. Everything was too bright, too fast, too much.
Your body buckled at your hips as you heard one of the pair approach you. Hands lightly pressed at the backs of your legs, and you were swept off your feet.
When you woke up, you were sat upright in a chair, alone in one of the many rooms of the Campbellâs compound. You recognized it as one of the rooms dedicated to the many monsters the Campbell family took in; the barred door locked from the outside.
You gasped, holding back a gag as you tasted your rancid breath.
âY/N?â You heard someone call out your name from down the hall, and you scrambled to the bars, wrapping your hands around them.
âDean?â You called out with a weak voice. The owner of the voice turned down the hallway, revealing Deanâs broad figure walking swiftly to you.
He knelt in front of the bars, gaze sweeping over you, taking in your ragged appearance.
âHey,â he said, voice low and steady. âHow are you feeling?â
You laughed bitterly. âLike something chewed me up and spit me out.â The words felt strange coming out of your mouth, as if each syllable scraped against your throat, raw and foreign. You tightened your grip on the bars, the metal cold against your clammy skin.
Dean nodded slowly, glancing down the hallway where Sam and Samuelâs muffled voices were discussing⌠something. Something about a cure. A way out of this. But you could tell by Deanâs face that the chances werenât great.
âListen, theyâre working on it,â he said. âSam and Samuel think they might be able to stop this, to reverse it somehow. You just have to hang in there.â
You met his gaze, searching his eyes for any sign of certainty, anything that might give you hope. âAnd if they canât?â Your voice was softer than youâd meant, but you had to ask. The hunger clawing at your insides was getting stronger, more insistent, and it terrified you more than anything else.
He exhaled sharply, pressing his forehead against the bars. âThen we deal with it.â
You felt a shudder run through you, half from fear and half from the hunger that twisted your insides at the scent of his blood. âDean⌠you donât get it.â You tried to explain the gnawing feeling, how you could practically taste his blood just by being this close. âIâm not safe, not like this.â
Deanâs jaw tightened. âThen Iâll find a way to make you safe. Whatever it takes.â
Just then, Sam and Samuel came down the hall, carrying an ancient-looking book and a glass filled with a thick red liquid. You guessed it had blood in it, by the smell, but various other scents in the drink made you want to double over. Dean turned, his face hardening as he looked at them.
Sam cleared his throat, glancing at you behind the bars. âWe⌠we think this might work. The cureâs based on a blood transfusion from the vampire that turned you, mixed with some ingredients Samuel and the family found.â He met your eyes, his expression somber, with a blankness in his eyes. âItâs gonna hurt. A lot. But if you can make it through⌠thereâs a good chance we can turn you back.â
With a nod, you stepped away from the door, allowing Samuel to unlock it with a key he pulled from his pocket. Dean stared at you intensely as Sam crossed the threshold into the cell. He handed you the cup and quickly stepped back out of the room.
Before either Sam had a chance to close the door again, Dean stepped in.
âWhat are you doing?â Samuel asked, creaking open the door so Dean would have the chance to leave.
âIf this has the chance to kill her, I think we owe her enough to not let her die alone in a cell like some damn dog,â Dean said harshly.
Sam looked as if he was going to say something, but Samuel silently closed the door and locked it.
âDean,â you groaned out, the ache of your new sharp teeth erupting past your gums making it hard to speak, âyou shouldnât have done that.â
âI know you, and I know that out of all of us, youâd be the one with the most control to not eat me alive.â He said wryly, sitting against the wall opposite of you as you leaned against it.
You smiled despite the pain radiating throughout your body. The drink in your hand smelled like blood mixed with something bitter that sat in the back of your throat. You looked a Dean for a moment, before raising the cup a little in a âcheersâ motion and starting to slam the liquid down.
It burned like the first time you drank booze, but there was no warm and fuzzy feeling when you finished. You coughed roughly, dropping the cup and leaning over to sputter your inside up. Dean moved to you within a second, hand holding your hair out of the way as you finally opened your eyes to see what was escaping you.
Blood.
Blood shot from your lips over and over, the only relief found in the form of Deanâs hand gently rubbing your back as your body purged the vampirism straight from you.
You didnât know how long you spent ridding the disease from your body, but it was long enough to create a puddle of blood that soaked into the jeans you were wearing. You brought your nose away from the smell, not realizing that the hunger in you had finally stilled. Every inch of your body was stretched and burning, but the smell that Dean carried with him was finally gone.
He leaned back against the wall again, bringing you against his chest as he whispered near-silent words of encouragement and comfort. The two of you sat in that cell for what seemed like an eternity, not bothering to call out for anyone to let the two of you out.
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This isn't going to turn into All US Politics All The Time blog for four years (all going about as well as possible). And I don't begrudge anyone finding comfort where they can from the various state-level small victoriesâthe GOP losing their incredibly corrupt supermajority in NC and failing to take the governor's seat, various state measures to protect or at least advance abortion rights, my candidate for governor winning in my own state, decent performances in a lot of House races, the predictable Senate disaster not being quite as bad as it might have been in this environment.
But for me, there is something discouraging about these as well, and something overlooked in the comparisons to the 2020 election. To me, the obvious point of comparison is less 2020 than 2016.
[This is not an even slightly positive postâputting most of it below the cut so you can skip if you don't want further doom 'n gloom.]
Trump's victory in 2016 was more shocking, yes, but it came with a lot of qualifications. Most obviously, the majority of people who voted in 2016 didn't vote for him, and while this didn't change the result of the election, it did affect the sense of what was going on nationally. Hillary Clinton, a flawed candidate under investigation during the election (however obviously politically motivated that investigationâand it was reopened right before Election Day) and the object of a 30-year misogynistic campaign of relentless, unabashed right-wing and journalistic hatred, and the leader of a campaign that made some clear tactical missteps, was preferable to Trump for the majority of voters even without certainty about what his administration would do. And people could and did lie to themselves about what a Trump administration would be like because he was a posturing blowhard who'd never held office. I always thought "Trump's just saying stuff, he's really going to outflank Hillary from the left!!!" was stupid as fuck, but it's a thing people convinced themselves of.
But in 2024, we know how bad the Trump administration would be (and there's no reason to think this one won't be worseâquite the opposite). We saw how his COVID response made a bad situation orders of magnitude worse to the point that morgues were overflowing with dead bodies. We know about how unethical he is because he's been found legally liable in relation to crimes of corruption and rape. He encouraged a coup to overthrow the last election. And Kamala Harris has far less political baggage than HRC did, is more progressive, ran a better campaign, had no October Surprise, and yet is losing the popular vote quite badly (right now, with 89% of the vote counted, Trump is ahead by about five million votes).
And seeing that people are voting to protect abortion rights in their state or ousting obviously corrupt state officials etc and then also voting for Trump is on one levelâokay, so ordinary voters only sort of align with the cackling evil of GOP politicians' schemes and will at times vote to restrict their awful policies even in very red states. On a pragmatic level, that's better than being fully aligned with those policies. But on another level, I find it appalling. This loss isn't about any particular policy and I think you're fooling yourself if you think any One Magic Trick could have changed this resultâthat was possible in 2016, potentially, but not in this election. A lot of people are voting against specific Republican agendas and then voting for Donald Trump and JD fucking Vance.
Obviously racist misogyny (and misogynoir particularly) is likely a major culprit given that this disparity wasn't present even in far more unfavorable-on-paper conditions in 2016 against a profoundly unpopular white woman after an eight-year Democratic administration. There's the weird cult of personality around Trump. Etc. But I'm also thinking about how the most successful period for Democrats during this cycle was when they veered away from anything to do with actual policies and were like "these Republican politicians are the weird freaks with bad vibes actually." I'm thinking about how the vast majority of the country went significantly rightwards even in many places that Harris or Democrats won.
And it's like... maybe we won't become an autocracy, maybe he'll have another disastrously awful administration that isn't as much worse than the first as we fear, and public opinion will turn against him again and his sheer unpopularity will drive backlashes favoring Democrats in 2026 and 2028. But even that best case scenario isn't fixing what's wrong here.
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Im Only Gonna Drag You Down
Eris x Reader
Summary: You've been fine, but your depression comes out of nowhere. Now all you can feel is numb as you look for an escape from reality. Eris takes it upon himself to help you through it.
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cw: I'm so sorry... the demons told me to write this /s
The morning sun cast a soft glow across the room, illuminating the dust motes that danced lazily in the air. You stirred under the warm blankets, eyes slowly adjusting to the light that seeped through the gap in the curtains.
Your hand reached out automatically to the cold space beside you, expecting to feel the reassuring warmth of your mate's body. But the emptiness only served as a cruel reminder that you were alone.
Eris had left early to attend to him duties in the court, giving you space to deal with your tumultuous emotions.
You hadn't seen him since the night before, when you'd broken down, the weight of your depression finally too much to bear. His eyes had been filled with a mix of pain and determination as he held you tightly, whispering soothing words into your ear. But even his gentle embrace couldn't chase away the numbness that consumed you.
Now, lying in the quiet of the room, you felt the heaviness of your soul pressing down on you like a leaden blanket.
You tried to sit up, but your body felt like it was made of stone, unresponsive to your desperate attempts to break free.
The once comforting scent of him on the pillow only served to deepen the ache in your chest. You could almost hear the echo of his footsteps, the sound of his laughter, but it was all just a taunting memory.
With a deep breath, you pushed yourself upright, swinging your legs over the side of the bed. Your bare feet touched the cold wooden floor, sending a jolt up your spine.
You knew you needed to get moving, to do somethingâanythingâto keep the suffocating emptiness at bay.
You glanced around the room, eyes lingering on the half-empty mug of tea he'd brought you last night, the candle that had burned down to a stub. The sight of them made your stomach clench, a reminder that even in the midst of your despair, he was there, trying to be your beacon of light.
The sound of a bird's sweet trill outside the window pulled you from your thoughts.
You stumbled over to the sill, gripping the edge for support. The sight of the vibrant world outside was jarring, quite the contrast to the gloom that clung to you.
You watched the sun rise higher in the sky, the colors shifting from pale pinks to vibrant oranges and yellows. It was a beautiful morning, a perfect day that you had no right to spoil with your dark thoughts.
With a heavy sigh, you turned away from the window and reached for your robe. The fabric was soft against your skin, but it couldn't soothe the turmoil within.
You shuffled over to the washbasin, the cold water a shock to your system as you splashed it onto your face. You stared at your reflection, searching for any semblance of the person you once were.
The eyes that looked back at you were hollow, lifeless pools of despair.
What does he even see in you?
The question whispered through your mind, as persistent as the buzz of a pesky fly. You knew you weren't whole, that your shattered pieces were held together by a thread so thin it could snap at any moment.
Yet Eris had claimed you as his mate, promising to stand by your side, to cherish and protect you. The weight of his love was a burden you didn't feel worthy of carrying.
You managed to get dressed, the act of pulling on your clothes feeling like a monumental achievement.
As you stepped out into the corridor, the castle's usual bustle felt alien and overwhelming. Voices, laughter, and the clatter of footsteps echoed around you, each sound a knife twisting in your gut.
You craved the solitude of the library, a place where the words in the ancient tomes had once offered you comfort.
The library was a sanctuary of sorts, a place where you could lose yourself in the tales of heroes and myths, if only for a brief reprieve from reality.
As you approached the grand oak doors, they swung open, revealing Eris standing there, a book tucked under his arm, his gaze searching for you. His eyes widened with relief when he saw you, and he strode over, his movements full of concern.
"How are you feeling?" he asked gently, his voice a soothing balm.
You tried to smile, but it felt forced.
"As well as can be expected, I suppose." The words were heavy, a lie coated in a thin layer of hope.
Eris studied you intently, his gaze sweeping over your drawn features. He stepped closer, his hand reaching out to brush a stray strand of hair from your face.
"Do you want to talk about it?"
You hesitated, the words caught in your throat like a lump of unyielding ice. But the warmth of his touch was a gentle prod, urging you to open up. With a shaky exhale, you nodded.
"I just...I don't know what happened. I felt okay, and then everything just...crashed."
He led you to a secluded corner of the library, his hand never leaving yours. The scent of aged parchment and ink filled the air, a familiar comfort that did little to ease the storm raging in your chest. Eris sat beside you on the plush velvet bench, his eyes never leaving yours as you spoke.
"It's like...everything just stopped making sense," you whispered, the words raw and painful. "I feel like I'm stuck in a fog, and I can't find my way out."
Eris's grip tightened on your hand, his thumb tracing soothing circles.
"Depression can be like that," he said, his voice low and soothing. "It doesn't always come with a warning. Sometimes it just...appears."
You nodded, his understanding piercing the fog ever so slightly.
"I know. It's just...I didn't think it would come back. I thought I was stronger than this."
Eris leaned in, his eyes filled with a fierce tenderness.
"Strength isn't about never falling, it's about always getting back up." He paused, his expression earnest. "And you will. We'll face this together."
But the words felt hollow, the weight of exhaustion dragging at your very soul.
"What if I'm too tired to keep fighting?" The question slipped out, a quiet admission of defeat that hung heavy between you.
"Then I'll carry you," Eris said firmly.
His hand cupped your cheek, the warmth of his palm seeping into your skin.
"We'll fight together."
You searched his eyes, looking for a crack in his resolve, a hint of doubt. But all you found was a steadfast belief in you, a conviction that you were worth fighting for.
"It's not your burden. You deserve someone better."
"Someone better?" Eris's voice was a soft rumble of disbelief. "You are my heart, my mate. There is no one better for me than you. We face this as one, just as we face everything else."
His thumb brushed away a tear that had escaped your lashes, the warmth of his skin leaving a trail of comfort.
You leaned into his touch, feeling the tension in your shoulders ease a fraction.
"But what if I drag you down with me?"
Eris's eyes searched yours, full of a fierce love that seemed too bright for the dimly lit room.
"Then I'll fly with you, even into the darkest depths of the earth. I swore an oath to you, and I meant it. Through every joy and sorrow, I am yours, and you are mine."
He took a deep breath, the air in the library seeming to still around you both.
"But I need you to do one thing for me."
Your heart thudded in your chest, hope and fear mingling in an uneasy dance.
"What?"
"Let me help you," Eris said simply, his eyes never wavering from yours. "Allow me to share this burden, to support you when you can't stand alone."
You bit your lip, the tears welling up again.
"I don't want to be a burden."
Eris's gaze softened, a gentle smile tugging at the corners of his mouth.
"You're not. You're my partner, my equal. And in the same way that I would fight to the death for you, I'll stand by you in this too."
He paused, his voice dropping to a whisper. "Please, let me in."
The sincerity in his words pierced through the fog, and you found yourself nodding, the first real spark of hope flickering in your chest. He leaned over, wrapping his arms around you in a fierce embrace. You melted into him, feeling the warmth and solidity of his body, the steady beat of his heart beneath your cheek.
"I'll read to you," Eris murmured, pulling back to look into your eyes. "You just listen and rest."
He picked up the book he'd brought, the title long forgotten in the face of your pain. As he opened it to a random page, you leaned your head against his shoulder, the comfort of his presence seeping into your very bones.
His voice, deep and melodious, began to weave a tale of adventure and love, the words wrapping around you like a warm embrace. The steady rhythm of his reading soon lulled you into a doze, the story's cadence acting as a lullaby to quiet the chaos in your mind.
The sun shone in your eyes as you sat up in your small bed, the light revealing the cramped room you called home.
The smell of burnt toast wafted in from the kitchen, a reminder of your mundane existence.
Your hand reached out to the cold space beside you, searching for Eris's warmth, but all you found was the chill of the pillow.
Your heart sank as reality crashed down on you like a lead weight.
You pushed yourself off the bed, the springs protesting with a groan. Your bare feet hit the floor, the coldness jolting you fully awake.
The dream had been so vivid, so real, that for a moment you had truly believed in the fantasy of a world where you had a mate, a love so strong it could conquer your deepest fears.
But it was just a figment of your imagination, a desperate attempt to escape the loneliness that had become your constant companion.
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It felt, to Ria at least, that the two of them had more in common than that realised. And that brought a sense of comfort. There were times where Ria felt that she was letting her siblings down, that her best was never quite good enough. Juniper seemed to understand that, and Ria was glad to know that she wasn't alone.
"Hey, any time you need a pep talk, feel free to find me. I'm always around somewhere, either here or at The Golden Spoon." She said with a chuckle, hoping that the two of them would cross paths again sometime. "Us oldest siblings gotta stick together, right?"
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That sounded shockingly similar to what Cricket had said. That even in death, their love for each other remained there and strong. Her stepmother would say similar things. That love could truly conquer all. She'd never seen an example of that as good as what they'd gone though. What Juni had put them all through.
"Well that's not very hard," Juni shrugged. Supporting her sibling was probably the easiest thing she'd ever done in her life. And she would continue to do it even if it wasn't. It was a job. It was her job. "You know it was really nice to meet you out here. I think I needed to hear those things today."
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Salute to a Brief, Precious Companion
I just came home from the vet. If you missed the notice on Friday, Rocky has been euthanized due to failing health. I'm a little bit of a mess right now, so apologies if this post isn't coherent or it's overly-emotional. I just feel I should pay my respects and tell you all Rocky's story. Be prepared. This is a long one.
This was Rocky. Nicknames included Wocky, Rocky-Pocky, Rockadocious, and Little Man. He was an incredibly sweet and incredibly skinny critter who somehow even Jupiter outsized. I only had him for 7 or 8 months, but what lovely months they were.
Rocky came to me from a horrible situation - someone who is technically part of the family (and do I dearly wish they weren't) is one of the worst pet owners I've ever seen in my life, and he regrettably had Rocky for over 10 years. That is, 10 years trapped in a single room with a connected bathroom where his rarely-cleaned litterbox (singular, shared with multiple cats) was located. He didn't have anything: no comfort, no entertainment, pellets that could barely pass for cat food, and no attention. This was supposedly to save him from a dog that had a habit of killing every small animal it came across, but once that dog died, as did Rocky's companions, he still wasn't allowed out of that room because the idiot didn't want cat fur all over his furniture. Mind you, his dishes in the pantries had dust all over them, if that tells you how he lives his life.
Anyway, a relative of his called me and begged me to take Rocky, being unable to stand his solitude and wails for affection any time she went to that house. I wasn't looking for another cat at the time, but I agreed, on the condition that the former owner pay for the initial vet visits and whatever treatments were needed. Rocky was very visibly unwell when I saw him - underweight, crooked-backed and smelling of sickness. I never had a high opinion of his owner in the first place, but as time went on and I saw the effects of Rocky's ailments and the consequences of him never seeing a vet in those 10 years... well. If murder was legal.
Rocky's first 2 weeks in my house were disastrous. He attacked Moses, Jupiter and Moonshine any time he saw them, had no idea that he wasn't allowed to just pee wherever he wanted, and was frightened and confused by toys. It took several months for him to understand the concept of batting a ball around for fun, and he never did fully get that sleeping on a soft pile of blankets is much nicer than a hard table. I was extremely close to seeking out another home for him, certain that this wasn't going to work and I had just ruined the energy of the house for my other poor cats.
But somehow, Rocky turned around! He realized the other cats weren't a threat to him (all three of them are excellent at handling tense situations with fellow felines, and they never struck back or hissed at him during his rampage), and started seeking them out for companionship. Of course, it had been a few years since he'd seen another living cat, and he'd kind of ruined his initial impression on them with his poor behavior, so it took a while for them to fully relax around him. He and Jupiter very quickly were forced to become friends as both of them wanted on my lap at all times and weren't willing to give up their seat to each other. They eventually sought each other out and would sleep together even without me being there.
Rocky practiced being friendly on Jupiter, including grooming him. Amusingly, Rocky didn't quite remember how to groom another cat, so he ended up licking the fur the wrong way and getting Jupiter all slobbery, like a dog had licked his head. Jupiter never minded, purring along and letting Rocky do his thing.
Moonshine was more hesitant to let Rocky sit on her or curl up by her, but Moonshine's never held a grudge in her life and conceded towards the latter third of our time with him.
Moses...
Well, y'all know Moses. He was just as grumpy with this other old man as he is with everyone else. Though interestingly, over this weekend, he was unusually kind to Rocky, and actively laid down next to him and let Rocky touch him.
In fact, everyone was extra nice this weekend. I suspect they knew something was up from my energy and mood. They were sticking close to me as well.
As Rocky got more comfortable in the house, he really showed his personality. He followed me around everywhere, couldn't force out a loud meow if his life depended on it, wanted on my lap at all times (making up for a decade of loneliness, I guess), and demonstrated a sweetness and cheerfulness that couldn't be beat. He was, by far, the best at taking medicine that I have ever experienced with a pet. He would swallow his pills with no struggle and allowed me to give him shots of vitamins without so much as a twitch. It's extra-impressive for how long he went without those things. Really, his only fault was that he would have accidents around the house - everything else about him was wonderful.
I knew he was a hospice case when I took him in. He was sick and old; he wasn't long for this world, whatever I did. I still feel like I failed him for only giving him half a year of a comfortable, happy life compared to the decade of misery he experienced. Everyone tells me that it's quality over quantity, and that he got to live a wonderful last bit, and I should be proud of that. I hear them. But my friends can attest that I've spent the last two weeks kicking a tantrum about how unfair it is that he didn't get more time with me. I won't pretend I'm the very best pet owner in the whole wide world, but god knows I'm at least better than his previous owner, and I provided everything I had, whatever it costed. I felt like I owed Rocky at least a year of joy and love, and he didn't even get that. It's not fair. It's just not fair.
It's amazing how attached you can get to an animal you know will die soon.
Rocky's ashes will be coming to me in a couple weeks. He'll join the rest of my pets on my desk, and that way he'll stay with me. I'm grateful that he got to fall asleep in my arms and that his pain and weakness is over. Wherever he is, he's comfortable.
I'm sorry I couldn't do more for you, Rocky. You deserved the world.
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Cait and Sam watching their own wedding night episode? Yes aaand no. We all know what these two lovebirds did...like come on who wouldn't? I escalated a wee bit. That's one of my longest Oneshots (almost 5000 words) and I'm gonna continue this with a hugh story about them. Living the forbidden lie in all his cuteness.
Warning: starts with super fluffy and lovely cuteness and turns into a soft 18+ hot mess. Sam beeing Sam and Cait beeing most of the time Cait with slightly cute shyness
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âĄChap.1-Directing their own happy hourâĄ
A crazy year is over. Filming has long since been completed and the premiere of the first season is over. Several interviews have been held and the first episodes are already on TV. It's September, cool and unpleasantly rainy in LA this year and the day before the premiere of the seventh episode. It's called 'The Wedding Night'.
Cait was out and about, drenched after a conversation with one of the co-producers. It was up in the air whether there would be a second season, but the prospects looked good. She didn't think to bring an umbrella. Why in LA, where it is usually quite warm, even in September.
She ran to her car, the newspaper just over her head for protection, and got in. 'Jesus H. Roosevelt Christ... What the hell is wrong with this weather?' she cursed and was completely soaked. She quickly switched on the engine and turned up the heating. As she drove off, her mobile phone suddenly rang in its holder on the dashboard of the car. 'Hey Sam,' she said simply and focussed on the road.
'Have you been bathing?' he asked wryly, obviously making himself comfortable.
'Very funny...the weather in LA almost reminds me of home,' she was finding it difficult to speak. She was shaking a little and had trouble concentrating. 'I'll call you later if it's unfavourable?' he asked and she said no, perhaps a little too quickly. 'Ah ok' he paused for a moment. 'Tell me what's going on, I'll be fine' she said with chattering teeth and he had to smile, sitting up straight again and looking thoughtful. 'What do you think about travelling to my place and I'll tell you what's going on when you've warmed up at my place?' he asked sincerely without any ulterior motives.
Her cheeks flushed, which wasn't just because she was cold. 'All right, I'm on my way. The same hotel as always?' she asked and he replied with a quick "Yes". The rain didn't stop, on the contrary, it even got heavier. She parked the car in one of the parkingslots in front of the hotel and dashed inside as quickly as she could. Once inside, she asked at reception for the surname Heughan. The servant nodded conspicuously. 'Ah yes, Mr Heughan, he had informed me. He's in room 0410,' he said and with a very friendly smile, he pointed down one of the corridors. Cait thanked him and walked towards his room. Once there, she knocked on his door without thinking. He opened it for her and looked her up and down briefly before she simply entered his hotel room. He looked after her, slightly amused, and went into the bathroom.
When he came out again, he found her standing by the radiator, shivering slightly. He went to her and put a towel over her shoulders. She looked at him gratefully and unconsciously smiled far too sweetly. 'Thank you,' she said quietly and his eyes stayed on hers for longer than he wanted. The reason why he grabbed her towel and started playfully rubbing her hair dry. 'You should bring an umbrella next time,' he said with amusement. 'It wasn't raining when I was out' she gave him an annoyed look as he then went to the wardrobe to lend her some of his own clothes.
'Here' He held the clothes out to her wordlessly and she took them hesitantly. 'It's not going to stop raining that quickly for now. You can spend the night if you want. I'll sleep on the couch,' he said as he looked out of the window. She gave him a look of disbelief. 'Oh come on, we slept anywhere on set where there was space and time. You can sleep in the bed with me' she said dryly without thinking about it and Sam turned to her with his typical look, eyebrow raised slightly, he nodded.
She was right. Time on set was often pretty tough. Sometimes there was no time to sleep and filming often lasted well over 24 hours. Sometimes one of the props or simply a bench was a comfortable place to sleep for a short break. But now they are no longer on set, there is no one around to watch them.
'What did you want to talk about?' she asked curiously as she came out of the bathroom, dressed in one of his big hoodies. She almost sank into it and yet it looked great on her. 'Right, exactly... I wanted to ask you if you'd like to watch tomorrow's episode of Outlander with me' he said and she looked at him curiously. 'What episode was it again?' she asked, rubbing her face tiredly. 'The seventh episode,' he said, unconsciously tense. 'oh ok' came from her, benignly ignorant. 'What's the name of the episode, I'm just too tired to remember which one the last one left off at,' she said, pouring herself a sip of the wine on the table.
'The Wedding Night...' She choked and coughed for a moment. Now it dawned on her. It was that episode. She remembered all the scenes on set too well.
'Are you ok?' he asked without making any facial expressions. 'Yes... I'm sorry,' she apologised and put her glass down again for safety reasons. 'But we're going to need more wine,' she said with amusement and her grin was almost unpleasant. The mood was strange. He scrutinised her carefully while she just stared at the wine, motionless and thoughtful.
She looked slowly at him, his gaze still fixed on her. You would have thought he was burning every corner of her face. It made her nervous, but not in an unpleasant way. She felt the heat in her cheeks and stood up abruptly. 'I think I've spilt...I'll be right back' she disappeared into the bathroom in a flash. She was aware of what was happening, or so she thought, but she was still unsure. He was and is her co-partner. What would the media say, Starz or everyone involved in the big picture? She didn't realise she was breathing faster.
'Cait, are you all right?' he asked anxiously from behind the door. 'Y..yes...I'll be right back.' She splashed water on her face and then came out again. 'And you're sure we should sleep in the same bed?' he asked with raised eyebrows, almost admonishingly. 'That's fine, it's ok,' she said dryly and gave him a cheeky look. She stood in front of him. He was so tall that she always had to look up at him. 'But only if you change too...I doubt you want to sleep in those jeans...you already hated them on set' she looked at him challengingly and tugged at his collar. He enjoyed her closeness. It was clear that he had had feelings for her for some time. It was impossible not to, given the sight of her and her wonderful character. But whether she would ever be serious about him was an open question. He doesn't push her, gives her room to manoeuvre and is patient. Like a crocodile patiently waiting to snatch its prey.
He gave her a charming smile and went to his wardrobe, took out more comfortable clothes and looked at her briefly. She sat down on the couch and unconsciously inspected him as he disappeared into the bathroom. He didn't miss her gaze and when he came out again, he saw her sitting on the couch with her head resting on her hand. She grinned at him. 'Do you want to watch something or are you too tired and want to go to sleep?' he asked solidly, closing the curtains. He turned round and noticed that she already had jumped into bed. She snuggled into the big duvet. He laughed briefly and shook his head playfully. 'well...I take it you've had a full day today...want to talk?' he came round and lay down in bed too. They both looked at each other, snuggled together under a blanket, she was quiet for a moment and had to look at him. It's a completely different feeling alone without people from the set. Far away from all the other trailers, other people or cameras. There was no one here. The thought of it made her heart beat gently faster and she almost forgot to speak, let alone breathe, at the sight of him.
'Yeah...I had a call today and two other annoying appointments before that. I've been travelling all day...then there's the rain...I'm honestly glad to be with you right now' the last words came out of her innocently and unusually meekly. She is usually the type of person who says what she thinks, with consideration for the feelings of others. But it's easier with him. She can be whatever she wants, let herself go with him. He listened to her quietly and attentively.
'Sam... what is it between us?' She looked him in the eye and tried to understand the moment. He brushed a strand of hair out of her face with a wave of his hand, ignoring his own pounding heart. 'We're just lying here talking,' he replied briefly in a low voice. Jesus, can't he stop being cute for once? Struggling to concentrate from his voice and the sight of him, Cait swallowed with difficulty, unable to find an answer.
It was so quiet. Neither of them said anything. Her breathing was much faster and without thinking she snuggled up to him, hiding her face in his chest to hide her burning cheeks. She could hear his heart beating softly and realised that it was also much faster. Sam took her carefully in his arms and decided to remain silent for the time being, to savour the moment. He could smell her hair and buried his face in it a little, kissing it and noticed her smile. He did the same and had to smile. As always, no one needs to say anything to understand.
The sun's warm rays tickled Cait's cheeks and she moved slowly. A large, warm body lay close to her. You really don't need a heater when you're lying next to this 1.92m tall man. She grinned happily as she realised who it was. He was still asleep. She took this moment to observe his sleeping form. He looked so content and balanced, still holding her tightly in his arms.
His calm breathing was soothing, like a lullaby. It was nothing new, sleeping with him, hearing his breathing, feeling him against her, his embrace and yet this time it was completely different. She felt a tingling in her stomach at the mere thought of wanting to touch him. It made her nervous and she suddenly looked away from him only to look back at him again. Her gaze kept switching between his lips and the air she was trying to stare into. No Cait...you better not. Once you start, it will end badly... she thought to herself and thought back to their time on set. They often kissed away from the camera. Out of spontaneous situations to practise, of course...right? The heat rose in her face again. She tried to control her thoughts, but her heart was making it damn hard. She didn't even realise that she had come closer to him, her face close to his, her breathing as if she were climbing a mountain that was out of reach. However, with an unmistakable sound in her voice, she freed herself from his grip in a flash and sat down on the edge of the bed.
Without realising it, she was sweating. She clutched her forehead and tried to get her breathing under control. Damn Balfe, a little more self-control! Her thoughts were waging a war she was in danger of losing. He opened one eye and watched her actions. She flinched slightly as he began to stretch and looked slightly to the side in his direction. He couldn't help but grin self-consciously. She was so cute. He didn't know her to be that shy or insecure. On set, they could both let Jamie and Claire hang out, kiss or touch each other however they wanted. Nobody would have thought it was anything serious, at least that's what they both thought.
She stood up abruptly and looked nervously at him. 'I'm going to freshen up,' she said briefly and Sam let himself fall into his pillow with a smile. He wanted the time to last. To savour this precious moment, just with her...just with Cait.
He made breakfast and the rest of the day was relaxed. Except for a few little things Sam had to do this time, the day was uneventful. Cait spent the time in his room and fell asleep on his couch once again. She was far too tired from the last few days, not to mention the previous night. Snuggled up with one of Sam's woollen blankets, she slept peacefully. The blanket smelled wonderfully of him and transported her to dreamland far too quickly. When the Scotsman returned later that day, he saw her curled up on the couch. Still asleep. He put the key away and took off his shoes to go to her. With quiet steps, he stood next to her and looked at her without a word. She looked so innocent. He often did, watching her sleep. Her soft purring when she slept. Her soft smile when he always secretly snuggled up to her, just to be close to her unnoticed. He loved it.
Sam simply stood still for another moment and looked down at her thoughtfully, bent down and got very close to her face. He could feel her breath on him. The corner of his mouth twitched impatiently and he gave her a delicate kiss on her soft lips. His heart did what it wanted and almost ran away from him, but he didn't care. The kiss was short and so gentle that Cait didn't wake up, at least that's what he thought and realised he was wrong. The ball of blanket and the supposed Mrs Fraser inside it moved gently. She opened her eyes just a crack to somehow recognise what in God's name was happening. Sam was already scurrying about, unpacking a few things he'd been shopping for. There were a few bottles of wine and something to nibble on.
She sat up in a daze, her hair in a wild mess and yawned tiredly. 'What time is it?' she asked with a husky voice. 'It's already 7 pm. How long have you been asleep?' He brought two bottles of wine to the table and two glasses. 'Too long... Well, I don't think I'll fall asleep that quickly watching TV,' she said with amusement and ran her hands through her hair to fix it a little. 'Are you hungry?' he asked, unpacking a bag at the same time. It was Asian Food. 'Yes,' she replied curtly and watched the Scotsman without realising it. Her gaze was dreamy, as if she was looking at the jackpot she had won. He came over to her and set her something to eat. She had to smile. Of course he knew exactly what her favourite food was. 'Thank you,' she said and they both ate some of the food.
'Do you remember filming the episode?' he asked when he had finished eating.
'Yes, quite a lot. I'm curious how it was edited. Some days were so long and tiring,' she took a breath and looked at him. 'It was sometimes very difficult to stay relaxed and yet... You made it easy for me to shoot the more difficult scenes,' he said with a smile and looked at her in detail. She couldn't avoid his gaze and was caught up in it. She quickly picked up her wine glass and took a good sip.
Cait laughed softly as she remembered. 'Did you remember the scene when Claire said "go to bed"? God, how many times we replayed that just because our producer never liked the look in your eyes and then I said "to fuck" off camera, or so I thought? Your look afterwards was exactly what they wanted to see and it was recorded,' she laughed and took another sip. Sam did the same and poured the red wine down his throat. 'How could I forget?' his voice sounded ironic with an amused undertone. 'At least it wasn't too cold when we were naked for what felt like 24 hours,' he said and poured more wine.
She looked silently into her wine glass after his words, then raised her eyes and literally stared at him. He's like an accident... you don't want to look but you can't help but stare at him with curiosity and anticipation. Too mesmerised by his gaze, she once again couldn't get a word out. He could throw a bone now and she would run after it like a dog. He raised an eyebrow questioningly. 'The episode is about to start,' he breathed so quietly that she had to think for a moment whether she had heard him correctly.
Sam came closer to her, looked deep into her eyes and was tired of seeing her like this. She was literally begging to be touched. The Scotsman didn't hesitate a second longer and kissed her gently yet firmly. Cait was briefly surprised and yet she accepted the kiss without hesitation. As if they had kissed hundreds of times before, he brought her to him by taking her face in his hand. He stroked her cheek tenderly and was the first to break the kiss. Cait just looked at him. She could have sworn her heart was stuck one floor below. He smiled at her and she did the same, returning his smile with a blissful grin. He took the remote control without another word.
The atmosphere was strangely relaxed, but you could just feel the crackle. He switched on the TV and the episode started. She looked over at him expectantly, so he couldn't help but lean over and grab her, cuddling her right next to him against his chest. Cait took a contented breath and drank more of the wine as she savoured his closeness and warmth.
They both made comments here and there and had to laugh and shake their heads when Rupert and Angus burst in. 'I remember one of them fell badly once,' Sam laughed and they both grinned. Then came the scene where Claire asks Jamie to bed. Both the Scot and the Irishwoman watched the scene tensely and had to smile again and again. 'How many times we had to repeat that...but you did a good job,' she said contentedly to distract them from what was actually happening. Jamie grabbed Claire's breast. 'Christ, how many times you made me laugh, Cait...you kept making jokes about my breasts,' Sam said with amusement and Cait turned bright red. 'Well I was nervous as hell...we had to take our clothes off...I was afraid I'd ruin your view of naked women' she said sheepishly and he took her chin and forced her to look at him.
'my god Cait...how can you say that...' he whispered more and she looked at him nervously and slightly guiltily. Before she could say anything, Sam beat her to it. 'Your body is beautiful.' She stared at him and their gazes parted as the scene came where Jamie plopped on top of her and penetrated her. The situation couldn't have been stranger. It was weird for both of them to see each other like this. It looked a thousand times hotter on the screen than when they were both shooting that scene over and over again.
Sam grinned at Claire's sweet words when she said she gets crushed by Jamie. He noticed Cait's tension, she squeezed her legs tightly together and banished all her thoughts to the farthest corner of her brain cells. To no avail. Sam looked down at her and took the wine glass from her hand. How much had they actually had now? Both bottles of wine were empty.
Cait looked at him questioningly, but she knew the answer. Sam slowly stroked her legs and hesitantly approached her face. Her breathing increased, her lower lip quivering in response to his touch. She closed the gap and kissed him. But this time more demanding and with far less restraint. Gripped by what was on the television, Cait pressed herself closer to him and without thinking about it, she sat on his lap. He gasped briefly under the stormy kisses only to continue on her neck. She let out a sigh. A soft, pleasurable sound that he knew all too well. It had almost always driven him crazy when they gave their all during filming and he wasn't allowed to have her completely. Shooting a scene is one thing. Shooting naked is something else, but constantly filming wild sex scenes in the nude with such a beautiful woman is simply torture. With her playful but otherwise confident character, he would have liked to show how much he really liked her. He constantly had to touch her. On her breasts, her body and getting closer to areas with his face that made him want to seriously give up control of himself.
Meanwhile, no matter what was on the television, she only had eyes for her Scotsman. She looked at him dreamily, losing herself in his gaze. Everything about him is so attractive. His hair, which she now clung to in order not to lose her mind. His upper body, his beard and God damn his face, with his ice-cold blue eyes that almost robbed her of her will. She unconsciously moved onto his lap when she realised that he was already more than ready for action. Now she smirked cheekily at him, causing him to bite his lower lip. 'You little beast....now you're showing your true colours,' he said almost choking and his gaze didn't leave hers for a second. Somehow they knew it, but it was different here too. He took off her hoodie and just looked at her for a moment. As if he couldn't believe what he saw, he grabbed her breasts as if he wanted to make sure they were the same as usual. He kissed one of them gently and played around with the other.
She leant her head back with pleasure and let him do his thing. 'Sam....' she breathed and looked at him, slightly dazed. 'You too....' she whispered excitedly and took off his shirt too. She looked at him with red cheeks. It didn't matter whether it was the alcohol or Sam's fault. No matter who she drank from, she would be intoxicated by both. She touched him on the shoulder and ran her fingers down his neck to the area below his belly button, from which a few hairs flashed out. Sam's eyes were fixed on Cait with an expression as if she were made of glyphs and he was trying to decipher them.
She grabbed his belt with her hand and tried to open it, but this turned out to be difficult when sitting. He grabbed her ass and literally threw her on the couch, took off his pants only to stand completely naked in front of her. Her gaze was discreetly surprised and looked at his best piece. She was not prepared for that now. They always wore protection on set, which didn't help much when Sam had a hard-on, but it covered everything. She swallowed and for a second a shy shadow could be seen in her eyes. "We want to stay fair, my dear," he pointed to her pants and came closer to her playfully. She looked at him nervously and had to smile to cover up her nervousness.
"Do you want to continue?" he asked as a precaution and in answer she nodded and looked at him with a cheeky, innocent face. He grinned confidently and helped her undress. There she was, completely exposed with a red glow on her cheeks. They had both played through this position so many times before, but this one moment now belonged to the two of them alone.
He grabbed her by the hand to pull her up to him. Cait stood directly in front of him and looked him in the eye anything but uncertainly. She literally felt his heartbeat, as if the two were synchronously forming a unit. She took his hands and intertwined her fingers in his. "Caitriona you are so beautiful" proudly sounded in his voice and she smiled happily at him. "Just you and me" she whispered lovingly, looked at him longingly and Sam couldn't ask any more questions, because she had just answered them.
He kissed her, longing and greedy, clawed at her ass to lift her up and faltered briefly. There was no cut, nothing that interrupted them despite the swaying and could stop the lust of both. He let himself fall back a little on the couch, with her on his lap, without even thinking about breaking the kiss.
Now nothing went according to the script. He was the director of this scene and decided how to proceed in accordance with his Irish beauty. She enjoyed every touch, every second and breathed heavier as he caressed her breasts. Cait became more impatient and looked at him almost begging. He grabbed her ass again to lift her and positioned her so that Sam could penetrate her without any problems. He smiled... She was more than ready. A groan on her part indicated that the tackle would continue as he was into her completely. The Hugh Scot didn't want to slow down, not to be careful that something unexpected happened.
Cait moved and he adjusted to her. This time he couldn't help but moan quietly. She rested her forehead on his and continued moving. Regardless of the hotel neighbors, neither of them cared how loud they were.
He had to smile at the sight of her. She moaned subtly differently than when they were filming. It sounded the same as always, but there was a hint of honesty in the sound of her lovely voice. The sound that makes his bones tremble and underlines the pleasure he is really giving her. Flowing through the alcohol and the rush of adrenaline that they both experience and that made them both sweat, he felt how aroused she already was. He concentrated on her to give her the moment of happiness, but had great difficulty enduring it, especially with her moaning. She really deeply enjoying it.
'Sam...' damn it, he tried so hard not to lose control, but moaning his name like that almost pushed him over the edge. He gasped heavily and bit her shoulder. Finally, she felt a wave rushing deep inside her and completely flooding her. She moaned louder and let him feel how much he loved her without ever having said it.
'Sassenach!' He gasped at the same time as her and let himself fall completely as he came inside her, clawing a little too hard at her round ass. She sank exhausted onto his shoulder and gasped for air. Completely out of breath, both of them tried to understand the situation they were in.
'Everything ok...Mo Chridghe?' He hesitated at first, but he had to say it. He loved her and had no doubt that this would ever change. She was too perfect, her temperament, her way of dealing with him and her laugh. God, how much he loved her laugh. The Scotsman lovingly wrapped the wool blanket around her and let her get some air, but it was starting to make him nervous because she was still hiding into his chest. 'Is everything ok, Cait?' he asked nervously. She turned her head so that her face was directed towards the crook of his neck and he could feel her breath. He got goosebumps.
'I love you...' she whispered softly to him. Three words that could throw him off balance and almost made his heart stop. A smile twitched across his lips. 'I love you too... Sassenach...' he said lovingly and playfully and felt her smile. 'What do we tell the producers?" she asked, quite worried. 'Nothing at first. It will be difficult to hide it... at least partially. Maybe they'll let us do it and accept the unspoken facts. Filming should be easier for both of us,' he tried to explain and stroked her back. Suddenly he looked at her with a Jamie expression, as if he had traveled through time in just a second. 'Could you now...' he paused briefly.
'What?' now she looked at him confused. 'I mean we didn't use protection...' he got nervous and the Irish woman had to giggle. 'No...that's out of the question, don't worry' she said. He smiled in relief. 'We missed half the episode,' he said and she snuggled up next to him. 'It doesn't matter...we'll watch it again then" she said with a cheeky undertone and he kissed her extensively.
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Wrath
A Text Conversation Between Satan and MC
Satan: You don't have to worry about my transition affecting you. As it turns out, the bulk of it occurred before you were even introduced to us.
Satan: Part of why this is even happening is because the others were once angels, so it's taking their bodies longer to adjust to their new form.
Satan: Meanwhile, this is all I've ever been, so it's a bit easier for me to accept who I am.
MC: I appreciate you telling me this. I sure could use the break from experiencing everyone's sin.
Satan: I bet. You must be exhausted.
MC: *nodding crow sticker*
MC: Can I ask you a personal question?
Satan: As long as you're prepared for the fact that I may not answer.
MC: Fair enough.
MC: What was your biggest fear?
Satan: During that time?
MC: *nodding crow sticker*
Satan: Being reduced to a mere shadow of Lucifer. I started as a feeling inside him. The more he felt it, the stronger I became. The war and consequent fall caused me to separate from him.
Satan: For the longest time, my mind was a wasteland. I had to separate my identity from Lucifer's, which was quite frustrating, to say the least. I know there will always be similarities between us, but it's taken me a while to find any substantial differences. I've had to force some to form in order to gain some semblance of self.
MC: How did you overcome it?
Satan: By listening to you.
Satan: When you summoned that ball of light, it was the first time I've truly been calm. The longer I held the light in my hands, the more I could discern its whispering. It was your voice comforting me. It was soothing.
Satan: But it also felt familiar.
Satan: Which brings me to my next point.
Satan: I know who you really are, MC.
MC: *eek sticker*
MC: *eek sticker*
MC: *eek sticker*
Satan: It's okay. I'm not upset. I understand why you had to keep your true identity a secret. I wouldn't have even found out if it wasn't for Lord Diavolo and Barbatos.
MC: WHAT????
Satan: Don't worry; they didn't tell me outright. I just happened to be in the castle library when they walked in and began talking about you. If they knew I was in the room with them, I doubt they would have said anything about it until I left, but I was tucked in a corner behind a couple bookshelves, so they couldn't have seen me without purposely looking for me.
MC: *face-palming crow sticker*
MC: You REALLY weren't supposed to find out, but it's not like I can do anything to change it.
MC: So, tell me what you overheard them say about me.
Satan: I know you come from a future timeline. The prince apparently had told Barbatos to try to find your version of the butler and get some answers from him about why all this has been happening to you. They've really been worried about you and want to do everything in their power to help you.
MC: I imagine my Barbatos was selective about what he shared.
Satan: *nodding crow sticker*
Satan: He mentioned that back home, you're a human that managed to form pacts with all seven of us and that a large part of your power became tied to your emotions as a result.
Satan: He also seems to believe you were sent here to experience each of our transformations firsthand so that you can help someone go through their own.
Satan: Obviously, he didn't reveal who that person was, but both my Diavolo and Barbatos felt like that would have been unnecessary information, for they've observed someone begin acting differently during your stay here.
MC: Oh?
Satan: Apparently, he trapped you in a closet at some point?
MC: Shit.
Satan: So it IS him, then?
MC: Yes.
Satan: The only memories I have of him prior to him visiting us for the founding ceremony are hazy and through Lucifer's eyes, but I've always gotten the sense he's not been particularly happy about where he's at.
Satan: I just didn't think he'd have the guts to do anything to wildly change his circumstances. He seems too devoted to the little one to just pack his things and leave it all behind.
MC: I don't think he did when we first met.
Satan: Are you able to tell me what changed, or would that be revealing too much information?
MC: I can give you the simple answer and let you fill in the blanks.
Satan: *thumbs up emoji*
MC: He developed strong feelings for me.
Satan: But you're a human.
MC: Yes.
Satan: And he's an angel.
MC: At the time, yes.
Satan: Wait a damn minute.
Satan: Did he seriously FALL for you?!
MC: Not quite. He was still an angel when I left, but he'd made some choices beforehand that pretty much sealed his fate. I just don't know what exactly he'll be when I return.
Satan: Well, judging by the way they're saying he's currently acting here, I'd say he's gearing up to be YOURS.
Satan: And I'm not trying to be sappy. I'm being completely serious.
MC: I don't doubt it.
Satan: When he believed everyone was out of the room when you and Asmo were passed out, he was right by your side, watching over you.
Satan: According to Barbatos, he even held your hand and kissed you on the forehead before he eventually got up and left.
Satan: Angels don't typically act that way towards demons. Even with Diavolo's efforts to make peace with the Celestial Realm, they tend to act rather hostile whenever they're around us for more than a few seconds.
MC: I know.
Satan: I'll let you get some rest. You'll need it
Satan: And don't worry; your secret is safe with me.
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