#this is truly my villain origin story

[luckthebard]

I don’t know why this is something we apparently need to re-explain to parts of the CR fandom every few years, but if I see one more post that implies that the way Samuel Oscar Riegel is approaching his character’s faith journey is “culturally Christian” I’m gonna McFucking lose it.

[ooklet]

bastardly old man, he of the Mystery Illness has strucken again.

he's earned his second nickel for seeming to have cancer but actually having something much more esoteric instead. so esoteric, in fact, that FOUR vets can't discern the nature of the steadily growing lump in his lung. he's had basically every scan under the sun, two biopsies, a bunch of antibiotics, AND three rounds of chemo and no one goddamn knows what this thing is, nor has it responded to any treatments. he is scheduled to have surgery to just. have the fucked up part of his lung Yoinked cuz that's where we are with this. he goes in on monday and i am so fucking nervous for my small guy my little man my precious baby boy even tho everyone keeps assuring me this surgeon is great.

anyway huge shout out to my evil fucking grandmother for finally kicking the bucket and leaving the family enough money to help pay for his treatment or my stupid dumb baby that i love more than my own life would be dead from this godforsaken mystery lump.

[comsumedsoul]

People think Sirius was brave enough to stand against his family's ideals. But I think it's that he wanted to be brave enough to stand against the "pureblood" beliefs. His courage was much more likely a response to his experiences, not some innate gryffindor bravery and recklessness.

It's like him being a rebel as a response to his abuse, him breaking the rules of the society he was brought up in, him being a troublemaker instead of a good heir like his parents wanted, it's more the want to be not like them, not so much as inherent bravery. Not to say that's not bravery, that is not the implication here. But people like to either diminish him as this glorified "good" character or make him utterly rash and irresponsible, and make that his entire personality, both of which are entirely opposite to what he is. Many just hate him as this "dark" character with deeds not worthy enough for redemption. Either him being so "good" it excuses all his faults or him being so fucked up it's not worth it to give him a chance.

The fact is he was reckless, and sometimes his actions come off as careless and at other times he makes us uncomfortable. But his flaws shadow his complex personality to such a degree that people forget he's also this brilliant person, someone expected to reach great heights, someone who suffered grave injustice, imprisoned for something he never did. The fact is that he still blamed himself. He lost his best friend, his real family, his soulmate, everything that actually gave him the will to fight on, everything which inspired him to be brave, and then be labelled as a traitor, a traitor to someone he loved the most, a betrayal from someone he trusted with his life, someone he would've given his life for, that stung worse than the imprisonment itself. He already lost the fight in him, couldn't even grieve because that's just how fast everything went wrong.

He's not a "nice" guy, instead has a morally grey outlook on life, because life screwed him over and over. He's selfless to the point it's selfish. He loves in a way that scars. His recklessness is a response mechanism, which will hurt others at times and I'm not excusing his actions either. The man spent 12 years in azkaban yet he was still sane enough to break out from there, which is a seemingly impossible task, the first person to do so. When he got the slightest hint that Harry might be in danger, that along with his burning desire for vengeance, was an incentive enough to awaken the fight in him, he then does the impossible, evidence of his brilliance and sheer determination and will, but also of his recklessness because he probably doesn't care about his life and later on doesn't consider the implications of his actions when he runs headfast into danger to protect Harry. He doesn't stop to think how that would affect Harry because Harry's safety takes priority for him, his utter lack of self worth easing him into the process. But there are moments where he's just this man trying to be a good godfather to his godson, trying to be brave enough to be there for Harry, brave enough to try to live for him. Whether or not he wanted it to end at one point is completely up to interpretation, but I feel he tried to be there for Harry, wanted to be brave even when suffocating in the home he did everything to leave behind, his remaining memories haunting him in every step and reminding him of everything he lost. In a position like that, it'd be very easy to fall into despair and just lose hope, I wouldn't fault him if he did. He's furthest from being perfect, and that's what makes him so human, all his trauma, his flaws, his bad decisions, his hurtful actions. His story is one of the most tragic in canon, but canon reduces him to this reckless hot tempered side character, the black sheep of the Black family yet unable to delve into what truly separates him from them.

This ALSO brings the point that Sirius "wanted" to not be like his family and by extension a Slytherin, similar to how Harry didn't "want" to be a Slytherin, tho Harry had at least canonically a more black and white outlook on life, but justified at the time, because at the mere age of 11, he learnt the evil wizard who killed his parents, the reason he was at the dursleys, the reason why he never had a good life, and probably never will, was in Slytherin, along with the dark arts and pureblood stigma associated with that house. Even though they all are just children, the encounter with Malfoy further solidified that anti-slytherin ideal. Although canon was crazy to make a single house the collective evil when it really is so much more (no one ever accused the TERF of being a good writer).

The way these characters (Sirius and Harry) are raised are also very similar. So gryffindor seems to value the want to be brave more than often, which might make sense as a trait actually favoured in a member of the house (as we see in Neville too), thus making some of these members kinda reckless to be perceived as more brave. Because that's what it is, the want to be brave.

[frankenbuggee]

🩸comic test🩸

Unfortunately this is very far into the story BUT fortunately by that time people will have forgotten this possible mini spoiler 🤔

Devious in his Exist au living the horror villain dream.

[oneiricazalea]

Happy 5th birthday to my dear OC, Sei ♥

[theemptyislost]

I am 6.5k deep in the edit of chapter 11 and there is still no end in sight. I have edited and reedited each sections...blinked and it's almost normal human waking hours.

I swear to everything unholy - horror inducing - that I am going to get this chapter finished finally and beat this insidious artist's blah.

[neosimi]

ophelia x johnny.

[evie-doesnt-write]

I lose a year off my lifespan whenever I see the sentence ‘Sam didn’t care about John, he only cares about Dean’

[septembermonologues]

this is the energy i bring to conversations about the 2017 tony awards

[asteria-argo]

"from what I understand your course has ended." YEAH BITCH BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T MARK MY ASSIGNMENT UNTIL I ONLY HAD THREE DAYS LEFT IN THE COURSE AND THEN YOU FUCKING FAILED IT

[awesometothe3rd]

[deadrlngers]

[winnie-the-monster]

With you.

Without you.

[ozziesdisco]

It's the fact that Chibs actually got Eleven's duality somewhat right in Dinosaurs on a Spaceship and yet somehow obliterated it all in Power of Three that makes me want to cowoorofowoowoodkskkqowowodkf

[meadowlarkx]

i have some thoughts i can't put into words well but the more one decides that like [assorted relatively minor things, interests, reactions] are evils the lines of which cannot be crossed, and the more specific the thoughts and opinions that need to all every single one be in alignment for one to like or just tolerate someone else, the more isolating one's experience is, and lonely, and dimmed, because more and more peope out of everybody else seem threatening, stupid, malicious, or just unworthy of one's respect or any real connection. which is a shame from a lot of standpoints. and i think it's quite easy in a sterile online space to critique things, which isn't bad in and of itself and is sometimes urgent and useful, but can quickly move to 100% condemnation and "cringing" in small social circles over just about anything whatsoever. and sometimes my roommate is like hozier has such fae vibes and it's like fine actually. it's literally totally fine and it isn't that deep at all and there's no harm meant by it.

[winterpunk]

Someday I will no longer have to see people claiming HBO's The Last of Us was a good adaptation. Someday. Right? Please?