#this is something that would be a thesis paper and not a tumblr post

[thedeafprophet]

there's some wider thoughts and commentary to be had on the portrayal of 'madness' in the neath and The Royal Behtlehem Hotel, in ways that I think it is both sympathetic and humanizing of people, while also still falling into portraying it as a joke and making a mockery of things, combined with the question of how this ties into it all with the real world horrific history of the bethlehem hospital and what thats means for it to portray it in such a way

but i dont even know where to start or if its even a topic i can speak on

[mechncheese]

if the nerds were to have social media, who would be on what? brainstorm on youtube posting war crimes, ratchet on myspace, wheeljack on those speedrunner sites, prowl on facebook etc

this made me laugh, Brainstorm is definitely on YouTube posting tutorials on how to build something totally legal and top 5 tricks he learned in prison (he'd also be on TikTok caught up with the latest trends and Reddit rage baiting people on purpose).

Wheeljack is on twitch live-streaming his racing records. He’s also on Instagram but his insta stories are like ANT TRAILS and something is always happening with him.

Prowl is in several Facebook groups doing who knows what. Honestly he might be the least online second to Ratchet, he has presence on most platforms but just to stalk people.

Perceptor would probably be on Tumblr and he'd show a text post to someone and they would be like "I don't get it." He would also be on Goodreads looking at Book reviews more than actually reading the books themselves.

Jetfire would be on fucking inaturalist looking at wildlife, this guy thinks writing scientific thesis's are fun and reads peer reviewed papers about the molecular makeup of air as a hobby. I think Jetfire would also use Instagram but only for reels of animals and cooking, he would have a private instagram acc but only posts like pictures of random things with one sentence captions.

Ratchet using myspace sounds about right BAHAHA, I think he would also use Vimeo instead of Youtube. He’s also on Yelp looking at reviews for various locations.

[maggie-eiggam]

The Uselessness of Dachshunds

For the last month and some change, I’ve been drawing a dachshund every day.

Every day I sit down with a little piece of scrap paper from my art closet, spread out my 120 colored pencils, set my bottle of turpenoid far enough away that I won’t knock it over, put some tunes on, and spend no more than two hours working away.

Working away on what? This is the question. What am I doing, exactly? I know what I’ve been telling everyone each time I post on Instagram, on Facebook, on Threads, on Tumblr, on X, on BlueSky, even, resentfully, deliberately poorly, on TikTok: “I am drawing a dachshund every day until THE LISTENERS comes out on June 3rd.”

But why? I have seven dogs, but none of them are wiener dogs. There are three dachshunds in the novel (they all live, by the way), but the book is not remotely about dachshunds. As a marketing gimmick, it is inefficient and bemusing. 90 minutes-2 hours a day? That means I’ll have invested 180 hours in creating 1 dachshund for every 4-5 pages of novel. Nobody asked me to do this. No one is holding me accountable to seven and a half dozen dachshunds inserted into old paintings. I have no great strategy for what I will do with all of them when my release date rolls around. Will I sell them? A dubious and time-consuming prospect; any grand plan of auctioning them off with proceeds to benefit the SPCA and buy my busted car a new fender or some such enterprise would be retroactive. They aren’t really good enough to be bound into a novelty book; two hours is long enough to make a sketch quite good but not long enough for a proper study. For now, they’re just . . . useless.

And that’s the point.

There are lots of disturbing and frankly weird-ass things going on in 2025, but one of the things that distresses me daily is how singularly purposeful art-making and living creatively has become. The monetization of social media by social media has made even the most innocent of artistic movements suddenly aware that, with just a little viral action, a Chipotle lunch might be covered. And it’s not that I mind artists making a living—whoo boy do I have a lot of thoughts about that—it’s that I mind that this specific financial lure rewards very specific sorts of art.

I’ve posted before how topic changes a work's popularity more than a work’s skill—for instance, I can post a sketch of a cat and another sketch of an old man, using the same level of skill, and know which one will get me more engagement. We’re living that now on a huge scale. When you open up your social media app, what does it show you now? “For you,” rather than the people you’re following. And what do you see? Posts tailored to you—posts experiencing rapid engagement. That means it’s almost always going to be the cat, not the old man. And if I’m an artist hoping to get Chipotle paid for—and yes, we want our Chipotle paid for—I’m going to draw more cats.*

*the cats are a metaphor here, guys

And just like that, your art-making has become more singularly purposeful . . . but it’s not your purpose.

Add into this the looming, gibbering specter of AI, that soulless thief of creativity. It has eaten all of our art and now digests it in thoughtless piles on the internet. I would argue that art (as opposed to, say, illustration or design) should always change both the art-maker and the art-consumer (I’m not saying I wrote an entirely trilogy with this thesis, but I’m not not saying it), and that AI art’s lop-sided relationship to consumption makes it the most singularly purposeful imagery of them all.

I could generate my dachshunds in mere minutes with the help of AI (and three liters of water for the electricity, which is a lot more than my cup of tea requires). But I bet you’d feel differently about the images you’ve seen so far.

There’s something about their wrongness, am I right? There’s something about being able to tell someone twiddled away at them while listening to some tunes. There’s something about them failing to look effortless. You can see how I suffered trying to draw poor Venus and her pals that small. There’s a limit to my abilities, to my tools. I read that John Cage liked to write music that was just at the very edge of an instrument’s comfortable range, so that the audience could hear that strain, tension, energy. That’s what is happening in these dachshund pieces. When I sit down and look at some piece created with media very unlike my pencils, by masterful creators, sometimes I spend ten or fifteen minutes just steeling and strategizing how I will even approach the style. That’s part of the fun, right?

That, and the uselessness.

Maybe it’s just me, but I feel like the uselessness makes it more obvious that it’s play. My dachshunds don’t need anything from you. There’s no call to action. I’m counting down to THE LISTENERS, yes, but everyone can see it’s an excuse���there’s never a hyperlink to pre-order, and I think I only included an image of the dachshund bookplate and print that come from some indies once, as a justification for why dachshunds. This is just a game that I’m playing with myself, using my book release as a justification for spending 180 hours staring at masterworks and practicing my art-making in a very broad and purposeless way.

Will I ever need to know how to work in Degas’ style? I don’t know. But in a busy life, when would I have ever tried? We don’t have much room for purposeless practice. We don’t have a lot of time for failure. We don’t want to give time to inefficient processes that aren’t earning their keep.

Which I guess brings me to the actual purpose of my purposeless dachshunds. Because if they were truly purposeless, you guys would have never seen them. I’d have accumulated dachshunds quietly in my studio and then, many years later, my confused heirs would find them in a box.

So, yes, confession: I have a purpose. I’d like to encourage useless practice and useless play. I’d like to know art is being made that is sometimes the cat, but often, the old man. I just finished teaching a 6 month writing bootcamp (964 1:1 Zoom meetings), and one of the most difficult emotional hurdles for folks was the understanding that their first novel will most likely not get published, ever—it was just practice for the one that will. It feels ridiculous to throw oneself into a project that most people will never see, just to improve. Some of you here might remember back when I posted a short story every week with Merry Sisters of Fate. That was a little for the audience . . . and a lot to see what I could learn from it. And that’s what I’d like for this project to do.

If you were making art for the algorithm of your heart, what would it be?

What are your dachshunds?

[justanotherfanartist]

taps mic. ahem.

help a student write a dumb rvb research paper? pretty please?? for funsies???

This is exactly what it sounds like.

My current final of the year for my language composition class is a massive synthesis + argumentative research paper on any topic of our choosing, and Roosterteeth + RVB has too much messy junk going on that I’m knee-deep invested in mentally at this point to pass up the opportunity to write about it.

And yknow, I see a ton of media analysis posts coming out of the fandom all the time and I’ve always loved seeing it and reading into it and sharing ideas and whatnot and this feels like my way of doing that too.

Essentially what I’m reaching out for is for you guys to help me crowdsource resources and share your ideas with me to include in my term paper*.

things that would be wizard cool of you to send me are:

any interviews or behind the scenes with the cast and creators you happen to know of

your own analysis or hot takes of the characters or the show as a whole

what the show has meant to you

any clips of old Roosterteeth expos

for the older fans, a rough idea of what the release timeline looked like for the episodes and what the buildup and fan reaction was for each one

any commentary or hot takes on how the fandom has changed since you joined/that you know of

what Roosterteeth did wrong (writing wise and irl)

what Roosterteeth did right (writing wise and irl)

tropes within the show you noticed whether originated by the show or not

tropes within the fandom, things like similar portrayals or bad/good takes on characters or face canons that span artists

literally anything you can give me, media, commentary, or opinion wise

(not to say I can’t find things on my own, I already have, but this is also about varying opinions and the general outlook of the fandom as a whole and measuring the broader impact of a show like RvB and it would be incredibly cool of you to help me out even with just crumbs of character opinions)

The idea is to get evidence together from clips, personal anecdotes, and opinions so I can present an accurate read on the fandom, especially when it comes to fan interpretation of RVB vs Roosterteeth’s intentions for the show (and behavior as a company) and explore what the show was supposed to be, what it literally is, how people see it, what its impact has been, and a general overview of the it’s legacy and lifespan, that sort of thing.

My thesis is most likely going to end up something in the ballpark of “How Roosterteeth exemplifies the Franchisation of Indie Media” or “Why RvB is one of the most complicated/misunderstood/divisive shows in modern media” or “How Fandoms interpret and recontextualize media”

I’m going to guess that I likely won’t be able to post the finished paper up online without a solid buffer window to avoid the two mortifying scenarios that are (a) being accused of creative plagiarism and (b) having to tell my instructor that the tumblr account with a 100% match to my course final is, in fact, my tumblr account, are two things I desperately want to avoid.

However if I can, simply for the sake of contributing to the fandom and creating something for us to all contribute to and discuss and crediting various peoples’ help and input would be ideal and, if at all possible, that would be the end goal.

so yeah. if you’re up for it I’d love for you to dm me your thoughts or (more conveniently for the both of us) fill out this Google form down here!

*im not gonna, like, repost your detailed character analysis as my own or something. I’m just trying to find some good quotes, general opinions, and ideas from the fandom so that I can accurately represent them and do our little corner of the internet Justice. And also because the audience of a work is a massive factor in media analysis lmfao. and also to create a community sourced Fun Thing™️ we can all look at and bite the corners off of instead of watching Roosterteeth crash and burn in the backgroun

[alexhwriting]

Bloodborne: A Study of Environmental Narratives and Ludonarrative Harmony.

So I am finally adding more to this blog, beginning with the Bloodborne paper that I wrote following the streams that I did of the game last fall. Because of the sizes of these projects I'll be posting them in sections, just so I'm not battling Tumblr's word limit. I'll do my master's thesis this way next.

I. Introduction

Early scholarship in Video Game Studies wrestled with the very nature of games themselves: were they more narrative or ludic in nature? In his 2004 article “Game Design as Narrative Architecture,” Henry Jenkins suggests that the field of video game studies would benefit from a third element in the discussion of games, spatiality.[1] He claims that spatiality is something that has drawn people to stories since the time of questing myths, and that the spatial game, one in which space is utilized as part of the game experience, is an extension of this engaging mode.[2] Jenkins compares these in-game environments to amusement park rides, in that they replicate the atmosphere of the story.[3] For example, replicating the sounds and objects from a particular story, such as Pirates of the Caribbean or Star Wars to immerse and engage the player in what’s going on around them.[4] An example of this kind of spatiality can be seen in the game Bloodborne (2015), in the way that the game relies on exploration of the in-game environments for the character to engage with the game mechanics (which consists of fighting enemies).

Amy Green argues that the backbone of the gaming experience, which distinguishes it from the amusement park attraction, is an interactive component: agency.[5] Agency is a ludic component of the game: the player interacts with the story unfolding around them as an active participant in that story. Without consistent and active input from the player of a game, the narrative and game cannot progress. For Green, this agency also affects the space of the game and makes it, as she calls it, negotiated space.[6] By negotiated space, she explains that the story is not yet set completely in-stone, and the player retains some control of the meaning expressed by the experience.[7] If a book is the set-in-stone narrative, then video games are mostly finished books where the player can add in their own actions into their text as they play, akin to a Mad Libs story (though not necessarily comedic in intention).

Marie-Laure Ryan, speaking more generally about the experience of finding oneself invested in any story world, game or otherwise, discusses the way that space is reliant on narrative to elevate it from space to place.[8] By this, Ryan means that stories give the space of a story its meaning and therefore its status as a recognizable place instead of just a non-descript area where action occurs. For example, a city street is just a city street, but Time Square in New York City is a place because of the stories and impact that the particular place has. This idea of narrative making spaces important will become important as we see the intertwining of narrative and location throughout this paper.

Over the course of this paper, I will argue for the use of the phrase ludonarrative harmony, a term I use to indicate the successful blending of story and action to create an immersive experience for the player that goes beyond the ludic and narrative dichotomy. To illustrate this, I will be using Bloodborne, developed by FromSoftware in 2015, as an example of ludonarrative harmony, which occurs when a game’s story and mechanics both act together to strengthen the immersion for the player. As the player explores the game world at the behest of strange notes, is frequently rewarded with gruesome revelations about the world, and their character takes mechanical damage from the act of progression, the combination of ludonarrative harmony, and environmental storytelling comes to the fore. It is these elements that allow a game to create an immersive experience for the player, rather than just the ludic or narrative elements.

[1] Jenkins, “Game Design as Narrative Architecture.” 121.

[2] Jenkins, 122.

[3] Jenkins, 124.

[4] Jenkins, 124.

[5] Green, Storytelling in Video Games. 36-37.

[6] Green, 37.

[7] Green, 37.

[8] Ryan, Narrative as Virtual Reality 2. 86.

[transmechanicus]

Hi! I'm honestly excited that tumblr recommended me a good blog for once. It's nice to see other trans ppl living their best life out here.

Anyway, I hope you don't mind a question, but I'm currently an undergrad and really interested in grad school. idk how applicable your experience would be since im a comp sci student, but what's it like in grad school? how accepting has it been of trans people for you? do you have any recommendations on what to do to increase the chance of getting in?

p.s. idk a ton about biochemistry or genetics, but i have a friend who's super into it (he's also planning on going to grad school for it lol), and I love hearing him talk about it. so I'm also curious as to what you're doing :o

Grad school is broken up into phases in my experience, which is dependent on institution and major. For me, year one is classes and rotations, the latter of which is 7 week trials in a lab of interest to get a feel for their work and the lab social and mentor environ. Classes generally compose discussing research techniques and recent publications, and test you on your ability to read research literature and understand it as well as propose follow up investigations. Year two is finishing classes and starting work on your thesis projects, as well as completing preliminary exams, which for biochem are written (grant proposal) and oral (ppt presentation of grant proposal). Year two has less classes than year one and your actual lab work dominates most of your time. Year 3, 4, and 5 are basically spent having a full time job as a senior lab researcher where you are expected to learn your local field well enough to come up with an idea and pursue it to discover or demonstrate something novel in the form of your thesis, as well as publish at least one paper on your work in the meantime.

My institution has not had any issues with trans ppl in my experience. I came out to my lab in Oct of 2023, and gradually to my classmates and the wider program over the following months. Administrative staff and professors have been very on the ball with my pronouns and chosen name, and our program recently got a new professor who is also a trans woman. I won't say which institution to reduce the amount i dox myself, but safe to say I'm content in regards to my treatment as a transgender person.

Getting into grad school usually requires demonstrated undergraduate research or a gap period of research employment after undergrad. I did some undergraduate work (though not strictly in my field) and a year of relevant employment after undergrad. 3 months into said employment I applied for grad school lol which was a little earlier than usually advised bc i hadn't been there long. (My post-bac PI was very demanding and restrictive so I wanted out ASAP). The main things grad schools are looking for is are you able to talk about research you're doing now, what research you want to do, and why you've chosen their institution. They want you to demonstrate you have an interest in researching topics they have professors willing to support, and also that you have the problem solving and data analysis skills to adequately perform research work and operate semi-independently. Having undergraduate or post-bac research that you can explain in detail why you did certain things, what the motivation is, what the goal is, etc is how you prove your worth to grad recruiters (who are usually professors looking for students).

My work is specifically focused on the use of short synthetic peptides to sense the activity of kinases, which regulate pathways in the human body related to growth, division, and apoptosis. When kinases are disregulated it causes various diseases, but it's hard to test drugs for many of these kinases bc there aren't effective monitors for their activity that don't get a lot of false positives due to overlapping signal pathways. The use of synthetic peptides with certain sequences gets around that issue of false positives, and they can be modified to provide information about how effectively a kinase is binding and interacting with the peptide, which would change under exposure to effective inhibitor drugs for those kinases. TL;DR I make little bits of protein to bind other broken proteins and tell me when they're turned on so other ppl can design drugs to turn them off.

Pls let me know if you have any further questions, I apologize that I don't know any comp-sci majors so this might be wildly inaccurate in some regards. XD

[babyrdie]

Not understanding the holier than thou attitude some people here have…"oh, I know more than everyone on Tumblr", "I've read an infinite variety of translations of this text", "before posting something about (insert ancient Greek text), people should do some research on (insert subject)". Bitch, people who talk about these texts here on Tumblr do it as a HOBBY. They're not STUDENTS, for god's sake. "Wow, it's really obvious that person didn't study…." YES BITCH, IT'S TUMBLR, PEOPLE ARE JUST HAVING FUN. Yes, I understand that you are a classicist, archaeologist, historian or whatever, but this is NOT your classroom. You are NOT talking to colleagues.

"Err…you didn't consider that…(insert specific knowledge that would require at least months of study)". BITCH FOR THE LOVE OF GOD IT'S AN IDIOT POST, WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU ACTING LIKE IT'S A CORRECTION OF A PAPER OR A THESIS.

Thank god I stopped reach tagging my posts, I'd rather continue my insignificance if it means there will be fewer annoying people acting like everyone who interacts with a text interacts with them as if they were an academic. Even if someone reads academic articles, it's OBVIOUS that there will still be something missing. And I say this because I read some articles, but that doesn't mean I'm an expert. Expecting someone to have the same level of understanding as someone who spent what, 4/5 years?, studying various details about the subject in college just because they read the original text and 3 interpretations about it in academic articles is ridiculous.

If you know more and are so frustrated (irrationally) that people know less than you, why instead of acting pretentious, don't you…explain?

[genderkoolaid]

I feel like if you linked to academic sources, there would inevitably be paywalled or location-blocked ones, and then you would get accused of trying to pretend those sources were real when they "actually were about something else and you're just using the headline" or something like that. Even Twitter references would require login, which some people couldn't access - is it so wild to think that, on tumblr, you presented information in a form guaranteed to actually be accessible to read and reference to anyone able to see the list in the first place? Ie. On tumblr?

Yeah I really try to prioritize making sure people are able to access the things I wanna cite or reference. Which is why the FAQ I wrote specifically to give curious people quick answers uses a lot of tumblr posts (alongside articles & a study on FTM homelessness). It's not supposed to be a thesis paper.

[wizardnuke]

im talking about the essay grade again and i got off topic and started talking about the lit analysis potential inthe vast majority of fanfictionbjust. Ignore

i feel like it's such a humblebrag for me to be like "i don't understand how i continually get really good grades in english" because i understand objectively that 1) i am very good at analysis and/or. finding quotes to support whatever the fuck thesis i decided would be easy to support (see: "good at analysis") (i think i honestly just randomly hit the jackpot on "good thesis" but on god i just looked at macbeth and gawain respectively and was like Ah. Women's Wrongs. Easy Peasy) and 2) i know from looking at other people's essays that i am just kind of. marginally-to-a-lot better at grammar and phrasing/understand the very specific madlibs-style layout i have to use and what vocabulary that i need to be putting out. it's madlibs. there's a really technical and specific layout that needs to be followed and i just kind of follow it. it's not hard. it is boring. if i could write academic papers on the shit i'm actually interested in they'd be worthless because it's niche and/or wild tumblr user conjecture. anyone who seriously writes on. hold on i need to generate a thesis. "the cyclic nature of abuse and its direct correlation to homoeroticism in cn's supernatural" could u fucking imagine. that's hilarious. that's some hackjob shit no matter how well i could keep a straight face on the matter because all that people care about is Old Shit. i have no real vested interest in actual literary works beyond "they're important and better than people think". i have extremely strong feelings on a lot of modern works, generally movies and shows and niche dnd webshows, i cannot make a career in that shit, my english prof thinks fanfic is bullshit and i see where he's coming from! i don't think it's bullshit. but. the academic perspective on fanfiction is like "they're not making original work" because the setting/adjacent themes and characters r lifted from another work and there's no real originality in it except that the best fics i've read are like.. an alternate form of literary analysis that is so far from actual essay writing that it's unrecognizable. but people can see the themes and the motifs and rehash them in a way that is absolutely a kind of analysis of the original work, but with flourishes and new ideas and batshit choices that the og media either couldn't make/didn't feel like making/tentacle sex wasn't really thematically fitting but an author decided "hey what if i put themes into this consentacles fic" and like, i want to argue that that's legit. sometimes. but i am not going to do that bc i sound objectively insane and also sometimes it is just not that deep and that will be brought up as an argument and i just don't care enough to explain that it's still an art form even if it's not that deep. is "fun and funky fresh" not a common motivator. if "new interpretations" of works like shakespeare and shit where they plunk the characters into a modern setting and fuck with the phrasing is seen as a viable art form/type of analysis then fanfic is an art form/analysis adjacent to that. not all of it though. some of it is something else that is worse. not that i think that is in itself bad. fanfic is a hobby. can't make a career out of that. but people have made careers out of that by changing the names and setting and publishing books. and that's viable apparently. i just personally am insane and enjoy writing very serious and/or emotionally driven meta on dnd shows. i like themes and motifs and i think that while a quickly written meta post on the tragedy inherent in redemption arcs that hit 50k is absolutely not as academically sound as a cited paper on a similar subject, there's Something To It and there's got to be some kind of potential in it. i like stories. idk if i could make a living out of talking about stories especially from the insane angle that i tend to hit stories at. the possibility of making it a genuine career is driven down below ground after i take into consideration my insanity about modern stories vs my neutrality on older ones. what am i talking abt. bf is yelling for me bye

[wil-whatilearned]

Hi, my name is Wil. Well, this is not my real name, but let's pretend it is. It stands for "What I learned", because i want to share here weekly (hopefully) what I will learn in my my university STEM journey.

In September I will finally graduate in physics (a year late) , and then i'll start my master degree in particle physics. Now, I just have to finish writing my bachelor thesis.

An exciting path is ahead of me. I'm filled with hope but also fears.

I fear failure. In my bachelor's degree, I failed. There's no other word for it. I'll get a mediocre final mark, with a mediocre thesis (well, sometimes I think my thesis is great, honestly), after a mediocre university career. I started this journey without knowing much about what I was doing, but I studied. A lot. I studied every day, but definitely without knowing where I was going. Totally unorganized, skipping classes, and always running to catch up. Somehow, I managed to survive: my grades are not bad, not good, just average. Somehow, finally, I'm graduating, and honestly, I'm proud of this. I mean, I'll graduate in physics! That's not something that everyone can accomplish.

Now a new adventure is beginning, and everything will be different. I know where I went wrong, and I know what to do about it. This time I feel I'm ready.

Or maybe that's only what I'm trying to believe. Maybe nothing will change. In the end, everything might be like before, even harder than before (maybe next time we'll talk about this). Why should I succeed this time?

That's scary. It is, because now I know what it means to fail, and I don't want it to happen again. Definitely scared as hell.

Now let's see the bright side. I'll learn new exciting things every day. I love what I study, always have. And now I will come across new, hard, advanced physics. Next time I should definitely tell you what classes I've decided to attend.

So, I decided to start blogging. There are several reasons, but definitely the real one is because I need it. I chose to do it on Tumblr because maybe there's more chance that someday, someone will read my posts.

Now let's see why I decided to start blogging.

Immersion They say that if you immerse yourself in what you're doing, if it becomes a little bit of an obsession for you, it will help. I want to grow my passion for physics, and I think that talking about it can help me.

Practicing English The reasons are obvious. I read in English, study in English, watch English videos, but I never practice it. Maybe writing periodically in English is a good idea (and ChatGPT will supervise me, so if I write something wrong, you know who's at fault).

Networking… maybe? I don't know if someone will ever read my words, but in case they do, it would be cool to talk to someone about STEM interests. I'm a shy person, so my socialization in university was very poor, and there's not many people I can talk to about what I learn.

Journaling I need it so badly. This year has passed by without me knowing… How are we in August already? What happened? I really feel detached from time somehow. I need to track periodically what I'm doing and why. Maybe this can help me.

We are at the end of this long post. I don't know if someone will ever come to this point, but I already feel relieved. Putting your thoughts on paper really is liberating, isn't it? Two long years are ahead of me. The bet is my future. What will happen? Let's see.

I, really, can't wait.

(if you have read all of this, feel free to share to share your thoughts and experiences, if you want)

[acompassionatemonster]

I seriously think I’m speaking to a three year old because there’s no way you can be older than a toddler with how stupid you are. If you are older, please consider going back to school because you’re not gonna get far in life with your lack of common sense and underdeveloped brain. There is no way you can call me illiterate when you literally started your reply with, ‘not you’re mad’ and ended with ‘stay one that Jujutsu Kaisen season two’. And in your first reply you did get your ‘your’ and ‘you’re’ mixed up - you used ‘your’ when it should’ve been ‘you’re so scared’. Now please tell me if that made any sense. Take your head out of your ass and admit how much of an imbecile you are.

Love don’t worry about if I have a job or not, I know I am and will be fine but it’s you that you should be worried about right now. I don’t think you can get a job with your stupidity and illiteracy - no wonder why you read manga, bro just follows the pictures and ignores all the actual writing. Please do yourself and everyone else a favour and log off of Tumblr and every other social and pick up an actual book.

Oh come on now, don’t be a coward and avoid my question. I’ll stop bothering you when you either answer what media you are planning to consume soon or admit that you putting a Gojo spoiler without any spoiler warning and under a Toji tag was idiotic and insensitive (even though you strongly disagree - I’m sorry I didn’t know we had a new Joker over here- not that you have the IQ to be able to pull that off). I’m sorry that I’m the only honest person in your life to say you are insensitive. I bet you don’t even know what that word means given that your literacy and comprehension skills are very limited. So I’ll help you out a bit (because I doubt you can even spell it) and give you a definition, ‘insensitive’ (an adjective) - showing or feeling no concern for other’s feelings. A synonym would be ‘inconsiderate’. You can’t prove me wrong that those words don’t describe you. It was a big spoiler and I know it because you were probably crying over it and in your post you literally say you’re not ‘reading jjk anymore idc’ - therefore, you had no right in spoiling it for others, get that into your thick head and small fish brain.

I’m sorry I didn’t know you were a sheep and posting spoilers without warnings because, ‘literally everyone on here isn’t’. Are you that daft? Just because everyone isn’t, doesn’t mean it’s not wrong. Bro are you saying that if the purge happened and everyone was out wreaking havoc, you’d do the same thing and still say it’s not wrong? Are you a child that doesn’t know right from wrong? Please for the love of God, for your own future and safety, go back to school.

TLDR: stfu and tell me your opinion when you have a present dad x and sorry if this was too much writing for your bozo self to process mwah.

I think I'm speaking to someone who dropped out of school, like literally dropped out of school in the 7th grade. Because if YOU'RE SO SCARED OF SPOILERS WHY ARE YOU ON TUMBLR?? LIKE I FUCKING SAID YOU PEOPLE HAVE SERIOUS ISSUES. IF YOU DONT READ THE NEW CHAPTERS THEN THATS, ON WHO??? ITS ON YOU. and why are you harassing me about my spelling?? Bitch it's fucking Tumblr, I'm not writing a thesis, a research paper or even a fucking essay. If I wanted to write a whole fucking article and then yes I would make sure that my spellings of both 'your' and 'you're were correct. However IM NOT. AND IDGAF. So why tf would I care if I spelt something wrong or mixed a few words up???. You bitches are talentless, jobless, bored and can't fucking read nor write and still live with YOURE parents in their BASEMENT. AND WANNA COME AFTER ME BECAUSE YOU GOT SPOILED. BITCH I DONT CARE IF YOU DIDNT READ THE CHAPTER AND FOUND OUT GOJO IS DEAD!!!!! BECAUSE SOCIAL MEDIA HAS SPOILERS E V E R Y W H E R E. DONT COME ONLINE AND YOU WONT GET SPOLUED THEN YOU FUCKING ASSHAT. YOUR mother must have dropped your special ass on the head as a baby, because why are you at YOUR grown ass age GOING ON DIFFERENT PROFILES TO HARASS ME ABOUT A FICTIONAL FUCKING CHARACTER. I just fucking know you don't take baths OR EVEN WASH THAT FUCKING FILTHY ASS OF YOURS. it's fucking disgusting that YOUR Neanderthal ass came on here to give me a hard time because you what??? Can't keep up with the chapters when it releases??? Not my problem fucktard. And I'll tag my fucking posts with whatever I want. And I did answer your question, I said and I quote I don't care sweetie. So why don't you go to sleep and roll over on that cockroach infested ass floor mattress you sleep on every night. Roll over and go get caught up to the new chapters. Imagine trying to harass someone because YOU live in a section 8 apartment, with 15 other family members, have roaches and rats crawling all over you while you sleep and mad at me. NOBODY GIVES A FUCK ABOUT YOU!!! I'm just sure YOURE a fucking foster child whose mother and father left your Crack baby ass in foster care. Because there's no way that someone who had a loving, family or SUPPORT SYSTEM IS THIS BOTHERED. AND IF YOU'RE SO FUCKING BRAVE WHY WERE YOU POSTING ANONYMOUSLY??? GET A LIFE YOU SMALL BRAINED, LONELY, PATHETIC, NEANDERTHAL ASS BITCH. I HOPE YOU TOSS AND TURN ON THAT FLOOR MATTRESS YOU SHARE WITH YOU 8 SIBLINGS EVERY NIGHT.

and stop coming on my page, mad ass., stupid ass, MONKEY ASS BITCH.

[bridgetlynn]

I was going to write tonight...that was the plan.

Now instead I'm scouring the waybackmachine for various snapshots of a specific fanfiction archive (that shall remain unamed for deniability now that my ass is old) since I didn't realize said archive did not exist anymore. (and I was pretty fucking prolific if I do say so myself being that I had about 30 some odd stories with an average word count per story being 20 - 30k, though at least 3 clocked in at around 100k)

I lost all my writing from the time period of 2003 - 2012 (ish) as my house flooded during Sandy and my computer at the time went the way of the dodo bird. And I mean all of my writing - cheesy fanfiction, good fanfiction, original stuff, research papers (argh!!!), my thesis (this I at least was able to get from my college).

Those were the sad and anxiety ridden days before things like "the cloud"; when if you didn't have jump drives or burned discs and something happened to your computer - you were fucked.

Now I managed to track copies of a lot of stuff down (the important shit at least) - but the one thing I never really worried too much about was the stuff on this one archive. Mostly because it was...*sigh*...bandfic.

Yes, I was at one point an early-00s scene kid and I wrote bandfic. I'm sure some of you did too (please lie to me lol). I kept it as disconnected and not creepy as possible. And I never wrote about anyone I knew - so ironically the scene kid did not write about the poppy-emo bands that ran around at the beginning of the millenium.

And while I will never (ever) republish this stuff - cause looking back even as disconnected and super fictious as I kept it; still creepy - I would like to have at least proof of thousands of hours of my work.

I'm not even tagging this post that's how much I just wanted to vent into the ether of Tumblr.

So wish me luck...I am off to play Indiana Jones with the internet.

And unfortunately this means that the super smutty Kingdon fic I was spite-writing will have to be put on hold for a bit.

Sorry.

[gothicvampireteamedward]

Back to Basics

I was on tumblr before I was ever really on tumblr. By that I mean, I was an incredibly sheltered kid whose parents were (with hindsight, rightfully) wary of the Internet. It always felt like I was lifetimes behind my friends in hopping on trending social media apps. I never had a Facebook; to the point where I don’t actually know how to use it now that I do. I was barely even allowed to use Club Penguin, though I eventually grew savvy enough to find a work around their restrictions.

That didn’t stop me from browsing through an array of social media. Even when I wasn’t allowed to have my own accounts, nothing could stop me from pulling up the website on the family computer and scrolling through my favorite pages. Side note: this is how I found out an old friend of mine and I weren’t close anymore. I had pulled up her Twitter page for my weekly catch up to find she had made new friends at her new school. This was devastating for an 11-year-old me, but also dramatic considering we are still close friends now. Socializing in the early 2010s was funny!

A junior high friend of mine was using tumblr, that’s how I heard about it. I was absolutely enchanted by the aesthetic pages, a style my generation was heavily influenced by. You could say it was my introduction to digital curation. I could’ve written a thesis paper on that for my MLIS degree, now that I think about it. The effort bloggers put into crafting their feed to fit their specific niche was intoxicating. Did they even relate to the posts they reblogged? Who cares! This all pink feed was pretty! And then I discovered the tag features, and all hell broke loose there. My life in fandoms was cemented over hours of pouring through the percabeth tag.

I think if you weren’t on tumblr in the early 2010’s, it shows. Derogatory.

I did eventually create my own account, which was my first formal foray into social media, mind you. All of this to say, my childhood tumblr was a shit storm. I can’t look at it anymore, it makes my stomach clench. It’s Pandora’s box and a time capsule all rolled into one. No way am I opening that back up.

But I grow nostalgic in my old age. All of my social media apps are filled with ads, and I can’t find any of the people I follow in my feed. Wasn’t that the point of Instagram? To see the silly little photos of people I have actually had a conversation with, or at least simultaneously existed in a space with? If my timeline is going to be filled with nonsense, it should at least have a methodology I can get behind. Hence, tumblr.

That’s a shallow reason as to why I’m back on tumblr. Really, I appreciate the form. Tumblr has never been as limiting as the other apps. No word counts. Any number of images can be posted. I can write an essay, or post a picture or hyperlink a recipe I’ve found with ease. And I can title it! Add some tags that actually have a function! I am interested in expressing my self in ways beyond what Instagram, tiktok and Twitter have offered me (the holy trinity in my mind). So back to the basics.

At the heart of it though, I want to write more. I already write. I journal all the time. I’m not exactly consistent, but since 2018 I’ve gone through six or so journals (I’m not at home to count). Putting my thoughts to pen and paper has never been an issue for me, but sharing them is. Tumblr has always been a safe space, in that most people in my life don’t have one. I used to go on reblogging sprees of whatever fandom-of-the-month I was into without a care in the world of who would see, what they would think, would they mind, etc. Now when I go to post something on my story, I think about it thrice.

I’ve also always been nervous about sharing my voice. That may come as a surprise to people close to me, as I seem to always have an opinion. But it is easy for me to comment on things that don’t matter. But unless directly prompted, I hardly ever talk about what does. So consider this practice.

I hope for this to be a space where I can feel confident in what I produce. Even if I write something awful or incoherent; I hope I unapologetically write it with my chest (does that idiom even hold still?). I am going to use this space to write some short essays on the topics raging through my head, share quotes from favorites pieces of media, review and analyze what I’m watching/reading, and maybe even get out of my non-fiction comfort zone. Who is to say? The world is my oyster!

[darianias]

As someone wgo was originally a bio major amd switched to psych but still loves bio (switched due to being bad at chemistry) I can confirm.

Aside from that people can argue about chromosmes but chromosomally theres many variations, many of which would catergorize as intersex and no, you dont need what is often called "abnormal gentalia development" (or something similar to that) to be intersex as there are hormonally intersex conditions as well, ontop of just chromosomes with no... "intially obvious" physical traits.

In animals that are intersex, conditions akin to polycystic ovarian syndrome the animal is considered intersex but calling it that in humans is widely debated and controversial. (I have PCOS myself.)

Ontop of all of that, this largely ignories studies finding that trans inidviduals brains are structure more similarly to the gender they identify as at birth (you can google this or someone else can as I am tired and want to go to bed and I know I will Adhd tangent write a whole thesis paper in a tumblr post if I don't stop myself.)

This is the funniest blunder ever i'm--

Where's the science side of tumblr to debunk this lol.

Congrats everyone!

[acrossthewavesoftime]

Making fun of people’s mental health issues, even if they aren’t people that you particularly like, is absolutely despicable. This is incredibly poor behaviour for a so called “historian”. Whatever happened to working against historical bias? You don’t have to like bpc, but maybe check yourself first before you mock someone’s alcoholism

Anon,

You are indeed correct that I am not particularly fond of Charles Edward Stuart. That said, you should not treat a three to four lines long post on Tumblr the same as a scholarly opinion expressed in, say, a thesis or a paper. These are different media, and serving different purposes.

The post is already marked as not being anything close to historical fact as it deals with Charles Edward and his father being (un-) able to set up bots, which, given the different landscape of technology and information media in their day and sardonic tone, should be enough to know not to treat this post as a scholarly piece.

I agree that illnesses are a difficult subject and have to be dealt with sensibly.

In the case at hand, there is ample historical record suggesting that Charles Edward Stuart was generally not a very pleasant person to deal with, growing increasingly worse following the failed rebellion in Scotland, which seems to be the time when he made visibly intoxicated appearances in public more often. Being seen behaving erratically further hurt his cause as it led to potential European supporters feeling that he was in no shape to make another (and successful) attempt on the British throne (or even just on Scotland), which frustrated him, and perhaps contributed to his alcohol abuse, which also alienated him from his partner Clementina Walkinshaw and only daughter.

Walkinshaw left Charles after putting up with a little shy of a decade of physical and psychological abuse to protect their young daughter Charlotte and herself from harm, possibly with the help of his own father, as Charles' controlling ways meant she would have had little chance of just closing the door and leaving, even more so as mother and daughter would have been financially dependent on Charles, who, for the next 23 years, did not support his child as she grew up and declined wanting any contact with her.

Given this historical background which the post and tags also allude to, I felt it was safe as not to be misread as a general vilification of people struggling with alcohol abuse (who are, which is important to mention, not automatically abusive, particularly intentionally so, to other people by the way), but an expression of a personal distaste for this particular man featured in the post which is coloured by the fact he turned violent against people in a socially and physically weaker position than and dependent on him while intoxicated, and did so, as the lengthy period of the abuse and indeed disparaging letters written by him suggest, unremorsefully.

This does of course not mean that I think Charles Edward Stuart would not have deserved help, a kind of help that sadly was not available at the time, or that I have a distaste for any (modern) person who struggles with an addiction of any kind. If you had taken the time to check my past post history, you would have found that there is nothing to suggest so.

Your criticism has however alerted me to the fact that I forgot to add warning-/mention-tags to the post as I normally would, so that people who do not wish to stumble over a post mentioning either alcoholism or domestic abuse can filter it; I have rectified that.

To me, the line "[y]ou don’t have to like bpc" especially in conjunction with you also citing "working against the historical bias", reads as though your main point of issue with my post is that I do not like Charles Edward Stuart and made an according comment on my blog.

If this is the case, my best advice (something you were so free in giving me unwantedly that I in turn am confident you will hear out mine) to you is to not engage with people whose opinions you don't agree with rather than getting up and personal in anons.

I don't know you (and you clearly don't want to be known by me even in a loose internet-acquaintance way, seeing as you used the anon function for your ask), and don't have to agree with me; but I am also firmly of the opinion that the key to good, peaceful coexistence in any space where people meet is to engage them respectfully.

To me, your response is emblematic of the worrying trend of (internet-) anti-intellectualism that does not tolerate discourse in that, instead of expressing polite critique, you resort to a public response coupled with attacking the credentials you deem me to have under the guise of defending what, nonnegotiably, is a good cause (namely the dignified treatment of people who suffer from mental illnesses) by taking a post out of context, or misreading its message.

Lastly, I would also like to remind you that first and foremost, you are responsible for curating your own online experience and how that, and your resulting behaviour, affects others; you are of course free to disagree with me or any other poster on this site or anywhere else, but there are other, more proportionate responses to not liking a post someone put on their own personal blog than getting up and personal in an accusatory anon message.

Your personal feelings on a matter are not necessarily those of others, and to shout at a stranger because you do not agree with them is poor form both in person and online.

You are free to block people, including me, whose posts you don’t want to see and sites like AO3 or Tumblr allow you to filter tags.

Perhaps the best, and most effortless response is to move on from posts that you do not agree with. This does of course not mean you should ignore things such as hate speech or other content that violates Tumblr user guidelines, or indeed the law (e. g. doxing, (explicit) images posted without the consent of the person in them, or in some places, denying the Holocaust happened etc.), but if a post simply does not sit right with you personally, sometimes the best response is none at all. There is so much content on Tumblr alone that each of us could fill our entire day just sending (and in turn, receiving) rude anons to people we disagree with for one or the other reason.

If you feel like wanting to discuss something you read with the original poster, perhaps the best response is to send them a private message, and ask politely “what do you mean by [x]?” or “could you please explain?” rather than sending them a rude anon attacking them personally. Many people, including me, are genuinely open to discussion and constructive criticism and will listen to what you have to say if you approach them politely.

[stuckylibrary]

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Anonymous 1 asked:

hey ive been looking for a fic for ages where bucky and steve are in an established relationship but the rest of the avengers dont know so they try and tell them that being gay is cool and that they should date. sam doesnt think that tony should do this but he does anyway and steve and bucky decide to tell sam cause they feel bad. i think it was multichap if that helps :)

Anonymous 2 asked:

Hello! Firstly, thank you, I've been scrolling through your blog & have found so many new fics that I love! I think my last asks got eaten by Tumblr but I've been trying to find a fic for weeks & am hoping you guys can help. It's shrunkyclunks w/college student Bucky. Bucky's writing a paper/thesis on a historical figure when he meets Steve in a cafe Becca works at. It's a BDSM fic w/dom Steve. I remember Bucky comforts Steve on a jet. Bucky ends up opening a museum for avengers at the end.

Anonymous 3 asked:

Hi, I'm looking for a fic w/married Bucky&Steve but the team doesn't realize it. 1st chapter is snippets of the team thinking that Bucky/Steve are really close for friends. I remember Nat/Clint having a dance-off with Bucky/Steve and marvelling at how into each other they are. Wanda going to Steve for help & Bucky's already there so they both talk to her. At the end the entire team gathers in front of Steve's room bc he has someone over and it turns out its Bucky. 2nd chapter is pure smut. Ty!!

Anonymous 4 asked:

hi! I'm looking for a fic I read a while ago. it's a slice of life kinda thing where they have a couple kids and I remember that at one point Steve gets mad at Bucky for not giving up smoking. I think it's multi chapter and the rating is explicit... than you!!

angry-aliens asked:

hi !! a while back i read a fic where bucky was sleeping in steve’s apartment when he wasn’t home and steve finds out

farraige25 asked:

I was hoping you could put this to the hive mind, cause I only remember one small detail of the fic, that Bucky has a perineum piercing of three bars like a ladder & Steve thinks that it’s kinda cute. It’s not in the piercing or punk library tags. I’m pretty sure it’s bottom & modern Bucky with Cap Steve and it’s explicit, but those are all maybes. The only definite is Bucky’s piercing. If anyone knows it off the top of their head, that would be amazing. Thank you!

Anonymous 5 asked:

Hey guys, there's a fic I've been trying to find but I only remember a specific snippet of it. It's Steve recalling how Bucky always got involved in fights he started except for one time where someone called him the K slur (Bucky's Jewish in this fic) and he borderline beats him within an inch of his life and tells him to "call me that again, motherfucker, call me that again" or something along those lines.

theheartofmaria asked:

Hello! I’m looking for a fic that I’m sure is set I modern times , stucky is established. Basically Bucky makes it a game to guess presents from Steve but it actually upsets Steve and he has a breakdown over it and stays with sam?? It might be temporary break up but can’t remember. Ithink it’s a 3 part series but I can’t find it, could you help please

delicatesleeper asked:

I've been thinking of this fic I read a long while ago; it was Alpha Bucky and Omega Steve and they mated before Bucky went to war. I remember Steve's mating mark was on his ribs and Bucky's was on his left bicep. I remember that when they met again after, Steve's bond mark would react to Bucky but Bucky's couldn't bc he lost his arm. I don't remember much but hopefully its enough for you guys, sorry. Thank you!

lolibeansie asked:

I was literally just the fic about Bucky being back and living with the avengers and Steve making all of those little love drawings for him to make him feel safe and welcome?? Wtf is that nammmeee😅

Anonymous 6 asked:

hi!! love u guys lots!! would you be able to find this fic where steve is jealous of bucky and tony's friendship bc he remembers that bucky and howard might've been in a relationship? i've looked through all the tags i could think of and didn't find any 😔😔 i know it's not "coming clean" by cleo4u2

Anonymous 7 asked:

Looking for a fic where Bucky responds to a Craigslist ad and ends up teaching self defense at a rec center. I remember he painted his nails and asked the kids he was teaching their pronouns. Thanks!

Anonymous 8 asked:

Hellooo I actually have two lost fics (sorry), and was hoping you guys (Stucky fic gods) could help me out (bc you’re darlings and so helpful). One was about a trip to a cinema gone wrong, post-serum Steve, and side Clintasha. Sam was there too, I think? Second was about Bucky thinking that his feelings for Steve were unrequited, they’re best mates, the was a photo album in there somewhere? Fourth of July boxers? and them finally getting together after Natasha and her coworkers fake arrest them.