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"the stars watched over you"
#my art#undertale#frisk#babybones#sans#outertale#outertale sans#outertale frisk#regret au#regret sans#regret frisk#space dad#dad sans#✨️#i love them#poor baby frisky-bits#me too kid#this is one of those big nightmares#space#comic
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do you ever get reminded of a ship, remember a piece of fanart of it that you loved, then after a day long search realize that you just imagined it? and then try to draw it yourself?
prllb btbtt ALT VERISONS
#since im submitting this to radar: hi! my main blog is stupidusernamepolicy. this is my art sideblog#rick and morty#rick & morty#gravity falls#stan pines#stanley pines#rick sanchez#stanchez#rickstan#stanrick#admin draws#fanart#inspired by spinetrick slightly in the color palette because i didnt wanna do a style copy. but i first imagined it as it being THEIR art#dont. dont ask. i have a weird brain. ive done this shit before.#if im not alone PLEASE sound off. its funny but im also like. please dont let me be the only one.#anyeays. i always loved this ship#i know rick ford was the big thing but i personally think its much funnier if theyre rivals and cant stand each other#bc of science ego and personality differences#all the while rick is canoodling with his brother#i feel like theyre a great match in that theyre kind of immature old conmen who are both game for pretty much anything#RIGHT before i posted i caught a shading issue and also that i forgot stan's five o clock shadow. HA#imagine i posted this yesterday before those fixes. god what a nightmare
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winter holidays at the mystery shack (party billiam edition)
Stan celebrates what he calls "Cash-mas", which is just slapping a cheap felt santa hat and a 300% Christmas special markup on anything- and several things he can't- get away with in the gift shop
more sincerely, the Pines do a fairly low-key Hanukkah. if the twins are visiting, they do a much showier double christmas/hanukkah celebration
And Bill... well...





No one is entirely sure if it's a Euclidean thing or just a... Bill thing. But he's SO enthusiastic!





HAPPY WINTER FUNTIME BOYS & GIRLS!
#gravity falls#party billiam au#billford#obligatory holiday special#it is a nightmare realm thing#but since Bill was in charge for so long#that doesn't actually clear anything up#christmas#hanukkah#cashmas#HAPPY WINTER FUNTIME#REJOICE#and lean to one side!#olives for EVERYONE!#big furry hats and big furry boots are traditional attire#bill says that hypoten-moose fur is classier but squar-rel will do#...neither of those exist in this dimension#he had to improvise#stan be nice to your weird brother-in-law#the adults get to booze up that olive juice later#you don't have to suffer for long#bill was totally down for adding more holidays to his personal calendar#festival of lights? sign me UP#ecological destruction and free stuff? yes please#if ANYONE actually knows this reference I will draw any gravity falls gift art request for the first correct answer#within reason#lore dump#non euclidean geometry au#idk if i'm drawing them celebrating too but it is also canon to them lol#my art
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RealAgeAu Drabble - Shopping
I am back at it again because I had ideas. (don't worry friend @spotaus things are being planned and I got many many ideas :3 but before those happen stuff needs to be established and put in place!)
I was debating between like four different drabble ideas but settled on this one. Something calming for a bit :)
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Dust shoots Killer another glare as he holds Nightmare clsoer "I mean it Killer. get out of my blindspot. It is getting annoying."
Nightmare looks from Dust to Killer and sees the large grin on Killer's face as he skips after Dust and Nightmare "Nah. I think it is good i am here because it is your blindspot!"
Dust grumbles as he holds Nightmare clsoer. Nightmare just pushes his skull under Dust's chin as he listens to the two bicker. Dust gives him a quick nuzzle before shooting Killer another glare "Why are you even here?" Killer still has a large grin on his face "I am backup!"
Dust groans "I am getting Nightmare clothes."
Killer nods as he follows them "backup!"
Dust huffs before looking back at Nightmare. Nightmare sees the glare disappear from his face as Dust lets out a sigh before smiling at Nightmare "makes you start to wonder who helped who out of getting stuck in a wall."
Killer gasps loudly "That only happened a few times!"
Ngihtmare grins and laughs as he leans fully against Dust again. He likes being held by Dust and Dust must like it too because he always holds him.
Nightmare figured it was because his spine is fragile and walking for too long starts to bother him but Dust still just holds him. always. Maybe he also likes being close like this?
Thoguht Nightmare isn't sure what Dust gets out of it but he must really like something abut the close contact.
They walk past another few people who look at them. Nightmare shoots a glance as Dust and Killer continue to bicker. They seem to shoot Dust and him worried looks but chuckle once they realise that Dust and Killer are just doing their way of bonding.
Nightmare always thought the flirting between those two was weird but then again he thought most things dating was weird. Maybe because he was still a child in his soul...
Not that it matters.
Nightmare shoots a glance and spots Killer grinning widely as his soul is clearly in soulshape and looks stable. Dust may have an annoyed look on his face but he has a tiny smile on his face.
Nightmare hides his face in Dust's sweater but he can't hide the purr. He wants them to be happy. They are happy even with him near.
Dust notices of course nad gives him another nuzzle "comfy? Spine okay?"
Nightmare nods "Yeah."
Dust hums to signal he heard him but still rubs his back.
They finally stop near one of the smaller houses which is the clothing shop for this town.
Dust tilts his skull as Killer snorts "oh that is adorable. ready to dress Nightmare as a tiny old man?" he grins
Dust shoots Killer a glare "It isn't that bad..." then he looks at the store "just... a bit old fashioned..." he looks at him "That okay?"
Nightmare nods before shrugging "I don't get why i need new things..."
Dust sighs. Killer leans on Dust's other shoulder and shoots him a wink "Because you are still wearing Dust's things. and quite honestly. Dusty does not have a large enough wardrobe to dress both of you."
Nightmare frowns as he pushes clsoer to Dust. He doesn't mind wearing stuff them them. It are things that are well worn and soft and smell of them and old laundry detergent.
Dust nuzzles his skull "It will be nice. You can check what you like and what feels nice and is comfortable."
Nightmare frowns "it is expensive." which is another reason why he doesn't want to get anything.
Dust frowns and Killer quickly answers "That is a worry for us. And Dusty said it is fine so it is fine." he grins.
Dust nods "made some money. more than enough to get you some things."
Nightmare wants to disagree more but Dust walks into the store.
The inside isn't like he thought it would be. there is actually quite a number of nice looking things and looks more modern than you would think from the outside.
DUst makes a pleased sound before smiling smugly "Seems like they were just showing off the knitwear because it is autumn." he shoots Killer a look "Almost as if i did my research and knew it would be okay here." and he walks further into the store.
Killer sputters before following them "I know that Dusty! You always do that! I was just joking around!" he pouts but doesn't offer anything. Really just a shadow. It reminds Nightmare a bit about how it was before. Killer beign his right hand and always by his side to help and protect him. It still feels different now and even when thinking back to those memories they feel different.
Killer spots him looking at him and grins before wriggling his phalanges in a tiny wave at him. Nightmare huffs and pushes back closer to Dust.
Dust is looking through some clothes on the hanger "Stop bothering Nightmare." he pulls something off and looks it over critically. he holds it up for him to inspect and Nightmare just shrugs.
Killer pouts as he crosses his arms "Just having fun. And tiny boss is fine with it!" he grins at him "Right nighty?"
Nightmare shrugs. he doens't mind. it is nice.
Dust rolls his eye lights and doesn't look at Killer "Even if he is fine with is safe it for later. first buying clothes. Then you can tire him out."
Nightmare huffs and grumbles. he doesn't need tiring out. he is perfectly fine. Dust holds up another sweater and he shrugs again.
"Oh hello there dears! Can you find it all?"
Killer nad Dust turn and Nightmare feels Dust freeze for a moment. Yeah not a surprise because the woman looks a lot like Toriel. But Nightmare doubts it is the her of this universe. The closer he looks the more this woman seems like a sheep monster.
Killer and Dust must see it too as Killer grins "Pretty much! but we got it!"
Dust shoots him a look "Killer knock it off." he looks at the lady "We are looking for stuff for the little guy."
The lady smiles sweetly "Oh! You two must be two of Sans- I am sorry, Crop's friends!" she looks them over and her gaze lingers on Dust for a moment before settling on Nightmare. Nightmare can't stop the instinct of holding on tighter to Dust. He doesn't like having stranger's gazes on him.
The smiles sweetly "I can see the resemblance! You must be very proud of such a young handsome little boy!"
Dust looks to the side and shrugs but his hold on him tightens. Killer snorts, which is fair as they aren't actually related. Maybe she just sees the resemblance before Nightmare now looks much more like a tiny swap sans, as that was the original form his mother used to craft their bodies. And Dust is the one of the four that still resemblance who he used to be.
At elast Nightmare assumes that is why people think they see a resemblance. That or they are just racists and think all skeletons look alike.
the woman smiles "I am sure there is something fitting for him. Do you need any help?"
Killer's laugh turns cold as he smiles widely "No thanks! We got this!"
Dust rolls his eye lights and nudges him in the side "Stop it." he looks back to the lady "I was wodnering what the... organisation was. I wanted to look at stuff his size..." and he looks at the things he had been looking at with a glare.
The sheep monster looks a bit paler after Killer's interaction but smiles sweetly at Dust. "It is a bit of a mixmatch. Of all the stuff that is handmade it only has a few of each size. you will have to guestimate those. The imported clothes are by the walls, those have more standard sizing."
Dust nods "I see." and he starts walking towards the side first to check the sizing.
Killer grins as he leans close and whispers "Holding a babybones does wonders for making you look approachable"
Dust shoots him a glare and hisses "One word and I will put you in a wall myself." and he stomps over towards the clothes.
Nightmare still doens't understand why Killer thinks that kinda flirting is efficient but what does he know.
Dust is clearly unimpressed with the clothing offered with the more standard design and fabric. but they use it to figure out which size he is before moving towards the handmade stuff.
DUst and Nightmare check what is nice and soft as Killer shadows them. Staying nearby and pretty much glaring at anyone who as much as glances in their direction.
They end up settling for two big sweaters and some sweats. They wait by the cash register as Dust has picked him up again.
The nice woman smiles at them "That will be 140!" she smiles.
Killer winces at the price and Nightmare pushes closer to Dust "I don't need two." wool sweaters are expensive...
Dust shrugs as he looks at Killer "Be usefull and hold him for a moment." and Ngihtamre feels hismelf be handed over to Killer. Dust takes out some cash from his inventory and counts quickly before putting most of the stash he had on the counter "That should be enough." he stashes whatever is left.
The lady counts it and smiles as she puts it away. She packs it in a bag and holds it out to Dust "Thank you for shopping! And Can I just say it is lovely to see such a devoted father."
Dust shrugs and mutters a thanks before shooting Killer a warning look.
Killer grins as he nuzzles Nightmare "How are you this huggable tiny boss?"
Nightmare shrugs but holds unto Killer. Killer is also nice to be held by.
They leave the store together and walk back towards the parking lot. Something about meeting up again to go back to Crop's farm. Nightmare isn't really sure. He is already getting tired again adn he mumbles unhappily.
Killer purrs and coos "It is okay tiny boss. babybones need their sleep and rest after all."
Dust nods "Shopping is always busy." he shoots Killer a glare "Why is why i didn't want you to get him tired or overwhelmed."
Killer groans "Yeah yeah you were right. you are always right. can i go back to nuzzlign the baby now?"
Dust looks considerate before nodding "You may."
Killer grins and the nuzzles resume and Nightmare wants to pout and push him off but it is so nice and he can feel himself start to relax as he starts to purr again.
He likes it when his family holds him.
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#realageau#utmv#nightmare sans#deaged nightmare#dust sans#killer sans#What is this?! An actual lore reason why Nightmare is carried all the time and everywhere?!#aside from the fact everyone wants to hold and snuggle the baby#the baby also has a really bad and fragile spine and walking and putting weight on that is a bad idea. so they minimalise it unless it is i#a safe area where they can monitor it easily. like at home or the temp base they set up!#outside though is not safe so it is time to 'Hold Baby'#Nightmare is A-okay with it!#Nightmare is also aware all these four disasters kinda flirting and being interested in one another but doesn't get the big deal#Look this baby lived together with those four while nightmare was still an empath#There is no way he WOULDN'T know#Just something a bit sweet and nice to relax after the other drabbles :3#Also don't worry about them starting to physically resemble one another! After all! I am sure soul adopting a baby doens't have consequence#especially not if said baby is a god! :D
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my first model/texture paint is complete!
lots to improve upon, and my 2D background is really helping, but i'm really happy with this! i think he looks so cute. mixed and matched a lot of the model styles over the years to suit my preferences, so the colouring is from sa2 with slightly lankier proportions. gonna rig him, pose him, maybe make a little base, and call it there. i haven't tried animating at all so i don't think this model is quite built for it, but who knows when i get some experience under my belt. but all in all, really happy
#shadow the hedgehog#sonic the hedgehog#rochedotpng#had a friend helping me out with critiques and advice and such (thank u sugar you're a big help)#about 3.5k tris. i was going for psx initially so failed at that but oh well#those quills were a nightmare. why did i pick this as the first one. sonic is easier#3D art
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Do all these billionaires WANT to have a reason to use their bunkers? And that's why they're hastening the complete collapse of the US and mucking around in the elections of other democracies? Cause if you pause a fuckton of federal money that pays salaries and helps people stay on their feet while also not hiring anyone to work for the federal government and deporting everyone who picks our damn food and slaughters our damn animals, then wtf do you think is gonna happen?
We're speeding toward a situation where white collar folks have to turn to the the gig economy to get by, only there is no longer demand for that kind of work cause there are so many fewer white collar workers who need their groceries and meals delivered, so competition will be fierce. Wages will go down. The folks who used to do those jobs are gonna end up replacing the deported workers & they'll be so desperate for cash that they'll take the same shitty wages and wealth inequality will rise to the point where there is no fucking middle class anymore and then we'll all be slave laborers and then...
#Bunker time#Wake me up from this nightmare please#A bit simplistic#but basically salaried workers are gonna get forced into low wage hourly work or gig work#Those workers will get squeezed out#Prisons will fill cause being poor & homeless is a crime#Those folks will get sent to farms & slaughterhouses where they work 10 hours a day for 25 cents#And lose contact with the outside world cause phone & internet time is $5 per hour#Federal money is everywhere. It fuels so much of our economy#All these asshat Magats without degrees who want to see government workers fucked over cause they're insecure about their lack of education#Are gonna learn real quick how important those jobs are when nobody is spending money on the services they provide#You think folks are gonna be remodeling their houses & calling plumbers when they're out of work & can't pay their mortgage#lol no#And who is gonna snap that property up when it goes into foreclosure?#One of those big real estate companies that's backed by venture funding#And they'll turn around and rent it out to whoever still has enough cash to pay for rent but not enough to cover a mortgage#We're so fucked
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regarding the big Finale end-of-life announcement:
an offer without any expectation: i've been using the (free, open source) program LilyPond for all my sheet music engraving for years. i think it is powerful, flexible, and beautiful, but i also know that it has a steep learning curve and runs differently from many other programs. if you're curious about it, i'm always happy to talk about how it works, show you my process, and field any questions that come up for you if you decide to try it out. this is a standing offer; feel free to drop me a line about this at any time if you decide it's something that might be right for you!
#finale#lilypond#sheet music#music notation#composers#that creative life#Finale eol announcement crisis 2024#for those of you who don't do music notation:#there are like. three big commercial music notation programs#and one of them — which has been around for about 35 years — just announced they're shutting down#and like. shutting down as in “you will not be able to install this program on any new computers as of mid 2025”#because of corporate ip bullshit basically#which means that some people have three decades' worth of artistic work#that is going to be stuck in a defunct proprietary format soon#unless they can find a way to port it over to an entirely different program#the entire thing is an absolute *nightmare* for everyone affected by it#which ranges from small independent composers doing little pieces for local friends#to folks writing multi-act shows with international development processes#IT'S BAD IT'S REAL BAD IF YOU KNOW A COMPOSER GIVE THEM A HUG TODAY
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unironically I do think a big reason american tourists get such a bad rap in other countries is because the ones who CAN afford to travel internationally? theyre usually the entitled obnoxious ones. not 100% but by and large if you see an American vacationing in like, Europe or whatever, they're probably fairly wealthy. they're at least not in the service industry. and generally speaking, the way they're treating service workers in foreign countries is not very much worse than the way they treat them back home, and we ALSO hate them
#nerd alert#obviously this is not the end of it. americans being racist/xenophobic in general and also just. ignorant. also is a big part im sure#but like. heres the thing. ive never traveled to another country. i cant afford to. thats crazy expensive for me.#i also work foodservice. ive worked almost exclusively foodservice/retail for a decade. i know how NOT to act as a customer#in an AMERICAN establishment. in another country tho??? id be apologizing every other damn word#i would be GROVELING about it all cuz id know im the one whos out of place here!!!#and yet there are some Americans who made manifest destiny part of their personality and are out to civilize the local burger king#and when those ones get out of the country theyre fuckin nightmares
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When i woke up at like 5 am this morning the first thing i did was take these pictures and then laugh so hard i cried




#hes so ugly he makes me sick#i cant believe i let these things live in my house with me#i really wanna get those baby chest harnesses for the big one n just start taking him everywhere#i mean. we already tame him everywhere. but thatd make it easier#i would buy one now if i didnt have nightmare hell world medical bills to pay
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updated the silly <3
#crime city nightmare#caitlyn kiramman#twisted fate#tobias felix#plus all the other charas important to those two slipping in and out of the narrative nbd#also leodia and noxus bros#throwing lol and lor and arcane into a big ol pile bec if riot's allowed to fuck up the IP#then I'M allowed to fuck up the IP!!#league of legends#legends of runeterra#arcane league of legends#that one fic im writing where caitlyn has depression and tf is being a little shit abt it#doodle#fanfic#caitlyn league of legends
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oh god why am i so bad at moving
#just gonna be a long day#might see about extending this uhaul rental#the thought of moving everything in my kitchen is giving me nightmares#especially since i'm moving to a place that the fridge isn't working in#D:#dry microwave food for me for a few days i guess#okay i have all the big stuff in the truck#BUT THE KITCHEN STUFF#why must i like cooking so much *sob*#also never had a pantry so i have a lot of moveable shelves#urgh#those are the worst#that's what messed me up last time#left everything on the selves because they have semi sides#but a glass bottle fell out and broke and the it took me forever to get the reek of teriyaki out of the uhaul#took me at least an hour and a half of just cleaning lmaooooo#am i going to do anything differently this time?#probably not#i hate putting things in boxes just to take them out >.>#okay#i am not going to stack them as tall at least#hopefully that's enough#and put the open sides towards the wall instead of the open middle of the truck#okay time to eat so i can finish step one: packing#and move to step two: unpacking
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I want to get a tattoos of poetry I love and find unsettling but also don’t want to look like a pretentious loser. Irreconcilable.
#I’m about to sound like a hater for a minute and that’s because I’m being a hater#but I think I would feel like one of those millennials with the big ass nightmare before Christmas tattoos (derogatory)
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I just beat Chronos without a Death Defiance!! I was taking a gamble on the bottom right Arcana (you know the one, reveals 3-5 cards after each guardian) and as soon as I didn't get the Death Defiance card after fighting Cerberus, I assumed I was done for. I even gave up on trying to defeat him and purposefully went for one of the miniboss chambers (which I would ordinarily never do) bc I figured I could at least put some progress toward the minor prophecy where I need to fight all the minibosses. But then I reached Chronos and even though I'd equipped Skelly's keepsake, I didn't have to use it to win. Fucking proud of myself rn.
#now tbf i also wasn't doing an oath run#simply because if i don't feel like using the weapon with darker thirst i always default to the twin blades#and i wasn't gonna fucking do a 16 darkness run with the twin blades just to get some nightmare i don't even care about#(i really am not that big on the aspects tbh. i like moros' and circe's and those are about the only ones i prefer over melinoe's)#but still. no death defiance!!#hades game
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WHY do i have dreams that feel more real than life and are also 5 million times cooler. just woke up from one that felt like it lasted 12 hours and in that time i had held a house party, got extremely crossfaded, went to an amusement park, wandered the streets and nearly got hit by a car, went to a restaurant that looked identical to that from dua lipa’s training season mv which morphed back into my house where i was making a salad bar for everyone at the party, then almost went to a devil themed nightclub with everyone but i couldn’t because i needed some sort of christian identification to get in???? then my mom came home and made me take a bunch of drug tests. also there were several black cats and random huge dogs wandering around the whole time. i literally felt every sensation like it was as if i had been transported to another real life timeline that was incredibly wacky yet SUPER familiar (the house/town looked exactly like irl but with random added places.)
i also NEVER realize that i’m dreaming per se, i’m just like, “oh so this is my life now cool” and when i say i feel everything i mean it. it was humid and i could feel the mist on my face. i could taste the food. i felt paper bills underneath my fingertips whenever i wld pay for something. funniest part was i was JUST as poor in this dream as i am irl i found $6 in my wallet and lost my ever-loving shit bc i could get a gas station monster. oh and i stole from the gas station too??
this is a 3-4 times a week occurrence and when i wake up i do not feel rested, i feel like i would had i just done everything in whatever dream i woke up from (BAD.) i sometimes will confuse things i’ve done in dreams with what i’ve done in waking life, it just feels THAT real. i’ll wake up and it will take me a few decent minutes to distinguish between whether that experience was a dream, or if it was real and i just went to bed at the end of it and am waking up from that.
absolutely fucking bizarre shit but tbh it’s pretty rad and i’ve actually been able to get over fears i had irl bc i had the experience in the dream, and it felt so real that it was almost like i gained that xp in waking/real life. like something i never thought i’d be able to do/was nervous abt but now i can do it fine bc i’ve “gone through it.”
obvs a lot less fun when these are nightmares, not dreams; the exhaustion sucks as sleep is not rejuvenating but that’s nearly offset by the fun i have in many dreams and the way that has opened me up to so much irl. some say when we dream we’re visiting a parallel timeline, and while i don’t completely agree i can 100% see why honestly
#this is one of the more tame dreams i’ve had btw.#the relative lack of absurdity might contribute to why it feels so real#the nightmares suck ass though big time. i can gain greatly from my dreams but i will suffer from the nightmares#mainly in the form of paranoia for a few days. overall the benefits outweigh the negatives at least at this point#if the confusion between reality/dreaming gets worse that might be a problem.#overall it is absolutely fucking bizarre. i cannot believe there are people who simply do not dream??? this has been happening to me FOREVE#and only seems to get more intense w age#also i obvs understand the science of dreaming. how different circumstances effect dreams and how they can just be your brain processing#information or can be totally random/have no meaning etc etc. i am far too rational to discount this#and that random pains/physical feelings/sounds in the environment etc can translate into your dream and cause you to feel those things whil#asleep#but a large part of me also understands fully why people think it is far more than that#it fascinates me to the nth degree
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clocking in at midnight to say, do y'all ever think about how......there is some dark star at the heart of constantine that really, truly enjoys taking a fucking piece out of someone that wrongs him. that genuinely craves having power over people who are used to having that power themselves.
like, there's a reason that his principal driving forces are empathy and guilt: he cares a lot about people being wronged, and he gets absolutely fucking furious at the people who wrong them. what's more, he's clever enough to lash out in ways that ensure maximum damage without necessarily involving him directly. (instructing chas to pay people to break the legs of a guy that hurt one of his exes, involving ellie in a scheme to drop the archangel gabriel from grace) now, he always feels awful afterwards about taking such drastic steps, and the people he goes after are genuinely reprehensible fucks who deserved far worse, but the shit that he sets people up for in a fit of anger gets intense, man.
tbh i think he attributes that part of himself to his father. and it's part of why he struggles to look at himself in mirrors some days. i don't think he'll ever feel like he's left his father behind him, or broken the cycle, or outgrown the nasty bits of himself that made mistakes like newcastle, because he's never fully learned how to get that rage to go away before acting on it impulsively.
#( ooc. ) OUT OF CIGS.#this doesn't have to make sense tbh i'm rambling#but like him going all in for the tate club In Person? that was a BIG step in a new direction for him#and imo if he hadn't been able to reconcile with chas and gemma later? we could have seen a MUCH worse john constantine#someone who took his pound of flesh In Person and Enjoyed it. someone who never fully stopped grieving.#i think in a lot of ways the versions of him that show up in crap like neo-gothic and jld are truly his nightmare#bc those people are vindictive and nasty and wholly selfish. the way he was after cheryl died#except they never Stop being that way. he Did. they were built that way; he Wasn't#ANYWAY i talk a lot about how he doesn't like violence but imo that's in part bc he Craves it sometimes#and that's part of why one primary method of self-destruction is just finding someone to beat the shit out of him#bc then he can feel like a victim (which he knows how to be) and not like a potential aggressor (which he can't handle being)#idk if any of these phrases sound the way i want them to but we're just gonna chuck that all into the void and workshop tomorrow#( headcanons. ) I'M JUST LIKE THE BASTARDS I'VE HATED ALL ME LIFE.
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trying to stave off a migraine so i wound up going back to this wip id started the other day, so now here's Uyanga
gee, i wonder who she's related to
#crystallineScreens ❅#ffxiv#final fantasy xiv#uyanga#original#fun fact: her name means melody!#definitely thinking along the lines of dragons' songs or that whole ''teach her a new melody'' w this one#no idea where she's gonna crop up tbh#same time as Charikleia and Euodia tho#eyes are like that because first kid surkie's carried since post-enw so theres a bit of voidsent in there#it's more prevalent in her and not the likes of tseren or sarangerel or bolorsarnai or euodia because surkie sired those four#theres still something that's likely fucky w them but not to the same degree as Uyanga#but just like her big sister Yukiko she is going to be one nightmare of a kid#also both deal with chronic pain whoops#unfortunately it's genetic and it comes from surkie - and she got it from her mother#altan got it worse but surkies still dealing w shit#but yeah this is surkiestinien baby no3 (technically attempt 2 - intentionally this time)#means that her+charikleia+euodia are unofficial triplets by virtue of being born on the same day
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