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autisticdiluc · 5 months ago

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yandere simulator ramble (mostly ab ayano)

see my thing is with yandere sim obviously there are a bunch of problems from alex himself being the developer, the panty shots in the game (because eventho it's used as blackmail with info-chan and sold to those who want it or wtv there could be a way easier way to blackmail the girls for points), the depiction that the bullies are gyaru giving the impression most gyaru's are mean/bullies, the fact that oh everyone is 18 even though they clearly arent?? amongst other things

yet even then there's something still addicting about the game especially with ayano being a yandere, or to consider: someone with obsessive love disorder (the highest 'level' or intensity of this). even then, although obviously everyone in the aishi family just has to be a yandere, it was gonna be obvious that ayano was gonna be one too rightt?

First Part: Emotions

ryoba fed into the mindset that ayano needed that special someone to be complete so she could finally feel something and she's 'reassuring' ayano that ryoba was the same way when she was younger as well until she found jokichi. ayano, as a child, knew something was wrong with her. there is no doubt that something continues to be wrong with her especially after her own mother teaches her to get rid of blood to use it later to "get rid of future obstacles." Obstacles which refer to the rivals; rivals who are just girls that have a crush on taro (minus muja kina and mida rana because theyre just creeps i fear). even so ryoba's words lingered in ayano's mind. that was ayano's reason to live - something to look for. which btw is kinda fucked up cause she's a child thinking this but also fair anyway,,

Jokichi has attempted to make ayano's life better. he has tried to be a good father; he has tried to be the best that he can be in order to make his daughter feel normal. but with how ayano is - how she is broken from the start - it was impossible. it didn't help that ryoba encouraged the behaviour almost, saying she was exactly the same as ayano AND how she wasn't worried at all. jokichi didn't like that (normal reaction cause hello??) but ayano is nothing but an empty girl. however what i find interesting is that she felt pity for her father. despite everything she felt pity, and that!! is an emotion!! why i find this interesting is how she can feel something for someone else but not for herself. as a result of her pity, she began to act like other children pretending to be normal and happy for jokichi, despite how she knew that he didnt really believe her happiness himself.

and then!! ayano began to pretend all the time. to stop the bullying, to fit in with everyone because it was simply more convenient even if ayano didn't really care if it happened or not. she had friends (though she didnt care about them) and she had a routine established by pretending all the time. she grew resentful of being 'broken'. as funny as that is because she was supposed to broken, yet, she felt emotions to a mild degree. resentment (some might also say bitterness) is like more complex emotion rather than your typical joy sadness etc but it's still an emotion. and ayano WANTS to feel and have emotions anyway. she craves it, ayano longs to feel, its almost painful itself because she can't experience it to a high degree. HOWEVER!!!!!!!!!! as small as it is she's felt emotion, she's felt pity and bitterness and she wants and wants and thats so interesting. what's even more interesting is her length to have emotions. in her lore video, she is seen killing a cat to see if she felt something like guilty or remorse but nothing happened. this is where it (chronologcally) is seen that ayano is willing to do extreme things to see if she could feel something, so it's not a surprise when she's willing to kill her 'rivals' to keep taro.

now ayano is described as someone who has no personality, no hobbies, no true friends, nothing, just an empty husk of a person. however, when she meets taro that changes drastically. she has clearer and obvious emotions; she finally has the feelings she always wanted. although, i believe that she wouldn't react to having feelings the best even with finding osana talking to taro etc etc. if you lived your entire life having no emotions (not any major or obvious ones anyway) until you find your someone (someone who you've been dreaming of, waiting for, needing) and all the emotions finally comes crashing down all at once,, don't you think you'd be more than a bit overwhelmed? she's been missing out on all the sensations people had since birth. she's always felt incomplete and then all of a sudden she meets taro and it fits like a missing puzzle piece finally being placed down. it was clear that taro made her feel happy, wanting love and all positive emotions. although, now that she has emotions: she's going to have to experience the 'bad' ones too. she'll experience anger, annoyance, fear, anxiety, jealousy, desperation, envy, hatred etc etc.

as soon as she sees osana talk to taro yeah you can tell she feels all the negative emotions all at once. she finally has emotions, she finally can experience what everyone else takes for granted, but osana comes in and threatens her. osana talks to taro, has a crush on him, and that sends a spike of fear and anger through ayano because ayano should not be striped away of her newly found emotions. she needs the emotions. and as a result she needs taro because he is the one allowing her to feel this way. she's in love with the emotions. it's not love that she has for taro, not really, but she is obsessed. she has the overwhelming obsessive desire to protect and possess taro (which is literally the description of obsessive love disorder). she needs taro like how she needs air now that she's met him.

as i said like 3 paragraphs above she's going to be overwhelmed, like it or not, and whenever people are overwhelmed they tend to take an unnecessarily drastic and extreme path because when you're overwhelmed you aren't in the best mindset. ayano is still a human even if she was "broken" before. she makes mistakes and she's going to be overwhelmed by her emotions for a while especially because she feels like she's is almost dead when she's not near taro. taro is a trigger for her essentially. when he's near, the overwhelming feelings all come back. she felt dead before, now she doesn't and these feelings repeat over and over every time she's away from taro and when she goes near him again.

on another note l, although ayano "has" taro currently, she still feels broken and incomplete when not near him as mentioned. yet, this incomplete feeling hurts MORE because she knows who her someone is. im going to bring up the fact that ryoba and jokichi went to the states for a 'vacation' (to kill the journalist) without warning. i find it interesting because ayano is most likely to experience negative emotions more intensely than before. taro has brought the emotions to light so i believe she still feels them when she's not near him but it's so mild that it's barely there. however with negative emotions those are easier to feel. ayano was shown to be angry that osana has a crush on taro (and she wasn't near taro at the time) after finding out from info chan in the opening cutscene,, in fact she was at home meaning she was not close to taro at all. as i mentioned though taro is almost like a trigger so its most likely just that. anyway the intensity of negative emotions may be easier to give into. so.... going with an idea that they are easier to give into, it's easier to feel even when not around taro. i believe the feeling of loneliness is something that is practically overtaking ayano's very mind.

ayano has always been lonely, before she met taro and after. she's been lonely in the sense that she never had been able to connect with her peers on a genuine note. lonely in the sense that jokichi only worried about her wanting her to be normal and ryoba was the opposite, not worrying at all. lonely in the sense she always felt incomplete, lonely cause she knew she wasnt normal, lonely because she needed to be fixed, lonely because nobody other than her mother and all those who suffered from the "aishi conditon" would understand her. and even though those with the "aishi condition" would understand they already found their someone, they werent "broken" anymore. and speaking of the those finding their someone it is highly likely that ryoba devoted more of her time to jokichi than she did to ayano. the reason i believe this is because although ryoba has jokichi, she needs him to love her as well. gonna leave it there but!!! ryoba and jokichi are away in the states currently. so if ayano did feel lonely before she's going to feel lonely in that empty house. a house too big with your own thoughts, own freedom and doing whatever the hell you want. ryoba actively encouraged ayano to do whatever she needed to do to get rid of the 'obstacles' in her life if she found her special someone. its no surprise with the eliminations you can do one of them is torturing your rivals (or even just mind breaking a random student). (On a side note Japanese houses don't have built in basements so ryoba had to literally custom add that)

anyway I bring forth another thing: neglect. however I'm going to go into detail with this with the second part: OLD

Second Part: Obsessive Love Disorder

Obsessive Love Disorder is something that Ayano has. Obsessive Love Disorder as said earlier is a disorder where a person feels obsessive over another person and feels the need to protect them. this isn't really looked at as an 'actual' disorder to psychologist but i couldn't give two bare fucks about that. let's break it down with SOME of the symptoms of OLD:

overwhelming attention to someone

obsessive thoughts

feeling the need to protect the person you're in love with

possessive thoughts and actions

extreme jealousy over interpersonal relationships

low self-esteem

may not take rejection lightly/easily

ignoring personal boundaries

overly controlling

being overwhelmed with emotions about a person that is disrupts your daily function

threatening the other if they leave

monitoring the others actions

blurring or crossing boundaries

anxiety

inability to tolerate time away

most if not all of these things can be easily associated to ayano's behavior. ayano stalks taro, occasionally fantasizes that he kidnaps her, dislikes all the girls who try and talk to taro, wants him all to herself, feels dead when he's not near, follows him home so she can spend more time 'protecting' him, cannot see a life without him (evidenced by 'snap' ending as when she kills him, she kills herself not long after), her first interaction with him shows her finally feeling emotions and as i said she's going to feel overwhelmed with them, anger and anxiety that a 'rival' may be able to take taro away from her, based on ryoba where she tortured jokichi i doubt that ayano would take lightly is taro tried to leave her, finally rejection results in quite literally being heartbroken AND snap so it's obviously not taken easily nor lightly etc etc

anyway!! those are some examples that relate to the symptoms now here are two of the many causes.

some of y'all (if anyone reads this actually but the group council in my head will suffice) may not like this one but number 1 is neglect.

neglect is one of those things that can be in several forms. the more common forms would be emotional neglect (AND!! physical neglect), e.g. not telling your child you're leaving to go away to take care of some 'business' until you're already gone. (even worse when the business is to kill a man but yk). with this neglect you're emotionally unavailable (and in this case also physically). to understand better emotional neglect it is when a child does not receive the stimulation and nurturing they need. ayano has not received stimulation or the necessary nurturing from ryoba because ryoba fully heartedly believes that all ayano needs is that special someone. in a sense, she is right but she was actively neglecting ayano by not helping her instead just repeating that someone will come to complete and fix her. as said in the example it can also be physical neglect as ryoba left a teen (because no way you're a junior and 18, fuck you Alex the highest you can get is 17.) all by herself in a house whilst indirectly promoting the use of the basement through vague post cards and childhood lessons.

(And yes! Encouraging negative behavior is neglect because you do not care what happens to those around you!)

another form of neglect that ayano experienced was medical neglect. this form of neglect isn't as obvious but can be picked up in ayano's lore video. at the very beginning, it is stated that her first memories are that of hospitals, doctors and everything medical wise. this was most definitely jokichi's work as the best ryoba has stated on the matter was how they were similar and how ayano will find her someone to complete her. now later (but before ayano pretends) the hospital etc weren't mentioned again. it can be thought and implied that ryoba decided it was a waste to focus medically on ayano because she'll simply find her someone to cure her later. this can be thought out to be medical neglect because there could've been a small chance if ayano kept doing, if she visited more happy places there's a possibility something could've changed. even then this neglect isn't so obvious so it's easy to ignore. to add on though teaching your child how to clean up blood for not so good reasons is encouraging negative behavior and could be a contribution to her messed up mindset.

another reason would be delusional jealousy. this is inhibited by an instance or things that are false. this delusional jealousy can also make one believe someone is in love with them even if there are obvious signs that is not the case.

okay for this reason I believe the delusion itself is fostered by the fact that ayano needs taro so she believes he must need her. it's a common mindset even without OLD that if someone needs something, others must need it too making possessiveness and jealousy to form. because the game isn't complete and is likely not going to be complete in the next decade, it's hard to tell if taro would actually like ayano as a genuine person. (and I would say that it's kind of obvious that he doesn't but in game taro is a pussy? if you even stand near him for more than 5 seconds he's like "oh she's strange" "stay back get away from me!!" even when ayano isn't doing anything?? like in game I wouldn't be close enough where the pink love thing pops up and taro would still be like "get away from me!!!") but if ayano hypothetically talked to him like all of her rivals, then taro would maybe like her.

once again these two are not the only ones that can be associated with ayano but these are the only ones I wanted to discuss.

anyway ending this section to go to the next important one!! drumroll... Pacifist vs Murderer

Third Part: The Endings

this is the third part of my rant that consists of pacifist ayano vs murderer ayano which could be "Good Ending" Ayano and "Bad Ending" Ayano.

starting off with something a good bunch of yan sim fans don't actually agree on is that pacifist ayano is a completely different person than murderer ayano.

and you might be thinking "wrap it up luca,, pacifist is different than a murderer no shit"

but really it's more than that. pacifist ayano is different because she actually truly expresses her emotions when she's a pacifist. even if you gossip about the rivals or expell them where they don't show up to school anymore, ayano can be seen as a person who expresses her emotions because she's so much more than a murderer. this is even more vividly seen if you befriend the rivals. once again this is based off the two rivals that are out, osana and amai. if you decide to befriend osana and she comes to your house in the morning, there is the infamous talk where osana talks about her stalker and how she can't believe that someone could fall in love without knowing them. this, to ayano and the player itself, can be associated with ayano herself especially considering how she 'loves' taro without knowing him and has stalked him. now when ayano decides not to betray osana, giving her normal tea, it can be seen how desperate ayano is to keep taro without actually harming osana. osana may like taro, but ayano needs him. the desperation expressed through the befriend route shows the most human ayano ever. this desperation and longing for taro is carried through the same befriending route with amai (although her conversation involves jabs at having a "rival" and "eliminating" them).

the most human and realest part of ayano is when she befriends the rivals and begs them not to confess to taro. (if it isn't obvious I love the pacifist ending because I like the raw desperation and human form of ayano compared to the murderer route)

in contrast to pacifist ayano, when ayano murders the rivals, her sanity obviously decreases. unlike in game where you can giggle or go near taro to increase your sanity, it's not that easy irl.

keep in mind if ayano doesn't increase her sanity and it goes below 20% then ayano starts hallucinating and murdering those around her. even if ayano could realistically easily increase her sanity after killing a rival that is to show that ayano will only be a murderer (something the headmaster and megami saikou thinks her to be). if ayano were kill and regain her sanity quickly she is as broken as people think her to be. she is truly nothing but an empty husk who follows her mother. she may have emotions but she isn't someone you can love. she isn't someone who can be seen as a human. like ryoba, ayano would most likely follow the path that ryoba led where ayano simply kidnaps taro at the end torturing him and making him her husband. as said earlier, negative emotions are easier to form so it would be easy to give in to the pestering intrusive thoughts to kill her rivals. it's the quickest way out and it's the true emotionless thing most want her to be. being violent seems to be the easiest way out and most often people take that route, however, in the very end ayano simply follows her mother's path of decay and destruction. murderer ayano is easier to conform, though, is that the real ayano? is she someone who can't be proven not to be broken? another thing is that if ayano does go this route and she doesn't get caught, all she ends up doing is create a cycle. she continues down the path that ryoba had laid out for her since the beginning. (which honestly is the lousiest route and ending to take because people just loveee the trope of repeating the cycle)

personally I don't care much for the murderer ending but I will admit it is interesting to see how ayano spirals and ultimately decides to kill off every single one of her rivals.

the next two endings are going to be briefly the genocide ending and "snap" ending.

genocide ending is simply the ending where ayano is a murderer but instead of just applying that to just her rivals she does it to the entire school minus taro. it's the 'darkest' ending depending on how you look at it because it proves that ayano couldn't stand anyone else coming between her and taro. she needed taro all to herself and she did just that by killing every single person in the school all in the first day of the week (minus the headmaster, taro, infochan and the guidance counsellor). in this ending you can tell that ayano's sanity is completely gone by the way she says "so..i killed them all" in the cutscene that plays. ayano says it in such a manic and inhuman way its obvious that she doesn't regret it now that she can have taro all for herself. at the very end of the cutscene it pans to taro being in the basement tied up. this is where its clear that ayano follows ryoba completely (if not surpassing her in terms of violent nature and sense due to how she killed every one instead of just her rivals) to keep taro as her senpai.

and finally, snap ending. Snap ending is by far the most interesting one in terms of endings. Before ayano kills taro with the knife, when she walks to every student she kills them with her bare hands. in this ending I believe that she's more "broken" than her other endings. she's given up on this world and she's willing to take out others who get in her way (literally). the others are so terrified to the point where they can't even move, they just watch until it's their turn. ayano feels nothing but heartbreak and there's no other option but to kill taro then herself. even before she kills herself with the same knife she used to stab him, the insistence of voices saying "do it" continue to loop giving her no other option but to join taro. this ending is so interesting because it shows how ayano physically cannot live without taro and how she's willing to make sure that nobody else has him. another thing interesting about it is the trope of "if you die, I die". this trope is placed into things like Romeo and Juliet where Juliet pretends to die and Romeo kills himself to "join" her. when Juliet wakes up and finds Romeo dead she soon follows killing herself actually to join him.

anyway I think I'll stop for now cause I've been at this for hours LOL

The End (for now..)

idk I like yan sim a lot and I love ayano's character (I doubt yandere dev was smart enough to do it on purpose but whatever.) Ayano is literally my girl and I love her so much ❤️❤️ ayano is just a girl

#yandere simulator #i hate yandere dev i hope he dies #i do not support yandere dev #yansim #ayano aishi #ayano #ayano is literally my oc wym #pacifist ayano #taro yamada #rant post #rambles

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knizai · 15 days ago

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Hii!! I saw your event and wanted to send in a request! Please take as much time as you want<33

I feel a little shy requesting this but for the character, could it be Tecchou and my name will beeeee Mélisande! Melissa for a nickname :3

Melissa is like from an anti-hero organization, they’re not necessarily good nor bad! She’s a medic and she owns an illegal clinic. Honestly, if you have any idea for those two, I would love to read it! I’m up for anything!! Fluff, angst, anything apart from nsfw is fine! Mélisande seems quite intimidating but she’s a very smiley and mother like character! She knows when to have fun but mainly she’s calm and likes to tease. Oh, not sure if this will be useful but she struggles from night-terrors!!!

I feel the best trope for them would maybe be something like rivals to lovers? Everything is honestly up to you, go wild! 💗

I really like your theme btw🤍(⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡ take your time, health is first!

I love you, I'm Sorry

EEK DIS IS SHO KYUTE IK I SAY THIS FOR ALL BUT OMGIEE!! HURT TO COMFORT WITH THE NIGHT TERRORS!! I LOVE RIVALS TO LOVERS SM ≽^•⩊•^≼

The commotion outside the illegal clinic had become a normal sound for Mélisande, who was just getting ready for the day to begin. She sighed as she buttoned up her white medical coat, and grabbed her bag, readying herself to deal with the mess that she was sure would happen. She looked at herself in the mirror again, putting a blue bow into her long black hair, fixing it and making sure it was perfect. She nodded at her reflection and walked out of the back room and turned to face the front of the clinic. As she stepped out, She felt her vision turn fuzzy. The air felt hotter outside than it had been in the past couple of weeks. Her legs started to give way under her, and she couldn't help but fall to the ground. It took all of her effort to keep her eyes open but still failed as she passed out. Tecchou just happened to be in the area when he spotted someone collapsing in front of a certain illegal clinic. He raised an eyebrow, curious about what he saw. As soon as he got a closer look at the person's face, he noticed that it was a young woman, and immediately froze upon recognizing her as Mélisande, the medic from the illegal clinic. He paused for a moment, debating on leaving her there, but her health still concerned him regardless. Tecchou gently placed her on his bed, making sure she was comfortable. Something in him couldn't help but notice that she looked more vulnerable unconscious. He couldn't help but notice how beautiful she was, with her long black hair framing her face, and her cyan eyes now closed to the world...Now was not the time to think about such things. She was his rival, and definitely on the opposing side. She moved a little in his bed, making small noises of discomfort. Her face contorted to worry, and she looked a little distressed as she started mumbling something in her sleep.Tecchou noticed her moving in her sleep. He furrowed his brows in confusion, and walked closer to the bed. Her breathing started to pick up, and she seemed more uncomfortable. Her face was scrunching up, as if in pain. Her mumbles turned into soft whimpers, and she seemed to toss and turn slightly, like something was bothering her in her sleep. He picked her up into a sitting position, and gently held onto her, rubbing her back as she mumbled in her sleep. he tried calling her name, hoping it would wake her from this nightmare. He gently shook her shoulder and continued to whisper her name.

She seemed to startle awake, her eyes flying open,her body tensing up. As soon as she realized she was being held, she immediately tried to push Tecchou away, not realizing where she was. Tecchou was slightly surprised as she tried to push him away, but he immediately stopped touching her. "Whoa, You're safe, you're safe.." She paused, trying to remember what happened. The last thing she could recall was getting ready for work, and then passing out. As she remembered, she looked up and saw Tecchou, and immediately went red in the face. She tried to move away again. Tecchou held his hands up. "Hey, you passed out outside your clinic earlier, I took you in, that's all I did. I promise I mean you no harm...I swear." She looked around and slowly remembered passing out from the heat. She relaxed but didn't move away from him as much. She remembered that he was one of her rivals, and the last thing she wanted was to be used as a hostage or something. As the two began to catch each other's eyes, their hearts started to beat a little bit faster. Mélisande felt herself lean in a little closer, and her lips slightly parted. She couldn't help but glance at his mouth before looking up at his eyes. Tecchou realized how close she was, and his breathing started to pick up a little. Something about her felt magnetic, and her closeness was starting to create an almost gravitational pull. His eyes glanced at her lips for a moment, and he swallowed. Their lips touched, and the kiss became something they were both waiting for. He brought one of his hands to her waist, pulling her closer and deepening the kiss. As they pulled away, she whispered, her tone soft.

"I love you..."

#𝓑𝓻𝓲𝓪𝓻𝓼 𝓼𝓪𝓯𝓮 𝓹𝓵𝓪𝓬𝓮 #bsd fluff #bungou stray dogs #bsd tecchou #tecchou suehiro #tecchou suehiro fluff #I LUVVV HURT TO COMFORT SMMM

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thefiery-phoenix · 8 months ago

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YANDERE TSUYU HEADCANONS

Unlike the other yanderes, Tsuyu will first try to know you better and find out all your interests and hobbies and all that, like a normal person

She actually seems pretty chill and laid back when you talk to other people. However when people hit on you or try flirting with you, she will NOT hesitate to regret it

She will NOT invade your personal space and privacy and she is like, one of the MOST respectful yanderes out there

She won't go around stalking you everywhere you go. She knows you are independent and strong and thats what drew her towards you. But, occasionally she WILL randomly 'pop' up at places asking you whether you want to check out that new cafe that opened a block away or have a sleepover at her house or something of that sort

She will NOT sneak into your room and watch you sleep at night, EVER. She knows and respects your boundaries

The MOST harmless of yanderes

She won't kidnap you just for some dumb reason like talking to someone else or she thinking that you're not safe in this world. If she DOES kidnap you, she'll do it because you would have probably injured yourself drastically and she's just WORRIED about you. Show her some love and affection okay?

She will put up and oscar award theatrical drama award performance as to why she kidnapped you saying that she loves you and she just wants to keep you safe. No matter how many profanities and curse words you yell at her and no matter how many times you have a fit, she will just stay calm and agree that you have a good reason do whatever you're doing, but will leave with an unhappy and bummed face

Honestly, living with Tsuyu won't be so bad. She will NEVER punish you, EVER. She won't even try to emotionally manipulate you. She'll just give your own free personal space

Tsuyu can't bring herself to use dire and drastic ways of making you behave like starving you and leaving you in isolation like most yanderes do. She'll just take away some of your favorite stuff till you're calmed down and after that, she'll make you your favorite food

If you long to go outside, she will gladly accept and take you, on ONE condition. You have to stick by her side and NEVER leave her. NO talking to anyone else

Tsuyu can get jealous rather easily and if she's dealing with a rival, she won't kill them. She'll just threaten and blackmail them to an extent that they'll be frightened and scared to say anything against her for the fear of their sanity

Will never treat you like a prisoner. She might place a quirk cancelling cuff around your ankle, which is really fluffy btw, she might remove it after a month of your stay with her

Won't force herself onto you. She respects your decisions. If you're not in a mood for cuddling with her, it's fine. She will be a bit sad but she won't cling on to you 24/7 out of 365 days like some OTHER yanderes I know (I'm looking at YOU, DEKU!!!)

She is a precious frog bby, mark my words darling, you YOURSELF WILL CERTAINLY fall for her within a month or so

''Ribbit, you look really cute today Y/N chan"

#yandere bnha #yandere bnha x reader #yandere tsuyu asui #yandere tsuyu asui x reader #yandere tsuyu asui imagines #yandere tsuyu asui headcanons #yandere tsuyu asui oneshots #yandere tsuyu asui scenarios

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thedivinevera · 2 years ago

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When they're jealous

Zsakuva character x reader, Xanthus Clayborne x femreader, Andrew Marston x femreader

Headcanon and senario, romance, jealousy, mutual relationship, established relationship, fem reader

Tw : mention of murder, yandere theme (xanthus part), bad grammar, wrong spellings and errors

Jealousy headcanon for 2 of my most favorite asmr of zsakuva

A/n helloo it's been a while since i post, I've been busy with my Wattpad account. Btw this is a zsakuva character they're not mine credit to zsakuva

Andrew

- when he sees you with an another professor who's also the same age or a little older than you makes his blood boil in anger

- he doesn't really get jealous often but when he sees other people men or woman flirting to you makes him see red for goodness sake

- his kisses will definitely more rougher than normal and he would leave some hickey that is visible enough for the so called rival sees it.

- since they already know your relationsh with him he expected that his rival also know that your his

- he would definitely kiss you behind the neck and purposely showing dominance by giving you his coat despite the fact that you are already burning because of how hot the weather is.

- your just so fucking confused because how weird Andrew is ever since you take his rival's class for additional academic :< you just want to learn

- at the end of the day it's just all side eyes and you suffering because wtf is happening

Xanthus

- ohh boy

- Guess who would die, that's right the poor man who flirted with you

- Xanthus has treated you into a shopping spree because he likes to spend his money on you not like he doesn't have a lot (mmmhh do i smell a sugar daddy fanfic)

- then while Xanthus is looking for the perfect jewelry for you (because everything shall be perfect for my love - Xanthus) a rich amn asked you on a date

- he would of course push you on his side and RESPECTFULLY asked the man to fuck off, then he would realize that this man is also a fucking vampire not the one he knew but some old basted definitely not a young one

- “oh I'm his boyfriend, I'm sorry they need to declined your offer” (translation) “im his boyfriend so fuck off”

- “oh really, i would really like to have her for a dinner” (translation) “just boyfriend not a fucking husband so you fuck off”

- and they both just have this RESPECTFUL conversation until you just pick a random jewelry so you can just go into an another store and leave this man alone

- Xanthus pay for the jewelry with a smile and satisfaction, would praise you that he's you would look beautiful in the jewelry yada yada and more

- never bring up the man i there you, he would have this black clouds after you do and a scent of murder everywhere

- so yes there are only to ways this can end a brutal murder or just a cozy night with him or both (definitely both)

Ceyvk

- lol, he would definitely punish you and the one who flirted with you

- definitely would trade/kill the man or demon who flirted with you

- you would wake up and you cannot feel your legs anymore (RIP we would miss you)

- and definitely would keep you in his side all the time

- you and ceyvk relationship is quite a weird one as always like, he always want you ok a side a like a butler or a hand maid

- so take that and × 2

- lesson learned don't look at anyone other him or else.....

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mizzmellos · 1 year ago

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What's your Rod Ross headcanons?

YAAAAAAAAY ANON I really wanted to repost this from my old blog so thank you for literally reading my mind and giving me the chance xoxo gift wrapped for you with a bow on top MWAH

+ I mean… we all know Mello joined Rod’s gang by bringing him the head of a rival boss. But I’m pretty sure he did it… literally. How else would a gang full of 6′4″ dudes with Uzis ever take him seriously?? I love imagining him arranging an ingenious meeting with Rod one day, like, Mello somehow tricking him into talking with him, and telling him like… “so I heard you were trying to take this dude out, I can do it for you, ya know. lmao not bragging.” and Rod takes one look at him and just starts laughing his ass off. “Kid (which is what he calls Mello, btw)… I’ve lost six men to trying already, and their balls had already dropped.” Then Jose throws his ass into the street. A week later, Mello shows up at the front door of their HQ (how did he find us??? Kal gasps audibly, knowing Rod is going to kick his ass for this because everything is Kal’s fault) with a bloody pillowcase (because gift wrapping is NOT appreciated by any of those no-taste mafiosos…) and says “happy birthday, I work for you now. You’re welcome.”

+So you know that panel where Mello is sitting on the couch back perched behind Rod’s shoulder? Not a headcanon, just wanted you to think about it. :’) Here's another one btw:

+Their relationship actually has a somewhat solid basis of trust and respect. Even though Rod is an absolute maniac sometimes and would gouge your eyes out without a second thought, he’s incredibly intelligent--

PSA: READ HIS PROFILE IN VOLUME 13 YOU GOONS…. HE’S NOT JUST A BRUTE LMAO I HATE IT WHEN PPL WRITE HIM DUMB HE. IS. NOT. DUMB. he is smarter than most of the Japanese task force and of equal intelligence to lots of the ppl working with L such as Wedy, Matt… he survived a great many years of Kira eliminating criminals so he was smart and good at keeping a low profile until Mello came and fucked everything up.

--and Mello respects him for that. Even though Mello is a prissy little bitch that really only cares about what he cares about, Rod's like... well, he’s kind of a genius and his ideas have worked out in the past. And he’s pretty scary. They both like that about each other. Just generally being able to intimidate the shit out of ANYBODY that would dare look their way.

+Rod is probably pretty outwardly homophobic, and ribs Mello for being effeminate. While he doesn't ever let it go too far, he'll chime in around other members of the mafia. Both of them are secretly a little terrified of anybody finding out that they fuck around once and a while. But that's part of the thrill yk? Whenever anybody’s around, Rod always has a hooker on his leg and tries not to pay Mello any mind. But once they’re alone, Mello thinks it’s funny to bring it up.

+Speaking of letting it go too far, Rod allows any amount of verbal abuse, but has broken up more than a couple fistfights Mello’s gotten himself into with other members of the gang by “running that goddamn big mouth of his all the fuckin’ time.”

+While Rod normally backs Mello 110%, as his infallible plans have done nothing but provide a multitude of viable cash flows and absolute territorial dominance, when they have their disagreements (which get.. heated, to say the least), Mello will totally get physical. Rod finds this hilarious, considering he could literally break his neck with one hand. Anyway Rod only fought back once, when he was in a particularly bad mood, and Mello had to show up the next day skulking around with a black eye and fat lip, his lisp way worse than usual. It was the only time after Mello showed up until the day of his death that Kal actually experienced any degree of human happiness. Btw poor Kal. Read the dude's profile in HTR13 if you want a laugh. #AnneofGreenGables

+Mello was actually really surprised by how soft Rod’s scalp is. He totally oils it and his head always smells like aftershave and stale cigar smoke.

+In fact, in addition to both being super scary, they’re both super vain LOL I bet they both get their backs waxed after a long day clothes-shopping… and they both spend forever putting lotion on after their three-hour bubble baths… they spend all morning in front of the mirror while Rod shaves that WHACK design onto his face and Mello does his makeup… neither of them even looks at the other when they’re having sex because they’re too busy American Psycho-ing themselves in the mirrors they have surrounding their bed.

+They both LOVE zebra-print. Tacky fucks.

#Death Note #Rod Ross #mizz headcanons #originally drawn july 2017 #Rod x Mello

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aftongiulien · 2 years ago

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@onecantsimply Sorry, my fucking annoying cousin got her hands on my phone, again, Sorry for the long wait, btw

School was Just draining in the last few weeks

Warnings: Murder, Blood killing,a slightly against, mention of violence,

Key words= y/n= your name, y/e/c= your Eye color, y/h/c= your hair color.

Jack the ripper, the terror of London, every night he found his victim and accomplished his Plan,.

He loved seeing the color of pure fear in the emotion of people,

He enjoyed doing his activities at night and being a normal english gentleman in the morning.

Till One day,when he found a rival,

It looks like a new Murder poped out of the pure nowhere and randomly began to take his victims.

Jack looked at It as it's challenge, for the First few weeks he thought of It as a challenge or maybe an opportunity to find a competition.

But soon enough, the more She stole his victims the more jack started seeing Red,.

One rainy night in London he was waiting for his pray, Just like a predator Just to See, the beautiful killer Mercylessly killing his victim,

He saw that as an opportunity to confornt his,now enemy.

As soon as he tried to,he found himself trapped in an harsh grip around his neck, and a knife pointed at his throath

Her face was coverd by a anonymous Mask, Just like his.

Jack saw the slight color of fear amiusing, he took that moment to easly trow you off himself himself

as soon as you fell to the groud, your Mask Brook, revealing your beautiful y/e/c eyes, and the strings of her y/h/c hair,

For a moment jack was stunned by the beauty,his enemy took that as a chance to slightly stab him in the arm and run away.,the Blood slowly dropping from his arm,and the beautiful view of the young girl was Stuck in jack's head, Just like a mantra.

As he came back home and he patched himself up he kept thinking and thinking about her, her eyes,her hair, her way of acting he couldn't Belive She have been his enemy.

The next day,he was out at a local cafè,drinking some tea and haveing some cake, but a very special lady caught his eyes, yes now be Recognize her, She was the girl from the Night before.

jack as soon as he finished, quietly looked at her, still with a fluttering Heart, and stumbly legs, this was magiacall for him, the pure love.

But as soon as a man got closer to you and kissed you he felt his heart shatter, bit in the Moment he saw the girl's color oh boy,oh boy, if that man was gonna die.,the color of hate and uncomfortableness on the girl was everything to set jack ready to kill.

that night he followed him trown himself Mercylessly killing the man, but unfirtunatly he stumbled across you, For the First Time he got the courage to. speak " i am ,jack, jack the ripper, i've been your enemy for quite a while my lady, u would like to know your name,May i?" The only thing he got,was a hug,a warm and thankful hug, he warped his arms around you, slowly lullying you to calm down " thank you... Thank you jack.. i'm y/n..., I Guess you were my "enemy" huh? " Jack chuckled lightly, giveing you a rose, " why don't you meet me at the London bridge Tomorrow? At 10 am?, maybe se can get know more each other?" Like a date?" " Yes a date"

the time passed, the two ,fell slowly more and more in love,what once before was pure hate,now became pure love ,One beautiful night jack took you to the London bridge ti dance a slow dance with him, and Watch the beautiful Moon.

The pallid Moon light,reflecting on both of you created the most beautiful atmosphera , jack's hands slowly traveling up your body, to caress your face, "my dear darling,i love so much, that there Is no part of my Heart left to protest," he pulled you in for a gentle yet passionate Kiss, that lasted as long as you could,.

After that both of you insted of killing like every night,decided to go back home ,to relax and spend some times togheter maybe even something more

#ror #oneshot #drabble #x reader #ask me stuff #shuumatsu no valkyrie #anime #shounen #snv jack the ripper #jack the ripper snv #jack ripper record ragnarok #jack the ripper x reader #record of ragnarok smut #asks

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aceoflilies · 1 year ago

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do you have any interesting pokemon hcs or theories? love your writing btw :]

Hi????? Oh my god, I had to stop and check that this wasn't one of my other blogs getting this ask. Thank you so much, I really appreciate the compliment!!

As for my headcanons/theories... most of them are generally character-based, but i have a few I'd be happy to share! (readmore because this gets long ^^")

General headcanons:

All of the Pokémon Leagues in the world vary on strength and community investment. Near the bottom are leagues like Alola's (brand new, little support), Paldea's (made for multiple Champions, one of their leaders double-dips as Elite 4), Kanto's (prolonged, unresolved absence of one Gym Leader, lack of a Champion until your rival), and Unova's (consistent turnover in leaders, champions, and gym locations; only league to canonically be defeated by a Team). From there, Johto, Hoenn, Sinnoh, and Kalos are all relatively similar in "solid league" territory, with Galar's being the most heavily invested-in and supported league in the series.

Humans with psychic powers, medium abilities, special type affinities (think Iris's "understanding the hearts of Dragons", rather than typical gym leaders), or otherwise inexplicable abilities (whatever the Shadow Triad is doing?) tend to have slightly Pokémon-influenced genetics, as ties back to the infamous Japanese Canalave City library entry. This tends to go many generations back, rather than direct. (No, N is not a Zoroark. Could he be distantly related to one? Maybe.)

The average age for gym challenges varies by region. (Our protags do not necessarily hit that average.) Kanto through Sinnoh skew younger, from 10-12 (since they're all geographically in similar areas). Alola is solidly at 11. Unova and Kalos tend to be somewhere from 13-15. Paldea is literally any age, hence the adults in uniforms. Galar trends older, more towards an average of 16. Yes, this makes Leon's refusal to involve you in any situation ever look sillier. (Leon is considered exceptionally young for the challenge at 10, and all of your potential challengers in the Champion Cup look generally in their older teens. Also, I refuse to believe Marnie's wearing a crop top for her League uniform before she's 16.)

"Official" starter Pokémon are endangered species. Professors generally hope that by giving them to young trainers, they'll encourage species awareness and growth.

Battles follow anime rules more than game rules. Terrain advantages, move combinations to create effects, etc. are all a part of battles. The only exception, for the sake of my sanity when creating content, is that fish Pokémon float. And even I'm aware that's not realistic, even if it's funny.

Character headcanons:

The "main" protags in my mind are Red, Ethan, May, Lucas, Hilda, Rosa, Calem, Selene, Gloria, "Akari", and Florian.

In order of public perception from "weird kid" to "popular kid" for protags: Red, Gloria, Lucas, Selene, May, Hilda, Ethan, "Akari", Calem, Rosa, Florian.

None of the members of either the Galar Gang or the Paldea Gang are normal.

Hop is trans. While his being trans is in no way related to Leon, his attempts at proving himself and trying to live up to his brother's example of masculinity are at least a little related.

Bede's time in the orphanage is a result of parental neglect rather than money or being orphaned by definition.

Nemona is not a stalker, JFC. She's just excited to have a friend equally interested in battling as her for once in her goddamn life. She is very touchy, huggy, clingy without realizing it, though.

Penny is very heavily involved in whatever the Pokémon equivalent of Tumblr and AO3 are. She convinces Arven, Nemona, and Florian to watch anime with her on the regular.

#pokemon #pkmn headcanons #tw neglect #<-mention but still

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procrastinatorproject · 2 years ago

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I did a whooooole bunch of writing today! This chapter is getting ever so slightly out of hand, but oh well 🙈

(This is back to, as @jazzfic called it, the prompt that keeps on giving 😋 If you're also interested in sending in a prompt, btw, here is the orinigal post about that. Go nuts! I'd say the chances that I'll actually manage to get something on paper have increased by A Lot since I originally reblogged it, so the original tags are now a little too pessimistic... Anyway. I'm always happy about Picard-character prompts :D)

Context: Emil has been fretting over Rios, who had been unconscious in sickbay after some misadventure. Rios has woken up, but he seems a little worse for wear...

After a moment, Rios asked: “What happened in that… nebula?” He sounded uncertain, like he had already forgotten what the EMH had told him moments earlier.

Emil grabbed a neural scanner from a nearby instrument stand and started running it around Rios’s skull. “Our shields failed, courtesy of all the phaser fire we took, and then the ship was flooded with gas and radiation.” He stopped his work and gave the captain a long look. “You don’t remember any of this?”

Rios blinked up at him, then shook his head and immediately grunted in pain.

Emil recalibrated his scanner and waited for a moment until the captain stopped rubbing his eyes, then he asked, keeping his voice as neutral as possible: “What is the last thing you do remember?”

There was a long silence. Emil’s instrument registered heavy activity in the memory centres of Rios’s brain, but it wasn't sophisticated enough to give him any idea what the outcome might be.

Finally, the captain took a deep breath and said: “I… I don’t really…” He looked up at Emil and his expression was utterly helpless and lost. “I don’t know.”

Emil lowered his scanner. “Do you know where you are?”

Rios blinked, then he shook his head and immediately winced again.

“Will you please stop doing that? Your brain is clearly scrambled enough as is.”

“Sorry,” Rios said sheepishly and ducked his head.

Emil hesitated. Normally, a remark like that would have earned him a derisive retort or at least some Spanish invective. Instead, the captain was looking at his hands, fingers playing nervously with the hem of his pyjama shirt. He seemed almost abashed to have be told off by the EMH. Something was seriously wrong, beyond the effects of prolonged unconsciousness and exposure to poisonous gasses.

Emil had done some research on the impact of this nebula’s radiation, but reports were scarce. Some of them mentioned an association between prolonged exposure and various neurological effects, but he had dismissed them at the time. Their own stay in the nebula had been too brief to expect any of these effects to manifest themselves. But then again, the other ships had probably been travelling with intact shields…

The EMH straightened a little and twirled his scanner through his fingers in growing concern. Perhaps some basic diagnostic questions would give him a better idea of where they were at.

“Can you tell me your name?”

Deep lines formed on the captain’s forehead as he concentrated. THen, finally, he offered a very hesitant: “Chris?” He pronounced it differently than he normally would, the Spanish trill replaced by a drawl that could have rivalled Steward’s, but Emil still felt his behavioural algorithms relax a little from the building tension.

“Very good,” he said. “Last name?”

Encouraged, Rios sat up a little straighter and focused some more. Finally, he closed his eyes, took a deep breath, and said in a rush, like he was reciting something committed to memory through countless repetitions: “Cristóbal Rios, Lieutenant Junior grade, Starfleet ID SC-850-705.”

#star trek picard #star trek picard fanfiction #cristobal rios #emil (emh)#aramis in space #whump #memory loss #i'm so sorry #i promise he's gonna be okay #but first there is going to be angst! 🙈#lili's writing adventures #writing accountability #(it's not even 11pm! what is this sorcery???)

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jils-things · 2 months ago

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Hi hello 🐭 anon again and uhh

OMGGHHJKLGFH NOOO I DIDN'T JUST SMILE LIKE A DOOFUS BECAUSE OF YOUR REPLY the images *savesthemimmediately* yesyes he looks very good the clothes the messy ponytail hnnnhgg I wouldn't mind… holding his hand…… what

Hjjfjklllfghjk he seems like such an interesting but tragic character!! ( Partaking in war?? just to care for his mother and him 🥺🥺🥺) And his relationship to Irene is so… wholesome? Like a brother figure watching over her jlkgffxllfdgv I love that!! 🥺🥺 Him letting her leave the house!! I can imagine that she's looking at him with big eyes and he just sighs and is like “I pretend I didn't see you leaving” GOSH I LOVE THAT (I don't know anything about his personality but that's my first impression and I hope that's alright telling you…..) Also bc I'm curious: How is his reaction to Irene and Norton getting together? 👀

Btw I… I just noticed that he has a skin based on another fav/crush of mine (I just feel the need to share bc I'm loosing my mind what a coincidence) and- I mean his normal skin with the hood is also very nice and uh- no I'm sure this won't become a thing uhh I guess it's over for me isn't it heellp

-Shy 🐭 anon

hello again 😈😈😈 hehee go stare at the pics gogogo 😈😈 /t jeje

yess!! i adore him sm for thattt 💚💚 it started first as me being biased to him because i main him in-game and didn't know him very much, but not until i tried to read his story did i feel more appreciative of him 🥹 then boom. familial. hehehe i wanted to reflect their sweet bond to how i feel abt him irl (i know that's majority of everyone's fo list but it just feels different here ngl wohoho) soooo yes! AND YES that little scenario is spot on!!! she is exactly the type to give him puppy dog eyes (and he looks stern as hell) but give it 5 seconds, he'd sigh and tells her, defeated - to go ahead 🔥🔥🔥

AND OIUGHDHHEHEHEHEHHEHEHEE NAIB AND NORTON ARE SO FUNNY TO MEEE ok so these two are actually a very popular duo for some reason (they never met irl) and the way they portray their dynamic is that... THEY FIGHT EACH OTHER A LOT!!! LIKE I DON'T KNOW WHY BUT ITS FUNNYYYY even the stageplay adapted their little quarrel but made it seem like they're homies at the same time HAHAA 💚💚 and it's almost the same for my ship too!

naib is actually very against irene liking norton since it conflicts what her father wants for her (irene shouldn't be liking commoners) and this is partially him being protective of her (but masks it off as "just being your bodyguard") but time goes by and he really notices just how much irene wanted to be with norton and only him, so there'd be one day where he'd confront norton like; "campbell. you are not going to break lady irene's heart or i will GET YOU. give her a chance." (at the time, norton is very closed off with his feelings for her. its typical of him) and when they do get together ... they're like silly close rivals. butts heads often but they're pretty cool 👍👍👍

i have this silly doodle that perfectly reflects what i think about them! i think its better to see with visuals too hehe

#btw what makes these two funnier is that naib is short and norton is sitting at 6'0 SO IMAGINE THIS TINY HATER!!!!!!! IFK ITS SO FUNTNTODHFF #ALSOALSOALSO POST SCRIPT CAN YOU TELL ME WHICH SKIN IS THAT.... 👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️ I FEEL LIKE IT'S SPRING HAND OR MR INFERENCE BUT DO TELL #its so joever for everyone who gets into my domain 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥/j HEHEHE #~ mailbox #🐭 anon tag #thank you for giving me the chance to talk abt tjem wiwiwkwkwiwkwiw

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puss-in-boots-bf · 1 year ago

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answering all of these because im so "normal" about him

(puss in boots f/o btw)

right now i have the build a bear plushie so as long as i have that i feel like i'm with him

i heard people talking about the last wish like a month after release and i thought "hm maybe i should check this out" and it was downhill from there. BEAUTIFUL movie btw top tier cinema puss in boots 1 was not as good unfortunately 💔 still more puss content i can't be mad. i liked him in the shrek movies too but he has less screentime

ok firstly the accent i CANT get over it its so sdsfksdfklkjkjfdsg................second probably his face. his stupid little cute face i want to look at all day

puss cannot get over how lovey dovey i am with him and he tries to hide it but i know the truth. he's not even good at hiding it i see you covering your face with your hat everyone knows

idk why 1-4 repeat after the cut but more questions for me yayayayya

1. i love him so much i just squeeze the life out of him every time i see him. bear hug him forever and ever. puss on the other hand much more acts of service and he'll give me a lil peck on the cheek or the forehead sometimes

2. i'd LOVE to give him just like a tiny good luck charm he can put on his belt so he has something to remember me by if he's ever out without me. puss would give me a souvenir every time i couldn't come with on an adventure

3. we celebrate all the major holidays and just have fun hanging out with each other. we always have matching halloween costumes and on christmas puss likes doing the thing with mistletoe where he holds it above us if we're close and is like "we're under the mistletoe you know what that means" and honestly? not complaining. if anything please continue

4. he's a cat!! he purrs whenever he's asleep and it gets me to bed so quickly... and then he always waits for me to wake up after him in the morning (i am not a morning person. he is and he has to wait like a couple hours cus he doesn't wanna wake me up early 😭😭)

5. i am a math wiz, puss doesn't know what 2+2 is. unfortunately to make up for this i have like no adventuring experience and i wanna go with him so bad :( but puss tries his best to train me so that one day we can conquer the world together!

6. we're basically opposites in fashion taste, puss loves his hat and boots and not saying i don't love it too but i don't like the concept of me wearing it 😅the one thing we agree on is that capes (cloaks in my case) look sick as hell. food wise puss will eat anything i am extremely picky and anytime i don't like a food he will go all "what how could you not like [food]?!??!" every time without fail

7. puss has always been the more talkative one and it shows. whenever puss is feeling down i just let him talk at me and if i'm ever feeling down he asks me so many questions about what happened it's almost overwhelming. what we share in common is that we both LOVE hugs and will just hug it out all the time

8. i don't really have a rival f/o... i guess maybe death? but puss kinda made up with him already and it's not like death is going to be here any time soon

9. i actually really like how he is in canon 😭 i love him the way he is i wouldn't change a thing about him (well excluding one headcanon which is...)

10. puss being bisexual is so real and so funny to me. who cares if you're a man or woman if you're hot i'm flirting with you

11. it's amazing but i might be biased since puss is here... puss usually does all the cooking because i'm so picky i just don't know food. i do most of the cleaning cus he does so much for me and i'll try to stop him from helping me if he ever offers cus i don't want him doing even more... in the downtime between us doing anything we'll usually just sit down and cuddle with each other ❤️fortunately he doesn't have a "job" to go to, since he's a hero the city lets him live here for basically free. puss gets enough money from just appearing in public to afford everything we need for months. though he will go on the occasional adventure every couple weeks

12. dirt. its literally just dirt and nothing else. he keeps going on adventures and getting dirty and he'll come home just covered in dirt. but if there's ever an important occasion he has a cologne he picked out with me that smells like cinnamon

13. he hasn't actually changed much since the events of the last wish! still does all the good ol showoffy stuff whenever he's in public, you really can only tell he changed whenever it gets real dangerous.

14. puss is extremely extroverted and outgoing and i am very much not. he keeps trying to take me on outings and tries to get me to be a little more vocal and it's kinda working!! baby steps! but something we both have in common is that we're both unorganized (though him more than me)... we always try to sort everything out at the house but neither of us can bother 😭 we're used to it though so it's a non-issue

15. puss gets really heated but can usually calm himself, i am not good with conflict at ALL but puss tries to help me calm down too. it works, i mean how can i be mad with this lovely cat in front of me?? though on the rare occasion i'm really passionate about something i will not back down and puss eventually either gives in or tries the cute eyes thing... it usually works...... i mean, how am i supposed to resist that????

16. puss introduced me to imelda (his caretaker at the orphanage he grew up) and she was lovely! she even showed me cute pictures of puss back when he was a baby 🤭 aside from that i've met team friendship too! perrito was nice and kitty joked around with puss about us a lot

17. ok lore speedrun i only knew puss through folktales/legends etc. and i heard about a party he was supposed to be throwing nearby that was really soon. i decided to go and i was OBSESSED. i knew he was cool, but somehow he managed to be even cooler than i thought. this is probably where the crush started but i didn't recognize it at the time. i would've gone to every party he threw in the country but i knew he came to this town pretty often, so i just went to the ones here. after a while i managed to get close to him and ask him if i might be able to go on an adventure with him. it was all i wanted at the time, even if it was a mini adventure or something. at first he said he couldn't or his schedule was full or whatever, but i was so desperate i kept asking and asking... and somehow it worked. he told me maybe, but he'd need more time to figure something out. a couple days later i got a letter saying that he decided i could go with him on one small thing he had planned that wouldn't take too much time, and i was ecstatic to say the least. however it mentioned i would need some training first and gave me a spot to meet up. i got a whole get up and a weapon so i would be prepared for the training and after we stopped, puss said it would be easier if i stayed in town for a while so we could get training earlier. a couple days of training later i finally confessed, and after the mini adventure i was supposed to leave but he caught feelings too... we've been dating ever since :)

18. my favorite will always be the shrek canon/last wish canon timeline but i still love taopib puss. f/o wise i treat them differently but comfort character wise it's still puss and he's still silly ❤️ i also really like puss dos from taopib. not in a f/o way but he's so autism you can't hate him (ignore that puss dos isn't actually puss he's a genetic clone technically but IT STILL COUNTS!!!)

19. coolness factor alone the blind king (taopib spoilers if it matters) takes the cake. the blindfold is just mwah chefs kiss but i think i just really like blindfolds for some reason. original puss is still the best one though i wouldn't want a blindfold covering those glittering green eyes of his

20. i confessed first but only because i thought he did 😭 he was being playful flirty like when you don't really mean it but i didn't pick up on that and it just came pouring out... nothing really happened for a little while until one day we made eye contact and went silent. i think he got feelings for me, or he realized the feelings he already had, or something, but i could tell something changed. we just... kissed. it wasn't a lot, just for a second, but... it felt like the world had stopped. nothing mattered except the two of us right there, right then. and it felt perfect.

21. i think his feelings were more spur of the moment rather than long lasting, so no one really knew

22. skip cus hes my only f/o 😶

23. i love fluff i cannot get enough of fluff i will never stop imagining him kissing me on the forehead saying i love you right before he leaves the house leaving me awestruck in his beauty. sucker for hurt/comfort too but mostly the comfort part i don't like thinking about the hurt part

24. who hasn't? but also not this early on i'd have to wait a couple years minimum before i consider it

25. skipping cus i can plan that later

26. as i said before it's a big house, renaissance era (since the last wish is in the 17th century), puss lived here before me so most of the decor is whatever he chose. most of it is just trophies and awards he's earned though... but he does have a cat tower there too! it's comfy can't blame him

27. not really. never been much of a kid person myself, and puss already has perrito, so neither of us are interested.

28. it was a day or two after his "confession." the morning after i was just... dumbfounded by what happened before, but puss took a bit off to collect his thoughts. after we reconvened to talk about what we were i told him i loved him no matter what. i think it flustered him and he got all stammery but he managed an i love you too. i could tell the idea of a relationship was kinda rough for him, it was for me as well, but he warmed up to it after a little.

29. it would be so extraordinarily funny if he was 100% gay. 100% man liker. but still a lady killer. like all the girls are fawning over this man and he's just "oh sorry i'm not into women." bi puss is canon but gay puss is dream cone true

30. if somehow cuddling isn't enough he'll tell stories about adventures he's had. let me tell you god DAMN is he a great storyteller!! it always gets me hyped up without fail + i get to hear more of his voice what's to complain about

31. you cant make me do this. you cant make me choose i cant. why would you do this to me

32. thank god this one has an answer, his voice. it's something otherworldly, i just can't describe it. everytime i hear him speak it's so calming, soothing, oh my goooood i just love it so much i could listen to him forever

33. i had to look through tv tropes for this. puss is the energetic one except whenever i get really excited about something and puss has to listen to me ramble for an hour about it because i refuse to shut up

34. "uhh, erm... i dunno! i never counted. i am not really a math guy, y'know?" if you count literally any shrek film i'm lying but pretend i'm not

35. me and it's not even close. i WILL zone out and blush and smile every single time i think of his face and i'm not ashamed to say it

36. see above i still get surprised whenever he hugs me from behind. you know what you're doing stop (don't stop i love it)

37. puss does this everyday and thinks it's actually kinda underwhelming meanwhile i am curled up fetal position on the floor

38. we don't really use nicknames, actually. well sometimes i'll call him "stabby tabby" or one of his other aliases, sometimes he'll call me "mi amor" but most of the time we just use names

39. my contact name for him would just be "puss❤️" his contact name for me is probably like. Firstname Lastname he is not good with technology at all

40. again this man could not operate a phone if the instructions were printed out and given to him. he only uses it for texting and calling. every once in a while he'll send me a picture of something he found cool and text "Look" "Do you like it"

41. my favorite memory is probably just discovering him. the sheer joy of finding something to love, something to be unabashedly excited about... i wish i could do it all again

42. he wasn't particularly physically affectionate before but he knows i love it when he is so he tries his best to show it whenever he can

43. i have walked in on him doing catnip before and i know that was not at all embarrassing for him because he literally asked me if i wanted any

44. puss keeps trying to have an "honorable duel" with people and they literally never accept

45. my first impressions were that he was sick af and just the best person ever. his first impressions of me, he probably gets a bunch of fans like that i'd honestly understand if he was just taking pity on me with the adventure stuff😭

46. no lore reason for it but i like the idea of my birthday since it's close enough to when i discovered pib and i think just being with him is the best gift i could ever receive

47. i would like to speak to my lawyer

48. nothing really. i guess sometimes we'll go out and he's more focused on me than he usually is on whatever's going on around him but i think that's it

49. he still flinches every time he hears a whistle :((((

50. just a tiny lil "i love you" and a kiss everyday ❤️❤️

51. skip cus 43 repeat

52. he probably laughs at dad jokes honestly. probably thinks "why did the chicken cross the road" is a knee slapper

53. sometimes i tease him with the pickles thing i find it funny but he doesnt 💔

54. puss is a deep sleeper so if i ever need to wake him up i'll shake him a bit until he gets up. he is much more gentle with me though since i'm more of a light sleeper so i'll usually wake up if he just rocks me for a second or two

55. on the weekdays we train together (it's more like him teaching me but yk) cus i'm trying to go on more adventures but puss says i'm not strong enough 😭

56. perrito thinks we're cute and ok honestly? i don't know how kitty would react at all i'm still trying to figure out how she would fit in with the ship lore since if me and puss are together her arc is weird in the last wish, especially with the whole wedding thing/the ending

57. skip cus he's my only f/o again

58. doing dream merch since dream experience is literally just "what if he was real" anyways ideally i mean. puss in boots everything. but also there's a few things i want specifically: licensed/official cosplay (hat, cape, boots, belt, whatever), actual functional rapier with the puss in boots design + gatito blade, and not very realistic with this last one but i want a version of the build a bear plush that will actually just never break down or fall apart. also with an easier way to keep the hat on!! the hat can't attach to anything so it has to rest on his ear but it falls off super easy cus of that

59. gahhhhhh i dont like talking about it too much cus it makes me sad to think about it at all........... but i'll say he's a lot quieter. he goes from this extremely outgoing cat we all know and love to just... silence. maybe some muttering... AAAAAAAAAAHHH OK i cant talk about this anymore i dont want to think about it ever :(((((((((((((

60. silly*6

61. 😼⚔️ that's it. that's the emojis

62. assuming i get to be my s/i if i go there i'd absolutely go to his world in a heartbeat. if he came here i would definitely be under government supervision he's a walking talking cat

63. i like ship lore but it isn't too fleshed out since irl i haven't really known about selfshipping before a few weeks ago (i still had the romantic feelings for WAAAY longer tho)

64. again it's not fully fleshed out and i'm actually stuck on how i should design it... all i know is he'll be a black cat. i wanted to do a whole grim reaper kind of fit like scythe and cloak wtv since i like a bunch of characters with that kind of motif (see: Testament Guilty Gear) but then i felt like "oh it's too similar to death that's probably weird" since i want the whole thing to take place after TLW but if i underdesign my s/i it'll feel like kitty kind of but i don't know what to put and its just sdklgfhjslkdhgjklsjdglk aaaaaaaaaaaaaa.............. aside from character design i literally made up the ship lore writing this post for the most part. mostly the details but i had some general idea of what i wanted, i just thought the training idea was cute ❤️ as for other characters i'm good friends with perrito now and sometimes i'll just talk about puss with him for hours and he's always so happy for us

65. my s/i is literally Just Me except a cat also. oh and he knows spanish and tagalog. spanish for talking with puss, tagalog cus i wish i knew it irl. but since it's an s/i i get to do character development that would otherwise not happen irl 🙏 so like a little bit not me but mostly Just Me

66. AU's are cute but they really do feel like an alternate universe. i imagine myself dating in canon but AU's are kinda like a "what if"

67. hug him and hold onto him forever and never let go

68. it's the shrek universe i'm not even sure they're superstitions anymore. they're probably real. black cats being a symbol of bad luck is unironically canon in taopib like

69. he'd buy so much matching stuff and he would say "if we're a team we need matching uniforms" and. he's right. i wear literally all of them

70. his theme song is "fearless hero" take a guess

71. mostly outdoorsy stuff, if he didn't like it he wouldn't have been an adventurer, but also he likes music a lot. wrote fearless hero himself, actually! sometimes he'll make a song about us and play it just for me ❤️

72. the star shape ⭐ it reminds me of the wishing star

73. nothing that i can think of rn... now that i think about it he doesn't really "hate" anything

74. i don't really know if it has a name, but i'm particular to starry night skies. some of the best scenes in the last wish have the night sky visible and it makes puss look even prettier

75. he is combat trained guess who isn't!

76. puss is for the most part just living his best life now, but i want to eventually be on puss's level of adventuring and heroism. maybe a little less focused on public image i just like the fighting bad guys part

77. this is in taopib btw but there's so much i'm just gonna talk abt them all. ok so in s1e15 puss gets cursed with bad luck which turns him into a black cat so he has to leave san lorenzo, but then he finds a ragtag group of other black cats who try to convince him the curse is permanent and for him to join them (cus they're lonely :(). that's just the synopsis but for some reason black cats have luck manipulation???? not typical luck manipulation but they say they can manipulate bad luck and turn it into lucky energy in a "lucky blast" that's more of an attack than actual probability manipulation. puss learns it eventually but he wants more so the cats make up a move and puss, having Main Character Syndrome, manages to be THE ONLY CAT ON EARTH TO HAVE DONE THE MOVE?????????? also the actual group of black cats is silly the main one is normal but the other two, one of them speaks in shakespearian and is implied to have a crush on puss (HE JUST LIKE ME!! HE JUST LIKE ME FR!!!!!!) and the other one only repeats what other people say like tommy from animal crossing ❤️ god i love this show idc how bad the animation is or how forced puss/dulcinea is. they just made everyone a silly guy and it's amazing. there's so much more lore i could talk about in taopib cus there's 6 seasons but Main Character Syndrome is really funny to me so that's what i put here

78. 🤔

79. i do not know what this question means 🤗

80. 😍😍😍😍🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰😍😍😋😋😋😋😋😋😋😋😋😁😁😁😍😍🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰😚😚😚😚😚😚😍😍😘😘😘😘A:KSDFJKJSADKLGKJSDKHGLDFLJH

I LOVE HIM SO MUCHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

ok that's all the questions if u read this far i apologize for writing a bajillion paragraphs i just love him so much 💔 pls understand

and pictures of some of the taopib characters i mentioned before i go cus theyre silly too (puss dos and the black cats)

yes he wears a paper hat don't bully him!!! 😠

the one with the crush on puss is Francisco/red hat btw he was so real for that

ok bye thanks for looking at how much i love this fictional cat

80+ selfship questions to answer, whether in a post* or a reblog! feel free to pick the ones you want to answer or just answer for all – this is not an ask game :3

a few of these are romantic, but ofc, there are ones you can answer for your platonics!

* if you do it as a post i’d loveeeee if you tagged me so i could see your answers!

what’s something you do to feel closer to them? fanfics, listen to songs, etc.

how did you get introduced to your f/o and/or their media? do you like their source?

what’s one or two things you especially like about your f/o? can be a headcanon!

what’s one or two things your f/os love about you? ( self positivity time babey )

how do you express your love to them? how do they express their love to you?

a gift you’d like to give them if you could, and something they’d give to you!

what do you celebrate together? like halloween, christmas time, easter, etc.

do you sleep together? is it peaceful or filled with snoring? do you both stay up? tell us more! ( how you sleep, when you sleep, do you wake up at the same time? )

what’s one thing you can’t do well that the other can, vice versa ( e.g cooking, playing video games, so on and so forth )

do you have similar tastes in fashion? aesthetic? food? tell us about their taste!

how do they tend to comfort you? how do you tend to comfort them?

if you have a rival or nemesis f/o, why? are there any lore reasons or is it just because?

what are some uncommon headcanons you have for them?

what is your favorite fan theory/headcanon about them?

if you live together, how’s domestic life like for you both?

do you have any scent hcs for them? ( sweet, something like coffee, etc )

is there anything commonly misunderstood about your f/o?

one thing you don’t have in common, and one thing you do

how do you resolve conflicts? how do you both typically react when faced with conflict or whilst dealing with an argument?

have you met their friends/family? how did that go? do they even keep in contact with their friends/family?

tell us as much (or as little) as you'd like about any of your self ship lore/bg! the timeline!

if they have variations (timelines, skills, voiced languages, etc) which one is your favorite?

your favorite outfit/costume of theirs! if they don’t have any official skins or anything, show us something you think they’d look good in!

who confessed first and how did it go?

did anyone know about your f/o’s feelings before they confessed? how did they find out?

if you have multiple f/os, do they fit into any “type?” ( e.g coincidentally they’re all smartasses, blonde, villains, etc. lol )

do you have any favorite scenarios you like to imagine your f/os in? ( domestic fluff, angsty, etc. )

have you ever thought about ( platonic or not ) marriage? would you consider it a good idea? why or why not?

^ if you're planning to get married, then tell us all about your wedding! the honeymoon! the planning!

if you live together, how does your home look like? who decided on the decor?

do you, or plan to, have f/o kids? ( pets and plants count! ) bonus: if you have pets, do they show any favoritism?

what was it like when they first said ‘i love you’? how did you reply? where was it?

if you could make one thing 100% canon about them, what would it be?

how do you kill time with them when bored?

your favorite thing about your f/o, appearance wise

your favorite thing about your f/o, non-appearance wise

what’s your dynamic like? any tropes you fit?

the most iconic/memed on/quoted line or event associated with your f/o

who’s more likely to be the sappy, cheesy romantic in the relationship?

who gets flustered the easiest?

if you were in an emergency or stressful situation, which one of you’s the best at staying level headed keeping the other calm? who is the one absolutely freaking out?

what nicknames do you call each other?

with phones or modern au : what would your contact names be?

with phones or modern au : how do they use their phone? do they have a billion screenshots in their gallery? whats their wallpaper?

favorite memory involving them ( whether in your lore as a scenario, a scene from their media, or another physical experience like when you received merch etc )

are they physically affectionate? if so, how do they express it? vice versa!

any funny or awkward moments you've experienced with them?

who’s more likely to get into, or start fights? whether with each other or with others.

what were your first impressions of each other?

do you have an anniversary date? how was it decided & how do you (plan to) celebrate it?

.... would you still love them if they turned into a worm

how did their personality or lifestyle change after befriending/getting with you?

something you know about them, that many others don’t?

how do they reassure or affirm their love for you?

what’s your funniest or most embarrassing memory together?

what’s their sense of humor like? how easy is it to make them laugh?

what inside jokes do you share?

if necessary, how do you wake them up? how do they wake you up?

any daily routines or habits you two follow?

what do others in source say about your relationship? do you keep it a secret?

if you have more than one f/o from the same media, which one were you drawn to first? any lore connection like did they introduce you to the others? did one make you fall for the other?

dream piece of merchandise or f/o-related experience you’d like to have

how are they like when vulnerable?

describe your f/o in 6 words or less

describe your f/o using only emojis

would you rather go to their world, or have them come to yours?

do you care about ship lore? feel free to tell us about it if you’d like!

if you have a s/i, how’d you go about creating their design? what went into their lore? how do the others in the source feel about your s/i?

does your s/i hold similarities to you, is completely like you or completely different from you? do you even have a s/i?

thoughts on AUs/canon divergent things? do you prefer to stick as closely to canon as possible or no?

quick! your f/o’s just spawned in front of you, now what do you do?!

do they have any superstitions they believe in?

would you or your f/o ever get matching things? ( keychains, tattoos, shirts, etc ) do they find it cringy or cute?

who’s more the scaredy cat out of you two?

what kind of things is your f/o into? games, music, decor, whatever!

the most random thing you associate with your f/o (foods, shapes, even textures! anything that’s not an obvious)

anything your f/o absolutely hates, but you absolutely love?

any aesthetic or -core you associate with your f/o, whether it be due to their design or personality?

who's more likely to die first in a zombie apocalypse lol

do your f/os have any long term wishes or goals? what about your s/i?

your favorite f/o fun fact or bit of lore

which animal represents your f/o the best?

does your f/o run hot or cold?

free space to gush about whatever you want ♡

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lorillee · 1 year ago

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btw can you tell me about how that cat is an incel

AAAHGH i typed out this whole thing and then tumblr screwed it up and deleted everything. wailing and gnashing of teeth. but thats okay. ill explain it again. anyways to any of my 5 remaining warriors mutuals if you see this post and i got something wrong i apologize to be honest its been like a decade since ive read the books that encompass this whole mess. anyways. ive provided a helpful relationship map to give you some visualization and keep these people straight

ok. so tldr. sort of. actually not really but whatever. so basically brambleclaw is a special prophecy boy who gets a dream from the dead ancestors being like "ok you need to go 🚶💼🚗 on this journey 😤💥😎 and do some stuff 😌✨🌠" and brambleclaw is like "ok got it boss 🫡" and goes on his journey to do some stuff. its not relevant to the love drama. squirrelflight invites herself along and they end up becoming friends and later start dating. at some point after this brambleclaw starts striking up a relationship with his half-brother and squirrelflight is Not A Fan partially because his half-brother is Kinda Shady and partially because shes suspicious because of his dad, who is also brambleclaw's dad, who really sucked as a person.

so squirrelflight tells brambleclaw that he needs to stop hanging out with his half-brother, and brambleclaw gets mad and accuses her of suspecting him purely based on their dad (and if she doesnt trust the half-brother because of his dad, what does that say about their relationship etc etc). so they get into a whole fight about it and its a drama and they break up. in the aftermath squirrelflight starts hanging out with ashfur who is Just Some Guy and they start dating. meanwhile leafpool gets a dream from the dead ancestors thats like "ok so get this 👀🤯💥 squirrelflight and brambleclaw 😳👫💖 are like . totally destined to be together forever 😌✨🌠" and leafpool is like "ok got it boss 🫡" and tells squirrelflight. squirrelflight is like omg for real???? and tells brambleclaw and they get back together. ashfur fades into irrelevancy.

shortly before this, however. leafpool breaks off her illegal relationship (illegal because 1) shes a priestess and cant get married or have kids and 2) because the guy shes dating is from a rival clan) but later finds out - oops ! - shes pregnant. unfortunately this is now. a problem. in the meanwhile squirrelflight gets a dream from the dead ancestors thats like "okkkkk so like 😳😭😔 sorry to break this to you but ummmm 🤯💀🧍‍♂️ youre infertile 😌✨🌠" leafpool asks squirrelflight to take her babies and pretend that they are hers and brambleclaws and squirrelflight is like "got it boss 🫡". so squirrelflight lies to 1) the clan 2) the babies and 3) brambleclaw that they are hers and brambleclaw's children. no way thisll go wrong right 😎👍

so things go normally for a few years and everything is fine. then one day theres a huge storm after a drought or something i think and the entire forest catches on fire. squirrelflight is trying to get the kids out (they are adults now) and its a problem but hey look! ashfurs here to help! oh- oh wait whats . whats he doing ummmm. so basically ashfur says something to the extent of "you ruined my life i hate you so much im going to kill your kids in front of you to make you understand how i felt every single day" completely unprompted and squirrelflight is like "um. uhhhh ok well have fun with that because theyre not even my kids 👍" <- clearly last ditch effort to get ashfur to leave and ashfur is like "wait what for real? um. well okay bye then" and leaves.

one of the kids who is a massive stickler for The Warrior Code has 57 moments in a row though because she has just been alerted to the fact that she is an Illegal Baby and Should Not Exist and murders ashfur to prevent him from revealing the truth about them but then ends up having a Mental Illness Moment and tells everybody about leafpools illegal relationship babies at the monthly gathering of all the clans and runs off into a cave and fakes her death kind of. its a whole thing

#lorillee.txt #ask #cartoonrival #also i want you to know that the dead ancestors lied to squirrelflight about her being infertile #and then later get mad at her for taking the kits and lying to everybody about it #dont ask me how this makes any sense at all. it doesnt. starclan sucks #lorillee.png #<- also. i guess

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anashins · 2 years ago

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Hi!! I hope this ask would find you well <33 May I request jaehyun in an academic rivals to lovers trope, angst to fluff ^^ you can play along with this, anything you envision for it 😼 happy 2k btw! Deserve that and more 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

Pairing: Jaehyun x You

Genre: academic rivals, university!au, angst, drama, fluff in the end

Word Count: 1.3k

Under normal circumstances, it was impossible to hear a slip of paper drop onto the floor. But in a lecture hall with more than 100 people writing an exam in absolute silence, every breather, motion and slightest gust of wind drew attention to where the sound radiated from.

This time, all eyes were on you and the slip that had gotten loose from your staple of papers. A tiny, but very informative slip on which all relevant formulas for today’s exam were written down so that there was barely no white space left. A piece of paper that you usually wouldn’t need as you were on top of your class, but your life circumstances had forced you to scribble in the smallest handwriting.

The echoing footsteps of your professor walking up the aisle to your desk made your heart race, and you broke out in cold sweat. You had your look fixated on the exam sheet in front of you, feigning ignorance. But it was hard to pretend not to be involved when you were at the scene of crime as the only one not paying attention to it.

“Miss, did this just fall from your desk?” The professor had the slip in his hand, glaring at you through his glasses that sat halfway on the bridge of his nose, his white hair and droopy eyes giving Einstein vibes.

How were you supposed to explain to him that only a few days ago, you had found out that you weren’t your parents’ biological child, and thus weren’t even capable of eating let alone studying anymore? That, all throughout your childhood and adulthood, even when they had deemed you mature and logical enough to study something as complex as mathematics, your parents had never considered breaking down the truth to you? And then, when you had found out yourself, your entire world just crashed.

“N… no.”

When you looked up to him, you tried to sound strong and confident, but it was hard to do all that when you were actually guilty and fragile of even understanding your own feelings.

“Miss, this was lying close to your desk. I saw it fall on the floor.”

“I- it…” You gulped, your fingers enclosing so hard around your pen that your knuckles turned white and your forehead sweaty. “N-... no…” But you weren’t even sure whether you brought these words out.

“Please pick up your exam papers, Miss, and follow me.”

That was it. Your life ended here and now again. With this important exam getting flunked and you getting caught cheating, you probably would get suspended from the institution, temporarily or permanently. In the span of a few days only, your entire world ended here and now.

“It’s not hers.” The sound of a chair getting pushed back suddenly broke through the silence as you were about to make a move to stand up. “It’s mine.”

When you shifted your head aside, you saw that Jeong Jaehyun had stood up, his exam papers already collected in his palms, his gaze that he directed at the professor determined and confident - all that you couldn’t feign. You just didn’t understand what he was doing.

Jeong Jaehyun usually didn’t save your ass. Jeong Jaehyun was the type of guy who stole the last free seat in the library right from under your eyes so that you had to sit on another floor that didn’t have the right books. Jeong Jaehyun was the type of guy who didn’t want to partner up with you in a group project, because he thought he was so much more successful without you. Jeong Jaehyun was the type of guy to screw you over, to butt heads with you and to trick you whenever possible just because he thought you weren’t worthy of being so smart and capable in this major as him.

If anything, this was a moment which he should celebrate, the moment he would finally get rid of you, possibly forever. But he was saving you as he silently followed the professor and got sent out of the lecture hall.

Long after the exam was over, you waited in front of the headmaster’s office, nervously biting your nails. You had tried to finish the exam as best as you could, but you couldn’t stop thinking about Jeong Jaehyun and what awaited him behind this door.

As it slowly opened, after what felt like an eternity, and Jaehyun stepped out, you rose from your seat and stood in front of him. His expression gave away that he hadn’t expected you here, and it was probably the first time that you saw his usual cocky self being so irritated.

“Jeong.” You swallowed, hard. “What did you do?” you wanted to know, upset. “You knew I was guilty.”

He buried his hands in the pockets of his pants, letting out a long sigh. Breaking your eye contact, he looked aside and pressed through gritted teeth, “If you get kicked out of the institution, it won’t be as fun anymore.”

Now, you were the one being irritated. “Jeong, you just got suspended and that’s all you can think about? Mocking me? Making fun of me again? Is this the thing your entire life revolves around?”

“Can’t you see?!” he suddenly blurted, spinning around simultaneously so that you stumbled backwards and hit the wall with your back, Jaehyun blocking your way with his arms propped to your right and left. “Yes, my entire life revolves around you, but you never seem to be able to look past our rivalry.”

He had taken you totally by surprise, why else would your heart beat so fast right now? For sure, it was not because he stood so close to you. And because, after all, he was exceptionally handsome. “I don’t understand.”

“I can’t get your attention, because you don’t pay attention to anything else except studying. Always, I have to work my ass off so that you notice my existence. Always, you only want to fight me, beat me. But that’s the only rare moments in which you will look at me, speak to me. So tell me, how are we supposed to keep this up when you’re gone?”

You sucked in a rush of air, your gaze wandering from his eyes to his lips that were threateningly close, then back to his eyes, and they mirrored such a loft look at that moment, you weren’t even sure whether this was the Jaehyun you knew anymore. Perhaps, you had never truly known him as you had never really been interested in the people here. Then, you thought about not seeing Jaehyun ever again. And despite him always being a pain in your ass, you realized that you, too, would be missing something with him gone.

“Will you be gone for long?” you asked quietly, suddenly very scared for him.

“Only for a month, because my parents donated to this university.”

“Okay.” A month didn’t seem to be so long. Perhaps, by then, you would have your life back on track and your mind free to get to know the real Jeong Jaehyun. “I’ll wait.”

“When I’ll be back, will you tell me why you did that?” he asked. “You’re independent, intelligent and a fighter. Normally, you wouldn’t do that, I know.”

Perhaps, Jaehyun knew you better than you knew him.

“If I’m ready by then, I will.”

He smiled genuinely, and it made you smile too.

A tiny part of you, the one being able to read the atmosphere and discover the faint hint of true longing behind his eyes, wished that he’d kiss you at that moment. But as his back relaxed and his arms dropped to his sides, you, along with him, realized that perhaps, it was not the right time yet.

“I’ll wait,” you repeated.

“Okay,” Jaehyun said, the both of you knowing too well what to wait for this time.

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Thanks for the congratulations and thanks for requesting dear, I hope you liked it 💞

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yesimwriting · 3 years ago

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Hello! Your Nikolai fic tranquility is so beautiful! Can you write more for Nikolai? Maybe the opposite with reader having a nightmare? Or whatever you want just please give me more! If you have a tagging list I'd love to be included btw :)

A/n hii!! first off,, thank you! i was a little nervous about writing him for the first time,, but i love him so much (even though i love a good villain/morally grey character in love i think nikolai would probably make the least toxic bf in the grishaverse lol)

you gave me a little too much freedom here lol bc i have so many ideas for him!! lowkey might need to give him a longer fic/series soon when i catch up with requests!! WOW THIS FIC IS SO LONG AND FOR WHAT

Summary: Reader is a handmaid who has grown up assisting Nikolai. Through the years, the two have developed a special relationship that most definitely breaks royal protocol--they’re best friends and rivals on a good day, and dangerously close to being something more the second either of them is remotely upset or extremely happy. Learning about the fact that Nikolai was almost engaged to Alina (a good friend of yours) and being reminded of the fact that as royalty Nikolai has many prospects (both serious women worthy of his title and women only suitable for trysts meant to relieve tension) has you both realizing something you should have years ago.

Word count: 31210

Warnings: disclaimer--may not be the most cannon thing ever,, but i wanted the ‘child of the help competes and falls in love with the child of royalty’ energy okay?? Lol

I could do a whole blurb series with this dynamic nikolai x reader,, like just stories of them growing up together and randomly realizing they might like each other romantically?? I probably shouldn’t rn but i ADORE this trope.

The perfection of the room is disappointing. Idle hands, idle thoughts--so I work to smooth out a perfect duvet. Still, the thoughts come--aggressive and unavoidable. It’s silly, maybe even sad, to feel possessive over something that’s never been yours, something that could never be yours, but the harder I fight off the feeling the stronger it grows. Jealousy is a weed growing quickly in my chest, vile roots planted firmly in my heart.

Normally my favorite part of the day would be waiting for Nikolai to return to his room in the palace after dinner and his evening duties. He’s always a bit softer in the evenings, during my last check-in of the day. I’m normally thrilled to be done organizing his room early because that means the second he arrives there will be no distraction. Most evenings, he’ll find me perched in the seat by his bed, reading. He’ll mock-scold me for daring to defy his orders and reading ahead from the book we both take turns reading aloud from each night. He then warns me that I better react exactly the way I did when I first read it or else. That threat is always followed by a gentle laugh.

Tonight I’m in no mood for our nightly banter or even our nightly reading. My mother had warned me of the dangers of getting too comfortable with the royal family. I should have heeded that warning when she first gave it to me, the morning she found Nikolai and I fast asleep on a couch in the library as children. The palace likes to bring up the children of the staff by training them to attend to the next generation of royals. It makes the staff more efficient, a lifetime of knowing what someone wants makes you better for them. It also creates some level of connection, making betrayal a little less likely. Nikolai and I might have taken it farther than most. But now I want a reminder of the way we’re supposed to be--maybe if I detach now the bleeding of my heart won’t kill me. That has to remain secret, because if I explain it to Nikolai something in me will break. The one line between us will be crossed.

This will be the sixth secret I’ve kept from Nikolai in my entire life.

The secrets:

I don’t know why I was picked for Nikolai. I wasn’t particularly skilled, but still, the day came when my mother was told that I now worked directly for the Lantsov boy. It’s an honor, a true one, but my mother had been a little nervous. To whom much is given, much is expected--and I detested Nikolai. Not for being a prince, but for being a prince who thought girls couldn’t race or fight.

The day my mother came looking for me because I never showed up for dinner and she found Nikolai and I attempting to fight in the way only a ten-year-old girl and eleven-year-old boy would, she had looked truly mortified. Nikolai had only laughed, either oblivious to my mother’s embarrassment or uncaring about it. He had then hugged me--an expression of care that had left me reeling. I saw him more as a rival than someone to tend to, but in that moment I saw him as a friend. Even more so when he told me he didn’t want me to go yet and that he was upset that so much of the day had been wasted by studies that kept him with boring people and away from me. And then he invited me to his lessons--my mother was quick to attempt to decline politely, but the desires of a prince at any age outweigh that of a mother.

After that, everyone kind of just stopped trying to remind us of our propriety. The tutor at first was concerned about my presence, but Nikolai remained stubborn. I wasn’t a big enough deal to cause an argument, so I began to attend lessons with him almost every day, only staying away when my mother needed aid with laundry or cleaning. His parents must have been somewhat aware of our friendship, but they must have been oblivious to our closeness because it was never mentioned.

My mother’s worry began to ease, she’d even started to take some pride when I’d come to our room proudly proclaiming that I scored two marks higher than Nikolai. She did, however, warn that it might be more tactful to let him score higher.

The comment was casual, just a suggestion, but it left me feeling wrong. It was the first time since we met that I had thought about our different statuses. I didn’t tell him--and that was the first secret I ever kept from him.

As we grew, we traded physical competition for academic rivalry, trying to best each other in both lessons and games of strategy like chess and cards. But with growing comes responsibility. Nikolai started to have obligations that were meant to be private. I couldn’t follow him at all times. But he’d always come back from locked door meetings grinning like he carried schoolyard gossip instead of government secrets. He shared everything with me, even when I playfully warned against it.

He’d always step closer when I teased that perhaps he shouldn’t tell me everything. And then he’d say, “If I can’t trust you, then I can’t trust anyone--and I don’t want to live in a world like that.” Often, he’d give my hand a light squeeze before moving on like he had not said anything intimate.

On a day in which Nikolai was in one of those meetings, I became a woman. When I first saw the blood, I had been horrified--but my mother was quick to explain that it was natural. She said that I was now a woman, a wonderful thing, really--but a thing that came with obligations. She told me that I could no longer have the impromptu ‘sleepovers’ with Nikolai unless he ordered it. I told her he’s never ordered me to do anything for him.

She didn’t ease, something in her had started to become nervous again. My mother had recently started to act the way she did when Nikolai and I first became friends. I didn’t want to fall asleep in Nikolai’s bed while I was bleeding, but I didn’t want to never have another sleepover with him again. Especially not when she refused to explain why being a woman changed so much.

I had decided to avoid Nikolai as much as possible until the sting of my mother’s new rule faded. Unfortunately, that night Nikolai was extra talkative--excited as he insisted I stay for a little longer. Soon, I found his familiar good naturedness melting away my nerves and before I knew it I was laughing in the middle of the night. When my eyelids started to feel heavy, I had moved from the chair, ready to head back to my room.

Nikolai had looked at me oddly before he asked why would I leave so late when it would be easier for me to just sleepover? It was an innocent question, he did not know about my change and I had wanted to keep it that way.

I tried playing coy, but Nikolai has always had a talent for getting around my better judgement. I don’t recall exactly how it happened, but I remember him standing in front of me. It was the first time I noticed how much had actually changed over the years--he was now taller than me for the first time in his life. His hair had started to grow a little longer, golden and soft-looking--and his face seemed much more angular. But he had not lost his boyish charm.

“Y/n?” My name fell softly from his lips, and that was the first time I had ever noted the fullness of them. I didn’t understand why I considered that something worth noting. “Did I do something to make you mad at me?”

Perhaps I had been a little curt--nerves and hormones had left me not feeling like myself. I didn’t tell him about the bleeding, I couldn’t. That became the second secret I kept from him--but I did tell him that my mother had told me I was a woman now, and that women can’t have sleepovers. Not with those of the opposite gender. I made no effort to hide my confusion because I expected him to be as perplexed as I was. But he was not confused--in fact, he had the audacity to laugh. My face flushed, but I did not know why.

“Why is that funny?” Maybe he thought I was still too much of a child to be considered a woman. I assumed it a fair assumption, I had not grown the way he had--my shoulders had not become sturdier and I had not become particularly broader. Still, I would rather melt into the floor than tell him about the reason my mother now considered me a woman. “My mother did say that, and I don’t know what being a ‘woman’ has to do with staying in your room at night.” Something strange had crossed over his features then, something much more brooding than I was used to.

I had blinked at him as unexplained nerves pooled in my stomach. Perhaps that look would have been enough to keep me silent if he had managed to not grin. That self-assured grin that had always challenged me. “Well since you know everything about my mother now, maybe you can tell me why she’s been acting strange. She’s starting to act the way she did when we first became friends.” I expected him to at least pretend to be worried. Perhaps his parents had spoken to her and had mentioned wanting our friendship to end. But his grin had only grown. Pride left me angry. “She did say that I could stay if you ordered it--but I’m glad you’ve never ordered me to do anything, so I can leave right now because you’re acting as odd as her. I don’t understand what you could find funny about our friendship ending.”

He had stopped me from storming out of his room by placing one hand on the wall between me and the door. “Y/n, don’t be cross--I’ll explain it all, I promise.” Angry pride made me want to storm away from him, but curiosity and something unknown and warm kept me in place. “Do you remember when we read the play about the rival families, how the two main characters had kissed?”

I remembered that part of the play especially well. The concept of kissing so casually, outside of marriage, had been jarring to me. “Yes.”

“Now that we’re older, your mother must be worried that we might do that.” He paused before leaning against the arm he placed on the wall to keep me from leaving a little more. “Kiss.”

The clarification was not needed--in that brief pause, I had allowed myself to imagine no distance between our lips. Something in me burned with embarrassment when I realized that some part of me found the thought appealing. The only thing I wanted in that moment was assurance that Nikolai would never know I felt that. That was my third secret, and the weight of it was heavy against my chest.

Still, though, all of my confusion had not yet left. “Is there much harm in a kiss?”

The question had left an odd smile on his lips. “There’s potential harm in what it could lead to for the woman, but not so much for the man.” He exhaled slowly as my face tensed. He could always read me too well because he was quick to add, “What it could lead to isn’t a bad thing, it’s meant to be pleasurable, but it’s serious.” I did not understand, but a part of me was starting to grow okay with that. Nikolai’s voice had started to become lower than ever, and his gaze remained tense. Perhaps if I accepted the confusion for now, things could go back to normal. If the conversation ended, I could stop thinking of his lips and his hands and what it would mean for them to touch me. “It’s considered a vice, like drinking or gambling.” The additional comment helped more than it should have. A vice--not scary and not painful, but not something to indulge in. That’s enough explanation for now. “If you want to know, I won’t deny you.”

I appreciated the offer tremendously. The vice that comes after kissing is clearly something that’s been intentionally kept from me. It’s something he was privy to that I was not, and he offered it to me like so much else. But if knowledge that my mother feared us kissing made me think of his lips, then I doubted I could handle knowing what comes after kissing.

“I’ll let you know when I want to know, but I appreciate the offer.” It felt like a fair response. His snarky grin came back immediately. Irritation rooted itself in my stomach. I hated not knowing more than him for once, but I still had one question I could not relinquish. “But what does that vice have to do with orders?”

At that, his smugness faltered. “It’s not unheard of, for princes and handmaids--for a prince to obligate a handmaid in order to fulfill his vice. Though many handmaids fill the vice of their own will for benefits.

The explanation left him like a confession. I didn’t understand his hesitance--it’s not like he’d ever make me do anything I didn’t want to do. Even when I worked, he was hesitant to ask me to go out of my way to bring him a glass of water. And I couldn’t imagine gaining anything from offering Nikolai something I didn’t really understand. I wasn’t naive to the fact that my life had more privileges than many palace servants. “Oh.”

His eyes hardened. “You know I’d never--”

“I know.” It was finally easy to smile again. “I never thought otherwise.” Something in him seemed to ease at that, his eyes went from hard to warm in less than a second.

I had no more questions for him and I was also no longer a flight risk, but Nikolai did not move. He did not step back to create a more appropriate distance and he did not drop his arm. His gaze, however, did move--dropping downwards, and slightly away from my eyes. I did the same, my eyes falling to his lips.

The silence between us began to make me feel like something in me was in danger of overflowing. “Then I guess my mother is once again worrying for no reason.” Strangely, I did not feel the need to feel embarrassed about staring at his lips. “Because I would never particularly want to kiss you, Nikolai Lantsov.”

The comment was meant to be teasing, a joke to clear away unknown tension. I should have known better than to challenge his pride because he instinctually moved his hand off the wall and beneath my chin. I did not flinch when he tilted my head upwards slightly with his fingers. “I could get you to want to kiss me if I wanted to.”

Three secrets in one night. I did not think I could bear a fourth one. “Hm…” The ground we treaded on felt unstable, but something in me trusted Nikolai to not let me falter. “I should--I should go before I give my mother anymore cause to worry.”

His fingers had brushed down my chin easily as he dropped his hand. “I’ll see you tomorrow morning.”

And that he did. The days passed without mention of the last time he asked me to sleepover. It was as if nothing had changed except now I found myself noting things I most definitely did not want to note. These didn’t feel like individual secrets because it felt easy to group each admirational thought into one secret. Soon, that became my new normal--easy banter, easy touches of hands, and easy yet silent admirations of his beauty.

I never wandered too hard about what the vice that kissing can lead to entailed. I didn't particularly want to know, but knowing that I could ask Nikolai at any time brought a sense of security to me. But besides that, I never thought of that conversation until the day I was asked to look for Nikolai because he was late for dinner.

That in itself was odd, most of the time when Nikolai was late it was because he was with you. I checked his room, two other rooms he was known to frequent, and then finally the library. First, I noticed a handmaid two years older than me. I was finally at an age when one begins to compare their beauty to those around them, and I recognized the girl as gorgeous. She was better endowed than me, physically, and she always seemed fun. And then I noticed Nikolai, standing closer to her than I’ve ever seen him stand to anyone. His expression was serious as the girl giggled.

Nikolai’s expression shifted from tense to shocked when he saw me. “Y/n.”

It took me a moment longer than it should have to realize what I had interrupted. Guilt and jealousy were quick to twist in my stomach. “Dinner--your parents sent me to look for you.”

He was quick to walk around the girl, who was quick to glare at me. I attempted to disappear down the hall after mumbling a quick apology, but Nikolai was faster than me.

“Y/n,” he did not hesitate to grab my wrist.

It shouldn’t have irked me the way it did, after all, neither of us had ever really hesitated to touch each other. I had always reached for him when I wanted him, and he had done the same. But the thought of the same hands that touched the most beautiful girl I had ever seen on me left me bitter in a way I didn’t understand.

Still, I pushed through all of that. “I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to interrupt anything, your mother asked me to look for you because she assumed you’d be with me when you were late to dinner. I didn’t think that there’d be--”

“You didn’t interrupt anything.” The words came out flat as his eyes took on the same quality they did the night he explained my mother’s concern to me. “Valaria wishes there was something to interrupt, but there wasn’t.”

Oh. I refused to let the correction inflate me. “Would you like me to not come to your room tonight?”

The offer felt awkward to make. “No,” the answer came quickly, “In fact, go there now--I want to see you right after dinner. I’ve missed you today.” The instruction left my face feeling warm. “We could read an extra chapter of our book if you’d like.”

Despite myself, I grinned. “Yes.”

“Looking forward to it.”

True to his word, Nikolai was quick to return to his room. He had come back to me eagerly, going out of his way to squeeze my shoulder as he entered the room.

I opened the book to the chapter we had left off on, but before I could start reading, Nikolai stopped me. “Sit next to me?”

The question came softly. It had been some time since we sat next to each other on his bed. Still, I moved off of the chair and to his bed. Something in me longed for the familiar closeness of childhood. I allowed him to play with my fingers as I read.

“You know you could take one night off from me if you wanted to.” The admission left me softly, part of unsure if he was still paying attention to my words. “She was pretty, it wouldn’t have hurt my feelings if you told me you wanted me to not come tonight.”

Nikolai exhaled easily, squeezing my fingers once. “I said I wanted to see you and I meant it.”

It took all of my energy to push past the way his words made my stomach leap. “In general, if you ever--”

Nikolai cut me off by laying his head on my lap the way he used to. “I don’t want to talk about this anymore.” It was the first time in years that he spoke to me in a way that acknowledged his authority. “Keep reading please.”

And that was the last time we had ever mentioned other handmaids in that context. The fifth secret I ever kept from him was the way I worried that one day that would change.

The door creaks open while I’m in the middle of fluffing an already pristine pillow. Nikolai steps into the room, but I continue to work.

“Darling,” he breathes too easily, “Today has been painful.” I straighten, looking at him as casually as I can manage. “And now I have to deal with you being mad at me.”

Damn him and his ability to read me with one look. “I’m not mad.”

“You know you can’t lie to me,” he sighs, stepping forward, “We’ve known each other too long for that.”

I press my lips together, irrational anger pushing itself into me at an odd angle. “We’ve also known each other too long to keep secrets.”

His eyebrows draw together, a look so quizzical I’m reminded of our schooling days. “What secrets have I kept from you?”

Mentioning that had been a mistake. I exhale as flatly as possible. “I shouldn’t have mentioned it.” My dismissal only has Nikolai’s expression hardening. I drop my gaze. “Unless you need something, I’m retiring my services for the evening.”

I take a reluctant step towards the door, eyes attached to the floor. “Y/n,” his voice is gentle. “What is it?”

“It’s nothing, I’m just tired.” Please let that be at least somewhat believable. “I’m sure I’ll feel more like myself in the morning.” I take another step, a little more assured. Nikolai’s hand is on my shoulder before I can escape. “Nikolai--”

“Y/n,” his voice is that of velvet, “I can’t have you be mad at me. Not now.”

Sighing, I meet his gaze. The tiredness I see behind his eyes is almost enough to chase away my nerve. What I’d give to be able to melt into our familiar routine. “Then you should have told me you were almost engaged to a literal Saint--the same literal Saint who’s one of my closest friends.”

Nikolai’s expression shifts as his hand drops from my shoulder slowly, fingers brushing down my arm before he finally intertwines our fingers. I bite my tongue to avoid squeezing his hand, but I don’t move to separate us either. He studies me silently, eyebrows drawn together. The longer he stares, the more whatever turmoil he’s experiencing seems to dissipate. After a minute of silence, I can read his expression perfectly. His lips are pressed together in that coy way--the way he only looks when he’s suppressing a smile.

I loathe him for it. “Nikolai Lantsov, don’t you dare laugh--not after what you did. Do you have any idea what it felt like to have Alina casually mention the fact that you almost married her casually? Like that was common knowledge to everyone but me?”

My words break away the last of his self control. He grins, flashing his annoyingly perfect teeth. “Do you have any idea what it feels like for me to want nothing more than to see you and then you let me believe something may actually be wrong when the only issue is your jealousy?”

The amusement in his tone is like poison to me. I find the strength to jerk my hand away from him. “I am not jealous.” He laughs; I am further enraged. “I am not.” The genuineness of my anger must finally register on some level, because he tries to suppress his smile. “I have every right to be mad at my best friend for not telling me that he was almost married.”

“We didn’t exactly come close,” he manages, expression still much too light for my taste. “I’m glad for Alina’s sake, I’m not sure being a Saint would be enough to protect her.”

He is infuriating. “I’m not sure anything you have will be enough to protect you.”

Something in his gaze shifts, softening the tilt of his mouth. “I don’t doubt that.”

I don’t know what I expected from him--but not this. I thought he’d be at least somewhat apologetic. “You should have told me.”

“I would have if I felt it was significant.”

“I’m your best friend--your marriage is significant to me. And even though it’s not like you’re engaged to her right now, you should have told me. You know I talk to Alina all the time.”

He sighs once, a hint of apology threatening to ghost over his eyes. “If I knew not knowing would have upset you so much I would have told you. I was--I was just so excited to be around you again I didn’t see much relevance in anything that didn’t involve you.”

The intensity that Nikolai regards me with is enough to wither all of my fury. But without my anger, I am left spiraling in emotion that I’ve been pushing against for years. My mother’s warning about relationships with those above us rings in my ears--sharp and headache inducing. I am still when he reaches for my hand again, but I do no allow myself to return the gentle squeeze of his fingers.

“I’m not sure much outside of you has significance.” He’s giving me a look I am familiar with. A look he often uses to chase away my anger.

Without my anger, I have nothing to keep me from melting into him, indulging in his presence fully. It’s so easy with him and I blinded myself to the danger of that. He may not be marrying Alina, but one day he will marry someone. A person worthy of his status--and what would I be left doing? Washing their laundry? Tearing up when I dusted the library and came across a book we had read together? Enough damage has already been done--I need to cut myself with this blade now in hopes of making sure I can one day recover.

He will get married one day, and nothing will be the same. And that’s a good thing--he deserves the love of a princess or queen. I want his happiness, even if it’s not with me. But some vindictive part of me hopes that some part of him will miss me. That some part of him will be dulled without me.

I’m a fool--he will remember me as the handmaid from his youth. The girl who made him laugh once or twice before he grew up. I force my hand out of his grasp. “You can’t win me over with words every time.” I need to get out of here before he says something that makes me lose all resolve. “Tomorrow morning I’ll be here to prepare you for breakfast.”

“Y/n.”

I step forward, refusing to look at him. “Goodnight.”

He sighs, his hand quick to grab my arm. Before I can question him I feel myself pulled back. I expect him to pull me just close enough so that I have to meet his gaze. He continues, pulling me sharply before placing a quick hand on my shoulder, forcing me down. My back hits his bed.

I sit up as soon as the reality of what just happened seeps into my mind. “Nikolai, what in the Saints--”

“If you’re going to act like a child, I’m going to treat you like one.”

I scoff, thoughts of escaping him put on hold by the principle of pride. Fine. I’ll beat him one last time, and then I’ll let us separate. I shove him. He laughs--of course this is funny to him. He got to keep fighting past the age of about eleven. His laughter adds to my anger, I move to shove him again, but he catches my wrist easily. I struggle against his hold, shoving him a third time with my still free hand. He pushes me slightly. That’s all it takes to unleash familiar habits.

Our small fight is hardly fair. He has all the advantage--more training, and he’s standing above me. When I finally make a move that might give me some success, Nikolai leans forward. He practically tackles me, his weight forcing me flat against the bed.

I move an arm, ready to push him off of me. Nikolai snags my wrists, holding them above my head. “This means I win.” I roll my eyes, anger returning.

“Let me go.”

He sighs tiredly, but the smugness radiating off of him is suffocating. “Admit that you were jealous.”

There are a lot of things I am willing to do for him--but never that. I cannot give him the one separation I still have. “I wasn’t.”

“Then why are you mad?”

I press my lips together. “I told you--”

“Do you really think you could lie to me?”

“You don’t know me that well.”

Nikolai moves his freehand, touching my chin as a way to ask me to look at him. I meet his gaze hesitantly. “Yes, I do, and that’s never bothered you before but it does now.”

Maybe this is a conversation better had bluntly. “It bothers me now because you’re too old to hold onto the daughter of a palace handmaid and I’m too old to pretend that our different statuses don’t matter.”

“Y/n,” he breathes, “Nothing’s changed. Status didn’t matter to me when we were children, and it doesn’t matter to me now.”

“You can afford to say things like that.”

“What good is my title if it means I can’t,” he pauses, eyes hesitant, “If I can’t keep things the same between us?”

I smile, the sadness of the look weighs on me and I can’t even see it. “Nikolai, you always knew things would change.”

“No, I--”

“You can’t tell me you think your future wife would like you having such a close relationship with a handmaid.” I press my lips together. “One day you’ll fall in love and get married and you’ll want me to leave your bedchamber as soon as dinner is over because you’ll be eager to spend time with your wife.” His gaze hardens. “And that’s not a bad thing. It’s actually a really good thi--”

The last syllable of my sentence dies in my throat. Nikolai, who must be possessed by something, leans down and presses his lips against mine. I beg myself to resist, but his gentleness is everything I’ve ever wanted. He releases my hands in favor of holding my face. That’s all it takes--my hands move without my permission, into his hair--pulling him closer to me. What am I doing? I’m insane. Placing my hands on his chest cautiously, I push just slightly. He’s quick to obey, pulling away while allowing his teeth to brush against my bottom lip.

I gape at him--taking in his now slightly swollen lips. “Nikolai.” He can’t do this to me. We’re friends. Despite the fact that I’ve loved him more than I should--we’re friends. “You’re being extremely unfair.”

He draws his eyebrows together, sitting up quickly and moving off of me. “I’m being unfair? I have spent my entire life loving y--”

I sit up, furious in a new way. “You have not!” This is the dumbest I have ever been. I move to stand, still feeling the softness of his lips against mine.

“Your tooth fell out.” The sharpness of his words forces me to still.

“What?”

I can’t bring myself to turn and look at him, but I’ve always been able to feel any heaviness he bears. The weight of it leaves little room for air in my lungs. “You were ten. I told you ‘girls couldn’t fight’ so you punched me in the face. That was the first time we ever fought--I didn’t mean to hit you in the face, but you moved. You moved and I hit you in the mouth and your last baby tooth fell out. I expected you to cry or get angry, but you just blinked at me and laughed. You were happy to lose your last baby tooth because it meant you were grown up. And then you smiled and asked me if you looked older. If anything, the gap in your smile made you look younger but I told you that you looked like a grown-up because I wanted you to keep smiling. Because your smile made me feel like I won something.” I turn on my heels, but I cannot meet his gaze. “That was the moment I fell in love with you--so don’t tell me I haven’t spent my entire life loving you.”

The weight of his words is harder to survive against than the heaviness of his feelings. “Nikolai, you know we can’t ever be together--”

“Why not?”

“Don’t act like you don’t know,” I manage, voice low, “You almost married the Sun Summoner--”

“That was political--”

“Exactly, your marriage is meant to be political, and if it happens to be out of love--which is what I hope you get, because it is what you deserve--it will be to someone of status.”

Nikolai stands, the movement is that of a king, not the boy I know. “I do not want status or to love someone else--I want you.”

“I can’t take that from you--”

“You can’t take anything from me because I’ve already given it all to you.”

I press my lips together, heart tearing for him. “I love you too much to ruin you.”

My words seem to snap something in him because his eyes darken, the way he watches me adjusting accordingly. “You can’t ruin something that’s always been yours.”

I let myself smile. At him. At his words. At the foolish hope the child in me has clung to after all of these years. I reach for him thoughtlessly, because I have the right to. Because I’ve always had the right to. He’s quick to respond, kissing me with much more security than before.

This time, he pulls away of his own regard. “You still haven’t admitted that you were jealous.”

His teasing smugness isn’t as sour to me anymore. “I wasn’t.”

Nikolai pulls me towards him easily, lips threatening to brush against me, warm breath against my face. “Are you sure, darling? You were awfully quick to claim what’s yours.”

I roll my eyes, grinning so widely I’m surprised my face doesn’t yet hurt. “You’re the one that fell for a ten-year-old girl with a bloody mouth.”

When he smiles back at me, he places a hand on my hip, pulling me forward slightly. “That I did.” He pulls me forward slightly. "Does this mean you can sleep in here again?"

"If anything, this is more reason for me to sleep in another room." He rolls his eyes, pulling me even closer. "But I won't tell if you don't."

Nikolai leans forward, pressing his lips to my forehead. "Deal."

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shotorozu · 4 years ago

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attractive things you do a lot

[sorta milestone celebration, but also something i made during todo’s birthday]

character(s) : multiple; five or more.

legend : [Y/N = your name] they/them pronouns used, hinted to have a strong quirk but it’s not mentioned alot

post type : headcanons + scenario [fluff, the mildest of spice.] third year au! but it’s nothing nsfw, so no need to worry.

note(s) : i was planning on doing denki, tamaki, monoma, and 2 other characters— but my idea train stopped at shinsou so i’m sorry about that! just let me manifest some ideas rq, and i’ll make a part two.

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todoroki shouto

eye contact is so attractive to him, he can’t explain it’s exact details

it’s definitely the way the both of you guys can practically read each other’s expressions just by staring into each other’s eyes it’s sorta telepathic?? im half joking

he absolutely loves the way you look away bashfully when you realize he’s staring at you— as you try to pretend he wasn’t just staring at you not so discreetly

and if you feel like it, you’ll stare back at him— totally teasing him with your eyes, as he slowly realizes that you’ve caught him staring

really adores your thinking face for some reason, you could be plotting about giving bakugou a knuckle sandwich, and shouto would just stare like “my s/o’s so attractive :))”

another thing he really likes is when you hold onto his hand, dragging his left side to your face whenever you feel colder than usual

you practically do the same thing when it’s too hot, and he doesn’t care if you’re sweaty or not. nope, not one bit.

he always found it attractive when he sees you bop your head to songs you really like. shouto just really likes seeing you enjoy yourself.

an extra to the cool/hot bit, he makes you run towards his direction by turning off the ac/heater.

last but not the least, his heart swoons when you kiss his scar. he has always been insecure about it, and you have helped him a lot!

mild spice here— whenever you bite your lip, his heart skips a beat

your lips are just so perfect to him, the shape, size, and color. so biting your lip does something alright. he doesn’t know what exactly though.

to conclude this, todoroki’s just whipped for you— it’s very noticable when he finds you extra attractive.

midoriya izuku

he loves seeing you hyped about something you’re really interested in.

like todoroki, seeing you enjoy yourself genuinely makes him content. his s/o having their own interests is really big for him

strength is something he admires (but he’s not power hungry like end*avor, don’t get confused).

so no, it doesn’t just reflect on your strong and capable quirk—

no. it’s so much deeper than that to him, seeing that you can overcome challenges makes his heart swoon

when you tilt your head when listening to him- omg. he might just short circuit from the way you’re looking at him intensely.

he likes it a lot when you reach for his hand, enveloping your hand against his

an extra point if you pay extra attention to the callouses and scars on his hands— purposely rubbing a thumb across his scars

fixing his tie.

like.. [SIMP SCREAMS] he doesn’t really know how to fix it properly, but if you do it for him— he’ll start imagining a rather domestic life so BWNDNWNS warn him

mild spice here— but he loves seeing you fix your hero costume?? there’s something about it that makes him refuse to look away. he thinks you’re very hot btw

but the top tier? it’s when you get along with his mom, and children

like.. you don’t have to be good with them, but you should at least be nice to them! midoriya’s deal breaker is if you don’t get along with his mom so.. you really have to in this relationship

bakugou katsuki

when you put him back in his place- well.. let me explain this one

people are so easily intimidated by him, so people don’t talk at him when he says some shit

so he’ll be genuinely surprised if you talk back at him, because it shows him that you're not afraid of him (and that’s important in a relationship with bakugou)

when you put his face in his palms. he’ll scowl and tell you off, but he actually likes holding your face in his palms

his hands are naturally clammy, so he’s secretly so insecure about them, and if you show him that you really don’t care- then.. that’ll keep him up at night.

same thing with shouto, but if you run to him for warm in colder weathers, that’ll give him an ego boost.

knowing that you’ll only look for him, whenever you feel cold makes him feel all “mushy” inside. again, like how bakugou is- he’ll pretend he absolutely despises it but he’ll actually love it.

mild spice here- but seeing you all worn out, panting under him when he spars with you is something that’ll leave him speechless for the rest of the day. man can’t stop thinking about it, and he has to restrain himself.

last but not the least- it’s when you touch/play with his hair.

YUUUP.

so unexpected because he never lets anyone touch it, sometimes not even his own mother.

but the only hands that are touching the ash blond mesh that is his hair is you.

do whatever with them. create small braids, comb it, tie it with a scrunchy, straighten it. really- he has trust in you

he’s just so whipped when you do it, and it calms him down.

kirishima eijirou

when you call him manly 🤠

and when you do things he considers as ‘manly’ like going out of your way to train your quirk— and helping him study for something he doesn’t quite get and when you succeed

another ‘manly’ thing is when you manage to encourage him— because he himself had confidence issues

so if you do that, he’ll be planning the wedding asap

whenever you just make grabby hands at his hair— wanting to style his hair

oh and if you wanted to redo his roots (if they grow back) then he’ll let you <3 because he absolutely adores it

when you start tracing his jawline when you’re staring at him. he was very caught off guard when you did this for the first time

but he absolutely loves the sensation.

stretching before any exercise! just the way you twist yourself with ease.. he’s mesmerized

he stares a little too much, to the point he gets called out by bakugou multiple times

a little spicy here — he likes your teeth. normal teeth, canine teeth, fangs, whatever!

doesn’t matter if you’re bite your lip, or runnig your tongue along the edge of a tooth. are you trying to seduce him?

he will be seduced 💀 face practically rivalling his faux red hair, trying to avert his gaze— thinking about how pretty you just looked like.

last but not the least!

back hugs. he’s such a fan of them, regardless if you’re taller than him, or shorter

surprise him, and he’ll turn around with this big dopey smile— and he’ll trap you in his arms

shinsou hitoshi

okay, if you randomly send him pictures of yourself (either your prettiest pictures, or the weirdest pictures) he’ll be so in love

like— just look at you! you’re gorgeous to him (saves every singe candid photo you’ve send him)

this is a really weird one but.. when you pick up things with your feet (bonus points if you do it with ease.)

when you start fixing your hair, doing whatever to it— he’s just in awe. (have you hypnotized him with your beauty?)

get him things for his hair like headbands, scrunchies, little barretts and pigtails

he’ll keep it in for as long as he can— since his hair is a little wild, a little braid or ponytail wouldn’t hurt, right?

spice warning (?) whispering into his ear makes his heart pound 10x faster like.. are you trying to kill him?

his quirk gave him a habit of listening to someone’s voice.. a little too much.

SO IF YOU WHISPER IN HIS EAR, HE’LL STOP FUNCTIONING :) do whatever with that info tbh

last but never the least— when you support him, and his journey to becoming a hero

because people have told him that he’ll never be a hero because his quirk was too villainy

nope. you think differently, and that’s what he thinks is most attractive about you.

the ability to support and believe him, even if his quirk seems a little misleading.

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i do not own bnha/mha and it’s characters. boku no hero academia/my hero academia belongs to horikoshi kohei. i only own the writing.

do not plagiarize my work :))

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