#this is long and im happy with it even if its a lot of dialogue

[a-not-so-clean-blog]

Ezio Auditore x gn reader

Reunited with a ghost CH 2. CH 1

Ft. Lots of Rosa and a kiss. 2.2k words

Warnings. Light cursing

Getting to embrace Ezio again was a dream come true, and one I hope to never wake from. I was completely lost in the moment before I remembered what I was doing before. I pull away and look around realizing I had completely lost track of where I was or how I'm supposed to find the guild head. Ezio looks at me with concern as he asks what's wrong.

"I need to deliver this letter." I pat the folded paper in my side pocket.

"To whom?"

"A man named Antonio. This is my final test from them."

"A test?" He slips the letter out of my pocket. I didnt even feel the fabric move. If I didn't watch him take it I never would have known it was gone.

"Yes. I am supposed to deliver the letter to him by nightfall and if I do the guild had said they will teach me how to move like them." I reach for the letter but he holds it out of my range.

"Let us go together then. I know the fastest route and how to avoid the guards!" He cracks a smirk as he waves the paper just out of reach.

I squint at him as he playfully taunts me. Haven't even been reunited an hour and he's already back to the lovable jerk I know. "With you there's always a catch." I eye him wary of his intentions.

"No catch. I just want to make sure you get to deliver this safety." He says with a warm smile. That's a face I could never say no to and he knows it.

"Fine." I relent. I hold my hand out for him to give me the letter back but instead he pockets it and laces our fingers together. Before I have a moment to respond we are already out of the alley and half way down a busy street. His hand was warm, another reminder that he was alive and this wasn't just a dream.

The twists and turns of the streets and canals never once slowing him down as we make our way towards the center of the city. I still haven't quite gotten the layout of the city memorized yet so it was nice to have a guide who actually knows where we were going. What would have taken me all day following bread crumbs left by the guild only took Ezio an hour, and that time even included a stop for lunch.

Ezio reluctantly let's go of my hand as we enter a fenced off area, the cool afternoon air replacing his warm touch on my skin. He knocks on the heavy looking wooden door and voice almost instantly tells us to enter. I follow behind him as we enter, almost hiding in his shadow. A tall man with dark hair immediately notices my presence though.

"I see you have brought a friend Ezio, and who might you be?" He said as he made his way around a large table covered in an equally large map of the city.

"My name is y/n. I am here to deliver a letter to Antonio."

"Well you have come to the right place than.

I look at Ezio, silently asking for the letter back. He quickly glances down at my pocket and back at me. Confused, I reach into my pocket and pull out the letter. Sly bastardo must have slipped it back in when I wasn't looking. I hand over the letter and the man who I am assuming is Antonio brings it to his desk for inspection.

"You have my thanks for delivering the letter so swiftly. Too many of my guild members are being recognized lately, it was safer for us to use someone the guards would not know." He folds the letter and puts it in a drawer. "I know you did not do this for free though. I will have one of my best show you how to move more swiftly." He looks over at some of the guild members in the corner, a woman and 2 men. "Rosa. If you would be so kind?"

The woman stands up and saunters over to us. "Honestly I didn't think you'd be able to do all the tasks. I'm impressed." She looks over at Ezio. "And more than a little surprised to see you escorting them." She looks back at me. "Our little friend here didn't cheat did they?"

"Of course not. I was simply heading the same direction, completely innocent." At least he had gotten better at lying over the years, however Rosa was clearly unconvinced. Thankfully she didn't seem to care too much as she led us outside, back to the fenced in area.

She points to the roof of a neighboring building. "Do you see the flag on that weathervane." I nod. The bright red flag was prominent against the light blue afternoon sky. "How long do you think it would take you to grab it and bring it to me?"

"... probably 3 minutes?" There weren't many ledges to make it easy to climb up. "Maybe 5?"

"Your 3 minutes start now, go."

"Huh?" I turn to look at her and she just waves me off and crosses her arms. I blink before my head catches up to her words. I get a running start at the wall in front of me and I'm just able to grab the ledge and pull myself up. I move as fast as my legs and vertigo will let me as I make my way up to the flag. I'm almost there and I look down at Rosa and Ezio. Both of them watching me closely, analyzing my every movement. I can't tell if I should be comforted or concerned by how sharp their eyes are. Getting down was much faster than the climb up. After grabbing the flag I drop and slide down the tiled roof. Before I fall I grab the ledge and swing for some momentum. Finally I hit the ground with a roll and spring to my feet, with a final sprint I'm standing in front of Rosa, flag in hand. "How did I do?" I ask as I catch my breath.

"Not bad for a novice." She holds up a hand and extends her pointer finger. "First you need to be able to think on your feet faster. You kept trying to plan your movements too far in advance and it slowed you down. That hesitation made you slip more than once even if it was just a little. Finally you let yourself get distracted. You should always be watching where you are going, not watching your audience." Each new point she made was punctuated by another finger. "You are certainly sloppy… but not the worst I've seen. Put in the effort and I should have no issue teaching you." I brighten a little at her words. She'll be tough but there may be a softer side yet.

…I was wrong. She was a harsh teacher and now I am laying on the ground unable to feel my own arms and completely exhausted. Ezio had watched the entire time as I learned to throw myself up onto handholds and literally had the hesitation beaten out of me. Hours of non stop climbing and she finally granted me mercy.

Ezio laughs lightly as he sits next to me, handing me a cup of fresh water. "She's a little rough around the edges but I'll be damned if she's not a good teacher."

"A little rough? I don't know if my poor muscles will recover from this." My whining only seems to amuse him farther.

"Drink, you have not had water in hours and it will help with the pain."

I grunt as I go to sit up but only make it an inch before returning to the cool stone floor. "Can't move. Too tired." Ezio rolls his eyes before taking me by the shoulder and pulling me up until I'm leaning against him.

"There, now drink. You'll feel better." I take the cup from his hand as he supports my weight with his arm slung over my shoulder. I did feel better as soon as the cool liquid hit my throat, and I finished the cup greedily. "Better amore?"

"Better."

"Good. I want to show you something. Are you able to move freely?"

I glare up at him. "Am I able to move freely?" He laughs at my snide remark.

"Please. I promise it will be worth it." The way he looked at me with that smile made my heart skip a beat.

"...fine" I mumble, and his smile grows ear to ear.

"Va bene!" He wastes no time lifting my tired body from the ground and onto my feet. We walk a little ways as I slowly get feeling back in my limbs. Eventually we get to a church like building and stop. I look at him and wonder what he's up to. "I'm sorry bello but you're going to have to climb one last time." He said softly.

I look at him in betrayal and disbelief. "You want me to climb?". I look from him to the building and back to him. Every passing moment I feel my arms grow heavier in dread. "How many times will you break my heart fantasma." He stifled a laugh at my pleading.

"I promise amore, it will be worth it. Will you do it for me?" When he looks at me so gently I know I am defeated. I let out a sigh.

"Lead the way." I gesture towards the building as he smiles.

The climb up was slow going but faster than I would have done before. Even exhausted I can tell I've improved. Ezio stops every few feet to make sure I haven't slipped or have gotten stuck. He offers his hand a few times but now I'm too stubborn to take it. I'll prove I can do it on my own and that I'm skilled enough to stay by his side. The last time I pushed his helping hand away I noticed his eyebrow furrow under his hood. I don't have time to focus on that though while I'm trying not to fall to my doom.

Finally I made it to the top, Ezio already waiting for me. He sits on a ledge and pats the tile beside him and I gladly join.

"I'm glad I was able to make it before my arms gave out." My snide comment earns me a sly smile. I close my eyes as i catch my breath.

"As am I."

"I hope this is worth it, Ezio."

"As do I." If I wasn't so tired maybe I would have caught the hint of nervousness in his voice. He wraps his arm and shoulder cape around me as I lean against him. "Look". I slowly open my eyes and see the sky alight with pinks and orange painted over a blue canvas. A stunning sight shining over the city and reflecting off her many waterways.

"Amazing…" I'm enthralled by the sunset this high over the city. I can't even hear the people on the street from this distance. It's only me, Ezio, and the setting sun.

I am taken from my thoughts when I feel a rough calloused hand gently cup my cheek and turn my head. I'm pulled close as I come nose to nose with my long lost paramore. His sharp eyes searching my face for any sign of doubt before slowly leaning in planting a tender kiss on my lips. The kiss was soft but with a smoldering ember underneath, like trying to hide a desperate flame. It felt like my skin was on fire with excitement and want. My head felt fuzzy and unable to think straight, however the feeling was not unwelcome. When finally we broke the kiss Ezio's eyes were shining brighter than the sun itself, and I'm sure mine were the same.

Long after the sun had set we stayed there, unmoving, simply enjoying the comfort of each other's presence. I look towards the ground below deep in thought. The day had been exhausting both physically and emotionally. I can't help but let a yawn escape my lips.

"I think it's time we find somewhere for you to rest amore. You have had a long day." He offers me his hand and this time I take it. He helps me to my feet and steadies me on my shaky legs.

"I don't think I have the strength to climb down…" I say quietly, guilty of my own weakness.

"Do you trust me?" I nod my head without hesitation and he smiles at me. "Then relax and close your eyes one last time." His voice is low and reassuring. I close my eyes as he wraps both of his strong arms tightly around me, holding me close to his chest. I feel my feet lift off the ground and the wind rush past me. The free fall felt like an eternity yet I still felt safe. The next thing I knew was Ezio underneath me in a cart of hay. He's got a giant smile on his face as he looks up at me. His smile is bigger than I've ever seen and for once I can't tell what he is thinking.

Bastardo. Bastard

Amore. Love

Va bene. Okay/ all right

Bello. Handsome/pretty/nice

[marsbotz]

DAMN its insanee even after so long… undertales story is still fucking crazyyyy

[clairewritesfanfics]

do you like those fics where the premise is "all the variants are here for y/n but main mark hasnt even dated her"

i like them the most when its a right person wrong time situation on main marks part because im mean

like since highschool theyve never managed to be single at the same time and then he finds out the evil versions of him destroying shit have had her when hes never even got to try asking her out

nobody has written this specific type of thing i want to read yet, but like, the variants getting stuck in main marks dimension and he and y/n keep finding out things about the variants loves with their version of y/n thats excruciating to hear for two people whove been in love their whole lives but have never been in a place to act on it

the only variant who hasnt done anything with her is maskless who was in a very similar situation with his william. like three of the older marks were actually married to her, at least one out of those 3 had been about to have a kid with her before losing her. literally none of them have ever broken up with her of their own free will. at least one of the younger marks had only just managed to start a relationship with her before he lost her.

main mark watching these versions of himself practically swarming someone he also loves and has probably loved before he even understood it but with no right to do anything about it because hes with eve. who he does like. but he asked out after a version of her from the future told him she loved him apparently her entire life and he was her biggest regret.

main mark experiencing never before seen types of emotional pain wondering if he should have read into the eve thing as the universe telling him you were about to break up with your at the time partner just as he was getting into things with eve, or if waiting to see if youd leave them would have prolonged your relationship with them because the universe fucking hates him for reasons beyond his understanding

i would write this myself but im already stuck trying to write like 3 other long projects already. but if i did write it id probably end it as happy as possible because even though i like angst i can only stand so much.

It is truly the writer's blurse to be struck with so many fascinating concepts while juggling already existing WIPs.

( ꩜ ᯅ ꩜;) 

It's an amazing idea with a lot of angst potential. I have encountered a similar but not exact premise a few times, maybe not as fully realized fics but as propositional posts.

I've always loved the idea of the Marks being so obsessed and devoted that they will stop the violence in order to reminisce about their respective Readers aka Y/Ns. (Oh, and this is more of my personal preference as an Invincible fanfic writer: the Reader-sexual crew includes Maskless because, as I have once discussed in gruesome detail, when it comes to Mark it is all or nothing for me. I can't tolerate him being in love with Eve or Amber in my verses, so I can't handle him being in love with William either. I am an equal opportunity "homewrecker." VCS readers, please don't ask me more about this because I might end up spoiling some things about my future plans.)

Honestly, if you have the energy to spare, you should give it a go, it doesn't have to be multi-chaptered. It can just be a short story or a bunch of "reactions" strung together. Heck, just write dialogue for it. Pure dialogue. Maybe you can use this idea as a writing exercise, like trying a different style or POV. Something to come back to and appreciate when you want to take a breather from your long fics.

Tbh, you've given me an excuse to stop delaying and start practicing first person POV again, and I was reminded why it's so hard penning reader insert stories:

I was surrounded. I could take on one or two of them, but twelve of these murderous assholes? My best bet would be to retreat while they were distracted, but there’s one problem: you.

You were the ball in this screwed up game of catch. All eyes were on you and I doubt there was anything that would take everyone's attention off of you at the same time. Even if I did manage to steal you away in a split second of distraction, I wouldn’t be able to go very far, not with that girl version of me here.

I watched as she pulled the pink scrunchie from her hair, black Rapunzel braid falling apart as she placed the hair tie gingerly on your hands. 

You gave her a shaky smile but she didn’t seem to care.

I clenched my fists.

She was fast, faster than the rest, and faster than me. 

“Cute, aren’t they?” The me dressed in my father’s colors watched you with arms crossed. “Don’t even think about trying to take her away, Marcy will rip you apart before you get the chance to take off.”

“Marcy?”

“Long story.”

It was hilarious. Not too long ago, this guy sent my girlfriend to the ER and here we were, talking like old pals. I wanted to punch him in the face but–

“You want to kill me,” he said, not bothering to look at me. “But we both know you won’t do that in front of her.”

“You don’t know anything about me or her.”

“I know that every version of you that came here is because of her.” He finally turned to me. “We all wanted a reunion.”

“I won’t let you take her.”

He scoffed. “We’re not interested in ‘taking’ her anywhere, we just wanted a chance to see her. To talk to her again.”

My fingers twitched. I already had my suspicions but I needed to know. 

“What exactly is she to you?” I asked.

The faintest smile melted all the coldness from his face as he answered, “She was my dove.”

Time slowed to a snail’s pace as my voice betrayed me, “What?”

He met my gaze. “She was my wife.”

“Was?”

The ice returned as he turned away. “She died.” That was all. He continued staring at you, his longing obvious under that veil of composure.

I watched as more versions of me crowded you. Each one had something to show or say to you, each one looking like they have waited a thousand years for this.

The fear seemed to have dissipated from you somewhat, because you were now laughing at the words of my maskless self. He was smiling softly at you, but I could see the cracks in his expression. He looked at you like you were the world, but it was clear to me that he was searching for something.

I didn’t know what it was but I couldn’t help but release my fists, wondering if Eve ever caught me wearing the same expression.

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I kept accidentally bouncing from third person to first to second. 😭

But it was a fun exercise!

I hope you do write about this someday because it is a great concept. Thank you for sharing it with me and our fellow fans.

PS

I must ask for clarification what you mean by "the Eve thing." Is this a reference to a specific plot point? Or just his relationship with Eve in general?

[eternalartblock]

overanalyzing kyoko's letter because i have nothing better to do

im having a fucking field day out here.

so in case anyone reading this is unaware, campyfire recently dropped these:

there is a LOT to unpack here. i am losing it over the namedrop but i would mainly like to focus on psychoanalyzing kyoko because. i mean this is her letter, plus in context it wasnt really meant to be read by anyone other than herself, so its likely that shes being pretty damn genuine here. which means i get to look at it and read into it and convince myself even further that she is!!! not okay!!!!!!

We hope your adventures haven’t taken you too far.

“we” is likely referring to the rest of her family, so theyre probably alive and present. which is good because i would actually kill someone if she lost her sister and had literally no one else. i really hope they gave her some support at some point because it seems like she really needs it

Since you’ve been on your journey, I've decided to become an adventurer, just like you!

becoming an adventurer is a lot. leaving home and letting go of your old life is a lot. and kyoko did that because it was something her sister liked to do, because it made her look strong and brave and she wanted to be like her. she mustve really, really looked up to her :(((

…I was scared at first, but talking with them made me happy… really happy.

ok hold up. she was scared??? while she does seem scared for them, shes never appeared to be scared of them, so… why? maybe its because they just come off as intimidating to everyone? it could be like how several npcs in the manor thought they looked off. but that was after she first met them, plus they were definitely a doing a lot better back when they only had one sword. i personally think this might be hinting at some kind of attachment and/or vulnerability issues? idk it REALLY seems like shes got some shit going on, especially because of how she lets you vent about your problems but immediately changes the subject once she mentions hers in her manor dialogue. still not normal about that btw.

Things are weighing down on them though, I didn’t want to trouble them…

shes clearly worried about being a burden to player while theyve got so much going on. even though she has literally let them vent to her. while she ALSO had some shit going on. dont get me wrong, i get why she'd think that way, player IS visibly going through it and they dont need more things to worry about. but it would probably be worth it to at least ask if theyd be ok with listening to her talk about everything. theyre her friend, and theyve got quite a few things in common. they would understand.

I shouldn't give up. I know you're out there, so I'm going to be just like you and never stop trying.

aughhhh fuckkkkkk

the thing about having a loved one go missing is that anything could have happened to them. there so many horrible ways for calypso to have gone out, especially since kyoko has ZERO IDEA where she could have gone. and yet, she chooses to believe that shes still out there somewhere, because she knows her sister, and she knows that shes stronger than that. and she wouldnt leave her.

also consider: calypso's an adventurer. it would be normal to not hear from her for a while. so imagine how long it took for her family to even realize something was wrong. calypso has been gone for a very long time.

im glad kyoko's at least coping somehow... still think she should open up a bit, but its better than nothing. i really want her to get the support she needs, because shes clearly going through a lot, despite how cheerful she might appear. also i wanna know more about calypso, it seems like she was super cool.

anyways kyoko is the best and most well written block tales character. thank you for coming to my ted talk

[legrzybek]

{imagine me showing up with a very polite bow okok!} {since I have a lot of headcanons around it, I’ve found myself wondering; what’s your thoughts on how two time reacted Before encountering Azure in a round? That brief window of time where they were forsaken, but before they knew He was there? And their change in behavior if any after the fact?} {I just think it’s a fun idea! :D}

{ps hope you have a good day :)}

THIS TOOKME SO LONG TO ANSWER IM SO SORRY i remember getting this ask whiile typing this one post and was like oh wowie i kinda described a bit of that there soo i'll try to add onto it a bit AAAH

so yeaH again,,,,before azure came along, they were trying to repress a lot of things regarding him & what happened ('it's not that i don't remember, it's that i don't want to remember' hmmmm) and the only thing that they could desperately cling onto was their belief in the spawn, only fueled more by the false power that the spectre gave them,,,they were also extremely secretive and unwilling to talk about themselves at all, avoiding questions and getting defensive if somebody was especially persistent

and also.it's not like they constantly yapped and yapped about the spawn tbh they were very aware of the weird looks they got whenever they said something about their faith and that did irk them, even if they tried not to show it,, they still mentioned the spawn to others when for example expressing gratitude(like the in-game dialogue) but usually, they talked & prayed to themselves

when they first saw azu they felt.a lot of things,,,,they honestly couldn't believe that it's really him standing before them again,,they were happy that he's back, that perhaps the spawn has rewarded him with a second chance too,,,,but they also felt absolutely horrid for what they did to him in the first place.and.that feeling only became heavier after hearing what he had to say about them, how much he has to suffer because of them and now despises them for it

their facade was beginning to crumble, repressing who they truly are was barely possible anymore, all the memories and feelings they tried to push away flooded back,,,,,their instability could now be outwardly seen, they often completely broke down, horribly guilty and ashamed of themselves,,the crisis and doubt they held for their faith that they also previously repressed was only intensifying after seeing what happened to azure bc. they wholeheartedly believed that they were the only one that deserved the pain, not their beloved, so why did their god do that to him????IMMSTRUGGLING WITH thE WORDS SORR BUT I HOPE U GET THE GIST

they weren't one to really stick close with the group even before this, but they've started disappearing during intermissions even more frequently. it's often that the others found them away from the main cabin, sitting in the forest or near the water, blankly staring in front of themselves,,once they realized someone's approaching, they instantly switched their demeanor, that forced smile appearing on their face again,,,after azure's appearance though, they didn't even do that anymore. a lot of the time, they were unresponsive when somebody tried talking to them in this state,,,,, they only continued to stare at nothing, just.stuck in their own mind

okthats All because IM STRUGGLING AHHHHHHHHHH SORRYIF ITS ASS AND AGAIN.APOLOGIES THAT THIS TOOK SO DAMN LONG HFGJDGFJF

I HOPE U HAVE A VERY NICE DAY TOO !!!!!!!!!!! ^_^ YAYA

[hexhomos]

I think what you miss when you compare jv to cv is that yeah, cv was still paid dust at first after Arcane came out, but they also knew that they had season 2 to cash out on it later. And there’s very small chance of Jayce and Viktor returning to the narrative in any meaningful way in the future

the caitvi couple skins were in 2023... that is an entire year *before* season 2 dropped. still took a whole year after season 1 (nov. 2021) to be made. The years after arcane drops (2022, 2025 so far) tend to be messy for league as they ride the arcane press and try to mitigate costs otherwise.

2024 we saw mass layoffs that interferred with every major creative team at riot including the main LGBT coordinator. This year we're seeing outsourced skins that need to be heavily tweaked pre-release bc nobody is happy with them, 500$ gacha scams, general chaos behind the scenes. This year has been so disorganized long time fan reporters on the game (@skinspotlights) were joking about how fucking weird it was this week's patch got no skins at all except for an apology note saying theyd fix the shitty noxus pass cosmetics put out in january. Its been Years since they nuked a release day for a cosmetics patch, much less to *fix* a previous release from months ago - this effectively means their entire release calendar got shifted forward as they work things out on the backend. This isnt normal for league! ppl have been really unhappy! but even if they were operating at peak performance it was still highly unrealistic to expect anything massive out of arcane to get a lot of content this june. It's too fresh. And they're counting on the arcane fandom doing plenty of free press for them this year without further effort.

I actually do think its useful to compare the season1 CV/season2 JV ambiguous states. Season 1 CV had no kiss and only heavy dialogue/visual implications through lore; anyone with gay eyes could plainly see they were gay but pedantic fanon discourse still insisted they possibly liked men, just to be annoying about the specifics. They did it for years. I remember that. JV as of the end of s2 stand in the same place they were years ago (heavy supplemental material working out a relationship dynamic, the every timeline thing, being paired in skinlines) season 1 CV has that entire yearning-memory sequence with vi that was mirrored with jayce thinking of viktor in s2; the fandom boom levels they had are pretty much the same.

And CL did very much say Viktor’s narrative is not entirely done (due to his freakish power level and position in the cosmic scale) while the actual main executive producer for league went on a recent interview to state "Viktor&Jayce's future" is something they have to interpret with the audience.

I get why people are either dooming or coping constantly given the volatility of social media and arcanetwt but arcane is not the end all be all of riot projects. they are currently locale scouting for their Live Action series and making live movies/TV is something they wanted to get off the ground since the past decade- they have repeatedly stated their goal is to build an interconnected universe across all mediums and their MMO to keep the theme park ride firing on all cylinders. Im not naive enough to say theyll leave jinx and jayvik as "dead" permanently. They'll just pop up somewhere else. The question is time.

[adyophene]

lucifer x husk is something i never knew i needed and as a multishipper im screaming

literally. king of hell x some alcoholic furry guy

i love them i need to know how they wouldve met, fallen for each other and started dating. and how much thatd piss alastor off

Ooh I am so happy other people are enjoying this pair as much as I am! I've gotten a few asks about my headcanons for them, and I am happy to blab on and on. Fair warning. This is gunna be a long and rambling essay.

I'm gunna put it all under a readmore, just cause I want to insert the art I've done of them so far, since I've been half-heartedly trying to tell a visual story through the doodles.

Okay. On we go!

How they met;

We did see them technically meet in the show, where they shared their singular canon piece of dialogue, which was just Husk saying 'hey'. And then in the finale where we see a literal split second moment of Lucifer holding Husk's arm.

(also seeing the sweet looks huskerdust is giving each other here just makes me feel so delulu for writing this all, but crackships are silly by definition, so lets get back to the lucihusk) For me, what I imagined, is after the Hotel is finished its rebuilding, that is when Husk and Lucifer finally actually meet in a proper manner. I think Lucifer would be trying to make a good impression on all Charlie's friends at this point, endeared to all of them from their actions during the finale. Unfortunately, I think he is also the King of Bad First Impressions.

[Note. I think at this point Lucifer wouldn't even remember Husk's name quite yet. I think he would call him 'Keekee' ( by accident) or 'Dusk' (confidently incorrect) or just be like "Hey!.... Uh... You?" until Charlie or Vaggie finally corrected him. ]

Husk, on the other hand, I feel like maybe wouldn't gel with Lucifer right away. Wouldn't hate him, but also maybe not be enamored with him right away. Same as Lucifer, maybe he would have sweetened on him a bit through the hotel's rebuilding, but I think they'd start out at very neutral feelings. Maybe a vague sense of 'He's okay, but I don't know if we will really get along.'

Despite this, Lucifer is persistent, and he's going to be everyone's (except maybe Al, unless they start getting along by s2) buddy. He'd start hanging around the bar and participate in the redemption exercises.

Now, we know Lucifer struggles with depression, and I think he would be trying real hard to mask anything going on during this time. They defeated Adam! They rebuilt the Hotel! He believes in Charlie's dream, and he's more involved with her life and other people than he has been for years.

His only issue being Husk sees right through it, both because Husk is perceptive, but also because even the King of Hell can't help but have a lonely night or two at the bar where he ends up venting about his divorce and subsequent lingering loneliness.

[snapcube ref aside, )I really do think Husk would start to feel more positively toward Lucifer after Luci would drop the act somewhat. That they could bond over feeling both at their lowest of lows, while also being to admit that things seem to be getting better!

This would be about the point that I imagine Lucifer developing more romantic feelings! Husk would be a bit less prickly, and Luci would just absolutely eat up any and all positive interactions they'd have. I like to picture a lot of little shows of care at the this point, like Husk memorizing what Lucifer likes and even making up 'fun' drinks just to try and cheer the guy up. And Lucifer would fun a fun game in trying to get the grumpy cat to smile, and just, lighting up himself any time he was successful.

And that culminating into the two of them making each other laugh, with Alastor being an easy butt of the jokes, and a good way for Husk, himself, to finally get a chance to vent. I think Lucifer would be one of the only 'safe' options for Husk to do that with, in just so far as Al can't really threaten Lucifer, and Lucifer already sees Al as a bit of a manipulative bastard.

Falling for each other; At this point, Lucifer would start being a bit more caring toward Husk, though with that wonderful, oblivious flair of his. I don't think Lucifer himself would realize he'd have a crush up until he'd start feeling protective or jealous over Husk, and it would really throw him for a loop at first.

Because fake dating is one of my all-time favorite tropes, I have always had a idea for a fanfic (or comic) that I haven't gotten around to yet, based around Lilith coming back, and Lucifer panickily asking Husk to pretend to be his boyfriend, so he can appear well adjusted/completely over her. Of course the whole thing would backfire, as Lilith would see through it (as Lucifer wouldn't be as good of an actor as he'd think), and that Husk would end up kind of feeling hurt by the whole thing.

Husk, who'd go along with the plot with an eyeroll, would find himself seizing up through the whole fake date/encounter. Would find weird, sudden emotions bubbling up and absolutely hating it.

I don't think that man would think about the class difference between him and Lucifer up until someone would say something about it, maybe Lucifer himself trying to rationalize the (at this time still fake) relationship to Lilith. Now, Husk feels uneasy about the whole thing and ends up drinking heavily the whole night so he doesn't have to think about feelings. (Blitz and Stolas who? Ahaha. fuck.) Meanwhile, while the date would be fake, I think Lucifer would really rather like having Husk on his arm and feeling like he'd have a love-life again, while also not really getting why Husk's mood would be getting worse throughout the night. I think they'd still end up on good terms, but both of them would have their feelings in a jumble, and Husk would not like it. (he thinks he's lost the ability to love, after all)

I think somewhere at this point, as they are starting to develop feelings for one another, is when Lucifer finally starts really realizing how tied to Alastor Husk is, and he starts to make it everyone's problem. I do think Al and Lucifer would stay snarky at each other this whole time, but that it'd only get worse, as Al would poke back since he'd find Lu's over reactions funny.

I also think Al would be maybe the last person to realize anything romantic would be brewing between Lucifer and Husk, and he'd just think it'd be a purely platonic thing.

Beyond just bitching about Alastor, Lucifer would really be ramping up his attention towards Husk too. Fully in that 'puppylove/crush' stage, and trying his darndest to make Husk feel good and special. Husk would be resistant to it all, thinking it would just be Lucifer rebounding hard, and not wanting to get wrapped up in Morningstar family drama when he could happily (miserably) keep his head down and just keep drinking the days away.

But then Lucifer would find out about Husk's love of stage magic, and his history as a performer, and it'd be all over for the catman. It would become Luci's new pet project to rope Husk into some joyful self-expression, and after a song and dance number's worth of convincing, Husk would start to come around. I have to post all these images now cause- I drew them with the intention of mimicking a musical number! Husk starting off as a bit resistant before jumping in whole heartedly, and Lucifer overexcitedly dragging him along throughout the music number, hyping him up and just all around being smitten.

And this is where Husk would start really falling. Getting swept up in indulging his favorite, least destructive hobby, and having someone who absolutely loves it to bond with. Especially when it would be over. When they would just settle down and talk, and laugh, and bond over what they love about performing. The spectacle, the audience, the love of the craft. Its about the comradery!!!

@belladonazeppole wrote a wonderful series of fanfics based off these pictures, as well as the songs from 'The Greatest Showman' that really fit the ship! I would be remiss to not mention them here, because Bella and their fics are just wonderful!

How they started dating;

Now. Don't think just cause they both caught feelings for each other, that they'd immediately admit to it. No. I think both of them would drag their heels. I don't think Husk would admit to them at all, without some outside force effecting it. I think he'd stubbornly try to ignore the crush or drink it away, rather than let his heart become vulnerable to anymore damage.

Meanwhile, Lucifer would be struggling between his feelings for Husk and Lilith. (In the actual canon, I do think they might try to rekindle things, depending on what kind of person Lilith turns out to be, but I digress.) Part of him would be so swept up in a giddy kind of excitement, while the other would be set firmly in the camp of 'this is a bad idea, this won't work out, just look at what happened to your last relationship'. It wouldn't stop him from being outwardly more and more affectionate, but it would be weighing on him.

I do think Lucifer would end up being the one who would be thinking; "What am I doing. He'd never like me back." While Husk would be just sitting there (echoing what was said in the ask- sorry I went all wild and wrote this much about the ship dear god)- "I'm just some fucking furry alcoholic, what the fuck would the king of hell see in me??? Am I delusional? What the fuck is going on??" And I feel like this stage would go on for MONTHS and drive everyone else nuts. It would be clear to everyone (except Alastor, who again, would be just this meme

Though that wouldn't stop him from getting a little pissy about it) And then it would all come to a head during something benign, like a board game night. There would be flirting, there would be jealousy, there would be arguing, and then finally, loudly and with a lot of feeling, Lucifer would shout his way through asking Husk out on a date. A real Date. A capital 'D' date out on the town, dressed to the nines and a real good time. The board would be knocked over in the fray, game pieces raining down upon them while Husk would just stare blank faced, trying to process what just happened. An awkward half-minute would pass before he'd finally, trying to play it cool, shrug out a 'sure'.

How much it'd piss Alastor off;

In the aftermath, a radio static would just lowly grate everyone's ears as Alastor would be slowly coming to terms on how just annoying it would be to have his friend (/Unhealthy co-dependent pet friend possession??) romantically involved (ew) with the King of Hell (double ew)??? Then, either it would be something light hearted like 'he keeps trying to break them up but failing cause he hates interacting with romance' or a darker route where 'he keeps trying to manipulate them into breaking up by preying on all their worst insecurities in the relationship'.

And that, my friend, is all I have in mind so far for this delusional crackship au! There is more I could flesh out, of course, like Angel's role as a friend or potential third in the relationship, or what I imagine as Husk becoming like a stepdad to Charlie, but I've typed enough for the whole month. Hope any of that was coherent! I did not bother to edit or proof read it. Just pure stream of consciousness.

[demadogs]

Why byler? Is my question what is it about them that’s so popular

ooo this is a fun one. im assuming you may be one of my newer followers who didnt follow me when i was in the byler trenches. welcome. let me explain.

i think probably the biggest reason people gravitate towards byler is that its extremely fun for people who love film analysis because most of us genuinely believe it will happen in s5. for me specifically, this is the entire reason im here. i first started liking byler when s2 came out but it was casual. i just thought they'd be cute together. once s3 came out and i saw someone point out that mike was framed perfectly in a closet, that was my turning point. thats when i got insane about them because i actually believed its where they were headed.

its always fun to ship your favorite characters and engage in fanfics and fanart, but when theres a genuine belief that this is the direction the story is actually going in, its just a completely different experience. its a whole other world. its no longer about the characters themselves anymore. its about the cinematography, the props, the color palettes, the music choices, the blocking, the lighting. all of these things and more have provided evidence for why we believe byler will be endgame. its the perfect ship for people who are really passionate about filmmaking as a whole. 

many of us, including myself, got our degrees in film or have a background in filmmaking. ive made my own films and i plan to make more. one of them was screened at a festival. ive written academic papers on shows and movies. i've taken college film classes where my professors talked about stranger things. im a professional photographer which coincides a lot with film. i have this blog to talk about my favorite fictional media online. every time i watch something new i read long analyses on the media. if they dont exist, i write them myself and post them here. i love talking about and learning about and watching cinema on a much deeper level than someone who just throws on a show when theyre bored. so watching two complex characters not only have romantic tension in their actions and dialogue alone, but also have enough depth to analyze the practical filmmaking choices that prove they are going to end up together…. well its like fucking cocaine to me.

another reason is that mike wheeler, in my opinion, has the potential to have some of the most well written internalized homophobia ever. and i think he differs greatly from a lot of other characters with internalized homophobia because the writers have had the patience to not fully confirm his sexuality until the final season. many other queer characters who struggle with their sexuality come to terms with it over the course of one season or less. or they write it with dramatic irony so the audience is always well aware they are queer from the getgo, even if the character doesnt know yet. while theres nothing inherently wrong with any of these choices, i think having a more outside perspective on internalized homophobia and having that perspective be told slowly will make for a much more authentic and powerful queer coming of age story. i think all of mikes flaws and animosity towards both will and el will pay off so much once we know what hes been going through. i believe this character actually has the potential to reach people who arent accepting of the queer community right now.

byler also just resonates with the queer community so much. a lot of queer ships, especially mlm ships, are dominated by straight women, sometimes to the point where the ship doesn't even feel like its a part of queer culture anymore. its just nice to have a gay ship that feels like its for gay people. and as much as i love a really well written tragedy, its also nice that we can see a happy ending so clearly.

in short, its just fun. the whole "will they/wont they" element is fun as hell. ive never had that with a ship before. i tend to lean towards slow burns that i know will be canon (snowbaz <3) or tragedies that are so gut wrenching i dont even WISH they got together (jackieshauna <333) byler however just speaks to my film loving soul on such a deep level. its perfect for me. its so fun to analyze and read other people's analyses. i cant wait to see how it unfolds in s5.

[indiestsnake]

woof. im like. actually emotionally tired tonight?? like mentally whooped. and uh. I think it’s from playing five hours straight of In Stars and Time.

spose the math checks out

cut cuz this got long, the post from here is just rambles

it makes sense for ISAT to do this, it was such a massive hit for a reason. but for me this is a lil weird. I’ve never had a game have such an… effect on me. like, pushing past the borders of healthy enjoyment effects. is this normal? do yall get this with media? Im usually pretty detached to the stories in games I play, I’ve- literally never cried over media. somehow. gotten watery at times but never shed a full tear. And im a pretty emotional person, but it’s just never happened. so im not exactly used to thinking about a story so intensely even after ive turned off the screen.

I’ve also never played a game that is this… brutal to its characters, to be fair. or character, rather. the first person dialogue certainly doesn’t help, and something about Siffrin and his reactions to things just sticks with me. plus I’m playing on my new pc instead of my switch, so that probably adds to it. bigger screen, and I’m up in my room instead of on the living room couch, so I’ve got a lot more room to emote and feel and immerse myself in the story.

tldr this game is uh. doing things to me. I really, really, really hope it gets better for Sif. part of me is scared it won’t. It probably will. but nonetheless.

happy to see such a big (in the indie game scene at least) game have such an effect on me. usually I find the big indie hits dont resonate as much as more niche things because. well. hits are hits because they do a lot to a lot of people, not because they do a loooooot to one specific person. but it seems I am a specific person this game was made for, so.

okay I think that’s all.

I’m gonna go to bed. read something fluffy and think about characters I like bein cozy. and. maybe praying that Siffrin somehow finds his way out of this hell. lol. Night, yall.

[roocomehome]

LOVE TRAIN INBOUND !! 🚂💨💨

This is inspired by @acuar-io !! Thank you for doing this and THANK YOU FOR THE TAG!! (even tho it didnt tag me properly 🤧)

Tumblr is silly and while I will tag ppl, I know not everyone will be properly tagged, so if u see this, skim thru the list for your name ESPECIALLY if your my mutual ! 🫶

To start off, I just wanna say that Fae (acuar-io) has some absolutely STUNNING sims, it's hard to exactly word it, but their sims are SUPER recognizable, and their saves (Snow flower, Cozy save, etc) are SO nicely edited, so aesthetically pleasing to the eyes 🫶😩

@oshinsimblr is the reason why I started storytelling (even before my simblr time) and why I try and find a story-related reason on why my sims/characters do certain things, her videos are also SO comforting and i love her lovesick series!!! and of course, @minimooberry the whole inspo for this simblr and why I render in blender!

@mattodore and @cinamun are AMAZING simblrs if u want rich storytelling and/or well-thought out characters, River has inspired me to really tear into my characters and give them more personality, and cina just genuinely makes such realistic characters and the tea is ALWAYS hot and simblr aside, she has very good takes >:P

@groovetrys and @circusjuney have been around on my blog and as my mutuals for a LONG time and they really are some of my biggest hype people, lori has an AMAZING legacy going on with her sim, Melody, and u should DEF check it out, and june makes the most amazing clown sims 🥹 theyre always so pretty and STUNNINGGGG

-> To add onto the above category, id also consider @miralure as one of my biggest hype ppl!!! Although they havent been around as long as june and lori, they always hype me up and it makes me stupid happy 😭 they make REALLY good lookbooks and i love their sim style SMMMM

if u dont know about @rebouks what are you DOING with your simblr-life, bc becca has some of the most human-feeling story/dialogue, i always get a stupid sappy smile on my face when i read her story posts

@jarakio has an AMAZING story called Girls with Guns and its prolly my fav story that ive read on simblr, the dialogue? amazing, the poses? amazing, the vibes? AMAZING, i'm ALWAYS hooked in whenever i see GwG pop up on my dash

@stellarfalls just HAD to be on this list are u kidding me????? Bree has a PHENOMENAL save called Valley, even tho there's no dialogue, each image and gif speaks more than words could, she's inspired me to kick up the quality of my posts and also start making gifs, I also consider her to be one of my biggest hype ppl, she always be coming in with the best compliments 🥹🫶

@torissims !!! She makes BEAUTIFUL posts, her blog is very yellow and orange and i LOVE IT, she pulls a lot of inspo from Studio Ghibli and even tho ive never seen any SG Movies, I can just see and feel the inspo, shes def underrated af 🥹

@amburgundy has BEAUTIFUL builds, and they dont just do TS4, they also make builds in other sims games!! (u did a phenomenal job with Madi's legacy house amber 🤝) I LOVE the clutter and they always looks so cozy 😭

@flovoid is another one of my hypemen LMFAOOO bro you and your tags literally make me so happy, i LOVE reading them. Flo makes AMAZING SIMS, and you should check out literally ALL of their sims, especially their sims Roo and Norman from Majima Land (first post under my Roo tag is me reacting to one of their posts with Roo and Norman, funniest introduction to a blog ever), Also their sim, Draco Almond??? He's got me tucking my hair behind my ear... 🫦🫦

@elderwisp has some of the most immaculate editing ive ever seen, the lighting, the vibes, the dialogue, the poses, the expressions, i be eating those posts up like im fine dining 😩😩

@changingplumbob is so chill, I love how much passion she has for her rotations, and her love for cats?? Perfect mutual to have, I also literally LOVE reading her behind the scenes posts, they're literally so funny 😭😭

@tricoufamily and @dejasenti99 make absolutely phenomenal renders, like if theres any renders on simblr that im gonna recognize immediately, its these two's renders, they're genuinely more HQ than my fucking eyes 😭😭

-> Also Nat (Missatan) makes incredibly HQ renders as well, these three are like... my biggest blender render inspos...

@buttertrait @missatan @virtualfolk @pearlean @claudtrait all have BEAUTIFUL sim styles, butter's is very unique, i know they arent really a sims 4 blog anymore but i ALWAYS recognize butter's sims when i see them on my dash and I genuinely love their sim style sm. Nat (Missatan) has SUCH a gorgeous sim style, you've heard of them hips dont lie, well her sims' lips dont lie 😩🫦 Virt (Virtualfolk) and Sam's (pearlean) sim styles are SO animated (if that makes sense), they're like eye-candy. Den (claudtrait), like Nat, has a sim style with the most luscious lips and poutiest faces ive ever seen and are just SOO pleasing to look at, like i just feel blessed in the eyes when i see their sims

@yukikocloud 's Apricot save and storytelling is incredibly reminiscent of Bree's posts, and I just LOVE looking at and reading her story posts, this post in particular just absolutely captivated me, I was drawn in and just get so giddy seeing the Apricot save pop up on my dash 🥹

@alientown @venriliz @nefarrilou @druidberries @machinegrl make STUNNINGGGGG occult (or cyber/robotic in Baja/Machinegrl's instance) sims. Nef always makes beautiful sims for their Cryptid "series", im just in AWE when i see their cryptids... Ven and Ana (alientown) both always make absolutely gorgeous alien sims and they also just have very unique/beautiful sim styles 😍 Baja's cyber girlies are just >>>>>>>>>>>>> I love her whole dystopian/cyber theme, its literally so good and so cool, and her Deadstars series? SO good. Alexis' (druidberries) elowen is so pretty, and her sim style, especially with occults, is just MWAH chefs kiss, literal eye candy

@swallowprettybird is just one of the sweetest people on simblr, I love reading what she has to say about mine and others' posts, and she makes amazingggg posts, I loved that one national geographic inspired post with the zebra, it was so well done

@softle0 makes some absolutely stunning builds, they always look so lived in, so cozy and I would ABSOLUTELY live in pretty much every single build they make

and honorable mentions to @droolski @felysline @pamsimmerstories @swiftviolets @weirdosalike @mushbop @calicosimgirl @shadowtrait and @seriallovertrait because I feel like they're all SO underrated, they're all passionate about their own stuff and I just love seeing their posts, and if you're seeing this, FOLLOW THEM 🫵🫵

Thank you Fae (acuar-io) once again for starting this train up, I love seeing stuff like this and it's so sweet to see what everyone has to say about one another, I may have spent 1 or 2 hours doing this, but it was INCREDIBLY well spent to be able to admire and appreciate all these people, them and every other simblr person, whether i follow them or not, deserve every last drop of love and appreciation genuinely

[intramoon]

hi aj !! i have a question i dont want to sound rude please know im not trying to be rude. i came back to simblr after a long time and its been really hard not to get discouraged. :/ my account is really dead no one interacts with me anymore. stuff is so different. i remember you used to be kinda popular but how do you deal with people not interacting with you as much as they used to?? i dont mean that in a mean way!! i dont want to quit simblr but idk how to get back to how things were

Hi! Don't worry, I don't think you're being rude, I understand where you're coming from. ♡ My response will be long because I have a lot to say about the topic, hopefully, it will help you.

If you were mostly active when I was in my "prime" (assuming that's what you mean by "kinda popular"), like 2018-2021, things will never be how they were then. The community, trends, and how we interacted with each other was so much different, I don't think it will ever go back to how it was then. I am kind of happy about that. Although my relationship with that time on Simblr is nostalgic (despite being too young and miserable to enjoy it), I think the community is in a healthier place now (mostly). I have had to adjust to a couple of things since coming back. One is that the content looks different now.

In my "prime" people were just getting into editing (that was a time before ReShade). Heavy editing and experimental editing were really celebrated, partly because everyone was learning and learning from each other. We just wanted to see what was possible. Now, maybe partly in reaction to that trend and how demanding it was, people have found an appreciation for the base game, simple screenshots with really only ReShade/gshade, CAS screenshots, etc. Not to say the former doesn't exist anymore because it absolutely does and people have become truly incredible at it. In some regard, it is an acquired taste especially if that's all you do. I've thought to myself many times should I stop editing the way I do, does that impact the way people take in my content? Do I have editing blindness? lol I like how I edit, I enjoy the process and, even if I do have editing blindness, I like how it looks. Even being an alpha creator, they are fewer and fewer as people opt for MM and MMix. I've thought, do people really not like alpha content anymore? Even my story at times felt like it didn't fit into the current story ethos. I thought about stopping it. I bring that all up to say, when you're coming back to a very different Simblr it can feel like what you used to make doesn't "fit in". And it might not. I don't think that should be the goal. The community now is so much more diverse, content-wise, that anything you want to make is possible. If you sacrifice your artistic vision, you'll end up leaving again. You have to make what speaks to you, regardless of the other noise.

Two, you have to find your reason for making your art. For a moment, I really lost touch with what I was even doing here. I took some time to figure it out. I first started because I wanted to tell a story that talked about intimacy through the lens of a sex worker and someone who had no romantic or sexual experience. I wanted to do this without over-sexualizing my sex worker character and infantilizing my other character. I wanted to write some of the dialogue I was having internally. Way back when that was all I wanted to do, I didn't struggle with being seen as much because I was posting with a purpose. That purpose wasn't likes or reblogs, but to tell a story and have a conversation. Everything else came after. Anyone coming back (or looking for a reason to stay) has to find, within themselves, why they want to be here and what they want to get out of it. I promise you if you reconnect with that, posting will be easier regardless of the outcome.

I know I took a lot for granted way back when. Asks about me or my characters, comments, tags, and even people wanting to join me in a Discord server or stream. Sounds like we both, a one point, wish we could go back. That just means it's something to appreciate more now. You can be and make really whatever you want, which wasn't always possible. Maybe think of coming back as a small rebirth and trust that if you keep at it, you will find your people. I am still in the process of finding mine but I trust they are out there. If you're passionate people will feel it. Best of luck and I hope something in this novel helps you! ♡

[fruityumbrella]

mwah thank you bree @strawhattery for tagging me in the 20 Qs for fic writers 🥰

how many works do you have on ao3?

11 so far!

what's your total ao3 word count?

161,145 whoa

what are your top five fics by kudos?

piece by quiet piece

bruise (running in circles)

stuck in your throat

empty spaces

sea grain

what fandoms do you write for?

at the moment just one piece, but ive written for mdzs, and have a bunch of ideas/scenes for given too

do you respond to comments? why or why not?

yesssss always, its my fave thing to do! i love hearing what parts of my fic resonated with people, what it made them feel or think about, and which lines were memorable. its so validating as a writer but its moreso just so fun to connect and yap with people about the characters and stories that i love!

what's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

ha i dont think i have a single angsty ending and i dont think i ever would honestly 😭 im just a big softy i need a happy ending too badly, but lets say 'fics with the most Potential for future angst' and that would probably be the things you dont see, thanks to the uncertainty around sanji's germa awakening

what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

theyre all happy but i think empty spaces and stuck in your throat have the sappiest endings (the former ends on a love declaration and the latter is just sooo cheesy sappy stupid i love it so much)

do you get hate on fics?

the only time ive gotten straight up Hate is when someone who hates jiang cheng told me how much they hated jiang cheng on my jiang cheng fic, like damn dude dont you have anything better to do??

speaking of stuck in your throat though lmao that fic has gotten a lot of...contentious comments? of people not really getting the subtext of zoros pov and telling me how much they disliked his character entirely

do you write smut?

almost exclusively atp 🫡 which is insane to me considering that when i wrote piece by quiet piece, i felt so awkward and clumsy even writing a kiss scene

do you write crossovers?

nah it doesnt really interest me

have you ever had a fic stolen?

not to my knowledge!

have you ever had a fic translated?

also no

have you ever cowritten a fic before?

id love to but its too intimidating to me lmao

what's your all time favourite ship?

(guy whos memory is fucked voice) zosan forever

what's the wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

well all of them. i have SO MANY wips, not to mention the rough ideas list too 😭 the one least likely to get finished would def be my marineford au bc its very involved and very heavy which are both difficult for me, and it just requires a LOT of attention unfortch...though it could be soooo good 😔

what are your writing strengths?

i think im quite good at shaping feeling and giving emotions a physicality, as well as settling into a character voice that is distinguishable and distinct in fics with alternating povs

what are your writing weaknesses?

oh god, excess. too much description, too many adjectives, sentences that run on too long, writing minutely altered versions of scenes and not being able to just let go of them and choose one to move forward with...i also strangely feel like dialogue used to be a strength of mine, but ive somehow run out? like i used up all my good banter and dialogue and now im recycling too much 😭

thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

id love to be able to incorporate a character's non-english language but i dont trust translation site accuracy enough to be confident in including it in smth i write yknow. that being said, i do want to write some small phrases for sanji in a modern au wip, and hopefully i recall enough basics of french to make it not seem clunky and totally wrong. another reason id love to use another language for dialogue is ao3 has a bunch of cool little options to make including translations really fun and easy and id love to try em out

first fandom you wrote for?

first one i wrote for but didnt publish was unfortunately the boy wizard books, and then i didnt write anything for ten years until i got a dnd oc lmao

favourite fic you've ever written?

oh man....thats so difficult theyre all my babies 😭 but okay i think bruise, for the writing process, it was really exploratory for me and i wrote a lot of content and in ways which were really new for me, and it was just a lot of fun to figure it out!

mwah TWO this was so fun and im gonna tag the few writer buddies i have whom i think havent been tagged yet, as well as anyone else who sees this and wants to share!! @rowdyknives @daerigo @braimin @ghost-maya

[mittykidi]

okay so pico and otis ramble at 2:30am because showers this late make you think a lot about things. im gonna put it ubder the cut bcz i hate scrolling through longass text posts hhdgdghd

i think pico would be envious of otis sometimes in relation to their family. i use envy and jealous different btw, to me jealousy is when youre mad at someone for having what you want and you want to lash out at them, and envy is when youre happy for that person but you also feel kind of sad/mad (not at them tho) because you wish you had what they had. in my brain anyway, theyre different like that i hope that makes sense.

otis's father, based on what little we see of him, which isnt a lot so maybe take this all with a grain of salt, at least tries getting otis out of the house. he at least gives otis positive feedback and he seems like he's trying to be enthusiastic for him. even when we first see him in the game, i feel like the dialogue was a little banter-ish, but that could just be me being bad at reading tones. and towards the end he clearly cares about their safety, although you could argue hes just looking out for himself, i dont think thats the case.

meanwhile, pico clearly doesnt like his father, he basically says he hopes he fucking dies- which is aggressive and probably very sincere since pico has very clear lines drawn in his head for who deserves death/ judgement and who doesnt. i dont think he was exaggerating at all. i imagine picos father probably forgets pico exists, or would go places without even asking pico, e.g. he would go visit the grandmother without bringing pico, although personally i dont think picos father even seems like the type who would visit their mother lol. pico probably wanders around the streets all the time/ visits friends/ visits otis cause he doesnt wanna be home.

anyway, i dont really have a point to all of this except to say pico being exposed to what a healthier relationship around family looks like makes him angrier at himself and his father for not being able to have that growing up. otis can kinda pick up on this sometimes, pico doesnt know it but otis tries supporting him subtly, asking him to join in on things n such.

actually thinking about it now, in picos cousin 2, they all seem to move together. tbh it wouldnt suprise me at all if pico just slowwwly moves in with his cousin instead of returning home and being neglected. his father probably wouldnt even notice as long as hes getting benefits still.

almost completely unrelated- but pico has definitely plotted murder against his father- only in his head though, he would never act on it, as muchn as he hates his father its still his father. unless like.. he snapped or something. i mean the gun is right there.. hes familiar with how it works. or maybe he could rig the car to explode, hes seen darnell rig one before, it shouldnt be hard... but that would never happen right? right? righ- <- pico when he has intrusive thoughts about murdering his dad (hes only ever even mentioned this to darnell and nene)

[tashacee]

hi Tasha!! I have been a LONG-ASS-TIME fan. and i just have to say that i have just re-read every fic you have written in ONE DAY and WOW your writing is phenomenal it makes me want to chew through drywall. metal. glass even cronch cronch

AAGHHH THE SCENE WHERE LEDGE HAD TO SPILL THE TEA. ough you wouldnt have noticed how i had to just lie down and clutch my chest and dramatically let a single tear escape my eye OUGH

ALSO FOUR. rip. he got dragged into hell. it had to happen one day. four peoples worth of crime in one body is crazy work

imagine that one image of that little guy with the autistic eyes sitting casually in a room splattered with blood. thats me rn

anyway hiiii omg hello. im a big fan i loved your kitty cat wild series. that shit was great. i want to be like you when I grow up (i am 20). how do you feel about fanart btw. for no reason at all hahaha

also!! really love your sense of humour!! your fics always have scenes that have me cackling like some insane grandma its beautiful. gently caresses your face. your dialogue and how you show the chain communicating with each other in different ways and their lil jokes… its so cool and impressive….

give me your puter lemme blend it up and slurp it and maybe ill get sum of that talent too DAYUM. whoa who said that…

yeah uh. hi lol. sorry ahout this weird ass token of appreciation but I LOVE your fics and you are awesome also i want to make art for you bye

HI HI HI

Sorry I haven't replied to this sooner i've been keeping it in my ask box and hugging it on bad days because it warms my heart so much. Big hugs to you!

Also holy shit that's a lot of reading cronch cronch you are STRONG! I am so honoured that you liked my stuff and i just. Happy flappying. You are a gem and i love you.

Also you have now done several fanart so it's kinda a moot question but i love it and you and you are wonderful thank you for everything.

I'm glad you like my dumb humour! I am but a humble fool and I want to share my japes and hijinks with the world.

Listen i just. Thank you so much. Big hugs 2 u. Love u. THANK!

[momo-shut-the-fuck-up]

So i ve done the main story in infinity nikki and im gonna stop playin now, before i squeeze the game dry of content and have nothing (new) to do on release.

Time for a lil review/thoughts post

I m not gonna review every single mechanic in the game, simply things that stood out to me or that i wanna talk about. I also wont add more images, i kinda want ppl to see the world for themselves... i ll share more when the game comes out tho.

There s a lot of text under this. Tldr, i like the game i think it's a solid, enjoyable experience with a good gameplay loop, the story isn't for me, and i'll keep playin of course. And u should try it too if ur device wont blow itself up tryin to run it.

Dress up

The bread and butter of Nikki games... it's good as usual. Game doesn't shy away from long skirts or coat tails or complicated ballgowns just cuz nikki can run and jump and dash now and i'm very happy bout that. There's some clipping issues once in a while, but it's nothing major and the clothes we do have in the game are lovely. There s an evolution system for some of the sets, which makes em a diff color.... usually they can evolve once, but i saw Three extra evolutions for one of the UR sets and that scares me. Bcs to evolve them u have to craft the suit again. So u have to pull 4 copies of a suit to max it out..

Combat

Game's definitely succeeding in its quest for being cozy. There's no real stakes, combat isn't difficult in the slightest but i do welcome it- super simple but it's pretty fun regardless. The boss fights were surprisingly creative and fun for what they are, it's just unfortunate that you have to do them more than once or twice (crafting mats)- but they do change what the boss does so it's different depending on what mat u are farming for... and u can claim double or triple or however much stamina u got-le of the mat after u complete it once. So that s rly nice.

Exploration

I actually think it's really really good. Again this isn't a difficult or complicated game, not yet i guess... but with the major goal being "get new clothes" and "take pretty pictures maybe", the open world feels actively engaging to participate in. There's collectibles everywhere, little challenges you can do that are diverse but quick, styling battles, collecting everythin from animals fur to bugs to fish, and allll of this brings u closer to that never ending goal of woo more clothes.

However even if a challenge doesnt give you a blueprint, it's still just. Really Nice to exist in this world. It's very whimsical, as expected of Lilith, and the world has a combination of realism and cartoon artstyle that is just soso appealing to me. It's genuinely how i would've imagined miraland to look in 3d. Shame it's not the same miraland we know..

Story

Hmm... silly is one word i could use for it. Cute also. The story isn't doin anythin bad per se, and i did start skippin dialogue near the end w the pieceys because i want to keep at least Some part of the story for the game's release... but i get the gist of it, and it s just not my thing.

It feels like a story made for children, and it definitely would get a G rating. Easy and simple to follow, there's moments of tension or sadness sure but with the antagonist bein a literal babie lookin cutey fairy with a grown man's voice, or the creatures that i'm interacting with are a bunch of. Fuckin weird lookin big eyed balls of fabric that look closer to plushies than somethin Alive... it's all so silly and dramatic sometimes i can t help but cringe.

Part of it is a me problem, if u just open ur heart and free urself from the cringe the story is fine. It's just a little too kiddy for me and i so desperately hope it won't stay like this forever. My prayers might be answered though, there's a whole war beyond the borders and we have refugees around... shit's lookin bad for Umbrosa.

Other things i noticed that i liked:

The effect on nikki's skin when it's raining, she actually has water dripping down her face... its so cool

Momo capes are actually kinda neat ngl. Especially cuz the fucker follows u around everywhere, at least i can bedazzle him

Npc models look really good im a fan. They do suffer from "everyone is very beautiful" syndrome, which makes some of the npc villains look/sound ridiculous, but they have kid-teen-adult-elderly versions of models (i never see teen models in these games! Its cool!) And some body variation. The grandmas look so lovely i cry

The dark skin tone is really dark, and it looks quite nice and natural.

The lighting engine in this game is just rly good in general. God bless UE5

The edges of the map where there s forest, which u obv cant go thru, the forest is made to be darker, thicker.... i m a huge fan of this idk y. It's not just *invisible wall in front of an open field* nopee cant go there lets explore that area later tee hee. And it looks good to boot.

Camera function is p robust, has more options for changin brightness/saturation/contrast etc which i feel Shining Nikki lacks.

Some of the creature designs are so good man i looove themm <3.... the pieces are awful tho. Ok creature design is a hit and miss sometimes but the stray hatty? Peak. All the weirdy fashionable animals? Peak.

Bein able to quick switch thru ur saved sets while in the overworld is real neat

Oke that was it. Bye

[pixelatedbugs]

yay i can unmute deltarune spoilers! chapter 4 spolers below cut. this is a really long braindump ramble sorry

okay yeah that was. thats the best chapter so far. i love being wrong about everything EXCEPT FOR GERSON BABYYYY I KNEW HE WAS GONNA BE REVIVED IN THE DARK WORLD LETS GOOOOOO

also gerson. holy shit hes so fucking cool the boss was so cool It really got to me i would cry. GREEN SOUL UNDYNE LEITMOTIF AWESOME AS HELL. the dialogue about people the youth continuing rhe story themselves. how he’s genuinely an amazing teacher and THE LETTER HE LEFT FOR ALVIN…godd they want me dead. tobias you want to kill me

also susie holy shiit susie. first of all the susie award is literally the best award. i love how she was getting less and less confident in her healing until gerson helped teach her to practice and practice even when she’s frustrated and!! now it costs less tp!! because she practiced!! the justiceaxe!! we have! it!! and also susie’s dark world!!! susie’s reaction to gerson’s hammer… ARGH. and the prophecy she smashed It really is just. her thing to break rules

and ralsei oughejdjexbeifb the fact that he knows all of the prophecy and was feeling more and more stressed about keeping secrets and oh god i feel awful for him Can we please just have everyone in the fun gang happy. please. i feel like this also has to be part of why he was so. insistent on not having feelings. if he didnt feel anything towards them then he wouldn’t have to feel so. Stressed. Awful. about the prophecy or about what he knows. ralsei i am so sorry for ever being suspicious of you

ohhh and everyone knows the last part of the prophecy except us of course Buuut thats fine because i feel like i can guess. and if i knew i think i would die. we can break it though im sure. im sure. im sure we can break it withoit doing weird route its fine right???

also all of the enemy designs are really cool and I Cant keep beating around the bush WE FOUGHT A TITAN???? THE LAST PART OF THE PROPHECY IS? REALLY REALLY BAD??? RALSEI TALKING ABOUT THE “ONLY ONE ENDING THING????” i didn’t expect any of this shit (positive) Oh yeah also. the legend intro got all fucked up??? and im supposed to be normal?? oh yeah okay tobee fax.

also something about the two dark fountains..really fucked with me . the stone darkners in the original dark world all being unfrozen in susie’s…and vice versa… idk there’s just. something about that. is it what the creator of the fountain sees as most…idk integral? to the area? susie seemed to like the music a lot so is that why all the enemies were more themed around the music (the bells, the organ…) there was also the pen-sword enemy, maybe she was thinking about the letter…? of course, they’re all in the final dark world at the end so Fuck If I Know. my brain is fucked im still shocked at how good that chapter was. the fucking titan.

oh yeah and also its raining somewhere else played. and the soundtrack is called “the place where it rained.” yeah thats fine. im certain theres nothing wrong with that. nothing like deltarune sans. nope no way. oh yeah speaking of sans WHY IS HE BEFRIENDING OUR MOOOM. on one end soriel sweep but also anything kris does from now on is justified sans Get Out Of Our House

oh yeah i got so enthralled by the dark world i forgot about the whole start of the fuckin chapter SUSELLE IS SO CUTE THEY WERE SO CUTE. and our little soul ghost shenanigans were great Even if it was also terrifying. Kris has some sort of promise with carol right. If so. why does she know about the soul and the dark world and probably the prophecy im gonna freak it. also i hate her pleaaase let noelle be happy. please. also kris doing a little blush when susie grabbed their knife. and all the text about being next to susie feeling right Listen im a huge platonic krusie enjoyer and i still enjoy it more than romantic but. romantic kruise is really cute too and im really starting to see it. krusielle. it would be so cute. it would be really cute.

anyway Oh Yeah the Mike minigames!!! the three different mikes and then the joke about the theories (like they were a cowboy, cat, and microphone-head. those were like the main 3 theories about mike. i was a cat believer) and then them going like “well what if the theories are mike” and the conspiracy board. good shit. But what was up with the evil fucked up jpeg of a microphone I saw that

ummm i dont think. i can words anymore i have Lots of Thoughts but not the ability to write them out in a coherent and cool way. probably gonna do a weird route playthrough tomorrow maybe…? and maybe try to beat the knight..

oh yeah im still suspicious about ramb but. idk i just feel like we are done with them yet. but thats all my thoughts . hhhh. deltarune is really good