#this is literally just me complaining about shit. it’s petty whatever ->

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⊹・° ｡ㅤ BOYFRIEND VOX / LUCIFER / ALASTOR X FEM READER HEADCANONS ! — now i know alastor is aroace so i am once again making a post that acknowledges that as much as possible, meaning his headcanons can also be seen as platonic and his nsfw section doesn’t involve him engaging in the act of sex. i also made an aroace friendly headcanons post on alastor if you wanna check that out!

contains nsfw (+18) and it will be in a separate section <3 please credit me if you use these gifs!

mlist. request status.

VOX.

this man pampers the SHIT out of you and you cannot tell me otherwise. if you’re out walking in the streets of hell and you so much as look at a branded purse for a second longer than usual, it’s in your hands within the next five seconds. same goes for literally anything—clothes, shoes, sunglasses, books, anything you could want that isn’t a gadget, because he already gives you his latest models—only the finest for his girl.

he teleports to your phone screen whenever you ignore him, and you don’t tell him that you find it particularly endearing. the way he’s just so whiny for your attention that he’d act all petty and crash all your apps so you’re forced to look him in the face.

has the most funniest fucking pet names for you i just KNOW IT HAHA like think shrek’s prince charming. i just know that when you call him from a different room he’d definitely say shit like “just a second honey kisses!” like HAHAH I CAN’T GET THIS OUT OF MY HEAD

DEFINITELY loves having you sit on his lap while he works. i just know this man is a thigh grabber.

he loves when you dress in sweater vests, preferably in brighter colors but it’s cute when you use more muted colors as well.

relating back to my first point, this man loves taking you to extravagant AND I MEAN extravagant dates. i imagine one of them would be getting the both of you a literal floating table in the red skies of hell so you can see the entire pentagram from where you dine. he would have the food freshly delivered from the finest chefs he knows but he also seems like the type who would forget your favorite food, then demand that the food switched out with a snap of his fingers.

i’m judging this purely off of ‘stayed gone’ but he has a TON of terrible jokes up his sleeves, and they border on dad jokes at this point. you simply roll your eyes and kiss him for being so silly.

i just know this man comes home to you and WHINES. like, no matter what it is, he’ll always have something to complain about from work and you’re happy to listen to him bitch and moan about the smallest things ever. he also lays down on your lap and you to rub his shoulders and console him, whatever it is. you know he appreciates it because he usually always responds with something along the lines of “you’re right, baby, i do push myself too hard!” and you coo at him while continuing to console him further.

VOX NSFW !

i know he definitely gets irritated when someone interrupts his work but would be so into having sex on the job, and even loves ignoring calls from the vees for you. but of course doing it one too many times has its consequences, and he laughs nervously the one time he backs out. i can just imagine him going, “oh, haha, uh—sorry baby, i uh—listen i know we usually—it’s—FUCK um—just—just five minutes okay baby?”

i know this man’s hickeys feel like tiny zaps on your skin, and the marks reflect that instead of bruises

regarding the ‘sitting on his lap’ thing … you tried riding his thigh once and he DID NOT like that. seconds after you were sitting on his cock, crying his name from how he was just pumping into you mercilessly.

“still wanna tease me on my own fucking thigh, sweetie?” he clicks his tongue and grunts right after, his hands on your waist was enough to leave bruises.

that being said, he makes sure valentino never catches sight of you. the things you do to this man is beyond anything he could have thought and somehow, he feels uneasy at the fact that the way you have sex with him was DEFINITELY porn worthy and the thought of you being on camera in that way makes him want to wrap all of himself around you like a blanket to cover you from all of hell.

LUCIFER.

ironically, this man does NOT give you the world. instead, he gives you casual nights out turned into nights where you share all your secrets with him, and he tells you everything might not be okay now, or ever, but whatever it is, he’ll be right there with you. think going to your favorite diners, cruising and carpooling along the quieter side of hell, screaming at the top of your lungs. this man is all about authenticity. he wants the bond, not the experience.

that doesn’t mean he doesn’t spoil you every now and then—he definitely does research on the best bars in the ring and takes you out every month during your monthsaries and gets you at least 10 different gifts—half of which are little trinkets you and him picked up from your little adventures together.

unironically so fucking good at picking out jewelry for you. you don’t know how he does it, but every time you both visit a jewelry store, you always pick out necklaces and rings and he always comes to you with pieces that just look way more stunning on you. he always insists on being the one to slip the rings onto your fingers or chain the necklaces at the back of your neck, and he always flies up to do it.

he sometimes visits you as a bird and flies through your window. you like stroking his little cheek and it always causes him to transform suddenly which catches you off guard, and he uses this opportunity to kiss you.

he makes rubber duckies modeled after you!! all of them have different outfits from all the times you spend together.

forehead touches. so important for him, he does it so often and it’s nothing short of endearing.

this man COOKS and he COOKS WELL. every now and then when you both stay home he always whips up five-star restaurant grade steak for you, same goes for his carbonara, fish and chips, ramen, fried rice, stew—whatever it is, he loves making it with his own two hands and loves cooking for you.

lucifer makes his own clothes seeing as his hat has a gold snake and an apple on it which only really related to him, and he also has a unique circus vibe to his clothing. he made his clothes out of magic but after meeting you he wanted to get into sewing to make you something from scratch.

LUCIFER NSFW !

i absolutely agree with a lot of lucifer stans on him being a definite switch BUT i just know that if this man tops, he tops HARD. i mean, we’re talking about the angel who successfully seduced not just the FIRST WOMAN to ever exist, but the SECOND TOO. WHILE SHE WAS LOYAL TO ADAM. I FEEL LIKE THAT SPEAKS FOR ITSELF

he’d definitely do a multitude of things while trying out a few kinks to see just what kind of top flusters you. if you like service tops, he found out when he insisted on fingering you right after he’d brought you to orgasm with his tongue. dominant top? he found out when he crawled on top of you and said, “take it off for me, lovely.” all while leaving a trail of hickeys all from your jaw all the way down to your collarbone. the list goes on.

no matter if he tops or bottoms, this man begs, and its especially orgasm-worthy when he does it as a bottom. you’re riding him to your own climax and he’s close too and he goes, “ohhh god fuck please let me cum honey—let me cum please fuck! can i cum can i cum my love? i won’t until you say so oh fuck please baby—”

he knows when you’re pent up. apparently you give of a certain set of cues through body language only he sees and he’s observed it from you in all sorts of situations; going out with friends, sitting in bed with a book, tapping a pencil to your lip—it doesn’t matter what you’re doing. he can tell. and he never tells you how.

seeing as he usually has to fly up to kiss you on the lips, he takes every opportunity he has in bed just to kiss you. he could be going so damn rough on you that the neighbors can hear and he’d still be making out with you so damn hard.

definitely prides himself on cunnilingus. i know everyone mentions this because of the v he made to his lips but it just makes sense for him to do that if he’s good at it! he becomes a grunting, begging, whimpering mess when you suck him off but when he eats you out? you compare it to how restaurants have a signature dish—lucifer’s is whatever miracles he can perform with his tongue.

ALASTOR.

i think this is obvious because he literally hosts possibly the most famous radio broadcast in the entire ring, but this man has a way with words.

“to put it simply my dear, i just never thought the stars could walk on dirty streets, let alone ones that belong in hell,” he sighs with an almost dreamy tone to it as he rested chin on his knuckles, leaning closer to you from the other side of the table with his elbow propped up on it. “but it seems you’re living proof of that.”

you took that as his way of explaining his aromanticism and asexuality to you, even if he isn’t fully aware of those terms yet.

“how did a lovely thing like you end up with a gruesome animal such as myself?”

nonetheless, you and him are partners and he owns it, even if he’ll never admit that it is daunting for someone who has never felt this way about anyone else before. someone who has never liked anyone romantically before. he owns it because he doesn’t want the one person he’s ever loved to slip from his grasp. not when he was just so used to getting what he wants using his own bare hands.

seeing as he is aroace, he doesn’t kiss you directly on the lips but hugs you all the time and maybe kisses cheek-to-cheek.

he listens to your gossip and even arranges dates for you both to properly get together and just dish. he gossips back sometimes too, but not too much as he feels like that would be like treating you like the other friends he has. he’d rather spend this time he has with you focusing on, well, you, not other people’s foolish mistakes. but he sees how excited you are to tell him these things sometimes so, he listens still.

regularly slow dances with you, especially to old romantic songs the both of you like. it’s one of the rare times physical contact doesn’t feel foreign to him as he’s danced with many women, and he actually finds it endearing when you press your head on his chest. it shows that you feel safe around him, and that’s the best thing that could happen for him when you’re dating one of the most feared and powerful overlords in hell.

always does house chores with you even though he could use his powers to just speed up the process. something about cleaning up together just feels so intimate to him compared to physical touch.

ALASTOR NSFW !

he hates being touched, no question about that—but he also doesn’t like to see you pent up. he understands that everyone has their own desires, however filthy they might be—but your own are as good as sacred. you’re the one thing he treasures beyond all others and just as you can’t change the fact that he’s aroace, he can’t change the fact that you have needs.

so he comes up with something just for you; he asks if it would help if he talked you through it. praising or degrading you, whichever you prefer. telling you how much he misses having your hands on his, feeling you close to him. when he says this, he imagines you both dancing as you usually do, but of course, as you masturbate, you’re thinking of something else. this happens when he’s not in the room but he leaves his mic behind to act as a phone for the both of you.

“are you close, love? will you finish for me?” “y-yes …” “good girl.”

i imagine after a while of being with him, he would have seen you naked a few times on accident but he brushes it off well because there’s never anything sexual tied to it. so, when he is in the room while you get off, he’d use his powers to have a glowing green chain around your neck as he pulls your face closer to his.

“do you like it when i do this to you, hm? tell me just how much you relish being my good girl.”

[rems-writing]

Acknowledge me

》 Pairing: dancer!San x rival!reader

》 Trope: enemies to lovers

》 Wordcount: 4,381 words

》 Rating: pg-13

Nets: @mirohs-aurora-society @othersideoutlawsnetwork @illusionnet

“I’m telling you right now! There’s something about him that's so suspicious!” 

All your friends groaned in frustration as you kept complaining and talking shit about the new student that was in your dance class. At first, they joked along with you. However, they grew curious as to who this new kid was. One by one, they actually went up to him, talked with him, and got to know him a little better. 

Now they couldn’t stand the nasty words you would spit out. 

“Oh come on, girls! Don’t be like that! It was technically your fault to get involved with someone like him! He probably used his good looks or that stupid bodybuilder frame of his to ensnare you in his trap!”

“Y/N, please -”

“Whatever! I’m going to stretch. Don’t dilly dally now~”

As you walked off, some of your friends aimlessly followed you while the others looked towards his way and mouthed apologies to the new kid. Per usual, he smiled kindly at them and told them that it was ok in the most gentle voice possible. Their hearts ached upon seeing the sight. When the dance teacher came in, everyone got into their assigned spots. You rolled your eyes at the way the teacher greeted the new kid first before addressing everyone else. You used to be the favorite student.

Now it was all about him. 

Choi San this. Choi San that. Choi San everywhere. 

Choi motherfucking San!

You were baffled with the way he suddenly strolled in, greeted everyone, including you, with a warm smile and positive affirmations. Everytime he approached you, you would always make sure to give him the cold shoulder or short and dry answers in hopes that he would get the hint. When that didn’t work, you would openly talk shit about him. There have been times where his smile would falter and he’d grow tense around you, leaving you to be successful. But a few seconds later, that stupid smile would return and he’d pat your shoulder before saying something that infuriated you a lot. 

“I forgive you for your harsh words by the way. You must’ve had a bad day. I hope I can make it better! For now, I’m just glad you acknowledged me.”

That pissed you off to the maximum. And your friends never understood why you hated it. 

Today was no different. The dance instructor gave you the agenda for today and everyone took note of it mentally, including San. You resisted the urge to scoff as he kept nodding his stupid head in confirmation, indicating that he was listening intently and carefully. Then, the instructor surprised you. The surprise quickly turned into sadness and anger. 

“You guys will be paired up. I have the roster right here.”

As the instructor went down the list, you grew saddened that your friends were paired with one another. Then the anger sets in when you hear who you will be paired up with. 

“Y/N and Choi San.”

Hushed murmurs spread throughout the studio and your friends looked over at the both of you in concern. The concern turned into dread when you stood up and marched over to the dance instructor.

“Why him?! Anyone but him! I’m literally so much better than him! He probably doesn’t know how to balance himself with the way he’s built! He probably has two left feet! This has got to be a joke!”

Your friends, along with the rest of the class, internally winced, when the dance instructor narrowed his eyes at you angrily while San stood in the distance with a deflated stance and his head hung low. 

“You two are actually on the same level based on your skillset. And I am not doing this out of spite. I knew what I was doing when I paired you guys up. If you want to complain, you can take the fail score. But I have to warn you. It’ll tank your grade to the point where you might not pass. Do you seriously want to risk that in order to keep up your petty hatred for someone that’s clearly undeserving of it?”

“But he does deserve it -”

A heavy hand slams the clipboard onto the table behind the instructor and everyone flinches at the sound. Your confidence wavered when the instructor hovered over you with his tall stature. 

“Either you settle this feud or you never come back to this studio. I’m getting sick and tired of you constantly belittling him. What has he ever done to you? Hmm? This class is all about adaptation and teamwork. How has that become so difficult for you to process?”

You tried to give a reason yet no words came out. If you did have words, they were stuck in your throat. San saw you cowering under the instructor’s gaze and he felt bad for witnessing this. He walked up to the instructor and chuckled awkwardly as he stepped in between you two. 

“Professor Jeong, I’m sure we can work together smoothly! Perhaps we can just get to know each other a little bit before we do the actual partner assignment. I already have the song and actual choreo lined up and they both cater to her taste. So don’t you worry! We got this!”

Truth be told, San didn’t actually choose a song or make the actual choreo in his head. He only said that since it hurt him seeing you stand so cowardly under the instructor’s intense gaze. Professor Jeong took one look at San and sighed deeply before nodding in approval. 

“Seems to me like you have a set plan already. Ok. I’ll allow it.”

San sighed in relief while professor Jeong looked towards the rest of the class.

“Class is dismissed. The next time we meet up, you’ll just be focusing on the partner assignments until the tentative date. I have yet to choose it so be prepared when the time comes.”

Everyone nodded in agreement before proceeding to pack their things and leaving the intense and awkward atmosphere of the dance studio as fast as they could. Professor Jeong saw your deflated form zipping up your duffel bag and sighed quietly as he approached you.  

“Y/N, listen -”

“Go away, dad! Talk to your new son or whatever. I’m not going home tonight. I’m sleeping over at uncle Yeosang’s apartment. Don’t even bother texting me!”

Ouch

San winced internally as you picked up your duffel bag and left the studio quickly. Professor Jeong sighed shakily and placed his head in his hands. He suddenly felt guilty for coming in between the relationship between a father and daughter. He walked over to the instructor and sat next to him on the bench. 

“Is everything ok, Yunho?”

“Hmm? Yeah it is. She’s just being stubborn. She’ll come around. Don’t worry.”

San shook his head rapidly as Yunho answered quickly yet dejectedly. 

“I didn’t mean to ruin your relationship with her.”

“No,  you didn’t. If anything, it’s my fault. I already put so much pressure on her and now this happened. Maybe I should’ve put her as a solo exception.”

“But wouldn’t that create more pressure for her?”

A quiet grunt escaped Yunho’s throat and San sighed quietly. He patted Yunho’s shoulder and the kind smile returned to his face. 

“I promise to make sure that she passes. I’ll let her take control of everything. I won’t let you down!”

Yunho chuckled quietly at San’s determination and nodded slowly. 

“Thank you, San.”

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San checked the time. You weren’t here yet. Class already started even though most of the time was used to focus on the partner assignment. As he looked around at everyone else, he felt his spirit dampen a bit. You were never late for class. In fact, you would either be the first one to show up or you’d enter the studio on time. Your friends felt bad and decided to keep him company while he waited for you still. After another hour passed, you finally showed up. San saw you and smiled brightly before waving towards you. You rolled your eyes and scowled as you sluggishly approached him. You sat down and pulled your hood over your head to cover up the messy bedhead you were sporting. Your friends dispersed quickly and you tried so hard not to grow angry at their quick departure. 

Their fault for not seeing your vision and understanding you. 

“Come on. Let’s get this over with, Sam.”

“It’s actually San -”

“Did I ask?”

San huffed quietly at your rudeness before nodding and getting up. He offered a hand and you shook your head before getting up after him. 

“Your song choice better be good or else.”

“I’ve got you covered.”

You cringed at the way he sounded so chipper and resisted the urge to roll your eyes again. San took out his phone and played the song he chose. Much to your surprise, you liked it. One nod of approval from you and San’s spirits were lifted. 

“Ok. The song is actually pretty good. Now what are some ideas for the choreo?”

San had to think fast or else he’d most likely receive more rudeness on your end. Without thinking, he spoke out of his ass and did a random freestyle dance as the song played. He almost stumbled when he looked up to see you observing him with crossed arms and an unreadable expression. After he was done, he stopped to catch his breath. 

“Sorry. I could only come up with something for the main chorus and a partial verse.”

“It’s fine I guess. In fact, I think it’s good you started dancing with the main chorus playing in the background. That way, you already have a set idea on where to go from there. If you start with the verse or the bridge, you basically set yourself up to fail.”

Despite the monotonous tone you used to speak, San took note of everything you said. He nodded and restarted the song so you two could focus on the verses and the bridge. During the time that you two were building the choreo from the ground up, San couldn’t help but be fascinated with the way you spoke and taught the moves. In fact, he got so lost in your words that he didn’t notice you finished speaking until you snapped your fingers in his face. 

“Huh? What?”

“Ugh. Whatever. I’m not too surprised that you gaped at me like a fish with the way you’re just standing there stupidly. I bet you didn’t even listen to what I said.”

He did though. 

The more you spoke in that harsh tone, the more insecure he grew. He was trying so hard to remain patient with you that at this point, he wasn’t sure if he should keep going. He never knew that learning from someone he idolized would be this difficult. In addition, it still broke his heart knowing that you thought he had ulterior motives hidden beneath his kind words and gentleman-like actions. Your intense hatred towards him became overwhelming yet he pushed through. 

“Come on. It’s break time. You can give your pea-sized brain a break.”

Instead of nodding his head enthusiastically, San let out a quiet grunt and brushed past you so he could fetch some water. You were confused since he was usually outgoing yet you thought nothing of it and shrugged before going to a secluded corner and doing whatever you wanted. 

You were so over today. 

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A couple of weeks have passed and you finalized the choreo with San. Now you two were just practicing it so it can be ingrained into muscle memory. For someone with huge muscles, a wide back, and just an overall stature that belonged to a body builder, you were thoroughly impressed with the way San moved fluidly and had the perfect amount of body control throughout the rehearsal. As you sat down against the mirrored wall, you were looking over at San, who sat a respectable distance from you. 

It made your heart clench for some reason. 

In the times that you met up, you would constantly complain about how he was standing or sitting way too close to you unnecessarily straight to his face. You ignored the way San’s smile would fall every time you said that so when he started sitting away from you, you should’ve been happy. 

Why weren’t you happy with that? Instead, why did you grow sadder as the distance increased?

In addition, it weirded you out that he let you take control of everything. For sure you thought that he would take charge and order you around, but clearly, that wasn’t the case at all. He just followed you around, listened to you intently, and took your criticism well. 

Even if it was harsh. 

When your break was finished, you told San to get up so you could rehearse once more. He sprang up from his spot and ran over to you so he could get in position. 

“Five, six, seven, eight.”

You rehearsed your choreo flawlessly. There were no mistakes and you caught yourself looking up at San’s face. His facial expressions matched the song’s lyrics and you were fascinated with the watch he would contort his face to immerse himself in the song. You found it annoying at first and even voiced out that it was definitely too much. However, you took back your words when you realized how useful it is to have such expressions. Once the song was finished, you stayed in your ending positions for a few seconds before you pulled away. 

Or attempted to at least. 

San’s grip on your waist wasn’t too tight, but it was tight enough to keep you in place. You were growing annoyed and you were about to hit his chest and shout out at him to let you go when you froze in your spot. 

San leaned in and kissed you passionately. 

He cradled your face in his hands lovingly and his lips stayed attached to yours. Almost as if he was afraid to let you go if he pulled you away. Your hands grew clammy and you tried to shove him away but to no avail. You definitely didn’t kiss him back. Instead, you just stood still and let him kiss you until he pulled away. He connected his forehead with yours and he was breathing heavily. You caught a glimpse of a tear rolling down his face and you wanted to wipe it away so badly yet your arms remained at your side. When he spoke, it was in the shakiest voice you’ve ever heard from him. And it caused your hatred to wash away. 

“I’m sorry. I had no choice. I just… couldn’t take it anymore. My brain told me to be angry with you. To lose my cool whenever you spoke to me in such a degrading way. However, my heart told me that it would make things worse for us. I don’t know what prompted me to kiss you, but I knew that I needed to jump at this chance before I lost you forever."

“What do you mean…?” You asked him softly despite the confusion in his voice. San laughed humorlessly and looked up at you with more tears pouring from his eyes. 

“I fell in love with you. I idolized you from the very beginning. Whenever I would feel down about losing a taekwondo match or in general, I would always watch your dance videos. I was forced into early retirement from the sport after I tore a muscle in my calf and in my tricep. I had to go through surgery and a lot of physical therapy in order for me to keep functioning. Which explains why I would move stiffly in parts that were supposed to be fluid.”

Oh…

“When I enrolled in this dance class and found out that you were in it. I was excited! But then, that excitement died down as soon as you were rude to me. Every single time you talk down on me, I find myself regretting it.” 

“San…”

“I never meant to take your number one spot. I never meant to become the class favorite. I never meant to steal your friends. But most importantly…”

He kissed both of your cheeks slowly before continuing to speak. 

“I never meant to put a bigger strain on your relationship with your father.” 

Your eyes widened and the weight of the karma you were receiving was coming down on you. 

San letting you take charge was finally making sense. 

All he wanted…

Was to learn from you. 

And you ruined it. 

“San, listen…”

“No no. You don’t have to say anything. It’s my fault for always wanting you to acknowledge me with the same level of respect that I give you all the time. I should’ve known from the beginning that you would hate me, but I guess I was blinded by my excitement and infatuation with you.”

Great. Now you were on the verge of crying. 

“However, this doesn’t change the fact that I learned so much from you. After this partner assignment ends, we can go our separate ways. I won’t bother you anymore. All I ask is that you don’t be rude to anyone else please. I can take the pain. After all, I hate seeing you feel so down.” 

San pulled away fully and you wanted to protest at the loss of the warmth he provided, yet deep down, you didn’t deserve it. You watched him turn around and walk towards the corner where his bag was. Your brain and heart were fighting against each other. 

‘Don’t listen to him. He’s just acting to make you pity him.’

‘Ok but he wouldn’t tell you about his injuries if he wasn’t so humble and kind about everything.’

‘Oh please! He’s probably faking it.’

You couldn’t handle it anymore. You had to do something. As San walked past you, you ran up to him and hugged him from behind. San froze upon feeling your touch and somewhat relaxed into it. He saw your arms wrapped around his tapered waist and covered your hands with his ring-clad one. He felt a wetness on his back from your tears and he heard sniffles. Then, for the first time, he heard your voice. 

Not the abrasive voice mixed with rudeness. 

But a soft and heavily regretful one. 

“I don’t deserve your forgiveness, San. In fact, I don’t deserve any of the kindness you have given me. But believe me when I say that I am so utterly sorry for everything I’ve said and done to you out of the rudeness of my heart. You’ve been nothing but completely understanding towards me and your positive words have made a huge impact on me. And what did I do? Continue to be rude.”

San turned you around and looked at you with an unreadable expression. 

“I’m… glad you look up to me. I honestly didn’t expect that from someone like you. I’m sorry for holding such a huge prejudice towards you. You’ve worked hard to prove yourself and… you deserve that spot more than me. I’m betting it wasn’t easy for you. Being in a class full of dancers, knowing that you didn’t dance since the very beginning of your life. You had your own insecurities and I made them worse with my vile and venomous words.”

You looked up at him. 

“I understand if you want to quit. But I beg you. Don’t quit. Please. You have so much potential on the road ahead of you and I want you to discover that potential for yourself. And if you’ll allow me, I would love to teach you more things so you can rise to fame one day. If not, I get it. I’m clearly not the best person to be around so yeah.”

San had enough. 

He wrapped his big strong arms around you and you yelped quietly when he lifted you up and wrapped your legs around his waist so he could have a closer feel of you in this much needed hug. He buried his face in the crook of your neck while you sobbed on his shoulder. 

“Enough. That’s enough. Just… let me hold you please.”

He murmured deeply in your ear, voice thick with emotion and pain as he kissed the side of your head. 

“I forgive you…”

---------------------------------------------------

Today was the day of presentations for your partner assignments. Today was also the first day you felt nervous. After you and San left the studio yesterday, you cried in your room and even had your friends come over so you could apologize to them for mistreating San. You explained that you had a heart-to-heart with San during your rehearsal and that you felt guilty for being a horrible friend. You felt relieved when your friends forgave you and even comforted you when you refused to enter the dance studio. 

You haven’t faced your father since that day he announced that you and San were to be partnered up. 

Your friends reassured you that Yunho would forgive you once he sees how well you work with San. They even tried to encourage you to go first. But the pit in your stomach refused to let you agree with them and they relented. Instead, they continued to comfort you and even cooed at the sight of you going straight into San’s arms once you entered the studio. 

You no longer hated San, but pursuing something romantic with him was way out of the question.

And San understood that. He was content with being friends for now. 

One by one, each pair performed their piece and you applauded each pair. Being the extra person that you were, of course you cheered loudly for your friends when they performed their pieces. San admired your support for your friends and even cheered alongside you. Once they were done, you sprang up from your spot and congratulated them before sitting back down. Yunho announced the final pair to perform. 

You and San. 

The excitement you were feeling turned into dread and you grew anxious. You sat behind San, avoiding your dad’s gaze at all costs. 

You missed the way Yunho’s eyes flashed with pain when he saw you, his own daughter, hide behind San. 

Yunho was glad that you were able to become friendly with San, yet he wanted to cry at the way you wanted to crawl away from him whenever he threw a mere glance at you. San saw this and talked to you in a hushed manner. 

“Hey. You don’t have to face him. Just focus on me and your friends. Ok?”

You looked up at him and meekly nodded. San’s smile reached his eyes (you missed that smile so much), and you followed closely behind him before San nudged you so you could speak about the assignment. 

“Hi. Um… today we will be dancing to Unthinkable by Alicia Keys. I may have tweaked it, but San was the one that came up with the choreo on his own. So uh… I hope you enjoy it.”

You quickly got into your starting position and San mouthed how proud he was of you before the music started. 

Once you were done with the choreo, you and San stayed in your positions for a few more seconds before pulling away from each and bowing to the crowd. Immense cheers and positive shouts echoed throughout the studio. Your friends ran towards you two and gathered you both in a group hug while Yunho stood there with a proud grin on his face. 

“Alright everyone! Class is dismissed. Have a good day!”

Everyone gathered their things while you and San talked amongst your friends on how the choreo was made. The sound of Yunho’s dress shoes walking your way caused everyone to look at him. Your friends slowly backed away since you needed to talk to him. San was the only one that stayed behind. You were visibly shaking as you forced yourself to look up at the taller man. San whispered comforting words in your ear before lacing your fingers with his so he could hold your hand properly. 

“Um… hey, dad. I hoped you liked the performance. As I said, San came up with the choreo. I just tweaked it a bit. I don’t deserve all the credit so you can give him the grade -”

Yunho pulled you away from San and engulfed you in a hug. You felt a wetness on your shoulder and you realized that Yunho was crying. You awkwardly hugged him back, which only prompted him to hold you tighter. 

“I’m so sorry, sunshine. I didn’t mean what I said that day. I just couldn’t stand you being so mean. But I wasn’t any better. You have exceeded my expectations per usual, but that doesn’t make me any less proud of you. Please forgive your old man.” 

Your heart broke even more when Yunho looked at you and cradled your face in his huge hands. You properly hugged him back and sighed quietly. 

“You honestly hurt me that day. But it was deserved. I was malicious. I’m sorry, dad.”

Yunho shook his head and kissed your forehead before looking at you with puppy dog eyes. 

“Please, sunshine. Don’t say that. I know you didn’t mean them. I saw the way you looked at San when you danced together. I’m glad you pushed past your prejudice and became friends with him.” 

San felt his heart swell with adoration as he saw you two make up. He was glad he helped out and he couldn’t be happier. He walked up to you both and cleared his throat. 

“Not to interrupt this tender moment, but Y/N’s friends are waiting for both of us. We’re heading to the local diner to celebrate our success.”

Yunho smiled and chuckled quietly. 

“It’s ok. You two have fun. But no funny business between you two!”

“DAD!”

San laughed heartily before dragging you away so you could meet up with your friends. At the end of the day, he couldn’t help but feel elated when he realized that he won your respect. 

It’s all he ever wanted. 

[ox1-lovesick]

✶ ─── TXT REACTION TO YOU FORGETTING THEIR PET'S BIRTHDAY

pairing. txt x gn!reader genre. fluff and crack warnings. profanity (?) wc. 100-200 each

synopsis. you forget tubatu's pet's birthday, and they aren't very happy about that 😟

a/n. here she is, from the 15th of October 2022 😭 literal nonsense ahead I wrote this at 4 am on a school night. may odi rest in peace 😞❤️

✧ YEONJUN

yeonjun unfortunately has no pets so we're going to pretend like you forgot his nephew's birthday okay 💀

memory was never your strong suit, and you've only met his nephew a few times so he couldn't really blame you after all but he's still heartbroken 😞

it strikes a nerve because as his partner, yeonjun expects you to make his family a priority as he does yours

his nephew adores you, whenever he's on the phone with his cousin he always yanks the phone away and asks to speak to you or asks about you if you're not there

and when you are there he'll chat away with you for hours at a time, telling you about the new dinosaur figurine he got or whatever shenanigans his favourite hey tayo character is up to

so when you go about your day acting like his nephews birthday party was not later that night his heart just 💔

"anything special you were supposed to do today? 🤨 y'know maybe you had somewhere to go or someone to see, maybe something special is happening 🤨"

was he upset with you ? if so why ?? should you go talk to him ??? will that make things worse ????

has you googling HIS birthday every 5 seconds to make sure you didn't forget it

bro's so butthurt 😭

does a little fashion show for you to help him choose an outfit for later

takes your mind off the whole thing for a while because you're just having fun styling him

you decide on an outfit you both like and get all his accessories in order and he's like "cool, what are you wearing to match?"

huh 🧍

"today's my nephew's birthday silly don't tell me you forgot 🤨🤨" and he absolutely knows you forgot he just wants to be spiteful

he feels a bit guilty after seeing the way you panic, but in back of his head... deserved

you feel really sad because you know how much his nephew loves you 🙁 it just completely slipped your mind somehow

so he decides to put his pettiness aside and tell you to get changed quickly so you can both be there on time and hopefully make a pitstop on the way to get a present

and happy nephew = happy junnie. and happy junnie = happy you, so happily ever after

and although you arrive a little late—his nephew is beyond ecstatic to see you and yeonjun, maybe

✧ SOOBIN

firstly, how DARE you forget the 4th gen it pet's birthday???

secondly, soobin is so so petty about it

even more than yeonjun probably

yes he knows odi is an animal and probably doesn't give a shit whether you're there or not, but you know who is a human with feelings and does give very many shits? soobin.

after you've both decided to raise him as your own? after all the family photoshoots? after soobin odi wrote that card for you on parents day telling you how happy he was to have you? how could you forget your own son's birthday??

he's livid

talks about odi the entire day, shows you a gazillion pictures of him doing random things and constantly redirects any conversation you have to back odi

"there's a fire in the kitchen" "okay, but didn't odi look so cute today?"

if you don't catch on after a while he'll be even more upset 😭

cue the silent treatment

you have to remember on your own, it's not special anymore if he tells you

locks himself in his room to celebrate with odi while complaining very loudly

"why am I the only one here? well odi, I'm the only who cares enough to remember your birthday"

every few minutes he randomly laughs at the top of his lungs as if odi told him the most stomach grabbing, knee slapping, air gasping joke in existence

gets sick of it eventually and just tells you to join him because as much as he loves odi he can't keep pretending to have conversations with him 😭

you make odi a paper mache birthday hat as an apology and all is forgiven

✧ BEOMGYU

poor gyu had a vision of how this day would go

he was ecstatic when you told him you too the day off on toto's birthday a weak prior

the two of you would head to daegu on a bus and share earphones and listen to the playlist he made and you and his family would celebrate toto's birthday together and the day would be full of rainbows of and glitter

why are you not sticking to the script and taking on a shift for your co-worker instead of celebrating your son's birthday

you will be receiving an earful from both him and toto

teaches toto how to swear so he can yell at you too

it's already a crime you didn't get him any gifts ontop of it you just forgot it was his birthday as a whole? the audacity

will take you to court to file for a divorce and claim full custody of toto

jokes aside i feel like of them all he'd be the most upset about this

it's not just about you forgetting toto's birthday, it's about you promising you'd be there just to forget and bail last minute

it wouldn't hurt him too much but he's still sad your forgot because toto means so much to him

i feel like at first he'd get in his head about it, wondering if maybe you did remember but just don't care or didn't want to go with him in the first place

which will make him more upset 😭

will definitely complain to toto

eventually he'll realise it's silly to make those assumptions and calm down but don't expect him to forgive you

silent treatment pt 2

you're so confused about why he refuses to talk to you until his mom sends you the pictures they took that day with toto

you are screwed ❤️

you will NEVER live this down

buy him iu albums for his lp player and he's all over you again, but he won't forget to mention it every birthday toto has in the future

✧ TAEHYUN

he doesn't want to tell you it's hobak's birthday and make you feel bad but at the same he wants to tell you it's hobak's birthday and make you feel bad

being a sadist and an opportunist is a dangerous combo

he is a bit sad you forgot hobak's birthday but we live, we love, we lie 🤥

probably one of those pet owners who go out of their way to throw their pet a birthday party and bake them a cake and everything

he understands it probably just slipped your mind and it isn't that deep to him, he just wants to tease you because it's funny

so he's making a cake out of fish heads for hobak as you watch in horror

goes on about how fish bones are actually really good for your digestive system and you're just nodding along trying to figure out how you're going to order other food without him noticing

"...what are you making babe?" "dinner"

expects you to realise what's actually happening when he starts grinding cat treats for a crumble but at that point you're just too scared to question what's happening

and it is hilarious to him 😭

tries to feed you some every now and then and puts all his child actor skills into not laughing

"but you're my taste tester babe how else will I know of everyone else will like it?" 😞😞

you can feel your heart in your ass when he says that because no way he's planning to feed his monstrosity to other people too???

he drags you along to his parents' house and you don't even want to look at the food table because he's convinced you everyone will be enjoying a pedigree tiramisu

you wonder if it's too late to break up with him and save yourself

thankfully his sister informs you that taehyun is pulling your leg and the cake is for hobak

you don't even care anymore you're just glad to not be eating cat food for dinner

✧ HEUNINGKAI

honestly forgot his rock's birthday himself

both of you are just blissfully unaware it's been a year since Huening Lionel Mbappe has graced you with its presence

he collects dust on Kai's windowsill as you both go about your day 😭

it's like one of those toys you're fascinated with for a day and then it rots and decomposes in your cupboard for the rest of eternity

the both of you wake up with this feeling of impending doom thinking that you forgot something really important, but can't put your finger on it

so to try and figure it out you both do everything you've been putting off for a while

it's the most productive either of you have been in years

assignments? submitted. lyrics? written. laundry that's been laying on the floor since 2018? washed, dried, packed and folded

gets praise from all the staff and members because they think he's finally taking those new years resolutions seriously

january was almost a year ago but it's never too late to start !!

you get a shit ton of chores done but something still feels off

the both of you are just going mad lol

eventually you admit defeat and decide whatever it is, you will hope it wasn't important and deal with it when the time comes

you're both watching jjk when taehyun comes in with a cupcake ready to sing to the birthday rock and you feel so stupid ❤️

he's genuinely upset you both forgot the rock's birthday

the fact taehyun remembered just adds salt to his wounds 😭

so you split the cupcake on behalf of Huening Lionel Mbappe and call it a day

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[luescris]

Okay. *inhales and claps hands together* I just got done finally catching up on things. Spoilers under the cut. :)

my thoughts. Are ALL over the place right now. I have words do describe how absolutely gobsmacked I am, but don't have a planned way to put everything so bare with me. So with that said.

*jumping up and down on my chair* dragons dragons dragons dragons dragons dragons dragons dragons dragons dragons

So many things about dragons holy shit you guys holy shit. Can I say how absolutely GORGEOUS the two teacher dragon designs are like on god?? I forget their names but the purple one is so freaking gorgeous and the black one. Is so complicated.

Like in general everything about this season just absolutely screams to me anime like. dude??? When they showed the Five in their prison thing??? That was some freaking anime shit right there. Literally had like flashbacks to that one dangerous group in Naruto that had nine people in it but this was five but s t i l l

There were so many shots where I wanted to take screenshots because oh my god they were so pretty but Netflix doesn't allow that (fuck Netflix for that personally) but dude the Fighting too?? The animation and lighting and lore and story building and ho ug h/pos

Also holy shit I'm so glad that Jay isn't being portrayed as hiding from the others so he doesn't have to do his job like I feared he genuinely forgot and that's so sad because Nya misses the love of her life (SHE ACTIVELY CALLS HIM THAT TOO AAAAA) and the fact that Lloyd got panic attacks??? And those visions??? And holy shit Kai???????

The amount of dragon lore we are FINALLY getting is so much and so sudden it's hurting my brain but I am not at all complaining right now this was the level of story telling that I absolutely adore it's so full of stuff and it's a goddamned lego show. Is it just me or did they seriously up the anti after Monkie Kid cuz you guys I can't I just can't/pos

Never expected Bonzel to be important but I'm not complaining. Cole has a boyfriend finally. The fucking. Council of the Source Dragons or whatever hovering over Lloyd like that oh man oh boy

And the reveal that Roz (Rahz??) and his "master" is only doing this just for some kinda tournament they keep loosing against the Source Dragons?? Talk about a whole new level of petty what the hell dawg that's. Kind of a little hilarious even ngl

Dude I can't wait for more I literally can't wait I'm vibrating so hard right now and still have endless questions this could go anywhere

I was legit glued to the screen the entire time I was watching like on the edge of my seat the whole time, I thought things would get worse or something but it was just all so intense

And also where the hell is Wu is he actually dead this time??? Is that his ghost????? And where in the world is Pixal??? Zane misses his gf :(((

[aclowntiny]

Hii! First of all, congrats con 600 followers, you deserve that and so many more, I'm literally in love with your work :) I was wondering if I could request a San scenario with the following prompts (from the lists you reblogged):

“Urgh, why do you always insist on doing nice things for me?” “Because I enjoy it.”

“Can’t you just accept when people do nice things for you?” “No, I can’t.”

“The only reason why I’m letting you get away with shit like this is because I like you, you dense fucking cabbage.”

I was thinking kind of best friend au, but they both have feelings for eachother, BUT, they're both in denial about it. You can decide how the rest goes, thank you so muh in advance!! ~

yELLS thanks sweetheart 🥲 in love with my work whAT 🥹💕 thank you for being here with me! I love this request so here is your SAN-ario 😄 ps: look up the definition of mon petit chou I dare you

Mon Petit Chou- Best Friend!San x Gender Neutral!Reader

Word Count: 2282 | Best Friends to Lovers | Warnings: language, mention of drinking but no actual drinking lol, slightly suggestive?

You weren’t sure when the fuck this all started, just that you hated it with the burning passion of a thousand suns.

Your life had been peaceful, safe, mundane even, and so help you if you’d ever complained about it you were going to invent time travel just to go back and smack yourself one in the face for it.

Somehow, against all common sense, bro or whatever codes, and hope of joy you’d developed feelings for your best friend. The two of you had known each other for the past four years, meeting in your final year of high school at the dance of all places. Neither of you dated then, so you were there in a state others perceived as ‘alone’, each of you seeing it as with friends, with the while school, and leaping into the fray of energetic dancing. And that was how you ended up doing the cupid shuffle together and, for some reason, the old YMCA routine. You’d shook and jumped to Taylor Swift’s Shake it Off and the legendary Amor Fati by Kim Yeonja, all the simultaneously memed and beloved songs you could dream of. Some people assumed you were a couple and you two burst out laughing as you told them you’d literally just met. Like, you exchanged names after they said that.

San was easy to talk to, especially after seeing each other in sweaty teenage abandon first. He was no pressure, no butterflies- until now, for some forsaken reason, when your heart had decided to abandon all reason and beat like a mother when San pulled you into a hug or smiled that dimpled smile you’d looked at countless times- why was it special now?

Sure, you’d always acknowledged he was good-looking, but in the way people talked about celebrities outside their preferred gender- just acknowledgement, nothing deeper. But suddenly you found your brain rushing out from under you like a yanked rug, wondering what his lips would feel like against yours.

And dammit, you were dead-set on never finding out.

Making a move at that point would be platonic suicide, torpedoing the best friendship you’d ever had, and frankly you’d lost too many with age, time, distance, drama to do it again. And not with San. Even if it was like life’s Master Ball and you only got one forever friendship, it was going to be San. You’d already aimed and pitched, and no petty, new, frustrating as all get-out feelings were going to knock that off course.

If only San got the memo too.

Maybe it was simply a matter of increased awareness thanks to your nascent problem, but it was like he’d grabbed the knob full force and dialed all the charm and sweetness to eleven, sensing your pulse skyrocketing for a thousand tiny reasons you wanted to shoot down like clay pigeons.

It was chilly the other afternoon? Here, take his jacket. You forgot your sunglasses? Did you want his? What ring size were you? Here, compare to his- go on, just see if it fits. And by jove, you will never carry a single remotely heavy object again if Choi San can help it.

“Why do you always insist on doing nice things for me?” You groaned, head rolling to fix your best friend with a look.

“Because I enjoy it,” he replied simply, contentedly, the most plaintive of smiles on his face as he tilted his own head down for a brief respite on your shoulder.

Curse him and his adorable love of affection. “Well, ah, what can I do for you?” You spluttered, indignant at no one but yourself.

“It doesn’t have to be a transaction. I know you’ve had people around you make it seem like it is, but you don’t have to repay me. I know you’d help me if I needed it, too.”

Biting back a response about you surprisingly not actually needing him to carry your shopping bags, you just sighed and thanked him, shuffling along the mall tile with slightly less relish. He’d always been like this- selfless, kind, loving, and you’d always loved those things about him.

So when he sat you down at the food court, gingerly resting your bags on the shiny public-eatery metal seat adjacent to yours as he scooted yours back, what else could you do but smile and thank him? San asked you what you wanted for lunch, and you told him you didn't mind, to which he shot back that he didn't either. Then you told him to pick, and he told you to pick, and you both bickered playfully back and forth until you got tacos.

Ugh, just like an old married couple.

~

"Can't you just accept when people do nice things for you?"

"No," you crossed your arms in mostly-mock-obstinance, "no, I cannot."

"I swear, you'd make me pay you back if I bought you a candy bar," San rolled his eyes playfully, fixing you with a fond smile.

Because if you're always paying for me when we go out, you wanted to say, I can pretend it's a date. I can get it in my fat fucking head what it would be like to have you as my boyfriend and never get it back out.

"Money is designed to be exchanged for goods and services," you actually said.

"This isn't a service," he replied, putting an arm you didn't care was sticky with sweat around your shoulders, extending the water bottle toward your hand, "it's me caring about you."

Hot from exertion as you were, you instantly melted under the warmth of his half-embrace, accepting the water bottle. "And you know I appreciate it. I'm just not used to getting cared for."

"Then I'm not doing my job!" Your best friend exclaimed, eyes glinting. "I'm always going to be here to take care of you, so get used to it!"

"I think I started figuring that out when you brought three different blankets and a plushie the first time I watched a movie with you," you told him with a teasing smile.

San's smile fell almost into introspection, getting a bit more serious, which you didn't expect. "You joke, but I mean it, (y/n)."

Almost against your will, your head nodded solemnly, though your own smile couldn't fade, in fact it widened dumbly as a side effect of your hammering heart. "I hope so."

And then, as if he hadn't said something so infuriatingly sweet, San patted your shoulder, stood up from his squatted position, and took your water-bottle-free hand in his, pulling you up, too. You could have sworn he gave your hand a squeeze, but it was so brief, maybe you imagined it.

"Alright, so are we dancing or what?"

~

Sometimes you wished you guys drank more. That you could hit the edge of blackout and do something you'd barely remember, nor regret, and butt so hard against the line it finally broke and reformed in less questionable territory. That some alien substance in your veins could be blamed for anything dubbed unthinkable, and you'd have already rehearsed any laughter necessary if San wanted to make middle-school ew, gross jokes as if your lips transmitted cooties.

But San was a lightweight, and neither of you enjoyed that scene. The two of you were more the types to get coffee twice in a ay and laugh too hard at stupid things like the word guava on a caffeine buzz.

"We're fun enough even without alcohol," San often joked to you.

So the drama-flick drunk confession, intoxicated makeout, was out. Best not to duplicitously offer a drink in exchange for-

"(y/n)? I think it's all done," San's voice cut through your mental spiral.

You almost had to shake your head out of it, vision having faded to a zoned-out blur, obscuring even the shape of his wide, tank-topped shoulders as he had bent over your car.

Now he was at your side, wiping his hands on a cloth like some sort of professional mechanic, not just your best friend who insisted you didn't need to pay someone like that just for an oil filter and a change. A change which had cost him the dove grey of his garment, something you could hardly help asking why he'd wear such a light color of for that.

"San, your top, it's all stained!"

As he tossed the rag aside, he tilted his head down, bobbing it in recognition of the black smudge marks. "Well, at least it wasn't expensive."

"I think I know how to get it out if you want. You could always go get a new-"

Before you could even finish your sentence, he was stripping, yanking the top off from the bottom hem and leaning against the knob of your garage door. Despite the clear invitation to go inside and, you know, do exactly what you just said you were going to do, surprised crossed your (very warm) face, effectively sealing you to the concrete floor. The only process your brain could perform in that moment was trying to figure out if you had the world's best or worst luck.

"Oh, uh-" Trying not to stare, your eyes very pointedly searched San's face.

Your best friend frowned slightly, expression halfway to the innocence you were used to, and somehow that almost made it worse. "What?"

"Just," you hesitated as you accepted his now inside-out tank top, skin-warmed fabric heating your hands, too, which you glanced down at beneath San's intent gaze, "didn't expect you to be this comfortable is all."

San crossed his arms, face falling first in shock, then shaping up into almost dark amusement as a different, more incredulous smile rose to his sharp features. "Are you kidding me?"

Oh, no. You made it weird. This was it. Or maybe he just thought you were doubting his friendship, which he shouldn't. Everyone knew unironically doing the YMCA bonded people for life. Or sharing blankets. Or...ah, crap. Not now. "No, it's great, I'm really glad you trust me. I trust you, too, you know. Maybe I don't show that enough, but that's why you know so much about me, and I really appreciate you-" Your rant suddenly fell short as your eyes betrayed you, drifting down slightly and absolutely ramming your train of thought into a wreck. "You know, always being there for me and being so thoughtful and pretty much being my favorite person ever-"

“The only reason why I’m letting you get away with shit like this, with seeing me like this," he motioned over his, well, quite fit torso, "is because I like you, you dense fucking cabbage.” The moment the words left San, his face fell into his hand, out of frustration or embarrassment it was hard to say. Probably more the latter, knowing how sweet your best friend was. He didn't use strong language...well, almost ever.

Train wreck take two. Not a single word rose to your mind, only sensations, for a solid three seconds, during which all you could do was stand there wide-eyed, venture a step towards San, two steps. Finally you spoke, feeling like an idiotic teen sitcom character as your dumb response left your lips. "You like me?"

"Yes," San sighed, posture deflating a bit against the doorframe, "I'm sorry. Sorry for the language, and just...I hadn't really planned on how I was going to say it, but it definitely wasn't like that. You deserve way better than that. I just... sometimes I feel like you like me back, but then I wonder if you're pushing me away. And you have every right to do that, especially if I've messed up our friendship, I can just-"

You cut him off, harnessing the motion of his lips for greater purpose against yours. San responded instantly to the kiss, hands cupping your face and pulling it deeper into his like you were air and he'd spent his whole life underwater. Your arms wrapped around those broad, bare shoulders, hands resting at the back of his neck.

"Wait, you like me?" Ok, you felt better about how dumb you seemed, as those were San's first words out of the kiss.

"Yes, you, what was it? Ah, yes. 'Dense fucking cabbage'," you quoted back at him with a merciless grin, arms tightening their grip ever so slightly.

"Oh, no," he winced, "that's going to stick forever, isn't it?"

"Yep," you breathed, leaning in for another kiss, the feeling of San's lips a hundred percent better than you could ever have imagined, so much warmer and realer and this time sweeter, sliding against yours like he was coaxing it out of you.

This time, upon pulling away you gave the side of his face a light, playful slap, enjoying the touch of his sculpted features against your palm.

"You're stuck with me now, mon petit chou."

San shook his head at the return of your devious grin, and you reveled in the blend of utter bliss and what did I get myself into painting his face as his hands snaked around your waist, twirling you in a little impromptu dance and dipping you down.

He smiled lovingly this time, sending your beating heart melting and surprise turning to joy across your own face. "As long as you keep being you and you'll let me do nice things for you now- no, scratch that, spoil you."

Keep being you. Holy shit, what a balm for the soul.

Cocking a brow, you shot back, "You spoil me and I embarrass you? Hardly sounds fair."

"All's fair in love and war," San responded, eyelashes fluttering.

You most definitely forgot to wash his top after that.

[fantasticalleigh]

thoughts on bridgerton season 3 part 2

MASSIVE spoilers ahead, i'm really annoyed so this is going to come out very salty!

TLDR: this season was largely a disappointment. part 1 is better than part 2.

-i've said it before and i'll say it again: this is an ensemble show that ultimately suffers for how large its cast is, how short each season is, how cheap netflix is, and how poor the writing is. the actors are great and do well with what they're given. the stories in and of themselves are largely compelling. but they need space and time to be told properly. eight episodes between 10+ characters is not enough.

-unhinged/in love colin from the books was sorely missed. the book is problematic yadda yadda but i prefer it at this point. instead for pretty much three out of four episodes in part two, he was just angry or sad and that was it. he felt so flat.

-i find it hilarious that debling just fucked off after rejecting penelope. he didn't even stick around to try and court cressida, who was clearly more than willing to take penelope's place?? he literally could have solved all her problems and that could have saved an incredible amount of screen time that should have gone to Colin/Penelope.

-i love the way they bridged portia and penelope's relationship. also to a lesser degree, her sisters. prudence not being so cunty anymore was nice but felt a little off, i think she needed more screentime with pen to show that she finally realizes what a bad sister she was and that she's genuinely sorry. one quick little comment "i was being honest" (or whatever it was) to me, didn't feel like enough. but i'm still glad they came around.

-violet/marcus and by extension, agatha. i'm glad violet and agatha finally had a heart to heart/ conversation that was about them and not the young people. when they affirmed that they were there for each other no matter what and used each other's given names? precious. i teared up. i love their friendship. (also don't come at me for what may have happened during Queen Charlotte bc i never finished it lol)

-the queen is probably my least favorite character. she used to have funny/kind moments but now it feels like she is just rude and dismissive and mean towards everyone. i can't even like her in a GirlBoss way because all we see from season to season is how other people manipulate her. Agatha manipulates her. Grimsby manipulates her. Lady Whistledown manipulates her. she was kind for francesca for a couple of days and then went sour when she realized francesca chose someone else. i get that she's jaded from season 2 but idk i don't enjoy her scenes at all anymore. she crashes the wedding breakfast to accuse the bridgertons, belittles the Mondriches ball at the start, complains/belittles all the debutants trying to impress her, doesn't care about the events being hosted in her honor. i loved her in seasons 1-2 but now she's just boring and one note.

-eloise finally admitted she was reckless/in the wrong about the Theo situation. that was nice. and she finally admitted befriending cressida was a poor choice. do i sense character growth at last?? but i'm still a little unhappy about how rudely she ditched Cressida once she and Penelope made up. Hey, this new friend of yours is distraught because of her shit home life and is about to be married off to some old, austere codger and you literally don't care? i genuinely felt so bad for cressida. she is a creature pushed into a corner lashing out for any way to escape and nobody (understandably, bc she makes bad choices) wants to help her. but eloise keeps saying that cress surprised her with how she was the only one to show her kindness when she was a social outcast and now the same is happening to Cressida and yet instead of repaying the favor, Eloise abandons her.

Eloise even goes so far to say that Cressida used her. Did she not also use Cressida? She admitted she befriended her to be petty towards Penelope. And she clearly stuck with Cressida out of boredom/reluctance to mingle with the other ladies their age because she found them beneath her. Eloise is still a hypocrite. I thought she'd taken a step forward but she's in the same place.

did cressida deserve help? not particularly considering the blackmail/fake identity, history of bullying. but does she also deserve to be married off like that and cut off like that by her asshole dad? also no.

with all that talk about running away i genuinely was rooting for C to run away, but i'm disappointed it didn't happen. i guess it makes sense within her character--she's always been a caged creature--i don't think running away ever came to mind, even if she didn't want to be shipped off to Wales with her aunt. she's strong but doesn't (yet) have the resolve/ferocity of someone like marina who was willing to run away with colin to elope in gretna green.

frankly i found cressida's story the most compelling in season 3 so far.

-benedict. if i have to watch ONE more sex scene for Ben i'm going to scream. wowwee, he had another threesome! and no more queerbaiting--he finally had sex with a man! <--that part is at least noteworthy for his character--but genuinely--i don't really care when his only storyline this season is that all he does is have sex. there are far more compelling stories needing attention right now and yet we get another freaking sex barrage with benedict. Colin and Penelope were robbed here and i don't think it's unreasonable to be annoyed that a B-tier ensemble character got more sexy time than them. and for what purpose? all we get out of ben's enlightenment is that it's ok to be gay and that he's not ready for serious commitment. which is fine and dandy except that that was already drilled into our heads since season 1. i feel like my time was wasted here because i already watched him do the same damn things over and over for THREE SEASONS by now.

AND FOR THAT MATTER:

if they really wanted to show any sense of growth for benedict they could have had him be brutally honest to Tilley and say something like:

"I'm having fun with our arrangement. I am open to seriously committing to someone someday...but I don't think you are that person."

what a world of a difference that would make, wouldn't it? it would show he's coming closer to being ready to meet Sophie but that he's still not quite ready to give up his old ways. i truly believe his season is next and frankly it wouldn't feel so insulting to watch his repetitive storyline if they had written better dialogue in that ONE scene.

(Jess + Shonda, I'm available any time if you want to talk.)

-T.S's You Belong with Me playing during a fucking wedding scene was a choice. All the options in the world and you pick a song about high school jealousy??? Babydoll I could pick five better options off my general playlist. across all three seasons, there's been so many bad cover choices imo.

-Coldplay's Yellow being Polin's song was an actual choice I will salute. Beautiful moment.

-the whole whistledown speech at the end where pen reveals herself was extremely flat to me and left me so bloody disappointed. someone brought this up on reddit and i agree so hard it hurts--why wasn't colin up there by her side? book colin would have VAULTED up over everyone just to be there with her and protect her. instead we get mopey Colin watching her from below. i need to rewatch it again but it felt like there was hardly any reaction from the ton to her speech. it felt like they shrugged their shoulders when she was finished and resumed the ball. my mouth was agape at that--you're telling me not one of the attendees would have rushed up and said "omg it was you??" "how did you do it?" "i can't believe it!" or something to that effect. the bridgertons already had that reaction so it would've been effective for literally anyone in the ton to show some amazement.

-ngl, i also feel quite cheated that Penelope was never celebrated in the way she deserved. yes, she got her wedding and the man she always wanted--but creating/maintaining the Whistledown enterprise is a huge accomplishment. individually there was praise from those closest to her but really there was such a huge element of shame and punishment surrounding it that really bothered me. yeah, she said some mean things but she did it because she was severely neglected/ostracized from her own community. there was no acknowledgment of that at all (that i can recall. once again i should do a rewatch but whatever) and that pains/angers me. not one person beside her mother took a moment to think or say, 'i treated you badly and caused you pain. i'm sorry.' instead they just focused on making penelope apologize again and again when she had only reacted from years of pain, which nobody even deigned to acknowledge.

wasn't there a moment in the book when she gets some applause after her revelation? am i misremembering? but in the show it was like nobody gave a fuck because ooh butterflies! which was...so stupid lol. bless you though, phillippa. penelope single-handedly contributed to the entertainment of the ton for years and exposed awful people even if she made fun of others. characters frequently and often complained if her issue was one day late and debated her true identity and so when she finally reveals herself there's no applause? no true reaction? were they all asleep? what the fuck? that scene was shocking at how badly executed it was. it was rushed and it showed.

-also, WHY choose to have Colin learn Penelope is Lady Whistledown in episode six? I hate this because it crams all the drama in the last two episodes and makes everything feel rushed and frantic. he should have found out in episode three or four and i'll die on that hill. for that matter, his refusal to understand that Whistledown was Penelope's life's work and greatest achievement/power was so annoying. In the book he came around to it pretty fast and yet here it dragged on for way too long. everyone wanted her to give Whistledown up until it benefited them.

-editing to add a huge gripe i have with post-production:

for the love of god, go easy on the filters. the artificial blues and yellows are killing me. in twilight, it was camp. it was great. it does not translate well here. also, have y'all noticed how HEAVILY they blur the backgrounds??? there was one scene with colin and penelope in the garden and every time the camera focuses on one of their faces from over the other's shoulder (they were both seated) the background is blurred heavily. it looks bad!!! stop doing that!!! the backgrounds lend to the vibe! it genuinely makes the show look like crap when i notice that happening. it makes them look like they're using the green screen filter on tik tok. STOP. IT.

(seriously, imagine Joe Wright's Pride and Prejudice, the scene where Elizabeth is on the rocky plains and or she and her aunt and uncle are sitting at the base of that enormous tree--all that gorgeous scenery, remember that? now slap the Bridgerton filter over it so it's all one massive ugly blur. does that mental image fill you with rage? GOOD.)

-i didn't cover this in the prev. post but in part 1, the whole runaway balloon scene was Not Good. Why a balloon? the danger that poses is not that great--why not a runaway horse? there was too much sense of danger to the actual threat posed by a freaking basket. also the way penelope acted in that scene felt very very out of character for her and i hate rewatching it, even if colin looks very dashing while holding the rope. ugh.

-polin's main sex scene was beautiful. i feel kind of disappointed that everything else we got was less than a minute long and not in a weird way. it just feels a fair amount of the promo we got from Nic and Luke was hinting at the sex scenes and yet we got very little in actuality. i keep seeing people talk about there being a minutes long montage of them and yet it got cut. but in season one we got a LOT (imo too many sex scenes between daphne and simon). there were too many side stories happening this season and i'm sure that contributed to that, but there is also a whisper in the back of my mind that tells me that maybe showrunners felt the need to overly pad this season with storylines because they either didn't feel like nicola and luke could carry it alone or because they didn't care.

-i'm really glad genevieve got more scenes here, especially with penelope. their friendship is really nice and it's sad/sweet that penelope chose to spend her last night before her wedding with her, because apparently her mother/sisters didn't plan anything for her.

-frencesca/john. i have no stake in this game since i haven't read their book yet, as i've mentioned before. they're cute together but i'm not invested. they should have gotten married way earlier imo because all the "we need to tip toe around the queen bc she hates us :( but we want to marry now" went on too long and got boring. the michaela thing doesn't bother me but i understand why fans are upset about it.

-polin felt like a side character in part 2. i feel like their scenes went by way too quickly and their screentime was so sparse to the point of legitimately becoming annoying. colin spent most of it mad and penelope spent most of it crying/trying to explain herself. they had hardly any truly happy moments together.

-kanthony was adorable.

-"i love you."

"...are you sure?"

dear reader, my heart split in two. they did a really really good job with showing penelope's self-doubt and low confidence thanks to years of neglect and ridicule and doubt from her mother. when colin stood up for her to her mother and she looked so shocked, my heart broke again for her. poor pen, i just wanted to hold her. when violet and hyacinth hugged penelope after colin announced their engagement i wanted to cry bc poor pen is so starving for positive affirmations/love that just those hugs where enough to overwhelm her.

-also lady danbury saying that she had suspected Pen was whistledown was amazing. i love that she acknowledged her and her love for the bridgertons....but i'm still really upset that they nixed her and penelope's friendship/mentorship that was in the books. she was busy with her own storyline what with violet and marcus and sure it still worked but that was a relationship i was so excited to see in the show...and they didn't even try adapting it except for like, three lines at the very end. >:( hello 911? we've been ROBBED.

(i keep editing this to add more but this is another gripe i have that will not let me rest:

ALSO ALSO ALSO:

i've noticed over seasons 1-2 that the main romantic couple has one dance set to the bridgerton theme song.

in season one, daphne and simon dance to the theme song in episode 2 or 3 (the one where daphne says "and we must try to look like we enjoy each other's company" and simon replies stiffly but then they giggle and laugh all through it which was so cute

in season two, kate and anthony dance to it in the second to last episode where they're dancing with the rest of the bridgertons and lady danbury at the ball they threw that nobody came to. the subtitles say it's a country rendition (whatever that means) of the theme song but they are involved in the dance so it counts.

when i noticed this i thought it was such a cute touch and was anxiously waiting for Penelope and Colin to get their moment.

...instead benedict dances to the bridgerton theme song with Lady Tilley? who he clearly isn't going to end up with? wtf?? and it doesn't even work in the context of the scene because it's a wholesome tune and yet she's dancing like she wants to eat him alive? sigh.

i'm just an old man yelling at clouds now but i wish the writing in this show was better so badly because it meets expectations but it's so frustrating because it can be so much better. let the show breathe! thin out the cast. really pick and choose who gets airtime, because it's precious and you anger your viewers when you waste it.

i will rewatch the season in full at some other point, but i'm too annoyed now. there is much more i want to talk about but this is long enough for now. i will say that at this point i'm not even sure i want to continue watching beyond this season.

(the playlist thing really got me thinking so to prove my point:)

FIVE SONGS THAT ARE A BETTER CHOICE FOR POLIN'S WEDDING DANCE THAN A FUCKING T.S SONG:

-a world alone-lorde (the lyrics are perfect even if they wouldn't be used in an orchestral version)

-little of your love-haim ( perfect choice for the scene imo bc it's very happy and upbeat for a cute wedding dance bit)

-all this and heaven too-florence and the machine

or fuck, if you wanted to make it into a really emotional rather than joyous moment go with dog days are over and it would be a banger with the proper editing bc that song is universal and punches up the emotions any times it's used.

-burning-maggie rogers

-save a kiss--jessie ware

ORRRRR to make it a lil steamy:

-adore you--jessie ware (this would also be perfect ngl)

and i'm not even biased to any of these, i literally just scrolled down my general playlist on spotify and picked them based on the vibes.

[skaruresonic]

"I won't forget the time another games fan admitted on my old Twitter account that the current fannish climate was such that they were going to limit their Sonic discussion to private channels."

Funnily enough, something similar happened to me on Twitter. Someone contacted me in private because they wanted to talk about CV with me, but "I didn't want to message you so publicly because there are some people who don't like you that follow me"

And my reaction was... cool? Thanks for telling me? I'm not even super active on Twitter and I can count on one hand the amount of times I complained and attracted discussions. I just felt sad that this person treated me like a clandestine. It reminded me back when I was in high school and my friend back then was like "don't help these people, they talk shit about you" - what am I supposed to think, other than "oh :("?

And the CV fandom is all but dead, even the NFCV fandom is certainly more active but currently resting. The Sonic fandom, especially on Twitter, is an absolute nightmare. People really do pounce you for any reason they deem justified, and all sorts of petty discourse is pushed in front of your face for the sole reason of making you angry.

Anyway, I say already what I said: for a fandom who will call you all sorts of names if you don't have the right wholesome opinions on minor characters, they sure have zero mercy for real life minors whose crime is complaining in their corner of the internet. Silly you, daring to have an opinion!

Funnily enough, something similar happened to me on Twitter. Someone contacted me in private because they wanted to talk about CV with me, but "I didn't want to message you so publicly because there are some people who don't like you that follow me"

It reminded me back when I was in high school and my friend back then was like "don't help these people, they talk shit about you" - what am I supposed to think, other than "oh :("?

Might be missing some context here, but honestly, that sounds a little backhanded. Best case scenario, they're worried about inadvertently shining a spotlight on you, which just raises questions of why they're hanging around folks who'd dogpile people to begin with.

Like bruh, this is video games fandom, not an illegal gambling ring lmao. Saying "I can't reblog from you because you have cooties" would be more emotionally honest.

To some extent, though, I do have to wonder how much of this is a modern-day fandom culture thing and isn't confined to just Sonic, because patterns seem to repeat across fandoms. Half-Life has settled down AFAIK, but that was after virulent tourists literally called the cops on fic writers for shipping a ship and caused the old guard to disperse. The Silent Hill Reddit, likewise, refuses to hear any criticism of the SH2 remake because you're harshing their buzz. And hey, anything Konami offers us must surely be better than nothing. "Technical limitations" is similar misinformation that gets passed around via games of telephone a la Shadow mandates. I don't need to tell you how Sonic fandom treats unpopular opinions. Don't know what to call it. Toxic positivity? Consumerism? Anti mindset? Clout chasing? Social media-fuelled outrage? All of the above? Whatever it is, it's becoming more prevalent in fannish spaces. Maybe it's because I'm more invested in Sonic fandom than the others, but there I've noticed that there's definitely this added layer of superciliousness to Sonic that just makes the usual fandom wank even more obnoxious. Yes, the HLVRAI stans might lie and say your ship is pedophilia, which is incredibly unfortunate, but nobody was giving them the microphone and saying they ought to be taken as an authority on all things Half-Life. In fact, the old guard pushed for AO3 to separate HLVRAI and Half-Life in the tags for years for this very reason. We weren't all suddenly like "hmm yes, maybe Gordon really was a ~secret pedo~ who thinks of grown-ass Alyx as a child when she flirts with him in-game" because we knew that was fucking ridiculous. But for some reason, we're all supposed to think "IDW!Sonic is Games!Sonic" lest we bu run out of town with torches and pitchforks, I guess.

The worst part is it's hard to tell what people want anymore. You can't say things they don't want to hear even in your own space. You can't say it politely, you can't say it rudely, you can't say it to your friends or to people you're arguing with, you just cannot say it at all without risking a ton of fans going "well you said it, therefore you deserve what you get." And, frankly, fuck that lol.

[protosymphonette]

apparently I shouldn’t ask you your fallout 4 opinions? Now I want to ask you your fallout 4 opinions :)

i warned you about my fo4 opinions bro. i told you dog.

most of these are like. technical and story related. bee tee dubs

ok under cut because i have a lot to say and most of it is TOXIC because i LOVE TO COMPLAIN

listen. listen. i have a lot of feelings about this game. most of them aren't very good. so lets start with the ones that are mostly positive.

i think a thing fo4 did really well was the companions. a lot of their arcs are more realized than the other fo games (despite the fact that 2 of them don't even have full names, but i digress), they have more unique voicelines... and being able to romance them doesn't hurt either. honestly, half the reason i found myself willing to continue playing the game was getting all of the companion questlines and such. i also like how connected it was to fo3 character (like with li, maccready, maxson) and storywise (the institute, railroad, synths), made me feel Smart for getting the references. the way weapons... work? i guess is the best term? is also pretty decent- though the more advanced display hurts my eyes whenever i use energy weapons (which is always because they are the only guns worth using in any fo game)

i'll probably add more positives as i go, but- now time for parts of the game that i don't particularly enjoy... i don't like how many gameplay changes they made. like with the perks and special system (why would they change it. why remove skills?? why start all special stats at 1? the removal of skills really gets me; like, they were a more tangible and easier way to recognize what, well, SKILLS you had and just removing them entirely makes no sense) and the pip boy ui (WHY did they make holotapes go into general "misc" as opposed to having their own "notes" section??? you use holotapes like 40x more often in this game why. what the hell todd) the weapons and armor system irks me too, somewhat- the fact that once you progress to a point in the game in which you are like, unable to see if an armor/weapon is better than what you have because of all of the goddamn superfluous adjectival modifiers. i wish single piece armors were more practical- the mix-and-match nature of the new armor system is... i don't mean to be like, petty, but its Fugly. i know it's the wasteland but, DAMN, my guy's fit is trash! there are too many modifiers to armor, too, i feel. like, ballistic v energy v whatever damage resistance... all i want to know is if this thing is better than this thing, and you're tellin me it is SOMETIMES but not all the times? my iddy biddy pea brain came here to have FUN and SHOOT not to think about strategy in armor. tldr for my technical qualms with this game: they shouldn't have changed allat. it was great and fun as was.

storywise i don't... to put it succinctly, i don't like this game's story. it's boring to me. i don't necessarily care about my son, or my spouse, with the 5 minutes i spent with them during the tutorial and the "hey honey!" holotape you gave me is doing nothing to change that in any way. also, while on the subject of spouses, the game tries SO HARD to railroad (heh heh) you into being the male sole survivor- he NARRATES the damn intro ffs (and replacing the legend ron perlman is a crime which can never be forgiven) AND is a veteran (combat+power armor experience) and nora... is a lawyer? a job in which it would make no sense for her to already have power armor training or experience with weapons. (oatus the power armor ui is fucking ugly and gross too and i've literally never used it outside its introduction with the minutemen because of this) i think the fact that i don't give 2 shits about my son is why the institute is soooooo dry to me. like, why am i supposed to side with these assholes? because my son who is an old man is, what, their dad? or something? (also shaun being the gen 3 synths "father" and you being able to romance a whole slew of gen 3 synths is... weird, plainly put) also the factions are just boring to me. like no flavor at all. i don't want to bring up Beautiful Golden Child New Vegas (but i do) but like... obsidian did the "choose a faction" thing a whole helluva lot better. like i don't really give a shit at all about any of the stakes or factions within fo4 like even a little bit all i care about is my Guys who are my Friends and we Kill People Together.

also this is like very petty and opiniony but i don't like how good the graphics are i feel like fallout is a game franchise meant to look a little shitty

tldr; fallout 4 would be such a good game if it was a good game

[a-url-that-exists]

okay I'm gonna whine about something petty and stupid and frankly i shouldn't even be complaining first world problems yada yada

last year i missed the crane wives concert. They were performing the same day as a band competition and i couldn't go.

This year when i got the Spotify presale, i jumped on it and bought the tickets for me and my mom. (Or rather, asked my mom to do it and paid her back.)

And then my mom got vip tickets.

And i told her that this upset me. It was so much more money, and for what?

And her answer was that i couldn't handle normal concert seats, and this would be better, and she was looking out for me. The VIP seats were isolated and you'd get to have personal space and you'd be able to see unobstructed, and get food more easily, and it even had a private bathroom right nearby. Besides, having more expensive tickets means that they'll be more eager to accommodate us and treat us better.

I reiterated that i did not like this, did not ask for this, did not want this, that it was a waste of money, and would be a worse experience. She'd already bought the tickets, she said, she couldn't go back.

So we went tonight. The vip seats were less comfortable (bar stools). Our view was obstructed by people who apparently had a higher vip level. Food was not easier to get, it was ridiculously expensive and i didn't even want to eat anyways, we'd grabbed fast food on the way there. Also, i don't use public bathrooms. Not in the way normal people do, where they don't go to the bathroom if they can avoid it/can comfortably wait. I will literally be about to piss/shit myself but i can't use a public restroom because of gender. VIP bathroom doesn't help me. It does however help her.

I got concert tickets because i wanted to go to a concert. Be around people like me, have crowd energy, be obnoxious and loud and boisterous and have a great time. She decided that instead of doing that she was going to spend stupid amounts of money, hold it over my head, and claim it was for my benefit. It wasn't. I pointed out that it was for her benefit.

She could've just admitted it. It would've been fine. She could say, "i don't like crowds, and i need easy access to a bathroom." It would be easy. But no, she has to pin it on my autism, and claim that this is what's better for me, and that i don't know what i can handle, and call me ungrateful even though i never wanted this, explicitly told her three months in advance that i didn't like this. And like, it's whatever, at the end of the day i still got to see my favorite band live, and now i know for sure that i want to actually go to a concert in a real way, but. Urgh. And she's being such a bitch about it! I pointed out that that's like the worst way to do a concert and she was like "you could've gone down there at any time" and i was like no???? That's not how that works??? There aren't seats for us down there???? Because your stupid ass bought seats in VIP? Like... be so fucking for real

god. I would've loved it too. I would've had such a good time.

[terraliensvent]

Fuckin’ womp womp mod tbh “I’m getting stwessed out uwu” you willingly opened this can of worms filled with baseless accusations on both ends and pointless drama to stain someone’s reputation who ain’t even in the community anymore, I don’t think you get to complain.

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hey fuck you

sorry i decided to talk about a situation that seemed pretty cut and dry and was the result of someone being petty, didnt realize it would invite people like you to make this whole monumental shit storm because someone cant just say “yk what i could have just gone to another chat, but instead i wanted to be rude to someone in a convo that didnt involve me at all because we have this continued beef between us”

i dont know shit about vinn as a person and i dont know their “reputation” or whatever, yall were the ones who came in here with the “ERM ACTUALLY VINN IS ACTUALLY SATAN ON EARTH AND I HAVE NO PROOF OF IT BUT THEY ARE JUST TRUST ME” and the “UHMMMM WELL ACTUALLY VINN HAS EVERYONE IN THE WHOLE SERVER BLOCKED SO THEY HAVE NO IDEA WHAT ANYONE IS TALKING ABOUT EVER AND THEY JUST LIKED THIS SILLY VID OF THEIR CAT SO YOU DONT GET TO SAY ANYTHING ABOUT THEM ALSO THEY HAVE A PAST THAT YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT!!”

the part thats stressing me out is theres so much violently different information coming from you all and im getting nitpicked for not including info i literally never had any clue about while also trying to be delicate in saying “hey man you gave me no evidence of people showing up to your house so i dont really believe that” as well as nobody giving me screenshots or proof or evidence of any of the shit you guys have been saying on either side

so if you guys are gonna keep leaving shit like this in my inbox and being condescending toward me then ill start deleting asks on this topic too

both sides need to calm the fuck down

[bunnyb34r]

Lmaooo someone's getting in trouuuuuble today and I can't be 100% sure bc I didn't see who did it but i think I know

Context under the cut bc it's a long one:

So I've bitched on here many a time about how front end will do aaaalll their go backs and leave the massive pile of clothing returns (that they would have time to do if they didnt let it build up the way they do) in our area

We've been having a constant 2+ FULL carts in our area for months now. We clear em, they come back the next day with more.

We've even been petty and taken them back up front before. It comes back with MORE

Now I get that front end is a hectic job but It's literally part of their job, they don't leave go backs of like baby isle stuff in the baby isles, or go backs of heavy cleaning supplies in the cleaning isle, it's only clothing bc they dont wanna do it/think we just fold clothes all day

AND they've been yelled at several times to stop fucking doing this, by several managers and team leads.

Well we got told yesterday that when we come in, even if it's just one of us that day, we are to empty the carts before ANYTHING else. K.

So BratBoy told [rc] who went to complain ab how unfair it is that we are forced to do this job when it is literally their responsibility to do it. And he said he told their manager several times and they still do it, so he's gonna start writing people up for it. Checking cameras to see WHO specifically did it.

Anyway, I come in and BratBoy told me to tell him if theres a cart there. There was.

It was maybe 10 items or so so not a lot, but that only goes to show HOW FUCKING EASY THEY COULD'VE DONE IT THEMSELVES. Anyway, took me 5 minutes, whatever now I have two carts. (Important for the story)

So he comes by maybe 20 min later and asks if there was a cart and I said yeah and he goes "I'll take care of it"

To which I was like "oh no i did, first thing right?"

He meant "I'll take care of it" that being the whole cart issue itself.

So I say "k" and go ab my work, utilizing both carts bc why not. One has my trash bag and a stack of Sharter's clearance I was gonna liquidate after I came back from break/put in a box to deal with later. The other has my water bottle and some paper. Across the top of the middle of both carts is a flattened cardboard box I was saving for the Sharter's.

I go to do my signs, go on break.

Come back and theres a pile of clothes pushed into my cart, the one with the trash bag, pushed in behind the bag. I was livid.

I put up my signs (only now hours later realizing I did them wrong) and track down BratBoy and tell him that when he gets a minute come to clothing, he asks why and I must have looked/sounded like I was gonna cry but that's just my "I'm fucking irritated at this stupid job and trying to remain professional" bc he looked so concerned

So I tell him what happened, relaying that it was pushed into the cart that CLEARLY HAD TRASH IN IT ALREADY and these carts were literally touching so it wasn't like they got to one first

He looked like "are you fucking kidding me" and said he'd check the cameras and take care of it.

Then as I'm getting ready to leave, I get flagged down by a coworker that one of the front end ladies wanted to talk to me

I didnt clock out yet so I follow him

She was like BratBoy said something ab the cart ect ect

And I was trying to not act like I had ratted them out sgdggdgd turns out she wanted to make sure she hadnt gotten ME in trouble, that that's not why BratBoy said something and I was like no thats not it. And she was like "I left hoodies there but I didnt put them in your cart" okay then this isnt ab you...

So I told her no, what was in the cart was also pants and shit not just hoodies

So I'm willing to bet money it was the transphobic religious lady who did it bc I saw her and aforementioned coworker leaving clothing as I returned

Like she has a track record of just leaving carts like 🤗 here you go!🥰

As if shes like helping us giving us her fucking work

Anyway I left the cart and told BratBoy that and hes like "oh dont worry, they'll take care of it"

Oh! And it was the clothes that were fucking shoved under the front desk too. Like they, instead of still using a cart to make their job easier and putting shit away themselves, decided to shove clothing in the front desk... real classy bunch

[domsaysstuff]

gareth from stranger things for the character ask game?? :D

Shshshsh okay, so this will be mostly my headcanons and whatever fanon things abt him that i liked bc let's be real our boy literally got like three minutes of screentime and also you gave me one of the hardest ones anon because I don't really think that much abt corroded coffin outside their relationship with the rest of the party but!

Give me a character and I will give you my thoughts on:

one aspect about them i love: i love, love, love when people make Gareth a petty little shit? Like yes, hold that grudge and yes, tease your friend on his pathetic gay crush, i believe in a little shit Gareth supremacy™

one aspect i wish more people understood about them: I think a lot of people are making fun things with his character but i have a slight problem with a miniscule part of the fandom. When he broke and told Jason where he could find Eddie I wish people understood that he is also just a child and he at first was all sarcastic abt and it wasn't until Jason got fucking violent that he spilled and it's so understandable that he did? Like you are just a child (16-18 IS still a child), you've looked at a guy who was always just a bark and no bite and suddenly you are on the ground and you don't know what he will do, it might end with a few broken bones it might end with your life, the boy who was just no bite is suddenly a crazed man sniffing for blood and you are terrified. You are just a child. It doesn't make you a coward, it doesn't make you want to stop being someone's friend, it just makes you a terrified child and people who hold it against him just kind of piss me off.

one (or more) headcanon(s) i have about this character: oh, oh, oh OKAY SO

I'm in love with child of a single mother with an older sister Gareth, idk he just screams to me like a guy who would have a sister, also just something about him and Dustin just kind of getting eachother in that way. Also I think Gareth was the baby of the group before Dustin, Mike and Lucas with Jeff and The Freak both being a year older than him and Eddie ofc being the oldest of them.

one character i love seeing them interact with: obviously Eddie, but second best is Steve. Idk, i just think their dynamic in fics is nice and I wish we would have more Gareth and Steve becoming friends fics

one character i wish they would interact with/interact with more: like i said, steve but also! i would love more takes on how he would take on interacting with Nancy Wheeler sjdjdjs

one (or more) headcanon(s) i have that involve them and one other character:

I have this little headcanon that him and Eddie met first when they were just children when Gareth was being bullied and Eddie steped in and then got beaten up instead of Gareth. Like he's eight and there are kids bigger than him and they are looking for an easy target which he is and he think it's the end of the world and then suddenly there is this kid, older than him, one which he has never seen before, which is strange because here everybody knows everyone. At least that's what his sister always says, she always complains about it, his mother calls it teenage angst but you can't help but agree. So he should know him but he's never seen anyone this strange around here before, he would surely remember but he's here. He's scrawny and he moves all funny, like his limbs are moving before he thinks where they're going, he has a big black shirt with some scary print on it on, one that covers almost all of him, his head is shaved and he has the biggest eyes Gareth has seen. He's also yelling. Yelling at the kids to get a better target, one maybe more their age. And so they do. Afterwards when they leave, the boy turns to him and grins, his teeth are bloody, there is a split on his lip and dirt on his face and clothes but his eyes are still shining and the smile is genuine and big. "Had worse" he says and makes it sounds like a joke. He laughs and the boy somehow smiles even bigger. He's taller than Gareth and his back is illuminated by the sun. There is a slight breeze making his big shirt flutter behind him, a little like a cape would. Gareth doesn't know this boy, he must be from somewhere else, he must be a hero, like the one from the comics his sister reads.

"I'm Eddie." He says.

"It's a lame superhero name" Gareth says and Eddie laughs.

"I'm not a hero kid" He says kid in the same way all the adults say it.

Gareth looks at his big easy smile and the bruising forming on his face and the shirt that almost looks like a cape and doesn't believe him.

Years later he wishes he wasn't right.

So, that's it! Thank you anon for this!!! 💗💖

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"number 1 nep fan", and all they do is sexualize her and ignore everything about her character outside of her being a #catgirl and shipping her with one guy to further sexualize her, and they bitch and moan about act 6, as if anything they could think of doing with the characters would be better

I think that's partly why that one ship rubs me the wrong way, despite there being perfectly fine examples and shippers of it, because from my experience with certain places these types of pairings tend to feel like they take her and make her into something you see out of a low tier harem show just because they want to get with "the anime catgirl", while complaining about anything that's gay

or something whatever I don't know, I'm winding myself up late at night for like no reason

Kind of just being a bitch, I mean, my current avatar is literally a big booby anime catgirl

the complicated nuances that is people drawing nepeta/homestuck characters I suppose, especially over a decade after its end and some casts aging while others not while all of the audience has

Though that only goes so far, because a lot of this usually stems from the exact same time homestuck was running. Like yeah, sure, I wasn't there, but with how often I've deep dived into blogs, some of you guys were SUPER weird about the leijons, and that extends to people who even ended up working on the comic.

it's like the balance between yeah i'm warranted my own thoughts on things but also for the most part they're allowed to do whatever they want forever

though if i don't get to be petty on my blog where else can i be

I'll forget about this in the morning

also again literally no one cares about this except me this is like a very one sided pet peeve

i keep forgetting that if I'm posting in my own time and space I can just type shit out, don't have to put things in tags

[ileftherbackhome]

Idk how to word this without people automatically doing the thing I want to bring attention to but um telling fandom that they need to stop arguing over "shit that doesn't matter" is kind of ableist/sexist and yall should really stop doing that.

First of all. Autistic women are the backbone of fandom, and fandom is quite literally defined as writing thinkpieces of shit that doesn't matter.

Secondly, autistic people communicate through special interests a lot of the time.

Thirdly, special interests can be anything that has enough information to interest the autistic person (celebrities are included in this).

And fourthly, fandom has always been on the cutting-edge of progressivism because art is inherently progressive by nature. The very nature of creating something to share with other people, who will then critique it and discuss its broader implications to society or its historical context blah blah blah, that is inherently progressive.

Over time, art changes because the people who discuss art have been changed by the art they are discussing. That is why we are now discussing "diversity" as a must in media because if the narrative is controlled by one group of people in society, then voices are not being heard in fandom that are crucial to the progression of society as a whole.

This is true for all people, but especially true for autistics who find it hard to communicate with others in a socially acceptable manner.

By shaming people who are discussing broader issues but who can only discuss it through the lens of the "latest taylor swift drama" or whatever, you are not doing what you think you are doing. All you are accomplishing is making people feel like shit for communicating in a way that you don't like.

I implore you guys to take the time to actually listen to the things that "stans" complain about instead of dismissing it all offhand as "petty" drama. Even the latest Kardashian dramas, those fans they be talking about good stuff sometimes. Yall wouldn't know because yall hate listening to autistics and especially autistic women communicate but I digress.

I think we should all practice more empathy when it comes to judging the things people like to talk about in their free time, and we should also stop to think about what we're really asking stans and fandom to do when we tell them to "grow up" or "get a life" whenever they try and discuss real issues but through the context of their fandom (for many of which is their special interest).

Because, keep in mind, all that talk about whatever big news event of the moment yall are doing isn't doing shit to change the status quo either. Aka none of us are doing shit that actually matters and maybe we stop judging people for how they communicate what matters to them, maybe we learn how to understand what they are trying to let us know about what matters to them.

And if you ask me, fandom does a lot more to challenge the way people- especially hip hop fandoms- talk and view certain issues than just tweeting all the time about news events. Fandom challenges the way people see gays, autistics, black people, women, etc etc on a more consistent and immediate way than being a twitter activist does because they are directly challenging the ways people interact, discuss and feel about art that then translate to a more tolerant view of society as a whole.

[khaleesiofalicante]

"Grief is love's souvenir. It's our proof that we once loved. Grief is the receipt we wave in the air that says to the world: Look! Love was once mine. I loved well. Here is my proof that I paid the price" -Glennon Doyle Melton, Love Warrior

Because parents are supposed to protect their children. Parents are not supposed to outlive them. Oh look, back with the inmortality pain again🙂🙂

“Would you like to come in?” Magnus asked.

Alec was going to kill him.

Oh, whatever. Alec knew whom he married.

Yeah, he married a dumbass with a golden heart smh😔

OH SHIT THIS DOES MAKES SENSE. Who knew actions have consequences, right Malcolm???

HE WAS BORN OF MAGIC. LITERALLY. OMFG.

Call her out Magnus!!! God this woman is CRAZY! Like mother like daughter I guess...

THEY SAID THE THING!!

“Agreed,” Jace nodded. “Remember when our biggest worry was our own parents?”

“Kids have it so easy these days,” Alec pointed out.

Oh, the simple good old days, where did they go?? 😭😭

You are too good to talk to Kingsley babe <3

ALEC'S SASS HERE 😂��� TRULY AMAZING!! I AM LOVE MY PETTY BABE 🥰

Ngl, diplomatic Alec is a different kind of hot jdbdkdnd

The entire shadow world did. If Alec had kissed Magnus in the Accords Hall, Max had kissed David in Edom in the middle of a battle.

The Lightwood-Banes took dramatic romantic gestures a little too seriously.

Not complaining from my side😍

I dislike Kyle soooo much, but I will forgive him JUST A LITTLE BIT bc he saved Alec....

THAT WAS FUCKING COOL. And him gushing about warlocks just makes it ten times better djhdkdjd

I wanted them to meet for so long and you didn't disappoint me💙

Don't you understand that there are assholes LIKE YOU that will exploit all this magic???

YOU DIDN'T JUST THREATEN THE MF LIGHTWOOD-BANES!!!

“Tell me, Mallory,” Alec said. “What does it feel like to be everyone’s second choice?” I fucking love Alec kshdkdksks, she is so goddamn powerful rn and he still said "bitch, you thought!"

But there was nothing in the world that he cared about more than his Max I'm not sure how much more mavid angst can I take😭😭😭

Jackson and David>>>>>

This memory loss is hurting LIKE A BITCH😭

What the fuck is Levithan upto???

Omg he is not helping Max, he has been helping David all along!!! Wtf????

“I want you to do what you were born to do,” Leviathan whispered.

“Destroy the nephilim?” David swallowed.

“Love Max,” Leviathan replied. “The rest will fall into place."

I am soooo many questions and 0 answers😭

Who the fuck is Merlin??? What is happening???

“Leviathan!” David yelled. “Is there a way to get my old memories back?”

“Try going back in time!” Leviathan yelled back.

Is this foreshadowing of going back in time bc at this point everyone has said this and I am kinda terrified....

She can create fire??? Are you fucking kidding me??? God am I STRESSED!!!

There are other solutions rather than destroying Idris and doing necromancy, you know? Like, therapy....

Mallory: *shows up in her house green and with magic*

Hunter and Devlin: yeah anyway, what about your brother???

HOW FUCKED UP CAN A SINGLE FAMILY BE???

Also I feel taking all this magic is going to backfire.... Good :)

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