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Hihi Yosuke always ends up there doesn’t he?
Also,,,,, I am so weirdly proud of that 3rd year yosuke, Shhhhhhhhh he looks cute and soft there. I promise I am so normal about him... that’s a lie I am not... sigh*.
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#persona 4#You can ignore the wall of text if you wanna#I just have a lot to say#as per usual#yosuke hanamura#persona#p4#p4g#fanart#digital art#my art#persona fanart#yosuke fanart#sketches#this is has been stuck in my drafts for at least 3 weeks#i think....#I really like 3rd year yosuke#3rd year yosuke#yosuke in a trash can#as usual
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happy valentine's day pallies <3 threw this the office-inspired drabble together for funsies over the last few days and thought today was a good a day as any to finally post
“What the hell is wrong with Dustin?” Eddie asked as he walked through the open door to Robin and Nancy’s apartment, “I passed him in the hall and he’s ranting and raving like a goddamn lunatic. Barely even acknowledged me.”
“You got lucky,” Steve shook his head as the rest of the Party, scattered around the living room, gave a similarly over it-kind of response, “Also – hey. Missed you.”
Eddie dropped down onto the couch next to Steve and planted a kiss on his cheek.
“Ugh,” Robin groaned from the other end of the couch, “Either get a room or be gross later.”
“Missed you more, my love,” Eddie said loudly and pointedly as he settled in, and Steve ignored the way Robin rolled her eyes as Eddie draped an arm over his shoulders, “So…Dustin? What’s his deal?”
“He thinks he’s never gonna find love,” Lucas said from his spot on the rug, mouth full of half-crunched chips.
“Because he hasn’t dated anyone since Suzie,” Will clarified.
Steve watched Eddie’s eyebrows furrow.
“Uh, okay, didn’t they split, like, a month ago?”
“Yep,” Mike nodded.
“And didn’t Dustin just say last week that he’s happily married to his studies?”
“Dude,” Mike replied, “If you hadn’t been thirty minutes late, you would have seen us ask him these exact same questions.”
“Alright, gimme a fuckin’ break, man,” Eddie protested as Robin stuck a foot out and clipped the side of Mike’s head, “Not all of us are in college, asshole, living our most carefree lives. Some of us have jobs we're societally obligated to hold onto, Michael.”
“Anyway,” Steve cut in before Mike and Eddie’s bickering could derail the discussion too badly, “Dustin is apparently so desperate for love or whatever now that he’s trying to crowdsource a relationship.”
“And we’ve all been drafted,” Max said drily, “He wants us to set him up with someone at least once a month.”
“Each,” El added from beside Max in the armchair they're squashed in together.
“Each,” Max repeated with a nod.
“Jesus Christ,” Eddie blinked, “He needs to chill out.”
Eddie got a chorus of agreements in response, plus another snarky comment from Mike about how he could have told Dustin this himself if he hadn’t been late to their weekly movie night hangout, and then from there, the conversation spun into the Party’s usual overlapping pre-movie (waiting for the pizza to be delivered) chatter.
Eddie turned his attention to Steve.
“So who’s the lucky girl you’re siccing our deranged little buddy on?” he asked, voice just loud enough for Steve to hear over the surrounding conversations.
“I dunno,” Steve shrugged, catching Eddie's hand in his and starting to fiddle with the chunky ring on his pointer finger, “I don’t think anyone here is gonna put up with his shit, but…yeah, I dunno, I feel bad. I might try setting him up with Lauren – y’know, Andie’s friend she has over all the time?”
Andie is Steve’s roommate, who took Robin’s spot on the lease after Robin, the woman she is, U-Hauled with Nancy at a spectacular rate (barely a month into her and Steve’s lease). Steve couldn’t exactly blame her – Nancy’s brownstone is leagues (and leagues and leagues and leagues) nicer than the shitty walk-up he and Robin had barely been able to afford at the time. Plus, Robin was all kinds of apologetic about it – paid her half of the rent and everything until she found a suitable subletter.
Enter Andie, a women’s and gender studies major who Robin had met at their school’s SGA during her first semester of undergrad and who leans pretty much as far to the right on the good ol' Kinsey Scale as someone could. Both Steve and Andie had been a little on the fence at first, but as far as living with a half-stranger goes, he can admit that it actually went okay.
Case in point, he and Andie are both a good few years out of college now and neither of them have made any move to, y'know...move.
“Lauren?” Eddie repeated, “You mean, Andie’s straight friend? The one Andie is very actively and overtly trying to woo?”
“It’s not gonna work,” Steve insisted (because this has been a topic of conversation between the two of them for a while), “If she’s straight, she’s straight.”
“Well, yeah,” Eddie acknowledged, “But it’s not her I'd be worried about, Stevie.”
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
“C’mon, Steve – it’s basically a lose-lose for you. If Dustin goes on a date with Andie’s straight friend that she is, once again, very overtly and obviously into, whether or not it goes well – whether or not it even happens, Steve – Andie’s gonna find out that you were the one behind it, and you’re living with her.”
“So?”
“Dude, you’re gonna get booted outta your place.”
“No way,” Steve scoffed at him.
“I’m telling you – hell hath no fury like a lesbian scorned. Have you seen Nancy at the bar when someone is trying to hit on Robin? The big guy in the clouds was cutting from the same cloth when he created these ladies.”
Steve rolled his eyes at his boyfriend's brand of ex-Catholic poetic.
“Well…whatever. It’s just an apartment. If Andie really has an issue…I dunno, I’ll just move.”
Eddie grinned at him.
“Oh really?” he says, “And who do you think’s gonna be taking you in? You’re a crazy neat-freak, you think it’s totally appropriate to watch sports during breakfast – I mean, seriously, I get wanting to watch Sunday Night Football or whatever, but listening to recaps before I've had a cup of coffee is borderline criminal – and you've got basically a thousand houseplants.”
“Yeah,” Steve gave a feigned nod of understanding, “Maybe I’ll just move in with my boyfriend – he could use some order in his life.”
“Okay,” Eddie said, straightening a little in his seat, “I’m in if you are, Stevie-boy.”
Steve felt his face fall just a little. He tried to laugh it off, but even he could hear how awkward it sounded, and he glanced around to make sure the rest of the Party was otherwise occupied.
“I mean...," he said slowly, keeping his eyes on their hands so he didn't have to look at Eddie and his ever-expressive face, "I’m not gonna move in with someone unless we’re getting married.”
He really won’t either.
He’d done that before with his first serious boyfriend a few years ago – it was kind of a U-Haul situation in its own right, and it’s how Steve’s apartment became Andie’s apartment that Steve pretty please asked to move back into four months later when everything went to shit with the boyfriend.
(Their landlord had raised an eyebrow at them when they asked to put Steve back on the lease he’d only just left, but he didn’t ask any questions.
“He probably thinks we’re, like, a total dysfunctional couple or something,” Andie had pointed out.
“If only he knew,” Steve shook his head, “He’s leasing to a pair of idiot queers who can’t get their love lives together.”)
So, yeah, the U-Hauling thing may work for lesbians (or, two very specific lesbians whose couch he's sitting on, at the very least), but it’s not for Steve.
He’s a little too intense for it, contradictory as it sounds. He’s been burned in the past by the notion that someone could be willing to take a step as big as moving in with someone, and yet still see their relationship as “unserious” enough to balk at other big things (things like meeting each other’s friends and family, and what to do if Steve had another seizure). He’s not interested in being burned again, thanks.
Not that he actually thinks Eddie would do anything like that – the opposite actually. Steve knows he won’t.
For as long as he and Eddie were friends, Steve had known it in a kind of way he didn't even think about, and he's known it in another way, in a way he couldn't not think about, ever since he eavesdropped on a conversation between Robin and Eddie.
“Steve’s boyfriend is a fucking asshole and I hate him,” Robin had said, because this was back when Steve was dating (and living with) his ex, who did turn out to be a colossal fucking asshole, but this was the first time Steve had heard that particular opinion voiced by one of his friends.
“Shit, okay," Eddie had replied, "Do I need to go kick someone’s ass?”
Robin had paused for a split second before saying, “No. You’d just finally decide to confess your love for him and make everything even messier than it already is.”
They'd both been quiet for another few moments, and then Eddie let out a frustrated sigh.
"Fuck, man, that blows." Another pause. "I just – I don't understand how anybody could get to have Steve like that and not worship every breath he takes. I'm telling you – if it were me, you'd be able to break me down into fuckin' molecules and still be able to find him there. He's the sun in the fuckin' sky, dude. How are people not getting this?"
Steve hadn't been able take any more than that, not without feeling like something within him would split in two, so he had gone back to getting snacks in the kitchen like Eddie and Robin had thought he was doing, and then he'd spent the rest of the night feeling a little nauseous in a way he couldn't explain.
To this day, Steve is pretty sure that neither Robin nor Eddie know that he'd overheard their conversation, but it's what led to him breaking up with his boyfriend nonetheless.
Nothing had happened between Steve and Eddie at first. Eddie had actually been in his own relationship at the time, despite his and Robin' conversation, though they inexplicably split only a month after Steve’s break-up (Eddie never gave the Party a reason why).
Not too long after that though, Eddie had shown up on Steve’s doorstep (in a goddamn rainstorm, no less, the theatrical bastard) to profess his undying love, and by then Steve had spent enough time reflecting on the last several years of his friendship with Eddie and had firmly landed on the conclusion that he was in love with him too.
And so here they are now.
Steve spared a quick glance at Eddie to see that he was wearing a cute, kind of confused look.
“Wait – Steve, have I not proposed to you yet?”
And Eddie's truly dumbfounded tone, Eddie's way of bringing Steve's attention back up to his face so Steve could see the cheeky grin he's still wearing, had relief flooding through Steve's veins and washing away any doubt or insecurity or fear because, as Steve might have let himself forget, this is Eddie.
“I don’t think so…” Steve replied, then he flipped their clasped hands over to show his unmistakably ringless ring finger, “Nope.”
“Huh. Well…look out, Stevie, ‘cuz that’s coming.”
“Oh really?” Steve asked, and now he’s got a big smile growing on his face too, and he ignored the way his heart was thrumming over what Eddie had just divulged to him, how matter-of-fact, how certain he'd sounded when he said it.
“Uh-huh,” Eddie nodded, and Steve is so in love with him it nearly hurts.
“You mean, like, right now?” Steve continued, still feigning confusion, still keeping up the bit like they weren't having a huge, important, real conversation right now, because they hadn’t been together that long, all things considered, and yet Steve wasn’t surprised to hear any of this because he felt it too.
Eddie rolled his eyes, “Not right now. Have a little faith, darling. Now would be pathetically unromantic.”
“Hmm,” Steve hummed his agreement, though a small part of him could acknowledge that now – happy and surrounded by all their friends – wouldn’t be the worst way to get engaged, but Eddie hadn't lost any of his flair for dramatics over the years, so he's not exactly surprised to hear that Eddie is picturing something more.
“I got it all planned out, don’t you worry," Eddie told him, looking all kinds of proud, “And it’s gonna knock your socks off, Steve Harrington.”
"Alright," Steve said as Eddie leaned away, leaned back into conversation with their friends, a tight squeeze to Steve's hand his only acknowledgement of the sheer magnitude of the conversation they'd just had, "I've been warned."
#andie does not kick steve out#and eddie proceeds to fake-propose to steve at every opportunity for a full year#i realize that this unfortunately makes dustin the *michael scott* of the situation#apologies to dustin#it had to be done#steddie#steve harrington#eddie munson
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“Mustard & Ketchup”



Summary: you’re a runaway mutant and you need a place to stay. you find one but is it worth the chaos?
Warnings: mentions of blood and knives, profanity, written with fem!reader in mind but could be gender neutral or male iyw
A/N: This has been in my drafts for weeks so I gotta get it out before the dust collects on it💀 not really proofread tbh..
You stared at the paper in you hand titled in big letters “Roomate needed” and sighed.
You were a mutant who couch surfed after running away from home. Cue typical tragic backstory stuff. Anyways, the last person found out what you were and you had to bounce. Now you needed a place to stay for cheap and quick. You had a job at some bar (that was a secret mutant friendly space) but it couldn’t really pay bills, let alone rent.
So after work one day, when you saw a roommate need flyer you grabbed it immediately. Under the title was an odd drawing of a ketchup bottle and a mustard bottle done in crayon with some red guy in the corner waving. Then under that was the following(also in crayon) : roomate needed asap. rent’s under $300. must be ok with dogs, blind old people, claws and blood. (Like lots of blood)
You sighed. It’s been a week on streets and sleeping on cold benches and that rent was enticing. Whoever made the flyer though was definitely either a child or someone extremely questionable but you definitely weren’t in any spot to be picky right now. Even though you were slightly turned away by the emphasis of “being ok with blood” (what the hell could that even mean!?!) Maybe you can save up while there and hopefully move out soon.
The address was at the bottom of the paper so you decided you’ll stop by in the morning.
The apartment actually wasn’t too far from the bar and the bench you claimed for the week was close to the bar also so after doing a quick freshing up in the bar bathroom you made your way to the apartment. It was decent enough…nothing shady..but nothing special either. The second you got to the door you heard screaming and a dog barking. Was this really the place?
Just when you were about to turn around and rethink this whole thing the door flung open. You gasped as a man with….spotted skin?? stood at the door with a knife stuck in the side of his head. He was bald and actually kinda tall? Notably, he also wore pink boxers paired with a my little pony shirt. No socks. Very odd sight to see and take in.
“Sorry, I think I have the wrong-“ you started but the man looked down at you holding the flyer and immediately exclaimed, “Oh! Logan! Someone’s seen one of the flyers I made! Oh, do come on in we were just having a friendly fight…”
All you could muster was, “Friendly?” As you glanced at the knife and blood in his shirt. Distracted, he successfully ushered you in the door as you were soon met with a small, old looking dog with its tongue hanging out. It barked at you and you jumped slightly.
“Oh, don’t mind her…he’s as sweet as pie. Well, maybe some really old and hairy pie but still sweet regardless.” The man said as he closed the door. “I’m Wade by the way.”
You smiled at the dog but soon turned to protest being in the apartment. It was quite the scene. You knew it was at least more than one person living here, not only because you heard arguing before the door opened but because of all the stuff. I mean, no way this was all him? Right?
“Hey, so, you know what…I dunno about all this…I mean..wow..” You looked around and soon noticed more blood, clothes everywhere, multiple bottles of alcohol , definitely a lot of knifes and..swords..? Half lit cigars? And why does the couch have 3 large claw marks in them? Surely, it couldn’t have been this dog.
Was that stuffed unicorn?
Wade noticed you concerned and sighed.
“You know this place was a lot neater a week ago, but let’s just say I recently adopted an alcohol addicted wolverine so everything has gone to shit. I mean, look at my head!” The man dramatically pointed to the knife. “He did this!”
You just laughed and backed up. Okay, now it’s time to really get the hell out. Of course, before you could move or even reply, soon entered another character. You watched a gruff, also taller but older looking man walk out. He was, too, covered with splats of blood.
“Speak of the devil. Hey, you got an apology yet, wolvie? Hm? Go on.” Wade crossed his arms and glared at the other man but the man just stared at you in confusion.
“Wade, who the fuck is this?”
Oh, this was awkward.
“I told you, someone saw our flyer! You never listen! Y’know, I’m starting to want a divorce!”
“Our flyer??”
“Well, I told you I was making one! Again, you don’t listen! You’re not being very mindful or demure right now!”
“What??????” Cue a head tilt which you found sightly amusing. “What the fuck are you talking about-….”
You decided to interrupt. “Um..yeah so if it’s gonna be a problem I can go….”
You started moving towards the door but Wade stopped you and said, “Oh, no no no..don’t let this meanie beanie weenie scare you away. This monster. This..this drunk!” Wade glared at him as the man rolled his eyes and looked away. “You’re welcomed to the family as of right freaking now!.”
The older man sighed and silently cursed as Wade sat you on the couch.
“Well, I don’t have anything other than this paper I guess..oh and my wallet and phone.” You decided you should also tell them the biggest secret you normally keep from others. That you were a mutant. Luckily for you, it was more hidden but it scared the hell out of the last person you stayed with so you wanted to get it out the way now. “Um…I should have you know, since my other folks didn’t like that i suprised them.. that I am a…y’know..”
You trailed off hoping he would get it but you quickly got your answer when Wade shouted, “A mutant!”
The old man glanced at you for a second as you fearfully watched their reactions but when the older man didn’t move and Wade hugged you,rather tightly also, you felt some relief.
“Me, too girlfriend…actually us two! It’s so nice to have another mutant friend. This whole thing is playing out just like my fan-fiction!”
“Us?” You asked ignoring the odd comment he made at the end.
“Means me.” The older man spoke up. “Name’s Logan.”
He waved once and walked up to Wade.
Logan asked Wade if he could speak alone and Wade told you to stay put as they went into another room. As you heard some back and forth going on you couldn’t help but wonder what mutations they could have. Maybe that explains Wades skin? And the fact he had a nice in his head, even now still, that didn’t seem to bother him. At first you just ruled him out as crazy but this makes sense too.
You were left alone for 5 minutes until Wade came back out.
“Okay, so, here’s the deal. Logan is being a big fat baby but I say you can stay on the account this is my place. We definitely need some extra hands around here so you can just stay on the couch. All the beds are taken right now unless you wanna share with me or Wolvie. And umm, do you already have a job?”
“Well, I work at the bar not to far from here…” You calmly replied.
Wade nodded “Great! Got another alcohol fan here, you’ll get along great with Mr. buns of steel in no time! He love alcohol, any kind, including the rubbing kind!”
Logan walked out the room again but immediately told Wade to “Shut the hell up.”.
“What?! It’s true! You do have buns of steel! And i literally saw you drink that rubbing alcohol-!”
Logan rolled his eyes again, sighing heavily as he grabbed a bottle of alcohol and sat in an armchair, turning on the tv.
You and Wade went over the rent, he mentioned the other resident, some older kind lady, and also explained when the trash comes. He kind of went over his lore and why he called a man a wolverine but it was all hard to follow.
“Wait, he’s an X-Man? Like comic book X-Man?” You said when Wade brought up Logan’s past.
“Oh, yes except it’s real in his universe and many others.. He’s actually the worst one but that’s just between you and me. However, he kinda makes up for it as he’s real good with those claws….” Wade winks but you can only tilt your head.
“God..-“ Logan grumbled as he finished the bottle. “Do you ever stop?”
“Not unless you beg for it.” Wade quickly replied but even quicker added, “No homo. Actually, full homo.”
Logan just stared in annoyance and focused back on the tv, shaking his head.
“Ok, well…why the ketchup and mustard on the flyer?”
“Oh, I just call us that. Cute little pet names.. yeah.. I’ll call him cutie patootie and he’ll call me a dumbass.” Wade sighed like he was reflecting on good times while Logan laughed out once. Wade soon adds, “I’m ketchup cause my suits red and I’m the more popular, more loved “condiment” anddd Logan is mustard because he can be more bitter and not as popular..I mean ask anyone reading this and most people would say they like ketchup more it’s a fact!”
Right after Wade finishes talking Logan throws a book at Wade’s head barking at him to shut up yet again.
“…We have fun here.”
“I see.” You looked around again at the chaos as Wade rubs his head and pouts at Logan. Wade asked if you could help clean this mess up. And any other future messes.. He said you could pay a bit less on rent if you did. You just agreed, having cleaned up worse at the bar.
You knew it was going to take some getting used to but you could make it work. On the bright side, you some what enjoyed Wade’s odd behavior. You wondered however, if Logan liked you but then again that didn’t matter either. You watched as the dog walked up to you, wanting to be picked up.
“Oh, look, it’s like she chose you! Like how beginning Pokémon chose their trainers…or, is it the other way around?”
You laughed as you picked up the dog.
“Well, thanks for letting me stay here.” You began petting the dog on your lap. “Don’t worry about me being here forever, I’m gonna try to save up and maybe give it take in 6 months I’ll be out your….um”
“Hair? Ha! It’s ok sweetheart, no offense. But you don’t have to worry about rushing out, I like you already and I’m sure Wolvie here does too right?”
Logan chugged the last bit of the bottle and just stared at Wade and you, sighing. With Logan’s face unreadable, Wade just laughed and said, “Give him time, most Wolverines start this way but they warm up in a few days at most a couple weeks….”
You just nodded like you understood and relaxed into the couch taking in your surroundings. Wade and Logan started to go back and forth again but you ended up tuning them out. Yup, this is your new life. Was it worth it?
You watched another knife fly in the air, barely missing you.
Maybe.
#deadpool and wolverine#wade wilson#Logan howlett#worst wolverine#wolverine#Deadpool#deadpool 3#mutant reader#fluff I guess#i love these two#poolverine#is real
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📝 Answer these questions and send to five mutuals! Get to know each other’s writing processes and learn some tips from other writers!
1.How long have you been working on your current WIP(s)?
2.Do you have any tips to beat writer’s block?
3.What is a current fic you’re reading? Is there a fic/writer who inspired you to start writing?
4.What’s the first and last sentence of a current WIP you have written?
5.Do you have a fave OC? (if any?) Why?
TYSM @dutifullynuttywitch for this ask!!! <3 <3 <3 Details are under the cut!
1. How long have you been working on your current WIP(s)?
I have a loooooot. Some go back months, some go back at least a year.
This HSS waterpark trip fic WIP I have goes back almost two years
The OG HSS Evie adaptation has been in slow progress for about 1.5 years
And I have one Michael/Maria smutfic WIP that goes back 3 years
2. Do you have any tips to beat writer’s block?
Some tips I've picked up here and there:
Make a "ritual" out of writing. Schedule a daily "Writing Hour" for a specific time, and not just that. Make a sort of "writing box" with some items to use or surround yourself with while you write. Have like a special writing playlist or a special writing drinking cup or something like that. Personally I like to have a scented/aromatherapy something while I'm doing my writing, like a scented candle or an essential oils diffuser or a wax warmer. I put it between me and the laptop screen, and frequently lean forward to get a whiff of the scent. It helps me get into a good writing mood and stay centered on what I'm writing, rather than getting anxious or distracted.
Read regularly. Earlier this year, and it's a habit I need to return to (should help me catch up on all the fanfics I need to read), but I scheduled a daily reading hour as well. It doesn't have to be as ritualistic as writng hour, just make yourself comfy and read something for an hour straight. Sometimes I like to read it aloud but whichever works best for you. It doesn't always have to be hard reading, just something that you want to read. Reading works out the brain, and often other fics will inspire ideas or motivation for my own.
Timed braindumps, AKA set 5 or 10 minutes to yourself to just write whatever pops in your head without stopping. Don't even stop to go back and edit something. Admittedly this is something I barely ever do and should do more, but it is recommended by a lot of people and I can understand why. You gotta let those first drafts be shitty and messy. Sometimes actually, I might not dump actual story writing per se, but I will dump out sort of the descriptive ideas that come into my head.
Speaking of descriptive ideas, if you get stuck on describing something in a fic, put a brief description of what you want to write in brackets and come back to write it later. Same can go for if you're thinking of a better and stronger word for something, just jot down like the basic idea of what you wanna describe in a bracket and return to it later.
3. What is a current fic you’re reading? Is there a fic/writer who inspired you to start writing?
Nothing I'm currently in the middle of reading, but I have an , er, embarassingly large backlog of fics saved in my drafts and bookmarks that I've been planning on reading.
I've loved writing ever since I was a little kid, fanfic included, so I can't really name who exactly inspired me to start. But writers in the fandom that inspire me to keep going are: @lover-also-fighter-also , @loreofyore , @aria-ashryver , @choicesmc , and you.
4. What’s the first and last sentence of a current WIP you have written?
Imma sample from the aforementioned HSS waterpark fic, because summer is in two months and I wanna hype myself back into that fic so I can finish it this summer.
First sentence(s) (yes I'm cheating because the current first sentence is too blunt to be here on its own):
It was the last week of summer before school would start. After a fantastic first year at Berry High, Evie was excited to enter her second year and see many of her new friends again.
Last sentence:
“Ohhhhhhhh.” The tips of Aiden’s ears turned red. He looked around himself, then leaned towards Evie and lowered his voice. “I’d… I’d love that…”
5. Do you have a fave OC? (if any?) Why?
Evie, of course!
OG HSS is my favorite Choices title, its MC is my favorite MC on the app, part of that is because I can have a lot of fun coming up with the MC's character.
But also, Evie is very personal to me because of how much I based her off of myself and the kinds of things I like. She almost represents the type of person I aspire to be and wish I was more like. And OG HSS trilogy in general is very special for me for multiple reasons, and I love exploring the relationships and storyline and feelings Evie has throughout it, especially so with Aiden who is also very special to me. And that sort of gives me a better understanding of WHY OG HSS is so special and important to me.
That's the short of it before I go into a 500,000 mile long essay and then this post never sees the light of day.
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✨Weekly Progress #31✨
Oh, hey~ I actually managed to post this 1 week in and on a Monday! :D
Weekly Progress #31
Posted devlogs
Finished 2 SYVNH TY art
Finished fan project BG sketches, got them approved
Answered comments/asks
Finished + sent proposals
Drafted SYVNH survey
Yaoi Day posts
Worked on Comms
Bug BL VN concepting
Reviewed next steps (as dev, and for specific projects)
Doodled chara ref sheet
Doujinshi planning
Stuck in a Yandere Visual Novel...HELP!!
I think my last post summarizes my work on SYVNH this week pretty well! But in case you missed it, we're working on bringing some merch to life for SYVNH! And to start that, we'll need your help in filling out our Interest Check survey!
You'll be able to get some wallpapers at the end of the survey so be sure to check it out! 😉
Future Projects
I spent a portion of this week re-evaluating my next steps as a VN/game developer and planning for future projects. I know I want to finish my current projects (BWBOK and SFB), but I was quite disorganized for the timing of when that will happen. So I did the only thing I knew how to do: schedule, schedule, and more scheduling! 😤
Goals:
BWBOK: finish for SuNoFes (9/3); admittedly the schedule for this one is a little out of my hands currently. But I will aim to finish my portions by 8/15 (hopefully).
SFB: Demo 2.0 for YuriJam (12/1); I haven't fully planned out how much of the story I'll release for 2.0 yet, but I am to finish all the sprite art this month. Afterwards, I intend to focus on finishing the last part of the story.
A long term BL project. This was what has been bouncing around my head for the past week. There are a few contenders and they're all currently untitled. The plan is to make a commercial BL game for steam in the 50k+ wordcount size. I have 3 projects within various stages the concepting to outlining phase and hopefully, I finish the outlines for at least 2 of them before the end of the month.
Fan Stuff
I've joined a few vtuber fan projects! ...Which I'm not allowed to talk about, so that's about all I can say. It's been fun so far, though!
I originally challenged myself this year to make a 20 page comic. Recently I've been reading and looking at a lot of doujinshis so... here's the outcome of my challenge: plan a small doujin. idk how much of it I'll discuss here, though...
🎃 and that's all I've got for this week! See everyone next week!
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20 questions for fic writers. Tagged by @arrestzelle <3
1) How many works do you have on ao3?
56 on this account, 234 on others. So 290 total.
2) What's your total ao3 word count?
768,865 since 2018 =P
3) What are your top five fics by kudos?
My headcanon compilation (223), What's Your Name? Who's Your Daddy? (160), What a Lovely Way to Burn (99), Name of the Game, Boy (89), and Don't Ask Me In (83). Of course 3 are Arthur x Readers and the other two have Arthur in them lol. No matter what the Arthur fuckers are IN there.
4) What fandoms do you write for?
Just RDR2 right now.
5) Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?
I respond to everything I get in my inbox unless I don't have anything to say or it's like, a joke comment. Just polite to say thanks when someone compliments you. A lot of people leave really sweet comments that make me ecstatic so I'mma reply even if I can only say thanks! I love getting comments I try to encourage them and leave them on other fics too <33
6) What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
Nobody Dies Agnostic. So far, anyways. Could've done worse but ohhhh welllll. I'll be eviler in the future >:)
7) What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
Becoming the Last Names, probably. Can't get much better than a Hallmark ending. Naturally, I did not come up with the happy idea LOL but it was a nice change.
8) Do you get hate on fics?
Very rarely but now and then. I think Ao3 negates it a lot, at least when you properly tag things. If they're funny enough I will leave the comment up but usually they're just lame and uncreative.
9) Do you write smut?
What? No. Smut is utterly without social importance.
10) Do you write crossovers?
I don't typically have multiple fixations at once so not really. A few times for crackfics in the past, and once a long time ago on like, FF dot net I wrote a few serious ones. Don't ask because I do not remember my users at all.
11) Have you ever had a fic stolen?
Not that I'm aware of.
12) Have you ever had a fic translated?
I've been asked a few times but I am not sure if it ever happened or where. I always say yes w/ credit because cool! Yippie! Yay!!
13) Have you ever co-written a fic before?
A few. I wanna co-write more, it's fun. And I also know how to say "no" to ideas I don't like now, unlike the past. Hit me up frfr.
14) What's your all time favorite ship?
I don't knowwww, I switch up so much. I rotate through all of my ships as to which is my favorite and has me in a chokehold for the week. Right now it's back to VanDerMatthews. I guess if I had to choose one it'd be them at the end of the day. (Just like how It Was Always Them at the end of the day... insert cigarette emoji here)
15) What's the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?
Most of them are original works, one I mentioned before I'm still stuck on, I think I lost the spark. I can't think of any fic WIPs. Usually I can tell when I'm not gonna finish a fic so I just delete the draft since I write on Ao3 like a very trusting animal. Otherwise I'll see a bunch of drafts and get burnt out/overwhelmed. I had one for a vampire AU that I do wish I kept though and need to write out again.
16) What are your writing strengths?
I'd say I'm best at emotion. Professional crash-out writer. I love writing them. I love torturing men in writing. I love my beautiful princesses (it's always grown men) with disorders (it's always bipolar). It's so fun. I also would say I'm good at scene description, at least when I lock in about it. It's difficult to get it to where I feel like it's exactly what I wanted it to be in my head, but when I like that part of a fic, I really like it. Or maybe I just like it in theory because I can't think of any examples. IDK. I guess more accurately: I have a very vivid image in my head to go off of, always.
17) What are your writing weaknesses?
Definitely plot and anything multi-chapter. I cannot keep steam for the life of me and I've tried every which way. I've finished TWO multi-chapters in my entire time writing fic. I either forget why I wanted to write something, where I wanted it to go, what I wanted to say with or it, or I'll write all of that down and then I lose motivation because my brain's like well you already wrote it down so we are gonna move on from that now. FOREVER!! Fight scenes, too. Not enough time to flesh things out how I want it. But I also am not a reader who enjoys fights or action, so that might be personal taste. Not to glaze but arrestzelle's are the only fight scenes I ever GAF about.
18) Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?
I don't read anything but English fic, so I'll just talk about bilingual characters throwing in stuff or thinking in non-English. Sometimes people overdo it or don't handle it very well which ooooo I be having opinions on that ngl. Javier for example, living in the U.S. and speaking exclusively English with most people for six years by RDR2. I wouldn't be shocked if he thought in English and not Spanish by that point (much to his chagrin) tho it'd be cool to see him thinking in Spanish or a mixture of the two in a fic. When people handle it well and realistically, it adds dimension. Otherwise it can come across... uncomfortably. Done well, it can add a lot of character and the scene. Like being too emotional to bother with translating things in your head, or when really drunk, or I like to headcanon Javier prays exclusively in Spanish because English does not offer the same feeling of spiritual connection 'cause I think it says something extra about his character. I try not to overdo it. I've definitely failed to catch a few accidental over-repetitions before posting tho. I speak German, so I ask myself if I would have to switch languages in the situation/if I would make the conscious choice to switch.
19) First fandom you wrote for?
Percy Jackson, I think. Many years ago on FF dot net. On Ao3, Hetalia. </3
20) Favorite fic you've ever written?
I guess Deep Under My Fingers. I don't know. I like a few of them still, and usually I like stuff before I post it or else I keep writing on it and editing until I like it enough to not be embarrassed by it. But a lot leave something to be desired when I look back at them, even this one. 8k words and yet I want it to be longer because it's not expanded/deep enough.
I tag anyone who wants to do it bc the only authors I know of off the top of my head already done it </3
#ask meme#Fun semi related thing I love having friends who r not native English speakers and noticing how those who speak the same native make#similar mistakes in English#Or like a lot of European languages direct translate to “how is this called” not “what is this called” that's a thing I've noticed#This is pure autism talking right there I LOVE PATTERNSSSS
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The Current WIP List
Inspired by this post by @a-memory-a-distant-echo, this is a list of ongoing works-in-progress, where "in progress" I will define as "I have added at least one sentence in the last year as an indicator of actual mental load being used". This does not include worldbuilding or planning documents, which spring up like weeds. I am also including the ones that I get paid for via Patreon or publication deals or whatever.
Thresholder is my currently ongoing web serial, publishing two chapters a week (in theory ...). It's about a guy who travels between worlds and fights other people who travel between worlds, with each world being a relatively contained book. Currently about 750K words.
Doomsday Pivot! is, in theory, the follow-up to Thresholder, about a start-up that has to make a sudden change in plans when the end of the world gives everyone a character class. First book is rough draft complete but needs some responses to developmental editing, sitting at 104K words. (You can read a noncanonical first chapter here, which I had previously made public on my discord.)
Millennial Scarlet is a webcomic I write about a gig-economy demon hunter. Writing comics is awesome, mostly because I get to see my words come to life. In word count ... I'm not sure right now, but probably not all that much. In the middle of writing the fourth issue right now.
Glimwarden was a web serial that I abandoned, a black mark on my record. I intend to go back to it at some point, because it was my wife's favorite. You can read it up to the point where it was abandoned here. There are currently ~3 unreleased chapters, but most of the effort put into it has been rewriting it and bringing it up to snuff, as well as fixing some problems with it. Will get a relaunch at some point, probably, when I'm ready to commit to that. No idea on the word count.
Untitled Dance Magic story is probably a short story, currently ~5K words. It's based around a magic system where people do ballroom dance to create architecture, and is a somewhat traditional romance and/or coming of age story. I started writing it on a whim after a conversation with @etirabys at LessOnline, and hopefully they haven't started their own story, and hopefully if they have, hopefully their story doesn't overlap mine. I'll check before posting, hoping to get this one finished and out there.
Kensuke Fucks the World is an existentialist horror erotic novel, which I describe as being "like the Erogamer, but sad". Currently 75K words, and might never see the light of day. I think I can wrap it up in another 25K words, but I think it needs a lot of work.
Long Stairs will probably be novella length in its finished form, and will probably not be finished. It's an old story, which predates Worth the Candle by a few months, and is about a military fireteam making a routine delve into an endless shifting dungeon that the US military has already pulled a lot of magic out of. Medics with clerical healing, wands and firearms, high fantasy and military. There's unfortunately some stuff in there that I cannibalized for WtC that needs to be changed so it's not a repeat, but nothing structural, and there are a lot of plot beats that I enjoy in both the 15K words that are already written and what's in the notes. I did not put a bunch of work into this one, but it was one of those cases where I was reading through old stuff and got enough of a head of steam that it latched onto me again. (I also don't know enough about the military or how to write that kind of stuff, which is one of the reasons that this fic never got my full attention.)
The Lot is a story that's basically just "the backrooms, but with cars". It think it was inspired by a tumblr post, but probably won't be finished, since it's probably novella length. Currently 9K words, more a character study than it is about people stuck in an infinite parking lot and scrounging off what they can find in glove compartments.
Kitchen Sink is a bureauporn/bureaupunk novel about the agency created to deal with the rise of mutants circa 1977. Currently a mere 9K words, but the plan was for each successive part of the book to focus on another genre being discovered by the department, so you'd get a book with wizards, with vampires, with aliens, etc., mostly with a focus on how these are handled on an administrative level. No way I would ever be able to sell it, unfortunately.
Robot Team Isekai (not its real title) is about a van full of kids on their way to a robotics team meet that get transported to another world where their individual specialties grant them awesome abilities in a "your hyperfixation makes you perfectly adapted to the fantasy world" kind of way, but for five people with different hyperfixations. 2K words, probably will never see the light of day.
Full Meta vol. 2 is a novel about a group of high school students who get metafiction powers, so like ... one girl gets the ability to read the text of the novel they're in whenever someone is engaging in exposition, one guy can read the flashbacks, someone can read all the romance scenes or whatever, and they have a dysfunctional time dealing with each other through college and into adulthood. I fully recognize that calling it "Full Meta vol. 2" when no first volume exists is a gimmick title and would be confusing enough to immediately turn people away.
Dark Wizard of Donkerk was an old NaNo novel, but got halfway dev edited before my dev editor on that one flaked. I think it's a good story, just a matter of getting into the guts of it and making it great, but that takes time. 173K words, but this is old old. If you like rough, unpolished creative output, you can read it on my website.
Untitled Hermione/Draco fanfic is, uh ... I guess according to the logs was something that I put effort into in late 2023. I have read vanishingly little HP fanfic, and I'm sure there's a ton of this stuff, and that some of it is even good. This one doesn't adhere too much to canon or fanon, and is mostly about trying to write a realistic racist who falls in love with someone he's racist against. 14K words, I cannot believe I added anything to this recently, but apparently I have.
Technically by the criteria set out, I should count all seven of the NaNo test chapters I wrote. Of those, the only ones that have retained any brain space are "The Inevitable Return of Nathaniel Greene" and "Dungeon Core".
There are a few more that are technically outside the arbitrary time limit of one year, but I'm going to include them because I have thought about them in the last year (and will not include the ones that I have not thought about).
Of Witches and Wizards is what I thought was a romance but was told does not fit the apparently pretty exacting mold of a "romance novel". It's about a widowed witch whose two sons have left for college and a wizard who travels the world writing about places for a travel guide. They fall in love. Tons of worldbuilding stuff as they visit different cities and see the breadth and beauty of magic in the world. 15K words right now, was going to be a nice and slender novel.
Eager Readers in Your Area was a short story I wrote a year and a half ago. The WIP is a novel-length version of that about ... art, artists, AI art, dealing with people online, and a bunch of other stuff. I wrote an outline I thought was quite good, but if the short story is the first chapter, then I want an equally good and tight second chapter, and that's hard to do.
Slaver Slayer (not final title) was about a slave who assassinates a high-ranking member of the kingdom and through an oversight gets a magical artifact that might possibly let her kill her way through the monarchy in an attempt to end the institution of slavery. The other protagonist is a detective who's grappling with his complicity in the system and is trying to stop her. Made it to 13K words. Another one of those that was outlined to be a nice tight novel.
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WIP WEDNESDAY - 21/06/23
(I mean it’s technically Friday now between timezones and spoons but have this otherwise I’ll keep forgetting) My first WIP Wednesday! Thanks @theviridianbunny for the tag! I’ve been really getting stuck into modding - as well as falling into my usual mod habit of ‘start like six project at once and end up with a million WIP files' but I guess I’ll talk about the major ones.
Graphic design is my passion ...
(Long) rambling about mods I'm making + things I've learned below the cut~
My V’s tatt project is still ongoing, and I’ve (somewhat begrudgingly) been trying out Substance Painter to work on bits of it, mainly polishing seams between UV maps. It’s definitely got a lot of benefits, especially for graphic placement in really tricky areas (like anywhere in the entire head mesh region for example) but I still think a lot of the heavy work will still be done in Photoshop so I’ll probably be writing up both experiences with them when I do that tutorial I keep hinting at for complex tatt work. I’ve started drafting a tumblr tutorial but I wonder if that’s the best format, maybe a PDF? Google doc? Github wikis look cool? (tho I think I need to pay for that) - if y’all got suggestions for tutorial formats pls let me know!
As for the other arguably overly-ambitious-project-where-I-bit-off-more-than-I-could-chew ...
H A I R.
Hair has been the bane of my existence for about the past week( ... weeks? Maybe two?), most of it involving cursing, a lot of reverse-engineering game meshes and smashing my head against blender. But if not already evident from my monowire post - I am a stubborn bitch with too much time on my hands so even though there were at least two moments where I wanted to curl up on the floor under my desk and just stay there - we got there.
This all started because my favourite hair mod which I cannot split from my V’s identity was acting funky and the shape of it had been altered since a physics update. It wasn’t her anymore. So I needed new hair. I tried editing the existing hair. I tried importing the old hair mesh. I tried so many things and they didn’t work out one way or they threw a million errors or there were an obnoxious amount of verts.
I even tried looking for replacement mod hair. None of them fit, all of them felt too ‘clean’ for my V. So I just concluded: FINE. I’ll make my own damn hair. From scratch. At least then I’ll actually KNOW what’s going on with the mesh, right?
Problem with hair is tutorials are very limited in respect to Cyberpunk, so I had to learn a lot of this by myself and looking at other processes used for building game hair. I’ve had a previous stint in game design at uni but it was very introductory and more broad-strokes concepts not specific stuff like what ‘real time hair’ is and how you actually go about placing hair-cards (there’s a million different ways btw) but after another 3 days smashing my head against blender I finally got shit to work to a satisfactory level using hair tools for blender and the particle hair grooming system (not the 3.5 blender system, maybe more on that at some point).
Putting together the hair cards I was 120% convinced this was going to blow up in my face, primarily through vert count. But this hair tool plugin? Alarmingly efficient. I was frequently checking my work against Alt's hair mesh (one I was planning on rigging to) and here's the final-ish stats -
This is with only Alt's hair mesh selected (no cap) and then only my mesh(s - lots of layering to build it up), and by comparison I felt I'd built up the density of a chinchilla. This is not a brag, this is mostly genuine confusion over how efficient this plugin is, all I did was smack around hair curves. It did all the UV mapping junk on the fly.
Although structurally complete, I still consider this a WIP (yes I know there's a reeeeal fun vert funkiness in that second render, it's been fixed) since I'm having to go back and fine-tune some of the UV's the plugins mapped that I'm not happy with and generally figuring out my density problem because if anything, after putting it in-game it felt too dense.
Because yes, somehow I got it in game.
WITH. PHYSICS.
This may have driven me absolutely up the wall between having to learn blender from scratch then what the heck real time hair is and how that works etc. etc. but ... god, seeing her move back from the mirror and just feeling that instant catharsis of 'IT'S HER!' made it so. Damn. Worth it.
It looks too thick - this might be because I chucked in the 'doubled' feature Wolvenkit comes with because I hadn't spent any time doing backfaces. But it also might be because it's black? That's going to need investigating.
The physics need a lot of work too, I did a pretty rushed weight painting job last night on a merged version of the mesh because I was worried whether it was even viable and I'd already dumped an insane amount of hours into this between trying to salvage the old hair and building a new one (with some more bells and whistles. Mainly - curly). That wasn't without it's issues -
This almost fucking cracked me, given this was one of the issues I was experiencing before trying to fix an existing mesh mod. Turns out I was just being dumb and forgetting to export the armature, which I'd thought I wasn't supposed to do after having blender throw a bunch of errors on other hair attempts. I gave it a try after one last shot and boom. Worked. (I dunno what those errors were about man but now I know armature? very important).
Will I release this hair? no damn clue, depends on if I can get it to a level I feel is 'releasable'. I already know what I'm calling it though - Venatrix her side-handle I've decided on.
I look forward to adapting it into maybe a comb-back version, as well as a tied up version, so I can show off both her undercut + have the option of NOT hiding every damn tatt I've obsessed over placing on her neck haha.
In other news -
My much-needed wacom tablet replacement arrived (as well as other things I was looking forward to 👀) meaning my Wacom Cintiq, workhorse of ten years can finally enjoy her retirement. Her controls were getting funky, she had a few dead pixels but man. I'm convinced they won't make them like her ever again. Either way she's done unfortunately - upgrading my monitor to 2k made this painfully obvious. I don't think it's even running in full HD, it's that old. And with Phantom Liberty coming out this year? I'm probably going to need a new videocard and DVI compatibility isn't really a thing anymore.
So for future I think I'll just stick to the basic tablet set up, invest in screens. Also now I FINALLY know what her hair is gonna look like and with the tablet here, I can get back to work on the tattoo bodysuit.
Anyways, that's it for now! (Jesus Christ did you really read all of this? If you did you're a fucking trooper). Sorry for the extended ramble but MAN I did a lot, I needed to yell.
Till next time Chooms! Thanks again @theviridianbunny for the tag~ <3
Oh shit wait, have the blender renders before I forget because hahah I figured out how to do that too lol -
#cyberpunk 2077#my mods#wip wednesday#kerytalk#god I am sorry this is a fucking essay but I had a lot to talk about I guess#one can do a lot in a week with nothing but the power of autistic hyperfocus and the love for one's OC blorbo ok#cp2077 mods#cp2077 modding
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Hi, Merry Christmas! What's your plans for 2025, can we expect some new stories apart from those planned in Story Finder in the near future??? It's just a question, don't feel any pressure. All the best!!!
Hi, Merry Christmas 😊🥰🎄
Oh yes, I've got so many ideas and I've fallen way behind on requests in recent months, many of which I have early drafts for. Even though I've published a lot of requested stories recently more come in faster than I can write them!
Let me take this opportunity to tell you what stories I hope to publish in 2025
I'll divide this post in four parts:
Already written stories
Planned requests that may become bigger collections of stories
Other planned requests (one-off stories)
Most Memorable Sexual Experiences of... series
I'm in a bit of an inspiration slum this past week, probably because of the holidays and everything that comes with that. I haven't written as much as I usually would. I also promised some "Year in Review" posts which I got stuck on. I've decided to forget about those (sorry for the false promise) to instead focus on the new year and new content 😀
Your questions inspired me to review my plans for 2025 😊 I want to be careful with announcing stuff that I haven't at least written a full first draft for, because the risk is significant that even though I *want* to write a specific story the inspiration to do so never comes. That's the kind of stuff that can create severe writer's block and sink a blog, if I put too much pressure on myself.
So please take this post with a grain of salt. If it's not written already, there are no guarantees! But I also want to structure my own thoughts, so this post serves as a reminder to myself what I'm working on and what I want to achieve on this blog in 2025 – and since you asked, I'm happy to share it with you 😀
1. Stories that *will* be published at some point
If I've written a full first draft, you will see the story at some point. These are the stories I add to the "Planned Stories" section of the Up-coming Stories page on Story Finder, which I have now updated to include some more content to look forward to.
💬 Backstage Sex with NCT Taeyong (*Requested*)
"Backstage Sex" is not a series, but I've done several similar stories under this umbrella. On Story Finder they're listed as the Backstage Sex collection. These stories have several things in common: they're wild, they're straight (x female reader), they take place backstage at a concert, and there's dirty talk.
I've now written one for Taeyong, as a response to two different requests: "Hi, can you write a story of taeyong fucking with fan during the nct world tour?" and "We need more Taeyong here, so I want to throw in a few ideas. 3. Taeyong backstage sex (straight, wild)."
💬 Backstage Sex with WayV Xiaojun (*Requested*)
Similar to the Taeyong story above, I have written one for Xiaojun. This too is the result of two different requests: "hi can i request xiapjun wayv rpugh sec with breeding kink?" and "xiaojun smut when he doing it on a backstage or maybe in practice room?"
NCT Jaemin Has Sex With an Older Woman
*Sigh*. This one has been listed on Story Finder for a while now, and I have announced it previously here on the blog. So why haven't you seen it yet? Because I announced it too soon.
The story is done (almost). The loose ending, which ties together all the previous "NCT Dream with Older Woman" stories, has been written. But one small yet crucial part is missing: some of the actual sex scene.
I don't know why this one bothers me so. I just can't get the words out without it feeling flat. I will make it in 2025 even if I have to release it in its current state, but there's no telling when it will be.
SERIES: NCT 127 Dating Ban Story #1 – Haechan
If you followed the NCT Dream Dating Ban (gay x male reader stories) you already know that I'm working on a follow-up: the 127 Dating Ban 😋 Similar style, similar setup (one story per member in which you visit as their gay friend), but with a bit more plot to connect the stories.
The problem? There are 8 members and I've only written the first story. I'm stuck on all the others despite knowing the plot already, and who knows if I'll ever get un-stuck?
As a worst case scenario though, I'll still release the first story (Haechan) and that might be the only story (instead of a full series). That's why I can comfortably announce it. It's already written, so of course you should get to read it! (And maybe publishing it will help me get inspired to write the rest...)
NCT Dream "Fireworks" Display (Cumshots)
You already have four published gay "Quick Fix" stories. And you already know about two of the remaining four stories of "Season 1" from the Upcoming page on Story Finder: Chenle masturbating in the back of a van, and TXT Yeonjun & Soobin's post-performance sex.
"NCT Dream New Year's Fireworks Display" is another story that is part of this, and I originally intended on publishing it around NYE. However, I'm still missing the final story of the season, and I want to post the remaining four stories in connection with one another. For that reason, this story is on hold until I'm ready.
This little story plays on the NCT Dream Dating Ban series by the way, when the seven members have discovered that they can use each other for their sexual pleasure without you being there 😜
I couldn't tell you when any of the above will be out, but the fact that they're already written means that I will publish them at some point (after editing and proofreading).
2. Planned requests that may result in several longer stories
Since you asked, and since I know there are a lot of requests with little to no info on whether or not they will ever get a published story, I can also give you an unofficial/very preliminary list of current requests that I have started writing and want to finish, or am seriously considering.
Please note that just because these are in my head right now, it doesn't mean they will get a story. This list is wishful thinking on my part.
First off, there are several gay requests that might become something bigger with multiple stories in the same universe:
💬 All gay Lucas Wong requests
If you've paid attention you've noticed I have a little Lucas mini universe going on. It started with the straight MMSE of Lucas pre- and post-scandal stories, and was expanded with a gay mid-scandal story.
I've received quite a few gay Lucas requests (mostly from the same person I think – that's right, I see you 😉❤️), and some that mention this link specifically.
Many include non-NCT and non-WayV idols as well, and I do like the idea of bringing more industry idols into the mix that aren't related to the groups I normally write about. Such requests often get overlooked because I don't connect with them, but within the scope of the Lucas universe I do feel inspired. While I haven't started writing any of these I am considering several.
Oh, and to the anonymous person who keeps sending them: I love you for it, but please give me more time to focus on the ones I already have 😅 When new ones keep coming I get distracted and unfocused, resulting in none of them being written ❤️❤️❤️
Check out the Lucas idol page on Story Finder to see all relevant requests.
💬 Boyfriends Wonho & Hyungwon
I've already teased more Wonho & Hyngwon content. There are several requests about this to follow up the only story published so far. Check out the Wonho idol page to see them.
💬 TXT Taehyun's man from his MMSE story
In the Most Memorable Sexual Experience of TXT bonus story Taehyun ended up having sex with an unknown man (in part 3 I believe). I then got this request, which might be the start of a new universe of one-shots about this relationship: Have you ever thought about writing a story of txt Taehyun himself with the man form the bonus mmse TXT story? Chemistry between them was amazing and I'd love to read their further story.
💬 Ten & Taeyong's Sexual Relationship
Taeyong made an appearance in this recent story about gay Ten trying straight sex. SPOILER: By the end it's clear that Taeyong is gay too, and that him and Ten have had sex before.
I want to explore this sexual relationship between Ten and Taeyong further, which has also recently been requested.
3. Other planned requests
I have already published 23 stories as direct results of requests. But there are currently 86 requests listed on Story Finder that I haven't written yet 😳😍❤️ (Sincerely, thank you for sending requests!)
Naturally, I won't ever write a story for all of them, and I'm sure that more will come faster than I can write. But to give you an idea, here's a shorter list of the requests I currently and genuinely want to make something of (other than those listed above).
Some are gay (🌈), some are straight, and some are already works in progress (WIP=I've started writing them).
💬🌈 Hey! Do you think you could write a Haechan x Bottom Male Reader one-shot? The details are up to you! (WIP)
💬 Can you make a story in which the reader is dating Jeno while the reader's best friend is dating Jaemin. They then have a double date and then somehow leads to Jeno and Jaemin fucking each others girlfriends. So basically girlfriend switch (WIP)
💬 Can I request a story about NCT Jisung having sex with Haechan sister, but these days Jisung is more experienced and better, which leads to mind-blowing sex. (This is loosely related to Jisung's mmse story.)Please!! (WIP)
💬 Heyy, would you like to write a story about Mark and Jungwoo who're having threesome with a woman but during the act gay chemistry between nct boys is felt and visible??
💬🌈 your txt ot5 stories are the hottest thing ever, you really should write more ot5 or member x member stuff in the future <3
💬 hi, I want to give you some ideas for the new Quick Fix stories. 2. A girl riding wild on jungkook (WIP)
💬 hi, I want to give you some ideas for the new Quick Fix stories. 1. Yeonjun has sex with his gf after concert
💬🌈 Can you write a Top!Jungkook x Bottom!Fanboy Male Reader one-shot, please? Something kinda alike to your "Backstage Sex With JK" one-shot
💬🌈 hey, could you do a gay story with btm yangyang who is not a virgin but he has first time with male (WIP)
💬 Hello, could you write milf story about jungkook?
💬 Would you write a story about KUN having a one night stand and later when he wakes up in the morning and she's sitll there, they're starting fking again. Btw your blog is amazing!!🤩 (WIP)
💬🌈 Hey! May i, please, rq a Johnny x Bottom M/R smut where M/R feels jealous over Johnny's overall filtry tendencies and Johnny decides to give him the sex of his life? (Preferably missionary with lots of romantic phrases thrown) Thanks!
💬 can u do nerd stalker mark lee who’s literally obsessed with the school slut (WIP)
Do you recognize any of the above as something you've submitted? Hopefully you'll see at least some of them in 2025 😊
Oh, and one more thing: remember I once promised an Eric Sohn story? Another mistake on my part. I've tried, again and again, but failed. While I haven't rejected the idea I've given up for now which is why you don't see him on the list above. I promised too much too soon, sorry :(
4. A new "Most Memorable Sexual Experiences of..." group?
Finally, there's the series that started this whole blog: Most Memorable Sexual Experiences of NCT (and WayV), which was then followed-up with Most Memorable Sexual Experiences of TXT.
The big question: Will there be a third installment with a new group in 2025?
This is definitely something I want and hope to do. I have a few stories written for a specific (secret) group. For several groups actually, but there is one I really want to do.
I've been stuck on it for months though, and I've accepted the fact that, maybe, it will never happen.
If so I'll release the stories I have as one-shots instead (like I did with BTS Jimin who had sex with his wife on a beach). But I also don't want to do that too soon and then realize I could have used them as part of a series after all (if inspiration returns).
In short, I want to do this, I have ideas for it, but these longer stories are extremely time consuming and I don't know if my motivation will last.
Time will tell 😊
This became a really long post, written on Christmas Eve even, when I should be doing other stuff 😅 But I'm glad you asked the question, because this gave me a chance to organize my thoughts. I'll bookmark this post and work through it for 2025 – in a year we'll know how accurate this post turned out to be 😜
#smut#kpop smut#nct smut#nct#smut writing#nct dream#nct 127#wayv#txt smut#wayv xiaojun#wayv lucas#wayv xiaojun smut#wayv lucas smut#monsta x wonho#wonho smut#monsta x hyungwon#hyungwon smut#txt#nct dream smut#nct haechan smut#nct 127 smut#txt taehyun smut#txt taehyun#nct ten smut#nct ten#nct taeyong smut#nct taeyong#nct jaemin smut#nct jaemin#just a shitload of smut basically
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hello its me im a stranger in your inbox brought here by the allure of gojo fics
but LISTEN this is actually wild. at least from my pov. so i'm looking up omegaverse gojo fics
so i come across one of your omega!gojo fics and i love it, it's fun, it's novel, gojo as an omega is so valid actually, very in character, omega tf out of that bitch and i run to your blog to find more of it
they were all delicious works and gosh i love how you write gojo in general. man you have got. SO MUCH. of the vibes. the perfect vibes. i've got tons of gojo fic stuff in my drafts, a lot of it being character study, and i see your character ramblings on him AND IM LIKE
YES!!! THAT'S IT THAT'S HIM THAT'S THE BRAND!!! THE TRUE GOJO!! THE CORRECT GOJO SATORU!!! intensely lonely actually but too far removed from the regular human experience to understand how to properly connect. i see all of your opinions on them and theyre so correct
but then like i'm scrolling through your blog anD YOU WROTE!!!! IT'S YOU!!! YOU WROTE THAT FIC!!!! "ariadne's thread"!!!
i read that fic ages ago when i was first descended into the madness that is this fandom. i read like a million other fics and a couple weeks later that fic was still stuck in my head and it's the reason i started bookmarking fics for jjk now.
you also wrote that soulmate fic with the fanta soda?? which i also ended up reading??? that was AWESOME, i've been wanting to write soulmate stuff for jjk forever and it was such a sweet romance that was actually like normal and removed from the actual curse stuff
in retrospect it's actually super interesting. ariadne's thread is all about gojo and the aftermath of his spectacular life, and the soulmate fic is actually all about the reader and the trials of their mundane life. and in ariadne's thread gojo finds his peace by appreciating the trivialities of your regular life when he no longer cares about his
anyways sorry if i'm blabbing too much at you. it just felt like such a crazy coincidence, but only because i am apparently blind to author names on Ao3 XD
your pinned says you're shy so rlly don't feel pressured to reply to this, i just enjoy rambling in other people's inboxes
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Hello, welcome to the omega!gojo quicksand pit; there is no way out <3
Thank you, this is so sweet!! 😭🥺💕🍰🧋It’s funny because I do have fics that are more reader-centric despite being about characters. I think it’s because there’s sometimes world building that has to happen in reader’s POV and I try not to switch perspectives too much.
Strangely enough, I think gojo really has an appreciation for everyday things. He likes B-movies and street food, he buys tacky souvenirs, he takes the train. He’s like… 20% a normal dude actually
#kissies for u <3#you are actually not the first person that this has happened to JSJSJJDJD#I am an enigma#and this blog is chaos#also getting this was so funny because I saw a bunch of gojo posts in my notifs and I was like oh someone is Going Through It with this man#write soulmate aus with me 🫴#soulmate au is ultimate trope#mint talks
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ok. a genuine question. how do u guys write 20-30k *chapters* bc i will outline fics minutely or i will just let myself start writing based off a vibe & either way i will get 600 words out of maybe. two hours of work. on a good day with no distractions/interruptions, & i very much do not have an uninterrupted two hours to write very often, so you can imagine how slowly things get written T_T so i’m interested if there’s any aspect of any of your writing processes that really enables u guys to write so much or if it’s not really something you think about? anyways i really like ur guys’s work, & thank you for deciding to write for byler bc i know me and a lot of people enjoy it a lot. thanks!!
hello !! this is a super valid question and i’ll try my best to answer it for you 😗✌️
andi infamously writes a lot faster than thea and i do (she finished draft 1 of chapter 3 in like. two days. which was so scary. i’m in awe of her fr) but she has also spent a lot of time editing ch3 so it’s definitely not like these chapters are publish-ready in a short amount of time by any means! it took thea a couple of months total to fully write + edit ch1 and it took me about 3.5 weeks to write ch2 and another two weeks to edit it which is part of the reason we’ve spaced out our posting schedule like we have — we put a lot of effort and care into these updates and we want to give ourselves as much time as possible to get ahead before all 3 of us inevitably get so super busy with work and/or school in the fall!! so while we do write a lot, please don’t think we are so insanely speedy about it because unless we are having Really Good Writing Days, that’s definitely not the case. sometimes we do have days where we are really in the zone and write more than usual, but at least for me, this is so so so rare. whatever i write in this time gets heavily edited because so much of it was nonsensical brain vomit LOL
as far as writing process goes, i think one of the things that motivates us a lot is that we genuinely do just talk about this au constantlyyyyy like we’re always coming up with silly little hcs or drawing for it or adding to the Lore ™️so we’re always getting inspired to write! all three of us are definitely people who use writing as a way to relax or even reward ourselves after a long day; we would probably die if we had to go too long unable to :/ messages like “i can’t wait to get home and write after work today” or “i’m going to write a little bit of ___ before bed because i deserve it” are very commonly found in our gc because we really just look forward to it so much! as for our scary word counts, i feel like there is a lot of worldbuilding in this universe specifically, and pacing is really important to us — we want to make sure introductions and set-up to a scene and character interactions are meaningful and flow naturally, and building tension (which is a hallmark of this fic hehe) does take some time, which can definitely add up word count-wise.
for the most part, none of us usually have a solid few hours to sit and write either (unless it’s on our days off or after work if we’re not too tired) and we get a lot of writing done in chunks! we hold each other accountable for short check-ins (“ask me for a snip in 30 minutes”) which is super helpful when you’re stuck, because it kind of forces you to get Something down without worrying if it’s super polished and edited and perfect. if you’re writing on your own, something i’ve started doing lately is setting a 15 minute timer and just seeing how much i can get done in that time, and then setting another and doing it again (up until however much time you have to write that day). i’ve found that the artificial deadline helps break the monotony of sitting in front of your computer for Hours on end with nothing to show for it bc TRUST we’ve all been there and it sucks so bad 😔✊
this got super long so i apologize but i hope at least a little bit of it was helpful! it definitely helps that we are constantly feeding into each other (i.e: having brainrot) and offering inspiration and advice, which does wonders for creative flow tbh. we’re definitely not cranking these chapters out as quickly as people might seem to think — thea started chapter four, which won’t be posted for about a month, maybe a week or two ago. i just started chapter 5 — about 6 weeks away — yesterday lol so we do take our time! don’t be scared by the giant chapters, we just had a lot of content we wanted to include in each one and are in too deep to take anything out 🥳🥳 thank you for the question! good luck with your writing we believe in you 🫡
#suni talk about our writing process in a succinct manner challenge#i love these questions#unfortunately the answer to most of them is that we’re insane#we take so much time writing and then editing these so don’t be fooled!#as u can tell by this giant response#we just have shit to say.#asks
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((Hey! Again, just wanted to say that I'm still alive ^^; As I said before, the interview went really well last week. Got my fingerprints done on Thursday morning. Had a call back yesterday morning. Tomorrow I have to go fill out some paperwork at 1, then, after that's finished, I could start working literally any time. It's going to be shorter shifts at the start, and it's only a temp / sub position (though it could turn to full time in the future) so, for now, I'll probably be working quite a bit / nearly full time until the person I'm covering for comes back. Then it's kind of... work whenever they need me. Which means probably having to get a second part time job just to be safe ^^; But hopefully that won't happen until well after Christmas.
Anyway- I can't make any promises about when I'll get to stuff, I've been trying to gather things up to put in my drafts to do when I have motivation. But for right now, between the move, unpacking, holidays, visiting family, babysitting (which has been, like, 3 times in the past week alone and the kids are great but they're 3 and 5 so... yeah, it can feel like a lot), and having been at least mildly sick for the last 3 weeks straight... I've just had a lot of brain fog and not a lot of motivation to write. However-! I'm trying to get back into READING, which always helps me get back into WRITING when I'm stuck! I just have to find a book that'll hook me enough that it gets my brain reeling again! (I'm also gonna try to sit down tonight and just WRITE a little, even if it's just short replies, so here's hoping that helps! Sometimes I just have to force myself to write some ^^;)
So, yeah! Book recs are always appreciated (though I can't promise I'll be able to read everything that's recommended because I have very limited $ right now), as are song recs (sometimes songs give me fun ideas~) Also, seriously, 1,000,000,000% always feel free to toss plot ideas / AU ideas / ship songs or playlists / whatever my way because they get my brain going sometimes! I know I've not been especially chatty lately, but I promise that I'm at least READING everything you send! So don't hold back! Sometimes all it takes is one fun little idea to get my mind running enough to start writing again xD
Love you guys! I hope your December is going well <3))
#ooc.#((This is in NO WAY saying that you have to throw ideas at me mind you! I just mean that-#if you have ideas already and you've been worrying about bothering me or whatever with them because I've been so absent-#don't be! Send 'em my way! I always WANT to write the cogs in my head are just jammed and any little thing helps to get them moving xD))
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Super soft intimacy: sliding hands under their clothes ||Rosario x Luchino|| I love the idea it's when in his lizard form cause he needs warmth and Rosario is the only heat source Luchino has XD
Super soft intimacy prompts (accepting for IDV faves!) thank you so much for this omg i also really love that idea ;w; fortunately for Luchino, Rosario naturally tends to run warm :3
The weather was unseasonably chilly for summer, owing at least partly to how overcast the sky had been for the last week. While most of the Manor’s residents were unbothered, the brisk climate made Luchino sluggish. By now he was used to taking necessary precautions, but something that could not always be accounted for was the mistakes of others. A window left open posed few problems to anyone else, but Luchino was so focused on the paper he was writing that by the time he noticed the draft, his limbs were stiffening up. He let out a huff of irritation. “Accidenti.”
Worst-case scenario, he would be stuck there all night in a state of torpor, essentially frozen in place until some warm-blooded individual came along to open the window and light a fire. It wasn’t the first time such a thing had happened. But that was before Rosario had been brought back to the Manor. With any luck…
“Luchino? You’re up so late.”
A fond smile tugged at the corner of his mouth at the familiar voice. “Flawless timing, caro mio. I’m afraid I was lost in my work and didn’t notice a chill creeping in.”
Rosario immediately reacted with sympathy. “Oh, dear. I’ll close the window. Maybe a cup of tea will help?”
“Grazie mille. However, before you leave to put the kettle on…”
He crooked a claw to beckon them near. They obeyed, uttering a soft gasp of shock as he folded them in his arms. “Oh…you’re so cold…”
Luchino curled as much of his body as he could fit around their comparatively smaller frame with a gusty sigh of contentment. “And you’re so pleasantly warm.”
He slid his hands up the back of their shirt, eliciting an undignified squawk as they jumped at the coldness of his skin. “Luchino-!”
“Sorry,” he chuckled without a trace of remorse.
Despite their outcry and poor attempt at a rebuking frown, they rested their head on his chest and felt relieved to hear his heart rate picking up to a more normal pace. After the initial shock, his touch actually felt extremely pleasant, his scaly skin gliding smoothly over their own in gentle caresses. Now was their turn to sigh contentedly. “Let me know when you want your tea. I can stay here indefinitely otherwise.”
Another chuckle. “Good. I’m not nearly warm enough yet.”
He gave them a little squeeze. As he’d hoped, cool weather wasn’t nearly as frustrating an ordeal with Rosario around. If it got him tea and cuddles, he thought, he might just leave the window open on purpose from time to time.
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((Life for me has pretty much been: Wake up at 8am. Desperately try to get more sleep until 9 (usually I doze off for, like, 2 or 3 minutes at a time and that's it). Get ready for work. Leave between 9:30 and 9:45. Work from 10-1:30-ish (it's supposed to be until 1:15 but I'm never out of there on time). Get home around 1:45. Leave for work part 2 around 2:30. That goes from at least 3-7, usually closer to 7:20 when I finally leave (sometimes stay until 8 or 9). Get home between 7:30 and 7:45. Make a quick dinner, shower, etc. Around 8:30, watch Ba.tt.le.st.ar Gal.act.ica with a couple of friends (if things work out, this couple may eventually be more than just my friends, but we'll see how that goes ^^;) until about 10:30, then chat with them for a bit after that, usually until almost 11. Bedtime routine (wash face, brush teeth, etc etc). Then stare at drafts until midnight when I realize I need to get to bed because I know I'll be up earlier than I need to be. Then the weekends have consisted a lot of babysitting, running errands, and trying to finish unpacking here and there because it's been 4 months and finding time to unpack has been a pain in the ass with everything that's constantly going on. Also, I spent 3 hours on Saturday putting together a kitchen cabinet- thankfully we have extra screwdrivers because the phillip's-head screwdriver they included was such bad quality that it was messed up and unusable less than half an hour in because the metal of it was so soft -_-
ANYWAY- Work both shifts the rest of the week (except Friday, but only because I don't have to do the second shift, still have the first). Saturday we're going out for my dad's birthday (which was actually last week, but we couldn't make things work for going out last weekend like we'd wanted to). Saturday night is also game night, as usual. Then Sunday I *should* have some free time, but I also desperately need to get some cleaning done that's being semi-neglected throughout the week. So what I'm saying is Sundays are chore days.
If things go well, I should, soon, only be working the first shift in another week or two (with the second shift just being Fridays and when absolutely needed)? Right now both my sister and I are stuck doing the second shift every night (and have been since before mid-winter break last month) because the custodial staff is down two people (one girl broke her leg and has been out since October, I think? And the other has been on temporary (paid) probation since early February while they consider whether or not to fire him and go through all the legal jargon of all of that). But they should be coming to a decision about that soon, I would hope, which would mean that if he gets to come back, then we won't be working nights unless someone calls out. And if he doesn't come back, then they should be hiring someone to fill his place so we'll just have to wait until someone snags the job (hopefully, in that case, they'll offer it to my sister first because usually they try to offer it to substitutes and she really wants it, but we'll see). They're also slowly running out of budget for substitutes, so, that's something to consider, too.
ANYWAY- TL;DR: I've basically had no writing time / personal time and that's why I've not been around. Hopefully work stuff will calm down soon because leaving the house around 9:30am and not really getting to be home until usually after 7:30pm (sometimes 8:30pm or 9:30pm) has been exhausting ^^;
I'll try to be around on Sunday (probably focus on Rogue's blog because I've been writing the fic in my head at work most nights so I have a lot of muse for her AND her blog has been sorely neglected for at least a few months now WHICH MAKES ME SO MAD AT MYSELF). If I can even get one or two asks done, then I'll consider that an accomplishment at this point!
I'm so sorry about the long absence. I'm sorry to everyone for neglecting replies. I'm sorry to everyone I was writing with and haven't had the time / social and physical energy / emotional capacity to reach back out to in a while. That's on me. I dropped the ball on that. I've never been good at ooc communication anyway, tbh. I was really hoping things would be a little bit calmer after I moved, but instead they went in exactly the opposite direction and haven't really slowed down any since November. In fact, they've just gotten more hectic over the last few months ^^;
I adore you all so much and I really do hope that I can get back to writing soon. I've been missing it (and all of you) terribly.
Take care and I'll try to be around soon <3))
#ooc.#long post#((Sorry for the rambling. I've just been gone so long that I feel like you're all owed a proper explanation.))#((I miss being here. I need to stop giving all of my free time away to other people and give myself a couple days a week#that are to focus on myself and writing again.))
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Writing schedule v2
So by previous writing schedule has been taking a bit long, I know that. Mostly it has been life happening and reduced amount of writing time this year, however, writer's block has been taken a toll as well.
For the first part, I can at least say that I have no intentions of abandoning writing at the moment. Though life is life you know. I'll try to keep a better pace than I have had this year, but in no way expect a chap every week. Busy dude.
For the second part, I have decided to restructure the way I schedule my writing. In the past I have written whatever I felt like, with some stories updated often (by my standards), while others were left in oblivion. That's the reason I changed to a fixed schedule, though braving through writer's block on a stuck story didn't help, especially when I could have made progress elsewhere instead of being stuck.
So, I've decided to make adjustments (an evolving process). Mostly, I'll try to keep my priority list, but whenever I am stuck I'll move to write the next story in my list and so on, while constantly getting back to the first story to see if I can get it unblocked. Here are the ground rules:
I am still not committing to any dates, as I am terribly slow, people still know that. The schedule is for fic writing order, not dates of publishing.
Still giving more priority to updating the fics that have stayed the longest without update, and to my Ron Weasley series.
I will still keep publishing new stories, because is fun and refreshing and already have stuff written about a bunch of them.
I have a very long schedule, I will put all of my active stories with progress so you can get an idea of how much work is pending on your favorite and how many stories I have to go through before I revisit it.
That being said, here it is:
Rainbow Hermione. Chapter 2. (Sunshine) Haven't written a single word about chap2
(New Story)... I have a few in line
Uncrushed. Chapter 5. (L'Esperto Turistico - Hermione's POV) I have 0 words written of this one, but it is going to be a riot to work on.
Ron Weasley and the Chamber of Secrets. Chapter 7. (Purebloods and Parchments). I have not started with this one yet.
Harry Potter and the Ship Wars. Chapter 5 (The Ship That Must Not Be Named). Solid first scene completed, but haven't started with the rest.
Back In Time: The Lightning Thief. Chapter 7 (Grover IV). Passable draft which I need to work on.
Broken Conscience. Chap 2 (Afterwards) I have like 10-20% of the chap done.
Harry Potter and the Founders' Scroll. Chapter 4. (The Fresh Appeal of Ancient Runes). I have literally 0 words written about this one. It might take a while
Harry Potter and the Unity Cup. Chapter 2 (The Unity Trials). I have zero words of this.
Harry Potter and the Halfblood Weasleys. Chapter 10 (The Woe's of Mr Malfoy). I have 0 words for this one, but know exactly where it's going.
The Marauders and the Prisoner of Azkaban. Chapter 3 (The Boy Who Lived - Lily's POV). I have an old draft to work for this one. Shouldn't take long to finish once I return to this story.
Potters, Weasleys and the Son of the Legend. Chapter 5 (Tidings of War - Ron's POV). Next chap is like 80% done. I still plan to get the previous ones checked by my beta.
Hermione is an Owl. Chapter 6 (Tarantallegra) 0% done.
Mighty Morphin' Potter Rangers. Chapter 3. (Lavender's POV). 0% done.
Harry Potter and the Gatekeeper's Book. Chapter 6. 0% done
The Wholesome WIP Where They Blush And Hold Hands Because Jon Doesn't Write Smut. Chapter 2. 0% done.
(UPDATED IN 4/2/2025)
I'll update this when new progress is done.
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One day I'm going to figure out how to have some consistency with writing, but that day is not today.
For the past month, I've been poking at Project #1 (completed novel I'm currently in the process of querying, but which I randomly decided mid-submission probably worked better as dark fantasy than romantasy). I hit a snag about two weeks ago with said poking, and the draft has been in an uncomfortable state of disassembly ever since. I have made no appreciable progress in that time.
Deciding I didn't like being idle and stuck, I decided to switch gears and work, for a little while, on Project #2 (ancient story idea that I started over twenty years ago, have tried getting off the ground several times since, but never made progress on). This time, I'm *sure* I have a winning variant, because now we're making it sci-fi! I proceed to map out about 90% of the plot over the course of a four -mile hike earlier in the week.
But wait! says my OCD brain. It's almost the end of the month, and Starting New Things is exclusively for the first of the month! You're right, brain (say I). Maybe we can do some exercises or writing prompts in the meantime to prepare!
(It should be noted that I hate writing prompts and resist them with the force of a thousand suns. This has never been a winning strategy for me.)
Cue four days of absolutely interminable writers block, culminating in a Saturday afternoon where I spend three hours staring at my laptop and not typing a single word. I read a couple of articles on writers block, but they all seem to be of the opinion that the problem is either boredom (nope, genuinely excited about these ideas) or perfectionism (I've done, and won, NaNo thirteen times. I am an expert at an ugly first draft).
I go paint my bathroom instead.
Then, cut to last night. Okay, I say to myself. My usual daily goal is 500 words, but maybe right now I just need to concentrate on doing something. I can't go into a new draft having written nothing for two and a half months, it won't end well. So for the time being, and employing the little known Doctoral Student Clause, we'll drop the goal down to 250 words. That's like two paragraphs. I should be able to write that in my sleep.
I open Project #1. I proceed to type a little over 2,000 fucking words, blowing past the broken section that's been giving me fits for two weeks. Okay, then. It's 3 am, and sometimes it's just Like That. Cool. We'll call it a happy anomaly.
Then this morning, I go back to my coffee shop, where I finish up that section, typing up a few loose ends that my edits created, and getting the draft back to the "I can send this to people if by some miracle someone decides to ask for a full manuscript" stage. General consensus among my friends is that, if I fuck the draft up again by doing more edits, the laws of the universe will pretty much make that request a foregone conclusion.
I'm sorely tempted.
However (and this is where it gets really ridiculous), I have not, in fact, written 250 words. My cleanup efforts netted me ~130 words, and a goal is a goal is a goal (that's the quote, right??). It's Sunday evening, I don't have very much to do. I don't want to mess with Project #1 any more, at least until I get a response to this round of queries, so my best bet is to do a little freewriting, maybe a paragraph or two just to exercise the ol' creative muscles.
Enter: Project #3. This one's a doozy. This is actually a novella-turned-novel-turned-series that actually did start as a freewriting project, back in the original days of "sometimes I don't have the spoons to write 500 meaningful words on whatever I'm supposed to be doing right now." This is also a project I've failed to launch three or four times, mostly because I turned my main character into an incorporeal rage storm and I never quite nailed the voice for her replacement.
I write another thousand words. It's not, ya know, great prose, but it's better than I've managed on this project in a while. Now I kind of want to see how this goes. I did some world-building, I'm kind of vibing with this character voice. Maybe this one's going somewhere?
I have one more day in March where anything sort of goes, as long as there are words. But here's OCD brain again, going hey, it's almost April. Wtf are we going to write in April?? I have about six unfinished drafts, two (I guess technically three, if you count Project #1) that I'm supposed to be editing, a brand new (old) Project #2, and the Thing I'm Making Progress On, aka Project #3.
I am so very screwed.
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