#this is an excellent anon to receive ty

[nutmargaret]

my college roommate.. who i have some gay tension with.. told me if we were characters in ouran, she'd be tamaki and i'd be harhui. thoughts? reading too much into it?

Important question: how hard does she ship Tamaki and Haruhi?

[candiid-caniine]

Hello lovely! I hope you're doing good!♡ (Sorry if you don't wanna be called that!!)

I was wondering how you vch piercing is healing and all that. I really want to get this piercing but I want to see how it's like for someone who already has it. Yknow? Here's some questions:

Did it hurt really really bad or was it not that bad? For context I have a medium pain tolerance. Have you had any significant problems with it? Would you recommend this piercing to a friend? How much did it cost for you to get? I know price depends place to place ofc. How long do you feel it took to heal? If it has yet! And any pros or cons?

If you're not comfortable with answering I understand! Thank you for your time. I hope you have a beautiful wonderful day♡

(Can I perhaps be " 🎀🍓 " anon??)

awaaa hi yourself, lovely!! (absolutely <3 being called that ty for checking tho!!)

i'm not at all uncomfy with answering!! and ofc that can be your anon signoff <3

talk of piercing + piercing aftermath under the cut!

so, here's the DL on your VCH questions:

pain level: extremely minimal! the thing that hurt the worst was being clamped (which was a bad sign - i've learned since then that people who know their shit piercing VCH will use a receiving tube, not clamps, so ask your piercer about their process during a consultation appointment and then make your decision!) i have my nostril, 2 cartilage, 6 lobe, and a vertical labret piercing on my lip. of those piercings, the vch and lip hurt the least. there's no cartilage to go thru, and even though we think of the clit as a very sensitive area, the hood of it, when it's isolated, isn't super sensitive for most. your anatomy and your pain tolerance will differ, but as a piercing veteran, the vch was the least painful!

problems with it: unfortunately, my vch rejected about two months after it'd healed (y'all can fact check me on this, i'm guesstimating). i *don't* think it was necessarily inherent to the VCH; rejection can happen to anyone for various reasons, but (afaik) is more of a risk when a piercing is more surface-based, like an eyebrow piercing. what i think happened: i think my piercer placed it too low on my clit hood; the top ball should have been higher up. this, combined with a poor jewelry fit and, uh, the fact that that area gets a lot of friction...probably contributed to the rejection. i took it out once i noticed because i didn't want to tear. as i mentioned above, my piercer used a technique that is *not* considered best practice by genital piercing professionals. (she's an excellent piercer otherwise, i love her, but now i know genitals are not her strong suit.)

another problem: due to the friction (not necessarily me rubbing it, more so clothing, my spouse's pelvic bone, etc), the ball was constantly coming loose, prompting a frantic hunt in the bedsheets/my laundry basket for the missing piece...pain in the fucking ass, but i think it also depends on your anatomy!

something that *wasn't* a problem that i expected to be: i don't think it ever once got caught on anything. once or twice, i had a pube get sort of wound around it, but since i was touching it...all the time...soooo much >.> i usually noticed pretty quick lmaoooo

i would recommend this piercing (done well, taken good care of) to a friend wanting a little bling downstairs and a little extra stimulation!

mine cost $100. but it's common to cost more than that from genital-specialty piercers, and for good reasons; i think my piercer priced it reasonably (small town economy + again, she didn't do a *great* job) but expect to pay more. that said, never equate cost with quality: ask your piercer...

where they learned to do a VCH

their process (receiving tube vs. clamps)

if they have any photographs of completed VCHs they've done. to assess all these best practices, check Elaine Angel's website. she basically invented the best practices, and she has plenty of good and bad example piercings for most types of genital piercings!

it took ~2 weeks before i'd say it was fully healed. most piercers caution you to wait 4-6 weeks for full healing; my body (and what i consider "healed"), as well as my new piercing aftercare routine, are specific to me. but for most people, it's <6 weeks. the rejection didn't happen until after healing. as far as healing the piercing *hole*, after taking it out, i don't notice any difference; there's maybe a pock mark sort of thing, or dimple? but it's not a "hole" anymore. just a mark, and there's not any scarring or tissue that irritates my clitoris, given i took it out so fast!

pros!

if you have my specific kinks, you are not gonna want to wait to start touching yourself >.> you can browse through my #kinky mods tag (tagged on this post for easy access) for a play-by-play of how fucked up it got me lmao.

as in, even tho it ached, i touched that shit the second day (gently) and had the craziest ruined orgasm of my life.

there is really something to be said for the tiny, itty bitty piece of stimulation achieved by the barbell under your hood.

also really something to be said about the balls themselves sliding over your clit when you rub with your fingers ;-;

vibrator against the barbell = weirdest overstim in the world.

heals fast; lots of cool jewelry options out there; doesn't hurt very much [compared to my other piercings, ymmv].

cons:

can be expensive to get one that's done properly.

you do eventually stop being as sensitive to the new stimulation. however, most people just switch jewelry to change things up after awhile, so nbd.

that said, jewelry change can be a bitch. it's hard to do that shit on your clitoris. you may find yourself needing to go to your piercer for jewelry changes, but many piercers offer this service at cost of jewelry/even free of charge, depending.

if you lose a piece of your jewelry, you might cry. lol. keep backups on hand. (my piercer, bless her fucking heart, has incredible aftercare services - she will literally drive to the shop at 1 am if your jewelry falls in the toilet. yes, she gives her clients her personal cell number. bless up, J, you can't pierce a clit worth a damn but you love what you do!)

how do i say this,, u know how. a new piercing might sort of get crusty. esp if you don't clean it often (follow ur aftercare instructions! always!!!!!) but uh. my regular aftercare did not prepare me for the crust being *under* the clit hood. it wasn't much, and it came off when i downsized jewelry, but eugh. it should be minimal, anyway, but still, don't be surprised.

the swelling was mainly the thing, in the hours after i got it pierced, but it didn't hurt worse than, say, biting the inside of your cheek really hard when you're chomping down on food - just that sort of ache you get. honestly i've had worse clit pain in the aftermath of being clamped, tho.

hope this helped ;-; i know it was a lot but y'all know me, i tend to go ham on these general/educational/experience questions. you're following an autistic puppy, what'd you expect? <3

[darthnell]

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Hi anon ! Ty for the ask ! :D

11. Link your three favorite fics right now.

Oh god three of mine or three in general..??? Um. A..? I guess I’ll do both !!

Three of mine: True Vengeance, THE REPARATION CLAUSE, The Bridges We Burn

Three of others: The Illusion of Life, A Great Leap in the Dark, Mors Vincit Omnia

19. What is the most-used tag on your ao3?

Oh I bet for sure it’s gonna be “graphic depictions of violence” LMAO. Aside from like. The thg fandom tags. Also “original characters” and “alternate universe”. The “canon-typical violence” tag is also my best friend and i love when I surpass that one. Canon atypical violence. I think ive used that one before but only once so it doesn’t count here, but it is funny. OH- the “careers have issues” tag. Also my best friend<3 really fucking excellent tag

28. On average, how much writing do you get done in a day?

Pshhhhh uhhhh…. I’m actually just coming off of an event where i wrote like 35k in the span of 5 weeks which is. Not typical ! This past week-ish I have written exactly Zero words (: …at like. Normal times, I probably can do a solid 1k or in that ballpark. I have been known to bang out like 3k in a day if I’m rly in the zone (i was Unwell last july LMFAO) but also I rly don’t typically write every day. Would like to! Need to build a new schedule though. Hard for me to write on the days when I work but I only work part time atm. I am also. Kind of a slow writer usually. I’ve only written as much as I have bc I write frequently ! ((Or I try to))

30. Do you share rough drafts or do you wait until it’s all polished?

Good god I think I’d perish if I shared rough drafts. Like, on ao3… is that a thing..? So like. My shit isn’t perfect. There’s definitely typos I’ve missed and all that jazz, but I usually heavily edit my chapters before posting. The event I did recently was also like my first time having a beta which was neat but. This is rly silly, bear with me - so I had two separate docs for that, one I wrote the fic in and another that I shared w the betas, because the idea of someone having access to all my rough outlines and watching me on the doc as I write makes me Viscerally uncomfortable, I can’t rly explain it better than that. Anyways, the funny part is, said beta would point out a grammar mistake or typo, and I’d go “nice” and fix it, but forget to fix it on the other doc. So when I. When I posted the fic from the original doc… you can see where this is going maybe. Actual clown idiot moment LMFAO. Tl;dr - I attempt to polish. Doesn’t always turn out shiny jdjddjdk

42. What’s the last fic you read? Do you recommend it?

Ooh ! Last one I read was In The Clear by District11-Olive on FFN. So this one is technically thg but very au; it’s set in modern day Canada where a show called The Cut forced teenaged criminals to fight to the death in order to regain their freedom or get a ��second chance”. It’s Really well written and also an excellent commentary on what it means to be a criminal and prison systems in general. This one’s actually the third and final installment of the series, wooh! It’s not complete yet; the story just reached the start of the death match part and its so 👁️👄👁️ It’s also a SYOC fic (Submit Your Own Character). Not open for submissions now, but u might see some of my characters if you check it out c:

Gotta also rec The Furthest Star by geologyisms on FFN since I’m in the middle of (re) reading it.. again 🥺 This is the fic I received from the exchange I took part in recently ! So the main pov char Solan Gardener (D9 tribute in the male slot but uses they/them) was created by me but the story was written by erik/geologyisms ! Ve did such a lovely job with my kiddo u should definitely check it out!! 10/10 new comfort fic fr ;—;

Ty again anon for the question, I had fun !!! <3

[yvningshowers]

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[thinkingisadangerouspastime]

do you think zuko treated mai fairly? i mean... why didn't he trust her to tell her his deepest thoughts when he abandoned her in the fire nation? i know he loved her but i don't understand why he didn't just tell her instead of hurting her unnecessarily. they're cute but i find it so hard to get past this, i would be so hurt if my bf didn't tell me something so important. and then mai just. forgives zuko so easily even after he locked her in a cell still not trusting her. mai deserves better :(

It’s kind of funny you ask this, because I lowkey have a lot of feelings about the phrase “x deserved better than y”. For one, I’m always cautious around it, because in the A:TLA fandom I’ve seen it thrown around in two main ways:

“Katara deserved better than Aang!” followed by the most ridiculous slander labelling Aang as abusive, toxic, manipulative, etc. (Funnily enough, though, a lot of those people will also go and ship T.aang. Like T.aang is an Excellent ship, do not get me wrong, but it’s clear they just say ‘Katara deserved better’ because they hate K.ataang and don’t necessarily care one way or the other about Aang.)

“Zuko deserved better than Mai!” followed by the most obnoxious bullshit also labelling Mai as abusive, toxic, manipulative, etc. and even - I kid you not - saying she’s “too ugly” for Zuko. At worst, racist; at best, shallow. (And again, funnily enough, a lot of them will then ship M.ailee, again proving they don’t really care one way or another about Mai, they just hate M.aiko.)

Now, I’m not getting into the K.ataang vs Z.utara vs M.aiko ship wars, lmao, but those are the two primary ways that rhetoric is used. It’s kind of embarrassing, tbh, how fandom tends to use the phrase to discredit pairings and demonize characters instead of… you know. Moving on with their lives, lol.

But your ask fascinates me, anon, because you bring up the point of Zuko not trusting Mai, thus leading to the conclusion of “Mai deserves better than Zuko.” Which is interesting, because as I just mentioned, for most people who follow the “x deserves better than y” phrase, it tends to be used the other way around!

Firstly, however, I want to say that you don’t have to ship Maiko. You can read my explanation and walk away still feeling exactly the same way about Mai and Zuko’s relationship (love it, hate it, indifferent to it, all that jazz), and that’s totally okay! But I’m going to do my best to explain what’s off with the rhetoric of “x deserves better than y,” specifically regarding Maiko. My thesis, as it were?

It’s not about “deserve.”

Disclaimer: This obviously does not refer to genuinely unhealthy/abusive relationships. I shouldn’t have to say that, but we all know how Tumblr is. I digress.

Love isn’t about “deserve.” At first glance, that’s kind of a confusing take, isn’t it? Don’t we all “deserve” someone who will respect us, appreciate us, and treat us well? Of course we do! But those are just qualities of any healthy relationship. When I say that love isn’t about “deserve,” I mean that love can’t be simplified quite so easily. Here is a definition of “deserve”:

“do something or have or show qualities worthy of (reward or punishment)”

How do we make ourselves “worthy” of love? I (an optimist) don’t think we do. Love isn’t about worthiness; I believe we are all “worthy” of love simply by existing. Instead, I argue that love is about openness. It’s not about if we “deserve” love or not, but rather if we allow ourselves to be open to it.

All of this is to say that it’s not about whether or not Mai “deserves” or “deserves better than” Zuko; it’s that she is open to receive love from him, and he from her. She wants to love and be loved by Zuko. No one else. She says it to Azula herself: “I love Zuko more than I fear you.” Mai chooses Zuko, full stop, just as Zuko chose her by a) doing everything in his power to keep her out of his betrayal of the Fire Nation (why would he risk putting a death sentence on her head, too?) and b) reuniting with her happily at the end of the show (i.e. he didn’t brush her off; he smiles his widest smile in the entire show during that scene!). So it’s not about “deserve.” It’s about these two kids loving and finding love in one another. A Shakespeare quote is particularly relevant here:

“Love sought is good, but given unsought is better.” (Twelfth Night – Act 3, Scene 1)

We are all looking for love, be it romantic or platonic or anything in-between, and there is no better feeling than we receive love even when we feel we don’t “deserve” it. Mai is willing to work with Zuko to make their relationship work despite his mistakes, because it’s not about if he “deserves” her, but because she knows he is willing to grow and improve (and she is, too).

Also, within the series of A:TLA (specifically towards the middle-end of Book 3), it can be concluded that Zuko believes that he is no longer “worthy” of Mai’s love. That he doesn’t “deserve” her love because of how he abandoned her (and she is the only thing about the Fire Nation he regrets leaving behind). Mai disagrees with him. She is open to a relationship with Zuko because she loves him for an infinite number of reasons (one being that he does what is right, including going against the Fire Nation, even if she did not at first understand). When Zuko realizes this by the time the finale comes around, they reconcile in a tender embrace.

And what reason are we ever given to doubt Mai regarding whether or not she “deserves” better than Zuko? Mai is perfectly aware of her own worth. She breaks up with Zuko in “The Beach” because his behavior is inexcusable and she knows that she doesn’t have to put up with it. Even in the comics, which are handled poorly, I don’t entirely hate the Maiko breakup because again, Mai knows that she does not have to be responsible for Zuko’s well-being. She loves him, she loves him so much, and she tries to help him, but she is not his therapist. So again, why should we doubt Mai? Going back to the A:TLA finale - Mai knows what she “deserves” and what she doesn’t. She knows what she will and what she won’t put up with. And after everything, she is still open to a relationship with Zuko. Because love isn’t about “deserve,” and it never has been.

To address your other questions:

why didn’t he trust her to tell her his deepest thoughts when he abandoned her in the fire nation? i know he loved her but i don’t understand why he didn’t just tell her instead of hurting her unnecessarily.

You almost answer your question yourself, anon. “[H]is deepest thoughts”? Who tells anyone their “deepest thoughts”? We actually talked about this in my Shakespeare class (I know, right? lmao). A very common trope in Shakespeare’s tragedies is a lack of communication. We all read Romeo and Juliet and Othello and were like “dude, if they had just talked to each other, none of those bad things would have happened!!” (and thus those tragedies might have been comedies).

My professor agreed with us. Then he asked, well, why do you think Shakespeare doesn’t have anyone communicate?

One brave soul said, “That’d be too easy.”

Which is… almost right. Perhaps, narratively, it would be too easy. The plays would definitely be resolved much faster. But the truth? It’s too hard. People don’t communicate clearly in real life. They hide certain things because they’re embarrassed, they’re ashamed, they’re afraid. Even couples who’ve been together for years will admit that they don’t tell each other everything, for whatever reason. People are imperfect, and thus their relationships are, too.

(Slightly amusing sidebar: Macbeth and Lady Macbeth are actually an example of a perfect couple, because Macbeth confides everything to Lady Macbeth in Act 1. And, well, we all know how that went down[hill], lmao.)

So why didn’t Zuko tell Mai the truth when he was leaving the Fire Nation? He was afraid! He says it himself in “The Boiling Rock”: “Everyone in the Fire Nation thinks I’m a traitor. I couldn’t drag her into it.” Zuko is afraid of what might happen to Mai! He knows the Fire Nation now has a price on his head - why would he wish that on Mai? It’s bad enough that she’s the (former) girlfriend of a traitor! How much worse might it have been for her if she’d been associated with him after he’d threatened the Fire Lord’s life*? I’m not saying this to excuse Zuko’s decision, because perhaps Mai would have agreed to join him (although we cannot conclude this with total certainty), and I certainly think breaking up by text letter was a pretty crappy way to go about it, but all the same, he was trying to protect her. When Mai realizes this, what does she do?

Saves his ass from Azula and utters one of the most iconic lines in the entire series.

*Also, a kind of interesting parallel presents itself between Zuko and Hamlet here, lmao. One interpretation of Hamlet’s “get thee to a nunnery!” scene with Ophelia is reading it as him trying to cut ties with her in the cruelest way possible so she wouldn’t try to follow him and possibly get hurt as he killed Claudius (aka regicide, the highest crime in Denmark). While it’s arguable that Zuko isn’t quite so perceptive, lmao, there is the possibility that Zuko thought breaking up with Mai in such a callous way would help prevent her from remaining attached to him and thus getting mixed up in his mess (killing the Fire Lord, aka the A:TLA equivalent of regicide, the highest crime in the Fire Nation). Just something to ponder!

and then mai just. forgives zuko so easily even after he locked her in a cell still not trusting her.

I don’t know if I’d call her forgiveness “easy.” Making the decision to betray Azula? That’s hard. Mai was signing herself up for a death sentence, because Azula doesn’t take prisoners (Aang can testify to this, lmao). If Ty Lee hadn’t been there, Mai almost certainly would have died. So yeah. I wouldn’t call her forgiveness “easy,” anon. I think it’s one of the scariest choices she ever made.

Of course, one can argue that Mai’s true forgiveness of Zuko actually came later, which I don’t necessarily disagree with. I think Mai’s initial instinct was to trust Zuko because she knows him better than perhaps anyone (thus she realizes he wouldn’t walk away from the Fire Nation without true cause), hence her betrayal of Azula. When she survived because of Ty Lee’s chi-blocking (since honestly, Mai probably didn’t think she’d get that far) and was ultimately imprisoned, I bet she had plenty of time to think about Zuko and her relationship with him. Working on that presumption, again, I don’t think I’d call her forgiveness “easy,” because she likely took several days if not weeks to process everything.

Also, you say Zuko doesn’t trust her because a) he didn’t inform her of what he was doing when he left the Fire Nation and b) he locked her in a cell at the Boiling Rock. I understand that perspective, but again, I go back to this line: “Everyone in the Fire Nation thinks I’m a traitor. I couldn’t drag her into it.” Does that sound like someone who doesn’t trust Mai? I think the better description is that Zuko feared for Mai, as I mentioned earlier. Did he lock her in a cell because he thought she’d betray him, or because he thought it was the last thing he could do to protect her when everything went to shit as he, Sokka, Suki, and etc. were all escaping from prison? Could it have been a little bit of both? We can’t say for sure, of course, but given how happy Zuko was around Mai in “Nightmares and Daydreams,” I think his love for her ultimately outweighed his worries about Mai’s ties to Azula, which leads me to conclude his locking her in a cell was less about distrust and more a final, last-ditch attempt at keeping her out of his mess.

Plus, Zuko has issues. Mai knows this. She loves him all the same for it. As I said earlier, she is open to giving love to and receiving love from Zuko. I think it’s a bit of a discredit to Mai’s character to assume she forgave him easily. And besides! She told him herself: “But don’t ever break up with me again.” Mai implicitly tells him hey, don’t pull that BS again, and Zuko gives her an embarrassed smile before they hold each other in a gentle, loving embrace. It’s not a direct statement, and maybe that puts some people off from it, but Mai is firmly implying that she wants him to trust her more, and Zuko acknowledges this (and he’s rightfully a little embarrassed that he kept her out of it, since hindsight is 20/20 and he now understands she probably would have gone with him; do remember, of course, that he had no way of knowing that initially).

do you think zuko treated mai fairly?

Well, how do we define “fairly”? I guess the short answer is no, he didn’t, but what other choice did he believe he had at the time? Answer: none. It was either keep Mai out of it and guarantee her safety or drag Mai into it (which Zuko likely saw as a selfish option, i.e. what right did he have to pull his girlfriend into treason just because he didn’t want to lose her company?) and risk losing her. As viewers, we know there’s more to the situation than that, but Zuko doesn’t have our luxury. So his decision to keep Mai out of it and thus try to protect her? I would call that a “fair” assessment, yes.

And besides, anon:

“The course of true love never did run smooth.” (A Midsummer Night’s Dream - Act 1, Scene 1)

Mai and Zuko chose each other. Who are we to deny them their happiness?

[i-am-totally-a-human-being]

Someone who wanted to stay anonymous dm’d me with this request:

It was such an interesting request I had to do it! I’ve never written Angie before so this was a journey, but I think/hope I did ok!

Anon requested the title, so here it is!

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Midnight Ceremony

Pairing: Angie Yonaga x reader

No pronouns used for reader, reader and Angie are dating

Summary: You help your girlfriend Angie perform her sacred ceremony, but she surprises you

Trigger warnings: religious ceremony, mentions of fasting, mentions of blood sacrifice, Angie has a cigar(I dunno if that’s triggering?)

Ok I think I’m good now and got all that stuff out of the way, let me know if I need to add any other trigger warnings or if I need to add anything to make it better (if you’re the one who requested)

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You sat on the beach in the dead of night with your girlfriend, Angie, as she muttered chants in a language you couldn’t really understand. She had taught you some words here and there, but she never quite seemed interested in helping you learn the whole language.

“A sacred language for sacred tongues” she would tell you.

As she chanted she bundled sticks and grass and a few natural herbs you had collected for her into homemade parchment paper you also assisted in making.

It was the time of year where, every six months, your girlfriend would perform her ritual to commune with the God she worshipped, Atua. Atua and the religion behind it was the reason you and Angie had met, so you were gladly just as devoted to it as she was.

So here you were, on the beach as you watched her bundle the sticks and herbs into the parchment to create a massive cigar. Once she was finished tying it off so it wouldn’t fall apart, she nodded and gave you the matches.

Your role in the ceremony was to help gather supplies, light the cigar for her, and “be a witness to the divine calling” as she stated. A small fire sat between you two to give you some light to see what you were doing, which illuminated her ceremonial outfit perfectly. Her arms, hair, and neck decorated in sacred jewelry, the veil helping hold her long, white hair up in the bundle of braids it was in, the corset wrapped tightly around her which you had helped secure, and the large pants with a train all looked gorgeous on her. She wore this at every ceremony, and had it specially tailored to her fitting with only holy fabric Atua itself had blessed through other ceremonies. (If you can’t imagine the outfit well, it’s her 10th anniversary art outfit!)

You crawled closer to her and lit a match, moving it carefully through the night air to make sure it didn’t get extinguished too early. Holding it to the tip of the cigar, you made sure it was lit before pulling that match away and throwing it into the fire beside you. She stood, the cigar blowing out puffs of smoke in different shapes as she spoke the same words she did every six months.

“Atua and the spirits who obey you,” she started, “may we seek your guidance and instructions on what you require of us for the next six moon cycles. As we reach the high point of our ritual, we prepare myself for you to take, as a divine sacrifice to receive your wisdom, of great Atua.” As she spoke she bent over and placed the lit end of her cigar to the end of some homemade fireworks you and her and made a few days in advance. They lit up and shot into the sky, bursting in arrays of colors often affiliated with Atua and its people. The popping of the beautiful fireworks almost made you miss the last part of her chant, which she normally didn’t say.

Almost.

You froze as she referred to herself as the sacrifice. There was usually a sacrifice affiliated with these ceremonies, but never live blood ones! It usually meant fasting for a day before or after, and no harm ever came to anything or anyone. Was she expecting you to do something to her?! To possibly kill her in the name of Atua? You… you were devoted to this religion and to Atua, yes, but not enough to kill your girlfriend! You loved her! You couldn’t just… sacrifice her!

As the ritual continued your worries grew bigger, as her comments of sacrificing herself grew more and more common. Was this a test? Had Atua told her to do this?! To test your devotion?! If that was the case, you refused to fully devote to this! You would refuse to kill Angie!

She grabbed a stick that she had sharpened into a defined point and drew a circle around herself before tossing you the stick and extending her arms outwards. Was this her telling you to stab her?! Because the answer was still no!

“Y/N now offers themselves up as well,” she spoke with the cigar still in her mouth, “as they hold such an important role in this ceremony as well. They will now,” Angie giggled, looking down at you, “realize that I was simply joking, Nyah-haha!” You froze at her words, still trying to take it in. Joking… she was… joking…?

“A-Angie,” you laughed, throwing the stick down and standing up with her, “you had me really scared! Don’t do that!”

“So I had you fooled, I see! Excellent! Atua is pleased with my trickery!” She was laughing hard, the smoke expelling from the cigar faster now due to her short and fast breaths.

“Angie,” you scowled, scooping her up into your arms, “this is what you get for scaring me!!” Using all of the force in you, you launch her towards the sky, the cigar creating a long trail of smoke as she flew. As the cigar finally extinguished, Angie seemingly vanished with it, a twinkle of a star showing where she disappeared. You laughed, hearing the disembodied giggle of hers as well, letting you know she was alright.

This happened often, one of you throwing the other into the sky only for them to vanish with a small twinkle in the night. She was ok, and she’d return shortly to nap and cuddle with you in your shared bedroom.

As much as she had spooked you, you did truly love her and trust her, therefore you also trusted Atua.

You cleaned up the remains of the ceremony and returned home, running a bath for her to get into when she eventually returned.

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I hope you enjoyed, anon! I really did have fun writing this!

If Anonymous asks aren’t working, if you want to request something but stay anonymous you can dm me with the request. I will not judge the request at all and will make sure to cut out your name as I did for this. If you don’t care, you can simply request it with the ask feature. Dm-ing me with a request might also be a good choice if it’s a request that may need more explanation. Anon and I were able to discuss exactly what they wanted, so if you want that it’s probably best to dm me! Thank you all very much for reading!

Thank you for coming to my TED talk,

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[kazuwhora]

here for your matchup if you don't mind :]

i'm an intj 5w6. i'm bisexual and leaning towards male. i'm very interested in video games, fiction and space. when doing things, i'm more opted to think while doing stuff, and sometimes i can be apathetic without realising. i don't like sharing about my negative thoughts and problems. my dislikes are religious talks and overemotional people, since i don't like talking about emotions especially mine. i'm generally not very affectionate but though it's different when it comes to people i'm very close with. i care about them very much and will constantly remind them of that fact. my negative traits are being manipulative and stubborn, and constantly thinking i'm in the right one even though i sometimes get very lost on what's the right thing to do and what's wrong anymore lmao. one of my ways to show my affection are through light insults because i think they're adorable. i sometimes enjoy receiving physical affection depending on the person and also getting gifts. i'm a very good listener and i don't mind listening to people's problems and i would always give them solutions first because i'm not that good at comforting people emotionally. i hope these are enough

btw i LOVE how detailed your matchups are. i hope you consider doing a kin matchup soon because you're very good at this

IM SO SORRY ANON THIS TOOK SO LONG I HAD A MEETING THIS EVENING AFTER WORK PLEASE FORGIVE ME </3 im the worst person in the world and I dont deserve u bye

but also ty for sending so much detail!! im matching you up with the best boy (and also my top kin for tr) DRAKEN <3 omg this is the cutest

draken is definitely a hard one to read and understand, which is part of why he's one of my favourite characters kin wise in the series. even among those who research mbti types extensively, there is debate around whether draken has an extraverted or introverted function. whichever he truly favours, doesn't really matter in this scenario because whether he was an ESTP or an ISTP, both of these mesh really well with the nature in which you function best.

draken is a pretty calm, collected, and mature person. we can see this alone in his relationship with mikey as well as the role that he consistently plays throughout the series. while you may not share many similarities in general with mikey as a character, what you do have in common with him is the internal struggle with emotional vulnerability and expression. cue where draken comes in. he's the type of person (as we see with mikey) that is able to remain calm and stable when it comes to your vulnerability. he wont force it, he wont even hint at the need for you to become more comfortable expressing it. instead, just like with mikey, he's extremely good at sensing the times in which a submission to this vulnerability is needed, and you'll grow to rely on his stability and the trust that has grown between the two of you. he both subconsciously and consciously wants to help you adjust to manage your emotions and vulnerabilities better, and embrace them as a part of what makes you you and he knows just how to do this without becoming overbearing and stepping over your boundaries.

lucky for you, draken himself isn't overemotional to begin with. while he may be comfortable expressing vulnerabilities in the realm of emotions and helping those around him adjust to changes like this, he himself is excellent at acknowledging his emotions and finding a healthy way to cope with whatever he is feeling. he truly just wants to be the best person he can be both for you and him, and he wants nothing more than to have you by his side for the entirety of the process.

here's something he wont admit. draken needs you. he may not acknowledge this openly, but draken finds himself relying on your introversion and appreciation for a more refined way of life as opposed to for example mikey, who as much as he loves him, can become exhausting. he never feels exhausted by you. your presence, and your ability to draw him in to just relax, is the best method of decompressing that he's ever managed to experience. you are a safe haven for him- which isn't something he ever really realized he needed. he didn't know how valuable having someone like you was until he experienced it for himself, and he's not sure if he ever wants to go back to the way he used to be. you can definitely expect this man to marry you. he is so thankful for you even if all you're able to do for him is play video games with him, or tell him about this new book you're reading. the way his eyes soften and twinkle for you is enough to let you know exactly what you mean to him. please he'll do anything for you. he cherishes you sm.

also, two more important notes. first of all, he's gonna shower you with the cutest gifts. like "babe I know you've been really interested in this so I got you a bunch of stuff about it and I want you to tell me about it all ok?"

the other is that he REALLY appreciates your solution based approach to problems because it's exactly the way his brain works and he's like ?? omg ??

match made in heaven <3

[after-l1fe]

Mayhaps could I ask mori nsfw alphabet? Please?

Mori x GN!MC Nsfw alphabet

Soo idk much about Mori but I tried doing some research about him in hopes to better understand him. The whole point of his character is to be mysterious and damn did it work well XD. I wanna say idk his past story and in one part I talk about his eyes, I hope that doesnt break cannon too much or at all.

 A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

He is normally very tired after sex but he will attend all your needs, do you want a bath and clean sheets? you’re getting that, sometimes it seems like he already knows what you want even before telling him.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

He loves your thighs, he loves to hold them when he is between your legs and to leave them full of marks.

From his body he prefers his eyes, even if he has them closed most of the time and doesn’t show them off that much he loves them, and he showing you his eyes when the two of you are alone is something he considers very intimate.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

His cum is thick and sticky and he loves covering you with it its his way of being a little possessive, his favorite place to do so is your chest.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

He has only jacked off once and that was after you wore particularly exposing clothes to a party and drank a little bit too much and began getting touchy with him.

He couldn’t help but go to the bathroom to ‘ease some tension’, you two were already in a relationship but the idea of doing love to you while drunk didn’t feel well to him.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

This isn’t something he’s proud of and no one knows about it but he has no experience at all yet he definitely did his best to please you that first time you two did it, only to find out he wasn’t that good at it, cue A LOT of research and the discovery of several kinks he didn’t even knew existed.

That second time was the best one you ever had, only for him to surpass his limits every time afterward.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

He has done lots of positions but his favorite ones are the ones where you are tied up, if he had to choose one though it would be the leapfrog position with you hands tied up, he loves how vulnerable you look and how you seem so helpless (of course all with your consent, he would hate to harm you or do something you don’t like).

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

0 goofiness, he doesn’t feel like sex is the right time to make some jokes and he’s very serious about it, also why would he joke when instead he can say dirty things that make you squirm.

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

The carpet does match the drapes although they are a little bit darker in color.

He trims the hair every now and then and makes sure that it looks well, he just doesn’t like shaving he feels its too much of a hassle.

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

He struggles a bit with telling you how he feels so he prefers to just kiss you all over and sometimes after he’s more in the mood drop an ‘I love you’ but otherwise he wont seem very romantic.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

He doesn’t do it. He has better stuff to do, like deals and negotiations, and if he really needs to have some fun he will just come to you and have fun with you 😉.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

He’s a voyeur as he’s not afraid of doing stuff in public yet he would hate the idea of you two getting discovered by anyone that’s why he’s planned every little detail, but you obviously don’t know that which makes him enjoy himself even more by seeing how you get a little shy by the idea of getting found.

He’s also a rigger, he loves seeing you tied up in beautiful ways and then he loves to add a little fun by placing some toys in you and watching you beg for him as he just watches your needy state.

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

He isn’t afraid of doing stuff in public and he is quite proud about having done it in certain places, some of those being the roof of the school, the auditorium and one time he was under your desk as you spoke to someone letting his tongue and hands wander your private parts.

Yet sometimes he just wants to have a sweeter session with you which will take place in your or his room. (Sometimes it doesn’t have to be in the bed tho, he likes the shower as much as the bed)

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

He loves to fantasize about the stuff he could do about you, and sometimes he cant help but let his mind wander a bit too much and he NEEDS to try this new idea/fantasy he’s planned in his head.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

Harm you, he may like tying you up in ropes and put you in cuffs but he always makes sure they’re smooth/soft and won’t cause you harm, you mean the world to him and he wouldn’t want to do anything that harms you.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

He prefers receiving, he can just lay back and see as you do all the work and try to get him to cum although, if you do a really good job of pleasing him we will be sure of returning the favor twice as good as you did.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

For quickies he prefers fast and rough, to get you both to orgasm rapidly but, if its just a normal session he prefers taking more time and go slowly and tell you how much he loves you while leaving a little kiss on your lips.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

He loves them. Its fast, not too energy wasting and you both get a lot of pleasure!!

The school closets are one of his favorite places to do them.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

He loves taking risk and experimenting new stuff.

He wouldn’t be against the idea of having some fun in an unused classroom or the storage.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

Not that much stamina so he prefers to just give it his all in one long round and then just kissing, cuddling and showing how much he loves you.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

LOTS of toys, he thinks they make things spicier and he isn’t wrong about that, specially as he knows how to use them even in ways you hadn’t imagined.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

SUPER unfair, he won’t stop whispering dirty things into your ear and sometimes it won’t even be in private.

He once was walking by your side and just whispered pure filth into your ear to afterwards just leave and leave you there feeling horny. You can’t get a break with this guy.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

He doesn’t make a sound no matter what he’s doing with you (aside from his dirty talk) BUT, if you whisper his name right into his ear you’ll hear him grunt and hell start moving rougher and faster. If confronted about it he will say he didn’t even hear you say anything.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

As he has said before he never breaks a deal, and that also applies to his love for you, he would never even think about cheating on you, and he will always try his best to make you happy, after all he made a deal with you, a deal to never leave you alone and be there for you no matter what.

After sex he will ask you more than once if you are fine, sometimes he thinks he has gone a little too far with stuff (even if you two just had normal sex) he loves you a lot and wants no harm to come to you.

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

He’s average in length but where he excels at is in thickness, this is something he loves, he loves the feel of how you stretch for him and cry out in pleasure.

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

Not that high yearning, or at least that’s what he says/shows, he might not look like it but sometimes when he looks like he’s scheming something it may not be some dirty plan or at least  not the dirty plan he does to get some deals with people. 😉

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

He doesn’t like wasting too much energy and he IS quite tired afterwards but, he will wait until all your needs have been attended to and you are feeling comfortable, if you’re not comfortable no matter how tired he is he wont be able to sleep.

Thanks for my first request 😊💕literally number one anon

[abbacchiosbelt]

La Squadra being dom by S/o that knows Exactly their weak spots and makes them melt and beg under their touch please 😈

la squadra being dommed is an excellent thought, thank you for the request anon! 😈

18+ under the cut! cw for rough sex.

Risotto is a well-behaved sub, all things considered. Though anyone who looked at him would assume he took the dominant role in the bedroom, Risotto is happy to submit to a partner he fully trusts — and you have more than earned his trust through an exchanging of safe words, sessions that left him spent in the best of ways, and loving aftercare.

Risotto likes it rough. By the end of the session, he wants to be bloody and bruised, and perhaps so thoroughly used by you that he can’t even speak. 

Though he could easily manipulate the tools you use with Metallica, he never does. His favorite, when he’s feeling exhausted from being in charge of so much, is to be at your mercy whilst he’s in a spreader bar with his wrists tied to his ankles. In this position, forced upright so he’s at your mercy with his hard cock straining in front of him, he’s exposed and vulnerable. 

Risotto likes to be pushed around and forced to bend to your will — he especially likes it when you grind your heel into his hard cock and make him whimper. Once, you got him to cry by denying him of orgasm for so long and eventually giving him a forced one instead of letting him enjoy it. Risotto loved it.  

Risotto is a busy man, so he sets aside several hours to play with you when he has the time, rather than quickies. There’s nothing better to him than obeying you and finally getting his reward, having to think of nothing but how to please you and how good it feels to let go.

Risotto is really into predator and prey play. The fact that he’s so much bigger than you makes it even better. It’s a little harder to achieve when there’s not much space to work with, but he likes to have you chase him down (okay, maybe he takes it easy on you but he knows he’s at an advantage...) and mark him as your own — once, he came in his pants when you managed to tackle him to the ground and bit his neck hard enough to draw blood while claiming him. 

He’s quiet about it, but when the session is done and you’re tending to any injuries or needs he has, he feels very cared for and loved. Though again, people would assume he’s not much for cuddling, Risotto is quite pleased when you demand he be the little spoon after a particularly hard session.

Formaggio was into the idea before he even knew what he was getting himself into. Sure, he’d seen videos, but it was mostly being done to women in the ones he watched. But hey, it looked interesting and he’s always up to try new things, so why not? Enter your very disobedient sub who you love but who gives you a hell of a time when you’re domming him.

Formaggio is more into the lighter aspects of restraint when he’s subbing. He likes to be handcuffed to the bed, and that’s about it — but he enjoys it immensely, even if he misbehaves to get punished on purpose. He’s a goofy guy and likes that you play around with him, and he secretly loves it when you have a strict aura in the bedroom. Nothing gets him harder faster than being told he’s being a bad boy. 

He wants you to work him up until he’s begging for release and promising to be good for you — he’ll go crazy if you lightly stroke his cock after teasing him for a long time, bucking and whining and begging you to let him cum. 

He is clingy during aftercare, please give him lots of hugs and cuddles! He mostly just wants to lay on your chest and go to sleep whilst you rub his back.

Illuso is more than willing to be obedient to you in the bedroom. While he has his own sadistic streak and is capable of domming you, if you were to ask, there’s something appealing to him about being under you and completely at your mercy. Much like Risotto, he’s fairly well-behaved and prefers to take your orders and receive a reward, rather than to be a brat on purpose.

Illuso is the type of sub that likes to be pampered — he’s delighted if you buy him fancy lingerie to wear or gift him with a toy to wear during the session. It makes him feel appreciated, although part of the fun is having you utterly destroy him while he’s dressed so nice for you. Wax play in his fancy lingerie? Yes, please. 

Illuso may be rather aloof, but he’s into wearing a plug or vibrator for you while out in public for the day where he’s at your mercy, especially if you have a remote vibrator in him. Of course, he can beg for you to take him into the Mirror World and let him cum, but he tries not to. He knows he’ll get a better reward if he waits until you’re home.

Edgeplay is one of Illuso’s favorites, especially if you’re riding him and he has to resist cumming inside your tight and warm walls. It’s almost impossible with how hot he finds you when you’re in charge but he tries his best and he gets loud. If you weren’t in the Mirror World, surely everyone at the base could hear him whining and begging for you to let him cum. 

Illuso is mellow when it comes to aftercare — he usually wants a drink and a snack, and perhaps a shared bath rather than an extended cuddle session. 

Pesci is unsure about the whole thing until he finds out that no, being a sub doesn’t have to involve pain or anything of the sort. He was a little misled by his squadmates and videos he may or may not have watched... Pesci loves and trusts you, so he’s willing to try it out!

Pesci is very much into the softer side of things — he doesn’t want much more than praise and gentle orgasm denial, although he does get riled up out of seeing you dressed up in typical ‘dominatrix’ gear. He’s the type that prefers to make you feel good, so he likes to be ordered around and praised whilst he gives you oral or whatever else you may instruct him to do.

Pesci thrives on praise and is always obedient. If you’ve been at it for a while, he’s more willing to try being handcuffed to the bed, but mostly just prefers for you to use him as a ‘sex toy’ while you praise him. 

Even though it’s gentle, Pesci likes lots of cuddles as aftercare and affirmation that he’s done a good job pleasing you.

Prosciutto is more into the idea than he would like to admit. He prefers to take a dominant role in the bedroom, whether you’re dabbling in different types of play or not, so to be submissive does not come naturally to him. Still, there’s a certain allure to the idea, so he’s willing to try it out.

Imagine Prosciutto’s surprise when he finds himself growing hard instantly when you throw some degrading words in his direction at his request. Oh hell, he was going to like this. Prosciutto finds himself extremely into being on the receiving end of verbal degradation and some verbal humiliation. He’s not sure why, but hearing you insult him while you pump his cock has him fighting not to cum instantly. 

Prosciutto loves it even more if you tie him up and ends up into shibari. He likes how carefully you tie him in lieu of how roughly you’re going to treat him, and he also just likes how it looks on his skin. 

Enters into ‘subspace’ rather easily, for such a hardheaded man. Prosciutto prefers to call you ‘Signore/Signorina’ or ‘Master/Mistress’, whichever you prefer. He’ll beg for more insults and pain until he’s a flustered mess. 

Though he’d rather finish inside you, he likes when you tease him by fucking yourself with a dildo whilst you make him work his own cock, listening to you talk about how he could never fuck you like this. (Of course, this brings Prosciutto’s mind to involving a third party someday...)

He tries to act tough about it, but please give this man some tender aftercare. Prosciutto may grumble at first, but he loves when you pull him to your chest and tell him how much you love him and how he did a very good job. He likes being pampered, so draw him a bath and get him a glass of wine.

Ghiaccio will try to resist it, but hell if he isn’t the brattiest sub around. He’s thought about the idea for a while and consented to it, but it takes you taking initiative to get him to go through with it. Pin him to the bed and make him your sub — he’ll get hard instantly. He wants a fight for dominance, and if you win, he’ll roll over for you while keeping his grumpy attitude. 

A total and complete brat that doesn’t give up control easily — he likes to be pinned down and marked, or to buck up and try to squirm out from under you. Make him submit by tying him down and he’ll already be painfully hard and dripping precum. 

Like Risotto, a fan of the rougher things, although not to the same level he is. He likes being tied up and hit, though he’d prefer your hands over any tools. Spanking and slapping turn him on like nothing else, especially if you’re riding his cock while you slap him and tell him what a brat he is. 

Even though he loves the degradation, Ghiaccio responds well to praise. Tie him up and work him with toys while telling him what a good boy he is and Ghiaccio will have to work not to cum all over himself. 

Please give your ice goblin some tender love afterwards. Like Prosciutto, he’s going to huff and grumble about it, but he needs it. Run your hands through his hair gently and tend to all his sore spots and he’ll be very pleased. 

Melone is easily the most into subbing out of the group. He’s a switch at heart, but he delights in being told what to do, especially if you treat him like dirt while doing it — hell, he’d proudly refer to himself as ‘depraved.’ Melone is well-aware of his harder interests and doles out just as much aftercare on you as you give to him after a session.

If time permits it, Melone wants the session to end with him being unable to talk or move, and for it to be so hard that he has to spend the next day resting. He wants to be brutally fucked and used by you, to put it bluntly. There are almost no hard limits for Melone. Whipping? He loves it. Being hit? It makes him rock hard. Flogging? He wants his back to be a bloody mess. Cock and ball torture? Please, step on him and squeeze him.

He likes to dress up and be humiliated by you, especially if you take pictures. Tie him up (another fan of shibari!) and stuff his holes with toys before you take some pictures and his cock will be twitching in excitement. Melone likes to be humiliated in public as well and loves when you put a remote-control vibrator up his ass before you go out for the day. Will shamelessly cum in public and await the punishment afterward.

Melone is also a fan of the ‘bored and ignored’ style of play — make him rut against your heel or boot to get himself off while he’s not allowed to touch himself or preoccupy yourself with a magazine while he goes down on you. He can easily cum just from pleasuring you.  

Melone wants to act as your personal fuck toy that you’re free to use and abuse at will — treat him like an object and he’ll be drooling. He’s into being a 24/7 slave occasionally and likes to spend some weekends doing just that if you’re into it. 

Aftercare is very important for both of you. Melone spends time making sure you’re okay while he doles out tons of affection. There’s a lot of cuddling and praise involved, as well as caring for any injuries he may have and giving massages to his tired wrists and ankles. Melone always talks you through as well to make sure you’re doing fine after more hardcore sessions. He’s a very responsible sub that loves his dom more than anything!

[costellos]

...some asks so far—

asks received between Aug. 11 and Aug. 13!

@pommmejuice​ asked: HIIIIi i just saw that you followed me back so i just wanted to say thank you so much 🥺 i love reading your headcanons so much (especially for abba or risotto because #Favoritism) and i can't wait to see what else you have in store!! 🥺🥺💗💗 *i run away crying* (I DONT KNOW IF MY ASK GOT CUT OFF OR NOT THE ASK BOX IS A LIL TOO SHORT AND I CAN'T SEE KKJDSKJFSJKS) but i hope you have a great day today too!! :>

YOU GET BACK HERE SO I CAN AGGRESSIVELY SUPPORT YOU.

real talk, this is such a sweet compliment, thank you! to be honest, I thought I followed you a while ago bc I’m in love with your own content. your fics are so fluffy and so incredibly detailed; it’s exactly what I look for when winding down for the day. plus your love for Abbacchio is apparent in the care you put in writing him. I can only hope to mirror that when I write about Mista and Bucciarati 🥺 a;lskfj ANYWAY I was thrown off when I saw that you followed me and I wasn’t following you in the first place and it was just one giant “???” moment aha.

I’m so excited to see more of your own work! but please enjoy your break in the meantime. take your time and know that your readers (including me!!) will wait patiently for your return ❤️

(ps - I’m so sorry about the late response! I thought I replied ahhh forgetful girl hours are now I guess)

anonymous asked: 😭😭😭i’m glad u like my boy toya!! im happy to hear input bc he’s not that developed and i’m still new to jojo so i will happily take ideas if i post pics of him on my blog i’ll let u know -💘anon

yes of course! I’d be happy to give any input as you see fit 💕 I think what you have so far is pretty solid and I’m so excited to see what else you have in store for him! please update me as he progresses. (n yes, lmk when you post pics of him!! I WANT TO SEE HIS FACE.)

@hadesaedes​ asked: Just wanted to pop in and say your writing is M W U A H IMMACULATE ive been FED thank you for your excellent writing 🥺❤️

UM?? I LOVE YOU?? 🥺❤️ ty so much friend, I’ll keep doing my best to churn out the good stuff!! 💪 pls enjoy your time here in the meantime!

@tomomi012​ asked: I will not have a phobia of numbers, but I know what it is to have a not so common phobia (at least I don't know anyone with it xd) I have a phobia of dogs. And I always thought that I would also like to protect Mista from number 4 or some joke with her phobia. Many people don't take me seriously or believe me about my phobia

ahh I’m sorry that people don’t take you seriously about your phobia :( that’s unfair of them; that isn’t something to be taken lightly!

but I’m sure Mista would love the extra protection 💕 he’d do his best to protect you from dogs too! I think he wouldn’t be judgmental of any fear, really. he’s emotionally-aware of his surroundings, so he recognizes that’s a huge dick move. so you can support one another!!

[rufousnmacska]

Ahhh i love the Dorian fic! Your writing is amazing! Another prompt idea could be what would Manon's first visit to Dorian after the end be like, with her meeting his mother & brother

Thanks so much anon!

This scene could go so many different ways. I hope you like it!

“Are you nervous?”

Yrene’s question, along with her gleaming eyes and quirked smile, should have been a warning.

“No,” Manon replied, a little confused.

Why should she be nervous to meet Dorian’s mother and brother? She had no intentions of being rude, but their opinions made little difference to her. Especially considering what she knew - or didn’t know - of them.

Chaol had shared a few horrific stories of the brother. But the Queen Mother was more of a mystery. Beyond knowing the woman favored titles, Manon was clueless. She’d overheard no gossip, but the tense buzz filling the castle at her impending arrival was impossible to ignore.

Dorian had spoken little to her about either of them. She supposed that was all she needed to know. Another stark reminder that for both of them, true families weren’t always determined by blood.

It wasn’t until the day of, when she caught Dorian anxiously fidgeting with his jacket then tying and retying his cravat, that she felt the first wave of nerves.

His attention to his clothes made her examine her own.

She stared into the full length mirror standing beside Dorian’s closet. Her black boots and flying leathers were clean of blood or dirt, sported no tears or patches. Twelve golden silk threads were wound into her braid, subtle until they caught the light just so. Glennis had insisted on the crown, and won the argument, even though Manon didn’t feel it was necessary.

Now, she was glad to have the softly glowing stars adorn her head. Symbols held power. While it was an old saying meant more for others, she was quickly beginning to see how empowering they could be to the one wielding them.

Watching Dorian prepare, she couldn’t help but feel like she was walking into a trap. A trap made of human courtly gestures and human courting customs of which she was ignorant.

A knock sounded from the outer door of their suite and she heard Yrene call out a greeting.

Manon exhaled a sigh of relief. If anyone could give her advice, it was the healer. Yrene would be able to help her navigate through this wretched morning.

That was all she had to do. Get through the official court presentation Georgina had insisted on, followed by a short luncheon with a few select guests. Then she could disappear for a flight on Abraxos.

When Manon entered the sitting room, Yrene cringed. It lasted barely half a second, but Manon had seen it.

“I am not wearing a dress,” she said, not bothering to wait for the suggestion before shooting it down.

Yrene’s golden brown eyes searched her up and down and back up again. “What about a cloak? Your Crochan cloak? It might just add a little more…” She fluttered her hands in the air. “Pomp.”

“Pomp?”

“Formality,” Yrene said.

Manon scowled. “I know what it means.“

The woman smiled her sickly sweet smile that Manon had never been able to defend against.

“Please help me,” Manon said, desperate and at the same time reluctant. “I have no idea what I’m doing. All I know is that I’m not wearing a godsdamned dress.”

Yrene laughed. She walked past Manon to take the red cloak off its hook on the wall. “Here. This will help. There’s no need for a dress. Although I think you would look stunning in one.” She secured the silver clasp around Manon’s neck and stepped back, taking another long look. “I mean, you look stunning in flying leathers. But… You know that already.”

Manon couldn’t help but laugh. “It’s meaningless. Just one of the ways witches lure in their victims.” Her iron nails slid out, slowly so as not to scare the woman. “Distract them with your beauty and then go for the weak spot.”

Yrene grinned, her eyes narrowing on the lethal points. Not in fear. As if Manon could hear it whirring, she knew Yrene’s mind was racing with questions. The healer opened her mouth to say something, but before she could, Dorian came through the door. Judging by the blush that crept over Yrene’s face, Manon could imagine what she was about to ask.

“Ready?” The quavering of his voice was almost inaudible. He dropped his head and scrubbed his hand through his hair, destroying all that he’d done to make it look perfect. “I hate this. All this ridiculous pomp and circumstance.”

Yrene’s eyes flashed to Manon and they shared a smirk.

Dorian took several deep breaths, willing himself to get through the next couple of hours. This time, his distress improved her mood. Proof this feeling of unavoidable ambush wasn’t all in her head.

Her earlier sense of not caring what this human woman and boy thought of her returned. Dorian wouldn’t change his opinions of her. Neither would Yrene. Or anyone else who mattered.

The light from her crown flared gently and she felt suffused with calm confidence. Taking Dorian’s hand and nodding to Yrene, she said, “I’m ready. Let’s go.”

**

The complete lack of conversation at lunch made every bite of food, every slice of a knife, every sip of wine sound louder than the temple bells at Yulemas. The silence was…

Dorian sat his fork down, trying to think of a proper word to use.

Palpable.

No, that described the tension in the room, not the silence.

Deafening?

That worked, but it was overused.

A sharp kick to his shin made him almost jump out of his seat. He turned to his left to see Chaol glaring at him. He jerked his head towards the opposite side of the table to where Hollin was watching Manon.

Dorian turned to his right to find Manon glaring daggers at his younger brother. Her nails were out, and he had no doubt her teeth would be visible if she smiled. But there was no reason to smile.

Their introduction had, unsurprisingly, not gone well. Manon bore no blame, of course.

His mother had been courteous, yet cold. At her first glimpse of Manon, her eyes shot straight to the crown. Then to Wind Cleaver’s hilt peeking out over Manon’s shoulder. And back to the crown.

A queen in her own right, Manon stood straight and tall next to him, waiting for his mother to bow, or offer some sort of acknowledgement. The Queen Mother dipped her head, lower than Dorian had expected.

“Thank you for welcoming us home,” she said, an airy quality to her voice he remembered from before.

It was strained now though. An effort. He wished they could have done this in private. But his mother so loved following proper etiquette, especially with an audience.

He had to give her credit. She hadn’t balked at Manon’s fierceness, and she wasn’t groveling either, desperate to ingratiate herself to royalty. True, his mother looked down her nose at them, but there was no single target of her disapproval. It was spread among the crowd. She was always generous like that.

Dorian didn’t yet know what had happened to his mother and brother after Erawan had declared Hollin his heir. In the first letter he’d received from his mother after the war, he learned they’d been held prisoner in the mountain home he’d sent them to.

She made no mention of the ways in which they’d been imprisoned, what they’d endured. Perhaps it had been equal to a mildly unpleasant holiday - fewer servants, poor food. Or maybe Erawan had set his horrors upon them.

Seeing her now, she showed no signs of trauma, physical or mental. But… She’d never shown any hint of suffering while married to his father. Not for the first time, Dorian wondered how much she even knew. Suspecting her husband contained a valg prince might never have crossed her mind, but his father’s cruelties were well known.

And it appeared those cruelties had passed successfully to the man’s youngest son.

Upon seeing Manon, Hollin had drawled, “You couldn’t save that human girl so you got a witch? Well done, brother.”

It took every ounce of restraint to keep his magic from tearing the little shit apart.

Manon, who had no magic to contain, was instead forcing her nails and teeth to remain sheathed so she didn’t gut him. The sight made him love her even more.

Ultimately, they’d ignored Hollin. He was still technically a child, even if he had the personality of a viper. On top of his normal atrociousness, he was clearly angry that he was not on the throne. A public confrontation was what he wanted. They were determined not to give it to him. But gods, it was hard.

Now, watching his brother sink away from Manon’s glowering stare, Dorian thought calling Hollin a viper might be unduly offensive towards snakes. The thought made him laugh quietly, drawing the attention of everyone at the table.

Dorian no longer cared. He’d had enough of this onerous meal and stifling silence.

Stifling. Onerous. Those were good words, he thought.

The others had either finished their meals or abandoned them, so he stuffed the remainder of his food in his mouth. When he was done, he stood, tossing his napkin on his empty plate.

To the servants behind him, he said, “Excellent as always. Please thank the cook.”

To his mother, he bowed his head. “Mother, you will be shown to your rooms now. I’m sure you’ll find them beneath your usual standards, but as we’re still recovering from a war, you will have to make do.”

His words weren’t unkind, just matter of fact. She nodded in understanding, eyes filled with something he’d never seen there. Remorse.

He’d give her the night before asking questions about how they’d spent the war. He couldn’t remember the last honest conversation he’d had with her. Maybe he never had.

With this new and better world of theirs only beginning, he thought it was a good time to try.

She thanked him again, offered a hasty smile to Manon, then followed a servant out the door. The others took it as their cue and left as well, leaving only Chaol and Yrene still seated at the table.

And Manon and Hollin.

His brother seemed afraid to move under her merciless stare. Dorian bit back a grin.

“Apologize,” Manon growled.

Yrene’s eyes went wide. Chaol watched Hollin, his hand on the pommel of his sword. Dorian was almost tempted to say he was sorry. For what, he didn’t know. Such was the power of that one word from Manon’s mouth.

Hollin wouldn’t look at her, clearly regretting his earlier statement. No, he didn’t regret what he said. Just that in hitting his mark, he’d pissed off an Ironteeth witch.

To Dorian’s - and Chaol’s - shock, Hollin stood and offered them a half-hearted bow. “My apologies.” His eyes remained on the floor as he turned and left.

There was a popping sound as Manon removed the tips of her nails from where they’d been dug into the wooden table.

Yrene stood and released a loud exhale. “Perhaps we should send him to Anielle to live with your father,” she said to Chaol. “Or would they make each other worse?”

Manon barked a laugh. Luckily, she’d never met Chaol’s father. Stories of him were more than enough. And, Dorian thought, hit a little too close to what she’d gone through with the matron.

“Worse. Definitely worse,” Chaol said. “But it’s a good last resort.” He rose and kissed his wife’s cheek as they went to check on baby Josefin.

“I’ve never heard him apologize before,” Dorian said, in disbelief.

“That barely qualified. I couldn’t let him get away with it.” Her voice trembled with renewed anger. “He’s lucky I waited until I calmed down.”

Dorian glanced at the ten rather large gouge marks in the table and smirked. “That’s calm, witchling?”

Manon walked over to him, stopping a hair’s breadth away. “That’s me defending someone I love.”

They’d said the words before to each other. I love you. Still, he never got over the lightening-strike feeling of hearing her say it to him.

After a long kiss that he wished would never end, he said, “Then allow me to thank someone I love with a flight on her wyvern. And to celebrate surviving my family.”

“I accept. As soon as I change into suitable clothes.”

“You’re already wearing them aren’t you? Or is that your way of asking me to help you out of them?”

Manon looked down at herself. “These are too clean to fly in. I’ll keep them for special occasions.” Walking away, she glanced over her shoulder, her eyes a fiery gold. “But yes. You may help, princeling.”

[turning-through-the-never]

"There have been times I have wanted to find you. For nothing other than I think you probably would give me a very comforting hug, if I had the courage to ask for it. You seem like you'd be a good hugger. I could use a hug."

Anonymously tell my muse something you would never directly say to their face!

“I am an excellent hugger, ask anyone that has ever been on the receiving end of one!  Everyone could use a good hug every now and then, makes everything a little better.  If you’re ever in need of a hug, friend, don’t be shy, I’m happy to provide!”

ty anon

[xmydaysinmilanx]

Prompto maybe? He develops crushes really easily in the game, but I wondered what kind of person he'd actually be comfortable with without getting too infatuated... -Anony who asked the last question

I am deeply apologetic right now, my dear Anon! I do not know what this piece really is. An unplanned fanfiction combined with headcanons? Although I am a decent writer, storytelling is another matter - I am a newbie and will hopefully improve in time. Anyway, please do just er, go with it and maybe enjoy it? :). 

WARNING: FINAL FANTASY XV STORY SPOILERS AHEAD! I removed the ‘read more’ line break for mobile users!

Typically, Prompto’s not the kind of dude to try and play off his feelings towards a girl he likes. He’s apprehensive, yet feels an overwhelming urge to satisfy his needs and be a ‘man’ about his crushes. Since high school, post weight loss and a boost in confidence; he has tried and failed to land the girl of his dreams. Sure, girls think he’s cute sometimes, just not boyfriend material. Prompto doesn’t want to be just the ‘cute’ sidekick of the Royal Prince Noctis - he strives for something more. The bros were always quick to tease Prompto about his longstanding crush on Cindy Aurum - the certified sexy car mechanic, drawing plenty of business to her father’s small Hammerhead garage. Prompto was forever dreaming she’d ask the bros for help for a chance to see him again. Sadly, Cindy was always and probably will remain devoted to her first love - work. Eventually Prompto came to realise his desire for Cindy was simply a fleeting dream that was not meant to be - it’s purely platonic. Sadly, Prompto’s confidence was shattered. Along with coming to terms with his MT history and figuring out who he really was as a person, maybe the overwhelming desire for a relationship can wait. Or maybe not. Not when he met you.

Two years had passed since the ultimate sacrifice was made to restore light to the world of Eos. King Noctis had truly earned his place on the throne. Sadly, the only evidence of a ‘King’ Noctis was the shining gold memorial engraved beneath it. Whilst the passing of Noctis was necessary to sustain the well-being of the planet, it deeply saddened his nearest and dearest. Prompto was one of them – his best friend, his confidante and loyal companion whom he swore to protect alongside Gladio and Ignis….gone for good. The now 30 something group of Kingsglaive who served Noctis during his final moments were forging their own paths in life. The three of them were praised by the public for their dedication and with his rising popularity, Prompto took advantage of occasional appearances in the media (much to Ignis’s dismay), saving all the gil he accumulated to set up his own organisation: ‘Promptography.’  Just one man and his camera – Prompto photographed the whole world and many high profile figures, often collaborating with Vyv for highly sought fashion magazines sold in Altissia.  Yes, Prompto knows a good outfit when he sees one!

Today was just another day, another shoot for Prompt. He rose from his high ground penthouse in the now restored Citadel, Insomnia, sipped some Ebony and checked his schedule -he can thank Ignis for his improved organisational skills over the past two years. Prompto had a shoot booked in for Citadel’s City College students. You are one of those students. You’re not a fan of pictures but the college Principle demanded ‘slice of life’ images of the students in class for the prospectus. ‘At least I’m not the only one suffering’, you thought to yourself. Prompto arrived at the campus promptly. (Har har xD.) He was greeted by the principle at the reception area and immediately escorted to the History department where you are currently studying. The door knocks and Prompto shyly enters the classroom complete with his dazzling equipment. Purposely, you were refusing to pay much attention.

The principle called your name and many others in the class to pose as ‘hardworking’ dedicated go getters. Prompto suggested study books be in shot and encouraged all to smile. You had not bothered looking up yet till you received a nudge from your classmate: ‘Yo Y/N, pay attention.’ You looked up to find the Principle had been trying to reach out to you, stating that dedication shouldn’t be portrayed in the form of leaning your elbow on books, staring into space. Humiliated, you decided to try and play it cool by holding your book in the air, grinning to the point your jaw ached. ‘This is great. Now it’s picture time!’ said an overly enthusiastic Prompto right before he snapped 3 shots of the class. You were almost blinded by the flashing lights, so why you decided to get up from your seat and attempt to leave for the restroom was beyond you. As you attempted to walk to the door, the flashing lights, still leaving you visually impaired caused you to accidently bash into a figure.

You felt a slight push and heard the whimper of a man. As you quickly apologised, a bashful tone of laughter could be heard from the same figure you just casually bumped into. Your vision was restored to normal and you notice the one and only Prompto standing before you with a hand on his hip. You apologised and smiled gracefully but he wouldn’t really look at you and only acknowledged you with a chuckle. You were intrigued by his behaviour, you thought he would have at least look you in the eye after your apology. This was PROMPTO after all – he’s not the shy type. Anyway, you both just walked in opposite directions and went about your day as usual, brushing the incident under the carpet.Prompto decided to use the college cafeteria to grab some coffee when he saw you approaching the table in which he was seated. It was then, under the harsh lights that he noticed how radiant you are. Like him, you have a few freckles which complimented your skin tone and hair. Your hair was of a texture he hadn’t seen before on another woman – your warm and welcoming smile gave him a fuzzy feeling, his stomach tying in knots. You greeted him and got past the small talk quickly, discussing each of your lives and adventures – his Royal duties, photography and your studies. You ask him to accompany you on a college field trip to ‘The Rock of Ravatogh” if it was possible.

He shyly agrees and you both sit next to each other on the coach used to escort students and 5 teachers to the now huge tourist (Gladio filmed a few Cup Of Noodle commercials there) attraction. Of course no one was allowed directly inside the dungeon – the volcanic lava and monster activity was too much of a risk, visitors had to make do with camping on the outskirts – the view just close enough to capture decent landscape images. Prompto held no qualms about camping but when you asked him to share a tent (you’re not the most popular student) he reluctantly agreed.

HEADCANON: Prompto’s behaviour around someone he feels truly compassionate about:

Prompto does not really know what he’s looking for in a woman. Perhaps no word needs to define it. When he knows, he’ll know. Period. 

He fell in love on a history trip with an adult student of the Citadel College. She’s almost a decade younger, yet a little more mature than he is.·         

She pursued him and he was not used to it. He’s done the chasing all his life.·         

He admired her passion for history. He didn’t excel in historical studies himself but her ambition was attractive.·     

He was secretly relieved she was not very popular – he doesn’t want her peers judging him in a negative fashion. He endured enough torment in his school years.·     

She had a get up and go attitude on this trip but was attentive to Prompto’s needs. 

He could only ever confide in Noctis prior to meeting this woman. Despite his ever growing feelings, he was still lost for words most of the time and eye contact was a struggle. ·    

He refuses to take photographs of her out of fear for seeming disrespectful.

She took a selfie with him on her phone and he wouldn’t stand too close as her emulating warmth made him weak at the knees….he just didn’t want it to look too obvious. This time he was all over the ‘subtle’ approach.   

He regarded himself as the weakest of his friends during his time of serving Noctis but that wouldn’t stop him being overprotective of his crush. Especially when she attempted to sneak off in the night to take pictures and had to defend herself from troublesome critters that lurked amongst the sealed outdoor dungeon. He’d find her, pull at her arm and playfully push her back into the tent.·         

He didn’t want to admit he was sometimes a little fearful of the dark, especially with bugs around. He hates bugs. Thankfully she finds it adorable and tried to make him laugh with pathetic jokes to take his mind off it.·         

He felt nurtured. He was laughing with joy for the first time in years. That void of emptiness since losing Noctis was being filled. He was being taken care of after all those years of attending to the needs of someone else. 

During the final night of the trip she bid him a goodnight with a soft kiss on his now stubbly lower cheek before going to sleep.

Feeling slightly more confident after her subtle move, he would enlist the help of Ignis to help cook a special chicken dinner for his crush, post history trip. He plans to reveal his feelings then. He wouldn’t just admit his feelings, he’d be honest and try to explain his love, as well as attempting to justify it, nervously. Though I think he needn’t worry. 

[anything-advice-blog]

Submission about Dance

Urgent!! There will be some sort of dance rehearsal for the school event. I feel rlly okay for performing. I kinda enjoy it. But the thing is, the school has this mean scary adviser for the dance rehearsal. We would practice on stage but he makes comments harshly. for the better, they say. But, I can't help backing out. Plus, i feel really pressured. Plus, my physical stature (small) isn't really fit for this. This is my 1st time participating in such an event. Idk, i might quit. Ty!

Urgent!! time senstive! resending this again bc tomorrow will be stage rehearsal. This is my first time joining a dance. And, im okay w/ it. The thing is, we have this mean adviser who keeps harshly commenting on the participants(e.g. dance better! u shouldnt have joined if ure gonna be like that! etc). Its reallly making me pressured and scared. Im not really confident in my physical stature (small and kinda chubby). Idk, i might quit. Ty again! I hope u guys received my last ask!

Time sensitive(i guess). Just wanted to let you guys to know that i already quit the dance club. Idk why you guys didnt answer my ask when i sent it twice for the last few days. If u guys didnt believe some parts, im guessing it was the stage. Our school has this small stage. A really small one. They set it up every school event. It really hurts to quit something I really like doing. Thank you anyway.

Time sensitive ** (i guess) Im the anon that quit the dance club. I marked the asks urgent. I really needed advice that time. I just feel really sad right now. I hope im not a bother. Ty.

4 part submission_____________________________________________

 Hello love!

I’m sorry that we didn’t get to this submission as soon as we should have. I hope you can understand and forgive us. We are trying our best to get everyone but we have a lot of submissions daily and are trying to evenly proportion our answers to those who are still waiting and those who have urgents. We also have to attend to our own lives so we hope that everyone that sends their asks will be patient with us. Once again, we’re so sorry we were only able to answer to you after your dilemma.

First of all, I’m really sorry again that you quit the dance group. It takes not only a lot of confidence to just appear to the rehearsals and even more so to get up on that stage. I already admire you a lot because I would never even consider it despite it being my hobby. So some serious kudos to you.

I know that it’s hard to wrap your head around, but constructive criticism is the best type criticism. How you dance and how much you dance is something for you to enjoy and pursue no matter how many people are against it. You learn a lot about yourself through the guidance of others. If you are able to re-wire your thinking about how and why someone says something about your dancing, it’ll become a gift to you and something you can use to your advantage to improve instead of just being a weapon. Being a previous dancer myself, I know that it can be a hit to your confidence when you hear that you aren’t as good as you had previously thought, but that should push you to prove them wrong and be even better than even you expected. Remember, the only person who can beat you is yourself. Compete with yourself instead of others. There will always be a better dance come a day, but one thing they can never have is your dedication, your uniqueness and your will to keep going.

Coaches are always harsh, but they reason they do push you is really very simple. Think about it this way, if they are harsh on you, it means you have potential and they approve of you. If they don’t even bother to say anything to you, either it means they think your good for your level or they don’t think you’re worth the insight at all. Criticism from a professional is not because they don’t like you, but more like they actually like you. You will be able to recognize this later on when you go back to dancing or anything you do in life. Professionals will always put you down for good reasons, like reminding you of the importance of staying humble, being able to regain confidence despite hard times, and always overcoming and facing obstacles head on.

Build up your confidence until you feel ready to perform. If you are too uncomfortable with the thought of going to a dedicated dance group that has a harsh instructor, you can take classes so you can become closer with the professional. By dancing alone at first (try YouTube choreos and learn them yourself at home or in an empty studio) and eventually with friends, and even strangers when you rebuild your confidence. Try to remember why you love dance and rediscover your passions. If you love dance, then you’ll be able to face this obstacle and have the courage to overcome it.

Don’t be too disappointed with this missed out chance. There are always opportunities in the dance community, and since dance is internationally known, there is no such thing as not “being good enough” in the dance world. If you can move, you can dance, so don’t ever think you’re not good enough or worth it. If you love it, you will find plenty of chances to incorporate dance into your life and you will be warmly welcomed. Look for local bulletin boards, online forums and recreational clubs to join. Try to be open to any type of dance style and expand your horizons.

No such thing as only one type of dancer. There are skinny dancers, curvy dancers, male dancers, female dancers, tall dancers and short dancers. There are dancers of all shapes and sizes. Just because you don’t think you fit in a specific genre, you’re very wrong. You don’t have to be slender to be a ballerina, and you don’t have to have a specific attitude to excel in contemporary. Dancers come in all different types of body figures and sizes and that includes you. Don’t think that just because there’s a regularity in different types of dance that you have to fit in it. Dance is an internationally known form of art and is very accepting of people. In fact, many famous choreographers end up being completely different from their original chosen specific genre of dance.

If you truly love dance, you don’t need a club to do what you love. I suggest trying to find a more recreational group or form a group of your own, if the stage isn’t your thing then just learn dance for fun. It important to be able to learn dance in a safe environment where you are comfortable, criticism is great but if you are judged all the time you’ll be too afraid to dance and that would be worse. You could find a cheap-ish dance class too perhaps, and get some friends to join. All I’m trying to say is find a way to keep dancing, no matter what happens.

Good luck!

~Ella  ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ