#this is about my selfship. js.

[ghostlygeto]

wish u were here | james wilson

pairing: james wilson x reader

warnings: you just gotta hear me out guys. whats it called when it isnt technically cheating but it feels like cheating (from both parties, not on each other), entirely self indulgent and selfship coded, wilson calls reader "birdie" (cringe idc), angst. based loosely on lips of an angel by hinder and glimpse of us by joji, thats all for now plz forgive me

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wilson rubbed his eyes, trying to wipe the sleep from them as he heard his phone vibrating on the nightstand next to him. the name lighting up his screen was yours, causing him to hurriedly grab his phone and press answer.

“hello?” his voice was tired, still laced with the deep sleep he was pulled from for this phone call. “y/n, you know it’s almost three in the morning, right?” wilson slowly removed the covers from his legs, trying his best not to wake his fiance sleeping next to him.

“james,” the soft exhale of his name made his heart ache. how long had it been since you last spoke? “sorry, i know it’s late. it’s probably stupid to call you i just…” the small sob caught him off guard.

“are you crying?” wilson closed the bathroom door, still keeping his voice down just in case. “is everything okay?”

there was a hesitation on the other end of the phone and he could feel it. you were trying to find a way around telling him the truth. “birdie, you know you can trust me.”

birdie. that godawful, stupid nickname you used to hate. you used to roll your eyes every time he’d use it to get your attention, or let it slip in conversation with your friends and coworkers. but now it just made another cry escape your lips. you missed it, you missed him.

“just miss you,” you whispered, trying to keep your voice down as well. “we’ve been fighting a lot lately. and you were in my dream last night- it just felt right to call you.”

wilson sighed. he was relieved to hear that you were okay, his heart rate steadying. though he couldn’t help the annoyed feeling that overtook him as you mentioned your current boyfriend. “i’m glad you���re safe, but you know you really shouldn’t have-”

“can we save the lecture for another time, james?” you let out a shaky laugh. you don’t know what else you expected from him, “i just wanted to hear your voice.”

his free hand ran over his face, trying to rationalize it in his head. it would be okay if he spoke to you, right? just speaking on the phone isn’t wrong, and it wouldn’t hurt anyone. right?

“i can stay on for a little bit. but not too long, if she were to find out i’m on the phone with you it’ll just cause a fight.” wilson sat on the cool tile of his bathroom floor, back against the door. his eyes closed as he listened to the sound of your voice through the phone. “do you need to talk about the fights?”

“it hasn’t been anything serious. it just seems like he’s always angry, i can never win with him.” you sigh, “maybe i’m just too busy comparing him to you all the time. i know i shouldn’t. but it’s hard not to.”

wilson wanted to provide you some sort of comfort, let you know that he often did the same with his fiance. “have you still been going to therapy?”

“yeah.” you answer quickly, remembering how he urged you to talk to someone after you two split, because it would be good for you. “she doesn’t know much about my current partner, though. i don’t like to talk about him.” i don’t love him. you wanted to say, but bit your tongue. you weren’t sure if that would help or hurt anything. probably hurt, if you had to guess.

“if you don’t tell her how is she supposed to help you?” you hadn’t changed a bit, and that made his heart ache. you were the exact same version of yourself that he was in love with. knowing that makes leaving you less justifiable, it makes getting over you harder. “you have to cooperate with her.”

“can you tell me about how you’ve been?” you asked, a sniffle following. “is she nice to you?” you didn’t want to talk about yourself, not really. especially not about what you have or haven’t been talking about in therapy. 

right, the two of you hadn’t spoken since breaking up. despite working at the same hospital, the two of you managed very easily to avoid each other. afterall, the morgue and the oncology department weren’t exactly wall neighbors.

“yeah, yeah she is nice to me.” wilson nodded, a small smile finding its way to his face. he loves his fiance, she’s an amazing woman. she surprises him and makes him dinner, likes watching his favorite shows with him. but… “but she isn’t you.”

you weren’t aware that four words could change your mood so quickly, feeling your stomach fill with warmth and you heart beat quickened. it was nice, in a fucked up way, to know that he missed you as much as you missed him.

“it’s frustrating,” wilson added, “seems like everytime we’re having a good moment i just think of you. wondering to myself if i would be enjoying it more if it were you.” it felt nice to say out loud, like it was a secret he had been keeping for a long time (it was). “sometimes i think she knows.”

“sometimes he does things you used to do and i swear it’s like i can see you standing there instead of him.” you confess, tears still falling down your face despite the smile. “i’m glad she treats you well. it’s what you deserve.”

what he deserves is a death sentence. he internally scolded himself, knowing that he shouldn’t be doing this. he shouldn’t be on the phone with you after not speaking for a year and a half. he was supposed to be getting married this time next year. yet here he was, sitting on his bathroom floor and talking with you, his ex on the phone at half past three in the morning.

“you deserve someone who is going to make you happy, too, y/n.” wilson swallowed harshly. why did he so badly want to be the one to make you happy? why did he feel so bothered over the thought of it being someone that isn’t him? “you should just…just dump that asshole. you know you could do better.”

you wanted to laugh. he was right, of course you could do better. “honestly when i break up with him i think it’ll be my last for awhile. i’m…tired of putting effort into people who don’t do the same.”

he wasn’t sure how many people you had seen since he broke things off with you, he had intentionally avoided that information from house because he didn’t want to know. it didn’t matter if it had been only one or several, he knew he’d hate it either way. “you can’t think like that. then you’ll never find anyone.” encouraging you to find someone else. that was the right thing to be doing here. encouraging you to seek comfort in someone that wasn’t him, or your piece of shit boyfriend. “you’ve always been so pessimistic, just try to look on the bright side of things for once, yeah?”

“you answering the phone is the only bright side i think i’ve had for awhile,” you confess with a laugh and another sniffle. you weren’t sure when you stopped crying but you were thankful you had, already feeling the headache it would bring on. “do you think we can ever be friends again?”

wilson stiffened. yes. he wanted to tell you. but he wasn’t sure that was the right answer. “i don’t know, y/n. there’s a lot that would have to happen for us to be able to be friends again.” i’d have to get over you. 

“i knew that’s what you were going to say,” you gave a lighthearted chuckle. “i should…get off of here now. it’s late. we work in the morning. goodnight, james. it was nice talking to you.”

“you, too, y/n. goodnight.” wilson listened to the call disconnect as he let his phone clatter to the ground. it had been so long, he had been doing so well not thinking of you until tonight. all it took was one little phone call for you to worm your way back into his heart.

or rather, it only took one phone call for him to remember why he never should have let you go to begin with.

i rly am amazed that im posting this in 2023 but he is literally the love of my life right now. comments, reblogs, and likes appreciated!

[xlivr]

i think I'm starting become vi and I've come across this realization in the shower

[mashedpotatosinacup]

ough … I wanna talk abt my self ships so bad …

[driaswrld]

i needddd to hear ur yuuji thoughts 🤲🤲

KNIVES I AM SICK 😔

the dria x yuuji pinterest board is my roman empire im crying he lives in my mind sm dear LORD

may i introduce you to BASKETBALL PLAYER YUUJI 😩‼️

just him all sweaty n smiley after practice and bounding up the bleachers to give me a big hug im actually ill — he wears converse i wear docs bye golden retriever boyf n black cat gf, loud sunshine x quiet sunshine (or sun x star trope if u dare)

riri x rocky type beat?? hello??? AND THIS IM SOBBING

js idiots in love who SWEAR they're just friends but i mean cmon lets bfr rn

[satorisoup]

erm hi fwendss ^_^ this is gonna be like… a bit of a question but also a wittle bit of a rant… m’ confused ehehe T^T in tha small font cuz… s’ embarrassing for me… sniffles sosbsbs !!!!

b4 i start here are tha main components of da topic at hand : talks of little space, mentions of toxic ex bf, lots of typing quirks, some selfship stuffs, and wanting to feel more comfortable in my space without makin’ anyone else weirded out… needin’ advice methinks /nf

so like… i didn’t know that it wasn’t necessarily considered “normal” (?) to like… wanna be treated like a child sometimes… ?????????? (՞߹ - ߹՞) n e ways…

i’ve avoided dis topic for shosho long bcuz… i didn’t wanna be viewed differently n’ i didn’t wanna lose any of my cutie mooties or sumthin’ :< … but sometimes i rlllyyy wanna post how m’ feelin at tha moment but i don’t want anyone to be liek… “ lene never posts stuffs like dis” or “ why is lene talkin’ like dis” or “ lene is actin’ weird” yeah…

yeah n’ like… the thing i imagine tha most with my f/o’s is… them holdin’ me & rockin’ me like a baby or something… cuz s’ just so comforting :< n’ i want them to take care of me… and stuffs… and do fun tingsss like !! i wanna watch my favorite cute show wif them and ramble about it while they nod their head and tell me m’ so smart… MWUEHE dis is so embarrassin’. omigoodness…

which dis also might explain why i usually type wif lots of cute little quirks if anyone was wondering abouts dat… right now i’m feeling extra cutesie so m’ usin’ LOTS & LOTSSS ehe !! ^_^ it’s very comfortin’ to me so… yeagahshdb !!! :,>

dis alllll leads to my question… what would this be considered ?? :”0 is this weird… fwieeeeendsss :< i dont know wat to dooo… someone hold my hand or something i might cry T^T

when i was datin’ my ex (bad, yucky guy… nunu…) i do remember feelin’ little (?) at times… n’ wanting to feel comforted in a way that he couldn’t provide mefinks… like. sumtimes id hold two of his fingers wif my hand and he’d shake me off n’ stuffs… or when i wanted him to cuddle or hold me at all, even in a way dat was “normal” he wouldn’t… ehe… n e way… he did lotsa stuff that kinda made me feel wantin’ to be comforted more… but he was the cause of me feeling sad and i didn’t know what ta do… m’ very glad he’s gone :> there was too much pain in dat relationship… i wasnt ever comfy… n e way. i know kou wouldn’t ever dream of doin’ that stuffs to me… but i want to cope like dis… it makes me feel happy T^T

if i started typing more like how its comfortin’ to me… or if its a bit more quirked… would you be mad :< not all da time… but ya… ive always held back on it cuz… i didnt wanna seem weird or nuffin… sigh </3

will probs delete this tomorrow but !! i wanna know what ta do for realsies… this isn’t considered little space right ?? what is little space… :0 cuz if its when you feel younger than you are at times… yeah *nods* i fink. m’ sho sorry is this weird of me… :,< i dont wanna make n e one uncomfortable or something… oki. anyways…. WAHHHHHH !!!!!

any ways— to distract myself from dis ramble… look at my pwetty kiri (っ⸝⸝⸝ <) i wuv his hair like this shosho much… i just wanna smooch his cheeks :> nomnomnom !! (*ᴗ͈ ̫ ᴗ͈) his teefies… ehe :,> he’s so manly n’ strong… i want him to hold me mwuehe !! :3

sometimes i js wanna post abouts how much i wuv my sweetie pie shoto… n’ how i want him to smooch m’ cheeks ehe… or about kou :< my precious kou… s’ also why in all my selfships my nickname is usually sumfin’ along the lines of “baby”… ehehe ^_^

n’ i really want katsuki to hold me n’ rock me to sleep… s’ that weird ?? it might be out of character but… i like to imagine it mhm mhm :,>

or sumtimes i wanna play wif satoru… n’ be silly while he feeds me sweets n’ calls me his pwetty sweet princess :< andand there would be lotsa cakes !! and strawberries !! m’ favorite !! >//<

n’ i rlly love imagining gettin’ all dolled up in pwetty sundresses n stuffs dat choso likes :> n’ havin’ him hold my hands in his… ehe

ohoh !! and… holding two of sugu’s fingers wif my whole hand… :< n’ makin’ pinky pwomises… ouh… how cute… m’ kicking my feetsiesss !! ^0^

or ume holdin’ me like a princess… n’ lettin’ me watch as he cuts his veggies to make me a snackie… cuz he knows i wuv veggies… mhm :3

m’ sorry… gots a bit distracted thinkin’ bout all the stuffs i’ve wanted to say b4… ehe….. (つω`｡) i couldn’t help it !!

anyways, goodnight friends :> if u see dis & i delete it… yeagh… comments or askies r definitely appreciated sniffle :> im supa curious EEEK !! m’ shy excuseee me >//<

[aureatchi]

hello, reverie. i am truly sorry to bother you. i saw your reblog about your selfships, and i adore the concepts. if you would be so kind, i would like to ask if you have any recommendations for books or movies that would match the 'academia' vibe you provided, and of course, if you could give me some. thank you.

please forgive me if my english is unnatural and forced, for it is not my first language. 🐇

nonnie !! my lovely don’t ever apologize, you’re not bothering me at all !! :< i’m sorry i’ve let my asks pile up sm this week, i’ve seen a few others signed by you & i promise i will get to them soon (i’m honestly js cherishing them to myself rn hehe bcz i love getting fedya asks & you’ve indulged me sm 🥹; i promise i’ll release them soon !!)

but anyways THANK YOU SM FOR ASKING :’) i’m so in love w/ this ask omg. honestly i swear there’s something out there tht could fit our exact dynamic perfectly but i’ll have to do more searching (& reading; unfortunately school’s haven’t given me time to read things for fun these past couple of years :< but once i can balance out my classes this year i’ll def get into the habit again (˘ ˘ ˘) !!) js for you nonnie i’ll come back & reblog this post when i’ve found more in this genre i could relate to w/ updates ᰔ

& btw if anyone else thinks of anything tht could relate pls pls tell me, i’d totally check it out <3

but WHAT I HAVE SO FAR !! the secret history & if we were villains ofc; ik they’re so popular but the first is rly the blueprint for the ‘dark academia vibe’ imo 🥹. & let me talk abt the second…

if we were villains is abt a group of theatre kids who study about shakespeare. (LOL is this already typical of me?) they are all close friends (altho they acc all have complex feelings abt each other) but one tragic night results in a murder of one of them. the book is basically about how all of it came to be. there’s this one line that goes “do you blame shakespeare for any of it?” & the main character replies “i blame him for all of it.” i was rly inspired by how the theme of shakespeare was incorporated into the story & how it caused such tragedy (even though shakespeare wasn’t an actual character; even alive, etc.) therefore, i took inspiration from it to add to the fyozai academia universe, where our demise is ofc…the fyozai chess game tht asagiri also uses as a metaphor in bsd !! & it’s both literal & a theme — the three of us all literally play chess, & it’s also used as a metaphor for MY three-way manipulation mind game… 🙂‍↕️ hehe.

also i feel like fyodor is so henry winter from the secret history. but anyways ik these are only two, so i promise i’ll come back w/ more recs for you !! (esp since it’s almost autumn) they’re both supa similar — TSH is basically the same plot as IWWV except they study greek/latin instead of shakespeare, but i enjoyed both of them.

your english is perfect, btw. :)

[aphroditesswan]

HIIIII i’m here to ask ab your f/o’s :3

for whoever you wanna yap about!! who usually wakes up first? do you prefer a date night in or out? n what was your first impression of each other?

omg so off topic but me n u have a lot of selfships in common?? love u gang

honestly took me a minute to respond bc selfships arent really something i talk abt on my acc so im writing this in confidence 😭

but really im js gonna talk abt one rn yk? anyways definitely self insert kinda oc ish

i love love loveee megumi

we usually wake up around the same time, we both like to be on time but it takes me a while to get ready for the day so he’s taken it upon himself to set my alarm earlier than usual and then sleep in a bit himself 😐.

while i do like going out and im very much an extrovert, pda isn’t exactly either of our biggest strengths so a date in is ideal. if we do go out, kugisaki and itadori are most definitely tagging along which i have no problem with but knowing megumi, its like dealing with 3 overactive puppies for him.

my first impression was really just that he was cute and really intimidating, we didn’t talk that much the first two weeks maybe of knowing each other. his was probably that i was loud 🌚. but when we did start talking more, he seemed sweet enough to keep talking to

but yeah if you guys want more selfship content js feel free to lmk!! this was fun to write n usually my selfships include ocs n such but i’ll only bother you guys with all of that if you guys want 😭 im also working on a masterlist that’ll hopefully be out around tmrw!! love you guyss 🫶🫶

[monnziedarling]

Can you yap about your F/O's pleeeeaease i really wanna hear some rambling from you for some reason 😭😭😭

my power freaking disappeared for no reason my sincerest apologies 😭

My number one partner of all time is (you guessed it) Donatello rise of the ninja turtle. She is my wife we had a nonlegal marriage once and we love each other deeply. When i selfship with her nowadays I usually imagine myself as Leo since I've projected damn near everything I am onto her 😭 she's an oc atp. Also Leo is the older twin I do NAWT make the rules

I have four wives from Skullgirls. Cerebella, Valentine, Black Dahlia and Parasoul in order of the strange order I categorize them in for some reason. My s/I for Cerebella is kinda just me, plus I ship her with Squigly (who is 14) so I hc her as a lolisho or something (in a sense idk what other way to say that. She dates children she's weird I love her). Valentine is my older sister figure and I don't selfship with her romantically so she's just a familial platonic f/o, I am simply kissing that old woman (black dahlias like 50 something), and honestly parasouls salty voice lines alone is what makes me attracted to her I want that woman to bully someone in front of me

Toga from mha is a queerplatonic f/o, we have known each other for so long. I truly love her and care for her so much it's unreal. She's always had my back fr she just. Gets me and although I can't completely understand her issues because I for one do not have superpowers she's js so understanding and kind about it and she still shares so much with me it's jajwwoshwije the way I talk about her you'd think shes real. I love Toga (queerplatonically)

Bakugo is my ex. Does that count

Marie from Splatoon is also one of my f/o's,,, I know it might not sound like it but tide goes out is actually a soft love song she wrote about me my source is I made it up. I specifically selfship with her in the first Splatoon so she's 17 when I date her (her and Donnie are the only romantic f/os I have that are my age help)

When I was like 7 I had a gigantic crush on 2012 tmnt Donnie (go figure) so I just consider him a childhood crush f/o. Same with Junko Emoshima in a sense, she's also a familial f/o of mine. Marie was also a childhood crush f/o but we're actually dating now so it's different

This is so unorganized help me

TSUMUGI!!!! my older sister and also my girlfriend I love her deeply. She kisses me on the forehead every night and also reads stories to me. We write fanfics together, share stories about whatever respective fandom we're obsessing over (her recent one has been that guy from the Ultraman movie) she's so cool and awesome. The girlfriend thing is kinda more casual/laid-back compared to f/os like Marie, Cerebella and ofc Donnie

Thats it :) thank you for coming to the f/o speech by monni. hope uou enjoy

[deathdive]

Pyxis, Serpens, Ursa, Vulpecula with any of your selfships <3

YAYY!! thank you for the ask alexisss:3 ill do akiming

pyxis “who’s the best at planning and putting things together? who just goes with the flow and does things blindly?”

im probably the best at planning (my ego going📈📈 rn). ga ming’s kinda in the middle, since he has to deal with a lot of deliveries and stuff i can imagine he has a schedule or two that he needs to follow. to be honest i get kind of stressed when things don’t go to plan, simply eating lunch at the wrong time makes my brain hurt☹️ i think ga ming would really help me with that, calming me down when i get too stressed about being late to a reservation or something like that.

serpens “have either or you ever told the other a lie? what was it and why?”

ga ming’s def told me some spring rolls or something had shrimp in it and that i couldn’t eat it just so he could have it all for himself..(jerk) on a serious note, when his relationship with his dad was still a little icky he procrastinated introducing me to him, probably saying stuff like “oh he’s too busy..” or “he’s out if town right now.” im not the type to lie, even “for the better” but maybe a white lie or two’s popped out.

ursa “how do you comfort each other in times of sadness or anguish? how do you heal each other?”

me and ga ming are the type to just want cuddles and warm comforting food when we’re sad. maybe we’ll take out some food and just cuddle on the couch or maybe we’ll whip up the other their favorite comfort food<3 “宝贝 im sad😢😢” “don’t worry pookie ill make you congee”. whenever im sad (or on my period) i really crave my mom’s cooking, specifically her kimchi!! imagine ga ming going all the way to my parents’ house js to grab some🫶🫶 eat those bad feelings away!!!

vulpecula “who is the more vulnerable of the two? who is the more closed off one? how did you gain each other’s trust?”

not to be mean but ga ming’s def more vulnerable, opening himself up more to others. he’s js a friendly pookie dont hurt him!! growing up my parents always taught me to be careful on the information i share with others and “think before you act” idk that just spiraled into some insane social anxiety!!!haha!!!! okay but fr i think we both have some things we wouldn’t feel comfortable sharing at first, like ga ming’s father issues. we honestly just clicked i don’t think it took much time for me to open up to ga ming (hes js too sweet)

[starfishsonny]

INTRO?? ON MY DASHBOARD?? UM. I THINK.

HEY GANG!!!! my names bella!! i use she/her and im a sapphic non binary ^^ my art tag is #BELLA DRAWS!! and my ramble tag is #BELLA SPEAKS !!!!

i have a BUNCHH of interests but some of them are:

⭐️dog man (current hyperfix)

⭐️captain underpants (spinterest)

⭐️rock paper scissors (it’s a real swag show!)

⭐️your favorite martian

⭐️teenage mutant ninja turtles

⭐️south park

……and many more!

SOME **CLASSIFIED** INFO:

I PLAY GUITAR!!!! i’m not the best at it because i’ve only been playing since august (it’s one of my electives for school) but i really really love playing!! i have my own guitar at home :) (her name is claude!!)

I SELFSHIP!!! kind of embarrassing but i love to selfship!! i have a buncha ocs and oc x canon is my jam :))

I LOVE MUSIC!! music is quite literally my outlet for like. all of my emotions. some of my favorite bands are: ween, hole, the beatles, best coast and primus!! ask me about any

IM VERY HYPER!!! i’m sure you could tell by now but half the time i’m batshit insane off the walls😭if you ever need me to pipe down js tell me!!

I LOVE WRITING!! writing is also one of my outlets!! i mostly write stuff on ao3 but i do occasionally dabble in notebook writing and poetry!!

DNI:

🌟PROSHITTERS

🌟BASIC DNI (RACISTS, HOMOPHOBES, TRANSPHOBES, ETC)

🌟IF YOU DISLIKE SELF SHIPPERS

[sanofiles]

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醒 ⟩ i’m very slow at replying to asks . . . i’m really busy and it’s not on purpose, so please don’t think i’m ignoring you! (Ｔ▽Ｔ)

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裡 ⟩ i use a lot of petnames ++. terms of endearment for my mutuals, &&. if you don’t like that please let me know!

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山 ⟩ all hate is blocked, especially anon hate!

── 𝓚𝐙𝐔𝐇𝐀𝐄’𝐒 𝓡𝐔𝐋𝐄𝐒 ; 𝓦𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆

吼 ⟩ i don’t accept requests, please don’t send any ૮꒰っ˕‹̥̥̥ ꒱ა you’re free to ramble in my inbox about any thoughts, i might write them!

( 法 ) ⟩ don’t send dark content requests. i am very picky with the dark content i write and consume. please don’t rush or force me to write thirsts or thoughts as well, i will trash it right away.

怖 ⟩ I DON’T WRITE FOR.

male!reader. chara x chara. bodily fluids other than spit &&. cum. rape / noncon. fisting. raceplay. graphic domestic or sexual abuse. suicidal tendencies. self harm. omegaverse. rpf. incest. eating disorders.

( 魔 ) ⟩ list will be updated &&. changed as time goes on. i also might reblog works with some of these tropes depending.

百 ⟩ I DO WRITE FOR.

fem!reader. filipino!coded fics (especially when writing for izana kurokawa). fluff. smut. longfics. multi-series. headcanons ++. thirsts. switch!reader. most characters from my fandoms -> if unsure then js ask ^_^

( 魔 ) ⟩ list will be updated &&. changed as time goes on. i also might reblog works with some of these tropes depending.

俱 ⟩ I MIGHT WRITE FOR.

aged up characters. stepcest. age gaps (depending). professor x uni student. dub-con. cheating. drug use. somnophilia. fear play. sub!chara. dom!reader. yandere (picky). gangbang. monster fucking (depending).

( 馴 ) ⟩ list will be updated &&. changed as time goes on. i also might reblog works with some of these tropes depending.

[ilyuu-archive]

YOU DID NOR JUST DRAW MY OC ??€?€)€;#+#(#;#(#)#+

Pls Yui nawhh nawhh NAWHHHH DODBSJIWWBBWKKWWBJS

*malfunctioning*

Yui ofmggg it's so cute it's sowbisowbwn - this stays in my inbox forever sorry 🏃💨

It's such an honour ya did it siehsiwhwbjsi

(as you can see I'm totally well about this /lies)

PLSSSS HE LOOKS SO CUTE IN YOUR STYLE RHENABHAJIWBAB

Nawh plsss in all seriousness, it always makes me happy if someone draws my (silly) OC's;; like.. ya think my OCs are worth drawing?? Ejeoebwjjsns plssss and it turned out so good and so adorable I CANT. I can't stop looking at it

I will cherish it forever

Thank you so so so so much Yui <3

You will get something in return later 💞💞 (please know I can't draw for shit (as you saw in my selfship sideblog) so it won't be a drawing, heh ❤️)

Thank you so much frfr omffbsijs it made my whole day now diegsiehbekdosj

Take care and I love you <33💞💞

AWWWWWWWWWWW 💞💞 I JS WOKE UP AND ONE OF THE FIRST THINGS I SEE IS THIS i was in a real mood to draw all of yesterday and when i saw one of your ocs i liked that one in particular (definitely because the hair looked so pretty and funajsihdjjs)

SO I’M REALLY GLAD YOU LIKED IT!! tho i liked how it came out, my lack of practice with colors and shading definitely showed,,,,,, eep BUT!! it means nothing if it means it made you happy :D

take care vi and i love you too <3

[viridian-artist]

Okay I don't wanna be rude or anything rkght-? But I'm very new to the selfship community, I mean I've always selfshipped bit I didn't know there was a COMMUNITY yknow

Anyways whenever I selfshipped I never saw them as mine or anything or actuslly as my partner it was always just haha and wishful thinking, but when I joined that selfship community I saw stuff about sharing

Which I've never ever seen before. Then I looked at some people's accounts and realized they were referring to their f/o's as their boyfriends and girlfriends etc

So basically, do people actuslly get upset that other people selfship with someone they selfship

Like does it ACTUALLY affect their mental health

Bc for me they were never MINE they were js a character I was into. But then it gets kinda more concerning when it's not just Hobie brown or Alistor or Husk. Fictional characters aren't as concerning. But when it comes to real people, like Rendog or Joel or Grian can you really call them yours? These are REAL people mind you and they don't belong to anyone.

Anyways, I'm just hoping you can explain you're thought process or something,I hope this wasn't rude

First off, who said anyone here was selfshipping with IRL Rendog, Grian, or whoever else? As shown in the screenshot below of my PINNED POST::

I've personally only ever selfshipped with CHARACTER Rendog, hence the "c!" part in front of his name. I know there are people that purely see the cubito as the content creator, yet I am of the group that places a separation between the two. I love the content creator, don't get me wrong, but I ONLY selfship with the silly dog hybrid character he plays on the silly Minecraft server.

Secondly, yes. It can absolutely affect someone's mental health. I am not ashamed of admitting that I can get very upset by it, yet I'm working on it. I acknowledge it's not the healthiest thing in the world to be so heavily attached to a fictional character.

That said, it's not like I willingly act this way. I'm not going into the nitty gritty of WHY I'm so attached to cRendog other than saying that it's a mix of me having formally found Ren (the content creator) and his Hermitcraft Season 9 POV shortly after escaping a toxic/abusive relationship and seeking comfort as well as stress from having battled medical issues last year. I say formally because I knew who he was due to the Life/Traffic series, but I never quite got around to watching UNTIL Hermitcraft Season 9.

I personally view cRendog as my boyfriend. Not in a serious way, of course, but rather I find comfort in that. Even then, it's the specific version of cRendog that I've gradually changed? Nothing drastic or heavily different. The cRendog I selfship with is a mix of the one we see on Hermitcraft with some headcanons, as seen below::

The cRendog I personally selfship with is a fat transmasc bigender dog hybrid with a tooth gap, paints his nails, and (now) has grey hairs mixed in with his long brown hair.

There's more shifts and adjustments to his personality and mannerisms that I won't go into here (as it's not entirely relevant other than they exist). These changes exist because I've spent so much of my personal time drawing art and writing and simply talking about the relationship he'd have with my Hermitsona/self insert.

He may not be real, instead lines on a page and pixels on a screen, but it's what he REPRESENTS that affects me. I care deeply for him and genuinely appreciate what he's done for me as a comfort character. I refer to him less as a comfort character and more like a boyfriend, simply because to me? It simply suits the situation more.

Overall, I can't speak for others and how they selfship or how it affects them. Nor do I intend to speak for them. This is how it is for me with cRendog. Again, you're not being rude, and I don't mind answering further questions.

[etoiile]

ami, ami, tell me more about your selfships, please. i love hearing/reading them ^^

RAHHHH noo i hope that you know this door cannot be closed once its been opened (｀ω´) ANYWAYS HERE WE GO

okok so my biggest one for blue lock is definitely REO. and here's why

reo lowkey has like attachment and abandonment issues (thanks nagi!!) and like .... ME TOO!! (cries in parental problems) so we'd both be like very attached to each other and wouldnt ever have to doubt if the other person loved us and much as we loved them. NO INSECURITIES YAY!!!

reo loves pampering people. its his love language. I LOVE BEING PAMPERED BC IT MAKES ME FEEL SO SPECIAL (again cries in parental problems lol my parents never made me feel special HAHAHA) (this post is actually js me trauma dumping)

reo is very perceptive to emotions and so am i ^^ im not too good with expressing how im feeling so having someone who can just tell is so nice

idk why but like i love being carried for some reason. AND REO CARRIES NAGI EVERYWHERE ITS PERF !!!!!

reo talks enough where i dont feel stupid for talking too much but he's also not too talkative which is good bc i love talking (clearly)

i am actually nagi 2.0. like i am nagi nagi is me. WE ARE THE SAME. im really lazy and clingy and unmotivated hehe and reo loves nagi so therefore reo loves me!!!!! (this is my delusion talking)

i think that reo really needs to feel like he's needed. and like. ME TOO BRO!!!!!! im good at making people feel like they mean a lot to me coz im very affectionate and i think that that's something that reo really needs

he's kind of a teasey flirt?? but like not too much where i'm like boy stfu like i dont want an f-boy but i think that like teasing is fun. idk he's just sassy and i think its cute ^^

reo is just so earnest and caring and un-judging, if that makes sense. im really sensitive and a crybaby, but he seems like the kind of guy to welcome me into his arms regardless of my flaws. (unlike sae no offense who's a judgy bitch. still love him tho!!)

reo is rich and my grades lately are looking like im gonna have to marry rich (´ε｀；)

the other ones are chigiri (a good listener but not TOO quiet, sweet and sassy which is fun, def has a better haircare routine than me) and nagi (because we're pretty similar)

ok. ONTO HAIKYUU!! (if ur wondering i have a ton of hq works sitting in my drafts lol. I PROMISE I'LL COME OUT WITH ONE SOON!!!) (jk no promises)

SUGA AND OSAMU AND SUNA. i'll keep these ones short coz i feel like ive made this too long alr lol

suga:

super sweet!! i cant deal with too much meanness (like tsukishima)

despite sweetness hes still super silly and sassy which is just fun

emotionally perceptive (like reo!!) put reasoning for why i need an emotionally perceptive guy above ^^

osamu:

shared love of food LOLL

i have a thing for twins idk why LOLOL. im sorry this is so random but it had to be said. i also like kaoru from ohshc. and like. my current irl crush is an identical twin. IDK WHY ITS LIKE THIS BUT IT IS HAHAHA (i think maybe its bcoz like between the two of them one is always more quiet/perceptive so i notice that?? idek bro)

quieter!! yes!!!!!!!

he would give the best hugs ever. like osamu is just so squishy and yes and he would give such good hugs!! (sobs in touch starved) (this is ur sign to make smth w/ a touch-starved s/o and tag me. im begging u.)

suna:

A FLIRT. i js think its fun

js super goofy

he seems like a really good listener

PERCEPTIVE!!!!!

im sorry this was so long i just couldn't stop yapping once i started lolol

[riaki]

tbh i used to be obsessed with selfships to the point i even drew some stuff. not a good era for me 😭 but i guess i only have them for the characters that i really like - my jjk trio and some others i think

the only ones i can probably see is kuna and yuta js cause of the fact that toru is so popular i think ill get killed in my sleep … and gege keeps hurting me like this 💔

HELP NO U R SO REAL FOR THAT i’ve drawn selfship stuff in the past but idk something about it kinda rubs off in the wrong way for me lol. but i still like hearing about other people’s selfships :3

yeah… gojo nation is scary. they make people sleep w one eye open cs they do it too. thank toru n his terrifyingly saturated neon nausea inducing epileptic blue eyes (jk….)

gege is SO EVIL FR. fujimoto the csm author is evil too for what he’s been doing i swear all mangaka r out for blood,, we must stick together. hang in there soldier; god gives us his toughest battles

[driaswrld]

being pathetic for him is a mood (my friend, who introduced me to jjk, is SO done with me cause i send her gojo reels/analysis/pics/loving names 24/7. she's regretting bad)

also!!! drumroll!!! i finished my comments draft (aka scribbles with messy handwriting on my favourite notebook) for the wip. yay. i'm gonna read it about two/three more times before leaving the polished opinions (plus if you add smth else ofc!!)

-🫧

my sister was actually the one who got me into jjk and she is very much on the same level of pathetic as me (it just manifests as a shit ton of nanami selfships and smut fics for her) but the trauma is evident 😭

OMG OMG YAY! (i always feel so honored when you tell me that i got a space in your notebook i fear i may sob nonnie 🥹)

I CANT WAIT TO READ THEMM !! i actually love all your thoughts tbh so im very excited (especially since i wanna see how my blur of a tsr lore wip was interpreted) js lmk when you send it ofc <333