#this is about my selfship. js.

[ghostlygeto]

wish u were here | james wilson

pairing: james wilson x reader

warnings: you just gotta hear me out guys. whats it called when it isnt technically cheating but it feels like cheating (from both parties, not on each other), entirely self indulgent and selfship coded, wilson calls reader "birdie" (cringe idc), angst. based loosely on lips of an angel by hinder and glimpse of us by joji, thats all for now plz forgive me

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wilson rubbed his eyes, trying to wipe the sleep from them as he heard his phone vibrating on the nightstand next to him. the name lighting up his screen was yours, causing him to hurriedly grab his phone and press answer.

“hello?” his voice was tired, still laced with the deep sleep he was pulled from for this phone call. “y/n, you know it’s almost three in the morning, right?” wilson slowly removed the covers from his legs, trying his best not to wake his fiance sleeping next to him.

“james,” the soft exhale of his name made his heart ache. how long had it been since you last spoke? “sorry, i know it’s late. it’s probably stupid to call you i just…” the small sob caught him off guard.

“are you crying?” wilson closed the bathroom door, still keeping his voice down just in case. “is everything okay?”

there was a hesitation on the other end of the phone and he could feel it. you were trying to find a way around telling him the truth. “birdie, you know you can trust me.”

birdie. that godawful, stupid nickname you used to hate. you used to roll your eyes every time he’d use it to get your attention, or let it slip in conversation with your friends and coworkers. but now it just made another cry escape your lips. you missed it, you missed him.

“just miss you,” you whispered, trying to keep your voice down as well. “we’ve been fighting a lot lately. and you were in my dream last night- it just felt right to call you.”

wilson sighed. he was relieved to hear that you were okay, his heart rate steadying. though he couldn’t help the annoyed feeling that overtook him as you mentioned your current boyfriend. “i’m glad you’re safe, but you know you really shouldn’t have-”

“can we save the lecture for another time, james?” you let out a shaky laugh. you don’t know what else you expected from him, “i just wanted to hear your voice.”

his free hand ran over his face, trying to rationalize it in his head. it would be okay if he spoke to you, right? just speaking on the phone isn’t wrong, and it wouldn’t hurt anyone. right?

“i can stay on for a little bit. but not too long, if she were to find out i’m on the phone with you it’ll just cause a fight.” wilson sat on the cool tile of his bathroom floor, back against the door. his eyes closed as he listened to the sound of your voice through the phone. “do you need to talk about the fights?”

“it hasn’t been anything serious. it just seems like he’s always angry, i can never win with him.” you sigh, “maybe i’m just too busy comparing him to you all the time. i know i shouldn’t. but it’s hard not to.”

wilson wanted to provide you some sort of comfort, let you know that he often did the same with his fiance. “have you still been going to therapy?”

“yeah.” you answer quickly, remembering how he urged you to talk to someone after you two split, because it would be good for you. “she doesn’t know much about my current partner, though. i don’t like to talk about him.” i don’t love him. you wanted to say, but bit your tongue. you weren’t sure if that would help or hurt anything. probably hurt, if you had to guess.

“if you don’t tell her how is she supposed to help you?” you hadn’t changed a bit, and that made his heart ache. you were the exact same version of yourself that he was in love with. knowing that makes leaving you less justifiable, it makes getting over you harder. “you have to cooperate with her.”

“can you tell me about how you’ve been?” you asked, a sniffle following. “is she nice to you?” you didn’t want to talk about yourself, not really. especially not about what you have or haven’t been talking about in therapy. 

right, the two of you hadn’t spoken since breaking up. despite working at the same hospital, the two of you managed very easily to avoid each other. afterall, the morgue and the oncology department weren’t exactly wall neighbors.

“yeah, yeah she is nice to me.” wilson nodded, a small smile finding its way to his face. he loves his fiance, she’s an amazing woman. she surprises him and makes him dinner, likes watching his favorite shows with him. but… “but she isn’t you.”

you weren’t aware that four words could change your mood so quickly, feeling your stomach fill with warmth and you heart beat quickened. it was nice, in a fucked up way, to know that he missed you as much as you missed him.

“it’s frustrating,” wilson added, “seems like everytime we’re having a good moment i just think of you. wondering to myself if i would be enjoying it more if it were you.” it felt nice to say out loud, like it was a secret he had been keeping for a long time (it was). “sometimes i think she knows.”

“sometimes he does things you used to do and i swear it’s like i can see you standing there instead of him.” you confess, tears still falling down your face despite the smile. “i’m glad she treats you well. it’s what you deserve.”

what he deserves is a death sentence. he internally scolded himself, knowing that he shouldn’t be doing this. he shouldn’t be on the phone with you after not speaking for a year and a half. he was supposed to be getting married this time next year. yet here he was, sitting on his bathroom floor and talking with you, his ex on the phone at half past three in the morning.

“you deserve someone who is going to make you happy, too, y/n.” wilson swallowed harshly. why did he so badly want to be the one to make you happy? why did he feel so bothered over the thought of it being someone that isn’t him? “you should just…just dump that asshole. you know you could do better.”

you wanted to laugh. he was right, of course you could do better. “honestly when i break up with him i think it’ll be my last for awhile. i’m…tired of putting effort into people who don’t do the same.”

he wasn’t sure how many people you had seen since he broke things off with you, he had intentionally avoided that information from house because he didn’t want to know. it didn’t matter if it had been only one or several, he knew he’d hate it either way. “you can’t think like that. then you’ll never find anyone.” encouraging you to find someone else. that was the right thing to be doing here. encouraging you to seek comfort in someone that wasn’t him, or your piece of shit boyfriend. “you’ve always been so pessimistic, just try to look on the bright side of things for once, yeah?”

“you answering the phone is the only bright side i think i’ve had for awhile,” you confess with a laugh and another sniffle. you weren’t sure when you stopped crying but you were thankful you had, already feeling the headache it would bring on. “do you think we can ever be friends again?”

wilson stiffened. yes. he wanted to tell you. but he wasn’t sure that was the right answer. “i don’t know, y/n. there’s a lot that would have to happen for us to be able to be friends again.” i’d have to get over you. 

“i knew that’s what you were going to say,” you gave a lighthearted chuckle. “i should…get off of here now. it’s late. we work in the morning. goodnight, james. it was nice talking to you.”

“you, too, y/n. goodnight.” wilson listened to the call disconnect as he let his phone clatter to the ground. it had been so long, he had been doing so well not thinking of you until tonight. all it took was one little phone call for you to worm your way back into his heart.

or rather, it only took one phone call for him to remember why he never should have let you go to begin with.

i rly am amazed that im posting this in 2023 but he is literally the love of my life right now. comments, reblogs, and likes appreciated!

[xlivr]

i think I'm starting become vi and I've come across this realization in the shower

[mashedpotatosinacup]

ough … I wanna talk abt my self ships so bad …

[driaswrld]

i needddd to hear ur yuuji thoughts 🤲🤲

KNIVES I AM SICK 😔

the dria x yuuji pinterest board is my roman empire im crying he lives in my mind sm dear LORD

may i introduce you to BASKETBALL PLAYER YUUJI 😩‼️

just him all sweaty n smiley after practice and bounding up the bleachers to give me a big hug im actually ill — he wears converse i wear docs bye golden retriever boyf n black cat gf, loud sunshine x quiet sunshine (or sun x star trope if u dare)

riri x rocky type beat?? hello??? AND THIS IM SOBBING

js idiots in love who SWEAR they're just friends but i mean cmon lets bfr rn

[lexisism]

appreciation post 2024-2025 ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡

i made a mistake in my calculations so posting this now! happy 2024, and im glad I can welcome 2025 with you guys in my life and mind 🤍 (sorry if you didn’t wish to be tagged)

@ashipiko

ASHI!!! i admire you so much your yume is so good and your art is so awesome.. UGHHH I LOVE UR WORK SO MUCH I JUSR WANT TO LET YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I APPRECIATE YOU!! you’re so funny too, and just an absolute joy to see on my dash.. thank you for sharing your art with us 🤍

@ceruleancattail

HAPPY NEW YEAR CERU!!! pretty sure this is our second new year knowing eachother hello?! you are and were such an inspiration to me when i first came on tumblr and i look up to you sm! i adore you, your work, and your kindness! you’re very impressive and im happy I found you!

@camvrin

oh oli dear there is rare enough anything i can say here that I haven’t said before! you brought such light into my life, I smile so much more often since you came and I’m so grateful I’ve met you. you are so stunning, you’re kindness is so unique to you and your heart is so blessed (i want to shield it from the world), i adore you dearly! and im so happy we are in touch. you’re so funny and I just want to make you sooo happy. im so grateful for all the support you’ve shown me, and how kind you are to me, thank you for always being there 🤍!

@floraldresvi

VI!!! oh my darling dresvi you make me feel so loved, both by you and my f/o’s! I admire you so much and I want to grow into an adult like you are! you’re so kind, caring, and so inclusive to everyone around and I love you soooo much! you were one of my first mutuals on here and you made me want to stay! thank you so much for a fun two years now. love you and baivi dearly :)

@kaiserkisser

oh skylia the darling ever I appreciate you so much!!! another of my oldest friends and someone I value closely, although we don’t interact you’re such a darling and I ADORE seeing you post. never change bb, you’re awesome how you are, and I love your heart and soul! take care in 2025 bb happy i met you

@kalims

ROSA!!! you’re so COOL holy i admire you so much!! you’re so caring and AWESOME DJSJEJEJ i look up to you so much and you were (are!) one of my biggest writing inspirations! i love your writing, formatting, and your themes dearly! I can’t believe I can just pop in and say hi and you’d respond thats crazy to me. im so grateful i found you!

@milk-violet

MIREI!! i just met you this year but you made this year so memorable!! i got so comfortable with you so quickly its kinda crazy.. im not complaining though im so eternally grateful for it! you’re like a sister to me and I adore you so dearly! love love love you! you’re so funny, and always make me laugh just as much as you make me smile with your sweet words! you’re so supportive of me and my ocs and my selfships and just everything and im so so grateful to have this energy in my life! I hope we get to speak more and more as 2025 comes up and i can make you just as happy as you’ve made me!!

@mondaymelon

MELON!! you’re so cool, your ocs and art are things im awestruck at!! you’re so strong and so cool and epic and and and!!! i admire you and your passions very much! we don’t talk so much but whenever you post i do adore each and every one LMAO! you’re awesome.

@mlkbwunnies

oh ying :( you’re an older mutual of mine, and one im so grateful i met last year 🤍 you’re just the sweetest and so so redeeming. every conversation we have js so comforting, and I try to follow in your footsteps and be as kind and soft as you are! you’re so cool and i admire you in every way out there. thank you for making my 2024 so much better!

@melitheduck

MELIIII MY OLDEST FRIEND I KNOW ON HERE WE’VE KNOWN EACHOTHER FOR LIKE 2 YEARS NOW!! before i was on tumblr,,, and you’re just the sweetest soul out there. everything about you is cute, and nice and oh i adore you so much!!! you’re just so comforting to speak too and so silly i love you.

@soleillunne

ALY!! you’re so awesome and just??? the way you write so much for everyone and all the gifts you give you’re just a beloved gift yourself . you’re so strong and so adored and i’m so grateful I know you. we don’t talk the most but do know I see you on my dash, and i send u hugs everytime i do 🤍

@tiredsleep

you’re one of my newer friends but you’ve become such a consistent part of my schedule its crazy. you put up with my shenanigans and you’re so cool and mature (sometimes/lh) and I’m so grateful for how you listen to me talk about my ocs all the time, truly it means so much to me how willing you are too listen! you’re dear to me and I hope I can provide the same happiness you provide me!!!

[teds-teddybear]

[DARKSHIPPERS/ETC DNI!]

this is a selfship only blogggg,,, it's a side one because on my main I don't feel like posting abt ittt!

making this blog so I can interact with selfship games, make stuff about my own, and have funnnn!!!

I have 1 F/O and 1 F/O only, Ted from IHNMAIMS <33 My S/I is Lucy, I don't mind sharing!

I like uhm IHNMAIMS (obv), Bo Burnham, Mouthwashing, Gravity Falls, TAWOG, uhhrrrr i js like cartoons idk..

I'm a border collie kemonomimi puppy girl! and a minor. She/It🍰

Tag List :

Rose Tinted Glasses - selfship name!

Liz's Tired Yapping - uhuh rants, and stuff

Doodling Above The Stars - drawings, doodles, uhm yah

Gachaverse Designing - playing gacha life (2) !

Links :

https://guns.lol/gorristedyaoi

thats it,,, byebyeyee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[cosmic-message]

INTRO POST !! 👽

☆ hi !! my name is cosmic / nebby ^w^ !! (he/it/xe) this blog is for all my alterhuman, selfship, nd coping mechanism stuff >.<

!! this is a sideblog!! im not comfortable with sharing my main blog but if you wanna be moots just tell me and ill make a separate mutual post lol !!

i've experienced a lot of trauma specifically in my mid-childhood (10-12, which is also the age im generally regressed to,) mainly revolving around medical stuff, bullying, and abuse. i'll probably reblog a lot of hospital or medical related things, so that's something to look out for!!

i mostly don't put it on this blog but recently iv been having reeealllyyy bad flashbacks and been rememberin stuff so possibly trigger tag for SA and SH

you can ask me about stuff if you wanna, i don't mind talking about it and sometimes itz nice to vent :>

- any vents will be properly tagged and are all located under the tag #cw vent

- i generally miss that era of being hospitalized (since it felt super comforting to me and my dad was a lot better then,) so the tag for that stuff is # [ ✦ medical ] 4 filtering purposes!!

- sometimez i like using typing quirks (js for fun!!) ask if you need a translation or anything, i'll always provide one if needed ^_^

✦ fun stuff about me!! ✦

☆ ~ i'm transmasc and aroace !

☆ ~ i have adhd, autism, and ocd !

☆ ~ here's a list of my types / kins ;

- calico cat therian

- domestic cat copinglink

- canadian lynx copinglink

- snow leopard otherhearted

- caracal otherhearted

- alienkin

- alien cat otherkin

- shiny espeon fictionkin

- spacekin

- techkin

☆ ~ current f/o list (note: none of these are romantic! also idk if pet s/o 's are a thing but they are now x3)

[⚡️=pet, ⭐️=platonic, 💜=familial]

- peridot (steven universe) ⭐️/💜

- lapis (steven universe) ⭐️/💜

- sharps (original character) ⭐️

- espeon (pokemon) ⚡️

- mimikyu (pokemon) ⚡️

- sprigatito line (pokemon) ⚡️

☆ ~ antis, aphobes, and jerks dni ! you won't enjoy yourself here, and hating on me won't make me stop c:

[aureatchi]

hello, reverie. i am truly sorry to bother you. i saw your reblog about your selfships, and i adore the concepts. if you would be so kind, i would like to ask if you have any recommendations for books or movies that would match the 'academia' vibe you provided, and of course, if you could give me some. thank you.

please forgive me if my english is unnatural and forced, for it is not my first language. 🐇

nonnie !! my lovely don’t ever apologize, you’re not bothering me at all !! :< i’m sorry i’ve let my asks pile up sm this week, i’ve seen a few others signed by you & i promise i will get to them soon (i’m honestly js cherishing them to myself rn hehe bcz i love getting fedya asks & you’ve indulged me sm 🥹; i promise i’ll release them soon !!)

but anyways THANK YOU SM FOR ASKING :’) i’m so in love w/ this ask omg. honestly i swear there’s something out there tht could fit our exact dynamic perfectly but i’ll have to do more searching (& reading; unfortunately school’s haven’t given me time to read things for fun these past couple of years :< but once i can balance out my classes this year i’ll def get into the habit again (˘ ˘ ˘) !!) js for you nonnie i’ll come back & reblog this post when i’ve found more in this genre i could relate to w/ updates ᰔ

& btw if anyone else thinks of anything tht could relate pls pls tell me, i’d totally check it out <3

but WHAT I HAVE SO FAR !! the secret history & if we were villains ofc; ik they’re so popular but the first is rly the blueprint for the ‘dark academia vibe’ imo 🥹. & let me talk abt the second…

if we were villains is abt a group of theatre kids who study about shakespeare. (LOL is this already typical of me?) they are all close friends (altho they acc all have complex feelings abt each other) but one tragic night results in a murder of one of them. the book is basically about how all of it came to be. there’s this one line that goes “do you blame shakespeare for any of it?” & the main character replies “i blame him for all of it.” i was rly inspired by how the theme of shakespeare was incorporated into the story & how it caused such tragedy (even though shakespeare wasn’t an actual character; even alive, etc.) therefore, i took inspiration from it to add to the fyozai academia universe, where our demise is ofc…the fyozai chess game tht asagiri also uses as a metaphor in bsd !! & it’s both literal & a theme — the three of us all literally play chess, & it’s also used as a metaphor for MY three-way manipulation mind game… 🙂‍↕️ hehe.

also i feel like fyodor is so henry winter from the secret history. but anyways ik these are only two, so i promise i’ll come back w/ more recs for you !! (esp since it’s almost autumn) they’re both supa similar — TSH is basically the same plot as IWWV except they study greek/latin instead of shakespeare, but i enjoyed both of them.

your english is perfect, btw. :)

[daikitwo]

﹉ "two of them have the same tags!" i dont selfship with them unless they're both in the selfship, idk i js like sharing koto w nagi ♡ "nagi's listen twice!" well, he fits in both categories he's in, hes my brother and i prefer not sharing!

𐔌𐔌 chårles cålvin .ᐟ — kill me with you

𐔌𐔌 årlan .ᐟ ( hsr ) — stargazing

𐔌𐔌 rẹd sọn .ᐟ — just a concubine !?

𐔌𐔌 thẹodore hụxley .ᐟ — if they won't care for you, then i will

𐔌𐔌 nägito k���maeda .ᐟ — clinging to a hopeless hope

𐔌𐔌 måkoto naẹgi .ᐟ — clinging to a hopeless hope

𐔌𐔌 milẹs ẹdgeworth .ᐟ — hide me from the law, please !?

𐔌𐔌 kọkichi ọma .ᐟ ( i post about him on @daikioma , so no tag )

𐔌𐔌 bėnnett .ᐟ — luckily charmed

𐔌𐔌 tång .ᐟ — underappreciated, overworked

𐔌𐔌 k'ụhul aĵaw .ᐟ — you can actually tolerate him?

𐔌𐔌 ryån wọlfe .ᐟ — uh, babe, there's a gun to your head -

𐔌𐔌 pĥillip pirrụp .ᐟ — scary dog privileges

𐔌𐔌 spẹncer rẹid .ᐟ — unneeded assistant

𐔌𐔌 toọlip .ᐟ ( oc ) — can i be your test subject? please?

𐔌𐔌 cåterpillar .ᐟ ( genshin ) — how does he know about romance !?

𐔌𐔌 någito kọmaeda .ᐟ — clinging to a hopeless hope — brother

𐔌𐔌 kåchina .ᐟ ( genshin ) — growing rock collection ! — cousin

i have an art tag, which is tagged as art, reblogs will be tagged as whichever f/o i'm reblogging it for! i also have a tag for things that may need trigger warnings, which you can copy and paste into your filtered tags on the next line! <3

ଘ(*. .) ⨟ trigger warning ! ⚚

* cute tiny note : for pip + ted, i specifically prefer them from noncanon teen au comics :3

* cute tiny note 2 : for cater i prefer his hılıchurl form ><

[aphroditesswan]

HIIIII i’m here to ask ab your f/o’s :3

for whoever you wanna yap about!! who usually wakes up first? do you prefer a date night in or out? n what was your first impression of each other?

omg so off topic but me n u have a lot of selfships in common?? love u gang

honestly took me a minute to respond bc selfships arent really something i talk abt on my acc so im writing this in confidence 😭

but really im js gonna talk abt one rn yk? anyways definitely self insert kinda oc ish

i love love loveee megumi

we usually wake up around the same time, we both like to be on time but it takes me a while to get ready for the day so he’s taken it upon himself to set my alarm earlier than usual and then sleep in a bit himself 😐.

while i do like going out and im very much an extrovert, pda isn’t exactly either of our biggest strengths so a date in is ideal. if we do go out, kugisaki and itadori are most definitely tagging along which i have no problem with but knowing megumi, its like dealing with 3 overactive puppies for him.

my first impression was really just that he was cute and really intimidating, we didn’t talk that much the first two weeks maybe of knowing each other. his was probably that i was loud 🌚. but when we did start talking more, he seemed sweet enough to keep talking to

but yeah if you guys want more selfship content js feel free to lmk!! this was fun to write n usually my selfships include ocs n such but i’ll only bother you guys with all of that if you guys want 😭 im also working on a masterlist that’ll hopefully be out around tmrw!! love you guyss 🫶🫶

[deathdive]

Pyxis, Serpens, Ursa, Vulpecula with any of your selfships <3

YAYY!! thank you for the ask alexisss:3 ill do akiming

pyxis “who’s the best at planning and putting things together? who just goes with the flow and does things blindly?”

im probably the best at planning (my ego going📈📈 rn). ga ming’s kinda in the middle, since he has to deal with a lot of deliveries and stuff i can imagine he has a schedule or two that he needs to follow. to be honest i get kind of stressed when things don’t go to plan, simply eating lunch at the wrong time makes my brain hurt☹️ i think ga ming would really help me with that, calming me down when i get too stressed about being late to a reservation or something like that.

serpens “have either or you ever told the other a lie? what was it and why?”

ga ming’s def told me some spring rolls or something had shrimp in it and that i couldn’t eat it just so he could have it all for himself..(jerk) on a serious note, when his relationship with his dad was still a little icky he procrastinated introducing me to him, probably saying stuff like “oh he’s too busy..” or “he’s out if town right now.” im not the type to lie, even “for the better” but maybe a white lie or two’s popped out.

ursa “how do you comfort each other in times of sadness or anguish? how do you heal each other?”

me and ga ming are the type to just want cuddles and warm comforting food when we’re sad. maybe we’ll take out some food and just cuddle on the couch or maybe we’ll whip up the other their favorite comfort food<3 “宝贝 im sad😢😢” “don’t worry pookie ill make you congee”. whenever im sad (or on my period) i really crave my mom’s cooking, specifically her kimchi!! imagine ga ming going all the way to my parents’ house js to grab some🫶🫶 eat those bad feelings away!!!

vulpecula “who is the more vulnerable of the two? who is the more closed off one? how did you gain each other’s trust?”

not to be mean but ga ming’s def more vulnerable, opening himself up more to others. he’s js a friendly pookie dont hurt him!! growing up my parents always taught me to be careful on the information i share with others and “think before you act” idk that just spiraled into some insane social anxiety!!!haha!!!! okay but fr i think we both have some things we wouldn’t feel comfortable sharing at first, like ga ming’s father issues. we honestly just clicked i don’t think it took much time for me to open up to ga ming (hes js too sweet)

[starfishsonny]

INTRO?? ON MY DASHBOARD?? UM. I THINK.

HEY GANG!!!! my names bella!! i use she/her and im a sapphic non binary ^^ my art tag is #BELLA DRAWS!! and my ramble tag is #BELLA SPEAKS !!!!

i have a BUNCHH of interests but some of them are:

⭐️dog man (current hyperfix)

⭐️captain underpants (spinterest)

⭐️rock paper scissors (it’s a real swag show!)

⭐️your favorite martian

⭐️teenage mutant ninja turtles

⭐️south park

……and many more!

SOME **CLASSIFIED** INFO:

I PLAY GUITAR!!!! i’m not the best at it because i’ve only been playing since august (it’s one of my electives for school) but i really really love playing!! i have my own guitar at home :) (her name is claude!!)

I SELFSHIP!!! kind of embarrassing but i love to selfship!! i have a buncha ocs and oc x canon is my jam :))

I LOVE MUSIC!! music is quite literally my outlet for like. all of my emotions. some of my favorite bands are: ween, hole, the beatles, best coast and primus!! ask me about any

IM VERY HYPER!!! i’m sure you could tell by now but half the time i’m batshit insane off the walls😭if you ever need me to pipe down js tell me!!

I LOVE WRITING!! writing is also one of my outlets!! i mostly write stuff on ao3 but i do occasionally dabble in notebook writing and poetry!!

DNI:

🌟PROSHITTERS

🌟BASIC DNI (RACISTS, HOMOPHOBES, TRANSPHOBES, ETC)

🌟IF YOU DISLIKE SELF SHIPPERS

[sanofiles]

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── 𝓚𝐙𝐔𝐇𝐀𝐄’𝐒 𝓡𝐔𝐋𝐄𝐒 ; 𝓖𝐄𝐍𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐋

通 ⟩ i change my url and themes a lot!! i get bored easily with my urls, so please don’t be alarmed if you cannot find me!

明 ⟩ kzuhae is a multifan [ currently tokyo revengers centric! changes a lot though ] and (n)sfw + dark content blog! i write mainly fluff but minors are to block the tag #after hours ಇ. or you’ll be blocked. block all triggers needed w/ #tw trigger

明 ⟩ kzuhae is a selfshipper bloggie! idm if you like the same characters as me or talk abt your selfship on my blog, but please be mindful that you’re in MY space and that i am also allowed to talk abt my faves &&. selfships. gatekeepers are blocked.

佑 ⟩ blank blogs are blocked immediately. if you’re a minor and try to interact with my nsfw posts then you’re blocked as well. please be aware that i don’t follow back ageless blogs!

步 ⟩ don’t make drama about aging up characters or writing smut for characters with ambiguous ages, especially when it comes to genshin impact. i see most of them as adults (chongyun, gaming, etc) so i may write smut of them. block if you don’t like.

踏 ⟩ please don’t spam like! more than [5] posts liked in quick succession will get you blocked bcs tumblr will flag me as a bot :<

梅 ⟩ no reposts / promoting my work on other sites outside of tumblr, no translations, plagiarism, edits or feeding my work to ai! the same goes for my themes or my concepts. inspiration is fine when asked, but if i say no please don’t press further.

花 ⟩ i’m not always online. i’m a busy university student so i’m active infrequently, post sporadically and write slowly.

── 𝓚𝐙𝐔𝐇𝐀𝐄’𝐒 𝓡𝐔𝐋𝐄𝐒 ; 𝓘𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍

醒 ⟩ i’m very slow at replying to asks . . . i’m really busy and it’s not on purpose, so please don’t think i’m ignoring you! (Ｔ▽Ｔ)

靈 ⟩ please don’t vent or trauma dump in my inbox, especially if we’re not mutuals or don’t know each other well!

擂 ⟩ please don’t ask to be mutuals! especially if you’re a minor! i usually follow / mutual people who i want to be friends with ^_^

震 ⟩ don’t send personal discourse into my inbox, because that is between other individuals &&. doesn’t involve me.

雲 ⟩ if i break a mutual / block you, please don’t ask why. you either broke one of my boundaries, are in my dni, i don’t like your vibes etc. i won’t respond if you ask why. i hard block to break a mutual, if i’m not following you anymore it’s probably a glitch.

裡 ⟩ i use a lot of petnames ++. terms of endearment for my mutuals, &&. if you don’t like that please let me know!

翻 ⟩ i treat you as well as you treat me! please be kind ^_^

山 ⟩ all hate is blocked, especially anon hate!

── 𝓚𝐙𝐔𝐇𝐀𝐄’𝐒 𝓡𝐔𝐋𝐄𝐒 ; 𝓦𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆

吼 ⟩ i don’t accept requests, please don’t send any ૮꒰っ˕‹̥̥̥ ꒱ა you’re free to ramble in my inbox about any thoughts, i might write them!

( 法 ) ⟩ don’t send dark content requests. i am very picky with the dark content i write and consume. please don’t rush or force me to write thirsts or thoughts as well, i will trash it right away.

怖 ⟩ I DON’T WRITE FOR.

male!reader. chara x chara. bodily fluids other than spit &&. cum. rape / noncon. fisting. raceplay. graphic domestic or sexual abuse. suicidal tendencies. self harm. omegaverse. rpf. incest. eating disorders.

( 魔 ) ⟩ list will be updated &&. changed as time goes on. i also might reblog works with some of these tropes depending.

百 ⟩ I DO WRITE FOR.

fem!reader. filipino!coded fics (especially when writing for izana kurokawa). fluff. smut. longfics. multi-series. headcanons ++. thirsts. switch!reader. most characters from my fandoms -> if unsure then js ask ^_^

( 魔 ) ⟩ list will be updated &&. changed as time goes on. i also might reblog works with some of these tropes depending.

俱 ⟩ I MIGHT WRITE FOR.

aged up characters. stepcest. age gaps (depending). professor x uni student. dub-con. cheating. drug use. somnophilia. fear play. sub!chara. dom!reader. yandere (picky). gangbang. monster fucking (depending).

( 馴 ) ⟩ list will be updated &&. changed as time goes on. i also might reblog works with some of these tropes depending.

[etoiile]

ami, ami, tell me more about your selfships, please. i love hearing/reading them ^^

RAHHHH noo i hope that you know this door cannot be closed once its been opened (｀ω´) ANYWAYS HERE WE GO

okok so my biggest one for blue lock is definitely REO. and here's why

reo lowkey has like attachment and abandonment issues (thanks nagi!!) and like .... ME TOO!! (cries in parental problems) so we'd both be like very attached to each other and wouldnt ever have to doubt if the other person loved us and much as we loved them. NO INSECURITIES YAY!!!

reo loves pampering people. its his love language. I LOVE BEING PAMPERED BC IT MAKES ME FEEL SO SPECIAL (again cries in parental problems lol my parents never made me feel special HAHAHA) (this post is actually js me trauma dumping)

reo is very perceptive to emotions and so am i ^^ im not too good with expressing how im feeling so having someone who can just tell is so nice

idk why but like i love being carried for some reason. AND REO CARRIES NAGI EVERYWHERE ITS PERF !!!!!

reo talks enough where i dont feel stupid for talking too much but he's also not too talkative which is good bc i love talking (clearly)

i am actually nagi 2.0. like i am nagi nagi is me. WE ARE THE SAME. im really lazy and clingy and unmotivated hehe and reo loves nagi so therefore reo loves me!!!!! (this is my delusion talking)

i think that reo really needs to feel like he's needed. and like. ME TOO BRO!!!!!! im good at making people feel like they mean a lot to me coz im very affectionate and i think that that's something that reo really needs

he's kind of a teasey flirt?? but like not too much where i'm like boy stfu like i dont want an f-boy but i think that like teasing is fun. idk he's just sassy and i think its cute ^^

reo is just so earnest and caring and un-judging, if that makes sense. im really sensitive and a crybaby, but he seems like the kind of guy to welcome me into his arms regardless of my flaws. (unlike sae no offense who's a judgy bitch. still love him tho!!)

reo is rich and my grades lately are looking like im gonna have to marry rich (´ε｀；)

the other ones are chigiri (a good listener but not TOO quiet, sweet and sassy which is fun, def has a better haircare routine than me) and nagi (because we're pretty similar)

ok. ONTO HAIKYUU!! (if ur wondering i have a ton of hq works sitting in my drafts lol. I PROMISE I'LL COME OUT WITH ONE SOON!!!) (jk no promises)

SUGA AND OSAMU AND SUNA. i'll keep these ones short coz i feel like ive made this too long alr lol

suga:

super sweet!! i cant deal with too much meanness (like tsukishima)

despite sweetness hes still super silly and sassy which is just fun

emotionally perceptive (like reo!!) put reasoning for why i need an emotionally perceptive guy above ^^

osamu:

shared love of food LOLL

i have a thing for twins idk why LOLOL. im sorry this is so random but it had to be said. i also like kaoru from ohshc. and like. my current irl crush is an identical twin. IDK WHY ITS LIKE THIS BUT IT IS HAHAHA (i think maybe its bcoz like between the two of them one is always more quiet/perceptive so i notice that?? idek bro)

quieter!! yes!!!!!!!

he would give the best hugs ever. like osamu is just so squishy and yes and he would give such good hugs!! (sobs in touch starved) (this is ur sign to make smth w/ a touch-starved s/o and tag me. im begging u.)

suna:

A FLIRT. i js think its fun

js super goofy

he seems like a really good listener

PERCEPTIVE!!!!!

im sorry this was so long i just couldn't stop yapping once i started lolol

[ilyuu-archive]

YOU DID NOR JUST DRAW MY OC ??€?€)€;#+#(#;#(#)#+

Pls Yui nawhh nawhh NAWHHHH DODBSJIWWBBWKKWWBJS

*malfunctioning*

Yui ofmggg it's so cute it's sowbisowbwn - this stays in my inbox forever sorry 🏃💨

It's such an honour ya did it siehsiwhwbjsi

(as you can see I'm totally well about this /lies)

PLSSSS HE LOOKS SO CUTE IN YOUR STYLE RHENABHAJIWBAB

Nawh plsss in all seriousness, it always makes me happy if someone draws my (silly) OC's;; like.. ya think my OCs are worth drawing?? Ejeoebwjjsns plssss and it turned out so good and so adorable I CANT. I can't stop looking at it

I will cherish it forever

Thank you so so so so much Yui <3

You will get something in return later 💞💞 (please know I can't draw for shit (as you saw in my selfship sideblog) so it won't be a drawing, heh ❤️)

Thank you so much frfr omffbsijs it made my whole day now diegsiehbekdosj

Take care and I love you <33💞💞

AWWWWWWWWWWW 💞💞 I JS WOKE UP AND ONE OF THE FIRST THINGS I SEE IS THIS i was in a real mood to draw all of yesterday and when i saw one of your ocs i liked that one in particular (definitely because the hair looked so pretty and funajsihdjjs)

SO I’M REALLY GLAD YOU LIKED IT!! tho i liked how it came out, my lack of practice with colors and shading definitely showed,,,,,, eep BUT!! it means nothing if it means it made you happy :D

take care vi and i love you too <3

[jazzzz-min]

Intro post (swag)

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Jaz/Jazmin/Jazzi

He/They/Anything basically

Masc terms preffered but I won't be upset if not used

Minor

I use tone tags infrequently

Popee is my husband

(If you post about him ily /p)

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Fandoms!

Popee the performer

Funny pets

Mr stain on junk alley

Saw

The substance

Dhmis

Total drama

Moral orel

Kirby

Uhh like 500 other things not typing allat

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Tags

Jaz actually posts - the rare instance of me making a post with actual substance

Jaz says random words - My deranged ramblings

For the collection - Reblogs!!

Jaz reads chinchikurin - self explanitory, my semi live updates on this absolute masterpiece of a manga

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If you hate this stuff my blog probs isnt for you

Selfshipping/Oc x Cannon

Ppl who hate swearing or raunchy jokes, that's kinda my thing

Ptp haters (what are you doing here??)

Anyone who hates yappers, I am a yapper

Blogs with like 800 reblogs and 4 actual posts, I am guilty of that.

Uhm sometimes I say weird shit I probs shouldn't have if I do plz publicly execute me!!!

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Random stuff about yours truly ♡

I (mostly) do art suggestions, so like... Feel free to ask and if it's related to one of my interests I'll probably get it done.

(And i loooove drawing ocs and designing characters grrrgrgshhshs)

I'm a cosplayer which is pretty based i think

If you find me on other socials no you did not! (/j feel free to lmk)

Uh yeah also like feel free to ask to be mutuals or anything I'm just too shy to talk to ppl first unless were close

I loooove overanalyzing media if you let me yap about my fav stuff and talk about its hidden meanings we're basically married /j

Also like if i post too much mb gang im a yapathon js tell me to shut up in notes ill get it