#this is about ME. very self indulgent <3< /div>
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thinking about ron with a gf who loves lipgloss. him subtly getting her to talk about her favorite brands and shades. him saving up money to buy her new ones. him letting her try them out on his arm in stores.
thinking about ron with a gf who hates storms. him letting her crawl into his lap and hide her face in his neck. him slowly rubbing her back and kissing her temple. him wrapping a blanket around her, whispering reassurances. him putting on her favorite movie and turning the volume way up so that the storm is just a distant white noise. him shutting the curtains so she can't see the flashes of lightning outside.
thinking about ron with a gf who plays an instrument. him sitting nearby her while she practices, watching her in awe. him raving about her to all his friends, so much that harry hits him upside the head and begs him to shut up. him letting her rant about whatever piece she's learning.
thinking about ron with a hopeless romantic gf. him saving up his money to buy her chocolates and plushies and jewlery. him picking flowers from random people's gardens and showing up at her door with them. him rolling his eyes when she wants to watch romcoms but sitting with his arm around her, smiling.
thinking about ron with a girlie gf. him twirling her around like a princess. him watching her do her makeup in the mirror reflection. him treating her like a princess, because that's what she is and that's what she deserves.
#weaselbee (liz's version)#liz's writing ā”#ron weasley#ron weasley x reader#hp x reader#harry potter x reader#hp fluff#ron weasley fluff#ron weasley x you#ron weasley x y/n#ron weasley imagine#this is about ME. very self indulgent <3
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Those wacky skeletons ā„ (Patreon)
#Doodles#UT#Sans#Papyrus#Handplates#You can tell because of Sans' gloves lol#Getting-used-to-them-again doodles as well as just expressing Feeling <3 Happy towards them! Want them to be happy too!#It might seem silly for these - how many sets in now? - to still be getting used to drawing them again lol but it's because they're adults!#Their clothes and the way they hold themselves - but also especially Sans lol I dunno why I have such difficulty with him at times#He's got a cute face and I still find myself like ????how your face#Other than that tho it's just silliness hehe āŖ My favourite lads :D#I feel the need to make the distinction: I do actually have different favourites based on the AU lol#Like for example in classic I still love Flowey just a tiiiiiny bit more than Papyrus but it really is constantly neck and neck#Whereas in Handplates it's no competition even a little bit lol - Papyrus is just my Very Favourite#But Gaster is my favourite Handplates-specific character since he's unique to the AU! It gets a bit in the weeds lol#Sans isn't far behind at all of course the trio are very important! The duo even moreso imo#Going back to gloves tho I did carry over one of my quirks from my original UT doodles about Papyrus' gloves lol#I initially envisioned them as combination mitten-gloves with a free index finger and all the rest together#I still rather like the design! But it is admittedly not Handplates accurate lol#The occasional dip into self-indulgence who me? Lol#Sleeping on each other is important to me as well!! It is such a favourite hehe#Honestly I just imagined Papyrus getting so exhausted that he fell asleep in the snow lol poor lad#Sans teleported in but it's also funny to imagine him just walking up like ''you good? yeah he's fine'' *flop* haha#Silly lads <3 Do love 'em āŖ
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will you promise that i'll see you again?
summary: your people refuse reason, and their damage refuses to heal. when it seems as if the whole world has left you, your dutiful knight still remains by your side.
word count: 2.3k
-> warnings: implied suicidal ideation (reader + unnamed side character), reader's previous deaths are mentioned in somewhat graphic detail
-> gn reader (you/yours)
taglist: @samarill || @thenyxsky || @valeriele3 || @shizunxie || @boba-is-a-soup || @yuus3n || @esthelily || @turningfrogsgay || @cupandtea24 || @genshin-impacts-me || @chaoticfivesworld || @raaawwwr || @yuryuryuyurboat || @undrxtxd || @rainswept || @wanderersqt || @rozz-eokkk
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āyouāre one of the only things keeping me going, you know.ā
dainslef turned to you in surprise, the even neutrality to your tone a sharp contrast to the rapid pace of his heart. he wasnāt a fool, he knew that the hunt had to be taking a heavy toll on you, but thisā¦
this was more than he expected.
he knew he was one of a pitiful few who saw through celestiaās false puppet, who knew you for you and not their mirage. he knew that the entire world was hellbent on erasing you from existence, that youād been forced through your own death countless times as teyvat pulled you apart and pushed you back together far from the scene of your would-be murder. he saw the golden scars across your skin, the dried remains of blood lining the wounds you hadnāt been able to patch yet. heād been the one to wash them away, not minding the refuse soaking into his gloves if it meant your hands could be clean.
he recognized the dull exhaustion in your eyes, the same as the ones he saw in the reflections of lakes. tired, worn, barely there, hanging on by one solitary string that was wound so tightly around a desperate hand.
you had always been his reason for continuing. when the traveller broke down and the ruler of the abyss hid from the sun, you were there. when the chasmās mud clung to his boots and the memories in his head burned as nails forced between his eyes, you were there. his rosary was kept tight to his chest at all times, familiar prayers pulling him up in the morning and forcing him to sleep at night. he was alive for far, far too long, but you made it bearable. you were his duty, his promise.
he never once thought that heād be yours. then again, he never thought that heād have to defend you from the ones you once called friends. time never did pass how he expected it to.
āā¦leading light?ā
you looked down, twirling blades of grass around your fingers. he had led you up to a mostly desolate area of sumeru, west of bayda harbor. it close enough to the sea, forest, and desert that you could reasonably make an escape through any of those routes if need be, while also providing a rather pleasant view. the sky was bleeding red and gold as the sun sank below the horizon, a remarkable sight that fell on blind eyes. there was no use trying to enjoy natureās beauty when he still kept one hand on his sword and both ears pricked for the slightest sign of danger.
you shouldnāt have to worry about your safety. you shouldnāt have to prioritize based on how likely you are to get hurt, or how easily it would be to make an escape. you still flinched when the wind blew a little too quick, used to it heralding armored footsteps and battle cries. in another life, you were welcomed with open arms, able to enjoy yourself without constantly being on high alert. teyvat did what it could to adapt; the air was still, frozen in time, barely a bird chirping for miles. it was meant to be comforting, he thinks, but dead silence was more unnerving than any breeze.
āi mean it.ā he could hear every shift in his cloak around your shoulders, the heavy fabric doing little to soothe your stress. it was yours more than it was his now, to the point he felt claustrophobic wearing it. how long had he been traveling with you? the days blurred.
āi donāt doubt you.ā he never would. never could. heās not sure, even if he somehow wanted to, that his body would allow him to treat your words as anything less than fact. ābut i donāt understand what you mean.ā
you were a god. the creator, the first, the one that shaped the sovereigns scales and laid the foundations of earth. you predated the archons, celestia, the very skies themselvesā¦
and he, somehow, was a driving motivation for you?
his words must have been funny, a sharp laugh tumbling out of your mouth. it was bitter, humorless, and somewhat raspy. he made note to find some water for you later. āwhat else could i mean?ā you turn to him, some of his confusion lost as your eyes found his. even this burnt out, deep bags set beneath them, you still managed to steal the very air in his lungs. āyouāre the only reason iām still here.ā
he didnāt know what to say. what was there to be said, when you were you and he was him? when the world had abandoned you, it made sense youād cling to what remained faithful. it was merely coincidence he happened to find you first, thatās all. coincidence that you trusted enough not to run from, coincidence that you allowed to care for your injuries. there was nothing to say, because you held nothing for him in particular, only leaning on him out of need. he had to believe that. what was he left with if that wasnāt true? an awkward truth hid beneath his well-known lies, too large for him to see the edges, let alone to contain.
āpleaseā¦ do not say such things again.ā to ask of his god what he could not ask of himself was surely some form of heresy, as was willingly laying aside his guard when he was the only one who was tasked with protecting you. he pulled his attention from the tide below, from the rustling trees, holding faith that the world would not be needlessly cruel. he stepped forward, kneeling beside you. even up close, you still seemed painfully small. āit is your own resilience that has allowed you to persevere.ā
itās the earth that leads you from danger.
itās the water that follows you wherever you go.
itās the leylines that whisk you to safety.
itās the wind that warns you of whatās to come.
itās the you from the past that protects the you in the present.
itās the you in the present that provides for the you in the future.
itās you, from everywhere and everywhen, continuing to fight.
and yet you sigh. you look away, across the sea, tracing fontaines skyline. āit really isnāt. i was lucky to run into you when i did.ā
you had just crossed the wall back into the forest, burning hot and shaking. he was the lucky one, in truth, to be able to pick your figure out from the sand below. perched on a high cliffside, even mitachurls were reduced to small brown flecks.
you had worn a cryo mageās cloak, which was what initially drew his attention. abyss activity wasnāt uncommon in the area, but a cryo mage in the desertā¦ that was cause for intrigue. he stepped forward and slid down the steep face in front of him, a slight puff of dust marking his landing in the desolate sand of old vanarana.
he didnāt know what to expect. you stumbled around the jagged remains of a tree, heading for the statue of the seven. he followed, only growing more confused. cryo and dendro did not react with each other, and there was no way to āslowā a statue. a scouting mission, maybe? but why a cryo mage, when pyro would have been far more advantageous in the case of an attack?
he leaned around the corner carefully, prepared for the sight of a staff or the chanting of abyssal magic filling the air. the entire world seemed to be holding its breath, frozen in place and waiting for some trigger to continue.
he saw none of that. you were collapsed at the foot of the statue, faint wheezing only making it to his ears by virtue of the standstill around him. you held no staff, commanded no magic, your chest barely moving with air.
heād never seen a mage seek out the archons when dying. one hand squeezed the handle of his sword as he crept forward, ready to strike should the situation turn against him. the sand barely shifted beneath his feet, his own heart sounding too loud to his ears. you did not move, showing no signs that you had noticed his approach. he still didnāt trust it.
your cloak was tattered and torn, with thick gloves atypical of a mage. they reminded him more of hilichurl wraps, which was strange considering you wore no mask. your face was instead covered by what looked like eremite cloth, just as stained and dirtied as the rest of your clothes. what he could see looked almost human; in another life, he could believe you were a weary traveller, lost amidst the sand.
he was acting foolish. if the abyss had a human tool, he needed to figure out why. he reached down, undoing the sloppy knot of your veil and letting the brocade fall limply to the grass.
ā¦grass. he blinked, eyes flickering between the ground and your face, not sure which was harder to believe. flowers had bloomed around you, protecting your body from the blazing sands, and heād be a fool not to recognize the face plastered all over every bounty board.
he didnāt understand. if nothing else, he thought the archons would have enough respect for their creator to know when they were being lied to, yet before him was barely living proof of the inverse. sweat beaded along every inch of exposed skin, deep-set heat exhaustion burning you from the inside out. how could you be a threat? how could they be so blind?
he looked again, the shine of elemental sight straining his eyes, catching flickers of the dendro energy pouring from the statue. you were the only one the archons would feed. you were the only one to make the very earth break its own rules, allowing lotuses to bloom from barren soil. something painfully similar to rage threatened what remained of his rationality, and it took all he had to push it aside.
that didnāt matter. if he went off on some banal revenge quest, heād be no better than them. your safety mattered more. he picked you up and set aside how calm his curse felt, beginning the trek back to his camp. behind him, the flowers already began to wither, losing their persistence without you to foster it.
perhaps that initial meeting was luck. but these was no luck involved in your trust in him. when you woke up and saw him at your side, you chose to trust him. you chose to believe that he was not like the others, that he would protect you, and he was forever grateful for that trust. nobody could fault you for being angry, for being spiteful about what you were put through and choosing to lash out. nobody would have the right to be upset if you chose to vent your wrath against those that had hurt you.
but you didnāt. you chose, again and again, to believe in the world. you chose to let them live their lives, even if it meant getting hurt again in the process. you chose a quiet life traveling with him over the comfortable life on your throne. to willingly choose to travel with a disgraced knight to spare your people guiltā¦ he couldnāt decide if it was noble or reckless. either way, he was selfishly happy that he was the one to stay by your side.
āi wonāt try to convince you. but, please.. do not give up on yourself so easily.ā i know far too many who have died by the same hand. āthe world and its opinion does not define you. only you get to decide where fate leads.ā
you lean towards him, and he thinks you might have passed out- but no, your head lands on his shoulder with far too much precision. he stiffens, not used to existence without a constant pain beneath his skin. āhow motivational. you tell all your soldiers that?ā
his heart is beating too quickly, thoughts unusually hard to grasp. youāre the only one who could have this effect on him. he only wished it wasnāt now, when your belief in yourself was on the edge. āi mean it. none of this is your fault, and neither are celestial actions the peopleās fault. i know that you are hurt, but i donāt want you to accept that main needlessly. you shouldnāt have to view your creation with such pain.ā slowly, carefully, he raises the hand closer to you, doing his best not to disturb you as he settles it on your arm. heās can only hope that the contact brings you as much comfort as it does him. āif nothing else, believe me. promise youāll at least try.ā
he doesnāt think youāll agree. why would you make a promise to one who represents the heavenās betrayal? why would you let him hold you close at all, when you can surely sense the bindings of those who tried to kill you wrapped tightly around his soul? he doesnāt know. all he can do is hope.
āā¦alright, dainslef. i promise.ā
twilight has long since fallen, and yet he smiles for the first time in centuries.
#genshin#genshin impact#genshin sagau#sagau#self aware genshin#dainslef#sagau dainslef#dainslef x reader#genshin dainsleif#dainslef x you#gender neutral reader#genshin impact x gender neutral reader#genshin x gender neutral reader#genshin x reader#genshin x you#genshin x gn reader#hes so shaped.... ily dain <3#just... shut up about dain's perspective of the creator. shh. its for the plot.#filtering should pick up on the warnings section and its very brief but to be very safe#tw sui ideation#tw suicidality#< popular tags; someone please tell me if i should use others too#to answer your unasked questions No i was not ok writing this. my ass was Exhausted#to be very clear i am better now were all good i was just having an awful two days#but we are so fucking back#had this marinating for a while just to like scrub out the more indulgent parts of it#there was a whole monologue about 'i cant fix it but i will be there for you. i cant make it go away but i can make it easier.' but. yk.#didnt fit the plot el em ay oh
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Drew child me with child OV don. He's heavily based on my younger self (the way he dresses and acts) because I like to project onto donnies okay!! :)
this was fun btw I think everyone shuld do this (draw themselves with their AU's turtles)
used to commit bug crimes forgive me bug likers šš¾
#this is cringe and very self indulgent btw but fuck it#i never had freinds cuz i was sheltered and too weird but i think me and him wouldve been freinds#also we're both eldest children who used to be VERY mean and downright evil as kids.#also ALSO we both have childhood issues and traumas we rather not think about or work through :3 šš¾#tmntov art#š½ my art#tmntov#tmnt omniverse#tmnt donnie#tmnt donatello#self portrait#tmnt iteration#tmnt fan iteration#tmnt au#my tmnt iteration#tmnt fanart#tmnt art#my artwork#tmnt#the dib speakz!!#childhood#OV donnie#dib comics#comics#tmnt comic#tmnt comics#sketches#doodles#sona#turtle tots
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@naffeclipse realized it's criminal I haven't drawn him with claws so far, since I love inflicting retractable claws on any version of the dca I touch
*self insert is not a girl (he/she)
og detective au by sunnys-aesthetic!
#post let luce#dcamv#bloodstain fool#my art#naffeclipse#hiiiii I continue#thinking about this nearly kept me up when I first woke up at 5am#fortunately i thought about cuddling with him instead and fell back asleep FGHDJSK#hi I am SO lost in the sauce#im very happy in here so like. dont get me out <3#also yes good morning naff considering this timing have a little breakfast sugar FGHDJS#glad these are enjoyable for more people than just me bc otherwise i might start feeling bad at some point#but yeah self indulgent era#no stopping me now#off to draw the sleepy cuddles#<3#menace4menace
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Heyooo! I spent the last year creating an incredibly self indulgent Ronadora Pinup calendar!
ā¤šPre0rder here!! ā¤š
I'm putting them up for preorder from today (12/06/23) to 12/16/23! Orders are to United States only, for now. This is my first time selling, so plz be kind ;w;
(And shoutout to @biscuitgeekery for the awesome product photos!)
#the vampire dies in no time#kyuuketsuki sugu shinu#kyuushi#ronadora#draluc#ronaldo tvdint#ronaldo kyuushi#tinydraws#anyways this is my calendar project that i was being vague about#Just a quick word: these absolutely will not be arriving in time for christmas#it may arrive in time for january 1 but i wouldn't hold my breath#'tiny why didn't you post this sooner?' i'm Not Smart and i started this project on a whim#i dwelled on the concept for like 3 whole months#and then started working on it january 2023 and basically did a month each month and then realized too late that post production is a thing#again this was a very self indulgent project#it was made for me#and then maybe the whole 2 people who would be even remotely interested in this f;oaiwnfewao
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les mis if they were dinosaurs š§š§š§š§
javert is a yutyrannus, marius is a compsognathus, cosette is a parasaurolophus, grantaire is a spinosaurus
#worked with the council (les mis discord server) on this one special thanks to u guys <3#rlly liked these sketches so i wanted to post themš#rlly dont know how grantaire ended up as my fav dinosaur#given i know next to nothing about him#itty bitty marius and big cosette is giving me life rn#seriously look up how big a compsognathus is and then look up how big a parasaurolophus is#target audience for this au is me and me alone. very self indulgent sketches#dinosaurs have been my fav thing for literally as long as i've been alive :3#ask me about dinosaurs#anyways feel free to throw out ideas of who would be what#les mis#les miserables#fanart#art#javert#inspector javert#cosette fauchelevent#marius pontmercy#grantaire#paleoart#??? paleoart??? i'll tag that sure#spinosaurus#compsognathus#yutyrannus
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ghostwriter (their grandma would tell them she'd lose half her soul)
#or smth smth. having a lot of Thoughts. anyways here's the piece i've been working on and sometimes u have to just say Done#there's a lot of thinks but i am maybe a bit tired and so tmr i'll come in and add all the Tags that i'd personally want to get from myself#maybe i'll reblog the extras tmr too. this is an incredibly self indulgent piece + it probably deserves a tag ramble essay or smth#ig for now we see how it stands for itself + in the meantime:#adamandi#beatrix valeria campbell#hello!! i'm back with belated tags yippee!! alright so for funsies i'm going to make it sound like i'm going bonkers over this :3#the eye shine... the glowy eye... it's like phaethon shine but also smth about eyes to windows to the soul and like#there's two beatrixes here! half the soul. lost part doing things specific to the phaethon and here it's portrayed as tearing off her name#because that's really; truly; when it all starts!! also notable for the ghostly beatrix is i did it more painterly and cloaked in shadow and#fading into the bg. i think i was super duper specificish about where the glow comes from! front lighting back lighting beloved!!! like help#let's put it this way- beatrix face always glowy. important parts of paper also glowy. it's just that different elements are turned away#from the viewer by each beatrix!! also also. let's talk about the very gently implied blood and red etcetera#like the red string is canonical and i love personally the whole red strings of fate thing even though it's not Here Applicable exactly but#that definitely was an influence! and also the blood in the bg... i'm starting to think this is a recurring trend. but anyway shadowy bea#the other strings hang while the red string loops!! so like that one string feels almost alive. it's a sort of whimsical i put on the same#as metaphorical glowy eye!! also also the eye is lowkey influenced by the whole idea of Eyes and Spotlights within the show and also glow#as in power as in heyyy you ever think about writing as a visual medium huh#speaking of writing!! there is no beatrix thingy complete in my head without text sorrry but the black text overlays are always so >>> to me#and in the sense of art styles and overlays shoutout to all the black crosshatching outline thingys because For Some Reason in my mind#of all the characters beatrix feels like the bnw ink printed illustrations you get in books idk#fun fact! i spent so long rendering this and that was fine i liked it! but then trying to figure out text to go on the papers was a Thing#i tried to do. but then gave up on! sometimes i have to pick my battles and graphic design is indubitably Not my passion bc Fonts#fun facts about this is i Actually did start with a quick sketch in mind and there's been so many changed elements. in the og the front#paper for instance had 'ardess murders' written on it and the back one said phaethon interviews.. i like the nominee list better it feels#more narrative-esque and less passive than her just holding her writing.! other elements that got discontinued were that#front beatrix was supposed to blur into the other ghostly beatrix but i couldn't do it without sacrificing clarity so... no... no blurry#oh and the red string morphing at the ends to smth more abstract was always there from the start!! og had more floating papers#and also a silhouette of vincent and a scalpel bc 'one who pulls the strings' but that (pun intended)! got cut (hahahahahahaha) (sorry)#used also to be a lot of print room clutter but that got cut to bc compositionally i made beatrix larger (learned lesson from last art)
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TW: manipulation, abusive relationship, grooming in the manipulation way
(also I think this counts as romanticising them, but still portrayed as negative just in the unreliable narrator way)
Self indulgent transgroomed scenario that AAAAAAAA /pos ;w;
I want to talk to someone friendly and nice. But then they would slowly start toeing boundaries. I might notice and ask them to stop, and they would apologise, maybe draw back a bit, but return to their previous behaviour within a few days. They'd keep gradually going further and further, but it's normal to often be uncomfortable in relationships, right? We'd be talking about something I like, I'd be stimming with happiness but then they'd suddenly say something uncomfortable, that'd make me fall silent. My hand would start shaking in that awkward, nervous way, and I wouldn't know what to say or how to react. So I'd just laugh nervously, or try and do whatever I thought they wanted me to do. It's my fault for not being good enough at socialising, that's the only reason why I'm feeling so uncomfortable and why there's so many ups and downs in how I feel around them. Whenever I did something wrong, made a mistake in how I should act around people, they'd point it out. I mean that's good, it's fair if some of my behaviours are weird or are making them feel uncomfortable. They'd point out stuff I knew were problems, like forgetting to answer messages or rambling about a boring topic for too long. But they'd also tell me stuff I didn't realise were so weird and uncomfortable for others. And soon I'd realise that it's normal to do whatever they want, and that I'm a bad person if I try making a scene about something. I've always had problems with being too dramatic, and I can't let this happen here. I'd just go along with whatever they said, even if it would have been unthinkable to me just a couple months ago.
#So basically an abuser playing off my insecurities about socialising yayayay#Also while writing this I've realised I may have been cisgroomed in a way lol.#Like I've been wondering if i can call it that for a while but thinking more about how the manipulation inherent to grooming works ...#But yeah this is basically a very self indulgent piece of writing! :D#Writing works so well it put me in the right like mood/mindset where i feel the emotions i crave XD#And also have not been manipulated in this way so this is just a nice scenario :3#transgroomed#radqueer#transid#rq šš#transharmed#transabused#transmanipulated#transid please interact#transx please interact#rq safe#radqueers please interact#Also purposefully very vague about what I'm doing lol#Aaaaa I'm kind of nervous posting this for some reason ;_;
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starlight starbright (too-ra-loo-ra-li) ā¢ [AO3]
Teen | 500+ words | Wesper | Surreal, Mild H/C, Singing, Love
The first thing Wylan knew was darkness, and darkness all that he remembered. He felt no urgency to wonder or seek beyond the dark until a voice like light broke through in pinpricksāeach syllable as a star: āToo-ra-loo-ra-loo-ral, too-ra-loo-ra-liā¦ā
Or: Wylan's dream-like POV as he wakes from traumatic circumstances he can't recall, gently guided by a Kaelish lullaby.
#wesper#wylan van eck#jesper fahey#shadow and bone#six of crows#my fanfiction#my writing#my drabbles#need to get back on top of posting about my fics here#just because it's fun and gives me an excuse to make graphics#self-indulgent graphics#very fun <3
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Oh to be adored by an endless dream <3
#hi i have been Very Sad lately so ur getting self indulgent art <3#thinking about these two being lovey dovey with each other is the one thing keeping me sane these days#raiden#raiden mk#yumehoshi#dreamden#mortal kombat#mk11#mk oc#oc x canon#mlm#my art#click for better quality
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Hii<33 will you tease us with hints of your current projects?
hello! š due to a number of things happening off-screen for me i would say that i'm currently in "fucking around" mode without a huge number of actual tangible projects going on? like im doing a lot of "open new doc > write down vague idea > add 1,000 odd words > don't finish the project" which. doesn't feel great. but hey ho.
the biggest thing is that i'm doing a merlin big bang and am trying to wrap up the details of that project because i've committed now, except i can't give any details about because it all needs to stay anonymous š
either way that'll be out in like, august!
yeah in terms of other fandoms that i have written more stuff more in the past im just sorta,,,, languishing i guess??? like i'm still writing but it's really hard to be excited about WIPs and tell people & have them get excited and then just never finishing anything š¤·
#like i dunno man i was trying to finish so many big projects in full before sharing but it just kind of meant nothing got finished#& that got disheartening ngl#youd think 20+ years of adhd would have gotten me used to that feeling but alas#sorry this got morose lmfao#anyway i'd love to write FOR something again because thats always gratifying & i could do with a structure#asks#anon#to be clear: i do want to talk about my WIPs and i really appreciate you asking! because i'm very excited that you want to hear about them!#today is just not the right day for it & i will maybe have to get back to you in like. 3-5 business days.#quite honestly i think that i need to write a bunch of short shit that is entirely self indulgent and rough around the edges#to get back on whatever the fuck feral energy i had at the start of 2021#this will also likely manifest in me randomly posting the first chapters of various multichaps
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officially 10K into this fic and having a realization about where I'm at on characterization so far, so i'm wondering:
#N posts stuff#i'm like. this first draft is really the writing equivalent of layout sketching: which characters are where / what's the scene About#with the expectation that the second draft will have the building blocks there to build up specific characterization further#but i'm realizing that i am in fact SO broad strokes on the characters so far that i'd need to do extensive studying#of the source material to really hammer in the characterization in a way that i would be satisfied with. a task that at this point#likely wouldn't be very fun. so i had a moment of 'oh idek if i'll be able to finish writing this fic :(' and got sad about it#which was where the 'oh. actually if i'm That loose on characterization right now I could just. shift the characters in#Whatever ways i want them to go and just make them OCs instead of fanfic...' which would actually be like. technically speaking#a Lot more fun bc this fic is so self-indulgent that i keep having moments where i'm pulling back on other elements i'd want to#incorporate into the fic bc 'if it's Too self-indulgent with numerous headcanons it won't be Good to fandom readers'#(ie the character who would Really vibe being a furry and the other begging to be a tgirl)#it Might wind up being something we do no matter what but i am still curious if there would be like. an actual audience for it#and not just something i'm doing all for myself lol; i used to make a LOT of ocs but haven't really done it in Years nd Years#i had a 'no way' moment but i Have had multiple people tell me they read my fics Regardless of whether they've seen source#material or not. so tentatively hopeful the answer is yes? but i'm curious :3
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Everything falls into place so nicely when theyāre together (Patreon)
#Doodles#SCII#Damned#Helix#ZEX#Do I still not have a Caleb tag?? Rude of me#The Captain#DAX#Max Vyer#Dexter Favin#Random sillies again āŖ They just appear so often!#I can't help myself with my faves - double bonus on that first one! Flipped up shirt /and/ stretchies gah all the cutes#Max is described as having ''strangely defined hips'' hehe <3 Curvy! Of course ā«#Cutest lad <3 Which speaking of cute lads!! Caleb!!!#Still using that 2019 chibi style - everyone deserves a turn! It's super cute!#Man he really is adorable hwah poor dear deserves a break haha#ZEX nad DAX hearties of course <3 DAX is So unromantic who could he ever possibly have a crush on haha how absurd to consider#ZEX pls#He's too busy going after everyone else! DAX is right there!!#Gah I'm so excited for them to kiss at some point it Has to happen right <3 <3#Lol okay so the costumes - I was thinking about zodiac personality stereotypes and then#It's not Just self-indulgent that I see Dexter as being a Scorpio okay! (It is) It just makes sense!! And Max as a Leo look like I just said#If it fits then it just fits! What can I do about it! Lol#What's funny is that canonically Max is a Capricorn haha - he totally has that Leo trait of wanting to be the center of attention tho!#Capricorns are like - stubborn and industrious? Mmmmh yeah okay lol#I'm not at all biased by knowing some Leos irl and Zero (0) Capricorns to my knowledge lol#Dexter feels obvious lol do I need to explain - secretive possessive loyal etc. etc. It's not just me being biased! (It is!) Lol#It is very fun to me to think about Writer Bias haha āŖ Max's POV written Such a way hehe <3 I always love that kind of thing!#And y'know - DAX writer bias lol okay I'll admit to that one lol#And rounding out with the trio <3 Who is leaving such a negative impression on them! Fun to draw them in a line :D
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winter i am very curious who you think is the very best most important jjk yandere . would you be willing to share your thoughts š¤
MEGUMI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
no competition! no doubts in my mind!
i just think !! he is so incredibly possessive (+this is the only post coming to mind rn which maybe kind of explains it but he is thee mother hen manļæ½ļæ½ of jjk to me) but he gets overshadowed by characters like gojou, getou, and yuuta which makes him even scarier bc! you don't see it coming! the signs are all there but it's always too late!!!!!!!!
#i think ppl are sleeping on the fact that that man has been through so much loss from such a young age.#and there is so much he doesnt know -- about himself. his family. the future.#it feels a little hopeless sometimes. makes him so very desperate to feel whole.#so when he finds something - someone - who fills those spaces so easily. well. isnt it only natural he does everything to keep it that way?#also im always thinking of that talk he had w gj after the baseball game where he learns to be less self-sacrificial & more take take take<#his attachment issues are just šš¤øš¦ š#tbh i think the other 3 are also v good and impt yanderes but its the fact that they typically overshadow mgmi that makes him more impt 2 m#ty for letting me indulge here i wish i had more thoughts š„°šššš#ask#tw dark content#tw yandere
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#tag games#unfortunately i've already finished the girl's night fic (aubrey and seb doing. thangs.) so i couldn't list it here </3 sadness#i do really need to pick up the multi-chapter fics again i miss them :( re-releasing chasing stars because i need to update writing style#the cassidy fic is not getting a re-release because i'm still happy with the previous three chapters and everything is in there#things have changed about the timeline but they start changing from chapter 4. which is where i am right now LMAO#the follow-up fic for playground is only there to establish nick as a character. since in playground he's just. [gestures] you know#the coffee fic is very short and it jumps like. 1-1.5 year into the timeline but don't worry about it#the last one is something self-indulgent that i started so long ago but i kinda wanna finish it because it's IMPORTANT#idk who has wips also i'm so rusty with tagging. but. consider yourself tagged if you see this or untagged if you don't have wips#and as always feel free to kill me with hammers <3
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