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what do yāall like to smell like. iām just curious as iām sitting here post shower inhaling the scent of my lotion
#this is a weirdly worded post#u get it#i currently smell like cotton candy bubblegum#but i also like vanilla/caramel#basic ik i just like to smell sweet i think#and if iām not in the mood for that then bergamot n tea n some kinda white flower#venus talks
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on the one hand I think inner demons could stand to have a bit more romanced rook specific content, but on the other hand the underlying in-built implication that 'yours is the one true voice of comfort and safety in my inner world' is a sentiment and intimacy so way beyond the romantic or the platonic or any secret third thing you could care to name that it makes me lose my entire poor little mind a bit. it's so big and fundamental ā near-existential ā that in that exact moment at least the distinctions kind of seem irrelevant.
all the people lucanis' mind conjures up along the way are relationships he has that are unavoidably mixed and fraught in some ways even when they're also full of love (they are fraught BECAUSE they're full of love) ā the good in them inseparable from things that hurt him at the same time. (it's about: the basic disorganized attachment patterns this poor guy is dragging around with him. careful with those, they're dellamorte heirlooms. what you love also inevitably hurts you and you won't be allowed to have one without the other, you have to surrender parts of your soul to hold on to what little you have left: this is the story up until now.) and the idea that rook isn't that to him ā that beneath the fear of wanting them when romanced (which is more its own separate thing because within this psychology, actively wanting something and not just clinging on for dear life to even a meager status quo lest you lose it is in itself dangerous bordering on catastrophic), this is a relationship where there isn't resentment, or guilt, or shame, or dread, or rage, or self-hate, or any of the other emotions that keep him paralyzed, unable to move this way or that. no debts, nothing owed of yourself and your soul's substance except what you can freely and safely and happily give. love and freedom don't coexist ā but, I mean, you're almost starting to make me think........... unless...ššš. the unconditional and undramatic 'you are here and I am here with you, you can be exactly how you are right now with me and it's safe for us both even though you're afraid it won't be, I'm not going anywhere' acceptance rook shows him here that he returns to them in the big romance scene, when it's rook who needs it. the way he's just. standing there in the center of it all, like a child desperately helplessly waiting to be found, hiding in the place he hopes you'll know to look first. (rook does know. it's one of the first things they say in there.)
in short the most important room in his little mind palace for the romance is the very first room ā the one where rook isn't. where, in fact, rook cannot be, because they disprove the entire structure of the place with their existence and presence in his life. with everyone else he's putting words in their mouths about what they think of him, and rook is the one who actually gets to come in to speak their own words to him ā and have him listen. ('he'll listen to you, he always listens to you', 'your voice is a comfort'.) of course rook isn't present anywhere else in there ā at the risk of stating the obvious to a tedious degree, they aren't one of the locks, they're bringing the key. in the very finest 'the messenger and the message' sort of way.
#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#lucanis dellamorte#rook x lucanis#rookanis#dragon age meta#rook is his first brush with actual safe attachment. and to me and because of who I am as a person#nothing could be more romantically devastating or impactful fhdsjkfhs that's literally the unreachable wistful dream the pie in the sky#the garrus romance echoes too. some of the same stuff going on under the hood here#you know who else he's sneakily like too actually? iron bull. the 'no matter where I turn I'll hurt someone I love' and dissociation stuff#there's that whole line about 'walking close to the edge or whatever'#which is masterful as a diversion b/c what this romance is really about is feeling truly safe with someone#in a sort of weirdly realistic way that makes it struggle with the conventions of video game romance but sure is Doing something!#and I unwittingly made a rook who also is on that specific arc so it's working out just devastating for me thanks for asking#the part in andrea gibson's 'prism' that's like. there is no shelter in the womb it's where you learn the cord that feeds you#could at any moment wrap around your neck. I think that's the initial understanding of love here. which is not good. if you think about it.#I don't think I really write these kinds of posts btw I just black out for a while and when I wake up from the trance I too#get to read what the fuck I've been thinking about finally. corralling that raging electric storm#that keeps overtaking my neurons at regular intervals and translating it into if not sense then certainly words. lots of words#no one is ever more surprised than me to find out what i'm thinking and feeling
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my favorite thing about the ranchers will forever be that their entire relationship was built on Trust. they failed 2/3 of scotts couples games but they objectively did the best out of all the pairs because they never got mad or annoyed when the other failed
tango couldve gotten mad at jimmy for getting hit by the goat but he just laughed it off. jimmy couldve gotten mad at tango for not catching him with the water at the fall but they both just joked about it instead. tango even WILLINGLY let them both get down to half a heart in the powdered snow but jimmy never picked the snow up with the bucket, and even asked tango if he was proud of him for that which he WAS. ("did you appreciate that i didnt pick it up?" "i appreciate that trust! that says a lot, my friend!")
i feel like theyre genuinely one of if not THE healthiest relationship in the entirety of the life series cause they never got mad at eachother for any of their faults. tango lost their green life episode one in a stupid way; out of everyone on the server jimmy had the most reason to leave his soulmate but he DIDNT. jimmy forgave him for dying the second tango explained what happened (he even made digs at himself??? ("i feel like im gonna die in the future and youre gonna have to take the punishment of it")) and they recovered the best they couldve in that situation
jimmy even trusted tango enough to let him go into the Exact Same Cave he JUST died in to recover his stuff and later let him go down to the deep dark alone to Intentionally Summon A Warden when if it was anyone else they wouldve not let tango out of their sight for the whole season. hell, tango held it against himself for dying more than jimmy did. they basically just met after being strangers for two seasons yet they already trust eachother more than some season-long alliances
long story short, the ranchers are everything to me and i love them very much
#i say stuff#long post#rancher duo#team rancher#tangotek#jimmy solidarity#got a little too silly i fear#they sicken me i feel physically ill thinking about them#i dont usually do analyzation posts like this cause words are hard sorry if this is worded weirdly
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i want bruce helping his kids study while on patrol. like. he memorizes all the study guide questions and recites them back during a fight.
#sometimes he words it weirdly#cuz they r all super smart#so he needed to keep them on their toes#batman#headcanon#bruce wayne#batbros#might as well list them#dick grayson#jason todd#tim drake#damian wayne#stephanie brown#cassandra cain#duke thomas#dc#dc comics#batfam#batfamily#text post#look at me i actually made a new post#<333
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horseplay in the lake / weāre so lucky to have him on the team
ft. the poem that peter tweeted abt
#feeling bold enough to post an edit on here#ik itās christmas eve but i needed to share smth summery#anyway do u guys see the vision#ME WHEN THEY PLAY CRICKET IN MAURICE...#AND HORSE AROUND IN A POND IN ARWAV#was gonna add cabaret but it weirdly didnt work that well#bbc ghosts#edit#my edit#capvers#ben willbond#peter sandys clarke#a room with a view#maurice#dead poets society#the oh hellos#robert louis stevenson#itās tv itās comfort#video#the watermark is for my editing ig acc#follow me there for edits lmfao#ian uses his words
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"If you really think zionism is evil/all zionists need to die then you think 90% of Jews are evil and need to die. That should tip you off to the fact that you've been misinformed on what it means and are instead being fed the protocols of the elders of zion by people hiding antisemitism behind a very legitimate cause in order to get away with it in that causes' name as 'justice'"
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i low key want a scene similar to the āi know your secret, your dirty little secretā that happens in IT with richie and penny wise but instead with will and vecna in stranger things
#shitpost#this post is worded weirdly#vecna#will byers#richie tozier#reddie#byler#pennywise#it#stranger things#i know what you are#i know your secret
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I want to know your LU headcanons!
ohHO i will absolutely tell you tysm for asking!! iāve been wanting to talk abt them for ages but just never got around to it ig ahjdkcka
Timeās actually like 32 and is just really committed to the bit of being ancient
Sky is horrific at making new friends. he grew up with the same small group of people, so he never learned how to make friends with complete strangers because there simply wasnāt the need to. so, when he first starts traveling with the chain, he makes little wooden charms for them because he isnāt entirely sure how else to get close with them. Zelda always enjoyed his woodcarvings, so maybe they will too??
as a result, the entire chain has little trinkets made by Sky. on Legendās bag thereās charms hanging off the straps, and Twilight wears his as necklaces (both because it looks cool as fuck and it helps the shadow crystal stand out less). yes Wind has specifically commissioned him to make something for Aryll
yeah yeah bunny Legend but consider: the mermaid suit (which I like to think is more of a curse bc get fished pink man <3) giving him some marine animal qualities as well. no matter what tho that bitch is an Ariel kinnie, theyāre collecting all the shiny shit they can find
Sky is obsessed with doing puzzles the Right and Proper way, meanwhile Wild cheeses absolutely everything he can
Wind believes in all of those classic pirate superstitions
the witches in Legendās era adore him. Grandma Syrup dotes on him, Maple is like a teasing older sister, and Irene is like a teasing younger sister. this is where he learned most of his magic skills from, and he takes all potentially enchanted or cursed items to them to check out. heāll never admit it, but Legend finds lots of comfort in all of them, as theyāre one of the few people whoāve stayed in his life this long.
Wildās a pretty good medic!! during his adventure, he very quickly realized how dangerous infection is, so they learned about a lot of home remedies and medicinal herbs, as well as how to tend to a wound from other travelers at stables and inns. he didnāt really get a choice in learning, considering how he probably got stung or bit by painful insects or accidentally brushed up against painful plants a lot during the early days of their adventure, and thus showed up to stables covered in rashes and hives and such, causing every decent person in the area to flock to them and try to help. their Hyrule is very sweet, okay?
theyāre not the only one whoās well acquainted with medicinal herbs, though! while I think all of them would have a basic understanding, Time, Hyrule, Warriors, and Wind would know a lot. dw iām elaborating
Time quite literally grew up in the forest, was raised by a tree, and had actual forest spirits for siblingsāhe knows his plants. he and Saria would peel willow bark and collect dandelions together
I like to think that Hyrule being half-fae makes him very sensitive to all magic-based auras, including that of plants, so theyāre very good at picking out the healing herbs, even if theyāre not quite sure what theyāre called
listen ok hear me out about Warriors. young Time was appalled that he knew jackshit about nature and forcefully taught him. also, before modern medicine, medicinal plants were used all the fucking time on the battle field. yarrow, an herb that stops bleeding and prevents infection, is called soldiersā woundwort because of this. i mention this because he was probably concerned about the health and safety of his troops, so he learned what the medics were doing and using.
Wind grew up on a small, tight-knit island, realistically they wouldāve had to have learned how to use the things around them to their fullest advantage. that being said, his knowledge is sort of useless outside of his own era, aside from what he was taught in the war. ok iām done talking about medicinal herbs now i promise sorry itās a hobby of mine ahhsjdka
Legendās terrified of dogs. in Linkās Awakening, the dogs are literally balls on chains with huge mouths full of sharp teeth (basically just Chain Chomps). if you want to get angsty with it: it comes from guard dogs being sent after him on his first adventure. he became a lot less scared to more he spent time with BowBow (the ball and chain dog) but, when he woke up, he got the belief that he could only be safe around a dog in his dreams. heās pretty damn uncomfortable around Wolfie at first, but after lots of time and learning to trust Twilight, heās able to slowly overcome his fear. sort of. mostly just with Wolfie. he still hates staying at stables in Wildās Hyrule.
if Wild doesnāt want to explain/source something heāll just say it came to him via divine intervention. Sky believes it every single time
I was thinking about Legendās story a while ago and realized it was kind of similar to Joan of Arcās so take that as you will. idk if this even counts as a headcanon but iām putting it here
Warriors and Twilight are really close friends because they both understand the struggles of wrangling dirt worshipping nature freaks. anytime Twilight (lovingly) complains about Wild, Wars will counter with whatever asinine feral child antics young Time got up to and suddenly Twi will feel very blessed and lucky
whenever Four sees someone with their hair in a high ponytail he subconsciously thinks theyāre very smart and respectable because Dot always wears her hair in a high ponytail
Hyrule is completely fine with not sleeping on a bedroll. they like the dirt, actually. let them sleep in the dirt.
Legend uses apples in his red potions, both to increase their potency and to make them taste better. he also learned how to enchant apples to be healing on their own so sometimes when someoneās hurt heāll just shove an apple in their face
uhh so ik this is a lot but this isnāt even close to of all my headcanons so yeah thereās that lmao
#i saved yāall from my angstier headcanons btw. and also my magic system headcanons. be grateful /lh#i also restricted myself from telling yāall the queer headcanons bc thereās so many ppl posting theirs rn that i donāt rlly feel the need to#i have so many thoughts abt these guys itās almost humiliating#linked universe#lu#linkeduniverse#lu headcanons#linked universe headcanons#sorry for any typos or if things are worded weirdly i ran out of my adhd meds and also lost my glasses so#iām trying my best ok#ALSO AGAIN TY STORMY FOR ASKING <333#i do rlly appreciate it tyyy <3
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The L Word | S2E01
#the l word#shane mccutcheon#kate moennig#in a horrible mood but i still had the episode open from last night and laughed so hard at this awful outfit i almost briefly forgot#i actually love it in concept i just dont know what they were thinking with the random sidepieces for her hair which i think throw the whol#thing into this weird sort of disarray#but i love the short blazer sleeves ovr the shirt a lot also how weirdly unironed the shirt kind of appears#also the low jeans with the belt..? not crazy about the decor on the blazer tho#but i love the glasses forevr#but again i feel like her hair is so weirdly fried in this or maybe cked with hairspray#anyway im fine sorta#actually really funny to post this also after the last one bc she looked so good in that and so BAD here#soryr this outfit deserved its own complete commentary in tags but lookbook coming eventually#also im pretty sure her hair is like tied back in some sor tof way which also looks horrific#who did this literally whos idea was this#also sorry it was roiginally 4 but looking at them together i think it only needs 2
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Hey students everywhere, I'm proud of you. You are so much more than enough.
Hey my maggots who're stuck in the education system right now. This is a long post but... but I know how many of you need to hear this, so please do. I just want you to know...
I'm proud of you. I'm so, so proud of you.
For continuing to survive in a system that's so bullshit that it can fail you at art, give you a grade for composing music, decide your seat in a medical college based on multiple choice questions about obscure ecology statistics (that are probably outdated), and decide whether or not you should study literature based on your summary of a pre-approved book.
I'm so proud of you.
i see you, I know you're exhausted, you're losing the love for subjects that were once your passion but now are ruined, you're burnt out and scared, you're studying things you don't even care about.
I know there are some of you who feel guilty even taking the time to read these words. I know, because I was there.
I'm proud of you for every second you spend doing the things you love, for every second you've spent trying so hard, for every second you've spent resting, for every second you've spent doing ridiculous things that made you smile and laugh and cry, for every second you studied and every second that you didn't, for every second you've spent wasting time because hey the point is that you lived that time and that's amazing in itself.
It's a fucked up system. It's broken and deeply flawed on every level, from the administration to the teaching to the budget to the students' mentality to the politics to the inclusivity... it's all fucked.
The more you recognise that, the closer you'll get to maybe realising that truth. That your talent and love for a subject, for an art form, for a branch of science or mathematics or a language, cannot possibly be measured in fucking numbers or alphabets from A to F.
The very idea is ridiculous, yet here we are, believing it.
Let's not anymore. It'll take a while to push it out of our head. But we can do it.
Yeah?
Tell yourself, and the people you know who are at any stage of education right now, all of this. It's not your fault. You're doing so well. I'm proud of you. So much of this is out of your control, with factors that shouldn't matter affecting your grade, with things happening that you can't help. So I'm proud of you. For being you and living. I'm sorry if you don't hear it enough, because you should.
I'm so, so proud of you.
#good omens mascot#weirdly specific but ok#asmi#maggots#oh my maggots#i love you so much#i am proud of you#fuck the education system#the education system#kind words#but they're true ones too#positive post
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my favorite omori theory of all time is the one where everything in Sunny's headspace must follow back to at least one thing in Faraway Town! There's some obvious ones like Space Ex-Boyfriend being a comic book character and the appearance of Neighbor's Room being derived from the treehouse.
But even in the smallest, most unnoticeable details still apply to this rule. Like the Dino's Dig food pyramid coming from a book about the food pyramid Sunny read as a kid, or Jash coming from Pet Rocks(and the company from which the Sproutmole Eater arcade machine in Gino's is from)
Though, there's one in particular that stands out among others. And that's the Present! They're very easy to acquire and use in Headspace, in fact their one of the first items you're able to purchase from Mailbox in Forest Playground. For such an easily attainable and probably overlooked item though, they bare a significant connection to the truth(at least a more significant connection than others like it)
When reading the descriptions of your Toys, the Present reads: "It's not what you wanted... Inflicts ANGER on a friend or foe." Which is eerily reminiscent of the friend's Christmas gift for Sunny, and his resentment toward the violin the more he is forced to practice for the recital with his sister.
It's also an emotion changing item, but specifically one that makes a party member or foe/boss angry. On the day of the recital, Sunny threw his violin down the stairs in frustration. "It's not what you wanted..." Could've easily been used as a description for this item to make a friend or foe sad too, but it doesn't.
In conclusion I believe that the Present item is a parallel to Sunny's frustration with playing an instrument, and story wise a way for Omori to further disguise the truth :D
#I apologize if this is weirdly worded!!#I'd be glad to take advice on how I can improve text posts like these#omori#omori game#omori analysis#omori theory#omori sunny
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people misinterpreting my post but mostly because I suck at words :( nooooo its not about him sometimes acting like a kid and that's what suprises others. its about uh. sometimes people will forcefully be reminded that he is a kid, despite himself. his behaviour doesnt change, but the way others veiw him is. either because of involuntary reactions from him (like still having his scruffing reflex, something only Kids have) or how others are required to treat him (like putting him in the paediatric ward). He's still the exact same, he hasnt done anything different, but their idolised veiw of him has been shattered. he's suddenly humanized to them and it makes them uncomfortable
#If that makes more sense#me: people don't understand my post because I wrote it at 3am and worded it weirdly#me: i should make another post at 3am trying to explain myself#sonic#egg.txt#sonicposting
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I totally get gendered petnames like dude, sis, bro, and whatever else, and I get why some people might be confused as to why some trans people might take issue with a petname you might think is neutral. However, I do want people to remember that trans people often have different relationships with those petnames because they're gendered, and they might be uncomfortable with those connotations. A trans woman who doesn't want you to call her "dude" is probably not doing it to anger or accuse you of anything, but she might just have a negative relationship with that word.
I get that it can be hard to change habits, but it is worth it to include trans people. If a trans person in your life asks you not to use certain words, I promise they aren't trying to fuck you over or make you feel like you're under attack. They are just expressing a boundary - one that cis people also express.
#trans#transgender#lgbt#lgbtq#ftm#mtf#nonbinary#the example i gave is again just one instance of what i'm talking about#i can get why it's hard like... i use 'bro' and shit like it's a filler word and it's a habit of mine#however it isn't anybody's fault that i'm like that and i'm more than willing to stop using it for somebody#because it's like... that word is just a word to me and that means i can abandon its use at any time#and if not using it means that somebody feels included then fuck yeah i'm going to not use it#i just hear people weirdly antagonizing trans people for setting these boundaries and it's like...#...have you MET a cis person because they do the same things as trans people (it's just seen as more acceptable ig)#it IS annoying that people want to have the same conversations again and again and again#because ngl i only made this post because of the antagonism these trans people face for... no reason???#they're literally going 'please don't call me [x]' and yet that is still too polarizing????????? HUH??????#you'd think that that trans person like... ran a car through a bank with how they're treated but no... they're just stating a preference#and it's crazy to me because it's EASY to not do... because it's a non-action. and if you fuck up all you have to do is apologize#the hardest thing to do would be to watch what you're saying a little more but that's like... not a big deal???????
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Expanding on my bpd green and avoidant red. I think green swings between horrific guilt for being mean to red when they were young and wanting to make it up to him (red has already forgiven him but green is still worried that he might change his mind) VS reds avoidant behavior confusing and irritating green bc he's trying to be honest and vulnerable but red is Not. (green later feels guilty for even being irritated with red at all.)
Red genuinely listens to what green is saying and nods in understanding, but is Not sure how to comfort green beyond being very direct and matter of fact: "I'm not going to leave." "No I'm not upset with you." Which. Like true and Red is being Honest however it comes off sounding a bit...cold? Distant?
Like red is just stating facts without actually opening up in detail about how things/their past makes him feel. Like it's "I'm not upset about that" and nothing about how it made him feel at the time, or his thought process about why he isn't upset anymore or if he ever was, or anything like that.
It lacks the true vulnerability and emotional labour that comes with actually talking through uncomfortable or serious things with someone important to you, instead of talking about things as if you're an outside observer. From greens pov red is closed off and it makes his insecurities and frustrations worse when red doesn't respond the way green wants/needs him to.
Their conflicting attachment styles and approach to discussing/processing difficult topics causes a lot of tension for awhile after their reunion. Idk if they'd be dating yet but if not it might also drive green insane that he Likes red but feels like red must not feel the same bc of how "closed off and distant" he is.
Then he feels guilty for being upset at that because "of course he wouldn't like someone who bullied him as a kid/whatever else green is insecure about" Meanwhile green is one of like 3 people red would willingly talk to and he likes green very very much. Always has and always will. To him it seems kind of obvious so he doesn't need to say it out loud (green is absolutely dying at the lack of assurance of mutual feelings platonic or not).
Reds truly not inconsiderate or being distant intentionally. Hes just srsly totally inexperienced with externalizing how he feels instead of internalizing it and ignoring it in favour of more important things (anything other than his own feelings)
It's seriously emotionally draining for both of them to have completely clashing approaches to Whatever they have going on. It's okay though. They figure it out eventually though. Green learning that red really means what he says, there isn't a hidden meaning or fine print that would make red change his mind/secretly be lying. And red learns that green/people who care about him really genuinly want to know how he feels and that he doesn't need to be 100% self reliant when there's people who Want to support him and desperately want him to be more open and be more outspoken with how he feels/his opinions/etc.
Side effect is red goes from refusing to voice a single thought to being more outspoken than predicted and very bluntly voicing(signing) how he feels. Which is usually "I want to leave." "This is boring" "that guy is annoying" "he has no idea what he's talking about. It's more like [insert random fact about pokemon behavior.]"
Green is thankful red is more outspoken but also very thankful that most people don't know the hater ass stuff red is saying to him via sign language. Red isnt actually a hater of course he just still doesn't mince his words and to it very literally when green asked him to tell him what he's thinking more often. Its okay green finds it charming.
#jts 4am ahain if theres any insane mistakes kn#in this lomg ass post. ignore jt. lr else#borderline green is real to ME#avoidant red js resl to ME#He left to a mountain instead of working out whatever he was going through. which i supoort but jt made green and reds mom sjck with worry#A man who leaves society to live on an icy mountain will not know how to talk aboht his feelings.#but a man surrounded love and support can come to learn how..#trainer red#green oak#blue oak#reguri#pokemon headcanons#pokemon#if i worded any of this weirdly/offensive way skrry. ill fix it in morning.#j dont know exsctly what i thimk could be wrong with it but similar to green i feel like im jn trouble 24/7
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maxiel(ish) drabble pt 1
Daniel's sigh was so loud he wasn't even surprised when Sassy looked at him, perched atop one of Max's book shelves ("Why do you have so many, Maxy? It's not like you actually read" raised eyebrow, thick lips parting for a beat before quirking up shyly "Shut up" "These days you just meow on livestreams, right? Busy schedule" a full smile then, pink tongue darting out to wet his full, chapped lips, so wonderfully feminine "Shut up, Dan" "Is it like when you bought that Hermes bracelet and you just never let it go? Is it about being all fancy? Maybe we should ask George for some vocab tips" a full laugh, head thrown back against the pillows and crinkled corners of his eyes "I think it makes perfect sense, no? Why would I not have bookshelves. They're classy, and the cats like them. Who doesn't have bookshelves?" oh, okay, his voice is more nasally in the morning, it's more noticeable when he says more than two words. Yeah, it's been years and Daniel knows this already, but he could still drown in the raspiness of it, suddenly back to day one and awkward chuckles in hotel rooms "Who meows on a livestream?" "Shut up, Daniel"). The way Sassy looked at him wasn't even concerned, it was mostly annoyed. And, sure, Daniel hated dogs - er, hated, was terrified of, had been chased by back home, same difference -, but there was a certain autonomy about cats that unsettled him. Those lucky bastards didn't need attention like a wilting, desperate plant needed fresh water, like Daniel needed love to breathe. EnchantƩ, nice to meet you too, did I tell you I'm jealous of my boyfriend's cats? No, I don't go to therapy anymore, how did you know?
Ugh. Daniel scowled at himself for that shitty self-pitying monologue. He briefly considered calling his therapist again, but he didn't like feeling like he needed a crutch, and he wasn't as distressed and hurting as he was back in the McLaren days. He could manage, really, and he'd rather that than going through the shameful motion of crawling back to his therapist after assuring (read, lying) to her he could cope perfectly fine on his own, with his stupid little journal (abandoned shortly after Belgium, because everything was blindingly bright in his future and he'd get to write it down later, now he just wanted to focus on the feeling of being on top of the world) and his stupid little breathing techniques. He was fine, really. He was just... ugh.
He sighed again, still staring at his phone screen, prompting Sassy to send him another one of her patented annoyed looks. Her feline eyes, already perpetually displeased as if inconvenienced by the existence of her owners (oh, we only feed, shelter and pamper you, I'd be annoyed too, you expensive little brat), seemed even more judgy in the stuffy Mediterranean heat of the afternoon. The living room was so poorly designed (as was most of Monaco, because money couldn't buy enough space to build a decent apartment when every single millionaire on Earth decided to cram themselves in the same five or so blocks) that Daniel was beginning to run out of air in his lungs, but maybe that was because of his own... shit ("Yes, of course I'll remember my breathing techniques, I'll be fine, besides, you'll be late for your next client. I promise I'll be fine").
It came so easily to lie, sometimes.
part 2
#daniel ricciardo#danny ric#dr3#like seriously this fic is 90% danny you've been warned#max verstappen#maxiel#not beta read we die like redbull's integrity whenever millions of dollars are dangled in front of them by a shitty sponsor#rfp#f1 fic#hurt/comfort#crack (ish)#domestic fluff#just wait for it guys we're getting there#does this count as a character study?? inner monologue?? danny ric is my pookie hours??#writing shitty fanfiction as a coping mechanism#duolingo notifications being used as a plot point#WE'LL GET THERE I PROMISE#tumblr has a weirdly short word restriction? so it's forcing me to post it in parts#i wrote this all in one go
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this has 2 saves already even though i haven't talked about it at all so ig there's an audience to throw it out to somewhere . fuck it we ball
WOE. INCOMPREHENSIBLE SLEEP TOKEN INFESTED GABV1EL PLAYLIST BE UPON YE.
#and today on cookie's ramblings#ultrakill#gabriel ultrakill#v1 ultrakill#gabv1el#seeing the saves made me scramble to add a few extra sleep token songs in before i posted this so that was fun#was not planning on posting this tbh#this originally had a local file in it which shows how unprepared i was for this to get clocked LSJDLSKGN#heed the word 'brainrot' in the playlist name. it is not exaggerating#some of this is like . weirdly personal? idk im probably just tripping but it feels like itd only make sense to me#having v1 himself scuttling around in your brain does not help#yea this is also partially a fictive playlist OOPSIES#system bullshit tag#My thoughts about these two are incomprehensible to even myself so#in order to keep these tags slightly shorter than they could be i will cease the ramblings now
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