#this is a joke lol HI HALLIE

[carlyraejepsans]

are you a present day carly rae jepsen fan or is the url just for her legacy

i am a fan of her music but I'm afraid I don't follow her much closely as an artist. the true legacy is of my old pal hallie, who WAS the diehard crj fan and started the [character]raejepsen naming trend in our friend group at the time. rest in deactivated, gone too soon🙏

[grigori77]

Critical Role, Campaign 3 Episode 100 (Downfall Part Two!)

ACTUAL SAM ad nonsense, this time. Okay, then ... awwwwww ... this is actually really cute ... Liam: "You're the fakest person I know ... you don't have a genuine bone in your body ..." LOL Yeah, that's it, nice save. That was actually quite adorable, even if Liam WAS a little ... less than SWEET with his choice of words. I'm looking at YOU, O'Brien. (I am joking, of course, for those who DON'T get irony ...)

Oh yeah, in truth Sam really HASN'T lost his touch and it's great. Even though it's at Marisha's expense ... XD

"And there's a POCKET!" The way Laura said that was too good ... LOL

Yeah, I expected the stand-up from Matt this time ... hello again, Brennan ... and he's as geeky as ever. I love it ... "Everyone's laughing it up but I am DEADLY FUCKING SERIOUS, okay?"

Chamber of Secrets? Yeah, no ... Brennan: "HBO! No, no, I'm sorry!"

So, the first roll of the evening ... 30? Blimey ... off to a great start, definitely ...

Oh, she's a JOLLY little halfling, isn't she? Yeah ...

The Emissary: "You. Made. Her. Saaaaaaad ..."

What happened in Vasselheim? That didn't sound good ...

An object wrapped in cloth? Something new, seemingly hidden but not well? Oh, that's suspicious. Careful with that, Ayden ... a prayer to "the family that we used to be" ... hmmm ... oh ... that's interesting ... someone's prayed to the Dawnfather here? Recently?

Hallis? Who's that?

An ARCHMAGE?!!! Intriguing ... oh, so it was to the Everlight? also interesting ... so it IS a book of the gods ... a really really OLD one ... whoa, this is PRE-Age of Arcanum? Wow ...

Locate Magic? Or a tracking spell? Hmmmm ...

Umleta: "Is this part of the plan, or are you asking me for a favour?" Trist: "Yes."

Oh yeah, go Raven Mother about-to-die second sight ... aha, so is this kid still alive? Is this something that Emhira COULD fix?

So there's a hospital close? That must be it, then ...

Yeah, I was thinking this too ... if they win an ally in this, they could circumvent a lot of greif in this plan ... Trist's plan could definitely make things a liot easier for them ...

Ayden: "I'm having a difficult time, I like him but also quite despise him ..." Taliesin: "Welcomg to Thanksgiving!"

Disperse and split up, then ...

Sphere of Invisibility. Okay ...

Oh ... a tragic love story? And I was already so compelled about Asha ... also I'm definitely liking that she's bonding with the Emissary ...

The Emissary: "Her first forest ... for you ..." Asha: "That would be a better gift. How typical."

Yeah, she really is hungry ... EVERYTHING'S hungry, apparently ... hmmm ... O.O

Wait ... a SENTIENT lock? Weird ... oh, is it some kind of Aeormaton? Cool ... did it just FLIRT with SILAHA? Interesting ...

Chorus? Okay ... of boy, wow, SILAHA is definitely a little too into this particular facade, aren't they?

So it's some kind of bizarre Aeormaton speakeasy? Weird ... and it's a bit kinky too, apparently ... O.O

Umleta: "You are a clown." SILAHA: "Go join the circus, then."

Apparently SILAHA is having trouble letting go ...

That Aeormaton/elven lesbian engagement was incredibly romantic, ain't gonna deny ...

Oh yeah, 4X is fascinating already ... a stiff? Hmmm ... milk and honey? Sounds suspicious ...

Crap ... the imp is onto them ... Emhira: "Imp ... in my boobs ..." SILAHA: "Oh dear ..."

Slith ... hmmm ... I would already die for this adorable little letch ... clearly he likes Emhira VERY MUCH ...

Command? Oh, here we go ... Wisdom save of 19? Okay ... nice ...

A planetar? So definitely an angel, then ... and SILAHA already has them under his thumb ... oh ... for one round only ... crap ...

Roll Initiative? OF COURSE ...

Hold Monster? Nice ... good choice, Abubakar. Brennan saves ... Abubakar: "I'm gonna use a Lucky!" Of course you are. XD

Shadow Blade and Boots of Haste combo means Laura gets another action ... so Emhira hacks away! 29 DEFINITELY hits ... 12! OF COURSE this thing bleeds gold ... and she's a Warcaster? Wow ... second attack, then ...

SILAHA is going to LITERALLY bend the reality of the space around them to trap this guy ...

Wow ... so that LITERALLY just ended JUST LIKE THAT ... cool. Yeah ... OF COURSE nobody else REALLY saw that ...

Meanwhile the door LITERALLY SWALLOWED the angel ...

Oh yeah, those two demons WOULD just brick it, wouldn't they? Nice defuse, at least ... and that's a break then so Brennan can take a dump, I suppose ...

Over to Trist and Ayden, then ...

Somehow I doubt he really NEEDED to PRAY n order to melt that lock ... mostly he was just doing it to be an arsehole, I reckon ...

Emergency, yeah ... definitely the smart word in THIS environment ... 21 persuasion? Yeah ... not here? I kind of doubt that ... and it doesn't SEEM like it either ... another persuasion check? 25 this time ... Ashley's rolling HARD tonight ...

Archmage Previn? Okay, there we go then ...

Oh, this play is FANCY, yeah ...

Here he is, then ... poor kid's in a STATE, clearly ...

Graygill's Wasting? Sounds nasty ...

Aha! This would be Previn, then ... Cassida? Yeah, first names might be smart right now ...

The book? Oh, okay ... that's a risky move ...

Okay, yeah, figured she was a worshipper.

Oh yeah, get rid of that cranky git ... Milo: "It ever follows."

Trist uses Lay On Hands to remove his disease ... is this actually gonna work? Oh shit ... is she too broken for it to really succeed? Hmmm ...

That's right, Previn, you're in the presence of the Everlight herself ... so the kid's HEALED and now has 70 hit points ... wow ... O.O

Hallis: "I'm hungry ..." Yeah, you bet his mum just bursts into tears ...

Milo! You massive prick! Teach him a lesson, Ayden.

Channel Divinity? So Ayden's just on a healing tour, then ...

Well, that seems like a very ... humbling lesson ...

So ... Archmage Previn is DIRECTLY involved in this great undertaking of Aeor against the gods, then? So this is potentially a VERY helpful development, then ...

Wait ... is she trying to SABOTAGE this weapon?

The Society of Primes? Sounds helpful ... maybe they DO have some allies here, then ...

Oh dear ... yeah, this might NOT work out how they'd like after all, then ... oof ...

Back to Asha and the Emissary, then ...

A lone single tree ... at once beautiful and foreboding, really ...

One more hour of their Sphere of Invisibility ... so maybe just try a stealthy infiltration, then ...

"A gift of the Golden Scythe ..." Hmmmmm ...

Well now ... at least the little things know to honour their patrons ... but also I feel VERY SORRY for these poor tiny birds, this is a HORRIBLE place to be trapped in ...

Yeah, looks like being sneaky IS the smart move right now, then.

Oh, that's just SWEET ... see, nature isn't ALWAYS cruel ...

And now the tree's talking to her too ... O.O

Brennan: "It is not only humans that worship." Yes indeed ...

Holy fuck ... Asha just made the tree SPLIT THE WALL OPEN with its roots. That is a fucking FLEX right there ...

Asha takes a twig from the tree for later ... ALSO smart ...

The Emissary: "Bird ... she bares her teeth ... but I know what Mother sees in her."

Tishar cleaves the pipe open and starts burrowing into it ...

And now we're back to Emhira and SILAHA ...

So ... questioning the angel, then ... they followed their commander here? So ... this is NOT the rebel angel that came here to offer up secrets, then? Interesting ... but clearly they are still a moody shit ... hmmm ...

SILAHA's actually trying to SUCK THE ANGER right out of them? Interesting ... 9 on a Charisma check? Oof ... yeah, that's roundly rejected, then ...

Acastriel? Is that the traitor, then?

So that happened, the ... the angel just CUT ITS OWN HEAD OFF ... lovely ...

Oh dear ... yeah, so Garathran, the angel, is now FACE TO FACE with the ACTUAL Matron of Ravens on the other side ... yeah, they done fucked up after all ...

Yeah, they are SCARED now, clearly ... but she's being SO SWEET even when she's bracing them for information ...

Here we go, then ... the much needed infodump ...

A DRAGON?!!! Sweet fuck ...

The bottleneck and the breaking point indeed ... the information HASN'T gone out yet ... so they COULD just nip this in the bud right here ...

They just vanish in a puff ... and all the knowledge floods into her instead ... yup ...

It's all happening ALL AT ONCE!!! Yeah ...

And meanwhile Taliesin and Noshir have to roll Initiative ... CRAP!!! Oh, now he's getting EVERYBODY to do it instead ... okay then ...

So they burst out of the pipe into a chamber ... oh dear ... two massive constructs bar the way ... crap indeed ...

Yeah. Kill the Archmage, then ...

The Emissary charges their energy up and makes a dash for the mage. The closer construct swings and VERY MUCH misses as they pass ... attack as a BONUS ACTION?!!! Holy shit ... two big axes form one larger weapon and they CHUCK IT at the mage ... holy fuck this weapon cleaves CLEAN THROUGH the sudden shielf spell and cuts right into its target ... a rune that says "Denial"? No shit ... 11 damage, but with Scales of Justice he's also grappled and dragged ... so another 12 points, 23 altogether ... nice ... next attack which ALSO hits with a 28 ... holy fuck ... more axe action, then ... 12 points of damage this time.

The Emissary: "REPENT." Oof ... O.O

So Emhira and SILAHA have to get to the Engine under the Scribe, then. HOW?!!!

Emhira sends her raven, Dearest, through the pipe into the chamber ... okay, then ... Arcane Gate? Oh yes, nice one indeed ... so there's a portal RIGHT where they want to be, then, and she steps straight through ...

So she's right in the thick of it, then, and SILAHA casts Dimension Door in order to directly follow her.

Clockwork Cavalcade? Sounds FANCY ... yeah, DO THAT!!!

Abubakar: "Gimme two seconds ..." Oh fuck yeah ... yes, that's EXACTLY it ... SILAHA literally just PACMANs the fucking Scribe and ALL of its data ... fucking SWEET ...

A poem so beautiful it could convince reality to kill a god ... holy shit ...

Zaharzht hobbles in and casts Silence on the Archmage ... all the sound leaves the room ... hmmm ... two Counterspells from the constructs fail SPECTACULARLY ... yup, no verbal components, then ... essentially he can therefore now do FUCK ALL ... XD

The Archmage manages to slip free from the grapple, but gives the Emissary an attack of poortunity ... the mage gets out of the range of Silence and dumps a Misty Step to flee ...

The group at the hospital are currently very much OUT OF THE FIGHT ... hmmm ... so Arcadia casts Teleport and just jumps ALL OF THEM into the room ... okay, then ...

Trists casts Guiding Bolt on the Orb ... nice ... Nat20! Yeah! Double damage, then ... 8D6? Wow ... 36 points of Radiant damage! BOOM!!! Advantage on the next attack, then ...

Awwwwwww ... Topher gave her a little slingshot? That's so sweet ... she casts Blinding Smite on it, then holds her position for whatever's next ...

Which is a construct coming right at her ... oof ... she takes 44 POINTS OF DAMAGE in a single hit ... fuck ... and she just TAKES IT ...

Zaharzht takes a hit too ... and has to make a concentration save to maintain the Silence ... which stays ... phew ...

Asha runs round, lands on the Emissary and reaches into them, pulling out a rusted metal ring, produces a vine of briatwood, and forms them into a really nasty spear ... she spots the mage just in time before he emerges from Misty Step and attacks ... 24 to hit ... effortlessly bypassing the Shield, she inflicts a monstrous amount of damage and completely STUNS the fucker ... following through, she batters the prone body and then delivers a Flurry of Blows ... ouch ... HDYWTDT indeed ... yeah, she just rips his throat right out with her bare teeth ... O.O

Tishar rushes in, sees the Orb's already fucked up, and Rages as she starts battering it ... 38 points of damage, then ...

Ayden points his staff at the Orb and hurls a Guiding Bolt at it ... 30 to hit? Oooof ... 20 points of Radiant damage ... then turns to Tishar and says: "It's taking you that long?" before granting her an Additonal Attack ... fuck, REALLY?!!!

Oh, nostalgia ... hmmmm ...

She smashes it to pieces ... oh yeah, this shit EXPLODES, definitely ... both the constructs just instantly go inert and that's IT for the fight...

Wind? Hmmm ... osh shit, wait ... yes, of course, the gates are open as the gods are starting to come in ...

Meanwhile they all pile through Emhira's gate and leave the chamber behind ...

And that's IT!!! Branna calls it a night ... roll on next week, then.

[redezign-yr-logo]

I thought it'd be cool to share my fan spinch equivalents of my favorite bands [which i created for fun since my sona has a Sparklecare form ^^] cuz i really like some of these hehe

Lime Angel = Lemon Demon [Just a classic thing and possibly maybe actually cannon iirc???]

ADMIN = MGMT [MGMT is short for Management n ADMIN is short for Administrative so i thought it was fitting!!]

Boingi Oingi = Oingo Boingo [This one is just funny to me]

Colonel Cowliver & His Mystical Ensemble = Captain Beefheart & His Magic Band [I just really like this one + it made my Dad laugh so Win]

We May Be Titans = They Might Be Giants [This was one that was stuck in my head for forever cuz i really wanted to use 'Titans' fsr n cant imagine it as anything else]

YOU DONT KNOW HOW BUT WE FOUND YOU = I DON'T KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME [Switcharoo!!]

Hally Tall = Tally Hall [i couldn't think of anything better.. maybe Tally Ho? Actually i like that more maybe]

Marvel Melody = Miracle Musical [Hehe playing around with the letter M is fun]

Gameshow Girl = Talkshow Boy [Only thing i could think of and its just. really fun to say. alliteration is fun]

The Funny Laughs = The Scary Jokes [Bad n i know someone could do better [PLEASE] I was tired at the time n couldn't think of anything]

Walking Legs = Talking Heads [Self explanitory i think]

Run21 = Drive45 [im just really proud of this one]

I hope you enjoyed that :3 there are some bands i couldn't do anything with sadly [like what do i do if the name is litterly just the person's name] but oh well lol

Also i think this goes without saying but if you wish feel free to use these lol !!

[thebestieyoureinlovewith]

OC INFO DUMP

go

Mehehehe umm we'll do some ones you don't know much abt

1. Ryu Velara be a rich boi in a magical world who secretly befriends a girl called Halli James who is being mistreated by her dad. They meet often in the woods until he goes to boarding school. After a few years things get really bad with Halli's dad so she goes to Ryu's strict parents, who adopt her.

Ryu is insanely magically talented, and Halli is the only one who knows how powerful he really is because they train together.

(There are three types of magic in this world; natural, familial and free.)

One person has been known to wield free magic and it be Ryu. He's great. Halli has water powers also and they get up to shenanigans with Ryu's school friends who he's known since birth.

Aster- so so so gay, everyone thinks she's dating Ryu bahahaha until she comes out and then they're like ooooooh

Jaimey and Naiha- sisters who bicker but are insanely close...also both great singers

Sylon- absolute sweetheart raised by their single mother also totally a badass we love them alot also deliberately misgender them and the whole gang will be on your back

Theo- makes dumb jokes, is really close with Ryu...very annoying and gets beat up by the older kids at the school

Cera- dating Ryu...she lives quite far away and is an ice skater with fire powers lol and she's bootiful and so so kind like her soul is made of flowers everyone loves her but she's also a badass :) here are some pics of their designs

This is Halli right now.

Aster current design.

Jaimey and Naiha current design.

Also the Velaras (Ryu's family) are really well known and powerful in their world, and Ryus parents and grandparents are super cool but Ryu is more cool and his family doesn't know so he has to kinda pretend to be less than he is.

[yesimwriting]

Oh boy, not the 'sneaky era' 😭🤣 I'm thrilled, but scared. I saw in ch 7 that Noel was never mentioned....is that man dead? I feel like he could be dead in a ditch somewhere. Y/n wasn't able to find him before she left the party in ch 5 too. Then again, he never did anything wrong to us so maybe he was let off the hook. Also love how Stu babies us 🥴 like yes, cut my oranges and take care of mwah 🤣 him buying me books was giving off sugar daddy vibes too. Kinda terrified that he was able to convince my own mom to let him teach me to drive. Speaking of her, did we ever tell her about that second Ghostface call? Did we ever tell her about our 'date' with Noel? I would think she'd be mad and worried since Noel is a guy.

Kinda off topic, but I'm hoping Hallie shows up to Woodsborrow to cause chaos 😌 we seemed wary about her coming there and there's gotta be a reason for that, especially since we only seem worried about her meeting Billy and Stu. Hallie also feels like a troublemaker since she's known as 'Hurricane Hallie' too and it's scaring me 🤣 Billy and Stu probably wouldn't like her either just bc she is our bestie and knows us better than they do. It's like the Gloria situation, they'd be jealous we have other people to turn to....and I love making them mad. I wonder if we have other friends from Texas or if Hallie is literally the only real one that stuck around 🥲 so excited for the next chapter!

ah i love seeing people excited about final girl!! "thrilled but scared" is so valid 😭

where's Noel is a super valid question...and so are all of your guesses,, ig all i have to say is that you'll see, it wouldn't be a sneaky era if i told you

also yeah stu for sure did give sugar daddy a little, i head canon him as someone whose parents aren't around much and that they genuinely think giving him gifts and access to money with little to no regulations/restrictions makes up for it almost fully

all he knows is throwing money at who he cares about bc he doesn't know how to express his feelings into words, the babying is the second part of that,, it's him sort of instinctually doing what a subconscious part of him wishes someone would have done for him

and as far as the mom thing... yeah stu didn't get through the entire scream movie without ever really being suspected despite all the jokes he made while billy who was being accused for nothing,, he knows how to manipulate!! how to interpret what people see him as and play into it when it's convenient and how to play as misunderstood when it isn't

mansplain, manipulate, malewife and in that order

all the questions about what y/n's mom doesn't know are really good!! in part 6 it's briefly mentioned that Billy and y/n called y/n's mom after calling the police about the Ghostface call so she knows

the noel thing and whether or not her mom knows does come up!! so i won't say anything about it rn :))

also so happy you mentioned Hallie 😭 i have plans for her lol,, nothing too crazy,, but billy and stu will meet her soon enough

[cdyssey]

Agatha All Along (1.06) Reactions:

AW. Teen’s Bar Mitzvah…

According to the program, he’s William Kaplan…

WAIT THAT’S THE GUY FROM PRIVATE PRACTICE

THE TRANSITION TO HIM DANCING IS SO GOOD

LILIAAAAAA. Love that Teen is intersecting with her even before the coven officially begins

god I would die for Patti lupone. Have I said that yet

OOOH????)$&) SHE PUT THE SIGIL ON HIM

HEARING WANDA AND VISION’S VOICES ON THE RADIO ADDED TEN YEARS TO MY LIFE

FUCK. THIS CAR CRASH. THAT WAS VISCERAL

I HAVE TEARS IN MY EYES BECAUSE OF HIS PARENTS’ GRIEF GODDAMN

BILLY INHABITING WILLIAM’S BODY DEAR FUCKING GODDDDDDDDDDDDD

ALIIIIIICE.

OH. HE CAN READ MINDS

lol, the dog barking at Billy bit reminds me of the dog barking at Annie pretending to be Hallie in the parent trap

Something, something about Billy being trapped in a stranger’s body and agatha being trapped in her own mind—that a similarity between them is that they both know what it is to be displaced by circumstances beyond their control

Aww, Billy’s boyfriend. 🥹 This Disney+ show being so unapologetically queer is everything to me

The fact that Wanda inadvertently caused William Kaplan’s death, and in doing so, saved her son

JENNNNNNNNNNNN

“You can melt the probiotic candles.” I love a hot con artist <333

RALPH FUCKING BOHNER. BOHNNERRIFIC69.

“She stole my house, completely ruined the market value.” FJSKFJDN

Monica mention!!!!!

THE LORNA WU COVER!!!!! I’m still gagged over the reveal that it was a protection spell for her daughter. 🥹 Like, so much of this show is about a mother’s love

The implication that she’s caused so many famous disasters <333 AND THAT SHE’S THEE JOLENE

has someone edited flaming locks of auburn hair on kathryn hahn yet

agatha having whole ass wiki pages of all her cunty and evil exploits. slay

IS TEEN THE BLACK HEART

AGATHA HALLUCINATED WEARING A DYKEY FLANNEL AKAKQOWJDIWOWKAOW AND CARRYING BEERS

she really created an elaborate hallucination of herself where she was the butch lesbian ever <33

The chase scene showing Agatha being far more clumsy than she internally imagined lmao. Kathryn Hahn the actress that you ARE

MRS. HAAAAART

BOHNER FAMILY REUNION. WATER HOSE AS A GUN.

Kathryn Hahn acting all butchy with minimal makeup is my Roman Empire. Her manspreading wearing a boner joke shirt is everything 2 me

AGATHA JUST STRAIFHT UP KICKING HIM JAKSJDJS.

god I’m so gay

cursed agatha is such a rife place to explore. the way she was so locked in her own reality is fucking TERRIFYING. it was all so very real to her, and her behavior here contextualizes the delicacy that Rio showed her, the kindness that the citizens of Westview treated her with.

She was sick, and they took care of her.

her clicking the pen over and over againnnn

The fact that Agatha is talking to Billy about his mom and he doesn’t know it

Agatha’s pained shock when her reality starts falling apart is fucking brutal

“Come on, I do not wanna go back in the closet.” AKIQKWJDJDFIOWOW

BABY GIRL CRAWLING OUT OF THE MUDDDD like an evil witch coming out to devastate mankind

“It’s nice to see you again.” Agatha was there for Billy’s creation and raising. And there’s something utterly fitting about the role she’s taken on for him now, something of a distorted mother figure

ARE THERE TEARS IN AGATHA’S EYES

,JASKKDJSKSNS, agatha not being able to count how many people she’s killed

I love when agatha is a fucking shithead. This show wouldn’t work if she didn’t absolutely suck 90% of the time

“But don’t you dare feel guilty about your talent. You survived like witches have been doing for centuries. You saw an opportunity, an empty vessel, and you moved in. So you broke the rules. Big deal! That’s what kept you alive! That’s what makes you special! It’s what makes you a witch.” OH, THAT’S COMING STRAIGHT FROM AGATHA’S HEART. Because she’s clearly remembering her mother and how her powers were dismissed and discouraged from the very start. And so she’s telling Billy what she probably wanted to hear for herself when she was his age.

I love that Agatha just wants to mentor the Maximoffs haha

“How about Robo-Papa? Lord knows where he is or in how many pieces.” FOUL WOWODJIWJRJDJ.

“You’re after TOBY.” KQOQODJDJUFISOALWKFJSOAK

“Gosh, you really are a Maximoff. Otherwise, none of this would be nearly as dramatic.” JWJDIWOWDID

I would watch 300 more seasons of Kathryn Hahn chewing the scenery like no one’s business

MAKING A MUSTACHE WITH HER HAIR EIWOWJFNSJSJ

she is so fucked up. <33 I love her. I love this fucking show

[kinetic-elaboration]

June 20: My So-Called Life 1x16

I feel like it's been so long since I watched MSCL last, even though it was only the week before last, but then before that was another break... I miss it but I don't hate that I'm drawing out the last few episodes.

This one was really good because it was a mix of some very different story lines. I mainly remember it for Rickie's, of course; in some ways, I'm more upset watching him in Resolutions even than in So-Called Angels. I think it's because the very special holiday episode is over, but his story still doesn't have a resolution. He still doesn't have a home; he still doesn't belong anywhere. And everyone else has moved on to other, more regular program. Also, I think Rickie's pride and his loneliness and his desperation are all really warring in a way that's more palpable than in the previous episode. A step forward, a step back. The way he and Mr. Katimsky WANT to be each other's family so bad but are both scared.

It's interesting to me that Rickie specifically mentions The Odyssey starting in medias res, right before he admits that he has nowhere to live--because Mr. Katimsky is getting his story in the middle, but in a way so is the audience. Rickie's life has been seen in bits and pieces, there at the edges of Angela's life. He's in the middle of a crisis but it's been a long time coming.

Rickie and Rayanne barely interacting in this ep was--notable. I know it was probably largely about fitting different story lines together, and keeping the A, B, C plots clean, but they are best friends, and Rickie has no home. Rayanne's doesn't seem to be an option. The most we see of Rayanne's concern is Angela's statement that Rayanne blames Patty for kicking Rickie out. But it's Angela who seems to have be more invested in Rickie's situation, at least comparatively. I can't tell how much this is supposed to reflect the strained nature of their friendship right now and how much is just about the strictures of writing.

I mean honestly I would have liked to see Brian and Rickie interact, given that their friendship is actually pretty well established by now, although I don't think Brian is the first person Rickie would run to with this sort of problem.

I loved the Brian and Jordan story (a new BroTP begins lol) and how much Jordan has grown. Accepting tutoring so easily. Getting Brian to concentrate on tutoring. Calling Angela his friend. Not wanting to use her for her homework help. Being able to joke with her about sex. They could never have done that in episodes 2 or 3. This is what friendship among the three of them could look like if they stopped angsting.

Sharon and Rayanne might be my favorite friendship of this rewatch though... I mean it's a tough call but they're really in the running. I think it's how they are in some ways the oddest or least likely friendship, but also how Rayanne is gaining Sharon as a friend even as she loses everyone else, and how they can be a mess around each other and the other one is the perfect person to deal with that mess. I also found Rayanne specifically very endearing in this ep; her desire to be loved and have that solve all her problems (cause you're totally fulfilled now, right?) is so heartbreaking. Like she was really Experiencing Something seeing Kyle confess his love. And as for Sharon, I envy her her affectionate himbo.

I didn't pay that much attention to the adult story line this ep because I just can't stand Hallie and I also never believed this Graham/Hallie affair. I can see how Patty would be scared of it. I can see how Hallie has a crush on Graham. But I really think Graham is oblivious to that and his guilt and confusion is really coming from the idea of the restaurant itself. That is a big, risky thing to do! And he is trying to transform his life right now! He's allowed to angst about it, and it shouldn't be forced into some affair story line. Boring. I don't care about that. Graham/Patty OTP for life.

I will say that it's interesting that Graham didn't go to college, when Patty pretty obviously did and I'd say Angela pretty obviously will. I never remembered that detail about him but it puts some of the community college class stuff in a different perspective for me.

[madaboutmathers]

I have something in mind.

you and marshall are great youth love. even before who. however, due to some situations, you have to leave family, friends, the city. years later maybe for a work reason I'm not sure about that part, you run into Marshall and his daughter (the dramatic thing here is that Hallie might be the same age at the time as you and Marshall were when you broke up lol). Emotions that have never been gone before are resurfaced. but everything has to be kept professional?

AN:Hi, I hope you like it x

God, you never thought you’d be back here in Detroit. Not after so many years away and so many years living in London now. But it was only for work and you would be leaving just as quickly as you came. It was just a job; surely you wouldn’t be seeing any familiar faces on your visit. You couldn’t go anywhere with memories. Of you and him, of your life here; it was tightening around you. You didn’t think it would hurt this much as you remembered those times you had to leave behind. But it seemed to work out for you both, right? Well, maybe not so much personally but he was successful in the dream he wanted.

And you were okay. It wasn’t your dream but it paid well and you could travel. What more could you want? Those thoughts followed you around the day as you took a moment to revisit the city that made you. And broke you. You didn’t notice the ringing of your phone as you settled on the park bench; just staring off into space. You’d had your first kiss here; under that large oak tree. Fuck, this wasn’t good. You were getting too distracted. The ringing of your phone continued and finally gained your attention. You reached for it.

“Hello.” You began and moved from the bench. You collected your belongings with one last look at the tree. “Yeah, I’m on my way now.” You hummed and tried to focus on the task at hand now. There was no point thinking about the past. The conversation soon ended as you made your way to the offices.

~

“Thanks for coming down on such short notice.” Your liaison greeted you as soon as you walked into the building. “Of course.” You hummed; the money was incredible, you weren’t going to pass it over. “Okay, they are here already so I’ll let you get acquainted with the clients.” She explained to you. “Thank you.” You smiled with a nod before following the woman into a more private area and towards a large room. “I’ll leave you to it.” You nodded and watched the woman go before you moved into the room. If only you knew it was all about to change.

You noticed the young woman first, well when you looked closer she seemed younger than that. “Hello, my name’s Y/N.” You introduced yourself with a bright smile with your hand moving for her to shake. “Hailie.” She whispered out, nervously. “Nice to meet you.” You hummed and moved to greet the other person in the room.

Your eyes widened; of course you recognised him. Even if it had been years, you’d never forget your first love. “Marshall?” You softly whispered out; your eyes narrowing as you looked him over. “Hey Y/N..” It annoyed you that he didn’t seem as shocked as you felt but maybe he was just better at hiding it.

He looked good, you thought to yourself. What you didn’t know was how fast Marshall’s heart was beating at just the sight of you. “It’s nice to see you again.” Marshall finally spoke as you both ignored Hailie’s confused look. “You too.” You whispered; memories of a lifetime flooding you. God, you wondered who was playing a cruel joke on you as you moved around the table and tried to focus on the work at hand. You could see Hailie wanting to ask her questions but you pushed the work conversation on. “So, these are the documents to look over and sign.” You began to explain.

You chewed on your bottom lip for a moment as the tension seemed to stay so thick and tight around you both. The silence moved past you before Hailie began to ask questions about the contracts. It gave you the distraction you needed as you focused on her and turned towards her. It wasn’t long before Marshall spoke. “I’m just going to head out.” He announced and you looked up and had to force yourself to look away when you nodded. Hailie watched; he usually never left her alone with new people but from recognising the name, she understood the trust there. You could only watch him go; chewing on your bottom lip.

“Do you have any more questions?” You softly asked her whilst bringing the contract back to yourself. “Oh, no I’m good now.” Hailie babbled and you sweetly smiled at her before moving to stand; documents in hand. “You are going now?” She asked again with slight worry in her tone and you didn’t know why. “Yeah, I’ve got to leave town now.” You answered her, placing your bag on your shoulder as you moved around the table. “Right.” She whispered mostly to herself as you moved towards the door. “Wait!” You turned back around and locked eyes with her; wondering what the problem was now. “I want to give you something.

She moved into her pocket and began to write on a scrap of paper. “Please take it.” She handed you the paper and you saw numbers scribbled down. “Hailie..” You softly whispered, already knowing the numbers would be Marshall’s. “Please..just take it. Give him a chance.” She began to babble now.

You could only nod and place it in your back pocket. “He still loves you, you know. It’s why it didn’t work out with my mom.” Hailie explained as you looked back. Of course it had to be at that moment that Marshall entered the room. “You good?” He asked them both; those blues of his you adored moved over you for a moment. “Just heading out now. I’ll email over the copies.” You ducked your head before moving to leave the room; brushing against him. “Can I see you again?” Marshall finally asked; breaking the dance you both had been having.

“I’ll call you.” You whispered over your shoulder; a soft smile tugging on your lips as you winked. Marshall could only watch you go and hoped you would. He couldn’t lose you again.

[1percentcharge]

Could you explain the reasoning behind all the horror high characters names?

ok but im putting it under a readmore cuz im gonna go over literally all of them

seesaw- name was sort of a joke inspired by the "is it called saw bc you see it" thing and bc seesaw is a noun. I mightve picked a different name for her did I know I would get attached to these ocs lol

candy- reference to how brundle ate a lot of sugar and candy bars immediately post-telepod. recently found out it was the name of a supporting character in earth girls are easy so I guess i can't help being the most genius name-picker ever/j

Frederica- just a female version of freddy. I could have gone with winifred or something but in middle school i had a math teacher i liked named frederica so

Billie- just female version of Billy. btw, her last name is macher bc fin already has the last name loomis.

Hallie- named after Halloween

Crystal- named after camp crystal lake

Noel- wanted a christmas-themed name. I picked Noel specifically just bc I liked it

Allie- works on 2 levels: Fin and Allie (duo): finale, and Allie Ive: alive

Starlet- what young actresses are called and I thought it sounded pretty

Audrey III- let's be real I couldn't have named the daughter of audrey II anything else

Bee- bc of bees ofc! Plus it sounded cute.

Cary- just Carrie but masculine.

Fin- like FINal girl

Barbie- sounded cute and the doll association fits with her pink hearts aesthetic. plus, two syllables and starts with B like Bubba.

December- I love month names and the shining takes place around then.

Clay- I asked for names associated with death and someone recommended it. Probably also works w his love of porcelain dolls.

Monday- I like week names and she was slightly inspired by Wednesday addams (or more generally her family was inspired by the addams)

Jay- jay n doe like jane doe aka unidentified female corpse. the N stands for Nicole.

Ruth- there's a character in scanners called ruth and I like the name

Whitney- reference to when Patrick Bateman talks about whitney houston (music reference name seemed to make sense)

Augusta- 1) auguste is a type of clown 2) augusta is the capital of maine 3) im pretty sure the loser club fights pennywise in august 4) my birthday is in august :)

Meg- like the nickname for megalodon. Her real name is Pearl which has an ocean association and a teeth one (pearly whites, fitting bc she's part shark)

Gnathan- pun of nathan + gnat

Joy- reference to orin's delight in harming his patients and use of laughing gas

[anthonycrowleymoved]

I know this is old discourse but in light of destiel becoming canon, what are your thoughts on neil gaiman not allowing Crowley and Aziraphale to be gay lovers? He said that they're angels, not men, so is that supposed to imply that they're not gay simply cuz they're non-binary (so they're asexual)? I just wanna know if they'e in love or not lol. I ship them so much.

yeah okay this is gonna have to be tagged neil discourse because thinking about this over a year later i’m still mad huh

so like. i know very well what he said at the time. he was basically like, and i’m paraphrasing but that’s because i simply do not care enough to give a direct quote but on twitter he was like ‘oh well angels don’t UNDERSTAND human concepts like GENDER and SEXUAL ATTRACTION so NO they’re NOT GAY’ and then someone was like ‘but they’re in love right?’ and he was like ‘of course.’ right? everyone agrees that’s what happened right after the show aired? and like, okay, i’m not going to begrudge people seeing this as representative of themselves if they’re nb and/or ace, that’s cool and fine, and you do you. i find it interesting that i saw a ton more criticism about it on here than on twitter, but that’s probably just more indicative of who i’m following and how much i’m on here than anything else. anyway.

let’s break this bullshit down and explain piece by piece why i think neil’s quote unquote representation in gomens is a hot garbage fire and why it kind of rubbed me the wrong way from the moment i saw it.

1. he posted it on twitter. he wrote the script and could have like, you know, put it into the show, if them being In Love was like, actually part of the story. he had the ability to do that. gomens was already going to piss off right wing groups because of how it treats religion, this wasn’t something i legitimately think amazon/the beeb would have just said ‘no’ to if neil was serious about it. mean, maybe that’s a bit far into conspiracy territory, but i truly believe if they really wanted to make azcrow canon the one person who could have managed getting a scene would have been the author/showrunner. and because he didn’t if you’re a casual viewer who’s not fucking following his goddamned twitter seeing gay representation is now a rorschach test

‘they don’t adhere to human ways of thinking about gender and sexuality’ MANY THOUGHTS HERE but let’s start with

2. i think hallie originally said this and neil i know you wrote the book but like. did you read the book neil. because i thought one of the main points of it was that aziraphale and crowley had effectively ‘gone native’ and saw themselves more like humans than like celestial beings. and they’d been on earth for all of human history. it’s a bad take i’m sorry i know he literally wrote it but like really. really.

3. look i’m nb and i’d love some nb rep. but that was not nb rep. those were two cis male actors playing (largely) male presenting characters with absolutely no in-text indications that they aren’t cis. there’s one (a few? god it’s been a minute since i watched the show) character referred to by singular ‘they’ and it’s not aziraphale or crowley. and like, look, i get that in real life there’s nb people who don’t go by gender neutral pronouns and that’s cool and fine because that’s what those people feel inside. but, like, this isn’t real life, it’s a tv show, and referring to male presenting characters as he/him and then occasionally putting them in feminine clothing isn’t representation because people who aren’t looking for that kind of representation aren’t going to see it, they’re going to see a joke about a man in a dress

4. and i’m not ace so i can’t speak on that, but i do remember at the time ace people being like ‘that....was not ace rep’ so like, make of that what you will. again, i’m not going to tell you you can’t see them as nb and/or ace, but like, i’m just asking you, was that really representation? like, was it? in your heart like, would you have been happy with that representation if neil didn’t tell you it was representation? because if you’re just starved for content, that’s FINE, you’re ALLOWED, all i’m asking you is to not praise the creator for doing fuck all.

5. ‘of course [they’re in love]’ again where??? where??? where is it neil. where is it in the actual text of the show. like there’s in text evidence that they love each other platonically and there’s lots of jokes made by other characters but like. i hate to say that but that’s it. i don’t know why this off the cusp response still makes my blood boil but boy does it

6. i don’t want to go looking for it because i’ve done that like six times but there’s a post on neil’s tumblr from before the show dropped about how there would be moments that people who ship it would be happy with but it wouldn’t become canon. you can look it up i swear he said that in like....december of 2018ish? something like that. which, again, is fine on its own, but combined with the fact that after he was like ‘lmao that’s what i was going for’......not my favorite look

what i’m saying is like, if he wanted to create an actual queer narrative he could have but he just like, chose not to and then when he realized he could have people watching his show just because they’re thirsty for representation that isn’t there i think he went ‘oh i’ll jk rowling this’ i don’t KNOW that that’s what happened but, like, that’s what it looks like to me.

i used to regularly refer to the “representation” in gomens as nu-queerbaiting, which i still like as a term, because to me it’s the person in charge (not the actors, usually, unless they have some say in the writing process) going, oh no they’re totally in love with each other totally trust me :) and then like, they’re not, not really, not to the people who like, watch the show but don’t fucking follow the author on twitter. and that’s. i’m sorry, that’s not canon to me.

and, to be honest, how this is presented honestly makes me more angry than if it was just maybe in-universe wink wink nudge nudge, because i’m USED to queerbaiting and i know that like, almost nothing ever ever ever comes of it and i get it and i like having fun anyways, so i deal. and like, i was a book fan before the show came out. the book was written in the late 80s, and i knew that it wasn’t going to be anywhere near as gay as the fandom has made that work for thirty goddamned years, and i was fine with that. like, going into it, i joked, but it was fine because it was a relatively faithful adaption of a book i like. i wasn’t looking for gay representation, even though i ship aziraphale and crowley.

but like, there was this wave of people who came looking for representation, and the show is so vague on that concept that they saw it, but it’s like. it’s not actually really there. there’s no one saying ‘yes they’re really irl in love.’ there’s two male-presenting characters who COULD be in love, if you choose to view it like that, but maybe aren’t. and like, that’s FINE, on it’s own, but i hate that someone in a position of power said ‘no you’re right lmao’ even though he didn’t do shit. it was made in 2019. queer representation should be better than that. i’m not patting neil on the back for doing literally nothing.

so like, tldr: yeah the rep is bad in my opinion!!! it’s not good!!!! i don’t like how neil handled it and it’s gross!!!! i hope this answers your question!!!!

anyway that being said azcrow is such a good ship anyway, so like, why does it matter if they’re canon? ship em anyways no one can stop me from doing it even though how it was handled by the actual creator is a garbage fire when you look at it for more than like, thirty seconds. like......why must a ship be ‘canon’? is it not enough to read a book and see two celestial beings, in love with humanity?

[misskittysmagicportal]

I know you're a Rob encyclopedia so this is your opportunity to share random facts about him that the only reason you haven't shared yet is because no one asked

He mentioned living in a giant bed-and-breakfast in Galway when he was making "foreign exchange" and he loved that kind of living situation so much that he lied about his age and went to college early? he tried to turn the eight into a seven for 88 to 87 LOL either way but then he flunked out of college because he was making a movie and he failed all of his tests?

He was the foreign exchange student when he made young blades , and his parents let him move to Canada alone at 17?

He was evicted from his first apartment because Ramsey Bolton and Ron Weasley broke a window and then he lied about it?

He mentioned on the Earth locker that he thought it was a good idea to buy his toddler niece and nephew a piano that they promptly played with their butts? (Apparently theyre Tina and Gene Belcher🤣)

some of his fondest memories of filming are still of Foreign Exchange, and he wants joked about holding a contest to see who came up with the best idea of where the hell Cormac is. The show was canceled on a cliffhanger. he openly admits he doesn't know which character he hates more: Addison from Rock Rivals or Billy Delaney. (which sucks because we all fucking love Billy Delaney).

He turned down a role he previously signed up for in a modern day adaptation of Romeo and Juliet because he was uncomfortable with the age of Hallie Steinfeld playing his love interest. Because he was 26 and she was 17.

He was meant to be Jesus on The Walking Dead but his big Hollywood manager fucked up.

2021 is the first year since 2004 that he has nothing scheduled to come out (thanks @robertsheehanownsmyass for realizing that!!) 2015 and 2020 are the only TWO years since in the last twenty he hasn't worked in filming at all.

He's had two women play moms in his works three times: Michelle Fairly and Deidre OKane. Deirdre is only physically with him in one of their three movies.

[curiouschild]

theamiableanachronism said: UM STITCHES??

Ummmmmmmm yeah sooooooo here’s the story of how I gave my middle school crush stitches. 

SO

He and I both had been on the same bus route for the last few years. By the time we had entered 8th grade, I had developed a small, quiet infatuation with the funny slightly immature yet kind boy who always sat behind me. We never had any classes. Our friendship was rooted in riding down the same streets and avenues and sharing jokes with the other kids who liked him a lot (me, not so much, I was very awkward and sensitive. He was one of the few who made me feel normal).

During that last year of middle school, my crush and I, for the first time, had a seat that we both preferred on the bus and everyday I would get on the bus to find him in the desired seat. It was unfair that the boy who had no idea about how I found his curly hair gorgeous and became enamored by his cute, embarrassed smile had stolen the only seat I actually cared about. 

Every afternoon was the same. I’d watch the clock as my extremely dull history teacher- whose class just so happened to be the farthest from my bus- continued to try to tell the annoying, shrimp sized jock wannabes to stop “acting like garbage.” The quiet ticks mimicked his rhythmic, monotonous voice and though I wanted to stick my mechanical pencil through my skull I would silently chant in my head One second closer to the end.

As the bell pierced the air I’d practically trample my classmates over so I could beat my crush to bus 83. 

But I never did.

Each time his charming, stupid smirk would materialize when I’d trip up the steps, out of breath, glaring as I made my way to the back of the bus with him sitting in that seat. My seat.

As cute as I found the glowing triumph in his hazel flecked eyes, I also would be frustrated that I could never beat him.  

Finally, on a chilly day in November, he promised me that he would not take the seat. He told me that out of friendship and kindness, I could have the seat for one afternoon.

I smiled and sat through the rest of the route staring at the bare branches as they passed the window, warming at the thought that my crush wanted to give up the seat for me (and honestly if Love Story had released yet it would have been blaring in my soul the rest of the day, that’s how romantic middle school Hallie found this gesture.)

The next chilly day, I walked off of the bus and into my first class, letting potential middle school romance flood my brain and keep me in a good mood even through the final grudging history class where the jocklets whispered about  “parkour” and the teacher- completely done with us- put on a movie for the tenth time that month.

The bell sang, bringing the day to a close. For once, I could take my time. I didn’t have to suffer from shin splints. I could gather my things and walk like a normal person to the bus. 

I practically skipped like a dork as I approached the muddy steps leading me to my adolescent throne.

But as soon as I saw him, my heart dropped.

He was sitting in that seat, laughing at something the girl across from him said.

My raging hormones frenzied out of control as I marched towards them.

I clenched my hands around the extra jacket I had if it was too cold out. Within the fifteen steps it took to close the distance between us I had one thought: Of course my crush would forget his promise to stupid me.

It was an impulse decision. In my mind it played out harmlessly.

I raised my arm and whacked him with my jacket. 

It should have been soft. It shouldn’t have harmed him.

I didn’t count on the metal zipper catching on his head.

I knew I hurt him the moment he fell over as if he was hit with a brick.

The girl across screeched and my blood went cold as I realized what I had done. 

Most of the other kids were in their seats, heads turned to see what had happened.

My pulse quickened and it felt like ice was filling my chest as I stared at him clutching the gash on his head.

One of my classmates notified the bus driver and she drove him home first.

I sat in the seat in front of him as he groaned, mortified and humiliated as all of our classmates murmured about what happened, shooting dirty looks my way if they caught my eye. It was one of the worst ride homes I ever had.

I thought everything was over. That the wound was so deep that he’d suffer permanent damage (young Hallie was ineffably dramatic). I thought I ended our friendship and would only be remembered as the violent weird girl instead of the one that got away.

That night I logged onto Facebook, numbed from the days events. There was a notification on my inbox. I opened the message and saw to my horror it was from my crush.

“Next time you want the seat, just ask lol :) “ 

[eldritchsurveys]

o27.

// Random Survey Questions // By: @x-hallie-x // What was the last thing you spent a lot of time thinking about? >> Keahi, my Watcher (player character) in the Pillars of Eternity series. I was just imagining the differences between em in the first game and em in the second game, and also imagining em being sexy-flirtatious with Xoti (a character in the second game), because I’m a thot.

What do you think about astrology/the zodiac? If you used to believe/not believe in it, what changed your mind? >> I think astrology is neat. I used to hate it because all I knew about it were people saying that Geminis are two-faced and manipulative and all this other shit, and I got tired of hearing insults about me based on some arbitrary star shit (as I thought at the time). But one of my friends got me into astrology by telling me about the cool shit like natal charts and gradually I got into it. Now I’m like “don’t talk to me unless you did your birth chart ;D ;D” (honestly it’s just FUN and I really relate to what my own birth chart tells me, and I’m not going to let fun-sucking people ruin it for me).

What is one conspiracy you believe in? Or one you think is total crap? >> I don’t know... I don’t really believe in any, per se, like whole-heartedly. I just think a lot of them are interesting. I also don’t know much about any, because I never did much research into them. The geo-engineering thing sounded interesting to me because that reminds me of terraforming in science fiction and stuff, and also the X-Files-esque idea of alien conspiracies as coverups for more insidious experiments and what not? That’s pretty cool. I just think conspiracies are cool from a, like... storytelling perspective, if that makes sense.

Where was the last place you traveled to and what did you do/who did you go with? >> I went to Chicago for my birthday weekend at the end of May, with Sparrow. I went to the Shedd Aquarium, the Adler Planetarium, and the Museum of Science and Industry, and Navy Pier, and I also ate a lot of food and drank a lot of cocktails. And I got to meet my friend Loki in person after being mutuals for years! It was great.

Where was the last place you didn’t want to go but had to anyway? >> I can’t remember.

If you could be doing anything right now, what would it be? >> I mean, I’m pretty happy doing what I’m doing right now, and I don’t want to poke at that too hard and make myself dissatisfied for no reason.

What made you pick up the last book you read? Are you glad you did? >> The last book I finished was Dune Messiah, and I picked it up because I’d read the first book and wanted to keep going. Yeah, I’m glad, it’s an interesting series.

When was the last time you yelled/screamed and why? >> I don’t remember, I rarely do that.

Why is your greatest fear your greatest fear? >> I’m not sure. I think I went todash one too many times and I came back with a set of anxieties as a souvenir. I never used to get all up in my brain about death, in fact I never understood people who were anxious about it at all. And now it’s my thing. I don’t like it, but I guess I have to live with it, and I’m doing my shitting best.

What was the last big decision you made? Do you think you made the right choice? >> I’m not sure? I have a hard time remembering stuff like this.

If you could have any animal as a pet (in a magic universe where wild animals can be tame or something!) what animal would you choose? >> A DRAGON. A WHOLE ASS DRAGON. Fuck it.

What Hogwarts house are you in? What do you think about the “stereotypes” regarding your house? >> I’m a Slytherclaw! I used to get annoyed at unnecessarily negative Slytherin stereotypes but like... meh, whatever. The whole House system is based on stereotypes in the first place, so that’s to be expected. 

What is your favorite song to sing? How about dance to? Do the DO to? >> I’m going to pick random favourites since I don’t have just ONE favourite anything, haha. To sing: Some Time Ago... by Dethklok To dance to: This Corrosion by Sisters of Mercy To get freaknasty to: Some Kind of Stranger by Sisters of Mercy

What is something you want to do, but you don’t think you’ll ever be able to? >> I’d like to live in a community, like a real community where people know and support one another, and share things, and look out for each other’s children, and make you feel like you belong to them. I just... I don’t know. I don’t know if I’ll ever have that.

Have you ever given something up for another person? >> Sure, I mean, I can’t think of any examples right off the top of my head, but I’m pretty sure that’s happened before.

What was wrong with you the last time you felt sick? >> Drank too much, probably.

What is something about your personality that you hope never changes? >> I hope I’m always curious about things and eager to learn.

If you could be famous/known for something, what would you want it to be? >> I really don’t know.

Do you prefer to watch movies with other people or by yourself? >> I like watching movies with other people! But sometimes people’s movie rules don’t match up with mine (like, I don’t mind people talking during movies unless they’re really deep ones and I need to concentrate... but a lot of people don’t want any talking at all, and that’s too much for me). And sometimes people are like... just no fun to watch movies with, you know the kind of person, where they complain about everything or say “that looks so fake lol” or stuff like that? Buzzkills. Fuck that. But! other than that, sure, I like to watch with other people. It’s fun.

What, if anything, are you trying to change about yourself? >> I’m not really trying to change anything, more trying to adapt to myself and be kinder and more patient to myself. Trying to live by example, yanno. And also I’m just tired of struggling with myself, lmao.

How would you describe your soul (old, young, wise, like some sort of animal, flower, etc)? >> I’m a Singularity! The infinite fathomless unknown core of a supermassive black hole, which could be anything from a single point of pure light to a silent void to an entire universe in its own right. The fact that we (humanity) don’t know what’s inside of a black hole makes it an infinity of possibilities (and I think that’s what it is anyway, not just ONE THING or THIS OTHER THING, but all things -- the Prim, the primordial soup, taking shapes when observed but otherwise purely infinite), and that’s me!

Where were you when you first listened to your favorite song? Did it become a favorite immediately or later on? >> Hmm... well, I know I was in New Orleans when I first heard Volbeat’s A Broken Man and the Dawn, which is one of my favourite songs. It did become a favourite immediately.

When was the last time you were embarrassed? >> I don’t remember. It’s not something that sticks, which is what I tell myself when I do get embarrassed -- I’m literally going to forget about it in a day, so no point dwelling on it. ...I think that’s a self-fulfilling prophecy, though. If I don’t dwell on it, then I don’t form memory anchors, which is why I forget about it in a day. Ha! Brain: HACKED

When was the last time you felt especially good about yourself? >> Probably either the last time Hallie said something nice about me :’) or the last time Can Calah said something about his observations of me over time.

What was the last thing you ate? Would you have preferred something else? If so, what? >> I ate a veggie burger with spinach on it, and sweet maui onion chips. Also, it took me like four tries just now to remember how to spell “maui”, for some reason, lmfao. And nah, I was cool with that.

The last time you drank alcohol, what were you doing/who were you with? >> I drank a glass of Rosé yesterday because it was World Rosé Day. That’s an improvement, because usually I just drink the bottle lmfao but nope, just that one glass, and it took me like 2 hours to finish it! This is going better than I expected. I have decided not to drink again until Wednesday (because Wednesday, yanno), and I already set out what I’m going to drink that day and I’m not going to deviate from it. If you want to help hold me accountable, here’s what I chose: one (1) bottle of Backwoods Bastard and one (1) glass of 1000 Stories wine. That’s my limit! Anyway, back to the actual question -- I was just hanging out at home with Sparrow tumblin’ and watching Parts Unknown.

What kind of a drunk are you? >> A... talkative one? A giggly one? A maudlin one, oftentimes. I know the big thing is that people drink to forget their emotional stuff, but I drink to access it.

What’s the most fun you’ve ever had on a drug/trip? >> Oh, man, I don’t even know. There have been a lot of fun trips. So many. One time we took dex and went walking around the Upper West Side and ran into this band performing on the street and they said if you give them a word they’ll make up a song about it on the spot and Sigma said “otters” and Crystal said “threesomes” and so they made up a song about otter threesomes. I’ve seen and felt so much of the pure ridiculous amazingness of NYC while tripping that I can’t even process it all.

What’s the most dangerous or risky thing you’ve ever done? Did you enjoy it or regret it? >> I guess the times I’ve shipped myself across state lines to live with people I’d met online and never before seen in person until then. Like, you know, you hear the horror stories. But nothing close to that has ever happened to me.

From how far up have you fallen/jumped before? >> I threw myself down a flight of stairs once. On purpose. I was also todash, so. (I was completely fine after, physically. Yeah, I don’t know how, either.)

Other than this survey, what was the last thing to get on your nerves? >> THIS SURVEY IS BOMB WHAT DO YOU MEAN Uh... hmm. I don’t remember. :/a

What was the last thing to make you laugh? >> I don’t remember but I also just thought about BZONKED and started laughing again.

What is an inside joke you have between you and a friend/etc? >> Well there’s BZONKED and HOT GATORADE and also hey Hallie remember skagit... >:3

What was the last new thing you learned? >> I don’t remember.

How would you describe your blog content? Do you only reblog specific things or does anything go? >> My personal blog is just... stuff I love, I guess, and stuff I care about. But like, there’s stuff I love that I have other blogs for, specifically -- oedonvevo is for memes and shitposts and fandom overflow (stuff that I like but don’t necessarily want to clog my main blog with); and oedon is for my RPG fandom stuff, my OCs and headcanons; and fuzzbones is for cute shit. And this, of course, is for surveys.

When was the last time you left somewhere for forever (or at least don’t plan on returning)? >> I guess when I moved out of New York two years ago.

What is the most destructive thing you’ve done? >> I’m not sure.

What was the last big decision you made? Do you think you made the right choice? >> Psst this one’s a repeat question! ;D

What video game are you playing now? Do you prefer to play alone or with others/multiplayer games/online games? >> I’m playing like 48479837 at once, tbh. Nah, actually, right now I have World of Warcraft, Elder Scrolls Online, Final Fantasy XIV, Guild Wars 2, Pillars of Eternity, and Mass Effect Andromeda (which I feel like I’m NEVER going to finish) going. I also have save files on Torchlight II, Skyrim, Oblivion, Torment: Tides of Numenera, and a couple of others that I sometimes go back and poke around on. I just really love my video games, lmao. And I prefer to play by myself, because I have a low sense of confidence in my ability to play well with others. But as you can see, I also play four different MMOs, so I’m slowly learning how to get over my lack of confidence and just... ignore the assholes and look for the friendly people.

What was the last thing you found? >> MY SANITY yeah just kidding that’s still lost and I ain’t lookin for it

When will you be going out again and where? >> I’m not sure, actually.

Do you prefer to stay at home or do you like to be out and about? Where are your favorite places to go? >> I love to go out and about, but I... really don’t like where I live, unfortunately, so it’s a real downer. I spend a lot of time beating myself up about it, and I’m trying to stop, but you know... old habits. Also, like, I’m used to living in a big city, a big multicultural city, lived in one for most of my adult life, and it’s a hard adjustment, still. I don’t know how to meet people or do things here, nothing makes sense to me. And I feel culturally alienated as fuck. So, you know. I mostly just stay home. :/

Generally (or specificially, hell idc) what would you like your dream life to look like? >> I don’t really have a dream life, I just know I would like to live in a city again -- ideally New Orleans. And I want to have meatspace friends along with my internet friends! And I want to have money to travel.

When was the last time something about your life changed drastically/what happened? >> I guess the biggest recent change is getting back with Hallie, although like... you know how sometimes a big change happens and it should feel more strange, but it... isn’t? Like, I don’t want to diminish how big of a thing this is, but it also kind of just feels... comfortable enough that it doesn’t shake up my life a whole lot. There are things to adjust to, but they’re not like SUPER HARD OMG adjustments or anything, in fact they’re probably pretty helpful to my growth as a person, so I’m cool with them.

What is one talent you wish you had? What about one you are working on? >> Hmm. I’m not sure. I like the skills I have. :3 I guess I’m constantly working on my gaming skills, and I tend to think that I’m not improving but if you look back over the past 6 or so years, I have definitely improved. I can’t even deny that to myself. So that’s good!

What makes you feel “not good enough”? >> Thinking about employment.

What was the last thing you quit? >> I didn’t quit drinking, but I quit drinking the way I was drinking. 

What is one drug you want to try? With who/where? >> Shrooms, but I’m also... well, you know, after all the going-todash and whatnot, I’m understandably anxious about it. But I’d like to try it with a friend who is experienced with them and will do them with me, and a friend who will be sober and kinda just looking out for us (me especially lmao). That would be the ideal situation.

Has any movie totally freaked you out? What’s the craziest movie you’ve ever watched? >> District 9 did, but that was because I had been up for 4 days straight and my understanding of reality was starting to shit itself anyway. The craziest movie I’ve seen is probably Antichrist, or A Serbian Film, for two different reasons. The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus was also pretty wild, and so was Mirrormask. And let’s not discount Sunshine...

What is something you don’t like to do alone? >> Drugs.

What about something you only like to do alone (like, something besides the expected things)? >> I’m not sure. It’s really just the expected things. Most things I don’t like to do with just anyone, but that doesn’t mean I only want to do them by myself, either.

What is something you find difficult that many others do not? >> Employment.

When was the last time you smiled and why? >> I don’t remember. I don’t really notice when I do, all the time.

Do you like to help people? How about animals? Which would you rather help, if it applies? >> I guess so, yeah. Like, it’s not a huge impulse of mine or anything, but generally I’d prefer to be helpful than to be apathetic or hurtful. Although sometimes those other two things happen too, since I’m... a whole person and not just an archetype of one. Anyway, I’m probably biased towards humans, because... I am one, I guess. I don’t know. I like animals and I respect them, but what little affective empathy I have is reserved for people. It’s not an infinite resource, unfortunately. 

What was the last thing you wasted? >> I don’t remember. Probably water, like running the faucet or something.

What was your last purchase?  >> The two Zeal & Ardor albums off Amazon!

As an adult, what is the most & least you’ve weighed? >> 145, I’d say, and 110.

Who was the last person to leave your life and what caused this to happen, if anything? >> Sigma. It’s... well, it really is a long story, and I’m guessing it’ll get told in pieces over the course of survey-taking, but telling it in one shot is nigh impossible. There’s a lot of fucking shit to unpack.

What was the last compliment you recieved? Insult? >> The last compliment... probably from Hallie, in a survey, haha. I don’t remember the last insult.

What did you order at the last restaurant you went to? >> The last place I ordered food at was Wendy’s and I got a chicken sandwich and fries.

When you are sad/etc, what kinds of things help you feel less shitty? >> Funny/cute TV shows, music, stuffed animals (stim therapy in general, like wrapping up in a blanket or finding a way to pressure-stim or doing repetitive motion), people doing silly shit or memes (that depends, though, sometimes it doesn’t get through to me but sometimes it does!), sitting outside on a sunny quiet day for a little bit, watching animals doing animal things, eating a good food (especially if someone brought it for me).

What’s the latest you’ve stayed up this past week? Latest you slept in? >> I haven’t stayed up late at all! I’ve been going to bed at midnight and it’s been working pretty well so far. The latest I’ve slept was to about 10a but that was also because I got woken up in the middle of my sleep so my REM cycle and shit was all thrown off.

Is there anything you feel like you have to do every single day or its not complete? >> Hmm... a survey ;D lmao I don’t know

What was the last chore you did? >> I don’t remember.

What is causing the most stress/anxiety in your life right now? Will this situation end/resolve soon? >> Nothing specific, just like... feelings of personal doom and stuff like that, nothing logical, just... todash leftovers, I guess. I hope it resolves soon, but I’m afraid I might just have to... live like this. :T I wonder if there’s a like... chill anti-anxiety med I can take sometimes or something.

When you think about outer space, what thoughts/feelings come to mind? >> !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What is the most immature thing you do (or laugh at)? >> I laugh at stupid sex jokes all the time. Like, the stupider the better. “hurr hurr bone” that sort of thing.

Have you ever intentionally hurt someone? >> Yeah. I’m a sadist and I’ve known at least one masochist, soooo.... ;p But if you mean like.... in a mean nonconsensual way, maybe? I don’t remember any specific times, but that doesn’t mean I haven’t ever.

What was the last lie you told? Did anyone notice? Did you feel bad? >> I don’t remember. I don’t really have much use for lies. 

When was the last time you went to the doctor? >> February or so.

Have you ever been in therapy? If so, what did you think of the experiences? >> Yes, and now I’ve got all this NEW trauma to unpack! THANKS, THERAPY!!!

What kinds of clothing do you like to wear? >> Oh, a bunch. I just don’t feel like... comfortable in everything, you know? Like even stuff I like! I like it on other people, or I like it in the store, but when I put it on it’s just Wrong. I’m either the wrong height or the wrong weight or my features don’t fit the look or I’m too ungainly in it or... I don’t know. Meh.

What is something you like that no one else you know likes too? >> I mean, I know a lot of people (online lol), so... yeah, I don’t think there’s anything like this.

What is something you don’t like that everyone seems to like? >> Napoleon Dynamite. I just didn’t like it, but it’s not like... a big deal or anything. Sometimes you just don’t like things. I just think it’s funny that I can’t think of anyone else who doesn’t like it.

Do you judge other people based on the foods they eat? >> Nah. Life is short, brah. Eat up (or don’t? hehe).

Do you follow a particular diet/meal-plan/ethic? >> No, I think the closest thing to a “diet” that I’d like to follow is the Mediterranean diet, but that’s because I love Mediterranean food and the whole food culture and everything. It’s really just about what makes me feel good to eat, what I enjoy seeing on a plate, what just speaks to me, and that’s it.

Are you involved in politics or do you tend to avoid them? Is there a reason for this? >> I tend to avoid them, because I don’t know shit about shit and while I care about specific things (like, I think I should be able to live without facing violence because of some aspect of my identity, yanno), I don’t.... I don’t really have enough rage to like... be an activist or anything. I support people who are fighting for these things! I just... it’s not my thing. And actual politics, like who’s in government? I just assume they’re all corrupt -- not because they’re bad people, but because they’re caught in this sticky web of a system where you’re forced to be ruthless and conniving and two-faced and like... after a while it becomes normal for you. I would hate to be a politician, because no matter how you start out, you either end up dying or living long enough to see yourself become the villain. That’s just how it is. :c

What is a subject you tend to avoid with other people, for whatever reason? >> Religion. Because inevitably someone’s going to start talking about how all religion is bad, and then I’ll have to leave. (But like, my friends and SOs are fine! I actually love talking about religion with people that are into it the way I am, like it’s a big special interest of mine and I am so excited when I run into people who enjoy talking about religion and culture and mythology and how important it all is to being human. I even like talking to people who have become disillusioned with organised religion and have ideas about how they’d like it to be, or even just people who have the same religious traumas I have and are trying to cope. But like... well, you know. Some People, lmao. Can’t talk about shit with them.)

When was the last time you changed your mind about something? What made things change? >> I don’t remember, but listen, I’m a Gemini, I change my mind all the time.

If there was a colony on Mars and you could actually feasibly go live there, would you want to? >> HELL YEAH WTF THAT’D BE DOPE AS SHIT but like can I have dual citizenship because I also love Earth and I wouldn’t want to leave it forever-forever :’(

What kinds of things make you homesick, or do you get homesick very much? >> Photos of Jackson Square or the Mississippi River, zydeco music, certain foods and smells, a bag of Zapp’s from Potbelly, Purple Haze beer, certain songs in my library... and yeah, I get homesick all the time. It’s a real problem.

What is the longest (or most involved) thing you’ve ever written? >> I wrote a story that’s still up on deviantART, called Once Thought Damned, and it’s basically really derivative of the kind of books I was into back then (paranormal erotic romance), but I also still really love those characters and the stories I was trying to tell in my fumbling “haven’t found my voice yet” sort of way, and I still think about them all the time. But yeah, I think it’s... at least 50k words long, and took me a few years to finish. So I’m proud of that.

If you could choose, would you be yourself or someone else? >> I don’t know what it’s like to be anyone but me, so how could I choose? Hell, selfhood is weird enough as it is without this question messin me up xD

What is something you really like - it could be anything - just gush! >> Oh, I would gush, but also I need to conserve my energy, this is a long survey! ;D

What about something you just can’t stand, a pet peeve, a resentment, etc? >> I really don’t like when people make fun of people for being excited about things. It doesn’t matter what the thing is. I just... I really don’t like that. You don’t have to like whatever it is, but just... don’t fucking piss on their parade, okay? No one asked for your downer ass opinion anyway.

What is the highest elevation you’ve been to? >> I don’t know! I guess it was probably someplace in Colorado, though.

What do you think of love? >> I think it’s fascinating. I think I don’t understand it most of the time, and that’s okay too. I think sometimes that love is the exact nature of the willful force that shapes reality. I think it’s something science should leave to the poets and mystics, although science never will, because that’s the nature of science, and that’s... actually okay, too.

What is one food you used to like but no longer do? >> Cosmic Brownies. I used to eat them a lot because they’re cheap and calorie-dense and when you’re on food stamps that’s pretty great. But... god. GOD. I could gag just thinking about them, now.

How would you describe your eating habits? >> I don’t know that I can! I try to eat as well as possible but I also try not to give into neurosis about it (that uh... orthorexia? is that what it’s called? that’s a hole that’s really fuckin easy to fall into). I try to enjoy what I eat. I try to go for variety and colour and fun arrangements and weird combinations. I try to show love for myself by eating things that make me feel good.

Do you prefer to live with others or by yourself? Why is this? >> I prefer to live with others because I’m crazy, and I spiral downwards really quickly by myself. I depend on others to keep me grounded, because I’m not exactly fully... In Reality(tm). I also have a lot of, uh... like, weird autistic issues like the idea of cleaning bathrooms making me want to scream and claw my skin off, so it’s nice to live with someone who doesn’t have those issues and is willing to do it for me. Also, I literally cannot afford to live by myself, so, you know.

What scares you about getting older? >> The idea of infirmity isn’t a fun one. I’ve been spoiled by having a healthy body all these years, the idea of the slow decline is therefore unnerving. But I think I can handle that, realistically, I just... fear(tm). Also, of course, I’m afraid I’ll never stop being anxious about death. I want to know that I’ll have enough time to come to terms with it.

What is one thing you find attractive? >> Vulnerability. (Which is probably at the root of a lot of my kinks, like desperation and shit.)

Who did you last tell a secret to? Or just sensitive info? >> lmao I told Hallie who the person was that I had a crush on but didn’t want to mention in the survey I’d taken. :p

What kind of blogs do you follow? >> Man I follow almost 900 blogs, I don’t even know where to begin. (I used to follow around 1200, so that’s actually a conservative number for me.)

Have you made any good friends online? How long have you known them? >> Sure, I suppose I could say that. I’ve had some mutuals for anywhere from 6 months to like 4+ years. And there’s Elle, who I’ve known since my VF days, so since 2009. Almost ten years!

What is something really weird/embarrassing that you’ve done? >> I tried to use one of those menstrual cup things once and then I couldn’t get it out and I had a meltdown in the bathroom and Sigma had to come take it out for me. That’s the first thing that came to mind, lmao. I fucking hate those things with a violent passion and I will never use one again.

What about something you’ve done that sounds too wild to believe? >> I had a one-night stand with Aur-elio Vol/taire. (I put the slash and dash in to keep his name out of searches, lmao.)

What does it mean to you to trust someone? >> I guess that I give them the tools to hurt me with the faith that they won’t use those tools in that way (not intentionally anyway -- so I also have the faith that if they do hurt me, it’s probably unintentional and I should at least give them a chance to explain themselves). Or something like that.

What was the last thing you drank? >> Water.

What’s the weather doing where you are? >> It’s cool and cloudy.

What was the last thing to go completely wrong? >> Oh man I tried to make this fuckin flapjack cup microwave thing last week sometime and I put water in it instead of milk by accident and it just came out so bad. (It says water OR milk but let me tell you, it means JUST MILK, anything else is GROSS)

What kinds of things do you like to talk about? >> I can’t think of too many things I don’t like to talk about. I just don’t like to talk about some things with just anyone.

What was the last thing someone made fun of you for? >> I don’t remember. Probably Sparrow making fun of me for being a thirsty binch.

Name a book or movie from childhood that holds a special place in your heart? >> The Phantom Tollbooth.

What are some of your favorite words/word meanings? >> My mind is starting to melt lmao I don’t want to think this hard

When was the last time you procrastinated something? >> I procrastinated vacuuming and then I just straight up forgot to do it at all.

What mood/attitude do you tend to have when taking surveys, or does it vary? >> Usually I’m just... chill, like I usually am.

Has another survey-taker ever bitched you out for one of your answers?  >> Probably, in the past when the survey-taking crowd was a little more incestuous.

Have you ever bitched anyone out for theirs? >> No, that’s just rude.

How did you celebrate the most recent holiday? >> I don’t celebrate Memorial Day lmao fuck that it was MY BIRTHDAY and THAT’S IT

How does your birthday make you feel? >> Pretty good, usually.

How would you describe your relationship with your parents? Has it always been this way? >> I never knew my mother (she tried to visit a few times but she didn’t seem to want to know who I was, really, and I’m pretty sure at least one of those visits was just a ploy to try to get back in bed with my dad or something), and my relationship with my father has been tempestuous and not entirely great at times because he was not very compassionate and I was a seething bundle of traumas and emotional neglect but I still love and appreciate him. Unfortunately I’ve lost contact with him and I don’t know how to regain it, so that’s that, I guess.

What is the longest amount of time you’ve spent alone (or mostly alone, since this is the age of the internet and all, hah)? >> I’m not sure. I mean, I lived alone for almost a year (2009) with minimal outside contact and that was... hell... but like... normally I’m never alone for that long.

What was the last thing you asked for help with?  >> I don’t remember. But I finished this survey! It was very good. c:

[findafriend]

Hallie / 15 / USA

Oh hi…didn’t see you there. My name’s Hallie (pronounced ha-lee but like if you pronounce it hey-lee I’ll respond). I’m an Aquarius, I’m 15, I am from ye old USA, I enjoy long walks on the beach, and munchkin cats (seriously look them up), and I have a messed up mind. I’m a lonely soul, and I literally have had no luck with friends. None..Nada..Zilch. Everyone I talk to just stops talking to me, which I don’t get for I think I am a joy to talk to lol. I might get a little annoying and if that happens please tell me because I will gladly shut up. I’ll literally be friends with anybody who falls into the following:

I would like for your age to be 13-17 (although if you are not a 45 year old pedophile or a creep I’ll be your fren), Gender, Sexuality, Race, and literally anything else do not matter, and you have to like mac and cheese..but that’s a given. 

Anywho this has gotten long and nobody is probably going to read this but ya know…here are my interests:

Reading, Writing, Drawing, Dancing around my room at 4 in the morning, Emo/Alternative/“Edgy” bands, Sarcasm, Dad jokes, Munchkin cats (as stated above), Youtube, Harry Potter (Ravenclaw), Once Upon A Time, Supernatural, A Series Of Unfortunate Events, Sushi, Dr Pepper, Makeup, SFX, etc…

If you would like to know more, just call me, beep me, if you want to reach me (I’ll stop) Here below is my Tumblr and yeee please love me. k love you bye

Tumblr: @theaestheticpessimist

[thrillsxchills]

❝ All because I was different. Because I had a mind of my own. ❞

1. Describe the character’s height and build. Is he heavyset, thin, short, rangy?

He’s 6′4, pretty slender and thin especially for his height.

2. How old is he?

He’s twenty, soon to be twenty-one.

3. Describe his posture. Does he/she carry himself well or does he/she slouch?  

Orion slouches sometimes without realizing it, but most of the time he’s pretty tense in stance.

4. How is his health? Is he fit or out of shape? Any illnesses or conditions? Any physical disabilities?

He’s pretty healthy physical wise, although he smokes so much that could a problem later down the road. Mentally he’s not well, depression and such.

5. How does he move? Is he clumsy, graceful, tense, fluid?

He’s always tense around people, even people he get’s along with. It takes a certain person to make Orion be relaxed around.

6. How attractive is this character physically? How does he perceive himself in the mirror?

I find Orion quite attractive, Orion himself just sees another face in the mirror. He doesn’t hate his appearance but he doesn’t love it either. He’s middle-ground about pretty much about everything.

7. Describe his complexion. Dark, light, clear, scarred?

Orion is extremely pale, due that he doesn’t go outside much unless its at night. (no,hes not a vampire i swear.) His face is mostly clear, but he can get dry patches from time to time.

8. Describe his hair: color, texture, style.

His hair color is dirty blonde/but more on the darker side. He usually keeps the sides jelled back, or most of the time he does nothing with it since its short but thick.

9. What color are his/her eyes?

Greenish-blue.

10. Does the character have any other noteworthy features?

his jawline probably.

11. What are his/her chief tension centers?

his shoulders, that’s where he holds himself up the most.

12. What is the character’s wardrobe like? Casual, dressy, utilitarian? Bright colors, pastels, neutrals? Is it varied, or does he/she have six of the same suit?

oh lord, mostly all dark. Long trench coat everyday even though when its hot. A black or navy blue v-neck and dark jeans, and cut off boots.

13. Do his/her clothes fit well? Does he/she seem comfortable in them?

Well, i feel sometimes orions clothes look apart of him lmao.

14. Does he/she dress the same on the job as he/she does in his free time? If not, what are the differences?

Oh yeah, he’s always dressed the same unless going to bed. To bed its sweats and sometimes no shirt.

15. You knew it was coming: Boxers, briefs or commando?

Boxers

1. What does this character’s voice sound like? High-pitched, deep, hoarse?

Middle ground? it’s low and pretty smooth.

2. How does he/she normally speak? Loud, soft, fast, evenly? Does he/she talk easily, or does he/she hesitate?.

i’d say evenly and low-toned, he only hesitates if its someone he doesn’t care for.

3. Does the character have a distinct accent or dialect? Any individual quirks of pronunciation? Any, like, you know, verbal tics?

not really, other than he can get quiet and stare

4. What language/s does he/she speak, and with how much fluency?

only English my friend

5. Does he/she switch languages or dialects in certain situations?

nope

6. Is he/she a good impromptu speaker, or does he/she have to think about his words?

Orion is blunt, in rare occurrences with certain people he’ll think about what hes going to say other than that no.

7. Is he/she eloquent or inarticulate? Under what circumstances might this change?

eloquently even when orion cusses he sounds regal. very rrely he is flustered or stumbling over words.

Mental and Emotional

1. How intelligent is this character? Is he/she book-smart or street-smart?

Both, Orion’s parents are quite wealthy so he was always surrounded by books and knowledge. He mostly read sicne he was alone all the time when he was younger. and street smarts in the sense that when he used to sneak out he was always trespassing and was in a couple of life-or-death situations.

2. Does he/she think on his feet, or does he/she need time to deliberate?

on his feet, most def.

3. Describe the character’s thought process. Is he/she more logical, or more intuitive? Idealistic or practical?

practical, with a side of insane. Orion doesn’t believe in things he cannot deem realistic.

4. What kind of education has the character had?

High school education, and is now a junior at walt uni.

5. What are his/her areas of expertise? What, if anything, is he/she interested in learning more about?

History, the art of war and battle. (how ironic) he has a guilty pleasure for astronomy, he’d never admit that though.

6. Is he/she an introvert or an extrovert?

oh lord and introvert to the extreme.

7. Describe the character’s temperament. Is he/she even-tempered or does he/she have mood swings? Cheerful or melancholy? Laid-back or driven?

Hot headed af, but when he’s around close friends he’s laid back but still has a lack of expression most times.

8. How does he/she respond to new people or situations? Is he/she suspicious, relaxed, timid, enthusiastic?

relaxed, but if someone says the wrong thing that could change to annoyance in a quick second.

9. Is he/she more likely to act, or to react?

both.

10. Which is his/her default: fight or flight?

fight, fight, fight!

11. Describe the character’s sense of humor. Does he/she appreciate jokes? Puns? Gallows humor? Bathroom humor? Pranks?

Oh yes, self-deprecating humor and dark humor.

12. Does the character have any diagnosable mental disorders? If yes, how does he/she deal with them?

 depression, and the voices. Orion doesn’t deal with them the best way, he usually drinks to make  the feelings he has go away.

13. What moments in this character’s life have defined him/her as a person?

when he was child and growing up with his verbally/physically abusive father., and the person he loved which was his mother left. And the best friend he did had left him, so Orion grew independent and took his anger and hate on other people.

14. What does he/she fear?

Being like ‘this’ forever. Which to Orion being insane. He wants to be normal, but he doesn’t think that will ever happen.

15. What are his/her hopes or aspirations?

That one day he won’t have to worry about whats going on his head, or battle his mental illness.

16. What is something he/she doesn’t want anyone to find out about him/her?

That he has a heart.

Relationships

1. Describe this character’s relationship with his/her parents.

With his dad- non-existent and hateful, Orion wants nothing to do with his father. With his mom- sadness and anger because she left, but he does love her still.

2. Does the character have any siblings? What is/was their relationship like?

No, only recently he gained a step-sibling which is Sally. Because they found out her father and his mother are together. Orion had tormented Sally a lot through the years, only recently they have gotten along.

3. Are there other blood relatives to whom he/she is close? Are there ones he/she can’t stand?

Close to his mom, hates his dad.

4. Are there other, unrelated people whom he/she considers part of his family? What are his/her relationships with them?

Sally, his now step-sibling. And Hallie whom he’s grown really connected too. Peter who is Orions best friend and understands him to a T.

5. Who is/was the character’s best friend? How did they meet?

uhm PETER PAN. When Peter had first arrived to Walt, they stumbled into each other and shared their love for trouble together. 

6. Does he/she have other close friends?

Hallie, Orion can be his complete real self around her, and he can’t figure out why,

7. Does he/she make friends easily, or does he/she have trouble getting along with people?

oh no, orion is ass. its hard for him to make friends, he’s picky.

8. Which does he/she consider more important: family or friends?

at this point in his life, friends.

9. Is the character single, married, divorced, widowed? Has he/she been married more than once?

single

10. Is he/she currently in a romantic relationship with someone other than a spouse?

no

11. Who was his/her first crush? Who is his/her latest?

Hallie. (shh he doesn’t know it yet)

12. What does he/she look for in a romantic partner?

Someone whose demons can play with his.

13. Does the character have children? Grandchildren? If yes, how does he/she relate to them? If no, does he/she want any?

nope

14. Does he/she have any rivals or enemies?

do you mean everyone? lol. Yes. Logan, Jack, anyone really.

15. What is the character’s sexual orientation? Where does he/she fall on the Kinsey scale?

straight

16. How does he/she feel about sex? How important is it to him/her?

sex is sex, it’s not really important to Orion

17. What are his/her turn-ons? Turn-offs? Weird bedroom habits?

Dude, i don’t know. Knowing Orion i’d rather not know lmao.

Beliefs

1. Do you know your character’s astrological (zodiac of choice) sign? How well does he/she fit type?

i think orion is scorpio af. mostly because scorpios are very loyal until you fuck them over

2. Is this character religious, spiritual, both, or neither? How important are these elements in his/her life?

he’s neither, not very.

3. Does this character have a personal code of morals or ethics? If so, how did that begin? What would it take to compromise it?

hahah no.

4. How does he/she regard beliefs that differ from his? Is he/she tolerant, intolerant, curious, indifferent?

indifferent.

5. What prejudices does he/she hold? Are they irrational or does he/she have a good reason for them?

nothing really, if he doesn’t like someone he just doesn’t like them.

Daily Life

1. What is the character’s financial situation? Is he/she rich, poor, comfortable, in debt?

His family is swimming in money.

2. What is his/her social status? Has this changed over time, and if so, how has the change affected him/her?

low, since hes an extreme introvert., it’s never changed. he didn’t have friends back them and he barely has some in present time.

3. Where does he/she live? House, apartment, trailer? Is his/her home his/her castle or just a place to crash? What condition is it in? Does he/she share it with others?

in his assigned dorm at walt. and yes he shares it with a new roommate that he doesn’t care for. he misses rooming with peter.

4. Besides the basic necessities, what does he/she spend his/her money on?

cartons of cigarettes, alcohol, and books.

5. What does he/she do for a living? Is he/she good at it? Does he/she enjoy it, or would he/she rather be doing something else?

orion doesn’t have a job.

6. What are his/her interests or hobbies? How does he/she spend his/her free time?

is smoking a hobby? lol, he reads a lot, but really he just likes peace and quiet, he likes walks in the the night time when people aren’t around

7. What are his/her eating habits? Does he/she skip meals, eat out, drink alcohol, avoid certain foods?

sometimes orion forgets to eat, not because hes starving himself but he literally forgets because he rarely gets hungry. but most of the times its chips are some type of fast food.

Associations

Which of the following do you associate with the character, or which is his/her favorite:

1. Color?   Black, Red 2. Smell?  a musky cologne 3. Time of day? Darkest of nights 4. Season? winter 5. Book? War And Peace 6. Music? Classic Rock, indie 7. Place? Hallow Falls 8. Substance? Smoking 9. Plant?  Venus Fly trap 10. Animal? Wolf

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Dope (Lauren/You) — Chapter 4: Inevitable

A/N: Very minor thing, but just remember Y/F/A means your favourite animal. Also if you’re reading this on tumblr a certain part may not make as much sense if the image doesn’t upload.

(Your POV)

My thoughts were screaming one thing solely: I needed to leave.

And that’s exactly what I did, I got in my car and kept driving. Not a single moment was spent hesitating or looking back. When I arrived home, my parents heard the door shut and a plain “I’m back” sufficed. I didn’t want them seeing me in this state, it would only make me cry ten times harder. Damp clothing and puffy eyes would be difficult to explain.

I didn’t have the energy to discuss tonight’s events.

I went through what seemed like a routine, one that would hopefully bring some sort of comfort. My brain ordered me around in steps. Go upstairs. Grab some dry clothing. Take a shower. Dry my hair. And last but not least, fall asleep.

I had the whole weekend to let my emotions boil back down, and to block out this embarrassing night. Compared to what’s happened to me before, this was nothing; in fact, it was trivial. But don’t get me wrong, that doesn’t mean I won’t hold a grudge.

It wouldn’t make much of a difference avoiding Lauren, it’s not like we talk on a regular basis. And strangely, I was grateful for that fact. I used to find myself wanting to start up a chat with her, yet now, I’d rather pretend we never talked.

Why did my school experience seem like a set of strategy plans? It was supposed to be a new beginning here. I was stupid for thinking like that. Not every person is genuine, and not everything is trouble free. I had learnt that quite a while back, but sometimes it slips my mind.

My bed was warmer than usual tonight, and it became the only good constant I had. My back moulded into the mattress while I snuggled my toy Y/F/A tightly. Quickly, my eyelids became heavy and began to flutter more frequently.  Tiredness tugged at my body as it lulled me into a steady breathing pattern. The comforting feeling of sleep had took over… I was exhausted.

* * *

*3 days later*

It was Monday, and I really felt like the weekend helped me feel better. I just needed a little while to get over it, that’s all. What worried me now was avoiding Lauren and praying she wouldn’t bring it up again. If I really have to, I won’t say a word to her. That would save the awkwardness for both of us.

I only had math class once today, which shouldn’t be too hard to endure. I slumped down in my seat near the back, flopping further into it like I usually do. Lauren wasn’t here yet, I realised. It wasn’t unusual though, she rarely arrived on time.

Five minutes later, she strolled through the doors as casually as ever. Today Lauren was sporting a light, rose pink hoodie, black ripped jeans, and dark combat boots to match. The hoodie was oversized, yet she still looked adorable in it.

Her eyes momentarily connected with my Y/E/C orbs when she made her way over to her seat. I looked away immediately, although I could have sworn I saw her smile at me in the corner of my eye. Regardless, it wasn’t returned.

My earphones were plugged in a few moments later, and the sound levels were put higher than my normal preference. It made me flinch a little, but I decided to keep them that way. I purposefully became accustomed to the high sounds; it served as a relaxation method as well as earplugs. Allowing the music occupy my thoughts, I started to disassociate from my environment.

For majority of the lesson I didn’t talk and only ever looked Lauren’s way a few times. Each time I glanced over she had an unreadable expression on her face, and her gaze was constantly locked on the desk. Maybe she had read my body language and realised I didn’t want to talk. Good. Something is finally going my way.

At last, the lesson was over and I could leave. With my bag in hand, I rose from my seat and advanced out the door. I could tell Lauren was close behind from her signature perfume, which smelled like gardenia, and I clenched my jaw. Why was I suddenly so nervous? I did nothing wrong. Her perfume became stronger, and I heard footsteps nearing me through the hallway.

“Y/N, can we talk?” she asked, trying to keep up with my pace.

I continued to look forward and sped up my tempo, not saying a word. If I walked any faster, it could be mistaken for jogging. She sighed audibly when I blatantly ignored her, and I made my way to lunch. After some time, Lauren gave up and slowed down, leaving her behind me.

I made my way to a lunch table that included three familiar faces. For two weeks I had been sitting at the same bench with a few people from English; they all seemed relatively nice and funny.

We weren’t best friends (after only a month, who would be?) but we all sat together in lesson. Since I joined this school at the start of the school year, it meant that the classes were all jumbled around. It was nice not feeling completely new.

Hallie, Evelyn and Lyla acknowledged me with various nods and smiles as I slid into a chair alongside the long haired brunette.

“Sup, loser,” Evelyn chimed, sticking her tongue out at me.

“Not much, weirdo,” I quipped back.

Lyla laughed along at our banter whilst she unscrewed her water bottle, and Hallie continued eating her food.

“How was that party on Friday?” the blonde questioned curiously.

“It was… eh.”

“Just eh? That bad, huh? Surely the cute guys would have made it more enjoyable,” the short haired girl said.

Yeah, there were cute guys, but I didn’t find myself wanting to spark a conversation with many of them. I only wanted to talk to Lauren at that party, she used to make me feel relaxed.

“I didn’t stay that long. It would have been better if you guys came, though,” I told them honestly.

“Well, we would have, trust me. But this one over here,” Lyla rolled her head slowly in Hallie’s direction, “wanted to have a horror movie marathon.”

Hallie looked up at her with a fry in her mouth and sent her a wide grin.

“Yeah, she basically forced us. But hey! You survived,” Evelyn joked. But in a way, she was right.

Hallie still hadn’t said a word which made her friend throw a scrunched up napkin her way, hitting her on the forehead.

“What was that for!” she exclaimed, throwing her hands up.

“Woah, she actually speaks,” Evelyn announced over dramatically, followed by a fake gasp from Lyla.

“Leave me alone,” Hallie pouted, “I forgot to eat breakfast, and these fries are more important than you hoes.”

“Oh my bad, I forgot she turns into a mime when she hasn’t eaten,” the blonde began. “Food does crazy stuff to her, it’s been the same since middle school.”

I chuckled loudly at their interactions, and spent the rest of lunch discussing the party and what they got up to — except for the parts I wanted to leave out. Of course, they teased me about Luke, but I didn’t take it to heart. It wasn’t him who I was interested in.

I had only known them for a month, yet these three girls felt like the closest things I had to friends here. Each week that passed seemed like a month I had known them; there was no doubt we had clicked instantly.

Usually Monday lessons are a drag, but having English last made it pleasant. After lunch had ended, we made our way to lesson and took our seats next to each other. Evelyn was at my right side with the two other girls further down, and the seat to my left was empty.

Mrs. Banks greeted the students and was about to register everyone, but then another teacher knocked at the door.

“Sorry to interrupt. Can you step outside for a second?” the other teacher queried.

“Of course. Everybody, please get out your books while I’m outside. I’ll be back soon,” our teacher announced, dismissing herself promptly.

Shortly after she left, I felt my phone vibrate and whipped it out. I opened the group-chat notification to see Hallie sending sneaky mugshots, ones she had captured recently of Lyla. We all glanced over at each other and laughed whilst the blonde attempted to shield her face from Hallie.

Mrs. Banks walked back in as I tried hiding my phone under my desk, but I was still looking at the group-chat messages. Without looking up, I giggled to myself lightly.

“Everyone, we have a student who has changed to this class. Please make Lauren feel welcomed,” our teacher spoke up, directing her to the seat to my left.

My smile dropped instantaneously when I gazed up. Her intense, verdant eyes were already locked with mine, and she subtlety winked at me with a smirk on her face. You’ve got to be kidding me.

A/N: Hi again, so I think I’m finally getting the grasp of writing the amount I want. My Wattpad

Also, I changed the cover slightly but tried keeping it similar. Hopefully you like it better, idk. And I may or may not have added the picture of Lyla, Hallie, and Evelyn because I was too lazy to describe them… You’ll never know. (It’s bc I’m hecka lazy lol)

Thanks for reading if you did, love you. If you didn’t like this chapter then I’ll try make the next one better.

‘Til next time, stay well lovelies ❤️