#this is a joke but i'm also accepting no constructive criticism at this time

[elliethejellie]

There Are Two Types of Dancers

A oneshot with both Fool and Sol from the renowned @venomous-qwille story - Ghost in the Machine

I've been working on this for so much longer than I expected to pfff- I just wanted it to be perfect for Qwille and all the readers of GITM! A bar has been set with that story and I wanted to at least reach it hahah-

Fool and Sol have become my personal favorites so far (although I'm sure it'll change as time goes on and I learn more about the others). Sol was rather easy to write in my opinion. But my lordy - Fool was a challenge! A fun one, at that, but still! I'm glad I got to challenge my writing and receive some amazing constructive criticism from others as I went!

Also - this is entirely self-indulgent hahah! I just love dancing scenes and I'm too impatient to wait for the possibility of such a scene happening in the story! So here you go, and I hope this lives up to your standards Qwille!!!

Read it on AO3 Instead -> Here

Or read the oneshot under the cut <3 Enjoy!!

*****

Fool definitely fascinated you.

His odd ramblings that always either ended in your confusion or laughter were somewhat... endearing.

Something told you that he didn't spend as much time with the others as he did with you. He seemed to make it a point to bring attention to his loneliness in jest when you would show up to the storage shed looking for different things. He would pursue a conversation with you every time without fail - whether with friendly banter or mocking jests or cheeky jokes all depended on the day. But each instance would still somehow end with you staying longer than you originally intended.

This time had been no different. You had allowed him to convince you to linger and play a game or two of mahjong (although you were pretty sure he only offered the particular game because he knew it had become your favorite). He used the excuse of not letting you walk back the short distance to the house in the rain - which you didn't wholly disagree with. Without your jacket back from Sol (or a replacement, at this point), you really didn't want to deal with the chilling water soaking through your clothes again. So you allowed him to entertain you with a few rounds.

Now you rested within the nest of pillows that filled the resin chariot as light thunder rumbled overhead - watching curiously as Fool shuffled a deck of cards with practiced precision. He was humming a tune you didn't recognize - but it filled you with memories of running around with friends and stuffing your mouth full of pink fluff that melted when it touched your tongue. You made a mental note to ask him about it later, given that you didn't want to interrupt him.

"Hasn't anyone told you that staring is rude, Sweetling?" he piped up suddenly, setting the cards up for a game of solitaire. You scoffed.

"I get told by Sol practically every day." The bot's eyes upturned into crescents, amusement sparkling in the dim lighting.

"My, my, then we'll have to fix that staring problem of yours," he fired back. " It can come across as terribly impolite. Although you are rather lucky I am so gracious as to accept your presence as a most humble apology." You mocked a scoff, fighting the grin that threatened to pull at the corners of your mouth.

"I think the circumstances of my arrangements should allow me some breathing room in that regard."

Fool didn't miss a beat with his response. "Oh, so you find me alluring enough to stare~?"

"Don't flatter yourself. The others are just as interesting as you."

The bot placed a hand to his chest as he did every time you managed to get in a silly insult. "Why must you always be so very cruel," he cried, using his other hand to dramatically scatter the cards on the table as he fell backwards to the floor. You couldn't help the giggle that fell from your lips.

"Oh no, have I broken you finally?"

He lifted his head slightly to peer at you over the edge of the low table. "Finally?" he repeated, sounding somewhat discouraged. "Is that really your harrowing intention? To break me down with your beautiful voice spewing malicious language until I am nothing more but a hunk of wires and metal? All so you can woefully put me back together and claim me as your own charming creation?"

"Who knows?" you asked mysteriously. He dropped his head back down.

"Hm... Would this be the right time to inform you that I've been keeping track of your insults to compliments ratio? I think it tells quite a lot about your character."

"Oh really?" You didn't need to be sarcastic - you were genuinely interested. "And what conclusion have you come to about my 'character'?"

He sprung up suddenly - startling you a bit further into the nest of pillows. He grabbed at his baton - spinning it around a few times before settling on placing the moon side in front of his face. "You're a terrible friend. Naughty. Rude."

"Surprising." You rolled your eyes and resettled yourself on the edge of the chariot, looking down at the mess he'd created with the cards. "How ever shall I make it up to you?"

There was a pause from the jester bot as he dropped the baton from his face and smiled. Mischief sparkled in his expression. "Oh, I thought you'd never grace me with such a question, Sweetling."

Before you had the opportunity to object, you were being lifted from your comfortable resting place to stand in the clear area in the center of the shed (which wasn't very much space, honestly). "Fool," you said, irritation clinging to the edge of your voice as you tried to regain your balance.

"Hm?" he hummed, listing his head to the side in an attempt to feign innocence. "Is something the matter? You're wearing quite the nasty scowl upon that pretty little face of yours." You placed your hands on your hips.

"Fool."

"Have I told you just how much I adore hearing my name from your beautiful lips, Sweetling?" He snatched up one of your hands and brought it to his mouth, ignoring your tone. He bowed his head down and spread his free arm out to the side. "Dance with me."

Seriously?

"I don't know how to dance."

He lifted his faceplate enough to peer at you from the tops of his eyes. "Ah, and neither do I," he whispered, before standing back to his full height and emitting that musical laughter you had come to adore. He tilted his head down and gave you a cheeky smile. "But you, dearest, had so graciously promised to make it up to me~"

"I didn't promise you any- Ah!"

Fool swept you away through the door of the shed before you could protest. Before you knew it, you were standing in the backyard as light rain poured down on the two of you.

"I thought you didn't want me to walk in the rain?" you questioned, quirking an eyebrow up at the bot - already feeling the chill of the water on your back.

"Correct!" he blurted, tugging you towards him with the hand that still held yours. You crashed into his chest embarrassingly. "But I never said anything in relation to dancing in the rain," he corrected, spinning around in a circle with you pinned to his body.

"Fool! Squishy human, remember?! Easily breakable!" you exclaimed. Fool released you immediately - drawing his hands away like a child discovering a hot stove for the first time. You didn't give it much thought, though. You were too busy trying to catch your breath.

"You need to work on your breathing, Sweetling. Hyperventilating in such conditions can give you a nasty bout of dizziness," he tutted, snatching up one of your hands again. He looked at you expectantly.

"You're not going to let me go back inside until I dance with you, huh?" you questioned once you stopped heaving. His smile stretched wider as he shook his head. It must've been contagious, because you chuckled and let a soft smile lift the corners of your mouth. "Fine. But how do you expect me to dance if we have no music?"

The bot tugged you again - gentler this time. You let him spin you around and dip you down so you were leaning back in his arms, looking up into his monochromatic eyes. "Ah~ But we need no accompaniment when the sound of your voice is already music to my ears, Sweetling," he mused. Then he lifted you back up and grasped your waist. "Can't you hear it now?" he called up into the downpour. "I think my sweet is bound to sing again soon!"

A giggle fell from your lips as you watched him. He mocked a gasp and looked back down to you. "Why look at that, the music is back! Now we must dance before it disappears again!" 

Laughter overtook your body now as you joined him - dancing lively in the chilly rain. You almost didn't notice the water slowly drenching your clothes. Somehow, Fool was actually a pretty good dancer in your opinion. He kept you moving - swiftly pulling you closer to him and pushing you away with the same precision he had when shuffling cards. It was fun all the way up until you caught something out of the corner of your eye.

When you turned towards the house to investigate, you barely saw the curtains being tugged back to the closed state you were used to seeing them in. The only thing you could make out in the blur was a low, glowing blue. Maybe you hadn't seen anything. The rain was really starting to come down now, and it wasn't exactly like you were standing still.

Fool must have noticed it, too. He had slowed the speed in which the two of you were dancing and pulled you closer to him again - although this time, he brought your hands up to rest on his shoulders and then dragged his own down to rest upon your waist. "There are many a people I've danced with in my lifetime," he started. You swore he shot a smug glance towards the house, but it could have just been your imagination. You were starting to feel the chill of the rain through your wet clothes now that the two of you were merely swaying from side to side, and it was proving to be rather distracting. "But you, my Sweetling, have been the most pleasurable to enjoy such a spontaneous moment with."

A shiver forced its way through your body. "Uh, thanks?"

The bot stopped his swaying, took hold of one of your hands, and dragged you back towards the shed. "Now - if you'd so please - I believe we were just about to indulge in a marvelous game of Go Fish, were we not?"

You rolled your eyes to the best of your ability despite Fool not even looking your way. "I believe you were setting up a game of Solitaire, actually."

"Oh my, was I now?" he asked as the two of you reached the door to the shed. He held it open for you. "How very forgetful of me. I guess my distraction must have been a rather breathtaking one to indulge in for me to forget such an important detail."

You felt your cheeks warm despite your steadily dropping temperature. "I guess so."

*****

The silence between a stare can relay a million emotions even with no words exchanged.

One stared from the window. One stared from the rain.

*****

"I saw the two of you," Sol piped up, keeping his hands clasped behind his back as he watched you work from the other side of the workbench. Your brows knitted together as you tried to decipher what he could possibly be talking about. A moment of silence passed as you hoped he would elaborate, but he didn't.

And then you remembered - the pull of curtains in the kitchen window and the blur of the glowing, pale blue you saw darting behind them. At the time you thought it to be nothing but a funny reflection from the gloomy lighting, but now...

"Are you talking about when Fool and I were dancing in the rain?"

A sound reminiscent of a scoff emitted from the bot as he leaned away from the work table, dragging your gaze from your work to look at him.

"You call that dancing?" he asked, listing his head to the side ever so slightly. The faint sound of mechanical clicks and internal fans emitted from his body - making his tauntingly benign smile take on a sinister shadow. "The imbécile didn't stay in time at all, and you kept tripping over your feet." You shook your head and went back to your work.

"What, thinking you can do better?" you asked, offended by his words. He grew silent, but you thought nothing of it. You didn't have time to appease Sol's unusual sudden interest in your time spent with Fool. You had to finish this, and his questions were only going to distract you and cause some sort of mistake in your meticulous work. So you turned back to your task at hand.

That was, until your wrists were being seized by the bot. You opened your mouth to object, dropping the tools from your clutch as you were dragged away from the table and to the only free spot in the room. What the hell was with these bots and their lack of understanding in regards to personal space? "Sol, what the fu-"

"A basic waltz is simple," he interrupted. He placed one of your hands on his shoulder, grasped your other hand with his, and then rested his free hand on your waist. "It starts with a box step."

Your brain fumbled for words as he gently pushed you backwards. Why was he teaching you how to waltz? Dancing in the rain with Fool had been a spontaneous decision with a rather large lack of judgement - leaving you freezing and shivering by the time the two of you had gone back inside. There wasn't anything proper about said dance, and you especially hadn't anticipated anyone watching it take place to begin with.

"Are you even paying attention?" Sol's voice pulled you from your thoughts as you stepped on his foot.

"S-Sorry," you muttered. Why were you sorry? You didn't even ask for this!

"You're not stepping in the right direction," he said simply. "This is a 3/4 time signature dance, not 4/4. You have to focus."

He started over, pushing you backwards yet again. You let your right foot fall behind you while he pulled you gently to the left, your left foot following suit. When he pulled you forward, you were unsure of which foot to move first, so you hesitated. Ungracefully, you tripped forwards and almost smacked your head against his chest.

A light blush defiantly dusted your cheeks as he sighed. You started over yet again, and your competitive nature made itself known with the bubbling frustration in your stomach. If he said it was simple, why were you struggling so much?

After a few clumsy tries, you eventually understood the rhythm. Backwards, sideways, together. Forwards, sideways, together. Repeat. You were by no means perfectly in time with Sol's feet, but he silently continued nonetheless. The only thing that messed you up was when he brought the hand that rested on your waist up to your chin.

He tilted your face up until you looked into his eyes and were no longer staring at your feet. "Darling, it's considered rude not to look at your partner while dancing."

The same frustration from before returned as you tripped over your feet again. "But I can't know where your feet are going to be if I'm looking at you," you huffed, avoiding his gaze.

"Relax. And focus." His smile loomed eerily over you as you looked up into his eyes nervously. There had to be some kind of trick to this, right? He talked about it as if it were the easiest thing in the world, yet here you were, unable to focus on the movements of both your feet and his at the same time without looking.

You shoved your frustration back down and drew in a breath. Backwards, sideways, together. Forwards, sideways, together. Repeat.

It took longer to get your feet to move the way you were telling them to, but once you ran through the steps three full times without messing up, you smiled.

"I'm doing it!" you said excitedly, almost tripping up at the deviation from your concentration. Sol didn't praise you, though, instead informing you that there was a lot more to it than what you were just starting to get a grasp on.

"You have to turn counterclockwise with every half box," he said, pulling you to the left. You couldn't remember what step you were on, letting out an exasperated breath as you kicked his ankle.

"Gah- Why can't we just be happy that I learned the beginning and leave it at that?" you cried, attempting to pull your hands away from him. But his grip on you tightened enough to make you look up into his eyes fearfully for a moment. Memories of your first encounter with the bot danced across your vision - bringing the ghost of an ache to your wrist. He loosened his grip at your expression, but still refused to let you go.

"There are a lot of things I let slide when it comes to you. But this, I simply will not let go." You felt your mouth go dry.

"What do you mean you let a lot of things slide? You're not my parent," you retorted, narrowing your eyes to accompany an annoyed glare. There was a long moment of silence after that as he just stared at you - perfectly still as his unchanging smile sent a shiver down your spine.

But then he was pushing you backwards again, restarting the steps and ignoring your comment entirely. You gave up, simply redirecting your attention on the steps you had to implement a counterclockwise turn into. You figured that it would be easier to learn had there been music playing or even a metronome sounding off your beats, but you were too stubborn to ask.

It took an embarrassingly long time to relearn the steps with the turn. But once you started to understand the pattern, it seemed to click in your head where your feet were supposed to go and when. You held Sol's gaze a little more confidently after that - even smiling at one point at the realization that you had been going on fifteen or so rotations without tripping or hesitating once.

Sol's blue eyes seemed to flicker for a moment when you smiled, but it could've just been the dim lighting of the workshop playing tricks on you as the two of you spun around. You actually felt yourself starting to enjoy the simplicity of the dance - wondering if there was anything else you were supposed to add.

When Sol stopped and dropped his hands from you suddenly, you frowned. "Wha- Did I do something wrong?" you asked, brows furrowed in confusion. "I thought we were doing pretty well."

"I was doing well," he countered. "You were only following my lead."

You scoffed and settled your hands on your hips. "Why can't you just be nice for once and compliment me?"

There was that silence again. But Sol's gloved hand shifted as he clenched it into a loose fist, filling the quiet space with the soft sound of silk on silk. You swore you could see emotions shifting behind his pale eyes for a fleeting moment, but you couldn't decipher which ones. As the quiet stretched on longer, you felt your frustration dwindle - hesitant anxiousness replacing it.

"Nevermind," you mumbled, pushing past him to your work table. You took your seat again and felt the frustration boil your blood as you fought the blush that warmed your cheeks. There was no reason for it. Sol was just being the same bot he'd been since you showed up - cold and blunt and honest.

So why did his refusal to compliment you make you feel so... bad?

You picked the tools back up and tried to distract yourself from the sunbot as he approached the side of the work table again, hands clasped behind his back once more. You ignored him - continuing with your task. After a bit, you started to hum to yourself while you worked. The melody was familiar, though you couldn't recall where you'd heard it. But soon you became so engrossed in your work - paired with your curiosity as to the tune you were emitting - that you almost completely forgot that Sol was even in the room with you.

"Do you prefer his company over mine?"

The question startled you to silence. You held your gaze to the table, though, as his words echoed in your mind. Was he referring to your time spent with Fool? You honestly hadn't put much thought into comparing the bots with each other besides physical appearance. There just wasn't a need - they were all different to you. Far too different for comparisons.

Your lack of a response must've struck a nerve, because Sol placed both of his hands on the table and leaned forwards. As you looked up at his smiling face, goosebumps erupted down your arms as a small reminder of the lack of warmth in the workshop. A faint click, click sounded from him before he spoke. "You were humming the same dreadful tune he does."

So that's why you'd sworn you had heard the tune before.

"I don't think I can answer your question without eliciting some kind of negative response from you," you quipped, peering back down. "I'd prefer if you would just let me work."

Apparently, that was the wrong answer as well.

Sol rounded the table in an instant - spinning your stool around and pressing you back into the wood's edge as he loomed over you. A gloved finger hooked under your chin and forced your eyes to meet his - that same unnerving smile burning its image into your mind. "Oh mon dieu," he tutted, the disappointment in his tone making unease cloud your mind. It almost felt as if a slow finger dragged its way up your spine, eliciting more goosebumps across your body. "Ma poupette, what ever are we going to do about your poor manners?"

*****

A/N: I wanted to leave what happens next up to your imaginations~

But ahhhhh how did I do?! Is it good?? Or is it GOOD??? I'm literally shaking right now as I'm typing this because I'm so excited and nervous for everyone to read this rahhh-

But as always, likes, comments, kudos, and reblogs are VERY MUCH APPRECIATED!! Stay sweet, my lovelies~!

[eastgaysian]

succession character rpg classes thoughts:

fire emblem edition: kendall - obligatory lord roman - dancer tom - knight/potentially cavalier, wanted to be a pegasus knight shiv - dark mage connor - mage or potentially a priest? i lean mage though. stewy - wyvern rider for the cool factor greg - obligatory villager

dnd edition: joke/serious: everyone is a warlock whose patron is logan and/or capitalism. serious/joke: still a pretty unplayable party. kendall - i'm inclined towards some kind of cringe monk, but i could see the argument for cringe bard roman - gotta be a bard. college of eloquence probably connor - don't know why i'm so fixed on con as a caster but sorcerer imo, though i can see wizard. wild magic would be funny and fitting tom - either a bog-standard fighter or kind of a shitty paladin (oath of devotion probably) shiv and stewy - still both warlocks to me. greg -

there's a succession dragon age au also in my mind but that's a whole other thing. not accepting constructive criticism at this time

[helluva-hotel-ask-blog]

Welcome to Hell!

Here we have the entire Hazbin Hotel, and Helluva Boss crew available for questions!

-> VIDETTE CHARACTER BIO <-

-> MAIN BLOG <-

My main ^ I'm female, and go by "Cheeto" btw :D

Characters you can interact with! ��Stars✨ mean I'm confident in my ability to RP as them. (No star does not mean I am not good at playing as them. it just means they may be slightly out of character)

HAZBIN HOTEL

Charlie ✨

Vaggie ✨

Alastor ✨

Angel Dust ✨

Husk ✨

Niffty

Sir Pentious ✨

Cherri Bomb

Lucifer ✨

Vox ✨

Valentino (INTENTIONALLY OOC) ✨

Velvette ✨

Vidette (OC) ✨

Fat Nuggets

Emily

Sera ✨

(Sinner) Adam ✨ HELLUVA BOSS

Blitzo ✨

Moxxie ✨

Millie (may be OOC)

Loona

Stolas

Fizzaroli ✨

Asmodeous ✨

Beelzebub

Emberlynn ✨

DISCLAIMERS

-I am a Catholic, so if something comes across as answered weirdly, it's because I'm trying to answer the question without promoting something I don't believe is right. I would like to emphasize that THIS IS AN AU! Not everything is the same as the show, but it is as close to canon as possible, while still keeping things appropriate.

-I'm a busy bean! Sometimes I get burnt out or just lack the energy to answer asks, while other times I simply have zero idea how to answer them. I do see the asks! I just dunno what to do with em sometimes 🤣

-Sometimes I accidentally reblog something to this blog instead of my main. please ignore it when that happens. I'll fix it when I notice it.

-This blog INCLUDES Helluva Boss characters!

-This blog INCLUDES an OC, Vidette. You can also ask her questions!

-There will be no swearing or inappropriate jokes from the characters.

-While you may interact with Valentino, any interactions with him will be with a not-nearly-as-evil version, for my sanity and yours.

-Feel free to ask Angel about his work, but it will be heavily censored, or answered vaguely. I'm keeping the blog as clean as possible whilst still maintaining the plot of the show.

-I have not seen all of Helluva Boss, but I do know the plot, and have seen countless clips. I'm unfortunately not allowed to watch it anymore.

-Some characters may be slightly OOC. I'll take constructive criticism, but please don't be mean about it.

-I do not recommend interacting with this blog unless you are at least 15+. I can't stop you, but you really shouldn't be watching the show if you're any younger than that.

-I do have particular ships that are canon within this universe. I will accept asks about things like Huskerdust, Fizzmodeous, Stolitz, and Radioapple, but the ships will be platonic

RULES

-No NSFW asks. They will not be answered.

-Harassment or bullying of myself or others will result in you being blocked -Feel free to roleplay! I love doing it! -Use OCS if you want! Go for it! if your OC is related to any characters, we can roleplay that, too!

[nastynobrainer]

Hi hi! It looked like ur a new blog so hi(again-)! Anyways I was wondering if u could do UT!Sans, UF!Sans and HT!Sans x asexual Fem!Reader pls!(cuz well I’m asexual and female myself so-) Tyyy!! <3

Hello! <333

Also, just for your information, I will do asexual readers, and all other acceptable sexualities are welcomed. 🫶 (No z00phili@ or anything like that though, please..) Do tell me if you think I need improvement in particular areas, I'm ready and willing to accept constructive criticism.

Undertale!Sans:

-He immediately accepted you with no questions and oddly never brought it up again.

-He'll seem pretty knowledgeable about being asexual, however he does in fact research about it in the middle of the night when you are asleep.

-He may not make it obvious, but he's always conscious of how intimate he gets when it comes to touching you in any way.

Underfell!Sans:

-He accepted you with confusion when you first told him you were asexual. You had to explain to him in detail what being asexual meant.

-It took quite some time, but he eventually understood what being asexual is after doing additional research.

-Other than him making less—almost zero suggestive jokes, not much changed.

Horrortale!Sans:

-He was honestly...relieved. He doubted his ability to satisfy you and had been worried about it when you started dating him until now. (He was really worried about it to be honest..)

-He had a rough idea of what being an asexual is and left it at that.

-He always asked for your consent if he wanted to touch you in a way that seemed even the slightest bit sexual to him. (Includes holding your hand..)

[commsroom]

The post about Eiffel you just reblogged really reminded me of my impression of Eiffel about halfway through the live show i.e. he's someone who really can't stand to be alone with his thoughts. You know the way he either starts hallucinating people (mayday, bolero, brave new world) or talking to himself (am I alone now, live show) and the only time we really see him quiet and alone is right after shut up and listen. It's like if he stops talking for a second he'll have to be alone with his own thoughts and just be left to deal with reality on his own. In early seasons he gives off the impression of someone who is constantly trying to run away from something but the thing he's trying to escape is himself.

There's also something there about how he cannot see himself as a real person until someone explicitly confronts him about it. Until that point he can only process his experiences through fiction like turning his life into a story or through endless pop culture references. Idk if I'm making any sense here I'm sorry if this is too incoherent but to conclude thinking about Eiffel for too long makes me lose my mind.

Also I love your wolf 359 analysis! It's always a joy to read and I hope you have a nice week! 🌻🌻🌻

YES, exactly!! i think that's all completely true. eiffel so desperately wants to narrativize his life. he talks to himself constantly. he talks about himself in the third person. like you said, it's how he processes the world and communicates via pop culture references and how the only time he stops doing that is also in constructive criticism. how sarah shachat said for eiffel to tell his story in limbo, he'd first have to make it a story. how he uses third person for all of the events up until the crash itself, and then it becomes "i"... and then in ep 44 "i felt like i was those mistakes. like i was just those mistakes."... and how in mayday he subconsciously puts his ideas into the mouths of other people - anything that might help him is externalized, is someone else's help that he's just reacting to, but when it goes wrong, it's always his fault.

ep 6 "the only things you've done for the past 500 days have been sleep on the job, endanger our lives, and continually make stupid jokes just to hide the fact that you're -" / ep 48 "it's taken me this long to realize that running from everyone else means that you're alone with yourself" / ep 51 "or are you just trying to not be bored for half a second? to distract yourself from how much you can't stand yourself?" etc.

there's something about how eiffel views himself as a vessel for communication more than an active agent (and the way that's mirrored in the dear listeners taking his voice/form), and also... how he sees himself as uniquely bad, uniquely doomed, etc. - other people are complicated and human and can always change, but not him. he has different rules for himself. confronting that in shut up and listen and then confronting himself both from a very internal and then a very external point of view in the finale is... a big part of why i feel the way i do about eiffel's memory. he's spent his whole life trying to get away from himself, and i just don't think it's satisfying or fitting with the themes of the show if in the end he actually kind of does. i think there's a good potential post-canon set up for eiffel needing to accept all versions of himself as himself to move forwards; it's just another step in line with his canon development - "the longer i didn't say anything, i felt like i was getting farther away from that person" - but he's still doug eiffel, and eventually he always has to deal with that. and maybe it'll be easier with people who want doug eiffel around.

(and aw, thank you!! i hope you have a nice week, too!! 💙)

[brighteststar707]

44, 21 and 14 with Zen 🤍

woooohooooooooo

woooohooo! I'm back to answer the last few HC asks!

14. What are they petty about?

Zen is an emotional person with a surprisingly fragile ego, so if he feels like he has been slighted by someone, he's not going to let it go.

He's not too sensitive about comments on his acting, through his years of performing he has learned how to take constructive criticism and how to brush off cruel remarks. He is both secure in his talent and driven to improve himself any way he can. He has been in the industry long enough to develop thick skin.

His appearance, on the other hand, is something he's extremely sensitive about. Despite all his boasting, he's very insecure. Most of the other RFA members have been on the receiving end of Zen's pettiness after not being impressed by his latest selfie or teasing him about his looks.

He's very generous to his friends, and when that isn't appreciated, he will not let that go. Think about him mother henning caring for Yoosung in Another story, and how offended he was when Yoosung ran away from the masseuse he hired. He is often called the older brother of the RFA, but I think he can go into full petty mother mode if he wants to.

21. What silly things do they fantasize about (e.g. winning arguments, doing things well, being good at social interactions)?

He absolutely has his acceptance speeches planned out for a variety of awards he dreams of winning. He has done the whole talking-to-the-mirror-while-holding-an-object thing several times, each time watching himself from a different angle to make sure he always has his good side on show.

Also, he's such a romantic, he definitely spends a lot of his free time daydreaming about having a partner. Fantasizing different meet-cute scenarios, imagining the different opening lines he'd use to make someone laugh, deciding on the best date spots in town to take his partner out to.... there isn't anyone more well-prepared to be in a relationship than Zen.

44. What kind of thing makes them laugh way too hard?

Okay, maybe this is because I just went through the chats about Zen's old tech today, but I picture him laughing really hard at old facebook type jokes. Puns, funny animal videos and outdated memes are the things that never fail to make him laugh.

Whenever Seven or Yoosung share memes in the chatroom, it's him and Jumin who are in the dark as to what the joke is. It's one of the only times he's on the same side as Jumin, to his disappointment.

[kitchfit]

Year in Review: Books Pt 2

Rounding out the rest of my reading list. It's a short list, overall. One of my new years resolutions is definitely to carve more time out for reading, which may cut into my future bildeo bame time. Oh well! That's probably a good thing.

I'm Glad My Mom Died by Jennette McCurdy

I hesitate to criticize the content of an autobiography, especially one as open and honest as this one. I listened to this through the audio book narrated by McCurdy herself, and she gives a great performance through the line reading. Almost as if she was a classically trained actor! Still, I wonder if her reading may have compensated for the quality of some of the prose, and I might not have gotten through it if I were reading it myself.

The title sounds a bit callous to those who haven't experienced child abuse, like myself, but I understand it's a common enough sentiment from those who have, and you come to understand her perspective. It's not a statement made from a place of malice, but one of acceptance that her life has improved without her abuser present, no matter the complicated feelings. The book is also not wholly about her relationship with her mother, covering her experience with bulimia, anorexia, the toxic environments of Hollywood, though her mother is at the center of all of it. It's also not a complete bummer! McCurdy injects a lot of humor throughout the book and covers some of the fun moments she's had in her career. Which is expected in a memoir, I suppose.

Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy by Douglas Adams

This book is as fantastic as it is ridiculous. The story opens on our protagonist, Arthur, protesting the bureaucratic destruction of his home for the construction of a highway through the area, before he is whisked away by a bisexual alien hitchhiker just in time for Earth itself to be demolished by bureaucratic aliens to build an intergalactic highway. Every plot development acts as both comedy and world building. They nearly survive execution by giving shitty criticism to alien poetry. The president of the universe got his position as a practical joke. A whale is created by a cosmic RNG manipulation machine, and has an inner monologue on the nature of its life just before it explodes and dies.

The outside universe is chaotic and incredulous, and the excitement of wanting to explore that universe through the lens of a hitchhiker almost overwrites Arthur's existential dread on the destruction of his home world. While the book can handle moments of genuine drama, it never goes long before that drama is overshadowed by a joke, or perhaps the drama is itself the joke. This might be annoying to some, but Adams' writing style is slow fluid you don't really have time to be annoyed. It's a short book, and I'm excited to read the next one in the series, if SOME people would return it to the LIBRARY ON TIME. They probably have by now.

The Storyteller by Dave Grohl

I only recently became a Foo Fighters fan, introduced to the album "In Your Honor" by a friend in early 2022, which I immediately listened to ad nauseum until my sister noticed and got me the CD for my car. Thank You Sister! I was sad to hear about the passing of Taylor Hawkins only a couple weeks after I learned who he was. I already knew Grohl had lost a lot of people in his life. But his book is not about grief, at least, not exclusively. Like the title suggests, this memoir is full of stories! And Dave Grohl is, indeed, a good Storyteller.

The book follows his life in a reasonably sequential order, though framed through the lens of a father looking back on his life as he raises his two daughters. It covers his musical influences, his time in Scream and Nirvana, the creation of Foo Fighters. If you like anything from that scene, this book is a good time. It does get a bit name-droppy towards the end. But like. This guy is friends with Paul McCartney! Composer and performer of the classic song "Temporary Secretary," and nothing else! Who wouldn't bring that up at every opportunity?

The book always flashes back to the "present," where his eldest, Violet Maye, is following in her father's footsteps as a musician, which I now realize I've never heard. Give a second.

...

She's alright! Sounds a bit like those "Foo Fighter" guys.

Beowulf translated by Maria Dahvana Headley

This is something I had previously read for college, but the translation we read was focused on accuracy for the original text, and I felt it was a bit buried under flowery language that would tickle under the balls of an academic, but hard to parse for a casual reader. That's not to say that Headley isn't an academic, but her translation focuses largely on readability in a modern context rather than textual accuracy, and for the first time I actually enjoyed Beowulf rather than just understood it.

For the uninformed, Beowulf is what 9th century monks used to read since they didn't have Dragon Ball. It follows the title character Beowulf as he heroically challenges three monsters (some bitch named Grendal, Grendal's hot mom, and a dragon) for the safety of the Geats and his own people, but moreso for the glory and spoils of the win, and the love of fighting. The story is always told in past tense, and Headley goes the extra mile of telling it from the perspective of a dudebro who relays the tale to his other bros. I truly think this is the version that would most resonate with my generation, but it probably won't get shown off in college classrooms for using phrases like "dude, they were fucked," and "#Blessed."

The Two Towers by Jolkien Rolkien Rolkien Tolkien

This is the second entry in my very slow read-through of Lord of the Rings. I have been called a fake nerd for not having read these books. And they were right for calling me that! I only have the distinguished and highly regarded appearance of a nerd, and that needs to be corrected! One book a year, apparently. I read Fellowship last year, and while I enjoyed the second half of that book a great deal, damn can Jolkien describe a hill. A significant portion of book one was dedicated to the hobbits journey to Rivendale and singing songs of old Middle Earth legends, which are probably more enjoyable on re-reads. Book two has much better pacing, imo.

Immediately, you are set into the action of a fractured narrative. Pipin and Merry are missing, Frodo and Sam left the fellowship to go on their own fruity adventure, Boromir is dead, and Aragorn, Gimli, and Orlando Bloom are left to figure out what exactly the fuck happened to everyone. I like how each storyline is told. From what I remember in the movies, everything is interspersed with each other, but in the book you have to follow everyone separately, creating a genuine sense of mystery that slowly unravels itself. Frodo isn't even in the book until halfway through!

Each storyline also introduces a new, fun element of Middle Earth that makes the world feel much more developed than in Fellowship or even the Hobbit. I fucking love Ents. And big spider... Frodo's relationship with Gollum is also fascinating; his desire to save this gross little freak working as a reflection of his feelings about himself. Will someone try to help me if I end up like that? Will my friends still love me? It's a very real possibility as he carries this curse, and by proxy makes me love Samwise that much more, since we know from his narrative perspective that yes, he will love and try to help Frodo no matter the circumstance. Even if the current little freak is getting on his last nerve.

The Shining by Stephen King

I've not read a ton of what I'd classify as "horror," outside of short form fiction, but apparently I love to write about it, so I wanted to take a look at the predominant Horror Guy from the 80s times. I love the movie that spawned from this, and knew that Stephen King hated it for some reason, and now I think I know why! The movie is definitely its own beast, and I think I may write a separate blurb for it if I ever rewatch it in the near future, so I'll refrain from too many comparisons.

The story follows a boy with psychic powers, and a haunted house that eats boys with psychic powers. The Torrances are a very loving family, or they would like to be, but their dynamic is plagued with generational trauma and the father's, Jack's, alcoholism. They are put in charge of the Overlook Hotel, which has to be maintained over the winter lest it be torn to pieces in the Colorado mountains. Why don't the owners hire more than one family to take care of this big ass hotel? They're a bunch of cheapskates!

I would love to make an entire deconstruction on Jack Torrance. He's a man who's been unbelievably shitty to his family and the people around him, saw the monstrousness in himself and desperately tried to back peddle. It is the Overlook, this entity that breaths within the hotel, that uses that darkness to carve him out from the inside and use him as a puppet to threaten his loved ones. It actually fails at first, Jack's love of his wife and son beating back the ugly thoughts the hotel plagues his mind with, and thus it had to get him drunk to make any real headway, force him to relapse into the man he wanted to overcome.

The mystery of the Overlook's origin is compelling. It clearly lures people with "the Shining" into itself to devour and maintain itself, but where does it's monstrosity come from? Was it always there? Or was it the violence and racism of its previous owners that left such a strong imprint that created such an entity? King's answer would probably be a mix of both, but that last interpretation makes the ending much more poignant to me. A monster that victimizes people who shine created by monsters who victimized women and people of color, ultimately overcome and destroyed by a black man with psychic powers, a housewife, and a little kid. Maybe that's too generous an interpretation for a book written by a white dude in the 70s, but I don't give a shit. Night of the living dead author and all that.

And that ends my reading list! I don't really expect too many to read any of this, let alone all of it, but if you did, thank you! This is not only to share what I've read this year, but also to go back and appreciate what it was I read, so it doesn't become a vague tear in the tapestry of memory. Wow that sounded pretentious as hell! I hope I made these books sound at least a bit interesting for you, because they're all genuinely good reads! And if you have a book you think I might like, please let me know! I'm always looking for new books to get halfway through and never finish.

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Its understandable people to get upset but sometimes the reasons for them to get upset is the wildest thing imaginable

Sonic fandom:

Like there is a good chunk of people that absolutely hate the idw sonic comics, they read it. But they hate it.

But the complaints sometimes are just ridiculous or plain unserious at this point

"This is such a bad character, they're so annoying" and thats the point.

"This character is so mean for no reason what a bitch" and its a regular character flaw plus you're only upset cause its you favs they're being mean too

"Ugh its so different than the games and the characters are all different" its called a different medium.

"Sonic in prime is so annoying the show is awful" ITS A DIFFERENT TAKE ON THE CHARACTER, HAVE YOU SEEN THE OLD SONIC SHOWS

(No but seriously sonic x was a wild ride and Boom was just a nice slice of life hilarious mess)

Bbb fandom:

"They made yaya dumb!" That isn't dumb thats unhinged did you all suddenly forget the original series.. also smart characters can make dumb decisions excuse me.

"X character have so little screentime" get in line with the rest of us, i love Z character and they appear once in a blue moon. Also heres a magical thing you can do, its called ✨️creation✨️ make fan content the way how you'd like the character to be, the power is yours!

"The animated version is nothing like the comics" say that sentence again :), "animated" "comics" DIFFERENT MEDIUMS PEOPLE, also highly recommend stop comparing things, you'll get an aneurysm

Am i upset they made Gopal a bigger idiot? Yea, its a problem. Am i annoyed with the changes? Yea sure but i've long accepted that it would be highly different since the first time galaxy s1 comics roled around (they had Fang's backstory while the show didn't)

I may be upset but i'm not gonna complain in the smallest of things, those things i can fix myself, i'll write what i want. I'll fantasies it. I'll even draw it myself even if it looks terrible

And its not even just sonic or bbb fandom, all fandoms are like this. The more years have passed the more I'm not taking complaints seriously. I'm enjoying this media whether you hate it or not.

Sorry for the sudden rant to you, you're the only bbb and sonic blog i know. Feel free to ignore and hope you have a great day :D

I dare you want to see my answer when you write that essay. Don't think you want me to ignore it when I know you want to read it, anon. hehe😏

I treat Sonic and Boboiboy a bit different nowadays. In the past I might get over excessive, but I know I said this before, my view of Sonic fandom change recently and I blame internet because of that.

It felt exaggerated but that fandom genuinely damaged my heart and soul for sonic. I'd rather be a silent enthusiast rather than engaging or contributing to the community. It sucks cuz I want to share my love with people, sharing art, thoughts and discussion....

But I cannot differentiate which one is satire, constructive criticism or straight up hate.

Everyone wants to be the voice of reason and It's... Exhausting to watch. I have my pen friend who emotionally broken after he went online debate in the fandom. He even gave up to the fandom and the franchise itself. At first I thought his response was dramatic(no joke), but then I witness the same thing and almost caused me a mental health problem.

Karma I guess🙃

Therefor, for the sake of my sanity, I don't want to engage too much in every fandom.

That's also includes Boboiboy. Different fandom treatment, same war.

I already talked this much on this site more about the fandom anyway. Here in case you haven't seen it

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•[RULES // BOUNDARIES]•

¹ : Constructive Criticism is accepted as tolerated, But bullying and insulting and other forms of Aggression are not.

² : I'm still a beginning Artist so don't be rude about if my art looks bad or wrong

³ : I'm going to try to be active but I can't promise I will

⁴ : I'm going to post what I want to draw, or if somebody requests something but there are rules to it:

· No NSFW or Explicit content involving Sexual messages, ideas or crap like that. I do allow sex jokes, because that's not the same as wanting me to draw something, plus, I'll make a few of those

· I do allow gore, blood, description of gore or violence, death and body horror

· No homophobia, Transphobia, or Xenophobia, or anything bad unless it's a drawing prompt but even then, Don't have it be the prompt unless it's angst

· No asking personal questions. I do allow Q&A but if you asking anything about my Real Life or anything like that, I will not answer it.

⁵: You can send me a question or a private message any time, but please be respectful when you do

⁶: I might participate in roleplays but it might take a bit because I might have no ideas and I'm not used to doing that stuff.

⁷: I might not post drawings but rather little rants or me just talking about characters I like or relate to, so be aware of that.

⁸: Treat me with respect, and I treat you with respect

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Also I have a roleplay account (@thebartender-dellconagher) so if you want, check that it, I mostly make little shit posts

[crystal-lillies]

Scattered Day-After Thoughts on the xxxHolic 2022 Live Action movie

(shout out to @skellietoonz for the help finding a means to watch it)

These thoughts aren't in any particular order, and they range from silly jokes to serious constructive criticism on the film's structure/plot/layout. Spoilers for xxxHolic across the board (manga, anime, etc.).

-it really was Watanuki's fantasy paradise to have a date with Doumeki every single day. AND Doumeki was able to see the shop after Watanuki took over which means he had a wish, and since he stayed with Watanuki when a new customer came in, clearly his wish was to be with Watanuki!! Dudes just kiss already!!! X'D

-those edits between scenes man. What drugs were the editing team on and are they okay. I've never seen any live action anime edited that way and I've seen a lot of decent and shitty and B-movie live action anime. and, well. live action movies in general, all across the spectrum. there are very few with that kind of editing and fewer can pull it off well.

-Watanuki is homeless now, I guess. he has nowhere to go aside from the shop. boy what the heck were you doing before, where is your apartment that's identical to the Chobits apartment, how are you even alive to contemplate taking your own life HELLO???

-I think the movie's overarching story would have been stronger had Jorogumo just been an original villain since she's basically adapted in name only. I actually really like the anti-Yuko angle, like, the person who Grants Your Desire but in the most chaotic evil way possible without your knowledge vs Yuko who tells you straight up what will happen if she does what you're asking for. (Almost like the monkey's paw episode/chapters but expanded in a way that we haven't seen in xxxHolic before.)

-I'm glad that they weren't too chicken to take out Himawari accepting Watanuki's scars as payment, but they WERE too chicken not to include best bird Tanpopo afterwards. The thing Watanuki WAS ABLE TO DO and DID to help Himawari!!! Gift her a friend that wouldn't be harmed so she would always have a companion!!! Best baby bird!!! Alas. Must have been that Yuko costume budget.

-Mokona also was a casualty of that budget I bet. also for plot reasons lmao. Larg was able to swallow up the spirits from the Hundred Ghost Stories in no time flat, early on in the story. Offbrand Jorogumo and her creepy simp man trying to release evil spirits the whole movie and this little black manju bun would swallow it in seconds. thank u next. Larg was too strong. and also could not survive budgets. 0/10 no mokona

-Yuko's death transition is one of the saddest, gut wrenching, heartbreaking parts of the original story, and it's built up so well and foreshadowed so often not only in the manga but also the anime that divorced itself from crossover. Once the story gets there, it tears you into pieces. The movie does not earn that. I legitimately had to hold myself back from laughing, like. wait, Now??? you're doing this Now??

-Also the movie Watanuki had not grown more than half an inch of development and now he's running the shop??? Djdsjfdjg it took SO much development for him to do that and he is practically a different character by that point in the manga and anime to the fact it's emotionally painful for him to pretend to be how he used to be (xxxHolic Rei kicking me straight into the center of the earth)

-but seriously why did she die though. why was THAT the thing that did it. lmao.

-I DID appreciate the darker kind of end for the Lying Woman. In the manga, she died. In the anime, she got off pretty scot-free imo (even though it has a hopeful ending I am in the headspace for more often than not). but in the movie holy shit. she almost died, but she was being eaten away psychologically by her own lies in semi-physical form and that's exactly the kind of thing I was more or less expecting from this movie. a straddle between the manga and the anime.

-loved the colored manga pages transition to the title card too, that was a nice flourish.

-no ame-warashi. 0/10. she'd have smacked the emo right out of watanuki with her umbrella

-Watanuki's Bad Luck Fall was also like. 10x more brutal than the anime and manga and honestly. I kinda give them props for making it that extra brutal. (but not for cutting the audience out of the details of what Actually happened until the very end in that choppy non sequitur style)

overall, I'm glad I saw it finally! the movie really did a near literal speedrun of the xxxHolic story to get to a few spots at the end, but the emotional impact of the end is bare scraps of what it is in full context.

I give the creative team credit for attempting it, and to their credit, the sets and costumes are good and have their own distinct vibe. and I do give them credit for trying to emulate the dreamlike haze of some of the chapters' story arcs, even if it wasn't always successful.

But I'd say if someone really wants to do a live action version of the later xxxHolic arcs...I'd stick with a TV show format. that seems to work better with manga adaptations that already have anime episodes paced out for TV. and limited series style like an OVA. assume the audience has seen the thing, do maybe a quick montage/explanation of catchup in the first episode if need be, and then focus hard on the adaptation.

thank you for coming to my post-CLAMP day TEDtalk

[gaymessriku]

Old issue at this point, but the American reception to Dragona Joestar really is emblematic of the remaking of the gender binary into a 'woke' version. As presented in the manga, Dragona is called Jodio's brother and uses he/him pronouns. He also has a stereotypically feminine appearance and has canonically had surgeries to achieve this.

It is of course important to understand this in the context of Araki's treatment of women in past chapters. And he has in fact repeated these tropes with Dragona. However, especially with any knowledge of how gender is seen in Japan, there is no reason to view his pronouns and presentation as unintended or inherently transphobic.

I have seen person after person use she/her or they/them when referring to him, not due to any textual support but their own confusion and discomfort. Dragona may be a binary trans woman, or a gnc man, or whatever the fuck his heart desires. That is irrelevant to his pronouns. The idea that he cannot possibly use or like he/him due to his presentation is incredibly restrictive and disrespectful.

Viewing pronouns as inherently tied to gender or presentation only rebrands transphobic ideas of gender being inherently tied to sex. It implies an inherent scale between 2 points of male and female which are tied to certain appearances and behaviors, and everyone falling somewhere on it. E.G. the idea of having to be a masc or fem aligned nonbinary, or stereotypically feminine traits in men causing jokes about how they're secretly trans women and don't realize it yet.

This is harmful to not only the people who fall outside these categories but also those who are comfortable within them. It perpetuates stereotypes in queer spaces that cause fear and ostracization. And it is completely ahistorical to the movement as a whole. Accepting gender as a construct means both acknowledging the utility and weight of its signifiers in a personal and societal context, while also releasing yourself and others from the obligations thereof.

A trans man and a butch lesbian can look or act exactly the same and that makes them no less different or authentic in their existence. Promoting men wearing skirts or makeup while simultaneously viewing them as less their gender is hypocritical and still presents maleness as a default that femininity and womanhood is an aberration or change to. Saying you support trans people and gender nonconformity is incongruous with assigning certain traits to certain genders.

It is of course entirely possible that Araki has some level of misunderstanding or ill intent in his representation of Dragona. It is also possible that his identity or pronouns will change over the course of the manga. However, as currently presented, that is what he wants and is comfortable with. As a reader, in the same way you wouldn't misgender someone who doesn't fit your standards for presentation in real life it should also be applied to characters. This is not a matter of personal headcanon but the material as it is presented.

I'm not attributing intent or malice to those who do this. It is very much not about accusations of queerphobia or inciting self flagellation. This is about explaining how these actions are harmful and what they perpetuate. It is an invitation to think about how you view these categories and apply them to the world, even subconsciously.

It is not a sin to be wrong. It is not a sin to not have the perfect enlightened ideas inside and out. We all have biases, and they take time to identify and account for. Part of having moral and ethical principles is recognizing your own flaws in these areas. That is always the first step to understanding and improvement.

And of course I'm not a perfect being either, so contributions, criticism, or questions are very much welcome. Community is based on shared values and identity but also the ability to keep an open mind. We all have pieces of the world and the only way to get a better picture is sharing them.

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Some points/beliefs held by this blog, just to get us on the same page here and help you decide if this is a space you want to engage in.

1. We don't moralize health, appearance, or productivity around here. Being disabled, fat, an addict, unemployed etc, is morally neutral and I truly believe that. You will never catch me using words like 'lazy' or 'lay-about', or 'unhealthy' except in irony, because those terms are all subjective. The only thing that ever matters to me is that people are cared for and met where they're at. 'Fat' is Not a dirty word and is not synonymous with 'ugly', and I also don't use that word because again. Subjective. Fat people and/or disabled people are not only welcome here, but your viewpoints are highly valued. Yes even and ESPECIALLY if your disability is your 'fault' as a result of behaviors or habits you have. I get it dude! Me too! This includes every type of disability, deformity, deficiency, neurodivergency, etc. This blog accepts both person-first and identity-first language, and believes that is a personal choice. If you're a disabled person I love you, and if you're a person with a disability I love you too. No one can tell you how to describe your personal experiences besides yourself. This blog also believes 'intelligence' is a social construct so words like 'smart' or 'stupid' are also not used here with any amount of sincerity. People with intellectual disabilities are very welcome here and I'll do what I can to help you understand on your own level within my personal abilities. This blog also advocates for universal design rather than pasted-on accessibility.

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6. Lightning round because this is getting long so I'll just put a bunch of statements here. Unhoused people are people and deserve empathy and care regardless of how they became unhoused. Everyone deserves healthcare, food, housing (with air conditioning and heat!) and education. Yes everyone, yes even that shitty guy that 'borrowed' your car twenty years ago and never brought it back. This blog believes in prison abolition and restorative/rehabilitative justice rather than punitive justice. This blog believes in equity rather than equality and acknowledges that a truly equitable society means that everyone gets what they personally need to exist and thrive , not that everyone gets the exact same thing. This blog loves disabled people, fat people, black people, poor people, queer people, etc. and we don't do acceptability politics around here. Sex work is work, and sex-workers deserve empathy and understanding. This blog acknowledges the complexities of the porn industry and the very real problems with it, but don't you dare shit on the actual real people who are affected by and victims of said industry. Marginalized voices will always be the most important when it comes to their own specific issues so I may often re-direct you to educational sources, books, blogs, specific educators, etc, if I feel that I can't personally get the correct points across responsibly. I don't know everything, but I do know a lot and am happy to provide jumping-off points for you to do your own internal work. This blog is pro harm-reduction and does not believe that full sobriety is the only acceptable end-goal when dealing with addiction, that's case-by-case. Drugs are morally neutral here (yes all of them. Yes even that one), I get it man! Life sucks! I'll never judge you for needing something to help make it more bearable, especially if you have other health problems that you're self-medicating for because traditional medicine hasn't helped you specifically. This blog is very, very, very pro-bodily autonomy and that includes the freedom to make mistakes or 'bad' choices in regards to your body. It's yours!

This blog advocates for a balance between 'natural' remedies and modern medicine, they can and should co-exist! This blog is pro-freak and I mean that genuinely, I'm not just being edgy. 'Weirdos' make the world go round! Furries, pups, kinksters, aces and aros, self-proclaimed dykes, faggots, trannies, leather daddies, anyone who isn't 'normal' when it comes to relationships, hobbies, etc? Yeah get the fuck in here I wanna hear about your fun subculture and your weird clubs, I LOVE learning about stuff I don't understand. I have committed myself to never allowing an automatic disgust reaction to keep me from listening to somebody's viewpoint, and all I ask is that people do the same for me.

7. Finally, this blog has committed itself to keeping its eyes on the system. If I am ever speaking about an issue, I am not speaking about individuals or passing judgements on groups of people. If I say 'racism' I am talking about the power-structures and systems that make racism possible, not your uncle Dave who says the n-word at Christmas because he swears he got the 'pass' from some guy back in the 80s. Same goes for words like sexism or queerphobia or pretty much anything else. Don't take ANYTHING I say personally because I don't know you and I promise I am not here to attack you. If points I make bring up guilt in you I encourage you to examine that and ask yourself WHY it makes you so uncomfortable. This blog advocates for open communication, community building, self-reflection and conflict-resolution in all places possible and safe. I will only ever speak on issues that I'm confident I understand fully and can engage with responsibly, and if I don't understand I will at least make an attempt to do my own research and work before returning to you with what I've found. I am VERY committed to constantly learning and growing, and I encourage my followers to try and do the same if you have the mental and emotional capacity to do so!

Some final housekeeping- I am a legal adult, but I do not share my age or birthday. I am physically disabled and neurodivergent but feel no need to specify my exact issues here. I may speak on certain disabilities that I have in order to help other people, but i will not 'prove' myself to anybody. If I'm being vague about a specific detail there is a reason for it, as I also need to keep myself safe and this is the internet. I will sometimes post stories or writing bits that are somewhat based on real things, but nothing I ever post on this blog will be a 1-to-1 representation of my own life. I use writing and fictionalization to help people digest ideas, so take anything you read on this blog as fully fiction but with a purpose. I am U.S. American so please don't make school shooting 'jokes' and also please know that like! I am STARKLY aware of our issues! You don't have to tell me we suck! I know! That's why I've committed myself to making an active effort to NOT suck and to actually listen, because I refuse to be one of those assholes who acts like the U.S. is the only country that exists, however I can only ever speak from that perspective. So I do my best! Please be patient if I don't understand something or if I've been ignorant, I WILL get there!

Thank you for reading, stick around if this resonates with you as these are all points I'll probably elaborate on or make posts on eventually. I am here to educate and spread balanced viewpoints that allow for nuance, understanding, and bridging gaps between types of people. Morality will ALWAYS be a nuanced topic on this blog and I do not believe in absolute 'good' or 'bad'. I think this covered most of it but if you'd like me to elaborate or explain anything stated here, I will be happy to! And if you've read this and went 'yikes this guy sucks' that's okay too! That just means this isn't a space for you and that's fine! I hope you have an awesome day anyway!

[ursbearhug]

One of the reasons why I enjoy watching/listening to people read books (more often than not, bad book or badly written books) or movies or any kind of media really, is because I get to think how I would handle the same story, or if I can really take criticism thrown, most often, author's way rather than at a book and the story itself.

For instance, few drafts I have (yes, including currently frozen wip of my fairy porn parody), do feature queer characters. But when I was writing them the idea of featuring trauma or hardships of being queer do not occur to me as a leading idea or a plot. For two reasons; for one while my stories might not be the easiest, they're far from being really difficult. My reputation as a faggot by far outran me in my hometown, so I knew that a lot of wrong people knew my face and my name. But at the same time my queerness never was a core reason anything bad happened to me. Living under pressure and danger is not the same thing as actively experiencing it. I never had to fear my family rejecting me and kicking me out either. And secondly, I personally think we have enough trauma stories to get old. Why queer people only get to show how they suffer or deal with hardships? Can't they show how joyous they are too? Again, I'm kind of aware that experience of being called faggot over milion times or held at knife point, aren't exactly the most traumatic experiences, and my lenses might be tinted very pink, but things I conflate with queerness is a lot of happy memories. Why book about queer experience *has* to be about pain? Just so it doesn't get review bombed by people with 0 literature literacy?

This stroke me the most when I've read reviews of few books that had the audacity to tell stories of queer abusive relationships. But why was it a bad thing? Oh, right. Queer people don't get to marry or be publicly accepted because they got rights and what happened? They abused it. As if straight relationships have not. Queer folks also get to experience sharp end of the stick when it comes to the healthiness of their relationships, myself included. Turns out people can be pretty shit regardless of their sexuality or gender identity.

And yeah I'm pretty notorious for not taking criticism without crying (it's a joke, please). But that seems like pretty natural reaction to me. From little age we're taught to feel superior or inferior to others based on some arbitrary rules, so no wonder that when we put ourselves out there, in a vulnerable state, our feelings and pride will be at risk. But last time I was sharing my WIP, I was desperately looking for some critism, constructive or not, to improve. Yeah, the whole thing was meant to be a joke at first, but I want my jokes to be well crafted too. Which is why I struggle at this parody too; because writing purposefully bad things strike at my pride too, lmao.

Anyway the point I wanted to make is; more messy and juicy queer stories and less constrictivness for first triers. (Even if their modern retelling of greek myths are 'daring' and lame)

[badedramay]

Hey Mais I have just one question ... Based on your criticism I'm assuming you've restarted/caught up on fairytale...in that case in your opinion what do you think the show has done well and what needs to be worked on?

If you haven't watched the show I want to know how you are able to give constructive criticism?

oh no, i do not keep in touch with FT except from what crosses my eyes on social media while doom scrolling. my "criticism", which I believe isn't the right word here cuz I am merely stating my observations and comments, is still based on my experience of watching the first 4 episodes of the show and then seeing the fandom's reaction (love) for this show to this day. it's not hard to gauge on which track the show is going by some of the comments that I have seen. i had said in an ask some days ago, there are certain tropes and plotlines that tell you their destination right from the first step. FT has always been predictable in that manner. if whatever I say sounds like I am speaking from a place of having watched the show then I am...flattered? matlab aise hi baal safed nahin kiye hain xD

bhayee dekho saaf si baat hai - when you write a story of a clumsy, unapologetically flawed, immature heroine and have her pair up with an uptight, serious man who ends up falling for the girl despite the exasperation she initially caused him, there's only so many options you can have for the story to go on. either the writers will prolong her immaturity and clumsiness to the point of making her annoying. or her immaturity and clumsiness will end up causing a conflict that will have the couple temporarily break up until she matures up or he accepts her regardless of her immaturity anyway cuz pyaar above all. the writers are just not brave enough to play on the serious consequences of these "flaws" of the characters. it's cool to have a kdrama coded love story but even in kdramas with its 16 hour long run time, it often gets boring and annoying if serious character development doesn't take place. here you are extending the runtime to around 40 hours over the course of 2 seasons while keeping things as close to the base that made the show/characters popular in the first place without organically building on the story and the characters and then expecting NO complains or criticism to take place? c'mon. phir toh Bulbulay wala sitcom bana lo. this is not how a DRAMA regardless of what genre can work.

it's not rocket science. this is just experience talking. Suno Chanda 1 was MASSIVELY popular but do you see anyone talking about SC2 in the same way? no. because that tried to repeat the conflicts and the jokes that had been done and dusted in s1. it had to retcon what made s1 special because the makers wanted to stick to the safety of tried and tested formula of s1 (that and also how ArJiya were practically sidelined in the drama). sure, maybe FT2 was needed unlike SC2 cuz FT2 has story left that warrants the need of a sequel but again..you need to up the ante or risk falling in the pits of fanservice. and FT2 mostly IS fanservice. so if you're not already a die hard fan of the show, yeah..your attention will be caught by the flaws and plotholes and you wouldn't be as forgiving of them as others are.

[lilacwineandthesinkingsun]

Your ‘all jokes aside’ fic was really good. I love your writing and how you can easily convey what you wish for the readers to feel while reading your stories. Only thing I didn’t like about it is their call sign ‘Nympho’. I get that its for the story (maybe) and it also has the shock factor that will reel in Ghost to be interested (which he did when he asked the reason for it) but for someone in the military and as you mentioned in your fic, good at her job; it really doesn’t sound right. It’s crass, tactless, vulgar, and too ‘in your face’ for me. Also, the name really doesn’t inspire professionalism in such a strict environment. I refuse to believe that she gains this call sign due to her sexual proclivities wether she’s a real nympho or not. I get that its your fic and I’m not telling you to change it or anything, I’m just saying that as a reader, shock value mostly works when the shock is followed by awe, not distaste. Otherwise, some of the audience will just be discouraged in continuing if they decide the writer is insensitive and callous with their craft. I hope you dont take this the wrong way and instead take it as constructive criticism (in which it was given in that spirit) and continue writing in a more mindful way next time. Goodluck and more power to you.

First of all, thank you. And up to some point i understand you, and it will be explained in the next part, however everybody's callsign is something they hate, sure Ghost for example has one that's cool, i didn't want to give my character a cool one just yet. She will get a new one later as planned. As for calling this constructive criticism. I do get where are you coming from, however accept some from me too, If you write a paragraph, with your opinion in it is totally fine, we are here to learn, and to get better. However i do not think it crass, for you don't know why is she called that. Also, if you put a line like "continue writing in a MORE MINDFUL WAY NEXT TIME" is just deleting all the other things you wrote before it. Now it just seem petty to me. I do not really write in a way that my characters would fit everyone that reads my fic, rather adding something to the reader that most likely won't fit those who read it. People need to understand that there are writers , that write for themselves, and not for their readers per se. My fic for example are most of the time reflecting to problems in my own life which i heal and process through my writing. (No, i'm not fucking everything that moves, duh). The fact that i share it is that in hopes that when i do finish the series (or any of my other ones for that matter) it might help someone move forward, as it helps me.

I'm just sick and tired of always writing the most toothachingly sweet stuff all the time. Sure, fluff is awesome. But right now i want some rage, hatred, revenge, and even to quote you, being crass.

Don't you want to be someone else sometimes? Just for a little bit? I know i do.

[sushisocks]

Of course! Also while I remember it, for consent questions I recommend the RPG Consent Checklist, it's what I use with my players :3

In our discord server, the contract looks like this -- it's in its own channel named 'rules', so it's easily referable. You'll probably want to click for the best quality.

(Note that #12 is an inside joke, that my players wanted included)

Ill include the text itself under a read more :3

First, here’s the DM agreement. These are the standards I expect you all to hold me to, and what you should expect from me. If there are more things you feel would be good to have in here, don’t hesitate to pm me.

DM agreement

I will never make a decision about your character's actions without your consent, with the exception of what is possible within the mechanics of the game (failing a save against a spell by an enemy that forces you to do something, etc.)

I will never say “I'm the DM, this is my world” as an excuse for something unreasonable. a. However, I’ll have to make rulings that may or may not gel with the rules as written. At that moment in-game, the DM ruling is final, but not necessarily permanent as I will be open to discussing the rulings outside of play.

I will endorse player’s using creativity to solve problems and encounters, even if it slightly bends the rule.

I will not punish you for doing something your character would do. However, consequences to actions are a thing, and I will not shy away from putting these consequences into motion.

I will do my best to keep the game flowing at all times.

I will never make an NPC that is all knowing of every plan you make, and able to counteract it.

I will encourage open and honest communication between the players themselves and between them and I. a. I will never react negatively to any of my players approaching me about anything related to the game. b. I will take constructive criticism and do my best to improve my game in accordance with what I’m told. c. I will act impartially to all meta conflicts and will negotiate a solution. Here’s the player agreement, please take the time to read through this properly as this is what I expect from you as players at all times.

Player agreement

I will do all that I can do to make sessions the best they can be for everyone, any unwarranted negative energy is not welcome.

I will be respectful towards everyone I am playing with.

I will always approach the DM directly and as quickly as possible if I have a problem, have concerns, or am dissatisfied. a. I will do the same if I find myself unsure about something, or have a question.

If I want to change something about my character or my character sheet, I am to approach my DM first and foremost.

If the DM asks to see something pertaining to my player character, I will do my best to send/show/tell it to her as soon as possible.

I will always be honest with my DM about intentions and emotions, I will not shy away from telling her what I actually am experiencing.

I will offer criticism constructively when asked for, with the understanding that my DM is fallible.

I will be understanding of the fact that any harshness that happens between DM/players or player/player in sessions are a. In character and/or b. Open to be discussed afterwards, out of game, in an attempt to reach an understanding and move on with no negative feelings lingering out of play.

I will always do my best to give my DM what she needs from me, like character sheets after leveling up, before the deadline she sets. I will accept the consequences of failure to do so.

I will always do my best to be open and honest, as I understand communication is key.

I know that failure to comply with these terms on any count lets my DM put down consequences as she deems fit, including forcibly removing me from the session, campaign, and/or group.

I will not kill myself Please react to this message with an emoji when you have read through, understood, and agreed to all of these terms. If you don’t react to it, I reserve the right to bar you from sessions where I act as DM.

open question for dnd players and DM's!!

what are your favourite character building questions to ask or answer?

what are some essential questions to ask players before starting a new campaign?

I'm currently writing up my consent form and character building question list and I'd love some examples from others! 😊