#this is a jc appreciation blog now!!

[mxtxfanatic]

Just wanna say for those of y’all who came into this fandom late: just a few years ago, speaking on Jiang Cheng with anything less than glowing praise used to bring so much harassment that “angry grape”-related tags had to be created to circumvent jc stans finding and subsequently dogpiling your posts. I’ve since seen this tagging convention appropriated by his stans to be an “affectionate” petname for his character. If you wrote a wangxian fic in which Jiang Cheng did not appear, your fics would get bombarded with stans flooding your comments with their own headcanons on why Jiang Cheng isn’t around but “this is how he’d react if he was” and “everyone loves him, they’re definitely thinking about him, rn” and “when is he supposed to show up, op???” If you read a wangxian fic and Jiang Cheng did appear, there was a 95% chance that you would have to slog through thousands of words of abuse apologia paired with every character (except maybe Lan Wangji, maybe) claiming that Wei Wuxian deserved to be abused and should just learn to handle it better because abuse is really love. It took me a year of reading purely (only, exclusively) wangxian fics to find a single fic that had both 1) canon Jiang Cheng and 2) did not twist the other characters into fanon iterations to justify canon Jiang Cheng’s abusive behavior. When more canon writers started appearing, their fics got flooded with negativity, claims that the fic wasn’t realistic because “jc isn’t like that,” and demands to change things. They started moderating their comment sections. Eventually, jc stan writers even stopped tagging Jiang Cheng in their fics despite writing him as a major character because people began to avoid reading fics if they knew from the tags that his character appeared.

The “canon jc” tag was created on tumblr because jc stans said that if we didn’t like being attacked for canon opinions we should “create our own tag.” It was not a tag that always existed. Nobody used it until my friends created it. And every few months after that, we’d get a new “flood the tag” campaign by jc stans pissed at the name until it died down… until twitter refugees arrived, bringing with them a new faction of jc stans. That jc appreciate week or whatever they call it that starts on Halloween? Created by jc stans in an attempt to flood out Wei Wuxian appreciation posts on his birthday by making sure that new Jiang Cheng content would dominate all the major tags on that day. I watched the creators brag about that.

One BIG fandom upset happened when a jc stan wrote a horribly mistagged rape and murder wangxian fic and had their friends promote it so that wangxian lovers would read the fic and be traumatized. They gloated about having "successfully baited people," then tried to delete their tweets admitting it when they got them in trouble. I was there for that, too, and I only dodged being triggered because I saved the fic to read for later instead of cracking it open immediately.

Some of y’all may see me around now, but I’ve been watching this fandom for much longer than I’ve been making posts, before even the friends and mutuals I know now even knew I existed (yes I was a lurker lol). I’ve seen the development of all this play out across tumblr, ao3, and twitter (despite my best efforts to avoid the twitter side, that’s how ubiquitous it was). That’s how inescapable it was. I saw so much shit go down that I already had a mile-wide blocklist before I made my first post, and even then, I still got hate commentary on some of my posts the moment I dipped my littlest toe into metas. I had anon off for like a year because I didn’t want to deal with any harassment, and the moment I turned it off, I started getting bait anons (though not as bad as the others I’ve seen, holy shit). When I started this blog, all I did was liveblog and reblog other people’s art and metas. I was so stressed entering this fandom because the shit I had seen off rip was absolutely disgusting. That’s why I have very intentional rules of engagement that I try to hold to for myself. I may never be the first to start the fight, but I damn sure will defend myself and my friends. I also will never run away from admitting my mistakes, but I will also never be bullied into treating someone’s personal fantasies as equal to the actual factual text.

This isn’t to say that fanon enjoyers don’t get harassment. Another big fandom scandal was that a popular fanfic writer obsessed with canon had been harassing other writers through a series of bot accounts into leaving the fandom. What a lot of people don’t bring up in their bid to paint canon enjoyers as particularly prone to “fandom bullying,” however, was that the “canon” they were obsessed with was tied almost exclusively to the canon wangxian’s top/bottom sexual dynamic. I’d read that person’s works before—enjoyed them, even, before the scandal happened. They wrote fanon into their fics in other ways. The fanon/canon divide isn’t the problem; entitlement to unanimous fandom praise and recognition is.

There’s nothing wrong with enjoying canon or fanon, nothing right or wrong or morally superior for either camp. But do me a favor: go into the main jiang cheng character tag right now, and count how often you see a post about Jiang Cheng that portrays him in a negative light. Not one that portrays him as an snarky asshole or a teacher’s pet or a helicopter parent or a crybaby who only wants to be loved, but one which shows him in all of his uncensored glory as a piece of shit antagonist. How often do you see fanart of Jiang Cheng that isn’t “best jiujiu” or “sad didi” or “badass sect leader”? How often do you see metas that don’t include some iteration of “everyone is just so mean about poor little jc who just didn’t have a choice in anything he ever did 😢”? Go to the main novel tag and do the same. Hell, go to the wangxian tag and see what you find while you’re at it. How many of those posts are viral compared to “look at jc with his dogs!” or “look, I made lxc and jc kiss!” Then tell me whether or not you believe that jc stans are being specifically targeted for some unique and undeserved persecution by the fandom at large.

[wangxianficfinder]

Fic Finder

Sep 18th

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1. Hi! I don't know if this has been asked before but I'm looking for a fic. It had multiple chapters and might have been mostly from LWJ POV. (spoilers for the fic basically) I only remember clearly that in one of the later chapters it is revealed that WWX took the fall for JC who had set off a cigar fire. Thank you!

FOUND! Nursery Rhymes by manaika (M, 96k, WangXian, NieLan, Modern AU, Inexperienced WWX, Experienced LWJ, Reconciliation, Budding Love, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Unreliable Narrator, Medical Inaccuracies, Slow Burn, Past Character Death, Childhood Trauma, Found Family, Past Injury, Nurse! WWX, Doctor! LXC, Teacher! LWJ, Character With A Heart Condition (Major), Past Incarceration (Major Character), Underage Character With Leukemia (Minor))

NOT FOUND! Insert Coin Now for Extra Life by TriviasFolly (E, 201k, wangxian, modern, ABO, Intersex Omegas, Omega WWX, Alpha LWJ, Marriage contract au, Twitch Streamer WWX, fluff and smut, caring for other while sick, Possessive LWJ, Rare Male Omegas, Pack Dynamics, Sugar Baby vibes, Eventual Smut, Brief mention of lwj/others)

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2. hi - apologies if you have answered this and i missed it, or please ignore if i haven't waited long enough! i really appreciate all you guys do! I'm looking for a longish fic - cloud recesses classes WY gets whipped after JZ/JY engagement broken, recovers in CR while creating talismans. Wens attack and WY explodes heads. ACE JZ, badass Madame Jin, NH sets up JY/NM, WY grabbed by WR, LZ comes to save him and they kill WR. I've tried searching hashtags, but just can't find it -can you help? @oldoni

FOUND? 🧡 To have and to hold by Moominmammashandbag (M, 78k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Major character injury, CQL verse, Happy Ending)

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3. Hello Mojo!! I've always used your blog to find missing fics, but this'll be the first time I send in a an ask!!

I read this fic a long time ago and forgot to bookmark it, the premise was Jiang Yanli was engaged to Lan Zhan but she was in love with Jin Zixuan. So Wei Ying, doing what he does best and offers to take her place.

He's invented a talisman that changes his body to look like Yanlis, the catch is that it affects his health everything he uses the talisman until it eventually hurts him to the point of near death. And he falls in love with Lan Zhan along the way.

Can you help me find this fic?

FOUND? 🔒 You Free Your Mind In Your Androgyny by retired (misbehavingvigilante) (E, 368k, WangXian, JC & JYL & WWX, NHS & WWX, Canon Divergence, Angst with a Happy Ending, Bodyswap, Crossdressing, Dysfunctional Family, Gender Dysphoria, Hurt/Comfort, Identity Porn, Mistaken Identity, Misunderstandings, Transphobia, Self-Worth Issues, Suicidal Thoughts, Trans WWX)

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4. Hiii there was a fic where wei ying was chased by a dog and took shelter in lan zhans house. i remember wy having a panic attack and lz calming him, and ig he had a cat called bunny?? idk this was on the first chp. and it was a long fic ig?? Anyways hope you can find it!! @for13years-i-play-inquiry-foryou

FOUND? leave all your love and your longing behind by ScarlettStorm (E, 143k, WangXian, Modern AU, no magic, Meet-Ugly, Panic Attacks, autistic lwj, neurodivergent wwx, the neighborhood asshole dog, if you’ve met one then you know, Hurt/Comfort, Pining, Minor Angst, major shenanigans, Happy Ending, for everyone including the asshole dog, Eventual Smut, switch rights, Sex Toys, horny yearning, Masturbation)

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5. Hii I am desperately looking for a fic. It is around cloud recess time and wwx is a genuis and gets recognized by the Lans and they treat him well. I remember super specific stuff like there was an elder who blew something up to reroute a river because he needed the water for fire savety and he is kind of mentoring wwx. And some of the elders imply to lwj to court wwx. And there is a kind of scholar equivalent to a discussion converence and the Jiang scholars get so much shit from the Lans for not supporting wwx talent because he is like a once in a generation genius and they usually have systems in place to support people like that but the Jiangs were afraid of madam yu i guess. Thats most of what I remember. I really hope it still exists somewhere... @frankensteins-gendercrisis

FOUND?🔒in the shadow of moonlit flowers by Reverie (cl410) (T, 56k, wangxian, LXC/NMJ, Cloud Recesses, LWJ & NHS Friendship, Developing Relationship, POV LWJ, Minor Injuries, Autistic LWJ, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, aka the Madam Yu warning, Genius WWX, Light Angst And Hurt/Comfort, WWX Protection Squad, Gusu Lan Sect, Slow Burn, Protective LWJ, LWJ-centric)

FOUND? 🧡 Stunted, Starving Juvenility by TomatenMark (E, 859k, WangXian, WIP, Fix-it of sorts, Talisman master WWX, Not JFM Friendly, Study Arc, Getting together, Fluff and Angst, Engagement)

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6. Hi! I'm looking for a f/f wangxian fic, I don't remember much about the plot but I do know in it wwx bullies young lwj and calls her a lesbian. They later meet as adults and wwx is really trying to atone for her actions. Thank you!! @blessrainydays

FOUND? Out of your system by mimilamp (E, 20k, Female WangXian, Modern AU, Rule 63, Sexual Content, Strap-Ons, jealous wwx, lan zhan FUCKS, mention of LWJ/others straight girl WWX, Y E A R N I N G, Additional Warnings In Author's Note)

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7. Hello! Here for the fic finder, please. It starts with Wangxian hunting a monster that eats dreams. At some point it catches lwj and puts him into a dream and wwx goes into the dream and sees that in it they are married? Does that ring any bells?

FOUND? Dream of Me by KingdomFlameVIII (E, 11k, WangXian, Mild Horror, Dreams, Dream Sex, Bathing/Washing, Domestic Fluff, First Kiss, First Time, Light Bondage, Hand Jobs, Anal Fingering)

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8. Hi! I'm looking for a modern au where WWX was a fox that had gotten taken to a sanctuary and he had a faded red ribbon around his neck, it fell off and he got sad about it. It possibly had his name written on the inside of it? Wen Ning either ran the santuary or worked there. WWX might've been cursed to be in a fox form? I can't remember for sure. I thought I'd bookmarked it but can't find it and there's a gazillion fox!wwx fics and I'm not finding it. I can't remember more than that but hopefully someone will know. TIA!

NOT FOUND! in the arms of the angel by ScarlettStorm (E, 37k, WangXian, Modern with Magic, Fox WWX, animal rescuer LWJ, Minor pining, major shenanigans, Comedy, Smut, Getting Together, Hurt/Comfort, Adhd WWX, the mortifying ordeal of getting your head stuck in a peanut butter jar, and getting subsequently rescued by your crush, there were in fact two beds, but LWJ knows what he's about, Blowjobs, Frottage, switch rights, Scent Kink, mildly telepathic sex, courtship via kittens)

FOUND! Found: Extremely Friendly Fox by wanderingflame (T, 22k, ZhuiLing, WangXian, Modern AU, mild animal injury, Curses, Fluff, Reunions, Fox WWX, Foxxian being a lovable terror, POV Alternating, Modern With Cultivation, Tooth-Rotting Fluff, LWJ wears reading glasses because it's sexy)

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9. Hi can I ask you if you could find me a fanfiction where Wei wuxian keeps doing different ghost games and Lan Zhan keeps interrupting them, the other thing I can remember is that they're both university students and Lan Zhan is responsible for the dormitory.

FOUND?🔒Grandmaster of Demonic Party Games by Trickster_Angel (M, 50k, WangXian, Modern AU, College AU, Crack, Light Angst, Humor, Paranormal, horror, Slow Burn)

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10. Hello! Submitting a request to find a fic, cause i'm honestly at my wit's end.

It was multichapter fic and I'm pretty much sure it was finished. It's basically story, where Wei Wuxian transmigrates from modern times into cultivator setting, summoned by mistake, by his counter-part here and basically hijacked their body? And was then promptly attacked by Lan Wangji, who thought it was original

In cultivator setting, Wei Wuxian was also known as a Yilling Laozu - ancient and mad with grief over Lans killing his husband few hundreds years ago. The present Lan Wangji is reincarnation of said husband, but due Yilling Laozu Wei Wuxian not letting him go, he couldn't properly reincarnate or something? Like - he is still man's husband, Lan Wangji, but a little bit different and that stops him from falling in love with YL WWX?

(There was also something about how this Wei Ying was summoned, because Lan Wangji from that universe probably died, before they had a chance to meet.)

Anyway, after getting (i think?) stabbed by Lan Wangji he got taken to Cloud Recess, then he somehow winded up in Lotus Pier, growing close with Jiang siblings. Also, Wei Wuxian from the modern times was some kind of doctor or inventor (?) and he tried bringing some modern solutions there.

I think this think may be quite known, but i tried all the tags i thought that will work and found nothing ://

Thank you very much in advance

FOUND? Old Foreshadows by protos_metazu_ison (M, 15k, WangXian, YLLZ WWX, BAMF WWX, War, Universe Alteration, Sunshot Campaign, Rated For Violence, Timeline What Timeline, Mojo’s post)

FOUND? 🔒 Transverse by Kytrin, Mslead (E, 192k, WangXian, ChengSang, ZhuiLing, ZhenYi, Dimension Travel, Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con, Enemies to Lovers, Transmigration, Past Lives, Canon-Typical Death, Don’t worry - he gets better)

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11. for fic finder, i've read this a few times and suddenly i can't find it- wwx gets taken by a caiyi merchant while he's on his way to dinner with lwj. the merchant is someone wwx had previously gotten along with, so it's a bit of a depressing realization that even this guy hates him.

queue a sinister array, a timely rescue by lwj, and the sobering realization that wwx can't fully escape what he's done in his past life, and it can crop up where he least expects it @stgroversfire

FOUND! Before we get started, does anyone wanna get out? by Iggysassou (E, 13k, WangXian, Married Couple, Post-Canon, mdzs canon rather than cql, 5+1 Things, Canon-Typical Violence, Hurt/Comfort, Domestic Fluff, Protective wwx, protective lwj)

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12. Hi! This is for fic finder. I'm looking for a fic where sect leader JC returns to Lotus Pier after a trip/night hunt and the junior disciples all clamour towards him. JC then picks one of the youngest disciples who gives a short report and sends them off for training. I think it might be from the pov of someone who accompanied him (LWJ? LXC?) and then I think there's a bit of commentary about the kind of sect leader JC is. I think it's likely some sort of canon divergence or time travel fic, but not sure. Thanks!

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13. hi, i’m looking for a fanfic in which jzx’s death was faked, he was found in the lake (?) by wwx, i remember people thought wwx was dead but lwj managed to find him alive in some village. lwj told jiang yanli to find wwx and after he found jzx, he was told not to sleep in the same room with jyl as she was married woman and it was inappropriate. this fic wasn’t finished

FOUND? Discarded by teawater (E, 178k, WIP, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Dying Lan children, Hurt/Comfort, YL WWX, Golden Core Reveal, Case Fic, Depression, Family Issues, Self-Esteem Issues, Self Confidence Issues, Self-Worth Issues, Angst with a Happy Ending, and it's not always dark, POV Multiple, BAMF WWX, dubious morals in the Lan sect Feels, Pining, Grief, Fix-It, BAMF LWJ)

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14. Hi! I’ve been looking for a fic I read a while ago in which WWX designs a talisman (or something) to test blood relationships and finds out he really is JFM’s son. If I remember correctly he’s already left Lotus Pier, I think he finds out with JYL and JC at Cloud Recesses? “This body yet survives” by RoseThorne comes very close but doesn’t have him as JFM’s son. Help please!

I’m pretty sure 14 is a modern era AU and they take a DNA test which reveals the siblings as wwx’s half siblings - can I locate it? Ehhh, of course not unless I get lucky with my history search

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15. I’m looking for a fic that is a modern au, no cultivation, where wwx leaves home or is driven out of his home and loses contact with his sibling and lwj. Fast forward to the future, he’s living somewhere and is with the Wen siblings? I don’t remember how, but somehow lwj finds wwx first, maybe over text? And slowly wwx starts sharing his life again? I feel like maybe wwx had been abused or threatened to never talk to his siblings again. He’s very afraid. I remember Wen Qing was very suspicious of LWJ and protective of wwx. Thanks for your help!

NOT FOUND! clean from the war (your heart fits like a key) by sysrae (E, 28k, WangXian, Modern AU, Reunions, past xy/wwx, xy is fucked up but not evil because it's a modern AU and I said so, Hurt/Comfort, Panic Attacks, past wwx/jfm, Past Rape/Non-con, Past Abuse, Rape Recovery, transphobic violence, Victim Blaming, Past wwx/others, allusions to past self-harm)

FOUND! Love Don't Belong To Me by airinshaw (E, 28k, WangXian, Modern, Getting Together, Kissing, Intercrural Sex, Light Angst, Happy Ending, PTSD, Panic Attack, WWX's canonical self-esteem issues, Canonical Child Abuse, not as dark as the tags imply, Past Relationships mention)

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16. Hello! Thanks in advance for this. I read ff earlier this year, it was post-canon I guess, Wei Wuxian is staying in cloud recesses and Lan wangji is chief cultivator (I guess). once wwx took juniors to night hunt and he kminda knew that someone will come for him, a walking corpse was searching for him specifically. after empathy wwx got to know that the walking corpse is his father. I dont remember anything other than this scene. Please help! @vbhardwaj-reads

FOUND! An Aftermath More Devastating Than The Storm by UneducatedAuthor (Not Rated, 111k, WangXian, Hurt/Comfort, Angst with a Happy Ending, Post-Canon, Everyone Loves WWX, The Junior Ensemble Love WWX, Hurt WWX, Protective LWJ, Protective LSZ, WWX Deserves Better, Genius WWX, WWX Protection Squad, Chief Cultivator LWJ, Cultivation Sect Politics, JC & WWX Reconciliation) Has Wei Changze as a fierce corpse searching for his son

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17. For fic finder, I remember it was a multichap canon dovergent wangxian fic with inventor wwx. Tho I am not sure if that tag was used. The most notable part of it was Madam Jin bringing evidence of jgs putting his lot in with wrh complete with bills, transactions, correspondences etc. Jgs tries to discredit her by being a misogynist. That's when madam Jin uses a wwx custom binding spell on him and then says "I am a quick study when I want to be" to wwx and then she says "thank you for your instruction" because she learned the spell from jzx who saw wwx teach it to jc in cloud recesses lectures. After that she tells jzx to take the sect leader's seat and there was resistance from jin elders in the same scene and also in other later chapters. It was complete and happy ending I believe for wangxian too @yiling-laozu-is-loml

FOUND? Cultivating immortality by KizuKatana (E, 231k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Rogue Cultivator WWX, Mutual Pining, BAMF WWX, BAMF LWJ, Angst with a Happy Ending, Hurt/Comfort, unreliable narrator, Found Family, First Time, novel canon relationship dynamics)

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18. Hey its my first ask so i don't know if I'm doing it right... I've been trying to find two specific fics really hard but no luck yet. I hope you'd be able to help

A) It was a post-sunshot campaign au..I think someone basically heard wwx getting yelled at by jc and flinching away from his touch. That gives rise to rumours that jc is sexually abusing wwx. Everyone starts pitying wwx and it comes to a head at some sort of banquet..?

B) A post-canon wangxian fluff fic. I think it might've been a 5+1 sort of fic but im not sure. There was one particular scene where wwx is just hanging out with other lan spouses and they are all complaining about their husband but wwx is silent cause lwj treats him really well..After he says so one of the women say "how long will it take your husband to realise if I kill you and take your place?" To which wwx replies "like right away"

I really hope you'll be able to find them

18A)

FOUND? Short Prompts by Vrishchika (M, 40k, WIP, WangXian, Originally Posted on Tumblr, Not JC Friendly, Separate Tags for Each Chapter) chapter 15 I'm sure of it

18B)

FOUND? Life before you was tragic by covalentbonds (Not rated, 4k, wangxian, Fluff and Humor)

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19. Hello! I am trying to find a fix where Wei ying get thrown to burial mound by wen Chao as a child, and then he become the protector of Yiling! He is always covered in shadows when he meet the sects! Can anyone remember the title! It is in AoW but I cannot find it! Help please!🙏 Thanks 😊 Have a wonderful day! @fallingstar77

I don't remember the name of #19 fic, but what I do remember is that it's listed on the amazing Warprize compilation you guys did.

FOUND? 💖 what price is duty, what cost is love by thunderwear (G, 18k, wangxian, Canon Divergence, WWX was never adopted by the Jiang Sect, War Prize, YLLZ WWX, Mutual Pining, First Kiss, First Time, Falling In Love, eventual dramatic confessions, Eventual Happy Ending, Angst with a Happy Ending)

FOUND? Sanctuary by Alineko (T, 45k, WIP, WangXian, XuanLi, Canon Divergence, YLLZ WWX, WWX Isn't Adopted by the Jiangs, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Cultivation Sect Politics, Sunshot Campaign, Overpowered WWX, Burial Mounds Ensemble as Family, WWX Creates a Sect | Yiling Wei Sect, Sect Leader WWX, Unreliable Narrator LWJ, Everyone Lives/Nobody Dies, Self-Indulgent, Touch-Starved WWX, Different First Meeting, POV Alternating, Other Ships Not Mentioned in Tags)

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20. Hi, Im looking for a fic that may have been deleted but i'll try here. In it LWJ takes a'yuan away from cloud recesses to raise outside of the sect after WWXs death. He builds a garden with various monuments one of which is a boulder tied down with ropes to represent the Xuanwu. Eventually he senses something and goes to the burial mounds where he drags a reborn WWX from the blood pool. He takes him home to rehabilitate. On the way he stops at an inn to bathe him. Thats all I remember<3

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[princessmisery666]

Sam Is Wearing Green Today

Warnings/Genres/Troupes: fluff. 

W/C: 450

Characters: Sam Winchester, Dean Winchester.  

Pairing: Sam Winchester x Reader (you - no descriptions of gender, body type, or ethnicity).

A/N: I had a dream that I shared with @deanwinchesterswitch , and she encouraged me to write it out, so here it is - purely self-indulgent fluffy Sam appreciation.

Betas: @deanwinchesterswitch

Graphics: dividers @firefly-graphics

Master Lists: Sam Winchester // All The Fandoms

Sam Is Wearing Green Today.

Sam’s wearing a green plaid shirt today. It’s distracting. You're supposed to be listening to Dean and the theory of what creature you're hunting. But it's all white noise because Sam is wearing green today. 

If you were more poetic, you could have described how it made his kaleidoscope eyes brighter. You could have likened it to a forest of evergreens, alive and fresh, or Autumn nipping at Summer’s nose, tingeing the edges of green leaves with brown. But you can’t find the perfect description because Sam is wearing green today. 

Your nose is stuck in a book, but your eyes are locked on Sam. The white noise fades, and his voice comes into focus while he counters Dean’s theory and offers his own. You also have a theory, a mixture of both being correct. But you can’t voice it because Sam is weaning green today.

Dean’s phone rings, and he steps away from the table to answer it. Sam glances over at you, and though you know you’re staring, you're unable to look away. He offers the softest smile as he stands, probably feeling extremely uncomfortable under your watchful eye. But you can’t stop your ogling because Sam is wearing green today. 

You follow his movement as he walks to refill his coffee mug, going as far as turning your head to look over your shoulder to keep your gaze trained on him. The shirt looks soft, and you're momentarily jealous that it gets to caress his skin all day. Does it know how lucky it is? You chuckle to yourself at how ridiculous the thought is. But it makes total sense because Sam is wearing green today.  

Fresh cup of joe in hand, he turns back around, his eyes immediately landing on you. “Why are you staring at me?” he asks, self-consciousness dusting his cheeks. It was never your intention to make him feel uncomfortable. But you can’t tell him that you can’t take your eyes off him because he’s wearing green today.

You shrug and give an unconvincing lie, “No reason,” even though it’s clearly causing him concern. You make no attempt to stop your peculiar behaviour because Sam is wearing green today. 

Sam’s chuckle morphs into a bashful dimpled smile as he approaches you slowly, never taking his eyes off of yours.  “I love you too.” He bends and kisses you, firm but sweet. He lingers against your lips for a long moment before pulling back to focus on you again, “Now I know why you haven’t stolen this shirt.”

He’s right. You left that one because it’s always a treat when Sam is wearing green. 

A/N2: if anyone has any good pictures of Sam/Jared in green please share 🥰

Master Lists: Sam Winchester // All The Fandoms

Tag lists open: see here Info

Tags: @alexxavicry / @b3autyfuldisast3r-blog / @deanwinchesterswitch / @fandom-princess-forevermore / @foxyjwls007 / @jc-winchester / @justagirlinafandomworld / @leigh70 / @letsbys-library / @mrswhozeewhatsis / @nancymcl / @shanimallina87 / @stoneyggirl2 / @waywardbaby / @wildbornsiren / @writercole / @pank0w / @kmc1989 / @sams-sass

[justsomeoneunordinary]

yo, im making 2k25 the year of sending asks to my fav blogs, soooo:

how about 🍿, 🌶, & 🍾 for this ask game?

Awww, thank you!! 😘😘😘

I definitely need to start sending more aks too. I just talk so much in the tags that I forget people are also happy when they receive asks...

🍿 - Your top three favorite Fics atm

Not one in a fandom you're interested in, I'm afraid but:

1. Always Means Always by Salmon_I - an Untamed fic, Jiang Cheng centric with absolutely amazing characterization of each character. It's so hard to find a JC fic where he isn't either written by an anti who makes him at fault for everything or by a stan who woobiefy's the shit out of him and makes everyone else at fault. A fic written by a JC fan who doesn't shy away from pointing out JC's flaws. Or the other characters' flaws - without being an anti. Only person in this fandom I have seen pointing out that Wen Ning isn't a good person per se or that Lan Wangji's blind loyalty to Wei Wuxian is in fact a huge character flaw and not a good thing.

Also the only other person I've seen finding LWJ boring without being a total hater. Like yeah, I do find him uninteresting and wish he wasn't so in my face all the time, but I don't hate him! Everyone else is either a fan or an extreme anti. Not this author, this author has the same opinion on every Untamed character as me, which is extremely refreshing to see.

This fic, the characterizations and the character analysis in the end notes of almost every chapter has done more to clear my skin than any of the face products I tried out. 100/10, I highly recommend!

2. gravity of tempered grace by SilverStudios5140 - a Naruto founders fic. I came for the Senju bros feels and the Mito characterization but I'm staying for everything else too. The TobiIzu is just a bonus, honestly. I have a bunch of chapters to catch up with first but once I sit down to read them, it'll be impossible to stop. Despite using some fandom-specific tropes I dislike (or even hate), the fic still has me in a strong chokehold, just like this author's other Naruto time travels fic. The world-building and the characterizations are just so gripping!

3. Lonely, Dark, and Deep by nirejseki - also a Naruto founders fic. Less of a favorite fic at the moment and more of an all-time favorite fic ever since I entered the founders fandom. The Senju bro feels just hit so damn good that the MadaTobi is just second to me. The original eldritch being Hashi fic - the ending gets me every fucking time. It doesn't matter that this fic will never be finished bc with how the last chapter ends, I can just look at it as an open ending and the fact that I'll forever be left wondering makes it so much more interesting than if it had a definite ending tbh. Every time I re-read this fic, I am immediately captured in its grip.

🌶️ - A trope you’re loving right now

Rule 63. Make an M/M or M/F ship I like into F/F and I come running so fucking fast. Go and turn those guys into gals fr. Make them all gals even with just a few token guys - if the shounen writers can make their stories a dick fest with just the occasional pussy in between, then fandom can do the opposite 💖

🍾 - A character the fandom has helped you appreciate more

Depends on which fandom lol. Considering I'm in the Naruto fandom rn, the answer would be Madara. Technically, all of the founders bc I didn't care for any of them before I clicked on a MadaTobi fic out of curiosity and suddenly found interest in them. But Madara the most because I actually disliked him in the beginning lol. I didn't hate him, but I wasn't a fan. I always found his fight during the 4th war boring - nothing less interesting to me than when an op character is introduced who defeats our strongest characters without a single drop of sweat.

(This is an opinion that I still have. I just cannot be arsed to care about Madara defeating the shinobi alliance and the Gokage so easily, even tho I do like him now. That shit is fucking boring to me!)

But the MadaTobi fandom made me see that Madara is quite an intriguing character before he became ridiculously overpowered - his personality pre-Konoha, his dreams and everything that happened to drive him mad are so interesting to explore! I definitely wouldn't have gotten here without the MdTb fics.

Also, to mention a fandom you know about - Bucky. Never mind that I hate him so much these days that I can't even stand to see his face anymore, I did use to be a fan. And that's only thanks to the WinterIron fandom. I did not care about him or even think about him at all before I stumbled onto BuckyTony and realized that he's quite an interesting character to explore.

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Thanks again for the asks ♥️ And sorry for ramling so much abt fandoms you know nothing of... but there's just nothing abt the MCU that's keeping me in the fandom anymore 😅

Send asks!

[jcs-study]

Thinking About JCS Too Much, Vol. 1: "Jaded Mandarin" - Lost in Translation?

Intro

In my second attempt at an introduction for this blog, I pondered aloud, "Ever wonder if you’re too big a fan of your favorite piece of entertainment?" Suffice it to say, that is far from the only time that thought has crossed my mind.

You see, unlike many faded celebrities attempting to jump-start their careers afresh by "finding religion," I followed the opposite path. I don’t remember hearing about God, Jesus, or anything like that before a certain age. I was about 4 when I first started becoming aware of religion. Something related to Christendom spawned a cover story in Time magazine, and they had this beautiful traditional artwork of Jesus on the front that caught my eye. I became obsessed with religion in general, and the Christ story in particular. (Even today a lot of my extracurricular reading is devoted to religious fiction and non-fictional religious studies, and the shelves of my film collection are strewn with biblical epics, both Old Testament and New. I’m by no means invested in the Abrahamic faiths -- in fact, I'm now an avowed atheist -- but I won’t deny that I’m very knowledgeable about them.)

This obsession led me to Jesus Christ Superstar, and so my life as a show biz professional, and my switch from a special interest (yay, spectrum!) in religion and the surrounding scholarship to one in a single telling of a story that happens to deal with religious subject matter, began.

Naturally, this has led to a few embarrassing incidents of over-thinking where I nerd out just a little too much, primarily from a literary perspective. (Case in point: my answer to a recent question posed to this blog about the lack of a detail from the biblical story in the show. Did I need to go "all in" on whether or not Jesus was actually prophesying that Peter would deny him three times by the time a rooster crowed? Probably not. Did I anyway? Oh, c'mon, you've read it by now, don't make me relive it.)

So, in a similar vein, I'm going to periodically write about those moments where I nerd out too much, in hopes that my immense nerdiness will maybe give someone a deeper understanding of the show, even just a small part of it. You've seen one, thanks to an inquiry from an anonymous fellow fan; after the jump, here's another.

Translation vs. Adaptation

Among the many unique features of JCS, it was one of the first musicals of its kind to be widely adapted into the local vernacular when presented internationally, rather than merely importing an English-language cast as the custom used to be.

Besides its mother tongue, JCS can (theoretically) be heard in:

Czech

French

German (anecdotally, it has been reported that the German translation is not the best, which is why many productions in German-speaking countries opt for the English instead; however, that might be about to change, as the production at the Luisenburg Festspiele Wunsiedel this summer is supposed to mark the debut of a new authorized one -- we'll see how it goes!)

Hungarian (there's two Hungarian ones, actually)

Japanese

Polish

Portuguese

Romanian (in a translation recently debuted in, of all places, Chicago)

Russian (there are several, both official and unofficial; we will deal with all of them today)

Spanish (both the European variety and two Mexican ones)

Swedish (at least two that I'm aware of, the original and whatever Ola Salo uses for productions involving him)

(And those are just the ones I know about.)

While I appreciate JCS most in its original language, being a native English speaker myself, I realize translation and adaptation are important, for all the reasons that they usually are: not everybody speaks a foreign language with dexterity, or is capable of processing it at the pace a play or musical is performed; almost without exception, people respond better to the language they grew up speaking, especially in a piece of entertainment; and, most importantly, translation allows ideas and information to spread across cultures, sometimes changing history in the process. (After all, no matter what your religious belief, part of the reason the Bible -- the show's source material, as if you needed a reminder -- has had such an impact on history is the sheer number of translations, which, at last count, is 531 languages.)

However, translation into any language (pro or amateur) is a delicate art, especially where a play or musical is concerned. As Don Bartlett, who has translated Danish, German, Norwegian, Spanish, and Swedish books into English, put it in a piece where several translators were interviewed for The Guardian, “There’s always a tension between being true to the original and being readable.” On the one hand, translating the meanings of words and phrases in a literal way maintains fidelity to the text; on the other, translating sense-for-sense, taking into account the meanings of phrases or whole sentences, can improve readability. And that’s just books… imagine doing this for theater or film!

Personally, I subscribe to the assessment of Edith Grossman (also interviewed in the aforementioned Guardian piece), who once said: “…the most fundamental description of what translators do is that we write — or perhaps rewrite — in language B a work of literature originally composed in language A, hoping that readers of the second language — I mean, of course, readers of the translation — will perceive the text, emotionally and artistically, in a manner that parallels and corresponds to the aesthetic experience of its first readers. This is the translator’s grand ambition. Good translations approach that purpose. Bad translations never leave the starting line.”

(Or, to tie this back into our topic somewhat more closely, I'm mashing together two quotes from two different interviews with the late Herbert Kretzmer, the adaptor of such popular foreign musicals as Les Misérables, Marguerite, and Kristina: "Words have resonance within a culture, they have submarine strengths and meaning. If I wanted a literal translation, I would go to the dictionary. Translation — the very word I rebut and resent, because it minimizes the genuine creativity that I bring to the task. [...] I offer this advice to any lyricist invited to adapt or translate foreign songs into English: Do not follow the original text slavishly. Re-invent the lyric in your own words, remembering that there may be better ways of serving a master than trotting behind him on a leash.")

Nowhere is this job harder than JCS, especially in Russian. As languages, Russian and English are just too different from each other, each very rich in emotional shadings that the other language lacks (or at least conveys differently), to a point that nearly every new production of JCS over there has led to a fresh translation. Tim Rice's unusual wordplay, masterful (at times) in English, is very difficult to convey in a foreign tongue, especially when it can be safely argued that the expression in question is hardly common to its native audience.

The Piece We're Evaluating

As if the title didn't give it away, I speak, of course, of a certain insult Judas hurls at Jesus during their climactic argument at the Last Supper, calling him:

A jaded mandarin A jaded mandarin As a jaded jaded faded jaded jaded mandarin

That's a doozy in English, to say the least. I may have written on this blog previously that I’ve heard enough jokes about the Last Supper being at an all-you-can-eat Chinese restaurant or Jesus’ penchant for citrus fruits to be tired of them all.

In case you missed Tim's actual meaning: mandarin is not just a variety of orange, a form of the Chinese language, or a term for an official in any of the nine top grades of the former imperial Chinese civil service (or clothing characteristic of what they’d allegedly wear or porcelain objets d’art depicting them). The root word for mandarin in Hindi means “counselor,” and – unfortunately, given this definition’s origin in unkind Asian racial stereotypes – the term came to refer (in colonialist British parlance) to a powerful official or senior bureaucrat, especially one perceived as reactionary and secretive. When he calls Jesus a “jaded mandarin,” Judas is saying that Jesus is corrupt, washed up, and useless as a leader.

Could Tim Rice have found a better way to say that? Probably. But this is the method he chose, and for better or worse, it has gone down in history ever since, including a recent parodic reference in the second season of the Apple TV+ series Schmigadoon! to a “sour macaroon.”

Now, it took all that explanation to convey its meaning in English. How well do you think it crossed over to Russian? Well, no less than 16 translators decided to try; some were official, others fan translations that were used in little-known productions. (The number should not be surprising. This is very much the viewpoint of an outsider looking in who lived long after that time, but when an album is banned by the government, bootleg copies change hands for huge sums "underground," and the music on that album is in a style also banned by the government… well, let's just say something "forbidden" is going to attract a lot of people. After that initial burst of enthusiasm, then it's like any other piece of literature which is translated a number of times by multiple people -- someone who thinks they can do a better job of conveying the foreign meaning in their native tongue, perhaps in a more modern dialect or a more relevant way.)

Inspired by a conversation I had on ye olde JCS Zone Forum (RIP) with Russian fan Pasha Levcovetz, we're going to take a look at all of them, evaluating them for literal vs. poetic accuracy and also offering opinions on which might have even -- dare I say it -- improved on the original. For the sake of most of my readership, I'll render the Russian in (literal but accurate) English so you can understand what the adapted lyrics intend to say. (Special thanks to Pasha for his help!)

Translating "Mandarin"

As one might expect with a phrase that is not exactly common linguistic currency, and the number of jokes made about Tim's choice of words, the first problem Russian translators might encounter is "mandarin" -- more specifically, whether or not it is a literal reference to mandarin fruit.

Much to both my dismay and my amusement, two of the official translators and three of the fans decided that the lyric indeed referred to the fruit.

In the Teatr Mossoveta production in Moscow, which has been presented numerous times from 1990 to the present (and which made much larger departures that I've previously written about in response to a question from @nemoverne), Yaroslav Kesler rendered it like so:

Like a pitiful tangerine Like a pitiful tangerine Like a pitiful, pitiful, pitiful, pitiful, yellow tangerine!

For the more faithful version recorded on CD in 1992, Vyacheslav Ptitsyn traveled in a similar direction:

Squeezed lemon! You are a squeezed lemon! You are a pathetic, petty, pathetic, petty squeezed lemon!

Lastly, for something that is not a variation on either of the above, fan translator Yevgeniy Susorov gives us:

You are a withered fruit You are rotten, tasteless fruit You are a withered fig tree that will die in the flames!

I can see their intention, and, in my opinion, both Ptitsyn and Susorov improved on the original line, although this was probably coincidental in the former's case.

As far as Kesler is concerned, it's more of a vague fruit comparison that sort of makes sense. A yellow tangerine is overripe, and as tasty as overly ripened fruit can be, it's prone to developing patches of mold, and goes bad when left uneaten for too long. The meaning here when Judas applies it to Jesus as an insult should be clear, as he's been saying something like this about him -- metaphorically speaking -- for the entire show. (In the fan category, Vadim Zhmud makes the same choice and is even more explicit about his intentions, rendering the fruit as a "lethargic," "well-fed" tangerine. Mikhail Kokovikhin's take also chooses "tangerine," but gets caught up in trying to use it in exactly the way Tim uses "mandarin," repeating the word for emphasis and relying on the fact that Russian has three different synonyms for the word "rotten" to pad out the stanza. There's nothing wrong with trying to match Tim's choices as closely as possible, but just calling someone a rotten fruit in all the ways one can is a little weak.)

Ptitsyn's is more intriguing, partially because of a (likely) unintentional double meaning. If you recall, he refers to a pathetic lemon that has had all the juice squeezed out of it. In American English, in addition to referring to the fruit of the same name, "lemon" is also used to refer to a product, usually an automobile, that has flaws -- like manufacturing defects, in the car's case -- too great or severe to serve its intended purpose. (To cite a more abstract usage, the late Jim Steinman aptly used the "lemon" analogy in the Meat Loaf song "Life Is a Lemon And I Want My Money Back.") In Russian, the phrase "squeezed lemon" similarly refers to someone very tired, a person who has lost their strength or abilities. Poetically speaking, Judas calling Jesus a "lemon" at this moment has an extra layer of meaning that works really well in either language.

Lastly, my favorite (if only as an atheist theologian) is Susorov, who doesn't just spin the line into a much better fruit metaphor -- he even gets biblical with it, referencing both Jesus' teaching about "trees bearing bad fruit" and also one bad tree in particular that figured into Jesus' final week in the original Passion narrative.

Quoting loosely from the King James Version of Matthew's Gospel (an incident also recounted in Mark, chapter 11): "And seeing a fig tree by the wayside [Jesus] went to it and found nothing on it but only leaves. And he said to it, 'May no fruit ever come from you again!' And the fig tree withered."

In Susorov's text, Judas is not only condemning Jesus as the tree bearing bad fruit against which he preached, but also comparing him to a specific, very recent failure that might still sting.

(Susorov's choice is made even more ironic by the fact that Lloyd Webber and Rice intended to musicalize this moment in JCS themselves, but ultimately decided to cut it from the original album when concerns of length were raised, as previously discussed here. If that scene was still in the show, this would be quite the burn!)

Getting at the Meaning

Moving away from the poetic toward conveying the lyric's literal intention without getting bogged down in language, both official and fan translators seem to settle for general insults, so it becomes a different question: whether they are just that (i.e., general insults) or they convey the same meaning as intended by "jaded mandarin."

The latter is achieved adequately by Viktor Polyak (Yaroslavskiy Gosudarstvennyy Teatr Yunogo Zritelya, 1989-1994):

You are a crashed idol You are a crashed idol You are a crashed, broken, dirty idol!

It works. The show is called Jesus Christ Superstar; a fallen celebrity metaphor is far from out of place. Maksim Samoylov, in the fan department, goes for a similar take, having Judas call Jesus a "little, fallen star."

Svetlana Peyn, whose translation has appeared at Stas Namin in Moscow from 2011 to the present, is on a similar wavelength:

You are a pompous hero You are a pompous hero With poisonous loud glory you are a self-important pompous hero

Ouch!

Mikhail Parygin, a fan translator, is in the same boat, going for "a [...] pathetic, petty, pompous king." Likewise Andrey Voskresenskiy, with "a [...] surrendered, fallen, finished prophet," and Vera Degtyaryova, who settles for "a miserable [...] former leader." Also rather close is Aleksandr Butuzov, who has Judas call Jesus "a loser" and "a mediocre, brainless, stupid leader." Though Russian fans I've spoken to don't especially care for his choice of words in their own language, it's on the mark as far as literal meaning goes.

Another official translation is not quite in the same realm, but close enough to make sense. Specifically, Grigoriy Kruzhkov and Marina Boroditskaya, holding the pen for the St. Petersburg Rock Opera State Theater in an adaptation which has been produced since 1990, provided:

Like a rebel! Like a simple rebel! Like a deceiver and a thief! Like a self-proclaimed king!

Metaphorically speaking, if you squint at it, it looks similar; full-bore insults that at least fit the plot.

Things get a little more interesting when translators move farther afield. For example, on the official front, Valeriy Lagosha's version for the "Free Space" Theater in Oryol, which ran from 2003-07, is:

No, I do not want this, prophet I do not want this, prophet After all, in this life I was able to do much more

It's an interesting idea to follow Judas' suggestion in "Heaven On Their Minds" that everyone would be better off if Jesus had not become famous and reinforce that point.

On the fan front, Kirill Sukhomlinov chooses to turn Jesus' biblical language about the religious authorities back on him:

You are a pathetic hypocrite You are a pathetic hypocrite You are a pathetic, pathetic, pathetic, pathetic, nasty hypocrite!

And Maksim Zakharov doesn't really hit on the exact idea, but manages to create something that at least fits the character and situation:

You are a dark person You are a terrible person I am glad that you will end your life in prison!

Conclusion

Will there ever be a perfect translation? The jury's still out, especially -- it would seem -- in Russian. (There are more examples just from Russian translations to talk about that I will contemplate in future posts.) But it's always fascinating to view a piece from someone else's perspective, isn't it?

[dolokhoded]

You're easily the person who cares the most about Simon Z I've ever seen, so I thought I'd share smt

A few days ago I saw the current dutch tour of jcs and simon z definitely seemed to have smt going on. First of all his look reminded me of your apostle designs (/pos!), but he also kinda looked like he eats trash lol. So in poor Jerusalem, Jesus hugged him and held him close, but simon pushed him away and ran off, trying to hide his face. Then during the last supper, after Jesus prophesized the denial and betrayal, simon gets in an argument with a few other apostles. He was standing apart from them, they pointed at Jesus and he seemed to get defensive about something. (to me it almost seemed he was like 'idk what he's got going on/why he's acting like that/he's been weird' idk tho just the vibe I got). And then, during Judas and Jesus' argument he sits at the edge of the stage with his back turned away from them and the rest of the apostles, as he drowns a bottle of wine. So yeah anyway, wonder what that was all about

Oh also! Mary stands up for herself in strange thing mystifying, which i thought you also might appreciate! ('who are you to criticise me/who are you to despise me! leave me, leave me! let me be now!' after which jesus continues as usual)

i hope you understand i went oh HELL yes immediately when i saw this ask in my inbox i'm really living up to my blog title and my reputation here. #1 zimon enthusiast if he has zero fans i am dead.

first of all i take great offense at the implication that my simon design doesn't look like he eats trash (/lh).

this characterization is incredible i love it that's pretty much simon tbh. sitting back during the main character drama and stirring up more, unnecessary background drama. idk what's wrong with him but it's very wrong hope he goes to therapy soon, i admittedly love when productions do these little things to give background characters more of an arc or a personality even when they're sometimes unnecessary, do i get where simon's whole thing fits in in the story, no, do i care, also no.

(and at the end of the day, it doesn't matter ! cause that's life ! there's constantly shit going on with everyone around you, it's realistic ! and that's why i love jcs productions that utilize their ensembles well and create solid dynamics between the characters, it even helps highlight the main characters' dynamics to each other cause now there's context to the group ! there's context to the story ! this is a social setting !)

i also like mary getting those lines :) get his ass. i think mary should either not acknowledge judas' existence at all arena 2012 style or absolutely get his ass.

[masked-k]

Happy Holidays!

Hey guys :) for this Christmas season, I wanted to share this short story (~3k) I wrote some time ago that takes place on Christmas Eve. This is actually a character backstory for one of my larger projects, TWTHU, that I haven't mentioned on this blog yet.

If you choose to read, thank you! I appreciate the support <3. But either way, Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to you!!! 🎄🎅🎁

(I haven't written trigger warnings before, so I'm not sure of the exact phrasings, but...)

TW: injury, bleeding, hitman, mafia, arson, death

Ignition's Eve

Christmas lights glowed under clouds of untouched snow. Justinian drove down the icy street as he had a million times over, a spark of his youth reignited with every passing streetlight. Skeletal trees reached their fingers over the quiet neighborhood. Justinian smiled at the warm lights seeping from his childhood home as he pulled into the driveway. There was still a dent in the garage where he’d crashed his dad’s truck the first time he drove it. His dad had merely laughed, but took advantage of Justinian’s countless offers to make it up to him. The pair had spent the rest of their summer working on various house projects, but his dad left for a work trip before they could fix the garage door and the mistake became sentimental.

Justinian picked up the warm aluminum tray from his passenger’s seat and shut his car door. Ice crunched under his boots as he walked up the front pathway. He flinched as an icicle brushed past his face, shattering on the top step of the porch. Justinian knocked on the front door, adorned by a wreath inscribed with the family name, Casimir.

He smiled as he watched his brother rush to the door through the sidelites. Another icicle crashed on the porch. The door swung open and a bright-eyed teenage boy stood on the other side.

“Yoo, JC!”

“Hey, Annie. How’ve you been, bro.” Justinian grinned and pulled his brother Ansel into a hug.

“Bro, I’ve told you—”

“Justinian, is that you?” The familiar voice was carried by sweet smells coming from the kitchen.

“Yeah, it’s me, mom.” Justinian left his dripping boots at the door and hung his coat in his old spot. He carried the aluminum tray into the kitchen. “I brought tamales.”

“Oh, bless you. They just make them so much better in LA.” She hugged him and set the tray on the island. He smiled and washed his hands as his mom handed Ansel a knife to cut the lettuce. 

“So,” she said, turning back to the tray of biscuits on the counter, “How’s school been, now that you’re moving onto the journalism classes?”

“Oh, the major-specific classes? They’re going good.” Justinian helped his brother with the salad. “It’s the due dates that are killing me.”

“Me too!” Ansel said, “I’ve got this one teacher and she makes everything due at the end of class.”

“Oh, Mrs. Mariah?” Justinian laughed. “She’s still making you guys do that?”

“Yeah, all the freaking time.” He rolled his eyes. “See mom, I’m telling you it’s not just me.”

“Well I’m just saying, she seemed nice enough at the back to school night.” Justinian was hit with a blast of warm air as his mom slid the tray of biscuits into the oven. 

“That’s how they get you, mom. They’re only nice to the parents, in class they switch up,” Ansel said.

“He’s got a point.” Justinian said.

As Ansel picked up the salad bowl, his arm struck the knife. The blade clattered against the tile floor. Justinian grabbed a paper towel and quickly bent down to clean it up. 

“Ansel!” His mom gasped.

“I’m sorry, mom.” He set down the bowl and reached for another paper towel. 

“Just be more careful next time. You could have hurt yourself.”  She kissed him on the forehead and wiped her hands on a dish towel. 

Justinian and Ansel set the table as their mom placed a tray of sweet yams on the counter. Ansel excitedly updated Justinian about everything he’d missed since Thanksgiving, their mom only cutting in to straighten out his stories with less exaggerated accounts of what happened. She called the boys to help her take the glistening maroon ham out of the oven. Platters were filled with steaming food and placed in the center of the dark oak dining table.

“Your dad will be home soon,” Justinian’s mom said, “He’s just getting home from another work trip.”

“Nice,” Justinian said, “How’s that been going?”

“He’s been gone more often now,” Ansel said.

“Work’s been taking a toll on him lately,” his mom said.

Justinian helped his mom with a pitcher of iced tea and filled four glasses. Ansel sat at the table and grabbed a biscuit.

“Ansel, what did I tell you about waiting for others?” his mom said.

Justinian smiled and shook his head as he sat across from his brother. His mom sat next to him after she finished wiping down the counters. Ansel eyed his dad’s empty seat at the head of the table. Justinian passed a glance to him and carefully watched his mom’s expression. 

“Well, I don’t see a reason why we can’t start.” His mom scooped salad onto her plate and promptly started eating. Ansel and Justinian met eyes and took bites out of their food. 

“And how have you been, mom?” Justinian said. 

“Oh good, good so far.” She bit into a biscuit, “Mmm, these are really good.”

“Agreed.” Ansel smiled. 

“And how about the business?” Justinian said. 

“It’s been a little slow, but…oh, look at this new design I've been working on.” She stood up and hurried into the living room.

After she was out of sight Ansel sighed. He looked up at his brother. “I'm just tired of him leaving her hanging like this,” he muttered.

Justinian's mom returned to the table and showed him a ring drawn in pencil. Metal vines twisted around a round-cut diamond.

“Wow, that’s beautiful, mom.”

“Thank you, sweetie.”

She set the sketchbook down beside her on the table. Ansel and Justinian took bites out of their food, watching their dad’s plate grow cold.

A car door slammed outside, followed by thundering footsteps on the porch. Justinian’s mom turned toward the door and smiled, straightening her hair. Justinian grinned at Ansel; his brother returned the gesture but his smile did not reach his eyes. Keys fumbled at the door and Justinian’s dad burst into the living room. 

“Hey, honey,” his mom said, “Come join us for dinner.”

Justinian’s dad stormed straight into the kitchen and heaved his duffel bag onto the counter. Justinian’s mom stood as his dad took off his jacket and ran his arms under scalding hot water from the sink. Red water rushed down the drain.

“Amon,” Justinian’s mom gasped. She ran up to him but he held a hand out to her. 

“They’re coming.” Justinian’s dad spoke with shaky breaths. He reached for a bottle of peroxide from under the sink. He grimaced as he pulled off his shirt, revealing bloodied wounds below. 

“Dad,” Justinian said. He moved quickly, taking a damp towel from his mom and wiping around his dad’s wounds. Ansel rushed upstairs and returned with a first aid kit. 

“Wh–what happened?” his mom said. 

Justinian’s dad winced as he sprayed at his wounds. He took a wad of cotton from Ansel and tightly wrapped bandages around his torso. His eyes seemed to snap out of their daze as he looked up at his wife.

“You have to leave.” He looked at each of them then held onto his wife’s shoulders. “Evanna, you have to take the boys and get out of here.”

“What’s going on?” Ansel said. His wide eyes darted over his dad.

“I never thought they’d find out.” Justinian’s dad panted. “They were never supposed to find out.”

“W–who…what happened—what are th–they,” his mom stuttered. 

Justinian grabbed his dad’s arm. “Slow down. Talk.”

“Yes, yes, okay.” His dad met his eyes. “Son.”

Justinian’s dad tightly gripped the granite countertops. “I haven’t told you all what I really do for a living.” He fixed his gaze on the floor. “I work with bad people. I do bad things.”

“But, you told me…” Justinian’s mom gasped. “I thought you got out.”

“Once you’re in, you can’t leave.” His dad shook his head. “I’m a hitman. I work with the mafia.”

Ansel took a step toward his mom. “What do you mean he told you?”

Justinian’s parents passed a glance between each other. Ansel’s brows furrowed. 

“Why would you stay with him?” Ansel shouted. “Why would you let him do this to you?”

“Ansel,” Justinian said.

“When I first met your dad, he was recovering from his…line of work.” His mom rubbed her forehead, then looked up at her husband. “You promised me you’d left it. You promised me you’d keep this family safe!”

“I thought I was,” he shouted, then sighed, “Everything I did was to keep this family safe.”

“Well you didn’t do it very well, did you?” Ansel scoffed. “You’re not here to see just how much you’re tearing this family apart. Do you know how late mom stays up, waiting for you to decide we’re worth your time? And all this time you’ve been hanging around with…what, criminals! Murderers! Killing for money? Power? What—why would you do this!”

“I’m not murdering for them,” his dad said through gritted teeth, “I’m working against them, killing them from the inside. I saw how their organization worked years ago. I took my time learning the system, and now I’m tearing it down. I’m doing it for justice, Ansel, so the world you live in is safer. So you don’t ever fall into their hands.”

Justinian’s dad paced across the kitchen. “But you need to leave. They’re coming here, they figured me out.”

“How?” Justinian’s mom said, “You’ve always been so careful, h–how could they track you here?”

“There’s always someone that’s better,” Justinian’s dad said.

“So what are you gonna do?” Justinian said.

His dad stopped pacing. “I need to disappear. You need to be somewhere safe. They don’t know about you guys, not yet anyway. But they’re coming here.”

“They’ll know we live here, dad, there’s too much evidence,” Justinian said. He looked up suddenly. “Do they know your real name? Your real identity? You do have a fake identity, an alter ego, don’t you?”

“Of course I do.” A small smile crept onto his face but quickly fell away. “No, you’re right, they don’t know my real name. But they tracked my car and found the house.”

“They know where we live?” Ansel shouted.

“Yes, but they don’t know who we are,” Justinian said. 

“Well they’re about to!” Ansel said. 

“No, no, look. We just need them to think dad died. His alter ego, anyways. They won’t go after us because they don’t know us. As far as they know, dad’s alter ego is the real thing. They don’t know who he really is.”

“What he really is is a murderer.” Ansel clenched his hands into fists and released them.

“He’s right, Justinian.” His dad sighed. “I can’t ask you boys to help me. I shouldn’t have put you in this situation to begin with.”

“Well, we’re in it now, so we have to do something about it,” Justinian said.

“Or we can do the sensible thing and turn him into the authorities,” Ansel said.

“Don’t you get it?” Justinian said, “The authorities can’t do anything to save you against the mafia. We have to do something, not just for dad, but for ourselves too.”

“Darling.” His mom took his dad’s gloved hands into hers. Blood stained her fingertips red as she squeezed his hands. “We’re going to get through this, okay? You know I always have your back, no matter what.”

A stifling silence crept over the room. Ansel sighed and his dad hung his head. His mom held herself steady against her husband. The clock hanging over the doorway ticked, each second passing faster and faster, like a broken heart rate monitor. 

Justinian’s mind raced amidst the silence, prying his mind for anything he’d learned that could help. He flipped through the lectures he’d spent hours taking notes on, visualizing the news clips they analyzed, the headlines they practiced writing.

Justinian tapped his foot, like a metronome keeping in time with his thoughts. He turned to his dad. “We need to fake your death.” He paused, before turning to his mom. “By burning down the house.”

“Are you crazy?” Ansel shouted. 

“We need to destroy any evidence that we lived here,” Justinian said, “Any evidence that dad lives with us.”

“This is our home, Justinian!” Ansel said, “We can’t just burn everything. What about all our pictures, our memories? Does any of it matter to you?”

“What other choice do we have?” Justinian shouted. 

“He’s right, Ansel,” his dad said, “I can’t let them get to you guys.”

Ansel’s shoulders heaved with each breath. An emptiness crept into his eyes as he grasped the side of the island. His mom rubbed a hand over his shoulder. 

“How would we even start a fire that would be big enough to destroy everything in this house?” she said, “The firefighters would be here in minutes.”

“Cut open batteries and put them in water,” Ansel said. He looked up, his face overtaken by shadows. “It will cause an explosion.” 

Justinian’s mom scrunched her brow. “How…”

“We watched a video about it in chemistry,” Ansel said.

Justinian snapped his fingers. “Yes, yes that’s good. Anything with metals is a Class D fire. Those can’t be extinguished with water, they need a special powder extinguisher. It will take the firefighters longer to put out.”

Everyone turned to Justinian.

“Case study,” he said.

Justinian and Ansel ransacked the house for anything with batteries. Their dad took paint thinner from the garage and drenched the outskirts of the house with it. Their mom stuffed the microwave with aluminum foil and wove the copper wire from her jewelry making into webs. Ansel coated any surface he could with hairspray and acetone. Justinian took all the electronics in the house and piled them into the living room.

After his dad shut off all power to the house, Justinian hooked the copper wires into every outlet. Ansel smashed open batteries and set them around the house under the fire sprinklers. Their mom splashed cooking oil onto every wooden surface in the kitchen and dining room. Within thirty minutes, the house became a nightmarish trap, eagerly awaiting a spark.

The Casimir family huddled outside their house beside the circuit breaker. Snowflakes burned like little sparks on Justinian’s face. An icicle fell from the roof and lodged itself in a snowy mound.

“Okay,” Justinian’s dad said, “When I flip on the power, everything will go off. You guys need to get far away from the house.”

“But we can’t be too far, because then they’ll think we staged it,” Ansel said, “We need an alibi.”

“We need a body so they think you’re really dead,” Justinian said.

“Well we can’t just kill someone innocent!” his mom said.

A car door shut in the neighbor’s driveway. Shouts followed the scampering paws of a small dog. The dog’s barks sounded more like shrieks as it ran toward the Casimirs. 

“Oh my god I’m going to kill that dog.” Justinian’s mom groaned. 

“Pebbles! Pebbles, come back here!” the neighbor shouted.

The yapping dog growled at them. Justinian’s dad pushed it away with his foot. 

“How dare you kick Pebbles!” the neighbor screamed. She scooped the dog into her arms. “I’m going to call the police for animal endangerment.”

“How about her?” Ansel said.

“I’m down,” Justinian said.

“What are you kids talking about? I don’t like you talking about me like that,” the neighbor said.

“Don’t talk to my sons like that, Paula,” Justinian’s mom snapped.

“Well maybe, Evanna, if you raised your kids right I wouldn’t have to,” the neighbor shouted.

Justinian’s mom punched the neighbor in the face. Her dog jumped out of her arms and bit Justinian’s mom. 

“But…she’s a woman,” their dad said, “It won’t be believable.”

“It’s 2021 dad, women can be murderers too,” Ansel said. 

The boys had no trouble binding their neighbor and dragging her into the house. They wrapped her in extra copper wire and set her on top of the pile of electronics. Justinian’s mom wrapped the dog a little tighter—just to be safe, she’d said.

“So boys,” Justinian’s dad said, “You were having Christmas Eve dinner with your mother when the neighbor barged in. She held you all at gunpoint because…”

“She’s a strong, independent hitwoman,” Ansel said.

“Yeah, sure” their dad said, “Then she had one of her henchmen take you out back and lock you in the shed. The firefighters will find you there.”

“When the police ask for a description of the henchman, describe her husband,” Justinian’s mom said, “He’s a creep, I never liked him.”

“You should have told me, babe, I would have taken him out,” his dad said.

“Really?” His mom beamed.

“You two are crazy.” Ansel sighed. Justinian chuckled.

Justinian’s dad led them out to the back shed, instructing them to drag their feet in the snow so the footprints would look realistic. The door to the shed creaked open, shadows welcoming them inside.

“This is where I leave you,” Justinian’s dad said. His eyes swept over each of them. 

Ansel pulled his dad into a hug, quickly blinking away his misty eyes. Justinian’s dad whispered to him, then turned to kiss his wife. He slipped his wedding ring into her hands as she wept. 

“You’re the man of the house now,” he whispered to Justinian.

“I love you, dad,” Justinian said. 

“I love you too.” His dad pulled him into a hug. “Always fight for what’s right, son.”

And like a gust of wind, he disappeared into the snowy night. Justinian helped his mom and brother bind their hands with rope and carefully pressed duct tape over their mouths. He wiped away one of his mom’s tears before binding himself. 

Bright orange flames glowed from behind cracks in the shed’s wooden doors, followed by booming explosions, like Christmas fireworks.

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Yes, I like fanfiction...what's this about?

fanfiction FESTA is an idea that won't stop gnawing at my brain. the goal of this FESTA is to share AND comment on as much fanfiction as we're able to as a community! For a whole month!

Crimson will then create 1-3 posts on their blog with links to all the fanfiction sent their way (more details on the process below). Here is an example of what the end product would look like

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This FESTA is a combination of many influences, but especially the JCS and the fanfiction writer appreciation event. In fact, we are lucky enough to find guidance and help with the FWAE mods!

Cool! How can I participate?

Good question! We have a lot of ideas but here is the bare minimum we need to make this event a reality!

Writers: writers are encouraged to submit (1) of their fics to be promoted, read, and commented by at least (1) person. This will be done via X/Twitter using a tagging and hashtag system. All submissions MUST be appropriately tagged

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Nope! In fact, we strongly urge writers to share fics they've written before the start date of the event. And stories they wish had more comments. We want to give no/low-comment stories some much needed love

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[gjjokok]

38 - April 1, 2024

A very different journal entry this time. Currently at JFK waiting for my flight to go back home last minute because my mom is about to die? And of course I just sent back my passport 3 days ago to apply for a new one so now I have all these complications without my passport. I won't even say that I hope she gets better, because she is pretty much completely unresponsive and hospital said she has about 1 day to live. But I do hope that she remains stable/how she is right now before I get there. Missed my previous flight by about 5 minutes and would be in Canada by now if i didn't miss it, so it'll be really bad if she gets worse/etc. before I get there just because I missed my last flight. Anyways I'm sure I'll be using this blog a lot in the next few days depending on how things turn out. I have never cried so much in my life before, which is saying a lot because I cry very hard all the time (hard cries at least monthly with soft cries every few days).

To try to put myself in a better mood (?) let's talk about something happy.

Went to Ultra Miami with my NYC friends last weekend. Even though this might seem weird to some people, since it's a music festival filled with drugs and sex and partying etc, it was such a nice way to bond with my friends. I feel so close to my NYC friends here - especially some like Ricky, JC, and Tommy. Ricky randomly gave me a shirt of his on the last day just because he thought I might like it. JC and I had so many deep talks about how much we love eachother and our current friend group. Tommy told me he's really going to miss me if/when he moves to SF and told me that he had a little crush on me all weekend because I was "always there for him when he needed me" which is crazy because that's how I feel about him. On top of loving my friends, finally got to meet Chris Gao and it went better than I could've imagined. Not only was he into me, but he was seemingly VERY into me and asked me to be his rave bae for the weekend, sent me a video afterwards of him wearing the YBWM bracelet I made him. Also kept telling me how he likes having me around and that I had good energy etc. It won't work out for us because he lives in LA/moving to Seattle soon and would never want to live in NYC (and I love NYC so don't want to move). Yuzhou also called me after to catch up and specifically to warn me that he thinks Chris Gao is a bad match for me hahaha so yeah Chris and I are not happening but at least he made me feel really comfortable and warm while we were in Miami together so I'm appreciative of that and that I got to meet him at all.

[jakepullsthetrigger]

Oh I've been looking for someone to watch it together live. I just shared their live with that exact caption. Hahaha. I'm crying right now. Someone dear from my office is resigning very soon and all I've shown her is the silent persona of me. She brought laing that she cooked for us for a team lunch but I didn't show up. I just messaged her how sorry I am for not being able to join the lunch earlier. Hahahaaays. I hate me self. Yeah, this may be the Tequila talking cause I'm not this spontaneous. Minus this spirit, I may be just lurking in your blogs. Hehehe

JC

Hahaha so I guess I should take advantage of the tequila - before you totally stop talking to me. But how do I reach out to you on SPIT’s next show?

Also, laing seems like a nice food! For sure, your officemate will surely understand that. And showing your appreciation should not stop in the office, right?

[drypoffins]

intro post ✧

hi rotumblr!

my name is jc, i’m a 22 year old sinnoan-unovan guy born and raised in hearthome city! if you’re tuned into the super contest scene you may know me as one of the top coordinators in the master rank beauty category, but currently i’m taking a break from coordinating to travel around and try my hand at battling. i decided to make this blog to document my experiences :)

here’s me and my team!

- Lumi the Espeon ♂

- Aria the Lapras ♀

- Lady the Lilligant ♀✧

- Twitch the Joltik ♂

- Mirage the Flygon ♂

- Lemonade the Arcanine ♀✧

and finally, an FAQ for any former fans, followers, or concerned family members (hi mom) that have managed to find this blog:

- why did you stop competing?

several different reasons but a lot of it was burnout. i’ve been doing it since i was seven and i really needed a change of pace.

- will you ever compete again?

yes, i think so! currently i’m planning on just taking one season off but i don’t know what the future holds. i used to want to be a professional career coordinator but now i’m not sure.

- what are your coordinator credentials?

28 wins at normal rank (beauty)

22 wins at normal rank (cute)

12 wins at normal rank (smart)

24 wins at great rank (beauty)

15 wins at great rank (cute)

18 wins at ultra rank (beauty)

21 wins at master rank (beauty)

5 time semifinals winner at grand festival

2 time grand festival ribbon cup champion

- aren’t you that guy who fell down the stairs at the grand festival two years ago?

ok i want it to be known that i also WON THE SEMIFINALS THAT YEAR. no one remembers the solar beam hat trick that i pulled off in the final round, but everyone remembers the goddamn stairs. let that be a lesson to you, kids: fame is fleeting, but becoming a meme is forever.

- jc ✧

(ooc stuff under the cut!)

hi everyone! made this account for some light fun on the side and figured i should get some behind the scenes info out of the way:

- it’s mentioned in my bio but i follow and interact from my main blog @skyboxing!

- all posts not in character will be tagged with #ooc

- since my trainer character is primarily a coordinator, i’ll be talking about contests a lot, and i’ll be pulling my contest info and rules from both the games and the anime. definitely playing fast and loose with canon but it’s all just for fun so i’m not taking it too seriously :)

- please feel free to send me asks!! it can be about whatever you want: my character, my team, my character’s coordinator history, opinions on things in the pokémon world, etc. i have a ton of lore and info about my character thought out and i’ll very much appreciate the opportunity to share!

- let’s all have fun! i love this community’s vibes and i haven’t had a pokemon rp blog in an age, and i can’t wait to start posting :3

[mxtxfanatic]

Hi! I love your blog! Especially your novel recommendations cuz they helped me find lovely stories that i wouldn't have encountered otherwise 💖

So there's this fic idea in my head for a while now but I'm afraid of mischaracterising wwx. so I would appreciate your input if you don't mind answering:

If a post-siege/post-canon wwx was transported back in time to the moment he has to decide whether to sacrifice his golden core for JC, would he still do it? What do you think his thought process would be like to make that decision?

I'm leaning towards no golden core transfer since wwx would know what JC would do with that power, but what do you think?

I agree. A desperate and traumatized teenaged Wei Wuxian made that decision. An adult Wei Wuxian who has weathered multiple life-or-death situations and now understands the true nature of Jiang Cheng and the depths of his hatred would make a different choice.

[wangxianficfinder]

Fic Finder

Jan 19th

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1. Hello, I have lost a fic! It was an arranged-marriage au where WWX marries into the Lan sect. During the wedding all the Lans refuse to look towards WWX which hurts him deeply. Later on LWJ explains it is Lan tradition for no one to look upon the bride until the husband has removed her veil. This was just one of many cultural differences between the Lan and Jiang that the fic explored. Overall I think the fic was kind of somber and angsty? Probably had a happy ending though. Any ideas?

FOUND? Concord by Deastar (T, 41k, WangXian, Arranged Marriage, Gūsū Lán Sect Rules, Depression, Canon Divergence, Angst with a Happy Ending)

FOUND? In Love and War by Cataclysmic_Calamity (E, 68k, wangxian, A/B/O, Canon Divergence, Alpha LWJ, Omega WWX, Arranged Marriage, Kind of a slow burn, enemies to lovers ish, rampant sexual tension, WWX is a Menace to society and LWJ is doing his best, Miscommunication, past emotional abuse, Dubious Consent, Consensual Non-Consent, Semi-Public Sex, Anal Fingering, Dom/sub, Anal Sex)

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2. Hello, I need help finding a fic. I'm pretty sure I found this fic through your blog.

It's from Lan Wangji's perspective and takes place during the early sunshot campaign before Wei Wuxian's return. Wen outposts are attacked by some unknown entity and Lan Wangji goes to investigate. The culprit is a human shaped being covered in resentful energy. After a few confrontations Lan Wangji discovers that the being is an unconscious Wei Wuxian and finds a way to free him from the resentful energy. @bluekittenfire

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3. (First part added to an itmf) I cannot remember what it is called but there was one fic where WWX loses his foot/leg and the Wen build him a wooden prosthetic that I really enjoyed and am looking for more fics like this. Where characters are dealt a difficult hand but they work through it and yeah, any recs would be much appreciated thank you!

FOUND? we’re starting at the end by Miss_Enthusiasimal (M, 92k, WangXian, JC & WWX, Time Travel, Canon Divergence, Implied/Referenced Suicide, Golden Core Reveal, Burial Mounds, Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Starvation, emaciation, Cannibalism, Self-Harm, Amputation, Suicidal Thoughts, Sunshot Campaign, let JZX and WWX be friends club)

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4. Hi! I’m sorry to bother you, but maybe you can help me? I’m looking for a fic where Wei Wuxian is fighting at what I remember to be Qiongqi Path. I think Jiang Cheng makes a smart remark (something like “Are you just gonna play your flute or you going to help us?!”) and Wei Wuxian stops playing his dizi long enough to give JC the finger… only for them to realise what it means that he’s stopped playing and a flute can still be heard. Not long after LWJ pulls Su She out of the foliage with the other flute.

Vaguely I remember it being a fix it fic where less people die than in canon.

If you can help with this I would appreciate it since it’s haunted me for days now! And even if not I hope you have a pleasant day. ^^ @jestingknights

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5. hi!! i’m been looking for a fic for days. i read it forever ago but it’s during the cloud recess study arc and in it lan xichen realizes how awful the jiangs are treating wwx and tries to subtly convince him to leave tywng and stay in gusu bc he knows how much lwj likes him and he sees how talented wwx is and knows he would be a good asset for any sect to have. a specific scene i remember is that lxc would pretend to accidentally bump into wwx to talk to him. and they would go on walks and lwj saw it and got jealous. i think lxc was lowkey manipulative but in a way where he was doing it to make wwx care enough about himself to leave the jiangs. it was not jiang clan friendly at all. i kno this is so vague sorry about that. but it’s driving me crazy how i can’t find it when i know ive read it more then once. thanks for any help u can give

FOUND? If 5 isn't 🔒💖 Hoards and treasures by apathyinreverie (T, 21k, WangXian, Siblings, Family, not particularly Jiang friendly, YZY Bashing, slightly darker Gusu Lans, LXC being the best brother, Some manipulation, But with the best of intentions, and not between wangxian, Dragon LWJ, Fox WWX, Smitten LWJ, Fluff, perfect happiness, adorable WWX, Romance, Some worldbuilding, courting), it's very similar so here's hoping!

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6. Hello! I’m looking for a modern AU where WWX lives in and runs a theater, I believe LWJ is hosting his orchestra there for practice and for an event??? And it’s important that it’s successful to keep the theater open. I believe at some point, someone throws a rock or a brick through the front doors, and I believe the jiangs show up in the end and WWX confronts that. Im having such a hard time finding it or remembering more about it, and I’ve been looking for it for so long 🥲 @takemitchyleaps

FOUND? Talisman by Witch_Nova221 (M, 192k, WangXian, Modern AU, Eventual Romance, Theatre, Rock Band, Childhood Friends, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Implied/Referenced Spousal Abuse, Implied/Referenced Drug Use, Hurt/Comfort, Angst with a Happy Ending, Fluff, Stalking, Minor Character Death, Friends to Lovers, Mutual Pining)

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7. Hi! I hope doing this right, can tou help me find a fic ? I remember that the sects start making alliances because they notice how the Wens are acting. The Jiangs and the Lans are going to ally through marriage, the choice is up to LXC, but because he is jealous of LZ, thinking he never had it difficult, when WY is offered to the Lans, LXC decides to marry him to make LZ suffer, knowing LZ and WY like each other. LXC is the one whose core is melted and LSZ is LXC and WY's biological son. @old-rose-peonies

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8. There's a fic I vaguely remember reading, and I don't know what it's called. There's a scene where Lan Zhan is trying to help Wei Ying eat again (residual starvation stuff), and there's an NSFW scene with honey where Lan Zhan is trying to help Wei Ying associate eating with Good Things. That's the extent of my memory. If you could please help me find it, I'd greatly appreciate it! Thank you! @amynchan

Oh oh! I know exactly which fic this is because it was written based on a post of mine! It's actually WWX helping LWJ and was written by the wonderful InTheGreySpaces (thank you again for writing this beautiful fic~) 😊 Though I could be wrong so please let me know if this isn't it 😅 - Mod C

FOUND! 🧡 Sustenance of the Soul OR Five Times Lan Wangji Refused to Eat and One Time Wei Wuxian Convinced Him To by InTheGreySpaces (E, 9k, WangXian, Grief/Mourning, Angst, Pining, Eating Disorders, LWJ Has an Eating Disorder, and WWX is going to help him get past it, Inedia, Inedia used in the wrong way, LWJ's 33 Lashes Punishment, referenced as the cause of his eating problems, Submissive LWJ, Sort of?)

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9. Hello! I'm looking for a specific fic that I'm afraid might've been deleted. It's a modern au set in the 90s in California (possibly). The Spotify playlist "LWJ DJs your life 1999" goes with it. What I remember is that LWJ is both a goth club DJ and a cello player, WWX drives a terrible car, and the gang is looking to buy the perfect huge house to collectively live in. It might've been part of a series, there's a Halloween party bit where LWJ dresses up at a classic style gothic vampire and curates an extensive party playlist. Thanks for the help! @aceaviatrix

FOUND? The Quiet Room by trickybonmot (M, 39k, WangXian, Modern AU, 1990s, Goth LWJ, Cellist LWJ, College Student WWX, House Hunting, Dating, Clubbing, San Francisco, Implied/Referenced Past Child Abuse, Mental Health Issues, Academic Disaster Aftermath, Getting Together, Repressed Teen Crushes to Strangers to Lovers, Homelessness, in the form of couch surfing, background NieLan)

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10. For the next fic finder: I'm looking for a longer fic where the wens find shelter at the nie sect. It was part of a way bigger plot and some wangxian shenanigans, but wen qing and nie mingjue end up sleeping together, mainly because wen qing is cold and is like "might as well". I do remember that nie mingjue was trans, also. Anyone have any idea what fic that was?

FOUND? 💖 Uninvited by WithBroomBefore (M, 13k, wangxian, canon divergence, fix-it, hurt/comfort, sect leader jyl, sick fic, happy ending) specifically chapter 3

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11. Hi! I need help in looking for a fic where Nie Huaisang was the one who sacrificed his body and soul to summon Wei Wuxian back to life. Thank you @etutb

FOUND? Crowded by nirejseki (G, 1k, NHS & WWX, WangXian, WangXianSang, Canon Divergence, Different Body Offering Ritual, Atypical Relationship Dynamics, sentient sabers) this is a nhs sacrifice summon (gone sideways) fic

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12. Hello. I am looking for a fic where there was a finger trap? You know, the “thing that traps the victim's fingers (often the index fingers) in both ends of a small cylinder”? Anyway i cant remember if it was a tweetfic or a fic on ao3 but wangxian had their fingers in this 🥲🙏

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13. Hi, I don't normally lose fics but I lost this one: Post-Canon, Jiang Cheng basically goes round all the clans and tells them what was wrong with their defences during Sunshot and what they could do better. He also has some unkind words to say about Lotus Pier's organisation. It sounds like he's making enemies but he's really not. Any ideas, please? @solo----

FOUND? 🔒 The Cold Wind of Harsh Truth (or How We Nearly Lost the Sunshot Campaign): A Treatise by Icarus (T, 13k, wangxian, Post-Canon, Humor, Angst, JC digs and keeps digging, Zidian lore, Fun with talismans, JC-centric, Competence Kink, Strategy & Tactics, Cultivation Sect Politics, Arranged Marriage, Trauma, Logic, POV JC)

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14. Hi, I am looking for a fic set post-canon (I think). I remember Wei Wuxian maybe living in the jingshi, possibly teaching classes, but definitely going into Caiyi with Lan Wangji and during a festival Wangji wins a game and the prize is this ugly turtle statue that Wei Wuxian adores. They go on to prank Lan Qiren with the turtle statue. I loved this scene but I can’t remember what fic it came from, please help!

FOUND! I think 14for the fic finder is from the actual book. It sounds like the last extra chapter. / Not saying there isn't a fic involving it, but #14 sounds a lot like the Yunmeng extra in book five, as well. Ring toss, ugly turtle statue, and Wei Wuxian considering pranking Lan Qiren included. The only difference is the location. Your searcher may have mistaken it for fic, especially if they read translations online. / #14 is one of the extra chapters from the actual novel (Extra 7 in the official English translation)

I found a few similar fics with a turtle statue if you want to check them out ^^ - Mod C

The Turtle in the Lanshi by Brierilee (G, 1k, WangXian, Post Canon, POV LJY)

Jin Ling and the No Good Very Bad Terrible Year of Cloud Recesses Bullshit by cringewerewolf (T, 2k, WangXian, Juniors)

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15. hi!! looking for this funny fic based on a silly story. Lwj rejects wwx on a dating app accidently right in front of him, i think they're on an airport? they end up talking obvs and it's cute and funny @ilyweiwuxian

FOUND? Ticket to Ride by mistresscurvy (E, 18k, wangxian, Modern, Online Dating, Road Trips, Service Top, Phone Sex, Dick Pics, Wedding Banquet)

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16. Hey was hoping you guys may be able to help, I've been look for a fic I read awhile back idk if it got deleted or something but. It is a modern time wangxian fic with tattoo artist wei ying, his parents are alive too. But he ends up renting a boyfriend/ Lan wangji off a boyfriend renting site. They have misunderstandings but get through it, he even gives lan Zhan a lotus tattoo like his own and they get together officially in the end. @yilingpatriarchsimp

FOUND! Rent a Gege by wayward_wing (E, 12k, WangXian, Fluff and Angst, Smut, Bottom LWJ/Top WWX, Bottom LWJ, Top WWX, Getting Together, Older WWX, Younger LWJ, Mention of wangxian with others, WWX’s parents are alive, Fake/Pretend Relationship, Happy Ending, Blow Jobs, Riding, Skinny Dipping, eating ass, Anal Fingering, Anal Sex)

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17. I have lost a fic where Wei Wuxian is a catfish for sale and he helps jilted lovers get back at their exes. Su She hires him to target Lan Wangji but Wei Wuxian falls for him instead. Please help me find this fic!

FOUND! I'm pretty sure this one is we'll get him falling for a stranger (or a catfish) by sweetlolixo (T, 38k, wangxian, modern, College AU, Catfish AU, Eventual Happy Ending, Crossdressing WWX, Rich heir LWJ gets catfished by pretty Weiying online that's it that's the fic, LWJ learns how to text with kaomojis, Gossipy aunties NHS and WWX: canon, sometimes LWJ gives you secondhand embarrassment, this fic is on crack, Pining LWJ, Fluff, Humor, lwj is a grade A+ SIMP, Identity Porn)

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18. lan xichen is driving after drinking at night and hits Jiang yanli and she dies. Plot twist ended up she committed suicide, but they didn’t know that before. The lans and jiangs had a fight and somehow lan wangji ended up getting married to Wei wuxian. Wwx is significantly older then lan zhan in this fic.

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19. Hello! I was wondering if I could get help looking for a fic. It’s a doctor AU where LZ and WY are both surgeons. It starts with WY being late to a presentation and showing up right in the middle of LZ’s presentation time. Then WY eventually ends up working on a research project or something like that with LZ? Wen Ning gets hurt at some point in it too and WY and LZ save him against LQR’s orders. I’ve been looking for this for forever and can’t seem to find it. Thank you so much!

FOUND? Anginal Equivalents by fakeplasticlily (E, 23k, wangxian, Modern, Medical Residents AU, Childhood Friends, Mutual Pining, Oblivious WWX, WangXian.mp3, Sexual Content, Podfic Available)

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20. Hi Peeps! Thank you so much for your dedication to this page, I'm a big fan! I'm looking for a specific fic: there's a cultural show being put on by the whole gang and Wei Ying is specifically doing a dance for it but he needs to have body paint and LZ graciously volunteers for it. He ends up writing characters out of an ancient poem that Huaisang tells him is LZ basically marking him for his own. It's not idiots in love, though that one was great as well. Thank you in advance! @nebuluscharlie

FOUND? Out of the Bin and Into Your Heart by Alaceron (T, 27k, WangXian, Modern AU, Fake/Pretend relationship, Oblivious WWX)

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[quicktothebatjalopy]

OK now you've gotta give me your list of Jiang Cheng's talents that have nothing to do with cultivation! I'm very curious.

Well, there is plenty of overlap with your thoughts so a round of pats-on-back for us all! My thoughts:

Stick-to-it-tivity, bloody-mindedness, DETERMINATION (It fills you with!)--whatever you want to call it our boy has it in spades. The only times it really falters are understandably extreme (and extremely horrible) situations: other than that he digs his feets in and will not be budged! My little badger buddy! (I mean badger in the best possible way, namely as someone who grew up reading Redwall novels)

Intelligence: he’s got a brain and he’s not afraid to use it! This is combined with what you described as an ability to ‘read a room’. That social awareness is no doubt muchly based on his dreadful upbringing, which also explains why he isn’t practiced in how to use it to his advantage: if he learned to manipulate what he sees he would be indomitable. This also lends itself well to solid battlefield awareness--he recruited followers as a teenage leader of a destroyed sect during a war where they were outnumbered, I don’t think he could do that if he didn’t have a reputation for getting his people off a battlefield alive. No core needed--just give him some armor and a bullhorn and he could still lead a battle.

Dazzling good looks. It counts. 

He is a TERRIFIC duncle. Not perfect, but then no parent is perfect, and he certianly suceeds marvelously in not carrying the sins of his parents into the next generation. You’ll never make me believe that Jin Ling ever doubted his uncle’s love: he has never even considered that his uncle’s love for him is contingent on his usefulness to his uncle. (If Jin Ling lost his core he would be horrified, of course, but he would go straight to uncle. “What do we do now?”. And if ‘what we do’ doesn’t include getting a core back somehow, he loves and trusts his uncle enough to deal with it, I think.)

Excellent taste in women. Ok, the matchmaker list is silly, but it was clearly written by a boy who thinks Jiang Yanli is the best woman in the world and in that regard I respect him entirely. That and he met Wen Qing and was in no time flat like “*gentle gasp* Yo.”

as tumblr user @souridealist devastatingly said, he has an immense capacity for love--what would he be like if that had ever been treated as a strength instead of a weakness?

Very capable in many arts/skills honestly--the fact that he was always JUST behind WWX when the latter is a horrifying genius speaks to his abilities, I think.

Martial skills. Obviously this would be hampered by losing spiritual power, no more fukkin flight, but that doesn’t mean his skills with a sword or bow would disappear. In the fic I’m never gonna write (cause I already got 3 others in the pipes) where either WWX or WQ realizes he’s an adult human who deserves a say in his own fate and consult him before golden core transplant, I think this would be the gist of his argument against--because of course he wouldn’t agree. “You can’t be a sect leader!” WWX would argue, and JC would say “One, what sect! Two, who the fuck says! It’s my core that’s gone, not my brain. And what, are you and A-Jie going to not help me? Idiot.” “But, you are helpless! Defenseless,” WWX would say. “No kidding! After the war I look forwards to watching you travel around Yunmeng informing all the hunters and rangers that they are no longer capable of using a bow on account of they lack golden cores. IDIOT.”

(this is tangential, but related to the above: based on show-canon, at least, I don’t see how it’s a given that he couldn’t control Zidian without a golden core. Another spiritual implement we see, Suibian, responds to WWX’s-core-without-WWX but also to WWX-no-core. Madame Yu attuned Zidian to Jiang Cheng, not to his core. idk I just think it would be neat!)

This isn’t very well-articulated as a ‘skill’, but I think JC’s big problem is that when the only tool you have is a hammer, every problem looks like a nail. Given space to breath (you know, without constant war or murder or That Family Life) I think he could easily learn other ‘tools’ that make him a very effective leader, person, whatever.

[withthewindinherfootsteps]

Since your opinions are extremely valid (wwx not being an oblivious everything and lwj being a person of his own right (can't explain what I mean) and jc actually actually not liking wwx and jyl being a well written character etc etc) what are some (if any) fics you would recommend?

(i hope it's okay to ask this?)

Also I was really glad I found your acc, I have an English exam tomorrow (analysis etc) and the way you explained stuff helps a bit (and it's also enjoying)

Aah, thank you! I'm really happy this blog could help you in that way. I hope your exam went well!

…Now, for fic recommendations.

One fic I will never not take the chance to recommend is i won’t say heart, but by victortor. 

It’s a very long AU oneshot, and it’s crafted so well — both in terms of macro things like plot, structure, pacing and the flow of information, and in terms of smaller things like imagery, word choice and patterns between lines — just thinking about it makes me amazed, and if I’m honest it’s probably one of my favourite works of fiction for any fandom. And the characterisation is on point, too! 

I’ve recommend this on here before, but for everyone who hasn’t read it — it’s well worth your time. 

Another one that’s written beautifully is fish and wild geese byimpossibletruths:

Another very long oneshot AU, this time of a world a lot more grounded than the previous one. But it’s not focused on worldbuilding, and it makes up for that with everything else — the writing style, for example, is extremely poetic and evocative, and the characterisation is also done really well.

The second fic is also a good transition point from where the main appeal to me is the more writing- and craftedness-aspect, to where the main appeal is the characterisation. If the first one had very good characterisation but that served more as a reason not to turn away (since I was drawn to it for other aspects), the rest have very good writing but the focus is mainly on who the characters are and how they think.

The Price of a Golden Core by AshayaTReldai is a very good one focusing on the whole Golden Core debate (which… I’m still confused as to why it is a debate), which is very well done.

…It will always be a little funny (and impressive) because of how well it manages to capture fandom attitudes on the topic — you can read it as two people on here debating and it would fit perfectly. But the characterisation of everyone is very accurate, it explores consequences very well, and is just a very good fic.

Worth of a Good Man by Vrishchika is a very good one focusing appreciating (canon!) Wei Wuxian — there aren’t any self-worth or self-esteem issues, just him. It’s written very well too, and like I said, the characterisation shines:

so i hold you close by PrismaticAvocado is also a very sweet fic exploring the relation between Wei Wuxian and Jin Ling, if you want something more focused on the Juniors or one of them (who I love but I haven’t come across a standout fic about them yet, though it does probably exist).

Finally, if you’re looking still for good characterisation (and good fics in general too, but characterisation is especially hard to find in the MDZS fandom), I recommend reading fics by other meta writers on here who are also on AO3. @ladypfenix (Admiranda there), @righteousinadversity and @rynne are people I know write on there, but they’re not the only ones, just the people whose works I’ve interacted with the most. So they’re very safe bets!

[wangxianficrecs]

Fic Finder

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1. Welcome back, I know you're just back but I'm really searching for this threadfic for literal days. So, the plot was Wei Wuxian was some deity and Lan Wangji asked him for something (probably defeating Wens) and Wei Wuxian asked for Lan Wangji's firstborn in return. So, after Wei Wuxian fulfilled his deal, Lan Wangji took him to his tent and slept with him and when Wei Wuxian got pregnant, he left.

Then Lan Wangji went to his shrine and kept giving him pregnancy related things in offerings and removed any alcohol he got. Soon Wei Wuxian got irritated and confronted him and later came back with Lan Wangji to Gusu. Later, he gave birth to Lan Yuan.  Please please help me find it. It was really so good but I forgot to bookmark it 😭😭 ~ @wei-aixia​

FOUND!  Twitter threadfic:  to save the cloud recesses from the wens, lwj makes a deal with the yiling patriarch: defeat the wens and protect gusu, and lwj will give him his firstborn. by Elissa  | yiling laozu apologist@cerbykerby on AO3 as cerbykerby.

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2. Welcome back!!! I didn’t realize how much I used your page until you were gone. I hope you had a great break. Can I ask for fic finder help? I’ve been looking for months now and at this point I think I’m crazy.

Someone is trying to kill jin ling so everyone is trying to figure out and protect him. Spoiler alert, it ends up being a woman and she has a voodoo doll of Jin ling, but wei ying switched the hair or something to her brother so she kills him instead.  That’s all I can remember, I hope you or somebody knows this fic. Thanks!!!

FOUND!  my eclectic muse by Tahto (M, 39k, zhuiling)

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3. Welcome back! There’s this fic I’ve been trying to find for the past few days and it’s been killing me 😭 Features wwx raising a-yuan in lotus pier, imprisoned and he can’t speak. Don’t think anyone outside of lotus pier knew he was still alive after the siege. Eventually, he gets a-yuan out who escapes to gusu and joins him later on as well, 99% sure it’s complete too.

FOUND!   on restitution by glitteringmoonlight (M, 99k, lan sizhui & wei wuxian, jin ling & wei wuxian, wangxian, my bookmark)

And here’s another you might like:  ❤️whipstitch by curiositykilled (M, 131k, jin ling & wei wuxian, wangxian, jiang cheng & wei wuxian, adorable juniors, my post) - this one has wwx and jc reconciliation, fyi

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4. Hi! Your blog has always helped me discover awesome fics and find new favorites, and though ive been looking for this one fic for a while ive never thought to ask until just now!! So if your fic finder series is still open... Im looking for a fic where wwx met lwj when he was dead as a spirit or something and they get to know each other better. Lwj confesses that he likes/wanted to kiss wwx?? and then when wwx reincarnates as mxy, he kisses lwj in front of the juniors (who are verry shocked) saying it was the test and he would've done it earlier if lwj just told him. I swear it was called something like "you shouldve told me" but i searched for it far and wide to no avail. Maybe its been deleted, but if you happen to know what it is.. I would really appreciate it!! Thank you! <3

FOUND!  ❤️ asymptotic by chinxe (T, 27k, Wangxian, my post)

OR MAYBE!   The Cruelty of Fate by Procrastination_Sensation (T, 16k, wangxian, my post)

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5. Hi!!! I was hoping you (or your followers) can help me find a fic! I think I saw it on your blog somewhere or maybe saw a summary but all I remember is it’s a time travel fic where Wei Wuxian spends most the time trying to get Lan Zhan’s memories of the future back so he could have his husband with him Thanks!!!

FOUND!  An Arrow Through Time by syrus_jones (M, 167k, wangxian, WIP, my bookmark)

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6. hey, I hope you're still doing the wangxian fic finder. I'm looking for a wangxian fic, it was abo, alpha lwj and omega wwx. it started with wwx as a doctor at a hospital, where he met a-yuan who was admitted due to appendicitis. wwx felt a connection to him, but because a-yuan was admitted under a fake name (a-li I think), he didn't realize that a-yuan was his child. he thought a-yuan had died, when he left the lan clan to escape his stifling life there. I hope someone can find this! thank you!

FOUND!  Against all Odds by gayatridoes (not rated, 253k, wangxian, WIP)

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7. Hi Mojo! I love your blog. I've found so much great reading material here, it's amazing! I hope I'm doing this right. Sorry if I'm not. I'm looking for this fic where Lan Zhan tries to change public opinion about Wei Ying by having him sell his inventions and by telling everyone one about all evil stuff Jin Guangyao did to prove Wei Ying's innocence. It was set just after canon. It would be amazing if you could help me find it. I've been searching for days. Thank you so much! [Grrr, I know this one, but I’m drawing a blank.]

FOUND!  I'm Going Out (Gonna Make A Name For Me And You) by cosmicmilktea (T, 17K, wangxian, my post)

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8. hello!! i was wondering if you knew this fic in which wangxian meet again after years of not seeing eachother. wwx has a-yuan and lwj finds out a-yuan is his son. it was mpreg i believe and i think lwj worked in art or something like that. thank you!!

FOUND!   Family Pictures (Or: “Mark Rothko is very, very dead, Wei Ying.”) by belleweather (M, 38k, wangxian)

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9. Welcome back! Could I submit something to the next fic search post? It was a fic where LWJ was injured & everyone thought he died. He's actually just unconscious & LXC hid him somewhere. WWX gets taken into the Lan sect to heal (I think) & no one's allowed to tell him that LWJ is alive. LQR feels bad about it, but follows LXC's orders. Then, there's a scene where WWX is sneaking into Qinghe and happens upon LWJ (who just woke up) & WWX faints. I think WX end up going on a mission together after.

FOUND!  If I could Go Back in Time by ariwrites (M, 122k, wangxian, jiang sibs & wei wuxian, nielan)

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10.   hi mojoflower, this is a wangxian fic search request. wangxian reincarnate in every life and the moment their eyes meet they recollect all previous memories. lwj had made a promise to wwx that they would be together in every life. and they mostly are? i think? this life, wwx is a fashion critic and lwj is a model and while on runway as their eyes meet they recollect it all. afterwards wwx goes to lwj all excited and after sometime finds that in this life lwj is already married to another guy and tells wwx tht he cares about his current husband very much. of course wwx is devastated...it was supposed to be a multichapter fic, and i dont know what happened after this. ~ @earthytones-olivegreens

FOUND!   the sum of us by baobeijuns (G, 3k, wangxian, WIP of ficlets)

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11.  OMG QUEEN, YOU ARE BACK AND I DIDNT NOTICE IT UNTIL NOW DDKDMDKDMDK IM SO HAPPY [Hee hee hee]  I'm truly glad that everything is better now, at some parts, and that you can have treatment for your migraine too!!

Also, do you know certain fic where LWJ becomes a calamity and WWX a god?? I've read it before reading TCFG and now I'm craving for it again hahaha ~ @nia-rarita​

FOUND!  Somewhere Sits an Empty Throne by Siamesa (E, 20k, wangxian)​

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12.  Hi there I'm looking for a fic with modern Cultivators with Wei Ying and Lan Zhan partners in the professional sense. A curse befalls Lan Zhan on the job and it seems its about 'fuck or die' and wangxian issues, but its actually a gender change curse and Wei Ying is surprised cause he never knew Lan Zhan as a anything but man and Lan Zhan says that he wanted it so and that he is satisfied with the result and he's keeping it. ~ @krysaniar​ [Oh, boo, I was so confident this was Brilliant Mistake by brooklinegirl, but that’s not a lwj mpreg.]

FOUND!   The alternative factor by greenfionn (E, 6K, wangxian) - stealth trans lwj gets bottom surgery via curse

NOT FOUND!  what to expect when you’re expecting the unexpected by la_muerta (E, 17k, wangxian)​

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13.  Hello! I was wondering if you could help me find a fic? I've been looking for it but I just can't find it, so I thought maybe you would be more successful than me. Okay, so the fic is wangxian and what I remember from it is that it's set in the CR arc when they are teenagers, and it goes as normal about WY trying to get LZ attention, but then WY misses class because he's on his period and LZ gets worried and then they become friends and then boyfriends and eventually Wei Ying gets pregnant bc he was using a type of tea to avoid pregnancy but it failed, and then they were to be married, and that's where the chapter finished. It was an unfinished fic if that helps. You are my last hope, so good luck! And thank you beforehand, have a great day c:

FOUND?  I think you are looking for Unable To Stay Away by Waterrain (E, 23k, wangxian, my post)

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14.  Hi Mojo 👋! You are an absolute godsend, I love your finder posts and fic recs! Am hoping to get some help with a fic I thought you had prev recced (but either I'm not using the right terms/tags or I made up the rec 🤦‍♀️), it's canon divergence from nightless city, where lwj gets injured. Lxc believes that wwx killed him (I think due to jgy??) and so retaliates only it turns out lwj is alive and wakes to find out lxc killed wwx. wwx comes back as in canon but I think (not 100%) that alot of it is lwj distancing himself from his brother.

Fingers crossed that rings a bell with anyone 🤞 thank you for all your hard work!

FOUND!  kick at the darkness ‘til it bleeds daylight by AlfAlfAlfAlfAlf, tardigradeschool (T, 75k, lan sizhui & lan wangji & wei wuxian, jin ling & lan jingyi & lan sizhui, wangxian, my post)

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15.  hi! for your fic finder, there’s single dad wangji modern au with ‘headfirst’ by ocean vuong featured in it when wwx is poking through lwj’s bookshelf, help? i’ve looked through all my bookmarks and o can’t find it lmao ~ @jesuisnilunnilautre​

FOUND?  one of these perhaps?

ghost in your arms by DizziDreams (T, 12k, wangxian, my post)

​when we’re full of stories to be told by fakeplasticlily (M, 45k, wangxian, my post)

Where's Your Emergency? by trippednfell (M, 65k, wangxian, my bookmark)

or maybe

say it's here where our pieces fall in place by Lirelyn (E, 69k, wangxian)

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16.  Hi there! Here's one for your Fic Finder, since you're doing those again :) I'm looking for an arranged marriage fic -- one of those "the Jiangs arrange for WWX to marry LWJ during the burial mounds era to try to avoid disaster for him." (It's not a stone to break your soul, a song to save it by rikke, although I love that one.) The part I specifically remember is that Jiang Cheng was especially worried for WWX. JYL, WWX and LWJ were all pretty okay with the situation but Jiang Cheng was upset that even as time went by WWX wasn't returning to the sword path and didn't seem to be getting any healthier, because JC didn't know about the missing core. ~ @mikkeneko​

FOUND? one of these perhaps?

Mourning Robes by Starlight1395 (T, 17k, wangxian, my post)​

❤️As It Should Be by kuro (M, 37k, wangxian, my post)

An Elegant Solution by giraffeter (E, 205k, wangxian, niewangxian, my bookmark)

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17.  Hey Mojo, for the next Fic Finder, can I find a fic set in Cloud Recesses, I’m fairly sure it’s a time travel fic, because Wei Wuxian starts treating Jiang Cheng with more distance but still care and respect, and Jiang Cheng is worried because he’s finally acting like his mother always wanted him to, and Jiang Cheng is terrified that his mom has finally managed to take away his brother. ~ @any-mouse​

FOUND!   Regrets by antebunny (G, 38K, wangxian)​

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18.  Hey do you know a Wangxian fic I think one or both of them were like witches, I don't remember but I remember the tweet had like fanart where they were kissing each other, it was modern I think. I can't find the tweet and I don't remember the fic either.

FOUND!  if you go chasing rabbits by occultings (microcomets) (T, 24k, wangxian, my post)

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