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Star Wars fans that try to compare the Jedi to the Catholic Church because they both "collaborate with the state" have no fucking idea of what the Catholic Church actually does and what the problem with it being in power actually is, and it drives me fucking insane
#sincerely - someone that lives in a country that the Church had in a chokehold for centuries!#like no my guy#the jedi having no power and being unable to vote#and not being represented by anyone in the senate#and having to follow everything they tell them to do#is not the same as#the church having power over a good chunk of the population due to their religion#being represented by a whole party in the senate#having their own state where they are untouchable#and imposing their morals trough laws over a whole country just bc they said so#you guys are so stupid sometimes like#you see the word “institution” and fucking black out and start making shit up without a second thought#open a history book and maybe your brain too#star wars#pro jedi#in defense of the jedi#jedi
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if Shauna isn't being harassed and it IS all in her head I'm going to commit a rampage of all her greatest hits in protest. give her vindication or die by my sword.
#yellowjackets#yellowjackets spoilers#technically#my thoughts#shauna shipman#ANYWAY as a victim of gaslighting that last episode BIT ME#shauna was justified in [redacted] a chunk out of [redacted]#is shaunas paranoia a compelling character beat??? perhaps.#do the words 'you're making up problems in you head' fill me with white hot rage??? you betcha!!!#go nuts shauna i support you#the way her family was talking about her too??? COME ON#CAN WE PLEASE TAKE HER SERIOUSLY FOR ONE SECOND#LETS INVESTIGATE THOSE FEARS AND CLAIMS FIRST THANK YOU#even if the writers flub this storyline me and shauna know whats REALLY up
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my estimations for the total length of the space AU fic are ending up way more than I expected.
what.
chat-
how is this happening
#vat7k#silbern#7k space au#btw I thought last year that I would make it like 21-28k words#but now that I've started it's calculating to like 72k#which is like#thrice as long#im#see I don't mind it being long I just want to actually get it done#or like get a sizeable chunk of it done#and I have limited time because my autistic ahh won't be able to handle college and this both#so I have less than a year#hoping#🐈🙏#fanfic writing#writing#fanfic#fanfiction#writer#writers on tumblr#average writing experience#💔
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ok ok ill shut up about the song kids. but you will now hear me scream about the face jan 1999 rw and the composition going on in this one spread with the subtitle and the whole contrast of the whole. "nations favo(u)rite most clean living and moderate popular entertainer" title hes given and on the next page is robbie bleeding from his nose bc someone probably punched him i think? like on one side is the "yay awards :)" because the end of the year section was themed on award shows that year iirc and the other side is well. him bleeding (anyone know the significance of his eyes being closed or is it just bc he looks cool like that help me out here) and dont even get me started on the squares in the design. they look like kandi bracelets or keyboard keys i need to know why they did that and who did that so i can shake their hand furiously ten thousand times i want to eat the lil square letters
also for the meaning of the bloody nose there was this whole "him against the world" thing going on at the time according to robbie himself so
#hooooh chunk of text#robbie williams#words of cro#I COULD BE MISINTERPRETING IT. WHO KNOWS#i needed to get my thoughts out#edit also eyebrows. robbie your eyebrows i need eyebrows like yours
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hello, it's me again. so i saw you mention on my prompt how jason would be jealous of rose's healing factor when it comes to fucking kara and the jaycass you wrote and i thought why not combine them? in young justice jason and kara are part of the light and cass was in the shadows before defecting and joining the bats. what if she doesn't? childhood friends/lovers jaykara but kara becomes a red lantern after jason's death. after a while jason heals and goes on a mission with kara and they recognise each other. they cry, fight, fuck, all of that before breaking free of the light and run into cass. maybe cass and jason fucked a couple of times in the league to release some stress, and kara would be attracted to cass, so all three of them have a threesome inside a lazarus pit. just a cycle of fucking and breaking and dying and soul breaking healing. you can get really kinky with this too, like kara could ride jason to death, jason could fist cass until she needs the pit, cass could ride jason's face until he chokes on her juices, could even have kara bring a strap and her and jay could fuck cass at the same time (regular dp or anal dp) or peg jason until he can't walk. maybe they force kara to take a kryptonite shard up her pussy while jason fucks her and cass rides her face. technically the lazarus pit would boost their stamina every time they dip, and kara's a kryptonian, so they'd fuck for actual days or weeks. maybe they fuck so long they don't realise it until a team associated with the justice league walk in on them on a mission to rescue cass or something
HELLO YOU. YOU GET ME. it's my favorite thing EVER when the Laz Pit is utilized for a vicious cycle of fucking, dying, and fucking again. the altered mental state, the violent levels the sex can be taken to when dying no longer matter and longterm injuries aren't an issue... it lives in my brain.
i'll be honest, i don't know or care much about the Young Justice tv show so you'll have to forgive me for this being divorced from that world bc it's just. foreign as fuck to me so my apologies for that but as for the porn. (decided to put this headcanon/concept under a cut bc i feel like what could be considered snuff is probably a jumpscare for most ppl so. click at your own warning)
i just. i adore brutal dead dove sex that is destructive. like the whole "i want to crawl inside your chest" but it's *literal* and no one takes advantage of Laz Pits enough to do just that. like sex where you just physically can't hold yourself back from tearing open the flesh of the person you love bc you need to see their blood, you need to hold their heart in your greedy fist type shit. and if this is an AU where Jason and Kara were close but got separated by Jason ended up with the League, i do think their reunion could bring about just that. for once Kara isn't holding herself back and she's clawing at Jason's skin until he's bloody. i think it's fun if sometimes she just fucks him *in* the water bc it's quicker that way and Jason is constantly on this edge of death and rebirth at the same time. and with Cass in the mix too. JayCass you get me anon <3 Jason loves Kara still but it's clear he and Cass are a sort of package deal now and Kara might not know Cass well but if Jason loves her, she can trust that. so she gets to know Cass in the only way she cares about at the moment, pinning Cass down and fucking her. with a strap, with her own fist, anything that she can get inside of Cass to feel her body. maybe she pushes in too far and fucks Cass bloody until Csss needs the Pit sooner than even Jason did. and for Cass, who has no benchmark for real love but this dizzying feeling of being revived over and over, this is all she can ask for. devotion.
them suffocating on each other is so good- Kara doesn't care if Jason or Cass need to breathe, she cares about getting off and feeling whole again. she holds them down until their body gives out and forces them into the Pit again. maybe at some point she gets curious and holds one of them down facedown in the waters just to see if it's even possible to drown in the Lazarus Pit or not. she breaks bones just because she can and she wants to see what level of pain it takes for Cass to actually react to. how long it takes for a human body to bleed out. exploring their bodies means memorizing the limitations of them. it means she learns what them getting close to death looks like the same as getting close to an orgasm and whispers filthy dirty talk about how she can hear Jason's heart about to go out as he's trying desperately to come before he dies again. she counts how many minutes it takes before they die from lack of oxygen and compares who can last longer.
the Kryptonite shard is also enlightened- eventually Cass and Jason want to be the ones in control bc fair is fair and they deserve to do the same to Kara so they find some stash of Kryptonite and hold Kara down until it's deep inside of her and she's weak and in pain but still getting fucked. and she gets to taste the Lazarus Pit too, which i think would make her absolutely feral. Kara deserves some Pit rage for fun, i think even if she only gets to taste it while Cass is holding her down so Jason can fuck the Kryptonite deeper inside of her. every now and then Kara actually manages to strike one of them hard enough to injure them and it doesn't matter bc the Pit is right there.
all of it lasting for Days is just. good. like the haze the Pit has on the mind, being used over and over? almost like a spell none of them can break. they'd live the rest of their lives like this if they could and there would never even be a realistic end. it takes someone else walking in and managing to separate them before they actually calm down. and days before all the Lazarus Pit wears off and it finally sinks in just how fucked up what they did together was. and how fucked up it is that they don't even regret it. they're already trying to figure out where another Lazarus Pit is and how they can get control of it. i think it's fun if they spring it on each other too. like Jason will fall asleep in his bed but wake up to Cass and Kara holding his head under the green waters as he thrashes on instinct. Cass will be minding her business until Kara literally grabs her at superspeed and just flies her off to the waters to spread her legs and fuck her at superspeed until she's a bloody mess. they never know peace with each other and they irreparably damage their psyches over this. ty and gn.
#necrotic answerings#jaykaracass#jaycass#karacass#jaykara#dead dove do not eat#darkfic#anon it's like your connected to my brain bc i've been thinking about this concept for months#I might write this fic. I'm so serious#or just a fic with some ship with this concept.#anyway this one is so dark i've had the “can I even post this” question hit me#which of course means it's a favorite of mine#this is a reminder that I take the necrotic in my username seriously. it's not an aesthetic it's a promise.#I just adore Kara being so disgustingly feral in sex#and having a laz pit that lets her stop holding back. god bless.#I don't pick favorites but if I had a favorite anon. I think you'd be in the running I won't lie#bc yea. just. yeah. also your rarepairs are ELITE thoughts#does it count as snuff if the death isn't permanent and all characters understand that? unclear.#I feel it needs it's own word atp.#ALSO you could add cannibalism to this concept#Kara literally biting chunks off of both of them.#just bc she can.#or Jason and Cass eating at each other as she watches.#good thoughts all around#Jesus I need therapy.
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hey I hope you don't mind me asking but I noticed you posting about your ocs for an original project and that seems super cool!!! :O would love to hear more about them if you're willing to share? because they seem neat and I love the designs! also I just love hearing people talk about their ocs so ,,
oh no i dont mind at all in fact thank you so much for asking & being so nice about my project it means a lot to me as its been my biggest source of comfort recently <3
honestly not sure how to even start bc while ive been working my way through developing the main cast & worldbuilding for it for a quite a bit now idk how to put all of it in a summary that is simultaneously engaging enough & not too spoilery as id like to keep the main story beats unknown before im able to put out anything substantial...
the main thing i suppose is that the main cast consists of five humans who are all part of a group specializing in ghost hunting & exorcisms (those might not be the best words to describe it but thats the general idea). the story itself takes place on earth, but things are slightly different because theres an alien presence that corrupts the far side of moon and by extension the earth (& presumably some other planets as well); it causes various changes in the moon cycles, (such as, for example, the moon moving closer to the earth during certain periods of time) & is the reason for supernatural and spiritual occurrences on the planet. due to this many things that are seen as possible but questionable in our reality are very much real in this version of the universe. still, not everyone believes in those, since people develop different levels of affinity to the supernatural - some see & sense nothing at all, some are pretty much constantly haunted by visions, if you will (which btw isn't an innate quality that people are born with - it is affected by your surroundings & upbringing, as well as your general state of mind - there is a Heavy psychological aspect to this entire thing, really).
now, what the general storyline mainly comes down to is that at times the surplus of supernatural presence & energy in a single place may cause rifts between reality to happen - think something like the limbo or liminal spaces, they vary case by case based on what specific entity was the main cause - which is something these "ghost hunter" groups mainly deal with.
so the main gang enters one of those rifts - this specific one consists of several layers & is populated by these fish-like humanoids of different types that seem to mutate further into fully animalistic sea creatures as time goes by. now, once humans enter this type of rift, their connection to reality may be severed and they might not be able to directly interact with it until they figure out how to fully exit the rift. so thats the main goal for the first part of the story - to find a way out and stay sane since as their connection to reality & humanity fades over time, the ties to the other side only grow stronger (especially for those who have a higher affinity for the supernatural - which may include specific people in the main group...).
as i've already said before, the story has a heavy psychological aspect (one of the main reasons why i started working on it in the first place was to process some of my less than pleasant emotions - so thats probably why) so a lot of it is centered around the experiences, feelings, fears, ambitions and memories of the main characters (& some others as the story goes on) as well as the intricacies of their relationships between each other. a lot of worldbuilding also elaborates on those ideas and serves a specific symbolic purpose (i'll be very curious about how everything will be interpreted by different people, the ones who i hope will eventually take interest in the story once its out there - i also hope this doesnt sound too pretentious, im just a huge fan of metaphors & introspective analysis n all that stuff). perhaps some people may even relate to it in a way - which would be very reassuring to me as i'll be getting into a lot of things that are very personal jshsjsbd (though some are also just my own interpretations of what i've seen but haven't necessarily felt or experienced).
this came out so long my gosh im sorry. and i've only actually covered a very small part of everything without getting into much detail... 😭😭😭😭 so far there are supposed to be like ~3 parts of the project (game?) overall, all three likely being a bit different from each other in the general tone. also while writing all this i realized that i think you specifically asked about ocs and not like the whole thing hshsjhsbd but since i typed all of this out might as well put it out there it anyways. ill try to post more stuff related specifically to the main cast though. i put a lot of effort into developing their identities, relationships & making them feel as real as possible. they are my children who i love (to torture) and cherish a lot <3 they're the driving force of this universe, which yeah ofc makes sense since they Are the main cast, but what i mean is rather than reacting to what's happening they're very proactive in making the story move forward so pretty much everything leads back to them somehow. there are many side characters that i've also put a lot of work into and who represent something that is very important to me - i'll try my best to post more about them as well. i think i may try to make some spreadsheets & charts & little comics with them so people can get to know them without me venturing too far into the spoiler territory..?
this is so long and somehow i still feel i've barely said anything... also i apologize for the delayed answer i've been a little busy the past few days and i needed the time to sit down and write this whole thing since i knew it would take looooong. i'm so grateful for your ask & thank you for taking interest in my project i really appreciate it so much <3
#thank u for the ask <3#i really do appreciate it so much#honestly your ask actually helped me put some thoughts i wasnt sure how to express into words#not art#ask me anything#mutual asks#infodump#worldbuilding#storytelling#original project#og story#oc lore post#artists on tumblr#small artist#looking for art mutuals#im sorry for probably clogging my mutuals timeline with this chunk of text jshjsbsb#but if anyone else maybe wants to read it... <3
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If you don't mind me asking, i saw your talk about food taboos and i wondered, what kinds of cusine do the different cultures have?
I've made two posts about this so far
[Broad Imperial Wardi]
[Highlands]
I don't mind this being asked at all and I love these questions (like seriously thank you guys so much), I'd just much rather give fully developed answers, which are contextually dependent on modes of subsistence, climate, environment, access to trade, etc, and kind of have to be done one at a time to produce a thoughtful answer (which is what's most helpful for me in worldbuilding). So I could answer about a specific culture or location but not really en-masse.
#I'll work on another over the next few days I've had the info for Jazaiti cuisine percolating#They usually take like....8-12 hours to research/review/type. A huge chunk of that is me getting distracted and going down wikipedia#holes about actual food/crops/livestock but still. Takes a while.#Those posts don't HAVE to be as thorough and lengthy as they are but if I'm putting a significant amount of thought and research into it#I'm going to be detailed with it#Welcome to my 1000000000billion word count hell
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just got the jpn novelization of the movie toren's from and i'm a whole.... like. 7 pages in. waow.
#<- can apparently read at a bit below like. elementary school level KJJDKJNKJDSN#granted i know kanji that the average elementary schooler probably doesn't know#but i'm relying a Tad more on furigana than i'd hoped i would need to kdjfngkj ;;;;;#whateverrrr i'm still getting through it pretty smoothly all things considered. i know most of the words just not the kanji.#although i think i'm still a decent chunk away from seeing my boy. also a little sad that there aren't any illustrations like in other#jpn novels i have :((( i was hoping for a smidge more official art kjdnfkgjn#anyway taking a break from reading my Oh So Difficult baby book to catch up here lala#📌 [ my posts. ]#💭 [ my thoughts. ]
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Forgot to post this earlier but I did in fact comb the entire Vesperia script to determine how many times he uses ま/まあ throughout the game, along with a few other phrases he uses repeatedly. This counts all of main story, every single sidequest, and every single skit in the game.
Final counts were:
ま/まあ: 280
Ma/Maa; translates to "well". He uses this at the beginning of a sentence usually, but it's sometimes in the middle. "Ma" is usually more quick and snappy. "Maa" is more thoughtful and/or prolonged. Obviously it can vary based on context, but that's the general breakdown.
んじゃ and any variants: 133
Nja, along with variants such as "ja", "soreja", etc. Variants are counted when they're all used to express "let's get going", when they're about to head off ("ja" could be used in a sentence such as "ja/but then, why is xyz like this", etc). They encompass translations such as "well then" (let's get going implied. includes "so then", "then" "alright then", and so on), "we should be off", "let's get going", "let's go", etc. (not to be confused with 行こう(ikou), 行くぜ, (ikuze), and other similar versions of this phrase. That can also mean "let's go", but any instances of Yuri using that particular phrase was not counted because it wasn't a variant of, specifically, んじゃ, which is also his most common "let's go" ja variant).
おい / おいおい: 66
Oi/Oi oi; translates to "hey"/"hey, hey", though "oi" is more or less an accepted word in English nowadays.
おっと: 12
Otto (not to be confused with "oto", referring to sound); an expression of surprise that can translate roughly to "whoa there" (which is the most common translation I do see for it and what I'd use in most cases too, context of course varying). The reason I included this one despite it being so seemingly low in number is because it's not a particularly common expression, much less one used multiple times by a single character? It's so rare from anyone else, which is just a regular thing relative to Yuri and his dialogue/speech (i.e. most characters sparingly use phrases repeatedly, as compared to Yuri... as you can see lol. Other characters use these words/phrases, but nowhere near as regularly, if regularly at all).
Realized along the way I should've included やれやれ (yare yare, "good grief", "oh dear", "oh boy" etc), but by the time I realized I should have in case it was an interesting count, I was too far into the script to be able to handle going all the way back through it LOL.
No. No, I am not joking that Yuri used ま/まあ 280 times throughout the course of the game. That is to say, it could be more if I missed any, but on the assumption I didn't, that's where it stands.
Why do I love this so much? Because it's a very specific character quirk of a character I adore. I'm very fond of his repetition. Thank you.
#GTF Vesperia Things#GTF Yuri Things#so glad I gave him his own tag jpfjugDFJISHFG he fuckin' needs it#OH ALSO note that I may or may not have (I genuinely don't know I don't THIIIINK I did?) accidentally picked up#the “but then" etc variant of ja. at this point I don't remember and I'd have to go back through my doc of this#bc I was skim-combing the script juggling several phrases mainly for ma. if I ever do a recount I'll confirm lol#also shoutout to Rays for using ���/まあ 68 times for him which is 4 more times than he uses it in Vesp arc 1 main story#I'm both thankful and amazed that Rays' writers ACTUALLY kept it to the correct general extent at large (when you consider the size of#both games and Yuri's role) I've always expressed how dedicated they are to the source material of the legacy chars but#that CEMENTED it LOL. the way they retain speech quirks for legacy chars is amazing and I applaud them#he uses おい / おいおい 54 times throughout Rays#おっと was used 10 times throughout Rays which is hilariously almost identical to Vesp's usage#んじゃ they did keep but I didn't count the amount of times#now MIND YOU Rays is split into 4 arcs prior to Recollection (which he's not in) and has to contend with about 200ish legacy characters#Yuri is largely in arc 4 and has a large chunk of appearances in arc 2#he's mostly absent from arc 3 after the beginning of it and he's not in arc 1 much after the first chapter (which is his chapter)#he does show up in a lot of skits early into Rays tho since they only had so many chars to work with for arc 1 skits#and I also included count of those phrases in events (both skits and events throughout the game)#WHAT I'M SAYING is that Rays still managed to retain his word choice repetitiveness#and managed to get the count that high which is a very accurate reflection of it#while trying to put about 200 legacy chars through a revolving door#they were THAT on the nose with Yuri's quirks and further cements that this is a very Yuri thing#and a character quirk choice that was brought in from the game of origin#and they DID do this with other chars not just him... but the fact that they DID to me means#they thought it was important enough of a quirk to make sure they didn't lose it in his dialogue#WHICH. I AGREE. I AM VERY VERY DEEPLY PLEASED THEY KEPT IT#it just goes to show how dedicated they were in faithfully translating the characters into a gacha game#(not tl in the loc sense but tl in the ''writing a char outside their origin game for a non-origin game appearance'')#it also proved my theory that Yuri's vocal repetition was done intentionally bc they found it part of him enough to carry it over#anyway yeah i have yuri lowell brainrot and he pretty much owns 98 percent of the real estate in my brain these days
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I'm not a "new musical theatre style music" person. Never have been.
Even when I was doing voice lessons, I'd steer towards the golden age or jazzy musical theatre songs. My voice teacher would have to drag me kicking and screaming towards adding anything new musical theatre to my repertoire. For a while, the most modern song in my book was I Know The Truth from Aida, and I wouldn't count that as new musical theatre style since I mean more the Pasek&Paul or Joe Iconis type.
And now I have an audition coming up for a small production of a show in that style and I'm supposed to sing a song in a similar style. And I'm looking at all my sheet music like... let me do some Cole Porter... or Gershwin... at least Sondheim please...
#look i do have SOME newer musicals in my book. but like i said. kicking and screaming.#i'm probably gonna end up doing 'I Think That He Likes Me' which is not IN a musical it's just new musical theatre style#as part of a songbook for some writing duo that i can't remember the name of and it's 2:45am so i can't care enough to look it up.#and it's the only one in my sheet music folder that i'm like 'ok. this is TRULY the right style' and i know it's good in my voice#and it's a cute song and i do like it and it definitely fits the overall vibe of the show#and though i haven't sung it in like 4 years i still remember 90% of the words and have time to study it before the audition#but while trying to find that song deep deep in my folder i pass by other songs i just love so much more#and i'm like ahhhhhhhh why#and i'm not even like 'god i hope i get it' (see A Chorus Line. that's more my type) i truly don't care if i'm cast or not#and yes i can technically audition with any song i could ever want it's just suggested to do the same style#but i know the entire creative panel who i'll be auditioning for and the last 2 times i auditioned for them i sang the same song#only because it's a GOOD song that fit both shows i was auditioning for (Can't Stop Talking About Him by Frank Loesser)#(perfect audition song since it's short at like 28 bars and you can pick the tempo and do a lot of character stuff)#(but see this is what i mean. like 1/3 of my entire sheet music folder is golden age musicals. then half is 60s-90s.)#(and then the last chunk are the few new-ish musical theatre and some pop music.)#(if i took performing more seriously i'd have a wider range but this is truly just for fun and just for me. so i do what i like.)#i don't want to go in for a 3rd audition with the same creative team and doing the same song. especially since it doesn't fit this time.#so once again. dragged kicking and screaming. over to new musical theatre territory. unwillingly.#if i get cast we'll have to see if the show itself even grows on me since honestly i think there's maybe 2 songs i like in it.#it's definitely not the worst new musical theatre style show but it's also not one that drew me in.#ok wait while looking through lists of 'new musical theatre' shows to find one i actually like (i think just Legally Blonde sorry guys)#(every other new musical in the last 20 years that i like did something interesting with the music like Come From Away)#i ended up finding out that apparently 13 was adapted into a netflix movie? when did that even happen?#i mean i don't care for that show either but i thought i was at least up to date on movie adaptations.
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mayday, mayday!
#in no way do I think tumblr is going down anytime soon#but i’ve realized I’ve always had an naive sort of idea that tumblr would be a constant in my life and forever evolve as I grow#it is just that intertwined with the way i use the internet. i have been here nearly every day since a month after i turned twelve#like i hope this isn’t pathetic to admit but this place was and is a cornerstone of my adolescence#tumblr is my word of mouth. it is my fandom home base. it is my diary sometimes#and it’s not that I can’t learn to use another platform. it’s that the continuity is important to me#my blog is a stream of every love and passion and obsession of my entire teenage hood and as of now the beginning of my adulthood#the thought of having to move somewhere new and break off from this massive and fundamental chunk of my life is hugely upsetting#not to mention my mutuals! and everyone I follow! it’s impossible to round everyone up again if. god forbid. we all have to leave here#and of course blah blah blah everything in life is temporary learn to accept change yada yada#but it’s been part of me long enough where i have a hard time picturing how i could even go about leaving this behind#anyway. nothing bad is happening yet. I’ll stay here until it breaks entirely#blither blather bother
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doing iron chunk routes rn and i’m having lore thoughts . celestia i am side eyeing u so fucking hard rn bc why have u done this....hm.....
#of all fucking things to run out of iron chunks was not what i expected 💀#these thoughts r bouncing around in my head i need to word vomit or i’m going insane. do u guys want it here bc otherwise it’s going to#the tt drafts#fish plays: genshin
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finding drawings from this year that i have absolutely no memory of shouldnt be the most disturbing thing to me this week but here we are
#kostik speaks#i thought surely this is just really old. checks the date. january this year#fucks sake#i dont recognise it at all#i know ive been losing huge chunks of time for the entire year so far but this really kicked me#its fully rendered and everyfing. how did this just get deleted from my memory#in other words sorry for not posting art for ages ive been in active crisis on and off for over a month now. mental illness innit#trying to pick up my pen more often but itll take time to be normal again#sigh
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Only just now noticed the redbubble link at the top of your blog, lol. Anyways, if you were to ever put that Tina at unicorn academy art on there as a sticker or whatever I’d 50000% buy one!!!
ill be honest i havent put anything up there in a really REALLY really long time (never got the hang of drawing thing w merch in mind) so i forget about it too lol
ill look into putting stuff like that up there if there's intrest tho! ive had fanart stuff pulled quick from rb before but maybe bob's stuff would stick
#i should maybe just look into that kinda stuff in general...... it confuses me lol...........#and i think a good chunk of the stuff i had on rb has gotten pulled bc copyright#but i know there are other places and stuff :O its doesnt occur to me much tht ppl would want to buy my art in that form#also thank u for ur other asks btw! sorry i hadnt thought of words to reply! im very glad u like her tho!!!!
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Im making a neocities to replace and improve upon this blog. Very exciting development
#sometimes i feel like a town crier but like#only for things that interest me personally#like just a dude on horseback riding through town at 4am like#''I GOT MY TAX RETURN BACK. IT WAS $103.''#and people go back to sleep#anyway coding is both easier than i ever thought and also very very hard#like#very easy to do super super basic stuff#and people have done a lot of work to make it super easy to get started#there are html generators i found that do the basic foundation leg work for you to start#(super appreciate the people who made those)#and doing small basic edits to a pre existing code is easy#but uh#things get so much more complex#and when you KNOW theres a small error somewhere but you cant find it???#finding the error is like. lowkey brain melting#keeping track of everything when its still in progress is hard#and alao tbh ive always struggled to like#perceive the concept of software#like theres just this disconnect in my head#i have a brick of plastic and metal in my hand#and i can generally understand how it was constructed in specific ways to channel electric charges in a way to cause certain effects#but then the idea that you have this lengthy hypothetical and nontangible logic exercise just. SOMEHOW contained within it.#and that is the key to the physical item doing what you want it to#my brain just really struggles with that#so talking about code too in depth confuses me no matter how accessibly its phrased#just. its a math problem. its word problems. its logic problems. i can solve puzzles.#i cannot comprehend the continuum between the thought puzzles and the chunk of physical material in my hands#anyway#devilman am i right
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So apparently my brother knows Bohemian Rhapsody, Bad Romance and Taylor Swift but not Hotel California, Eleanor Rigby, or Thriller??
#brain soup#what is this child’s music education my word. next time I visit I am coming with a whole playlist of need to know songs#I must include the three above as well as danger zone and at least a couple John Williams scores#I am also realizing that a decent chunk of my music taste comes from my grandad and another chunk from my mom so I just don’t know many#pop songs after like… 2019 when the no-thoughts-just-party type of pop faded out
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