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you've activated my toontown sleeper agent (I NEED TO PLAY IT AGAIN) This is gonna be long so I'll put the reading thing HERE
Dr. Zippety Wonderwhatsit (Just "Zip" for short) was not a generated name, it was handcrafted. "Dr." because I like mad doctor characters, "Zippety" somewhat in reference to "Zebedee" from "The Magic Roundabout", "Wonderwhatsit" to mimic when people say "whatchamacallit", and just shortened to Zip sometimes for peoples sanity.
He was just intended to be a Toontownsona, but has actually now become my fursona. In doing so he's replaced Fatlip, my previous fursona (Though I still cherish Fatlip, since he was made by an old friend I'll never see again)
Zip gets paired with a few of the different characters in TTCC. You've probably seen him with Buck Ruffler and Alton S. Crow, but Dave Brubot is the 3rd addition to his collection of Robot Wives. Zip is also paired with my boyfriends Toon "Cap'n Snappy Gigglesnout". With this, I hope it's obvious Zip is polyamorous!!
Zip does have a sibling, my sisters Toon "Little Pearl" (the kiwi). Though to explain why they're different species and still related? TL;DR what happens when a toon and a cog fall in love + headcanons on how Toons are "born" (drawn into existence) and Zip is the result of a joke, Little Pearl had more thought.
The first gags Zip had were "squirt" and "drop". For Clash players you're probably screaming at the top of your lungs for this combo and in my defence: I thought it was really funny.
A majority of the time you will NOT find Zip without a hat in game, but in art I draw him with nothing added on. This is because he looks so bald in game it hurts my soul. You'll also never find him without those shades, I've never taken them off since the moment I put them on
Zip has influenced both my internet and irl life. During my last hospitalisation I had "toontown fixation withdrawls" and recreated him in Splatoon out of desperation. After that he influenced the decision of getting circle glasses just so I could get matching circle shades, and my favourite sets of clothes that I have bought since his creation are all shades of green (a.k.a my VFX classes worst nightmare). This also means after years of not knowing my favourite colour, it's blatantly obvious what I like now
Zip, like me, is British. Just like me the angrier he gets the more British he sounds (going from "oh my god fuck off die" to "You fucking wanker piss of you tosser. dickhead"
A little ramble: Zip is probably so intertwined with myself because of transgender metaphors. I've seen deers used as trans metaphors with the whole antlers thing, either losing them (mtf) or gaining them (ftm). Sometimes I forget to draw him with antlers but I feel it fits his entire [waves hands] trans thing
FINAL FACT: Zip takes a GREAT PRIDE in his house. It is very well decorated and usually changes around with the seasons (e.g. changing wallpapers to match halloween/christmas). In typing this I realise I've missed a bunch of catalogues in game <- will never recover
OK THATS ALL I THINK <- still could talk more he feels
#goldenposting#I'M IN CLASS RN DOING WORK FOR TOMORROW BUT#this heals my brain#YAY#toontown corporate clash#ttcc#Dr Zippety Wonderwhatsit#ocs
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My actual favorite part of wisdom saga is telemachus trying to lean against Athena (he thought about that for .03 seconds and then was like nah !!! :D she's my friend not the goddess of war!!! Good to see that the audacity is running strong in odysseus's family) and then just passed threw her and fell on the floor. And then Athena did not move at all!!! And just stood there looking at him.
#Epic the musical#Wisdom saga#Wisdom saga spoilers#Epic the musical spoilers#Athena and telemachus are my favorite girlie pop dou#Her little oops earlier you know she was thinking back to how she just use to toss odysseus around with her full strength#Athena in that moment :....did I give odysseus brain damage? Is that the way he is? Or was he always a freak?#And then the way she just stood there while telemachus is sprawled through her ??? Amazing#Favorite moment#Athena does not get humans 101#You know what#I'm about to be back on my Athena just lives odysseus's house bullshit#It's not even an au it's practically Canon in the odyssey#And honestly?? After that she's needs a treat of all her favorite people under one roof just relaxing and healing#Rip diomedes sorry you're not included in this one#Athena#telemachus
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happy 30th birthday, kim namjoon (김남준) !
#bts#btsedit#btsgif#dailybts#btsdaily#namjoon#kim namjoon#rm#namjoonday#userbangtan#dailybangtan#usersan#heyryen#userpat#tuserandi#raplineuser#userdimple#rjshope#annietrack#usersky#userkelli#knjedit#***#WE GOT ANOTHER ONE LADS#welcome to the thirty club my king !!!! another earth toned set for my virgo icon uwu#lov u miss u cant wait for ur docu ur brain is so big and wrinkly#making these just rly reminded me of how fuckin GOOD rpwp is like yall have to just........ listen to it again#let it sink into ur bones and let it heal u until he is back with us#COME BACK TO ME etc etc u kno#anyways HAPPY NAMU DAY !!!!!!!!!!!
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alternate surface au inspired by a few ive seen around on tumblr :3
#my art#pressure roblox#roblox pressure#sebastian solace#painter pressure#thought more abt my headcanons for seb’s anatomy and like. lol that tail is not pure muscle hes got guts in there.#that + the fact that there’s spinal cord in there means itd be a bad idea to try and amputate it#the wagon/eventual wheelchair is mostly for outdoor use i imagine.#<- specificallt]y for outdoor surface textures/debris that’d be bad for him to slither on#also. chronic pain have i dont think suddenly shrinking his whole body did much good for that#i imagine he and painter have like. a pool. to help with that and other needs he has now.#but he wouldnt wanna use it for a long while#there was a sort of. disconnect between his idea of freedom from urbanshade vs the reality of it i think.#like. thinking things could. on some level. go back to normal#and not considering that some of his mutations would be irreversible#and having to confront/cope with/accomodate himself about that#seb wants to be normal again but we cant all get what we want can we!#sometimes healing involves working with or around irreversible change buddy!#btw if feligayzed sees this. hiii hii your au was one of the big things that kicked my brain off on this and i wanna make fanart sometime#oh yeah this is . also.#sebpainter#pressure pathways#pathways#wow i dont think ive written a wall of tags that big in a long time. can you tell im having normal feelings about them
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hope you feel better soon!
I am riddled with ailments, but I stay silly!
#ask#non mdzs#My health journey has been: Hernia -> acid reflux -> Vocal pain due to aforementioned reflux -> chest infection.#I'm terrified to know what's about to hit me next. Please let it be something kind. PLEASE.#The consequence of living with linguists is that you'll wake up with a wacked up voice -#suddenly you're sitting you down in front of a program called something like Praat having your shimmer and jitter levels calibrated.#They gave me a GRBAS of 33012. I have a fun thing called a pitch break where a whole octave just does not exist.#My vocal pain was bad enough I ended up seeing a speech pathologist and that whole experience was super neat!#I learnt a lot about voice - to be honest I might make a little comic on it after some more research. Fascinating stuff.#For example; your mental perception of our voice modulates the muscles of the vocal folds and larynx.#meaning that when you do have changes (inflammation = more mass = lower frequency)#your brain automatically attempts to correct it to what it 'should sound like'. Leading to a lot more vocal strain and damage!#And it gets really interesting for trans voice care as well - because the mental perception of one's voice isn't based on an existing sampl#So a good chunk of trans voice training is also done with the idea of finding one's voice and retraining the brain to accept it. Neat!#Parkinsonial Voice also has this perception to musculature link! The perception is that they are talking at a loud/normal volume#but the actual voice is quite breathy and weak. So vocal training works on practicing putting more effort into the voice#and retraining the brain to accept the 'loud' voice as 'normal'.#Isn't the human body fascinating?#Anyhow; Now I have vocal exercises and strategies to reduce strain and promote healing.#Which is a lot better than my previous strategy of yelling AAAH in my car until my 'voice smoothed out'.#You can imagine the horror on the speech path's face. I am an informed creature now.#I'm my own little lab rat now. I love learning and researching. Welcome to my tag lab. Class is dismissed.#I'll be back later with a few more answered asks </3 despite everything I'm still going to work and I need the extra sleep.#Thank you for the well wishes! And if you read all of that info dump; thank you for that as well!
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i need to talk about vex and percy and why their episode three arc made me cry genuine, real tears (not kidding, tears left my eyeballs and like, it made my tummy ache)
vex is a bad omen, she thinks. her love for anyone is ruinous for them and she genuinely views herself as unlovable. the closer someone gets to her heart, the more likely they are to see that there is something wrong with her and they will reap the negative consequences of that. there’s something sick in her and sooner or later it will rear its head, so she might as well beat it to that.
percy loves her regardless and he makes that clear to her. he doesn’t insist that she is wrong when she admits this because he wants her to understand that even if any of what she said was true? he would feel exactly the same.
he loves her intensely, deeply and he also sees that she is truly terrified and he respects her wishes. he doesn’t fault her for her inability to reciprocate the way he wants in that moment
vex is someone who thinks she is hard to love.
percy cannot think of anything easier.
like, there is nothing righter in this world than the woman he loves.
so yes she cannot say what he wants to hear. it hurts, it isn’t easy, it has every hallmark of a situation that would breed frustration but he still holds her.
percy does not ONCE get visibly or verbally frustrated with her even with the fact that she’s (in my opinion, very intentionally) pushing him away by being dismissive and a little bit of a jerk when they first set up camp and talk. because ultimately, despite vex’s insistence that she can’t love him (and that she cannot be loved), percy sees her and treats her as someone deserving of gentleness and understanding.
she deserves to feel safe, she deserves to feel heard and she deserves to be listened to and that would be true even if she didn’t reciprocate his feelings the way he wanted her to.
#the legend of vox machina#tlovm spoilers#tlovm season 3#tlovm#percival de rolo#percy de rolo#vex'ahlia#vex’ahlia de rolo#percahlia#i think this actively broke and healed something in my brain at the same time#tlovm s3 e3#i have so many thoughts about them always
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What if I redesigned some horses to fit MY favorite narrative trope: fallen gods and forgotten myths of old? Anyways.
Twilight’s mentor is a strange one. In a world of twilit planes forever shrouded in mystery, the older unicorn Lest and her adopted student Twilight are one in many common travelers, migrating the pitted wastelands and eeking survival within settlements that spring up around the glowing meteor shards. Despite living with Lest for the last four years, Twilight can’t help but seek answers to where her brother has gone— and in the process, perhaps dig a bit too deeply into the complexities of gods far older and dangerous then she can truly fathom.
On the otherhand, Celestia “Lest” Sol is having a terrible millenium. Her sister is no longer her sister, her student teleported herself halfway across the continent, and she got herself kidnapped by an old rival trying to attune with the elements of harmony to overthrow the current ruler of Equestria.
At least she gets a toxic yuri moment.
Meanwhile, Chrysalis is having a great time. She’s got kingdoms to conquer and people to feed and a waning god to taunt.
(The Selene Grace hates the sun monarch they deposed five centuries ago as they stay chained to their post, keeping the lunar and solar bodies from crashing into each other. Luna misses her sister, and the easier world where they haven’t hurt each other beyond reparation. Nightmare Moon misses their monstrosity, trapped in a host who’s grief has poisoned them with empathy.
Things are bound to tip. The celestial bodies are not bodies, but prisons, and the amalgamations we call alicorns the key. And something desperately wants to be freed…)
Anyways:
My mane 6 redesign here!
And my luna and celestia redesigns here!
#rest your weary hooves in our new found home#^pony tag nonsense!#omg what if i idly brainstorm toxic horse yuri#idk these characters beyond the first three seasons#they’re sandbox critters to me sorry if this is not lore accueate aHAHAHhahaaaa#anyways#au where celestia looses the fight with nightmare moon and ends up wandering the continent as an exiled god#luna gets her shit together but its A Struggle#and chrysalis is actually an elderitch entity similar to discord in this au (think the god of deception or something similar)#((deceptacons roll out))#celestia#luna#chrysalis#nightmaremoon wins au#critdraws#art#celestia/chrysalis#mlp au#i had to post this at somepoint and thought well now’s better then never#sorry for the sporadic posts and terrible replies life’s super busy rn but i have a lot of thoughts#i just need luna and celestia to be siblings that heal from wounding each other in terrible ways okay#and i thought ‘celestia and chrysalis would pbbly hate each other��#(neuron brain activates)#oh my god what if they hated each other#mlp#mlp redesigns#mlp celestia#mlp luna#mlp twilight sparkle#mlp chrysalis
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have been feeling under the weather lately, so i daydreamed a silly nurse moon to take care of me
also couldn't decide which i liked better so i leave the choice to you, brave patient. which nurse will you choose?
#fnaf moon#fnaf dca#dca fandom#crab art#bright colours#digital art#do you prefer slim stockings#or jesterpants and a hint of exposed ankle?#sometimes instead of working or drawing the things you planned to draw#the best medicine is to draw the random brainrot in your head#regardless of the nonsense your silly little brain tries to fool you with#sometimes you just gotta go#rejoice#nurse moon be upon me#i have also dreamt of a personal trainer Sun#because the only way to heal my terrible relationship with exercise and my appearance#is to have a buff 7 foot something sun robot encourage me through it and call me “cute little thing”#scratch what i said earlier#the best medicine is blorbos#i'll draw personal trainer sun later i need to look up references
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Thinking about vampirism in D&D again... Considering the tadpole shut down most of the abilities Astarion's just taken for granted for about 200 years, as discussed by him and Shadowheart:
3. Astarion: It's a long time since I was in a house of healing. Gods, it's depressing.
0. Shadowheart: I suppose you don't have much use for hospitals... unless you're seeking to steal their blood stock.
2. Astarion: True, although I don't heal as fast as I used to. The one downside to the tadpole, I suppose.
1. Shadowheart: The one downside? I think you might have stopped the count too soon... End
Well, Astarion is probably used to watching his injuries start closing up the moment he gets them. This whole thing where wounds just stay open, potentially kill you and hurt all day is a new one. I wonder if he worked out his regeneration was nullified before he got himself severely injured... His assessment of damage might be a bit out of practice.
There's also the fact that vampires have supernaturally boosted physical capabilities; the default vampire spawn strength score is more along the lines of 16.
While I am attached to Astarion's horrible noodly score of 8, the concept of him absentmindedly trying to lift things far too heavy for him without vampirism giving him an edge is funny (and honestly could very well tie in to discovering the lack of regeneration when he hurts himself). His reflexes are still good, but they would've been better so he probably finds himself quite clumsy.
His senses of sight, hearing and smell might've gotten duller too (if he complains about this nobody is going to have sympathy - he's an elf, he has the sharpest senses by default). His sense of touch, on the other hand, might've been restored (it's duller for the undead). You know what will make Astarion's already charming attitude [affectionate-and-derogatory] better? Overstimulation.
And after he adjusts the tadpole is removed, and it's back to the adjustment period.
#I'm sick and on the verge of death (not really) so for some reason my brain thought of this because it's relevant or something#Astarion would be the worst patient#things to consider when ill: Astarion spraining something while trying to move a bookcase with one hand or something#Poor Shadowheart having to heal a moron who hasn't needed it for centuries#astarion#astarion ancunin#bg3#babbling
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we should make Nico more fucked up, actually. enough woobifying him. that boy should be covered in blood and viscera
#pjo#riordanverse#nico di angelo#we've done ''nico ships where his partner coddles and takes care of him while he heals from the innumerable trauma''#now let's do more ''nico ships where his partner helps him move past his trauma and enables him to be gay do crime''#more nico ships where nico is having his big 3 kid force-of-nature moments and his boyfriend goes ''HOT''#whatever happened to ''Will and Nico's first date was killing a man together. also Michael was there''#even stuff like. [tsats spoilers] getting all your negative attributes physically ripped out of you and turned into immortal creatures#that perhaps could leave you Changed! give me Nico who had the darkness taken from him#and it leaves him just a little unsettlingly bright and empty like a partial husk of himself#give me Nico whose cacodaemons can reabsorb back into him like he's their walking nest to hide in and emerge from whenever they please#he's just left an unsettling host for shadow monsters of pain and trauma#that's just one avenue. Nico's the spooky guy let him be spooky!#im constantly rotating just normal Nico operating on underworld laws/logic/mortality in my brain#make him WEIRDER
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Trying to bribe @morningstarwrites with these sketches so I can read the new chapter earlier ha! Thank you for the inspiration, the challenge and the absolute joy this fic brings me. I’d kiss your brain folds if I could.
#AND OH MY GODDDDDDDDD#this fanfiction healed me of my#‘everything I draw looks like absolute shit’ curse#i was so devastated and frustrated with all my drawings lately#and had to delete some oops#I couldn’t bare to look at them anymore#including the sketch for the last chapter to this fic#I tried to achieve something specific and failed so badly#so I reset my brain and went back to the way how I originally sketched them#and TA-DA it worked and now I can draw again#my soul is healed thank you no one reads this#hazbin hotel#radioapple#osas#morningstarwrites
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I've been doing a lot of reflection as of late, especially after this past class.
This past class was about the Torah and Tanakh in general, and the way the rabbi talked about the commandments (specifically the ten commandments) has made me really reflect on how I interpret them, specifically the fifth commandment, or honoring your mother and father.
This is a commandment I have wrestled with for a long time - in fact, it brought me away from g-d at multiple times. I was severely abused when I was incredibly young by my mother, and I used to feel insulted at the implication that I were to honor her while she got to live a better life. It was hypocritical, in my eyes.
But this rabbi surmised that this particular commandment was because parenthood is an act of creation, something that is like the g-d from which we come from. My realization is this: I don't think we're necessarily meant to take even these commandments literally.
I this particular commandment is more of a call to honor creation - creation is a gift, and like any gift, many people simply will not like it and will discard it. The person who abused me created me, but she did not honor creation. She didn't honor me, but I can still honor it.
I have started to honor creation much more. I'm too young, too unstable, not mature enough to be a father (though I fantasize about it), but I create all the time. I create relationships, I create with my hands through crochet. I create memories, I create my world. And I can honor who I am and where I came from that made me who I am. I've been learning one of the mother tongues of my family (Italian, since part of my family originates there) and it was judaism that inspired me to do this.
I don't think g-d wants me to honor my abuser. I think He wants me to remember the Holy action of creation. When I am a father, that act of creation will be Holy, and indeed, I am already joyful about the thought.
I have seen many people struggle with this particular commandment, but I think this perspective helps me personally. I don't think I ever have to forgive my abusers (plural), and I don't think I am commanded to simply because they happened to be family. I am commanded to recognize the holy, to elevate the mundane. In doing so, I will remember g-d. Through creation, I honor g-d and everything he has done for us, for me, and for our collective people.
#jumblr#jew by choice#jewish conversion#personal thoughts tag#abuse tw#i am not sharing this for the sake of pity and i also ask not to be told to divulge my abuse story. that isn't relevant#i have been needing to engage with this topic for a long time though and judaism has helped me a bit in navigating healing#but i decided to share this publicly in the hopes it will help other survivors specifically of familial/parental abuse#i know how it feels (in general). it's so lonely and you can really harbor (understandable) baggage about this particular commandment#i have a meeting with My Rabbi (sponsoring rabbi) and i might bring this up. we've only spoken once face-to-face (zoom)#so that might be really Intense to bring up to him but he is very kind and i trust him (which is why he is My Rabbi)#and he has already told me that he WANTS me to wrestle with g-d and His word *with* him#again i am posting this publicly so i can document my thoughts and keep them straight but also with the hope it MIGHT help others#if it even *casually* inspires another survivor i will feel so grateful (though it is THEIR achievement and not mine to claim)#i want us to survive. i want us to eat well. i want us to smile#i will say that this must be a very sudden whiplash in tone from my last post about sex. from sex to awful horrific abuse#my stream of consciousness is just Like This though in the sense that i have very sudden realizations and tonal whiplashes#so you're just getting a very frank look into how my brain is structured and what my brain thinks are important enough to think about#if i seem much more verbose it's because i needed to write this on my laptop which makes typing and more importantly yapping even *easier*
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girls who go 🧍
#(+ obligatory Fern Pout. i think it's the grumbly noise she makes that really sells it but i still had to draw it)#been thinking about this with melody for a while#& was inspired to throw fern in the mix when i saw her standing there like a telephone pole during her third exam#hunter x hunter#hxh#melody hxh#senritsu#sousou no frieren#fern frieren#(middle right is a manga panel redraw btw)#as much as i love dressing up melody in cute outfits & poses one thing i really love about her in canon is how a lot of the time#she's just kinda standing there in her signature potato sack dress#she wears dresses/feminine clothing but isn't really the “girly” type like bisky or palm#nor a Kickass Fight Girl™ but is still competent enough to participate in the plot#she values things like emotions music healing and protecting people without being “soft uwu Team Heart girl”#and not a mom/sister figure even with kacho or neon where she's in the position of protecting a younger girl#i know this word doesn't really mean anything but to my brain she's just *normal*#a depiction of femininity that i vibe with more than many others i guess#to some extent i feel that with fern too even if she's a bit more. well.#let's just say i spent two minutes in the fern tag and the amount of anime tiddies in there does not surprise me in the least
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When the Sky Was Green by Copperprawn on AO3 has altered my psyche. Made me cry n get in my feels a little too much over some gd ronpa foos... Please read this! (not for those who don't want to read about sensitive or dark topics)
Kinda spoiler-ish under cut (not really, idk)
#gundham tanaka#kazuichi soda#kazuichi souda#soudam#danganronpa#sdr2#my art#sketch#ficart#FUUUUCK#the brain worms fester#need some fluff now to heal my soul
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Tom and Greg giving the worst medical advice you've ever heard.
#cocaine and lemon lacroix will heal your brain and your eyes#tomgreg#succession#succession spoilers#tom wambsgans#greg hirsch#my gifs
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fam i'm having shrimp emotions about dean winchester in the year of our lord 2024. it doesn't get better
#yes i did watch the dean landslide amv three times in a row. no i dont want to talk about it#bUT ALSO-#DEAN DESERVED BETTER#we all deserved bETTER !!!#baby had so much trauma and didnt get to kiss the gay angel what even was the point#finally reading the goldenrod revisions (ao3) is healing and destroying me all at the same time#will i ever know peace#i hope dean winchester is watching 911 in heaven and seeing bi buck has altered his brain chemisty <3#spn#dean winchester#destiel#supernatural#dean winchester my beloved#the goldenrod revisions
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