#this has happened before idc what anyone thinks otherwise

[crippling-pages]

Tam: So, Dex, how long have you and Stina been together? Dex: What? We're not dating. Tam: ...You're not? Dex: Of course not, why would you think that?! Tam: She was literally pinning you against the wall 10 minutes ago, and you guys have these weird flirty looks on your faces. Dex:

[illyabata]

scars are A Thing™ with wriothesley and nobody can convince me otherwise, idc if there is zero mention of his scars or their meaning when he comes out idc it’s my permanent headcanon that scars and their stories are simply entangled with his character idc

so now i give you: wriothesley who is fascinated by your scars

tw: discussion of scars lol, but in no way do i indicate their origin unless it’s stretch marks. however if talk of scars at all is triggering to you, dont read!! it’s sweet fluffy stuff, but that doesn’t matter if it will trigger you. please take care :)

sfw, big brainrot under cut

theyre so much smaller than his, more delicate, just like you. doesnt matter if compared to other people you are big or tall, he’s such a big guy that he makes you feel small no matter your size or height. and no matter what your scars look like to you, to him they are beautiful. to him they are delicate.

he’s enamored by all of your scars no matter their origin—stretch marks, however, seem to intrigue him the most of all. he’s absolutely transfixed by them, and you can never understand why. he’s simply mesmerized by the way the blemished skin stretches as he thumbs and presses it, watching the discoloration flatten itself only to bloat back when he leaves it alone. for some reason he just seems so puzzled by the concept of natural scarring of the body; nothing had happened to harm you for these to appear—they’re simply the product of change, your skin either going through rapid periods of expanding or shrinking. he thinks they’re pretty.

he’d spend so long just running his rough fingers over your skin, absorbed in the feeling of the puckered tissue under his own blemished hands. whether the scars are stretch marks or from something else, he loves them, he loves you.

this might sound weird but i just like to imagine you both spend time gently tracing each others’ scars as comfort, like it sounds weird in words but it makes sense i promise. there is something intimate and fascinating about scars, no matter what they’re from; it’s truly like the language of your body’s history, a record of what has occurred. you can resent them or be proud of them, it really depends on the person and situation—but regardless, scars are always a record, and that is a constant no matter the person.

and if you’re not comfortable with that level of touch or that much attention on your scars, that is absolutely okay. he’s not going to make you uncomfortable, he’ll always ask if it’s okay before he looks at or touches them—or touches you at all, really. he never wants to hurt you. and if you say you’d rather he not touch your scars, he’ll understand and just show you he loves you—all of you—in some other way.

like idk about anyone else or if its just me and im fucking insane but sometimes i get lost looking at my own scars; sometimes the human body at work is just kind of fascinating to watch, and even more so in retrospect. it’s like holy fuck you’re looking at its handiwork, you can plainly see how the skin has been so masterfully rebuilt into this little woven bandaid of cells, carefully crafted to not only rebuild but protect. your body has looked after itself, and it will continue to do so. and thats just kind of a fascinating thing to me idk😭

some extra thoughts about scars, not really to do with wrio; red brackets will indicate the end of it if you want to skip: [[ it usually replaces any feeling of disgust i have because instead of focusing on the bad feeling of remembering where they came from or being sad at the way they look im able to think about how cool it is the way my body recovered and made my skin even stronger; it didnt just wipe it all away and give me a clean slate so i could forget, it pieced the cells together again bit by bit until it had not only replaced the wound but enforced it—so instead of forgetting the bad feelings, they were replaced by wonder. sort of like a sign that says “proof that where once there was pain, now there is strength”. it’s kind of like how they say you don’t just try to quit bad habits, you must replace the bad habit with a good one. you can replace the bad feelings associated with your scars with new feelings, whether they are good feelings or neutral feelings or meh feelings. ]]

before you, he understood scars to be an ugly thing—a source of shame, a show for others to marvel at if he left them uncovered, for them to ogle at and whisper about as if trying to guess the origin of the wounds was a sort of entertainment to them. and then in the fortress of meropide, his scars felt much less like a source of shame and more like an intimidation factor (which wasn’t something he necessarily felt good about, but it was something that he benefitted from as the duke). but when you came along and he began to know you, suddenly they were this beautiful, fascinating phenomenon that lead him to view his own scars in a different light.

he’s a powerful, strong man, yes. he’s intimidating and feared, but he is also loved, and all for good reason—he is solid and safe, an image of reliability to others. and sometimes it could weigh him down when he couldn’t seem to let another help carry the burden.

the way you made him feel, though, tracing his big ugly scars like they were rivers, like they weren’t repulsive—it changed him entirely, and it changed the way he saw himself. in the overworld, he was a criminal brute slathered in the proof of his savageness. in the fortress, he was the rock-solid standard for redemption, and he had to uphold his firm reputation. but with you, he was able to be fragile; with you, the walls he had built to protect himself from both sides of fontaine’s society came tumbling down, because he didn’t have to pretend when he was with you.

if such a small, sweet thing like you could see him in such a kind light with so much love in those eyes of yours, perhaps he was not so bad after all.

everyone else in all of teyvat could believe he was truly a bad guy like he sometimes enjoyed playing at—but it wouldn’t matter, because there you were in his bed every night, held fast in his big arms as you mindlessly traced the long, thin writings engraved in his skin, letting the stories they told lull you to sleep.

[byersfanclub]

call it controversial, I'm speaking my mind and if you don’t agree with me then so be it, atp idc what ppl may think about my opinion on this matter but as someone who views mike wheeler as a closeted gay person, meaning mlm, he is a boy who likes other boys and that’s it then I’m also someone who believes mike has never had actual romantic feelings for el at ANY point in the show. I don’t sit around and harass people who believe otherwise. 

mike is not even the FIRST person to show el kindness once she escaped the lab, it’s benny hammond. mike is the second person to truly show el some kindness and basic human decency by allowing her into his home and getting her clean, dry clothes. it’s something I hope anyone would do for anyone in that sort of situation BUT don’t forget it’s also mike’s idea to “send her back to pennhurst or wherever she came from” and comes up with the plan on the spot right then and there to have her go out the back door and knock on the front door and his mom will figure out what to do. they never had any plans on keeping el around until they found out she knew who will was, that he was alive and that she had fucking superpowers. I get kinda sick of ppl trying to twist this around. this is factual, it’s not some anti-m1leve3n thing ppl made up, it is canon. to say mike never wanted to get rid of el at first is just a straight up lie, his main priority was finding will, but he wasn’t going to be an asshole and leave a girl outside in the pouring rain.  

all mike cares about in s1 is finding will. I find it odd that some ppl don’t believe this, whether you think he could have grew a crush on el or not. he literally starts to disassociate, begs to help look for him, sneaks out of his home at night, bikes home and sobs into his moms arms when he thinks will is dead, is outright RUDE to el afterwards until she proves that will is still alive. 

both Lucas and Nancy say things that try to allude to mike liking el, which literally has nothing to fucking do with the plot of s1 AT ALL and they literally have no scenes that I can genuinely go back and look at and be like “aww that's so cute and romantic, I hope they’ll kiss and end up together” 

their kiss was never scripted and it wasn’t even meant to happen, it was something millie suggested and its funny that they chose to do it right after she asks if mike will be like her fucking BROTHER and he goes “no, well, I guess it’s sort of the same” like my brother in christ in what world is a date/boyfriend the same as a brother? he’s not stupid, even 12 year olds know the difference between a brother and a boyfriend. I genuinely think it’s because mike has never CARED about that sort of thing before, because he’s just a kid who wants to play games with his friends, uninterested in girls and dating in general. 

so, when I say that mike unintentionally uses el as his “beard” it’s not meant to be insulting towards el, because el is also using mike to try and be a normal girl. they are both just trying to be normal when both of them know they AREN’T. 

el is the first girl not immediately grossed out by mike, it’s because she doesn’t view him as anything other than a person, she’s not thinking about him romantically at all, she’s a 12 yr old girl that just escaped being in a scientific lab her whole life, romance isn’t going to be on the forefront of her mind, she probably doesn’t even know wtf romantic love even is. you think they’re showing Casablanca in the Hawkins national lab? I don’t think so. 

s2 shows mikes lack of interest in girls even more, and ppl using the reasoning that its because he “loves el” like idk how to tell you this, he knew her FOR ONE WEEK and she barely spoke the entire time and mike was focused on will all of s1. be so for real. really. his lack of interest in girls comes in the form of things more subtle like the dragons lair scene, which has mike and will off to the side, blank faced as dustin and lucas sort of duel for princess daphne. then there’s more upfront moments like mike being completely uninterested in max, while even will seems to be at least a little curious about her (ofc not romantically like dustin and lucas) 

don't even get me started on mikes monologue to will in s2 being 10x more romantic than mike’s “love confession” monologue in s4 which fell flat on 90% of the audience (on purpose, I see u duffers)

the snowball scene isn’t meant to be a romantic scene for m1lev3n but it gets interpreted as one because of they way they film it, and it’s literally done that way ON PURPOSE. they are tricking you, me, the entire audience into believing mike is so upset because el isn’t there. but his reactions to will getting asked to dance and afterwards (with dustin also being upset over Lucas and max) are clear. then they show us Nancy asking dustin to dance along with el showing up to the snowball to dance with mike? 

The ending of s2 solidified mike using el as a cover for his queerness, to be normal, because he was aware that he was DIFFERENT. this is why m1lev3n is so insufferable to people in s3 because its written to be insufferable. they don’t want you to like it. to finally see mike and el as a couple? it’s annoying, ppl don’t like it, the characters themselves are over it and even el herself. 

then there’s will and mikes fight scene which is 10x more breakup coded than m1lev3ns ACTUAL breakup? bro had mike sobbing and throwing up as he biked across town in the pouring rain to apologize, meanwhile all mike did was eat Doritos and burp while complaining abt el breaking up with him, calling her a different species and such. he didn’t actually care deep down, it was more annoying and frustrating that she broke up with him than emotional because he didn’t love her romantically, he’s just mad that he lost his cover that keeps him appearing as normal as possible. 

the ending of s3 solidifies to me that el is ALSO using mike to be and feel normal, because they’d been broken up for months at this point and she suddenly feels the need to kiss him and tell him she loves him too? while mike literally tries to avoid remembering the shit he said earlier in the season, because he didn’t mean it and if he did, he wouldn’t have acted the way he fucking did in s4. BFFR. el only wanted mike back because she lost hopper. 

hoppers letter is meant to be familiar love between el and hopper and it’s meant to allude to the growing romantic tension between mike and will as well, in stranger things, there’s double, triple, quadruple meanings to everything and this is one of them. mike KNOWS he does not love el, he knows this in s2, he knows this during s3, he knows this coming into s4. mike is desperate to not lose her as his cover because as much as mike is “himself” back in Hawkins, he still can’t stop thinking about will because Hawkins isn’t the same without him. he knows he’s thinking about will too much, that he worries about el so much because he’s unable to face his true feelings that he has for will and not her and mike believes that el genuinely loves him (she doesn’t). 

this brings me to believe their official split is going to be a lot more mutual than ppl believe. el has come to terms that her and mike are over during nina, I believe el suspects/knows that mike is gay/likes will. their sbp talk paralleling jack and joey from Dawsons creek is almost too spot on for it not to mean something, especially to know will still pining and jealous over them right after it. 

in conclusion, im tired of pretending I ever thought mike and el were ever a cute ship, they weren’t. there was no spark between them for me and many others. it was like they were being forced into my face and I think the duffers did this with so much intention. not only did they straightbait robin and steve so well, but them “shoving” a straight ship into our face in the way mainstreams shows get criticized by homophobes for gay ships. it’s no wonder one of their favorite shows is Dawsons creek. 

mike wheeler is gay and never liked el. el hopper got caught up in mike’s internal conflict and also latched onto him for a sense of security and to feel like a normal teenage girl. 

fin. 

[shopcat]

im sorry for how long this got and maybe this is stupid but idc and ur one of the few st fans i know with a brain So. i hate how in the stddie fandom there's this popular widespread idea that steve is submissive both sexually and just generally in his life like i dont know where it came from i dont know why its so overwhelmingly popular i hate how people dont even tag it a lot of the time so you end up reading a fic you think might be good and end up with more uwu sub steve drivel when 1) it doesnt fit his canon personality 2) eddie isnt canonically dominating either he just puts up a petty despot facade for hellfire 3) this fandom took a character who For One had a lot of his arc (when he still had an arc lol) center around not being passive and cruising through life on the path of least resistance anymore but instead taking up more leadership and responsibility in taking care of others and For Two was literally fucking tortured and otherwise physically assaulted multiple times in increasingly traumatic ways and ppl just went "yes he would love being restrained and controlled and hurt during sex. its hot to us so we dont have to think abt whether it fits the character or whether its playing into gross homophobic stereotypes at all"

no literally like. honestly i think it happens with steve IN GENERAL and happened before even eddie came into the picture people cannot fathom a man who is actively like kind/nurturing/overcoming a toxic masculinity of some kind without frankenstein warping him into some weird amalgamation of homophobia and reflected misogyny (somehow) like he's The Mom so eddie has to be The Dad naturally and people can't move beyond the collective fandomised consciousness to attempt any actual depth and end up just echo chambering. like okay the reason the duffer's kill steve's character so effectively is because the fanbase makes it their god given mission to slaughter him first LOL. steve is assigned femininity to the point of CONCERN.

but you're so right it's also super funny where people take this guy who very clearly does not like having no control and actively fights against things happening to the point where he becomes GENUINELY HYSTERICAL any time anything happens that he doesn't want to and they all go Oh he totally would want to do this especially in sex one of the most deeply vulnerable things you can do. i genuinely think it is just like this multi-headed horror show of root causes ranging from homophobia to just plain unhealthy unnatural and uncomfortable views on sex and relationships people internalise which can get very concerning very quickly. like the ethicality of "bd$m" aside (because like yeah i don't care what particular dynamics you do or don't like at the end of the day if it's portrayed well/healthily/let alone in character but i do not actually like any part of modern day bdsm itself and i think it's super funny that a bunch of online dorkuses think being like "b-b-but don't kinkshame/it's not hurting anyone/we're always discriminated against you're just like everyone else/etc" will actually stop me from being critical of a scene that is notorious for retraumatisation, the normalisation and romanticisation of actual abuse and is fundamentally overrun with straight cis men who want to hurt women and get away with it) i do not think steve is the type of person who would within 6 months at BEST be able to overcome his own fucking trauma and be able to do anything beyond a bit of mean-ish dirty talk or something let alone eddie AS WELL especially in something that is again as vulnerable trusting and belly-showing as SEX. like for a group of people who love to point out that clearly steve would be affected by everything that's happened to him including yeah The Literal Torture they just let it leak out of their brains the second they get to "indulge" which shows an uncomfortable lack of backbone at best. also eddie is just NOT the type of person who would like to do these things and i actually find it kind of like... it hurts my FEELINGS!!!! that people think he is this big mean cruel "sadodom". especially when they try and lean into him genuinely hating steve/being one of his poor little "victims" of steve's "bullying" like helloooo... idk maybe it's projection or something everyone's crazy

oh yeah and like i guess i understand the REASON why people would theoretically want to see steve be this submissive hurt little thing or something like no one has to explain to me the Hot to Not ratio here i've explained a bunch of different times how it's odd when people like, pseudo-guilt trip and go "it's so weird when u find him hot when he's hurt/bleeding/etc" but i just DON'T find it hot in this context and never will. and i don't think people can seperate the contexts.. clearly. a guy looking a little pathetic and beat up and nose bleeding everywhere is so miles and miles away from him looking like that cuz he was hurt in a sexual manner (by a partner) especially if it's in order to "take him down a peg" that they're not even in the same STATE!!! i also think it's reflected in things where people will "joke" about his bisexual awakening being "manhandled" which i don't think i have to explain the levels of CONCERN i have for. ugh.

[yanderepuck]

Ikevamp AU where everything is the same except no one really understands French.

The only ones who can consistently speak French are the French Fries (Napoleon, Jean and Charles) and Comte.

Mozart and Faust still talk in so much German and they are so happy to find each other so they can finally speak in German to someone. But Mozart will think and speak in German until he finally hears someone speaking in French and he's like "ahh yes...I'm in this horrible country"

Leonardo almost only speaks Italian. To himself. To Comte. To anyone. It takes him a moment to understand why no one can understand him, because he is going OFF in Italian and no one can even keep up even if they knew Italian.

Luckily the brothers can still speak dutch. Theo is better at French than Vincent since he goes out and works. It takes Vincent a minute or two to process and translate in his head, so occasionally Theo has to translate something for him (yes ik Vincent lived in France before he died but idc)

Arthur's Scottish accent gets in the way and no one can tell me otherwise. There's words he simply can't say no matter how hard he tries. But if he happens to be in a conversation while trying to write, he can't process both languages simultaneously, so sometimes he starts typing in French and it messes everything up.

Isaac is a disaster while teaching and grading papers. He can solve all these damn equations but please don't speak to him. Not only because of his anxiety but because when he doesn't know the French word, he says the English word without hesitation. He will be grading papers and start writing notes in English. Or he won't know a French word and has to go to Napoleon. His students are also helping him get better with French.

Dazai learned Spanish instead of French and that head canon is staying with me until I die. However he's oddly good at French. He learned it very quickly but can have a hard time writing in anything other than Japanese.

Will forgets French so much. He's alone in this Villa, with only Puck. If it wasn't for the theater he would forget everything he's learned. He goes out into town speaking English until he suddenly remembers where he is.

Sebastian has too many languages going on in his head. He knows French very well but in the morning after just waking up it takes him longer to process and translate.

VLAD. OHMYGOD he knows as much French as a 4 year old French child. He's horrible at French. In the morning he's reading the newspaper and is yelling in Romanian how those aren't even words and every morning Charles has to explain to him that they are in France.

Faust needs his morning coffee before he can process anything that isn't German. Most of the Castle is yelling in Romanian and German and occasionally some French.

Jean actually has a bit of a hard time with "modern" french. It's different from what he's used to and there's a lot of new words he doesn't know. So technically he is still learning too

[svampira]

(non sapendo niente di vtm) ciauz ❤ essential 3 e 5 e life 1 5 6 per elias thee babygirl (o per chiunque tu voglia)

ciaooo tvb amo❤️

Which Clan do they belong to? How do they feel about their Clan?

Toreador hehe in life he very much was the archetype of a stereotypical Toreador as in he was an aspiring music producer + very flirty and social but in death he kinda loses these traits due to his loss in humanity and his amnesia

He barely knows what his clan is due to having no sire and no education but he sure does enjoy his super speed. Perhaps if he were to learn more about it and the general ideals of the toreador that could push him to try to regain some of his humanity. But he's probably too far gone lol

Who Sired them, and into what Generation were they Sired? What’s their relationship with their Sire like, and what were the circumstances of their Embrace?

I don't think the in game embrace makes ANY kind of sense unless you weave in some conspiracy or cain being involved. So I hc that Elias' sire was given permission to turn him in secret yet Lacroix rescinded his word in order to execute them and get rid of a political enemy. He's 8th generation and the only relationship he has with his sire is seeing her head roll on the floor of the stage (that's also his first memory period, since he doesn't have any memory of his human life)

What did they do (as a career or in general) before they were Embraced?

Last year of high school😭 he's 18 veeery close to 19 since he was turned the night before his birthday while out partying with friends. He was pretty well off and his parents had a lot of connections in L.A., happiest childhood you could ever imagine, literally nothing bad had ever happened to him until his sire killed him

What were they most afraid of in life? How has this changed?

He used to be absolutely terrified of being alone or losing support from his family, as he 100% knew he had no idea how to get by himself. He was always surrounded by friends, was never single for more than a week, and probably would have gone crazy if he had to spend one (1) hour alone. As a vampire he's almost constantly alone, very quickly learns its a very bad idea to trust or get attached to anyone. The only people he trusts in his terrible very bad no good first weeks of unlife are Lacroix and Heather, but he frenzies and accidentally drains Heather and he's crushed when he finds out Lacroix called a bloodhunt on him (he was very much not smart enough to figure out he was getting sent on suicidal missions the whole time). At least he learns to be independent tho👍👍

What were their goals and ambitions in life? How has this changed?

He wanted to become a music producer and he probably would have succeeded thanks to his parents' connections + he'd already made some semi-viral hits. (I do not care vtmb was set in 2004. It's only set in 2004 if I'm talking about diamila, otherwise everything happens in 2021 idc idc). After things in L.A. settle down he makes tiktoks and Instagram accounts which are definitely going to get him in biiig trouble because his friends and family are very much still looking for him + he definitely had a couple influencer friends which 100% brought his disappearence to the public eye. Slay I think he will singularly bring down the masquerade due to sheer unluck and stupidity. Nobody's taking him out first because as we all know the fledgling is ridiculously overpowered

¡more questions here!

+bonus doodle of what he looks like in my sims game uwu

[sasukesun]

Sasuke for the ask game ofc

i was expecting him lol so thanks for the ask

favourite thing about them: i really can’t say just him? ok. so how he fought so hard for the justice he (and his people) deserved but also how even with so much shit threw at him, he still was a good person (idc if people bring kage summit into this, we’ve discussed that so much already), how he still had a strong sense of justice (how he revived the hokages to talk to them and know the truth for example) and how he still wanted to be loved despite how unhealthy his mindset was

least favourite thing about them: his final plan sucks and it’s because itachi spread bad writing everywhere after his reveal

favourite line: idk he’s so iconic “begone with the thunderclap” or “you’ll have your chance to fly, snake, in the talons of a hawk” [kills orochimaru] and “i know your heart, and you know mine” cause romance ain’t dead guys. he has range

brotp: not itachi tbh. if you don’t count naruto… between team taka members i think suigetsu?

otp: narsas obviously ♡

notp: tbh any ship that is not narsas is a notp because sasuke simply isn’t interested in anyone that isn’t naruto and people that say otherwise are just pushing it which is a bit annoying, but honourable mention to sasusaku, because sakura is the worst person sasuke could ever be paired up with, he has been through enough already

random headcanon: i usually post hcs about him and naruto and tag it as #headcanon but if we’re talking only about him hmmm i think sasuke likes tea because it helps him relax. he might like coffee but he avoids it because of the tachycardia and sleeplessness (and he already has trouble sleeping right after the war, before getting therapy i mean, which in my fix-it ending he does get it)

unpopular opinion: is there any opinion about sasuke that is unpopular? depends on which part of the fandom you’re talking about ig, people just can’t be normal about sasuke

sasuke was right about the system and he deserved to get justice in the ending, he’s not an emo, or bitchy, and he definitely shouldn’t just “do what itachi wanted” or whatever (shouldn’t be unpopular but well…)

sasuke is not emotionless, he is very much driven by the love he feels for his family and for naruto, people that say he doesn’t know how to express himself, or lies about his feelings, or anything like that are just focusing on the wrong characters (cof cof sakura), the ones sasuke doesn’t love y’know

sasuke is not horny, or a fuckboy, or clingy, or a player or very sexual or any trait people give to him that belongs to charasuke… fandom still didn’t get that the whole point is that people are attracted to him while he acts aloof about it

i don’t think his rabid stans understand his relationship with naruto nor they understand that his “desire” for isolation is unhealthy and self destructive and not a good thing

sasuke isn’t “bad” or “abusive” or whatever towards sakura, she’s the only one to blame in this whole mess for not knowing how to take no for an answer (also shouldn’t be unpopular…)

song i associate with them: this is probably the only one that will have a song yay so fireworks by mitski because of the melancholy

favourite picture of them: nope. this is just. an impossible task. won’t happen. have some fortnite sasuke giving you love in compensation for it

[distortedclouds]

Can you elaborate more on their first time together in black water? Like it’s such a big moment 👀

Well... Some themes from this WILL come up sprinkles here and there in future chapters. This shouldn't spoil much, but DO take everything here with a grain of salt in terms of accuracy.

*Annie's goal was to avoid Armin after she'd kissed him. They'd have to say goodbye once he and the rest depart the ship, but there will be other people there and he won't bring up what happened. *Armin had accepted Annie's decision and would've left it at that (canon) if she hadn't kissed him and threw off his understanding of the situation.

*Later in the day, when everyone has done most of their tasks (bringing in the flying boat and all that) and either went to their rooms to rest or the deck for some fresh air, Annie accidentally bumps into Armin but pulls into the restrooms and closes the door before he can get to her.

*Armin: Annie... can you open the door? I'd like to talk.

Annie: This is the women's bathroom.

Armin: I don't think anyone has been giving the sign on the door much thought, actually.

*silence*

Armin: ...please, Annie.

*She opens the door just as he's leaving and pulls him inside by his arm, closing the door afterwards (lots of people pass through here and she wants some privacy). *Annie says she doesn't want what she did to change anything. When Armin shows a sign of hesitation she grabs his shoulders and tell him to till go after Eren, that he'll regret not doing it otherwise. Armin does the same, saying Annie shouldn't have to keep on fighting.

*It becomes more evident that this might actually be the last time they might see each other and neither of them is clear who takes the first step when they kiss again.

*Just as it's turning out into a clumsy make out, they're interrupted by Pieck who was using the bathroom (she didn't want to interrupt and was waiting for them to get it over with, but they were taking too long).

Pieck: Please find a room, this is the women's restroom. Also, there are kids on board.

*In a hurry, they go to the closet room which is Armin (It's a big ass ship that at 10% capacity, everyone gets their own sea-view room if they want idc).

*Makeouts ensue and Annie pushes him onto his bed and straddles his lap. A knock on the door disrupts them and Annie snaps "What?" at the door.

Reiner: Annie! Sorry I thought Armin was staying here.

Annie realizes that too late and Armin is stifling his laughter in her shoulder, still holding her close. Annie: Well, I'm here and he's not, you should go look for him elsewhere.

Reiner apologizes and wishes her goodnight before he leaves.

*They're both giggling, mindful to stay quiet, holding each other close when it gradually turns into sobs, pressing their foreheads together.

Armin: I'm sorry. None of this is fair. Annie: Nothing ever is.

*The rest of the night is bittersweet, a roller coaster of emotions between happiness that they're together, sadness that they're about to part, Adrenalin rush with it's the end of the world, and a bit of awkwardness and hesitation with everything they're doing being new.

[bobataeminsuga]

thoughts on kaeluc? /gen

ohohoho getting political in my ask box now hm?

now before I state my opinion i just want everyone to know that you are free to block me if you disagree or anything. this might be a little long so brace yourself

in summary: i literally do not care.

i dont ship kaeluc/luckae, but im not one to hate on a ship or hate anyone because of a ship. i’ll find fanart of the ship and i’ll be like “oh thats cute/the art is really good,” like it, maybe reblog. im on a very neutral level here.

do not harass people online. thats it. thats the short and simple way of saying it.

personally, i see them as sworn brothers. thats how kaeya and diluc are referred to in the original, chinese version of the game and stories. which is not equivalent to adopted brothers. its a kind of like found family, friends who are close enough to admire each other, die for each other even, as if they were brothers, from my understanding of it. now i dont want to ramble about cultural differences and the meaning of sworn brothers so please do your research on that - im not chinese so im not the greatest source for this and am still learning about it myself. feel free to correct me if you are chinese and have a better understanding of this!

now in no way do i support incest. if you think that this ship promotes incest then feel free to block creators, accounts, and tags for this ship, you have no obligation to keep them unblocked. if you feel like its necessary to harass real people because of this ship, you’re better off blocking them. please take a minute to take into consideration what you’re actually doing by harassing these real people. have you changed anything? have you put an end to real life incest? have you saved anyone? did you make anyone’s day better? no? then don’t do it. it’s unnecessary and i hate how this fandom in particular has such a hard time understanding that.

ships do not define people.

many kaeluc shippers have their reasons for not seeing kaeya and diluc as brothers and all the kaeluc shippers i know are anti-incest when it happens to real people in real life.

i’ve met super nice people who ship kaeluc. they’re super chill and even towards antis they still try to respond nicely, but when they get harassed tons of times they get fed up and may start acting rudely.

i have never seen kaeluc/proshippers ever say “kaebedo shippers should die” “antis can k word themselves” “im going to start blaming all my problems on chiluc shippers” etc... they just ask to dni if youre an anti

call me a proshipper, tell me i deserve to die, idc idc, i do not ship this ship but im not completely against it. im just so fed up with this type of discourse in this fandom and if you feel the need to attack/harass/threaten people online for this then please for the love of God block me. seriously, i will not take any offense from it, i’ll understand. otherwise i will block you instead.

[prose-for-hire]

Together under the moon

Pairing: Oz x male!werewolf!reader

Request: could I request something for oz? enthusiastic male reader who is mayhaps also a werewolf and has been for him for a while and finally gets the guts to confess to him! whether its fluff or not idc bc I'm a sucker or fluff and angst but i rlly enjoy your work so thank you for seeing this!!!

Requested by: Anon

Warning: Oz gets a little hurt. But nothing is described.

A/N: Sorry for the wait! Thanks for your patience, hope this is okay !! 💜🖤

You had loved him for as long as you could remember now. You had been friends for so long but these feelings that you harboured in private you just weren’t ready to share. You didn’t want to lose the close relationship you already had.

You were completely, blissfully head over heels for him. Oz. He acted so cool and unaffected, but you knew that he had such a sweet and kind soul.

And he got you, like he really got you. He was a werewolf like you.

Becoming a werewolf had never really been on your bucket list. You had been bitten one evening when you had taken a misguided walk after dark. It had devastated you at first. You had confided in him, knowing already that he was a werewolf too.  He had helped you adjust. Pulled you into a hug when you thought you couldn’t go on that way any longer. It had near-broken his heart when he saw you that way. You were usually so enthusiastic and sweet.

You had been worried when you thought he was graduating, wishing that you could still see him every day. Spend all your time together. In comfortable silence and others with you chattering, gushing over your interests. Him encouraging you softly. He near melted for you. So, when you found out he was re-doing the year you were secretly so pleased.

You were the reason he realised he was attracted to men. He had just gone ‘huh’ and shrugged when he realised and just accepted that he liked you. Only now, it was hard for him to actually verbalise his affection for you.

He found expressing his earnest feelings harder despite how often he tried. He would open his mouth, ready to confess how much he wanted you to be his boyfriend. But then you would look up form what you were doing and make his words fade back into nothing.

It was afternoon and you and Oz had a free period together. You loved this time of day because you could spend it just you and him. You rush into the library, a whirlwind of enthusiasm as you sat beside him and waved a little. He began to smile in that wry way he would when you made your presence known to him.

You had run in, gushing over everything that had happened and excited you in the last few hours since you saw him. He listened closely, he always did when you spoke. Even when he wasn’t as invested in the topic as you were, he always loved hearing your infectious excitement.

“Cool, man, very cool” He nodded. He adored you. Your enthusiastic nature was incredibly endearing to him. He wanted to spend all of his time with you.

“What’re you working on?” You asked, a smile tugged at his lips again. When you asked questions you were always genuinely interested in the reply. Ready to hang onto every word. You were special to him.

“Another song - for tonight. We thought as a band we’d give the whole gig thing a go”

“Nice! Are you gonna play ‘Together under the moon’?!” You couldn’t hold yourself back from gushing, that song was one of your favourites by Dingoes. Saying that, you did claim this about all the songs they played.

“Yeah, it’s on the setlist” Oz shrugged a little but his face always softened when he was talking to you. In a way it never did with anyone else, no matter how fond of them he was.

“You’re super talented! You say you wrote that one by yourself?” You praised him, missing the slight blush tinging his complexion as you laid such kind words upon him. He began to open his mouth to speak, to explain his inspiration behind it.

But he was interrupted as everyone else rushed into the library, their faces were solemn.

Giles explained that there was a wolf hunter in town. A really cruel one, his speciality was hunting werewolves while they were human, catching them and hunting them for sport later. It made everyone in the room’s blood run cold. Especially yours and Oz’s. You weren’t only worried about yourselves, but the idea of the other getting taken this way. It was horrible to even think about it.

There was a tenuous plan, whereby Giles suggested that you would have to wait it out until research told you otherwise. The group split into two halves so that you and Oz were split up and the others can provide back up. That way, if the hunter came across one of you, he wasn’t able to potentially capture the both of you at the same time.

You were both incredibly important parts of the Scooby gang so everyone nodded along to this plan, wanting to assist you both the best they could.

You didn’t want to be separated from him and the lingering gaze he gave you told you that he didn’t want to part from you either. He loved you, wanted to be there with you. Even if neither of you had spoken on it, in this moment somehow you knew. Even if you were still nervous to act on it.

Oz left you in the care of Willow and Giles. You were nervous, pacing and wringing your hands. You had so much nervous energy. The further he was away from you the harder it felt. You couldn’t bear being away from him.

You eventually sat down, leg bouncing still but you had appeared to calm down a little.

“You should tell him, you know…” Willow said kindly, watching how your gaze was still on the door from where Oz and the others had left through.

“What?” You asked. You were fond of Willow, she had been very nice to you ever since you had come out to her. She understood, maybe even more than she comprehended herself.

“U-uh, you and Oz with the softness and the heart-eyes” She murmured a little, faltering as she realised she could have gotten it wrong. But you smiled at her.

“Is it obvious?”

“Only to people with eyes” She said, although she was smiling. Trying to distract you from your worry. To give you something to hold on to. Telling him how you felt.

You appreciated her friendship and her encouragement. You felt Oz’s eyes on you when you were in the same room. You dared to hope he felt the same, just like how you had read his expression earlier. His innate need to be by your side. Because you felt it too.

But you often second-guessed yourself. You could have been projecting your own feelings. But hearing this from Will just confirmed it. Your love was shared.

The sun had set and it was early evening. You were still in the library with your minders. Willow was practicing a few spells just in case the hunter came your way. Just as she whispered a few practice incantations there was a massive bang at the door.

All three of you jumped, looking up. Hoping it had been Willow’s spell gone wrong and not worse.

Buffy and Xander ran in, turning your fears true. It was Oz. The hunter had managed to take him. Buffy was limping, holding her side. You didn’t blame her. you thanked her for protecting him the best you could. But you got angry yourself. Because it was him.

Your usual demeanour changed. Had an edge to it. You were kind-hearted and near wholesome for the most part but not now. Not when he was in danger. His heart called out to you. His cries. You felt it in your very soul.

You ran to where Buffy had said that it had happened. They warned you against it, tried to stop you but you just ran. As fast as your legs could take you. Through the thick undergrowth and past crumbling cemetery plots.

You saw blood. A trail of it. Leading towards the abandoned warehouse on the corner. You couldn’t not follow it, despite your instinct telling you it was going to be bad.

You felt this pull. This need for you to follow the path. The path to him.

You ran into the room, spotting him immediately. He had gotten away. Managed to release himself from the hunter’s grip but not without being hurt in the process. He had

“Oz!” You shouted, voice echoing around the abandoned warehouse. He was crouched on the floor holding his side.

“God, Oz, are you okay?!” You ran full speed over to him kneeling beside him, “I couldn’t stay away, I came as soon as I could!” You explained, your touch gentle with him, expecting the damage. You lifted his shirt up gently. Luckily it was a surface wound but you would patch him up once you got him back to your place. You explained this to him.

“It’s ok” He shook his head at you, his hand resting over yours as you let go of his t-shirt, “I knew you were there with me”

“Yeah?”

“We’re always together under the moon” He said, wincing slightly after the fight he had put up against the hunter. The song. It was about you.

You gasped, whispering feelings that had only been allowed the release in this moment. You cupped his cheek, eyes staring into the other’s. 

You needed to leave, before the hunter tracked his blood the way he had. Your werewolf instincts made it easier, but it was only a matter of time.

But before you helped him to his feet, took his weight and helped him back to yours, there was something you had to do. It had been building between you for so long. You knew so completely that he was yours. Wanted you to be his. You just had to.

You kissed him. You couldn’t hold yourself back anymore. You had almost lost him. Your lips met his and he responded immediately. Pulling you closer, the scratch forgotten with his innate need for you. Instinctual yearning. Love. All of it. In that moment, neither of you knew where he ended and you began. You were connected. Soulmates. This kiss, passionate and full of urgency told you everything. Confessed all. As if you could read the other’s thoughts. The wolves inside you that had been calling for so long for the other took over.

This was no mere lust. Both of you with this kiss weaved stories of love. Of adoration. Desperation to name this feeling.

You were destined to be together, hold each other this way. To love him was as easy as breathing and as soon as you thought it, he knew.

From that moment, you truly would always be together. Connected by love. The moon blessing your union.

[gopeachllama]

Why I think Feysand were OOC in ACOSF

I hope that no one misunderstands from the title but let me say this is a 100% PROfeysand post. so if you hated feysand even before acosf, then this post isn't for you.

So i've seen a lot of interesting theories about feysand's and in particular rhys' behaviour and choices throughout acosf. and while alot of them seemed possible and may have been the case canonically speaking, even as a feysand stan i just couldn't seem to wrap my head around some of the things they said and did in the book. they just both seem OOC, its the only pausible explanation for me.

To understand why feysand were OOC in the book we have to look at this through a narrative perspective. as in we have to ask why would the author write the character/s in this way?

a quick overview of what a character arc is

so there can be a lot of variations of a character arc in a story but the basics is as follows (how does the character go from point 'a' to point 'b'):

the 'big lie' - the views/beliefs/actions the character has at the start which will be challenged throughout the story (this is point 'a')

the 'incident' - a plot point in which starts development of the character. something that spurs the character into action, this most ofter happens when they are placed in an unfamiliar situation. this usuallyy is the intial challenge to their 'big lie'. at this point the story will move forward and theres no going back.

the midpoint - the character changes conciously or subconciously, they start to recognise their own flaws in the 'big lie'.

world collaspes - this is usually on the heels of a victory, the character reaches the lowest point in their journey. they finally confront 'the big lie' and forces to stop this deception they inflict on themselves. they can destroy it or it will destroy them.

the climax - the reason for the story. the reason why the character had to take this journey in order to get to this moment. the moment that the character will decide once and for all whether they will go forward to point 'b' or regress back to point 'a'

the resolution - the character reaches point 'b'. their view/beliefs/actions have changed, they no longer believe in the 'big lie'.

So obvisouly the main character in acosf is Nesta. What sjm does in her books is that every plot point and development of secondary characters is in service to the arc of the main character. None of the character's outside of Nesta have their own development. Not even Cassian, any sort of changes or developments he undergoes is in service to Nesta (a complete missed opportunity for Cassian but that a whole other point). And before anyone tries to say otherwise, you can have development for characters even if they are secondary ones (and for a book that is 800+ pages long it is definitely possible). An example is with his can also be seen with Gwyn. Her leaving the library for the first time was a huge moment for the character, but she did so, in order to comfort Nesta after her big fight with Cassian. It was also so that Nesta, Gwyn and Emerie could all be together in Illyria so they could be kidnapped and forced to enter the blood rite (where the final showdown occurs with Nesta and the villan).

so what has this got to do with feysand and why are they OOC?

In fact the entire plot with feyre's pregnancy was made to give chracter developments for Nesta. There was nothing written in the book that suggested any developments for feyre and rhys. it did nothing for them. Nesta needed to become central to the story and the only way sjm thought to keep feyre side lined was to make her pregrnant. It was also just lazy writing and world building bc there is no way that rhys would have though of this when he and feyre were trying for a baby.

SIN #1 The Shields

Rhys practicing shields (shield thats doesn't even allow anyone to even touch her) on feyre, which she just allows. the book explains because of the fact that there is more danger to her now that she's pregnant. Narratively, this would make sense if there is a payoff. Like later in the story if feyre was in physical danger and the shield saves her or if the shield became a detriment to her in some way. But no nothing like this happens. Rhys 'practices' the shield on her and thats it. Rhys, who was the same person that trusted feyre enough defend herself against the weaver. It was totally out of character that he would shield her to the point that Cassian can't even kiss her on the cheek (sounds familiar huh). and the same goes for feyre, who has no problem with this (*cough* tamlin locking her up *cough*). Thats is some OOC behaviour.

So what were the point of the shields? well since sjm made it canon that fae can smell when a female is pregnant, the biggest way they came into play was in the scene when rhys lifted it long enough so that everyone could sense that that feyre was pregnant. And It could have been just that, feyre and rhys were expecting a baby, and Nesta can go along with her development, they did not need to intersect. But it did, and we'll come back to that later. This scene is a lighthearted moment in the book, one of the rare few where all the characters are happy and celebrating a good thing. acofas we knew that rhys and feyre decided to try for a baby, and seeing it pay off here was enjoyable for the readers.

But what else does this scene do? through Nesta's perspective, we can read her thoughts on it, and though she doesn't reveal much its an important character moment for her. the readers can see that she can feel happiness for someone else beyond the self-loathing she guards herself with, it shows that she is a character worth rooting for.

SIN #2 Rhys concealing the dangers of the pregnancy from feyre

oof this one is a doosey. this was the most baffling thing to come out of acosf for me. there is literally no reason or explanation that would make sense for rhys to lie to feyre like that. It offers no development for the two character it affects the most: rhys and feyre. there no fallout on rhys' end for lying to her, and there is no turmoil for feyre such as falling into depair like we told she would (the whole reason that rhys was hiding it in the first place).

When Nesta finds out that the pregnancy was most likely going to kill feyre and the baby. instead of Nesta disagreeing and urging Rhys to tell feyre, she doesn't say anything and forms a temporary truce with him, a character she has always had conflict with. It also serves as the incident that allows Nesta to have her 'world collapse' moment in her character arc. How else was Nesta going to realise what a shitty person is was being if she didn't do something so absolutely shitty? in a fit of rage, Nesta reveals to feyre that the pregnancy was going to kill both her and the baby. she get taken away on a hike in illyria (because???) and she reaches rock bottom after she comes to term with what she did. the story is taken away from velaris and the inner circle, and any conflict and resolution that happens between feyre and rhys, if it even happened at all, happens off page. again furthering my point about the pregnancy having no impact on the two characters is affects the most. After Nesta's fleeting moment of enlightenment, and her swordplay sex marathon with Cassian (urgh) she returns to velaris and nothing has changed between rhys and feyre. there isn't really much of a development with Nesta's relationship with feyre, their 'reconciliation' occurs all of less than one page and doesn't even happen out loud, just mind to mind. Now that Nesta has had her important character moment, nothing else matters (again lazy writing).

SIN #3 Everyone dies

ok so yes everyone has said their two cents about this and i agree with it. Feyre and nyx had to die so that Nesta could have her climax moment. It is the climax of the story since it is the big story development right before the resolution. and about the bargain - feysand decided in acofas that they were going to try for a baby. meaning that it was after this decision that they struck the bargain that they would die together. so at some point they would have thought of the fact they would have a child/children when the both die. im sorry but do they seem like the kind of ppl that would make a suicide pact even if it meant leaving their children behind? TOTALLY OOC for me. and i dont know i guess also the stakes weren't high enough with just the threat of feyre and nyx dying.

So feyre and nyx are dead and rhys will soon follow and Nesta intervenes to save them. Its also a self-sacrificing moment bc she has to give up her powers in order to do this... Showing that she does truely love her family and the depths of her powers. (seriously idc how you stan or hate how does anyone this good book?). don't doubt that in the future books sjm will find a way for Nesta to get her powers back (whatever they are (pure death WHAT DOES THAT MEAN???))

So Nesta saves the day, everyone is fine and nothing has changed except Nesta is nice now probably. the end.

welp this got way longer that i expected but anyways long story short there was nothing about the pregnancy that gave development to feysand characters and it was all for the development of the main character.

i don't claim acosf!feysand and sjm better fucking leave them alone in the rest of the books.

[danteinthedevildom]

yes! i hate it when people say belphie doesnt care for mc, this is a personal opinion but i feel like even if we werent related to lilith (and somehow we came to life again) he would be close to us, and try. seeing how the people he cares about the most react to someone he thought was just a human dying would probably push him to get to know MC. i know some people also think and argue that beel sees MC as a replacement for lilith too; but i know 100% he doesnt, he hasnt been able to verbally talk about his sisters passing to anyone, i mean almost right after she died belphie was taken away and beel assumed he was in the human world on "buisness", so for beel to openly talk about lilith with us as much as he does it feels special. i know he sees mc as their own person because of how much hes able to share with us, beel talking with mc about his feelings means hes able to finally move on, not to say that he'll forget about her, but he knows hes ready to finally stop beating himself up for it yk? i feel like people were also conflicted about seeing belphie as someone who cares for mc, especially the 180 he does when he finds out we're liliths relative; but belphie has had so much trauma, seeing the person he loved the most die, being separated from his brothers for years and years, etc. he was locked away with his mental illness for a long time, the anger bottled up and he took it out on mc, of course it explains it but it doesnt excuse it, you can still continue to hate belphie idc but i feel like he loves mc more than the other brothers do because of it, its the same thing with beel, mc allowed both of them to cope and talk to them about their sisters passing, yk?

Honestly the whole of Chapter 16 and associated fallout is p. controversial simply bc of it being us that it happens to; the game's written for us to imprint on the MC, and because of that, some scenes - like Belphie's betrayal and his glee at having killed MC - becomes very, very personal. It's very easy after that to become biased against a character, because there's genuine emotional scarring that we're left with as players that the game then just... fails to acknowledge to its fullest. (Which is why we get so many "MC might have forgiven Belphie but I haven't" fics on AO3.)

But to say that Belphie doesn't care for MC is just. Wrong. And I can def. get your annoyance on that!

He didn't care for MC to begin with, yes; MC was a random human he knew nothing about, a ticket to freedom and the first step into enacting revenge for something he's carried with him for millenia. They didn't matter to him outside of that because he never got to see them - or spend actual time with them - outside of the short visits they could afford to update him on their pact progress. That's undeniable.

But to say that he still doesn't ignores the entire point of the Lilith revelation. Being related to her gives Belphie something to connect with MC over. It gives him a reason to overcome his hatred of humanity and to bond with MC in general - which is selfish, yes, and kind of shitty, true, but so much of Belphie's (admittedly misplaced) anger comes from being a survivor of an incredibly one-sided war and (arguably, in his mind) the reason Lilith died to begin with. Because Beel saved him instead of her.

It's not like any of them were ever given a good way to cope with the trauma of the Fall, or Lilith's death. It's not like any of them even knew her actual fate until Chapter 16. Belphie's way of coping was to become apathetic, and to try and place the blame onto something he could take action against.

To him, that meant humanity. Because she fell in love with a human. Because they'd already fought God and lost, so he wasn't going to get closure there - but maybe ending the cause for her death would help the hurt.

He hated humans because of Lilith. In the realm of good story-telling, the best way to end that hatred is likewise through Lilith. Stories are best when they have that cyclical nature to them - especially since it can then transition into Belphie overcoming his trauma (and Lilith's death) through humanity.

So, yeah; it's a selfish reason to get close to someone, to take back the really horrific thing you were going to do, but all of Belphie's anger stemmed from the Fall and what he perceived as her death. Finding out that she didn't actually die? That she became human - became the very thing he wanted to destroy - and lived out a long life? That she had children, and that her family line is still alive in MC? Of course that's going to stop him dead in his tracks. And of course he's going to want to get close to MC, the last remaining fragment of the sister he's dedicated his entire life post-Fall mourning.

Belphie's an incredibly apathetic character by nature. He doesn't care about a lot of things, and everything he cares about is overshadowed by how much he loves Lilith. He needs that connection to get him out of his natural apathy. He cares about Lilith above all else; he'll care about MC at the drop of a dime if they're anything to do with her.

But that's not a bad thing. It means there's an opportunity for him to genuinely get to know who MC is, in a positive light.

It's an opportunity for him to try and make a connection with MC that simply wouldn't have existed otherwise, and through them, to finally, finally put his memory of Lilith to rest. And he does! He gets to know MC, gets to know why Beel adores them so much - outside of just being "Lilith's descendant" - and ends up loving them for who they are.

He puts his hatred of humanity and his single-minded attachment to Lilith behind him, and he still cares for MC. He wouldn't do this if he'd really not formed some sort of bond with them before that point. If he only cared for them because they're a fragment of Lilith, then they'd mean nothing to him once Lilith wasn't such a fervent part of his daily life.

I think the game's just... really bad at showing that, however. You put it really well when you called it a 180, because in all honesty? The game glosses over it much too quickly, and doesn't do a totally good job explaining the logic behind why he'd change his mind so fast.

There's not enough time spent on allowing MC - and the player - to overcome the emotional wreckage of Chapter 16 + fallout. We're not given the chance to process it before Belphie has, to build up a natural relationship with him that transitions slowly from him seeing MC as a Lilith-connection to him seeing them as their own, defined person. It's way too easy to still be emotionally hung up on it while he seems perfectly fine and dandy.

On your bit abt him overcoming it even without the connection to Lilith - I agree tbh! There is a lot Belphie would do for Beel, and I genuinely think seeing how against him Beel is after killing MC, even if they're brought back to life, would ruin him. Belphie being locked up, trying to convince Beel that he was doing the right thing, only for Beel to disagree with him and show genuine anger/disgust, would knock the world from under his feet. If he thought trying to hurt MC would make him lose Beel too - if Beel pleaded with him to just play nice, because he can't choose between them both, not again - he'd likely (albeit begrudgingly) postpone his intended revenge plot.

And he'd try to stay bitter, and for a long time he likely would - but then he'd see how happy Beel is with MC around, and how much it means to Beel that they seem to get along, and how much Beel opens up to them about Lilith, and he'd start to... reconsider. Just a little. Just a bit. Moment by moment, day by day, until he realises that MC isn't a replacement for Lilith, but that they bring something to the table that the brothers have been missing for a long, long time.

Which would afford Belphie the moment of catharsis; where he finally, on a quiet night, opens up about the Fall. How he felt, how angry he is, how helpless. How much he misses her, how the pain and hurt consumes his every thought. And then the player would get the chance to overcome the emotional strain with Belphie, showing him that his anger shouldn't be aimed at humanity when his Father is the one at fault, and Belphie, very quietly, admitting that they're right.

It could work, and work well. It's just a point of finding - and hitting - the right story beats.

On the topic of Beel - honestly, the concept that he sees MC as a replacement for Lilith is just... I personally couldn't imagine it. I can see how someone else could - being her descendant, the attic sandwich club, their little escapade together once Belphie's back in with the family - but that includes seriously misreading/ignoring a lot of Beel's character arc/development.

Beel talks to MC about Lilith and Belphie way before he knows anything about their relation to her. He sees a lot of her in them, yes - he mentions this a few times, I think, in relation to little things they do - but he also sees a lot of what he wants to be in them - which is best seen in their ability to defend both himself and Luke, which be very subtly compares to his own inability to save both Lilith and Belphie.

To Beel, MC stands as something a little idealised. MC is everything good he saw in Lilith (as well as some of the things he loves most about Belphie), and everything he wishes he could have been. MC is a reason to be better, stronger, more capable - both so he can protect them the way they protect others, and so he can feel as if he's on their level.

But that doesn't mean he sees them as a replacement to the people he's lost. It's arguable that he's projecting, sure, I'll admit that; he sees things he misses most of the people he's lost in MC, and I'm sure forming a bond with them helped him cope while he was without Belphie. But MC is still always MC to him. They're always still their own person, and someone he cares for because of that fact.

Beel cares too much about his family to replace them with someone else. Lilith meant too much to him as a person for him to look at MC and actually see Lilith. He misses her, not the idea of her. He feels guilt that he couldn't save her. His trauma revolves almost entirely around the failure of (self imposed) duty and the subsequent loss of life. His Survivor's Guilt is the main reason Beel can't put her memory to rest - because he's constantly haunted by the thought that he could have saved her.

His trauma, the way it is, does not create a setting where he would believably see MC as a replacement for Lilith. He's all too aware that she's gone. He's all too aware that he lost something he can never get back that day. Her memory is special to him, and being unable to talk about her hurts him because that's a bit like killing her off for good.

MC can't replace Lilith, even being Lilith's descendant, and I genuinely can't believe that Beel would even want them to. He's so defensive over Belphie and Lilith, even just over the memory of them; to suggest that MC could replace one of them I feel would anger him more than anything. Not only because it's an insult to Lilith, but because it's an insult to the person MC is. To the person Beel admires.

With just how much he cares about Lilith, I think Beel's enhanced attachment to MC is more the steadfast defence of her lineage to make up for what he couldn't do for her. He still sees MC as their own person, it's just that now... now he has a chance to make up for what he failed at before. And bit by bit, he can learn to forgive himself. Can learn to stop blaming himself for something that was never his fault to begin with.

Belphie and Beel have a special relationship with MC because MC is a direct link to Lilith that helps them overcome their individual Lilith-related traumas. They're naturally going to be closer to MC due to this, yeah, but that's... not the only reason they're close to MC. To try and push down everything they feel and do with MC to "it's only because MC is Lilith's descendant" is to. Well. A) make an incredibly unsatisfying story and character development, but also B) completely ignore that MC helps them bury the memory Lilith. MC helps them move on. Their care and love for MC is what helps them finally let go - to stop living in the past, in hurt, and to finally take a step forward to a future without the weight of Lilith's death constantly burdening them.

Like. If Solmare had just spend a little more time on these two, that might be clearer. Because it's definitely there! And it's why I love Belphie and Beel so, so much. But it's also fully understandable why some players still really dislike Belphie, or why they're not convinced that Belphie/Beel see MC as anything outside of Lilith, bc the game does kind of fail on that a little by rushing a bit too much. Just. Aagh!! You know?

I could honestly go on abt them for hours. So I should prolly stop here before I go on too long adfgh.

[jess-rewatches-prodigalson]

Head Case (S2, E6)

My time-stamped thoughts for this episode. As always I reference Malcolm’s mental health. A lot. So if that’s going to be a trigger for you, don’t keep reading.

SPOILERS AHEAD:

0:03 - This clip of Malcolm in the car is from the pilot episode. I was so betrayed by this clip. Full disclosure - I’ve always had a thing for Malcolm’s jacket from the pilot episode. I just love it and I think Tom Payne looks cute in it. BUT - I was betrayed because Malcolm isn’t wearing my favourite jacket in the next scene (I was disappointed but not surprised). Rant about wardrobe over. 

0:20 - This is weird to me. In the clip right before this, when Malcolm was coming to Claremont (wearing the awesome jacket) - Malcolm is clearly in emotional distress. He’s not in a good mood. BUT right here, when Malcolm is chatting with Mr. David he seems like he’s in a good mood. Not one of his manic good moods - just a regular good one.

0:32 - Anyone else notice how visibly uncomfortable Jessica AND Malcolm are? This whole Ainsley situation is literally going to destroy them both. :(

0:34 - sooooo Mr. David knows by now right? He has to? ALSO when the European FBI guy shows up in a few episodes this is going to be bad for Malcolm and Jessica right? The FBI guy will probs talk to Mr. David who will be like - oh yeah, they’ve had more ‘family meetings’ in the past 6 months than in the past 20 years. 

1:22 - Sooooo this whole family honestly thinks Ainsley’s going to become a serial killer. From the tidbits of her childhood that we’ve seen, the way she treated Malcolm in Q&A, and generally how she acts when she wants to get a story - I’m not surprised. Read my thoughts on older episodes (1x7, 1x20, 2x5), I’ve always thought Ainsley was a sociopath or psychopath. The girl doesn’t show a lot of moral backbone or sympathy for anyone. 

1:33 - Wait. Does this montage of Malcolm’s erratic behaviour mean that Malcolm killed someone as a kid? And doesn’t know it? Or is this just a reference to the whole ‘girl in the box’ trauma arc from last season?

1:44 - “I wish I didn’t know that you were a killer.” Anyone else get major flashbacks to the movie Santa Clause 3: The Escape Clause? “I wish I had never become Santa at all” then we get an AU for 40 mins? Just me? Cool - excuse my bad taste in Christmas movies. 

1:50 - hahaha Martin is so bitter.

2:25 - You know, as much as I love to hate Martin - he has a point. Malcolm loved his Dad (still does whether he wants to admit it or not) in 98′ - why is Malcolm chill with Ainsley killing but not Martin? Is it because with Martin, he found a poor girl tortured in a box but with Ainsley he saw her kill a man that was threatening their family? Or was it because Martin tried to kill Malcolm but Ainsley hasn’t (yet?) **honestly - that would be such an interesting episode - if Ainsley tries to kill Malcolm**

2:33 - THANK YOU. Someone finally thanks Malcolm for trying to protect Ainsley (and in extension Jessica) from the emotional trauma he’s been dealing with since the age of 10. EVEN THOUGH PROTECTING THEM IS MAKING HIS MENTAL STATE WORSE. Seriously - Malcolm is going to snap soon I honestly won’t be surprised if we get some suicidal ideation from him this season (especially if things don’t improve). Look at those big sad puppy dog eyes when Jess thanks him.

2:38 - hahahaha that side-eyed glare directed at Martin. 

2:53 - I know Jessica had good intentions here - she’s trying to protect both of her children but honestly, this whole interaction was probably super upsetting for Malcolm. Think about it - BOTH of his parents haven’t tried to have a serious discussion with him at the same time since he was at 10 years old or younger. This interaction is probably bringing up some memories for Malcolm and making him grieve for the childhood he lost all over again. 

3:06 - “You’re gross.” followed by a very regal wave at Mr. David. YES. Queen Jessica. <3

3:25 - Malcolm startling JT is pretty freaking cute. Look at how JT’s expression immediately changes from startled to concerned. I don’t blame him. Malcolm gives off major manic energy in this scene. The visit with the parents did not leave him in a good place. Also - Malcolm straight up admitted that he’s had a ‘rough morning’ this boy almost never tells the truth when he’s struggling. He’s fine. He’s always fine. 

3:30 - “Rough month.” IS THIS IT? IS THIS ALL I’M GOING TO GET? JT had a baby THREE EPISODES AGO. ‘rough month’ is a reference to the fact that he’s a new dad and he’s struggling with lack of sleep, leaving Tally alone with the baby while he’s a work, being a good husband, adjusting to dad life, ect. RIGHT?!? We’ve literally had no mention of the baby since 2x3 and I’m losing my mind. I just want someone to say, “Hey JT, how’s the baby?” that’s it. I want 5 seconds of dialogue. Just an acknowledgment that the child exists. 

3:54 - “Sooo bring me up to speed.” OMG. That smile is both extremely manic and completely adorable. Seriously - why is no one on the team more concerned about Malcolm during this episode? AND WHERE THE EFF IS EDRISA IN THIS SCENE?!? We’ve been robbed. 

4:21 - “What? I liked math class.” OMG. JT is a closet math nerd. You can’t take this headcanon away from me. 

4:24 - hahahaha look at Malcolm absorbing the new information about JT. He’s like.....yes. I will keep that information for later. Very good. Will pry further. 

5:04 - I love Dani. She’s perfect. She can see that Malcolm just checked out into his own horror of a memory. So she gently teases him to bring him back to reality. <3 This is true friendship. <3

6:00 - Was I the only one who thought it was weird that Gil asked Malcolm to help with the canvasing? Like - doesn’t Malcolm always help? Isn’t that part of what he does to build his profile?

6:12 - “KGB agent” Yes. Malcolm is still annoyed that Ainsley was so competitive about a literal murder last episode. I promise you. Ainsley’s probably still annoyed too. 

6:26 - This is why Malcolm is considering telling Ainsley the truth. He’s already losing her. May as well rip off the band-aid. She might not react as badly finding out from him as she would finding out by herself.

6:51 - “That is my vagina.” hahahahaha OMG. As a woman I must say: HOW?!?! As someone who adores JT:  hahahahahahahaha OMG. 

7:23 - “You’re getting a lot of mileage out of that tidbit”. lol. JT gently teasing Malcolm is one of my favourite things. Hands down. Especially since they’ve reached a point in their friendship where Malcolm doesn’t seem scared or offended when JT makes fun of him. They’re acting like brothers and I LOVE IT. <3

7:25 - “That’s the tip of the iceberg my man.” I have no idea why I am so amused by someone calling Malcolm “my man” but I am. 

7:36 - “The Bowery Ripper” hahaha the look that JT and Dani exchange when Malcolm starts nerding out.

8:00 - Wendell is kind of creepy. But like a weird, non-threatening creepy?

8:22 - OMG. JT let the vagina sculpture go. hahaha Look at how grossed out Dani is hahahaha she’s like, “Ugh. Men are gross.”

8:30 - This is why I love JT. He knows that that elevator is sketchy as hell. Plus it’s some (less than subtle) foreshadowing for what’s to come in this episode. 

8:41 - How did Dani find out he was at Claremont?! Does Mr. David call Gil every time Malcolm visits?!? ......this is my new headcanon. You will have to pry it from my cold dead hands. 

9:00 - This is a really cute moment between Dani and Malcolm. Regardless of whether or not you ship Brightwell - it’s really sweet to see Malcolm interacting so honestly with someone. He’s telling Dani the truth about something and she’s not making him feel bad about how messed up his family is or how weird his situation is. She just listens and teases him to make him smile. That is a good friend. IDC how you feel about Brightwell - right now - this is a GOOD FRIEND moment and Malcolm deserves more of them. 

9:10 - Annnnnnndddd this is why Brightwell shouldn’t happen (right now). Dani is still hurt that Malcolm doesn’t trust her enough to tell her everything. She still doesn’t completely trust him after what happened last season. A romantic relationship without 100% trust will fail. End of story. They’re great friends but right now they can’t be in a romantic relationship. It’ll end poorly. (Damn, I hope Brightwell is endgame though).

9:38 - hahaha Greta Swan is a perfect comedic relief for the Dani/Malcolm tension we just witnessed. This girl is a little nuts and a lot funny. 

10:00 - “Dad’s lived here his whole life” - wow. The writers really left us some big bread crumbs. We go from the scene where someone mentions a serial killer who killed someone (who was abducted from this hotel) in 1963. THEN we find a strange, gossipy woman and her grumpy father who has lived there his whole life. Coincidence? Nah. 

10:17 - SERIOUSLY?!? The Whitly home is ENORMOUS. WHY IS JESSICA LETTING AINSLEY WORK IN THE MURDER BASEMENT?!?!?! We literally just found out that Jessica has a SOLARIUM somewhere in this house. 

10:40 - “The guy definitely seems like he kills people.” Oh the irony here. 

10:55 - “Are you upset with me?” This is soft and I love it. Malcolm is being vulnerable with his little sister and it warms my heart. 

11:07 - “Insomnia sucks.” “Who knew?” Again. Irony. 

11:18 - “Anything you want to talk about?” This is precious. Malcolm loves Ainsley SO FREAKING MUCH. He has major Dad/Big brother/concerned school counsellor energy here and I’m here for it. 

11:38 - Malcolm’s soooo going to replay this conversation in his head about a million times. He’s going to blame himself for Ainsley’s murder victim of this episode. He’s going to play the “what-if” game. What if - he told her the truth here? Would she still have killed someone tonight? 

11:52 - Look at Ainsley’s face here. She seems sort of confused and comforted? Like maybe the fractions of memories that she’s admitting to having are making her believe that she killed Endicott and it scares her. Malcolm telling her otherwise is probably comforting on some level. It’s helping her convince herself that she’s done nothing wrong. 

12:25 - According to IMDB - this isn’t the episode LDP directed SO WHY IS THERE SO LITTLE GIL CONTENT IN THIS EPISODE?!?!?!

12:27 - What the hell is the puddle on the floor btw? Is it paint? Tar? Blood? I thought construction hadn’t started on the hotel yet?

14:14 - Malcolm. You. Are. A. Moron. Why go towards the creepy elevator that opened by itself? Why did you think that was a good idea?

14:29 - The Bowery Ripper is pretty strong for an old guy. I mean, Malcolm isn’t that big and he was caught off guard but still.

14:38 - I wanted this scene to be reality SO SO BADLY. I don’t even care about the Brightwell interaction in this scene. Malcolm is on a hospital bed. With an ice pack. I could’ve watched 45 minutes of “Malcolm in the hospital” content. The fact that this boy didn’t spend longer than a 30 second scene in the hospital is a CRIME. Why does Fedak hate giving us the whump aftercare?!? WHY?!?! Doesn’t he know like half the fandom LIVES FOR IT?!?

14:40 - You know how I knew this was the start of Malcolm’s AU dream? 2 reasons: 1) Dani has her hand on the ice pack on Malcolm’s head, even though he totally doesn’t need her help to hold the ice pack to his head. 2) GIL ISN”T HERE. .....although this episode did us dirty with the lack of Gil content (I miss Papa!Gil so much)

14:46 - There’s something about dream JT. I can’t quite put my finger on it. Real and dream JT are almost identical. But dream JT seems to be more open with Malcolm? IDK - he’s more relaxed around Malcolm? I can’t quite describe it. Did anyone else notice that there was just something a little bit different about dream JT? Not even in a bad way. Just different. 

15:15 - “Noooo she said it could’ve been worse. Not the same.” hahaha YES DANI. Good looking out. Call out this boy for neglecting his health. 

15:24 - This whole scene where Dani and Malcolm do a joint interrogation was awesome. They were talking pretty fast which I found a little distracting but JT said it best, “They were on FIRE”.  One thing I REALLY liked about the scene was the dynamic between Dani and Malcolm. Neither one of them was really taking a lead in the interrogation. They were equal partners and I think that says a lot about Malcolm’s romantic desires. He doesn’t want to dominate anyone. He doesn’t want to be taken advantage of. He just wants someone he can trust and respect. Someone who will trust and respect him. He wants a partner. An equal partner. I think that’s a really healthy desire for anyone in search of a relationship. 

16:12 - an affair? Did we know that Lyle and/or Katrina were married?!? If they weren’t married it would just be a relationship. Not an affair. 

17:01 - Is this honestly the first time Dani has called Malcolm by his first name? In 26 episodes? It must be right? Because I swear I was so shocked my heart skipped a beat (also my Brightwell heart melted but that’s a whole different thing). 

17:06 - .....so in Malcolm’s dream does he still work for Major Crimes? Is JT running the department? I need some more details here. 

17:12 - Soft!JT <3 <3 <3 How cute is it that in Malcolm’s AU dream, JT (and Dani) don’t actually change (in terms of personality). Their roles in his life just intensify. Dani becomes his significant other and JT becomes a much closer friend/brother. It’s precious. <3 <3 <3 

17:52 - Something about the fact that Jessica isn’t drinking liquor in the AU is hilarious and depressing to me. It’s funny because, well, it just tickles me. It’s depressing because Malcolm understands that Jessica drinks to dull the pain. In this AU, she isn’t in pain. She’s happy. Therefore, she doesn’t need alcohol. I don’t know about you but the fact that Malcolm’s subconscious wanted his mom to be happy so badly that she became (more or less) sober - is heartbreaking and heartwarming all at the same time. 

18:11 - “No one in this family is scared of a little blood right?” The irony here is THICK.

19:23 - The fact that Ainsley is a doctor just like Martin in Malcolm’s AU is terrifying and hilarious. This whole “I watched Ainsley kill a man” thing is really destabilizing Malcolm’s questionable mental health.

19:27 - “Please Ainsley is the talented one. I’m a distance second.” ....does this mean that Endicott isn’t the first person Ainsley has killed? Does this mean subconsciously Malcolm somehow thinks that Ainsley is a better serial killer than Martin?

19:56 - “No phones at dinner okay?” Something about the way Martin is looking at Malcolm at this moment and Martin’s tone of voice made me think - “Shit. Martin’s still a serial killer in Malcolm’s AU.” Especially since they Ainsley literally just announced to the room that he’s getting a from Claremont. 

20:06 - Yep. That’s a nightmare. From the back, Claremont!Gil probably looked like Martin circa mid-2010s for Malcolm. 

20:09 - Look idc who you ship on this show. But I will fight you if you don’t think that Malcolm being comforted after a nightmare by someone he loves is the sweetest thing ever. Look at how Dani gently rubs his arm and back. Ugh. This is the kind of safety Malcolm DESERVES. 

20:43 - Dani lying on Malcolm’s chest. <3 It just makes me so happy. Not even necessarily because it’s Dani (although I do ship Brightwell as end game) but because Malcolm’s subconscious is showing us his ideal relationship and we don’t see anything wild or questionable - we just see G-rated cuddling. And damn if that doesn’t say a lot about how much Malcolm just wants to be loved. 

20:53 - .......Can we have a full episode’s worth of footage where Malcolm is unconscious on the floor? I know I’m a basket case but it would make my whump heart so happy.....even happier if that footage was immediately followed by 40 mins of hospital care/comfort footage.

20:59 - I know that time has sort of slowed down for the purpose of plot in this episode but ngl - every time we saw the elevator approaching passed out Malcolm all I could think was “this is the slowest elevator in the world.”

21:26 - Malcolm is so so relaxed and comfortable in this scene. I want him to be this happy forever. 

22:07 - “You deserve all of it.” Malcolm subconsciously just wants permission to be happy. He doesn’t think he deserves to be happy (especially after Endicott). That little revelation broke my heart. Also the Brightwell kiss was adorable. Dani takes control because, Malcolm wants to feel wanted and this is how his subconscious is manifesting that desire. I will argue that Malcolm doesn’t necessarily want a relationship where his partner takes charge or dominates him. He made coffee of both of them. They’re living in his apartment. They’re having calm, mature, adult conversations. They are both equal partners in his dream relationship. 

22:45 - Dani isn’t scared of Malcolm when his hand starts shaking. She isn’t judging him. She’s just concerned. <3

22:47 - “Existential ennui”? Soooo much french in this episode. Damn. “Jamais vu”, “Quelle suprise”. Now “ennui”. 

23:35 - “I don’t fit your profile.” ....am I expected to believe that Malcolm didn’t realize this was a dream until this moment? Dani calling him “Malcolm Whitly” in the last scene wasn’t a red flag? Or the fact that Ainsley is a doctor. Or that Martin isn’t in Claremont? Or that Jessica isn’t drinking booze by the bucket? I mean, I know he has a head injury but these are big red flags. 

24:15 - Sooooo is Wendell dead irl? Because this is technically a dream. 

25:02 - “I thought we were looking for an inexperienced psychopath. A first time killer.”......this is him projecting about Ainsley right? Am I overthinking this? And now he says, “I was wrong”. Is that supposed to suggest that Malcolm thinks Ainsley has killed someone before Endicott?

25:07 - “The blows are confident. They were having fun.”.....couldn’t the same be said about how Ainsley stabbed Endicott? They were definitely confident stabs (plus a confident throat slitting). 

25:14 - “We’re looking for a serial killer.” Istg the writers are hinting that Ainsley is a serial killer (or will become one soon).

25:27 - Mr. David appears in the AU but Edrisa doesn’t. We were ROBBED.

26:07 - I’m not the only one who thinks that beard makes Gil look like a werewolf right?

26:33 - Claremont!Gil is creepy. LDP’s performance here is really really good. Also - I hate it. Because serial killer Gil is just not my Gil and it upsets me to see Gil chained to a wall. 

26:56 - Sooooo in the AU “The Surgeon” is still at large right? ....you’d think Malcolm would be trying to solve that case with Dani and JT. You know, an active prolific serial killer in New York?

27:34 - The way that Martin, Gil, and Malcolm interact in this scene is really interesting to me. In a lot of ways, this isn’t an AU. Think about it. 

In the dream: Gil is frantically trying to convince Malcolm that Martin is a serial killer. In a way, Gil is trying to protect Malcolm from Martin.

In reality: Gil just shoots Malcolm disapproving looks when he mentions seeing Martin. Gil desperately tries to protect Malcolm from Martin.

In the dream: Martin is trying to convince Malcolm that Gil is a monster. He’s trying to convince Malcolm that he’s a Good father. That he would never hurt Malcolm. That he loves Malcolm. 

In reality - Martin is the same. 

The only main difference between AU!Martin, AU!Gil, and their real counterparts is their temperaments. AU!Martin has Gil’s calm, comforting, and rational temperament while AU!Gil has Martin’s angry, manic, and controlling temperament.

What is the same between the AU characters and their real counterparts? 

Martin is still a manipulative killer.

Gil still shoots Malcolm looks of concern (27:45). 

Gil and Martin still hate each other. 

28:30 - Even dream Martin tries to gaslight Malcolm. 

28:56 - “You can always count on Dad.” ....is this how Malcolm really feels about Martin subconsciously? It kind of makes sense? Who did Malcolm turn to when Ainsley did the unthinkable? Not Gil or Jessica. Malcolm said it in 1x12 - (I’m paraphrasing) “The child in me thought he cared. Loved me even.” I think there’s still a part of Malcolm that believes that. Or at least a part of Malcolm that desperately wants to believe that. 

29:17 - “I’ve never been to a crime scene before.” That’s because you create the crime scene, Martin. In all versions of reality. 

29:20 - annnnnnd AU Martin shares regular Martin’s weird fascination with Dani. 

31:00 - JT being buddy-buddy with Martin is hands down the most horrifying part of the AU. 

31:10 - “I think he’s having a psychotic break.” ......I want this to be foreshadowing so so so badly. I think it would be so interesting to see how the team, Jessica, Ainsley, and even Martin deal with Malcolm just having a total breakdown. Maybe not a full psychotic break. Maybe a nervous breakdown? Or he succumbs to his suicidal ideation? Probably a little too dark for network TV though.

31:34 - “I’m very protective of her and her boots.” Does Malcolm see himself as the Bowery Ripper, trying to protect Ainsley as opposed to his daughter? Or is the Bowery Ripper supposed to be a metaphor for Martin protecting Ainsley? Is Malcolm going to take the fall for Ainsley and all her murders?!? 

32:45 - “Why did you kill again? After all these years.” istg this is hinting that Ainsley killed someone as a kid and Martin knows about it.

33:00 - “I can’t let my daughter know what I was.” .....is the Bowery Ripper supposed to be Ainsley? Is Ainsley killing people to try and protect Malcolm? Ugh. I’m totally overthinking this.

33:02 - Even in his dream, Malcolm can’t bring himself to kill his father. Wether that is by cutting off contact with Martin irl or letting the Bowery Ripper kill him in the AU.

33:07 - Actually though - why doesn’t Malcolm carry a gun IRL? We know he’s trained to use one. We saw him use one in the pilot on a case for the FBI. Is there some sort of NYPD rule about consultants carrying weapons? Is it a rule that Gil has imposed on Malcolm? Is it a rule that Malcolm has imposed on himself? A mixture? I want to know. 

33:38 - OMG. Is Malcolm going to try and kill Ainsley?!?! What a twist that would be. AU Malcolm just killed a killer. He doesn’t seem to feel bad about it and he agrees with Martin that “everything is okay now”. 

33:55 - This hug deeply moved me. Malcolm is fully aware that this hug isn’t real but he looks so content to be hugged by his father. Malcolm is finally getting a proper hug. <3 It honestly makes me wonder what Malcolm would do IRL for his father’s approval though. He’s clearly sooo desperate for Martin to love him. Who knows what Martin will be able to convince Malcolm to do in this season? Malcolm’s not all that mentally stable right now and he’s really vulnerable emotionally. I’m worried.

34:26 - “Not that it’s a competition.” ....yep. Ainsley wants to be better than Malcolm even in Malcolm’s own subconscious. 

35:00 - Heart. Breaking. Watching Ainsley, Martin, and Jessica tell Malcolm how good they think Dani is for him breaks my heart. Look at how happy Malcolm looks. Look at how desperately Malcolm wants this to be real. Ugh. My heart is shattered. 

35:20 - “You’re the best, big brother.” Even Malcolm’s subconsious knows that he’s an excellent big brother. Seriously, I love my younger brother but I don’t think I could ever cover up a murder for him. Never mind dispose of the body. Maybe I would? IDK the situation has never come up (thankfully).

35:25 - .....aaannnnnndd we’re back to the Girl in the Box.

35:58 - “Why would you ever want to leave?” “Because it’s all a lie.” Isn’t Malcolm living a lie IRL too? He’s pretending that Ainsley is a law-abiding citizen. He’s pretending that he isn’t an accomplice in a murder. He’s living in constant fear because of his secrets. They’re going to destroy him. This is why I think a suicide attempt is a possibility for this season. This trauma is a lot bigger (in some ways) than last season’s. Plus - Malcolm has a lot of pre-existing trauma. This could be the metaphoric straw that breaks the camel’s back.  

36:45 - “Even in my wildest dream. I’m still a detective. I need to seek the truth. No matter how painful.” That’s it. That’s Malcolm’s character in a nutshell. “Traumatized boy who intentionally puts himself through more trauma for the sake of seeking the truth.”

37:01 - “You’re right. I need to work on that.”.......if Malcolm tells Gil and/or the team about Ainsley next episode I will lose my mind. 

 37:15 - TOM PAYNE. YOU ABSOLUTE TREASURE. THIS IS SUCH A GREAT PERFORMANCE. THOSE UNSHED TEARS. THAT DESPERATE ANGER. THAT HOPELESSNESS AND DESPAIR.  <3 <3 <3 <3 

38:21 - Look, I’m a mechanical engineering student (not an expert) but if that was a wooden stick like I think it is - that would’ve NEVER stopped an elevator (at least, not long enough for Malcolm to escape). But I’ll overlook it for whump. Because Malcolm has a head wound and I’m loving it. 

38:33 - I’ve rewatched this clip of Malcolm with a bloody face meeting JT and Dani about 50 times (wish I was exaggerating that number). There is something so gorgeous about this scene. I mean - the fact that Malcolm is clearly in physical and emotional pain is enough to make my whump heart sing but it’s more than that. Listen to the genuine concern in JT’s voice when he says, “You okay?”. Look at Dani’s concerned face. Listen to how soft and desperate Malcolm’s voice is when he says, “When was the last time I talked to you?” Look at how concerned and confused JT and Dani are when Malcolm says, “I know who the killer is.” They’re not scared of Malcolm. They’re scared for Malcolm. Malcolm just showed up covered in blood, he can’t walk straight, he’s clearly confused, and now he’s claiming that he’s solved the case. They’re worried about him and they have every right to be. Listen to how broken Malcolm sounds when he says, “Long story.” <3 <3 <3 I’m in love with this scene. 

39:19 - “Are you sure about this?” “I have no idea.” This. Is. Important. JT and Dani have every reason to believe that this old man isn’t a killer but Malcolm’s head injury is making him confused. BUT they choose to trust Malcolm (or at the very least, humour him). They trust him enough to take a risk on him and I think that’s beautiful. I think that’s exactly what Malcolm needed after his nightmare of an AU dream. He needed to know that they care about him IRL. I hope he notices their behaviour despite the head injury. 

39:35 - Malcolm puts the skull down with his ungloved hand. I’m blaming the head injury. 

39:55 - Look this was a really moving scene. The parallel of Malcolm arresting a serial killer in front of the serial killer’s child and Martin being arrested in front of Malcolm is haunting. HOWEVER, when that old man stood up from the wheelchair my stupid brain went “THAT ASSHOLE NEVER EVEN NEEDED THE WHEELCHAIR?!?”.....even though he literally wasn’t in a wheelchair in Malcolm’s dream. 

40:40 - WE WERE ROBBED. I want to see the scene where Malcolm explains his dream to the team. I want to see GIL. WHERE THE EFF IS GIL IN THIS EPISODE?!?! FURTHERMORE - I WANT THE IRL VERSION OF “MALCOLM GOES TO THE HOSPITAL FOR A HEAD INJURY” SCENE. WTF FEDAK. GIVE ME THE AFTERCARE. 

40:47 - “That man will be buried in a turtleneck.” hahahahahaha OMG. Iconic. 

41:27 - “Goodnight Malcolm.” <3 <3 <3 She called him Malcolm IRL. Excuse me while I go and stoke my slow burn Brightwell fire. 

41:36 - “Goodnight.” This is the face of a man who just accepted the fact that he will never be happy. Malcolm honestly doesn’t think he deserves to be in a relationship. Especially with someone as beautiful, kind, and talented as Dani.

41:40 - THAT HAT. Was this really in Season 1?!?! I don’t remember it? But holy hell - I want to see Malcolm wear it. Like now. It’s going to make me laugh. I can feel it. 

41:53 - Immediately you can hear that something is wrong in Ainsley’s voice. She sounds distracted, dissociated, and scared. 

42:14 - Give. Tom. Payne. An. Emmy. Listen to his voice breaking here. He’s so close to tears and it’s genuinely beautiful. Such an astounding performance. 

42:51 - I honestly think Ainsley is shaking her head because she realizes that she made a mistake. She came to Malcolm because she thought he killed Endicott. She thought that he’d be able to understand. That he’d be able to help her because he had committed the same crime she just committed. She was wrong. He can help her - but legally, he really shouldn’t.

43:08 - Look. A new scene for Malcolm’s night terrors. 

43:15 - Yep. This is going to drive Malcolm into a mental breakdown. This is bad. 

43:20 - There’s a part of me that wants Malcolm to tattle on Ainsley. Just so he doesn’t have to keep the secret any longer. The secret is killing him. Telling won’t make the situation any better though. Gil and the team will react horribly and it’ll make Malcolm feel like garbage. Plus I can only imagine how the press would scrutinize the Whitly’s again. It won’t be good any way you slice it. 

I have a love/hate relationship with this episode. On one hand - it’s the cannon AU episode that every fanfiction lover dreams of. It’s also a really compelling episode complete with some excellent acting and great insight into Malcolm’s psyche. HOWEVER: 1) not enough Gil, 2) WHERE IS MY WHUMP AFTERCARE?, and 3) I wanted to see Malcolm at the base of that elevator for longer. The whump wasn’t prolonged enough for my sick soul. 

[chaotically-cas]

I do all the couples asks for darpollo even though no one asked

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I spent forever on this 😐

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How did they first meet?

There gangs have always known each other so they’ve always kind of known of each other

What was their first impression of each other?

Darry thought he was immature & juvenile (which he can be) & Apollo thought Darry was brooding & angry (he can be) 

Did any of their friends or family want them to get together?

Curly & Pony probably would? Maybe?? I can also see Two Bit advocating for it.

Who felt romantic feelings first?

Hear me out. So Apollo was obviously the big flirt & stuff. But I think Darry was the first one to actually be like. You moron. I want to date you. & I love that for them.

Did either of them try to resist their feelings?

I think Darry might of, for reasons of his brothers & just. Apollo being a moron. But he gets over it.

If you had told one of them that the other would be their soulmate, what would they think?

Apollo would’ve been very open & loving to the idea & Darry would’ve been 0_o for a second but then he would just say ‘screw it’.

What would their lives be like if they had never met?

Very utterly boring.

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Who initiated the relationship, and how did it go?

Apollo had been flirting for a very long time but Darry was the one that first asked him out. Very awkwardly might I add. But Apollo thought it was adorable.

Did they have an official first date? If so, what was it like?

Apollo insisted. Big sweet & romantic date. Like a fancy dinner or something. & then ofc dancing to Darry’s vinyls. Obviously.

What was their first kiss like?

If we’re going with my fic, then it was quick but cute on Darry’s front porch at night before Apollo went home. & then another while they were dancing.

Were they each other’s first anything (kiss, relationship, etc.)?

Both each other’s first serious relationship but it works well

What’s their height difference? Age difference?

Apollo is like. 6 months younger. But 1-2 inches taller. I said what I said.

What’s their relationship with each other’s families?

Apollo loves Pony & Soda (while Soda might not like him much, he deals) & Darry insists that his parents would have loved him. & ofc Darry gets along with Tim. Tolerates the terror twins.

Who takes the lead in social situations?

Both? Apollo? Idk

Who gets jealous easier?

I think it depends on the situation. For Darry, he hates people hitting on & touching Apollo. Apollo finds it funny when it happens to Darry, but he still makes sure to step in.

Who whispers inappropriate things in the other’s ear?

Apollo. Next.

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Who said “I love you” first?

Darry. Idc.

What are their primary love languages?

Apollo’s is probably physical touch cause he never got any growing up lolz. Darry’s might be the same, occasionally. But probably words of affirmation, which Apollo is great at.

Who uses cheesy pick-up lines?

Apollo

How often do they cuddle/engage in PDA?

As freaking often as possible. Constantly. Usually stated by Apollo.

Who initiates kisses?

Apollo most the time but when Darry is in a good mood, he does a lot. Also kiddos sorry but the next one.

How long into the relationship before they had sex?

I made them fork on the first date in my fic. So true me. It’s a decision I think about often.

Who’s the big and little spoon?

BIG SPOON APOLLO LITTLE SPOON DARRY

What are their favorite things to do together?

Dance, talk, listen to music, cook, watch tv, & just be together

Who’s better at comforting the other?

Apollo is good at helping Darry when he is upset & Darry is good at calming down Apollo when he gets upset. They both are really good at expressing themselves & talking.

Who’s more protective?

Darry yup

Who remembers the little things?

They both do cause they know how important it can be

Do they prefer verbal or physical affection?

Depends on the situation, but mostly physical

What are some songs that apply to their relationship, in-universe or otherwise?

Paper rings by Taylor Swift & Yellow by Coldplay

What kind of nicknames do they call each other?

Darry is: babe, Dar, angel, my love, shorty, doll, doll face, etc

Apollo is: Pollo, blueberry, sweetie, handsome, honey, etc

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If they get married, who proposes?

Apollo proposes with a ring he made himself from scratch so true

What’s the wedding like? Who attends?

Ok. Listen. They would have a huge wedding. Because I think Apollo would want them to have the dreaming they never thought they could. & at first Darry was like.... but yeah. Not expensive. But big.

How many kids do they have, if any? What are they like?

The have their gangs. That’s enough.

Do they have any pets?

Does the gangs count

Who’s the stricter parent?

Darry 100% omg, Apollo is the person to give a 14 year old the keys to his car (that 14 year old was Curly)

Who worries the most?

I think this is easy. Darry. He worries constantly, nonstop. But Apollo really tries his best to calm him when he can.

Who kills the bugs in the house?

Darry 100%

How do they celebrate holidays?

Pretty minimally. Small gifts & just time together. Soft kisses & kind words. They don’t do much.

Who’s more likely to convince the other to come back to sleep in the morning?

Apollo would beg Darry

Who’s the better cook?

If I had to chose, I would say Apollo. But both Darry & him grew up & still feed the others so I think they are both very great cooks together.

Who likes to dance?

Omg help to anyone who remembers the fic again, they both do. Darry learned to dance with his parents growing (canon) & is good at is (also canon) & Apollo isn’t the best but in a kind of charming way. So they both do. I think it’s a common pass time for them.

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Who’s the cuddler?

Apollo is 100% always down for cuddles no matter what or when. & Darry is too after a long day.

Who goes to bed late and who wakes up first?

They both kinda go to bed early, but if they stay up they stay up together. Darry usually wakes up first but sometimes Apollo wakes up first so he can surprise him with breakfast in bed & stuff.

Who sings during daily activities (shower, cooking, etc)?

Apollo. Nonstop. It’s constant with him. But Darry doesn’t mind it at all.

Who takes care of the other on sick days?

Both! They both do splendidly either way.

Who gives unprompted massages?

Apollo after Darry has had a hard or long day

Who gives nose/forehead/hand kisses?

Apollo mainly he likes to shower Darry in as many kisses & possible. & Darry gives a lot of nose kisses when he is tired or just feeling loving. Idk I think it’s something that would be important to him.

Soft kisses or passionate kisses?

Both but mainly soft

Who writes love letters/notes to the other?

Apollo omg he is the type to write in the steam on the mirror & draw hearts everywhere

Who makes romantic surprises without a reason to?

I feel like they actually both would equally

Who will sing cheesy romantic songs when drunk?

Apollo. 100%. But I think imagining Darry doing it is one of the best things I’ve ever thought of-

[imbackmrstark]

dark!tony(or maybe not idc) x model!peter

Don't trust me

Summary: Peter is currently one of the most famous models, loved by many fans and lots of money in his pockets. One night Peter made the wrong decision and was kidnapped. What does the stranger want from him?

Peter was fed up with his boring life and the constant driving around from point A to point B so as not to miss a photo shoot. "To bag the money," as his manager used to say. In his spare time, which he didn't have much, he was surrounded by penetrating fans who barely allowed him enough air to breathe, through their hard pushing to get a photo with their idol. His manager had of course not attributed security to him. "Peter doesn't need security so badly either," was what he said, but Peter knew he was doing it only to avoid spending money. Sometimes Peter leaned back, resting his chin on his hand, running his index finger over his lips, and trying to find differences between his manager and Mr. Krabs, the greedy crab from Spongebob. He wanted to fire his manager so incredibly, but he knew just as well that he wouldn't find anyone better who would even begin to take care of Peter. The brown-haired curly head was really squeamish when it came to photo shoots. He didn't let himself be used for much, for example, he didn't want to be an advertising face of a men's collection that wasn't at his level or that he wouldn't wear himself. The people around him sometimes had a hard time with him, sometimes had to persuade him to do a few shoots, which he then only reluctantly did. 

Peter couldn't believe that he just had to walk through a secluded side alley with his hood pulled low over his face just to avoid his fans. He was alone, completely unprotected and far too naive to think about consequences that could happen just because he was annoyed and walking through alleys. Of course, ugly things were inevitable. Suddenly, out of nowhere, a man dressed in black stood in front of the boy. He couldn't see his face, the night was too dark. With a deafening scratch, the man circled his knife over the stone wall. Peter opened his eyes wide, he had never been in such a situation in his life, he always thought that such scenes would only exist in films. Naive boy.

Peter quickly turned, his hair roughly flying into his face, before trying to run back to the street to be with people. A hard jolt on his upper arm pulled him back. He was about to scream, preferably for help, but before he got the chance, the stranger put a hand on Peter's mouth.

"Where do you think you're going to, sweetheart?" Peter's blood froze in his veins and his arm hair rose. The stranger's voice caused goose bumps to run down his back. Peter's body trembled unconsciously and a muffled whimper left his mouth. The knife popped up in front of his face, causing him to flinch in shock and press his back to the stranger to escape the knife. Panic crept up in him, his hands clenched painfully in the man's arm and a few tears formed in the corner of his eyes. "Oh honey, it's okay. I just want to play a bit, you know?" The man gently stroked Peter's cheek with the knife only to catch his tear, which ran down at the same moment. He held up the knife and turned it a little. The tear glittered in the soft moonlight. "Do you promise not to scream when I take my hand away, hon?" Peter nodded immediately, not wanting to imagine what would happen if he did scream. "Good boy". The muscular arm – Peter only now noticed how well-trained the man was behind him – slowly let go of him, now held him only on the upper body. Peter bit his lower lip roughly and tried to breathe calmly.

"Just no panic attack.." Peter thought, whimpering anxiously under the strict grip of the mysterious. The man noticed the change in his victim's breathing and held him a little more loosely. He suspected what was growing in the boy right now and of course wanted to prevent this. He slowly took the knife down and put it in the back pocket, then ran his hand gently through the smaller boys hair.

"Come on, sweetheart, we're going home." His calm voice sounded almost soothing in Peter's ears, but that didn't stop the situation that Peter was in the middle of a kidnapping. Or as Peter always joked about it: surprising adoption. But this was clearly not fun. He was in real danger right now and he was beginning to realize that.

"No!" Peter started to struggle and tried to push the arm away. "I don't know you! Let go of me!"

"Oh darling.. you know me."

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Peter's cheeks were covered with tears, his wrists were burning uncomfortably through the tight ropes that held him in place, and his head was grumbling painfully. After a miserable attempt to defend himself, the man just sighed and pressed a damp cloth onto Peter's face, which suddenly made him very tired. He woke up on a bed with soft sheets and despite all his guesswork, he was still wearing his clothes, which was very reassuring. He lifted his head weakly when he heard footsteps entering the room.

"You're awake, sweetie," the man grumbled happily as he got closer to the boy. Peter tried to move away from the stranger anxiously, but only screamed quietly as the rope cut deeper into his skin. "Shh.. calm, little one, otherwise you'll hurt yourself." For the first time Peter was able to look at the man's face and held his breath in alarm.

"M-Mr. Stark?" Peter stuttered in confusion, since he never expected to see him here. He always looked so warm and as if you could trust him. He always smiled at the camera, was nice to his fans and was a really great person despite his trillions. Until now.

"I said you already knew me." Mr. Stark grinned proudly and carefully placed himself on the edge of the bed. Tony smiled softly at Peter and started running his fingers over his legs. A cold shiver dropped Peter's back and he couldn't quite judge whether it was pleasant or uncomfortable.

He swallowed hard. "But why?" It was just a breath that left the boy, far too much was the realization that Tony fucking Stark was sitting in front of him. Of course he knew him. Everyone knew him. He was probably even more famous than the president and sometimes the man took advantage of it.

"Well. . everyone has a dirty secret, doesn't it?" Another grin from him. "And mine is this one." Peter bit his lower lip again and looked blankly at the adult. He wasn't exactly sure what he meant by that, but on the other hand, he didn't want to know. "I'm going to remove the ropes now, okay?" With a smile on his face, the brown-haired man twisted a curl of Peter in his fingers. The younger nodded uncertainly. "And then I want you to undress." Dominance flashed in the brown eyes, making Peter whimper before he shook his head quickly. "Oh, that wasn't a question, my dear." Tony raised his eyebrows warningly, so that the curly head desperately clawed his fingers in the bed sheet. Tony slowly began to loosen the aching ropes from Peter's legs, which caused him to groan in relief. After he was released, Tony looked at him intently and waited for the boy to move. "Didn't I make myself very clear?" Tony asked in a scratched voice, finally wanting to see how he was created. With skin and bones. "You model, right?" Peter nodded shyly. "Then model for me."

"You could have just made an appointment with my manager, I would have agreed immediately. I-" Peter was interrupted by a light hit on the thigh. "outch.."

"But that wouldn't have created so much thrill." Was the simple answer from the kidnapper. "And now take your clothes off."

A tear of fear rolled over Peter's cheek before he sat on his knees and slowly pulled his hoodie over his head. The silent spark of hope of Mr. Stark's reflection was in Peter as he removed his socks. He felt the burning look of Tony boring into his flesh. Next, the model unbuttoned his pants and braced himself slightly on his arms to pull them over his ass and waist. It was difficult for him to keep himself upright as his arms trembled from all the stress and uncertainty of fear. His hands were sweating, his throat felt dry and he wanted to cry out loud. Peter looked up shyly as he pulled his dark skinny jeans over his ankles. He could finally take a look at his legs, which showed many red streaks that came from the ropes. These prints will probably stay there a little longer. Peter ran his fingertips over the red streaks, which is why he painfully inhaled the air and narrowed his eyes. In order not to make a sound, he bit his lower lip hard, so that shortly afterwards he tasted the metallic taste of blood in his mouth. With glassy eyes, he looked up at the billionaire who, after watching the boy for a while, became calm and patient so as not to stress Peter any more.

"Does it hurt a lot?" The older man murmured quietly, very calmly and in a soft voice. Peter pulled his thin legs close to his torso, put his trembling arms around his knees and made himself very small. He didn't want to answer him, no, he couldn't. "I'm sorry, little one" A sigh left Tony's throat. "But you have to stick to what I want, understand?" Peter didn't quite understand. He had done what he wanted. "I said you should undress, Peter." His voice suddenly sounded so rough and wanting.

"But I-.."

"Completely." Tony's eyes burned against his skin, again. Peter looked up at the man with wide eyes and open mouth, almost forgetting to breathe. Of course, this pervert wanted to see him naked. What else? Peter swallowed, slowly shook his head. "Again. That was not a request or question. This is an command." Peter looked away, letting his gaze wander around the room until he got caught on something shiny on the dresser. Upon closer inspection, he recognized a knife. The knife. In him everything cried out to bend and give the bastard what he wanted, but at the same time his ego resisted. Peter had always been stubborn. Tony pushed himself off the edge of the bed and went over to the dresser. Peter thought it was over now. He was going to die. He was taking a deep breath to review his life when the man just opened one of the drawers and pulled out a piece of cloth. When Mr. Stark got closer, the boy realized that it was some kind of panty and fishnet tights. Unintentionally, Peter slid back on the big bed until he slammed into the bed frame. He shook his head again and again as Tony came toward him with the scraps of cloth, a grin on his face. "This will make you look even more beautiful, darling."

Peter quickly wiped a running tear from his cheek before lifting his head and looking into completely soothing eyes. A slight lump formed in his throat as he unintentionally reached for the clothes Tony was holding out to him.

"Good boy. ." The brown-haired, almost gray-haired man smiled contentedly and took a seat on the edge of the bed again, his eyes on Peter. The model slowly pulled down the boxer shorts with trembling fingers, always careful not to show the man skin. Private skin. Nervously and clumsily, he grabbed the panty and put it on, breathing heavily. This thing felt strange on his skin, it was his first time wearing something like that. Only now did Peter notice that his ass was exposed because there was a hole in the panty. Inside, the boy shook his body in disgust. He carefully lifted the fishnet tights, which also had a hole in the back. He tried not to waste any more thought as he slid his feet into his pantyhose with gentle movements. He accidentally looked directly at Tony, who was licking his lip with a grin. "If you try to be sexy, you've definitely made it. You're incredibly hot." A growl came out of his lips as he crawled on all fours to Peter. He looked like a predator hunting. Hunt for Peter.

The boy, meanwhile, had pulled the pantyhose up to his knees and was now looking at the man with huge eyes. "M-Mr. Stark ..-" He continued pulling his pants up over his ass and waist. The black elastic band was rough on his skin.

"I want to know if you can take me completely." Tony whispered in a deep voice, ran his fingertips over the boy's model legs and squeezed his thighs slightly apart to sit between them. Peter trembled all over, was afraid to fight back and just let it happen. Maybe, he thought, if he just lay there, Tony would lose interest in him. But what then? "Do you think, you could take daddys dick completely?"

Peter whimpered quietly. "No.. please don't.. please let me go. ." Tony used his calm look again, which cast a spell on Peter. He stopped trembling and slowly controlled his breathing before carefully and shyly resting his hand on Tony's shoulder as he got closer. The curly head bit his lip again, then looked down because he couldn't stand Tony's stare anymore. He found a bulge in his counterpart's jeans and swallowed hard. Was it because of him?

With a tender smile on his lips, the older man ran his hands over the boy's thighs. He thought Peter was beautiful. "Can I kiss you?" Tony's fingers slid under Peter's chin, then lifted it up a bit so he had to look at him. "Can I?" Peter wasn't thinking well enough, was too enchanted by these eyes, which is why he nodded softly. The next moment lips pressed against his. He was kissed gently, but a little greedily, the hand on his chin slid to his neck, squeezed very carefully, which is why Peter gave a groan of surprise. The model's thin little hand slid from the shoulder up to Tony's cheek, holding him there so he didn't get too close, but couldn't pull away either. He felt Tony's other hand, slowly slipping under his ass to lift him off the bed frame and put him on the back just below. Peter's legs were angled, he could easily have wrapped them around Tony's back, but he didn't, he was too irritated by the tongue that slid dominantly into his mouth.

"What am I doing here? " The boy thought desperately. He wanted to stop, at the same time he didn't want to stop.

He felt the man's hands all over his body, leaving a wave of goosebumps on his skin that was an incredible feeling for him. He had never felt anything like this before, it was wonderful. His fingers flew into the older man's hair, tugging him back slightly to give an uncontrolled moan. The billionaire grinned broadly when he heard this satisfying sound. The bulge in his jeans twitched with pleasure, wanted more. He wanted more. Tony started kissing the boy's neck, leaving dark prints everywhere he could reach. The model, on the other hand, never stopped moaning, clawed deep into the hair of the man who was actually a stranger to him.

"And I haven't even started. . ." Tony whispered softly, more to himself than to Peter. Again and again Tony complimented the boy sweetly as he let his hands wander to his genital area. He gently rubs his thumb over the clothed dick of the smaller one, who threw his head back through all these new feelings.

"M'hore.. ! Hmpf-lease. ." Peter's left hand searched for the grip on Tony's shoulder, held on there, the other hand still in his hair.

"Want me to fuck you, baby boy?" Tony nodded at Peter's earlobe, grinning, waiting for a clear answer. He would take him anyway, no question, that's why he was here. Tony Stark had seen this model on the Internet. To be precise on the Twitter homepage. He wanted him, it was clear to him from the start.

"F-Fuck ye-hes!" Peter was already taking off his tights when Tony catched his wrist with a firm grip and growled silently.

"That stays on. There are holes in it for a reason, honey." He had to smirk, ran his fingers over the left leg of Peter, who shyly pressed it with his foot against Tony's chest. Tony kissed the leg gently and slowly, pushing the foot higher in the direction of his shoulder to bend down and continue kissing on Peter's thigh. The kisses felt hot and moist on his skin, his hands slid almost automatically into the man's hair. Peter's bear-colored eyes were all the time on Tony as he kissed closer to his stomach, his fingers hooked into the fishnet tights. When the man touched the boy's stomach with his lips, the boy involuntarily flinched. "Shh. ."

"It's okay. Just scared me. . please don't stop." Peter removed his foot from the man's shoulder, stretched out his leg, and then used it to push Tony closer to himself.

"You don't want me to stop?" Tony grinned all over his face, happily kissed the boy's stomach, didn't want to stop.

Peter bit his lip roughly, smiled slightly, before carefully, with a questioning expression, put his hand under the man's shirt. He rubbed every inch of muscle with his fingertips, up and down, to the side and behind to the back. Before Peter could even think about it, Tony straightened up and pulled the t-shirt over his head. The small hands immediately lay on his crotch, stroking it lightly.

"Have you ever slept with mans, darling?"

"I've never had sex. ." Peter braced himself on his forearms to lean forward and whisper these words into Tony's ear.

"Damn .. you get me dirty thoughts, kid."

"To be honest, that's exactly what I want. . daddy." The boy quickly brushed a strand of hair from his face, dropped back, and played on Tony's trouser buttons. "Can I open your pants?"

"Of course you can, baby boy." Mr. Stark unobtrusively helped his little boy pull his jeans to his knees. After a short wiggle and move, the pants were on the other side of the room. Peter giggled amused and Tony could swear he had never heard such a beautiful laugh.

Tony reached for the bedside table with a smile, looking for lubricant in the drawer. He came back to his little darling and greedily pressed his lips to his. While kissing the boy, he slid his hand to his ass, massaging it gently. He opened the lube, smeared some of it on his fingers before gently pushing one of them into the boy. He heard Peter groan with pleasure, Tony knew at the same time that he could have satisfied him even more, but he could do that another time. He circled his finger in him, bowed his head to Peter's neck, sucked on his skin until dark spots appeared and pressed another finger into him. Peter whined loudly, put his head back, clawed his fingertips into the man's hair, and breathed hard. Peter wanted more. Another finger followed, pressed deep into him, made him moan. Tony moved his fingers in Peter, first carefully and then quickly and hard. Peter clawed his hand into Tony's wrist, stopped him moving and shook his head quickly, unable to speak.

"Gonna- mhh~ sto-hop.. moree~" The words just left Peter stuttering, he had to concentrate too much on breathing sensibly.

"You want daddy's cock, don't you?" Tony removed his fingers from the model, took off his boxer shorts and positioned himself correctly between Peter's legs. "Are you ready sweetheart?"

"Yes please! Give me your dick, daddy! " The next moment, Tony's tip pressed into Peter, making him groan loudly. His hands reached over the pillow and held on there. "M-More~" The man pushed himself inch by inch into the little boy, looking at him closely, never wanting to forget that face he was doing. Tony bit his lip to keep from going nuts and ramming hard into him. He waited like a gentleman for Peter to get used to him, kissed every part of his face and told him how beautifully tight he was. He filled the boy completely, was almost afraid that his sperm would find no place. Peter trembled and put an arm around the man's back, pulling him closer and kissing Tony from his side for the very first time. As they kissed lustfully, rubbed their bodies together and moaned softly, Tony started to move in the boy. Peter narrowed his eyes, had never felt such a feeling. His crotch twitched, he noticed how his cock wanted to get out of the panties, looking for freedom, but he was too afraid to ask Tony. With his free hand he slipped into his panties, gripped his cock and began to satisfy himself. Grinning, Tony let go of Peter's lips, moving faster in the boy as he watched him masturbate. Peter literally begged for more when he opened his mouth, closed his eyes and dug his other hand into Tony's shoulder. The billionaire slapped his skin against that of the model again and again, his cock ramming completely into the boy, making sure that he saw little stars. "I'm gonna.. 'nna~ haaah~" With a loud moan, Peter came in his hand, tightened around Mr. Stark's dick, who was now also groaning loudly. The sudden tightness around him made him twitch pleasantly. He came in Peter. Hard and deep. Breathing heavily, Tony slid onto the boy, who meanwhile pulled his hand out of his pants and held it up. His face had a disgusted look before he took a tissue and cleaned himself. Tony watched him with satisfaction, still deep inside him.

"I will keep you, my darling." Tony Stark had made a decision. "You are mine now."

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English is not my first language. I could write you a 120 word discussion about South Africa, I was taught that at school. I can do that lmao

[hoe-doroki]

ana reads bnha ch169

previous chapter here first chapter here next chapter here

We’ve entered the school festival arc, folks. I introduce you to my new program: Ana ruins everything

Aw, this is so teenage. Like, Kami’s actually being super sweet. He seems genuinely curious and he’s identified that it’s something that Jirou really, really loves. But she has that teen shame and those teen nerves and so she’s lashing out. I definitely did that as a teen. Fortunately I don’t feel embarrassment nearly as often now, post theatre-school. My room shows all my childish obsessions loudly and proudly and idc who sees.

Oop, Kiri, I hate to break it to you, but overlooking enormous world suffering is a part of the human condition. We are conditioned to walk past unhoused people on the street and not think about the housing crisis. We are conditioned to not prioritize world news and have any awareness about, say, what’s happening in Ethiopia’s Tigray region. We are conditioned to forget about South Africa’s water crisis as soon as talk of “Day 0” exits the news media. This is how humans cope and how humans think. We can’t constantly have tabs for every world crisis open in our brain at all times and, like it or not, they can’t all affect our every decision. We are not perfect in this way, and its not achievable to attempt otherwise. It’s something heroes would assuredly get desensitized to—which makes Aizawa’s response kind of odd to me. Really, he should say that stuff like that is happening in the world all the time. It’s just that it just recently became personal to you and is front of mind for you. We need to marry how to both be activists in our everyday lives, but also carry on our everyday lives without ruining all the joy and good fortune. That’s how you burn out, buddy.

*steps off soapbox*

Disco!Shou and Katsu!! Omg, it makes me laugh, it makes me cringe. Let it be known the world ‘round that I don’t like disco and don’t wanna see my boys in this state! Although, I don’t mind laughing at them…

But it’s still super strange to me that Shouto is the one who looks this up. How would he have seen the video that he brings up? (How does he even find it when he doesn’t know what it’s called?) I get how it relates to the provisional license class, but it’s still a bit of a stretch. I do appreciate the attempt to tie in what is otherwise a very isolated mini storyline with the larger story, though.

Also, can we talk about Shouto in a black button down????? Pretty please????????????

Overall: Wow, I have a LOT to say about this chapter. First and foremost, we have another night with Bakugou asleep before anyone else. Canon confirmed. Second, we get a cameo from Shinsou and Mei. Always a win.

Now. This, uh, club idea. Setting aside the fact that I don’t get how Shouto thought of it, I have a lot of issues with this idea, and will continue to snark about it for the rest of this arc. I mean, I love this arc, I do, but I have many, MANY gripes with it (including my biggest nitpick with the whole series—wait for it, it’s a while away yet). They’re not things that I wish were different, but just things that I, personally am like 😒 yeah right. First of all, most people at concerts enjoy themselves because they’re a fan of the band. There will be considerably less enthusiasm when it’s just the yahoos you go to school with. Next, Ashido says she can teach everyone to dance, and it’s declared that she can teach anyone because she taught Aoyama one step in one day. Well, let me tell you! I took four years of extensive (expensive) dance classes in college and I NEVER got good enough that anyone would ever wanna watch me. Seriously! No way you can teach everyone to be good in 1 month? Next, Jirou is supposed to teach multiple people different instruments in a month. Aside from the fact that there’s no way she has time for that in addition to classes, a month is simply not enough time to learn an instrument and all the songs that you’d need for a whole concert.

Sorry, y’all. This is an arc about music and dance—two things I actually know a lot about. Welcome to hell.