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stil-lindigo · 10 months ago

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lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

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boyfailurecharliekelly · 10 months ago

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I hate when people get on your back about a ship because it's 'toxic' like bro i said they are in love not that they should be.

#i just want awful people to have awful complicated feelings #they hated jesus because he spoke the truth #theyre awful together #and thats the point #toxic old man yaoi #toxic yuri #give me it all #shipping #ao3 #macdennis #yes this is about them

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wasyago · 1 year ago

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ooooohhhh who lives in a small tugboat out on the sea?

ge-mi-ni-tay

#[spongebob theme playing in the background]#gem design yay!#don't give me blue characters i will turn them all green #i mean. she's going with the horror theme this season so i feel like sickly green fits it nicely #hermitcraft #geminitay #my art #sketch

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jokersfangirl84 · 2 years ago

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Pedro as a detective. i am SCREAMING!! So much YES!!

PEDRO PASCAL Think Like a Grandma - Merge Mansion (2023)

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mohntilyet · 1 month ago

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caterina's datamined character description calling her korean-italian and early lucanis designs having him look east asian . i'll just do everything myself i guess

assorted thoughts: caterina is fully 'korean' or whatever the thedas equivalent would be in this design, and clawed her way to the top of the crow food chain after years of work. their armor is something caterina forcibly incorporated to distinguish house dellamorte from the other crows, and a symbol of their status because they get it custom made or imported. of course race-equivalents do not really exist in thedas or this world but i also will never forget how gaider just implied (east) asian people don't exist in thedas because it just so happens that there are no asians on the continent of thedas (guy who forgot about boats) . explode and die. there's not the same kind of discrimination as exists irl ofc (and the dellamortes are actually treated fine, much better than a mage or elf) but a level of xenophobia against foreigners from a different continent. illario looks the least like her, and passes for being fully antivan, which changes how he is recieved by the other crows.

and sorry if the korean is bad please actually let me know if it's horribly translated i relied on google translate . if you are one of ten asian dragon age fans feel free to talk to me at any given moment.

#there's also some things in my mind about illario's ability to pass as an antivan while not really being antivan at all #so he's actually partially rivaini. and how differently he sees his family being treated whereas he gets the privilege of passing #but isn't at all 'antivan' . and while he tries to distinguish himself as being like caterina and her heir etc.#he is Aware of the difference in how he is perceived. i can really make anything about immigrants fr LOL #if you the dragon age fan reading this are korean feel free to give me constructive criticisms PLEASE.#it was all referenced off the 'joseon army' wikipedia page with some da-specific embellishments #oh plus modern styles of hanbok. ok. thats it #and other thoughts from my own background. lol #dragon age #illario dellamorte #lucanis dellamorte #caterina dellamorte #veilguard #my art #edit. slight adjustment because technically gaider has been misquoted #but its still a stupid fucking idea #you cant decide you're including india dressed up as the roman empire and say 'dorian is indian' without thinking of THE SPICE TRADE #NO ONE CARES ABOUT THE SILK ROAD AND CREATING FANTASY EQUIVALENTS ANYMORE

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chloesimaginationthings · 7 months ago

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Michael Afton draws FNAF tape girl for Vanessa,,

#myart #chloesimagination #comic #fnaf #five nights at freddy's #michael afton #vanessa fnaf #vanny fnaf #phone guy #phone dude #tape girl #fnaf 3 #fnaf help wanted #security breach #fnaf fanart #PHONE GUY MENTIONED 🔥🔥#ALL THREE of the phone information folks in FNAF!#I like to think Michael would draw these dudes like this #in the survival logbook he draws himself super simply #a faceless night guard SO I could see he draws phone guy with a phone head #IT FEELS fitting to me #the phone guy design is classic WHICH I promise I’ll give him a human design in time ☎️❤️#BUT there isn’t any real established object head looks for phone dude or tape girl #SO I MADE MY OWN!#so I hope you like them I THINK the designs as very cute #Idk If I’ll draw them again maybe just for fun #VANESSA was hoping Michael drew tape girl as a full human #so she’s a lil disappointed with what he actually drew..#SHE just doesn’t get what he’s cooking 🔥🔥

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egophiliac · 2 days ago

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YEEEEEAAAAAAHHHHH

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 part 12 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 part 12 spoilers #unique magic posters #mmmm delicious crumbs of che'nya appearances #gosh! ace's dream was unexpectedly SO cute and sweet #and trey's dream started out SO cute and sweet #and then #well #uhhhhh #i feel like we've all learned more about trey 'i'm just a normal boring regular guy' clover than we maybe wanted to #cater: i'm starting to think maybe something is seriously wrong with trey-kun <- good summary senpai #we're 20+ dudes in and it just keeps getting weirder somehow #chapter 12 is killing me and the rest of february is going to finish the job #getting chokeslammed by that rapunzel event announcement #yes yes YES give me pretty floaty princess dresses and sparkles!!!!!#SHOW ME THE ~EVENING SKY CHIFFON~ JACK I NEED TO SEE HIM IMMEDIATELY

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qoldenskies · 1 month ago

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i think its so funny when people take the way donnie acts at face value even though its a horrible lie because he's a horrible liar, while understanding leo is bullshitting very well despite him actually being GOOD at bullshitting. many such cases

#personal #rottmnt #although tbf its probably because with leo its unpacked more thoroughly in the movie #donnie is not a morally ambiguous emotionally unavailable bad boy. he is very sensitive actually #he's a little crybaby /aff #and like this isnt hidden. he isnt SECRETLY sensitive or secretly caring its very out in the open actually #he's not hiding it well AT ALL AND THEY ALL KNOW IT LMAOOOOOOOO #i think donnie's perception of himself is somewhat earnest and somewhat. not? he DEFINITELY thinks he's more evil than he actually is #BGHFHDHGJFHG #i think what causes him to lash out and struggle to communicate is his inability to articulate his feelings #they are just too big for him. like its the exact opposite of robotic #he cant force himself to give a fuck but when he DOES its too much #so he yells and lashes out or he shuts down completely #honestly i think the perception of him being too sensitive being a problem makes way more sense than the perception of him being 'robotic'#when it comes to struggles in how his family sees him at least #even in little ways you can see him take it pretty personally when he's insulted #he struggles to blow things off #and i think it would also explain his tendency to like. visibly calm himself down when he gets upset? its a thing he does a lot in the show #he desperately wants to destroy that perception of him because he's trying so hard to close himself off #he doesn't want to be the sensitive one that cant take anything. it especially works in line with his shell #it was a big inspiration for canary continuity tbh. donnie should struggle with being the sensitive one in fic more #mikey is more empathetic and he's more emotional but donnie's quicker to feel offended or take things personally #BACKED UP HEAVILY BY CANON #that 'you can be honest with me! no hard feelings' - 'he's lyinggggggg'#like he's not upset with them babying him as much as he is with them genuinely finding it frustrating that he can fall behind like that #and just cannot take shit like that. so he tries to pull back and not seem as affected as he is #theyre a very cuddly family but mind you they can be actually mean to each other like that!!

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linterteatime · 7 months ago

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Slugcat distribution system gave them an explosive rabid raccoon and a overpowered sewer rat ❤️

#rain world #rainworld downpour #five pebbles #artificer #looks to the moon #rivulet #fanart #my art #Hiiii so uh little rant but #i changed the way i draw moon quite a bit because i wasn't too content with the old design #i don't hate the old one or anything like that #i just feel like this one fits her a bit more personally #old one also looked a bit too goober-like in comparison to everyone else and was the only one i had not changed at all from the first time #but also also i wanted to make her look a bit more like pebbles because i like giving siblings similar things in designs #i find it cool #and also she is now taller because pebbles being the smallest in the gang is funny to me goodnight chat.

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beif0ngs · 1 year ago

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Pokémon Concierge

A close-up look at some of the Pokémon in Pokémon Concierge

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lovebunnie · 4 months ago

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“i love being aromantic” i say as i feel my chest cavity rotting from the inside at the unquenchable desire for love in a way that is truly a secret third thing but its not a secret i want to keep it is a secret nobody is willing to listen to and im trapped in a state of isolation of my own making because no matter how much love i have to give it will never be enough. it will never be enough. it will never be enough.

#space.txt #aromantic #its like something gnawing on my bones!!!#i am who i am but who i am is somebody nobody else wants #and do i want to be wanted?#im trapped in a world that will never give me the dignity to be truly happy by myself #financially and culturally! im doomed by the narrative #i look forward and there will be friendships but they will never be enough i feel like a fucking ALIEN #i need to meet another aroace person irl so bad its so fucking lonely how do people deal with this #1k #all the notes on this.. WE WIL BE OKAY!!!#2k

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brittanagirlcrush · 1 year ago

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Awesome