#this feels. too heavy? almost?
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oh. oh i’m really hoping this is tutorial level poor footing. because this feels. Bad To Play.
#sorry sorry im spoiled by how fluid ac2 and brotherhood felt. when they worked properly.#this feels. too heavy? almost?#jacob controls like a golf cart this is not a good thing#im hoping this is either like. intentional jank to contrast a different control style on evie.#or something to do with the extremely stupid level system i’ve been informed exists#because otherwise oh my god this just feels awful to manuever
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Blood Blossom Au: before the nightingale sings
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for my batdad blood blossom au, the one where Vlad poisoned Danny with blood blossom extract and Danny ran away from him and ended up tumbling into the care of one Pre-Robin Battinson Batman :). A quick oneshot telling the tale of the tragic deaths of the Fentons
TW: Major Character Death Warning
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Not all deaths are created equal.
That is a valuable lesson in life to learn. One that Danny learns when he is eleven years old, standing in the pit of his parents’ creation; the culmination of their life’s work. The portal to the other side, the realm of the dead. To the infinite.
He learns that when he’s eleven years old, in a hazmat suit that sags on him, and boots that clunk when he walks because the only ones that fit are his mom’s, and even those are too big. In gloves that he has to clench his fists in because otherwise they fall off. In goggles that slide down his nose even when he’s tightened them the farthest they can go.
He learns that when he’s eleven years old, choking on giggles that harmonize with the laughter of his friends’ who stand at the mouth of the tunnel. Sam’s holding a polaroid in her hand. They’re just being kids.
They’re not laughing when Danny’s hand hits the safety lock — the one with faulty wiring, the only one in the tunnel. The only one he could possibly hit. They’re not laughing when the portal buzzes to life, and the lights inside switch on row by row as the generator begins to rumble and hum.
They’re not laughing when Danny dies. They’re screaming. They’re not screaming when he comes back.
Not all deaths are created equal.
Some are poetic, beautiful. The satisfying close of a book as it comes to an end, of the hardback thumping soft against the pages like the sound of a door closing. A train run its course.
Some are violent; unsatisfying; unfair. The unexpected shattering of an egg as it rolls off the countertop when nobody is looking, the unmistakable crack as it falls to the floor. It is abrupt and messy.
But most are just… unremarkable. Unintentional. Clumsy.
Danny’s family dies one night in late January. He is thirteen years old, barely a month away from fourteen. It is unforeseen. It is preventable. It happens.
It happens like this:
Their water heater breaks one Monday in January. It’s old, sitting in the garage, and has dealt with nearly sixteen years of Fenton-grade chaos and shenanigans. Of parents tossing scraps and junk into the garage as brief storage to come back to later. Of illegal tune-ups on their vehicles that result in something exploding. Of little children running around and knocking things over, playing with poles and sticks they find on the ground, on the shelves. Of being lived and used.
Something had to give.
Jack Fenton notices it immediately when he comes upstairs that very afternoon — his children at school, his wife downstairs — to grab something from the garage. The very same scrap and used material they store like squirrels to use later.
He stops what he’s doing to fix it.
It wasn’t supposed to be permanent.
Despite what many believe, Jack Fenton is not the idiot people make him out to be. He knows what he’s good at, he knows what he’s not. He knows he can be passionate and obsessive and single-minded about things. He knows that he is a scientist, an inventor; an engineer.
He knows that he is not a plumber. That fixing water heaters is not something he knows how to do, not safely. And he loves his family. What he does is only meant to be temporary — a fix meant to only last a few days until they can call someone in who can fix it for them.
So Jack Fenton futzes with the water heater, gives it a temporary stitch to last a short while, and reminds himself to call a plumber later that day to come in and fix it. He turns and leaves the garage with the part he came for — a sheet of metal for his wife to melt down — and disappears back downstairs.
He does not make that call; it slips from his mind.
It is not his fault.
One day passes, then two, then suddenly it is Thursday. The water heater has still not been fixed, the water heater has been forgotten. It is nobody’s fault.
Danny asks his parents at breakfast if he can stay over at Tucker’s house for the night. Just one night. They’re going to study for their math test and then play video games until midnight, but he only tells his parents that first half.
He’s been doing well in school. Really well — better than he has in a while. There’s been a delightful lull in ghost appearances for the last few weeks. The living don’t know why, but Danny does. The Winter Truce always calms the dead down for a while, something about how the Zone cleanses itself twice a mortal year and that fresh wave of ecto clears out the old and brings in the new.
This year Danny got to participate. He’s feeling the effects of it too, and he’s been sleeping consistently well for the first time since the accident.
It’ll never happen again.
His parents agree under the condition that he doesn’t stay up late, and Danny harmlessly lies through his teeth and agrees. He goes and throws overnight clothes into his school backpack, and when he leaves for school with Jazz his parents are already departed into the lab.
The last conversation he has with his sister is in her car on the drive to school. Inane, mindless conversation to fill the air and pass the time. Jazz comments on how relaxed he’s been lately; Danny tells her about the Winter Truce. She listens in rapt attention.
She tells him that she’s glad to see him so well-rested. She thinks her little brother’s been growing up too fast these days. She thinks he’s been too tense. Too caught up with the spinning of the world around him that he forgets about himself sometimes.
When they reach school, before Danny can get out of the car, Jazz looks to her little brother and says; “I love you.”
Her little brother’s cheeks turn an embarrassed shade of red. He makes a scrunched up, grossed-out face, but can’t hide the smile pulling across it. “Don’t be a sap, Jazz. I’ll see you later.” He tells her, yanking his hood up over his head. She hears the bashful, ‘love you too’ before he walks away.
That is the last conversation she ever has with her brother.
Thursday is unremarkable, passing by in its normality as it always does. There’s one, maybe two ghost sightings; shades lurking around in curious infancy that are easily spooked away by the presence of a greater being. Danny doesn’t even have to go ghost.
Thursday evening is even less so. Danny goes to Tucker’s house — Sam has a prior arrangement with her slam poetry club — and the two of them study for an hour before they toss their textbooks aside and reach for the game console.
Danny sleeps in Tucker’s room with one of the extra blankets on his bed, curled across the room in one of the bean bag chairs. It shouldn’t be comfortable, but to Danny it is. He sleeps throughout the night, the portal shut down by his parents before they’d gone to bed.
Early Friday morning, before the sun has even risen yet, before it’s even so much as a concept to grace the horizon, the water heater breaks again. It was supposed to be fixed.
Carbon monoxide is a silent killer. Odorless and scentless, it kills within minutes. It fills the house like a shadow casting over the ground, creeping into the rooms.
Danny’s family die in their sleep; painless and unaware.
It’s not Jack Fenton’s fault. He didn’t mean to.
Nobody wakes up with their alarms.
Danny wakes up to Tucker Foley’s alarm on Friday morning, and he turns his head intangible and shoves it into the beanbag chair like an ostrich hiding its head in the sand. Tucker gets up before him, and throws a pillow at him as he reaches for the alarm.
There’s laughter, messing around. The both of them get dressed, and Danny has breakfast with the Foleys that morning. He takes the bus to school with Tucker, and they meet Sam by their lockers.
To him, everything is as normal as it should be. There are no ghosts for him to fight right now, school is as school does, and he’s on top of all his schoolwork.
He does not see Jazz at all that morning, he doesn’t notice. Their schedules are so different, their routes on different paths, that it’s not uncommon for Danny to not see Jazz until he gets home some days. That’s if there’s no ghost attacks.
At lunch, he gets approached by her friends. Worried creases between their brows, they ask him if he’s seen Jazz. She hasn’t shown up to any of her classes. She’s not answering their texts. It’s unprecedented of her; unheard of.
Danny doesn’t admit to the concern that swells in his gut when they tell him this. He shrugs at them, and says he hasn’t seen her either. But it was probably nothing to worry about; she might just be sick and sleeping it off.
He offers to text her and let them know if he gets a response, and that seems to ease her friends enough that they shuffle away in uncertainty. He keeps his word, and does exactly that. He pulls out his phone and opens her contact, and shoots her a message.
‘Where are you?’
He doesn’t get a response back, Danny is left on sent. He puts his phone in his pocket, and with a sense of unease creeping in the back of his mind, goes on with his day. He gets no response by the time the final bell rings; and he tries not to be worried.
The house is quiet when he opens the door. Unusually quiet. He drops his backpack to the floor, it lands with a hearty thunk, and begins to take off his jacket. “Mom! Dad!” He yells. He hangs it up, and slips his shoes from his feet. “Jazz skipped school today!”
A laughable untruth that would get his sister all riled up normally; she should be able to hear him from the front door if she was in her room. The house just stays dead silent.
He can’t even hear the usual banging and crashing from the lab. His unease returns. He reaches for the intercom that leads directly down to the basement, and presses the button to turn it on. A burst of static, and then he speaks;
“Mom? Dad?”
Danny lets go, and waits for a response. He gets none back. That never happens, not when the house is this quiet. Not when he knows they should’ve heard him.
Something sickly and fearful borns in the pit of his stomach, and begins to snake upward. He heads for the lab. The cool metal of the door is familiar in the grooves of his hand, and he doesn’t even need to think about the code as he punches it in; he simply lets muscle memory guide him. It’s been the same since he was little.
The door hisses as the pressure is released, and he swings the door open. He takes the stairs down two at a time. Something is wrong. His parents aren’t answering him. His feet pound against the metal.
“Mom? Dad?” He calls again, more worried, more frantic. More scared. His voice echoes down the stairwell, and he reaches the bottom before it’s fully faded. The lab is empty. The portal is still shut down.
It was four in the afternoon, they should still be down here.
Danny races back upstairs, fear-raised nausea coiling in his throat. “This isn’t funny you guys!” He yells when he reaches the top, shoving open the door with more force than necessary. His head swims, his voice cracked.
He checks the garage, the car is still there.
“Mom!? Dad!” His voice bellows out throughout the first floor, loud enough that it bounces back at him and rings against his ears. He’s never raised his voice this much — mom would scold him if she heard him. But she doesn’t show up. “Jazmine!”
Finally, he goes upstairs, and he can’t tell if what he’s feeling is anger or terror. Something is very, very wrong.
He swings the door of his parents’ rooms open first, and there they are, with the lights still off and the curtains still drawn. As if they hadn’t left their bed all day. Some of Danny’s fear lifts from his shoulders just by the sight of them, but he’s still trembling. Something is still wrong — the room smells… off. Not good, not bad. Just… off.
He swallows dryly, his throat still thick, and steps into the room. “Mom, dad?” They do not stir. “Didn’t you guys hear me yelling?”
There is only room static. Danny’s heart shrivels in his chest with a tenfold return of terror, he feels ill. He remembers, just now, that they’re not heavy sleepers, and his dad should be snoring like a freight house.
Danny reaches their bedside in seconds, hand outstretching for the covers, “Momma? Dad?”
Not all deaths are created equal.
But many of them are accidental. Unmeditated. Shocking.
Danny Fenton finds his family dead in his childhood home. He runs to his neighbors in hysterics, inconsolable, in tears. Nine-one-one is called, but there is nothing that can be done. They were dead for hours by the time Daniel Fenton returned home.
He sits on the front steps of the neighbor’s house beside FentonWorks, his jeans slowly becoming wet from the snow that was unable to be scraped off, and watches the paramedics cart out his family beneath white sheets. There are police cars blocking off the street, yellow tape blocking off his house, red-blue lights lighting up the block, an ambulance on the scene. He is wrapped in a shock blanket, and he is missing his jacket and his shoes. His tears are freezing onto his face, he can’t feel the chill.
Not all deaths are created equal
But all of them are unforgettable.
#dpxdc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dp x dc#dpxdc crossover#dp x dc crossover#dpxdc au#dpxdc fic#blood blossom au#dpxdc ficlet#starry's writing#tw character death#cw death#angst#hurt no comfort#carbon monoxide poisoning almost sounds like a plain way to go when compared to the other batkids. but then you think about it for more#than a second and then the inherent horror of it all creeps in. danny found his family dead. he found their corpses.#i didnt feel comfortable writing it - just a little bit too heavy even for me yet - but just know that danny shook his parents as if he was#trying to wake them up when he realized they were dead. he went into emotional shock and kinda mentally shutdown.#he yelled and screamed and tried to wake them. and then rushed to his sister's room only to find the same thing. rinse and repeat#more time passed between danny finding them and him going to his neighbor's than what i showed#no more than an hour because the house was still full of carbon monoxide but longer than five minutes. long enough that when he finally wen#over - in hysterics and missing his shoes and jacket - he was completely inconsolable. he was having a breakdown.#when i was writing the ending scene with the paramedics and police and stuff i was very much calling on how i imagine Bruce's own experienc#might have gone. different but similar. with a thousand yard stare and water in their ears#two boys wrapped in shock blankets surrounded by police lights and having just seen their families dead. teehee
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Thinking about Yusuf and Nicolò as young men again
#the old guard#kaysanova#yusuf al kaysani#nicolo di genova#siggy draws#it ain't much but it's more than i've drawn in months. i miss this sort of cartoony style. like a dreamworks movie almost lol#my brain conjured an anime ending apparently and i can't explain why#maybe they're too girly looking but i didn't feel like using reference pictures so i guess they're bishounen sdfghfds#ahh i usually have director's commentary in the tags#yusuf is probably around 23-25 and nico is 19-22? though i can't say confidently that yusuf would be able to grow a full beard at 23#but maybe he can maybe he's just that powerful#they're either very sad and lonely or very pensive. or both. maybe they're longing for something more... maybe a true love#i also dk what these clothes are. yusuf has some good clothes on. is probably flourishing as a merchant but still longs for More#nicolo is wearing... a tunic? but it could be a thin gambeson instead. maybe he's learning how to use a sword#i try to capture their best assets in this doodly style: yusuf's eyelashes and cute ears and weirdly shaped eyebrows#and nicolo's nose and heavy brow and the fact that he has almost no lips from the side lol
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Noah fence but if you can't handle thinking about the actual story of Mouthwashing and you just want to imagine silly found family scenarios with the crew on the Tulpar then maybe you shouldn't be engaging with HORROR media...... just a thought.
#mouthwashing#100% gonna regret tagging it but whatever it's been on my mind a lot recently#i feel like mouthwashing absolutely should not have been fandom-ified the way it has been#I'm not saying that no one should enjoy it. I'm not saying that no one should make silly memes or hcs or fanart#I just feel like all the people who are like#“mouthwashing but nothing bad happens and everyone has a good time and Jimmy is a normal person and/or dies”#are kind of..... severely missing the point of the game#it feels almost disrespectful in a way. this game was clearly trying to communicate some heavy stuff#and ppl are just throwing that all away to play with the characters like dolls#I mean obv it's not really my business how other ppl engage with media but scrolling through the tags I'm like. man cmon#anyway Daisuke is my newest chew toy blorbo but if I try to draw him I need to actually be put down for real#rambles#(it's too late btw I already sketched him bc I was annoyed by seeing all the fanart where he just has a gash across his face)#(he got an AXE TO THE FACE)#oops it's 5 am lol
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something about max being dressed in lighter colors at the beginning of the game vs her almost being dressed in all black / just straight up dark colors near the end just scratches my brain so good
#maybe it means nothing#but i like it#the whole thing how lighter colors can usually symbolize feelings like hope and peace#i.e. max having high hopes for blackwell and her sorta new beginning#n then near the end after dealing with so many draining situations over the course of 5 days it just#makes sense to me that she wouldn't be wearing any bright colors#yknow ???#i'm bad with words sorry man#but like#seeing someone who's so bright personality wise be dressed in such a heavy outfit#i like how it subtly shows how much damage the weeks done to her (as if it wasn't already obvious but)#it would feel a little wrong almost seeing her do that scene in her bright pink jane doe shirt#like you can visually see the weight of the week weighing her down all through a simple outfit change#i'm rambling i haven't slept in almost a day#but you get what i mean right#it's a small thing but i feel like even something as small as an outfit#can really change how a certain scene is viewed#like the whole max wearing the same dress she wore to williams funeral to chloe's#AND wearing chloe's spike bracelet to the funeral too#instead of just a random black dress#but#different convo for different time#life is strange#max caulfield#lis
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Every few days I think about saying fuck it and starting T but I NEED to be in my grandpa's will ya know what I mean?
#i miss living away fron my family#at least then i could feel hopeful about it#i mean it didnt go well the first time i trird but still#i have a whole story about that but its unimportsnt to this post#aughhhh#part of the reason brain is so bad lately is cause i keep seeing so much trans joy#everywhete#and im really happy for those people#but man i am so fucking sad#it feels like thus shit will never happen#im already almost 25#and im just stuck#raghh#vent#queuing cause it got a lil too hot n heavy#this was supposed to be a lil funny but thrn i just got sad
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i was thinking about your dirk and hal poll and i want to mention that i think your concept for ink and iron where dirk creates hal from his reflection by enchanting a mirror is so cool 😌
thank you! hal's predicament and purpose within the canon narrative is so fascinating and i felt it was really important to find a way to explore what i find most interesting with him. i can't take full credit for the concept though i took inspiration from a few placees (one of my friends pitched the idea of the mirror accidentally dumping him onto jake's doorstop for example) but overall i think the idea is very fun and i'm really excited to write more hal stuff!!! also i'm going to take the opportunity to share this oldish doodle i found:
the mispelling of angel as angle was NOT intentional (<- dyslexia haver) but it probably explains a lot. he's pointy
#obviously an AU is going to be different from canon#but i like AUs specifically *because* i have a lot of fun trying to translate canon ideas into another setting or genre in general#in this case its a riff on the fairy tale magic mirror#hal is still an experiment gone wrong/artificial being created to serve a purpose trapped in a non-physical form and denied personhood#as well as being an extension of dirk's selfhood and very literal expression of his self image#this time with extra gender problems as per my original intentions for the fic. which now feel more than a bit heavy handed but whatever#point is hal gets to play up the trapped demon/spirit/almost genie-esque angle isntead of the artificial intelligence schtick in canon#which i am having a lot of fun writing!#he is also a very important plot device. multitalented 💕#for anyone wondering i&i is NOT an abandoned project its just huge and whipping it into shape is slow going#i've taken breaks to work on other stuff too#ink and iron#i guess that's a tag i should start using#even though i'm not too happy with the title still. lmao
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yuta and suguru are my favorite jjk characters…i think i have a type
YOU DOOOOOOO YOU DO!!!!!!!! i’m also weak to men defined by their overwhelming devotion don’t worry anon 🫂🫂🫂 this is a safe space!!!!!
#can i interest you in some choso or gumi perhaps :3333#yuuta and sugu are for sure the most devoted tho ……#i take no criticism!!!!!!!!!#but like . yeah. yeahhhhh#men who are so devoted to you that it’s almost overwhelming at times….. bc their love is just. sososo heavy and so steady#it’s in everything they do#i think yuuta and sugu fall in love the same way a rock sinks into the ocean#like it’s just . this sea of devotion. that they’re stuck in. they love you so much!!!! and they want to show it so badly </3#they both strike me as the type to just. adore you soooo fervently. they just see you as Their Person yk :(((((#for sure in a possessive way sometimes BUT. also just. in the sense that you’re theirs to take care of!!!!!!#they want to take care of you they want to protect you…. they want to Love You#and i think that kind of devotion feels a little too heavy sometimes 😭😭 but they’re good at holding back for you#OKAY SORRY IM LOSING IT A LITTLE they make me very ill#ask tag ✩
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I think it's interesting that the asteroid with my name is in my 1st house, conjunct my chart ruler and my ascendant. Talk about timing.
The story behind why they chose that name for the asteroid is also the same as the story this one lady told my mom after the lady learned my name (like, when I was a baby) and whenever I asked about my name, my mom told me about that lady and that story. Weird coincidence 😂
#my mom took about 1 week to choose that name#and for years i didn't feel like it suited me#i think it's just a name i need to grow into#or reclaim#at least that's how it feels like#my soul is just too heavy and tired for a name that sounds like summer and butterflies#😂#i was almost named johanna and i thought#that name suited me better tbh#guess what asteroid johanna is in my 5th house lol#i even thought to myself that if i ever wrote a book I'd use johanna as my author name 😂😂😂#weird coincidence#personal
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Can we. Can we talk about this too. Like we can't just look over this
#fire emblem#feh#like this is what i meant about how i feel like there's a heavy absence. going on here.#like.... how even if you're close to your older siblings. esp considering age gaps. you often feel left behind by default.#inevitably your older sibling is going to hit formative/developmental milestones before you.#that's just how it works no matter how close you are. and that's not even factoring in alfonse 'being too busy'#esp likely being forced on him growing up. like in my mind's eye he has always been a tiny adult as a kid and. that's not a good thing#i often imagine them side by side almost inseparable. but. i think. there must be an absence that couldn't be helped.#and maybe sharena never really had the tools to deal with it.#idk idk#sharena#rosado
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in another universe, im not always this sad
(trauma dump in the tags for no reason readers be warned)
#just the audio im listening to#waiting for the sleepy pills#this world or the next one#ill figure it out eventually#i was told today that i deserve to want to be alive#and that was a confounding statement to read#because I’ve never felt that way#I’ve always felt like a burden or something akin#like the weight of me on the world is too heavy for what it’s worth#do other people not feel that way?#is it not normal to be overwhelmed by the responsibilities of making it this far?#or is it the fact that my birthday is coming too quickly.the anniversary of losing my brother.#the first night i learnt what my mothers fists felt like#or how badly it hurt to break your nose#it’s almost comforting that ill be spending my birthday alone#because no one can hurt me on it#ill carry the shit I’ve been through the rest of my life#and if dealing with that trauma makes me unlovable that’s okay#i have to think that’s okay#wow this got emo#huh#sorry abt that#hope you don’t read this
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one of the lesser talked about fun things about intentionally reading more books is finding new stuff to be a bit of a hater about tbh
#and i know sometimes im probably just not properly picking up whatever the writer is putting down but whatever it's still fun#to actually know what you think about stuff like the highly regarded classics and extremely popular hyped up things#here are a few writers im a bit of a hater about w my opinions now btw#neil gaiman: does not do it for me at alllll#have read the graveyard book and american gods and hated almost every minute of both#in american gods i just found the aesthetic ideas and characters completely unappealing and in the graveyard book#i thought it was dreary and not well described enough... kept feeling like it was too bare bones in some way to picture things properly#i was like 'hmm i wish this was one of his graphic novels instead bc i'd like to be able to see what's going on here a bit better...'#also his humour just never lands for me and i do not often get his references either#ray bradbury annoys me in a similar way to neil gaiman but also somewhat oppositely like where#the way they write characters and plots and ideas and the stuff they care about gets on my nerves in an almost identical way#that i don't know how to define except to say i had a bit of a 'same energy' experience reading Something Wicked This Way Comes#and some of neil gaiman's stuff#but unlike neil gaiman i think that ray bradbury attempts to describe things unusually so much and TOO much#to the point that it takes me out of the story in a different yet similar way#to how the lack of description in neil gaiman's stuff does#what else have i become a bit of a hater about or did not get the appeal of lately? hmmm#oh hp lovecraft hahahaha#least scary stories ever god everything he's scared of is so dumb#like even aside from his extremely racist takes and fear of the 'exotic other' his fears about being cosmically insignificant are just like#yeah and? whats so scary about that hahaha i literally just dont get it#also the amount he writes dialogue in heavy accents annoys the shit out of me#p
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lifting weights wearing only my collar in my room I hope no one sneaks up behind me while I’m distracted… door’s unlocked….
#sometimes I need the weight of a collar yknow feels good#anyways thinking about getting trapped beneath a bar that’s almost too heavy for you so you can’t escape bc you have to focus ur strength#wags vulnerably
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After a full 4months im gonna be outside in 48h.
#i might be a little bit more sane#4 months of basically house arrest#48h..... to feel the wind!!! on my skin!!!#bc my balcony is too narrow for the wheelchair + the doors are heavy and close down on you#so i havent even been able to go on the balcony...#also it would have made it worse to go on the balcony without being able to go outside#so i made the decision not to#for the first couple months i couldnt even look out the window without breaking down#better not to see it if i cant have it#but almost...#god i hope i can make the 4 steps in the new flat#so im not just stuck again in a new more expensive place....
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One thing I'm mildly obsessed with is the idea, that we see in a couple of texts, that the Tuatha Dé regularly "put on" another form, even though might have a "true" face or appearance.
Like, how much of that image of perfection that they convey is them naturally looking like/obviously medieval writers writing them to conform to a specific image, and how much of that is them very consciously projecting the image that they WANT to project?
Do they have stretch marks? Do they have lines under their eyes, or dark circles? Do they have scars from battles that took place centuries ago? Do they have laugh lines or frown lines? Like.
#irish mythology#because i'm predictable i'm especially fascinated by like. Bres and Lugh and the image of 'perfection'#Bres with the scars from the boils on his face. Potentially stretch marks from his body being forced to grow too early#potentially some scars from where Eochaid mac Eirc got him in the First Battle#potentially as we get closer to the Second Battle Bres getting very little sleep and developing heavy shadows under his eyes#possibly aging a little bit because he's 40 by the time of CMT. Not the kid he was when he was king#the pressure to conform to a specific IMAGE because it's what's expected and if he doesn't have his looks what DOES he have?#potentially going out to meet Lugh with all of his 'flaws' intact#Lugh feeling all this immense pressure to portray this almost unnatural level of smoothness#because he HAS to be the ideal warrior and champion#he can't show flaws#he has to be 'a cliff without a wrinkle'#I think that in my ideal fancasting like. There'd be this distinctively alien quality to Lugh#specifically BECAUSE it's like he forgets his own humanity#whereas Bres...man's flawed but he's human to the end#mythological cycle
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I wanna make a Conky ref and lore sheet/bio, I'm really growing attached to that goober
#I'm giving him exaggerated versions of my own percieved flaws and yet he remains lovable#which feels good tbh like if this guy with cranked-up versions of my physical mental and social flaws is lovable then#there's nothing wrong with me! Putting my “worst” traits (most of which are morally neutral) into a homunculus and saying “ily”#he's hairier and has a fluctuating belly-heavy weight and is cartoonishly gullible and naiive and forgetful#he trusts people he probably shouldn't and comes across as clingy/overly-enthusiastic and smells weird and neglects his hygeine at times#he's fruity and doesn't really know it#he's annoying and has poorly-kempt facial and head hair and his room is a mess and he has weird eating habits that concern onlookers#he struggles with social cues and never shuts up and lays around too much and dresses in baggy tattered t-shirts and pants#he cries easy from emotional causes yet has a pain tolerance too high for his own good and takes abuse with a smile because he's so naiive#regardless of his current ever-fluctuating weight his belly always sticks out at least a little and he lacks muscle so looks like a...#...hairy marshmallow even when technically “thin” (I believe the term for being “light” yet having almost all “mass” be fat is “skinnyfat”)#AAAAAND he's probably wretched with diverse and gross-looking scars under that shirt (I struggle w that real bad)#BUT I LOVE HIM!! He's everything I dislike about myself distilled and yet I LOVE HIM!!#I now understand why people say being a career clown is great for self-esteem lol#when you can be your “worst self” and be loved then... well that must mean your normal self is lovable as fuck!#conky lore#conky#my sona#sona#sonas#conkycore
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