#this bitch Hurts

[songbirdstew]

We met with the doctor who would be performing my hysterectomy this morning. The upshot is we'll be trying a few different things first.

He really, really listened to me, and gave me a lot of options. He was really funny and friendly. The first thing he said to me was, "So! Your periods are really terrible!" And I just said, "THANK YOU. Yes, they are!" He said he would have no problem giving me a hysterectomy, if that's what I decide I really want, BUT. His main concern is that he worries a hysterectomy wouldn't actually solve all of my problems, and it's the solution with the most complications and longest, most difficult recovery. So he doesn't want to put me through that only for me to end up still being in excruciating pain.

So we're going to go ahead and swap out my Paragard for a Mirena, to see if that's more effective at minimizing my periods than the various pills I've tried over the years. And I think he's planning an exploratory laparoscopy to get a better look at my ovary and any potential endometriosis. There's a possibility of adding a pain med or nerve block to manage my ovary pain, or even just lopping out that ovary surgically, depending on what else happens.

I was reading the Mirena pamphlet he gave me, and in the section What Is a Heavy Period?, a couple things struck me. They define excessive blood loss as equal or greater to 80mL, or 6 tablespoons, in a single cycle. The handy thing about using a cup is that it has measuring marks. So I did the math and I reckon I usually lose about 200mL, or 6.8 OUNCES per cycle. Roughly every 3 weeks. Like, jesus, no wonder I get dizzy and a little nauseous when I donate blood. I'm already losing almost half that on the reg.

And it says, You may have heavy periods if you: Need to change pads or tampons during the night. !!! I told Curtis, "That was my entire childhood! No one told me I shouldn't need to get up in the middle of the night and replace my Overnight Heavy Pad every night." If I didn't, I would wake up in an ocean of blood. I stained every pair of underwear, every pair of pj pants, every sheet, and every mattress, every month, before I got pregnant with Royal.

I think I lose the same amount of blood overall now vs pre-pregnancy, it's just now they come a week sooner and last twice as long. Why? Who can say! It's probably the devil and my heathen ways!

[tardis--dreams]

I want to return this body, it's really bad quality

[inkskinned]

she's singing in another room and my dog is asleep at my feet. my grandma asked me why i haven't found a man yet and i laughed. oh, you know. i like my house clean.

my girlfriend is also my man is also "my partner" if i'm in a professional setting. yesterday we went to a ren faire and a man mimed at me - you're together? and at my delighted nod, his baffled, you're gay? made me laugh. a woman with rainbow hair said i love the two of you together. you're both so beautiful it's absurd.

my dad introduced my partner as my "..... friend. or whatever" the other day. he knows we're dating. in the same way, i was never able to get my sister's husband to stop saying that's gay like it's 2008. he still uses the word fa***t, and my sister's defense of him has always been well, he's just kidding.

my lover and i dance to old music in a tiny kitchen. we judge new music together and take food critique very seriously. we watch love is blind before we fall asleep and agree that if they had a queer season, it would be bloody but also make for excellent tv. of fucking course queer people would know someone for only 2 weeks and agree to get married. what are you saying.

at a bar with friends, a man puts his hand on my wrist. got a boyfriend? and yes, i do have a boyfriend, she's amazing. i am texting her while i wander around a gas station named after geese. i am visiting a swing state for a wedding. in the candy aisle i overhear: she's actually like a lesbian it's disgusting. two teenage girls with packaged sandwiches in their hands, giggling. no literally, like. i'm not, like. okay with her being there while we're all, like, naked and changing.

my girlfriend and i tailgate, drink gin and cider out of cups. from the frat group beside us, a man corrects himself with one of his friends: bro, i mean, nonbinary entity, and it makes everyone around him laugh, myself included. he razzes his friend the same way i would have killed for at 19 years old - like nothing happened, he continues: you apply sunscreen like an alien. he does a little sassy (and fairly accurate) dance interpretation of the motion. his friend is laughing so hard they're crying.

i am lucky, i live in a safe neighborhood in a safe state. my masc passenger princess comes up from DC. i drive her for an hour to where all the leaves are a violent arrangement of color. we walk along the trails, letting autumn into our blood. in this part of the state, there's a lot of pickup trucks and trump signs. when we chastely kiss before getting into the car, i accidentally make eye contact with a woman holding her child's wrist. she looks disgusted. she looks fucking pissed.

two hours later my girl and i are eating dinner on a patio, soaking in the last warmth of new england sun before the chill of winter sets in. we are giggling and trying to talk through plastic vampire teeth. at another table, i see a young woman sit up straighter. i watch her watch us. she blushes and takes her partner's hand from across the table. shy, like the taste of evening has just become something deeper.

it's worth it for this moment, i think. my lover is still humming the same song she's been singing for four days straight and i don't want to kill her for it. her guitar is beside my bed. her toothbrush is in my bathroom. in a few moments i will make us lunch. we are lucky enough to have found each other. it is lucky enough to be in love.

[sunfoxfic]

We were so close to smoking not being cool anymore. We were so close. Then they flavored it mango and now it's taboo to criticize it anymore. People don't ask if they're allowed to vape indoors, they aren't considerate of people who may have health problems that are triggered by the chemicals or if it just bothers them, people don't care that they're supporting an industry built on corruption and greed, they can't see it draining their pockets and much less their health. We were so close to smoking not being cool anymore.

[epiphainie]

gay people can never just say "i love you" instead it's always gotta be some shit like "you wouldn't mean to, you wouldn't plan for it, but you'd end up breaking my heart. and i don't think that i could deal with that"

[hanmegumi]

LMAO

edit: turning off reblogs because some of the people that are reblogging are extremely fucking moronic. holy shit

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

‘Poseidon left a party in Ethiopia because the sea vibes went rancid after Odysseus set sail’ feels like a bit I would make up, but no. That actually happened.

[divineandmajesticinone]

4 MINUTES (2024) I 1.04

Great & Tyme

[spoopdeedoop]

those guys again

[kathaynesart]

And now watch it all fall apart.

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Thank you everyone for your patience as I recuperate from Covid. I tested negative and am now just recuperating from the lasting effects. Honestly, this update is one I probably could have skipped, but I love me a good heist plan. Plus I just wanted to have some fun with this holiday special and if that means extending it a bit longer, then so be it.

[latenightsundayblues]

Shortly after the Woodsboro massacre. Billy feels as if a huge weight has been lifted off his shoulders and Stu is high as a goddamn kite on anesthesia

[chezlinda]

Yuri!!! on Ice Fanfic Recs

Since MAPPA decided to be a bitch and cancel Ice Adolescence, here are some fics to ease the pain. I made sure to include trigger warnings but all of these still have happy endings

Alternate Universe – Different Meeting

All Our Time is Borrowed by Magrathea

TW: Suicidal thoughts, suicide attempt, anxiety attacks

Developing relationship, series

Dream Weaver by aeriamamaduck

Developing relationship, smut, series

Post-Canon

In Your Arms by Crowleys_Aziraphale2003

Established relationship, domestic fluff

Perspective by soupthatistoohot

Established relationship, anxiety

(Don’t) Wake me up by PrincessofU

Established relationship, anxiety attack, smut

Therapy by vitya_rabbit

TW: suicidal thoughts, self-harm

Established relationship

Domestic Bliss by BunniesofDoom

Established relationship, domestic fluff, series

The Domestic Life and Love of Yuuri and Victor by nerdlife4eva 

Established relationship, married Yuuri and Victor, domestic fluff, series

take all my loves, my love, take them all by sizhu

Established relationship, married Yuuri and Victor, domestic fluff, series

Your Touch Is My Temple by Crowleys_Aziraphale2003

Established relationship, anxiety attacks, domestic fluff, 5 + 1 things

If ice can burn, by ode2youu

Established relationship, dissociation, hurt/comfort

put your head on my shoulder by widomauk

Established relationship, domestic fluff

Sickfic/Major Injury

Homesick by ClosetedShipper

Established relationship, sick Victor

Leave It On The Ice by tothebatcave53

Established relationship, hurt Yuuri

TW: Suicidal thoughts, self-harm

Head over Toes by ClosetedShipper

Established relationship, hurt Yuuri

[carlyraejepsans]

genuinely you need to love the trans girls in your life with everything you have. love them until your heart bursts.

[daily-smallishbeans]

201-

your fav mcyts eat chiseled deepslate

[signanothername]

hey soo just wonderin, what would happen if dream found nughtmare in a vunerable position? Like emotionaly, or cant walk kind of way. Also i know night had pain in his legs and dream has everything pain, so what if he foun nughtmare on the beach?

Dream was gone by the time Nightmare woke up

Generally, Dream is criticized by a lot of people for “losing many chances” to end Nightmare

And there is truth to it, whether it’s false hope, endless love, or deep pain that prevents him, Dream doesn’t have it in him to kill Nightmare yet

If he found him on the beach, he’d either leave, or stay a while if Nightmare’s asleep

If he found Nightmare in a vulnerable position, he’d most likely not do anything to make it worse, he’d let Nightmare have the opportunity to escape or defend himself, or simply leave Nightmare be

Something that Nightmare himself criticizes

[sleepynegress]

*record scratch*

"I bet you're wondering how I got here, when last you saw, I was watching the sunset at a crab-boil in Louisiana with my family..."