#this bitch Hurts
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We met with the doctor who would be performing my hysterectomy this morning. The upshot is we'll be trying a few different things first.
He really, really listened to me, and gave me a lot of options. He was really funny and friendly. The first thing he said to me was, "So! Your periods are really terrible!" And I just said, "THANK YOU. Yes, they are!" He said he would have no problem giving me a hysterectomy, if that's what I decide I really want, BUT. His main concern is that he worries a hysterectomy wouldn't actually solve all of my problems, and it's the solution with the most complications and longest, most difficult recovery. So he doesn't want to put me through that only for me to end up still being in excruciating pain.
So we're going to go ahead and swap out my Paragard for a Mirena, to see if that's more effective at minimizing my periods than the various pills I've tried over the years. And I think he's planning an exploratory laparoscopy to get a better look at my ovary and any potential endometriosis. There's a possibility of adding a pain med or nerve block to manage my ovary pain, or even just lopping out that ovary surgically, depending on what else happens.
I was reading the Mirena pamphlet he gave me, and in the section What Is a Heavy Period?, a couple things struck me. They define excessive blood loss as equal or greater to 80mL, or 6 tablespoons, in a single cycle. The handy thing about using a cup is that it has measuring marks. So I did the math and I reckon I usually lose about 200mL, or 6.8 OUNCES per cycle. Roughly every 3 weeks. Like, jesus, no wonder I get dizzy and a little nauseous when I donate blood. I'm already losing almost half that on the reg.
And it says, You may have heavy periods if you: Need to change pads or tampons during the night. !!! I told Curtis, "That was my entire childhood! No one told me I shouldn't need to get up in the middle of the night and replace my Overnight Heavy Pad every night." If I didn't, I would wake up in an ocean of blood. I stained every pair of underwear, every pair of pj pants, every sheet, and every mattress, every month, before I got pregnant with Royal.
I think I lose the same amount of blood overall now vs pre-pregnancy, it's just now they come a week sooner and last twice as long. Why? Who can say! It's probably the devil and my heathen ways!
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I want to return this body, it's really bad quality
#this bitch Hurts#but most importantly is uncomfortable in so many horrible ways#I've had enough#it just feels Bad#(like the pain might be minimal at times but the discomfort is immense nevertheless#i'm going insane
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she's singing in another room and my dog is asleep at my feet. my grandma asked me why i haven't found a man yet and i laughed. oh, you know. i like my house clean.
my girlfriend is also my man is also "my partner" if i'm in a professional setting. yesterday we went to a ren faire and a man mimed at me - you're together? and at my delighted nod, his baffled, you're gay? made me laugh. a woman with rainbow hair said i love the two of you together. you're both so beautiful it's absurd.
my dad introduced my partner as my "..... friend. or whatever" the other day. he knows we're dating. in the same way, i was never able to get my sister's husband to stop saying that's gay like it's 2008. he still uses the word fa***t, and my sister's defense of him has always been well, he's just kidding.
my lover and i dance to old music in a tiny kitchen. we judge new music together and take food critique very seriously. we watch love is blind before we fall asleep and agree that if they had a queer season, it would be bloody but also make for excellent tv. of fucking course queer people would know someone for only 2 weeks and agree to get married. what are you saying.
at a bar with friends, a man puts his hand on my wrist. got a boyfriend? and yes, i do have a boyfriend, she's amazing. i am texting her while i wander around a gas station named after geese. i am visiting a swing state for a wedding. in the candy aisle i overhear: she's actually like a lesbian it's disgusting. two teenage girls with packaged sandwiches in their hands, giggling. no literally, like. i'm not, like. okay with her being there while we're all, like, naked and changing.
my girlfriend and i tailgate, drink gin and cider out of cups. from the frat group beside us, a man corrects himself with one of his friends: bro, i mean, nonbinary entity, and it makes everyone around him laugh, myself included. he razzes his friend the same way i would have killed for at 19 years old - like nothing happened, he continues: you apply sunscreen like an alien. he does a little sassy (and fairly accurate) dance interpretation of the motion. his friend is laughing so hard they're crying.
i am lucky, i live in a safe neighborhood in a safe state. my masc passenger princess comes up from DC. i drive her for an hour to where all the leaves are a violent arrangement of color. we walk along the trails, letting autumn into our blood. in this part of the state, there's a lot of pickup trucks and trump signs. when we chastely kiss before getting into the car, i accidentally make eye contact with a woman holding her child's wrist. she looks disgusted. she looks fucking pissed.
two hours later my girl and i are eating dinner on a patio, soaking in the last warmth of new england sun before the chill of winter sets in. we are giggling and trying to talk through plastic vampire teeth. at another table, i see a young woman sit up straighter. i watch her watch us. she blushes and takes her partner's hand from across the table. shy, like the taste of evening has just become something deeper.
it's worth it for this moment, i think. my lover is still humming the same song she's been singing for four days straight and i don't want to kill her for it. her guitar is beside my bed. her toothbrush is in my bathroom. in a few moments i will make us lunch. we are lucky enough to have found each other. it is lucky enough to be in love.
#writeblr#wlw#i often think about like.....#being happy in a gay relationship is sometimes so odd#bc u can forget how stupid ppl are.#bc ur so USED to being gay. and u forget other people GENUINELY ARE homophobic#so it's like. girl pardon?????#but also there are moments where it's like. ohhh the kids are alright#like watching someone razz someone else.... so fucking wholesome#“lemme get this bitche's pronouns before i make gentle fun of them” .... i would have KILLED for that.#THAT is how u know ur accepted#not just tolerated#..... when ppl are like. sure ur nonbinary congrats but WHAT is this fucking sunscreen application#ps idk if "razz'' is a real word but someone asked what it means -#i've always heard it as being a term for 'gentle & friendly teasing'' which like#i personally notice more from my guy friends but is like - when a person isn't#LIKE ACTUALLY teasing u (it's nothing personal/mean) they're just laughing w/you about something#my friends often put on a little voice and call me an anemic little bitch#like 'ooooo the anemic little bitch is cold??? does she need a mouse blanket#bc she's SOOOO SMALL AND ANEMIC???''#and it doesn't hurt my feelings (it makes me laugh very hard) bc 1. i actually called MYSELF that first#and 2. i'm not sensitive about it!!!#a proper razz is when you are ALSO in on the joke - i ALSO think it's funny#for some people i personally find that when they razz u it's when they love u -#they've noticed something genuine about u and love u enough that u know they're not being mean#this is cultural and personality based of course but i'm hispanic#if someone isn't making fun of me it means they hate me . obviously.
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We were so close to smoking not being cool anymore. We were so close. Then they flavored it mango and now it's taboo to criticize it anymore. People don't ask if they're allowed to vape indoors, they aren't considerate of people who may have health problems that are triggered by the chemicals or if it just bothers them, people don't care that they're supporting an industry built on corruption and greed, they can't see it draining their pockets and much less their health. We were so close to smoking not being cool anymore.
#i hate hate HATE nicotine after watching my parents smoke when i grew up#its gross and bad for your money and bad for your health#and i get it. theres SO MANY socioeconomic factors that make it a complicated issue.#you CANT blame smokers.#but it feels like people are just accepting the institution for what it is bc now it tastes good#bitch just chew gum jfc#it doesn't matter if its an industry issue. we have seen in the past that making it “uncool” hurts the industry#make nicotine uncool again PLEASE#grumbles
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LMAO
edit: turning off reblogs because some of the people that are reblogging are extremely fucking moronic. holy shit
#anti jk rowling#anti harry potter#1) she's not being removed because 'she spoke up about biological sex' she actively influences anti-trans policies#2) it's not misogynistic to remove her. the fact that she's a woman doesn't have ANYTHING to do with her removal#3) the people reblogging this in approval don't 'cry when an artist isn't credited' this isn't the same fucking thing.#this is as the article says (if you know how to read 🤭) the quickest solution to reduce her impact#this bitch doesn't just hurt trans people. it's clear in her books that she's a white supremacist and she's also antisemitic#and she said dumbledore is gay for clout. it's fucking obvious. stop defending this woman and get a life-#-or get involved on the side of trans people#or just generally drop the fucking series you read as a middle schooler. nostalgia isn't more important than the lives of trans/jewish ppl
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‘Poseidon left a party in Ethiopia because the sea vibes went rancid after Odysseus set sail’ feels like a bit I would make up, but no. That actually happened.
#poorly drawn odyssey#the odyssey#poseidon#odysseus#Continuing my running theme of bird gods - Poseidon is an albatross!#Following the whole theme of sailor’s superstitions - one must never hurt an albatross. Lest misfortune be upon ye.#This comic was a lot funnier in my head (though that might be attributed to the fact I’ve had so little time to draw lately -#So all my comics take a a few days to finish... I have more time to get pessimistic and weary of the joke not landing.)#But I hope fellow Odyssey fans can appreciate my vision for a critically underrated scene.#I am once again here to let all those uninitiated know about how funny the Odyssey is.#Poseidon flung himself from Ethiopia to the Mediterranean sea to vibe check a shriveled sobbing man.#Now *that’s* what I call petty bitch behaviour.#I will be back with more comics - ones that are a lot funnier than this one.#Nausicaa's scene is next. If you know you know.#(Thank you again to everyone who chimed in to let me know there *was* overlap and an interest in me posting more Odessey comics!)
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4 MINUTES (2024) I 1.04
Great & Tyme
#4 minutes#4 minutes the series#great x tyme#greattyme#userrlaura#uservix#userfaiza#userrlana#jes jespipat#bible wichapas#awkwardloser4awkwardloser have an awkward but lovely and hot love scene WHAT A FUCKING WIN FOR US#also something something about how great looks ethereal and more in control while tyme seems to be completely drowning in pleasure#and yet they're so sweet to each and gentle - clearly they don't want to hurt each other#they knocked it out of the park: their acting and their chemistry#they have raised the bar so fucking high now that none of these bitches will be able to reach it now#mywork
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those guys again
#my art#click for better quality…#wrists hurt like a bitch but the grind never stops 💥💥💥💥#fnf#fnf fanart#friday night funkin#friday night funkin fanart#fnf soft mod#newgrounds#newgrounds fanart#soft mod#soft mod fanart#soft mod au#benjamin fairest#pico n. grounds#grace dearest#pico newgrounds#dont mind that rly low opacity doodle it was a joke w a friend and i just. thought it was funny
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And now watch it all fall apart.
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Thank you everyone for your patience as I recuperate from Covid. I tested negative and am now just recuperating from the lasting effects. Honestly, this update is one I probably could have skipped, but I love me a good heist plan. Plus I just wanted to have some fun with this holiday special and if that means extending it a bit longer, then so be it.
#spoiler: it wasn't pee#I don't think Donnie has ever been called a stupid man in his entire life#it's the people closest to us that hurt us the most#both disaster twins using questionable methods to coerce others#poor Drax#never poor Kendra#even in the bad future Drax is still a lunch lady#Agent Bitch-up#what happens in Shanghai stays in Shanghai#rottmnt replica#replica#save rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#kathaynesart#unpause rottmnt#rottmnt#pregnancy#cw language#labor pain
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Yuri!!! on Ice Fanfic Recs
Since MAPPA decided to be a bitch and cancel Ice Adolescence, here are some fics to ease the pain. I made sure to include trigger warnings but all of these still have happy endings
Alternate Universe – Different Meeting
All Our Time is Borrowed by Magrathea
TW: Suicidal thoughts, suicide attempt, anxiety attacks
Developing relationship, series
Dream Weaver by aeriamamaduck
Developing relationship, smut, series
Post-Canon
In Your Arms by Crowleys_Aziraphale2003
Established relationship, domestic fluff
Perspective by soupthatistoohot
Established relationship, anxiety
(Don’t) Wake me up by PrincessofU
Established relationship, anxiety attack, smut
Therapy by vitya_rabbit
TW: suicidal thoughts, self-harm
Established relationship
Domestic Bliss by BunniesofDoom
Established relationship, domestic fluff, series
The Domestic Life and Love of Yuuri and Victor by nerdlife4eva
Established relationship, married Yuuri and Victor, domestic fluff, series
take all my loves, my love, take them all by sizhu
Established relationship, married Yuuri and Victor, domestic fluff, series
Your Touch Is My Temple by Crowleys_Aziraphale2003
Established relationship, anxiety attacks, domestic fluff, 5 + 1 things
If ice can burn, by ode2youu
Established relationship, dissociation, hurt/comfort
put your head on my shoulder by widomauk
Established relationship, domestic fluff
Sickfic/Major Injury
Homesick by ClosetedShipper
Established relationship, sick Victor
Leave It On The Ice by tothebatcave53
Established relationship, hurt Yuuri
TW: Suicidal thoughts, self-harm
Head over Toes by ClosetedShipper
Established relationship, hurt Yuuri
#ao3 fanfic#fanfic#yuuri katsuki#yuuri!!! on ice#yuri on ice#victor nikiforov#victor x yuuri#archive of our own#fanfic rec#fanfiction#MAPPA is a bitch#hurt/comfort#yoi fanfic#yoi#yuri plisetsky#yurio plisetsky#victuuri#yuri!!! on ice
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genuinely you need to love the trans girls in your life with everything you have. love them until your heart bursts.
#erase the idea of trans women as competing bitches in the fight against transphobia#scrub it from your brain power wash it off of t#recognize your own privilege recognize your own ignorance recognize the cruelty that is leveraged at them SPECIFICALLY#not as a disqualification of your own hurting but as a sign that they NEED your support and your love#i am talking to TME transmascs specifically. we owe it to them as their brothers and siblings
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your fav mcyts eat chiseled deepslate
#smallishbeans#geminitay#wild life spoilers#wild life smp#daily beans#joel smallishbeans#lwt me tell you i rwspect finger artists so much#my finger hurts like A Bitch
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hey soo just wonderin, what would happen if dream found nughtmare in a vunerable position? Like emotionaly, or cant walk kind of way. Also i know night had pain in his legs and dream has everything pain, so what if he foun nughtmare on the beach?
Dream was gone by the time Nightmare woke up
Generally, Dream is criticized by a lot of people for “losing many chances” to end Nightmare
And there is truth to it, whether it’s false hope, endless love, or deep pain that prevents him, Dream doesn’t have it in him to kill Nightmare yet
If he found him on the beach, he’d either leave, or stay a while if Nightmare’s asleep
If he found Nightmare in a vulnerable position, he’d most likely not do anything to make it worse, he’d let Nightmare have the opportunity to escape or defend himself, or simply leave Nightmare be
Something that Nightmare himself criticizes
#these two bitches are gonna be the end of me i swear to god jvvvjvjvjvjv#they hurt me deeply and I love them#anothers ask#anothers art#nightmare sans#dream sans
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*record scratch*
"I bet you're wondering how I got here, when last you saw, I was watching the sunset at a crab-boil in Louisiana with my family..."
#you dun messed up a. a. ron!!#bucky barnes#thunderbolts*#thunderbolts trailer#spoiler#so....now I wanna write some crack where he kept leaving his arm in annoying places and got thrown out#and/or a serious 'hurts so good' fic where the pstd got scary and he left#hence this stringy-haired sadboi right here#mcu#wake up bitches new mcu trailer dropped
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Shortly after the Woodsboro massacre. Billy feels as if a huge weight has been lifted off his shoulders and Stu is high as a goddamn kite on anesthesia
#Stu cant believe it..... he finally pulled a bad bitch by being ADHD pilled.....#my fingers genuinely hurt from this it must've taken me like 4 nonstop hours to finish#scream#scream 1996#scream stu#scream billy#stu macher#billy loomis#stuilly#scream fanart#latenightsundayblues art tag#billy x stu
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dont let the vampire squids bite tonite
#roachgore art#splatoon#splatoween#happy halloween everyone this drawing hurt my hand like a bitch#verna the vampire belongs to rassicas of course
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