#this TikTok was just him playing sad but true live

[obiwan-kenobabe]

My phone died while I was watching a TikTok of James Hetfield playing guitar on loop, I'm so embarrassed right now why does that old man make me go bonkers???

[flowxrtimmy]

After Show Punishment

When Niall performs your favorite song while you’re away from tour for a few days, you decide to take matters into your own hands when you return.

**this is my first time ever writing niall smut i realize it may not be 100% accurate please bear with me**

You were sitting in Niall’s tour bus, waiting for him to come back after his show. While you were on tour with him, you had to take a quick flight back home to take care of some things at the house. While you were home, though, you learned through TikTok that while you were gone, Niall performed “Put A Little Love On Me” for the first time on the American leg of the tour. To say you were shocked to hear this was an understatement. Niall knew that was your favorite song to hear live, and while touring abroad, he always made sure you were in view of the stage before performing it. You were so annoyed with him, you didn’t even tell him what show you were coming back for. Once everything was taken care of, you just got on a plane to the next city, and waited until you knew he was on stage to take an Uber to the venue. Getting backstage wasn’t an issue at all, but you had to be sneaky so Niall wouldn’t see you. This led to right now, waiting in the tour bus for him to come back. Usually you two spend time alone in the bus right after the show, since his band members have a different bus and his crew is breaking down.

You glanced at the clock, 10:15pm. Niall would be back soon. He was probably performing Slow Hands right now, so you stood up, and removed your silky red robe, wearing just a green lace teddy that he had gotten you for Christmas. It was his favorite one, but that might not be true after tonight. Tossing the robe on one of the booth seats, you sat back on the couch, leaning back and crossing your legs as you eagerly awaited Niall’s return.

Ten minutes had passed when you heard the door to the bus open. Immediately you sat up straight, setting your hands on your top knee as you turned your attention to the door. Niall stepped onto the bus, still obviously sweaty from performing. Setting down his water bottle, you could tell he didn’t see you yet. It wasn’t until after he slipped off his shoes and socks that he looked up, and locked eyes with you. “Babe? I didn’t know you were coming back tonight!” He walked towards you with a smile, but stopped dead in his tracks once he realized what you were wearing. “Woah, is that for me?” He walks towards you, a smirk growing on his face.

You manage to stand before it gets too close, taking a few steps back from him. “Oh no, not so fast Niall.” You folded your arms in front of you, trying to look tough and not cave at the cute look of confusion on his face. “This isn’t one of those nights.”

He looked so confused, but thought for a moment as to why you could be upset with him, and then it hit him. His eyes widened with realization, and he quickly grabbed your hands. “Oh baby, I’m so sorry! We started playing it at soundcheck, and just decided to play it for the concert. I tried to steer the band towards Paper Houses, but they insisted, I am so, so sorry!”

As you listened to his apology, you almost caved, but stood your ground, pulling your hands away from his. “I don’t think sorry is going to cut it, Niall. I was really hurt.” Seeing his sad, remorseful eyes killed you. “I think you should strip down.”

He raised a brow, but obeyed, pulling his tank top over his head. “Babe, I really am sorry, I just want you to know that.” He told you as he tossed his shirt aside before undoing his pants and pulling them off his legs, leaving him in just his red boxer briefs.

“I know you are, Niall, but I want you to show me how sorry you are.” Once he was stripped, you grabbed his hand, pulling him back to the room at the end of the bus. You weren’t sure of your exact plan, but that didn’t matter now. You were in control tonight, not Niall. Once you reached the bedroom, you released his hand. “Get on the bed.” You told him, stepping off to the side, smiling as he obeyed and took a seat. “Now, lay back, you can call me whatever you see fit."

He was nervous, but laid back on the bed, looking up at the ceiling. He tried not to look over as he heard you rummaging through a drawer, wanting to let you have your moment. He knew he messed up, and if doing this meant making it up to you, then he’ll go along with it. “I’ll do whatever it takes, babe.”

You smirked as you heard that. He was putty in your hands, and now the fun can begin. You turned to him, a cock ring in one hand, and a pair of handcuffs in the other. As his eyes widened when he saw what you were holding, your smirk just grew. “What’ll it be, baby?” Now that you were standing here, you wished you hadn’t grabbed the ring, since you weren’t even sure how it worked, and it would ruin the whole mistress concept if Niall had to explain it to you.

Niall pondered for a moment, and nodded towards the cuffs. “The handcuffs, please, Miss.” He could tell you weren’t confident with the ring, he could just tell by your eyes. He had to admit, it was interesting to see how you took charge, and was secretly looking forward to how this turned out.

Your stomach flipped when he called you “miss”, but you nodded, setting the ring down before walking to him. You took his hands, moving them above his head. “Good boy, now let’s get started.” Taking the cuffs, you looped one around each wrist, securing them above Niall’s head. “There, perfect!” You took a step back to admire your boyfriend restrained on the bed, and smiled wide. Climbing on top of the bed, you straddled Niall’s waist, resting against his clothed member. His eyes widened as you began to gently grind down against him, but he kept his mouth shut. You liked that he stayed silent, maybe it was shock, maybe it was pure curiosity, but you wanted it to stay that way. “We have to make sure you don’t do what you did again, don’t we Niall?” You picked up the pace, not breaking eye contact. “You have to learn a lesson, right?” You asked, giving him permission to speak.

“Yes, ma’am, you’re right. What I did was bad, I hurt you and didn’t fully think of how my actions would make you feel.” He had a look of shame on his face, he genuinely felt bad for what had happened and that right there almost caused you to snap and just let him free so he could take over, but you had to be strong. You got off of him, then pulled the boxer briefs down his legs, smirking at his already hard dick.

“Aw, that’s cute, babe.” You spoke, wrapping a hand around it, getting on your knees on the bed next to him. “Now, I’m going to allow you to audibly react, okay?” Once you got a nod of understanding from him, you leaned over and brought his dick into your mouth, almost taking all of it at once due to muscle memory, but stopping yourself about halfway down. This was just as much of an adjustment for you as it was for him. While you heard him let out a loud moan, all you could think about was the hurt you felt. Was this a silly thing to be hurt over? Actually, not really, you had every right to be upset with him, and now it was being dealt with.

He leaned his head back, shutting his eyes. “Oh fuck, feels so good baby.” He knew he was in trouble, but this was a nice surprise after a long day of soundchecks and performing. However, he certainly noticed when you only went down halfway, and that was killing him. Sure, this was part of his punishment, but he definitely wasn’t used to you holding back, and he wanted you to speed up a bit, but he wouldn’t dare ask in fear of prolonging being able to finish. He honestly felt kind of stupid for letting this happen, he should’ve tried harder to convince the band to do a different song, but he didn’t want to upset them. However, he knew he didn’t make the right choice solely because he ended up upsetting you instead.

You felt powerful, having him in such a submissive position, knowing you had full control over when or even if he came. You slowly moved your head back and forth, making sure to keep a snail’s pace just to tease him even more. Hearing his small yet frustrated moans only fueled your desire for his punishment, and you were going to make him beg. To give him a false sense of hope, you sped up a bit, moving your head in a more fluid motion, before halting and slowing back down again. You heard him mutter out a “fer fucks sake” and mentally gave yourself a pat on the back before pulling off completely and looking up at him. “Huh, I’m feeling kind of bored, maybe I should take a break.”

He quickly shook his head when you said that, a puppy dog look in his eyes. “Oh baby, please don’t, I promise I’ll be a good boy from now on! I’ll even let you dictate the setlist!”

You frowned, shaking your head. “No, it’s your tour babe, I’m just not happy about the choice you made.” You didn’t give him a chance to respond, just brought his dick right back into your mouth, swirling the tongue around the tip. You knew that drove him crazy, and had been waiting for the right time to pull it out.

“Oh baby, you’re so good to me, I’m sorry I hurt you, I promise I won’t do it again.” He considered not telling you he was close, but knew that would only get him into more trouble. “I’m close baby, so close.” He moaned out, leaning his head back against the pillow, and letting out a frustrated whine when he felt you pull off once more. “Please, baby! Please let me finish, I’ll be such a good boy!”

You had to admit, you weren’t THAT strong, and hearing him beg was killing you. As fun as this was, you wanted him just as bad now, so without another word, you brought his full length in, and you could hear the relief in his moan. You moved your head back and forth in a fluid motion, all while reaching up and gently playing with his balls.

“Oh fuck, taking daddy’s dick so well, aren’t ya lass?” When Niall pulled out the Irish slang, that’s how you knew he was close. However, you weren’t having the “daddy” part, you were still in charge and he needed to learn that the hard way. You pulled off his dick, looking him dead in the eyes.

“You are not in charge here. I am, and you will talk to me as such.” His eyes filled with confusion and surprise, but you held your ground, and stood up. “I think I’m going to let you think about what you’ve done.”

His eyes went wide, and he quickly shook his head. “Oh baby, please don’t leave me like this, I’m sorry for what I said!” Niall was not used to any of this, being edged, or punished, or left alone unable to take care of his sexual needs, and most of all he hated you being mad at him. “Please, please, don’t leave me like this.”

You stood at the edge of the bed, looking at him and listening to him beg, and sighed.You really need to work on being stronger. “You better not do this again, Horan.” With that, you got back on the bed, bringing his dick into his mouth one last time, full length and all. When you and Niall started dating a couple years ago, you couldn’t take more than half of him in without gagging, and you were proud of how much you’ve improved. You kept at a good speed, and you felt happy when he started using the slang again.

“Oh fuck lass, I’m so close, you’re so good.” He threw his head back on the pillows, shutting his eyes as he felt you picking up the pace, your tongue swirling around his dick. If there’s one thing he loved, it was getting sucked off by you, and although this experience nearly had him in tears, he’d do it again if it meant keeping you happy.

Enjoying his praise, you upped the speed a bit, your hand having found its way to his balls again. The only sound that filled the room was Niall’s moans and him begging for more, and with you gradually speeding up, it wasn’t long until he finally shot his load down your throat, a breathy “fuck!” escaping his mouth. You pulled off, swallowing the rest of it before looking at him with a smirk. “How was that, baby?” You asked as you grabbed the key to the cuffs, going up and freeing his hands from them and tossing them aside. “Your arms must be tired.”

Once he was free, he grabbed you and pulled you into his arms, kissing the top of your head. “It’s okay, I know I had to learn a lesson, I really am sorry, baby. I didn’t take the time to think about how it would affect you.” He rubbed your back, looking at you with sad eyes.

You looked back at him with a small smile. “I forgive you baby. You were such a good boy, taking your punishment so well.” You pulled the covers over your bodies, and snuggled up to him while he gently hummed Put A Little Love On Me while his hand traveled down your side.

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[the-flowerwolf]

Hogwarts legacy headcanons

While normal people go and socialize I wake up and think about ✨them✨

So there's some headcanons about my favourite Legacy Team (as I call them) for ya folks while I'm writing a really big fic about them. Careful, some of them are sad. And don't mind my poor grammar thanks.

Btw, collages are mine, feel free to use them💙

🐍Sebastian Sallow🐍

First off all, if you turn him in, I don't trust you

Literally a typical Slytherin

A nerd. Just a nerd.

Quidditch? Babe, the only sport for him is dueling

Felt absolutely helpless when his parents died. And that's why he's so protective. He just can't let anyone else die on his watch

Really is a small version of his father and proud of it

Believes that the end justifies the means

Hopeless flirt BUT a gentleman. Wouldn't do anything you don't like

And also most probably believes in true love

A proud bisexual

Everyone think that "he fucks everything that moves" but he's a virgin who "saves himself for the one and only"

As some fan said, he was probably born on 18th September. And it's a canon now.

A great friend but a terrible secret keeper, so for Merlin's sake, don't tell him ANYTHING

Knows how to braid hair into the most complex ways

Pro feminist! Treats women right and knows all important stuff thanks to his sis

🔥Natty Onai🔥

I'm sorry but she's so underrated and for what??

I believe she really respect traditions she were tought as a child

Her favourite holiday must be her birthday. All because it was the only day of the year when her parents forgot about all the dangers and sorrows and they just got together, spending the best time

Most probably will return to the homeland after Hogwarts

Is the only member of the team who play quidditch

(as a keeper ofc)

She's a lesbian idk dudes

A very honest girl who were raised to be a good person

So she just expects the same from others

A very competitive. But not like Imelda. Natty respects fair competition and knows how to honorably recognize a match

Although this does not mean that she will not destroy you to win

Is always cold poor thing

Religious bc I feel like it

Has mommy issues and don't tell me I'm wrong

Will definitely become the best auror one day

🌼Poppy Sweeting🌼

Her favourite holiday is Christmas lemme tell you that

Trust issues

She's trying her best to be gentle with every living being because she saw too much violence already

And that's why she thinks animals are better than people (agree)

She's definitely an INFP and I won't change my mind

Looks like a cinnamon roll but will kill you

A cliché but I feel like she's an excellent cook

Although she would LOVE to find someone to understand her (like us) she's totally okay with being on her own

Is into mind games like chess

But will go to see a quidditch game just to support Natty (and mc if they play)

Is always up to an adventure

Bullies? Girl grew up among killers, you really think she would care about some bullies?

I feel like she has the strongest personality in here. Doesn't matter what happens she will always stand straight while helping others

Is a cat person

Can't cry bc she was not allowed as a child

💚Ominis Gaunt💚

Just an innocent little boy let's be honest

He may look like he can kill you but he's just a cinnamon roll

Jokes about his blindness as a defence mechanism

Had a crush on both Sallow siblings at some point and I can't blame him

Saw a theory on tiktok that his patronus would be albino snake. CANON

Just wants to have a simple quiet life without any drama

Protective of his friends BUT is more protective of his boundaries

Don't mind his blindness he knows EXACTLY how to be a fashion icon

Another cliché: Omi can play piano

And it's the only thing his parents tought him that he loves. Playing helps him to calm down

Is very private, but as soon as he starts to trust you, he will immediately blurt out his life story, dreams, fears etc

Though he can't see an actual game, Omi likes to go on a quidditch game, because of the happy energy around him

Is sick most of the time for some reason. Cold, stomach ache or anything really

Also a nerd. But unlike Sebastian he's a fiction lover. Helps him to escape reality, especially in his family's house

Clingy with everyone he loves bc they make him feel safe

[15-lizards]

9, 12, 20, 34 💚

9. Build a small council with any characters dead or alive

-Hand: Otto Hightower if I actually need to get work done. Edmure for the shits and gigs

-Grand Maester: whichever feminist king is giving Alicent her plan B and saying #imwithher in HOTD rn is it Orwyle

-Master of Coin: Larys he’s probably good at insider trading

-Master of Laws: Arthur Dayne if I wanted to run a police state. Kevan if I still wanted a police state but at least he acts normal

-Master of ships: Davos runs the business and Aurane can be the face

-Master of Whispers: Grown up Arya because we could keke about all the gossip later

-Lord Commander: Cole then realizing how much of a freak he is then Barristan then realizing how much of a covert freak he is then Duncan then realizing— eventually we get to Blackfish and he just abolishes the police

12. Who are you traveling the ravaged riverlands with?

Pod because I need someone to carry my stuff but also I need to give him intensive child therapy. And Arya because we would play fun road games

20. A theory you pray never comes true

All the theories I know are mostly crackpot but I don’t want Jon becoming a stark king in the north at the end I would literally vomit. Also Dany will live this is true :)

34. What’s something people get wrong about your favorite character?

Hmmm I hate hate hate when people act like Arya is this cold blooded sociopath assassin who hates everyone and kills without remorse etc etc she’s friends with everyone!! She gets sad over strangers!! She is merciful and struggles with the idea of becoming nobody because she’s a fugitive preteen who misses her mom and dad and siblings!!! Also ppl get things wrong ab Dany all the time it actually makes my blood boil…she is not a madwoman or incompetent ruler she’s fifteen!!! She’s a smart fifteen year old who’s carrying a dead empire on her back and makes mistakes because of it but that doesn’t mean her intentions aren’t good and she isn’t blind to the fact that she makes mistakes…Dany I will save you from ASOIAF TikTok and Reddit I promise

[italljustkindahappened2]

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001 THE otp (you know :)) )

Okay. This is probably gonna be a long one so buckle up.

1. When I started shipping it, if I did: I do ship it and I honestly don’t remember when. I started probably even before I started watching the show tbh. I really liked Chenry when I was watching HD, so while I was looking up tiktoks about them, I also came across ones with Bomika and ig the rest is history!

2. My thoughts: Honestly they were the perfect example of opposites attract: intelligent, honest, hardworking Mika and innocent, naive, clueless Bose, I genuinely think that they canceled out each others negative qualities perfectly. Mika needed someone to help her take a chill pill sometimes and to help her realize that it’s okay to not be perfect, and Bose needed someone to help him be grounded, to take things seriously sometimes and get shit done.

3. What makes me happy about them: I’m so happy that both Luca and Dana (more Dana) have come forward and fully supported the ship, by liking edits of it and even going on insta live and saying it straight up. I think we needed that confirmation after what we went through with Chenry.. where we were like so is it happening or not??

4. What makes me sad about them; WE COULD HAVE HAD TWO MORE SEASONS WITH THEM?? Like I hate how we got the confirmation from Dana that the writers approached her and Luca and told them they were going to go the Chenry direction with them. It totally got our hopes up, and then… nothing. I mean I liked what we got I guess, even though it was little tiny minuscule snippets of jealousy, and pet names, and even the fake dating trope, but it wasn’t really enough for a true end-game confirmation in the actual show (and not just by the actors)

Things done in fanfic that annoys me/ things I look for in a fanfic: I haven’t really read that many (I will take your suggestions in the comments though) fanfics about them so I don’t really have preferences yet!

Who I’d be comfortable with them ending up with, if not each other: NO ONE. I’m kidding… or am I? Ehh it’s hard to decide I mean I liked Chamika and I tolerated Chiles. I did like Bose and Glerp but she was toxic to him (made him age hella) so I’m glad they ended that where they ended it. If Glerp didn’t have that effect on Bose or they somehow found a way to counteract it, that would’ve been nice to see more of.

My happily ever after for them: They have twins, a boy and a girl, he proposes to her in a lavender field and they have a small wedding with immediate family and friends. Mika goes to law school, Bose is a stay at home dad, they live in the suburbs of the Hamptons, in a big house from all the money they earned when Celia became mayor. They have two more kids and adopt a golden retriever.

Who is the big spoon/ who is the little spoon: Bose is the big spoon, Mika is the little spoon. End of discussion, argue with the wall.

What is their favorite non- sexual activity: Since they live near the beach in the Hamptons, they often take walks down there (ESPECIALLY in the summer). They like to set up a little picnic blanket, and take time to really just chill after a LONG time of just fighting crime. The kids play in the sand with the dog, and it’s just nice and peaceful.. exactly what they need.

[topconfessions]

This is gonna be long but I just needed to rant cause I have no one to rant to lol.

Found this page by happenstance a few minutes ago and I'm enjoying it so far. So, I'll admit I've known about TOP and bigbang for many years through a friend, but it was never my type of music, so I didn't follow them or him. I didn't even know about what happened to him with the scandal and his attempt until very recently.

Anyway, with the Squid Game hype back for the new season, it ignited my friend's interest, so I decided to give him another chance. I think hes a good actor and artist but the more I learn about him the more he genuinely confuses me.

Is this man straight, or what? I've seen those cringey edits on TikTok of him with his bandmates being very very close with them. And I've asked myself at least 100 times "are they together or...?"

Also, side rant: Those "sad edits" of him being compared to Thanos and using videos of him leaving the hospital and that speech he gave after his attempt are so cringey. I'd hate to be reminded of the worst time of my life with that song that goes "so pack up your car put a hand to your heart.." playing in the background. Especially when the comments filled with 11 year olds crying over it or spreading misinformation.

Like one comment I'm constantly seeing is, "he asked his dad what his biggest wish for his birthday was, and he said it was for him to jump off a bridge and die" like what??

Where are they getting this information? That, plus the "he didn't get paid/didn't have a script" comments, are driving me up the wall. My block list grew by at least 500 this week alone seeing those comments.

Anyway lol, for someone who appears to be very VERY emotional and sensitive, how can he always be single? I'm in no way claiming he's a bad person; he genuinely seems very very sweet (unless there's something I don't know?). But how can someone that so many girls would throw themselves at is always single?

It also annoys me how many comments, made by 11 year olds with Thanos as their profile picture, I've already read that say, "He's insecure about his body so he doesn't want to date." That's so weird I'd be angry if I read that about myself even if it was true.

And my god, genuinely, WHY is he so sensitive? I'm not saying it's a bad thing, but the number of videos I've seen of that man crying on my TikTok FYP over one thing or another is concerning. What on earth happened to that guy? Did he go through something horrible as a child that I don't know about, or is he truly just that way?

Amazing. Fuck. I just lost everything I typed 😭😭😭😭😭 ugh. Shit. I'm so sorry. I typed this LONG and detailed spill answering your question but got a notification on my phone and it closed the app out so I have to keep this extremely brief cause I can't type it again.

1. The whole thing about his body image is true minus the fact it prevents him from dating. Thats bullshit and hes even stated on numerous occasiond he's dated before. Didnt he say during made era when he had the pink hair that he didnt want to date a girl who drinks anymore? That he was dating but had a bad experience with that? He was extremely self concious about his body. Always layering up, never taking his clothes off minus a flash here and there, wearing sweaters all the time and he had that as his main style for a while once he joined instagram (he was opposed to IG for the longest time and finally joined).

2. I've never ever heard him ever say that about his father. Thats news to me. He's never spoke that wildly about his dad unless there is an interview or live on IG we all missed???

3. It was a normal thing in korean culture for celebs especially male to play that overly touchy feely, feminine, nearly gay behavior and it was understood on the surface by adults that it was just fucking around and joking as well as pandering to kids, tweens and teens, maybe young college people as well who would eat that behavior up cause kpop was primarly marketed to kids and teens (still sorta is). Thats how korea kept kpop strong by pushing for parasocial relationships with young idols and adult idols maintaining such behavior that would make the netizeens feel close to them and enjoy them in the light.

3. Tiktok seems to be a mess for his image and narrative lately. This is what happens when a bunch of new americans who dont know take the narrative into their hands and spin it anyway they want wheh the celeb like top is so detached and not involved that it indirectly enables the fans to redefine him in anyway they want.

4. You told us the truth in the question you asked. Its extreme common sense at this point. I understand if he wants to keep his shit private and that's fine but he has akways been extremely overly protective of his privacy to the point where its like guards himself as if his whole career and life would end if he ever publicly dated a woman. Its always been that way when everyone in big bang (sorta minus daesung kinda) had dated publicly and privately, taeyang is married with a kid for crying out loud.

During made era when he had the pink hair, they went on a popular variety show (like a talk show) and top talked about how he was dating and been dating but I think [dont quote on me this, its been YEARS since this shit happened, so foggy memory here] he said he didnt want to date a woman who drank heavily anymore. He didnt want to drink / date someone who drinks since he had a bad experience with his last partner when that happened.

So look at that. Thats literal proof these new kids dont know what they're talking about. He's mentioned dating before. Also I've already explained how he had a GF before he officially became an idol for real and the girl wanted him to quit and be with her. He stated in a variety show many years ago when he was young that he was trying to tell her he was doing this for both of them. She didnt want to hear it.

Hence, he had the song pretend like nothings wrong (or pretend everything is okay, again, this is anicent shit from when he was like late teens early 20s speaking on this. Even still a teen fr. So forgive me if I dont have exact titles, I have to pull from my memory here. But he did perform the song once and he was really upset, you could tell that shit was personal. Its a dark song tbh)

Also listen to Bigbangs music. Listen to FXXK IT, listen to Loser, Listen to Girlfriend. Listen to alot of these songs and focus on his part. Bigbang had a privilege of mostly writing their own music cause Kpop was and is predominant focused on idols being the poster of the content and they dont focus on creating the content themselves like Americe (i.e America wants you to write all the songs, live by the image you portray, mean what you say and do what you say you do in the songs, and they expect you to be public about your relationship. While in Korea they want you to be as private as a possible but will ironically dig and speculate a lot and who you date can make or break you for real).

Anyways listen to those songs and google the English lyrics translation. Top usually writes his own lyrics for his part and he does talk about being a player, not wanting to be close or going through hell with women. Loser. Watch that video. Watch his part and how he treats the woman it highlights how he conveys wanting to keep himself, his stuff, and his life untouched and private, how he ruins his relaitonships with women and they're just sex to him etc.

People dont pay attention like they used to and thats the problem. (Many vips used to say this dissect MVs and their meanings back in the day.)

But yeah girl

Prayers cause you said too much lol.

[nicohischierz]

team 100: nolan moyle au

tagging: @ivy-34, @francesfarhadi, @hzstry8, @cixrosie, @itsnotgray, @estapa94, @trevs-swiftie, @heartz4hisch

when nolan came back from work he was not expecting to find his daughter crying in her room.

you had gone to grab AJ some snacks for his game while your daughter finished her homework. she was fine when you left but it seemed her mood changed quickly.

“nicole, are you okay sweetie?” nolan asked softly.

he heard your daughter sniffle and wipe her eyes before responding.

“yeah i’m fine dad!”

nolan knew she wasn’t fine. so he gently opened the door and sat by her bed. nicole immediately latched onto her father, slow tears coming out of her eyes.

“hey, what’s going on peaches?” he asked, going into full dad mode.

“how could you leave?” nicole whispered.

nolan was confused.

he had never left his family. they were his whole life.

“i don’t think i understand sweetie. i’m not going anywhere,” he reassured nicole.

“how did you leave michigan?” nicole asked.

that’s when it all became clear to him.

the twins were in their senior year of high school and now his baby girl was scared of leaving.

“i didn’t.” he answered.

“i graduated senior year with uncle jimmy and uncle pasta cause nick was already playing pro. but i went back,”

“i went back and did another year. this time i graduated with your mum and jbone and grano. that one was tougher than the first. and your mum and i thought we’d stay in michigan but then i got offered a contract in russia for two years,”

“but mama stayed here,” nicole finished.

nolan smiled at his daughter. “yeah. mama stayed here and worked with the blue jackets so she was with kj, uncle nick and adamo,”

nicole nodded and gave her father one last big hug.

“can i ask why you got sad all of a sudden? i thought you were excited to go to michigan,” nolan asked gently.

“i was on tiktok and i got this edit of you crying during your frozen four interview and then it said uncle luke, uncle mackie and adamo left that year,”

nolan closed his eyes as he remembered that year. sure, it was eighteen years ago but he remembered it as if it was yesterday.

“but now we all live close together and we always meet for the summer,” nolan reminded.

nicole just smiled and snuggled into her father a bit, enjoying his embrace.

“hey dad,”

“yeah peaches?”

“is it true you made a slip n slide with beer and dish soap on your kitchen floor?”

“i think you need to stop watching tiktoks,”

[evb0]

procrastinating so u guys get my hatchetverse hcs!!! (these are going to be a lot of shit i picked up from random posts that i dont remeber the ops of so sorry if u made one of these hcs and i dont credit you i love you sorry) ethan green

probably like 23? 25?

hes actually bi he told me himself

afab he/they boyflux sue me

lex is his first and only gf. he's probably had like one bf before but he loves lex sm more (simp) (malewife to her girlboss basically)

orphan sorry i dont make the rules

his dad left like immedately and his mom passed of old age when he was like 17 idk

hannah is basically his little sister. he'd die 4 her actually.

ted spankoffski

like late 20s early 30s at the most ithink

so painfully thirsty for anyone he has to be pan

amab he/him but doesnt really give a fuck

has never had a partner thats so sad. he makes up for this by constantly acting like everybody wants him. they dont. (exepct for me i love him)

doesnt really have a CRUSH on anyone speific but mark chastity is his fav to tease (sorry im a baby for holy bastard)

him and petes parents love them but theyre kinda like.. oblivious and absent. like theyre always on trips and leaving pete to live w ted

max jagerman

im not gonna list all of the teens' age theyre all 16-18

im assimilating with this one he/she pronouns amab

hes omni he told me himself pref 2 women

everybody wants him he only wants the nerd (hes just like me fr)

he isnt dead shut up shut up sHUT UP HES FINE OKAY

his dad is not good his mom died in childbirth

stephanie lauter

genderqueer. they/she/he in order of pref. also uses xe/xir idc sue me

pan thats cannon she told me xirself

does tiktok dances but really badly on purpose

the biggest simp on earth to her one guy and nobody ese

will fluster the living hell out of pete in public for fun

hates being the mayors daughter, feels alienated bcs of it

pete spankoffski

he/they afab i dont make the rules

bi if you argue youre homophobic (/J)

actually loves his big bro but acts like he doesnt bcsaude is ted hears him looking up ted he'll never hear the end of it

nickname seymour from ruth (bcause lsoh)

ex-brony

richie whateverhislastnameis

afab he/xe/nya/zap he would have so many cool neos. one of those people whos neo list is longer than the bill of rights

gay mlm yes

undertale enjoyer

nge enjoyer

discord mod in an anime server

owns several body pillows

xem and ruth have been friends since pre-k so they know eachother like the back of their hand

ruth whateverherlastnameis

afab she/they

omni large large large pref to girls. likes a few boys sorta

biggest theatre kid ever but sucks at acting and singing (the curse)

got ensemble ONCE and cried at the cast list

fav show is heathers

heather m kin i dont make the rules

grace chastity

afab she/her

bi

liked a girl once and cried for a week str8 abt going 2 hell

i dont have alot of hcs for her but i think she would like fire a large amount

not even arson wise but like

a firebug

tinky

i already made my hcs for all the LiBs' true forms so go find those if you want

all the libs dont give a fuc about pronouns call them whatever

i do he/him tho

tinky is really just a 13 yr old girl freaking out abt one specific guy (ted) and making fucked up fanfics with him (time bastard nmt)

the "youngest" of the siblings

boy jerry

i beleive that every character jon plays is related. boy jerry is pauls fucked up brother. which means hes also richies uncle

[gogtopia]

i wrote a little dteam ficlet for one year of the florida meetup + day two of inktober (prompt was spiders!)

...

“Dude, can you help me with something?” Sapnap asks, barging into George’s bedroom without bothering to knock or send him a courtesy text or fucking say something. What if he’d been naked?

Though, to be honest, he shouldn’t really expect him to knock by now. They’ve lived together a year and Sapnap barges into his room almost every day. He used to be more polite— he knows that he and Dream were always incredibly courteous of each other— but as soon as George moved in that all kind of went out the window.

“No, idiot,” George says immediately, not looking up from the TikTok playing on his phone. After a beat of silence, he meets Sapnap’s stupid sad little eyes and the annoying little wrinkle in his brow that’s only ever there when he’s stressed. He lets out a sigh. “What is it, Sapnap?”

“You have to come see for yourself.” If the look in Sapnap’s eyes wasn’t so grim, he would think that he was getting pranked. What could have possibly happened in his room that requires George to go help with it? He only got to L.A. like two days ago.

But George decides to humor him, pushing out of bed and following Sapnap down the hallway. He was getting sick of watching TikToks anyway. At least helping Sapnap might be marginally less boring.

When they get to Sapnap’s doorway he pauses with his hand on the doorknob and takes a shaky breath. “I’m gonna let you in and close the door behind you. Once you’ve taken care of the fucker, let me know and I’ll let you out.”

“Wha-” he starts, but Sapnap shoves him into the room and slams it shut behind him.

George turns around and goes for the knob for a fucking explanation but Sapnap is fucking holding it shut. What the fuck could warrant him holding the fucking door shut with George inside the room?

George looks around the room for a second to see what Sapnap could have been referring to. It’s nearly spotless— Sapnap is actually about ten times cleaner than he’d expected him to be— except for the messed up sheets of a hastily deserted bed and the half-empty cup of water on his nightstand.

Then he spots it, crawling up the side of the windowsill. It’s a spider, smaller than most of the ones that George sees back in Florida. He doesn’t know much about spiders other than that they’re disgusting-looking but he’s pretty sure that this one is harmless. It’s just a normal fucking spider and Sapnap is freaking out and locking George in the room with it. He’s never going to fucking let him live this down.

George thinks it looks fucking gross but he doesn’t actually want to kill it. He also doesn’t particularly want to touch it either, which puts him in an interesting dilemma. He’s not going to lie to Sapnap about it— if he was going to fuck with him, it would be much better to do that with a caught spider instead of one that’s still loose on the windowsill.

The idea hits him and he grabs a piece of paper off of Sapnap’s desk before running across the room and chugging the rest of his water. He wrinkles his nose as he drinks it. Definitely last night’s water instead of something fresh.

Careful as he steps toward the windowsill, George slams the cup over the spider and quickly slides the paper underneath, yelping as he pulls it away. It’s a success: the spider is in the cup and he can relocate it to the outside world.

“Let me out,” he says, kicking the door lightly. “I’ve neutralized the threat for poor, scared little Sapnap.”

The door slowly creaks open. “Shut the fuck up, dude.”

George removes the paper and holds the cup out toward Sapnap for a second, earning a scream as he scrambles back into the wall.

He hears a door click open across the hallway.

“Dude, what the fuck?” Dream asks, rubbing his eyes as he emerges from his room. He looks like he just woke up, which is probably true. He’s sick as shit right now.

“I liberated a poor, innocent spider from Sapnap’s room.” George slides the paper back over the cup before it can climb out and kill Sapnap via the heart attack he’ll have when he sees it loose in the hallway.

Dream rolls his eyes and snatches the cup and the paper from him, marching back into his room and throwing open his window. He drops the spider out into the street below and closes it. “All taken care of.”

George turns to Sapnap. “What do you do when you see a spider back home? They’re everywhere.”

Sapnap looks sheepishly at the ground. “Dream handles the spiders, dude. I just didn’t want to wake him up since he’s sick.”

“He called my mom to take care of it once when I wasn’t home,” Dream adds with a laugh.

“It’s not fucking funny,” Sapnap says with a scowl. “Some of those fuckers are fucking poisonous.”

“Venomous,” George corrects.

He turns to glare at him. “Shut up, dude.”

With a sigh, George slings an arm over his shoulder. “It’s okay, Sapnap. Now you have two people to take care of the spiders for you.”

And even though he’s still kind of glaring at him, Sapnap looks like he’s kind of relieved. Even though George likes to give him shit— that’s the nature of their friendship, after all— he clearly knows that he’s as much of a friend of his as Dream is.

It makes George happy to be home with his best friends, on the anniversary of his trip to Florida, no matter where that home is.

[hockeychatstea]

https://www.tumblr.com/hockeychatstea/765635501712670720/i-have-some-thoughts-and-have-noticed-a-few-things?source=share

so this whole post is inch-resting for a few reasons, because it confirms i'm not fucking crazy lol. i've noticed some of this shit for months now, basically since those two started dating lmfao (well, publicly anyway)

so the queer sibling and his sister are EXTREMELY close. like, would take a bullet for each other close. closer than sway is to his sister close. the queer sibling also lives in chicago, while beth and her fam are in new york so so they can visit boston more regularly. i wanna say it was on puckgoss that someone who knew alessandra from high school said she was really good at being manipulative and fake nice in order to social climb, so it wouldn't surprise me if she was pulling the same shit on beth (esp since they see each other like 2-3 times a year at most?) because her being a bigot would NAWT fly in that house.

AND OKAY GOOD i'm not the only person who noticed the stuff going on with the wags. rebecca (pasta's wife) apparently HATES her, she's now seemingly been shunned from the main group of younger girls w amanda, ryen, paula, madison, etc. so now she's stuck clinging to katrina, a woman in her late 30s who also has a rep with locals for being a nasty cunt, but is also head wag so i guess not surprising she'd attach herself to the "queen bee" for clout. i saw a rumor on the athletic of all places, in the comments on one of the swayman contract articles, saying that during playoffs alessandra was incredibly rude and entitled towards the other wags/service staff during a cam neely foundation dinner that the front office put on for the wags, to the point where she got reprimanded by cam/his wife themselves for it being a bad look on the bruins org 😬 if true then holy YIKES no wonder the other girls want to distance themselves. i def noticed she didn't get invited out to any of the dinners after that night which i thought was sus, but didn't really think much about it at the time back in may lol.

the house thing is just. insanity lol. i've been convinced since june that they've been rushing the relationship because he was about to become one of the bruins core players and needed to look "settled" for optics because he's about to turn 26 this year which is "late" by nhl standards. his relationship with his ex tori lasted what, almost three years? they never moved that fast and that was with someone he literally described as the "girl of his dreams" on a podcast back in 2020. meanwhile he's moving in with with a girl he's known for less than a year, has nothing in common with, and who was actively hunting for a hockey husband to bankroll her luxury lifestyle while she sits around unemployed and badly plays instagram and tiktok influencer online. uh huh, sure jan. if the plan is to endgame then i sincerely hope sway is smart enough to keep his finances separate/in trust away from her because the vibes are absolutely rancid with that girl.

the one thing i'm gonna push back on is the fake nice thing, only because as a fan who has followed him for years now, him being like this is very VERY recent behaviour and pretty much started when he started dating alessandra. i've talked to so many other b's fans online who have noticed his entire personality change because of this girl. if it was a long-running issue there would probably be way more stories about him being a dick to people, but most anecdotes about him since college have always emphasized him being a genuinely sweet and well-adjusted (read: non hockey bro) guy. why he's decided to turn into country club frat boy mcgee to impress a girl i'll never understand, but it really ain't cute. like, the pussy CANNOT be that good. 😭

Yeah it's honestly pretty sad if he's changing that much for her 😕

[vacate-et-scire]

heyy if possible i’d like to do the blue lock matchup thing if you’re still doing them? :)

honestly i’m not one for having hobbies, it sounds REALLY sad when i put it like that but i just don’t do much besides classwork and studying. my schedule is all over the place, so i go to bed late and wake up past noon most times. i’m almost always tired i think i might be anemic? i mostly just watch sitcoms and stalk canvas lmao i’m super motivated by grades #3.9gang because i have plans for law school

i have SOME interests though because i’m not totally boring. i love history! it’s probably one of the few things i could start a tangent on, classic lit; generally stuff that i use to prep for quiz bowl because i’m lowk a huge nerd. HUUGE nerd. i have socks with jimmy carter on them, it’s bad. i also like vintage dolls! a little weirder but i kind of collect them

i love to eat. i NEED smb who also loves to eat. i’m a eater fr. i have to get a meal out at least once a week and it’s usually like two entrees and a couple of appetizers 😭 i will never share my food though

ig something more specific about my personality is that i speak in acronyms a lot, it started as a bit but now it’s just autonomous. in general i spend a lot of time online i’m high key chronically online i have 50 hours on tiktok this past week?

i’ll dress up if i’m going somewhere that people i know will see me like my classes or wtv because what if i meet my true love?? but if i’m just going to the grocery store or whatever i’ll just wear a hoodie and pajama pants. i have a goldfish sweatshirt that i basically live in atp

i’ve been TOLD that i’m funny so i don’t come across as conceited 😭 but i’m generally more extroverted i’ll try to include everyone in a conversation i hate when ppl feel left out

i hope that was enough info fanks for the future matchup :)

Your Blue Lock Matchup: Reo Mikage

Reo gets it—he understands what it’s like to have big dreams and to work tirelessly to achieve them. Your dedication to law school and your 3.9 GPA hustle would immediately impress him, and he’d cheer you on every step of the way. He’d offer to quiz you on classic lit, discuss history with genuine interest, and maybe even sponsor a few late-night study snacks to keep you going.

Reo loves fine dining, and the fact that you’re a foodie who takes your meals seriously? Instant connection. He’d be the partner who surprises you with reservations at top-tier restaurants or orders your favorite takeout when you’re knee-deep in studying. While he might tease you about your refusal to share food, he’d never actually push you to. Instead, he’d be the one making sure your plate is always full of the good stuff.

Your quirky love of vintage dolls wouldn’t faze Reo at all—in fact, he’d find it endearing. He’d probably buy you a rare one as a surprise gift, thinking it’d make your collection even more special. He’s the type to support your niche interests wholeheartedly because he loves seeing you light up about the things you care about.

Reo would find your TikTok habits hilarious. He’d indulge in your acronyms and online lingo, occasionally pretending to roll his eyes but secretly loving how entertaining you are. He’d probably even help you brainstorm some quiz bowl-worthy trivia TikToks because he’s supportive like that.

You’re the kind of duo that thrives on balancing work and play. When you’re grinding through assignments, Reo’s there to keep you motivated and focused, gently reminding you to take breaks. When it’s time to unwind, he’s more than happy to indulge your sitcom marathons or accompany you on a fancy food run.

Reo is a giver in relationships, and he’d love to spoil you with little acts of care. Whether it’s surprising you with new socks featuring your favorite historical figures or encouraging you to treat yourself with something beyond pajama pants, he’d ensure you always feel cherished.

Reo’s high energy and constant need to be productive might clash with your more laid-back, late-night, pajama-loving tendencies. But with time, he’d learn to embrace your unique schedule and even match it when necessary. After all, Reo is a firm believer in adapting for the people he loves.

Reo Mikage is the supportive, ambitious partner who’d push you toward your goals while indulging your quirks and interests. With him, you’d never feel left out or undervalued—he’d make sure you’re always the star of the show.

[teslacoils-and-hubris]

If in the modern age, what tf2 characters do you think would use tiktok? Sorry im trying to think of an epic question but thats all i can imagine

don't apologize because i clearly had too much fun with this

scout without a doubt. im Not on tiktok so all i know about it from watching commentary youtubers talk about shit i dont care about in the background while i do other stuff, but he would absolutely get sucked into that weird NPC trend. I can see him watching it for hours, then deciding he'd be suuuuper popular if he did it. He does get super popular but its only because people make a game of getting him to break character which is super easy and happens constantly. he's constantly getting into fights with people and is only popular because he becomes this big punching bag laughing stock. Scout of course has no idea about this and thinks he's Finally Made It as an influencer until admin finds out he's been livestreaming from the base and has him shot live on stream and has all traces of his account scrubbed (though some people still got screen recordings) and it becomes this sort of internet true crime obsession for years.

I think Pyro downloaded it to play with filters and got sad when they didn't work on the gas mask. i could see them having a 'does it burn' type channel where the ending clip no matter what it started with or how small it was is always a massive inferno with their thumbs up in the corner and people go wild for it

I think medic would have fun doing tiktok dances and pretending to be a real doctor while telling people that actually *extremely dangerous health hazard* is not only completely safe but really good for you actually!! doing surgery on yourself is all a part of healthy curiosity and totally safe to remove your own heart for fun and profit!

i don't think any of the others would be on tiktok. heavy has a facebook but its all just minion memes and pictures of his guns and hasn't been updated in like 5 years. Spy and Sniper don't touch social media with a ten foot pole. Spy for spy reasons and sniper is a technologically inept hermit who has never had anything fancier than a nokia.

[kerink]

the attic liveshow live react

you can always go in the same way you go out. well. not always. i can think of one time thats not true such as....life

this too shall pass reprise

thai food and mario kart tournament and sawa dead body

listen up to not hurt cecils feelings

wendys built the brown stone spire?!

sniffs cecils lapel sniff sniff

AQUARIUS TRICKING A LEO INTO A CAVE FKDKDKFK

looking at family pics instead of doing the news

a photo of mom and cecil and abby <333

abby and cecil are gonna fall into the big hole...

cecil collected animals..

BEAVER PEED IN ABBYS BBED

named the snake after his mom...

tamikaaaaaa

cecils stuffed animal TT_TT

NOOOO HE LEFT IT BEHIND

"she could be cruel i suppose" ill say cecil

JACKIE FERRO MENTION POG

wretched gretchen: she hesrd your wish

"kids with their tiktok dances" cecil talk to your husband

michelle helping people become musicians?!

oh ok shes my queen never mind

theyre mouthing yergent lmfao

ah. the picture of cecils mom. ah

oh they just keep making new trauma up for him

lee macin best known for being 30 years old

WHEN HE WAS A YOUNG MAN ONLY 30 YEARS OLD 💀💀💀

cecil going to sleep cuddled up to his radio listening to leonard 😭😭😭💕💕💕

cecils face when kip was insisting the shirt was a card almost killed me

carlos please take his credit card away

AUOTE GET REAL

kip trying to take cecil soul... this already happened to him

CECIL YOU DID PLAY BASEBALL AS A KID COME ON

well he played with earl so it makes sense why he wouldnt rememebr

CRANOR PUT ON THE T SHIRT

qhen he shook his head and mouthed no about meditation 💀 he was so cute

he freaking teleported us to san fransciso

BALDWINS LITTLE POSE WHEN HE STARTED THE SECOND WENDYS PART THE WAY HE KICKED HIS LEGGIE

THERES A MAN PLAYING MYSIC

disperitions little nod

CECIL POKIG AT SDISPERITIONS STUFF

cecil was sooooo cute at the keyboard 😭😭😭

larry leroy shooting birds‼️‼️

cecils little sad/scared uhhuh was so cuuuute

cecil dismissing a book not holding up TO TAMIKA girl howd she not kill you

SHE CALLED HIM CEECCEE

CECIL WENT BACK TO THERAPY oh its an iguana

"nobody has repressed more stuff than me" baby we know

this is condos 2

THERE WAS NO FAMILY TRIP TO THE GRAND CANYON

we should see something of this country but we only made it a few blocks

abby and i sat in the dark holding hands not knowing what game was being played only that we were losing it

wendys is no bed bath amd beyond when it comes to interdemensional magic

perfection isnt human

"i cant change the pain of my childhood past"

CARLOS AND CECIL ARE TAKING ESTEBAN TO THE GRAND CANYON

"as soon as i figure out how to get out of night vale" 💀

I ACCIDENTALLY STARTED A PREMATURE CLAP AT THE SF LIVE SHOW 🙈

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i just want to rant about how much i adore matt maltese. i’ve always listened to him, especially in my childhood cos i grew up hearing some of his music. recently (28th march), i saw him live in detroit. it was genuinely the most magical thing i’ve ever experienced. i’m so grateful that i was able to have my first concert be him. he was a bit late. he got caught in customs at the airport. i waited SO EAGERLY while others performed in place of him for that time. he arrived around 9pm, i genuinely started screaming like a little girl seeing one direction in 2010. genuinely i don’t think i’ve ever sung along to music more carelessly. i didn’t mind my voice cracking or me being off key. i quite literally just belted out all his fucking symphonies he’s created. i’m very selective with my music choices so i didn’t know every single song. i knew most of them though yeah? my mom’s favorite was called “strange time”. my dad knew “kiss me” because it’s a cover of a different song. my sister eagerly recorded it all to show her friends. she was so happy when the songs i taught her started playing, especially the ones she knows from tiktok (i don’t have tiktok so i don’t remember which ones. probably “as the world caves in”). i was so incredibly happy. i was jumping around and dancing and singing without any care. the bass and drums shook the whole place and i LOVED it. me and my mom belted “mother” together and me and my sister danced around on the balcony when “everyone adores you” played. my sister is so sweet. she yelled “I KNOW THIS ONE!!!!1!1!1!1!” every time a song she knew played 😭😭😭😭 /vvvvpos. during the encore i was really sad cos he didn’t end up playing my favorite song (intolewd). i was in the middle of (jokingly) throwing a fit when he started playing it and i SWEAR it was magical. hearing my favorite song live was absolutely a dream come true. there was a disco ball on the ceiling and it lit up during the chorus. i think it’s getting popular on tiktok and that’s why the disco ball lit up. which honestly kind of irks me cos like THATS MY SONG !!! /j. i went home all giddy from the concert. it felt like a dream. i’ve still got a cup from the bar they had there. had the YUMMIEST most SCRUMPTIOUS pineapple juice there bluh 😭🙏 /pos. we got pizza on the way home. it was like a 45 minute drive so i ate it at home. it was like 11:30 when we got home. everyone went to bed. i sat at the table with my messed hair and some random sweater cos i got cold and i ate pizza. was probably the most peaceful moment in my life so far. recently i had a brain scan, like 2 days ago i think. i’m very medically complex and need hospital a lot so when my schizophrenia symptoms got worse i was immediately ordered an mri. i grew up in the hospital and got them regularly until i was 6, but i was always sedated for them. this was my first one that i went through awake. they asked if i wanted to watch a movie during it or listen to music and i INSISTED music. i had a full blown panic attack in there because it was so fucking loud and overwhelming. but guess what!!!! i was listening to matt maltese through a damn stethoscope and that bitch helped me!!!!!!! i, for some reason, thought i was gonna die in there or something so i was shaking like a leaf but i genuinely stopped immediately hearing “krystal.” i don’t know why his music is so therapeutic to me. i got through it and came out halfway through “jupiter”, from the same album as “krystal.” i can’t explain how much matt and his music has helped me through literally everything. i’m sure he’s saved my life SO many times. god i could go on for HOURS about him. i just remembered his song “philadelphia” and OH MY GOD i’m fighting not to rant more about him and that song. i’m gonna stop here. literally nobody is gonna read this giggles

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oh the ones I wanted to send are taken already UHM.. Wrightdot and/or Franmaya? (the latter isn't my cup of tea but I'm interested to hear your thoughts on it!)

HELLO, GRACE, MY DARLING FRIEND GRACE 💖💕💕💞♥️💝❤️💗❤️💖💖💕💝💞♥️💗💞 Thank you for the ask; I am honoured you actually wanted to hear me talk about multiple ships whsjdhj 💖💘💗

Wrightdot:

Grace, trying to answer this gave me some sort of quarter-life existential crisis, and I am a bit hysterical rn. Through the laughter and the screaming, I have to admit that... I kind of............ get it??????? I WOULDNT SAY I SHIP IT, BUT, LIKE. THEY'RE SO FUNNY BUT ALSO REALLY SAD AND IM????? IDK WHAT I THINK SJWVSHDHFKDH

Ultimately, though, ULTIMATELY. I can't quite get past the whole 'that is Mia's ex who is still very much in love with her, and her protege' thing. She's played too much of a role in both their lives for them to see very far past her influence on one another, and I don't think it'd be very healthy for them to try pursuing a romantic relationship; because I feel like they'd inevitably end up trying to fill the space Mia left in their lives through the other person which just wouldn't work. I definitely think they should have some sort of a relationship, though! I think Diego cryptically mentoring Phoenix and being very unhelpful most days, but always really solid help deep down, is very fun and kind of important for them post-BttT. I think they should get to truly know one another, beyond the masks and the projection, and Diego has a lot more experience being a lawyer than Phoenix, so he'd definitely be able to help with all the moral quandaries that are bound to come up later on. Plus he'd Get the whole 7-yg Phoenix attitude thing because... he's been there. I think he could've been helpful, and it's a shame we don't get to see them be, if not friends, respected acquaintances.

Alternatively, though, the idea of Phoenix having a casual conversation with Diego only for the fleeting thought of "Wow, he's really attractive" to stop him dead in his tracks and make him question his whole life and go to therapy and Leave the Country™ is so funny to me. Alternatively-alternatively, I get the romance of it. It's the whole pulling back the mask, having someone who really understands you, being accepted in spite of your worst flaws, moving on from grief and loss with another hand in yours and NOPE. I CANT TALK ABOUT THIS. I DONT SHIP IT BUT IDK! IDK!!!! IM THROWING THEM BOTH OFF A CLIFF, AND THEN IM THROWING MYSELF OFF A CLIFF. I AM DONE. GOODBYE.

Franmaya:

Okay, after standing in the shower and staring at a wall for 3 hours, I can talk normally again, which is good because I have to explain this.

I know the people who ship them don't do it in this way, but? Honestly? Franmaya is one of those wlw ships that strike me as two female characters being shoved together because they're left hanging once the main male couple whom everyone actually cares about (nrmts in this case) gets together, and because no one can find anything interesting to say about them as individuals, so now they're lesbians. Yay! (And also because people maybe don't want to be seen as only shipping mlm ships for fear of being told they're fetishising them.) And I know that that's not true and that most Franmaya shippers love both of them individually (as we all should), but something about them always makes me hear the feminine AI TikTok voice going, "Diversity Win 😊👍🎉!" in my head and conjures up images of Western corporate advertisements during the month of June (hence the love is love coca-cola).

And I know this isn't the case, but ???? I think it's mainly because I genuinely do not understand this ship. I don't usually need ships to be supported by canon for me to ship them, but what we've been given by canon doesn't help me see these two as ever being friends, let alone girlfriends. I understand the reasoning of "they both have self-worth issues so they'd understand each other", and that's a perfectly good reason to ship people, but like. I kind of want more? I kind of want them to be able to connect on a level that goes beyond them having similar issues? And probably the folks who do ship Franmaya do have reasons that go beyond that, like maybe Maya teaches Franziska how to lighten up and not take herself so seriously, and Franziska shows Maya that she doesn't always have to be the easiest version of herself to be loved. And that's all lovely! But I... don't want them to fix each other--

See, the versions of Franmaya I've seen floating around either boil them down to a wlw version of nrmts OR they make them out to be this saccharine, perfect, happy lesbian couple who are so, so wonderful and sweet to each other. Which is. Great! I love seeing women happy! But -- I'm sorry -- it's so BORING to me. It always seems to fix them a little (even if it's just around each other), and I like their flaws. I like that Franziska's a bit of an uppity, violent snob, and I like that Maya is a bit of a naive, insecure girl. I don't want them to fix each other, but I've tried twisting them the other way round, too! I've tried giving them the Krisnix treatment where they just amplify each other's worst traits, because they share similar insecurities and would know where to prod to make it hurt, but! I find that even less appealing and workable, tbh. Maya at her worst might let someone walk all over her for momentary wisps of affection disguised as acceptance of her flaws? But she has good and smart friends! Nick would never let her be in a toxic relationship like that, and he'd stay with her until she realises it's bad for her! And Franziska, regardless of how she may feel about being in Edgeworth's shadow, would never let anyone else even suggest that to her. The moment she gets a hint of that kind of disrespect, she is gone. She doesn't need you, make no mistake of that.

And it all really comes back to the fact that I can't see them connecting as friends. With Emaziska, I could see how they could be genuinely good friends and then more, but with Franmaya it's just... Not there for me. I can't see them progressing beyond the "oh, that's my little-older brother's friend's sister" stage the way you might be "friends" with your parents' friend's kids, you know? Like, yeah, you guess you're friends with them, but it's nothing serious or real. That's how I view their relationship. I'm not averse to being persuaded to ship them (in fact, I'd like to have them explained to me; they have cute art!) but I have tried and ehhh?? Doesnt do much for me, sorry, Franmaya 😔